#so ive been reading the banana fish manga

[sparklingoctopus]

It's so sad but also kinda funny

[morphogenetic]

Mediaposting 2023, #35: Banana Fish (anime)

[said while vibrating very quickly and typing out like 20 different bullet points] i like this series a normal amount

okay so. non-spoiler thoughts:

step 1 YOU SHOULD READ/WATCH THIS. it does have content warnings for literally everything you can possibly think of as needing a common content warning (drug abuse, sexual assault, racism, and thats absolutely just the tip of the iceberg) but my fucking god. no wonder it's been such an influential piece of media on literally every jp anime/manga crime story (especially the BL ones) written since

for a series that is literally one of the early genesis points of BL as a genre i was ABSOLUTELY expecting more actual BL than was in this LOL. not that i'm really upset, bc honestly i really like the way that ash and eiji's relationship is written in a shoujo-y "they obviously care about each other a lot but it's not going to be outright romance" kind of way. bc like, honestly? that makes it way more emotionally satisfying (and devastating). i think it would actually make less sense if anything more happened In the story (though more happening in the epilogue wouldnt hurt LOL)

how the FUCK was this published in a shoujo magazine

the time period change to modern day from the mid-80's has both helped and hindered this series bc like. on one hand. much easier to do everything with a phone. also the update to shorter's character design was excellent,10/10 no notes. on the other hand. the Everything About It makes it so obvious that it was written to be a product of its time.

speaking of ^ ash turning from A Guy Who Knows How To Use A Computer into a hacking genius is so. why. i mean you can update it for sure but Why Like This

god i wish this had more room to breathe sometimes bc the exposition goes WILDLY fast sometimes. why did they try and do 19 volumes in 24 episodes. the 39 episodes that the director wanted would have been so nice to have

that said: the emotional moments that i actually give a shit about and that make up the core of the weight of the story are given what they deserve. at least up to volume 5 they are. gestures at ep 9? and 22 with a pained smile

i literally could write an essay about why it works so well as a spin on the american-style gangster story even while it definitely has flaws. and how its influenced so many fucking things. my god.

it has flaws for SURE but the rest is so good that i don't care. which is rare for me (gestures at nirvanai/neo twewy being other examples)

spoiler thoughts under the cut (like full-very-ending-of-series spoilers) but YEAH UH I LIKE THIS THING CAN YOU TELL BY HOW MUCH I WROTE ABOUT IT.

it does kind of annoy me that literally all of the canon-MLM (probably gay but you know) guys are horrible people lol. like wow love how the gay predator stereotype is on full display here. feeeeels baaaaad. i know i know asheiji homoeroticism i am ON THAT TRAIN

however yut-lung being feminine out of a wish to carry on his dead mom's legacy is kind of a slay. ive seen people go "ugh it sucks that one of the villains is a feminine man' but while he is definitely not a good person hes one of the less terrible villains, just like. as a person. hes also a teenager in shitty circumstances just with way more power and sway

here's the part where I admit that I was spoiled on the ending so it didn't hit as hard for me OOPS. however. the anime DOES leave it open-ended and it fucking irritates me that anime-only people are like "boo i hate the ending bc ash dies!!!" when it is LITERALLY AMBIGUOUS. i have heard that the manga is less ambiguous about it but :') oh well. anime-onlys what are you doing

speaking of ^ i actually like the ending. like i think a lot of people who absolutely hate it must not have a lot of familiarity with gangster movies as a genre bc it is a genre convention that the Main Gangster dies in the end. granted this was a hayes code thing which the manga definitely did not have to do LOL but its definitely supposed to feel unfair bc ash's damn LIFE is unfair.

however i'm glad the anime makes the ending ambiguous bc that feels like a more fitting end. like ash's life was always in limbo, considering what he was doing, so making his life in limbo at the end too? Good. Yes. Do That

the fucking. everything with shorter and the sa-yo-na-ra bit. i die. that shit is so emotionally painful

i know this sounds weird but i kind of wish they dragged out the "what the hell does banana fish mean" thing a LIIIITTLE longer but by that i mean like, halfway point of the series. like they could have used a little more time to figure out what it is. also that would have let shorter live a little longer ay lmao that said this criticism also almost definitely applies to the manga soooo. you know

