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nettles-bo-bettles · 4 years ago

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Two Plus Two Equals Five

Third Person POV: It had been three years since Marinette had moved to Gotham City to study design at Gotham Academy. As usual she went to one of her favorite coffee shops in Gotham so she could get some energy after pulling all nighters for the past month and just living off of coffee. After walking 6 blocks from her apartment she got to the coffee shop, Loca Mocha (Ty Sabs). She went inside and ordered her usual, a six shot latte with cream, whipped cream on top and salted caramel sauce drizzled across the top (idk if that would actually taste good but I don’t drink coffee so don’t mind me). She went to find a seat and was unsuccessful until she found a free table in the far back of the coffee shop, however, someone else was looking at the same table at the same time as her and they ended up bumping into each other while not paying attention and heading towards the same table.

“Sorry sorry, I’m insanely clumsy.”

“No it’s alright, I wasn’t looking where I was going.” “That makes two of us, I should’ve paid more attention. I’m Marinette by the way.”

“I should’ve paid more attention too. I’m Tim, it’s nice to meet you Marinette.”

“So I guess we both just had our eyes on the table huh?” “Yeah.”

“Should we just sit together then? There’s no other empty tables or seats.”

“That’d probably be easiest.”

“I have an order for a Marinette, six shot latte, with cream, whipped cream on top and salted caramel sauce drizzled on the top,” one of the baristas yelled. “I should go get that, I’ll be right back.”

‘She seems like an interesting person, I kind of want to get to know her’ Tim thought. Marinette came back to the table and sat down, Tim already had his coffee since he had ordered before Marinette came into the shop. Marinette was about to pull out her laptop to start working when Tim stopped her. She looked at him confused,

“I- I wanted to get to know you better before the both of us have to leave,” he said nervously.

“Oh, I supposed I understand that,” she said and put her laptop away.

“So, what are your hobbies?” Tim asked her.

“Well, I love designing. It's my passion and dream to be a designer and I’ve been doing it my whole life so I guess I could count that as a hobby. I also bake a lot, my parents are bakers so I’ve been taught by the pros,” she said, the last part with a joking tone.

“Those are a lot more interesting than my hobbies, all I do with my life is work and then work some more, get some coffee and sleep once a month,” Tim said jokingly.

“I’m sure you have more hobbies than that but okay.”

They continued to learn more about each other and got more and more interested in the other every second. Customers came and went and eventually it was 1pm. The tables were full again and another customer walked in, this time, however, Marinette and Tim watched them order. Marinette just happened to recognize the customer as Lê Chiến Kim. Kim ordered his drink and went to look for a table when someone caught his eye, Marinette Dupain-Cheng.

“Long time no see Mari-bitch.” Kim said to her, clearly trying to offend her though it didn’t work.

“Nice to see you too, Kim.” Marinette replied calmly.

“Still sending death threats to Lila?” Kim asked snottily.

“Still a sheep following around a liar with no evidence?” Marinette said smoothly.

“You still don’t believe Lila huh? You know she’s friends with the Waynes right? Plus she’s dating the youngest Wayne son and she could get 15 lawsuits put on you with a few words. All she’d have to do is tell her boyfriend that you sent her death threats and bullied her in highschool.” Kim said stupidly in front of the second youngest Wayne son.

“Hi, Kim right?” Tim said stepping in.

“Yeah? And what’s it to ya?” Kim replied in a rude tone.

“I’m Tim Drake, and I sure as hell think I’d know if my younger brother was dating a lying bitch. Damian is smart enough to avoid people like that and this ‘Lila’ person seems like a golddigger, my brother also isn’t the type to cheat on his boyfriend.” Tim said, glaring at Kim.

“What do you mean? You just said your last name is Drake, that’s not Wayne you dumbass.” Kim said, thinking he knows everything.

“The thing is Bruce Wayne, my adoptive father, has adopted all of his kids except for Damian and we all kept our last names. Damian is the only biological child of Bruce that we know of and he most definitely is not dating anyone named Lila, he’s dating Jonathan Kent. I would, however, like to know the last name of this Lila.” Tim said.

“Oh Lila’s name is Lila Rossi, I’m sure you’d love to meet her, you see she knows tons of celebrities and she even taught MDC how to design, though, MDC did steal some of Lila’s designs.” Kim said, completely oblivious to the fact that he just landed Liar Grossi- oops, I meant Lila Rossi about seventeen lawsuits.

“Thank you for the name, now if you don’t mind I’d prefer if you just leave.” Tim said.

Kim left and forgot about the coffee he ordered.

“So...what was that about?” Tim asked.

“Well, it’s kind of a long story…” Marinette responded.

“I’m willing to listen to any story coming from you no matter how long it is,” Tim said without thinking. (The amount of cheesiness in that sentence is the reason why it pained my soul to write that)

Marinette laughed, “Whatever you say.”

And so we start from the beginning of Sophomore year at Francois Dupont Highschool. (Idgaf if it’s a middle school)

“Well when I was in my freshman year of high school I had a pretty good year, I was class president, I was friends with everyone, had a crush on a guy I thought was nice, and thought that nobody would ever believe someone they just met over myself. Then, Sophomore year came around and there was an exchange student, Lila Rossi. She claimed to be best friends with one of Paris’s heroes, Ladybug, and my best friend was obsessed with Ladybug so she automatically became friends with Lila. I, however, knew that Lila wasn’t friends with Ladybug because I myself was friends with her and knew that she would never become friends with someone that easily. I confronted Lila about her Lies about Ladybug and a few other famous people but she ended up threatening me. She told me that she would take all my friends and make everyone hate me, she almost succeeded completely but I still have my friends Chloe, Nino, Kagami and Luka. She told everyone that I had bullied her and that I had sent her death threats, though, she had no proof and everyone believed her because she said she knew celebrities which meant she would always tell the truth to them, they didn’t need proof. They ended up bullying me to teach me a lesson in their words, one time I almost died, they beat me up and stabbed me in the stomach multiple times resulting in me going into a coma for months. Lila also told my biological parents these lies and sadly they believed all of them, when I tried to explain it to them they just ignored me and became distant with me, they ended up disowning me and my honorary uncle adopted me with his wife, I applied for a few colleges after I graduated and even though I was accepted to harvard something just called me to go to gotham academy instead so I did, I don’t regret it to this day, I’ve learned a lot more about design and myself than I would have learned at harvard or any other school. Plus, I found Loca Mocha and like- this place has amazing coffee, I could never say no to it.”

“Wow, you weren’t lying, that is a really long story. But it was an interesting one and one that made me want to murder whoever this Lila person is.”

They talked for a while more just talking about ways to murder Lila for just being a bitch. The one they decided on was to torture her and make her wish she were dead and then give her a very slow and painful death and then chop up her limbs, throw them into a volcano, collect her ashes from said volcano and place them in a separate galaxy. Eventually it was 7pm and they didn’t even realize the amount of time that had passed until one of the baristas asked them to leave as the coffee shop was closing.

“Um Ma’am? Sir? We’re closing up soon, I hate that I have to interrupt but it would probably be easiest if you guys left before we start closing up.” The barista said.

“Oh, sorry I guess we didn’t realize what time it is, we’ll get going now.” Marinette and Tim said at the same time.

The two collected their belongings and walked out of the coffee shop hand-in-hand. Eventually they got to a crossing point between Wayne Manor and Marinette’s apartment so they had to part ways, not before exchanging phone numbers of course. Tim told her to text him immediately once she got home so he knew that she got home safe.

Marinette got home about five minutes later and texted Tim once she unlocked her apartment door. She made herself some ramen for dinner and binge-watched Haikyuu. She was in the middle of watching Tadashi yell at Tsukishima about being more excited about winning when Tim texted her saying that he was home and asking if she wanted to meet at Loca Mocha again the next day. She, of course, said yes and told him she’d see him the next day. A few hours later, while Marinette was working on one of her projects at two in the morning, Tim texted her asking if she was awake. She texted him back once she saw it and asked him why he was awake.

