#so if it looks fcked up my bad lol

[akkivee]

who made you get into hypmic

“i opened “i locked it” “i threw away the door” the key”

[taegularities]

bro...

[youremyheaven]

Random Mini Astrology Observations: Vedic Edition

Warning: This is just a string of random thoughts lol, don't compare it to my best work on here. It's a bunch of stuff I've had in my drafts and I'm trying to clear it all out

Before I get into this, I just want to say, that whether my observations are positive or negative, it won't apply to every individual who has these placements. 8 billion people exist on this planet, and not everyone will exhibit the same good or bad qualities. I hate having to put this PSA because some people don't get it but yeah "not all Lunars/Venusians/Nodals/Solars/Jup/Sat are going to be the same".

Jupiter influenced men are known for being introverted cutie pies who kinda have that mature-dilf-y vibe.

Obviously, another category of Jupiter men are often loud, extroverted and very outgoing but I've noticed these placements heavilyyyy in celebrities "known" for being private and introverted. They are also often known for being generous and kind hearted.

Prabhas, Vishaka Stellium (Moon, Mercury and Venus)

He is known as "darling star" and brings food that he has prepared at home for everyone on set (he is an actor). He is known for being very shy and introverted but also super sweet, generous and kind.

Sidharth Malhotra, Vishaka Moon

Sid is known for being extremely lowkey which is RARE for a Bollywood actor. He's also quite gentlemanly and charitable

Ratan Tata, Vishaka Moon

He is an Indian billionaire entrepreneur who lives in a small 2bhk apartment and has donated most of his personal wealth to charity. He is known for having led his company in a very humane way (there are lots of controversies and im aware of them but compared to the work culture and quality of life that most other indian companies offer its employees, TATA is in a different league).

Keanu Reeves, Punarvasu Moon (and stellium)

i dont have to explain but Keanu is the king of kindness and generosity

Mads Mikkelsen, Vishaka Moon

unlike his characters, Mads is actually a sweet guy and very private

Adam Driver- Vishaka Sun

he's so private that nobody even knows he's married with a kid

Tom Hanks, Punarvasu Sun

known for being a gentleman and quite modest. the OG nice guy and obviously very private

Ethan Hawke, Vishaka Sun

another lowkey, private guy who is known for being nice

2. Rashmika Mandanna and Surbhi Jyoti, Swati Moon

I find their eye area to be kinda similar?? I know they don't look alike but there are some overarching similarities between them and I think its bc they have the same moon nak.

3. I came across a comment that Akshay Kumar made about Asin and her CEO husband Rahul Sharma.

“He is madly in love with his wife, his child. It’s like he treats her like a goddess.

and guess what?? Rahul is a Purvashadha Sun 🥺😌😌

4. Ashwini natives often have post-apocalyptic dreams

Since its the first nak and is ruled by Ketu and is in complete darkness, symbolically representing the stage before creation (which happens in Bharani), the subconscious mind is susceptible to having really strange, fcked up, war-like dreams/visions. Also bc Aries rashi is ruled by Mars, God of War.

5. every Venusian man I know kinda has a voice kink

6. Many Punarvasus crave for a simple, rustic, relaxed type of life. In fact many famous Punarvasus live on a farm

Kaley Cuoco- Punarvasu Moon

Bretman Rock - Punarvasu Sun

MS Dhoni- Punarvasu Sun

Dennis Quaid, Punarvasu Moon on his ranch

7. Jupiter and Venus are 'Brahmins' or priestly, the Sun and Mars are 'Kshatriyas' or warriors, the Moon is 'Vaishya', or a trader, Mercury is a 'Vaisya', Saturn 'Shudra', or a lower caste and Rahu and Ketu are outcastes.

This is not an observation but just an astrological fact that I thought I'd mention

8. Magha girls are often the spoilt daughters or come from very bougie families where they're the princesses. They might emotionally suffer but materially and otherwise, they're very comfortable

Shruti Hassan- Magha Moon

she has spoken about how rough her childhood was bc of her parents' tumultuous marriage and subsequent divorce but that doesn't change the fact that she's the daughter of Kamal Hassan, one of the biggest stars in the history of Indian cinema

Kiara Advani- Magha Moon

Kiara is from a very wealthy and illustrious family, and she grew up as a much loved, spoilt ish daughter<3

Wonyoung- Magha Sun

Wonyoung is from a filthy rich family and she has said that she grew up very pampered. And that she didn't have an allowance bc whatever she asked for she got. However she became a trainee at 12yrs of age and that journey could not have been easy. Despite being born rich, she's had to go through a lot in life to be where she is today

Aditi Rao Hydari- Magha Moon

she's of actual royal lineage so she's a real life princess but her parents divorced when she was a kid and she grew up with a single mom in delhi and not in a palace

