#so then I binged for a few days and gained 4 lbs

[serendiptiouseri]

Is it possible to loose 40 lbs in 30 days? and how? Help me out, I need to wear a bikini in 30 days and rn i weigh like 137 lbs; im trying to reach 106- 103 lbs. I was able to loose it before until i gained the weight back from binging (I have been binging for 11 months almost every day) but before i lost the weight and it took 4 months now i only have 30 days exact. What should i do?

I’d say it would be hard to loose that much but idk maybe it’s possible. I’m currently 20 days binge free and it’s the longest I’ve gone in years. My tip would be to go for high volume foods like cabbage, cauliflower, strawberries. No added sugars!! Anyway if you eat like every other, every third day, and work out some, it might be possible.

Since you’ve been binging for a while, you could probably shock your body and loose weight quickly at first. I’d say fasting if you can since it doesn’t impact your metabolism in the beginning as far as I know. When you’ve starved for long your metabolism becomes basically non existent TT

So basically, eat every few days or fast for longer periods and when you eat, make sure it’s food you can eat lots of. Also drink water while you eat, like 30 oz. It will make you feel full.

Good luck!

[brainrot71]

Starting this today!

Day 1: hw:140lbs / 63.5kgs

low weight: 94lbs / 42.6kgs

current weight: 98.2lbs / 44.5kgs

Goal weight: 90 lbs / 40 kgs

Day 2: I’m 5’2 and honestly yeah I love my height, I feel like it makes me super cute and I can wear heels without being taller than anyone really so I’m happy with it.

Day 3: I would kill to have her body’s side profile literally a dream 😭

Day 4: greatest fear about weight loss is honestly not being able to stop, or just gaining it all back one day and none of this being worth it

Day 5: I’m genuinely doing it to be beautiful, nothing in my life means anything if I’m not beautiful I know that sounds terrible but I genuinely mean that. I’m only doing it for myself.

Day 6: yes :( I think it’s just because I get so hungry sometimes that it doesn’t seem worth it, that I’m not gonna gain from it, that I’ll be different. But obviously that’s never true. I’m actually currently dealing with the consequences of one.

Day 7: nope and even if she caught on I don’t think she’d do anything tbh I’m a grown adult

Day 8: just a few bed workouts every day

Day 9: no not yet thank god

Day 10: I haven’t given up any foods tbh

Day 11: I don’t have one yet

Day 12: I eat a variety of things

Day 13: trying to do it healthy ish

Day 14: 90 - 85 lbs

Day 15: no, but I’d heavily consider turning vegetarian but I don’t think I can cut out dairy and eggs

Day 16: around 2 years ish ago?

Day 17: yes

Day 18: pastries :(

Day 19: today lol

Day 20: fasting and high res

Day 21: I’m actually not sure I need to re check my sizes

Day 22: 94 lbs, fucking metabolism days I really hope I drop again soon I know I can make it to 90 pounds

Day 23: eh no not really tbh I feel like the media doesn’t show the body type I want that often

Day 24: I’m not sure how to respond to that ngl

Day 25: yes, one time I binged and I felt so disgustingly full after I tried to throw up, it was awful, it didn’t work and I just felt even worse after do not start purging.

Day 26: finally feeling skinny, learning how to maintain, being beautiful

Day 27: drinking ALOT of water or 0 cal drinks I promise it helps a lot

Day 28: yes, I think it makes me look more like a doll

Day 29: a monster high / brats doll

Day 30: 94 lbs back to my low weight finally 🤧

[inorganicpixie]

I really think so long as I stay consistent with working out and running and trying to just eat healthy/normal I could probably get myself down to a 27.5 in waist by the time my partner and I go to a concert in 5weeks.

27 in would be totally preferable of course. But I’m trying to be realistic on how things don’t always work out the way I’d like with trying to eat healthy normal and not res or binge.

Then again the few days leading up to the event maybe I will just do like a mini diet to give myself and little extra boost of confidence 🤷‍♀️

I have done stricter dieting for a week or two before a specific event previously. Like before I go to a music festival. I loose a 2-4 extra and I don’t eat as much that day except maybe right before the event. I don’t worry as much about being hungry or food when I’m at concerts or festivals since I’m usually preoccupied with dancing and having fun. Then I just go back to my usual way of eating. I often gain the few lbs back within a few weeks after. But I still am glad I was able to look slightly slimmer specifically for an event.

[1800batty]

† 11.13.2023 - monday †

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☆ 𝚕𝚒𝚖𝚒𝚝: 0

☆ 𝚠𝚎𝚒𝚐𝚑-𝚒𝚗

↳ 243.6lbs // 110.5kg // 37.0bmi

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🦇 𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚔𝚏𝚊𝚜𝚝

↳ N/A

total: 0 calories

🦇 𝚕𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚑

↳ Binge: ↳ Ravioli ~ 700 cals ↳ Chicken nuggets ~ 440 cals ↳ French fries ~ 300 cals ↳ Chick-fil-a sauce ~ 400 cals ↳ Pepperoni ~ 450 cals

total: 2290 calories

🦇 𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚛

↳  N/A

total: 0 calories

🦇 𝚎𝚡𝚝𝚛𝚊

↳ Banana ~ 105 cals ↳ 2 reeses' cups ~ 160 cals ↳ Chocolate bar ~ 100 cals

total: 365 calories

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🦇 𝚠𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛

↳ ?

