#so you can't even retreat back into nostalgia for comfort

[dykephan]

there was probably a library of alexandria scale deleting of old photos after the **** vid was leaked and the thought of that makes me sick… imagine files of 2009 photos getting deleted because they were worried that those could be leaked somewhere too

somehow i have never considered this as a possibility but you're so right :( i would hope that, being as sentimental as he is, phil would have saved them externally somewhere.. but i also know how it feels to be so embarrassed and heartbroken that you can't stand to look at your own memories anymore and you want to get rid of every single thing that could be used against you. it's only when you look back on it in hindsight that you realize fear took so much away from you :(

[trippygalaxy]

Hello! Mind if I submit a request? Your Warriors one turned out so well!

As far as gift-giving for each of the chain goes, what kinds of things do you think they'd like to receive?

(Also--and you can totally say no to this--could I write shorts based off of yours answers? I'm genuinely curious as to what you'd think, and I've hit writers block currently for the requests I have in my own inbox 😓)

You're doing great, by the way!!

Courage and Gifts

OMG YES! Love this idea and you can totally write something based off this!!!

(Edit: HOLY SHIT! This took longer than expected! I struggled so much with Four and Legend so I'm sorry if those ones are out of character!)

Requests: Open!

Time

Joke Gifts!

Time has a secret appreciation for gag gifts but will NEVER admit it out loud unless he wants the boys to constantly give him walking canes or the medieval equivalent to Werther's Originals. But nevertheless, he does appreciate the gift/joke when he's out of sight.

Oh, please give him a pun book. His eye(s) will light up when he realizes what it is, but be prepared cause he isn't gonna shut up any time soon.

Ocarina

A new ocarina and new memories. He won't admit it but he chest does get tight at the sight of it, but his heart flutters in the same beat. He's gentle as he takes it into his hands, admiring the wooden instrument in it's construction. Now, he is more used to the 12 holed ocarina but isn't against learning how to use other kinds of ocarinas, magical or not.

Warriors

Bouquet of Flowers

Such a soft and beautiful gift will warm his heart! Being so used to the harsh memories of wars and death, the sight of the beautiful bouquet makes him stutter for a moment. It takes a second for him to register that this is for him. The delicate petals, the vibrant colours, they contrast the bloodied swords and shields. It's....nice.

Earrings

Warriors strikes me as someone who has a collection of earrings. Now, seeing as he is a Captain he can't carry such things around with him. It not because he's embarrassed or ashamed (quite the opposite actually), it's simply a safety hazard and would take up more room than necessary. So he keeps such things in his quarters back home, which means he has had the same simply earrings in for months.

So, its easy to say he got excited when he opened the small box he was handed and saw what was inside. He'll put them in immediately and practically prance around camp!

Twilight

Handmade Blankets

Twilight grew up in a small village, so gifts like this aren't unfamiliar! Most of his blankets back home were gifts to him, so being given a similar gift fills him with nostalgia! He melts even more if he was given the thick woven blanket because the gifter was concerned he gets cold. (Tbh he's probably a living furnace but it's still nice!)

Bandana

At first he's very confused at the gift but still appreciated it! It was a lovely green that went well with his armor and tunics. And as he tied it around his neck, it fit perfectly! It wasn't too tight or loose and it didn't bother his neck. As much as Twilight enjoys the gift he can't help but be confused...and a little suspicious.

He continued to fiddle with the bandana even when you made a hasty retreat. Suddenly, he fingertips ran across something that stuck off from the fabric. Twilight gives a light tug and pulls off the bandana to get a closer look only to find a tag. At a closer look he notices the brand on the tag.

It was a fucking dog brand bandana.

Sky

New Wood Carving Tools

A new set of carving tools would mean a lot to him! I'd like to think that he has two sets that he owns, a very well made set that is back at Skyloft and one decent set that he carries on him at all time. The ones on him have seen almost as much as he has, and have been chipped beyond repair. BUT to be gifted with brand new tools that beat any tools he had at home is truly baffling!

Plushie

Something soft, tiny and comfortable to sleep with?! SIGN HIM UP! The soft fabric, the cute aesthetic and thoughtfulness! He loves it and couldn't be more happy, and if you sewn it yourself? DOUBLE LOVE!! He doesn't care what the others have to say, he is holding that plushie to his chest every damn night! Bonus points if it is a loftwing and bonus bonus points if its red!

Wild

Recipe Book

A BOOK FILLED WITH NEW AND INTERESTING RECIPES?! How could he refuse such a brilliant gift! Now, as much as Wild loves cooking and experimenting with all sorts of food, he also loves learning about the culture surrounding these dishes! It is served with other specific dishes? Is it associated with certain events? How common is it? Or is it considered a cuisine! Bonus points if these foods are from your background! He has many questions.

