#so now i must suffer 😮‍💨😮‍💨

[confoodles]

Things to never say to someone who just came out as HATCHETFIELD CHARACTERS 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

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[nyxiswrites1200]

𝑺𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝑺𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒍𝒆 𝑴𝒐𝒎

Toji Fushiguro x Fem!Reader

Warnings: NSFT, MDNI, OOC(?), Implied Age gap, p in v, fingering, praise, pet names, size kink, nipple play, oral sex, body insecurities, aftercare

Mentions: Reader is a single mom, Reader is implied to be younger than Toji, Pet names (mama, darling, daddy)

AO3 Link

AN: So, this is my first Toji fic mostly because I wasn't a fan of him but fine he's hot 😮‍💨 so please don't shit on me if this is bad.

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Sometimes it really was too much. You wouldn't trade your kid for anything in the world. You loved your child, they were everything to you. However, ever since your ex-boyfriend left about a year ago, things haven't been easy. 

It was hard to find any time for yourself. Even years after pregnancy, you were still suffering from some mental struggles. Between work and raising the kid on your own, there wasn't much time to take care of yourself. 

Toji had recently moved into the apartment building. Only a few doors down from you. He didn't take much notice of you until you bumped into him one morning, quite literally. 

Toji was heading to the elevator so he could go to the gym on the first floor. Meanwhile, you were heading off to work and dropping your kid off at daycare. 

Your head was overflowing with thoughts. You were thinking about the bills and what to fix for dinner, along with the small amount of sleep you managed. You felt overwhelmed with embarrassment and almost disappointment in yourself when you bumped into the brick wall that is Toji. 

“Oh god, I'm so sorry” you quickly said as Toji met your gaze. 

He took in your appearance. From the color of your eyes to your figure, even noticing the weary look on your face. 

There wasn't much you could say for yourself. That one coincidental meeting turned into ‘good mornings’ when you left for work; they turned into him knowing your kid’s name, and eventually you hired a babysitter to spend your night with Toji. 

“Hey mama” he smirked as he let you into his apartment. It was cleaner than you expected. You didn't really know how to act around Toji sometimes. His presence took up so much space, and just his aura alone was dominating. You didn't know much about Toji, but a part of you didn't want to know too much. You already felt your emotions were out of line with Toji. The simple act of him placing his large hand on your lower back made your skin warm. 

The both of you ended up watching a movie on the couch. Which eventually leads to Toji listening to your rambling.

“I'm just so fucking tired…” you sigh, rubbing a hand over your face. “Between work and my kid, and my bastard ex leaving” you groaned with annoyance. You weren't sure why you were telling him all this, but you needed a vent so badly. 

“Mm, the bastard left you alone with the kid?” Toji rasped; he knew he wasn't a perfect parent. You didn't know that, however. But Toji knew how young your kid was, and he's met enough women to know it wasn't easy for you. Plus, the postpartum depression of any child birth is hard to conquer. 

“Yeah” you sigh in response. “Everything was fine in our relationship; I don't know why he changed like that…”. 

Toji did feel a little insincere when it came to you. He wanted to be honest, but he didn't know if that would do either of you any good. At first, he did just want to sleep with you, but now? He felt infatuated. 

“People change, it’s hell but it happens” he responds. Toji places his hand on your thigh and rubs it gently. “But you didn't deserve that, darling” he comforts. The action sends a familiar feeling to the space in between your thighs. 

A part of you gives into reason and thinks you should leave, but Toji must have noticed. “Let me take care of you. You work so hard, mama. Just let a real man take care of you” he rasps. He needed you, and you wanted him. 

“I don't much remember how to let someone…take care of me” you sigh but Toji doesn't mind. “Let me help you remember” he smirks. 

Toji leans in close, and you respond, giving him the silent answer he needs. He kisses you; he’s firm and a bit rough. But you kind of liked it. 

Kisses turn into making out, tongues tasting one another, and then his hands slip into your panties. Pulling away from the kiss leaves a trail of drool connecting your lips to his. “So wet, mama. Just relax for me, I know how to take care of pretty things” he rasps and you don't bother to question him. 

