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the law of action
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Word Count: 10100
Summary: The Law of Action must be applied in order for us to manifest things on earth. Therefore, we must engage in actions that support our thoughts, dreams, emotions, and words
Previous Parts (in order): Alan | You are here! | Virgil | Scott | Gordon
these just keep getting longer fellas i dont understand how thats possible but it is. ALSO: REMEMBER IN ATTRACTION WHEN I MENTIONED THAT THESE WERE BEING WRITTEN OUT OF ORDER. HA, UH, KIND OF AN UNDERSTATEMENT I GUESS. but its here! johns pov chapter! im pretty satisfied with it, albeit a few kinks i wasnt really able to work out, so i hope you enjoy it too!
thanks again to @gumnut-logic for the prompts! "Where?" and lightning were this fic's choices. sad to see the last ones go away, but this was still a blast so thank you once more! also, just because the prompts are gone doesnt mean this series will be too ;3
Anger was a rare emotion for John Tracy.
It had to be. When dealing with the cold hard truth of data telling them something wasn't possible or dealing with annoying people who thought they knew better than him or dealing with people panicking in his ear because nobody expected the aftershock of an earthquake to be that bad, he didn’t have a choice. There were a lot of deals in life that had to be made and someone needed to play peacemaker, even if it wasn’t deserved.
It was true that he got the least angry out of his siblings, even compared to Virgil. Virgil might not get necessarily violent like Scott did, or threw caution to the wind like Gordon, or, hell, pulled off whatever John does when someone somehow manages puts him in a bad mood, but Virgil did get angry quite a lot. He just didn’t have as many blatant ways of showing it. John, on the other hand, didn’t have a lot of ticks. Pet peeves, definitely, John was no stranger to annoyance (especially with siblings like his), but not outright anger.
That didn’t mean he never got angry. He was Tracy born and bred, so that meant one the few ticks he did have surrounded the topic of family.
Specifically, his family being threatened.
John wished he was the youngest sometimes. That meant he could say things like let Scott punch the idiot already, he’d be doing the world a favor, and not get lambasted for the immature response. It also meant he could throw tantrums to hell and back and not feel like a total loser.
Like right now for example.
“EOS, I swear, if you don’t open the elevator door for me--”
“No, I won’t.”
Unbelievable.
Groaning and rubbing his face, his hands found their way up to his forehead and through his hair, holding his bangs out of his eyes for a moment. His eyes had many emotions in them, the most blatant being this shit cannot be happening right now, “EOS, do you know you’re amazing? I don’t think I’ve said that enough.”
EOS whirled for a moment, “John, I’ve seen that grin on Gordon. I cannot believe you would stoop that low.”
The grin she pointed out fell flat off his face, “Yeah, okay, you’re right about that--”
“Like I always am.”
“--So thank you,” John was going to strangle whoever defined sass so thoroughly in the dictionary. It left a bad example, “For the reminder, but seriously, I need to get up to ‘Five. It’s… important.”
It’s been a week since Alan was taken.
They’ve exhausted all options.
The only thing that could possibly get him back to them had to be International Rescue’s resources.
But EOS over here wasn’t getting the memo. Her words had that hint of childish innocence behind it. In that way that said there was no innocence whatsoever and she knew exactly what she was doing, the little shit, “John, do you really need to, or do you want to?”
There’s the inflection that John taught her. An inhale through the nose and… Uuuugghh, “EOS, I know the difference between needs and wants, this is definitely a need.”
Another lens blink, another moment of disbelief, “It seems like you have a lot of needs, John Tracy.”
John grimaced and ground his jaw together, mumbling his grievances with the current situation, “Yeah, well, if there’s any trait I truly share with my siblings, it’s that we’re all high maintenance.” His next words were more clear and designed to get the point across, “EOS, I’m not kidding, unlock the door.”
EOS stood her ground, “John, you going up there is one of the most detrimental things to you’re health at the current moment. I won’t let you.”
John threw his hands into the air, “EOS, there’s are whole lotta things that are currently detrimental to my health currently happening, one more thing won’t hurt.”
EOS lens shuttered again and John felt like it was nails on a chalkboard, “You have a point, but I’ve seen you with Scott when he’s in a similar mood. Don’t you tell him he needs to take a moment and think when he gets like this?”
John groaned as quietly as possible. Not too loud, but loud enough that EOS hopefully got the point, “Yes, I do, but I’m not Scott. We are two very different people, you have pointed this out numerous times. We have different ways of handling things, this, and ‘Five is exactly how I can fix this problem.”
That was not how he should’ve worded that. Her lights flickered in sympathy, sympathy, and he knew she finally figured out what John was trying to get at, “John, there may still be a lot I have to learn, but at least I understand--”
“No, EOS!” John snapped before he could help himself. Before she could finish explaining her point of view that was most likely right, but his desperate brain didn’t want to hear it. His brain that was running on zero energy telling him this was taking too long, fix that, “You can’t understand!”
Just like that, John was reminded of why he hated getting angry.
As soon as the words left his mouth, so did the air in his lungs. Through sheer will and determination, the only thing that didn’t leave his body was the little amounts of food he ate over the past seven days, though it really wanted to. He became very pale, and EOS could detect the not-so-trace amounts of fear that fell over his eyes.
Dammit, you idiot. Months upon that past year of work were now going to go down the drain because you blew your lid just this once! First, the call with Alan, now telling the one thing that could kill you in your sleep she’ll never essentially be good enough was--
“I know, John.”
His food came back with a vengeance, but he was bullheaded as hell, and he already caused enough damage. The last thing anyone needed was to clean up vomit. It would’ve been nicer if she got angry at him. He could handle being thrown out into space. He couldn’t handle EOS admitting he was right, least of all over blatantly cruel words.
He channeled the energy his stomach wanted to use into weak words, “E-EOS, I…” What the hell was he supposed to say? Sorry surely wasn’t going to fucking cut it.
Well, whatever he wanted to cut didn’t come up, as EOS continued as if John wasn’t the worst thing on the planet, “I’ve been doing some reading. I understand that I’ll never really understand certain human-based things like you do. You, humans, have gotten close, me being one of the better examples, as long as that’s not considered bragging, but even I’m not at that level yet. But I do at least know you and your habits. I put up with them on a daily basis.”
Because if there’s anything else John needed to fail this week, it was the one promise he made to her. His promise to keep her safe, to make sure she wasn’t treated like a mindless robot by some crazy scientists ready and willing to cut her circuitry wide open like a middle-school science project. While he would never even get close to being a quote-on-quote crazy scientist, never in a million light-years, he surely didn’t follow that middle part of his promise, “EOS, listen, I--”
“Please, John,” and now she was pleading, thinking he was going to ask to use the elevator again. Thinking he wasn’t going to give up, even after all of that. John might’ve laughed if it wasn’t his fucking fault, “I’ll help look for more options if it means you’ll stay here for a little while longer. You should stay with your family. I know how they affect you in those positive ways that you currently need.”
John was abruptly aware of his heavy, almost wheeze-like breathing. If he wasn’t careful, it could delve into one whopper panic attack, which would be so great right now, “Y-Yeah, okay. They probably won’t understand the effects of gravity over an elongated period of time like I do, so I can stay and help with that, at least. Thank you.”
As John turned around, he heard EOS whisper to herself. He could blearily tell it was actually fondness that filled her vocal waves for once, but it still stung regardless, “Idiot.”
Yeah, he really was, wasn’t he.
As he helped look over his Dad’s med-scan with Virgil, when Virgil went looking for something on the other side of the room, his father whispered, “I know this is a bad question right about now, but, is there anything we can do for you? Maybe even I? You look dead on your feet.”
John could only reply to the first half of his father’s statement with a meek, “I don’t know anymore.”
---
16-year-old John Tracy was seated atop his roof, making sure he got the perfect view of the Big-Dipper.
He was hoping to spot a more exciting constellation when he first used his new telescope, but dangit! He was just so excited to get cracking right away! He just got back from his birthday party, Alan and Gordon snoozing in their rooms while Scott and Virgil secretly finished off the cake. That was okay. John was too busy focusing on his new expensive toy to worry about having any more sweets.
His dad could pull some strings when it counted.
Newest model. The only other people who have this baby are scientists at NASA. Happy birthday, John. Sorry I didn’t get you a car like Scott.
Fuck cool cars. John would be on cloud 9 for days with this thing. Scott would call him a nerd for it. Jokes on Scott, he couldn’t zoom about 10 thousand miles into space now, could he?
Right as he nailed it, the world shook. Large arms snaked around his waist and he involuntarily found himself giggling at the contact. As soon as those limbs let go, he blushed at his reaction and cleared his throat. Suddenly, the arms were an entire body sitting down right next to him, speaking with their ever-comforting burly voice, “Hiya, son, I see you just couldn’t wait, huh?”
Rolling his eyes, John turned back into his serious, analytical self once more, “Yup, this thing’s crazy. I’m glad I got out here as quickly as I did.”
Jeff simply grinned. John was always reserved, but Jeff was a good translator for all of his sons, and he could tell that John meant this is one of the best things in my life holy crap, “That’s great to hear. The look on your face when I brought this out of the closet was certainly good enough to last me a few lifetimes.”
John snorted, “I bet it was. I heard Gordon joking about it with Alan. I don’t think I need to see any pictures anymore. I have a pretty good mental image of what I looked like.”