Masks

Wild certainly has a large collection of masks, so large that it almost rivals the old man's! Almost. But he is always happy to add to his odd collection, especially if its more monster masks! He'll be more than happy to sit down and listen to you as you explain the origin of this mask! The more scary the better!

Legend

A Unique Item (Handmade items/gifts. I.e. art work, clothes, jewelry etc)

What do you get the man who -quite literally- has everything? Something one of a kind! Something that was made out of love and struggle (and maybe tears but who am I to say). Whether it's simply or complex gift he'll love it all the same. The fact you thought to make something from scratch just for him warms his heart. Even if he won't admit it!

Sea Shells

He's very very confused at first. He didn't mean to sound rude as he asked why you give him a sack of shells, but he was quick to regret his tone as you shrink back. But the reason you gave nearly brought him to tears.

You quietly said you've been collecting them for him, collecting them from everywhere the group has been. But as he continued to press, you admitted you wanted to gift him something to that when he left -when everyone left- he'd know that this was real. That everyone was real. And that he had friends from across time and space.

Four

Customized Hammer

Not only would Four love a new forging/blacksmithing hammer but on that customized for him?! He would be so giddy! Now, you may be asking, how is it a customized hammer? What makes it special?

The sides of the hammer are engraved with images! And these images look like a familiar small mouse creature~ They are subtle in their design and from an outsiders view, it'll look like some sort of logo!

Jeweled Bracelet

Something small but strong, either brought or made. Inlaid in the bracelet are four gems that sit side by side. Four gems of vibrant colours, each one representing each part of him. The inside of the bracelet -the part that rests again his skin- holds his initials. The metal is a harsh contrast to his warming skin, he really likes it.

Hyrule

New Flowers/Herbs

A hobby of Hyrule's is pressing flowers and herbs in his journal, which is filled with information about everything single plant found in it (based on this headcanon). Being given something to add to his collection brings him so much joy and excitement! Oh, how he can't wait to find out what interesting properties these plants might have! Bonus points if you gifted specific flowers to him cause they reminded you of him! Bit of a warning, he might get extremely flustered!

Compass

For a traveler, he tends to get lost quite a bit huh? He will be quite grateful for a compass to help whenever he steps off the trail! Though at first he is quite embarrassed and tries to say that, while he appreciates the gift he doesn't need a compass that bad! Hyrule accepts the gift after getting a stern look from some members *ahem* Time *ahem* of the group.

Wind

A Ship in a Bottle

A thoughtful gift that reminds him of home. When presented with the gift he has to contain the squeal of joy! (He fails but don't tell anyone) He turns the bottle over in his hands, trying to see every detail of the ship trapped inside. Bonus points if the ship itself resembles Tetra's boat. (A few tears might fall but that's a secret between you and him)

A Beaded Bracelet

It doesn't matter if it's hand made or store bought, he loves it with his whole heart! Whether the beads are crafted by the most talented craftsmen or by a simple tool, he admires every detail and every nick in the wood (intentional or not!). He can't help but smile as he slips it onto his wrist, it reminds him of the matching bracelets his little sister used to make for both of them.

[volturissideslut]

The guards with a human mate who wants them to turn them instead of Aro.

𝖁𝖔𝖑𝖙𝖚𝖗𝖎 𝖌𝖚𝖆𝖗𝖉

Gonna be honest I wrote the names out about a month ago but couldn't think of anything to put so it out late late, brief mention of sex in Demetris

Alec

panic, panic, panic

listen babes he's not that good with self control when it comes to people juice so please let someone else do it

in all seriousness though, he become terrified of his every move around humans and especially you as his mind swarms with every possibly and every outcome of the multitude of things that could go wrong if he is the one to turn you

he becomes quite anxious for the remainder of your human life- something he greatly regrets as he didn't really get to spend time with you before you changed for, well, forever and he didn't really get to greive nor cherish you in you last weeks and perhaps even months

in the end he will turn you if that is what you wish and will immediately regret being so fearful of it because it was truly a wasted opportunity to retreat back to himself instead of taking you on human dates

Jane

Jane knows the bounds of her self control and knows that she could successfully turn you herself and be perfectly contented with herself after with minimal stuggle

self control is what she prides herself on and so it doesn't really take much convincing- if any at all

while occasionally her mind does wonder to the dreaded 'what ifs' like her brother she always manages to remind herself of her capability and bring herself back to square one

at first she'll seem like nothing has changed but as the date yiu have set to be turned creeps closer and closer take notice in the minor changer in her attitudes toward you

of course she is relieved and happy and excited you want to turn and spent eternity with her in the first place but she can't help the slight resentment and early onset nostalgia inching toward her mind and heart and will want to make the most for now

this may manifest itself as an extra date here and there or maybe just some nice gestures like buying you flowers or that book you've really wanted, but it is minimal as she tends to be quite closed off while you're human

just keep an eye on her, yeah?