Toji’s fingers toy with your clit. You moan as your hands grip his broad shoulders. “Fuck- Toji~” you can't help but moan; you were so sensitive ever since having your kid. “Good girl, doing good for me. Nobody’s been paying this pretty pussy any attention?” He chuckles lowly as he finally just takes off your panties. He needs to see it—see how slick you are and how your walls tighten. 

“No” you whine “Nobody pays attention to me, I’m not as good looking since I had a kid” you admit. Well, your ex told you that. Toji doesn't believe it, if anything; knowing this now only makes him want to fuck your pussy full and show you how ‘unattractive’ he thinks you are. 

“Let me show you how fucking sexy you are, babe” 

You writhe beneath Toji on his bed now. He is two fingers deep in your pussy as he adds a third. A pathetic moan leaves your lips as you grind into his hand while he fucks you full of his fingers, down to his knuckles. 

“Ahah- Toji- Oh God~” you moan out loudly, only hoping maybe your neighbors aren't hearing. Especially your babysitter. You swear you didn't hire them just to go fuck some older man, even if it was happening now.

“So pretty, mama. Tightening around my fingers, making such a mess…” he smirks as he watches your pussy clench around him. The messy squelching sounds from how wet you were only made Toji’s cock ache. 

“Toji- I'm gonna cum..fuck~” you moan out, your head tilting back into the pillows. But your pleasure was taken away just as quickly as it started. You let out a pant as you looked at Toji with a pathetic whine. 

“Don't start, I'm not gonna leave you. Just need that pretty pussy sopping around my cock. Want you to squirt all over me, mama so I can lick your cunt clean after.” He smirks, his words almost being enough to send you over the edge. 

Toji frees his cock from his sweatpants, and it's fucking huge. More than you ever took, but fuck if that didn't have your cunt tightening around nothing. He’s painfully hard, with the tip leaking pre-cum. 

“Can you spit on it for me, mama? Wanna get it nice and slick for you” You've never been in something so erotic. You sit up and gather some saliva on your tongue before spitting it out onto Toji’s cock. He doesn't hesitate to smear it all over the tip with his hand and then down his length. 

“That's my good girl, so fucking sweet to me” he rasps as a groan leaves his throat. He needed your pussy clenching around him. Toji tugs at your shirt, but you pull back a little, and he pauses, looking at you, wanting an explanation as to why you didn't allow it. His intense gaze makes you fold. 

“I just…what if you don't like it…” you look away. Toji was such an attractive man. He was muscular, tall, broad, and, overall, just masculine. You were sure he could have anybody he wanted, and he probably has. 

Toji looked at you as if being anything less than a horny bastard for you was impossible. He quickly pulled off your shirt; obviously, he won that battle. 

“If I don't like it?” He groans as he rubs his tip along the slick entrance of your pussy “That's not possible, let me show you how I feel about you”. He then fills up your cunt in one swift motion. A loud moan falls from you as you writhe with pleasure beneath him, your legs hooking around his waist.

Pathetic whimpers leave your throat as you get used to his size. He gives you a minute, but then he's relentless.

Toji grabs your thighs and presses them into you. His cock hits deep, kissing your cervix as he begins to fuck you. His thrusts hit that spot in you every time; his pace was too fast. You could barely pull in a breath between each thrust. You moan out loudly into the small apartment. Your hands coming up to grip onto his broad shoulders. 

“So fucking tight, you're so pretty…” he chuckles breathlessly, watching you writhe on his cock. He leaned down and popped one of your nipples into his mouth, sucking on it. 

It was so fucking erotic. Toji’s black hair draped over his face as he sucked on your breasts, teeth grazing you. His cock fucking the deepest part of you as his muscular arms held your thighs open. His balls slapping into your ass with every desperate thrust. 

You scratch into his back as you moan out for him. He was overwhelming, but you loved every second of it. You've never been fucked this good, and you haven't felt anywhere near this good in a while. 

Toji pulled off your hardened nipple. He pressed a hand onto your stomach, and you tightened around him when you noticed the noticeable bulge he left in you with every thrust. 

