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I love my friends but sometimes they can be too much at the wrong time and can't say anything to stop them cause I've always tolerated thier behavior other wise.
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#good omens#´hello friends!! how are you!!#I hope you're doing well! ( ´ ▽ ` )#I have a big cough but otherwise I am good! It's nothign bad I am just very slimey#usually I am not a cough person I am not sure where this is coming from#most of the time I just get a stuffy nose#has my nose gotten stronger#but there are good news too I have already found a VERY good chestnut to put into my pocket this autumn!! its very small! (❁´▽`❁)#it's been a very warm autumn in Germany so far so it has not really felt like fall yet#but yesterday it was all rainy and stormy and I had two new books and it was the best day possible to have a slimey cough (:#and now I feel SO much autumn I am close to buying a set of window colors#I do not know what I would to with the window colors I just have this strong urge in me to buy a window color set#the last time I did a window color was at the birtday of a class mate I think she turned 9 and I made a deer#but for some reason we did this craft 5 minutes before we all had to leave so we had to carry our window color deer home wet#unfortunatly for the deer and me I fell down the stairs of her house and smeared the deer all over me and i screamed the entire drive home#which wasn't very long but it probably felt very long for the mother who had a screaming child covered in window color deer inside her car
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Ed + 😬 Teef
#OFMD#Our Flag Means Death#ofmd gifs#ofmdedit#ofmdblog#ofmddaily#ofmdsource#Edward Teach#Taika Waititi#OFMD Season 2#OFMD S2 Trailer#Edit#I just CAN'T with these faces#I keep giggle snorting every time I sEE THEM#JUST#T E E F#GRIMACING AWKWARD SCREAMING INSIDE TEEF HSDJKSL#see he and stede are perfect for each other okay#because they're really just SO faces#it's also driving me somewhat insane that we went from him throwing the BIGGEST heart eyes possible#to THIS#though i will say#it'll be incredible to see the sort of faces he's pulling again once they've HEALED#LIKE THE CONTRAST TO THIS WILL BE BONKERS I'M SURE
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so here's a scenario if a character was, completely random example, shot by a sniper in the street and they had one singular coherent thing they said in between getting hit and waking up in the hospital days later. what do you think is the most absolutely sickening heartwrenching line you could have that character say. like for instance to their closest friend. who is let's say idk covered in the blood that just sprayed out of them straight into said friend's face. a best friend who is actively trying to stop them from continuing to bleed out in that moment because they were just SHOT by a SNIPER and they're DYING. let's chew on this hypothetical situation for a minute or five. what is the most insane yet still fully in character thing a person could use the last of their energy to say in the chaos of everything that's happening before passing out. they're in pain, they're in shock, hell they're not even fully aware at this point right and this is something that could easily easily be the last words they ever speak. what do you think would be the version of those words that would clock me in the face the hardest and why did Eddie Diaz from 9-1-1 say it on network television in 2021
#'stop making 4x14 your whole personality' the crowd screams. but No. I Won't.#in fact i become more irritating about it the more years it stews inside of me#tv: 911#blood tw#911 spoilers#even though i just made this example up of course why would that be a real thing they would put on tv for me to watch#that would be so fucked up if they did that#kicks pinned post under rug etc
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My brother reading rote for the first time just got to the Fool/Fitz reunion in the mountains in assassins quest and he's SCREAMING to anyone who will listen about how amazing these books are. He read a piece of it outloud to his bookclub to tell them to read it. He nearly woke me up at midnight on a workday to tell me he's going insane over this section:
I am glad, glad that you are alive. To see you take breath puts the breath back in my lungs. If there must be another my fate is twined around, I am glad it is you.
And boy I cannot WAIT for the rest of his reactions he's so excited about this and it only gets better!