[fairestar]

you should watch horimiya, my little monster, nana, blue spring ride, your lie in april, your name, banana fish, orange, and fruits basket… or any ghibli film honestly :-) makoto shinkai also has amazing romance-animated films!

what's your favourite anime?

well... ive already watched horimiya, ao haru ride, your name, banana fish, orange and im currently watching fruits basket! i just enjoy well-done shoujo so much. i started watching shigatsu wa kimi no uso when it first started airing but for some reason i never finished it, but ive been spoiled about the ending so... and i am forever a lover of ghibli films, i could never get tired of howls moving castle (it's one of my favourite books too)!! i don't think ive watched anything by makoto shinkai, though, so thanks for the recommendation!

for my favourite animes, they're all seinen really. ive always been a dragon ball z girlie, it was (still is) my obsession growing up. and a few years ago i finally watched naruto, and shippuden is one of my absolute favourites too. for shoujo, i love orange, given, ao haru ride, banana fish... and ive just recently catched up with the loving yamada-kun at lvl. 999! manga, is so good! if you haven't read it i totally recommend it, or you can watch the anime if you're not into manga. are you, though? if so, what's your favourite???

[achilleslyre]

i’ve been having a really shitty time recently so i’m gonna list a bunch of reasons about why i should stay alive

i wanna finish shippuden

altho i have them all i still havent finished reading the banana fish mangas and its my fave anime soo

my friend bought me an aki figurine….. i want to kiss his head when i get to receive him

sometime in the next month or so i should be getting a silly link plush i preordered in november (under the cut…. look at him :3)

i haven’t even gotten to meet my nephew yet. what if i get to?

uh idk my birthdays in a few weeks and maybe my friends will wish me a good day :)

i just ordered a feenie comm. ofc i wanna see that

i have another comm i ordered a couple weeks ago (i should not have access to my own money)

i have an art trade i promised to do and they’re drawing me aki!!!!

ive been talking to more ppl again recently

uhm if i died how would i get to look at rock lee giving thumbs up 🤨🤨 check and mate

i think i actually have some other stuff i preordered within the past few months and. that’d be awkward if they showed up several months in the future. yikes.

uhm i haven’t even kissed a guy in like 7 years. i think that’s unfair. gotta get on that.

still have not seen an alive moose in person. what’s that all about.

i told my friend i’d watch golden wind bc narancia looks funny and epic so it’d be kinda fucked up if i never did that

loz tears of the kingdom (“botw2”) comes out in a few monthssss

[wisteriacat]

i finally got round to watching banana fish earlier this month and i havent been the same since ;;;

[queersturbate]

I just realized that your pfp is not Yut Lung… I saw the lighter space and it looks similar to the bf manga profile style so for the past few months you’ve been Yeet Lung in my head

-death note boy

heyhey!!

the guy from banana fish?? ive never seen the manga profile style! that's so funny omg naaaah it's L!! during the i am justice part after the lind L tailor bit! i actually have matching pfp with my friend @cthulhuliet :)

edit: might have read this wrong ? i am extremely tired

[hajimine]

to the coolest person alive,

i think youre gonna see this in the morning or afternoon so good morning!! or afternoon idk ✋🏼 BESTIE IM WATCHING JJK ALREADY 😻 im on ep 14 now,, i started today 🚶🏻‍♀️ idk if im gonna watch it now or tomorrow tho. to keep the diary entry short, my day was very shitty bc of my toxic family 😻😻 but it was fine ig i had some ✨alone time✨ to straight up binge jjk and distract me 😼 lex please can you yell at me to not fall for every 3rd character i see I AM OBSESSED WITH SOME OF THEM ALREADY IT AINT HEALTHY 🏃🏻‍♀️ i lowkey saw that coming but still <3 lemme drink water real quick i sadly didnt drink much due to this whole ass day LMAO WHY DO I SOUND SO DEPRESSED PLSJDKDJ ✋🏼 MAYBE bc i am,, hey god, its me again 😻🚶🏻‍♀️ i hope i can finish it tomorrow or at least on friday, idk if im gonna try to watch banana fish in the holidays too 👁👁 i need to get my heart broken its been a while <3 actually its only been a few days- not the point tho. also, yes i do think people see our convos and shake their heads JSHSKD 🤝🏼 honestly who wouldn't if they saw our whole ass paragraphs every time BUT I AM HERE FOR THEM ❗ pls this whole essay this time is a EXTRA mess. also!! i hope you're gonna drink water and eat something!! 😌 other than that, do you have any plans for the day? // or if youre gonna answer this later, what did you do today bestie? 🤲🏻 the amount of times ive said "bestie i cant do this today" while talking to myself in the last 48h 😻 anyways, i think that was enough for today and for your sexy ass to read ugh 😫✋🏼 sending u hugs and kith rn, u deserve them!!! 😠 mwah, ilyvm <33