Coffee Addict: I could say the same to you -_-

Workaholic: Well I have a reason to be awake, I’m working on design projects. What’s your excuse?

Coffee Addict: Insomnia. Work. Patrol. Coffee.

Coffee Addict: Ignore the patrol part.

Workaholic: You’re a coffee addicted insomniac obsessed with getting their work done and you’re a hero?

Coffee Addict: ...you just met me yesterday you shouldn’t be able to know me that well.

Workaholic: I’m good at reading people.

Coffee Addict: Damn

Workaholic: You should be asleep, go to sleep

Coffee Addict: I have patrol tonight though. Workaholic: Ask someone to cover for you because someone you met at a coffee shop who also happens to be a sleep deprived insomniac is telling you to sleep.

Coffee Addict: Fine but only if you agree to go to sleep too.

Workaholic: Okay :)

Coffee Addict: I got my sister to cover for patrol for me.

Workaholic: Now sleep then

Coffee Addict: Fineeeeeeeee

After a few minutes of back and forth telling each other to sleep they both said goodnight and went to bed.

~Time skip brought to you by who gives a shit~

Marinette woke up at 8am as usual and got ready to meet Tim. She wore her hair down and wavy, put on some light makeup, some black doc marten combat boots, light wash ripped jean shorts and a black crop top. Once she was ready she left to go to Loca Mocha. Time woke up at 7:30 am, a little later than usual. He got up and styled his hair, put on some jeans, a plain t-shirt tucked into his jeans, and white converse hightops. He went downstairs to get some breakfast from Alfred when everyone looked at him weirdly.

“Are you guys okay... “ Tim asked.

“Tim- what are you wearing? Why are you dressed up casually instead of your usual work suit? WHAT IS GOING ON?!?! WHY DON’T YOU HAVE COFFEE? WHY DO YOU LOOK AWAKE AND SANE?!?!” Jason asked, starting to think that he was drugged.

“Oh well yesterday I met this girl at Loca Mocha and I spent the entire day getting to know her and last night at two in the morning I asked if she was awake and she made me go to sleep after I asked Cass to cover for me on patrol. I’m meeting with her again today.” Tim explained in a hurry to get to the coffee shop.

“You landed a girl who can get you to sleep- how the hell did that happen?” Jason asked.

“I’m still not completely sure myself. But I’m glad I met her.” Tim replied with a smile.

Everyone else in the room just stared at Tim expectantly.

“What?”

“When do we get to meet her???”

“UM- NEVER THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!”

“YOU CAN’T DO THAT!!”

“Oh yes I can and I will.” Tim said and walked out of the manor.

When Tim got to the coffee shop he waited for Marinette, at 8:15 she texted him and told him she was on her way, Tim realized he might have gotten there a little earlier than he had to. He waited for a while knowing she would probably get there around 8:30. By the time it was 8:40 he started to get worried but stayed put just in case, once it was 9:00 he couldn’t help it, he got up and started walking towards her apartment, once he got there he looked for her and asked people if they saw anyone who looked like her until he turned his head to an alleyway and was horrified at what he saw…

Hehehehehehe I’ve always wanted to do that. I swear I never knew how fun it could be. Anyways that’s it for the first chapter, I hope you enjoyed it.

Page count: I’m too lazy to check.

Day Posted: 04/23/21

Word Count: 2380

#lettuce #timari #two plus two equals five #first chapter #L e t t u c e #Lettuce supremacy

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violetsystems · 4 years ago

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I’ve been making coffee for myself for years. I thought about it for awhile yesterday about what the allure is. Consistency. It’s that simple. What you are doomed to wake up to every morning is your lot in life? Being consigned to fate by the heavens to wait requires much thought, planning and consistency. Especially when there isn’t much communication, goal posts or progress. Life is always going to be that way. And yet, I’ve found things that I rely on for emotional strength. Music is one of those things. Somewhere in the middle of the night somebody from Japan bought an EP. Somewhere in my mind the abacus shifts to which checking account I need to transfer it all to. The two things I’ve always been good at have been English and Math. I’m the son of an accountant and a Russian linguistics major. When you fully actualize your potential in your DNA it makes for a lonely experience. Which is why we seek out beauty, art and culture. About a year ago was the very last time I went to New York by myself on vacation to seek out such culture. Being a person obsessed with being consistent in a chaotic world I chose a ritual. I would get coffee at the World Trade Center looking out the window at the ruins of 9/11. It is such a quiet, lonely experience that it comes back vividly sometimes with the right cup. If you can match the right experience in present time. I’ve always known how to make that coffee. I’ve subscribed to that very coffee for years now. I remember the day I decided to. I was getting coffee at another store in the city. The baristas were angry and not attentive. They spent more time badmouthing all the other coffee roasters in the city than asking me what I wanted to drink. I walked out of there thinking. What was my favorite coffee? Years later, I know that with consistency. And within that magic of consistency comes growth. Yesterday, during a quiet moment I noticed a different ratio on another roaster’s bag. I had bought a swing bag because my subscription was delayed a week due to the holiday. I drink my coffee black. It’s something about the notes and the complexity of the taste. Something that just tastes like coffee to some people is a whole different experience for me. Mostly because it’s the only thing I can rely on to keep me going. Just like in New York City. A reliable hour of reflection over a taste that only changes fractionally. A single origin tends to taste better for longer. The other bag was a blend. It tasted better with the heavier ratio I was used to but it was roasted back in November. 330ml of water, 23 grams of ground coffee, a hario cone filter, and three minutes of your time with a temperature sensitive gooseneck kettle at 96 c. It’s a heavy cup. It turns out to be around 11 ounces of coffee. The new recipe calls for 8 ounces with 14 grams of ground coffee and 220 ml’s of water. By the time you are finished with the cup, the coffee has climbed down to a reasonable room temperature. The consistent taste brings you back to moments in time when you knew you could do better. And that moment is every morning for me because I plan it that way. There are enough fluctuations to let people know I’m frosty and still alive. But for me it’s a cozy enough grind I hide in solace in. Yesterday was the first day I decided to tweak the recipe. This morning is the first day waking up to that contemplation as dumb as it sounds. It remains something nobody questions about me. A consistency and a matter of taste that people understand to be unmovable.

I’m sure people have questioned my credibility for years at this point. It gets annoying to think about. Which is why these days I’ve shut most of the world out. It’s been the perfect time to do such things. I’m sure I come across as icy cool. I don’t think any of it is forced. Like making coffee, there are some choices I have made for my life that I build upon. The last six months were torture. I made it through by staying thoughtful and real. I’ve always been that at the core. How it executes in real life gets better with time. I think you have to admit to yourself that you can do better. Better is a sort of the moment thing for me. I know one day it will all work out. And yet it doesn’t. People aren’t capable of reaching out. People can’t understand why you’d waste your time doing the things you do. Why coffee matters so much? Nobody ever listened to me about anything when I talked. So much so that I’ve been largely forgotten by my professional network of twenty years. It is a weird realization. It is also freeing. A network that isn’t consistent in a life that is practically the definition is a sure sign I wasn’t in the right place. So what is the right place for me? Staying put. Staying predictable. Staying safe. And in that situation, it’s largely just me making the coffee day after day. I move money into the right accounts. I pay attention to my investments. I stay out of debt. I stare at the wall and wonder if this loneliness is what the rest of my life would become. And then I go out to shop in the neighborhood and nobody can leave me alone. At some point you just roll with it all. It’s a journey I guess. The cost of the emotional weight is just the price of admission. Everybody having an opinion about what you should be doing but won’t actually say it to your face. The secret is everybody always has an opinion. It might not be about you but if it applies it serves the purpose of the opinionated. Most of the time what people are arguing about doesn’t really matter other than for the performance of it all. And in America, people find their own value by fucking with others. Self esteem is constantly negged. The age old make you feel like shit so you can treat yourself. It’s a constant predatory cycle of economics and it runs deeper than simple shopping habits. It’s ingrained in the patriarchal mentality of the very fabric of society subconsciously at this point. I read most of the jobs lost in December were held by women. I lost mine back in July. It was surreal to have to speak with my ex employer about the lapse in my health insurance. But the job was done thoroughly by a woman I remember speaking with. I had the law on my side. The COBRA lasts as long as I pay it. So I’m good until next February if need be. My self esteem is about the only thing I’m trying to salvage as well as my personal health and good dentistry. It’s been a nightmare that I don’t show. My dad constantly tells me he doesn’t envy me having to go through it alone. My dad divorced and remarried a long time ago. I don’t really go into it with him about the details. But I never feel alone in all of this. That’s been consistent for years. A feeling that’s grown over time. Sort of like the credible fact that I’ll survive how many ever scenes want to abandon me. One bandcamp sale in my sleep at a time I guess.

