#so im sure being vulnerable must be hard but !!! aaaa

[zenims]

broken family / shards of vulnerability / unheard apologies

[kirishwima]

what quirks do the mysme characters have ?? would they go pro ?

this has been sitting in my inbox for so long and ive been wanting to answer it cuz i LOVE the crossover of bnha x mysme!!! so after long deliberation, here’s my lengthy, ranty answer-and if you wanna talk more about quirks or bnha p l e a s e hit me up im always happy to talk about this ;u;

YOOSUNG:

- I think what'd really fit him and be adorable af is if he could talk to animals, kind of like Koda!!

-He manifested his quirk earlier than most-at about 2-3 years old, and his parents found out after they found him crying because their house cat called him, and I quote, 'a bag of flesh and bones ready to eat'

-At first he didn't like his quirk much-something about seeing a cute chihuahua and rather than that high-pitched funny bark hearing 'i will MESS YOU UP' can be scarring to a kid

-Eventually he came to love it though! He found out it could be so useful when interacting with injured animals

-For this reason, rather than going pro, I think he'd become a vet once again!

ZEN:

-Do not even argue with me on this one baby boy would have a Siren quirk!

-Singing certain melodies can have different effects on people-one melody can lull them to sleep, others, more dangerous ones, can make them feel fear, anger, agression etc

-It took him a while to learn what melody and pitch of voice triggers each emotion, and for a while he was afraid to sing-his parents calling him a monster over it didn't help either :(

-Yet he insisted on using this power for good. He worked hard, memorised each melody and even created more complex ones, and would only use them if he had to!

-(I feel like he might also have some mild regeneration quirk maybe passed down from one parent cuz who said we can't have dual quirks? Not the Todorokis thats for sure)

-I feel like he'd be kind of like Hawks, in the sense that he's more of a celebrity than a hero; everyone knows of Zen the knight!

JAEHEE:

-ok at first I was writing a plot for a speed quirk but THEN i had this idea, you'll have to bear with me as I ramble through it: Jaehee has a matter manipulation quirk.

-Soph, what the heck is that, you ask? Well, here's the breakdown of it

-Jaehee can manipulate particles around her on a 4m radius. That means she can manipulate anything, change its shape, position etc-and with enough effort, eventually can also manipulate time IN this radius only.

-Think like matrix-style, bullets flying, but the moment they reach Jaehee, she manipulates them to slow down and they just casually graze by her as if nothing ever happened-ITS A BADASS QUIRK OK

-It's a little OP though, so as a drawback, she gets exhausted easily while using it, so it has quite the cooldown period.

-Despite the cool quirk, I don't think she'd want to go pro. All she ever wanted was to live her life quietly. But with a quirk like that, she's bound to get into crazy situations all the time.

-Now I want a fantasy-comedy show of powerful quirk-bearing Jaehee aaaa

JUMIN:

-I think he'd have a quirk like Shinso's! The moment you address him, he can, if he wills it, manipulate the person as he sees fit.

-But, unlike Shinso, Jumin can do one more thing with his quirk-Thought manipulation/Insertion. He can think of something, or simply voice it (for a stronger effect), and convince the other that this was their thought/idea

-i.e: Jumin, sitting across a potential company partner, smirking as he thinks to himself 'I want to sign that contract'.

-The partner, eyes wide while scanning through the document 'hm..yes, I want to sign this contract. Why didn't I want to earlier?!'

-He actually keeps his quirk a top secret, since the moment it manifested; no one would ever want to work with him face to face if they knew, now would they?

-Plus he's afraid deep down, afraid of people being scared of him.

-So he doesn't go pro; he keeps this quirk a secret, and god forbid anyone tries to find out about it.

SAEYOUNG/707/LUCIEL:

-Electric quirk!!! Electric quirk!