love,

🐉 anon <3

to my darling 🐉 anon,

hellurr good evening my love 😻 STOPPP im... still on ep 15 ☝️🥲 i haven’t had the time to pick it back up yet smh </3 but how are u liking it so far tho? oh bubs :( im sorry u had a shitty day, i hope tmr will be better for u babes <3 they suck ass and u deserve better 👿‼️ but hhhh we can talk abt sth else if you want,, who’s your fave so far?? or fave(s) i suppose 😯 ITS OK all of em are so pretty i feel ya!! bestie u better be drinking more water rn, ily kay? and cheers to using humor to cope lmao 🏃🏻‍♀️💨 wait omg i havent watched banana fish yet smh. is it good?? i also wanna watch that other sad one,, your lie in april?? im not sure what it’s called but i wanna binge all the heart wrenching animes on my sem break later 😁 and also jjk bc im so behind dammit 😞💔 well they can just sit back and observe while we pour our hearts out in long ass paragraphs,, it’s okay 😴 mm im doing good today hottie!! i tried doing manga colorings for the first time ever and i love them sm?? i wanna do it properly but i dont wanna have to use photoshop ghhh but look at lil kindaichi in my pfp omg (it looks kinda messy im ngl but u cant see it in the lil pic so we’re good 😋) i don’t have much plans for the weekend,, i’m probably gonna study some more later 😞 hbu tho!! how are u today? do u have anything fun planned for the long weekend? any events going on (if u do celebrate that is)? i hope you’re doing better today sexy 😠 don’t forget to eat lots of good food and drink lots of h2o,, also sidenote, aside from your jjk faves, who’s your fave in hq? :0 (also p.s. i have to actually sit down and formulate an essay back to u whenever we talk so im sorry for taking so long to reply help 😭😭) ily more angel you’re the coolest and the sexiest person in the universe 🤞🏼😫 lots of xo’s for u bebe mwah!! <33

from your beloved tumblr user,

lexus 😽

[imagine-fight-write]

RANDOM - Future Blog Posts

Hello, Everyone!

If you want something to absolutely make your day, please check out https://pharaohsparklefists.tumblr.com/ it’s lovely & you can support on patreon. 

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Start at the link above & then hit the “Previous” button at the bottom of the page to keep reading re-caps. Enjoy!

(he’s so pretty)

So right now I’m on a Banana Fish kick, a YuGiOh! kick (have I talked about YuGiOh on here before?) & I want to catch up on One Piece & finish From Far Away (a lovely manga you should definitely check out.)

Also, I have at least 3 scenes for stories I want to write.

But it’s okay, because I’m always like this, my brain goes a mile a minute & gets distracted by shiny things (I have ADD / ADHD).

I have this terrible habit of referring back to something in a conversation that happened 10 minutes ago because there was a comment I wanted to say & didn’t get a chance to. (My poor friends / random strangers.)

Anyway! I have plans for future blog posts!

My MAJOR grand scheme is to start a Banana Fish review.

I’ll probably write an intro for that in a week or two, so stay tuned!

But first! I will not break my promises, so I’ll do the rest of the list I had planned weeks ago (that I almost forgot about!) which goes as follows:

THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO *(post wise):

*subject to change based on if I find something I’m super excited about & want to share