Jeff smiled and sighed, “No kidding. “Like a goldfish with a broken jaw.” Not the most eloquent, that Gordon is.”
Laughter rang out throughout the roof, followed by a few moments of silence. Not awkward, but not really welcomed on John’s part either, “Do you…” Stop it, John, you’re asking for too much, “Nevermind, it’s dumb.”
Jeff tilted an eyebrow, “Oh, is it? I guess you would know if something were smart or dumb, so I trust your judgment.”
Dangit, Dad, why are you so manipulative, and why are you so good at it, “I don’t know. I’ve established I wanted to be an astronaut, right?”
Jeff nodded, “Mmhmm.”
John, for some reason, felt like he needed to tread carefully, “You are also an astronaut. If there was any way for you to be able to… could you… could you come up with me the first time?”
Jeff blinked in shock, and before his son could register that as disapproval, “Huh, well, that’s certainly wasn’t what I was expecting. Sure, I don’t see why not.”
Now it was John’s turn to blink, his mouth gaped, “Wait, what? Are you serious? Aren’t there rules for this kind of stuff?”
Jeff shrugged, his shoulders clearly saying rules shmules, “I’m also one of the biggest entrepreneurs on the planet itself, and one of the most renowned ex-astronauts there are. You would not believe the lengths people are willing to go to kiss my ass. Would you feel better if I pinky promised?”
John’s nose scrunched, “You can never truly promise anything, you know.”
His father chuckled, used to his son’s antics. John was reserved, remember, “Well, you boys always credited me with doing the impossible.”
John continued challenging him, “When we were all less than 10, yeah, sure. I think Alan still thinks you can breathe in space. You. Specifically. No one else. I think he said you only wore the helmet to “protect your secret so the evil movie scientists don’t take you away.””
Chuckles turned into laughter and a clap on John’s shoulder, “Well, glad to see I still got the magic touch at least.” That same arm that playfully smacked him was now wrapped around his shoulders, “Just you wait, Johnny boy, if I can’t get on that ship with you, then you bet your ass I’ll at least be the loudest one cheering in the crowd.”
Then, suddenly, John was right, like he always was.
A promise that never should have been made: broken. A wish never fulfilled.
Dad was swallowed up by the very thing John loved.
No more space stories, no more fun moon facts, there was a void in John’s life as big as the galaxy itself, and he wasn’t sure how to walk around it, or God forbid even into it.
He tried to be the healthy sibling about it. He tried so hard. Getting through high school quicker than most so he could just worry about his family. Scott and Grandma were doing their best, and in so many ways, it was enough, but even they couldn’t bear all of the stress themselves.
But then his high school graduation came and Grandma gave him one of the biggest hugs of his and her life and he realized that he would never get one from his father again. His mom leaving this world was already bad enough, but at least his dad was there and knew how to fill in the gap after years and years of his marriage with her. You didn’t marry a woman like Lucille Tracy and not fundamentally understand how the gears in her brain turned lest you were truly insane. Maybe Dad was. Certainly would explain a lot of things from John’s perspective. Certainly would explain why she married him in the first place. Crazy attracts crazy.
Regardless, the one thing closest to his mom’s warmth and care was gone, and if he spent the night of his graduation party quietly sobbing his eyes out while the others slept, well, then he was glad they kept snoring.
Try as he might, he became just as unhealthy and unbalanced as the rest of his family, but he was more subtle about it. His self-destructive ways weren’t bad if other people had them, but when it came to him, oh, he knew it was the worst thing he could do in terms of recovery. That’s probably why the rest of the family didn’t notice (Good). John was smart, he would know better. Yes, he did, which is exactly why he dived headfirst right into it all.
Focusing on college, getting up into the star-filled void closer to his dead relatives as quickly as possible, focusing on the here-and-now to make sure this shit didn’t happen again. Making sure no family went through what theirs did.
And maybe that’s why, why he couldn’t handle the touch of others wanting to comfort him. Because it reminded him too much of what they used to have, of what they used to be. Too many hugs and kisses from others might wash away what his mom’s and dad’s felt like, and out of all the things they could potentially lose from this, those were the worst possible ones.
John was a Tracy, which meant he was stubborn.
He wasn’t going to lose the last few things he remembered about his parents if he could help it.
---
It had been just under a month, and John finally got what he wanted.
And it wasn’t working like he thought it would, if at all.
He’s been on ‘Five for three days, and for just a fleeting moment, it washed away any uncertainty. He felt back in control, if only minorly, and he held the world at his fingertips once more. Too bad the world he wanted to fix was so far away it felt like it was on the other side of the frickin solar system itself.
He promised his family four days at most. Please, just one chance. We won’t know unless we try. He wasn’t sure what cracked them first, them coming upon dead end after dead end, them finally seeing reason behind John’s argument, or if they just got annoyed with the space monitor after endless nagging and relented like tired parents.
The tiny part of John’s mind that still allowed him to joke kinda hoped it was the third option. “Easy child”, pfft. John’ll show them.
Right, right, a clear head, the most focused of IR, he can’t get unfocused or go too far off track. He’s saved many lives throughout his life, all of them thanks to his level head, but right now, he was arguably saving the most important life of all, so that meant he had even more incentive to stay focused.
In fact, he was so focused, he jumped at the sudden, feminine voice filling the room, “John, I found another article I think you would like to see about most common places criminals… John?”
Crap, he was halfway into the fetal position. Slowly uncurling, John nodded, “Oh, thank you, EOS. I’ll start reading it shortly.”
The noise of her lens adjusting sounded throughout ‘Five again, “Of course. Let me know if you would like me to start searching for a different topic, though. There has to be a limit to how many “You wouldn’t believe this” articles one can take, and I think I’m finding it really quickly.”
For the next few seconds, John was suddenly filled with a rush of determination he had been trying to get after their little confrontation in front of a locked elevator door to ‘Five.
She had been helping him out so much the past couple of weeks. Running unnecessary tests for him, searching parts of the web only she could search without getting tracked by some secret mafia, letting him know it was okay if he couldn’t get everything right the first time when two months ago she snapped at him for getting a simple algebra equation wrong due to lack of sleep. She had been especially patient with him recently, even after their little spat in the hangar, and John wasn’t sure how to process it. A tiny part wanted to resort to anger again because he clearly didn’t deserve her, but the more prevalent parts preferred something like depression or even apathy.
She had been making sure his world didn’t spin off its axis, and John couldn’t even tell her sorry until now.
“EOS, I’m sorry.”
She stopped moving, turned around and let her lights blink yellow for only a moment, “For what, John?”
The man in question waved his hands around in front of his face, lost, confusing her more. With a sigh, he explained, “For a lot of things, but mainly from a few weeks back when we had that argument. I said something that wasn’t okay, and I didn’t have the balls to own up to it until now. So, I’m sorry. I crossed a line I shouldn’t have even been near.”
For a little bit, it was quiet. John waited as the A.I. contemplated his words. Then, she spoke her judgment, “Well, I know you are. You haven’t exactly been working off your butt over nothing, right? Plus, reliable sources say one of the ways guilt manifests is anger. I’ve seen that with the rest of your family. It would make sense yours would too.”
John blinked. Part of him was expecting her to not fully understand why he was apologizing, but the other wanted her to just so he could get over this, just so he could let go of even just the teeniest amount of guilt he had, “EOS, anger isn’t a valid excuse. What I said was wrong. I don’t believe those words and you shouldn’t either. The whole point of this partnership is to show you that there’s more to life than just calculations and probabilities. It’s kind of hard to see that when the one person who promised to be different went and screwed it up anyway.”
John hoped EOS was at least questioning things now instead of letting his words go in one ear and out the other. Her next words said she was doing exactly the latter, “Okay. I don’t disagree with you, John, but I don’t know why you’re so hooked on this. I understand. We don’t have to worry about this unnecessarily anymore.”
Yes, you do understand. That’s the fucking point.
They weren’t getting anywhere, yet John didn’t even have the energy to groan in annoyance. He could even get his eyebrow to twitch.
All he could do was simply lean his head back against the wall and let his hair stick up against it like static electricity was flowing through it. The real reason it was sticking up was probably due to a mixture of Zero-Gs and grease from all of the showering he hasn’t been doing, however. His eyes had deep rings around them, and for a second, EOS thought about how relative age could be as a number while John softly spoke, “The Hood was an angry man, too, you know. He felt slighted by our family and wanted us to feel the same. It still doesn’t make what he did right.”
EOS thought about his words before coming to a logical conclusion, “Well, that’s certainly a leap in logic. There’s a big gap between simply yelling because you’re annoyed and literal kidnapping. One gives people a sour mood, the other gives them a significant amount of jail--”
“Yes, EOS, I’m aware of that,” John brought his hand to his face, but underneath it was a grin, telling the world that he was feeling fond exasperation more than anything. EOS was more obtuse than him sometimes. It was one of the few things of himself he wished she didn’t copy so easily. He sighed and brought his hand back down, “I’m just... putting things into perspective. I want you to see why my words were wrong. It would make me feel better if you did.”
EOS hung still, letting John’s admission roll over her wiring like a wave of electricity, “You have a lot of needs and wants. What takes precedent?”
More inflection. This time, John welcomed it. It gave him something to stand on. John wanted a lot of things. Alan to be home safe and sound, Dad to have not disappeared for nearly a decade, for his brothers to stop slowly killing themselves, for himself to stop, but the needs of the many, even the needs of one, outweigh the wants of a singular man like him, but, “Well, needs obviously, they’re necessary, however… it’s okay to be selfish every once in a blue moon. It doesn’t make you inherently bad.”
