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miradelletarot · 3 months ago

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Okay, US moots...help.

I need to put some feelers out there. I have *GOT* to move out of florida...preferably the end of december after Christmas, or in january. I was hoping to go for Wisconsin, (please, no one mention the weather. I am aware of the abundant cold, and I LIKE cold. I MISS cold...i can't drive in it, but i'll fucking learn okay?) But at this rate, I am willing to go anywhere that's got 4 seasons, jobs and low-income living.

When I say I'm desperate, i'm not kidding. I KNOW I am overstaying my welcome with my friends, and my bestie has been starting to sound a little passive aggressive with certain things, and it's making me feel really guilty for being there as long as I have (even though she was originally talking about me moving with her and her family and stuff...I'm just getting the vibe that things are not as happy as they once were,) and I don't want to inconvenience her any more than I already have.

I do not make enough money to pay her much, if at all. I buy my own food, pay my own bills (cell phone, credit cards, and other personal stuff,) but that's about all i can handle. if i could afford my own place, trust me, I WOULD. I don't want to ruin our friendship, but I'm afraid if I stay there much longer I worry things will start to decline.

I work 2 jobs, 7 days a week, and my ass is still paycheck to paycheck. If i want anything extra i have to really pinch pennies to get it, and that's not a lot to work with tbh. I'm not home much, and i keep to myself as much as possible. It's just me and my dog for now b/c i can't afford to take care of my kids too. They have to stay with dad for now (which is fine, we have an agreement on that so i'm not worried there).

Anyway, I'll take recommendations at this point for locations, available jobs, etc. I can't move until at least the end of December b/c I have an agreement with one of my bosses to pay off a car she bought me, and I need to focus on getting that squared away. After that, I'm looking to get the fuck out of dodge.

Which, ofc, this means I am gonna once again ask for help with funds. If you want a tarot reading, visit my website, www.miradelletarot.com, or DM me if you need assistance. I am also going to try and do my notary stuff locally, and perhaps see if I can officiate a wedding or something here and there. I am even going as far as to reconsider doing F*nsly. I didn't really like it much, and barely used it, but at this rate...money is an issue I can no longer hope will get better. I have to do whatever it takes to get what I need to make this happen. This turned into a rant, trauma dump so sorry about that. I've been really stressed and in my feels a lot these last few days and the reality of my situation isn't helping at all.

#personal post #mira rants #mira maunders #moving #i'm stressed asf #maybe i can get a non-gross S*gar D*ddy #i'm there y'all #if it weren't for my bffs i would literally be homeless #or still living with my mentally/emotionally abusive ex #so i'm grateful ofc #but i'm not doing super great otherwise #money anxiety is a real thing that didn't realize was such a trugger for me but here we are

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spaceratprodigy · 19 days ago

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✨❤️ Faith and Max | [ 🔍 AU ] ❤️✨

In my heart, I have but one desire And that one is you No other will do

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#happy 3 year anniversary to faith and max!! and to those who celebrate lmao #I can't believe how much drawing and sharing my art of these goobers have changed my life in such a massive way #how many of y'all that are so dear to me have I only had the honor of getting to know because I decided to post these guys together one day #I wouldn't have made all the friends I did since. I wouldn't have kept creating or sharing all the things I have since #if it weren't for them none of y'all would know me #I'm just so unbelievably grateful for how much my life has improved and how much happier I've become these past 3 years #and how much they've played a massive part in it #and ofc all of you. my closest besties especially. thank you for being so goddamn kind and supportive constantly #it means the world to me. it helps me and motivates me and inspires me so much more than y'all will ever know #and I can never thank y'all enough for that #I know this is all meant to be silly and fun to celebrate the very first time I drew them together #but it's just as much a way for me to celebrate just how much has saved me since #and show my appreciation to all the wonderful things in my life worth loving and living for #my art #faith and max #oc x canon #the outer worlds #captain of the unreliable #vicar max #maximillian desoto

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sunlit-mess · 5 months ago

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Sometimes you just gotta take life one day at a time, but you never know when things might turn around for the better. Please stay safe and keep doing the little things that makes you happy to distract yourself, it's gonna be ok 🌷