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🦇 𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚙𝚜

↳ 12,055

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🦇 𝚎𝚡𝚎𝚛𝚌𝚒𝚜𝚎

↳ Weighted infinity hula hoop (50 minutes) ↳ Pushups (35) ↳ Situps (20) ↳ Arm circles (100 forwards, 100 backwards) ↳ Overhead arm weight lifts (80) ↳ Bicep curls (100 each arm, 200 total) ↳ Backwards chair pushups (20) ↳ Just dance (40 minutes) ↳ Pacing (2+ hours)

total: -2,705 calories

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> † 𝚝𝚘𝚝𝚊𝚕: ~ 2,655c

> ☆ 𝚕𝚒𝚖𝚒𝚝 𝚖𝚎𝚝?: ☑️ (by net cals)

> † 𝚝𝚘𝚝𝚊𝚕 𝚋𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚎𝚍: 2,705c

> ☆ 𝚗𝚎𝚝: -50c

> † 𝚋𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚍? ☑️

> ☆ 𝚙𝚞𝚛𝚐𝚎𝚍? ? (does exercise count lolz)

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☆ 𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚎𝚜 ☆

Actively self sabotaged bc it was day 1 of new diet and I'm dumb lolz. But I worked out for at least 4 hours and was able to burn all of it off, although I did almost collapse a few times anddd had a couple breakdowns during it when I felt like I wasn't going to be able to burn it all off. But I managed to do it somehow woooo. I really wanted to purge (via vom) but I stopped doing that earlier this year and I rlly don't wanna go back to that, plus I've been super paranoid about my teeth lately, but at least it's forcing me to work out. Which is nice, I've been wanting to gain muscle lately. And I actually ended up not gaining a single thing from the binge, I maintained completely somehow :DD I estimated the cal amounts for a lot of what I ate, as well as how much I ate bc I actually don't remember exactly so it's probably not the most accurate. But ik for a fact it was 2000-3000 cals. Hoping the rest of the diet goes better, I'm trying to hit a gw by thanksgiving,,, a goal weight that is like 14 lbs away, with like 10 days to do it sooo wish me luck lololz

† 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚙𝚘 †

[fadingstarryskies]

my trip was nice! and there was a place that had sugar free boba flavors (obv boba still has sugar but the flavor i got was nice. then i got half sweet thai tea the next time)

I got a bee themed teapot its sooo cute (free gift of 6 cookies from it i just had one lemon cookie but so good) and at another place it was free gift if spend 20 idk what I bought but the gift was bee themed oven mitt!!! i luv bees

tw 3d

(meticulous but inaccurate calorie counting and fretting)

between fri afternoon and sun evening I gained 7.5 lbs? evem w binging it never fluctuated that much? but this morning after I had egg and butter toast It was back to 4 lb higher. so maybe once I digest everything and eat fiber but less than 1000 ill be back down. im sure I "for real" at least gained a lb tho but thats fine well just wait till tmr morning.

fri I fasted 24 hrs then just had a bit of chicken quesadilla from costco NOT a restaurant so it was a healthy day.

sat. breakfast abt 400 cals high protein bc they had low cal turkey sausage and egg white omelette! i still had a pancake tho

then I got an americano with sugar free syrup and skim milk. didnt count after this but I had a few bites of piecr of lemon pound cake which I finished that night so lets say thats 500 cal.

then sushi I just had a roll and 3 small pc sashimi and hot tea so lets say 700 not as bad as if we went literally anywhere else it had a lot of fish per roll hence protein.

then got the teapot and hence the cookie and sugar free boba lets say 300 cal.

restaurant with chicken dinner and i was gonna have salad w piece of chicken had long ass waiting line so like we went home and ordered food ;-; which was half calzone and 2 sliders for me but then I also became in binging mode and had macarons we brought before and hot cocoa and rest of the cake and a piece of quesadilla that was left. so uh yeah idk cals at this point but I was already at 2000 so lets say 3000 for the whole day.

then yesterday had the egg white omelette thai tea boba - 500

chicken burger - 600

and pizza - 600

so I guess that SHOULD be just above maintaining and I worked out both days. unhealthy food but like. it was really only one day of actual binging I should not have gained more than a lb hope im okay pls pls

I rly wanted to just starve today but I was workin on essay so HAD to have the toast and will also have to have a bit of rice later hope I can at least fast 18 hrs after that

need to buy NOTHING at the airport except maybe a water

[broken--dreams]

Losing weight sensibly and a rant against most ana-tips.

How many posts have you seen about ED people who have been playing the ana game for years but are still around, still playing, yoyo-ing between a bunch of pounds over weight and a bigger bunch overweight.

You know what we call people who succeed at the ana-game? Corpses. Dead people.

You cannot live on 500 calories a day for a long period of time. Go onto google images and search for holocaust survivors. These people were living on 800 to 1200 calories per day and *still* they were dying.

How many people start an X day fast? And guess what happens when they break down, or finish? Binge city.

If you are a 150 pound person at 25% body fat. you can lose about 1 pound a week with few health consequences. That's a 500 calorie deficit per day.

Deficit. Not total. If someone your age, sex, height, weight has a TDEE of 2300 calories per day. (See https://www.sailrabbit.com/bmr/ for TDEE) Then you eat 1800 per day to SLOWLY lose weight.

Remember: You didn't get fat overnight. You won't get thin overnight either.

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There is no end

What?

If you start dieting, it doesn't stop when you reach your goal weight. It just lessens in intensity.

If you have to count calories every day and weigh every day to lose weight, as soon as you stop, you WILL gain again. So many stories of people who took two years to lose a hundred pounds -- and regained it in 4 months.

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Second thing: Your body constantly breaks down protein and puts it back together. Your body can also turn protein into energy. This is why you need a certain amount of protein per day. Replace the stuff that got burned by mistake.

Now if you are in a calorie deficit, you are going to burn more of the protein while it's in the dissasmebled, partially reassembled state. (Visualize a bunch of Despicable Me minions that are assigned the job of fueling the boiler. They are told to bring back glucose molecules, but if they can't find one, they bring back an amino acid instead.)

Net result: When you are on a diet, the deficit is made up from protein and fat. So eat extra protein when you are trying to lose weight. The faster you are trying to lose, the more protein you need. Aim or .75 gram per pound of body weight. 1 gram/lb won't hurt. Milk protein powder and egg whites, soy protein are ways to increase protein without huge increases in calories -- important if you share meals with other people.

***

A better way:

This is more complicated, and requires a spreadsheet.

A: Track date, your daily calories, and your weight on a spreadsheet. After a week, enter a formula in column E E8=Average(B2:B8)

Do a similar column for F:. These two columns are your average calories for the previous week, and your average weight for the previous week. These help smooth out the variations in weight from different hydration, bowel movements, water retention from salty food. And it also smooths out the occasional sin in what you eat.

