#so im sorry for saying one wasnt “as” bad no matter how u spin it or what happened theyre both equally as bad bc neither of them wanted it

[throes-of-warm-tornadoes]

i dont want to put this on main bc im scared but i hate it when people downplay katniss and gale's friendship. ive seen so many people say how they have nothing in common and how they wouldnt even hang out if their dads didn't die and its like... okay. have yall never had friendships that were forged from the aftermath of unthinkable situations? because it kind of makes me uneasy that their bond is minimized for that reason. at the end of the day, i think they both have a lot of similarities, even if they probably wouldn't have become friends under more favorable circumstances. they both are very caring and nurturing toward the people they love, they both love very intensely, they're both goofy as fuck (laughing and joking around in the woods---a part of 12 punishable by whipping---is actually bonkers), and they genuinely bond by hunting even if it is out of survival. im sure someone much smarter than me could articulate this point better, but i just hate how sometimes their friendship is punched down in order to elevate katniss and peeta's relationship (romantic or otherwise). because honestly they aren't that cute either, their relationship (both romantic AND otherwise) actually stressed me the fuck out. like guys kiss and make up PLEASE simply smooching isn't gonna fix everything

[fappellmoan]

so right a couple of my film friends and i met last night to do wine and glee and i left and tried to catch a bus in our gross rainy cold weather and so when it finally comes im just like zoo wee mama my glasses r fogging up and all that shit. but who of course is on the bus but my one friend the main perpetrator of acting like im some flaky cunt (rant city below)

so i guess technically this wouldnt look great on my part bc i was obviously Somewhere and had been ignoring the group chat making plans but oh my GOD whatever who careessssss who Cares. so im like fucking phenomenal ok walk back Omg hi and she moves her shit so i can sit and i get settled and am like hey. and she asks what i was up to and ofc when i say anything bc this is fucking awkward shes just got this stupid smug little smile but i was just sitting there like bitch im not gonna sit here and act embarrassed for seeing my other friends so i was just like So are u guys doing x tn and shes like mhm yep are you coming and i was like well gee i dont know. sarcastic shrug. make conversation about the timing of the place for a second kinda jokin then awk silence

and so then because im a chill normal adult and am aware that shes about to go meet the group of friends and no matter what this interaction is going to be brought up and i had been planning on composing a levelheaded text but i just said Look im sorry that i ghosted you guys (and shes again smug smiling nodding next to me. girl.) i just honestly got tired of feeling like im being singled out and judged when i cant make it to something and she literally is just like Well im sorry you feel that way just u know we do try to come up w different days etc (if u like me are bad at reading between the lines this was a non apology and defense based on uh Nothing) and i was like right well ik last semester wasnt great it's just that sometimes i feel like im being shunned in the group chats when no one answers or reacts to anything i say and the other day when you said like. yk the 'could u commit' thing that felt really sort of condescending

and shes like again well im sorry u felt that way i was just trying to find another day that u could actually make it cause i wanted us all to be there so im not really sure how that came across as condescending but um yeah. and i, jackass that i am (<3) pulled out my phone and pointed and said Well u see we didnt have actual plans and in fact no one answered when i said anything abt it and yk things come up and so for me to have sent this whole nice thing and just get 'do you think youd be able to commit' in response felt a little bit needlessly mean (and i also tried to earnestly say at some point in all this that i genuinely do love and care for them and want to see them but yk this Sucks and was just bad timing)

THEN we somehow spin into her going Well i just had no idea this was even a thing until you brought it up just now i mean i wasnt even thinking abt it ive never really thought that of you etc and so then im sitting here feeling like im being gaslit in real time not to be dramatic and i felt very much like when i was in high school and people manipulated me bc i was a very easy target (its not that real but w/e) and so im like Ok be calm but dont just like let that slide cause girl be serious (prob should have but what ever) so i was like well you know i do apologize if i just couldnt tell your intent over text, but after you guys never answered me about hanging out and then the short responses like maybe u can kind of see where i felt like you were being rude (didnt say it quite that bluntly w/e)

and she pulls out the big card. the. well i just think youre being defensive. oh years and years of being the youngest and punished for um having feelings lmfao slammed me in my chest at that moment. and i calmly said Okay cool i think youre being defensive. and i lit missed my bus stop cause this driver was swerving so then i was just like Well you guys have fun maybe ill see you tonight bye. so. really feeling awesome abt the state of that. in all reality tho it's like i hung out w some friends and then went out to the gay bar w others and danced and etc and i can only imagine how much of a Thing this was for them so. if someone could win it'd be me right

(on another note at some point during this ride sams roommate requested to follow me back <3 which i had been pretending not to think abt for the last couple hours) anyway

this has been a post let me know if im being normalish

[my-mt-heart]

Long ask sorry.

Im a bit lost honestly. I watched the caryl scenes of 11.21 and im conflicted. I refuse to watch the "donnie" scenes especially since if u look at comments on youtube lots of people are like "oh my God Donnie is happening she made him giggle i wasnt dreaming and he's so worried for her"

And then u have this reviewver saying carol's openly in love with daryl now wich uh, maybe, but, actually, no? This is still too subtle for my sanity

Yes, the fact that she mentions HIM to Maggie while in tears ("i was apart from him when we arrived" not exact quote here...) and not Zeke her supposed ex husband is telling, but from his side, nothing is really telling. And when she talked to him about Connie, i can tell u that in a way it made me worried because GA seems to believe it confirms his feelings for Connie, and the way he acts doesnt help, but at the same time it reminds me of when they were looking for Beth.

