#so they literally just have me blocked bc they aren't on MY blocked list

[paleode-ology]

pretty sure no one has ever blocked me before over my fandom opinions and I probably shouldn't be delighted that that's started happening but it's like just enough drama to fuel me for a bit

[janovavalen]

I NEED PT2 TO RECKLESS.. MAYBE WHEN THEYRE AT THE GOLD CHAIR THING??

an: GTFO OF HEREEEEEEE THESE R AMAZING WTHHHH IM LITERALLY UP AT 12:54 GOING THROUGH IT SO BAD RN THIBKIJG IF I SHOUOD GO TO BED OR DO THIS RNNNNN OMG OMG OMG YES?

✧NOT LEAVING WITHOUT YOU. || percy jackson x fem!reader

summary: in which the group make their way to their new destination only to run across a bit of a bump in the road.

word count: 7,939 (what the actual…)

warnings: awkwardness between percy and y/n, near death experience, the gods literally shipping y/n and percy lowkey bc why not, slight argument. (a little twist in the story<3)

as the group walked and walked on the endless road somehow thinking they’d get somewhere with this pace. y/n walked in the middle of percy and annabeth.

percy would momentarily look at y/n who didn’t meet his gaze. lot to lie to himself but that probably stung almost as bad as the stinger from the chimera.

deciding to talk along the quiet atmosphere around the group, percy began—‘i’ve been thinking.’ as he started, his words gained all their attention.

‘i didn’t steal the master bolt— you guys didn’t steal the master bolt. we’re pretty sure hades has the master bolt, but he couldn’t have stolen it himself. i mean—we don’t even know who actually stole the thing…or why…or, how deep this thing goes’

as they walked and listened to percy speak who talked his thoughts he looked between the group and let his gaze set upon y/n who turned to look at him the second he turned away.

after seeing grover and annabeth not talk or back him up he came to the conclusion—‘i’m the last person to realize this aren't i?’

‘yup—‘ y/n spoke while still not making contact with percy who turned almost immediately to her direction to see she hadn’t been looking at him which he didn’t want to admit but it kinda hurt in a way.

‘yeah’ annabeth spoke while grover nodded to percy who almost rolled his eyes at how he’s just now catching up.

‘okay, so…maybe when we started my head wasn’t fully in this…but since the river…’ looking at y/n who sucked in a breath and turned her head, she turned to the horizon as percy kept talking—‘it all feels different somehow.’ he boldly claimed.

smiling to himself as he thought of two things—mostly one over the other but maiming the second, he spoke once more—‘he saved me. my dad. i guess i just never really thought that’s something he’d do for me. so maybe i gotta take things more seriously now—‘

as he spoke and the group listened, grover couldn’t help but hear something approaching. y/n seeing his head turn to the road behind them she turned as well to see a small dot in the distance.

‘car.’ grover told them. the sound of the engine becoming more prominent as it got closer.

‘that can’t be a car you hear how loud that thing is?’ y/n squinted her eyes trying to see.

‘that’s not a car, it’s a bike. just let it pass.’ annabeth told them, seeing that they had people looking for them on a most wanted, y/n lightly tapped percy’s arm—‘come on’ she spoke as he turned and followed but not without looking behind him.

the group hurrying to hide behind a concrete block on the side of the road to hide; they all sat down into the grassy dirt. their legs outstretched in front of them. annabeth sitting on the side next to grover as percy sat on his other and y/n sitting next to percy.

‘i’m saying, we’re not just trying to retrieve a thing. o think we might need to be detectives here, too.’ percy looked at the group as they listened to him once more to his continued talk.

‘yeah.’ y/n agreed silently as she fixed her legs in front of her along with her pants that had still felt a bit wet. percy looked at her as she looked down at her legs and he felt a slight twinge in his stomach that felt horrible.

reading her face he noticed she was back to her quiet, and awkward self with him—did she somehow hate him again? he just saved her life doesn’t he at least have his name on a talk to list?

‘why are you being weird with me again? i thought we were doing that anymore.’ he asked out loud. grover and annabeth turned their heads to the two to see y/n look up for a second and only squint her eyes and turn her head back down, letting out a sigh as she began—

‘i’m not being weird?’ she frowned her eyebrows as he nodded a bit.

‘yes you are. you’ve been weird since we left the arch.’ he told. as he said this she felt herself get awkward again and blinked her eyes while turning around.

annabeth could almost laugh at this, grover however had never seen her like this before.

‘oh…i get it.’ he boldly claimed while blinking in understanding. did he possibly? y/n turned to him with frowned eyebrows once more.

‘it doesn’t have to be a thing; you know. that we had to—‘

‘stop! it isn’t that, we don’t talk about that—‘

‘i mean, we’re like friends now, best friends. that seems like a best friend thing to do, at least i think they do?’ percy tried so hard to get y/n to speak to him as she closed her eyes and shook her head slowly.

grover fired his best not to crack a smile or even laugh to earn a hit from anyone so he bit his lip and shook his head—annabeth could practically feel y/n begging for help so she spoke.

‘i saw the fates. back at the arch, i saw the three fates and i saw atropos cut a piece of thread.’ she told them. y/n could almost celebrate when her mind was fed something to distract her.

‘and that’s bad or…?’ percy cluelessly asked them.

‘the fates weave the life of every living thing. when you see a string cut—‘

‘it means one of us is going to die.’ y/n said while looking over at percy.

percy however didn’t catch the hint yet so he claimed—‘we’re all gonna die eventually.’

‘soon. it’s a warning’ y/n told him as annabeth nodded her head.

‘an omen’ annabeth added.

as percy looked at y/b for a bit longer they heard the engine of the motorcycle approaching them from behind.

‘okay guys, we need to talk about this whole fate thing. three old ladies with a ball of yarn can’t know what's gonna happen. what i choose to do changed what’s gonna happen, and i can choose to do anything i….want’ as they listened to the fact the engine didn’t pass them y/n frowned her eyebrows along with annabeth.

‘need some help?’ a man asked.

as the group turned to the brick in front of them as if they could see who spoke they turned to each other before raising to their knees to peer over the brick that stood in their way.

as they poked their heads over the group, they seen a man biker with a long leather jacket that draped over the backside of his black and silver bike. he wore a black helmet and had a large beard on his face.

‘beg pardon?’ grover politely asked.

‘i asked if you could use some help.’ he repeated.

grover looked over at y/n who had wide eyes as she slowly shook her head, which percy noticed and smiled too.

‘nope. no we’re—we’re good. appreciate you asking, though. so long.’ he furnished as the group slowly turned back around to hide once more as y/n gave a awkward tight lipped smile.

the man sighed as he looked ahead of him before saying—‘you don’t seem too good.’

y/n decided to turn and talk this time—‘we don’t need help and we don’t really need anything from you’ she claimed while lowering back down behind the brick and next to percy.

‘you sure? because you guys are so behind schedule’ he scoffed.

as the group heard him say this they immediately rose from the ground to reveal their full bodies and confused faces.

‘i mean, summer solstice is just a few days away. and as much as i’d love to see a good war pop off, as your big cousin, i feel like, maybe, i wanna give you a hand.’ percy frowned as y/n and annabeth knew right away. grover as well but he decided to play a bit cool.

‘cousin?’ he confusing asked as y/n turned to him—‘he’s aries—‘

‘you two girls must be athena’s kids. always gotta be the wisest one in the bunch.’ ares squinted his eyes as he leaned forward on his bike a bit.

‘why would you help us?’ annabeth asked.

‘how do you even know about what we’re doing here?’ y/n asked as well.

‘because i’m doing exactly the same thing as you. zeus sent all of his kids looking out for the master bolt, too. listen dummies, im hungry. there’s a halfway decent dinner up the road. if you want my held you’ll meet me there. but done dawdle. won’t wait forever.’ he finished before placing his sunglasses on.

before he even fully left he gave a look to them before driving away.

‘that’s my cousin? what kind of family is this?’ percy kind of in awe asked.

‘he didn’t want to offer a ride…?’ y/n squinted as she looked off into the distance.

annabeth sighed before tapping grover, ‘come on’ she told them as they began to walk into where he went off to.

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after a bit of their walking they finally arrived at a pretty quiet dinner of which they saw the bike of aries.

walking into the restaurant with the sound of the doorbell and a few distant talking from the people inside, percy made sure that the door stayed open for y/n who gave a small nod and smile which he was quick to return.

looking around as they looked for them they were all met with the sound of loud laughing and a table slap. turning to see ares himself laughing at his phone as he had two plates, a mountain of fries and five big cheeseburgers in a stack.

‘guess this is the right place’ percy told the three as y/n walked forward along with grover, annabeth and percy who was close to y/n.

aries let his outburst of laughter die down as the group walked behind him which he acknowledged and looked at them—‘gimme a second, i’m just starting a fight on twitter here.’ he told them. annabeth slid into the booth first then y/n who was followed by percy and grover.

‘nothing makes me happier than a good old-fashioned, burn-it-down fight. ah…okay, done’ he clicked his last words before looking at the them.

‘so your quest is going to fail. ask me how i know’ he grinned at them as y/n rolled her eyes in annoyance then only to reach forward for a fry which ares seemed to not really care about, percy noticed this and suppressed a smile.

‘it isn’t gonna fail—‘

‘sure it is.’ ares cut of percy with a scoff—‘for starters…’ pulling out his phone once more to show a video of percy’s step dad.

‘percy was always troubled, but i never thought he was capable of something like this.’

‘wh—who’s that?’ grover asked percy who stayed focused on the phone, his face frozen in shock—‘my stepdad, what’s he doing?’

‘and in addition to the destruction at the gateway arch…’ a news reporter added before ares scoffed with a smile—‘wait for it’

‘you believe he may also have had something to do with your wife’s disappearance?’

‘a kid that messed up? what wouldn’t he do?’

‘what?’ percy frowned as y/n looked at him in a bit of pity before back at the phone.

‘wild right? the FBI is already spreading your picture around.’ ares added as they still listened to the phone.

‘it’s a camaro. i really—we really loved that car…so much…cut!’ his stepdad cried like a baby over camera as they stopped the recording.