-Sae with little zaps coming out his fingertips grinning menacingly 🥰🥰🥰 id let him electrocute me

-Similar to Denki but minus the 'go dumb if overuse' thing; you're on my blog and we love angst and gore here, so here’s the catch:

-if he overuses his quirk, he starts to become vulnerable to it too. After all, it makes some sense-we have neurons firing signals in our bodies in similar fashion that electricity is conducted. Were you to touch a wire, not only is it very dangerous, the current MUST be conducted. So with electrical injuries-there’s always en ENTRY and EXIT wound, where the current came into and exited the body.

-So overusing his quirk can cause severe damage to himself, and is a reason why he’s riddled with scars-on his arms especially, but also legs (an often exit point for currents), back e.t.c.

-He found out about his quirk whilst protecting his brother. He…didn’t mean to use it. It terrified him. But it was a means of survival, and he was ready to use it no matter what.

-I really feel like someone form LoV would try to convince him to join them-and if they were to protect his brother too…he just might’ve.

-If we’re ignoring canon and going into a full BNHA universe, then I think Saeyoung would definitely go pro! He’d want to help people, and he’d be such an amazing hero, loved by so many people <3

V/JIHYUN:

-This is soo biased given that V’s my baby, but mmm, i really feel like he’d have a healing quirk, WITH a regeneration quirk mixed-this is my absoloute favorite quirk idea, and here’s why:

-How this quirk would work, is that he’d be able to take on any injury someone may have, big or small, so long as it’s not lethal-dead is dead after all. He can also heal significantly faster than average via self-regeneration, so he’s virtually overpowering, right?

-Well, here’s the catch:

-Anytime he takes on an injury or damage, he feels all of it-every single thing, and whilst the physical injury vanishes, the pain lingers, longer than it should. It does go away eventually, but taking on massive injuries is jarring and can scar him, physically and mentally.

-If we follow canon, after his eyes are hurt-his quirk deals with it, healing the tissue fast, yet he keeps injuring it himself, hating his quirk for the very first time.

-If we go full bnha AU, then he’d try to train his quirk as much as possible, and would go pro, but as a support hero, helping the injured after fights e.t.c.

SAERAN/RAY/UNKNOWN:

-Hmm, I’ve been thinking about this, and here’s what I’m thinking: I think Sae’s quirk would be bloodbending.

-Essentially he’d be able to use it in 2 forms; one is that he can use his own blood to form weapons, support items e.t.c (think blood swords….badass)

-The other form, is that he can bend the blood of others-anything with blood is doable, human or not, so long as there’s an injury, no matter how minor, for him to drag the blood out of. He can’t bend it whilst the skin is completely unpunctured, as cool as that would be, and he can only use it on one person per time.

-I think he’d hate his quirk at first-consider it hideous, monstrous e.t.c. He’d cry about it, his brother comforting him, reassuring him the only monsters out there are people judging him for a quirk he has no control over.

-If we go with canon: Rika DEFINITELY makes him use his quirk even when he doesn’t want to. He hates himself for it, spiraling depeer into her clutch.

-If we go fanon: He’d definitely be scouted by the LoV, but he’d never accept their offer. He instead wants to become a hero, and put his quirk to good use, to protect others. So I think Sae would go pro too!

[imaginesofeverykind]

Ask; ‘You absolutely know what’s up!!!! Ben and Diego are my favs aaaa!! Could you maybe write a kiss/cuddle headcanons for them’ OKAY BUT I LOVE THESE TWO SO MUCH FFS Thank you for blessing my day with this ask 😭😭😭 I also added in hugs bc i said so 💕✨

How They Kiss and Cuddle; Ben Hargreeves

[For the sake of because I said so, we goin pretend Ben ain’t dead] LOOK AT HIM AND TELL ME YOU DONT FUCKING LOVE HIM 😭🥺

Ben is such a fuckin sweetheart and we all damn well KNOW he cherishes intimate moments like this between the two of you.

His hugs are THE BEST, because not only do they fill the two of you up with absolute joy; Any occasion, no matter how upset or either of you may be, hugging him is instantaneous comfort, warmth and safety.