It was advice he parroted many-a-times to his family, some of them more often than others, seldom to himself if at all.
Scott, it’s okay if you have to tell them you can’t make this business conference.
Virgil, you can count inventory in the morning. You didn’t get any sleep last night either.
Gordon, if you can’t smile for a day or two, that doesn’t make you a bad person.
Kayo, you don’t have to patrol every night. We have security cams for a reason.
Alan, I know we tease you, but you missing a chore or two isn’t the end of the world.
Grandma, you already do enough for us, you barely cooking for us is the least of our worries.
That last one might be more for the rest of his family than not, but hey, two birds and one stone. Keeping his back against the wall, John stood up straighter against it, face suddenly serious, “In fact, wanting to be selfish is one of the best ways to tell that you’re human. You can’t escape it. It only becomes bad when you end up only being that.”
EOS sat in silence, her lens flickering in that way it always does when she was signifying she was about to pass judgment like a Goddess, which she seemed to be doing a lot more recently, “Well then… If I’m allowed one moment of self-reprieve, I suppose I should say that those words did… hurt.”
John grimaced despite very much understanding that he deserved it. The return of the inflection didn’t exactly help. Pushing himself away from the wall, he felt the metaphorical weight fall off his shoulders, “Yes, they did, and while they weren’t okay, it is okay to say that they weren’t. I still am very sorry.”
EOS adjusted her camera, probably to stall for time, “I know you are, John. I still forgive you, but am I correct in assuming I’m allowed some time to… recover isn’t the word I’m looking for, but--”
“Yes, EOS,” John helped her explain her own point, “Recover is a good word. You’re allowed that if you want it.”
John wasn’t sure how, but it seemed like EOS visibly relaxed, “Thank you, then, for letting me do that. This.”
For some reason, John did too, “Of course.”
It was a soft kind of awkward silence, where both parties had something on their mind but they weren’t entirely sure if they wanted to say it out loud. This is why EOS appreciated John more than the others, he simply let silence be silence. It allowed her time to think, unlike how Scott and Virgil kept asking questions, or how that awful duo made noises and messes only to have a chance at making people laugh. As if that was the most important thing they needed to do.
The nights the youngest called John were endless with his constant babbling that tended to grate her circuit boards. The only reason she let it happen was that John seemed to loosen up at the interaction. He became less weary, less worried-filled. He seemed to greatly enjoy the audial presence of Alan Tracy, let alone the way he lit up when the youngest actually showed up in person. It was just unfortunate that it seemed like the kid could never keep his mouth shut.
Then again… from what John said, the whole reason there wasn’t any more Alan was because he did keep it shut. At the worst moment possible. Now there wouldn’t be any more babbling period. Alan was gone, and the whole family was suffering from the new silence. EOS reasoned it was from the general idea of forced silence instead of just freely being able to leave the room or being able to tell him to quiet down, but maybe it was more than that. She could make another list of options to consider.
Plus, it was weird to think about a future where all of those video game walkthroughs she was forced to save would never be used again. John insisted that they weren’t just wastes of megabytes, so...
Hmm.
“Could you…” EOS trailed off, and before John could comprehend the unusual behavior of the A.I., she started speaking again, “Could you tell me more about Alan? I’m starting to think I judged him rather harshly.”
John took a moment to register her words and promptly snorted, “Well, most of your assumptions about him aren’t entirely unfounded, but that’s one of the joys of being an older sibling, I guess. Surprises around every corner,” there was regret in her voice and John knew he had to treat this as gently as he would a newborn child otherwise he would never hear it again.
EOS flickered, “I thought you didn’t like surprises.”
Uh, “Well, not usually, but there are a few from time to time that I could look back on and call them… quaint, in a sense.” Suddenly, a memory resurfaced, and John found himself grinning like he was doped up on nitrous oxide, “Yeah, they can have good surprises occasionally…”
It was a week before his next rotation. Scott would be back home in about three days, which allowed the second born to actually have a few moments with his only older brother. He was looking forward to it just as much as Scott was. Right now, though, he had to make sure he got the right angle.
Right as he did, he heard the soft pitter-patter of footsteps come up the ladder, and when he turned around, he was met with a bundle of freckles, “Oh, hey Alan.”
Hi, Johnny, the kid squirmed out, Is it okay if I sit next to you?
At first, a list of things wanted to fill John’s head. You look dead on your feet, you should be asleep, you have a lot going on this week so why are you wasting sleep? but instead of any of those filling the void that was his brain, John simply nodded, “Yeah, sure, come pop a squat, Sprout.”
John looked away right before he could watch Alan’s nose wrinkle in displeasure. Despite the usage of the nickname (that Alan secretly liked, don’t think you could pull that wool over our eyes, little bro), the kid still toddled over and flopped himself down right next to his older brother. Sighing, the kid leaned his head on John’s arm and absentmindedly stared out into space, both figuratively and literally. Satisfied his brother was comfy, John went back to his current objective.
As John examined the night sky, he also carefully looked over Alan out of the corner of his eye. Every bruise that John could see was finally dulling out into that familiar greyish-yellow as bruises do, and the sight was enough to calm any negative emotion being created from the reminder. John refocused on his telescope to help as well.
The kid had been through one hell of a week, bullies being their typical selves. Every Tracy outside of Scott and Gordon had their fair share of their own experiences with nasty people, and it wasn’t even the first time they’ve left their special kind of blue-and-black marks, but seeing it on Alan was… worse, somehow. Virgil had unsavory anonymous notes at ‘best’, and John knew first hand that their hits bruised more than just physical skin. So to see Alan get the same treatment and not say anything...
John was starting to understand why his older brother greyed so easily.
Speaking of which, Scott was pretty peeved at the idea of not being there for Alan. Because of this, John made sure to be the sole one to call him and inform him of the awful news while the older brother was out at his designated Air Force base. John wanted to see with his own two eyes that Scott wouldn’t do anything rash and made himself liable to be put on some kind of list.
You would think he wouldn’t be that stupid, but the Tracys are known for breaking expectations over their sweet, sweet kneecaps.
(“Scott, you’re not going to steal an Air Force jet just to come and beat up some dumb kids.”
“Watch me.”
“They’re only a year older than Alan.”
“Doesn’t matter.”
John pinched the bridge of his nose, “Listen, we already scarred them enough as it is, let alone their expulsions. Grandma’s threats to the adults were liable for a government-mandated therapist, Virgil just being there had them running for the hills, the computer I was sporting sent chills down their spines and throughout the hallways, and that’s not even to mention Gordon’s threats to the kids themselves. Seriously, where would a 15-year-old even get the tools to do that?”
Scott visibly relaxed at John’s point, but he still sat a little taut, not fully accepting the idea of people being cruel enough to hurt a literal ray of sunshine, “Fine, fine, I still want to talk to the kid over a call at some point. He was the one who dealt with those idiots.”
John’s shoulders deflated, “Yeah, you got me there. He’ll be back with Virgil and Gordon soon enough, you can see him then.”
Scott smiled in a way that washed away the greys in his hair, if only for a moment, “Awesome, I--”
John wasn’t completely done, “But I’m going to be with Alan while you talk to him. I don’t trust you to not be in search-and-destroy mode, and the last thing Alan needs is an angry you with no buffer. Besides, I’m pretty sure we have the same questions. I can play the angsty-Scott translator tonight. Usual fee, 10 bucks each word.”
The groan that managed to fill the whole house despite the tiny speakers was one John would never forget.)
Too lost in thought, John didn’t catch Alan’s movements at first. Leaning away from his telescope, John focused on Alan, “Sorry, Allie, did you say something?”
The child simply shrugged and smushed his chubby cheeks against John’s side, shaking his head, followed by his hands, I just wanted to see what you were doing.
Ah, that made sense. Alan had been continuously signing for the past year because of the obvious, so John rolled with the punches. It was always funny when they talked about these years in the future. Alan talked, Alan said, Alan brought up: it was always metaphorical, and nobody could believe them when they said Alan was fluent in ASL, let alone because he could actually go half a day without talking.
It was ironic because even with no words, Alan still managed to be the loudest thing on the planet. His hands always screamed with excitement whenever he felt like ‘talking’, and no brother ever felt like shutting him up. Especially when it was so easy for Alan to simply not shake his hands to hide the fact that he was in trouble--
Right, don’t go there. John shook his head to bring himself out of his thoughts and replied to the non-verbal admission, “Just looking at the stars. Recording their coordinates and whatnot.”
A small gasp had John jerking immediately away from his scope to see Alan suddenly very worried, maybe even fearful, But won’t you lose your eyes?!
Aha, what? “Allie, you’re going to have to give me more than that.”
John almost didn’t catch what Alan was trying to explain with the way he frantically shook his hands even faster than before, Mrs. Gatsen explained to us that the sun was a star too, but we’re not allowed to look at it for too long because it’ll steal our eyes! I don’t want you to lose your eyes, Johnny!
Ohoho, the part of John’s brain that was all about the smartsy stuff was gearing up to have a full-blown seminar of sorts, but the way the kid seemed so sincere in his worry, in his fear, John felt partially bad for giggling instead, “Oh, Allie, no. Here,” John was activating his inner Virgil and Scott with the way he grabbed the youngster and placed him in his lap, “Yes, the sun is a star, but there are many kinds of stars. Most of which don’t hurt your eyes. Take a look.”