Demetri

Turning a lover as an extremely intimate asct that goes past the bounds you have already explored in your relationship.

He would be hesitant for a while, pleasing you consider aro just because you truly mean the world to him and while he is confident (perhaps even arrogant) in himself that all seems to vanish when it comes to you

eventually he comes to terms with it and actually wants to be the one to turn you instead of aro

I mean, once he actually thinks about it, surely sex with a human takes more self control than turning one? And it's not like in the previous times you two have slept together that yiu have been hurt in any way shape or form - he would simply die on the spot if you had and trust me this man can be more dramatic then emo eddy when he wants to be

Once he does turn you nothing really changes, your still the same person he fell in love with, just more durable

the act of turning you itself will be extremely intimate with him. I am a firm believer that he is a hopeless romantic at heart and it will basically be a date day where you spend the whole day doing things the both of you enjoy and in the end you'll both just be holding each other in bed when he bites you. He'll hold you impossibly closer and whisper sweet praises into your ear until you wake

Felix

Felix is an avid believer that you are the best thing to have ever graced this earth and practically worships the ground you walk on. Anything you wany you need only say the word and its yours

this extends to Felix being the one to turn you and although he may be a little resistant at first, once you explain to him why you want it he's more than happy to comply

if it be simply that you feel more comfortable with him doing it or you want it to be more infimate then great, no problem!

if its because you think that after all this time he may still want a taste of your blood, even a miniscule droplet then he will protest

he's glad you want it to be him and place that much trust in him but he just wants it to be for the right reasons

[myuni-moon]

shrine of misfotune

prologue. long forgotten

—synopsis: you move back into your hometown after years of being away. as you settle back into the comfort of your nostalgia, the shadows at the corner of your eyes start to shift.

—warnings: yandere content, mentions of the feeling of being stalked, amnesia

[som masterlist]

your childhood memories are but a blur to you now after so many years; you can barely remember anything from before the age of twelve, and by that time, your family had moved to a faraway place, leaving you with nothing but the few memories of your past in the place you once lived. even so, you can still fondly recall the cicadas ever so present during the summers of your youth. your town was only a small one with a small population to match, a small community that thrived off the bounties of nature and the blessings of the god that protected it. speaking of, you can still picture its towering gates and the buzz of the festival during the summers.

it's all that goes on through your head as you sweep down the yard of your new, quaint little home, mind in the clouds and filled with nothing but the gentle laughter of your younger self. if you dove a little deeper, perhaps you could still taste the sweet tingle of candied apples on your tongue and hear the pop of fireworks in the distance.

the sun beats down on your form in the mid-afternoon, and you click your tongue when you spot the weeds growing at the side of your hydrangeas. clad in an apron, straw hat, and gloves, you bend down and start to pick away at the pests that litter your front garden. gripping them as close to the base as possible, you resolve to pull the roots out of each one as best as you can. you hum to yourself a song you heard on the radio in the car when you moved into your hometown the week prior. before you even know it, you're sidetracked by the purple flowers you've always had a soft spot for.

violet hydrangeas have always fascinated you. as you stared into its deep-colored petals, a feeling of home settled itself deep within your veins, but something else loomed underneath it— a feeling locked too deeply in the space of your heart that you can't tell what it should be. the more you look, the more you try to cling onto it. slowly and slowly, it reaches out to you. your hands itch to observe it closer—

"— dear, is everything alright?"

you swivel your head, and you’re greeted with the beaming face of your neighbor, ms. furuta. she had taken care of you when you were younger. if memory served you right, you used to run to her house every morning after lunch just to listen to her stories. her aged face flashes you a look of concern, “you spaced out. it’s not good to be so lost in your thoughts; it makes you lose focus. you never know what might pop up.” you laugh nervously at her words before piping up.

“is there something you need? if it’s something i can help out with, i’ll be glad to.”