3 STRANGE BOOKS + manga like them

(I forget what I had planned originally but I’ll find some more don’t worry)

more LAW posts

OBSCURE MANGA I LOVE

AMVS I found lately

[zeniin]

yeah, school really just likes to make us suffer 😔 (and same i wish us both luck in making it through the sem 😭). tbh i haven't watch many animes so you've probably watched everything i have but banana fish is really good! watched zankyou no terror recently and that was pretty good as well! and yeah reading manga is great, i just read everything in one sitting which is kind of a problem for me lmao ... i like science (history is cool as well ayy)! do you have other hobbies? – from your s.s. ✨

ahhh i’m so sorry i didn’t see this earlier 😞😞 but hi again!! gl to u too 🤧 may we get through this sem with only minimal brain cell loss 😔 also i’ve been wanting to watch banana fish but then i read the summary nd i jus :/ my 2020s already p depressing nd i don’t need to add more onto that yk? (i’ve heard so many wonderful things abt it tho so i’ll probs watch it in the summer lolol so i have Time to fully process my mental breakdown over it) nd ive recently watched znt too!! i will say that i got kinda bored halfway through but i do agree that it was still p good! also oooh science! i like science but i’m Not Good at it yk? ok wait nvm i absolutely hate chemistry that was such a painful class for me 😔 anyways, how was your day? !! also do you have any favorite musical artists?

[panlyv]

Uh I read somewhere on one of your blogs that you have a tattoo? Does it represent anything? If it’s too personal then just ignore this question

hi! hello anon!!! thank you so much for your question!!

i don't mind talking about this at all (in fact, when the matter is my tattoo i could rant about it for hours!!) but i'll try to keep this as short and not-too-personal as i can lmao (but i might mention trauma and self harm so beware!)

well, this is my tattoo. it is a literal banana fish!! it is on the back of my neck and i got it done on september 9th 2019 as a late birthday present to myself.

it's one of akimi yoshida's (banana fish's author) original drawings for a postal card and i chose it because i love her style and because i wanted something that really screamed banana fish

now why banana fish? you may ask. the meaning behind the tattoo and me choosing something so blatant to represent it is this:

i've been having a pretty hard time since 2013. that's when my whole trauma started and it lasted until 2016, when i finally moved out of my biological mother's house and came to live with my dad and my mom. but as we all know, trauma doesn't leave you alone the moment you break out of it. and i didn't completly break out of it when i came to live with my dad because my biological mother was still present in my life and still maintained the toxic dynamics that made me so sick (in fact it wasn't until this year that i finally stood up for myself and cut all my relationship with her once and for all. for the sake of my mental health. but that's another story!). but even with her still being a part of my life at that time, i was able to get a lot better and begin recovering from what happened with my parents' help. i still have a long way to go before it all stops affecting me so much but whenever i look back at the progress ive made during these five years im very happy and proud of myself and my family for always sticking together and helping each other out no matter how hard things are.

in december 2018 my little sister came into our lives and it was hands down the happiest moment in my life, she is my number one source of happiness and comfort and i love her way much more than words could tell. however, my mom's pregnancy wasn't easy and her health suffered a lot, so when she gave birth to my sister, she needed tons of help and that's when my life turned upside-down. my grandma moved in with us temporarily, i had to move my room to the back of the house and everything was about my sister. of course it would be, she was a helpless little miracle in our lives and she needed our attention. but even knowing that, i couldn't help but feel lonely and a lot of memories related to my trauma resurfaced during that time.

ok, yeah, sure dawn, but what the fuck does this have to do with banana fish? well, it has to do with that fact that it was precisely during this difficult time that i was watching banana fish. i began watching it around september 2018 i guess, and it aired until dec 21st 2018. so while this mess was happening in my life, i was watching banana fish every single week while also reading the manga. because when i feel extremely overwhelmed by things in my everyday life, i tend to find a safe heaven consuming series, animes, music, whatever. and that's what i did with banana fish. i held on to it so tightly during that time that i grew to have this deep deep DEEP emotional attachment to the anime/manga, its characters and the story itself.

banana fish's plot is fantastic but also very depressing, because it's real, it's a painful reality we all know exist but try not to and banana fish makes us see it uncensored, makes us see the worst of humans and how unfair the world is without any filter. it was really an experience for me, especially reading the manga, to see this ugly world and all the hardships people go through in such a raw way. and i just fell in love with it. i fell so hard for banana fish and it shaked me up so much that to this day i still tear up seeing anything bf related and in my everyday life i have tons of banana fish related things happening, my tattoo being one of them. (and also my name! yeah, dawn is inspired by banana fish, because aslan (ash's real name) is said to be a word used in prayer that means daybreak which means dawn :D)