“So fucking big, daddy~” you moan as you continue to scratch into him. “Yeah, mama~? This cock fucking you good? Gonna squirt all over daddy’s cock?” 

“Mhm, I'm so close-” you whine. Toji pulls back a little as he wraps one hand around your throat. He presses his forehead against yours as his pace quickens. 

“Look at me, I want to look at your pretty face as I fill this pretty cunt” he groans as he relentlessly rails into you.

The apartment was filled with pathetic moans from both of you, wet squelching sounds, and skin slapping against each other. 

“Toji Toji-” you scream out for him as you squirt onto his cock. Your liquids are soaking his dick and lower stomach. Your pussy tightens around him, dragging more moans from the man on top of you. You feel his cock twitch as the tip presses into your cervix, then he cums. Toji pants as he watches your expression contort with pleasure as he fills your pussy. 

“Good girl, so fucking dirty, mama” he chuckles. He thrusts a few more times, making sure his cum was fucked into you. In truth, he could do this all night. He wanted to keep pounding you. Fucking you full of his cum, fuck you until his cock went limp, but that's not what tonight was about. 

He slowly drags his cock out of you. He groans at the sight of your cum covering every inch of his cock and some of his stomach. He leans in and kisses your cheek before his head finds its way between your thighs. His tongue ran over the slit. 

You whine in response, tangling a hand into his messy hair. Toji licks all over your cunt, sucking up all your cum like it was his only meal for the month. He groaned against your pussy as he fucked his tongue inside of you. 

“Daddy- it's too much, I can't-” you whine as you writhe beneath him, making him hold your thighs open. Toji doesn't care; he was obsessed with you and drunk on your pretty pussy. 

He laps at you until you cum again, squirting all over his face. You shake beneath him with pleasure as you try to catch your breath.

His face covered in your slick, he smirks, running a hand through his hair as he takes you in. The look in his eyes definitely makes you reconsider your ex’s words. 

Toji gives you both a bath. He was also a lot more caring than you expected. Maybe there was more to Toji than you could understand, at least right now. 

He places kisses on your neck as he cleans you up, taking care of you. “Mm, take care of yourself” he rasps as he kisses the back of your neck. “Can't keep fucking you good if you let yourself wither away” he whispers in your ear. 

Toji himself didn't even know why he was so obsessed with you. He thought maybe he just wanted to fuck you. But it was obvious now that he wanted more than just one night with the single mom a few apartments down.

[idkmynameiskat]

So hungyyyyyy

No food at home I can quickly make and the new pizza place down the street I have time to walk to isn’t doing lunch hours yet 😭😭😭

why must I suffer this way 😫

I have one donut I wanted to save for dessert tonight but it’s looking mighty yummy right now 😮‍💨👀

[tojikai]

here’s my all over the place ramble about chapter three of SUNDERED:

gojo do you really love her or are you just mad a toy you pushed aside is being played with by somebody else (i hate to objectify reader like this BUT DAMMIT THATS WHAT ITS GIVING)

now im not a fan of toji but im starting to see his appeal… what kinda magic do you wield???? 😫 i literally went from looking at toji like this to this

im so ready to read reader’s perspective of like just everything 😩 ugh i cant wait to hear about how she’s gotten bitten by the lovebug with toji 🤭 reader better stick to toji like white on rice cause baby MEGUMI IS A REAL ONE HE WOULDVE HAD HER BACK WHEN NAOMI DID THAT SHIT THE FIRST TIME 😭

anyways i hate to say it and i know i sound ridiculous but satoru’s suffering makes me slightly sad but also AHA THATS WHAT YO ASS GET! 🫵💀 KEEP IT COMING WOOOO!!!!

NOW LET’S CHAT ABOUT THAT ENDING

superb cliffhanger i must say. i can already hear the crack in the dam. hope he’s got some good plot floaties (badum tss) to save him from this oncoming wave….? 🕺🏾

i wish i had some deep thoughts to say bc this chapter is just so great and i wanna just dissect it line by line 😮‍💨 but ill leave you with this mini ramble of thoughts ! you are truly an inspiration 😩

where do you get those expressive drawings i loVE THEM😭 and did you mean the lovebug bite when they got out of the room after changing? he gave that to her real quick when they changed😭 it wasn't supposed to be obvious immediately but he BIT HER so yeah, it got red quickly. anw thanks so muchhhh <33

[ja3yun]

TDH Spoilers Ahead!