We all know Ben cares deeply a lot about not just his siblings but also those he cares about, so cuddling him is appropriate on every fckn occasion.

- On the couch; you guys be cuddled in the corner, his arms around you and you leaning into his side.

- In the kitchen; even in the presence of everyone else discussing things, he would be leaning up against the counter with his arms wrapped around you while you lean on him.

- In bed; you two alternate between big spoon and little spoon because that’s just how you two do things. It hella cute 🥺🥺

- At dinner or just out; you sit on his lap because it's what? Comfy, cute and warm.

While he doesn’t shy away from being publicly affectionate, he saves the little kisses and small moments like that for just the two of you.

There's A LOT of kissing, and it's not always connected to any sexual connotation, more so tiny pecks of affection because he cares about you and wants you to never forget it.

Most often than not they are the most chaste and quick little pecks, but when kisses you on the lips it's like cuddling with him but x10000 better. If your cuddling AND kissing then woah mama we got a fucking feel train leaving the station. *choo choo*

He’s so at tune with you that he knows his boundaries around you, he’s got you down to an absolute T and you aren’t sure whether that's embarrassing for you or incredibly sweet.

Goodbye kisses are the absolute worst for both of you because it means you’ll be apart but there isn’t a whole ass day that man ISN’T thinking about you.

Fck I just love Ben so much Im finna cry.

How They Kiss and Cuddle; Diego Hargreeves

Strap in we got a lot to unpack here omg

Diego will fucking fight to the death if it meant keeping you out of harms way, this man cares so much about you it be kinda scary sometimes.

He is emotional as FUCK, like he wont admit it but we all fucking know how emotional this himbo is and if you think he isn’t the one to come to YOU for hugs; you are sorely mistaken.

Regardless, hugging Diego is like you are non-verbally telling him he’s safe, he’s home and he’s [going to be] okay.

If theres a moment where you don’t hug him, he’s immediately onto it, he knows something is wrong and will annoy the absolute fuck out of you until you tell him whats wrong.

Cuddling Diego is such a raw and intimate moment, he is so vulnerable in this moment and he chooses to let you in because he cares so hard and so deeply for you. Being such an emotionally volatile person [cheers reggie], he finds it really hard to trust easily, but cuddling is the ultimate ‘I trust you, you make me feel safe and I care about you’ from him to you.

Mans is little spoon, if you disagree [You are a coward]

Oh man OH MAN, kissing Diego is something that you look forward to considering it's mostly far and few inbetween outside of it being just the two of you. But it's okay, he’s busy being walmart batman and you’re busy being you.

When he comes home after vigilante business, you will patch him up and gently kiss his wounds, knowing that he absolutely adores that [even tho he is a coward and won’t say it].

Tired morning/night/bed kisses are a MUST; ALWAYS

I would like to formally announce my love for this himbo idiot, I hope he’s doing well.

[hongism]

Miss Caly... Ma'am... You-

Okay I need to breathe. First of all, agsyshhdjfnjdhshdnfbfjjfkfkejbs.

Second of all, this tension, this confusion, the feELinGs involved in this interim are insane I barely register the physical act in my head.

I love that you wrote this with HJ's perspective because I personally understand him the least among the characters and getting a glimpse of his mind like this is so refreshing (and sad ngl I teared up at some parts). The way he craves for some of the pressure to be the Scourge and being in control to be lifted but at the same time being afraid of doing just that without losing his sense of self is so hard to read. And it physically pains me when I get this feeling that he doesn't want to be his insecure and vulnerable self in front of Seonghwa even though he clearly loves him because Seonghwa puts him in such a high pedestal, always looking up to him like 'you lead i follow'? And how it's Yunho that lets him relieve these feelings but he insists he feels nothing more than the physical for the giant?