B: Use this calculator https://www.bizcalcs.com/body-fat-navy/ to find your body fat percentage. Let's say I weigh 200 pounds, and that when I put in the numbers here, I find I have a body fat percentage of 30%. That means I have 60 pounds of fat. Now I know I need some fat, but I'm going to aim for 10% BF. That means I have 40 lbs of unwanted fat.

C: I can safely lose 3% of my fat per week. 3% of 40 = 1.2 lbs. This means instead of losing 1 pound per week, I can lose 1.2 pounds per week. 600 cal/day deficit instead of 500.

D: Periodically I remeasure, and recalcuated. Some time has passed. I am now at 180 pounds. My new body fat percentage is 24% I have 43 pounds of fat. 23 of them unwanted. So now I can lose 3% of 23 = 0.7 lbs/week

You can see what's going to happen. As I get closer to my goal, I approach it more and more slowly.

THIS IS NOT A BAD THING.

Oh, sure, you won't reach your goal, but it will ease your way into a pattern of eating that you will use for the rest of your life. (You can cheat this a bit by setting your goal a few pounds lower than where you really want to be.)

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Third thing: Don't purge. It doesn't reduce your calories much. But if you do, this will reduce the damage:

A: Put a couple teaspoons of baking soda (NOT baking powder) in a glass of water. Drink. This will neutralize stomach acid, and keep you from destroying your esophagus.

B: If your vomit still tastes sour, you didn't used enough baking soda. Rinse your mouth with more baking soda solution to get rid of the vile vomit taste.

C: You can use baking soda instead of toothpaste to neutralize remaining acid on your teeth. It also hides the smell of vomit. Finish with normal mouth wash.

More help:

Reddit.com has a raft of diet groups. The best one is /r/loseit. There are other with a sharp focus on particular diets. One Meal a Day; Intermittent fasting; Keto.

All dieting revolves on Calories In < Calories Out. But neither is easy to measure. Ultimately the average of the scale over a long period of time (weeks) is the only way to be sure.

[5h4rk1zzl3]

mmmm im tryna avoid binging rn and am bored and we know how tht leads to it soooooo im gonna do all 30 days in one post :)

day 1- idk the exact tbh. dont have a weigh scale at my house bc everyone else is naturally skinny but me, im gonna try and buy one soon tho.

day 2- around 5'4 ehhh im not terribly mad about it but i definitely would prefer to be taller.

day 3- a pic of my thinspiration and why:

i really like how their shoulders are boney & the skinny limbs & the slight abs omg & the collar bones AHHHH

day 4- tbhhh i have quite a few fears:

-i wont look how i wanna look at my ugw

-stretch marks wont fade enough & will still be just as bad when im skinny

-saggy skin :/ im loosing around 60 lbs so i think that might happen idk tho

-people wont even realize i lost weight??? idk i feel like ppl arent even gonna realize for some reason bc i only wear all baggy clothes anyways idk makes no sense cos u can still tell but whtever

-ppl will still view me as the fat sister.... uh idk i just always have been it and i feel like ill still be viewed as it even when im skinny

-ill gain it all back ¿¿ kinda cliche but it already happened to me and i dont wanna let it happen it time.

day 5- yeah im doing it for myself mostly but theres alotta reasons like the main one being i used to be skinny and was so much happier and more comfortable then... but theres alotta smaller reasons like maybe get more (good) attention, get praise from ppl, can wear better clothes, idk not feel so insecure

day 6- yeahhhhhhhhh uhhh i think mostly it happens when i get mad and then i cant help myself :| i gotta work on that but ive been pretty good with it for the past 2 months actually i have binged a fee times but each time i worked out enough to kinda even it out i feel like (if tht even makes sense)

day 7- yeah but they think im doing it healthily because i lie abt my cals

day 8-mostly running on a treadmill

day 9- uhmmm no not rlly besides my parents... actually yeah maybe some of my exes friends :|

day 10- time tbh... the amount of time i spend working out is insane im so behind on all my fkn school work

day 11- idk i dont rlly keep track of blogs i kinda use pinterest for thinspo mostly

day 12-alot of string beans, strawberries & tht 45 calorie toast

day 13- its been pretty healthy because i wanted to avoid going down a spiral again. (eating 1500 working out for 1.5 hours) but im seeing no results and i been doing this for 2 months and now i feel myself starting to slip. ive been eating under 500 for the past week and starting to work out for 2-4 hours a day

day 14- 95, idk i was supposed to reach it by the end of july but now i think it may take alot longer :/

day 15- no

day 16- 2 months ago i used to be pretty skinny march of 2020 and then covid happened and i gained like 40 lbs in a year and now i wanna get back down

day 17- idk?????? sometimes i think i do but no im not diagnosed, like last year i used adderall to loose weight and idk if that counts as one but i wish i could do tht again but cant get my hands on any

day 18- bagels omg. so high in cals. so yummy. like i cant afford it bc ONE is 290 cals and then i always put butter so another 80 (relatively low cal butter)

day 19- its actually been a while so i had to check the door dash app lol. but may 1st i ordered popeyes :,) mostly for my family

day 20- none. i dont diet i just count calories

day 21- idk?????? i wear xlarge hoodies & sweats everyday

day 22-i think around 120, covid and a mix of my bf breaking up wm caused me to be super depressed and i gained sm up to 170

day 23- yeah i wanna look like all the perfect ppl i see

day 24- i dont like it like idk why ppl would be pro why would u wish it upon anyone.

day 25- yeahhhhhhhhh i did before but i learned now not to because it honestly doesnt get rid of all the calories & leaves u hungrier but i did a year ago

day 26- TBHHHHH having sex again LMAOO i havent since i got fat bc im too insecure

day 27- not well :|

day 28- YES. my mom & sister both have it and i want it SO BAD. i didnt even have it a year ago when i was at my lowest weight which is so annoying

day 29- sebastian stan😍😍😍😍😍LMAOOOOOO

day 30- 10 facts ab me

1- im scared of driving a car LMAOO

2- total insomniac

3- can run a 5 min mile (at 0 incline tho)

