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Going to take a tmblr and pretty much all social media break, except YouTube probably. Trying to just get back to something if I can even figure out what that is. I’m sure I’ll be back at some point to vent into the tblr void or just cause I miss some of my moots.

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Tried doing kinda like intuitive eating today. It’s kinda backfired and I overate. The only saving grace is I did my long run today.

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Omg I love love love my legs when I wear tights.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

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I got the job at the cookie shop! Going to be working there about 4 days a week. Two days right in the middle between my first and second job.

So I’ll pretty much only have time to eat either in between and/or after work on those days.

I’ll start doing short jogs in the mornings after one job at least once a week when I work all three and then start doing evening/afternoon work outs on the other two days. Then I’ll have Fridays and weekends to do my longer runs and/or a recovery day if I haven’t taken one already that week.

Already decided if it doesn’t work out with the cookie place it won’t be like the end all be all 🤷‍♀️ my other two jobs and my kids will come first since they serve me schedule wise even more.

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Thinking of deleting tblr and my tracking app for awhile and maybe looking into intuitive eating? Idk

It’s just exhausting and frustrating having an ed brain obsessed with food but not actually being small or losing weight.

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I didn’t stay in a deficit like I had hoped to do.

But, I did get a run in and I didn’t go over 2,100? I hate that-that is what it is. Think I’m just going to have to do a full stop on dessert unless it’s the weekend or I am eating it for breakfast or something. I don’t think I’ll weigh in until Wednesday so long as I stick with working out and I am in a deficit tomorrow.

I got a ton of stuff done around the house and I got my interview set up for Wednesday morning. I also set things up for me to possibly go to the gym after work tomorrow morning so long as I get enough sleep tonight.

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It is officially fall. Happy fall solstice people.

I’m ready to commit to my goals.

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I was doing so good today…. Until fucking dessert and then I binged. Think I might make a new dessert for breakfast/ before 4 only otherwise no dessert. I tend to make better decisions about my intake with desserts and have more self control with them if I have them earlier in the day.

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The feminine urge to see how sick you can really get before people start noticing or caring

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Went over on my intake but it’s about the goal of trying every day to eat less and less overall than my previous bad habits of eating a ton of all of the things. I know for certain if I had eaten more earlier in the day I would have totally been way way over. What I did eat was mostly like “healthy(ier/ish) junk food” and I ate having only a few bites of some of the things.

Some of the extras I ate today that I probably shouldn’t have. But I won’t be eating again all week so 🤷‍♀️. I made pumpkin shortbread cookies with my youngest so we could do an activity together. Cause no eggs we ate the end pieces of the dough and then I had 3 other cookies after they came out.

This morning I was good and only had half of a mini apple cider donut recipe I made up last night and tested this morning. Then I had half a piece of the pumpkin oatmeal bars I made for kids breakfasts this week in order to taste test them. They are so good and full of vitamins and stuff they wouldn’t typically get otherwise cause I finely grated veggies like zucchini and carrots into them and added in a little molasses, hemp hearts and chia seeds and minimal sugar. With my youngest having some health issues, digestive problems and difficulties with many foods If I make something and can add in any extra vitamins in some way and they will eat it? It’s definitely a win and I can relax a little.

End of the night I had some peanut butter, mini chocolate chips AND marshmallows on top of my partially frozen banana. That was definitely my biggest mistake.

Might not sound like I had much self control- but at one point I really wanted to just binge like crazy and turn to food to help me get through a stressful moment. But instead I didn’t. I thought about where the urge was coming from, reminded myself I would feel a million times worse if I did give in and accepted that I was just trying to cope with the way I felt but that I was basically just going to hurt myself in the long run. For that I’m proud of myself.

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I haven’t mentioned this yet today!

My back is feeling good enough to exercise now 😊 I didn’t run but I did a 30 min video ride on my stationary bike a little strength with my lightweights and some hula hooping 😊

I’m doing the 75 soft challenge rn also. On day two. So far so good!

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My next big-ish spending item I’m going to get myself? A fricken food processor so I don’t gotta keep trying to use my blender for all the random crap I want to make. Or I just try to do everything by hand or with my immersion blender.

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Added a splash of almond milk to cook it down. Had three bowls it was so fricken delicious! Mostly squash and broth with kale and parsley. A single can of chick peas went into the whole pot so not super high in protein 🤷‍♀️ but I know for certain this soup had to have been less than 350 cal per bowl. Will be having frozen banana with protein and collagen powder as part of dessert.

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So far total intake is atm about 600. I’m making a like winter squash soup for dinner. I haven’t calculated the potential cal per bowl. But it’s not like it’ll be a 1000 cal soup per serving, I’m not adding and cream or milk. So I’m feeling pretty good rn about how my overall day intake will end up being. Tomorrow might be different with weekend baking. But I am relieved to be balancing out some from my pms binges.

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I got the Oreo Diet Coke and omfg I have a reason to like Diet Coke cause it is so fricken good. I am going to walk to the store to get another one whenever I have the opportunity to!

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It's so wild that you guys all actually exist in the real world and no one knows that you have a 3d blog on tumblr

Such a clark kent moment honestly

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Lettuce and Greek yogurt sandwich lol

Salt, pepper, garlic seasoning, lime juice