9. DMX- Mula Sun (dog yoni) was obsessed with dogs

The late rapper DMX's relationship with dogs, which seems almost mythical. He was born in 1970 - the year of the Metal Dog, and in his teens he ran away from his abusive household and befriended stray dogs while vulnerable on the streets. He began to gather dogs for protection, intimidation and family, and was sent to prison for stealing a dog (a neglected dog chained up in a scrapyard). In prison, he wrote a lot of his early songs, in which he came up with his "dog" mythology, in which he imagines himself as a monstrous dog-themed gangster who barks and howls. He had a huge tattoo of his favourite dog Boomer on his back. In 2008, his 12 dogs were taken from him by cops after there were reports of animal cruelty - DMX had paid a negligent caretaker to look after the dogs while he was on tour. (The dogs lived out the rest of their lives as therapy animals in a women's prison)

I think its interesting how our yoni animal influences our life

10. As Vighati graha, male planets are: Sun, Mars, Jupiter, Rahu; female planets are: Moon, Venus, Ketu whilst two eunuch planets are Mercury and Saturn. All the standard rules for determination of the sex of the child are applicable, female signs are: Taurus, Gemini, Virgo, Scorpio, Capricorn and Aquarius; male signs are: Aries, Cancer, Leo, Libra, Sagittarius and Pisces. Exalted planets indicate male issue and debilitated planets indicate female.

11. Mercurial men and Jupiter men are soooo flamboyant, sassy and gender non-conforming

RuPaul- Vishaka Sun & Moon

Elton John- Jyeshta Rising

Jeff Goldblum- Jyeshta Moon

Prince- Vishaka Rising

Jimi Hendrix- Mars in Vishaka atmakaraka

[skyartworkzzz]

Because you said you love rambeling about lore and you are looking for excuses to talk about it redeem this cupon for one free lore ramble, any topic

OH YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT U JUST DONE

SIT BACK AND RELAX CUZ THE GOATS UNIVERSE HAS BEEN IN MY MIND THE WHOLE WEEK + SOME HEKET RAMBLING Cuz I got her a partner idea hehehe <3

LONG RAMBLING UNDER THE CUT!!! (btw bless chu I appreciate u <3 )

ABOUT CULT OF THE GOAT AU:

About the Purple Crown: Ive been seeing a lot of interpretations of Goat's Crown going around and honestly Id like to put in my cents: I dont think the Crown being purple changes who the owner was, because the eye shape is still the same as Lamb's Which brings me to think that, just like how in COTL everything seems to be colored after warmer/reddish colors, everything in Goat's universe must be following cooler/purpleish palettes What does that mean to me? That ALL the other Crowns are of different colors as well, maybe a colder one compared to their original ones

Im still thinking about what each of them would be here but so far I like to think that Yellow -> Ocean green?? Green -> Blue Blue -> dark pink? Purple -> Cyan/White

I think the Crown shapes would still be the same + what each Bishop's domain would be as well

About Aym and Baal: They were never offered to Narinder. Shamura didnt have that compassion. They were so mad at their brother that they couldnt bring themselves to consider his feelings for being banished. Neither did any of the other siblings, for they wouldve been too busy fighting off Old Gods and hunting for empowerment

So where are Aym and Baal? Theyre alive! With Forneus! And both of them are lil jerks as much as their mother Taught to steal, lie and fight, all in order to survive no matter what. The twins have already expressed wanting to go out and explore the world, but Forneus refuses to let her kids go, much for her own selfish reasons of them being the only things that make her happy in this fcked up world AND because, of course, she loves them. She knows how cruel the world has turned into, she does not want to lose them Aym and Baal never met Narinder, and Narinder never met them Maybe eventually, while Goat is out in a crusade, they shall cross paths........as enemies

About the Purgatory: This is still smtng I am speculating about, but what I have so far: instead of it being MS to tell the Goat to free the Bishops from their deserved-suffering, itd be them asking the deity if such thing was possible, because Narinder wouldve been feeling bad about it He believes that his siblings could change over time, especially now that the Crowns were relinquished by the Goats power, and so they are allowed to have that chance This would unlock many scenarios of the Bishops actively trying to take over the cult, run away or kill the Goat + their followers. It is smtng Ill let cook for a while more

IF ANYTHING Id just- leave them dead lol they wouldnt be redeemable in this world (BUT BECAUSE I LOVE MY SKRUNKLIES EQUALLY ILL TRY TO MAKE IT WORK-)

ABOUT HEKET: Ehehehe I accidentally started shipping her with my follower OC Astrid so we'll see how it goes

Astrid is someone who keeps to herself for the sake of others; she is not used to opening up and oftentimes believes her pain is not worth of complains compared to others she is caring for However, she is very much talkative, maybe as a way to make her forget her problems Whilst Heket she- well. She cant. Talk much it hurts like hell UASHDNJASMDK

SO WE HAVE A TALKATIVE BUBBLY GF WITh her mostly quiet butch wife that shes constantly having to change the bandages of <3

I have a dialogue set up for them which I shall get to drawing a comic for as soon as I am done with thIS CURRENT COMIC-

ANYWAYS thats the ramblings for now, HOPE YALL LIKE THE IDEAS bless u again for givng me a free pass made me rlly happy MWEHE,,!! 💜💜💜

[rorah]

Do you have any thoughts on Claude’s route in 3hopes? Your analysis of Dimitri’s run was so awesome and I share similar criticisms. I’m personally not a fan of Claude’s characterization in 3hopes, and I’m a diehard Claude fan lol, so I’d love to hear your thoughts (positive or negative! your rant was just really well written and interesting!) have a good day/night :-)

My thoughts on Claude? Sure.