I don’t think anybody grows up hating themselves. Being alone runs the risk of falling into an echo chamber. If you tune out everything it gets easier. But many people don’t have the kind of life I have. This isn’t to say I’m exactly privileged to be here. You can ask around my hood and they have. So much so that people just keep following me around fishing for reads on how I am feeling. The easiest read is here. Every week. I’ve been consistent enough to keep in contact with the most genuine and thoughtful people. I’ve felt emotionally satiated enough to focus on positives through a sea of negatives. And I’ve largely had to coach myself out of oblivion. Hurray for me. That’s what America has been asking for right? Men to stand up. Enough of them invading the capitol building and stealing podiums. We pay attention and edify the car wrecks in life to make ourselves look better. But you cannot distract yourself from yourself. And the ratio of bullshit you have to accept versus the remnants of your past you jettison to stay afloat is staggering. Some people crumble. Other people cut loose and survive. For the record, I’ve hated myself for years because I was conditioned to think I wasn’t good enough. To this day I still feel the worst kind of invisibility. A feeling that no matter how hard I try I’m trapped and stuck. And yet I live. I’m free to do whatever it is the fuck I want with my day. I’m free to make more music and have people from around the world buy it and have it taxed by the US government as income. I’m free to book a flight back to New York in May at twenty five percent off and have coffee at the World Trade Center again to test my adjusted ratio. I’m free to focus totally on friendships that are little more than a touch on the shoulder. The same relationships I tried to explain to friends in real life that have long since abandoned me. The touch is still there. Consistent. Graceful. Confident and shy. It connects in so many different invisible ways through a network of trust. An organic block chain of human capital that offers no real value to the uninitiated. A movement of people in a golden ratio that orbit each other in such a gossamer way. That consistency is what I’ve grown to love about my life. That the things I am are consistent and easily explainable. That the real performance is that most people don’t care enough to listen. And for years people here have cared enough to read. How is it I can be so alone but feel so free and connected? I’m connected to myself first and foremost. And I take care of myself and stay credible because of all the beautiful things I am connected to that I will not betray. A true magician never tells you how they performed the trick. There’s no magic in making good coffee. There’s also no magic in being a good person other than loving yourself and caring for others. I’ve been that way for years. And I love you all for supporting me in that adventure. <3 Tim

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transienturl · 5 years ago

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the first half of the ask post you didn't reblog because you're doing them all anyways

Thanks, me!

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?Option 7, None of the above: highball glass. I looked up the glassware model I like; apparently the manufacturer calls them “nordic cooler glasses.” I much prefer glassware made of glass to any other type, and dislike the ridges/patterns on a lot of drinking glasses. Yep, I’m this picky.

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?Chocolate. I like chocolate’s texture and the way it melts, and I don’t like eating bits of paper.

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?Cotton candy. Bubblegum is gross.

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?Uhh… hm. “Smart,” probably, which wasn’t particularly helpful. They probably had a bunch more to say but I don’t remember what anymore.

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?I like this ask post! As mentioned, glass cups. I like how soda cans feel in the hand but the drinking experience is just alright. Plastic is just unpleasant.

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?I had to google “boho” and I’m still not super clear on what it encompasses, but it seems kinda neat! Also I have no idea what grunge really means. If I had a feminine body and thus felt like dressing up, I’d definitely pick boho out of the google image results of each of those terms.

7. earbuds or headphones?Both; if I wear either for too long I switch to the other for comfort. But I’m at least somewhat an audio enthusiast, so I could go on for a long time here. Ex:

The soundstage of open-back headphones is really unparalleled for one. Apple’s earpods/airpods actually fit me and have basically no microphonics, which usually are a big issue with IEMs for me, plus their resolution on the high end is surprisingly great.

Insert the rest of this discussion here.

8. movies or tv shows?I watch either of these not from seeking them out but from circumstance, but often wind up liking them. I’m one of those people who thinks, “I’d watch that,” and then never watches whatever that was. So I don’t really know which I do or would prefer.

9. favorite smell in the summer?Uh… hm. That’s a really good question. What’s most interesting about it, I think, is just the list of smells people associate with a season. Of course there’s environmental ones like rain, but for summer I assume you have to go with, I dunno, fair food or something like that.

Anyway, no idea! I can’t think of a lot of meaningful smells that aren’t food, honestly.

10. game you were best at in p.e.?I remember enjoying capture the flag a lot. I dunno if I was actually good at it, though. I did have pretty good short-duration speed, so I was a decent defender. I don’t really remember what else we did.

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?Nothing. (I don’t like most American breakfast foods much, though that’s not why.)

12. name of your favorite playlist?I called it “the playlist which is entirely fire” because why not. Alternately, the playlist with all of my music is just named after me.

13. lanyard or key ring?Key ring; I’m not a… yeah actually that joke would only work for people who went to my high school and follow this blog (hi Xander).

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?That’s also a really good question and I’m positive I have an answer, but I can’t think of it. I eat candy once every like 3 months, so it doesn’t exactly come to mind easily. The candied pecans I just tried are pretty good, though. Insert reference to my halloween fanfiction.

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?Y'know how there are some things that you remember deciding at one point were your favorite, but don’t remember well enough to properly consider now? A lot of my favorite pieces of media are like that, but I have at least some confidence in the decision I made at the time. Not so much here. I remember thinking with surprise that I enjoyed The Mill on the Floss when I read it in class, so that’s what comes to mind, but I think it’s the wrong answer. I’m pretty sure there are some books I really enjoy that I’ve forgotten were originally for class. Random example that I think is also wrong: The Hobbit. The Giver is pretty darn good, too. Fahrenheit 451. I don’t remember this being the case but we might have read A Wrinkle in Time in a class. Et cetera.

Wait, no, actually, I figured it out: Island of the Blue Dolphins. (Which, actually, goes in the “this might be too much of a childrens’ book to enjoy rereading” category along with Summerland, The Great Tree of Avalon, The Marino Mission, What the Moon Saw, The Secret of Platform 13, and Island of the Aunts, all of which I loved at the time of reading. And potentially also The Book Thief, although I doubt it. Can you tell I like award-winning children’s books, though?)

16. most comfortable position to sit in?With crossed legs or on my feet, which people seem to find weird.

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?I only have one regularly-used pair of shoes.

18. ideal weather?Still. I can’t stand wind of any kind. A range of temperatures is nice (not too hot; not *too* cold but snow is pretty so I’ll allow a wide range in that direction.)

19. sleeping position?In a ball, or at least partially curled up.

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?I haven’t written on paper in like a decade. I had to recently in order to leave a sticky note on something and had actual trouble making it legible. Essentially everything I write is on this 2013 Macbook Pro keyboard.