He was worried and she was there for him. And he definitely wasnt in love with Beth but he cared for her deeply. The thing is that Connie is not a teen, she's a 40 something (at least the actress is) strong bad ass woman and worrying that this time might be different than with his feelings for Beth doesnt seem ridiculous. But i see the way Carol looks at him (and honestly she has been looking at him that way, i mean not subtle at all, since stradivarius for me, Zeke never really stood a chance in the long run, Henry dead or not) and i know u believe they cant go the "she loves him he doesnt" way, but for the scenes i've seen , he's still too cold with her for me. And she's like a lost puppy who dont know how to make things go back to how they were between them and who's suffering so much with the situation and i cant anymore. I hate it

And Im lost. She definitely believes she doesnt deserve him especially after the cave incident and im sick of it. Lets say he doesnt love her back, at least stop being cold to her.

An another part of me, maybe the desillusional one, is still thinking that the fact that she really seems in love with him now cant be for nothing, with 3 episodes left, and that if he's still so much at odds with her its not for nothing either. Connie is alive, the cave incident is long forgotten and forgiven by everyone else in team family, including Connie and Kelly, the fact that he's still cold is very telling: it was never about just Connie but about trust being broken ("dont bullshit me"). We know that. But she keeps pushing him towards Connie and she takes his hand and looks at him like he's the moon and the stars and he's still kind of strange towards her. Im so lost, honestly. Im not even sure we will have answers before the end, they could still let everything open to keep both shippers for the daryl spin off. But what i want is for him to warm up to her like before. And its patethic that we have, i mean i have, to beg for it. We re talking about Caryl here. His f...ing feud with Rick was awful, but all was forgotten with a simple "i'd die for you". Cant we have something like that at least for the last season with 3 ep left between Caryl? Especially since there is no caryl spin off in sight anymore? Is that too much to ask? For Caryl, really? Its been horrible between them since 10.03 give or take some nice moments... for me anyways. And its been way too long. Im so lost. Im sorry.

Don’t be sorry. Pretty sure the intention is to make us feel anxious right now, which I know is super frustrating when there’s not a lot of runway left. Even though we’ve all had enough of the subtlety, don’t be so quick to dismiss the *many* visual cues because they still matter a lot (like SF mentioned). The physical distance we often see between them suggests there’s an emotional distance too, yes, but you have to imagine it’s something that’s going to be bridged and how do you convey that visually? With a callback to the terminus reunion maybe? That’s what I’m hoping for anyway.

As far as Daryl’s “coldness” goes, POV is also something to take note of. We’re seeing things through Carol’s eyes, which is why the Daryl and Connie beats feel played up. She thinks she broke her friendship with Daryl because she let Connie get hurt and she doesn’t want that to happen again. She doesn’t want to take away Daryl’s happiness. But like you said, the issue goes much deeper than Connie. In season 10, when we saw things through Daryl’s eyes, he was heartbroken because Carol was essentially running away from him. He asked her to follow his light and take his hand, but in a metaphorical way, she didn’t (couldn't). Now we’re seeing her reciprocate hence the light/dark imagery in 20 and the hand holding in 21. I’m glad you brought up Beth. That’s a great parallel too. They want to save somebody they couldn't save before and they're working as a team to do it.

I hope this helps a little bit. Obviously I don't know for sure what's going to happen, but I think there's reason to hope. TWD loves ship baiting, but placating Donnie fans isn’t going to do much for AMC in the end. They’re a significantly smaller sector of the fanbase than Carylers, who they’ve been profiting off of for years  and still can if they give us something that’ll make us happy. 

[thewalkingdeadband]

Review on twd 11.22 (next week for 11.23 even if im already spoiled)

Also sorry, im not an english native speaker, im on my phone and in a rush..and it ended up being long! Sorry

What a great episode, though not perfect. A lot of things seems rushed: for instance "oh shit its 11.22 we need to bring back Luke and Jules in a "oceanside's gone" type of way, so we can wrap up this whole storyline in less than 2 mns." Right. Right.

The callbacks: why did it take 4 seasons to bring up Benjamin again ? For 4 seasons it seemed like only Henry (whom i loved) mattered and now we re remembered that yeah, Benjamin was also Zeke's adopted son. He wasnt in the show for long i know but he made an impact. Hell, his death is the reason Morgan went rogue again and then Richard died ect.

Dont get me wrong im happy Zeke talked abt him but i wish he had been mentioned more often. Same for Sophia, i love all those callbacks lately but it really screams end of series for me and i wish they didnt need the show to end to remember her. That said, these two callbacks still made me emotional as hell, its hard to explain. Especially when Carol said she missed Sophia and Henry and wish they could come back. I was a mess.

- Rosita is fucking bad ass in mama bear mode. But when this asshole said at the end you re going to lose everything, i dont know if we re supposed to believe he talks to all of them or just to her. If its just her, its frightnening: is she going to lose Coco, Gabe and Eugene all together? Is she going to die herself?

- Tyler: i remember watching the Princess centered bonus episode of s10 and hoping this guy would become more important. Im glad he kind of is.

- Donnie: well, if u ship them, u re gonna see things. They "shipbait" both ships a lot, with glances and touches than can be interpreted in lots of ways depending on who u ship Daryl with. I obviously believe that Carol should be the one, and i hate that they still havent made a choice by now. Just choose, stop playing with us. Or have him stay alone, but make it a choice. Not a "we re keeping things open" because we dont want one part of the fandom or the other giving up on watching the spin off. You know what i mean? Thats how i take it honestly. Like they didnt realise a lot of carylers and/or carol fans have decided not to watch anyway, because no Carol anymore.

So im afraid its gonna stay "open" for now. Hope im wrong, hope all the optimistics carylers are right. Im not a pessimistic one i just dont know what to think anymore. Carol is the one, this should have been settled ages ago, back in s5, or even s3, i dont know. Or even s7 after new best friends. Anyway, i hope i can come back here and give my apologies for being fed up with this, and saying that it was actually worth it to wait.