‘i’m gonna kill him’ percy angrily promised as he shook his head.

‘i knew i was gonna like you’ ares nodded his head with a smile.

‘but safe to say, the chances of you three idiots hitchhiking the rest of the way to L.A. without getting arrested are slim to none.’ he told them.

y/n tiredly scoffed a bit while trying to somehow lean further back into the seat.

‘why are you sitting here then? if you had this to say you could’ve said it back at that brick before you rode off into the sun.’ y/n asked and mumbled with a roll of her eyes. annabeth pinched her a bit, leaving her to aggressively push her arm into annabeth.

percy sighed softly and looked at y/n, noticing how tired she was and made his way a bit closer to her without her knowing it. he hoped she’d at least try and lean on him for a bit of comfort compared to this wooden chair.

‘if your supposed to be looking for the master bolt too, shouldn’t you be out there looking for it?’ annabeth picked up for y/n as she frowned her eyebrows.

‘hmm there’s no fear in the two of you, is there?’ he asked the girls who started him down in the eyes with nothing but pure confidence.

‘doesn't matter. whether the bolt’s retrieved or not, zeus is going to war with poseidon.’ he told the four as they all looked at percy who looked at them before back at ares.

‘no. the oracle said if we return the bolt, there wouldn’t be a war.’ percy told ares.

‘is that what she said? or is that what chiron said she meant?’ as ares finished his sentence he noticed percy’s hesitation who looked around the room before back at ares.

‘yeah. your new to the family, young one, so let me fill you in on how we work. see, years before i was born, my grandpa kronos ate my aunt and uncle’s. yeah. then my dad made him puke them back up, then chopped him into a million pieces and chucked ‘em into a bottomless pit, so that kinda set the tone right outta the gate.’ the bunch taking this in as they looked at each other letting ares continue.

‘olympians fight. we betray. we backstab. we will push anyone down a flight of stairs to get ahead. and that’s why i love my family so much’ he smiled as percy sighed and leaned back a little.

‘my dad knows he’s not getting this bolt hack with quests or goose chases. he knows there’s a war coming. and in reality i think he’s okay with that. i think he feels it’s just time for a way; so we’re gonna have a war.’ as he finished his sentence y/n cringed her whole face as he placed a balled fist on his lips and inhaled.

‘isn’t that great?’ he asked then as if they would even agree. well, maybe y/n, she made bets with people on who would win in a war if there ever was one any time soon and she betted on loads of books.

‘we’re completing this quest. we’re stopping this war. you said you can help. can you?’ percy asked ares with his hard face expression.

‘okay, so here it is. there’s an amusement park up the road. i left my shield there. you get me my shield back, and i’ll get you to the underworld by lunch tomorrow with a plan to invade hades’s palace’ he explained to them.

‘you left your shield? like…you forgot it on the merry-go-round?’ y/n squinted her eyes at him once more as annabeth sighed in annoyance at her sisters words.

ares leaned forward and under the light the hung above to get closer to y/n who leaned forward as well.

‘okay. the chirping was funny to me for a minute, but it is getting old.’ ares warned her as she squinted her eyes and tilted her head a bit.

‘y/n…’ percy whispered trying to get her attention but she still looked towards ares.

‘so do we have a deal, or am i killing all three of you so i can eat in peace?’ he angrily shouted a bit at the bunch as percy became a bit nervous and looked around to see y/n biting the inside of her cheek.

‘okay.’ percy accepted leaving ares to smile and lean back—‘great. one catch. i really do need that shield back, so i'm gonna keep the satyr and wise girl here as collateral so you can’t run off—‘

‘what? no your not keeping them that’s not—‘ y/n shouted as she frowned only to be cut off by annabeth and grieve who spoke at the same time with—

‘okay.’

‘no way’ percy said while y/n turned to annabeth and shook her head immediately.

‘we don’t split up again—‘

‘it’s okay.’ grover reassured as annabeth nodded.

‘if he wanted to kill us, we’d be dead by now.’ grover told them as ares grinned at grover who asked—‘can we just walk them to the door?’

ares sighed and allowed it letting a wave of his hand go in front of them giving them the signal to walk.

‘okay look, don’t engage with him—don’t speak too much and don’t try to make friends, he’ll want to get your riled up, get in your head and you can let him.’ y/n tired to stress as grover shook his head.

‘it’s okay. really. i know what im doing. go. get the shield. we’ll be here when you two get back.’ grover told them.

‘there’s nothing to worry about y/n. besides, this will be quick knowing you’ annabeth added as y/n sighed and nodded a bit.

as the two of percy and y/n hesitated to leave the two they slowly turned around to the door before leaving grover and annabeth with the god of war.

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as the night sky had fell over everyone and the town, percy and y/n walked to the dimly lit amusement park with the sign that said ‘Welcome to Waterland’

‘i haven’t seen a lot of horror movies but this seems like exactly the kind of place they’d suggest to avoid.’ percy commented as the two stopped and stood in front of the entrance.

‘well…i never seen any kind of movie, is it good?’ she asked while looking over to him as he shrugged.

‘okay then, i’d have to take your word for it—‘

‘wait never? what do you mean never like, never-never?’ he asked almost completely shocked at the fact she’d never seen a movie before.

‘is there another kind?’ she responded as he lightly nodded his head.

‘well, if neither of us is dead in a few days, we really ought to fix that. your missing out.’ he told her almost as a promise as she lightly nodded her head in agreement.

‘in the meantime, we should probably get this over with, though.’ as he walked in front of her she slowly followed a bit far behind.

as percy walked through the metal moving doors right when y/n realized what he just did—‘wait, percy stop.’ she told him as they listened to the sound of ticking above percy.

‘what just happened?’ he asked frantically.

‘just hold still—don’t move at all okay?’ she instructed with her hands out to keep him where he was.

‘let me think…’ she replied. the sound of the metal moving against one another above percy clicking.

‘in the mechanism there, that’s Celestial bronze—‘

‘oh, fascinating. y/n, what’s happening right now?’ percy interrupted not too much interested in the subject of bronze.

‘Celestial bronze is what your sword is made of. if your human, it’ll pass right through you. if your a monster or a demigod…’ she trailed off as percy used the rest of his imagination for the rest of her sentence.

nodding slowly he breathed a bit more heavily—‘well what’s it doing there?’ he asked her while looking up, focused on the bronze.

‘i’m wondering the same thing. safe to say this place isn’t some fun amusement park for everyone. a god built this.’ she finally came to the conclusion.

‘what kind of god builds amusement parks?’ percy asked.

y/n looking around and scratching her brain for a answer she finally answered—‘Hephaestus.’

‘why would Hephaestus build an amusement park?’

‘maybe he finds them amusing?’ she answered with her hands lifted a bit.

‘that’s really not funny, y/n.’

‘it could be a little funny, i’ll say the joke again later and you’ll laugh.’

sighing as he rolled his eyes a bit to focus on the situation in hand y/n still looking at the tucking bronze she mumbled—‘oh…oh, look at that.’ she felt mesmerized by the bronze turning and clicking more—‘that’s kinda cool’ only for percy to get her back to reality—y/n!’

snapping back she closed her eyes and focused a bit more—‘just relax, i’m thinking okay?’.

as the two of them looked up at the clicking she finally sighed—‘i get this. just…push through it.’ she instructed.

hyperventilating, percy turned to her with a look of uncertainty—‘push?’

‘yes.’

turning to do so he stopped before actually going and turned to her—‘cause weren’t you the one this morning who was all, “the Fated says one is us is gonna die and we should take it really seriously?”

looking to the side as she recalled her words she rolled her eyes a bit and in a calming voice—‘percy?’

‘yeah?’

‘just push.’ she told him once more.

sighing with nervousness, he placed his hands on the metal bars and started to walk, pushing them on front of him. the gears of the machine clanging together he finally got thought and hurried his way on the other side before anything could happen.

looking up at the yellow boxed of 0’s one turned into the number 1.

‘what’s was that?’ percy asked with a sigh.

‘the machine isn’t designed to hurt us. it’s meant to scare us. it’s a test.’ she told him as she made her way through.

the one on the yellow boxed turning into a 2, representing the number of people who’d entered.

‘Hephaestus wanted to know any time one of us came poking around his playground. i guess now he knows.’ she commented as they took their last look at the machine and started to walk.

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back at the restaurant sat annabeth, grover and the god ares who laughed at his phone.

annabeth and grover gave each other side eyes before he sighed and nodded his head slowly.

‘we’ve met before.’ he told him.

‘been around a long time, little boy. i’ve bet a lot of people.’ ares told him as he still poked at his phone with one finger.

‘i’m 24’ grover told him.

scoffing he replied with—‘good for you.’

giving a tight lipped smile grover continued as annabeth sat back and listened—‘we met at the solstice. on Olympus.’

sighing with a small groan ares mumbled—‘protester.’

‘oh i wasn’t one of the protesters. i’m a fan.’ annabeth looking at him a bit before back at ares who’s finally looked up he replied.

‘i think you got me mixed up with someone else, kid.’ before looking back at his phone, grover shook his head with a small smile.

‘no i don’t’ he stated with a head shake.

sighing ares placed his phone on its face on the table and spoke—‘Satyrs eat tofu. Satyrs worship flowers. Satyrs sing songs about their feelings. Satyrs are no fans of mine.’ he told him with full confidence.

‘Satyrs are children of nature. nature is brutal. red in tooth and claw, right?’ he asked getting a bit more comfortable in his seating next to annabeth who nodded her head as ares looked up at him—‘maybe unpleasant. but that doesn’t make it untrue. you are the champion, all of that. i respect it.’ he told him.

ares squinting his eyes a bit began to speak—‘so what are you like, a casual World War || buff? you’ve seen Saving Private Ryan, have you?’

nodding a bit he looked to the side before looking back at him—‘i prefer the Turbot War. the Lobster War. the Three Hundred and Thirty-Five years’ war. your deep cuts’

‘huh…those are wars where hardly anyone died.’ he noted as grover nodded a bit.

‘i like your mellower stuff. there’s something cool about overwhelming force and a quick surrender.’ he tells him as ares begins to think.

‘no one talks about those anymore.’ he remembers.