And Yunho, dear god. I broke when he said:

I knew there was an existential crisis in this man and feeling the need to fight for his place among people that goes against what he basically stands for must be so frustrating. I might be getting this wrong, but is he in love with Joong? Or is it just his way of convincing himself that he's chosen the right path since he's the only one Joong can fully be vulnerable with? I mean that must be pretty validating although kinda' twisted.

Ahh I don't know. What I do know is that I'm super glad I decided to read moc. I'm in a pretty shitty place right now and this universe takes me away from that. This is literally a part of my life now. You hurt me every now and then with this but you're really incredible Miss Caly. Thank you for this masterpiece.

Whelp, sorry this is too long and serious. ✌️

WOW BESTIE WOW you made me emo with this one eeeee catch me crying in every club out there wow AAAA thank you first of all i honestly wasn't expecting much with this interim since it's so heavy on the mxm content and that's not!!! necessarily what moc is known for or what people started reading moc for, so this ask is just so extra special to me and i'm so thankful :((

writing from hongjoong's perspective was a lot of fun for me, i just really enjoy his character and how he works as a character in a way that makes him really special. and in a lot of ways you're completely right about the pressure he feels, along with the inadequacy and fears about losing who he is, and really if i could sum up hongjoong's character and view of himself in one sentence it would be "without scourge, who am i?" and that sense of self is defining for him and something we'll see him struggle with a lot over time too! and although we've seen him and seonghwa be somewhat vulnerable around each other, it has always been with the curtain of 'scourge and his lieutenant' up over their faces. but with yunho, there is a whole pile of emotions to get through there, but it's been hinted at from the start that yunho is a person who treats hongjoong differently, and he always has been. we just haven't seen exactly what that means until now but it is simply that yunho treats him like anything but the scourge, which is why hongjoong was so affronted when he heard yunho call him by that name.

and on yunho's side of things, there's another mess of feelings and thoughts to wrestle with but that passage you picked out sums it up well and there are layers to what he's saying. either that he believes that he's innocent or that he thinks hongjoong believes he's entirely innocent. and though we've seen his pride be an issue and frustrating, something we've never really considered are his morals versus what he's asked to do as a member of the crew. the whole reason y/n is alive and okay as she is is because yunho couldn't back down on his morals. and though we've heard it be said of him that he's able to separate fucking and feelings, in a lot of ways, what he and joong have is way way more than simply fucking? a lot of this chapter was meant to show that side of things and that underneath the fucking there is a lot more to their dynamic and relationship than simply the physical. is it love, is it a self righteous justice, is it pride, is it a sense of duty almost? that remains to be seen but there are lots of layers for sure!!

ah anywho i'm getting long winded as usual im sorry for that WHOOPS but seriously thank you and thank you for giving my story a chance and i'm so glad that it can provide even a small escape from life and the hard stuff even if i'm hurting your emotions in the process!! thank you ily 😚💖💕

[stimmypaw]

stimmypaw reads the apprentice’s quest, a blog post

A big one, just a bunch of thoughts as I’m reading it, of course, lots of spoilers for the first book in the Warrior Cats series A Vision of Shadows. This will be covering just the first book tho, it’s all in the Read More, let’s gooooooo!!!!

Vision Of Shadows time

Lots of new cats!!! I don't remember these guys as kits or anything wrow!!! I like their names but itll take a while to get used to them

Also cant believe they printed stormcloud's dead name

Omg there's a cat named beepaw

I love these cats all of them so much im going 2 cry

All new names are perfect

I FORGOT HOW GORGEOUS THE CAT VIEW IN THE RECENT BOOKS WAS, LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT

I'm glad leafpool smokes weed

I love reading from Jayfeather's point of view, his grumpiness hasn't grown on me ever but thats just me, I still enjoy it lots he's great and its fun

Firestar and Leopardstar's characterizations are On Point i love it

OOF i feel so bad when jayfeather is mean to others, poor kestrelflight, I love those two

Lovely Jayfeather moments now its time for the first chapter

I like this duo! Also I didn't think I'd ever say this but shut up squirrelflight one can have fun AND learn with their mentors

Sparkkit sounds nice she makes jingling bell noises when she walks around

Alderkit is chadphobic /j

I can see Alderkit taking deep breaths to relax its rotating in my mind its beautiful

God this first chapter feels so good and comfortable, like eating noodles and chicken nuggets. I am so so deeply in love with it, its gorgeous!