21. obsession from childhood?Um… existentialism? The pretend world my sisters’ and my stuffed animals lived in? Popular science topics and things from video game worlds, all of which went into said pretend world? Jet aircraft? Algebra and geometry puzzles? Configuring laptop computers?

22. role model?John Green. People who can communicate/present things effectively.

23. strange habits?I’m sure I have a ton. I’m not going to delay posting this to come up with any, but I’ll think about it. But especially if we’re using western society as the ‘norm’ for the sake of the question, I think there’s a ton of stuff I do that’d surprise people.

24. favorite crystal?Hm. I like the colorless ones like diamond, I guess? I just generally like gemstones, especially in fiction when they have powers. Oh, how’s this: I tend to like crystals that are (semi)transparent, so they have depth to them and change appearance as they’re rotated.

The other weird, mostly-unrelated thing that comes to mind is when I made a necklace for my best friend in elementary school and spent a lot of effort picking out the right sort of pendant, but I don’t think it was actually a crystal. (I often wonder what it would’ve been like if I hadn’t moved; I bet we’d still be close.)

25. first song you remember hearing?Neat question! I have no memory of a particular song being the first. My parents played music a lot when I was little, so a lot of their CD collection makes me think, “I’ve been listening to this since far before I noticed that I was.” The most recent one of those I heard and wrote down was Cathedral of the Pines by Tim Janis.

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?…complain about the heat? :D Hm, I don’t have a lot of outdoor hobbies.

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?…complain about the cold? :P I do like to ski somewhat. And I like hot cocoa.

28. five songs to describe you?

Eric’s Song – Vienna Teng

Doubt – Ruby Day

…hm. Looking through my playlists and the #media tag on this blog, there’s a ton of songs that I like, and where that fact tells you something about my taste in music, but it’s hard to find songs whose content particularly tells you something. Let’s just go with songs I find some meaning or relevance in?

Laughing With – Regina Spektor

Rainbow Connection – Kermit the Frog/various covers

Okay, I ran out of songs with particular meaning; let’s finish up with one whose meaning is arguably a lack of particular meaning?

Both Sides Now – Joni Mitchell

29. best way to bond with you?Talking, I guess. Boring answer, maybe, but I think most bonding experiences I’ve had were just two people talking about something important.

30. places that you find sacred?My elementary school? Is that a weird answer?

Other than that… a lot of places, really. Depending how you use “sacred,” I think it could apply in my mind to lots of unique places, especially natural-wonder type things.

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?I haven’t got one. None of my clothes are things I’ve picked out to look good, honestly. The thing that makes me feel more “ready to go out and kick ass than usual” is, like, bringing a phone charger with me in case I run out of battery in the process of whatever ass kicking it’s going to be, and that’s not an outfit thing.

32. top five favorite vines?Remember vine? Good times.

1. A Legendary Argument (https://vine.co/v/enUmZjLFgw2/); the “just do it” “no” one

Yeah, that’s it. I don’t know of any other ones.

33. most used phrase in your phone?I… don’t know how to tell. That sounds like a cool thing to figure out but I dunno how to see that.

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?None, thank god.

35. average time you fall asleep?Too late.

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?No idea.

37. suitcase or duffel bag?I don’t really know what context to think of this question in. Like, is there a time both would be valid options? Anyway, suitcase. Honorable mention: backpack.

38. lemonade or tea?I only like either of these in moderation. Usually I’d say lemonade, but lately I’ve been disliking acidic drinks more than usual, so maybe I’ll say tea. Actually, what I like is chrysanthemum tea, which you can get at dim sum places sometimes.

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?I’ll go with lemon cake. I can only eat a really small amount of lemon meringue. If someone made more of a lemon meringue tart with a really thin layer of lemon (maybe 10mm or a bit less) and a lot of crust and meringue, that could be really good though.

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?If “bad” counts as “weird,” let’s just say it involved sexual misconduct.

41. last person you texted?My dad (a link to instructions to get free in-flight wifi; nothing interesting).

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?I prefer to put stuff in pants pockets so I have them if I take off my jacket, but then my pants fall down because I have no hips and my pants are all regular-person sized.

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?I immediately crossed off everything except hoodie and cardigan. With a different body I’d definitely pick cardigan.

44. favorite scent for soap?Unscented.

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?Eh, I mean, I think they all have potential. I’d pick sci-fi or fantasy over superhero; print comics have never interested me at all, though I’m sure there’s interesting stuff in there too.

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?I feel like it’s just whatever you’re used to, honestly.

47. favorite type of cheese?Maybe fresh mozzarella? Either way, it’s going to be something people who really like cheese would barely count as cheese.

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?If I were a fruit… not to take it too literally, but I can’t think of a better way to interpret it. Um… a ground cherry, because it’s cute and has a place to hide in.

49. what saying or quote do you live by?“Hope is the correct response to the human condition.”

There are probably better ones that correspond to things I live by more, but that’s the one I have a quote for. Guess who it’s by? I’ll give you one guess.

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?Not sure. Show of the Weekend (@outsidextra) definitely wins “hardest laugh that I can remember recently” though.

#long post #personal

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plathwasaperfectionist · 8 years ago

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Chances are, if you’re in college, you’re pretty new to living on your own and managing your own money. Especially if you have to pay for things on your own, but even if you’re just making loan money last through the semester, it can be overwhelming. I’ve been paying my own way for almost two years now, and I’ve learned a TON about how to save money, prioritize, and live off more than ramen and bottom-shelf vodka (although bottom-shelf wine is still fine by me). Here are the best tips I have to offer:

1. Cook at home

Meal plans are a rip-off, and ordering food all the time is a waste of money. It’s so much cheaper (not to mention healthier) to buy your own groceries and cook your own meals. Even if you’re in a dorm kitchen with a mini fridge in your room, you can do a lot with some basic kitchen supplies and groceries. I love this website to find recipes--it breaks each recipe down by the cost per serving, so you know exactly how much each meal is costing you. Once you realize you can make filling food yourself relatively easily for a small fraction of what you would pay even at a fast food place, it’s hard to justify the expense. Just tonight I made a huge pot (probably six servings) of three-bean chili for less than 5 dollars total.

(And 1.5. If you commute or have long days, bring food with you. Buy a set of Tupperware with varying sizes (some big enough for salads or soups, some smaller for snacks or sandwiches), and double your recipes so it’s easy to bring leftovers with you to campus every day.)

2. Eat more plant-based meals

Meat and dairy are fucking expensive, and you’ll save money by using less of it or by cutting it out entirely. I’m not talking about buying processed meat-free substitutes because that’s even more expensive. Instead, try using things like grains, beans (dried instead of canned is even cheaper!), or tofu in dishes instead so you can fill up on cheaper food that’s better for you. When you can, substitute frozen produce for fresh to save money too (save the fresh stuff for salads, roasting, or eating raw--those are the only times you can really tell the difference).

3. Stop buying coffee

If you drink coffee daily (I do!), then you should have a coffee machine and make it yourself. A travel mug, real coffee machine (no Keurigs!), and a tub of coffee grounds is way cheaper. At Starbucks/Dunkin/Tim Horton’s you’re paying three dollars a cup for something you could make at home for pennies. Even if you drink lattes/something espresso-based instead of drip coffee, a stovetop espresso maker, milk frother, and a bottle of your favorite syrup works out to be cheaper over time, and you can control exactly what goes into your drink!

4. Download Honey

Honey is a browser extension that automatically checks for coupon codes/cash back options when you’re shopping online. In my experience, it works everywhere but Amazon (their discount codes tend to be product-specific so the odds are low that you’re buying the exact right thing), but it can net you some pretty major savings with little to no effort.