Well I have to be honest and start with the fact that I still haven't finished his route lol rip but I've been spoiled enough to know that this is the route where most of the characters/deers seem a little to too much OOC (for what I have read. Tbh I can't be sure about ALL DEERS but Claude is mostly the point here). And I am a defender of "characters in Hopes are still substantially the same as the one presented in Houses" argument, just different circumstances bring different outcomes. But also seems like the writers in charge of giving nuance to the characters don't know how to do it properly without taking some neurons and mental capabilities away from said characters, aka: make them look dumb.

GW and SB are the routes where I am hesitant to look for arguments that can backup such outcome or it's just a matter of "the devs forgot about that part in the original game" issue, as it's planted in some interview that I don't have the source at hand, sadly.

But I am quite convinced of one thing. Hopes is presenting us the opposite resolution of Houses with a subtlety masked by sweet fanservice (just a certain percent of fans, I must say). What I mean by that is, Cloud in Houses is the one discovering the truth behind the mystery of Fodlan and kills Nemesis for some reason at the end of his route. And in Hopes, he is the most notable affected by this change by not discovering much about Agarthans and also kills Serios instead of Nemesis at the end of his route.

In Azure Gleam Dimitri gets his revenge and that does nothing for his personal journey. Actually, it's the opposite because he learned in houses that revenge will get him nothing but more collateral damage.

In Scarlet Blaze well… I am not entirely sure tbh.

Back to Claude. I think the main problem with his characterization is that it was not quite clear what type of person he is. I remember doing his route with the idea that he was the most relaxed, "meme" fun lord, and all positive of the three because the fandom painted him as such, and I feel utterly confused and betrayed because that wasn't what I perceived of him in his route. He has a little arc about open up and trusting others, while getting rid of his own prejudices about the lands he isn't well versed. But that's in houses. In Hopes, that part of his character is taken away because once again: No Byleth.

Let me remark that I haven't played his full route yet, so take what I say with a grain of salt. So tl;dr, we can say that his characterization in Hopes is bad because it was meant to be bad. You can see it as a mirror universe without the person who functions as guidance. And once again that brings us to another conflict when we recruit Byleth, but that's another issue to tackle on its own separately because it has tints of "devs fcked up and ran out of time/resources to properly do anything with it or give coherent resolution" issues. --- Edited because I accidentally type Azure Moon instead of Gleam lol But anyway, Claude fans, let me know your personal interpretation of Claude ~

[elevenharbor]

Nezuko WIP: a process

started out like this. Don’t mind the lines and such. Tried to erase as much of it as possible.

then gave her a body and a hand (jfc I labored…still labor…over anatomy, mainly hands. Hands will forever be the bane of my art existence.) Also gave her boobies because she is in her demon form, after all. Not sexualizing her, it just be facts. Anyway…

minor shading here and there (I’m so used to shading from the get-go. It’s bad.)

Started the lineart. Don’t have a manga pen or whatever legit artists use so it’s the Pilot G-tec in 0.4mm & 0.3mm for me. I fcked up in some spots already 😅

Keeping the finer details/shading as a placeholder for now. I have to figure out color combos with colored pencils because unlike digital art, I unfortunately can’t undo/erase/add layers 😢 so if I mess up, it’s staying.

Made a mini swatch on the other side of the page & tested them on her arm bc who cares abut the arm lol….and because see note above. I have 370 colored pencils in my arsenal (Crayola, Faber-Castell & Prismacolor) so it took a while to sort through colors. They definitely don’t present the same way on paper!

Looks like the “sweet spot” for the skin base is a mix of peach and beige (Prisma). I hope I’m right 🤞

I started shading because I have issues.

I used like…6 different pencils to get the base shading on her body. I am a fiend for blending so cotton buds are my besties rn. I’m gonna go over it again and shade things darker once I’ve laid down the base colors on everything. I’m a visual person and need to see everything laid out first. Idk I’m weird, ok?

also…maybe it’s just me, but she looks an awful lot like Daki here…🥴👀

…and this is where I’m leaving off because I need to go to sleep. I’m working three night shifts in a row starting tonight so I’ll pick this up when I’m less dead, I guess.

I’ll post the rest of the process next time! Until then, toodles!