Alan gave one last sentimental look at John, who nodded again just to reassure the blonde before the boy gulped and put his eye against the tool like Johnny did. This time, the gasp that came from him was more magical, more child-like, as it always should be. John watched on as the kid became stuck to his telescope like glue.
Suddenly, Alan leaned back into John, somewhat knocking the wind out of him. Honestly, now that he was thinking about it, John realized he was pushing it by letting Alan sit next to him in terms of his personal comfort zone. He loved Allie just as much as the rest of the family, but letting them in, letting them get close, was veering dangerously close to that specific ‘hug’ territory like he and his parents had.
Before John could explain that in a child-friendly way, and hopefully in a way where the too-smart-for-his-own-good kid couldn’t pick up on the hidden message, Alan looked him directly in the eyes and confidently signed his wants, Can we do this more often? Can we?
Just like that, John’s mind blanked. Alan wanted to do something with him. Not swim with Gordon, not music with Virgil, not do, well, anything with Scott, Allie found something that he would like to do with John.
Huh, interesting, “Yeah, sure. If we can’t do it in the next week, then the first thing we’ll do when I come down is stargaze, because that’s what it’s called: stargazing.”
Alan started gripping his arm tighter and leaned more into his chest, nodding vigorously at the news and looking back to the sky with newfound wonder. Letting Alan be, abruptly forgetting his grievances with things like touch, John went back to his telescope. After another minute or so, John reached a point where he needed both sides of his body, except it looked like one of them was going to be kept immobile unless the spaceman said something to Alan.
John tried doing just that, just without looking away from his device, “Hey, Allie, I don’t mind the sitting-in-my-lap and stuff, but I do need my arm back to--”
Snoring.
Oh.
Jerking his head to physically look at his sibling, John found Alan passed out and squeezing his arm like a freckled koala bear. The ginger flinched a little bit at the drool dripping onto his sleeve, but the way Allie melted into him made him-- actually, he was very suddenly aware that this whole night he hadn’t really been thinking at all, and that thought made him continue to stare mindlessly at the dozing brother.
He always thought about, well, everything. What he was going to say, what he planned to do tomorrow, about what the future held now that they were down their second and last parent. If he didn’t think about it beforehand, he rarely did it. He had to make sure he went through all of his options before haphazardly jumping into the pits of hell.
Yet the way his younger brother looked at him like he was the world himself tonight made John throw all of his training to be as cautious as possible out the window in a need to comfort and care for the small thing in front of him.
It was shocking to his mind, yet he didn’t resent just being able to do without worrying too much. Was this how smother complexes started? Did he ever drool on Scott’s arm? Still staring at Alan, John’s mind continued to be robotic as he simply let his younger brother be and went back to his telescope. Alan had been needing to get a little more sleep lately anyway.
Yeah, it was fine. He could figure out how to follow up on his words later. It wouldn’t be that hard to figure out a way to squeeze Alan into some of his already-planned stargazing nights while making sure the kid still got sleep. Also, John’s used telescopes wearing a cast and sling before, he might prefer two arms, but he has been okay with only one.
If Grandma yelled at John for spending too much time on the roof again, well, she would have to get over it. Alan got an extra hour of sleep and that was all that mattered.
EOS watched as John finished the story. Once he was done, he continued to be quiet while grinning at nothing. All he was doing was simply staring at the floor… It was slightly creepy, and EOS cleared her nonexistent throat, “Huh, I didn’t realize he got a lot of his interests from you. Maybe… maybe you could show me why he did. He can too. More perspectives always get more data.”
John blinked and was immediately taken out of his trance. He brought his hand to his mouth and cleared his throat, “Yeah, he-- wait, what?”
EOS sighed. This is another reason why she snapped him out of it; his inability to listen to someone right in front of him. She simplified her words, “If Alan comes back, can you two take me stargazing? I don’t think I’ve ever seen what the stars look like down there, or, at least, I never looked at them long enough to understand what you all find to be so fascinating about them.”
John blinked a few more times with his mouth slightly gaped. He looked around nervously before bringing his turquoise eyes to look EOS directly in the middle of her camera, “Yeah, sure, EOS. When Alan gets back, that’s the first thing we’ll do.”
EOS didn’t mention anything about the correction of if to when, “Thank you, John, I would like that very much.”
John nodded and floated back to his tech, “Of course. Now then, we’ve got work to do. I’ve been meaning to stargaze recently anyway.”
He still had one more day up here.
And a baby brother who needed saving.
How hard could it be?
---
Very.
Growling in frustration, he thumped his fist against the wall next to him rather harshly.
Not enough to leave any kind of mark or dent, but enough for him to focus on the tiny amount of pain it gave him. He vaguely heard EOS’s lens flare at the sudden noise, but he was a little too focused on why he felt the need to hit his girl.
It was the end of the last day, and he didn’t make it any further like he thought he would.
Some bleak part of his mind was hoped, prayed that his girl would have the tools to find their baby brother. He was willing to bend her entire satellite to be able to reach the far ends of the galaxy if he had to, but even he had to concede that she wasn’t enough. The Hood wasn’t dumb, unfortunately, and he wasn’t going to go easy on them. That is if he was even going “to go” on them to start with.
While it wasn’t the first time he failed spectacularly, this failure certainly hurt the worst.
Half of him wanted to curl up into a ball and forget everything for a moment (or maybe forever), but the other half won out in terms of what his body contorted into. Instead of curling up like a prickly hedgehog, he leaned backward to be floating with his back to the ground and his face to the ceiling with his face in his hands. Meanwhile, EOS silently gazed from her camera in the corner. Watching John struggle this way was… new, and it twisted her wires in a way she wasn’t sure she could describe.
EOS watched him mumble something. Huh, peculiar as ever. Adjusting her camera, she tried small talk, “What was that, John?”
Still mumbles, but more intelligible, “... I need to drop the ‘s’.”
A flicker of yellow, nothing but pure confusion for once in her robotic life, “The ‘s’ of what?”
Suddenly, the astronaut was standing (well, floating) upright with a look of disdain, but EOS could see that it wasn’t meant for her, “Of ‘she’. It’s not ‘Five’s fault, God, it never is, but maybe… maybe it’s mine.”
All of her programs should allow her to say something. Anything, sugarcoated or not, would be beneficial to this seemingly one-sided conversation, but this was the moment she learned that humans could be faster than computers since John steamrolled right to the point without hesitation, “He wasn’t good enough sounds better. Nothing I’m doing is getting any results. I gave my family false hope that I would find something and now I have to go to them and essentially break them. They were already barely holding it together as it was, but when the “smart one” in their family says there’s nothing he can do…”
She found herself going against the logical part of her program-- because despite the idiot John Tracy could be, when he made an argument that had any kind of evidence you never could go against it-- the first time in, well, ever, in an attempt to comfort her partner, “John… I think you’re grasping at straws here.”
He looked up from the floor, and EOS had to shrink her lens at the sight of unshed tears in his eyes, “Who was the one that called him?! Me! He was standing there only a few rooms over, probably terrified out of his mind, and I didn’t know. I let him slip between our fingers because I was so caught up in the moment and I hate myself for it.”
EOS found herself speechless for once, and the few droplets of tears that floated in front of John’s face didn’t help. She had been trying her best recently, especially recently, to understand the fluctuations of human emotion, and she was pretty sure she had decent tabs on at least John nowadays, but this was something unexpected, a thing her programming never really liked to deal with. It involved lots of new calculations and new sims, why, it made things seconds longer when they didn’t have the time to deal with it!
Her electronic voice box made a noise with the intent to say something, as she thought she finally had the time to deal with it, but just her luck, more unexpected things made her reapproach the issue at hand, “John, look out! The Chaos Crew!”
Blinking out of his self-deprecation train, John was uncharacteristically panicking, “What, where?” After doing a full 180, John eventually saw one of his comm radios with the familiar pink symbol floating above it.
John’s pupils shrunk and his eyebrows tilted downward in that unfamiliar emotion: anger.
Fuck this.
The mood change was as fast as the speed of lightning. John practically flung himself to the communication device on something akin to a warpath. No longer regretful or depressed, John was filled to the brim with fury at the sight of one of the men that was a constant thorn in the Tracy family’s side, “What the hell are you doing here? How the hell did you--”
“Wait wait wait!” Fuse pleaded, making John momentarily pause enough to listen, “I’m not good at this like my sister is, so this connection is going to drop soon. I need you to reopen the line yourself so I can explain what I’m here for! Trust me, I swear I’m not--”
Zip.
Blinking at the lack of noise, John slowly turned his head to look at his A.I. to get her opinion on the matter. It wasn’t a positive one, that’s for sure. Her dots were bright red, and for the first time in a while, he found himself flinching at the sight and sound of her, “It wouldn’t take much of me to get rid of the nuisance, you know.”
Taking a few deep breaths, John shook his head, “No, EOS, give me a sec. Don’t send him careening into space.”
Yet.
With shaky hands, John did as Fuse begged and found the comm line the guy haphazardly threw together. Right as Fuse jumped at the sight of one of the Tracys actually hearing him out, John’s voice spoke coldly, “You have five minutes. Go.”