4- read ALOT

5- obsessed w marvel

6- in love w sebastian stan :,)

7- love jetskiing

8- gonna move to nyc in a year

9- love coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

10- currently am failing 4/6 of my classes

[healthyhopefully]

Im Back...

it’s been a couple of years since I’ve really used this account because i hit my goal weight of 145. i maintained a weight between 145-155 for about two years after hitting my goal up until now, the past 3 to 4 maybe even 5 months (its hard to gauge time these days lol) I’ve gained more weight than i have wanted it started out me trying to eat to gain muscle but it turned into over eating and under exercising i’m currently 166 pounds as of today that’s after eating I know i shouldn’t weigh myself after eating but i know my body. im about 20 pounds heavier today than i was this day last year, i try not to be too hard on myself because of quarantine and covid has made this year a lot different from what anyone couldve expected. im just back to try and keep myself motivated and lose this little bit of weight i know i can do this ive lost more before so this shouldnt be too hard my goal date is somewhere around valentines day lol im wanna feel sexy again by then my weight gain has brought me back to an old place i dont like even tho 15 or 20 pounds may not seem like a lot to some the feeling of my clothes being too tight hurts a lot i dont wanna to feel like that anymore ive felt that feeling plenty of times in this life lol im good off that so im getting it together right now  

IM BACK AGAIN💀 and heavier than ever before I’m currently 230 which is crazy asf I had got to 235 but I was also getting my period so idk if that contributed lol ,a lot of things have added to this weight gain but I’m back on my health journey and I want to feel good about myself again I would love to just be 166 again I thought I was huge then but I’ve gained so much in a short amount of time. I love myself and I’m done treating my body like trash I’ve been attempting to eat healthier and lower calories for the past 2 and a half maybe 3 weeks , I’ve been tracking calories and I starting exercising again a few days ago . I feel alot better already just knowing I’m in control because I’ve felt so out of control these past few months I definitely know wishing the past 3-4 months I’ve gained 30 lbs which has me at my heaviest so it made me do some introspection I know I’m an emotional eater and I went way overboard I got trapped in a terrible cycle that I don’t want to go through again. Covid was the initial trigger to my binge eating issues and basically my addiction to sugar got reignited, before that I had kept my weight off for over 2 +years until the quarantine and things have just went downhill from there. I had got trapped at a job I hated after the quarantine which made me eat more to numb my feelings and make me feel like I have more joy in my life that I was dreading back then. But enough rambling, I just want to use this as a journey or me talking about my feelings and documenting my weight loss journey again… the first time was so hard and this time is gonna be even harder but I just know I can do it, I don’t want this weight to define me I don’t feel like I’m who I can be . My whole heart is in this fitness journey .

[imbecilenumber1]

okay, so the sitiation for the mo. cause shits been fucked for the past few years and i gotta do something

did the whole ana thing when i was 13 in 2017. in 2018 (bout six months later) was hospitalized and did the whole shtick for 5 months (i forced myself to “get better” real fast bc i’m trans and nobody knew and being in a girls facility was NOT helping) and basically have been steadily gaining weight ever since.

i’m tall, so weight distribution isn’t terrible, but this quarantine i basically binged every night, so i was 200, but i got weighed a few days ago and am now 230. i needed a fucking change. turns out i hate being fat.

so. i’m back on the wagon now. fell off for a while. only problem is, and this is why when i left res i didn’t immediately start again, i live with my parents and one is like pro recovery has an eating disorder of her own, and one gets sus at literally ANYTHING that hints at restriction, despite the fact i’m practically obese and need to fucking drop some shit.

so my current plan is to be waaaaaaay more subtle than last time, which i actually had no idea how to do bc i have zero chill and i didn’t know i needed to hide an ed. thought i could just lose 80 in 4 months and no one would notice. but my plan rn is to go under 1000, preferably around 600, when they aren’t looking. not going above 1200 when they aren’t looking. it’s shit, i know, it’s way more than last time, but it kinda has to do for now until i lose the absolute BAGGAGE of fat rolls and arms and legs and ugh. i’ve started going on pretty decent walks every day for abt an hr, which burns abt 400-500. so i have abt a total of 100-700 actually being in my body every day. i started this abt 4 days ago and it’s been GREAT. the walks are way easier to work in than i thought, especially when my dad walks with me, and then i also get to use spending time with him as an excuse (which i also genuinely like spending time with him— the other option is him being at work and me going alone, the excuse is like an added bonus). i’m thinking of working in second hour walks when they go to bed, which should be pretty easy. the wake up schedule is way late now bc of virtual school, so i can go to bed pretty late and no one worries. that should be abt 400-500 cal, i don’t want to do more than that rn even though i prob should.

my aim is to basically lose abt 70 lbs by summer, which would put me at 160, which is okay. then i go away to summer camp for two months and i’m going to be cit and no one watches your fucking meal intake like they do when you’re a camper and that’s gonna be fucking great bc then i can restrict all i fucking want, and you naturally have to walk all over the place there, so i burn cals that way, and i can also excersice way late there (i have to be honest. i absolutely fucking hate aerobics or weight training or running or whatever. i rly only like walking. maybe, if i get some muscle by walking a lot in the first month or two, i’ll up it to a jog to get things going faster. but honestly, walking will do for now).

i’m just rly fucking hoping the 90 online weight loss calculators fucking didn’t lie. right now i won’t know, i’m flying blind bc after my 2017 stint all the scales in either house were thrown away. fingers crossed.

[angesaurus]

Well, it’s Saturday night and I’m alone with both kids. I figure now is as good a time as any to do my challenge post for FMLS90!

1. My baby girl - Cecilia. We joke she is the grumpiest baby but lately she’s been lots of smiles and I’m loving it. I’m definitely her favorite and I’m not gonna lie - I love it 😂 she is definitely my special little princess and I can’t wait to do so much fun girly stuff with her. I can’t believe she’s going to be 2 months on Monday!!