Now you guys are just trying to make me cry fr hADUHFUBGKAHAHA

#messyr #AAAHHHH Do know I love all of u ::")#THERES OTHER ONES IN THE INBOX BUT OFC IM KEEPING THEM #i may be a pessimistic bitch but when im served with this type'a shit-#id break if someone was out there to strike what I REALLY NEEDED to hear/see #im trying my best guys HAHAA I'm so grateful at the same time it feels so unfair of feeling like a burden--

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dungeons-and-dragon-age · 8 months ago

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"It's just you now. Take care of mother."

i have the normal amount of emotions about them (lying) <3

#a redraw but also not really cus i ended up tracing a lot from the old one hfldsjdfs #it was only supposed to be for reference but i ended up keep messing w it instead of redrawing it proper......#feel like i got his expression down better in the old one; looks more strained/ hearbroken like i feel #but thats fine #my art #my ocs #oc: liam hawke #i'm still not sure if liam or varric is the one who deals the killing blow #love both the thought of liam having his own sisters blood on his hands and never being able to wash it off fully #or his (future) best friend saving him that fate but now having that stand between them #cus liam would be grateful for it but part of him would always remember that and hold it against him #(both options also make the bartrand encounter crunchy in slightly different ways)#either way in that moment he kind of hates varric for even just being there. and fenris too #(though tbh im not sure how realistic it would be for him to take sb else except bethy and varric down into the deep roads)#((so maybe in canon fen wouldnt be there idk. havent decided this yet either))#logically he knows its not fair ofc but it just feels like an invasion of privacy. it feels Wrong.#they have no place in this they shouldnt have been there they shouldnt have been part of it they shouldnt have seen him like this #but its sth that binds them too #the rest of the trek is miserable and awkward for all of them in any case #but yeah.#idk if they would be able to bury her down here properly so maybe they end up doing it via lava?#theyre not leaving her body out in the open to rot and/or become food for darkspawn or spiders thats for sure

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mod2amaryllis · 9 months ago

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Pepper passed away this morning. last night jose called me over while tending them; she was dehydrated, lethargic, wheezing, I'd played with her normally the day before. she's been slowing down with age, but this was a crash. we gave her water and heat support, i was planning to bring her in to work first thing this morning, but when we woke up she was gone in the same cozy position we left her in. i believe she just faded peacefully.

we're pretty devastated. she was 14, our first animal, we've had her almost half our lives. she was very much jose's baby. it really hit me when i carried her to my clinic and prepped her for cremation; that's a task i do frequently after euthanasia and it's become a kind of ritual, but carrying your own animal is just so different. I'm really sad.

#the timing is good and bad #we're leaving the country in a week and I'm so grateful she passed while we were still here #but it means Sophie is gonna be alone for a whole month..#we've brought up getting her a companion but she was bonded to pepper literally her whole life so it would be a long and-#-careful process. certainly not something we could arrange in a week.#I'm just gonna hang with her as much as possible #I've thought about losing one of them in the abstract and how weird it would be because they're such a fixture of our family #and yeah it fucking sucks #Sophie is asleep right now ofc but i wish i could hang with her #m2a #animal death #my pets #pepper was the most docile creature imaginable. I've never met a nicer chin. man

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wikitpowers · 11 months ago

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Ty paused too, rooting around in the pocket of his hoodie. "I have something for you." Kit rolled up the bag of chips and stashed it behind a rock. "You do?"

Ty produced a small white stone, about the size of a golf ball, with a rune etched into it. "Your witchlight rune-stone. Every shadowhunter has one." He took Kit's hand unselfconsciously and pressed the stone into his palm. A hot flutter went through Kit's stomach surprising him. He'd never felt anything like it before.