Fuse gulped, “W-Well, I suppose the first thing to do would be to apologize. I’ve caused a lot of messes for you and your family-- heh, ‘messes’ probably doesn’t even come close to explaining what I did-- and I realize that now, so I want to--”
Ah, that tactic. The one where they try so desperately to seem like they were repentant. John wasn’t familiar with it, but Scott sure was. Shady business owners trying to shy away from their consequences made the eldest very aware of how slimy those in power could be. Scott complained about it a lot, so John made sure to always remember it just in case he ever ran into it himself.
Preplanning wins again in the Tracy household. You should listen to John’s advice more, Gordon, “Yeah, tell me something I don’t know.” John muttered mostly to himself and moved in a way that signified something was going to happen.
Fuse sputtered and stopped immediately. Crap, he was going about this wrong. These were all things he was suddenly genuine about, he really was, but the Tracys didn’t want useless apologies at the moment, and he understood that. Hopefully, he didn’t understand it too late. Right before John could do anything to him or give any kind of command to his satellite, Fuse blurted the information he should’ve said the first place, “I know where he is!”
John felt like the Earth flew right off its axis.
Everything froze, including EOS. His hand was out in front of him for some reason, probably subconsciously reaching for some kind of button, as he absentmindedly listened to the whirl of ‘Five and his brain fully processed what Fuse was promising, “... What?”
John was keenly aware that sounding so weak, so hopeful, was something that Fuse could spinelessly abuse if the man wanted to, but John had a good lie detector. The words that fumbled out of half The Chaos Crew’s mouth were sounding good, great, and John could tell that he wasn’t bullshitting anything, “I know where he’s keeping your bro. I mean… shit, what The Hood did wasn’t right, maybe it never was, but I know this specifically is--” a break in his speech in an attempt to words things better. Fuse failed, “Bad. I just…”
John’s head involuntarily tilted at the way Fuse trailed off. For once in his life, John was at a loss. This was highly uncharacteristic from what John had seen of The Chaos Crew, and the astronaut was so flabbergasted he couldn’t even begin to come up with any possible ulterior motive behind Fuse’s actions at the moment.
Suddenly, Fuse looked back up with big eyes, almost reminding John of Alan a little bit. Not in the obvious ways, because Fuse was on the verge of seven feet tall and built like a truck whereas Alan was the teeniest thing on the planet, but… John could see similar traits of innocence in them. The eyes of someone desperately clinging onto the last few shreds of hope they had, but still ready to do what's right because of it. Because even if the light at the end of the tunnel was small it was still worth fighting for.
Fuse, seeing that John wasn’t going to say anything, bit the bullet, “I don’t know, call it selfish, call it smart, but if The Hood is willing to do something like this to someone so young, I… I don’t want to be apart of it. I can’t give any information about my sister, I’m no snitch, but I want out, even if it means spending the rest of my days in a GDF cell.”
John was suddenly aware of a burning question, “Wait, how old are you, Fuse?”
A tired sigh, aging Fuse to something that was probably three times what he was going to say, “I turn 20 in two weeks.”
John sharply inhaled, “Jesus, I… I didn’t realize you were that young.”
A lot of things made sense quickly and abruptly like they always do for the ginger.
If The Hood was willing to do this to someone so young, that didn’t stop him from doing this to someone like Fuse. The logical conclusion the now ‘ex-villain’ made probably danced the wildest jig in his head, and before anyone could clap their hands, he got as far away as possible. John wouldn’t be surprised if The Hood made idle threats for not following orders or for “being stupid”, so Fuse had every right to feel threatened.
Jeez, he was probably terrified at the implication. A dark, buried part of John selfishly thought good, it sucks you had to learn the hard way, but now you see why we all hate him, but the first thing that came to his mind was something unexpected yet expected all the same.
John was reminded of Alan again.
Except Alan had four older brothers to run to when the monsters got too big or too frightening.
Scott was going to kill him, “Park her over on the left and come in. We’ve got a lot to talk about. Bring inside whatever you think will help.”
EOS’s shrill John! ringed throughout the room, yet it was overruled swiftly. Fuse’s mouth was wide open, “For real?”
John couldn’t tell if he was losing the knots in his stomach or forming completely new ones, “Yes. Don’t do anything funny, though. I have eyes everywhere.”
Fuse gulped again, yet he was very business-like with his next words, “Of course.”
The line cut a millisecond before John wanted it to. John knew exactly why, “Listen, EOS--”
EOS was suddenly in his face, and it spoke miles at how far she’s come that she wasn’t blaring any alarms in anger, “No, you listen, John Tracy. I cannot believe the level of ignorance you are displaying!”
Gordon always joked about her being his daughter, but right now, John’s eyebrow twitched in annoyance at the feeling of being scolded by an overbearing mother, “I get this may seem like I’ve lost it--” jokes on EOS, who says he hasn’t at this point? “Listen, there’s nothing else left to go off of, and I know this makes me look like a crazy man desperate for information that might not even be there, but--”
“No buts!” EOS shrieked, “You told me that if you followed a sentence with a “but” that what you were about to say shouldn’t even be considered an option! What is making you throw all of my training out the window?!”
John’s mouth became very dry. This conversation was taking a very different turn, “Wait, EOS, why is this all about you suddenly--”
John was starting to regret giving her more mobility at the sight of her jamming her camera directly in his face even more, “It’s not just about me! This affects you too! You said you always based your decisions on the here-and-now, so I should too, so why am I the only one doing so?! You’ve seen what he’s capable of!”
John’s mind tended to be made of gears, and all of them began spinning at the same time. Dammit, he didn’t pick up on this because he didn’t even consider it a factor: EOS being scared. Hell, it wasn't even considered because the last time he remembered her being this scared was when she thought he was a threat during the first time they met (was it really that long ago?). She was scared that Fuse was going to hurt John like he hurt the rest of the astronaut’s family. Like he hurt Gordon.
The only difference is that nobody could get to John like they did Gordon, so that left the ginger at an impasse if the small chance that Fuse was here to hurt him came true.
John found it very hard to breathe all of a sudden. Closing his eyes and struggling to get enough air in, he realized a fundamental problem. EOS was based on data and things that have been recorded, and so far, the only things recorded about Fuse was that he was hellbent on hurting the Tracy family, a family that John was apart of.
She didn’t know any other way to feel about the guy, she didn’t have any other example.
John would love to be that way too, honestly, to just focus on the data. Numbers never tended to be wrong, and the idea of being a simple number-crunching bot would make life a shit-ton easier, but he can’t. He’s human. One that’s very much willing to go against the numbers and probabilities if it meant helping his family.
A rarity for John, to follow his gut and nothing else, but at the end of the day, he was a Tracy, and following his gut was as familiar to him as it was to name all of the immediate constellations in the summer’s nighttime sky, “EOS, I know it’ll be hard to believe me, hell, I’m having trouble believing myself, but Fuse isn’t here to hurt me. The here-and-now is different for reasons I don’t have enough time to properly explain, okay? If there’s anything to believe, believe in the trust you have in me to make the right decision like I always do.”
EOS made no noise, not even a flicker of her lens. He expected her usual sass, something along the lines of, Who says I trust you, moron? but what he got punched away what little air he managed to collect, “... Do you promise?”
That was the million-dollar question. Of course, he couldn’t. He didn’t like making promises after the age of 12. Too many probabilities, too many what-ifs, made promises somewhat of a theoretical impossibility. But just like that night on the roof with Alan, John was able to not think, “I promise, EOS. You wanted to go stargazing with me and Alan, right? Fuse might be able to let us do that again.”
‘Family’ was a Wild Card. Nothing was possible, yet everything was at the same time when it came down to it. ‘Family’ was what made Scott go from day to day without keeling over. ‘Family’ was what got Virgil to sleep at night when he just couldn’t by himself. ‘Family’ was how Gordon managed to keep smiling and joking despite everything in the world trying to make him stop. Hell, ‘Family’ was how their father kicked the word impossible right in the groin and live.
‘Family’ might have been why Alan was stuck in such a shitty situation, but it was also the reason the kid was willing and able to go that far in the first place. He learned that selflessness from his ‘Family’, after all.
John was intent to use that fact to the fullest.
EOS’s lights blinked in contemplation before she quietly spoke once more, “Do I have permission to shock him if he makes even the slightest suspicious movement?”
John rolled his eyes yet grinned all the same, “Sure, only just a little voltage, though. Right in the ass. Would be a nice pick-me-up after all of this.”
Well, despite the year they’ve had, John wasn’t aware EOS could snort. Another sign things might be going right for once.
The door swwwshed open and Fuse floated into where the two hyper-intelligent beings were hanging about and got straight to the point, “Thank you. I hope… I hope I don’t let you down.”
John found himself light as air, and it wasn’t just the zero-gravity this time, “Sounds good. Let’s get cracking.”
While the first thing he did back on Earth was scare his father and his immediate younger brother shitless, the way they and the rest of the family lit up at the plan he and Fuse came up with (after making sure nobody killed the dude, which was surprisingly more difficult than expected, and boy was it expected) made it all worth it.
Well, maybe the sight of Fuse occasionally jumping and yelping at a strange pinch in his bottom with no known cause was worth it too. John wouldn’t tell his brothers that, though, he was the responsible one, remember?
You always made me look at things differently, EOS. Thank you.