“there is one thing i do need help with if you’re free,” she sighs, bowing her head in defeat. “kouichi, kotomi, and the other kids went up to the mountain to play. there have been some wild animal activity recently, and i fear that they might encounter something dangerous. my old age doesn’t allow me to do anything too strenuous anymore.”

ms. furuta tilts her head, pleading eyes asking you to listen to her request. “i was wondering if you could call them back for me. they shouldn’t be too far in; you can find them outside the entrance of the cave that the shrine priests blocked off. just keep going straight down the trail, and you’ll find them.” she clicks her tongue, wrinkles sagging as slight annoyance radiates off of her. “no matter how many times i tell them not to venture near, they never heed my warnings.”

you sigh, hoisting yourself up. “sure, i’ll be back with them before you know it.” you flash her a grin, and she kindly returns it. ms. furuta bids you farewell afterward before retreating back to her own abode. with that, you leave your precious hydrangeas and brace the trek up a mountain. it shouldn’t be too bad, you think as you prepare yourself.

as for ms. furuta, she heaves another sigh as she leaves her slippers by the genkan. she wasn’t too keen on bringing you up there, considering the complications it could’ve posed to you, but that was a separate matter entirely. that monster that ravaged their town had already been sealed; its strength should not be enough for anything drastic to happen— at least, she hoped it would be.

you heave, taking yet another step on the trail forward. your lungs begin to feel the burn of fatigue, sweat beginning to form by your brow. you don’t recall the trail you’re on ever being one you’ve taken before and you struggle navigating towards where ms. furuta had asked you to go.

it’d been roughly fifteen minutes since you started at the base, and the only signs that you had to show that you were going the right way were the imprint of shoes on the ground. four pairs of footprints imbed themselves into the soil as you trail down the worn path that leads you up further to the mountain. you look towards the horizon behind you, noting how far away the sun was from disappearing for the day. heat escaped your body, leaving it tingling.

“about a few hours until sundown, shouldn’t be a problem.” you whisper to yourself, “it should be right around here.” as soon as you tell yourself that, you spot four short silhouettes standing in front of a cave entrance. immediately, you run towards them even when the aching in your feet leaves you sputtering in your steps in the middle of approaching them. if you weren’t so careful, you would’ve tripped midway.

you struggle to catch your breath as you stop just a meter short from where they were stationed. “y-you four—” you huff, hunching over with your hands on your knees— “ms. furuta told me to come get you.” you force out a small cough before getting yourself to calm down completely. when you face up from the ground, your nose grazes kouichi’s blue shirt; the young boy thrusts his tumbler of water in your hands as soon as you straighten yourself out.

kotomi pats your back, “are you okay?” you proceed to reassure her that you’re fine, just a bit tired since you were a bit unprepared to trek for so long. your feet felt a dull ache, and you could taste the slight burn in your lungs; other than that, you were alright.

once you’ve fully recovered with a few gulps of water, you finally take in your surroundings. behind you is the trail you went through the trouble of journeying to get to your location. a slightly dense forest surrounds you. the cave you found the four kids at stands before you, its entrance is blocked off by a seal. a shimenawa restricts you from entering, a tension settling on your chest when you try to get close. the heavy rope sways, unnerving you the longer it does.

a breeze billows from within the abyss as you stare into the darkness of the opening. you find yourself spacing out. the shide are blown back by the wind; something calls out to you from within the yawning mouth of the dark cavity. you can hear it ringing in your ears, whispering; however, whatever it’s saying is unknown to you— nothing more than gibberish going into one ear and out the other. if you squint, you can faintly see something glow in the darkness; you feel your heart squeeze in fear. your head feels lighter the longer you stay in that position.

from outside your little bubble, the children tug at your clothing, yet it doesn’t snap you out of your fogged state. you just stare, waiting, searching if something from beyond is staring back at you in that moment. perhaps if you gaze long enough, you would find the flicker of lightning inside. it flashes like white-hot iron as its searing warmth claws its way up to your legs. fear keeps your feet glued in your position as tides of anxiety flood around you, slowly inching higher and higher until you’re chest-deep within the waters; breathing becomes difficult the further you try finding it. it wants to tear you apart, a little voice in your head says.

there’s something familiar about whatever’s in there, but before you can even dwell on the thought, the pain of looking past becomes unbearable. there’s a mist in your head preventing you from looking into your mind’s eye. you don’t want to see what’s behind it.

in the end, you’re forced to tear your eyes away, and you find the four children you came for huddled close to you as if they’d felt the aggressiveness emanating from the murky void. a shaky hand comes to soothe them, patting their heads as you calm them down. the little girl tugs on your clothes, gripping the fabric so tightly that you fear it might tear.