oof, ok. sorry. to finish this: i chose the drawing because banana fish is that important in my life. when i say it's life changing, i mean it. when i say banana fish taught me valuable lessons and it made me into a new person, i swear to you im not exaggerating. this tattoo represents me. represents the strength i had to have gone that far. it represents a new chapter of my life that had began harshly to me but that i overcame. represents a bit of shorter, eiji, aslan, sing, yue lung and every other banana fish character that i hold dearly in my heart and who were all as strong as i was i able to be during that time. i think, even with banana fish being the fish of death and the famous "when you encounter a banana fish, you will feel like dying" thing, it doesn't mean im sad, or that i want to kill myself, but that i want to kill that part of me that doesn't let me go on, that weak and scared part of me that isn't me anymore and now i can let go of it. it's in a way a rebirth of me? i guess? u could put it that way.

OK ANON I THINK THAT'S IT! sorry for the big ass rant and for getting a lil bit Too Personal anyways lmao i hope this entertains u a bit!!! and thanks again for the interest and for playing with me!

[iamagentcoop]

Tag Game

Rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 blogs!

tagged by the ever awesome @silverquillsideas!!

a - age: 31

b - birthplace: United States

c - current time: 5:32 am

d - drink you last had: water

e - easiest person to talk to: My husband. 

f - favourite song: Oh jfc. Way too many. Here. Have a few: Kaleo Can’t Go On Without You Led Zeppelin Babe, I’m Gonna Leave You Mahler Symphony 4 Poco Adagio Barber Cello Concerto 3rd Movement

g - grossest memory: Honestly...I’ve given birth to three kids.. I’m pretty sure there were more than a few gross memories in there. 

h - horror yes or horror no: Not my fav

i - in love: Yes. Have been for 10 years now <3

j - jealous of people: OH yeah. I’m one of the most competitive people I know. So yeah--I’ll act all high and mighty on my pedestal but you can sure as hell bet I’m actually down stomping around in the mud like the jealous little pig I am ;)

l - love at first sight or should i walk by again: eh...it’s a nice idea. But no. I mean look, I hated my husband with a PASSION when I first met him and we still got married. Enemies to lovers is a far better trope anyways ;)

m - middle name: Elise

n - number of siblings: 2 sisters

o - one wish: To have a sense of fulfillment at the end of my life. 

p - person you last called: my sister

q - question you’re always asked: Mommy? Mommmy? MOOMMMMMYYY??? (Not a question. Just incessant repetition of toddlers.)

r - reading anything right now: The Scorpio Races and Banana Fish manga (AGAIN)

s - song you last sang: “When you wait, you can play, sing or imagine anything!’ Daniel Tiger. And no I’m not kidding. But actual song? Probably Hozier Movement? It keeps getting stuck in my head.

t - time you woke up: 4:30am

u - underwear colour: no idea. That would require me to have some sort of self pride. 

v - vacation destination: Within reason, I’d say I’d like to take our original honeymoon to the Oregon coast that we postponed because we figured we could save more money. (HA and then never took a honeymoon.) If I could go anywhere? Vienna, or Japan somewhere? I’m not much of a traveler unfortunately.

w - when was the last time you really laughed: Yesterday. Here’s a terrible story for you. 5 year old was being a pain in the ass so husband told her "Hey I think there might be a guy in a van outside who’ll give you candy if you go with him” And then I laughed. Yeah we are awesome parents.

x - x-rays: Hands, Head, chest...

y - your favourite food: EFF another impossible question. The black bean burger with salsa from a very specific local restaurant or... anything curry.

z - zodiac sign: Leo

Wow THAT was a great way to waste time! tagging @mystrana, @lasenbyphoenix, @whatthefoucault, and anyone else who’d like to play along and waste time away like it’s nothing.

[dalmascandwarf]

My reviews for The Summer 2018 Anime Season!