[kuramirocket]

Okay, so I finally watched Across The Spiderverse and I have at least 2 hot takes that will get me hated and cancelled, probably lol.

The first one is that I really disliked the animation for this movie. Idk, about everyone else, but I felt the animation was too fast paced, colorful, weird and confusing. It was pretty eye straining which I did not like at all. That and coupled with the characters talking really rapidly, it didn't mix well with the animation at all, if you ask me. Anyone else feel the eyestrain was real for this film?

Anyways, for this film I was most excited about Miguel O'Hara because half Mexican! I was hoping for, but from the trailers, honestly not holding my breath for some good representation. Because of this I'm weary of the film and where the sequel will head.

Like it's really great to see more Mexican characters, but I feel that this itself is the problem. It seems like Miguel is written in a way to be a morally grey character and in a way that he will be seen as a villain by the majority of the viewers. Now, I haven't really looked at the fandom because of spoilers, but from the little I I've seen, it's either you hate him because of his behavior and views or you you love him because he's hot. At least, these seem to be the two extremes. Now, as an indigenous Mexican myself, I hate how Mexican characters are portrayed stereotypically in films and/or are only shoved into grey areas/antagonistic roles. It's very tiring to see. Atsv has great Afro Latino representation, sure, but with Miguel it feels really iffy to me. Idk. Miguel just seems to have this negative air to him and not just because of the loss and pain he's lived through and experiences that has led him to behave the way he does and see the world as he sees it. I just don't want more Mexican characters who are 'mean,' or seen as villains, or just portrayed as being wrong, you know.

This is why I'm very weary of the sequel and not holding my breath either like I said.

Looking at how Gwen's father renounced from the police force, I imagine this means it's likely he won't die because he's no longer Captain. So, it seems that this is foreshadowing and indication that in the next movie, Miles will prove Miguel wrong that things aren't set in stone - and his dad will not die and he will save him. I feel like this is pretty tropey and I honestly hope this isn't the case. Don't get me wrong. I do love the messages and themes of saying fck you to fate and making your own destiny and changing things for the better and forging your own destiny, BUT for this franchise; I actually want to see the morally grey character who is seen as a villain and wrong by the viewers and who is cold because of his experiences to actually be right about things no matter how fcked up and tragic it is. Like give me THIS plot twist for once. Let Miguel be right. Lol. Though, I doubt this will happen and will be too dark.

Also, don't get me wrong (again) there's nothing wrong with morally grey characters and this does bring a lot of great complexity to them (which a lot of people don't understand or still dislike and hate them either way which isn't bad per say, people are entitled to their opinions) but again, shoving Mexican characters into morally grey areas [sacrificing one life for the many - and really all the cruel things Miguel said to Miles despite his anger stemming from his experiences and wanting to save the multiverse from collapsing and what not], shoving Mexican characters into villain/antagonistic roles (looking at Black Panther's Namor), is again, tiring to see so many times happens (e.g. especially with the stereotypical drug dealer/criminal roles that just happen again and again). Idk if this makes sense? I really hope it does because this topic of the portrayal of Mexican characters is really important to me.

And honestly me and other Mexicans shouldn't have to settle for any fictional Mexican characters we can get.

I'm not saying the writers are bad people or with malicious intent or anything, but again Miguel's characterization just comes across as iffy to me especially since he serves as representation to me, to Mexicans.

Idk. Thoughts?

[egg-emperor]

So, some of the people that judged you badly actually posted some form of similar Eggman content. Sounds like they only want to have the right about it I don't know how to explain this. Like it"s ok for them because they may see theirself as righteous or morally good I don't know so if it's from them it's ok no worries it's all love and peace but if it's from you or someone else it's not because you and others wrote something they don't like and that makes you the 'bad' guys and since they are the good ones they have to stop you regardless of the methods used because hey, they are the good ones they can't be wrong even if they truly did fcked up stuff to you right? Seriously, what the hell?

That sh"t is scary and you're actually right for calling out their behaviour, especially for all the things they did to you and spreading false things so others sided with them, making things worse than what they already were.

Who started that I don't know but no wonder they are full bullies and more.

Yeah it's just hypocrisy. Because while failing to tag something correctly is an issue like I have but always make sure to fix, some act like all my darker creations are wrong for me to make at all, despite having themes just as dark in their works.

I'll respect privacy but a few years ago there was an AU focused Sonic imprisoned in Forces and the tortuous abuse from Eggman. I was interested as someone who explores the concept too. But people tried to call this out and accuse the creators of all kinds of horrible things, just like what happened to me.

One main contributor is with the group that take issue with me and blocked me because of my take on Eggdad and possibly my staregg/eggline concept too. The other person I mentioned who is also involved with them, also blocked me after I interacted with their post where Metal bloodied up Sonic, which is ironic.