“can we go home now?” her shaky voice asks you. the others all nod in agreement, trembling as they all start to pull on you for comfort. you agree and turn your back towards the mouth of the cave, wanting just as much to leave. taking two by the hand and others following suit, you all rush back home as carefully as you can. each twist and turn down the path doesn’t sway you, not when something seemingly stares back at you out of your field of vision.

as the cave behind you becomes nothing more than a distant dot in the horizon and the unnerving occurrence is drowned out by the chirping cicadas, you turn your head back one more time. the sinking feeling in your chest remains. you want to brush it off, but something tells you to check your locks that night before heading to bed— to check the corner of your eye at all times as a blurred figure crawls back into the shadows from whence it came.

from deep within the earth, an enigma rests on the damp stone of the humid cavern. water drips from the numerous stalactites, dripping down into the crystal clear lake below. a young man’s figure lays asleep, unperturbed and undisturbed.

a gentle shake vibrates through the grotto, but the slumbering creature remains asleep. his pale skin glows against the shadowy atmosphere, delicate features being highlighted by the gentle beam of moonlight casting from an opening. a sleeping beauty makes himself known in the dead of night.

heat starts spreading from each corner of the damp area, the lake bubbling as steam clouds the cavern. violent tremors disturb the peace; it feels as if magma was ready to bubble through the cracks in the rocks. the outside world, however, remains blind to the events unfurling just under the earth’s crust. it was something hectic— devastating if left to its devices.

the damage is short-lived, however. everything returns to its peaceful calm still life, serene as if nothing had ever happened— yet there’s a buzz in the air. the faint sting of electricity sparks within the walls of the cavern. it’s a flicker of a flame that struggles to keep living. it’s barely enough to be lightning, barely something to fear.

on the other hand, it was enough as a catalyst for a thunderstorm to start brewing in your beloved town hundreds of meters away

in the cover of darkness, the creature opens its eyes.

[love-toxin]

All I want is to be invited to one big sleepover with all ur ocs. That's all I want. Ill never scream for ur attention again I promise. Pls

the highlights:

Harley ignores everyone.

Tsung sneaks up beside you after you fall asleep. If he can't get close enough, he takes a picture of you sleeping instead.

Yuri isn't there because ew, he's not sleeping on the floor.

Seiko gets anxious and hides in the bathroom until everyone leaves.

Umi insists on snuggling up with their little brother for nostalgia purposes, and also to try and convince you to sleep between them. Kaito doesn't mind either way. 

Ingrid brandishes a pair of scissors at anyone who comes near, except for you. Gets pouty if you don't sleep with her. 

Ebbi takes sleeping photos of everyone he can for blackmail. Everyone thinks he's weird for not taking off his shoes to sleep. 

Lilith crushes up sleeping pills in the drink she tries to give you, so you'll fall asleep on her chest. Elias drinks it "by accident" and collapses on top of her for the rest of the night. 

Suki gets fur on everyone's pillows and bites Ebbi when he calls him a stupid mutt. Ebbi pretends that he doesn't find it kind of hot. 

Adrian has to prop up a pillow under him so he doesn't get a sore back in the morning. Possibly the only safe person to sleep next to, except for the fact that Seóirse nuzzles up to his side when he's trying to get comfortable, and squishes you in his sleep if you're anywhere near him. 

Morgan has no fucking clue what's going on. Chihiro told him they were going out to get pizza, but it was really so they could get closer to you. 

Isabelle watches you through the window in the dark, since nobody wanted to let the creepy chick with a knife come in. 

Nina clears a four foot space around her away from everyone else, and will only allow you and Ingrid to come closer than that. If anyone tries, they get maced with a can of hairspray she keeps in her purse. 

Jiyu eats too much sugar, crashes, and falls asleep before she can hatch her plan to get you to sleep with her. She probably gets her wallet stolen. 

Tsubasa is following Chihiro around, trying to figure out whether he's their son or they're siblings, among other hypotheses. Chihiro gets Morgan to trip over him so they can beat a hasty retreat from the strange little robot. 

Angel falls asleep cuddled up on your chest, whether you sleep next to someone else or not. She just appears there any time you move, and clings to you so you can't even think of pushing her off.

Hyun-Jin doesn't sleep, and stays up playing on his phone so he can keep an eye on you while you're unconscious. If you sleep in his lap, he'll give the evil eye to everyone else until they feel the temperature in the room drop to freezing. 

Makoi comes for the free food, and leaves if you refuse to go home with him. He'll just sit on the front step, light up a cigarette, and pout the whole night if you do though.