5. Move the fuck out of your dorm (maybe)

At least at my school, living in a shared dorm room costs literally twice what it costs me to live off campus in a large two-bedroom apartment (my boyfriend and I use the second bedroom as a home office). Also watch out for any school-affiliated apartments that lure you in with amenities like a pool, rec center, or game room--they tend to be even more expensive, and you probably won’t use the extra amenities that often. Do your research, of course, because there are some places with a high cost of living where rent will definitely cost more than the dorms. That said, you’re most likely paying extra for things like cleaning and maintenance when you could easily do that yourself (and not have to share a bathroom with twenty strangers either). Move out, feel like an adult, and thank me later.

6. Take care of the things you have

Even if you’re buying cheaper things instead of investment pieces, if you take care of them they should last a long time and save you money on replacements. All of my furniture is hand-me-downs from IKEA, so when I moved into my current apartment I was extra careful to cover the edges of things made out of cheap particle board and make sure that nothing scratched the paint on my bed frame. Don’t treat anything like it’s disposable--being careless with your things can add up.

7. Thrift stores, dollar stores, and discount grocery stores!

I fucking live for the deals I can find at inexpensive stores like these. Chances are, you have these options near you, but you may not have considered shopping there because your family never did. Keep in mind that just because your parents might be able to afford shopping at Wegman’s or Whole Foods as grown-ass adults, that doesn’t mean your college budget can handle it. Open your mind. Thrift stores are great for clothes (just check for holes, sweat stains, and weird smells and wash before you wear), but they can also have furniture (don’t get anything with fabric, though--stick to all-wooden or metal pieces), kitchen stuff (I got a set of beautiful wine glasses for six dollars one time), or storage containers. Dollar stores are the best place to find cleaning or kitchen supplies, as well as things like Q-tips and cotton balls, paper towels, or little containers to organize with. I would steer clear of the makeup and the food, however. Buy your food at discount grocery stores (like Aldi’s, PriceRite, etc.). While they may not look like the grocery stores you’re used to (at Aldi’s, for instance, they keep the projects in the cardboard cartons they come in to make stocking faster and cheaper), their products are just as good and wayyyy cheaper--I usually pay around $50 for groceries that feed my boyfriend and me for two weeks. If you don’t have a similar store near you, try buying the generic brand of most foods, and sticking to whatever produce is in season--it’ll be cheaper and taste better.

8. Student discounts (obviously)

This is a pretty basic one. I got Microsoft Office for free and a free six months of Amazon Prime (and then a half-priced subscription) with my student email, but you can get discounts at a lot of places. Check this list to see.

9. Track what you spend and use it to set a budget that includes savings

The biggest thing that made a difference for me was actually seeing what I spent--it was way more than I thought. I hadn’t realized how quickly buying snacks, meals on campus, alcohol, and impulse buys to treat myself could add up. You can use an app like Mint to do this automatically, but I found that using a customized spreadsheet and inputting everything I spent when I spent it kept me the most accountable. I also tracked what category the purchase was (bills/food/entertainment/clothing/etc) and whether it was something I needed or not (groceries and a new pair of basic black heels for mock trial I needed, two new face masks I did not). Once I’d done this for a couple months, I added up all the categories and made a monthly budget for myself, making sure to budget some money for savings and restricting each category some, but not too much. If I didn’t let myself spend some money on makeup, books, or meals out, I’d go crazy--budgeting a small amount for “extra” stuff will keep you on track to save money, but without feeling overly restricted.

10. Credit card points and cash back

If you still use a debit card for everything, get a credit card. Having some kind of credit score is so important for everything from getting approved for loans to renting your own apartment. Just make sure that you’re paying it off on time, not letting a balance roll over from month to month, and not using more than a third of your credit limit at any time. Not only will you build credit, you can also earn cash back or airline points on purchases you’d be making anyway.

11. Take advantage of your school’s perks

I was paying four dollars a day to take the metro to and from campus, which doesn’t sound like much, but it adds up over time (I have classes three days a week this semester, so that’s almost fifty dollars a month at minimum). Recently, I realized that my school has a shuttle that comes once an hour close to my apartment--all I have to do is leave ten minutes earlier every day, and I save fifty dollars a month just by using what my school offers. The same principle applies to things like your school’s gym, free food at events, free coffee or tea on campus, services at your career services office, or even the student health center. It’s included in your (probably way too high) tuition anyway, so you might as well use it and not waste the money!

12. Find dupes

I was obsessed with the trio of serums Glossier released a few months back, but the set cost $65, so I held back. I’m so glad I did, because I found this skincare brand called The Ordinary, which sold serums with basically the same chemical composition for less than $10 each (some for around $5-6). They also come in larger bottles, and I was fucking sold. I’m a sucker for Glossier’s aesthetic, but I’m also broke as hell. If you’re interested in the specific dupes, here are ones similar to Super Bounce, Super Glow, and Super Pure. (ELF’s eyebrow treat and tame is also basically the same as Boy Brow--you’re welcome). So many products in the beauty/skincare realm are marked up simply because of their brand name, and it’s worth looking around for similar things at lower price points--especially when it comes to skincare, if you know the active ingredients in a product it’s easy to find something similar without the gimmicks.

13. Figure out whether you find it harder to spend with cash or card

...and then start carrying that one with you. Most people find it easier to spend on a card than to hand over cash, because you’re limited to the amount you have and you can physically see it leaving your hand. I find it easier to spend cash because I check my bank balance often and I only see card purchases reflected there--for me, it’s easier to hand over cash and forget about a purchase. Figure out which is harder for you to spend on and use that method as often as you can. Leave the other one at home. If you need more limitations, either only bring a certain amount of cash with you or transfer most of your money into savings and keep a low balance in your checking account--you can’t spend more than you make available to yourself.

14. Be prepared to do weird and/or creative things

Ultimately, how you save money depends on what you spend on. I don’t have laundry in my building, and it would cost me six dollars per load to do it across the street (the only laundry machines that are close enough to my building). So, I bought a little $50 hand-crank washing machine and a clothes rack, and I wash my clothes by hand in my bathroom and air-dry them. I also grow things like lettuce and basil in my kitchen windowsill. Be creative, and don’t spend money on things unless you have to.

#studyspo #studyblr #college #saving money #money advice #mine

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theinsanecrayonbox · 8 years ago

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Chloe Rules/Tardy Sauce

both of these are banked reviews, also talk about their correct matching stories a little too

Chloe Rules:

Kevin! But wait Kev, you live with the teacher, why didn’t your homework get done? (and this also blows my theory about them skipping Kevin episodes since he’s not been introduced yet...or does it...)

Also Tim, the excuse “my dog ate my homework” would work for you since you had a dog…and why would Crocker be surprised you had a talking dog? Oh wait right, I forgot, we’ve retconned all of s9, my bad!

Plus “stupid” upside down would not be “diputs”, that’s backwards. It’d resemble something closer to “pidnfs” or “pidnls” probably

And no, Chloe did not do her homework right, you need first AND last name ion things. For shame missy!

“somebody put a mirror under his nose to make sure he’s still breathing” wow, that went a tad dark. But I love Kevin more knowing what a slacker he is lol

Smoking in the hall…oh wow. Are you sure these kids are still 10/11 there folks? That was funny because it’s a meat smoker, but we all know what they meant. I’m just, wow. I never would’ve pegged Tim for a smoker; Francis totally, but not Tim *makes notes of that for later use*

Heehee the term “grifter” being associated with Timmy, since you know, Inkblot!Timmy is based on Grifter. Heehee, made me giggle

Also loving RoboCop!Chloe. still, this totally feels like the JN episode where Jimmy became hall monitor, but then again, this is a common narrative trope isn’t it, so not that surprising.

“Well I can’t change who I am, because that would involve trying” I’m just gonna leave that line there for you because there’s so much to it ^^;;;

and Chloe has gone mad with power hahahahahaha

why do you keep saying the hedgehog’s name? is that a reference to something specific?