Shingeki no Kyojin Season 3:

Man....SNK just CANNOT hold my attention, anytime I sat down to try to watch this season I ended up pausing it to go do something else. That said I’ve never been a huge SNK fan but felt obligated to watch since I’ve watched the previous seasons. and yeah meh/10

Grand Blue

Grand Blue is a great comedy full stop but in its anime form it has a bit of a delivery issue. Some of the dialogue that is supposed to be funny doesnt hit quite as hard as it does in the manga. Ive noticed that Grand Blue ended up being rated fairly high which i think is great, we need more college/adult centered shows but uh dont go into this show if you actually want to watch something about diving also Read the manga/10

Asobi Asobase

This is my comedy show of the season, excellent delivery e v e r y joke or skit hits so hard, their were entire episodes I spent non-stop laughing, The girls are extremely lovable and not your usual cookie cutter anime girls they are vulgar and conniving and perfect for anyone who enjoys slightly more adult humor but doesnt want it in the form of an ecchi show. それからどうしたの/10

High Score Girl

From the very first episode I was immediately in love with the concept of HSG and was quite outspoken about people watching it mostly because I felt its 6.5/10 score it was averaging after the first episode was unfair and more about people trashing a shows score just because its CGI then actually judging it on its content (why do people score shows after 1 episode anyway???). To be completely transparent HSG really spoke to me, it reminded me of playing games with my friends as a pre-teen and watching my ex play Street Fighter at our local game shop. The manga is excellent but I feel their is value in this anime adaptation, if you love video games then you will enjoy this show. Sonic Boom/10

Chio-chan no Tsuugakuro

This is another comedy show, I dont know if it just got lost under asobi asobase for me but this was pretty lukewarm although if you are a fan of the genre then their is definitely still something here for you! 6/10

Harukana Receive 

.......nah..... didnt finish it/10

Satsuriku no Tenshi

ITS TIME TO D-D-D-D-D-DROPPED/10

Banana Fish

This is a very well written and captivating show, unfortunate that the shoujo tag has scared some people away. It isnt your typical shoujo drama by any means and has managed to keep me enthralled completely which is rare for me and “crime” shows. It isnt finished but 8.5/10 so far

Hataraku Saibou

This is plain and simple fun baby!!! Great show to watch with friends or by yourself, I’ve heard the manga is also excellent but have not tucked into it yet 7.5/10

Shoujo☆Kageki Revue Starlight

I’m almost tempted to call this show unique, the premise is interesting but their was something about the delivery that tainted it for me. I think I just don’t like anime girls with orange hair and side ponytails. I dont really have my feelings sorted on this one/10

[eradne]

ive also recently started reading/watching banana fish and it makes me so angry for so many reasons but the story is so engaging and it fucks me up that these kids aren't having one (1) second of happiness in the whole story... i agree completely on the ending part ugh i just wish all that suffering could have lead in a happier place ykno

yeah some parts are fucked up but the manga is really engaging and important and that’s what i like about from the author

and yep like you said, i wish the author wrote a happy ending. i think it would have been smarter to give ash a second chance, it’d have been so refreshing to read about ash finally having the life he deserved, it could have been a new start

of course there were some sweet and funny moments but 90% of the manga screamed “pain” “angst” & “death” so like… WE (us readers) deserved to see ash live his best life

[momokiiicos]

hey im super fucking into banana fish and ive read basically the whole manga but i still have the last volume left and omg everything has just been fucking pain like ive cried an embarrassing amount of times but its like well theres still more theres no way ash or eiji can die now but now its the last volume and im super fucking stressed like i wanna read it but im too nervous should i do it now or later give me ur advice

I’M LISTENING TO THE NEWLY RELEASED BANANA FISH ED (PRAYER X) AS I ANSWER THIS SO I’M VERY EMOTIONAL BEWARE

(the ed is so so so beautiful omg i cry)

i don’t know. i really really don’t know. i mean, i myself have not even dare to read the manga yet. i know that the manga is apparently wayyy better but, but i don’t want any spoilers for the anime because watching this version of story is another level of experience. it’s wonderful, and even tho i know the ending is a sad (??) one, i’m falling more and more in love with it.

however, if it’s for me, i’d probably read the manga up to the episodes i’ve seen, i think this’ll be the best experience. but knowing myself, i won’t be able to resist not reading on, so i’d end up reading the whole thing within a day, which i don’t really want yet.

so, i guess if you have already read more than what is portrayed in the anime, why not read on? we’ll all be joining hell by the end of the show anyways

[letting-g0]

honestly its been so long since ive actually started a new anime and finished it all and banana fish? a new favourite. i might’ve been late to starting it bc i procrastinated basically everything since finishing college but boy the tears and happiness from that anime were great. and now i kinda wanna read the manga and cry and start more anime again