Negan: its becoming really hard to hate him now of course. I dont anyway, but yeah, they re finally giving him a proper (sort of?) redemption arc. Im sorry, but smirking in a evil way at Maggie's face (ending of "here's negan) or telling her "i would do the same if i had to do it all over again", or "hell i'd kill all of u this time" and never showing actual remorse is not a redemption for me. Being nice to Judith or Lydia (and i do know he saved Judith's life in s9b) isnt enough. But this, and last episode? This is starting to sound like it. The guy litteraly almost sacrified himself to save everyone and Annie and his baby, despite what Zeke had just told him!

- Ezekiel: obvisously did the right thing and there was no way he was letting Negan die after seeing all this. He's amazing.

- Carol and Maggie, the bad ass duo we all missed since 6.13. The mothers talking mother to mother. The best friends/sisters that have seen it all together. Carol is the one who wrote a letter to Maggie getting her to come back, remember. They've always been family and close, the show just forgot abt it for a while. Again, a bit late and rushed, but welcomed nonetheless. By rushed, i mean that it screams "end of series" as in u can totally imagine the writers panicking in the writing room "oh shit we need to have meaningful scenes between ogs or main characters ect"

Hell even negan and ezekiel have meaningful scenes, and they barely exchanged (if not at all?) Since s7.

- Eugene : now im really worried. Im so proud of him. Again: callback. He didnt say his name but Abe was on his mind no doubt during all of his speech. I remember thinking back in s7, no way he doesnt have a plan, no way he's really betraying after witnessing Abe being murdered like that and that emotional hug between them just a few scenes ago. But i was wrong. And i was right. He betrayed because he was scared to have the same end as Abe, witnessing his and Glenn's death is actually what made him so scared to stand up to Negan, it fucking traumatized him, he didnt have any plan until late (and Gabriel trying to bring him back and reason him, remember, and Sasha, too). He said all that very well, his cowardice, his need for safety, in his speech, a speech which gave me closure. This guy is so brave, so so brave. I love him so much. I never gave up on him. And im pretty sure he's gonna die. This whole arc screams (heroic?) death for me. I dont want to see him die, but im preparing myself hard.

To be honest im also worried for Rosita, Gabriel and/or Aaron. But that's another subject for another time.

Last but not least: with all these meaningful scenes/moments/talks/goodbyes between beloved characters, where is the caryl one? Talking abt the cave last episode briefly with hands touching, while nice, wasnt enough. I need something at least like in "a certain doom", even though it probably would not be enough granted these are the last episodes, but that would be the bare minimum.

I think because there was supposed to be a spin off with both, they didnt concentrate on them as much as we wish they had, using the time left to end properly everyone arcs, especially the ones that dont have a spin off.

But now that we have a daryl spin off instead of a caryl one, and with news/rumours (?) of last minute changes and reshoots, what can we expect?

Well, we'll figure it out very soon i guess.

Edit a few more thoughts:

- seeing the people cheering for Eugene, supporting the hero he became was very moving

- the ending scene with Negan/Ezekiel/Annie and that armitage hux wannabe made a lot of people thinking -rightfully- abt a parallel with s7ep01 (Annie pregnant instead of Maggie, Negan begging instead of Glenn...) but it also gave me WW2 vibes and it was scary as fuck. Seeing everyone gathering in front of Negan and Annie in support was something else..

- Mercer coming around in that last scene wasnt a surprise at all, but still a freaking relief

[sciencebutmagical]

TLDR; I smoked a lot of weed and I write about this. Listen to me anyway? Or don’t. I’m not cutting it off. Scroll past. I dare you. U a coward? Maybe. SPIN UR WHEEEEEL MAAAAAAN. BE A DAMN WIERDO..... I DARE YOU. COMMUNISM? CAPITALISM??? SOCIALISM!!!!!!!!!! MILLENIALS!!!!! FIND OUT????¿¿¿¿? JESTER WAS MY FAVORITE AND SO WAS CALEB AND SCANLAN AND I LOVED CRITICAL ROLE AND DRAGON AGE ITS A METAPHOR BABEY. TIME????? FABRIC. SPACE??? LIGHT. PARTICLES AND WAVES BABEY. WHY BE BAD WHEN U COULD BE GOOD CHAOS. IM A WRITER.