And another person in the circle drew "problematic content" years ago that I won't detail but some tried to bring it back and make accusations too. Like me, they even said they didn't like when people caused drama behind their back but proceeded to do the same as they contributed to the spread of the worst accusations I've gotten.

In both times people in that circle were called out, I defended their right to create/how it doesn't represent them as a person. They're not obligated to defend me but all I wanna know is if they can depict an actual 15 year old being abused or attacked with gore, why am I a bad guy for writing ageless AI Sage being manipulated by Eggman and a darker staregg/eggline concept?

The more I reflect on how hypocritical it is, the better I feel. Because I feel like some may only be taking issue with what I create as a reason to hate on me for other things about me that they don't like, or they're just against me because others say they should be and they want to avoid drama like before happening to them again.

A lot of them also seem to express moral righteousness too, so it's confusing and a bit concerning that they're okay with some things but not with others, and punish the others even if what they're okay with can be on the same level as or even worse. I just wish they hadn't fallen into this purity and call out culture and reflect on how we've actually been in the same boat.

And it's very sad for me not just for the horrible things I've been accused of but also because of how I looked up to these creators. Now I can't look at certain art on my blog I reblogged or the IDW cover without sadness and anxiety remembering what they did that hurt me.

But at least now I know to just stay in my little corner doing my own thing because these fandom cliques aren't worth the time when stuff like this happens lol

[akkivee]

apparently hitoya’s traumatised kuukou and jyushi playing spraycan with them based on how they dipped when he asked if they wanted to play with him and that’s so funny to me lmao since i’m pretty sure kuukou and jyushi coerced hitoya into playing arcade games with them in one of their anniversary sets 😭😭😭

[ineedtherapist]

can i have grandpa caesar hcs? (basically he lived until part 3 and how he bonds with reader and the crusaders)

eyyyoooo I survived another week

let's gooo fellasss

CAESAR CONTENT YES YES YES YES

p/s: I run out of ideas lmaoo

there's so many things and concepts I want to talk about lol but take this kinda crap all over the place writing of mine and

please enjoy <3 :-

Old!Cae sdc hcs + reader

"Why? Ofc I'll be glad to help you, [ ]. Lead the way, caro/cara."

Part 3 Caesar is the sweetest and calmest member in the crusaders yet one of the scariest once he gets serious

The crusaders respect him more than joseph as a mentor, a friend and a father figure.

He bicker with oldseph all the time and also wins it all the time.

Oldcaeseph carry dumbass chaotic energy with caesar thinking he's actually the matured and reliable one when in reality he's not

Their fights end up to be childish as hell, the longer the fight goes on

call names and pick at each other is a love language for them

Talk about his past as much as Joseph do and always put freakingly helpful amazing advice in his story telling which is 35% more useful than Joseph. Also since you don't have to filter Caesar's words with endless sheetty puns and dad jokes.

kak sees him as an ideal adult figure and strive to be like him, ofc with his own identity and spark. Both Avdol and Polnareff seek advice from him when it comes to things they don't trust Joseph with. Not that kind of trust tho. Something along the line of "I don't think he can help me with it" type of things. Actually manage to make Joot open up. Not much but enough to let the guy take a break.

Is absolute softie for the reader. No one knows why but he get protective and try to keep bad influence joseph away from them.

Help reader with things they need and try to be there for them as much as he can.

Sassy oldcae is canon and you can't change my mind ppl

Absolutely picky bout his appearance/ how he present himself and get extremely dissapointed if any of the crusaders doesn't put any effort in theirs. He doesn't ask them to be supermodel or the likes. Just look neat and clean, that in itself is enough.

Extremely fab taste in fashion.

He and Joseph is the ultimate combo and they look cool asf fighting together side by side. Have better control in his power, stand and their usage than Joseph.

He fight as a support most of the time.

Honestly, after the fight with wamuu he just isn't the same anymore. His stamina and physical abilities are totally fcked. His face and body are covered with scars. He used to be fine with it even brag bout it to Joseph but now he's older he get sensitive bout this topic and not even Joseph mention bout it anymore until he brings it up himself. took a while ngl

Dilf.

His intuition isn't as good and he forget things. This piss him to no end.

Frequently get cranky on the smallest things at the most random time.

Not the one to complain bout food when he's young unless it's straight out of the trash can but this changes when he get older and he won't eat anything that doesn't suit his taste.

End up cooking his own dish most of the time.

He and Avdol are cooking partners and they exchange recipes, tips and such during their time together.

Listen. This guys is still flirty asf and a literal woman magnet. He talk smooth and play smooth.

Listen to ppl problems, know how to read the rooms and again, give extremely good advice.

Kak's gossip buddy. Both of them talk bout so many things from celebrity to tv shows to fashion to gaming and the list keep on going.

Have better temper and doesn't rush decisions especially the important ones. Still refuse to accept things that oppose his beliefs and standing but will listen to the said person points first before saying or doing anything.

Reader have daddy issues.