#this scene was a cultural reset #fr i get so messed up EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.#it's actually maddening #i feel like i'm losing my marbles #(oh wait that's probably because i am)#the way ty is so thoughtful and ofc thought about kit not have a witchlight stone???#and then simply gifting him one bc why not #and kit being so soft and grateful #and also clearly having the fattest crush is-#im so gone for them #kit herondale #ty blackthorn #kit x ty #kitty #the dark artifices #the wicked powers #tda #twp #tsc

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theloveinc · 9 days ago

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i don't really want to bc like. there's many reasons for me to stay but. i don't think this tumblr life is for me anymore

#obvs im gonna keep this blog like i'm not. gonna go away. i can't lol!#i need to have a space to post when i do have stuff to post ... with gachiakuta otw ofc !!!#but i think it's time .... i admit to myself i cant do this the way i did anymore #not even back in like. 2021 but even just. last year. im not someone who can sustain interaction no matter how much i want to #there's just too much on my mind and im too anxious and way too insecure and with the election i have students to take care of #my family to prioritize and i have to move house and get my credentials and my degree so i can get a job.#it's just too much really to be worrying about what i can do here .. ive been in denial for so lng #not that that changes anything for anyone here or anyone reading this. i'm not disappearing and im still gonna be reading.#but i need to officially relieve myself of duty... iN MY MIND. if that makes any sense.#im sure i'll write again one day. my writing has come so far and ive finally noticed. and im so grateful to have tried so hard #i never let myself down once. thats for certain. i did what i could when i could #but i can't anymore and that has to be okay bc its whats happening.#anyway nothing's changing dw there's just been a shift in my psyche thats all #and i might post less and reblob more .. but that's all!#still love u ofc <3 #caitie blabs

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palms-upturned · 5 months ago

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Sorry for being late today coming online, a lot has happened and I am trying to think about the best way to organize this blog going forward. For now though I will try to get the list updated quickly and read through my messages/@'s

#meg talks #mainly thinking about how best to spotlight people's fundraisers because so many are gaining and losing traction periodically #and some of my posts seem to get more reach than others #mostly what troubles me is i think that the more campaigns i boost the less effective it is for each campaign #i think that the small batches of donation matching campaigns that i organized with other people was the most effective thing so far #bc it guaranteed at least one donation to each campaign #i think i'm going to try to make other small batch posts too each day #like ''here are some campaigns that are close to their goal/low on funds/almost to the halfway mark or some other milestone/etc''#but idk. i just feel troubled and i think some people who have reached out to me think i have more reach than i actually do #i have less than 3k followers and a lot of them are inactive blogs from over the past ten years #ofc that still isn't nothing and im going to keep doing what im doing but im afraid people might be reaching out to me #thinking that i'll be able to give their campaigns more visibility than i actually can #im grateful that my master list has gotten some traction but the longer it gets the tougher it is to single ppl out #i don't know. if people have suggestions please let me know #for now i would really really appreciate volunteers to help w the donation matching campaigns #if i can have ppl committing to donating like 5 bucks to a handful of campaigns once or twice a month #then at least that's something that IS guaranteed u know... though i feel ashamed that i quit my job #and can't guarantee much myself until i find a new one #idk im just troubled and i'm not going to stop boosting campaigns but i hate the thought of getting ppl's hopes up and not delivering

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kittlyns · 6 months ago

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A hard pill for me to swallow lately has been that, despite everything, I'm probably the best version of myself that could've existed. And that's not really a comforting thought.

#it's a special kind of doomed imo.#every other path most likely led to something worse #maybe it's pessimistic to think of it that way. maybe I should be more grateful that it isn't worse #but it's hard to find that within me atm #the best of bad outcomes doesn't mean good. it doesn't mean I'm happy.#it just means every other option would have been more miserable. and it's disheartening to think like that ofc #and I know the logic is flawed. but I know myself and even with the advantages I have I'm unable to make anything of myself #had I chosen differently it would only be worse. I'd still be impoverished. I'd still be depressed.#I might just also be stuck in a cult and married w kids in the middle of fucking nowhere wisconsin on top of it all #<- that's the worst case scenario. probably. really hard to say #biggest bullet I've dodged yet tho. completely unintentionally too.#another hard pill to swallow: sometimes the things we want the most WILL ruin your life and it's a blessing when it falls through #unfortunately you don't get to know this until years later #as you watch your ex best friend marry a man almost 2x her age and birth kids she never wanted into this world #and then you're like OHHHH that would've been my fate... I get it now 😐#still. there's no relief in the realization because while you would've been miserable w a shitty husband and 3 or 4 kids #you are in fact still miserable without them. but oh well.#I would say 'anyways. I just need to go to the beach.' but honestly. I haven't felt the desire to do anything at all lately.#we're past the point of letting the sand and waves heal me. we're almost past the point of needlessly venting online!#there's so much I usually would vent about here but I have hardly had the urge to do so.#I'm just tired. life has drained me dry. my heart aches constantly and I barely know why