I’m gay bc someone called me a faggot? I like women. Trans people exist I was confused. Danny was a liar. That’s it. Zootopia. Judy was a cop. Cops are liars. Violence is still a lie. Chaos chaos chaos chaos that’s why I did it. Mischief. The troublemaker. The Traveler. Solas was Chaotic Good Actually But He SEEMED Pretty Neutral BUT Very Wise In The Begginning. I STILL LOVE CASSANDRA EVEN THO SHE WAS DEVOTED TO “ANDRASTDE” THE LADY JESUS THE DIVINE(pope) COULD STILL BE A MAN DORIAN WAS RICH AND GAY AND GREW UP AROUND ELF SLAVES IM SUCH AN ASSHOLE BLACK LIVES MATTER IM CONFUSED THESE ARE PEOPLE THATS WHY IM MAD. CHAOS OH MY GOD I FIGURED IT OUT AND IM GOING TO WRITE IT ALL OUT HOW EVER THE FUCK I LIKE AND I HAVE AN EXCELLENT VOCABULARY I KNOW SO MANY WORDS AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAAAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHGAAHAHAHGAHAENWJIF I FIND WHAT I DONT UNDERSTAND AND I LOVE IT UNTIL I DO I LOVED EVERY GENRE OF FICTION UNTIL I DIDNT ANY MORE AHAHAHAHA I can’t believe I understand the whole world at the same time at the ripe young age of 20. I hunt. I don’t have to kill. I’ll never kill you: pacifism. Polite. Class????? Disgusting. Chaos. Balance. WIZDOM. Spirits. Old things are always complicated and are usually too busy. Statistics. I took a class in it. I got a 4/5 on that AP test. An AP is “Advanced place” apparently. I was in the “talent pool(ed)” my whole life but I always hated math until I found it fun. I liked to solve problems. I HATED Physics bc all of it was math but my physics teacher was really kind and really liked doctor who and I really actually liked her in the end but I never knew how to say sorry that I was rude in the beginning. Teaching is the noblest profession but I don’t understand children because I understand logic and empathy. SHERLOCK HOLMES WAS A RELENTLESS LOGICIAN. HE DIDNT KNOW THE EARTH REVOLVED AROUND THE SUN. HE WAS BRITISH. THE BRITISH ARE LIARS BUT THEY HAD THE BIGGEST GUNS AND THATS THE ONLY REASON THEY CONQUERED CHINA AND CHINA WAS THE FIRST PLACE THAT HAD GUNPOWDER BECAUSE THEY USED THEM FOR FIRE WORKS AND FIREWORKS CAN BE DANGEROUSAND THATS FIRE. ATLA. I LIKE AIRBENDING BECAUSE THEY ARE PACIFISTS AND PASSIVE AND SPIRITS AND KORRA WAS HOT BECAUSE SHE WAS CHAOTIC AND SHE LIKED MAKO THE FIRE BENDER BECAUSE HE WAS “HOT” BUT IN THE END SHE LOVED ASAMI AND THATS BISEXUAL GET OVER IT. ASEXUALS DONT LIKE SEX AND DONT HAVE IT. I HAD A CRUSH ON ONE ONCE. SHE WAS A HE AND VERY PRETTY UNTIL HE WASNT AND I AM GAY. AND I LIKE MYSTERY BC I AM MYSTERIOUS IT IS THE BEST THING EVER. A WISE WOMAN SAID SO IT WAS A METAPHOR ANYONE CAN DO IT. I FAILED THE CALCULUS ONE I GOT A 2. 2+2=4 4/5 on the TEST GOOD? GEORGE ORWELL DIDNT THINK SO OH MY GOD. CHAOS THEORY. I GET IT NOW. I GET IT. I GET IT I GET IT I GET IT AND IT TOOK 20 WHOLE YEARS. I am a FIREBENDER WHO LOVES PACIFISM AND FREE WILL AND SHATTERED WINDOWS THE NAZI’S SHATTERED THE JEWS WINDOWS KYSTALNAUCHT THE SECOND WORLD WAR CAN WE NOT START THE THIRD ONE WITH. CHINA MR TRUMP HOW BOUT THAT. MY BEST FRIEND IS ASIAN (from Korea) (which is in Asia) AND PEOPLE ARE TREATING HIM LIKE SHIT BECAUSE OF COVID AND I HATED IT PROTECT IS IN MY NATURE. I LOVE PEOPLE AND I HATE THEM THEY WILL ALWAYS DO WHAT THEY WILL. ALL ONE THING HUMAN YEA??????????

[askthetotallynotcampcamp]

Nerris: *walking to school and bopping to music*

Harrison: *a p p e a r s behind nerris pew pew* *bOOM JUMPS IN FRONT OF NERRIS* Boo!

Nerris: JESUS CHRIST- oh hey Harrison! *kisses his cheek*

Harrison: Hey princess, what’re you listening to?

Nerris: for the 28282nd time, bad romance because it SLAPS

Harrison: Oh no, is that how you feel about me? I’m so hurt-! *:( but not actually*

Nerris: oh dont be like that idiot *playfully pushes him*

Harrison: I am using the cool drama techniques Preston taught me, shhh

Nerris: good job, you're learning from a professional *claps*

Harrison: *smooch smooch* I’m gonna beat you to school

Nerris: OH NO YOU WONT! *SPEED*

Harrison: *speedier*

His hat: *flies off*

Nerris: HA PEACE OUT HOMIE

Harrison: oh fUCK MY HAT *runs after his h a t*

Bully Bobby: *picks up harrison c a p* did you lose your stupid hat, magic boy?

Nerris: *turns around and walks back* BOBBY GO AWAY FOR CHRIST'S SAKE! *snatches his hat out of his hand*

Bully Bobby: oh boohoo, you’re standing up for the guy who killed his own brother?

Harrison: I didn’t kill my brother-!

Nerris: bobby, you take that back right now. Harrison did not kill his brother. You dont know what he has been through so you dont have the right to say anything!

Harrison: *:(*

Bully Bobby: what else does “disappear” mean? he killed his own brother when he was like, 12, and buried him in their yard!

Nerris: and you would know that how? You dont know anything about Harrison. Nothing. Have you been friends with him since you were like 11? No.

Bully Bobby: oh shut up-

Harrison: Bobby, just fuck off. *snatches hat from nerris and sHOVES it back on* i’m going to school *angee walking*

Nerris: thanks for that Bobby. Really needed that right now *flips him off and walks next to Harrison* hey you know you can go home if you want, you dont have to go to school. I'm sorry that just happened. Bobby sucks.

Harrison: no, i’m going to school, it’s just worse at home. *angee speed walking*

Nerris: hey, you could go to my house. You know my parents love you. I'll go with you if you want.

Harrison: *q u i e t talking* i didn’t mean to make my brother disappear :(((

Nerris: heyheyhey! It's okay Harrison. I know you didnt mean it, he knows you didnt mean it. I know you dont like talking about it and I'm sorry he brought it up.

Harrison: can we skip school so i don’t have to see bobby’s stupid face? i wish i could make him disappear *>:(*

hat: cap

Nerris: yeah! *spins around* let's go my good sir! *puts out her hand*

Harrison: *g r i p* will your parents be mad?