Chloe has a gum sniffing dog…i…hm…you just had to ruin one of my favorite headcanons that Chloe is scared of dogs, didn’t you…hm…you know, I’m keeping it, gag aside, this is a highly trained professional dog, so maybe she can deal with this one but others

But you know, at the same time, “gum sniffing dog” is very obviously “gun sniffing dog”, and the random locker searching…this whole scenario is very dark, realistic and played off as a laugh, but still and…yeah… plus what about the kid in the locker “a bully stuffed me in here a week ago” what’s her response to that? “go tell that to the principal”. No actions against the bully for putting him there, but instead actions against the kid for not getting himself out and to class. That’s victim blaming. And that’s something Chloe wouldn’t do; I mean, yes she’s drunk on power…but still. This whole scene is dealing with some very heavy real life issues and if you’re not paying attention, you’ll miss them for the laughable parody they’re giving.

“Dad what are you doing here?!” that’s what we always ask Timmy when pointless Dad is thrown at us. But at least it’s a small call back to eth fact that Timmy’s Dad went to Dimmsdale Elementary too

Dad hit the nail on the head about angry mobs…just another tick in the dark column (though he has been the subject of and part of several so that does make some sense)

Aww Timmy said he cares about her…true in the next line he sorta said he was more worried about his own safety but still.

And of course, school bell rings, and bam! No more conflict.

But I can see this as some really good Chloe development here. She’s always been told to “be perfect” to follow the rules; she hasn’t had many friends in the past, so of course when she’s thrust into a rule enforcing position, she’d fall back onto the “be the best no matter the cost” mentality that has pushed her up until this point. Was it a bit too extreme, oh yeah, but then again Chloe seems to be an all or nothing sort of girl. This episode also touched on a lot of stuff if you look past the parody, so it was very deep too i think.

As a whole I think these both (the production pair of stories, not the aired pair) work very well together. Dadlantis was fun and stupidly silly, while Chloe Rules was silly, but it was in a distracting sort of way. I think it’s a great episode as a while. Highly recommend it if you want Chloe development, and some fun laughs.

Tardy Sauce/Tacomania:

I’m confused by the name of this episode because it’s listed one way in one place and as another elsewhere, and both are actually pretty good…EDIT: Now we know that Tardy Sauce us the official name, but “Tacomania is still good and I think plays to the story concept more

I’m still not sure if they keep changing her middle names or not…I think I really need a transcript to know what all of her middle names are at this point ^^;

Lol you wanted to catch her, so you thought a literal net would be the best course. That is actually funny. Basic and rudimentary, but actually funny. But also whoot! Chloe has super teeth too!! Idk why that seems awesome. I just like how much of a perfect anti-thesis she is to Timmy actually.

And we cue up more Carmicheal family doing “new age” stuff. Neats. I like how hippie-dippie anthropology they are

Pointless Crocker…I guess isn’t *as* pointless, because here he’s at least a plot point/story device…but why is a teacher making this call? Isn’t it usually the principal or superintendent? That should’ve been a tip off that something was wonky Chloe dear…

Chloe…obsessing over school like that is bad…but yes dear, you are a vegetarian so it makes perfect sense you don’t like tacos, but yes it was a great pun. (You are so relatable I love you lol) and yeah you totally work the system that way; 1 per person but your plus one hates the thing, you totally get two then!

Why are there so many mascot clowns in FOPverse…? Also, Tim, what happened to your fear of clowns??

Oh look another person seeing the fairies and it not mattering. It’s like Da Rules need not apply

Pointless Dad…but the dummies are still a thing…wait no they were hand puppets before. Uhg. But yeah ok, I’ll let you keep the one point for continuity because they are puppets still and it plays to the plot idea about getting extra tacos I guess…

And even Chet Ubetcha sees the fairies and calls them a mystical creature on tv…yup, Da Rules are so still a thing…

But yes Chloe, what an amazing plot twist, Tim tricked you to get tacos, legasp! Though honestly, if the taco stand is that close to school, why did you need to ditch to begin with Tim? I know, you’d use any excuse to ditch school silly question. But really, why?

Tim…the tacos are in the bag still…you can still eat those…even if they weren’t you’d still probably eat them because you’re gross like that. But yeah, seriously, only the bag is yucky dude. AND YOU HAVE MAGIC EVEN! You can easily save those tacos! I just…I don’t get it…

Ok Tim, dude, why you gotta be petty here man? She already said why she wanted to go to school, you obviously know you did bad by lying to her, distracting her from making it to school is just a jerky move. I mean, she’s gonna be wicked tardy, so it shouldn’t count for perfect attendance anyways, but that aside. She threw your tacos in the garbage is why you’re doing it; dude, like I said the tacos were FINE. All making her miss it is going to do is make her HATE you. this is just stupid on your part. I get you’re a twerpy 11/12 (should be 14 honestly by now) year old at this point, so yeah perfectly believable reaction on your part, so A+ writers! I’m just saying dude, if you stopped to think, you’d realize what a jerk you’re being, when this is all your fault to begin with.

You’re not having a wish fight, you were the only one making wishes until the troll wish. And he shouldn’t be able to unwish your wish anyways Chloe, that was previously established, so why reiterate it?

Wait…hold up wait…you did not just say…omr you really did just say that Crocker didn’t you. Tim planned a surprise party because she broke the record? Oh. My. Ra. I did not see that plot twist coming. I am just…oh wow. That was some very good writing. The whole setup felt like a normal plausible scenario, like there was no possible way there’d be an arterial motive to it. I just…wow.

The end button, not so great…

But I’m just, wow. This is a prime example of a non-magical episode that deals with real life stuff, solved in a real life way I think. And it is a wonderful example really. I also think it shows Tim’s real level of maturity that we forget he has. I mean, he planned this whole ruse after all, even when it was something he didn’t understand (though, weren’t you all about perfect attendance way back in TimvisibleI??), and got everyone else on board with it too even though they didn’t get it either. But he knew Chloe’s attendance record meant everything to her, so he made it special for her. I’m just…floored. This is character development. It might not be actiony, or filled with (horrible) sight gags, but it is some very necessary character development that we’ve been sorely lacking for a long time. A+++ on the writing here guys, honestly.

Together, I don’t think Chloe Rules and Tardy Sauce should have been aired together because they’re both pretty strong stories (the former less than the later granted) and the weaker stories *need* the stronger ones to help balance them out. Admittedly Dad-lantis and Crockin the house were both good fillerish stories too, but they pair so well with these that when you split them up, they just didn’t do as well with what the were stuck with. I don’t know if this season was produced with the idea that the A- and B-stories could be separated and ran out of order or not, but I’ve always felt that if the production team put them together in an order, it was probably for a good reason. I know these days the networks want just content to slap in anywhere any time and not care about a continuous story line, and if it’s written that way then it’s great; but when it’s written to go together a specific way, you ruin it by chopping it up and throwing it around willy nilly.

#Fairly Odd Parents #Fairly Oddparents #fop #kp talks fop #review

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613526362 · 7 years ago

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I think He's changing 5 years to 2. I really think so.