NAHHHHH CAUSE LIKE…NAHHHHHH, LEGIT LEGIT I LOVED THE ALT ENDING, I LOVED BOTH SO FREAKING MUCH.

Just as the room falls into a heavy silence, punctuated only by the echo of your racing heartbeat, a frantic knocking at the door shatters the calm. Jongseong's desperate pleas slice through the air, his voice laced with worry and fear. "Soonyeol?! Baby, are you in there? I can’t hear you anymore, angel…"

STAWP, CAUSE THAT PART ACTUALLY BROKE ME, AND JAEYUN’S PLEAS, PLEASEEEEE, YOU BROKE ME, IM SO GLAD YOU DIDNT MAKE JAEYUN GO THROUGH EVEN MORE MISERY.

BUT, I must be crazy or your writing is literally perfect (Spoiler alert: It is), I actually fell into Heeseung’s spell, cause I legit said aloud “Yeah, fuck Jongseong for some seconds cause you did sin! Why can’t I have what I want and you can?!” After I said that, I felt so bad 😭

I must admit, I was scared of this ending cause I remember there was one ask were you said that he wouldn’t be as interested in the alt as he was in the true ending or smth like that, and I even got more scared when you explained his past lover, cause I was like “Nah man, he just want her.”

BUT THEN YOU COMPLETELY BROKE ME AGAIN, when you started explaining Heeseung’s feelings and how he loved Y/N for who she is and not for his past lover, AND AND AND WHEN HE THANKED ALAIDA, I LEGIT THOUGHT HE WAS THANKING Y/N FOR BRINGING ALAIDA, NOT VICEVERSA. How he tries to bring out his humanity for her, and even for Soonnie at the moment. AND WHEN HE SAID “See, Princess? There’s nothing we can’t handle together.” I ACTUALLY FORGOT HE JUST STUFFED SOONYEOL IN A WARDROBE FOR A SECOND CAUSE SIR, YOU CANT SAY THAT TO ME AN EXPECT ME TO REACT NORMALLY.

Hear me out people, this might sound crazy but, Heelzebub’s my new standard, I KNOW, I KNOW, CRAZY RIGHT? THE OTHER DOLLS ARE TOO BUT HEELZEBUB IS TOP.

Once again, you have outdone yourself. I swear to God, the way you write, like someone said in an ask, really does transport me there, unconsciously, I feel like a part of it, and I really love when a book, fic, story or anything makes me feel like that. You are truly amazing AJ. I will keep loving every single work you do in the future, but I must admit The Doll House will always have a special place in my heart

Once again, congrats on your magnificent work 💕

i had jaeyun suffering in the og but i could not do that to him 😭 he got off lightly compared to jongseong bc that man suffered so bad like imagine losing the soulmate you gave up heaven for?? brutal 😮‍💨

yess i am so glad that heeseungs words made you feel the same way yn did bc he is 100% right??? why cant yn have everything when everyone else does? 😭

heeseung is infatuated with yn i love them sm :( he is my standard now i fear like if a man is not searching heaven and earth and willing to kill.for me i dont want him (jk but i am also not)

i am so happy you loved it!! thank you for reading it baby <3

[the-church-boy]

An *_Amuasie Samuel Jr_* Classic

And then there were two. Pardon me, for the two I speak of may be of no significance to you. Or will it? Let's see if time allows me to spill all that i wish to. Well, to be honest I started typing in mind but one thing, "make sure you convey wisdom Sam." For that reason I shall tell you a tale...A short one of course, i don't have the luxury of voicing all that my thoughts discuss. Stay tuned as I wait upon my mind to do that which it does best.