‘they should.’ grover told him truthfully while looking him in the eyes, annabeth agreeing.

sighing ares sat a bit closer—‘so tell me where we met again?’ he asked as grover smiled a bit.

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back at the quiet amusement park, y/n and percy walked around as they looked at things trying to find where ares long lost shield was.

‘oh wow, look at that. tell me the god of craftsmen didn’t build this. have you ever seen anything like this?’ y/n asked as she was interested and amused at the rides around her.

‘if it belongs to the god of craftsmen, what was the god of war doing here? aren’t they enemies? then why’d he split without his shield?’ percy asked and wondered while y/n listened to his questions.

‘if i’m guessing…ares has always had a thing with—‘

‘aphrodite. she’s Hephaestus’s wife. oh your kidding, he met her here? in her husband’s park? that’s so wrong—‘

‘in so many ways’ y/n sided with him as she and him walked side by side.

‘they must’ve got caught and he had to leave in a hurry. one thing ares was telling the truth about…this family is a mess.’

as she finished—a song started to play, grabbing the two’s attention. as they looked over they see a pink sign that blinked the words ‘Thrisd Ride O’ Love’ with a small heart above it and a tunnel with pink.

y/n felt hers grow a bit sweaty along with percy who’d looked over at her, the sense of him looking catching her attention as her eyes stayed forward—‘don’t you even try to tell me not to be weird about this.’

‘i didn’t say anything’ he said while looking back at the pink tunnel.

‘yeah but i can feel you thinking it…this must be where ares and aphrodite got caught. the shield must be in there. we just…gotta go get it i guess.’ she said.

percy turning to her and when she turned to him he faced forward, sighing he said—‘sure. let’s go check out the scary ghost ride. why not?’ he said while walking forward.

‘it’s a tunnel of love. what’s so scary about that?’ she teased only for him to roll his eyes.

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after boarding the boat made for two, they sailed along the water in silence, the only noise being made was an occasional light flicker and the water moving together.

y/n letting her face stay forward to avoid any awkward eye contact, they both heard a sudden thud in the distance making percy turn to her as he adjusted his seating in worry.

suddenly the lights made a quicker more aggressive flicker only to hear the song—‘What Is Love’ played throughout the whole tunnel.

the lights dim and the tension gets very awkward.

‘are you kidding me right now?’ y/n commented as she looked around the tunnel brick walls.

‘feel like i’ve heard this before. i think from an orthodontist’s office maybe?’ he tried to remember.

just then a decorative multicolored light stuck down the tunnel, the pair following its glow. the colors now painted a purple that showed over the two. percy looking at y/n but before he could notice she looked at him back once he faced forward.

just then they focus on a back cartoon figure on the wall with a crown on and multiple legs, it moved along the wall to grow and show a small boy who was birthed from the figure.

‘wait. i know this.’ watching more of the cartoon on the wall he finally came to his conclusion—‘it’s hephaestus’s story.’

the two watching as the cartoon hephaestus hammers down onto something and tried to reach and give what he built to the other figure only for it to turn away—its signs of rejection. perturbing to y/n and he turned only for her to look at him then face forward.

‘rejected by hera. rejected by aphrodite…my mom told me these stories all the time. i remember this. she said…’ as he went a bit quiet y/n turned to him studying his face.

‘what?’ she asked.

‘she said this is what the gods are like to each other. this is the kind of family they are.’ he told her.

frowning her eyebrows y/n asked—‘why didn’t you wanna say that just now? she was trying to keep me away from you guys.’ with a bit of shock y/n let her eyebrows lift up while looking at him.

percy turned away and shook his head—‘maybe you were right. maybe she should have been preparing me better.’ he said.

‘maybe she was preparing you. so when you got to us, you’d be different than this.’ y/n told him as he looked at her for a bit longer he finally turned as the cartoon life story of hephaestus finished with him falling on the ground in failure, the light around them turned off.

suddenly a tunnel of green was in front of them and the duo was shot forward and down the waterfall—screaming in shock as they held onto the boat tighter. both of them being thrusted and moved around aggressively, percy looked over at y/n to see if she was okay and once he say that she was he turned forward, her doing the same.

the opening at the end showing more water—‘is it a bad time to say i barely know how to swim?’ y/n exclaimed while frowning, percy looked over to her shaking his head—‘it’s okay!’

as they reached a more settled but aggressive moving water they looked over to see a stage of a gold chair and a gold woman holding ares shield.

‘there it is. ares’s shield.’ as they looked forward to seeing the end of the tunnel as an empty boat was thrown off the ledge of lightning striking in the air they both looked at each other in worry.

‘jump!’ he said as she took a deep breath in and followed him.

panting as y/n struggled to stay afloat she sunk underwater unable to keep up with the pressure. percy swimming under with his hand outstretched with hers, he heard her yell his name in a muffled voice.

outstretching his hand towards her more a force of water threw itself at her then a bigger one once again only for the both of their worlds to go dark.

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waking up with a gasp as they panted for air, the two laid down on their stomachs next to each other on the floor. coughing a bit they both sat up and looked around to see they were face no longer in the water and on the surface of the chair and the woman statue.

‘did you just pull me out of there with that water power stuff?’ she asked while he looked around the floor in confusion.

‘no.’ he said.

‘did you just—‘

‘i don’t know. maybe? i’m figuring this out as i go.’

‘yeah well, u owe you twice…’ she said as the two of them sat to their knees, looking up at the golden statue and the chair in front of it.

‘how are we supposed to get that thing down?’ percy asked as they looked at the shield being held and the chair. y/n studying it she noted—‘these things are connected somehow. it’s a machine but how do you start the machine?’ she asked herself.

the town of them looking around for any clues as to where to begin.

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‘i hate kids. all of ‘em. i hate my own kids.’ he told the two as they listened and only could really nod.

‘um, maybe less than other kids, but still not fond of them.’ scoffing as he recalled some of their prayers to him—“look what i made”, “what are butterflies for?”, “my knee hurts.”—he finishes with a groan.

‘i love my job, but that night everyone's kids show up for the winter solstice and i have to sit through their “presentation.” that night is the worst night of the year, every year, by far.’

‘this one in particular, it seems. since one of those kids somehow walked off with the master bolt.’ scoffing ares shook his head a bit—‘says you. who knows who actually took it. plenty of people hate my dad enough to try.’

‘maybe, but not many people could pull it off.’ he reminded as ares took that into account as he turned his head to the side.

‘someone hades could’ve recruited for the job.’ he tries to say only for ares to shake his head—‘says you’ he replied once more.

‘and someone who could slip away long enough to do it without being missed, bold enough to cross zeus, stealthy enough to get their hands on the thing—‘

‘en—enough. not everything is a puzzle that needs to be solved. your as bad as my sister.’ he groaned. the mention of her mom bringing her attention a bit more making her think about y/n.

‘was she always like that?’

‘who?’

‘your sister, athena.’ grover told.

‘what do you mean?’ ares asked him.

‘always making things more complicated than they need to be so people will think she’s smarter then you.’ as the tension got tight and his eyes staring down grover who was growing a bit nervous along with annabeth who almost gulped—ares slammed his hands down onto the table making a loud thump scaring the two as they jumped in shock.

‘thank you! i can’t be the only one who sees it right?’ he asked.

‘no, not at all.’

‘it certainly feels that way sometimes. and seriously, she’s the smart one? really? if she’s so smart, explain the owl. she talks to it, like, all the time. this fat nasty little feathers rodent. and it’s like her best friend’ he told him in aggression as annabeth thought about her and y/n’s mom with a owl.

that might explain why y/n thought about getting one not to long ago, she definitely had to tell her about it later.

‘and we’re so sure that she’s a genius and i, no owl, am not?’ he said as grover replied—‘totally!’

‘it’s like people only see what they wanna see and ignore anything at all that doesn’t fit the story they like to tell themselves.’

‘exactly! like you being the one to find the lighting thief and not her.’ ares had gone quiet once grover exclaimed this making annabeth a bit tense as the two did then looked at ares who leaned forward.

‘what did you mean by that?’

‘by what?’ grover asked as he played confused.

‘found the thief. we both know your friend didn’t steal the bolt.’ he told him.

‘yeah, but zeus thinks he did, which is kinda all that matters, right?’

‘shut up.’ he instructed grover who watched as ares began to think.

ㆍ୨୧ㆍ

as y/n and percy looked at the golden chair, the two of them trying to figure out what to do next.

‘it was a gift with a hidden purpose. hephaestus offered it to hera, but as soon as she sat in it she couldn’t get up. all the gods tried but the machine was too smart. it was too strong. it was too much. even for them.’ percy told y/n who looked over at him with her eyebrows scrunched.

looking up he continued—‘finally, they said if hephaestus let hera free, aphrodite would be his wife.’ looking over at y/n as he licked his lips a bit he told her—‘the chair is the bargain. one of us goes in, the other gets the shield—‘

‘i’ll do it.’ y/n immediately said as she began to walk forward.

‘what? wait a minute.’ percy was quick to grab her wet sleeved arm—‘whoever goes in, isn’t coming out. that seems pretty clear.’

‘i know, that’s why i said wait—‘

‘this isn’t the arch, seaweed braid. your not telling me to stay behind, it didn’t work then and it won’t work now—‘

‘yes, i am and yes it will.’

‘i’m not going to let you do it. it doesn’t work that way.’

‘it’s why you’re here.’ he told her as he scrunched his eyebrows, his eyes looking at her.

‘what’s that supposed to mean…’ she asked him.

‘when choosing my team, i told chiron i needed someone who wouldn’t hesitate to sacrifice me if the quest required, he agreed, that was you.’ he told her as she sadly shook her head and faced forward.

‘you were right, i can’t believe it but the fates were right. there’s no getting around his. we dodged it at the arch, barely, but…maybe this isn’t something you can dodge forever.’

‘the oracle chose you. the gods chose you!’

‘stop! it isn't about that.’

‘what could it possibly be about if it isn’t about that?’

‘your better at this than me.’ when he told her this y/n couldn’t help but sadly look at him in the eyes with her brows scrunched together.