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I want you
~genre~ warning, fluff, family, wedding/engagement
~summary~ you and your best friend, chan have been friends since birth. like you guys literally do everything together, but everything changes when you guys enter your second year of highschool. Chan becomes a baddie and you are welcomed into the “smart” group. until one night half way through your junior year, your whole world changed.
~reader x chan~
~word count~ 1983
~gif creds~ @abcdskz
~warning~ alcohol and drug influence
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you never once doubted your relationship with Chan. not once. your parents have known each other since college, so obviously you and chan were meant to become friends. it was destiny. that is until one night everything in your world collapsed.
~Beginning of the school year~
“what do you think chan?”
“what do you mean y/n?”
“ i mean what do you think about us being juniors. it feels like yesterday we were just entering elementary school together” you said as the memory began to fill your head
“yeah i guess. i dont know y/n you and i are two very different people. entering junior year is just like every other year. like always im waiting for this day to end.”
“okay mr. grumpy pants. the day hasn’t even started so how can you say that. just because you feel that way doesn’t mean you have to express it”
“whatever, you better get to class the bell’s about to ring” he said annoyed
“shit you’re right. wait... don’t you have a class first period too?”
“nah, i have study hall. see ya” chan said turning on his heel walking toward the library.
you sprinted to your first class which took you forever to find, but luckily the bell rang seconds after you entered the classroom, and your teacher wasn’t here yet either. today was looking good so far.
you already had a project in your science class with the one person you didn’t want to be partnered with, Seo Changbin, the scariest fucking kid in school. surprisingly, you, chan and changbin used to be friends, that is until changbin decided he was better than you two because he found a new group and left you guys in the dust to fend for yourselves.
so you decided to see if changbin wanted to come hang out wiht you and chan to work on the project after school. he agreed. you drove both of them to the closest coffee shop and got to work. little did you know, after that encounter  that chan and changbin had, the two of them started to become closer.
as chan and changbin became best buddies, it felt like chan was leaving you behind, so you decided to stop by his house over winter break. 
you walked up to the front door and knocked. luckily you new his parents were out of town so he was the only one who would be capable of opening the door.
after a few minutes you became a little worried, so you grabbed your phone from your pocket and called him.
“y/n?” he said with his raspy morning voice, signaling to you you had just woken him up
“hey sleepy head, can you come downstairs and open the door?”
“huh, what? wait are you---”
“thanks bye!” you said quickly hanging up the phone. you continued to wait outside for another 5-10 minutes until he finally opened the door.
“it’s about damn time, it’s hella cold” you said stomping inside
“good to see you too. what do you want y/n?”
“well instead of beating around the bush like i always do in these situations, im going to get straight to the point, why are you getting closer with changbin? you reject me everytime i want to hang you. i thought you didn’t like changbin after what happened in elementary school”
“uhhh... i don’t like him, but it’s hard to explain. now is just not a good time, okay y/n? can you please leave now?”
“when will it be a “good time” chan? huh? should i come over again tomorrow? next week? next month? you tell me”
“how about never”
then it hit you, you knew something was up you just have to throw him off guard enough to get past him and up to his room. so many things were running through your head that you just needed to get upstairs asap.
“never!?!? what the hell chan, why won’t you tell me? i dont care what you do just as long as you aren’t pushing yourself too hard” that wasn’t true, you care about this kind of stuff, but only when it’s chan who’s doing it.
“what are you keeping from me christopher!” you yell as you run up the stairs to his room.
“wait, y/n don’t go--” his sentence was cut off by the sound of your hand coming in contact with his face. you were able to quickly open the door when you reached the top only to find empty beer bottles and joints laying around his room.
you immediately ran out of the room, past chan, and out the front door again.
you couldn’t stop yourself from crying as you ran home. you didn’t know what was going to happen, but you had to stop it somehow. in this current moment you were too overwhelmed to even think about how you were going to stop him. little did you know that chan was also worried, but he was mostly worried about you. he realized what he had done, but wasn’t sure if he should try and see you again or give you sometime to process, he chose the later.
it had been 3 days since you stormed out of chan’s house. winter break was almost over, and you had no idea how you were going to be able to look him in the eye.
you pick up your phone only to see that you have 5 missed calls from chan himself, so you click call back and wait for him to pick up.
“y/n!!! you finally picked up” he said sounding a bit drunk
“hey buddy are you okay?”
“can you come pick me up from my friends house? changbin left already and i dont really know anyone else here.”
“yeah sure send me the address and ill be there soon”
“thank you so much y/n! see ya”
you were already almost out the door when he hung up. something inside you knew that he was going to say he needed a ride. you were too busy thinking about the fact that he’s drunk to worry about anything else.
when you got to the house you saw chan sitting outside and sprinted from the car to him. he was already asleep against the wall of the house.
“hey koala, time to get up. let me take you home okay?”
before you knew what was going on chan’s arms had slid around your waist pulling you closer to him.
“y/n, please don’t leave me” he said as tears started to form in his eyes.
you reciprocated his hug 
“i promise i will never leave you”
you got him up and on his feet with his arm on your shoulders helping him walk to the passenger side of the car sliding him into the seat and buckling him in. you quickly walked to the other side and drove back to his house.
you made sure he was safely upstairs before you left to go back home yourself.
“wait y/n” he said grabbing your hand
“will you help me change out of these clothes?”
“sure buddy”
you were able to then help him slip into a pair of sweats he had and a t-shirt. he then slid into bed and you covered him with his sheets. just as you were about to leave a hand shot out from behind you grabbing your wrist.
“y/n, will you stay with me for a bit?”
you nodded and walked back over to the bed and kneeled next to it
“no, i mean will you lay with me for a bit, like we used to” he said. you could see the slight blush creep up his neck to his ears.
“okay” you slid next to him and he moved over to make room for you covering you with the sheets.
next thing you knew you had fallen asleep for about an hour, waking up to the feeling of chans lips on top of yours. your eyes widened as he moved away.
“y/n, sleep with me”
you didn’t know how to respond, you knew he was drunk, but not this drunk. 
“ we are in highschool chan, we can’t do this.”
“y/n, look at me” he said putting a hand against the side of your face to push it towards his.
“i love you y/n, i always have and always will. i have never once thought of you as my friend. i’ve only wanted you to be mine completely.”
in that moment your heart jumped, and before you knew it the night was gone. you woke up to a sleeping chan. realizing that you were still at his house you panicked and texted your parents telling them you stayed at chan’s to keep an eye on him since he was feeling “a little under the weather”. you got up and decided to go make breakfast.
you looked over at the stairs and watched a sleepy chan waddle down the stairs causing you smile. 
“morning sleepy head. how do you feel?” you asked handing him a plate of eggs and bacon
“i feel great, just a bit of a headache is all.” he said taking a seat at the island bar.
after breakfast you decided it was time for you to go, but you told chan that you would be back to check on him later, and you did just that.
now that break was over, you knew you wouldn’t have to completely worry about chan since he would be too busy with homework. you drove him to school everyday and everything felt like it was back to normal, but after a month or so you realized something was wrong, but you weren’t sure of what, that is until you got home.
“shit...” you muttered to yourself and ran back out the door to the nearest convenience store. you ran to the hygiene section and grabbed what you needed, paid for it and went back home. you darted through the front door and ran to the bathroom. 
positive
“i’m pregnant?” you said as the memories of what happened over break flashed threw your head. you quickly picked up the phone, unable to press chan’s contact because your hands were shaking so much.
“y/n? are you okay?” he asked on the other side of the line
“meet me at the park by your house in 10 minutes” you said as clearly as possible, so he wouldn’t be as worried as he was right now. you hung up and went back out to your car and sped to the park.
you could see chan running from the other direction obviously worried about you.
“y/n are you okay? what’s wrorng? did something happen?” he said grabbing your shoulders.
“do you remember what happened over winter break?”
“uhh a little bit, but honestly it’s a little hazy, why what happened?”
“chan... i’m pregnant”
his heart dropped
“are...are you sure? how do you know?” he asked obviously shaken, but trying to keep his cool.
you handed him the pregnancy test
“shit y/n, whose is it?”
“it’s yours chan. you’re the only person i’ve slept with ever.”
his eyes widened. he never thought that this would happen, let alone the fact that he never wanted it to happen.
“shit, well i guess this means that i can do what i’ve always wanted to do” he said getting down on one knee.
“y/n... will you marry me? i’m not sure this is the right time, but seeing as we are about to start a family, i think this is very appropriate.”
you heart jumped, and a smile crept on your face.
“yes”
chan jumped to his feet and pulled you into a bear hug
“oh shit i knew i was forgetting something”
“what?” you asked
“haha, well i... um... forgot the ring”
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A look into the Iron Kids group chat between Harley, Peter, and Riri. 
Sequel to Bold of You
Translation for Harley’s nonsense at the bottom
Spider-Son: @Son Prime Mr. Stark totally just admitted that Riri was his favorite.
Son Prime: wut???? thts blsht >:((((
Spider-Son changed their name to Pun-Son
Pun-Son: IKR?
Dad’s Favorite: HA! I fucking told you
Son Prime: fuk off riri
Pun-Son: Ya, this is a private conversation.
Dad's Favorite: Y’all are the dumbasses having a “private conversation” in the group chat
Pun-Son: Shit
Really?
I thought @ing him would make it private.
Oops
Son Prime: pete i lov n rspct u but ur a fukn dumbass
Dad's Favorite: This is why dad loves me most
Pun-Son: ;’((((
Whatever.
