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“I walk the Din'anshiral. There is only death on this journey.”

Since we're getting closer and closer 'The Veilguard' release, I figured this should definitely be my first reposted piece. It was my contribution to the SolamancyZine back in 2022 ♥

[maythedreadwolftakeyou]

I never really liked how my Solavellan prose-poem Like Teeth Against His Heart looked when formatted on tumblr, and since the @solamancyzine zine itself is no longer available for sale digitally or physically, I thought it'd be nice to upload how it appeared on the pages itself instead here as a record. When I was writing it part of the fun/challenge was making sure the lines would fit in booklet spacing without too many awkward gaps, or overflowing.

since there's too much to put in the alt text per image here for accessibility: here's the prior tumblr upload (as text not images) but it's slightly better on AO3 though... it still sucks to view on phone there. that is the danger of poetry with special alignment I guess!

The layout design & other zine in-line art was done by Patricia Vi/kiwipon :)

[queenaeducan-writes]

Remembering Well

Pairing: Solas & Varric, Discussion of Solas & Wisdom, Varric & Hawke Characters: Solas/Fen’Harel, Varric Tethras Fandom: Dragon Age: Inquisition Rating: General Warning: Hawke left in the Fade Summary: Victory at Adamant came with a cost, and Solas does not want Varric to spend his first night in a world without Hawke in it without a friend. This is my contribution to the @solamancyzine​, you can also read it here on AO3!

The dwarf hasn’t said a word all day.

In the distance, the dust kicked skyward by the eastward march of the Inquisition’s army settles as a cloud, darkening the sunset to a deep, burnt orange. They left Adamant in rubble and ruin, what remains lies as testament to the Warden’s failure, and a grave to friend and foe alike. Hawke’s absence leaves a pall over their company as they set up camp. A few short nights ago it was alive with story, although accounts differed depending upon who was doing the telling, Varric’s always verging upon the fanciful. Larger than life, but Solas thought Hawke suited such stories well.

Now sullen silence marks their evening ritual, with Varric skirting the Inquisitor’s gaze whenever they so much as threaten to cross. As soon as Varric’s tent is pitched he dismisses himself with a curt, “I’ll keep first watch. Bound to be something still lurking out here.”

There’s no arguing the matter. He simply walks off, seating himself as far from the orange ring of their campfire as he dares. A pregnant silence settles in his wake. Solas tries to appear busy with his bedroll, unrolling it across the sand with attention beyond what’s required. Over him, Iron Bull watches with a sympathetic eye. 

“Poor guy,” he grunts when Varric is out of earshot, “Can’t be easy.”

Solas glances towards him. “Losing a friend rarely is.”

“Yeah, but Varric’s no soldier. He’s just some rich little shit who got caught up with some hero. I don’t think he signed on for any of this.”

“I suppose not.” He smooths the corner of his bedding, brows coming together in thought. “Put like that, I’m uncertain as to whether you expect us to envy or pity him.”

“Both, I guess. Must be nice having one friend to mourn.” Solas can only nod in agreement. The concept feels alien to him, whose losses seem to pile together, one after another after another. They call to him like echoes in an empty room, a cacophony that shakes dust from the rafters to fall silent to the floor. Still, one name speaks louder than the other ghosts in his head. One grief haunts the space between his thoughts. One voice rings in his head as he looks after Varric. The dwarf’s silhouette is deceptively slight against the vast wastes, broad shoulders drawn together, emotion held in-check between them.

“Someone ought to speak with him,” Solas says, rising to his full height, “before our silence on the matter becomes misconstrued as callous disregard.”

“Hey, nice of you to volunteer, Solas.” He checks his shoulder, using only an ounce of his strength, but it sends Solas stumbling forward nevertheless. The look of reproachful surprise is knocked off his face, but the expression that follows is no more amused. 

“Go on, don’t be like that,” Iron Bull urges. “It’s not like you can make it worse.”

