#so now im expierencing symptoms

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Im at this cafe w my friends doing hw nd i am full of love i love them

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Kaneki’s DID

This is gonna be long post bc i wanted to analyze it well lmao

I noticed that whole manga Kaneki changes his personality multiple times.And what’s weird abt it is that its always completely different,or opposite,personality that he used to be.

And I used to think its probs for the symbolism and that “rebirth” thing idk but now i really think that Kaneki is showing alot of symptoms of DID.

Dissociative identity disorder, formerly referred to as multiple personality disorder, is a condition wherein a person's identity is fragmented into two or more distinct personality states. 

DID is caused or triggered,usually by severe physical and sexual abuse (Yamori torturing Kaneki and thats when it firstable started to develop) and 90% of patients expierenced childhood abuse (Kaneki got beat up by his mom).

It can appear at any age and usually person has post-traumatic symptoms like nightmares, flashbacks, and startle responses and we saw that Kaneki has that all,especially in a “Switch” for another personality there are usually words “Good Night” and in this chapter “Good Morning”.Also not to mention his all nightmares and vivid flashbacks w chekboard sky and memories of Rize and his live and all those decisions and mistakes he made before.

Also,I need to mention that when person is expierencing the “attack” of DID they lose memory or memory is surpressed by mind of another person who is in it’s mind and even tho this disorder (Haise not remembering that he is actually Kaneki) and it kinda reminds me in some points of Schizoprenia its not really the same but its really bad damage of person’s mind and soul that causes appearance of voices inside of their mind and we saw that in most crucial moments when Kaneki is in big life danger and when everything seems to fall apart he goes through alot of stress and his mind and DID is triggered in activating the another personality to come in and replace current Kaneki bc maybe that other person inside of him can handle the situation better.Its like hes shaped in other person each time due outside world that presses him to become someone else and survive.

Usually the lets call it Primar personality of person is passive,depressed,dependent and feels alot of guilt for some things and its own life (Kuroneki) 

 And when another alter ego person takes control (Shironeki) may be experienced as if it has a distinct way of thinking, self-image and identity. Also we see it later when Shironeki is replaced by Haise it is different personality and then Haise is replaced with edgelord Black Reaper and its so much difference that they dont even seem like its all the same person.

The alters' characteristics—including name, reported age and way they look like, vocabulary, general knowledge, and predominant mood—contrast with those of the primary identity. (I said how all Kaneki;s elter personalities are usually complete opposite of one another).Certain circumstances or stressors can cause a particular alter to emerge aka all those situations where Kaneki’s goal to save everyone was crushed again and he feels unable to do that so he changes again in another person and in this panel there r those curcial moments shown:

And i forgot to say that due conflict in between this alter egos they deny the existence of one before them as “useless” and they think of themself as the “higher one” and i think at Kaneki’s case it represents in way that hes obsessed w thought that he has to save everyone and that whoever “he used to be” is too weak for that and that its his fault for everything that happened.

People with DID may describe feeling that they have suddenly become depersonalized observers of their own speech and actions. They might report hearing voices like a child's voice,and Kaneki usually hallucinates his own child self.

And in some cases, these voices accompany multiple streams of thought that the individual has no control over. The individual might also experience sudden impulses or strong emotions that they don't feel control or a sense of ownership over.

 People may also report that their bodies suddenly feel different like a small child, huge and muscular (and Kaneki does get huge strength when hes expeirencing)or that they experience a sudden shift in attitudes or personal preferences before shifting back. 

And more than 70% of persons who suffer from this are very suicidal and as we know Kaneki is probably most suicidal person ever LMAO

So basically that’s it I put just some of examples of Kaneki’s disorder but Im pt sure there’s more and I hope i explained it well 

[mental-health-advice]

(1/2) for about 3 years now i have been expierencing bouts of (what i assume to be) depression. the first time it happened it stuck around for 6-7 months but now it comes around for few months at a time and then disappears, there tends to be no 'cause' and it can get really really bad, i cant get out of bed, i depersonilize and i have suicial thoughts. but then it goes away and im left thinking i imagined it all or it wasnt that bad. -spencer

(2/2)do i need to talk to someone abt this? would meds help if my depression goes away on its own? how do i approach this im so confused (im not at risk for self-harm or suicide i have made life plans that are keeping me grounded rn)-spencer

Hi Spencer,

I’m really sorry to hear that you’ve been struggling. It does sound concerning, so it would be a good idea to talk to someone about it. A lot of people think that they don’t need help because they have periods of time where they feel okay, but the times where you don’t feel well are still important. There are actually a few forms of depression, if that is what you have, that cause someone to have periods of depression and then periods where they feel okay. Because of that, it would be helpful for you to talk to a professional about it.

Although your depression “goes away” for a while, medication would still help. If you do start some sort of medication, it would help with the symptoms that you have when you’re having one of those low points and hopefully make it so you have more of the okay periods and less of the depressed ones. Medication isn’t a quick fix and it takes some trial and error to figure out what works best for you, but it’s a huge help once you find the right medication and dosage.

Actually reaching out for help is probably the hardest part of all of this at this point. If you’re a minor, you would have to talk to your parents about what’s going on and explain that you think you need to seek help. If you’re not a minor, depending on where you live you can see your primary doctor and ask for a referral or find someone on your own and make an appointment. Either way works, as long as you get the help that you need. It’s intimidating, but chances are that you’ll be glad that you sought help.

Good luck and take care!

-Samantha