[nyxxhexx]

🎉 2021 Channeled Musical Messages for the Signs 🎉

Read for your Sun, Moon, Rising, and Venus 🌌

Overall Theme of 2021

Colors pt. II by Halsey

This is the follow-up to a year of heartache, heart break, disappointment, disillusionment, forgetfulness, and forgoing all that was meant to be ours. Now, we begin this new year on a hopeful note - we step into all that was meant to be and believe that it belongs to us. The colors begin to shift from monochrome to radiant, and light falls upon even the darkest of nights.

You are going to be okay.

Aries

We Are Sex Bob-Omb by Sex Bob-Omb

This year is irreverent. Declare who you are proudly and loudly, and don't let anyone forget it. Say what you need to say as it comes; don't let a single moment pass you by. Live for immediacy. Jump on chances when they come. You never know when you'll get another opportunity - last year proved that more than anything. You're ready for all that is coming, so be prepared to jump into the unknown. Find others who are willing to jump with you (or, at the very least, who are willing to wait for you at the bottom!) You will not walk through this year alone, even if you will it. Trust in the process, and accept that you are loved.

Taurus

Thnks fr th Mmrs by Fall Out Boy

It's time to let go of them. You know who. They aren't following you into this year, and holding on to them as more than they really are will only prove to be harmful. You have so much potential for love - stop pretending like you don't have feelings. Embrace newness; embrace change; embrace difference. Once you look back with clear eyes, you'll realize the memories are tinged with nostalgia and unrealistic expectations. Stop comparing others and view everyone with new eyes - they are each their own person, and not treating them as such will only lead to more heartbreak and disappointment. It's time to make the change, so make it. Jealousy will get you nowhere.

Gemini

Teddy Picker by Arctic Monkeys

It's not all it's cracked up to be. You have dreams and plans for this year, but you need to reevaluate what you think you want. Temper your expectations accordingly. The impossible can happen, and this year will be better - this isn't a message of discouragement, but a message of realistic expectations. Things don't just happen; they don't just change because the calendar shifts. You will get all you want, but you must actively put in the effort for it to ensure it's yours. Make sure you really want all you're pursuing. Don't waste your time on anything that's not worth your time and effort; throw yourself into everything else whole-heartedly. Just make sure it's not a distraction from something else. You deserve straightforward paths and clear conversation; never settle for any less. Make sure those around you know that, and this year will change for the better for certain. You already know the first step, so proceed boldly and with confidence in yourself.

Cancer

Forgiven, Not Forgotten by the Corrs

Do you really want to sit there and watch your days pass you by? You've been crying over this for so long; last year drew a lot of tears, but it's time for them to stop. You're still holding on; now it's time to let go. You need to tie up some of these loose ends before you can move into 2021. It's okay - the year's start can wait for you, but it won't wait long. Get up and start making moves towards forgiving yourself and forgetting others. You cannot accept all that this new year has for you until you make room by releasing the old one. You've been promised color and vibrancy - the blues and greys will fade over time, blossoming into reds, pinks, yellows, and brighter blues. You're ready to move on; all that's stopping you is yourself. Nobody is worth holding onto this way - especially no man. Let him go and accept the change for good. You're ready to move on once and for all. But just because you forget doesn't mean they will; if those old memories pop back up in your life, hold your ground and push them back out. You deserve better, so open yourself to it to receive it at last.

Leo

Goodbye Graceful by Falling In Reverse

You're leaving behind something good. Maybe that's okay, and maybe it isn't. If you really need to move on, move on gracefully and without malice. Burning this bridge isn't going to help you at all; you might need to cross it again in the future. Take all that you've learned in 2020 and apply it to the new year - if you forget all that happened, what was it all for? Yes, it was terrible, but there is something to be learned even from the worst events. Sometimes you just need to know that, no matter what happened, you survived. You lived through it all, and you will be okay again. Take time for yourself, but don't cut everyone off. You are loved by so many, so find the balance between the need for isolation and the need to surround yourself with others. Trust those who prove they can be trusted, and bow out gracefully from those who can't. Have faith that everything will work out - this year is a year for believing in the impossible, so believe. Trust in the bell curve; things are gradually going to get better until you finally find what you're looking for.

Virgo

I'm Legit by Nicki Minaj and Ciara

This year is about shaking up your routine. Step out of your comfort zone and embrace your inner Leo. You're the best of the best, you know that, now flaunt it. Brag on yourself like you're writing a resume. You deserve top shelf everything, so splurge. Treat yourself to what you want, even if it doesn't seem practical. Above all else, remember that you don't have to change yourself to do any of this. You don't need to change your appearance, your lifestyle, or your friend group - you just need to change your mindset. These two ideals might not seem to be compatible at first, but over time you'll realize how they fit together to better your life and make 2021 all it's meant to be.