Sparkkit is so perfect too, and Graystripe remembering Firestar aaaaaa

DUSTPELT SAID WHAT? PHDHAHAHHA OH NOOOO I don't remember their relationship much, must have been fun, I love young little creature squirrelflight I MISSED HER SO BAD WOW

I started reading the second chapter and died, I think ill take a break now 2 sleep heehhee

I love them describing twoleg stuff its always so fun and alien, like watching an animal planet show about funny sea creatures.

Also I have determined sparkpaw is my favorite, might be my favorite cat ever next to hollyleaf??? I really identify with her and also she's autistic i have decided that

Alderpaw baby noooo hhhh their mentor at least is trying to show its okay, he seems very emotionally distant so far and alderheart feels very emotionally needy, actually both of them do, did I mention I love Sparkpaw??? I might be imprinting myself 2 much on her

I love how like, its clear both of them are absolutely anxious and worried about others opinions on them, which is clearly something they got from being Firestar's grandkids, deputy kids and leader kids. And bramblestar too, I recall him being quite the anxious lad ahhah. Sparkpaw will be showing confidence and being loud but the second anyone isn't approving of her or she does something "wrong" she gets small and quiet, and she ended up setting a high bar for herself by being good at hunting and fighting so I'm curious to see how that will go. Also there's nothing wrong with being guided through a crowded place to meet others Sparkpaw!!! I bet the two of them would be stuck without not knowing how to talk to others had Needlepaw not shown up. I love them, my gf is mocking me saying I'm a Sparkpaw kinnie.

Apprentices will like learn about a thing and tell everyone about it all the time and assume its always true in every situation and thats valid I love kids like that. Also in my head Needlepaw kinda looks like a porcupine. Oh boo she's fatphobic >:(

I love apprentices they are so fun and silly, just making fun of the leaders like its nothing. The way they are clearly learning and absorving everything their warriors say and do like sponges its just ***chefs kiss***

Omg shadowclan is just full of 12 year olds help

And then the old person said "it sure is hard being old!" And everyone clapped

Shout-out to pretty Riverclan apprentice #481977 I love her

Leafpool: 👁👁

Alderpaw: I knew it im cursed and awful and terrible and I will never amount to anything

I wish the cats didn't seem to be giving up on him so easily though

Ah yes the classic thunderclan move "you suck, into the medicine hole you go"

The way sparkpaw changes the things she says and how she does when it isn't the status quo around her oooooooooooooyeaaaaaaa I love 1 autistic cat

Alderpaw considering your problems lesser than other cats won't help you deal with them better bro

I love Needlepaw's excitement about Alderpaw being a medicine cat apprentice, and her sarcasm, she feels like a preppy teenager

Ahhh this is so good, I am so thirsty for family moments like this, just Alderpaw bonding with grandma, I’ll definitely want to draw this one it’s so sweet.

Oh to be young and silly.

I really am enjoying like, Alderpaw’s struggles to seeing how he fits in the clan, how he fits in himself, how he wants to be seen and what he wants to be, it’s really good. I Am Engaged(tm) With This Plot.

SPARKPAW NOOOOOOO but also Yes I want her to be shown vulnerable and weak please 

POP, god watching this stuff always awful, the cats must have thought he broke her ahahah

Also, really great that they learned from Dovewing and now like leave choices and discussions about prophecies between adults

And plus Brambles seemed to take the time to explain stuff to him, seems he wont be going alone either the 1 thing is that he will be the only one knowing what the journey is really about, why though??? I didnt read Firestar's Quest or whatever why does Skyclan need to be secret??? Seems quite silly really!