.....and they frequently climb these trails to harken back to a time before they created the technologies that move them from place to place so smoothly and rapidly. While the European and Asian peoples of the world find pleasure in small doses of “camping” and other simulated hardships, they do not want to actually experience these hardships with any duration - or even be exposed to the people who do. Indeed, doctors and missionaries who travel to the Black areas of the world do so for very short periods of time, likely to clear their conscience of what they know as the truth - that massive poverty and disease define these places, and their European and Asian governments and businesses do nothing to help, when they could easily rectify these issues with even a small percent of their budgets. While some who have made this realization make short and meaningless trips to Black societies, most need not, as overwhelming ignorance of this global disparity exists in the rich societies. Media coverage of Black areas of the world is nearly nonexistent, except for coverage of the occasional change in government or violent uprising. This skewed selection of topics creates a biased impression of Black nations as places of corruption, violence, and instability, thus further terrifying Western and Asian populations of not just Black places - but also Black peoples. Mostly though, people in the rich areas are completely unexposed, completely ignorant. They live their lives with increasingly powerful social networks that allow them to more efficiently exclude peoples for whom they have any distaste or unfamiliarity. If a rare individual possesses compassion or desire to reach out and make positive change in the world, they focus instead on local “poor” populations, despite the fact that these populations have better access to nutrition, medical care, and infrastructure than the people of the Black nations of the world. These distractions and social mechanisms of ignorance create the truth that defines their modern world - white people are entitled to more because of where white people are born, and Black people are entitled to less because of where Black people are born. Considering the strength of the borders that Western and Asian nations have constructed, it is unlikely this dynamic will change - ever. These borders form a strong, varied, and complex network of blockades that can only be described as impenetrable. Just to consider one variant of such borders, a white American can donate $100 to a fund for local childhood obesity or suicide prevention or cocaine addiction (all diseases of excess unique to rich nations) with a few clicks on their internet, but to take a $100 water purifier to Equatorial Guinea in Africa, the flight alone costs $1,700. The overall cost for the trip to deliver this $100 water filter would likely exceed $10,000 after considering lost wages, documentation costs, hotel, rental car, translator, pre-travel vaccinations, prophylactic medication, food, hygiene supplies, trip insurance, and the myriad other costs associated with traveling to Africa. Some have posited that models of other social constructs could be replicated to have an impact in the Black nations of the world. An exclusive organization called Teach for America in the United States promised status, elite connections, and career success to young graduates of its nation’s best universities if they spent two years teaching in low-income communities. Nonetheless, the organization has faded in popularity amongst such young academics, as the bad experiences of those who join has gradually crept out and forewarned others from joining. Also, the overall impact of the organization is questionable, probably because the training and commitment level of these young people is weak at best. Indeed, making a huge difference for children with little training while receiving career success as a reward after only two years, is, well, a story far too good to be true. Possibly the most promising model for potential modification and replication is the model of the U.S. military. In America - a society where violence and weapons are idolized and worshipped by many - young people are gradually exposed to glorified murder in video games, movies, and music. The American military takes advantage of this obsession with violence by portraying its military as a more “honorable” form of violence. Military violence is portrayed as a just, upright self sacrifice that can be difficult - but always improves the world. While killing people within America is seen as a terrible and punishable act, killing Black and Arab people outside America is not only acceptable - it is a sport. Indeed, young Americans practice and practice this sport, through computer simulation and on gun ranges, training their high powered rifles on the silhouettes of targets drawn to resemble the stereotypical body habitus of Arabs or Africans. Unfortunately, this psychological sanitization of murder often misfires, with the occasional American turning on their own countrymen and committing mass murder. The massive success of this model in attracting young Americans and placing them into a life defined by the military should not be overlooked. Could such a model be used to attract young Americans to overseas charitable service? Could providing needed medical care or building roads be made as cool as shooting Muslims or blowing up roads to an American child? If so, the amount of time, funding, and effort necessary to build this model would be sizeable. As a final note, while extremely difficult to locate and study, the few individuals from Western and Asian nations today who make real commitments to develop and aid the Black nations are curious individuals indeed. Usually they come from unstable upbringings, oftentimes suffering from trauma as children that shaped their unique worldview. They oftentimes suffer from mental illness or personality disorders, although it is difficult to determine whether these cognitive disabilities are a result of their personal background or the work they begin early in life, made so difficult by the boundaries their nations have constructed. These few individuals usually suffer financial ruin, and almost always, die prematurely. Christmas: I’ve never been this close to doing it before. It was real bad a few days ago. I had a plan and everything. I was crying a lot. I woke up the following morning and, I just said to myself, “It’s okay James. If you can’t pay a credit card bill, that doesn’t mean you need to put a bullet in your head.” It’s just a combination of things that is more overwhelming than what I’ve faced before. It’s getting my licensing exam score back and seeing that I did much, much, much worse than the diagnostic exams said I was going to do. It’s being completely broke, closer to bankruptcy than ever before. It’s being completely alone, and seeing no one but the students I teach on a weekly basis, even though I don’t really talk to them much. Today is Christmas. I got a card from my dad. It said, “I hope you get some time to rest this Christmas.” He found out yesterday he’s losing his job. I should call him now and stop writing this. I’m sitting in my car outside the ER. I don’t work there much anymore, but I scheduled myself to work Christmas night. It looks very busy. I just called my dad. He didn’t pick up. I called my mom earlier. She must have heard something in my voice. She said, “I hope you’re taking good care of yourself.” I need to go inside now. God, I know you’re up there. And I know you love us. I know you love me. Please help me, please help me with this depression I’m in. I know there are a lot of people who need help more than me. I passed them out in the street when I drove to work tonight. Please help them too. But if you have any help left over when you’re done helping them, please help me with this feeling inside that makes me want to but a bullet through my head. I won’t make it far into 2018 with this feeling God. Please help me. New Year’s Day: Today is the first day of 2018. I worked in the ER last night. The main thing I remember is how this man was begging for a second sandwich bag. Normally we don’t give it to them. I was doing something with the patient, and someone brought him a second bag. I was just astonished at how he ate the sandwich. They are the most disgusting looking sandwiches to me. None of our staff would ever eat them. We just throw the food to them like dog food to dogs. And he furiously opened it up and bit into it in a way I haven’t seen someone eat in a while. He was starving. Earlier in the night I had this woman I was taking to CT. She had been badly beaten with a metal pole about the face and upper body. When I was pushing her stretcher over to the CT scanner, we briefly passed a window and she caught a glimmer of her reflection. She ordered me to go back so she could see her face. When I said no, she started to climb over the rail and get out of bed. Finally, I gave in. I pushed the bed back so she could look at her reflection. She started crying and touching her face, “Oh my god. What have they done to me. Oh my god my face.” I said, “It will heal. It will heal with time.” Today is the first day of 2018. I have a weird feeling that I won’t make it through this year without shooting myself. I applied for two online loans earlier and got denied for both. My debt is so high, I’m paying thousands each month just in debt payments. I think bankruptcy might be my only choice now. My dad thinks I’m coming to see him in February to go hunting and celebrate my great score on the licensing exam. Little does he know I’m coming to tell him that I won’t be doing emergency medicine or surgery, that I have no choice but to file bankruptcy, that he should transfer the deed for the small plot of land he gave me to my brother, and that I won’t be seeing him for a long time. He just lost his job. He now has terminal cancer and heart disease, and lives with a third wife who oppresses him. Thankfully his oldest son has married, had kids, and built a house. He has that. The depression from the financial situation is almost worse than the situation itself. I don’t see any way for me to make my last med school tuition payment this month. I’m a thousand dollars short now, but considering the bills I have coming up in the coming days, I’m actually going to be shorter when the time comes. I want to go so bad. I want to just relieve all this pain so bad. I was on this dating app just to find someone to talk to. I had this one girl I would talk to. As soon as, no, I can’t even discuss it. I’m disgusted. I have no one. This is the first day of 2018. If I had a gun I would have done it already. I know God is up there. But I spent $15,000 to do a medical relief trip to the Caribbean that barely helped anyone. Did Jesus kill himself? Or did this world kill him. Or are they one in the same? I’m going to tell my father that everyone decision to help someone else is a bad decision personally. I’m going to tell my dad, that, when I was 18, and I told him that the undergrad and masters or masters and professional degree that I would get would cost a quarter of a million dollars, and he told me I was wrong and that was ridiculous. He was wrong. And I have the receipts to prove it. The people will recover from losing me. My dad won’t. But it will be just as painful for him to watch me do all the things he doesn’t want me to do while alive. 2018 is my last chance to live. And it won’t take a year. 2018 will determine my life - or death - in the next three months. My prayer is simple, “Let me die God. Please God, this place is too sick. It is a nation of people trying to trick other people. I myself am trying to trick people with my own business schemes, but I must to survive because I have been tricked to the point of death. Let me die, so that I may escape this hell. I do not deserve relief of this pain, I know. But if there is any chance of heaven or just an end to one creature’s pain, it is worth the risk I pursue in taking my own life. Please God of all things, please let things work out that I may kill myself three months from now and suffer no more pain.” — January 19 Unspeakable Why How could He Is this really true? I had a gun to my head There was no hope in sight And now I’m given $32,000 Just like that Boom I still don’t believe it And even though it’s true I feel like I’m too foolish to not lose it all I’ve told myself less than 20% can be used for discretionary The rest of it must go to tuition and debt relief I don’t know what else to say This doesn’t seem real I haven’t felt so safe inside in so long 2017 was hell I literally, killed a piece of myself To help others Going to the island to help like that Spending so much money I didn’t have I almost died Nothing can hurt me physically I am safest in the sea But money. Money almost blew my brains out. And now this. It still doesn’t seem real. I still don’t know how to feel. For the first time in so long, I taught a class, and I just seemed happy to my students. They way they picked up on it and reacted was amazing. We all laughed together. We laughed so much. I praise you Father. I saw no end in sight. I was living to die. Father the wounds are still fresh. And the changes that have taken place in my mind cause me fear. I am not proud of how my dance with death has affected me. I am not proud of how my willful poverty made me tear my flesh from my bones. Yet you, You smiled upon me. You had mercy. In whatever dose I may, I will also show your mercy to the world. You love the people of Africa. May I show your love to them. Lord, I must tell you. If this doesn’t work out, I don’t hold it against you. If this is really a mirage, and all this money disappears, it’s okay. I never expected you to save me like this. I still don’t trust it to be true. I can’t. My mind has accepted death now. My life I had given away. Now, you take it back. And you do with it what you wish father. Take my life and do as you wish Father. Because I love you.