Libra

My Propeller by Arctic Monkeys

The situation is urgent now, but don't rush it. You've been building towards something for the entirety of 2020, but it hasn't quite come to pass yet. Carry on towards it - the new year doesn't automatically shift things. You're very close to achieving that goal; the planets are synergizing, everything's falling into place. Make those last few moves. Say what you need to say, do what you need to do, and don't let time keep passing without setting things in stone. The time for waiting is over - the situation can't get started on its own. You have to set it into motion now, then keep the momentum going until you cross that finish line. Don't give up now; keep pushing for what you want and it'll come to you. Just be sure you do so with great purpose of movement and very, very carefully. Rushing things will only make them fall apart, but moving slowly and with purpose will make all the difference. Luck is on your side here; put it all into practice with faith, and you'll achieve your goals. The waiting between now and then is just a necessary evil, but it'll build your strength and stamina for the event itself. In the end, you'll be happy you didn't rush things, and everything will work out.

Scorpio

Perhaps Vampires Is A Bit Strong But... by Arctic Monkeys

In 2020, you let far too many people suck the life, love, and energy out of you. That will not go on any longer. You know what you deserve now, so stop denying yourself everything you know you're owed. There will be no more thinking about all you could have or should have done; there will be only doing. Cut off the people who drain you once and for all. Instead, surround yourself with people who give and take in equal measure. Don't retreat too far into yourself, though - your instinct may be to run completely and hide behind your walls, but those instincts are wrong. You've got to find a way to walk the line and achieve balance. If you don't, you'll fall too far to either side, and getting back to the middle will be difficult, but not impossible. Maintain your balancing act and ask for help, no matter sure you are you can do it all on your own. There are those in your life who are ready and willing. Just say the word and they'll be there.

Sagittarius

All I Need by Matchbox Twenty

You already know what you need this year. What are you waiting for? What's stopping you? If it isn't monumental, then it's already yours; if it is, then believe in the impossible. What you have right now isn't a permanent solution to filling the hole in your chest. You've been searching and searching for fulfillment. Now, it's time to claim it. Reach out and take that missing piece - and then start helping those around you find theirs. The dream isn't over for any of you, so don't give up, and don't let them give up either. It can be hard to trust our own instincts, so trust the messages meant for you. Trust the synchronicities and confirmations. This is just the first of many, so keep an eye out; you're already being guided in the right direction.

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Taeyang (bigbang) scenario when his little sister have a car accident really serious but he can't see her 'cause he is on Tour? My english is a Sh*t sorry, my first language is spanish lol

pairing(?): taeyang x little!sister!reader

warning(s): mentions of blood && injuries, contains angst 

words: 1300+

a/n; don’t worry about your english, hun !! It’s fine ~ mine is not the best since i am not a native speaker, either ! anyways, i tweaked the request a little bit to make the scenario longer, hope you enjoy the angst !! ♥

      The street was blurry, your eyes distorting the image of the beautiful scenery that was Seoul’s street by night. It wasn’t your intention, no, you were trying your hardest to keep the tears from spilling like cascades running down your reddened cheeks. But no avail, they kept coming. Your whole body shook from the sobs that were flowing through you like electricity, every breath hurting as your throat has become quite sore. 

      You didn’t know how to handle such a situation, at least, you were never really alone while something like that happened. Being fired…It was simply not fair! How should you pay the rent? It was impossible. Your parents always told you to be serious about your income and accountings and you followed their advice. Nonetheless, neither you nor your parents would have expected that the company you worked for, would suddenly go bankrupt and additional to that, in such a short amount of time. 

Lending money? It was not even an option for you to consider. You held to much pride for that. It was more favourable to sleep in your car than to ask your parents or brother for any kind of financial support. Thinking of your brother, you glanced back at the phone which was tightly grasped in your left hand, it still being on the steering wheel while you did so. Even though you knew that he was on tour, you still had a little bit of hope left that there was a second of his time that he could spare for you. 

You wouldn’t hold a grudge against him, knowing how intoxicated he could get when only the tune of a song started playing. Further to that, Taeyang loved his job and the fans he could make happy by simply doing what he loved. However, that didn’t mean that he ignored you because of that. The both of you were always fond of each other; Being the little sister, he would always protect you from any kind of threat. Nonetheless, you had much more confidence than he had, at least when it came to dating. So, once or twice, you would push him to ask the girl out he so deeply desired. 

With nostalgia in your eyes, you would avert your gaze from the street, glancing at the phone while it still rang, waiting for your brother to pick his up. Tears were still brimming your eyes, though, your lips were curved up to form a small but warm smile. It wouldn’t be this hard while he was still around. You both would overcome every obstacle together; you always did.