Echoed from generation to generation is a tale of old of which many hold so dear even to be precious than gold. It is said that before the grain of dust of man was even thought of, there stood one whose name no one dared utter in vain. Whispered unto us by the elders as _Deus qui Amat_. He is said to be author of this world. Before the dawn of time he stood at the bridge of eternity where he looked down and his thoughts translated into words and became our reality. Fast forward》》 The Elders emphatically stated that time stood still as one of his own had fallen for there was great darkness ahead...

For once, there were mummers in his courts. No one understood what had happened. Even as I tell this tale my imagination fails me. He stood up amongst them and asked, "Who will go for us?" At that, there was a loud roar of silence. All the Lords and Elders for once had nothing at all to say. _Deus qui Amat_ looked away just for a second and there a tear fell from his eye. Was it really a second? For time had no place in his courts. No one really knows. Then He said, I'll go! Just like that, there is a quake of 'No's in his courts. He laid down his crown and just like that he appeared in what once was his thoughts but now the world as we know to be😮‍💨

Night draws near so I must bring my tale to end here but then this happened next; He walked upon this earth but his own knew him not. Those he came to save sought to kill him. He suffered in every way possible. Eventually what they sought to do had been done and yes he was killed. The tear he shed in his courts had finally broken through Time's tough shield and fell upon this King's head. As it came down his body slowly so did his blood. Though it didn’t seem that way, that which he planned to do had been accomplished. As the third day after has death came, the Lords and Elders realised the crown the King had laid down began to glow even brighter than before.

Just then in that second, once again Time stood still!

And the King who had been killed now appeared out of nowhere, not as he was before but even more glorious. His glory shone brighter in his scars. And yes how can I forget the one he came to save. The one who had fallen was now lifted again. _Deus qui Amat_ raised man up and sent him back to the courts. When the Elders and Lords saw the King and Man they stood in awe and began to bow. They all then fell in tears in wonder of how something like this could happen. And there one asked, what is man that you are so mindful of him? Then He said, "_He is my image_"

That ends the tale but it is said that even as we speak, there is one more being written😮‍💨

[ludyakasanova]

Dear Diary, horrible I cannot see anyone who has ever wronged me live a peaceful life, any of them must suffer the consequences for making me losing my careers and now I have nothing to do But to gamble on football to make money🥹 they have made me suffer so much even when I committ suicide they still keep me alive just to expect me to serve their purposes, which is to raise their mediocre children 😄 Sorry But I am not your maid, you have got to try more, after all, your children are just mediocre babies, I really encourage them to stop thinking so high of themselves 😬 my friends really have no idea How many people scattered all over the world were already dead for their children😮‍💨

[tetsuromybeloved]

in love with a machine

♡ time skip!Mitsuya Takashi x gn! reader

♡ angst to comfort

♡ warnings: kind of toxic behaviour from Mitsuya

♡ note: precious boy I know would’ve trouble expressing his emotions at first after everything that happened to him, but then he would be able to demonstrate you all the love he has for you. Mitsuya brainrot atm 😮‍💨

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You were crying in your room, everything felt out of place, but mostly you; you felt alone, suffering for a situation that you couldn’t solve. You were sitting on the floor trying to resist the tears that fell uncontrollably from your eyes; how were you supposed to change the way the world felt around you? 

Sadness surrounded you and created a membrane all over your space, making you feel like you couldn’t breath.

Your thoughts were raging, and you couldn’t stop them. You wanted to talk to someone, any, but that someone in particular was the person you were running away from. 

You were looking at your phone searching for an answer to your situation thinking that, maybe, your friends could distract you from the immense pain that was destroying you slowly. But then you realised that everyone had their things to do and no one wanted to hear you; at that thought you started to cry even more, feeling drowned by your emotions. 

You closed your eyes, trying to think about something else, when the doorbell rang; your eyes widened startled by the sound.

You stayed still, not being able to move, not even a finger; the doorbell rang again, more furiously this time and it was unbearable to hear. It was followed by a moment of silence, so you decided to stand up and see who was bothering you in this delicate moment; your house wasn’t big, so you reached the main door in a few seconds.

You leaned over the door and looked through the peephole; there you saw Mitsuya.

You backed away from the door but stayed there to look at it, as if it was him who was standing right in front of you and there was nothing between you two.