‘you just are. and you know it.’ shaking her head in denial he continued to talk—‘believe me, i wish there was slither way this quest succeeds. i just don’t see it.’ he finished as she sadly looked over at the chair, her heart clutched in a way she can’t explain.

as he reached into his pocket and pulled out the pen she gasped when she knew what he was trying to say.

‘percy no…’ she told him while shaking her head. looking up at her ad she kept her eyes focus to his hand with hers pushing it away slowly, he confusingly shook his head.

‘i’ve let you sacrifice your life for mine twice..and i’m not letting you do it again. i owe you a great amount for saving me and this is the way i’m going to do it—‘

‘y/n no this isn’t how it goes—‘

‘it’s how i want it to go! i want it to happen like this and it will. you will get the shield and get out of here to get the bolt and save your mom. you will see her again and you will finish this quest. percy, we barely know each other and you’ve saved me twice. let me return the favor please.’ she told him. he shook his head in denial while his eyebrows frowned only for her to give him a small nod and smile.

placing her hand in his before giving it a squeeze she let go as he could only stare in the spot she was once in and turn his body to where she walked towards the gold chair.

‘can you promise me something?’ she asked while turning around—‘i’m not going to let annabeth get sad and stop the quest.’ he told her as she nodded.

‘i was going to say maybe try and come back with annabeth and get me out this chair? i don’t want to be forever young in an amusement park.’ she tired to lighten the mood, making him scoff with slight tears in his eyes as she smiled.

‘do you really think you had to ask?’ he asked her as she smiled a bit—‘just reminding you’.

turning around to climb up into the chair, she sat down with both of her hands on the sides of it as it started to make noise. looking a bit worried, percy looked at her as she looked around.

‘this is kinda weird. it feels…warm.’ she told percy who had tears forming fast.

looking down, gold started to run up from her shoes and started to make its way up her body.

‘this is a bad idea—y/n stand up!’ he told her.

‘i can’t…’

‘y/n stand up, i mean it!’ he told her more urgently, his face growing more sad but he second as his heart clutched.

‘it’s okay percy…i’m okay….im okay…im—‘ just then the gold finished consuming y/n’s body as she turned into a gold statue in the chair.

shaking his head, percy sadly looked around as he watched the shield fall loose. making his way over it he ignored it and immediately went to work on the gold chair y/n sat still in.

not knowing what he was going he just started to twist random screws and geers. just then a man walked through a door with a beard and a cane.

‘can i help you?’ he asked him only for percy to ignore him completely and try to get y/n out of the chair.

‘do you need some help finding your way out?’ the man playing a flute as it made steps appear out of the water below.

‘so off you go.’ he told him as percy shook his head and started to turn random things once more—‘i’m not leaving without my friend.’

‘yeah that isn’t really how it works. it’s kind of a one way sort of thing. it can’t be undone.’ he told percy who rolled his eyes.

‘how do you know?’

‘because i built it.’ he revealed himself—hephaestus.

‘i’m not leaving here without my friend.’ percy told him once more. ‘and if you aren’t going to help me, could you maybe leave me alone so i can focus?’

‘in spite of what my brother might have told you, i am not someone who’ll be pushed around.’ignoring him as he continued to turn geers and try to get y/n out, hephaestus continued to talk—‘i know her mother was displeased with her recently, but how will your father feel if i told him this?’ he asked percy, making him almost focus on what he was saying.

‘you might not know how he gets, but i do. and this is a lot. even for him.’ standing up for a second percy listened and looked at hephaestus who’s hand held the railing in front of him.

‘you leave out of here with that shield, your a hero, on your way to the greatest glory. he will be proud and your friend might even be forgiven. and all will go back to being as it always has been, always will be, as it should be—‘

‘but it isn’t how it should be! it isn’t! eat or be eaten. peer and glory and nothing else matters. ares is that way, she’s is that way her mother… is that way.’ he told hephaestus who started to look to the side.

‘she isn’t that way. she’s better than that. maybe she was that way once, but she didn’t want to be that way anymore. we won’t be like all of you. i just won’t.’ hephaestus listening to percy as he sadly looked down and turned back to the chair, he almost went back to work only for hephaestus to blow his flute again and the geers started to turn.

clicking and making noise, percy hurried and made his way in front of the golden statue of y/n. her naturally colored eye started to show as she blinked it and the rest of her face coming back to normal, breathing heavily as y/n looked around at herself in the chair, the rest of her body coming undone.

percy happily looked at her as she looked up at him and loved her hands.

getting up as she stumbled forward to percy who grabbed her immediately he held her hands in his while looking over her face with a small smile and a tear dropped from his eye down his face.

‘some of us don’t like being that way either. your a good kid percy.’ hephaestus told him as he held y/n’s arm who worked on standing right.

‘i’ll put in a good word with your dad for you…same with you y/n with your mom.’ as he turned away from the two who looked at him before each other. the door he once went through shut.

ㆍ୨୧ㆍ

at the restaurant the three heard the bell of the door chime through the restaurant to reveal y/n holding the shield and percy close behind her. annabeth let out a breath of relief she didn't know she was holding as grover did the same, ares looking at the two not really believing they did it.

as they walked over to the table, she placed the shield down into the table. y/n and percy looking at ares whilst annabeth and grover looked at percy and y/n.

‘where’s our ride.’ percy started off.

as they walked outside to ares standing behind a semi truck both y/n and percy said—‘your kidding’

ares with a straight face clicked his two fingers together as the doors opened to reveal animals and stacks of hair in buckets and boxes.

‘get in, don’t. i really don’t care. but in a few hours this thing is gonna be at the Lotus casino in vegas. hermes hangs out there, you play your cards right and his personal driving can get you to L.A. in minutes.’ ares told them as he threw a bag at percy who caught it.

‘here. clothes, cash, drachmas to summon hermes. i’d wish you luck, but what good would it do you?’ he told them in his honesty.

‘we’re not gonna fail.‘ percy told ares who grinned.

‘don’t worry. your dad had plenty of kids he stopped caring about once he lost interest. you’ll have lost of company.’ ares tried to make percy feel bad but it didn’t work.

‘we’re not gonna fail, and i’m getting pretty tired of you saying it.’ he started as y/n looked at annabeth and grover.

‘percy…’ y/n and grover said his name in a warning town as ares’ face dropped from its grin.

‘you think you know who i am but you don’t.’ he stated while walking up to ares who kept his eyes trained on him—‘and if you're not careful…your gonna find out—‘

‘percy…’ grover and the two sisters walked up to his side as y/n placed her hand on his arm. percy’s glare not leaving ares’s who stayed the same.

‘so, thank you for the emotional abuse and the cheeseburgers…and the ride! we’re gonna take you up on that, too.’ grover told ares as he looked back at percy who finally walked off as he was being dragged by grover and given a push by y/n.

the group walking into the bus as ares looked at them as they stood in the portable barn, grover asked—‘hey, do you think we could get some paper towels or something, it’s not that nice in here.’ he finished while they looked around.

ares however only grinned before clicking his fingers once more as the doors shut.

‘well…this smells.’ percy commented.

‘if it gets us where we need to go, that's all that matters.’ annabeth told him as y/n nodded.

‘assuming ares was telling the truth.’

grover turned and picked with his hands as he shook his head—‘he wasn’t…not entirely, at any rate. he was holding something back.’ grover told him.

‘how do you know?’ y/n asked.

‘because, i think i got it out of him. i know who stole the lightning bolt.’

[crimeronan]

god i know i keep half-tongue-in-cheek saying that my dad is literally belos owlhouse but. i've apparently gotten a little desensitized to Just How Bad He Is (because i have ESCAPED, YAY) & so today has been a delightful adventure.

i wrote an AITA post from his POV about stuff that happened several years ago, bc i was curious about how bad he'd get dragged - i updated the timeline but the Only fact i changed was the reason for his Woes (i blamed COVID economic struggles, which actually makes him a Hero compared to the truth. the truth being so ugly i'm not gonna detail it here good god).

i kept it true to POV by only using things that he actually did say to me at the time about why he was doing the things that he was doing, & blocking out all the relevant info about why the wronged party (me) was so upset, & having him praise his daughter (me) and go "i love her so much :) she's so smart and independent and i would never hurt her :)", & having him half-assedly admit he might've sounded unreasonable/angry/malicious, in a way that was clearly supposed to earn Good Dad points for being so Willing To Admit Imperfections, despite a continued constant doubling-down refusal to answer questions about actual important shit or fix anything ever.

cannot emphasize enough that this was not a fictionalized/embellished/creative POV. the only points of fiction were 1) my dad did not write these things on reddit, he said them to me in real life word for word instead and 2) this happened many years ago, not like... yesterday.

anyway the thread blew up and the commenters were all so kind and genuinely worried for me (as in, the daughter) and offering so much help that i hopped on a diff account to be my past self so i could reassure people i'm okay & had a plan in motion for gettin' the hell outta dodge. because i felt REALLY BAD that they didn't know i..... did in fact get out. people were so nice it made me actually fucking cry jesus CHRIST. i had in fact perhaps forgotten that these things were all as bad and worrying as they were

now. this is all a very serious and harrowing-sounding prelude to the actual point of this post, which is. a bullet list of some of my FAVORITE FUCKING RESPONSES. revel in these with me i had so much fucking fun. i have taken DOZENS AND DOZENS of screenshots to peruse whenever i need a healthy dose of Perspective

here they r:

you are CARTOONISHLY EVIL?

HOLY ABUSE BATMAN

DO BETTER. RIGHT NOW.

did you even listen to yourself writing this. HOW

there's something seriously wrong with you. like on an intrinsic unfixable level

hey this happened to me too! my parent died and i had a party about it btw

your daughter is never going to speak to you again after this

(note from the future: yeah)

you're going to act confused and sad when she goes no-contact aren't you

(NOTE FROM THE FUTURE: HE SURE FUCKING IS)

i think you are creating your own problems and then getting mad at them. maybe instead you could not do that

is this ragebait. i can't imagine anyone this horrible actually existing

this isn't ragebait. i can tell this isn't ragebait because I Know This Kind Of Man So Intimately

you are the asshole on literally so many levels i'm going to write a 15 paragraph response line-by-line dissecting everything wrong with you

are you aware that you're lying or are you literally this incapable of 2 seconds of honest self-reflection

i need to donate to a gofundme for your daughter right now immediately

(note from the future: i am not going to scam people by pretending a long-done sitch is a current emergency on gofundme. have no fear.)

wow. okay i'm gonna go hug my mom and thank her for not being you

you are Actually Literally Empirically the Actual Literal Worst Parent who has Actually Literally Ever Existed

HOW FUCKING DARE YOU????