2. My first baby - Gavin. This kid is my sunshine. He makes my world so bright and fun. Way too smart and knows how to charm me. Dad is his favorite but he and I have a goofy relationship and I hope he always wants to hang out with me.

3. This guy. My husband. Some days I want to punch him, most days I want to jump his bones 🤷🏻‍♀️ we’re so different on the surface but deep down we are way more alike than we like to admit. We’ve been together 12 and a half years - it’s been a roller coaster but this guy is my number one and that will never change.

4. Oh, Max... our poor old dog. He is senile, goofy, a pain in the ass but I know when he’s gone our family will feel a little empty.

5. My favorite quote. It gets me through the day, most days. Its from one of the HP movies (I am pretty sure it’s not in the books. Correct me if I’m wrong lol) and it’s just always spoken to me. Anytime I’m having a rough time (depression/anxiety) I just think of it.

6. I haven’t felt like yoga much these days but when i do it, I know I should be doing it. I miss standing on my head. One of my goals is to get back to this level. I wasn’t at my thinnest but I was probably the healthiest I’ve ever been, mentally and physically. I need to stop thinking about it and just practice.

7. This was from my very first half marathon. I was probably one of the last 20-30 finishers. They were cleaning up the finish line. The only people who paid attention and cheered me on were my husband, parents and my best friend and her mom. I was happy to finish (under 3 hours) but it was disheartening. So I tried again two more times (beat my time, twice! And ran my 3rd with a friend), got a tattoo to remind myself what I did, and ran my best 5k - running was so fun for me but I made it too competitive and I lost it. Then I got pregnant and fat again so I’ve never been able to get back into it. I’ve tried. Most recently, in September yet I did c25k twice and couldn’t bring myself to do it anymore, feeling my fat body practically break the treadmill. So I don’t think I’ll ever really run again. My heart just isn’t in it. Maybe one day. But I still like to remember this time when I was super in shape and ran and had fun.

Other things about me:

In 2011 I lost 60 lbs for my wedding. Since my wedding (July 2012) I’ve gained back all 60 plus a good 10-20 more. Its embarrassing. But I haven’t really had that motivation. I’ve dealt with hard depression and anxiety and it’s caused me to make bad decisions that led to weight gain. I have no desire to be that thin again and I accept that my body is different at 32. I grew and birthed 2 children so of course it’s different. So it’s ok my body has changed. But being unhealthy is not ok anymore. I look in the mirror and I am really unhappy. Happiness begins with me (which is why I need the yoga) and I need to remind myself every damn minute. I used to be a daily meditator but pregnancy wrecked me so I stopped. Been trying to get back into that as well. Hoping to do it from 9/30 to the end of the challenge.

I don’t have a lot of friends. My social anxiety has really gotten the best of me the last couple years. But I have a few and that’s what matters. I’m close with my parents and my brother and I have started to have an actual relationship now. I’m trying to stay close to them because I know one day they won’t be there.

I love tattoos (I have 5 - but sat 6 different times), wine (Pinot), reading, trying to sleep, and my thing lately is to binge watch sitcoms. I have an office job and it’s OK. I’m trying to decide if I want to stay there “forever” or not.

I want to lose some weight but I really just want to feel healthy again and be a good role model for my kids.

So yeah. Here we go. 🌻

[fatghostboi]

Day 1: uhh so my scales are fucked I think but cw: 143.4 (I think it's mainly water weight lmao) and I wanna be 100lbs maybe 90lbs

Day 2: 5'3, I would wanna be a bit taller maybe at least 5'5 or 5'6 hhh

Day 3:

I want their legs. My legs have always been so big and I'm jealous. I don't want my legs to look femme fuck.

Day 4: the clothes I do like on me won't fit, or I'll have more curves. I know ill look more curvy, but I can hide that more I think. Or I'll just gain it all again fuck

Day 5: I want to lose weight to be good enough, for people to look at me and think I finally look good or even that maybe I did have a problem when they all turned me down. To look masculine enough and to have masculine features. To finally be good looking rather than the fat trans friend who looks too femme because of their fucking baby face with chub.

Day 6: I do and it's usually because I'm in a destructive headspace. I try not to often but yeah I do.

Day 7: no they don't. Mums never noticed, and the one time she did she took me to the doctors for depression thinking nothing of the food, then goes ahead and tells me I'm not depressed that I just get down sometimes when all the signs are there lmao.

Day 8: walk. My disabled ass cannot really work out and really shouldn't walk as much as i do when I do but my Ed can't help it, I love seeing the numbers on my watch go up and up.

Day 9: yes all the time. As a kid I was obese and overweight and I used to get called so many things. One thing that stuck with me was obese monkey. Good Times. Oh and the fact my ex said I run over my dog with my tree trunk legs... Ya know a few days after my dog just got killed but sure.

Day 10: probably my social life. I've lost my social life due to physical and mental illness. Everyone wants to go out and eat and I just don't want to. But also cooking. I miss cooking good meals rather than looking at meals as just calories I shouldn't consume.

Day 11: I don't have a favourite oops they're more on Instagram

Day 12: egg, egg whites, rice, toast, wheetabix, porridge, veggie sausages, chicken nuggets sometimes, a shit ton of veg like the amount of brocoli I consume lmao. Snacks wise sometimes the odd biscuit, usually carrots, houmous or just nothing.

Day 13: mainly unhealthy but sometimed I try to do it healthily and get no results so I get pissed.

Day 14: 100-90 lbs and I honestly don't know. I've failed so far but I fucking want to so bad. My first big goal is getting down to 120lbs so

Day 15: I'm not but I try to be. I would definitely consider being vegetarian as going vegan would probably affect my chronic illness worse due to the lack of vitamins I would get. I'm very picky with food but I do love to eat vegan food when i can.