#I am reliving the books through him#he's in love with the fool now and I'm here trying to keep my excitement to normal levels and not scream about fitzloved#I told him before that someone would call Fitz beatiful and he was so sure it would be Starling#aaaahhhhbbb#I just finished a reread but now I want to read them again and relive Fitz being lovingly received in a little moutaint tent#and be called beautiful when no else has told him#all his life! he has felt like a piece of shit#and to be received and welcomed so genuinely#so lovingly#without any expectations#the arms of a friend that embrace him and tell him he's the breath inside his lungs#jesus#I don't blame Fitz for falling so hard#rote#farseer trilogy#assassin's quest#fitzloved
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im obsessed wiht your AU mister moloch ...... @can-your-kinitopet (for Some reason i cant tag your main sobs)) i Will draw more whne i come back from the Dread. Dinner
#tw blood#cw blood#tw possession#<- ??#GRGR hhow do i tag waahhggg sobs im sorry tumblr#i am in HUGE artblock right now but charles and his Nito are certainly getting me back Slowly slowly slowly ...... /pos#i Need to draw more i have so many more ideas to doodle i Need to see more Anon Agony .... how the fear creeps up and the realization sets#in on how they'll Never wake up from this aching nightmare#kinito my beloved#kinito fanart#birdyfy art#kinitosyte#no cause i love everythign about this au so much grrr.... i Need to see inside of charles' brain because his gears just TICK everything GOO#inside my Brain ouhhghgjhgh hhhhhouhhh this is. So#i have No words right now but imagine me screaming and stimming aaaaaa a a a a a i Love i love i love#tw injury#tw body horror
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I have compeltely lost it🥳
#not even watermarking these i dont want to be associated with them#WHY do i always have to pull a rarepair out my ass#shokohime is a beloved classic that actually makes sense why must i rebuke it#(i dont rebuke it i just like them better for no reason)#idk i was watching a yuki edit with the 'all she eat is dick *loud correct ding*' audio#and suddenly my gut said that is NOT right#and i was like wdym gut?#and shokos face flashed through my mind with the force of one thousand suns#so yeah. i fucked myself over#not even gonna pretend other people ship this cause its crazy#like yuki and choso are CUTE i dont MIND them which is crazy for a straight ship#but something inside me screams WOMAN KISSER at yuki#i choose to listen to the voices#anyways their ship name is cute either way its either yoko or shuki#watch that mean dickpussy in japanese id laugh#but yeah ignore me#shoko ieiri#yuki tsukumo#shuki#cw suggestive#suggestive#wlw#(idk why im pretending thats a tag)#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#chiquilines draws
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Xing Zhi:
Xing Zhi a few seconds later:
The only right way to response:
Bonus:
Gods have to be indifferent.
THE LEGEND OF SHEN LI (2024) | Ep 21
#the legend of shen li#dailyasiandramas#asiandramasource#cdramaedit#cdramasource#cdrama#zhao liying#lin gengxin#dramasource#asian drama#k:the legend of shen li#i can't love you for the betterment of the universe#but i also can't stop thinking about you#this was so funny to me#i just know that shen li was screaming on the inside
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when you mentioned in your tags that there was hardly any laughingstock i didn't believe you at first, but holy shit ur right. YOU AND @krasytoonz MADE ME INTO A LAUGHINGSTOCK BELIEVER. I WILL PAY TRIBUTE TO THESE SKRUNGLY FUCKERS SOON, MARK MY WORDS *shakes fist into the void*
no yeah Seriously though its just us out here, fighting for our lives in the fucking Trenches. in ten years someone is gonna use the word 'laughingstock' casually in conversation and im gonna have War Flashbacks