Spoken by a man who clearly has no concept of Solas’ history for worsening bad situations. 

Another glance Varric’s way cements his decision, however. 

“Very well,” he concedes, pushing himself up off his knees and dashing the sand from the insides of his fingers. In the wake of Wisdom’s loss there had been no shortage of sympathy. Though Varric’s voice had not been among that chorus, he deserves no less support.

The time it takes to reach Varric is shorter than he would like, too brief to think of any meaningful words of comfort. He suspects no distance would suffice, but before he has the chance to try the dwarf’s voice cuts in first:

“If you’re here to express your condolences, I don’t want to hear them.” There’s a bitter twang to his voice, a venom he typically reserves for the Seeker at her most disagreeable. “I had my fill of ‘sorry’s’ when Bartrand died,” he snorts, “mostly from people who’d’ve been glad to poke a dagger in him just to make sure it stuck.”

“Hawke seemed to have no shortage of enemies herself.”

“More than she ever knew what to do with. Difference was that most were for the right reasons.” Whatever humour had crept into his expression vanishes in an instant, voice trailing away as he realises what tense he’d referred to her in. “Shit…” He peels the glove off his right hand to pinch the tears that prick his eyes.

Solas feels a twinge of sympathy in his gut, but manages to withhold himself from saying the platitudes that Varric holds in such low regard. “If you don’t wish to hear my condolences, then I will refrain,” he says, “but I have mourned enough friends alone to know it is better done with company.”

Varric’s silence is damning, and in the absence of the Veil the difference between grief and anger is razor thin. He holds a moment, rooted in the sand, and in the silence he hears his mouth click open. “These friends you’ve lost, were any of them real?” The way Varric poses the question sounds like an accusation.

“You mean to ask if they were spirits?” he asks, restrained. “Some. Not all.”

“Right.” The skepticism in Varric’s voice is palpable. “Something tells me Hawke’s not going to regenerate, or whatever it is spirits do.”

“And neither will Wisdom. Should anything or anyone be reborn from its ashes, it will only be because the mark it left upon the world was too potent to be forgotten. I suspect, in some regard, the same could be said of Hawke.” Finally he sits, settling beside Varric with legs drawn beneath him in a meditative pose. “Are there any tales you’ve left to tell? It may help to share them now.”

“No, I’m— I think I’ve told enough stories. Maybe if I’d told a few less, she’d still be here.” The thought haunts his expression, hand drawing over his mouth to disguise the grief tucked in its corners. “Tell me one about your friend. If she— it— if you choose friends like I do, there must be some worth telling.”

The suggestion peaks his brow, surprise tempered by the fond smile Wisdom’s memories invoke. “Enough to keep you here ‘til dawn.”

“Well, I’m listening.” He leans his chin into his hand, fingers like a cage guarding the shape of his mouth.

The gaze he casts the dwarf’s way is laden with skepticism, expecting any moment for the offer to be withdrawn. When it isn’t, he looks down into his lap and asks himself which warranted telling first, how to dilute centuries of life into a single story. Remembering, and remembering well, is a sacred act, as deliberate as the lines of paint upon the rotunda walls. He begins, haltingly, at first, before the words begin to flow:

“It is easy to hear the word ‘wisdom’ and picture scholars locked in rooms with more books than they could ever hope to read, but in truth it had little interest in the wisdom of those who did not see fit to share it. Such excess was better suited for spirits of Greed or Envy. I first met it in the wilderness, teaching itself how the grass grows from the first seeds of spring, but it greeted me as an old friend and told me it had known me before I, it. It was only when I came with an open mind and a willing ear that we could know each other at last.”

He was never a god in its eyes, always Solas, always himself. It recognised him when he could not. Remembering Wisdom aches, like pressure on an injured leg, and he pulls a slow breath through his nose before he continues.