“y/n…” you gulped at the sound of your name said with his silky voice, “…I know you can hear me so please open the door” he continued.

Tears flowed again from your eyes, this time even more violently than before; a sob left your mouth, and you immediately covered it with your hand. “please… open the door, i don’t want to argue anymore” he said after your sob, and you shook your head as if he could see you. Your vision was blurred because of all the tears in your eyes. 

You heard a small thud on the door, and you supposed he must have leaned over it with his head “don’t cry baby, please… it hurts to hear you cry”. 

You missed him, you missed everything about him, but you couldn’t stand his cold attitude anymore; he did everything to show you the opposite of what you wanted from him, but he always crawled back to you every time you decided to leave him. You and Mitsuya weren’t a couple as you wished, you were just friends. But you fell in love with him. There’s always been a flirty air around you two, he talked to you in a way that was different compared to how he spoke to others, he touched you like you were the most important person for him; but every time you tried to confront him about the whole situation, he would back away and disappear for days. 

In that moment you were crying because of his behaviour the day before. You saw him together with a girl; she was sat on his knees and she was kissing his neck while he laughed at something she said before. The moment he noticed you, his smile faded but he didn’t try to hide the fact that he was with someone that wasn’t you.

You were brought back to reality by him banging slowly on the door, “baby… can you open the door please?”, “n-no” you whispered trying to wipe your tears, but they didn’t want to stop, neither your sobs. 

He sighed. You heard movements from his side, and understood that he had sat down with his back leaned over the door, “at least now you are talking to me” he chuckled softly. You went to sit down leaning on the door, imagining that there was nothing between you two and that you were leaned over his warm body.

After a moment of silence, where only your sobs could be heard, he talked “please baby breath, try to calm down”, he sighed. After hearing his gentle tone, you started to cry harder “w… why?”, you tried to talk but it was difficult; why was he there if he didn’t care about you?

“breathe with me… inhale” you heard him inhale, and after a few seconds you did the same “…exhale” and he exhaled, you following him. 

After you managed to calm down both your tears and sobs, you tried to talk again "why… why are you… here?". You scanned the place in front of you, waiting for an answer.

He sighed, "I know I fucked up this time". There was a moment of silence “I’m sorry for everything I have put you through… you didn’t deserve anything of that” he waited for a moment then continued “I love you... so much you can’t even imagine, and I would punch myself knowing how much I’ve hurt you with my shitty attitude”. 

You widened your eyes hearing his words. “I’m sorry If I’m bad at everything but… for my whole life I’ve considered to be in touch with my emotions a weakness. I learned to suppress everything so that I wouldn’t suffer anymore but, when…” he released a shaky sigh “… when I saw you the other day looking at me with your beautiful eyes and hurt all over your face, disappointed in everything that I am, I just wanted to run towards you and tell you how much I love you and how you don’t deserve all this suffering.”

Tears started to fall again from your eyes when you stood up and opened the door. Mitsuya was leaning over it so, when you opened it, he lost balance and fell backwards between your feet.

He had surprise written all over his face but, when he saw you looking down at him, pink cheeks, tears on your face, and laughing at how he fell, he smiled. “wow” was the only thing he said, his eyes glossy. You bent down over him and held his face between your hands “You hurt me” was the only thing you said, serious and sniffling. He stood up quickly and hugged you, “I know and you have all the right to hate me”, you hid your face in his shoulder and held him closer. “I don’t hate you, I love you”, hearing your words he tightened the hold on you and hid his face in your neck.

“let me make it up to you, I will make you the happiest person” he said, voice muffled and breath that tickled your neck; you waited a few moments then heard something wet on your shirt. You were confused and released the grip on Takashi, pulling away from him to look at his face. He had tears running down his cheeks, “you are crying” you said shocked. 

He looked at the ceiling and tried to dry the tears with the sleeve of his shirt “no, I’m not”. You smiled, “yes, you are”. He looked down at you and took a deep breath, “I love you y/n, I’m sorry for hurting you”.