YESSSS SANDSTORM GET HIS ASS FIGHT FIGHT LOVE THIS LOVE SANDSTORM

I could feel squirrelflight nearing explosion here, this was very fun, i wish they werent hiding this though!!!

The secret thing is showing to be a plot point so I am once again Very Engaged

Also, wonderful dialogue bit, someone asked Bramblestar why an Elder is going and:

Lovely perfect perfect

I miss you dovewing

SQUIRRELFLIGHT LOVE YOU

Oh boy this is it

Traveling book moment

Graystripe: Soooo you're excited to go on the journey to the old territories and Skyclan?

Sandstorm: Yes! It's been ages and-

Graystripe: I'm sure the tribe will love the visit too

Sandstorm, groaning: Oh noooo I forgot about how the tribe is in the way of every journeyyyyy noooooo they're such a racist caricature, please tell me you have a plan

Graystripe: Yes don't worry about it the writers forgot about the tribe in my comic book so you can just use the excuses i did to actively avoid it

Sandstorm: Oh thank Starclan

Sparkpaw's desperation to prove herself oof, her anxiety with understanding the prophecy, oh boy, and Alderpaw feeling too overwhelmed by the questions and not managing to talk!!!! I am so glad they are both autistic

Hoping "Being Leader" wont mean theyre putting nonsense responsibility on the apprentice again

Ah good Sandstorm is on the lead again, as she should, she should have been leader she would have been great

I can't believe Alderpaw thinks I look stupid and diseased :( /j

Everything about this twoleg scene was scandalous I loved it, Sparkpaw just toppled over a trash bag and they are eating from it, iconic, also did those twolegs throw out a whole turkey? Damn

Its not that Sparkpaw is freakishly good at hunting she is very hungry and constantly on the watch for things to eat

BRO Ive never been in a road where the drivers are this wild, throwing bottles out of the car????? Ive seen Fruit being thrown like once or twice, what the fuck!!! I'm glad they are going to wait until the morning to continue

Okay I was not expecting Needlepaw to show up this girl is chaotic I love her

ACTUALLY YEAH WHY DIDNT THEY TELL THE OTHER CLANS ABOUT THIS SINCE THE PROPHECY IS ABOUT ALL THE CLANS???

Needlepaw is like Rono from Bambi 2 if he wasnt a mean bully and thats very epic

Very curious character though, how come her mentor isnt teaching her the warrior code properly? Is that an issue with all apprentices?? Is the clan overwhelmed by 12 year olds and they won?

Having lots of fun trying to play the game "what animal are they describing this time" the erins made here, im glad they're in a farm. Worried about Sandstorm though :c

Fuck im worried about sandstorm a lot, her wound hurt on Me

Yeah water is good youre right sandstorm

Aw man I hope she's okay let her at least survive to meet skyclan please

NOOOOOOOO SANDSTORMA A AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Sandtteooonrjrbbbmmnnnnnnnnnn

I am so sad

Alderpaw denying it, Starclan shining upon their vigil, everything crushed me i cried

Alderpaw considers Nihilism

Haven't seen a cat thank starclan for prey in a while its

Oh look they time skipped a journey! They don't tend to do that thats nice

I'm so excited to be meeting The Skyclan that everyone in the fandom knows now

So far they seem kinda mean but thats most clans at first glance really

Okay somethings up

I uh have heard of Darktail pretty sure he's a bad guy so yeah something really bad happened to Skyclan

Am worried

Darktail sounds like an evil himbo* i may be enjoying him actually

*himbos are usually nice by default so he's just evil and stupid and strong

Does needletail know these cats already?????

Ah

Shit

Oh okay fuck

I've been quietly reading the rest because I am just concerned and I want them to be okay as quickly as possible

Waterfalls are a classic nice

Oh boy time for our unlikely duo of Alderpaw and Needlepaw to get out of a Mess!