Anyway
So,,,,
The rest of the team knows you guys exist now.
Son Prime: shiiiiiiiiiiiit
Dad's Favorite: What happened?
Is everyone okay?
Are you okay?
Is Tony okay?
Pun-Son: Ya, everyone's fine, dw.
Son Prime: thn wut hpnd????
Pun-Son: IDK???
Like
Mr. Stark just said I did a good job
And then fucking Captain America was like
“Hey, everybody it's Peter Parker!”
Dad's Favorite: Damn. So now they all know?
Son Prime: thats ruf buddy
Pun-Son: Nah, it's fine.
I panicked and then said that Mr. Stark had lots of kids
And that Peter and Spider-Man were totally different kids.
Son Prime: wow. cnt blev u managed 2 lie 2 captain america
i figd he cld smell lies
or that u would spontaneously combust if u tried
tht was specific 2 u btw
Dad's Favorite: Has anyone ever told you you're a dick?
Son Prime: not 2 my face but thts what i assume theyre saying wen they dub chek tht mr tony isnt my real dad.
Dad's Favorite: Not a bad assumption ngl
Pun-Son: Also, point of order, didn't lie
I just,,,,,,,
Implied.
Heavily.
To the point of lying.
But didn't cross that line.
Son Prime: wow pete ur a saint
Dad's Favorite: They bought it? Just like that?
Pun-Son: TBH they were way more interested in the group chat.
Like, they legit forgot they were trying to figure out who Spider-Man is.  
I told Cap your usernames.
Dad's Favorite: Well I'm glad the team knows the truth now
Son Prime: wut? abt mr tony runin a daycare?
Dad's Favorite: No about me being his favorite
Dad's Favorite: Hey guys??? College fucking blows. I'm gonna murder whoever came up with it
Son Prime: sup riri?
Dad's Favorite: Literally just told you. College blows
The Live-in: *break dances gently*
What's wrong, Riri?
Son Prime: atm u if i had 2 ges
Dad's Favorite: Mostly that you're trying to comfort me via meme.
SHIT
Beat me to it
Son Prime: :p
The Live-in: You guys are the worst.
Dad's Favorite: You're the one who decided to be the middle child
The Live-in: WTF, no, I didn't??
Also, Harley is literally less than 4 months older than me.
Son Prime: god pete ur practically an infant cmpared to me
The Live-in: -_______-
Can we go back to talking about Riri’s problems now?
Please?
For the love of science.
Dad's Favorite: Nah I'm good actually. Roasting you is way more interesting
The Live-in: THE W O R S T
Son Prime: srsly tho. u ok riri?
Dad's Favorite: Yeah I'm fine. Just got assigned a group project
The Live-in: Was it at least a class you have a friend in?
Dad's Favorite: Peter literally everyone in that class is 7+ years older than me. If I had friends do you think I'd talk to you two?
The Live-in: Yes
Because you love us.
You've said so.
Son Prime: hes got a point
Dad's Favorite: Lies and slander
The Live-in: Seriously, though.
Are you good?
Dad's Favorite: Yeah. It's not like they're actively mean to me or anything. It just sucks not having friends
Son Prime: tell us if they start bn dicks. pete n i will kick thr asses. we r still ur big bros
Dad's Favorite: Yeah I know <3
God I can’t wait until you two are finally here and I actually have someone to talk to for once.
The Live-in: Yeah!!!!
We should get an apartment.
And a dog.
A secret dog.
Dad’s Favorite: Why is the dog secret???
The Live-in: Because I can’t have a dog at my apartment.
And your mom is allergic to dogs.
And Harley’s little sister is scared of dogs.
So it would have to live with dad over the summer.
And he won’t let us get a dog if he knows ahead of time.
That’s why a secret dog.
Dad’s Favorite: Hell yes secret dog.
The Live-in: I vote pitbull.
Son Prime: sum1 convinse me not 2 murder ths lady
Peter PARKOUR: ?????????
???????
?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?
Harley, WTF you can't just say that and then not elaborate.
Dad's Favorite: Siding with Peter here. Who are you trying to murder Keener?
Peter PARKOUR: Dude.
Seriously??
Are you literally ignoring us right now?
HARLEY, YOU HAVE YOUR READ RECEIPTS ON!
Son Prime: Read: 3:23
Dad's Favorite: Harley I swear to god you're going in the nearest lake first time we meet
Peter PARKOUR: Wait.
Hold on a damn minute.
Are you telling me?
The two of you haven't actually met??
Like IRL???
Dad's Favorite: Yeah. I mean we Skype and text plenty but we've never been in the same room
Peter PARKOUR: That's wild??
I mean
I know the three of us haven't been together
But I figured you had met without me.
Son Prime: wait. wen did u 2 meet?
Dad's Favorite: Figures that's what gets his attention instead of murder
Peter PARKOUR: When I went to tour MIT?
Have you and Mr. Stark not gone yet?
Son Prime: nope
Peter PARKOUR: Why not??
Son Prime: i dunno. keep puttin it off
Dad's Favorite: I smell a lie. I don't know what it is but you better watch your back Harley. I will find out
Son Prime: ok baskin robin
Peter PARKOUR: Can we get back to the murder?
I feel like we glossed over that.
Son Prime: no
Dad's Favorite: No point. Either they decided to leave Harley alone
Peter PARKOUR: Or??
Dad's Favorite: Or they're dead
Son Prime: & ull nvr kno
Peter PARKOUR: You two need to chill.
And meet.
Seriously, we've been talking for a year
And you two haven't even laid eyes on each other.
H O W?
Dad's Favorite: Let's start with the fact that we live like 20 hours away from each other?
Peter PARKOUR: I'm not even going to grace that with an answer.
Actually
I am
Mr. Stark has like a fleet of planes??
You could literally make a day trip out of it.
Son Prime: hes actually got a point…
Peter PARKOUR: I almost always have a point.
You two just ignore me.
Because you're assholes.
Dad's Favorite: That's fair
Dad's Favorite: @Son Prime 
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I saw this and thought of you
Peter In The Middle: WHAT
THE
FUCK
IS THAT THING EVEN REAL??
Dad's Favorite: Lol yeah. Saw it at the thrift store
Son Prime: What I want to know is why the FUCK it reminded you of me.
Peter In The Middle: Oh damn.
He broke out the capitals and full words.
He's serious.
Son Prime: Actually it's just a new phone Mr. Tony sent me. Can't figure out how to turn off the damn autocorrect
Dad's Favorite: Why is it that you 2 are geniuses but can't figure out how phones work half the time?
Son Prime: Excuse you this is 1 of those prototype StarkPhones that literally nobody knows how to use yet.
Peter in the Middle: Are you really never gonna let the group chat thing die?
Dad's Favorite: No
Son Prime: Absolutely not.
Peter in the Middle: It was one (1) time you assholes.
Son Prime: I feel like we’re forgetting about the horror show that somehow reminded Riri of me.
Peter in the Middle: I was.
Trying to, at least.
Thanks for the reminder.
Dad’s Favorite: I’m not forgetting. Ever
Son Prime: Explain???
Dad’s Favorite: Should I tho?
Peter in the Middle: Depends.
Do you want me to show Mr. Stark The Video?
Dad’s Favorite: You wouldn’t
Peter in the Middle: Try me, bitch.
Son Prime: Video????
Dad’s Favorite: Don���t worry about it
Peter in the Middle: I’ll send it to you later.
Dad’s Favorite: I hate you
Peter in the Middle: :D
Cow mug.
Now.
Dad’s Favorite: It says Tennessee on it.
Peter in the Middle: Wait.
That’s it?
No inside joke????
Dad’s Favorite: Nope
Peter in the Middle: What the fuck?
Now I feel dumb.
Dad’s Favorite: :))))))
Son Prime: |-|4 ! |=!6(_)|23|) !7 0(_)7
Dad's Favorite: What the fuck does that even say??
Peter in the Middle: Is that???
Even approaching English??
Son Prime: |\|0 !7$ |_337
Dad's Favorite: Stop
Son Prime: |\/|4|{3 |\/|3
Dad's Favorite has kicked Son Prime out of the Iron Kids group
Peter in the Middle: Harley is texting me
Saying to tell you to unblock him.
He has something important to say.
Dad's Favorite has added Son Prime to the Iron Kids group
Son Prime:
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Dad's Favorite has kicked Son Prime out of the Iron Kids group
Peter in the Middle: Fair and valid.
Dad's Favorite has kicked Peter in the Middle out of the Iron Kids group
Dad's Favorite: Finally I am free
Son Prime: guess who got his xseptns letter!!!!!!!!
Dad’s Favorite: Holy shit!!!! Harley that’s fucking amazing!!!!!!
Potor Purkur: Yessssssss!!!!
Dude, that’s amazing!!!!!!!!!!
Also????
How did you get yours early???
MIT letters aren’t supposed to go out for another week??
Did Mr. Stark pull strings?
BUT ALSO CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Son Prime: na tony dnt do nythng
Potor Purkur: ???????????
Son Prime: xseptns snt 4 mit
Dad’s Favorite: Was it a backup or something?
Son Prime: or smthn
Dad’s Favorite: I swear this is worse than pulling teeth. Spill.
Son Prime: i nvr actuly applied 4 mit
Dad’s Favorite: So that’s the real reason you never came to visit. You weren’t just putting it off.
Potor Purkur: Did you ever even plan on going to MIT?
