#so i'm grateful ofc

[miradelletarot]

Okay, US moots...help.

I need to put some feelers out there. I have *GOT* to move out of florida...preferably the end of december after Christmas, or in january. I was hoping to go for Wisconsin, (please, no one mention the weather. I am aware of the abundant cold, and I LIKE cold. I MISS cold...i can't drive in it, but i'll fucking learn okay?) But at this rate, I am willing to go anywhere that's got 4 seasons, jobs and low-income living.

When I say I'm desperate, i'm not kidding. I KNOW I am overstaying my welcome with my friends, and my bestie has been starting to sound a little passive aggressive with certain things, and it's making me feel really guilty for being there as long as I have (even though she was originally talking about me moving with her and her family and stuff...I'm just getting the vibe that things are not as happy as they once were,) and I don't want to inconvenience her any more than I already have.

I do not make enough money to pay her much, if at all. I buy my own food, pay my own bills (cell phone, credit cards, and other personal stuff,) but that's about all i can handle. if i could afford my own place, trust me, I WOULD. I don't want to ruin our friendship, but I'm afraid if I stay there much longer I worry things will start to decline.

I work 2 jobs, 7 days a week, and my ass is still paycheck to paycheck. If i want anything extra i have to really pinch pennies to get it, and that's not a lot to work with tbh. I'm not home much, and i keep to myself as much as possible. It's just me and my dog for now b/c i can't afford to take care of my kids too. They have to stay with dad for now (which is fine, we have an agreement on that so i'm not worried there).

Anyway, I'll take recommendations at this point for locations, available jobs, etc. I can't move until at least the end of December b/c I have an agreement with one of my bosses to pay off a car she bought me, and I need to focus on getting that squared away. After that, I'm looking to get the fuck out of dodge.

Which, ofc, this means I am gonna once again ask for help with funds. If you want a tarot reading, visit my website, www.miradelletarot.com, or DM me if you need assistance. I am also going to try and do my notary stuff locally, and perhaps see if I can officiate a wedding or something here and there. I am even going as far as to reconsider doing F*nsly. I didn't really like it much, and barely used it, but at this rate...money is an issue I can no longer hope will get better. I have to do whatever it takes to get what I need to make this happen. This turned into a rant, trauma dump so sorry about that. I've been really stressed and in my feels a lot these last few days and the reality of my situation isn't helping at all.

[spaceratprodigy]

✨❤️ Faith and Max | [ 🔍 AU ] ❤️✨

In my heart, I have but one desire And that one is you No other will do

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[sunlit-mess]

Sometimes you just gotta take life one day at a time, but you never know when things might turn around for the better. Please stay safe and keep doing the little things that makes you happy to distract yourself, it's gonna be ok 🌷

Now you guys are just trying to make me cry fr hADUHFUBGKAHAHA

[secriden]

Everything about Style is just driving me feral with want to have THK right now, immediately.

The way he's all big, bold gestures and confident swagger; the way his introduction includes a literal arms-wide-open welcome. The overalls unbuttoned until nearly the middle of his chest and how he's the only one in the main cast to be (literally) this uncovered (everyone else has 2-3 layers on).

I wonder if this hints to how vulnerable his character is, narratively speaking: how he potentially is the one that starts out with the least information (apparently Kant doesn't tell him who Fadel and Bison are when he makes that deal with Style?); how he may be the least physically familiar with violence because he's just a mechanic (vs Kant's background with crime/the police. Also the way in the trailer Style is constantly in shock when Fadel does something violent around him); how he chooses with his heart even after he finds out the full truth about Fadel ("You know I know everything").

When he describes his life, it's so... innocent? We get a snapshot of what he thinks his life is about and it's: fixing cars, collecting vintage cars, bowling and hanging out with his best friend. Every other character's answers are layers of subterfuge and double meanings but Style's answers create such a contrast by being so unfiltered. This is a character that (at least at this point) is guileless and without agenda.

I'm so excited to see Style pursing Fadel. I'm so excited to see Fadel try to remain stoic and unmoved in the face of Style's unabashed interest and enthusiastic flirting. I'm excited to discover why Style goes from attraction to being willing to risk it all for Fadel.

But also -- in a very different way than what Kant will doubtless be to Bison -- I'm excited to see how Style will become an escape for Fadel. Fadel, who just wants to sleep for 25 hours (he's so exhausted) and live a normal life, maybe open a restaurant that isn't just a front and a cover for the illicit job he maybe no longer wants, who enjoys solitude but wants to find someone to spend it with (he sounds so desperately lonely, my heart breaks for him).

Someone uncomplicated, who lives life fully, who isn't afraid to go for what he wants and who wears his heart on his sleeve.

In less than 5 minutes, this interview shows us the ways they could fit together like missing puzzle pieces, and I am so, so excited to see it fall apart and come together.