Day 16: I was about like 10 lmao

Day 17: I mean not diagnosed but probably lmao

Day 18: chocolate and noodles. I can't help myself i still eat them. The noodles I have are 269 cals per a packet and that's why I eat those ones gah

Day 19: about an hour ago? I had 2 biscuits with my coffee so I didn't binge today lmao

Day 20: AIT starts off easy, gets harder down the line. Never completed the whole thing but I have lost loads of weight from it before. Except this time? Idk like my body shows I have but scales say nah

Day 21: ew. So naturally I have very big hips, that's not fat that's bone sadly, so in men's jeans I'm a 30waist in females I'm a size 10. Mens tops I'm a M if I want it baggy or it's a tight fit cause S makes me feel gross in tight fit. But if I want it to look decent I'm a S and I would fit into an XS if my shoulders weren't so broad but I'm not complaining on that lmao

Day 22: 122lbs. I gained this time around because of the medication I was put on, I really want to be off it because I also don't wanna get pregnant. But it's also causing issues so I may be put on a different one soon I hope

Day 23: yes and no. All the trans guys that pass are usually very skinny so I thought I need to be to pass

Day 24: ugh. I can understand if someone is pro Ana to themseleves because uh that's an eating disorder lmao, but if you want to encourage others to starve themselves and be unhealthy? You're fucked up.

Day 25: I have a lot. I can't remember my first experience because it was so long ago but I have the odd memories of purging in fast food places after I was taken out to eat.

Day 26: being good enough and passing

Day 27: I'm okay being around it cause I usually have good self control, I like baking a lot too, and I'll usually eat one or two then leave it.

28: yess. So hoodies will look great on me

29: everything's beautiful on everyone else except for on me so.

30: I'm 17, trans, and a wreck. Also my stats are the same cause I did this in one day lmao

[dianareagon]

#Goals ....or #Habits?

I am an extremely habitual person.  I get in so-called ruts.  I eat the same things every single day. I drink the same coffee. I wear the exact same outfits every day and do my hair and makeup the exact same way.  I go to the exact same grocery stores and buy the exact same things.  I have a routine on the weekends where we get the usuals at the doughnut store and take the same route through the puppy dog store after going to the exact same Y (why even try the brand new other one that’s equally as close?). And habitual can be great!  At the start of the year like many others, I set up goals both personally and with my family.  I make a new goal for how much I want to save for the next year, how many days per week I want to make sure I work out and how much further I want to be able to run.  I have new service opportunities I want to take part in, projects I want to complete around the house, and relationships I want to work on.  I talk to my three little girls about their personal goals and things they want to do as a family which has included weekly game nights, going out for ice cream, serving together, reading more, less screen time, etc.  And as a whole, we do pretty well being mindful and intentional during the year with these in mind....forming new habits!  It’s why my savings account looks the way it does and my towels are folded the exact same way every single time I do them.

In fact, one of my goals was to go 70 days with no alcohol whatsoever to just gain a clearer mind and focus....maybe lose a few of the 20 lbs I’d gained in the last year, too!!  I’m one of those people who skipping wine a day or two here and there is no big deal, but I really do look forward to that “reward” at the end of the day.  I’ve done the so called “checks” here and there for a week or two and or a month, but never more than that unless I’ve been pregnant.  For me, it’s not just a reward or a nice way to unwind, but it’s the sole grown up activity in a life spent 24/7 with kids......mine and other people’s kids.  But let’s be honest, it is also a habit.  

And habits can be as hard to break as they are to form!  Thankfully, in the last 46 days, I’ve only been really tempted to pour a glass twice, but even those weren’t that hard to pass up.  However, I also had a great intentions of working diligently on my growth both physically and spiritually.  My goal of feeding my body better and not binging has only gotten worse in the last couple weeks.  And while I have taken steps spiritually by taking a Biblical Doctrine class, I’ve been neglecting my that time of self-reflection and prayer I’m usually doing constantly throughout the day.  And believe you and me, becoming one only of head knowledge and not constantly taking a posture of humility is a  Pharisaical path and the LAST thing I want to do!  I want my heart to be malleable and continually bending willingly at the nudge of the Holy Spirit.  I want my class to work my heart and not just my mind.  I’ve experienced the scars of that Pharisaical mindset and not only do I NOT want to put my kids through that, but I don’t want that to be the mark of my ministry here on earth.  But really, I don’t want it to be the type of relationship I have with my God.   So here we are.  I have 24 days left of my 70 and my goal is to be on here and write something.  Maybe a prayer, something I’m being convicted of, a verse that is really sticking out to me, a failure, a triumph, something I’m grateful for, a way I see the Lord moving...... just something to keep God at the forefront and me focused on why I’m really here on this earth and the relationship that is the MOST important to nurture.  Keep me accountable!  Help me reform this habit!

Mt 4:4  Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'"

Dt. 11:18-19  Fix these words of min in your hearts and minds, tie them as a sign on your hands and bind them on your foreheads.  Teach them to your children, speaking about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up

Jms 1:22  But don’t just listen to God’s word. You must do what it says. Otherwise, you are only fooling yourselves.

[adayinthelifeofb]

Welcome to my life.

Hi everybody (anybody...) !

Opening this blog was a big step for me. I have been thinking of doing it for a couple of weeks now but I couldn't find the courage. I wanna introduce myself a little, even if no one ever sees this post.

Hello, I am B, 24 years old, I have two ginger cats (my baby on my profile pic). I've dealt with anxiety my entire life, I am diagnosed with BPD since I was 17, no medication, no therapy (lmao I need it). Also diagnosed with ADHD since I was like 5, unmedicated again (lmaoooo). I dealt with severe depression for an entire decade, from 2009 to 2020 (11 to 22). I got out of it (unmedicated too, listen, I said I was a mess). I dealt with alcoholism when I was 17 (2015), got sober, on my one year anniversary I used drugs for the first time and became heavily addicted to speed (early 2017). I heavily relied on it for 4 years, greatest love of my life, helped me stay alive. Got to my breaking point on February 9th 2021 and I celebrated my 2 years anniversary last month !!! Hardest thing I've ever done. Haven't popped a single pill since.