You observed him; you had never seen him cry nor express his true feelings, and you could see the sincerity in his glossy eyes. You saw tenderness and affection directed towards you and you couldn’t be happier. You smiled and rolled your eyes at his desperate face, wiping his tears “okay then...”, he lighted up “okay?!”.

You nodded, resting your forehead against his “yeah, I’m giving you a possibility to show me I’m not in love with a machine”.

© tetsuromybeloved do not copy,modify or repost.

[mrs-maximoff-kenner]

Here is my first requested song fic from my Spotify playlist! I'm sorry it took so long but I wanted it done a very specific way and it took a few rewrites 😮‍💨 But anyway, this is for @hellotvshowtrash who wanted a Wanda fic with the song Rescue by Lauren Daigle ❤️ Hope you enjoy it love!

If you want to request a song from the playlist you can find it here 😊

You Are Not Alone

You are not hidden

There's never been a moment

You were forgotten

You are not hopeless

Though you have been broken

Your innocence stolen

Wanda had been your best friend since you were children. You families having lived in the same building, and having suffered similar losses due to the Stark missile. You were slightly younger than her and Pietro, so they took you in when the three of you lost your parents. If you thought you had been close before that was nothing compared to how you were after. So, it was even more of a blow to you when Piet and Wanda left to do those trial experiments for Hydra. That was the first time in your life you were truly alone. The years passed and while you moved on as best as you could and made a life for yourself, you still thought of them every day, even more when you saw Sokovia, your old home, and your best friends on the news, fighting for their lives and the lives of innocent people, alongside the Avengers.

I hear you whisper underneath your breath

I hear your SOS, your SOS

I will send out an army to find you

In the middle of the darkest night

It's true, I will rescue you

It was almost like you felt it in your gut when Pietro was killed. And if you felt it, you couldn’t even imagine how devastated Wanda must have felt. You had to find her, had to go to your best friend. It didn’t matter that it had been years. Didn’t matter that you felt abandoned when they left. She needed you and you would go to her, you had to.

There is no distance

That cannot be covered

Over and over

You're not defenseless

I'll be your shelter

I'll be your armor

It took you a week to get to her. You hardly slept. Hardly ate. But every step was one closer. Finally, you arrived at what was designated the Avengers Compound. You could tell she was here. You always had this sixth sense for where the twins were. It helped you cheat playing hide and seek as a child and you thanked whatever God or Goddess was listening for it now. You started to make your way inside only to be stopped by security. You didn’t have an appointment, and no one knew who you were except Wanda, who was locked in her room. But then there was Vision. He didn’t need to look at you long to know the connection you had to Wanda and Pietro. He called off the guards and brought you to her room, thanking you for coming in a gentle voice before resuming his previous task, leaving you alone to finally see your best friend again after all this time.

I hear the whisper underneath your breath

I hear you whisper; you have nothing left

I will send out an army to find you

In the middle of the darkest night

It's true, I will rescue you

I will never stop marching to reach you

In the middle of the hardest fight

It's true, I will rescue you

You could hear the soft sniffles that indicated she had been crying but trying to hide it. You gently knocked then pushed the door open. Wanda’s eyes drifted up from her hands in her lap to meet your own before she was off her bed and in your arms. It had been years, yet it felt like minutes since you last held each other. You were both bigger now and both had seen so much more of the world. You each had your fair share of joy and trauma. But you were together again. Together after a gut-wrenching loss. Just like all those years ago. Back then, it felt like Wanda and Pietro had rescued you. Now it was your turn to rescue her.

Oh, I will rescue you

[dorkpsychology]

🩸 period hormones + brains 🧠

If you are reading this, you are probably a person who gets our not-so-loved ✨period✨, and if you are, you must be familiar with the feeling of having a hormone monstress (or monster) inside you that makes you feel bad physically and emotionally. 💀 You cannot get your tasks done properly, you feel like your hormones are going crazy (which also makes YOU crazy) and you just want to go and watch Netflix with a big ice cream pot during this special time of the month, am I right? 🤏 But why is that happening to us?