[mod2amaryllis]

Pepper passed away this morning. last night jose called me over while tending them; she was dehydrated, lethargic, wheezing, I'd played with her normally the day before. she's been slowing down with age, but this was a crash. we gave her water and heat support, i was planning to bring her in to work first thing this morning, but when we woke up she was gone in the same cozy position we left her in. i believe she just faded peacefully.

we're pretty devastated. she was 14, our first animal, we've had her almost half our lives. she was very much jose's baby. it really hit me when i carried her to my clinic and prepped her for cremation; that's a task i do frequently after euthanasia and it's become a kind of ritual, but carrying your own animal is just so different. I'm really sad.

[wikitpowers]

Ty paused too, rooting around in the pocket of his hoodie. "I have something for you." Kit rolled up the bag of chips and stashed it behind a rock. "You do?"

Ty produced a small white stone, about the size of a golf ball, with a rune etched into it. "Your witchlight rune-stone. Every shadowhunter has one." He took Kit's hand unselfconsciously and pressed the stone into his palm. A hot flutter went through Kit's stomach surprising him. He'd never felt anything like it before.

[theloveinc]

i don't really want to bc like. there's many reasons for me to stay but. i don't think this tumblr life is for me anymore

[palms-upturned]

Sorry for being late today coming online, a lot has happened and I am trying to think about the best way to organize this blog going forward. For now though I will try to get the list updated quickly and read through my messages/@'s

[its-all-papaya]

i would like to write an essay about my first season as a formula one fan - about choosing Lando Nowins in March and ending the season smiling about a WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP - but i finish seasons every few months, and i never actually get any of the profound, poetic words out. because the world keeps moving. i'll switch off sky sports and i'll open my work laptop and i'll forget to process that this is the last time i'll do that in 2024. i'll write game dates down in my planner and forget that i don't have to check the f1 schedule tab of my browser anymore, not for awhile. i'll watch other teams in other sports and cheer for other athletes that i love, and i'll never really let the sadness or the accomplishments sink in, because i'll never really remember to. maybe i'll watch another championship before march. maybe i'll win one. but i'll keep writing down dates - keep checking that tab - and in a blink, it'll be time again to wake up at 4am on fridays and grind my teeth on sunday mornings and smile when lando smiles and send 45 texts in a row, all caps, to people who don't care about oscar piastri. i won't spend days waiting for f1 to start again - i haven't got time to - but i know this: next march, when i wake up before dawn for round one, i'll feel all the months all at once. i'll think "how did i go so long without this?" and "is it really time again already?" at the same time, in the same way, and i've never done it in formula one, but i've been a sports fan long enough to know this: it's going to feel just like coming home.

[byanyan]

the woobification and babyification of byan in fanon would be DESPICABLE !! also i feel like fanon would try to make every adult character they come across be their like . parent / mentor / etc. PLUS the asian fetishizing?? all i know is that i am so glad everyday that byan is ur oc and not tainted by fanon weirdos

if byan was a canon character, what would the fanon interpretation of them be? ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ∘ ˚ ( accepting!! )

ough, the way i didn't even think about half of this and yet you're so fuckin' right... byan kinda is one of those characters that'd bring out the worst of fanon. like they just hit all those marks to draw all the worst sorts of attention. aaaaaand all of this reminds me of exactly why i stopped engaging in fandom spaces for the most part lmaooo

yeah, you know what!!! i'm glad they're my oc too!!! the more i think about it the more i get all "eughhhghghh 😬" at the idea of them being anything but. i'm so glad that i get to have all of the control over their portrayal bc it'd wound me it'd KILL ME to see them torn to pieces by a fandom in just one of these ways, let alone all of them

[blairdii]

omg i forgot to post but.... ALISSON IS BACK!!!!!! 😻😻😻😻😻😻

[kittlyns]

A hard pill for me to swallow lately has been that, despite everything, I'm probably the best version of myself that could've existed. And that's not really a comforting thought.

[hoppipolla]

I wasn't as emotionally invested in Pyramid Game and its characters as I thought I would be because the characterisation was quite lacking. Someone wrote in their review on MDL that everything is "watered down" and I couldn't agree more. Although I did enjoy this drama (since I was able to finish it), it lacked nuances and layers. I won't dive too deep here but there's something that I found bothering.

School violence is strongly condemned and the drama emphasises the fact that being a bystander is as reprehensible as being a bully so how come domestic abuse is so easily glossed over?

No comment on how cruel Da Yeon is but I was utterly shocked by the domestic abuse she was a victim of. The fact that we never see her again after that scene where her father brings his golf club to her bedroom. Are we supposed to think that he killed her? To leave the viewers like that... I don't mind open-endings but this is too much.