“It preferred watching to intervention, often saying wisdom was two-thirds observation, but circumstance forced its hand on more than one occasion.” Its words still echo in the skulls of the freed, rattling as the blood was peeled from their faces. “In dreams it came upon an apostate trying to eke out a life in a humble Ferelden village, the sort of place where rumours took like fire to an August field.” 

“It saw her fears: prying questions of how she stoked the fires so quickly, or why her mother never taught her how to darn her socks. With a steady hand it reached out and taught her, so that the next time the barman looked too closely when she tended to the fireplace he would see only trembling hands striking at a flint. It filled her head with affirmations that she knew more today than she had ever known in her life, that it was more than she would ever know in the Circle, where knowledge could be kept behind lock and key.”

Varric moves his hand from his mouth, the corner of his eyes clearer than they’d been moments ago. “Put like that, it sounds like it was always as much Pride as it was Wisdom.”

Solas spares the dwarf the grim expression that steals onto his face, turning instead to the sky, where tendrils from the Breach snake across the heavens. “It is no coincidence that it was Pride we found waiting for us that day. Wisdom was the captive, and Pride the rebel, willing to tear itself apart fighting for the freedom it was owed.”

Struck speechless, the typically mouthy dwarf sucks in a breath. “I’m sorry for your loss.”

To his surprise, and Varric’s, he laughs. “I thought we had agreed to skip platitudes.”

“Yeah, well, sometimes there’s not much else to say. You have to find something to fill that silence, even if it’s just empty words.”

“Just because we have heard them before does not mean they are empty.” He thinks of every ‘I love you’ he has uttered in his life, and every time it went unsaid. “I am sorry for your loss, as well, but if you will permit me a second story, I believe I have another to tell.”

When Varric agrees, he does not hesitate to begin again.

“In the Fade I bore witness to an elf, a mage, fleeing Chantry forces. With Templars hot on his trail and the walls of Amaranthine too high to scale without notice, he had little recourse but to find refuge in a farmer’s wagon and hope to pass for the first autumn harvest. The light of his phylactery glowed like a star in his pursuer’s hand; it was only a matter of time ‘til he would be found— had a woman not stopped them.” 

“Her voice high with fear, she pointed to the outer walls, claiming she’d seen a man cavorting with spirits in an alleyway. Cursing their trinket, the knights hurried in the direction of her finger, chainmail clattering with every stride. As the commotion cleared, the woman’s lips turned up in a devilish grin, a cheerful tune on her lips as she went on with her day as though nothing had happened. The apostate was on the next ship north, safely nestled amongst the harvest. He kept the woman in his prayers, even if he never learned her name.”

Beside him, Varric’s shoulders shook with grief, sobs soft enough that they do not overpower the story’s end. “Hawke was a hero long before anyone, even you, thought to tell her story. Mourn her, share your grief as you shared your lives, but know her tale does not end at Adamant just as Andraste’s did not end in Minrathous. Take pride in the moments she chose to share with you; they will bring you comfort in the days to come, even if remembering moves you to tears.”

“Thanks, Solas.” He swipes his sleeve under his nose, and Solas pretends he does not see the gleam of tears in his eyes as they meet. “Say, have I ever told you about the time we broke into Château Haine?”

“I don’t believe so,” he muses, “but if it begins to sound familiar, I will remind you that any tale worth telling is worth telling twice.”

[crown-laurel]

Finally posting the story I wrote for the @solamancyzine! Hope you all enjoy!

[faietiya]

Look this is a preview of my egg drawing which will be in @solamancyzine 😃

[sugawara-kkoushi]

Little teaser for my contribution to the Solamancy Zine! I can’t wait for you all to see what we’ve been making - there’s some incredible talent in the lineup!

Be sure to follow @solamancyzine for updates. Pre-orders begin later in November!

[queenaeducan]

I wanted to share a second excerpt from my contribution to the @solamancyzine​in honour of it being Dragon Age Day. The works featured in the zine are phenomenal, and it’s been amazing seeing them all pull together to make something that I think will be so special.