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hoppipolla · 8 months ago

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I wasn't as emotionally invested in Pyramid Game and its characters as I thought I would be because the characterisation was quite lacking. Someone wrote in their review on MDL that everything is "watered down" and I couldn't agree more. Although I did enjoy this drama (since I was able to finish it), it lacked nuances and layers. I won't dive too deep here but there's something that I found bothering.

School violence is strongly condemned and the drama emphasises the fact that being a bystander is as reprehensible as being a bully so how come domestic abuse is so easily glossed over?

No comment on how cruel Da Yeon is but I was utterly shocked by the domestic abuse she was a victim of. The fact that we never see her again after that scene where her father brings his golf club to her bedroom. Are we supposed to think that he killed her? To leave the viewers like that... I don't mind open-endings but this is too much.

#On another note some people compare this drama to Weak Hero Class 1 but I don't see the resemblance beside the fact that both #dramas address the topic of school violence #The characters are completely different and so are the stakes #I never got the same vibe while watching the two dramas although I instinctively looked for similarities when I started watching PG #Ye Rim and Eun Jung though :((( I'm always grateful for the sapphic rep we get but I wish their story was more developped #*what's on Liz's mind #ofc this is just my opinion and you're welcome to disagree

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xhanisai · 2 years ago

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It’s sad that in almost every huge fandom, you always have to deal with leaks and spoilers :’))))

Some of us like to patiently wait to see what we got as a gift and being surprised about it :’))))))))))))

#had to deal with this in the sonic fandom #now i'm dealing with it in the miraculous fandom #i heard this happened with steven universe and adventure time and so many more #and ofc i will expect this to continue to happen for miraculous' upcoming seasons weh #a lot of people i know who saw the spoilers and bible leaks have been very respectful about it and kept their lips zipped which i am forever #grateful about #but many people haven't been as careful #might go on a unfollowing spree if i see another untagged spoiler on my dash AGAIN

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ladsofsorrow24 · 9 months ago

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sometimes i remember how i was like at school and damn, am i grateful i've finished that part of my life... and this is all because i was thinking of how much i love chainsaw man and then i remember my lil sister's got a friend in school who like it too which... reminds me that if i was in school when chainsaw man aired i wouldn't even dare to admit i like it to my friends lol

that kind of animanga is somehow often associated with straight guys here, and if my friends, who are girls, know i like that kind of story... they'll really look at me like i'm a weirdo

especially if i say i actually like denji and understood him as a character

thankfully i don't have anyone to impress or lie to on a daily basis now working on my own so i'm free to like whatever i like and enjoy things because i want to and not for the sake of conforming to the social standard of what a proper woman should be 🤷

#like you guys don't know how much of a poser i am at school #i'll pretend to like things just so i can seem cool and accepted by the girls in my class #because i don't want them to know i'm a fucking weirdo #can't help that i always got good grades so even the teachers eyes are on me at times #have to pretend to be a good student when i just wanna slack off #have to pretend to be a good girl who likes men and romance #even tho i practically don't give a damn about them boys at school or even men in any media i'm enjoying #so even the shit i like get scrutinized at times #hell weeks ago i am so surprised when my lil sister admits so bluntly to me that she fucking love romance novels #and i really thought 'wow that's very courageous of her' when... that's literally the most normal thing to like for a young woman #i'm the weirdo for liking only gay romance with a nice mix of violence horror and tragedy #my sis reads straight romance SHE'S THE NORMAL ONE OKAY #like i'm still in awe at how she really don't give a fuck but... ofc she can do that when it's about the most commonly accepted shit #idk man i just... i'm so grateful i'm done with anything school related #i hate lying or pretending to people because it's EXHAUSTING AF #tmi tag

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akai-anna · 10 months ago

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Hiya! I'm sure you're already aware, but since your DCMK gift giver dropped out, your gift giver has been switched to me :D How are you doing today?