#no please get out while you still can#once you let them in all the way They Will Not Fucking Leave they are There Forever#the inside of my brain is just me huddled in a corner while they make out in the middle of my skull#BUT YEAH THERES BARELY ANYTHING#trust me whenever krasytoonz posts them i am instantly there to ravenously devour the crumbs like a rabid pigeon#they are my only outside source of barnaby/howdy#them and the side plot in Stamps by Indigopoptart on ao3#oh the side plot my beloved.... im still starving but sometimes they trick me into feeling like im Feasting....#and that one tidbit in Beautiful Boy Its Only Love by ImaginatorOf Things - also on ao3 ofc#and thats IT thats ALL I HAVE. all We have#shoving my entire fist into my mouth and biting it off while sobbing. screaming. etc.#oh the pain and joy of rarepairs... its been a while since ive been so taken with one...#who knows? with the power of friendship and this gun i found maybe one day it wont just be viewed as a crackship by the masses#rambles from the bog#gotta be honest. krasytoonz also converted me all the way#like i was tenuous about it at first...#it was just a Thought yk yk#i was like 'oh thats cute but like. as a side thing. a background thing. they dont have much going for them'#i think that was because i had nothing to enjoy outside of my own brain#i liked the very rare very jokey crumbs from a couple of clownsuu's posts#but it wasnt enough to make me go Theyre Mine Now#then i stumbled upon krasytoonz and one scrolling session later! i was fully hooked! just like that!#laughingstock went from a nebulous interest to a Permanent Fixture In My Braincase!#but yeah uhhhhh glad i could contribute to passing on the Illness#if you ever get free i will envy you#and to future me: if youre free i envy you as well. but i also pity you bc theyre so so good theyre so cute whats wrong with you-#i hate them & i love them & theyre nothing & theyre everything & they wont leave & ive locked the door
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Today marks the 10th anniversary of Nicomaki duet song "ずるいよMagnetic today" release! 🩷❤️
At this point I treat the song’s release date like nicomaki couple anniversary 💀 i mean!! a duet song!! WITH VERY PERSONALIZED LYRICS ABOUT THEM TOO….. pls let me have a long life so i can make it every year 😇🙏
the last time i made anniversary art for zurui yo magnetic today was in 2019! It’s getting the biggest number i’ve ever posted on tumblr lol (but that is definitely cuz of the wild almost-to-kiss-tension-pose lol)
enjoy the meal for every nkmk shipper if you’re still breathing?? nicomaki will be forever my top, it surpasses all my ships across the universe. I love you both my dumbass magnet 🩷❤️
imagine applying physics reference to your art
process (lots of skipped parts i forgot to save)
#at this point my fully rendered art is just reserved for nkmk#if loving them is a crime then i’d be on my third death sentence#my pixiv page begging me to upload other art besides this black and red haired couple#even after 10 years I’d read nkmk fic & got me screaming inside kicking my feet and giggling like an silly little girl#my goal is to be karuha global release version (bootleg version) (about to EoS)#OKAY THATS ALL SORRY FOR THE OJISAN RANT#I JUST LOVE THEM BOTH SO SO MUCH??????????#nicomaki#lovelive#sioneve art#muse#yazawa nico#nishikino maki#zurui yo magnetic today#the amount of me smiling while drawing this is UNHEALTHY i can't count how much i screamed “I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH” while drawing this#there are moments when i have to rest so i put my pen down#put both of my hands on my chin#and just stare at the screen with this face *⁂((ෆ人ෆ))⁂*I Lᵒᵛᵉᵧₒᵤ
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asked dan and phil yesterday to sign pics of rhett and link and they loved it lmao
#rhett and link#dan and phil#terrible influence tour#i started my speech with asking them if it won't be too weird to sign but they were SO sweet about it#because like... i don't know how they feel about rhett and link and if they don't have a secret beef with them#lmao#i let them pick which photo they want to sign#and phil went ''i will beeee link''#and then dan told him that for a while phil had similar hair to link#afsghdjd#i was just screaming inside#I've been watching dnp aince 2012 and r&l since 2016 i need the collab so bad#my post