I was an anorexic during my addiction, everything turned around food consumption, calories burning. Would only eat once a week for months at a time, on and off for 4 years. When I stopped using, I started binge eating. The past two years have been uncontrollable for me. The first year, I went in a state of mind where it was better stuffing my face rather than popping a pill. I gained 100 lbs in the process, in 12 months. Not even exagerating. I gained another 20 lbs during the second year. Two weeks ago, I said enough was enough. I was at 119.5 kgs. I started doing these 2 videos on youtube, cardio for plus size people, 20 minutes. I did 7 sessions in 11 days. Let's see how it's gonna go !!

I have a boyfriend, my soulmate, the love of my life. I met him summer 2017. It has been a rocky relationship to say the least. When we met, he was more of an addict than I ever have been. We were a couple after 5 days, moved in after 3 weeks. He got clean late 2018. He has been my anchor ever since we met. He is my biggest emotional support. Every year our couple is getting stronger and stronger, every year is better than the last. I don't know how I'd survive without him in my life. He was/still is my first ever boyfriend/relationship. I've never wanted to pursue dating, until I met him, I was 19, he was 20. He was the same, never had a girlfriend either. Going through mindless, unemotional sex with unknown faces. When we met, we both knew. We were made to be together. It was hard but I would do it all over again and again and again.

I graduated high school in 2014 at 16, I never did anything else with my life. Only worked at shitty fast food jobs that made me wanna die. I went back to school last august, in Infography. Found out it wasn't my place after 3 months, pursued Secretary instead. Started February 28th. I've been doing amazing so far.

I have a very small family. It's only my mom and sister. I have a brother but he lives very far away, we didn't stay in contact. My mom lives a couple hours away from me, she has preschool twin boys and she takes care of my grampa who has dementia since christmas 2019. My sister lives in another continent with her girlfriend since 2018, we keep in touch daily but she only comes around once a year for a few weeks.

Long post, but kinda explain every aspect of my life I could possibly write about in my future posts. I actually can't wait to start talking to myself ! This post got me all excited !!

[skiinywiitch]

The beginning

I figured I better set my starting point before I get too far into posting on here. There might be some spam upfront in the beginning as I’m trying to document as much as possible - rack up some accountability.

Long story short: Always been a bigger woman. Got married at 25 after college and divorced at 28 (in 2018). I gained about 60 lbs since 2012.

I have struggled with my weight and eating disorders in the past. From Anorexia to bulemia and, lately, binge eating. Have done things like take laxitives, diet pills, etc.

Last week, I met with a weight loss management doctor. After everything I’ve been through in the last few years, it is my time to do things the right way. To get myself healthy both in body and in mind.

It was a daunting and very educational meeting. I have a lot of issues: hypothyroid, higher than normal blood pressure, boarderline sleep apnea, high triglycerides. A lot of those things can be fixed with better diet and a lower weight. I get to keep they thyroid issue - that’s genetic 🤦🏻‍♀️

So we devised a plan:

Start meal prep on 2/11.

Max 1,500 calories

20-30g protein per meal

Max 40g carbs per meal

20-30g fiber per day

Must lose 8 lbs by our next appointment (which is 8 weeks away).

So 2/5 is my start day. And 2/11 is my meal prep start.

Starting weight: 232 lbs

Goal weight #1: 200 lbs

First check in 4/5.

Let’s do this!

[helloasha]

Getting Fit for Cosplay

Before anyone comes for me, let me just say I personally believe you should cosplay regardless of

Weight

Height

Body type

Age

Gender

Skintone

That being said I am personally choosing to lose weight and get in shape so I can look better in my cosplays. Because I want to. I am posting my weekly progress here as a way to hold myself accountable. I often get discouraged easily when it comes to weightloss/fitness. While I often enjoy working out my problem is eating and motivation. I am hoping that cosplaying and attending events will help keep me motivated. At the end of the day the goal is to be healthier and feel better about myself. Despite having hypothyroidism I want to find a way to manage my weight and gain more energy.

Fitness goals

Loose 30lbs by Con-alt-delete (12/14/18)

Exercise 6 times a week for 30mins with 1 rest day

Jog at least 2 of the 6 days (I hate running)

Drink 1 gallon of water a day

I choose these goals to achieve because i felt it was reasonable for my current fitness level. It has been a few weeks since I worked out consistently. So i thought it best to keep things simple starting out. For the first month I will probably do some body weight calisthenics. After chating with my doc she said that for me losing 2-3lbs a week would be healthy. This approximates to 8-12 lbs a month. I currently have 4 months to lose the weight and maintain it. I added jogging because I hate running currently. Why because i have asthma and huge boobs that no sports bra can handle. Or I at least haven't found one to contain them yet. In general running is great way to build endurance and improve your cardio vascular system, which is beneficial to an asthmatic. Also my doggo loves to run and I'd like to be able to keep up. Lastly I need to drink more water. At this present time I dont consume soda but I do drink ice tea more than I should.

Diet

My diet will be a vegetarian one. I don't eat eggs or milk but I do like cheese so I can't say I'm vegan. However, as I may have mentioned I struggle with binge eating. I have a bad habit of eating when I'm emotional or bored/tired. I also will starve myself at times. While I know neither of those are great I must admit it can be hard to not fall into old habits. According my MyFitnessPal my daily caloric intake should be 1380cal to lose 2lbs a week. I will record my meals there to help keep track.

Current stats

I must admit I'm quite embarrassed by these numbers. Even though I know it's just numbers and they shouldn't matter.

Weight: 215.3lbs

BMI: 33.7

Height: 5'7"

Water: 45.7%

Body Fat: 81.1lbs or 37.7%

Bust: 47'

Waist: 46'

Hips: 47'

Body Type: Mesomorph

These are the only ones I'll keep track of week to week. Weight ins will be on Fridays in the morning before I eat. Any more frequent then I'll become obsessive and that's not good for my mental health.

So there it is for all of Tumblr to see. Hopefully posting my progress here will motovate me and keep myself accountable. If you have any helpful tips/advice feel free to share it with me. Like I've said earlier I am by no means saying you HAVE TO look a certian way in order to be a cosplayer. This is something I'm doing for myself so I can be more confident and enjoy taking pictures. Wish me luck. Happy cosplaying.