Nerris: nah, they're chill and my mom's at work. My dad is probably playing D&D with his pals

Harrison: *teehee* you used to be so into D&D it wasn’t even funny

Nerris: yeah yeah I know! I would go around camp "saying spells" and playing with dice all day- and I would fight with you like crazy *laughs*

Harrison: your stupid little hat and cape were so adorable, you were such a dork

Nerris: okay but your magic shows were so good, I'm still impressed

Harrison: I’m still good at magic, you know! *pulls out a f l o w e r*

Nerris: I know you're good at magic duhhhhhh

Harrison: can we watch a movie at your house? *puts the flower in nerris’s hair teeheehaw*

Nerris: oh my god yes! Any ideas?

Harrison: something distracting *boopboop*

Nerris: alrighty!

-at her house-

Nerris: hey dad! *drops her bag on the floor*

Harrison: hello mr. nerris’ dad!!!

Nerris dad: hey kids!

Nerris: *runs upstairs to her room* tally-ho!

Harrison: *runs into nerris’ room and LEAPS onto her bed kapowie*

Nerris: jeez are you in love with my bed or something?

Harrison: no idiot, i’m in love with you *takes OFF HIS CAP*

Nerris: woah Harrisons getting serious hes taking off his cap

Harrison: Oh shut up “nerris the cute” *airquotes lmao*

Nerris: you're the one who agreed with the nickname at camp so *putting away books and crap*

Harrison: you’re going to put away books instead of laying down with meeeee?

Nerris: do you see the state of my room? It's a mess!

Harrison: do you see the state of ME?

Nerris: shhhh *hug*

Harrison: you make everything better, princess *hug :))*

Nerris: so *sits down* what do you wanna do

Harrison: uh, I dunno

Nerris: well you're the one who was whining because he wasnt getting affection

Harris’ phone: bring bring bring bring bring bring ava i just rekt u bring bring bring bring bring

Harrison: get my phone for me NERRIS

Nerris: okay! Oh shit it's your parents *gives him his phone*

Harrison: oh shit- hold up i’ll, uh be right back. *goes into the hALLWAY*

Nerris: *drawings*

Harrison: *>:”(* *s t o m p s back into nerris’ room* *>:(*

Nerris: what's wrong?

Harrison: my mother called and asked why i ‘wasn’t at school’

Nerris: pft, oh well. You can chill out here homie

Harrison: yeah, well, she’s coming over here apparently

Nerris: ughhhhh. I'll explain to her honey. *kiss uwu*

Harrison: *😳😳😳😳* i’m just nervous i guess- i should’ve shut off the stupid thing-

Doorbell: glipnorp

Nerris: I'll get it- coming! *runs downstairs and opens the door* hello!

Harrison’s mummy: Hello, is Harrison here?

Nerris: okay I can explain. Harrison we getting made fun of and i stood up for him and he really wanted to go home so we came here.

Harrison’s mummy wummy: right, and how does he know you? where is he now?

Twerker: i pee

Nerris: we met at camp Campbell- and uh, hes upstairs..

Harrison’s mummy yummy: he’s not safe around other people- can he come down here??

Nerris: ma'am, hes not going to make me disappear. Harrison come here!

Harrison: *approaches* heyyyy?

Harrison’s mimsy: >:0

Nerris: hey Harrison *smiles*

Harrison: hi mom, uh, i didn’t do anything bad

Harrisons mom: you cant go over anyone's house harrison! We've been over this! People arent safe around you! Why dont you listen!

Harrison: I don’t do anything bad though! Nerris is still here, and so is her house and her dad and his friends. I haven’t done ANYTHING-! *>:(*

Nerris: *holds his hand* yep

Harrison’s moop: it’s only a matter of time before it happens.

Nerris: hes amazing around people! Hes not going to make anyone disappear!

Harrison: *’:(*

Nerris: just go away *slams the door in her face*

Harrison: damn-

Nerris: what? She was annoying!

Harrison: i mean- yeah- but damn

Nerris: I know I'm a bad ass- jk

Harrison: wow, okay, nice

Nerris: you okay?

Harrison: yeah, just, like, i don’t know

Nerris: Harrison, you're crying, you clearly arent fine soooo *hug*

Harrison: I don’t like my mom

Nerris: I know Harrison. I'm sorry shes like that. Do you maybe wanna sleep over so you can relax? *smiles*

Harrison: yes, of course

Nerris: alrighty my good sir! *runs up to her room*

Harrison: *r u n s after nerros* So, what’re we gonna doooo?

Nerris: I dont knowwwww- what do you wanna do *plops on bed*

Harrison: uhh movie? *s i t*

Nerris: ooooo yes! Okay *turns on tv* what movie

Harrison: uh a good one?

Nerris: ah yes of course

-a couple minutes later-

Nerris: *falling asllep* IM UP- oh hi Harrison

Harrison: are you tired? go to sleep-!