In case you have not heard about them, the hormones progesterone and oestrogen (both produced during our menstrual cycle, more specifically during its luteal phase aka the pre menstruation phase), as well as their co-dependent changes throughout the course of a female’s (or not 🏳️‍🌈) lifetime, have long been known to play an important role in the growth and equilibrium of people who have a menstruation cycle. 🩸

It is known that the variation of these two hormones can cause some physical discomforts such as, for example, acne, cramps, and tender breasts (as you probably know very well 😑). As stated by M. Guida, J. Y. Yen and others, we also have some neurovegetative matters (don’t freak out, this only refers to non-voluntary nerves’ distribution to the organs, on the word of the online free dictionary by Farlex) like sleeping and eating issues. 💤🍨

However, this hormones’ variation has lately been shown to have an essential importance in the neurological and psychological growth and function as well. 🧠 According to M. A. Farage and colleagues, brain function, our perception, mood, sensory sensitivity, anxiety, among other things are affected by our menstrual cycle (and probably we all can relate to this 😩). Btw, look at that beautiful and mean hormone monstress! 👇

A lot of people suffer from sex hormone based mental health disorders, for instance the premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD), which is now classified as a new depressive disorder in the DSM–5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders).  😬 Yup, things are real, for the folks out there who thought we are just drama queens/kings...  💁‍♀️

As stated by the Cambridge University Press, it is considered PMDD when the different menstruation symptoms I have told you about, which emerge before the period starts and decrease when it comes, affect people in a debilitating way, what can significantly affect their quality of life as well. It tends to impact only five to eight percent of reproductive-age individuals so don't worry, you probably don't suffer from this specific disorder. Phew!  😮‍💨 🤞

We also have the premenstrual syndrome (PMS), which is known as way weaker than the PMDD but is still clinically relevant, as it should, because it also has an influence on the quality of a person’s life. As said by J. Gandy, it is estimated that thirty to forty percent of people who have a menstruation cycle suffer with PMS; however, a larger number of individuals describe emotional problems connected to this. Well, Jessie from New Girl definitely does!  😂👇

S. Tschudin stated that during the premenstrual stage of our cycle, nearly sixty percent of people feel at least minor "anger or irritability"/"tearfulness or mood swings" (personally, I just transform into a little Hulk 👺💢). Moreover, studies made by L. Dennerstein suggest that the presence of no less than one premenstrual symptom throughout someone's reproductive life might as well be drastically greater, estimated to be up to ninety percent. I know, our struggle is real, don’t you agree? 😭😭😭

To wrap things up, let's talk a bit about self-esteem and our cycle. Talking generally, the link between poor levels of self-esteem and depression is well known, as individuals who feel depressed tend to feel that way about themselves. 😟 Self-esteem and confidence have always been important to people since it enables individuals to manage more effectively day-to-day occurrences, among many other reasons. A person with bigger self-love = a happier person. 💌🤗

D. Taylor has shown in his research that levels of self-esteem were lower in the premenstrual phase in people who suffer from PMS. Multiple research (specifically done by U. Orth in 2008 and K. Dedovic in 2014, if you want to check them) also showed that poor levels of self-esteem may be seen as a clinical indication of a depressed mood, which can back D. Taylor’s research as, in general, we tend to feel more depressed in this cycle’s phase. 💔 Thanks to our period for murdering our self-esteem! 😤

The menstrual cycle is an important subject for researching how sex hormone variations affect us psychologically during our cycle. Though scientific studies on the menstrual problems that I have talked about, such as PMDD, are relatively not many, this information shows us that people who are most affected by these disorders may have more psychological issues that can debilitate them. 🙍 However, I want you guys to understand that, even with the existent studies we have, a link between any psychological changes observed and the menstruation cycle has not actually been confirmed yet. 🤔 

Although I made this post to give you more info about this topic, it is still unclear if the mood changes and other psychological symptoms affect our cognitive abilities, or if there is a specific and implicit hormonal disorder that is affecting them, but researchers are working on it and improving what we know about it day by day. Yay! 😃📚 I hope I was able to help you better understand how and why our bodies work like that. I’ll leave you with an awesome Ariel meme.  🤭 That's all for today friends, bye-bye!  ✌️💖