I did not expect this to end up with the two of them journeying into parenthood, but I'm happy it did

Well actually I'm very unhappy theyre so lost and there's no sign of Skyclan I am very worried for everyone involved Sparkpaw must be feeling awful!

Twigkit is a great name

Yeah this ended terribly

Overall! Frigging loved it this book was GOOD and a great start for the series I am very excited to read the rest, SO WORRIED ABOUT SKYCLAN THO AAAA the characterizations were great the characters were great the pacing was fun and I didn't get bored once!

I think o only wish I had read this sooner really so I could look up others thoughts without getting heavily spoiled about the last books, I can watch a few videos already though thats a start ahhaha. But yeah it was great and it felt very good to read, haven't swallowed up a book so quickly in a very long time!!! Very happy I finally got my hands on this 💕💖💕💖💕💖 cant wait 2 start the next one

If you read all this, hope you had fun hahaha, ill be making more of these cus theyre fun and I like talking about warrior cats thats just my thing

Til next time

[lnfinltywar]

Get ‘em, Spidey | Peter Parker

based on this text post

17. “I’m not a good person.”

37. “What are you doing here?”

word count: 1.3k

The day was slowly fading as the sun dropped into the horizon. The sounds of the cars honking became louder than they have ever been. It looks pretty; the dawn of night and day. The sorbet skies began to turn dark, into a black. Most of the apartment’s lights have been turned off by now, leaving the tenant to sleep. God, I wish that were me. Instead, I’m sat by my window admiring the world I’m trying to imagine as a better place. The deafening car sounds and yelling from outside couldn’t get any worse. Although, I am ripped from my state of daydreaming because of the doorbell. Who is ever here at ten at night?

I tell my parents that I’ll open it so they won’t have to get up. They’re sat by the television watching some cooking show, fully invested in it. They were yelling earlier at it, something about leaving a pastry in the oven too long.

I reach for the doorknob, too tired to take a peek at who’s outside. I don’t care if it’s a murderer, just kill me and go. My hand twists, the doorknob turning as well. The door creaks open, leaving my heat to ache at the sight in front of me.

Peter Benjamin Parker, crying in Hello Kitty pajamas.

He stood there, his face and eyes both red. It obvious he’s been crying for forever. 

“What are you doing here?” I whispered softly, walking out into the hallway with him. We had to make sure to stay quiet, people are sleeping. His hand goes up to wipe away tears. It’s weird, I’ve never seen Peter this vulnerable before. He’s usually the one to comfort me when I’m in my time of need. After all, he is Spider-Man.

Peter struggled to get anything out. A word, a sob, not even a breath. He was having trouble letting these few words escape, “The Stark internship.” Hairs fell on his face as he looked at the ground. “I-I lost it.”

Without hesitation, I took him into a hug. What he did today at the boat was all over the news, this must be the reason why. Iron Man had to come in and clean up what Spider-Man was unsuccessful at doing. 

His arms hung loosely around my torso, too weak to do anything. Cries got silenced into my shoulder, tears drowned it as well. When I backed up to take another look at him, he leaned forward in an attempt to continue being close. Glossy tears rubbed along his scarlet cheeks. The browns of his eyes were difficult to see due to the constant crying. The figure of his body seemed very small because of the oversized New York souvenir shirt he was wearing.  Very softly, I whispered, “Let’s go inside. You’ll be okay.”

Dropping his head once again, he followed me into the cosy apartment. My parents were still sitting in front of the television, too invested in the cooking show to notice Peter walking in. Sneaking into my bedroom, I closed and locked the door behind us. Right as the door clicked, Peter fell straight into my arms.

“Peter,” a shaky breath emerged out of my mouth. “Please explain what happened.” Leading him to my bed, the two of us sat down, his arms still around me. Fumbling over his words, his chest puffed in and out. 