WHO DO YOU FUCKING THINK YOU ARE.

I AM A 57-YEAR-OLD MOM OF FOUR ADULT CHILDREN AND THE MERE THOUGHT OF DOING ANY OF THE THINGS YOU HAVE DONE HERE MAKES ME PHYSICALLY NAUSEOUS

these vibes are so skeevy. leave her the fuck alone????

along with ASTONISHINGLY accurate inferences about exactly what was happening with the daughter (me) in all the missing missing reasons & like..... exactly how the situation was So Much More Ugly And Horrifying than an innocently confused i'm-so-well-intentioned dad-POV post would have you believe.

so. anyway. that was literally the most validating experience i've ever had in my entire life. i know i've said he's a bad guy before but i also always forget just how far beyond the pale he is. like wow that was. that was not a normal average human experience to have growing up huh.

IN CONCLUSION.

if you guys are ever wondering why i am the way that i am about, like........ anything....... everything....... whatever......

just remember.

i was raised by belos owlhouse.

[echobx]

oh I'm ranting again. but ig by now you guys know that I can't keep my mouth shut. so to add to the list of all the apparently unpopular opinions that I have...

I don't actually think role play (rp) (and real people fanfic (rpf)) is bad, not if it's characters, and also not if it's celebrities.

"How can you say that? What's wrong with you?" I mean, there's plenty wrong with me but not here. Especially not here. I'm aware of my "controversial" takes when it comes to fandom, but honestly, the only reason you find them controversial (if you do) is because you haven't been in fandom long enough. Which, I will grant, is difficult if you are 1. not old enough to know better 2. are in a fandom that is rather young, like OBX is. But telling people what to do and not to do, simply based on you not wanting to see it, is simply and clearly an act of censorship. Now I'm not saying that it equates to the censorship our governments are trying to put on us in online communities (especially in the US recently) but it lays a ground for the politicians to base their argument on. Because when you go and spread around that some things "shouldn't be done" and "shouldn't be written" and "shouldn't be drawn" that creates a base layer of what politicians will take and say "see, they want us to censor them" and that is never ever good. bc it might at first be role play and "dead dove, do not eat" types of content, but it will really quickly lead to the banning of queer content, and I won't fucking stand for that.

so, yes, you might cringe at RP and other things, but you also have the possibility to simply block those accounts, to block the tags to filter your own online experience, especially on tumblr since it's the only truly user friendly social media site that we have left.

and on the fact of people bringing up Chappell Roan in this discussion. Chappell very clearly said that she feels uncomfortable irl bc it happens IN HER REAL LIFE. if she cared about people just talking online about her without any irl reason for it, she would've said that. but she didn't. she was rightfully pissed that people approached her irl and didn't take no for and answer and only after that they went online and talked shit about her. this is entirely different to RP. (it also reminds me how straight people forced Kit Connor to come out and then blamed queer people for it, when no queer person ever made him feel the need to come out because we accepted him even when he was in the public closet)

RP is clearly tagged as such, the people who do it are very much aware that it's a game, and not real. if you can't make that distinction, that's on you. not the person who RPs or the people who interact with the RP.

side note: if RPing is bad, why are you watching historical dramas based on real people? why is it okay for the industry to make bank on the lives of dead AND living people, but a normal person can't do the same without getting paid? maybe you should also think about that, because it's literally the same. y'all watched Elvis and Bohemian Rhapsody and The Crown and so many more shows and movies that are based on real people but aren't what actually happened 100% and that is okay, but when fandom does it you want it to be wrong and a moral failure? get a grip.

there's a clear line between fiction and reality and it's not the creator's fault for you to go and blurr that line because you don't understand the rules. RP and RPF have been part of fandom culture since the beginning, and just because you don't like it, doesn't mean it will go away, because there's nothing wrong with it.

just do with RP/RPF what you do with more important things in our daily lives, more serious matters. Look Away. bc clearly you are good at it any times else.

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

for the art ask thingy you reblogged, mayhaps 8, 12, and 17? (don't feel pressured to do them all)

ty for question! there will be a lot of text below bc i like to talk about my art or myself😭 i'm an egocentric😭

8. What do you like most about your own work? It's hard to say, because i criticize myself a lot or treat my art like idkkk things i have to do while i'm still alive?? like creating (anything) is literally the meaning of my life so my work to me it's kinda like a "vacuum the apartment" item in to-do list. you vacuum your apartment, delist it, and then forget about it forever but if to think a little deeper it's hmm i like the style in which i’m drawing rn, though i’m still not really happy with it. but this whole styling thing is super hard to me after years of academic art 💀 if im super tired my hands automatically draw something realistic and this really upsets me bc i don't want to draw realistic things :( i don't post many original art here, but i love the sense of freedom it have, that i’ve worked very hard for and still working on it! like replacing "how to do it acceptably?" with "how i want it, how i feel it and how to do it honest" in my mind. honesty and sincerity are the most important things in my life, work, people etc. there are many problems with this now because of the russian laws and autocracy, which has long been more like totalitarianism. i have a hard time saying and doing what i think, constantly having to go around/come up with metaphors/not putting something out there at all, even changing ideas and plots. it disgusts me, i hope i can emigrate in the next two years or so, freedom is a key value for me and ok if to be more abstract, i like the fact that I draw/etc for myself, i.e i create something that i lack in this world. every time it gives me a feeling of satisfaction (though it doesn't last long) that "there! at last I see what i wanted, what i craved to see". i.e actually i work from "i don't like what there's rn, i want to see it differently, I want to do it other way". as if the store didn't have clothes in your size and and you'd have to sew your own

12. Show your favourite drawing from this year

i realize that this question implies one drawing, but idc and will show several instead of just one :^) the first drawing that comes to mind is this! well it's not exactly a drawing ofc but still. it's one of 54 illustrations for the play "the shadow". i love this work very much (text here says "your country is like every country in the world" in different languages, and on the color block the phrase is "it's all so mixed up", it's quotes from the play)

and three more illustrations for the same play! best part of this year in terms of art is probably that i finally got into lettering. although it's not lettering in the classic sense here, like these lettering aren't meant to be readable, i just think the letters are very pretty:^)

and the last one. this fanart turned out to be very important for me! i drew it some time after my diploma and finally for the first time in a long time allowed myself to loosen up and not think about what others will think. thanks to this art i realized in which style i wanna work:^)

17. What inspires you?

almost anything tbh. movies, books, theater, songs, science, news, colors, clothes, people, whatever in personal projects, it's usually a reflection on current events/experiences talking to people and their stories inspire me a lot on a more simple level: music/songs. i believe that any visual composition is music (even Kandinsky wrote about it and he himself considered his abstract works as painted music). So rhythm, intonation in songs and other things inspire me af. i always make playlists for every big project im working. it's not even about the lyrics of the songs, it's about the vibe/mood they give. (i had an exhibition this summer with illustrations for "the shadow" and like i put a disco projector there and made a 6 hours playlist 😭 bc all the illustration were based on music (and i hate exhibition snobbery, pseudo-intellectualism, and in general when people consider themselves superior to others. i also think that looking at pictures without music is boring) aaaaand i'm also inspired by the words themselves? (you can notice in the pictures above, haha). sometimes by the meaning they carry, sometimes just by the way they look. and the letters inspire me bc that, again, is music to me. the rhythm, the plasticity, the contrast. i just love letters ahahh

thanks again for the question and hope it was interesting! have a good day/night/morning/etc ! 💞

[demonicfreakish]

| Boundaries Post |

It still bugs me I have to do this but I know I do. Bc apparently ppl don't know how to respect boundaries. I had to deal with this earlier a year or two ago and to make matters worse- they didn't care I was married. Oof... I know most people have common sense and my followers know me enough to not do this but new followers or people running on one brain cell (the ppl that need to get horni bonked) need to know this. So this should be pretty self-explanatory but here it is in writing anyway. Keep in mind if you are one of those ppl that need the horni bonk- keep in mind mine is a damn sludge hammer I call the BAN hammer. You've been warned.

| My Boundaries |

Here is a comprehensive list of what I am NOT & AM comfortable with- please respect me, my art, my stories, my lore, and my OCs

Nsfw Art: I do not mind light flirty comments with this but don't direct it at me.

My OCs: Light flirty comments are ok- So long as they AREN'T a persona of mine (Except Clyide bc I am fine regardless if he's my malesona- not sure why I just am)

Feral Creature Lore: NO that is a HUGE no! I will consider that Zooph and I WILL block you.

Intelligent Creature Lore: Absolutely ok with compliments & flirtiness~ I know some of the species I make are attractive and I'm cool with it!

Abaddon Vicalies: NO NO NO AND FUCK NO! This OC is my husband's main persona & literally is him (we designed the character in his image with fantasy deets/lore). He is completely off limits- Keep in mind there is a reason that will be detailed in my trigger post. You WILL get banned & blacklisted.

Me/Areeha Windler/Aria Yager: NO I/both those OCs are personas- keep in mind I am Demisxual and I have severe adversity to anyone who flirts with me.

Lemon Comics: 100% Okay with light flirty, only when it depends on the subject and which OC is involved. But I do love to hear what you thought of the comic! :D

Vore & Sizey Content: NO! Unless the content is very clearly supposed to be Lemons/NSFW- I do not consider these two subjects as inherited horni material/fetishy. I use these two subjects as details/characteristics/themes in stories & art. Not as fetish material.

Anything SFW lore, comic, art, animation, etc related just keep it pg13. I love to hear what people have to say- so long as it's appropriate and not mean- it always brings me joy to see what ppl think of my work~

Other than that- Keep in mind these are my boundaries. Bc I am Demi & a few other issues- I dislike any kind of sxual attention aimed at me. The only time I am cool with it is from my husband. Bc duh. And the occasional flirtiness from my best friend Rosemiri is cool~

Why have this?