[yeo-rims]

anyways, i’m rewatching OSN (i only skip through the scenes with the fathers) and I got to that point, in ep 8, in which ji ho is visiting the library with his son and jeong in had just told her (ex) FIL that she doesn’t want to get married and she’s back at the library when gi seok calls her. this whole scene destroyed me the first time watching it, and it did the same thing now. i don’t remember if ive noticed it the first time watching it, but the first thing that got my attention this episode is that i thought gi seok looked pretty (no shade to kjh i think he is very attractive, not the character tho). and then i realized it was one of the few moments he’s wearing casual clothes, most of the time he is so serious at work or playing basketball, but this one time he looks so normal and so approachable it breaks my heart. because it’s at this point he decides on a new approach, I think. when he calls jeong in and decides to see her at work, she even tells her coworker he sounds sweet, and I know part of him doesn’t want to lose jeong in for his ego, but also I think this is one of the few moments he’s being genuine. I guess it only took his father’s approval for him to get there...lol 

ok but then jeong in panics, tells ji ho to leave using another exit and he is rightfully mad, she ignored his son, she is telling them to leave like they did something bad (when ji ho was being considerate and going there on her day off), anyways, he tells her off, she is devastated, then eun u gives her some stickers and that breaks her completely. then, leaving the library gi seok sees ji ho and eun u, he is still an ass, but he gives eun u money and GOD i hate that so much because this is the one time I don’t think he is doing this to belittle ji ho. and ji ho can’t say no, so he accepts the money and eun u is so happy they’re going to eat something good. by the moment gi seok gets to jeong in, tho, she has nothing to say to him but apologize and ran after ji ho, realizing how badly she fcked up and how much they mean to her. and gi seok knows, instantly, to whom she’s running towards, but he chases her regardless and we see that ji ho was waiting! for jeong in, but he eventually leaves. and he is so sad that she didn't chase after him (except she did) and jeong in is so sad that she let him go and made things worse and gi seok is finally putting all together and he can’t even talk to jeong in or look at her. and even if this will become a win for the couple later on, because they’re finally accepting that they can’t be apart, it is such a heartbreaking scene for everyone and even if gi seok is just the most pathetic little man, i can’t help but feel so sorry for him. like the one time he is vulnerable! 

anyways anyways anyways this show is genius 

[13thdoodle]

can you explain to me the levi au? i read the original post and i still don't get it

Okay so this is the post about Levi's origin but to summarize

Levi(athan) is an OC of mine who is the Ancient of Heroes (like how Clockwork is the Ancient of Time) and was the First Ghost King.

But he didn't like being the king like at all, so at some point he appointed the next King (my partner's OC Auberon ) and then he jsut left, hiding away at the edge of the ghost zone realm so no one can bother him there

He only come out of isolation just once to help kicking Pariah's ass to the sarcophagus and then peace out again

--

the AU kinda starts off with Danny finding out he looks like the first Ghost King and later on just.. accidentally found said guy just hanging around in middle of no where fighting monsters or sth

it's basically just grabbing this short feral man by the scruff and get him to meet and talk to ppl again

--

so when I refer to og!Levi, I meant this version of Levi, the I-haven't-talk-to-ppl-for-thousands-of-years-and-also-am-absolutely-a-feral kind of Levi

there's a reason for him going that far for isolation and I'm gonna explain it under cut bc it is long

So, I have drew this for angst week but in case it's hard read

Levi in this AU, his og AU, actually had lived through this timeline twice. On the first run, he was way more brass and way way more impulsive.

And he didn't really know how to properly do a King's job? so instead of getting help with the whole ruling thing, he took on everything on himself and it weigh him down really bad

I mean that's what heroes do, helping others by taking the burnt of it on themselves. and yes, Levi have a bad case of Saviour/Hero Complex because he literally was made from one akjsdnkajsd

oh yeah, in my AU, I hc that Ancients are made of concepts or stories ppl made. kind of like gods and such, stories and concepts given form. Levi is made from stories of heroes, ones who saved people and protecting others

so that's what he do, thats what his core is

which clashes with being a King all about, because when you're a King, esp on times of chaos n war, you WILL have to make sacrifices. And it cannot be yourself, bc ppl would still need you to lead them. And that fucks him up, because the whole thing with Heroes complexs are sacrificing themselves to make sure everyone else is safe

so he took everything on his own, stretched himself thin, and eventually got caught off guard n he failed to safe a town/village. It was literally destroyed right in front of him n that just broke him

he asked Chronos (the first timeline's Clockwork) to turn back time so he can fix this n Chronos refused bc duh its bad. .....so Levi tried to turn back time himself

But the problem with that is, time magic.. requires compatible magic user to use them. And Levi, who is very much not a time ghost, cannot use it. But he IS a very VERY strong ghost, so he brute force it, and basically broke the timeline all together

Chronos got there in time (lol) and tried to fix/sealed it, but it drains all his power, but before that, he sent Levi back in time to prevent this from happening in the first place

So here's Levi, back in time, to when he was supposed to meet Chronos the first time. But Chronos never showed up, bc he lost all power and essentially died, and have to reform again, to the one we now know as Clockwork.