Being Spider-Man has been one of the main things he has been happy about since he had gotten bitten by that radioactive spider. Everything we would talk about would circulate around being a web-slinging hero. Even though sometimes it would be boring to talk about, since he would bring it up in almost every conversation, it was always nice to see him so happy. The way his eyes would light up whenever I compliment him on his crime fighting. The way he would always visit me at midnight so I could clean him up before he went back to Aunt May. Though he was bleeding from the cuts on his chest and cheeks, his smile when I reassured him that he’s doing amazing looked like he wasn’t slowly bleeding out. 

Sobbing lightly so my parents couldn’t hear, Peter told me what happened today, “The-The boat.” He rested his head on my shoulder, letting go of my torso. “I couldn’t save them, Tony ha-had to. Hundreds - Oh God - Hundreds of people could’ve died!” Once again, he crashed his face into my shoulder. 

“You probably hate me! I could’ve been a murderer!” His arms snaked their way back around my torso, wrapping around me tightly. If he used a bit more force I bet I could choke up my intestines. “I’m not a good person.”

That last part was mumbled so softly, he thought he was the only one to hear. Almost like he was saying what he was thinking out loud, but only loud enough for the owner of the thoughts to understand. That is the most heartbreaking thing. Does he really think that? Because he tried his best and his best wasn’t good enough? 

“Shut up.” Gently, tears formed in my eyes. “If you weren’t there in the first place Tony wouldn’t have been there. You helped save those people, don’t listen to Tony!”

Peter lifted his head off my body. Taking a look at me, then staring at the ground, he spoke, “So you don’t want to break up with me?” His brown puppy dog eyes, sprinkled with emotion-filled-tears looked directly into mine.

He must think I’m only with him because he’s Spider-Man. Oh god, he thinks I’m with him because he’s Spider-Man.

”Peter,” I choked up a chuckle. “You really think I’m dating you because you’re Spider-Man?” Wiping the tears from my eyes, I weakly smiled at him. On his face, it wasn’t a look of relaxation, it was more of surprise. Mouth hung open, eyes wide, eyebrows furrowed. He really thought I was with him because he’s Spider-Man.

With his voice low and groggy, he spoke, “I-I thought… You don’t?” He quietly laughed back out of relief. This entire time we were dating, he really thought I was only with him because of his superhero persona. Now, that got me thinking, is that why he would always talk about Spider-Man? Maybe he kept bringing up the red spandex hero because he wanted to remind me that he’s Spider-Man. The hero I would previously crush on was my actual high school crush.

Grasping his hand in mine, the two of us sat silently on my bed, listening to the white noise from outside. That was until Peter decided to speak up. “So when you and Ned found out, you-“

”I cried myself to sleep that night, dude. The boy I was crushing on for a whole year fights crime after school and gets seriously injured. Coincidentally, my crushes were the same person,” I breathed in and out, trying to calm myself down. “Please know that I’m not dating you because you’re Spider-Man. Hell, I wish you weren’t! I don’t want you getting hurt, that’s all.”

This time, it was me who was gripping hard onto Peter. Somehow, I had my arms around his chest, squeezing me close, and I hadn’t even noticed. 

”I l-love you...?” He muttered anxiously. With a smile plastered on my face, I released my grip on him, my heartbeat speeding up. That was the first time he said he loved me.

No matter what hero Peter is or isn’t, that isn’t going to change our relationship.

Standing up, he looked questionably at me. As I reached for the doorknob for my closet, Peter became more unclear as to what I was doing. He must have forgotten what he gave me after he came back from the Avengers retreat. Stepping onto my tip-toes, I grabbed the balled up clothes in the back of the top shelf. 

Tossing the familiar clothing to the teenage boy, his eyes lit up. A pair of blue pants, a long-sleeved blue shirt, and a red hoodie with a spider drawn on it with a black permanent marker.

“Go get ‘em, Spidey.”

AN: aaaa this is the first story thing im posting on tumblr !!! sorry if its bad !!!