[urmomification]

hey lol god decided i will write more Right Now

AND AND AND DREAM GETS A LETTER FROM HIS KINGDOM THAT HIS FATHER HAS FALLEN ILL AND IS DYING AND DOESNT MENTION IT TO GEORGE BC HE KNOWS GEORGE WILL SAY NO BUT LEAVES IT SOMEWHERE WHERE GEORGE FINDS IT AND GEORGE 'what is this dream? why didnt u ask? ill let u go, ur not my hostage' and dream 'i know, but at this point i dont know if i want to, sure hes my father but after learning about everything that hes done to everyone, to you, i dont know if i should' to which george goes 'hes still your father and its your decision, ill escort u there personally if u wish to go, im sorry u felt like u couldnt ask that of me' so dream decides to go, george coming w and as they go thru dreams kingdom, its in shambles, houses are falling apart, people live in the streets and clearly they dont have enough food. but the castle? tip top condition, not a brick out of place and more guards than they can honestly afford. dreams devastated, he knew what george was teaching him was true but seeing it in reality is something else, seeing your people suffer at the hands of ur own flesh and blood is a guilt u cant shake no matter how hard you try. they make their way to the castle, the people throwing small rocks and yelling at them the whole way, both at dream and george for different reasons. at dream for 'abandoning them' and at george for 'taking their only hope' george pays them no mind but it clearly gets to dream, but neither of them say anything. dream visits his dad while george waits outside, getting dirty looks from everyone everywhere from the wait staff to the guards outside the kings room. theyve clearly been told he was the bad guy despite giving them enough food to live through a cold harsh winter. he knows that the king would keep most of it for himself to feed himself better than everyone else so he assumes lots of the people didnt see any of said food therefore blaming george for the downfall of their well being. dream talks to his father blah blah blah 'dad ur a bad person why do u do this to ur people' 'bc im king i deserve to eat better than them i deserve to be higher than them' 'what makes you so much more important than them? a crown? a name?' blah blah blah yk the usual dream and george make their way out of the kingdom and at some point dream stops his horse and storms off into the forest dream calling after him telling him its getting dark out they need to keep moving but dreams gone he needs to blow off steam hearing that ur father is a terrible man and literally confirming it w him is a monumental feeling so hes frantically running his hands thru his hair and groaning in frustration really trying to avoid physically lashing out, george ties up their horses to keep them from running away and he trudges after dream talking abt how 'its late if we dont keep moving we're gonna get mugged or something we cat stay here dream cmon' and he finds dream sitting at the base of some massive old tree w his head buried in his knees and 'dream what are u doing? are u ok?' and dream just fuckinnn spins around and punches the fucking tree (REALLY busting up his hand) and starts screaming and pacing abt how he knew george wasnt lying to him and how he knew everything he was saying was the truth but hearing his father say the things he did is so so much worse than he thought it would be and hes pacing around his hand is probably broken and hes practically having a panic attack and george is just. standing there. WHAT IS HE SUPPOSED TO DO IN THIS SITUATION. mans is so emotionally repressed how is he supposed to comfort a crying man MUCH LESS ONE HAVING A PANIC ATTACK W A BROKEN HAND????? so he just. he grabs dream and hugs him. dream knows hes not a touchy guy hes quite the opposite actually, never touching someone unless he absolutely have to so george hugging him is just. a lot. dream hugs him back and balls the fabric of georges shirt in his fists and cries into georges shoulder while george just. there there and awkward pats his back and rubs circles in his hips bc hes literally like a half a foot shorter than him and eventually

dreams knees buckle or sumn idk and they end up just kneeling in the forest while dream pulls himself together and eventually he stops crying and the leave silently not mentioning anything of it until they get back to georges castle (far later than they shouldve) and george takes care of dreams hand 'sorry i broke down back there' 'its ok, ur under a lot of stress right now im more worried abt ur hand than anything else tho, worried that u might have caused some permanent damage to something' continuing to inspect his hand, dream pulls it back 'george no seriously thank u for looking after me back there. it was immature of me to react like that and did something reckless, i put us in danger by staying out past dark we couldve been mugged, or or i dunno we couldve been hurt, you couldve gotten hurt the people there dont exactly like you-' 'dream its fine, nothing happened so theres nothing to worry abt, again, i understand why youd react like that and im not mad at you, let me look at ur hand' (god the tension of when someone is patching someone up and neither of them are talking holy shit dude im !!!!!! yeah <3) dream lets him, turns out he did break something, nothing too important but it does scar pretty bad forever a bittersweet reminder

dnf royalty!au bc i am a weak weak man

GUYS IM SO SORRY FOR THIS ONE

royalty au where george and dream are royals in opposing kingdoms and george isssss like idk 27-29 and dream is 21-23 but george's dad died when he was likeeeee 16 or 17 so hes been king since then and dream is still prince in his own kingdom but his father is old but georges father and dreams father didnt get along when georges father was still alive and dreams father insists on carrying out the rivalry that they had even though george literally paid him to shut him up, theyve been at war for years, close to a decade, (both families squabbling for more. both families have had issues for generations) w georges kingdom not losing much but dreams losing men, money, food and other resources bc his dad was a selfish ruler. at some point famine takes over dreams kingdom and george offers the king enough food to feed his whole kingdom for the winter in exchange for the kings only heir and the end of the war ('i will give you enough food to feed your whole country for one winter if you remove all your men from the battlefields and leave your only heir under my care, promise me the end of your bloodlines rule and i will make sure you live through the winter') (dreams dad struggled w having kids so losing his only heir would be a big deal) dreams dad never let him leave the castle often so he doesnt fully understand the state of his country but he understands that this war has wrecked their country and theyre on the brink of collapse so he willingly goes w george (''''''willingly'''''' meaning he gave himself up despite his fathers protests w the plan of sneaking back somehow) so george provides food for dreams country and dream follows george and basically lives by his side at all times??? idk what role this would be called but ykkkkk basically dream follows him around as george just runs his country and hes a cold a mericless ruler making all the decisions needed to make his country profit but he always makes sure to ensure the benefit of his people the people always work together and hes built shelters for the homeless and makes sure theres open opportunities for trading w other kingdoms and plenty of farms/food so they never suffer from famine and implemented a strong education system so everyone has a chance to excel in something. dream doesnt know much abt his own country bc his tutors and family always implied that their country was the best based solely on how well the upper class citizens were doing while there was a high homelessness rate and such, so dream always assumed 'if we're doing well everyone else should be doing just as well right?' bc he never knew any better but george got him a reliable tutor (techno, who also happened to be a war general/soldier whos a tutor while hes not deployed) and has people teach him to fight/defend himself (punz and sapnap bc i said so) and teach him how to be a strong respected ruler without being selfish and bigoted. when he first arrived in georges country he expected to be locked up and even potentially tortured bc hes the son of a king and bloodline who this country has been fighting w for generations but the people dont mind, hes given a good room and treated like royalty BC HE IS george only took him to his country to ensure the ending of dreams bloodline, not to make him miserable. also i take it back george isnt a 'cold and mericless ruler' hes just distant at first but dream sees him w his people and hes smiley and nice and open and charismatic and everyone loves him AND HES CONFUSED hes v distant w dream, not necessarily cold or anything more jsut hesitant? if that makes sense he really has no reason to be but he is and only around dream but eventually george takes him travelling to the peaceful parts of the kingdom, tutors him personally on specific topics (busy man doesnt have time for tutoring him all the time LOL) and teaches him to properly rule a country while still having the respect of ur people and having them like you to the point of wanting to help the country progress and perform well. dream sees this and wonders why his father never did this and george goes