I have to say, all the platonic relationships you listed out on your form really called to my heart (like the sakura trio, detective boys, mouri family unit, etc etc)! All of those characters are super near and dear to me, and I love seeing them interact ^_^ I noticed you seemed to especially like Vermouth as well--- what do you think of her character? I just think she's like, really cool whenever she appears on screen hehe

Also, I just saw your recent post about the new spy x family chapter--- I'm glad that other people were getting major Detective Conan vibes too, it was so cute! I'm not sure if you're interested in detco fanfiction, but it really reminded me of this really good SpyFam x Detco crossover fic on AO3 called 'Forged', by HikariAA. If Anya was a detective, murder cases would get solved much quicker, wouldn't they?

(In addition, forgive me for snooping through your blog, but I just wanted to ask about how your darling dog is doing now--- the one you mentioned in your other DCMK anon ask. You don't have to answer, of course! Regardless, all the best wishes to you and her.)

Hope you have a great day, and I'm looking forward to working on your gift ^_^ !

OH MY GOSH, HI!!!

Yes, I've been notified of the change, and thus welcome thee, with great enthusiasm! Thank you so much for accepting to be my gift giver so late in the event. *bows*

Thank you, I'm doing well today so far. A bit apprehensive, since I have an interview today, but I'll try to make the most of it. And once I get home I hope to get a few things done that I've been meaning to (but got distracted from gkjnfjkbn). And let me throw back the question at you: how are you doing yourself, lovely? Also, I would like to hear more about what you like about DCMK! Pehaps you could tell me something that you cherish a lot yet feel you don't see enough appreciation for?

A PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP ENTHUSIAST!!! And gosh, I agree so much, THEY ARE SO PRECIOUS, and they are the reason I'm stuck in DCMK. (I am digging myself deeper and deeper into this hole, and enjoying it.) I live for their interactions, be it in fanworks or canon. And you are 100% right: I adore Vermouth! (As I gushed about that in this particular ask, gosh.) But in short: I love how she is a morally grey. The way she can kill and deceive without batting an eye, being very competent too, only to have her 2 little treasures whom she would protect with everything she has, meaning her own life too? I love her. I love her SO MUCH. It's such a shame she appears so little, NOW THAT IS THE CRIME!!! I'd love to see more of her (WHERE IS MY VERMOUTH BACKSTORY- *GETS HIT*)

SPY X FAMILY IS ALSO PRECIOUS TO ME (THE MOST ADORABLE FAKE/FOUND FAMILY EVER, MY HEART), and to see the reference to DetCo in the most recent chapter? My heart absolutely MELTED, to witness two of my eternal favourites fused together. AND I'M VERY INTERESTED IN FANFICTION (in general and for DetCo too), YES, YES, YES. In fact, no day passes without reading a bit of fanfiction, since I tend to read between the time I go to bed and fall asleep. AND I HAVEN'T HEARD OF THAT FIC BUT I'M VERY EXCITED TO CHECK IT OUT NOW!!! (I love recs, I ADORE RECS.) THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! And yes *laughs* Anya would be a great help for sure!

And snooping is more than welcome, feel free to do so in the future, if you want to! AND THANK YOU, fortunately she is doing SO MUCH BETTER, she is not yet fully healed (liver needs lots of time to regenerate), but she is eating with gusto (very good sign) and is more enthusiastic and active (also very good sign)! We are due for a check up in a few weeks, to see if all the medication worked as it should. I forgot to take pictures of her, but have these fairly recent ones (right after she started feeling better) as a treat, of my lil darling. (You have no idea how happy I am to still have her with me, BABY DARLING.)