Son Prime: hell no. ive had ths place n mind since middle school
Potor Purkur: Well?
What is it?
Come on, dude.
Son Prime: u hv 2 prms not 2 tell mr tony
Dad’s Favorite: Sure.
Son Prime: com on @Potor Purkur u gotta prms
Potor Purkur: I promise.
Well, I promise to try.
I’m kind bad at secrets, actually.
But so long as he doesn’t ask
I’m fine.
I promise.
Son Prime: how do u evn hv a scret id @ ths point
Potor Purkur: Honestly??
No idea.
All of Queens should know by now TBH
But
That has literally nothing to do with your college.
Dad’s Favorite: Yeah cmon Harls. Spill.
Son Prime: I’m totally serious right now. Don’t tell Mr. Tony. I want  to tell him myself.
Potor Purkur: Promise.
Dad’s Favorite: On my life.
Son Prime: ok hr it goz.
im goin to caltech
guys?
its bn lik 5 min. wts up
Potor Purkur: Holy sHIT
Are you serious??
Dad’s Favorite: You men caltech as in the school in Pasadena California? MIT’s biggest rival since ever? The school Tony loudly talks about how much he hates? THAT caltech?
Son Prime: …
yes
Potor Purkur: Holy shit.
*_*_*_*_*
Spider-Son: Hey, guys?
I think dad might have accidentally,,,,,,,,
Built a murder bot.
Again.
Dad's Favorite: W H A T
Son Prime: u ok? r u fiting it???
Spider-Son: No.
No, you see,,,,
The murder bot,,,,,,,
Is actually,,,,,,,,,,,
Karen.
Dad's Favorite: …
Son Prime: ..............
Dad's Favorite: Explain
Spider-Son: Well.
You know how my suit has an Instant Kill Mode?
And Karen keeps trying to make me use it?
Dad's Favorite: Yeah??
Son Prime: i dnt thnk tht counts as “accidentally"
jst irresponsible
Spider-Son: That's what I thought too.
But we're in the jet.
Headed for the mission.
And I joke that I should use IKM.
And Mr. Stark freaks out.
Dad's Favorite: Why???
Spider-Son: Here's the thing.
Mr. Stark.
Didn't make an Instant Kill Mode.
Karen did that.
By herself.
Dad's Favorite: Holy shit
Son Prime: dude wut the FUCK
Spider-Son: I K N O W
Son Prime: uve befriended her at least. hopfully she remains loyal during the robo revolution.
Spider-Son: Karen says hi BTW.
Dad's Favorite: Fantastic. Maybe she'll spare us as well
Spider-Son: Karen says, and I quote, “I don't know about that.”
Son Prime: /sweats/
Dad's Favorite: I'm not even sure how I feel about this tbh
On the one hand: possibly evil robot
On the other: if she's joking this is some seriously cool coding
Son Prime: i have xactly 0 mixed feelings. murder bot bad
Spider-Son: Mr. Stark offered to change her code when we got back.
Son Prime: thk god
Spider-Son: I said no.
Son Prime: W H Y
Spider-Son: Because I love Karen just the way she is.
And she loves me.
Dad's Favorite: Okay, I've decided. That is a seriously cool ai
Son Prime: a srsly cool ai thts gonna kill us all
Spider-Son: Karen promises to spare you.
If you buy me a milkshake.
Son Prime: i cnt bleve my terminator trauma is being taken advantage of by a murder bot.
Spider-Son: :P
Dad's Favorite: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Spider-Son: Oh my God
You actually sent me money for a milkshake.
Nice.
I'm getting strawberry.
Son Prime: fuk u
Son Prime: @Dad's Favorite wut r u doin n june
Dad's Favorite: Probably nothing? Idk I might take an online class. Mostly just hanging out at home
Son Prime: so u dnt hav ny plans 4 vacay or nythng
Dad's Favorite: Not that I know of??
Son Prime: wuts the prob tht u could get ur mom to let you go smwher 4 the month
Dad's Favorite: Depends??
What's with all the leading questions?
Son Prime: bcuz i just told my mom tht mr tony nvitd the 3 of us 2 stay at the compound in june
Dad's Favorite: He did?? Why didn't he say anything??
Son Prime: bcuz he dnt ask. im the 1 plan plannin it
Dad's Favorite: Harley what the actual fuck. Have you even asked Tony?
Son Prime: no thts peters job
Dad's Favorite: Wait Peter's in on it too? How long have you two been planning this?
Son Prime: bout 20 mins. & pete dsnt no yet
Dad's Favorite: Again wtf. Why don't you do it?
Son Prime: hv u SEEN peters puppy dog eyes
speakin of
@The Live-in nswer ur phone
@The Live-in
@The Live-in
@The Live-in
Dad's Favorite: @The Live-in
@The Live-in
@The Live-in
Son Prime: @The Live-in
@The Live-in
@The Live-in
@The Live-in
The Live-in: Jesus Christ.
You two are awful.
I was in chemistry.
Don't you two ever go to class?
Son Prime: y bother
Dad's Favorite: I do but I know how to text in class
The Live-in: Like I said.
Awful.
Son Prime: wtevr. cn u do it or no?
The Live-in: What exactly am I even doing?
Dad's Favorite: Pretty sure you're convincing dad to let the 3 of us stay at the compound over June.
The Live-in: Oh.
Yeah.
That shouldn't be hard.
Like at all.
He's about to pick me up from school.
I'll ask in just a sec.
Son Prime: c? told u it wld b ez
The Live-in: HE SAID YES
Well, he said yes so long as we can get our moms/aunt to agree.
BUT STILL
Dad's Favorite: Holy shit!!
The Live-in: I KNOW!!
Son Prime: wer gonna get n2 so much bullshit.
The Live-in: B]
Dad's Favorite: B]
Son Prime: B]
Spider-Son: Guys, I may not come back from this mission alive.
Tell Ned I’ve always had a crush on him
Wait.
Shit.
That was just supposed to sound dumb and dramatic.
Not like something to actually worry about.
I’ll be fine.
Mr. Stark won’t let me go on the super dangerous missions.
Son Prime: i swr 2 fuk im gonna kill u parker
Dad’s Favorite: Yeah maybe that wasn’t exactly the best way to start that off.
Also if Ned doesn’t already know you’re madly in love with him then there’s no hope for either of you.
Spider-Son: #rude
One day I’ll get Ned to fall in love with me.
Then you’ll be sorry.
Dad’s Favorite: Oh honey
Son Prime: stop w/ petes crush. i wnna no y he thnks hes gonna die
Spider-Son: H I M
Dad’s Favorite: Christ what’s Rogers done now?
Spider-Son: He’s just doing That Thing again.
The one where he calls me kid and son.
I h a t e it, and IDK how to make him stop
Dad's Favorite: /Hamilton voice/ I'm not your son
Son Prime: congrats on not str8 up murdering him yet
Spider-Son: God he’s just so??
I don't know what, but I hate it.
I swear to God if he benches me again this mission I'm going to strangle him with his star-spangled tights.
Dad's Favorite: You gonna beat him upside the head until he sees…
Stars?
Spider-Son: I HATE YOU!!
I WAS TRYING TO BE MAD
AND NOW I'M GIGGLING!
NOBODY TAKES ME SERIOUS WHEN I GIGGLE!!
Son Prime: nbdy takes u srsly evr
Spider-Son: Fuck off, Keener.
Son Prime: ;P
Dad's Favorite: Hey Peter quick question tho?
Spider-Son: Quick answer.
Dad's Favorite: If you hate Rogers why don't you just not talk to him? Why do you act all polite to his face? Just tell him to fuck off and leave you alone?
Spider-Son: I wish it was that easy.
I mean
It could be
But it isn't.
I have to be polite because we're on the same team.
We're supposed to work together.
I started off kinda rude to him, but Mr. Stark fussed at me.
Apparently what we're doing is bigger than petty squabbles.
Son Prime: uhhh ths is def mr thn a petty squabble tho? mr t wtf
Dad's Favorite: What are you even saying to me right now?? Is dad not mad?
Spider-Son: NoPE.
He just goes along with whatever He says.
Right now Mr. Stark is flying the jet.
Even though it has autopilot.
So I'm left alone back here with Him.
The only other person we brought was Ant-Man and he's asleep so it's just the two of us making conversation.
I hate it.
I'm dying.
Also
I think he doesn't like me looking at my phone so much.
DEAL WITH IT OLD MAN
Son Prime: u rly do snd lik ur bout 2 die. rip n pieces pete
Dad's Favorite: I'm SO glad Tony hasn't cleared me for missions yet.
Spider-Son: I wish you were.
I need someone to hang out with on these.
Speaking of which.
I'm gonna go ask dad if he'll try to teach me to fly again.
Last time…
Did Not Go Well
Also kinda wanna make Him sick again.
It was funny last time.
If he says no the at least I'll have some time alone.
Anyway I'm out.
Talk to you after we kicked ass!
Dad's Favorite: Take a better selfie this time. Lighting was garbage in the last one.
Son Prime: brng me a robos arm
If you didn't need Harley's nonsense translated, I'm impressed. If you did, here you go. He's speaking leet for anyone interested.
|-|4 ! |=!6(_)|23|) !7 0(_)7 ~ Ha I figured it out
|\|0 !7$ |_337 ~ No it's leet
|\/|4|{3 |\/|3 ~ Make me
|3!7(|-| ~ Bitch
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