#so you gotta step back to pure awareness and learn about/peel back a whole nother layer of ego and self judgment
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and here i thought my spiritual work was complete lmao (spiritual info dump in the tags)
#the more i go inwards the more i realize everyone ive talked to and read from etc was right#it literally is a lifelong journey#and just when you think you got a good spiritual practice going#you realize it was just the ego the whole time#so you gotta step back to pure awareness and learn about/peel back a whole nother layer of ego and self judgment#im also learning that the whole idea of quick fixes (in a spiritual sense aka buying crystals and wanting the pain to go away)#is just as much of a lie of the ego as like. smoking drinking self harm etc#constantly bringing my attention back to the present moment is so difficult! and yet so worth it#being as awareness is hard since we’re all kinda born into this life with amnesia#why am i posting this on my tumblr? to be honest i have no idea im just doing what feels right as always#anyways. hard work but worth it#had a breakthru yesterday! after focusing and refocusing my attention everytime it wandered for like half an hour#i was able to get a dialogue going with my ego#which is basically just asking questions and accepting what Is completely#figured out i’ve been basing my self worth on other peoples actions and reactions towards me for like#a really long time#meditation bro#also the joke in the actual post part is that i (or my ego) was arrogant enuff to think that i was Spiritually Special and that bc i was#feelin sooo good i must be almost done with my inner work! pffffffffffff Pleaseeee Not Even#then i went thru a dark night of the soul for two or three days earlier this week when i realized that my spiritual work (while incredibly#valuable) was ultimately currently useless bc i was just using each new piece of wisdom to validate my ego#etc etc etc#also a dark night of the soul is when you wanna like. kill urself all of a sudden even if youve been really healthy for a long time! and you#begin to doubt your faith and yourself and your life choices etc etc#Basically It Sucked Ass#then when i realized that the suffering i was feeling was my ego refusing to dissolve#things slowly started getting better#ive been reading a lot for the past couple days on ego death and surviving that process as well as committing to it#its sooo painful at first that its tempting to just go back to the Safe Place (ego) where things r easy and u understand them#this is all totally new and unknown to me which is in and of itself new to me
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