on to explain bc his father was a 'greedy and corrupt leader in all honesty, im shocked he raised a kid as honest as urself' and dream talks abt how well his dad treated him and such and how he lost his mom young and how his dad was all he had and he really only showed dream his good side and really did try his hardest to be there for dream his whole life despite being a relatively distant father and george FINALLY OPENS UP TO HIM ABT HIS CHILDHOOD AND HOW HIS MOTHER WAS ACTUALLY KILLED MY MERCENARIES SENT BY DREAMS DAD WHEN GEORGE WAS 9 OR SUMN AND LOST HIS DAD ATTTT IDK FUCKIN 16 (mind u george only started tutoring dream after like 6 months of having him bc,,, distant) and dream apologizes profusely but george shuts him down bc 'its not ur fault its ur fathers, i dont mean to beat the dead horse but ur father isnt the man he showed u he is, i lost both of my parents to him so i took the thing he cares about most to get a way of subtle revenge, if that makes sense, i dont have to kill you to make him hurt' or sumn and dream realizes that george Hurts he lost both of his parents AS A KID to HIS FATHER he was forced into the throne at 16 bc no one else was responsible enough to do so and has been running the most successful kingdom in the area for over a decade while fighting a war w one hand and building a powerhouse of a country w the other, he managed to become the most responsible ruler before the age of 25, he gave up his childhood for the sake of his country and it shows hes a composed man, never taking time for himself and working himself to the bone having to put of w dreams fathers selfishness since the day he was brought to the throne

'ur father demanded gold for something my father had 'owed him', so i gave him gold. he father demanded food to repay a debt he made up, so i gave him food to silence him. he demanded a war as revenge on my ancestors so i killed his men. i killed and i killed and i killed until ur country couldnt take one more death, until one more life lost would cripple ur country beyond repair and forced him to beg me for resources and in exchange i got you. the single thing the would never give up and yet u gave yourself up bc u knew it was what was bet for your country, your people. youre nothing like your father dream and im sad ill never get to see you rule your own country' and dream just buries his head in his hands and puts his head on the table and just 'god george im so sorry and b4 u say its not my fault i know its not my fault my oblivion to everything that was happening my whole life everything happening to you, lead to so much suffering if i had just' 'dream its not your fault-' 'i know! i know its not but if i had just known-' 'dream. ur father kept u from knowing so u couldnt see what he was doing. there was nothing u could do. dont blame urself for what ur father did. ur his son but ur not him. im a terrible judge of character but i can see that much.' and dream stands up and hugs him over the table (this is the first time theyve ever gone out the way to touch each other in any way ft. v v v v v v v v touchstarved george x physically affectionate dream) and dream buries his head in georges neck and says 'i know its not my fault but that doesnt mean i cant say sorry for those who wont' and george just sits there and eventually just awkwardly pats the back of dreams head and they never talk abt it again

[rhapsody-in-heaven]

the “perfect girl”

we met at a club.

i had about 8 shots that night. i wasnt drunk, and i didnt feel like i was doing stupid things or anything like that. but with that about of alcohol you couldnt have called me sober.

you danced pretty well. and with the amount of alcohol i had i blurted out “how do you move like that?!” maybe that surprised you, maybe that intrigued you either way we started dancing. at one point you started making out with me. at first it was fine. it was a night out and i was having fun at a club.