[shylax]

1 Year Weight Loss Retrospective: 420+ lbs. to 293 lbs.

This is going to be a long read, so I’m going to insert a read more here:

I think the last time I was truly a normal weight was when I was 4 or 5. My parents were very lax about food and exercise. I liked to stay in and play video games more than play outside. I was never good athletically, so that made me less inclined to exercise. I always thought you had to eat foods you didn’t like in order to lose weight. I thought you had to eat perfectly right. I didn’t know about CICO until much later, or I would’ve done something about it sooner, most likely. I was just very hedonistic about food. My family went got fast food at least once a week, and I loved my chips and popcorn.

Last year, a friend invited me to go to an orchestral concert, and since they were playing songs from Pokemon, I was definitely in. Unfortunately, I didn’t take into account the walking we’d have to do. I was so easily exhausted after climbing one flight of stairs. We somehow made it, but I felt so embarrassed because I kept having to stop, sit down when a bench was available, and generally felt awful. I knew I had to do something, and I decided to lose weight. After looking at the loseit subreddit, I decided to put a plan into action on July 27 last year. That was the first day I started losing weight.

That day, I weighed 420.4 pounds, although it may have been even higher since that scale weighed about 10 pounds light compared to the scale I currently use. I hadn’t gone to the grocery yet, so I was using the food I still had on hand, but I made it work. I also started a walking progression, walking 5 minutes 3 times a week, and adding a couple of minutes every week.

I gradually made improvements on my diet, and I got to a point where I could walk so much more. I wanted to try something a bit more explosive, so I started Couch to 5K. My ankle kept getting sore, so I had to start it four different times, and one time I stopped and did DDP Yoga. But I stopped that because even though I liked the exercise, I didn’t feel like I was very good at the dynamic resistance thing. I’m still working my way through Couch to 5K.

My eating plan was pure calorie counting, and so far I’ve been eating TDEE - 1000, with adjusting my goal every 10 pounds so I don’t unwittingly stick myself on a plateau. I track everything with significant calories, I lazily track my diet drinks, and I don’t log my sugarless gum at all. (I’ve picked up a chewing gum habit, 2-4 pieces a day, at 3 calories a piece that’s only 6-12 more calories a day, and I burn some, if not all of it back chewing it.) I focus on getting as much protein as possible, but since I’m not much of a cook and also a picky eater, it can be hard to get optimal levels, but I am doing a lot better than I was before.

I also have a few rules for myself to help with weight loss. First is no liquid calories, largely meaning juice or full-calorie soda. Shakes are fine, since they do keep me full and provide me with nutrition. I don’t eat out of any container I haven’t already budgeted the full calorie amount for. I just can’t stop. If I wanted some chips, I would put it in a bowl so I know when to stop. (I rarely eat chips anymore.). Also, I log my food a couple of days in advance. It’s not practical for everyone, but I’m a creature of routine and like eating the same things every day. I also try to not go more than 6 hours without eating anything while awake, because extreme hunger can lead to binges. (Again, not to discredit intermittent fasting/OMAD - different strategies work for different people!)

When I started, I was the new guy on MyFitnessPal once again, slowly building my streak. I took it one day at a time. Days turned into weeks, weeks into months, and months into a year. I went from admiring people with longer streaks than me (and I still do!) to people starting to look up to me. I want to set a good example for other people. I want to not disappoint the people who have been following my journey.

I can do so much more now, 1 year later. Taking showers used to be a chore for me, now they’re no problem. My back hurt when I stood up for a long time, making going to the store a problem. Now going to the store is no problem, and I can make multiple trips up and down the stairs without being gassed if I have to. I ran for 25 minutes this morning! Running wasn’t even an option for me when I started, but now when I need it I have a little burst available.

If there’s one thing I want you to take from this post, is that everyone has the capability to lose, maintain, or gain to get to the weight they need to be. It’s just numbers and will. It’s not as easy as it sounds though, or everyone would be doing it already. But everyone can. They have that power within them.

Addenda:

Here’s my weight loss graph for the year:

The reason my weight went up a bit isn’t because I actually gained weight, but I switched scales, and this scale was more accurate, and it wouldn’t be worth it to adjust my previous weights. It does have a linear trend, but it’s very jagged. You will gain sometimes before you lose, even if you’re doing everything right.

Progress pictures:

Sadly I don’t have a proper 1 year ago picture, but this is the closest. I can’t believe I let myself go like that! It wasn’t as apparent to me when I didn’t see a picture like this. My arms and legs are thinner now, my belly is still big, but not as big, and I can feel my collarbones now! Obviously, I still have a long way to go, but look how far I’ve come!

How my diet has changed over the course of 1 year:

July 27, 2017:

El Monterey - Beef and Bean, Red Chili Burrito, 2 burrito (620)

Kroger - Shoestring Fries, 9 oz (45 pieces) (420)

Kroger - Ketchup, 2 tbsp (40)

Kroger - Penne Rigate Whole Wheat-whole Grain, 2.0025 cup dry  (561)

Kroger - High Fiber Oats & Chocolate Chewy Bars, 2 bar (320)

Kroger Fundaze Sundaes - Vanilla Cone, 1 cone (320)

Total: 2,281

July 27, 2018:

Kroger Peanut, Almond, and Dark Choc - Protein Bar, 1 bar (180)

Equate - Vanilla Shake, 1 can (180)

Hawaiian Punch - Single Water Mix In- Any Flavor- Sugar Free, 1 packet (10)

Powerade, 1 bottle (130) [Yeah, I accidentally got this instead of Powerade Zero. I’ll have to remember to get Zero next time.]

Kroger - Roasted Pumpkin Seeds, 0.33 cup  (160)

kroger - reduced calorie penne rigate, 6 oz (450)

I Can't Believe It's Not Butter - Original Spray, 5 sprays (0)

El Monterey - Chicken,Rice and Beans, 2 burritos (460)

Kroger - Vanilla Nonfat Greek Yogurt, 150 g (100)

Total: 1,670

So yeah, you don’t have to start out perfect when you start losing weight. I’m still not perfect with my choices now, but I’m doing a lot better, and that’s the main thing.