And now Levi get to live through this timeline knowing what will happen in the future and can react accordingly. But it also made him a bit more distant? Keeping everyone's at arm length bc he is way older and more tired than he was the first time.

like if u know whats going to happen it'll be a bit harder to get super invested into what is going on basically?

So he's now keeping ppl at distance and doesnt really bothers as much to befriend ppl anymore bc what if he fcked up n got em killed again?

and then time goes on and he crowned Auberon and then he leave for good

So, there's Levi.. who haven't had.. or tried to make any meaningful relationship since (he did make frens but he left all of em behind so) and now are being dragged kicking n screaming to socialize agian lmao

[elan-and-dragonboy]

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[metabolizemotions]

I know exactly how you feel, is the first time I’m not looking forward to watching the episode, haven’t watch it yet, i feel like DS video about “some” disrespectful messages was very manipulative and aimed to silence mostly the queer community and their very very valid opinions.

I honestly haven’t seen any disrespectful or hateful takes, only constructive criticism.

Obviously it was a PR move, let the most beloved characters address the issue and make it looks like there are only offensive ppl out there, I do believe some ppl crosses the line and I believe it may be hurtful especially for Danielle, that is usually very open to fans also about her private life, so people need to chill for sure, but this happens to every fandom.

But I feel cheated, also by the writers, not only about their inconsistency but also their disgusting choice for a donor, the way they delivered this story, a lot of nonsense, misrepresentation, insulting jokes and so on…

We know Jack ain’t gonna be only the “fun uncle” they prob gonna insert him in every aspect of Marina and the baby life, they are prob gonna give them a boy so they’ll have to ask uncle Jack for advice (no thank you🤢) or even worst help Carina during pregnancy and the birth of the baby, basically taking control and space on Marina relationships, thing that is already happening.

Here we are again Jack hijacking relationship, the most boring and annoying character that apparently can have his on story or growth…

The things that I find most annoying and hurtful are:

-The fact that apparently is bad for Maya to be a firefighter and be scared to leave Carina and the baby alone but for Jack to be one is totally fine

-The fact that Jack fcked every women he knows all while they were in a relationship or superior at work, this is not a good guy, he use women weakness to get laid, he has no morals, no balls, he wants to be neede no matter want, never say no never apologize.

-Jack has no medical history, suddenly Dr. DeLuca doesn’t care about it, right!!!

-They didn’t even talk about other options they went straight (lol) to Jack just because of Drama effect, trying from the beginning of season 5 to make him look like a hero, Carina best friend, her confident, and they forced their awkward friendship on us (Grey acting is very questionable and for me it ruins the scenes)

-Jack sperm has more screen time and character development of Marina, Jack has more screen time with Carina than Maya

-They are forcing and manipulating us to like him and use shared childhood trauma with Carina to do so..this is to me also offensive toward real life victims as myself, using this powerful and triggering storyline to push them as friends.

It’s offensive in so many way but I’ll stop here

Now suddenly after Danielle Video and continuous tweets about Carina and Jack friendship and love, people seems ok accepting this storyline, PR of Station19 has won, and achieved exactly what hat they wanted, guilt tripping us, and make sure to shut us up, we can’t say anything gay apparently.

It feels like I lost something and I have this sadness towards the way these people think they are actually doing good representation while is actually very triggered and hurtful

I don’t know, for me S19 is over no even Marina crumbs will help, also I know they are gonna keep inserting men in every women storyline and they finally made a cheater and break upper of queer women the good guy…

I still think it’s disgusting no matter what the say or do.

If ppl can still find joy on S19, I’m happy for them, but this bitter taste of manipulation bullying and nasty jokes about women relationships will never go away!

I’ll step away for my mental health, but hopefully for your guys they won’t do any more disrespectful storyline related to Marina

Take care, sending you lots of love!

I am deeply sorry for the trauma you had experienced and that you were triggered by this episode. Yes, please do put your mental health above all else. I hope you find something else that resonates with you that brings you joy and comfort. After my post, I have received many kind and lovely messages, some in private. I’m glad for this community. It also facilitated this exchange, however brief. Thank you for dropping this message. Thank you for your kind words. I wish you nothing but the best. Do take care too! 

I saw that a handful of us were still upset and wanted to put a message out so we could commiserate with each other - to mourn what seemed like the ending of a beloved story and/or characters. Everyone engages with media differently. There is no shame in feeling too much. Or to feel whatever you feel. I was just rambling out loud as I let my dark, emo & dramatic side take over. To feel fully. Then perhaps it’s easier to let go. Then my lighter, rational twin can see it with detachment.   

