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Binged the last two days. But I’m feeling okay about it! Going to get back on track today. I did the majority of my holiday baking yesterday so now that everything is bagged up and put away temptation is a lot less! 😊

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Thigh gap coming back.

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Setting a short term goal of just dieting with only three cheat days (Christmas eve, Christmas and New Year’s Eve) until my drs appointment. Since it’s less than a month away I feel as though this is totally obtainable. Idc what I weigh at that appointment so long as it’s less than what I weighed when I last weighed myself.

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Hey guys I’m really fucking weird and socially awkward so if you need me, don’t, cuz I’m never committing to social things ever again I’m going to hide in my room forever goodbye

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Not in recovery, but not-not in recovery.

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I have a check up on the 8th of next month and so I’m setting that at a target to lose weight and hopefully gain some muscle (if they even check for that) to help with my metabolism.

I’ve basically stopped running. But I’m trying to get back into it and I’m going to push myself to do a lot more strength training in the mean time awhile I’m finding it harder to run.

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I finally successfully made meringues cookies. Helllloooo making a safe food at home so you don’t have to search the store for it! 🥰

Light and crispy and once I get some low or zero cal sweetener I’ll be able to make them even less cal than they already are.

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Like a moth to the flame I’m back

Going to take a tmblr and pretty much all social media break, except YouTube probably. Trying to just get back to something if I can even figure out what that is. I’m sure I’ll be back at some point to vent into the tblr void or just cause I miss some of my moots.

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Hey moots. I’m back 🤷‍♀️.

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Going to take a tmblr and pretty much all social media break, except YouTube probably. Trying to just get back to something if I can even figure out what that is. I’m sure I’ll be back at some point to vent into the tblr void or just cause I miss some of my moots.

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Tried doing kinda like intuitive eating today. It’s kinda backfired and I overate. The only saving grace is I did my long run today.

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Omg I love love love my legs when I wear tights.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

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I got the job at the cookie shop! Going to be working there about 4 days a week. Two days right in the middle between my first and second job.

So I’ll pretty much only have time to eat either in between and/or after work on those days.

I’ll start doing short jogs in the mornings after one job at least once a week when I work all three and then start doing evening/afternoon work outs on the other two days. Then I’ll have Fridays and weekends to do my longer runs and/or a recovery day if I haven’t taken one already that week.

Already decided if it doesn’t work out with the cookie place it won’t be like the end all be all 🤷‍♀️ my other two jobs and my kids will come first since they serve me schedule wise even more.

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Thinking of deleting tblr and my tracking app for awhile and maybe looking into intuitive eating? Idk

It’s just exhausting and frustrating having an ed brain obsessed with food but not actually being small or losing weight.

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I didn’t stay in a deficit like I had hoped to do.

But, I did get a run in and I didn’t go over 2,100? I hate that-that is what it is. Think I’m just going to have to do a full stop on dessert unless it’s the weekend or I am eating it for breakfast or something. I don’t think I’ll weigh in until Wednesday so long as I stick with working out and I am in a deficit tomorrow.

I got a ton of stuff done around the house and I got my interview set up for Wednesday morning. I also set things up for me to possibly go to the gym after work tomorrow morning so long as I get enough sleep tonight.

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It is officially fall. Happy fall solstice people.

I’m ready to commit to my goals.

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I was doing so good today…. Until fucking dessert and then I binged. Think I might make a new dessert for breakfast/ before 4 only otherwise no dessert. I tend to make better decisions about my intake with desserts and have more self control with them if I have them earlier in the day.