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POOR GABRIEL MONTEZ! YOU NEVER SAW THIS COMING DID YOU? ALL YOU WANTED WAS POWER. SECURITY. SAFETY. & THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOU GOT! JUST IN EXCHANGE FOR YOUR BODY. LETS JUST HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS JUST HOPE YOU WONT HAVE TO CLEAN UP THE MESS.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#cw gore#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi suckening#jrwi gabriel#jrwi gabriel montez#LOOK FAMILIAR?hahahahahDONT WORRY#IM REUPLOADING THIS HERE BC i fixed up the drawing a lil. and also i wanted to add main tags#U WONT SEE ANY DIFFERENCES BETWEEN THISSUN N THE POST ON MY SIDEBLOG.i changed the image there too.HA!!!!!!!#ANYWAY.i rambled plenty about pain and gabe on my sideblog.SO LETS TALK ABT THE ART SHALL WE.ihad i very hard time getting the colors down#would u believe i nearly left this uncolored??FUCKED UP!! it was only a sketchhow did it end up like this. it was only a sketch...#BUT IM RLY GLAD I WENT W COLORING IT.this time i actually used the airbrush n pencil tools BUT i also have a handy dandy brush i made#its just the mspaint air brush tool. fucking LOVE THAT THING. but now its in fire alpaca and it can be slightly transparent.IT LOOKS SOGOOD#perfect for splatters and grime.i love you mspaint i love youuu.im also so happy w the blood here.i think i reached a shift last year#back when i made that genloss fanart something abt the way i draw blood finally CLICKED and im like OH. the inside must always be darker.#like i KNEW that already but it was like my hand itself finally had it click.i wonder what i will learn next?I LIKE THE ORGANS HERE TOO#not as veiny or thready as i usually draw em. but i think thats fine. not as WET as id like em to be but thats also fine.#i got the point across. the point ofc being WOW THIS IS GRUESOME AND PAINFUL AND TERRIBLE#I LOVE HIS EXPRESSION.i love pain and thinking abt pain. you lose yourself to it after enough time passes of just being in an ocean o agony#at one point its just too tiresome to scream or writhe. theres a point when the body accepts it.sometimes.atleast.#OHHH GABRIEL AS A CHARACTER DELIGHTS ME SO MUCH.he is a dog to me.a thing to serve others.I WISH I KNEW MORE#WHAT ELSE DID YOU WANT BOY?? SURE POWER AND SECURITY AND SAFETY ARE NICE.BUT DID YOU HAVE DREAMS? WANTS? PASSIONS?#WHAT WAS THE STORY BEHIND THAT TIGER TATTOO ON YOUR ARM?WHAT DO THE DOGTAGS SAY BOY?I WISH I COULD HAVE TEA W U#OHHH TO SIT DOWN WITH A CHARACTER AND JUST SPEAK TO THEM. AND YET. AND YET IN THE END ITS ALL TRAGEDY AND COMEDY#TRAGEDY AND COMEDY THAT IS SO SO PAINFULLY UNBALANCED. SIGH.#WHATEVER CMERE BOY YOURE BECOMING AN OC OF MINE NOW UR GONNA BE IN SPACE AND UR NAME IS GONNA BE VINEGAR#UR STILL GONNA BE SHIP OF THESEUSED THOUGH. OOOHHH GABRIEEELLL GABRIEL MONTEEEZZZ#HOW MANY PEOPLE WERE BUILT INTO YOU.HOW MANY DID YOU LOVE AND CHERISH.HOW MANY TATTOOS DO U RECOGNIZE ON UR NEW ARMS#WHAT WAS IT LIKE? ON THE NIGHT U WERE SIRED?WERE YOU EXCITED? DID YOU SEE YOUR BOSS' FACE?WHAT WAS THIS PROMOTION LIKE?
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the thing abt the surgery is that yes I do get litle moments of being ecstatic it finally happened but also I just feel Normal now. like my base state for all my life up until last week was worry, horror, and panic when i'd occasionally remember the very unwanted thing my body was capable of, spiraling into what ifs on potential conflicts in my life and future... and now i just feel Not Stressed Out All the Time. Normal.
#talkys#and again that's still that i have not really ever been in active risk of anything happening LOL#god im so happy. im really considering the tattoo even though im not a tattoo person at all#ill see. it depends on how much my incisions/scars fade...but a small green line shouldn't be that bothersome to always be looking at...#ALSO tbf a tiny bit of the worry is still there... im gonna ask my doctor to detail everything about the photos he took of my insides#bc idk. what if they somehow grow back. what if he didn't remove all of em. ykwim. pair of noia#but that's also just due to regular health anxiety#actually you know what can i schedule a hysto. just to be super sure nothing can ever happen to me.#+ ALSO ALSO it didn't feel real every day leading up to it and it kind of still doesn't! like! who was that cheye! he wasn't scared at all!#no way i found a doctor to do it and my parents didnt fight me on it and my mom didnt scream and cry and cause a scene once there. YAY
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i can't stop thinking about the first episode of season 6, when sam tries to convince dean to come with him, to come back to hunting. he says "it's just better with you around, that's all." it's an interesting line because sam is soulless, obviously. and even though he doesn't understand the details yet, he knows something's wrong with him.