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The Energy From Requirement

Among the most tough parts from being actually a mommy is taking care of the requirements of your own self as well as others. And also what they currently are receiving is actually actually certainly not that negative compared to where else they may be. They are comfortable with their life expectancies. Control training courses work on boosting company as well as balance skills, while leadership progression training focuses on motivating and motivating others. If you know that you will have a trait - you may count on to experience that. You are actually the professional of your creation and along with downright knowing and also desire you will certainly regularly experience specifically what you want. At times that's an affordable thing to carry out that, yet regularly this is actually certainly not due to the fact that our company have unreasonably higher, and sometimes only ordinary incorrect, desires of ourselves and those around our team. When people subscribe to your list, they share private information along with the desire of acquiring one thing of value as well as passion for the swap. But when all those assumptions and also demands are actually gone, exactly what is actually left behind is actually the pure outright love that is consistently existing beneath everything. Budget hotels and resorts in Mumbai give terrific features and also companies, and although the companies supplied may certainly not compare to those in 5 star resorts, these resorts give terrific value for cash. In conditions where length from requirement is very most beneficial, that is actually often certainly not obvious that this ought to be used. Coming from that moment on I began to develop the idea that I was in some way less intelligent than my fellow trainees, this consequently negatively affected my desires and also fairly essentially brought about years of underachievement. Naturally, liberating yourself off desires is actually a process of building healthy and balanced mental boundaries and wanting, in many cases, to take the chance of having actually a person be dissatisfied. If you cherished this posting and you would like to acquire much more info with regards to yellow pages online residential uk [sneak a peek at this web-site] kindly take a look at our site. Fine art Administration incomes commonly deal with each of the advantages that a typical task possesses. Given that their requirements were probably moistened very numerous opportunities previously, individuals with persistent disorders which have actually unsuccessfully tried several medications will certainly not be actually as reactive. So keep in mind, if you are possessing issues along with your marriage, do not surrender. Take a look at the typical marriage fallacies that you bought into as well as alter your assumptions from a marital relationship. When we are in a companionship or even partnership, we usually have an assumption from shared gratefulness, verification as well as affection articulations. Throughout my job, I have acquired a number of administration awards and also 100's of individuals have actually utilized my succinct and also very clear products in order to greatly enhance their success. The point to know is in a connection, most of the amount of time, factors are actually had provided as well as the assumption is actually certainly not revealed plainly. John F. Muth from Indiana College coined the theory from rational assumptions in the very early sixties. That is actually the method to analyze every element, which could influence the business including the total economy, field's health conditions, financial disorders as well as the monitoring from the business. One vital point to create concerning making use of discussion in Fantastic Desires however is that due to the story's discussion design, where the narrator is likewise a personality in the unfamiliar, the viewers is actually basically reading through Pip's recollection from communicated substitutions. Some individuals talk to way too much of marriage nowadays that this is actually difficult to satisfy expectations. We have actually presumed obsession to become an incurable ailment, as well as our company have approved relapse as a sensible expectation. When I point out negative expectations, I indicate the desires that lead to one to constantly expect the worst from connections; to certainly not count on much coming from on their own or even from lifestyle. Based on the instance legislation of the panels of appeal, an action could be considered noticeable within the significance of Craft.. Taking a look at and also upgrading my ideas and also assumptions of myself carried big perks. Folks will come all around to your way from reasoning if your requirement is actually solid sufficient. Under the customer assumption examination a harmed victim professes the product's style was malfunctioning due to the fact that the item did certainly not conduct as securely as an average customer will possess anticipated it to execute. When the consumer requirements have actually been recognized, generate a breakdown from all customers as well as requirements in a very easy to access place. Tim Davie, Chief Executive Officer of BBC Worldwide, mentioned that purchasing Expectation was actually unavoidable" given Fincham as well as Hincks' performance history. While a number of the guinea pig could be quite hopeful as well as passionate regarding getting a new medication, others that have actually attempted numerous identical drugs just before, without receiving much, if any kind of, perk, might have an extra reserved or even unfavorable assumption regarding its advantages. Your requirements apply an effective influence on events and individuals, once and for all or even for negative, therefore be incredibly cautious! Every few months I have actually had a brand-new project and this has actually enabled me to possess an unique blend from monitoring skills, which result in a true improvement in firms, individuals as well as methods. Great Assumptions particularly is actually a somewhat prolonged as well as sophisticated work, a narrative that would certainly be monumentally time consuming and also unwise to inspect web page through webpage. This at that point ended up being the design of just what a lady resembled and also although these requirements are well-balanced or even certainly not operational, they become what really felt secure. What made this brand new research so significant and amazing is actually that unbiased mind browses taken during the experiment likewise presented which regions of the mind were had an effect on by clients' individual assumptions. An administration training program can easily help improve your business and also the leads and also career from your specific staff members. Second, to give a theoretical duplication from Practice 1, our team asked whether the vagueness result in the RC-First team reduced coming from Block 1 to Block 2. Our company regressed length-corrected RTs during the disambiguating location during the course of blocks 1 as well as 2 in the RC-First group into ambiguity (distinct vs. uncertain), Block (Block 1 vs. Block 2), and the two-way communication between these predictors. On the manner from subjective and also unbiased documentation, our experts contend that a person's assumption from a medication's result significantly affects its curative effectiveness and also regulative brain mechanisms vary as a function from expectations," according to the research study's searchings for. Mastering the fine art from taking care of requirement triggers quality, remarkable human being as well as most importantly creates you stress cost-free. Listed below are actually some more vital requirements which must end up being written policy as well as ought to be actually validated due to the employee. The hope as well as requirements you can easily develop in your persuasive environment will certainly predicted your capability to convince. That is the objective this short article - to offer you a 7 measure process as an administrator, coach, innovator or even supervisor, to obtain crystal clear expectations along with those you are actually leading. Enhancing an unfavorable expectation into a good one is what practicing medication should have to do with.

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