[akai-anna]

Hiya! I'm sure you're already aware, but since your DCMK gift giver dropped out, your gift giver has been switched to me :D How are you doing today?

I have to say, all the platonic relationships you listed out on your form really called to my heart (like the sakura trio, detective boys, mouri family unit, etc etc)! All of those characters are super near and dear to me, and I love seeing them interact ^_^ I noticed you seemed to especially like Vermouth as well--- what do you think of her character? I just think she's like, really cool whenever she appears on screen hehe

Also, I just saw your recent post about the new spy x family chapter--- I'm glad that other people were getting major Detective Conan vibes too, it was so cute! I'm not sure if you're interested in detco fanfiction, but it really reminded me of this really good SpyFam x Detco crossover fic on AO3 called 'Forged', by HikariAA. If Anya was a detective, murder cases would get solved much quicker, wouldn't they?

(In addition, forgive me for snooping through your blog, but I just wanted to ask about how your darling dog is doing now--- the one you mentioned in your other DCMK anon ask. You don't have to answer, of course! Regardless, all the best wishes to you and her.)

Hope you have a great day, and I'm looking forward to working on your gift ^_^ !

OH MY GOSH, HI!!!

Yes, I've been notified of the change, and thus welcome thee, with great enthusiasm! Thank you so much for accepting to be my gift giver so late in the event. *bows*

Thank you, I'm doing well today so far. A bit apprehensive, since I have an interview today, but I'll try to make the most of it. And once I get home I hope to get a few things done that I've been meaning to (but got distracted from gkjnfjkbn). And let me throw back the question at you: how are you doing yourself, lovely? Also, I would like to hear more about what you like about DCMK! Pehaps you could tell me something that you cherish a lot yet feel you don't see enough appreciation for?

A PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP ENTHUSIAST!!! And gosh, I agree so much, THEY ARE SO PRECIOUS, and they are the reason I'm stuck in DCMK. (I am digging myself deeper and deeper into this hole, and enjoying it.) I live for their interactions, be it in fanworks or canon. And you are 100% right: I adore Vermouth! (As I gushed about that in this particular ask, gosh.) But in short: I love how she is a morally grey. The way she can kill and deceive without batting an eye, being very competent too, only to have her 2 little treasures whom she would protect with everything she has, meaning her own life too? I love her. I love her SO MUCH. It's such a shame she appears so little, NOW THAT IS THE CRIME!!! I'd love to see more of her (WHERE IS MY VERMOUTH BACKSTORY- *GETS HIT*)

SPY X FAMILY IS ALSO PRECIOUS TO ME (THE MOST ADORABLE FAKE/FOUND FAMILY EVER, MY HEART), and to see the reference to DetCo in the most recent chapter? My heart absolutely MELTED, to witness two of my eternal favourites fused together. AND I'M VERY INTERESTED IN FANFICTION (in general and for DetCo too), YES, YES, YES. In fact, no day passes without reading a bit of fanfiction, since I tend to read between the time I go to bed and fall asleep. AND I HAVEN'T HEARD OF THAT FIC BUT I'M VERY EXCITED TO CHECK IT OUT NOW!!! (I love recs, I ADORE RECS.) THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! And yes *laughs* Anya would be a great help for sure!

And snooping is more than welcome, feel free to do so in the future, if you want to! AND THANK YOU, fortunately she is doing SO MUCH BETTER, she is not yet fully healed (liver needs lots of time to regenerate), but she is eating with gusto (very good sign) and is more enthusiastic and active (also very good sign)! We are due for a check up in a few weeks, to see if all the medication worked as it should. I forgot to take pictures of her, but have these fairly recent ones (right after she started feeling better) as a treat, of my lil darling. (You have no idea how happy I am to still have her with me, BABY DARLING.)

THANK YOU, AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY TOO!!!

[noxtivagus]

it's actually really adorable reading my notes while i was going through heavensward for the first time

[syncogon]

mini rant time:

i HATE it when people solely laugh react my art and/or writing that is not intended to be funny.

it is an awful feeling to have spent hours and hours on a piece and then to just have a bunch of people laugh at your post and nothing else?

when sharing stuff on discord i used to like putting silly captions, bc i do genuinely like making people laugh, and because there's some safety in couching sincere passion in humor. but i realized i have to cut back on doing so because it colors people's perception of the work.

because it is much easier to click a react that's already there than to add a new one, if the first person to react thinks it's funny and that's it, then well, maybe that's all you're gonna get!

it's different on discord vs on more public places. i don't (can't) have any expectations on engagement out here. it just feels a little worse if these are people you sort of know.

i create all art for myself, i can't care about what other people think (especially as a passionate fan of very unknown things, i count likes and kudos on one hand). but i still enjoy sharing the things i care about and it still feels bad to have people laugh at genuine thought and effort! why would i ever want to share something ever again!