Well, sadly, I keep getting people that objectify me and my art. I'm not joking. It's actually a real thing. But I refuse to bring attention to it bc it just makes me feel worse. Either they sxualize my art. Or my OCs. And then by extension- me. It makes me uncomfortable, dirty, and unsafe. Usually, by that point, my husband steps in. But I have had to deal with on more than one occasion where I was sexually harassed in DMs or on my art posts. I like using vore and gt in my stories and lore as a trope/plot detail. Not as a fetish. Because I feel like it adds a nice story dynamic. I don't use it as a coping thing or a safe thing like I've seen others do. I use it just for the reasons I've stated. So I'm sorry if I came off brutal in this post- but I have to draw the line here before I get hurt and someone steps over a boundary they didn't even know is there. Hopefully this is informative- Hope y'all have a great day~ And I'll see you guys in the next post~

[roseations]

Gonna rant bc I need to feel not crazy for once!!! I've been trying to get into animation school for 2 years going on my 3rd application VERY soon (like end of the year soon) And I'm SO TERRIFIEDDD

For the process you send in a portfolio and 4 assignments, they judge you based on those and if they like what they see, you get invited for an interview. If you pass this congrats you're in!! I got rejected twice already before even getting invited for an interview and getting a chance to defend my work.

They don't give you a shred of feedback after rejecting you btw, when I asked they told me to visit the open school day when students and teachers can answer questions.

Its made it so fucking difficult to try to adjust my work or know what to improve on because when I actually DID go to the open school days teachers gave me nothing answers and critiques like "you only draw girls" (I don't) and "go draw in a forest or something". Plus, for any review of your portfolio you have to go to students for feedback which I would be all for were it not for the fact that last time I went to their open school day I LITERALLY OVERHEARD PROFESSORS talking about how they don't do portfolio reviews bc if a student doesnt get in after a teacher gives the OK its shitty for the teachers/school. Oh okay so you're just pushing the EXACT problem onto your students? Every single time I go the students only have positive things to say and doesn't often send me in the right direction either.

I'm trying to push through and get to where I need to be to get accepted into the program so I'm dissecting the animation program's website page because it lists qualities they seek but some are so vague.. And the vibe I get from current/past students of the program I've talked to seem to be that they want you to experiment with anything and everything and kinda be some multitalented art beast but also be your own person and have a "style" to your work and its actually driving me insane.

Lately I've been really thinking about what I want my art to be. I'm trying to think of the things I love but I'm worried my interests aren't "varied" enough for this school, all my work is the same to me and it's so difficult to do something that's different but still something you want to do... It also doesn't help that I very likely have ADHD and can't get treatment for at least 20 weeks which is already too long to get any help before the application deadline. The ADHD gives me such a mental block to try and work on any art. Everything feels like it's wrong or a waste of time in the grand scheme of things bc yeah studies and trying things is one thing but they also want finished works?? I just want to work on my art and pursue this because I love art and getting into this program is my dream rn...

I just want to be good enough to get in upcoming year, I know its possible bc my bestie who is currently studying game art at the same school got in on their second attempt once they were really working on pieces they wanted to make. I just hope that my efforts will be enough and rewarded 😔 I'm still gonna apply because I've become vengeful to get in to stick to them.

idk if anyone's still reading here but thanks for hearing me out and if you have any advice I'd be grateful for anything people can offer me 🫶

[httpshujii]

WORK SPOUSE !

Nurse!Atsumu x Nurse!reader

ᯓ Did he mention he loves you?

"Well aren't you a sight for sore eyes."

A certain blonde muses as he leans against the reception counter at the entrance of the hospital. A lopsided smirk rests on Atsumu's thin lips, heavy lids casting a spell upon his brown eyes.

This isn't fair. He gets to look like some God despite having very, very limited hours of sleep. Unlike you. With a frown on your face, hair tied messily, dark circles sagging under your eyes, and nothing but a cherry lip balm that hopefully brightens the rest of your pale face.

"Shut up, Miya."

"Awe, I ain't lyin' though."

He doesn't miss the way you scrunch your nose, knowing he hit that sweet spot that ignites all the flames of butterflies that tickle your insides.

And as if he isn't already perfect, he hands you a cup of coffee, knowing that you hate night shifts and desperately need sleep but your dedication to helping others as much as possible is more important.

"How was my lovely wife's day today?"

Almost spitting out your coffee, you ended up choking on it instead, coughing as he cackles.

"Wife?!"

"You're basically my work wife."

With raised brows, you demand an explanation. He just shrugs and tucks a stray strand of your hair behind your ear, as if he's done it a thousand times before.

"Y'know, we talk all the time, have breaks together, work the same shifts, help each other out, we gossip."

He lists, going on and on about every small thing you guys do. He's stupid, you want to just- squish his stupid pretty face and kiss him. But thanks to God, you've been blessed with ultimate awkwardness, so that will never happen.

"That doesn't make me your wife."

You counter and he just smiles. Not a smug smile, not a teasing one either. But rather a genuine, sweet smile that has you melting. The frown on your face wavers, hands loosen their tight grip around your mug, and your heart threatens to burst through your ribs.

"Forgot to mention that I basically love you."

Zero. Zero is the number of seconds given for you to react before he smooches your smooth lips, it's quick but sweet, so sweet, in fact, that you're so sure you're getting cavities. He tastes so good.

But he's Atsumu Miya, a tease. So just as you're about to react, he pulls away. Like the stupid tease he is.

"Miya!"

You exclaim, body stiff again and brows furrowed. And zero plagues your mind again the moment you feel his warm hands massage into your shoulders.

"Oh you poor thing," your stomach does somersaults, he's so evil. How dare he speak in that tone, in that pitch? "so stressed from everything, let me help you darlin'. "

"If you don't stop I'm gonna die."

"And what is it exactly that 'm doin' ?"

"Something," you answer, breathless as you roll your head back onto his shoulder, "I don't know what it is but you're doing something."

"Just helpin' my pretty wife out, nothin' outta the ordinary."

You sigh, as if you've been a married couple of over twenty years and he's being annoying again. But you let him help you, you let him touch you, kiss you, even though anyone could walk through the hospital at this ungodly hour, you still let him. Because for once, the universe is siding with you, and you hope this will last forever.

if you cant tell, i have writer's block :D

ᯓ SPECIAL MESSAGE FOR . . . @natdu

HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY MAMAAAAA!!! Where do i even start, istg i wrote smth for u just yesterday BUT NOW YOU'RE 24 GASP!! i wish you all the luck and love and happiness in the world bcs ur a literal sweetheart, you make me sososo happy and im so grateful to have you, im so grateful for you sticking with me ever since i started on here. i dont think id be where i am today without you and i love you so much for that. im so sorry for being ignorant on ur actual bday and bombarded you with my problems even though i planned a whole happy birthday thing to say in ur inbox, but im stupid :D the point is, you never deserve to have ur birthday forgotten bcs ur wonderful and so amazing and strong and you're a great doctor and online parental figure. i and many others appreciate you for making time in ur schedule to interact with all of us. i love you so much 🫶🫶

[halliescomut]

So like....I'm not like a film bro (partly bc I'm a chick) but I just have always had a policy of I like what I find entertaining. My bars aren't high. The way I love this movie is crazy. It's not a "I watch it at least once a year' or even an 'I watch it every time I feel *insert specific emotion here*' or even an "I watch it when I can't decided on or don't feel like watching something new'. It is it's own weird very personal nexus for me. And because I'm putting off actual promised posts...I'm gonna talk a bit about it.

So this movie does host literally just a list of my favorite actors. I've been loving Claire Danes since My So-Called Life. Leo...pop culture Romeo that I was at the peak age for. John Leguizamo...a man that I still can't honestly say what I love the most about him. It's no surprise that I would be so down for this movie. But lets kind of talk about why it hit me hard in a very specific way.

I am a reader. I love to read, I read all the damn time. I tend to stick at the very least to narratives, I'm not a general fan of academic writing, though that will always depend on the topic and the author. I'm basically just a person that finds people and stories interesting. So over my childhood my love for reading translated into a love of tv and movies. Not surprising, but as you would guess from my tumblr I do like to go deep on the building blocks of different types of media. I'm interested in the costuming, set design, how scenes are shot a certain way and why. Special features on DVDs were my favorite thing. So, unsurprising to no one, English tended to be one of my favorite classes in school. I struggled here and there for some bits, but since narratives make up the American English education, I was almost always in my element. Poetry was another area I loved, because I was always fascinated with the cadence of poetry (likely an offshoot of the plethora of music consistently played in my home). But one of my biggest stumbling blocks in 9th grade English was my first Shakespeare play. Which of course was Romeo and Juliet, though we did also read MacBeth. I could not connect to the story AT ALL. It was so difficult for my brain to process translating the words into modern verbiage so that I could follow the story, and just forget the possibility of creating an emotional connection to the characters.

As part of the class we did watch the 1960's movie, which helped a great deal, but I still wasn't connecting a lot of the words with the performance. that's the thing with performance, you don't necessarily need to understand the words to follow the story since you have visual clues to go on like facial expression and body language. But part of why we watched it was as my teacher said "Shakespeare is meant to be experienced. You're never going to be able to fully follow or appreciate the story without it being performed for you." And she was right with the 1960's R&J. That went miles to me understanding the play on it's surface level.

But moving on to the Baz Luhrmann version, it came out in 1996 (4 years prior to me entering 9th grade) and I saw it for the first time at 16 (about 11th grade). I knew there were modernized adaptations of all sorts of 'classic' stories. Oliver & Company, Clueless, these were all things I'd seen, knew somewhat their original inspiration, and enjoyed immensely. But this version of Romeo and Juliet was the first time I ever saw them take the original language of the story and place it in a modern setting. It's really just cemented in my head this idea of the timelessness of storytelling. And it's a very common topic and idea that Shakespeare's plays are broad enough, yet so focused into specific universal human experiences, that they are one of the best options for adaptation and modernization with the least loss of original context. It's also why Jane Austen is such an ideal base for adaptation, he books are so focused on individual human emotions that it's easy to keep the characters and change the setting without losing a great deal of what makes the story so engaging.

