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Do you think that Killua is (if he were) still in love with gon? Or after everything that happened he gave up?

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Huh…. That’s kinda hard to argument, but i’d say yes? Definitly yes? 

why would he give up….?

Things happened, things went wrong, but Gon apologized and Killua accepted the excuses. At the moment they’re taking a time out, but they’re still talking, they send each others emails, Killua just spends time with his sister while avoiding Illumi.

I understand that what happened in the Chimera Ants arc have hurt them. But Killua still said  “It will end in a lover suicide” while talking about him and Gon during the Chimera ant arc and after Gon snapped at him. 

Killua loves Gon dearly. He’s probably aware of his feelings by now, but to me he. really, really love Gon dearly. To the point of self destruction though. He showed it in the York New Arc when he was ready to sacrifice himself to Nobunaga to have Gon escape. He showed it in the Greed Island arc when he refused to talk about his hurt hands to help Gon, he showed it in the Chimera Ant arc when he almost died and thought he failed Gon, and when he faced Rammut and did everything to help Gon because Gon is his dearest friend.

I personally think that he let his life turn around Gon to a kind of extreme in the end that he may have realized. After all, Gon was the first friend he ever had, the first thing out of his abusive family, and especially the first one to to everything to get him out of this abusive environment. Killua didn’t have anything worth holding on to before Gon, so he gave his everything for him, his goal was Gon’s goal, he would make himself of use anytime.  He devoted himself to Gon a lot. 

Now the thing is that, Gon pushing him away, telling him for once it wasn’t his business, refusing to ask for Killua’s help while it’s all he ever wanted, it was a violent punch for Killua.

After Gon almost died, that’s why Killua only talk about how he wanted Gon to ask for his help. He wanted it to be his business, and in a whole, this is what hurt him. Not that Gon was mean to him, and more ever, Killua is aware of Gon’s state of mind, but imo he’s hurt he was kept out of it and Gon ended up hurting himself this much.

But again…. Gon apologized, multiple times, and Killua accepted those excuses. Killua was sad of having them parting. 

But in the end well. Their plans was to stick together until Killua found a goal. And right as Gon was about to reach his goal of meeting Ging, Killua found another goal.

I think Killua also has a lot of guilt of leaving Alluka in their abusive household and forgetting about her. He wants to make it right with her, and Illumi is still going after them. Alluka really has no one else than him, and the road awaiting them will be likely dangerous because of Illumi, which is something Gon can’t help with currently. [dc arc spoilers: since he lost his nen]. And Gon needs to mentally recover from everything that happened too. They need a time out, both of them. 

They spent nearly 2 years always together, letting each other be everything to the other. 

The fact they parted isn’t a bad thing. They still talk. There are still a lot of unsaid because of how they are both mentally still hurt by all that happened, but there is no hard feelings.

Love doesn’t leave that easily. 

They need to talk more, they need to come to term with what happened, but as awful as was the CA arc for them, I don’t see why Killua would stop loving Gon. If it is because Gon hurt him, I feel like it’s underestimating how much Killua understood the situation and understood that Gon was suffering. His breakdown was mostly because Gon was going in a dangerous, suicidal path, and Killua had no idea how to help, especially since Gon pushed him away, which is probably the first time it actually happen.

That’s why I don’t think? Killua would fall out of love because of that? 

They’ll see each other back when they’ll be better. Alluka even joke saying “i’ll give you back Killua when i would have played enough with him”. Alluka and Killua just want to catch back some of their lost time, but Killua and Gon still have a deep affection for each other.

So ye; If we read Killua’s feelings as romantic, which i personally do, I can’t believe he would fall out of love and give up because of that. The affection they have is still there. I don’t think it will fade off with a time out. 

They’ll find each other back when they’ll both be in better mental place.

Give them time. They’re 14yo. They still have a lot to come to term with with themselves. They’ll be okay.

Take care nonny! ❤