"it's better with you around" he says, citing dean's compassion and care for others as the reason why. and how interesting is that? sam's working with plenty of other hunters who still have their souls—they're all more than capable of caring about the people they save. but sam needs dean specifically. he knows he's missing something, and he sees dean and recognizes that something in him. even cold and calculating and unrelentingly logical, sam recognizes that dean, alone, can "complete" him, give something back to him that he's supposed to have.
in episode 8 he tells dean he "needs his help." he doesn't elaborate; he never explains what he means by that. he has a whole family of hunters who'd be willing and able to help him, but still he needs dean. even without his soul, his hyperrational mind knows he needs him.
soulless sam isn't capable of caring about dean. but he doesn't need to care to know they need to be together, no matter what—to know dean is good for him, dean completes him, dean needs to be there for him.
it's like a sick reversal of season 1. sam drags dean back into this life because he can't keep going without him. because he needs him. because when you think about it logically, and sam has no other choice, there was never any other option for them.
#supernatural#wincest#i mean i'm absolutely looking at this through wincest-colored lenses but this isn't even a romantic observation#and i think that makes it so much worse#every time soulless sam gives an indication that he needs dean in his life even when he's incapable of caring about him. that's so fucked u#like what the fuck do you mean sam's dependence on dean isn't even irrational. that it's so normal to him that it's completely logical#to need him. that sam needs dean the way humans need air to breathe: an unalterable fact of nature and reality#'there are also things about it i remember that i... let's just say i think i should probably go back to being him'#What The Fuck Do You Mean By That Sammy#having a soul hurts but he should 'probably' go back to having one#he says in a conversation about how he knows he should care about dean but doesn't#like there's something inside him screaming for dean. and it's trapped and trying to claw its way out#he needs to care about dean no matter what the cost is. he needs to love him again#it's unnatural and wrong for him to exist without loving his brother. is that what you're saying. is that it#i just can't stop thinking about soulless sam. sorry. what's wrong with him seriously#besides not having a soul#.txt#sam#the winchester gospel#spn posting#6.01#6.08#spn6
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THIS MOMENT RIGHT HERE
#I’m actually sick to my stomach cause#literally the apple of his eye#words can’t describe how much Usopp admires Sanji#I don’t ship them romantically but respect people who do#but Sanji and Usopp brotherly friendship is just so precious to me cause like#they are both men with self esteem issues#mirrors of themselves#lending a helping hand to the other is like lending a helping hand to whatever screams inside them that they are not enough#it’s so beautiful because Sanji doesn’t really let it show#his insecurities i mean#because he’s always so selfless helping other people up#but I think Usopp recognises that in Sanji#that’s why he looks up at him so much#and trusts him with everything he’s got#and the emotional intelligence of Sanji#to say the right words at the right time#beautiful bond#one piece#sanji#one piece sanji#op sanji#black leg sanji#sogeking usopp#op usopp#straw hat usopp#enies lobby
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all im saying is i deserved to see dean get real weird with it after that last one. two seasons after the widower arc he tells you he loves you and then dies. surely there will be no rammies from this
#‘bro not the quencies’ guy who’s sitting on a dungeon floor having a real normal time with it#and I mean real weird with it. this is why itf is crucial. for me. tear through a jc penney to find the exact original trenchcoat and then#have a near breakdown because you forgot the shoes. scream out loud cas always comes back when your brother attempts a Serious convo about#the fact that mayhaps this is the final time and cas is not coming back. begin timed cycles of daily prayer vigils and leave a key so he#can get back inside just in case. if you’re not home#I’ve come home I’m so cold let me in your window#basically i need to reread itf but it COULD have been done. and i think it should have
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