Preorders are available from now until December 20th, and proceeds go to the Indian Residential Schools Survivor Society. There are bonus options and pdf-only options, and pages and pages of content for any Solas lover.

Happy Dragon Age Day! @unofficialdragonageday

[rosella-writes]

My Contribution to the Solamancy Zine 💚

I’m really excited to share some of what I’ve been working on with some really incredible, talented people for the upcoming @solamancyzine. Here is a snippet of my short story, The Bloodiest Hands.

Felassan turned his attention to one of the wisps, which floated in a blue and green haze near his right ear. He raised his hand, and the spirit laced through his fingers like exhaled tobacco smoke.

“How you manage to befriend them so well,” Felassan sighed, “I will never understand. Since stepping from the Fade I’ve found it harder and harder to make my will known to them.”

Solas approached his side and gestured for him to walk alongside him. The two men picked their way through the underbrush, their dark leathers and hoods disguising them in the early morning gloom of the forest.

“I believe,” Solas said softly, “that your first mistake is attempting to make yourself known at all. When you were wholly a spirit, did you appreciate being approached by the bodied people of the world, expected to be a certain way?”

[sinsbymanka]

@solamancyzine preorders are open now until December 20th! If you haven't checked it out you can take a look here!

I have a piece in it that's all about Solas pining for Inquisitor Cadash because I have a brand to maintain. Take a look!

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Good news! A few hours until i can show you full version  ╰(*´︶*)╯♡

We wanted to make a formal announcement about shipping since we've got some questions! As you may have seen us say, all labels were printed at once and one of our volunteers has been packing and taking them to the post office when they can.

This process has gone slower than we would have liked due to some circumstances beyond our control, but we are working on it. Most of the zines are still not in the mail, but we anticipate being able to have ALL Zines shipped before May 31st.

The organizers would like to express our apologies at the delay in shipping. We are aware that our customers have valid concerns about when they will receive their zines. We are sorry for causing any anxiety and hope to resolve this soon.

We look forward to getting these to you and thank you all so much for your patience!

[maythedreadwolftakeyou]

Here’s a sneak peak at part of my entry for @solamancyzine! 

[queenaeducan-writes]

I wanted to share a brief WIP for my entry in the @solamancyzine, hope you enjoy the sneak peek!

Varric moves his hand from his mouth, the corner of his eyes clearer than they’d been moments ago. “Put that way it sounds like it was always as much Pride as it was Wisdom.”

Solas spares the dwarf the grim expression that steals into his face, turning instead to the sky, where tendrils from the Breach snake across the heavens. “It is no coincidence that it was Pride we found waiting for us that day. Wisdom was the captive, and Pride the rebel, willing to tear itself apart fighting for the freedom it was owed.”

[chevalierlogan]

—The Fall of Arlathan, as told by Gisharel, Keeper of the Ralaferin clan of the Dalish elves.

For a first post back on tumblr I figured I could share my two pages for 

@solamancyzine

 ! Thank you again for this beautiful project.

[nyx-artwork]

my piece for @solamancyzine 🐺 💕

working with this team of incredibly skilled people was such a blessing

[sugawara-kkoushi]

“For a moment, the sunlight illuminated something within - a sliver of what the spirit might have been. Not the opposite of Regret. A different flavor, or shade. Contemplation. Introspection. It felt the echo of the actions that had summoned it. There might have been a better choice, said a thought it had never been allowed.”

- Dragon Age Tevinter Nights, Callback

I’m so pleased to be able to share this comic that I contributed to @solamancyzine! 

This was inspired by the chapter Callback from the Tevinter Nights book. What might have happened had Solas met the spirit that he had accidentally created in all his immense regret? 

[ekalita-blr]

Heeeey! Today is the day when i can share my piece for @solamancyzine Here some ancient Solas vibes!