Suddenly, the loud honking of a car, making you shot up, eyes wide with panic as you stared into the bright headlights which were blinding you. The muscles in your arms tightened as you quickly pulled the steering wheel to the side, wanting to avoid the crash that had awaited you if you weren’t to change directions. However, you hadn’t paid attention to your surroundings, making a tree the next hurdle that blocked your path.

With the screeching of your car’s brakes and your voice combined, the night was awakened by the symphony of a girl hurting. Shielding you from the incoming impact, you had your arms crossed in front of your face while your eyes squeezed shut. In your mind, you pleaded for forgiveness, not knowing which sins you had to commit to follow such a dreadful fate. 

Sweat ran down his glistening visage as a small towel was handed to him, wiping the salty liquid off of his face. He quickly bowed towards the female whom he handed the fabric back, still walking towards the rooms which were located in the backstage area. He could still hear the intoxicating chants that were a mixture of shouting and crying, all coming from his fans. A smile would play along with his lips, feeling a hand creep up his shoulder before it rested there for a good second.

“You did well today.” “You,too, Jiyong.” The other shot him the same warm smile, his breath still heavy and resounding within the small space. The yellow haired male would then retreat from his position, quietly laying down where the couch was. As soon as he reached his own spot, he rested on the comfortable chair while his feet were on the small table before him.

Dark eyes would quickly get hold of the notifications that were indicating that you tried to reach him almost a dozen times. Youngbae would raise an eyebrow at that realisation; You knew that BigBang was on tour. Hell, back when he was still in Seoul, you begged him to let you come with him, though, your work hours didn’t allow it. Immediately, the smile was washed away from his countenance, leaving only a concerned frown behind. 

While pressing the device to his ear, his brows were knitted in frustration as he couldn’t fathom what had brought you to phone him so many times. Though, there was something he already could imagine: It was bad news. The ringing stopped and was replaced by a familiar voice;

“Hello, this is Dong (Y/N). Sorry that I couldn’t come to the phone, I either did not want to talk, or I’m just pre occupied. I will return your call when it is convenient for me. BEEEP~”

Your little antics would bring a small smile to his face,even so, it was only of short duration before the same frown could manifest upon his features again. The male which was was prone to dozing off, raised his head as he heard a curse coming from his friend’s directions. “What’s the matter, Youngbae?”

“It’s (Y/N).” He would let out a sigh while leaning back in his chair. “Something’s up.” Jiyong could sense the concern in the other’s face, making him scowl. “Did you try calling your parents ? If something’s up then they would definitely know about it.” He said while trying to sound as convincing and calming towards his friends, wanting to put him at ease with that. A smile crept up Youngbae’s lips as he found new hope in the words that his friend had just uttered. 

With a nod, he resumed to his phone, scrolling through his contacts. However, before he had the chance to call them, the notification of his mom already phoning him popped up. Discomfort spread through his body as he picked the call up, raising the device to his ear. With a timid voice, that also surprised him, he would speak up;

                                     “H-Hey, what’s wrong ?” 

Sniffles and crying could be heard from the other side of the phone, making the grasp, that he had on his phone, tighter. His mom was upset and he had a bad feeling upon the follow of events.

                                           “I-It’s….(Y/N)”

He gulped the saliva down that was trapped within his mouth, the sensation somewhat hurting his dried out throat. “What happened, mom ? Is she okay?” The singer’s voice now sounded hoarse and full of panic, making his friend, which conviently stayed beside him, only more worried. 

“N-No…She got into a car crash. I-It’s bad! My little girl…Th-The doctors said that she might not make it, Youngbae. I-I don’t kno-”

Her words fell on deaf ears as the male’s eyes got blurry, feeling the hot liquid pour down his visage in small amounts, mixing with the sweat which had already cooled off. Youngbae’s arms would fall to his side, the strength he once had in his muscles, gone. Jiyong would only look at him, having heard the conversation, his facial features were also imprinted with worry. 

                                       “I’m so sorry, Young-”

The addressed would only let out a scream of frustration, standing up in the process while his face was turned upwards. It was his fault. Yes, he blamed himself. Maybe if he picked up your calls, you wouldn’t have ended up getting hurt ? Maybe if he took you with him when you asked, you would be still safe and sound ? But no, he was on tour while his little sister was in the hospital, not even near him. He couldn’t even visit you.

Now, everything was lain into fate’s hands but would the odds be in your favor this time ? Nobody knew. Not you. Not your parents. Not your brother.