So to fully bring into focus what I love about this version of Romeo and Juliet is that it is very much modernized, but it's also fanciful in a way that a lot of other adaptations are not, even other Shakespeare adaptations like She's the Man. That whimsical quality I think contributes a lot to the feeling of timelessness for the story, that 'yes this is modern, but it's a story repeated a thousand times over thousands of years in hundreds of cultures'. It's also visually just so eclectic, and stunning. The setting is great, but the costuming is top tier. It's an amazing example of colorblind casting, and you simply don't question it. (Wonderfully followed up in 1997 with the Brandy Cinderella) there's a very specific care taken into outfitting these characters in ways that build on their personalities. Most amazingly being Mr. John Leguizamo as Tybalt. ( This is a lovely article in Vogue with the costume designer Kym Barrett)

Last but certainly not least....this movie is so queer for not being overtly queer. And this is just one of the most interesting things for me as an adult realizing that as a teen, feeling very out of place, not really knowing where I fit sexuality-wise I tended to seek out the gayest straight media I could find. There's, as previously mentioned, My So-called Life, one of the first shows with an out gay character that I can recall. There's Sailor Moon, where granted the English dubbed release erased almost every aspect of the queerness of many characters, but the subtext always remained. It's a fun juxtaposition in modern day, when we know that all of it's original performances were done with full male casts, requiring about 1/3 of the cast to be in drag. Adding to that the inherent queerness that permeates the world of performance theater. There's just no way that you're able to produce an accurate version of a Shakespeare play without it being infused with queer energy.

I don't really know how to wrap this up. This is definitely a ramble and I do feel like I might have gotten a bit lost on my point. But I'll wrap up by sayin that that seeing this film made me more excited to see other performances that adhere to portions of original works. It made me want to see more 'traditional Shakespeare' where the language is always kept as written. It made me interested in seeing the period versions of Austen novels. It made me more interested in theater-based performance in general, a love that I continue with now 20 years later.

And I'm just grateful that something that was clearly a fairly wild idea was followed through. Because it created an opportunity for me to find a connection to a different kid of storytelling, and I'd imagine that it helped others find that connection too. And that connection is important, because storytelling is one of our oldest cultural connections and it's something that will continue to connect us human to human.

GIFTOBER 2022 ✿ DAY 13: FASHION

[wooahaes]

Aahh! Thanks so much for replying to me, it was super helpful! I really appreciate how in-depth it was too. I shall try reblogging something now (v excited hehe). Can I be bold and ask for any writer recs? I've seen you talk about June and Ursa alot, so I'll make sure to check them out! (You prob have it somewhere, but it's 2am and I need sleep haha) I don't mind getting assigned a random emoji (I'm far too indecisive to pick one tbh haha). I hope your tummy feels better! Thanks so much again!!

sorry to everyone im about to @ in this post sfdkhsdf BUT

(also i saw ur first reblog and sdkfhd anon ur SO cute!! i recommend finding a profile pic somewhere and changing it so ppl don't block you while assuming you're a bot!!)

ok so all of these ppl write for svt and i believe also write for other groups? i'm mainly going by svt writers who ik have posted fics before!! i'm so sorry in advance bc i know i'm leave some ppl off btw just bc i don't want this post to get super long :(

even tho you said you've seen me talk about june and ursa, i'll @ them here again so you can find their blogs

although june i don't think has written anything (yet), she tags everything she reblogs/recs over at @junhui-recs so v good source to find writers <3!! i trust a lot of june's taste tbh + she's just a lovely person to interact with in general <3

ursa @thepixelelf is also a lovely person and writer and i fully suggest checking out her social media AUs if that's your thing!! they're super inclusive (gn!reader, no ulzzangs, generally ursa's writing has no reference toward reader's appearance too tbh!!) and honestly ursa is rly funny <3 love u ursa

i also recommend livvie @husbandhannie <3 livvie has very comforting writing that feels like home + she's so good about tagging things so if you need to avoid a certain topic, you most likely will (and if u dont, she absolutely does not bite and will add a trigger warning if you let her know)

(which btw i think every single person on this list is pretty solid about tagging things and open to being corrected if they leave something out!!)

sol @leejungchans also has popped up a few times on my blog i believe! sol is super duper nice and also has super cozy writing <3

aria @joshuas also has some lovely svt fics on her blog!! + aria is a huge sweetie as well (literally everyone i rec here is super nice)

elv @dokyeomblr is also a very very lovely person (mwah) who writes for multiple groups!!! one day i will go back through her masterlist n reblog when i have the brain cell to fully write out the tags she deserves <3

i don't think i've ever interacted with @suhnshinehaos aside from reblogging her renjun smau, but i like her sense of humor a lot <3 (also v inclusive smaus!!)

uhh i also don't think i've interacted with @blossom-hwa often but she seems cool and i also like her writing (i reblogged a hoshi fic from her once that i enjoyed!! + i believe she writes for both skz and golcha and being a golcha fan automatically makes u cool in my book tbh)

i will cap my list there but there are sooo many good writers out there tbh !!! i think almost everyone here i've interacted with (but even if i haven't, maybe one dayyy after i stop being hindered by anxiety lmao) but they're all super nice to people in my experience! :)

i also have a fic rec tag where i've reblogged from writers that are and aren't listed here!!

also goodnight anon <3 btw i hope 🍧 is fine with you? i can absolutely change it if you want! i just think its a cute emoji and ur cute n also sweet like shave ice is (esp on a hot day... i am so tired of summer weather)

[caspercryptid]

i literally dont know how to yell about the latest HtF chapter without just releasing spoilers like a confetti cannon so. 1) you write jayce so well it makes me like. if i were a drawing rn someone just took the blur feature to my entire me bc im inventing a new state of matter feeling some kinda way about how you write jayce. 2) staring at you. pointing at a chalk board with “PLOT THINGS. YOU KNOW” written on it in big blocky letters. yelling. great work im stomping around in puddles in my mind

Feel free to yell about spoilers in the comments of this ask when I publish it!! I'm glad you're enjoying @the-neon-pineapple and I's Fucking Epic HAMMER TO FALL (contains explicit scenes)

....yknow that was Epic the noun not epic the adjective. But that too.

discussion of the latest chapter under cut!

Oh man so one of the major things that happens in edits is we have a massive section of dialogue and need to add internal monologue to it because of the close POV, right? So spencer had the section of Jayce working on Herald's chest and had the benefit of blocking, and I got the debrief.

Fucking Pages And Pages Of Dialogue. Hell. Pure Hell. However. I think I did good! Jayce wrote his will! jayce wrote his will. Christ I didn't think this chapter was gonna be that rough before I got into the bones of it.

The mutually assured cowriter murder moments of the day were that spencer added "you've lived with me for twelve years without loving me" and I threatened to kill him, and I added the bit with the grocery list.

Things sure are happening now, aren't they :)

[fr1d4y-wr1t1ng]

Streaming n Dreaming <3

Yeah, this may be my first time writing for fnf characters, and you should rq more bc I'm so hot n sexy /j. But uh, yeah! I thought this would be fun lol!!

Request: No! My idea lol!!

Genre: Fluffy Romantic Headcanons!!!

CW: none that I can think of? Other than like swearing lol.

Characters in Post: Ruv, AGOTI, & Whitty!

Description: Basically, this is how FNF characters (listed above) would react to you becoming/being an mcyt streamer!!

Ruv:

Ruv at first really doesn't... understand it?

It's not like he isn't supportive!! No no, he loves what you do it's just...

He feels like this isn't really helping YOU in the long term.

He also wants to make sure you're safe, and having your identity (and his) out there, freaks him out a bit...

Especially with the more... eccentric... fans...

But if you invite him to play with you off-stream, he can get it pretty quickly. Esp if you take him mining!! He will spend forEVER in the mines just to find the block you're looking for.

“Ugh, I wish I had diamonds >:/” *like an hour later* “RUV HOW DID YOU MANAGE TO GET 30 DIAMONDS?????”

He's very good at gathering material, and killing mobs. And did I mention he loves pvp?

You give him Hypixel and Skywars and trust me he'll be distracted for HOURS. My mans just wants his wins.

He likes the game, but probably wouldn’t spend hours on it just to grind kinda thing. Would hop on if you asked him nicely.

Streaming on the other hand, he's doesn't really like the fact you stream.

If you're a faceless streamer, he gets a little more relaxed about it. He'll join you on a very rare occasion for quote, “emotional support”

And he likes watching you play, it's somehow soothing???

But if you aren't a faceless streamer, he is NEVER going to come near the room you stream is EVER. You could literally drag him there (if you manage) and he still will never enter that room.

He's literally a criminal???? Why would he want his identity leaked????? That only ends badly.

But he does still watch on a (totally secret) twitch account. He'll watch the entire thing to make sure nothing A. goes wrong or B. just to collect more channel points.

But as soon as stream is over he attempts to at least offer to hangout or something.

If you vlog at all, he'll come with and help...

But he just ends up as the camera man. Everything you do in said vlog, he'll get for your video and that's it.

But, all in all, he isn't too bad about it. Just be careful with the cameras. Alright?

AGOTI:

The most supportive out of EVERYONE. Manz LOVES when you do streams.

If you invited him to stream with you, no matter the time, it's fuck all to whatever else may happen that day or if he's gotten enough sleep. It's gamer time boys.

You may have to explain a couple jokes to him during stream, but he can get it with a bit of time.

And yes, he LOVES playing Minecraft with you!! Playing one of his favorite games with his favorite person??? Fuck yeah!!

He's definitely the guy that just spends all his time in the nether, like.

You'd literally have to drag him out.

“AGOTI, babe, it's been 13 (mc) days. Get out of the nether.”

But he does it for the grind baby!! Netherite 4 lifeeee 😎😎😎!!!

If you're someone who has a webcam (and uses it for stream) than he may be a little less affectionate, but only if you tell him not to.

AGOTI 100% doesn't give a fuck otherwise, he's going to love on you for all of stream and he BETTER see that shit trending /hj.

But for real, he loves just being near you when you're streaming, it's just so... comforting!!