It does not matter - it is fiction, drama, entertainment. There are other more important things in life. It also matters a lot. If you love it a lot. If it strikes a chord. It is also onscreen representation of real people. Pop culture informs and shifts perception cos we only have one set of experiences lived thru one set of eyes. 

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Everyone wants to be seen. 

DS wants to bring the story of her beautiful act of love to screen. She wants to spread the idea of the possibility of a different kind of family. She wants to do so thru’ the character she is passionately playing. 

But the writers’ adaptation was built on a faulty premise. They took a realistic experience and forced it into an unrealistic fictional frame. Also, the chemistry of DS & SS translates very well onto Marina. (I think they wanted to bank on their popularity to pull this off - w/o DS & SS, many probably wouldn’t have started watching or would have abandoned the show long ago.) But with GD, their camaraderie does not translate well to their character dynamics.

Whether the writers were queer was less important than if they were masterful and respectful. Even if they must make a choice they knew wouldn’t go well with the very people they were trying to represent, the least they could do was to do it respectfully. Instead, they made light of the whole situation - using cheap humour to cover up plot inadequacies. 

Without a solid foundation of congruent story flow and properly resolved plots, they cobbled together bits and pieces that didn’t fit. To me, it felt disingenuous to quickly address the cheating plot with an apology and dropped a few lines after a time jump, only to bring it back up clumsily in service of the donor plot - and in the process destroying the integrity of the characters.

They knowingly made the donor choice to maximise drama potential. The damage control seemed to be built into the season & episode structures and schedule of release of bts material. They might not have fully comprehended the repercussions before airing and things got out of hand (though the social media blow up could very well be part of the plan). 

The reasonable majority of fans expressing legitimate concerns respectfully was dismissed, and felt their lived experiences invalidated. The minority who was very invested felt deeply offended and chose to express their thoughts rudely, crossing a line. The ones involved in the storytelling felt their intentions and efforts unappreciated and unjustly criticised. 

Failure of communication. Nobody was listening. Hurt feelings all around. 

“Assume incompetence not malice” - I think applying this to the situation makes me feel better. Good intentions, bad outcomes. 

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At the end of the day, ABC is an entertainment company, with viewership as its bottomline. One can give it credit for its efforts at representation. We can see the diversity in casting and telling of stories of different races, genders, sexual orientations etc. 

But within these bolder choices, we do still see stereotypes and the cycling of overused tropes. Nuances are very often lost too, especially in attempts to maximise drama.

We’ve come a long way; but we still have a long way to go. Perhaps in future, such tropes will be seen more universally as distasteful and absurd.   

[kuraiyukisworld]

Dying for the back story and flashbacks...

This young Ainosuke with bangs and white uniform, looking like a silent-type of star student would probably be my type if I didn't know he would be that fcked-up Adam in the future...

And Kojiro looking like a normal nice kid who's still not into muscles together with the yankee-ish Kaoru with brushed up bangs, piercings and all (maybe he even got tattoos.. Lol), omfg..who would have thought they're like this in high school?... MORE OF THEIR BACK STORY, PUHLEASEE!!

*hands over a love letter*

SAKURAYASHIKI-SAN, I LIKE YOU! PLEASE GO OUT WITH ME!

And Tadashi, the secretary. Omg. Why is he being so submissive to Ainosuke? I really feel bad for him and it makes me hate Ainosuke more. Well.. We probably got a clue based on these scenes but...

Yeah. He's probably got a fcked up childhood and life cos of his dad so he developed this sort of alter-ego, ADAM but still.. I REALLY HATE ADAM.

[ellelans]

1.10.2020

So let’s do an update on this lovely October day.It’s been over a month since Tumblr deleted my old blog (ellelan) and tbh at this point I gave up on hoping they’ll explain themselves and restore it. During the last month the only time they got back to me were 11 automated notifications to inform me that some posts were unflagged on my old terminated account and they are sorry and I just couldn’t help but laugh at that.I knew that Support here is incompetent at best,but this is just absurd.Other than that? Nothing.Contacting staff was useless and they never replied to any of my emails or acknowledged that they fcked up in any way.

I think it’s safe to say that even if they’ll restore the old blog one day I will probably remain here and use the old ellelan as archive.We’ll see I guess?I have to be honest and say I am bitter af about all of this,BUT I am moving on because screw them and their purist algorithm.So things are ok,terminated account is not the end of the world of course and hey it’s not new to anyone that this platform is ridiculously bad at managing their own userbase.This is just a reminder HOW BAD lol.

Meanwhile my BS edits are feeling fine in @ellelans-graphics and my 911 edits can be found here (there will be a lot more of them in future) or just look them up under ‘ellelan’s graphics’ and ‘elle’s 911 edits’ tags on this blog if link won’t open up on app. @dailyjamesflint is still at full queue of old and new Flint content and I do have plans for things later.

Hope everyone is well and staying safe ❤️