but then it got too aggressive, it happened to much and you came on too strong. but i never told you to stop. because im awkward. and i dont have much experience. and i just dont know how to say no once somethings already started. we were dancing for far too long too. my legs were killing me. and although it was fun at first, it got too long and i didnt feel like i was having fun anymore. and again, you were aggressive. eventually my legs couldnt take anymore and i needed to sit down I thought that that was a subtle hint that i was done. you came with me tho. I was sitting with my legs together  but you swung them apart, came really close and started stroking my crotch. id be lying if i told u i didnt feel uncomfortable. it was hot, i was tired, and i was sitting with my legs together for a reason. still i didnt know how to tell you no. and no, im not blaming you.  you didnt know, i shouldve said something. but i just didnt know how to tell you to stop. maybe you thought i was into it i dunno. i assumed what happens at the club stays at the club, so more or less i was fine. 2am rolled around. the club was closing. you asked if i wanted to go back to your place. I said i didnt think that was a good idea. you backed off. you asked for my facebook ohkay cool - why not? (looking back tho, i regret saying no not that you were a bad guy or anything, but i feel like i unintentionally led you on). and that was that. except it wasnt. you messaged a lot. and in those messages it actually seemed like you wanted to get to know me. that was - unexpected. you told me i was cute and pretty and that you couldnt get me outta your head. and i felt like you were into me. but again, im super inexperienced and i dont like to assume things. you were with me for less than an hour and i wasnt sober. and now i get this vibe that youre into me? very into me. there were times you asked to hang out  and trust me i thought about it. you seem like a fine person. but our schedules never really worked out. plus i felt like you were into me and didnt wanna lead you on. then came kosmic. you messaged me asking if i wanted to get a drink. i said sure. i was expecting to pay my own. but you did before i could get the money out. i didnt want you paying because  1. no ones ever done that unless they were a friend. 2. i didnt wanna feel obligated to stay with you because you did. we talked and chatted and u asked me why i never met up with you. if i just broke up with a boyfriend or had another boy or if u werent my type. “ahh” i thought “he is into me” i told you the truth - ive had two boyfriends ive know each of them at least 18 months before starting. truthfully even now i still dont really know what it was you wanted from me. was it a relationship? was it a fling? if you say youre “into me” i kinda get that i peaked your curiosity enough that you wanna know more about me. if you say you “liked” me, that’s where i have a problem. you know nothing about me. that girl you thought i am is not me. you hung out with me while i wasnt even sober for not even an hour. how can you tell me you like me. you say you can be yourself around me. that its so natural to just be you when your around me. i feel awkward right now i feel awkward anytime a guy ive just met is msging me a lot and chasing after me. thats the real me too. the me who goes crazy with her friends is the real me as well. the me who tries to keep it professional at work is me. and the me who cries herself to sleep is me too. im not trying to pretend to be someone im not around you. so yes i feel natural too  but my natural around you is not a comfortable natural. its awkward natural.

but you dont know that, you dont even know i feel awkward right now. you know nothing about me. you say that it doesnt matter? ohkay maybe for you it doesnt, but for me it does. we talk for a while. well kinda - its loud and to be honest i cant hear most of whats being said. not exactly the best place to have a conversation. you tell me i dont seem awkward like i said. if only you knew how awkward i felt.  this dream girl you have conjured up in your head. the one who you cant get out of your mind. Is. Not. Me. you’ve idealized me into your perfect girl. when the truth is you know NOTHING about me. want an example? you told me that when you go clubbing u usually dunt dance with girls. but you did with me because it felt so natural. i tell you that i dance with anyone i can - thats not to say a lot, thats just to say i dont mind dancing with strangers if its for a night of whole hearted fun. you tell me you didnt know that ....exactly my point. you say we could still have fun tonight. and you start making out with me, so aggressively that I feel like a doll. again, i dunt know how to tell you to stop. you stop for a while give me this shrug like youre done and go in again - and again - and again. “the way you kiss too!” you say. “youre always smiling so i dont wanna stop” I think to myself, im smiling?? riiight i smile when i feel awkward and dunno what to do. omg my personality itself is making him misunderstand.

because at that moment i felt so fucking uncomfortable. i felt like a doll, an object - and yet i still couldnt tell you to stop. im not blaming you, i should have told you, and i really need to learn how to say stop. but if you thought for one second i was enjoying it that just proves how much you dunt know me. it was fine at first, but after it wasnt. and the dancing that night? with you it was never fun. the alcohol in my stomach and the fact ur so aggressive. holding on to me so tight that i felt the need to throw up. and spinning me around so hard you spun me to the ground. yes i had alcohol and i wasnt exactly sober but i danced with others that night but i didnt exactly fall on my butt with them. see when i said i wanted to dance, i wanted to dance with my friends. how do i tell you that this was fun, but i wanna have fun with other people now. i didnt know how. anyways stomach was queezy u were holding onto me too tight. i needed to throw up. so i went to the washroom  it wasnt a lot - out and done with in 5 seconds. i came back out - you were there. i get some water, sit for a while and tell you that im heading back down to the dance floor. you lose me in the crowd. i get a message telling me that youre at the bar on the second floor. should i ever wanna come and “hang”.

ive been “hanging” with you for the last 90 mins.  i actually felt that was 70 mins too much. i ignore the msg. i have fun dancing with my friends. I regret not leaving after the first 20 mins because i felt like the night would have been so much more fun. youve met me twice in person both times i had a number of shots in my system you see how ridiculous you telling me you like me sounds to me?

you say you dont need to know me, im sorry, i gotta call bullshit on that.

how did you feel when you found out that i could dance with anyone? did u still feel like i was the one sent from heaven?

how was it when you started to realize i was right? that the person you like is not the girl sitting in front of you, but in fact does not exist?

ive said this before and ill say this again, even now, i have no idea what you wanted. was it a relationship? was it a fling? i dont know. but telling me you like me without knowing me and trying to get to know me more as a person is not that convincing after you asked me to go back to your place after that first night at the club. it wasnt the fact that i broke up with someone or that there was someone else it was the fact that i didnt know you and didnt know what youre intentions were. i dont mind flirting at a club  and having some dirty fun. as long as it stays there.

and thats what i was doing. i thought thats what you were doing too.

if youre trying to convince me otherwise maybe you shouldnt have made out with me maybe you shouldnt have played with my crotch maybe you shouldnt have asked me to go back to your place. even making out i get, touching my crotch is a step too far, and asking me to go back with you, just feels like youre looking for a one night stand. telling me im the girl you cant get out of your head, who you want to get to know on a more emotional level, is not convincing when you stroke my crotch and ask me to go back to your place an hour within meeting eachother without ever asking anything other than my name and my major. that “perfect girl” only exists in your mind. today you message me saying that you were thinking about what i said. why you found me attractive, because you didnt know me i danced with you for so long and that you love dancing. was there something more you were going to say? it seems like a half finished thought, and honestly im kinda curious. but its been a few hours and even though youre online, you havent replied. maybe if you do - ill be completely honest with you and tell you everything i talked about here (in summary of course) but you probably wont.