You're voice is just so soothing to him, he can't help but be near you!! But, if it genuinely makes you uncomfy he'll lay off.

And yes, he's always going to encourage the shipping of you. That's just gonna have to be a given.

And of course, lets you use his music in stream (and makes sure it plays during stream.)

If you do vlogs for your channel, he 100% will go with anything you plan. Need to run halfway across the city for a bit? Absolutely let's go! Slipping and falling? Yes. He'll do anything for the cam.

But in the end, he loves what you do. And loves to be apart of what you do.

Whitty:

Like Ruv, he's a little weary about your streams.

Again, it's not like he isn't supportive!! It's just that he really doesn't want Updike finding him.

But that doesn't mean that he won't watch your streams... despite the fact he barely understand how streams work.

He isn't there often, and doesn't really understand what streaming even is but... you're happy, so he's happy!

If you tell a joke to him off-stream you're going to have to explain the SHIT out of it...

“Oh, poggers.” “...what...?”

If you end up being able to teach him Minecraft, he's definitely no help at all. He'll end up staying in the base because he's a bit too scared to go fight the mobs.

But on the plus side, he's really good at building! He'll make a pretty little cottage for you if you ask.

Also surprisingly good with red stone?? Like he just makes little contraptions to make it easier for you to do certain things.

Any excuse to not leave the base, looks like you'll be collecting resources, sorry hun.

If you decide to vlog, than like Ruv he's 100% behind the camera. He may even help set up a stunt or two ;).

As long as the camera isn't on him, he's all for helping. Anything to make his little s/o happy :).

I hate that I started this months ago and didnt finish ‘til now. Lovely. But hey, if ya wanna, go on and rq something!! I may even start up MCYT asks again ;).

[isa-ghost]

Filed a harassment report but we all know how useless Tumblr staff is. 🙃

I've made an official list of URLs to block if anyone is feeling unsafe knowing this is going on, especially fellow Crows bc that's who they're targeting most. Also be aware there are supposedly anonymous blogs still stalking me and other people on behalf of the blocked people. And they have alts/sideblogs they're using too.

One of them literally operates like a JSE fandom tea blog from back in the day. Why is history repeating itself I've been stalked by mfs like this before. 💀😭

Unless smth major happens I'm not gonna update this post again bc the more attention I give it the more it feeds them.

I only made this post to inform anyone following me who likes to avoid this kind of stuff or gets genuinely triggered by the concept of stalking. I just want everyone who follows me safe, genuinely. So again, DM me if you need a list of blogs to block to feel safer.

Idk why they're stalking me, I literally just exist. God forbid I interact with certain people and post valid criticism of my streamers instead of putting them on a pedestal. 💀 They act like I've never posted crit of qPhil before. I have a whole post abt what an idiot he is. Like. Huh. It's almost like mature adults who aren't parasocial can have *gasp* nuance??? I digress.

Stay safe yall.

Just woke up and have been told on anon in an ask that apparently my blog is being stalked (again) by parasocial weirdos because god forbid I interact with someone they don't like.

Like. They sent tons of screenshots of my blog to someone I know for a fact I have blocked level of stalking. Literally I only ever block and move on when I see blogs I don't like. Like a sane person and mature adult.

If yall see that blog anywhere please report them. And block them for your safety. I'm not the only blog they're stalking.

They're doing this to anyone who's posted Tubbo crit btw, even if the person is also a Tubbling. Which I am. I've never posted Tubbo hate, I don't hate Tubbo. Fuckin love that funky white boy. But this blog and their minions have a whole conspiracy theory going on apparently and they're after anyone who criticizes qTubbo.

Stay safe yall. This is why blocking and moving on is important.

[carbootsoul]

genshin impact =]

:3 haha yesss

favorite character: kujou sara is literally on my mind 24-7 she is everythign to me. if she had been a 5* and gotten the character quest evaluating her relationship to inazuma (bc she's not actually an inazuman citizen since she's a tengu) and the shogun (grits teeth oh my god fucked up gay people) she deserves we'd literally be in a utopia rn. it would solve misogyny. and then also beidou bc electro women hot & zhongli bc. old man.

least favorite character: honestly since i stopped interacting with the fandom much and deleted tiktok there aren't really any characters i dislike. purely from the game i am honestly mildly fond of childe. that said there is nothign interesting about venti to me

brOTP: kujou sara + itto fwb truthers unite. also obviously kaeya+diluc. ningguang and zhongli is kinda niche i think but they're honestly rly fun (+ the "my dead wife was reincarnated as a lesbian" thing is hilarious to me)

OTP: beigguang oh my god. 💗💖💘✨💕🌟 god tier ship. kaebedo's good too and i have this random obsession w zhongli/baizhu that came out of nowhere.

OT3: hmmm. yae miko/ei/sara but as a like messed up half-metaphorical thing in the middle of sara's coming of age story that happens when she's 25.

NOTP: genshin has so many shitty ships lol. kaeluc is the only blocked tag i have on tumblr dot com. i also literally cant stand chili childe is just like. 19. and so immature compared to zhongli who was manipulating him their whole quest? don't see the appeal

favorite storyline: grrrrr bites and kills zhongli's stupid dragon boyfriend makes me. sdlkfjs him as his stupid tragedies. also unpopular opinion but the inazuma storyline was really good barring how rushed it was.

least favorite storyline: every time genshin gives a male character an impactful, emotional, lore relevant quest line and then turns and gives a female character a like shopping trip or somethign i kill and murder. especially ei because theres so many interesting things in her lore that weren't examined at all in her quest.

what I wish had happened but didn’t: women wearing pants, canon kaebedo interaction

what happened that I wish hadn’t: sighs and gets out the list. i guess to pick something at random all of the adults flirting with aether/lumine is rly weird to me

[deacons-wig]

Listen, this has been stressing me out because I'm just getting back into Fallout and it's been really nice and it's probably going to be not so nice soon. I know I don't have the biggest platform so this is specifically for followers so y'all know where I'm at and if you should stick around, unfollow, or hit that block button. Stay with me here. Take a deep breath, check your emotions until the end and listen to what I have to say as a human person who wants the best for my communities. Which include you. Unless you're making racist content.

So. Don't harass people. Okay good.

Don't support racists. On board?

What if I told you that calling out racism wasn't harassment? It's not even harassment when people aren't nice about it.

Telling someone who makes racist art and fiction and does nothing to clean up their act to get the fuck out of fandom is not harassment. It's called de-platforming and it is vital to the safety of marginalized people in online communities. Keeping others in the loop is also not harassment. Block lists are community service.

Fallout source material already has enough anti-indigeneity. The most egregious example is the New Vegas Honest Hearts DLC. I will never shut up when I see it or other material used as a sandbox for racist power fantasy. It's not welcome. If that means being mean and loud and making people uncomfortable, good! Get uncomfortable. 

I was on a break from Tumblr and fandom the last time this y/j/j drama came around but I've done my research, independently of anyone involved bending my ear. I've read the callout posts before making up my mind, I've dug in the tags, seen the art, seen some of the heinous anons that were sent to people doing the calling out about racism SPECIFICALLY. Many of whom where not white. I encourage you to do your own. Remove the / from y/j/j. Read the tags, anons, callout posts. It’s a hot fucking mess. 

The y/j/j situation is not just about racism but it seems to be the one issue that their defenders avoid? Why? Because it's indefensible. There is no nuance or room for interpretation. No "I'm an abuse survivor so it's okay." I have my opinions on rape in fiction I can talk about some other time. I can share my professional knowledge about what censorship looks like in fandom and social media spaces. I will pull the librarian card (haha), also called a diploma. Literally have degree in it. I might at some point, unrelated to y/j/j.

Racism is the one issue I will address directly among the many, so mutuals know where I stand, and why, and if they want to follow me or not. I don't condone harassment or doxxing?? I believe the situation was handled with varying degrees if appropriateness. I also don't want racists to have a platform.

I'm not getting into anti/anti-anti debate because the critical thinking required is so beyond the nuance of Tumblr discourse and the number of people I trust to earnestly engage on the subject from either camp is extremely small.

Do with this what you will. I can't stop you, but please don't reblog. This is for my followers so we can sort out who wants me around and who I want around.

EDIT: You know what, fuck it, reblog this bc I think what I said about Honest Hearts and power fantasy is important. I also want to say it’s been said by Indigenous people in the Fallout fandom and even by fallout creators before me, just to be clear.

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now yall saying im new here and im nosy??? ive been here since 2018 sorry i dont know every single girl colby has been with yall are the nosy ones... and i dont care or want to know who yall are talking about its just annoying that yall are gatekeeping and saying yall dont want to give them attention and then keep talking about them it doesn't make sense

against probably my better judgement, i'm not gonna block you.

i will however turn off anon, because i'm done getting yelled out or belittled for having opinions or doing things in a way that others don't like. if you want to discuss or say the same thing to me with your username in full display, by all means, do so.

first off, i know i wasn't the one that called you nosy, but... you are nosy. WE ALL ARE. that's why any of the asks i get are gossip for the most part. we all want to know the deets that go on behind the scenes. some of you truly think i know what happens with colby, but in all honesty i don't. this was all meant to be fun and silly, bc again... NONE OF THIS INFORMATION IS IMPORTANT.

we're literally talking about whether or not colby has hooked up with someone. it's 1000% not deep or meaningful of a discussion at all.

and no offense, but you obviously care bc you keep messaging me about it. and i think the person meant you were new to this fanbase, the tumblr fanbase, not the fandom as a whole.

also, it can't be gatekept if it easily researchable, like you said it is.

and both you and the other anon are a little too hung up on the attention part and not on the part where i say i block out ppl's names so they don't get hate.

here, would you like to know all the girls colby has been connected to and assumed to have been with in some capacity? i've complied a list.

amber

shea

rosalie

halle

jessica

greta

stas

natalie

tanya

lilly

dana

iris

sara

andrea

bri

kayla

veronica

cara

arzaylea

aubrey

some of the ppl in this list aren't real, but i guess you're gonna have to figure that one out for yourself. i might have even missed some too, or purposefully left others off.

or who knows, maybe i'm lying.

and with that, anonymous is officially off :)