#so i guess i;ll suffer

[axreliono]

GUYS IM BEING A PATHETIC LITTLE GAY HOW DO I MAKE THAT NOT HAPPEN

[lord-squiggletits]

"Rodimus is a better Prime because it didn't hurt for him to bond with the Matrix while for Optimus it did" headcanon/theory my beloathed.

One day I'm literally gonna snap and make a whole post addressing why what's wrong bc I'm tired of the inaccuracy and tired of ppl not understanding the Point TM of IDW and its version of the Matrix/Primacy and even more tired of people putting down Optimus in favor of Rodimus by essentially arguing that being unworthy means you deserve to be punished/put in pain bc you just weren't good enough to hold the Symbol of Ultimate Authority

[theood]

One of the other things that stopped me from perusing college was that by the end of my schooling I felt so very stupid and that I was lacking core skills and I'd flunk out of college. Which I couldn't necessarily do in highschool

[seirei-bh]

Summary and opinions of Jason's route ep 5! SPOILERS

Well, well, well, if you're the Jason route, congratulations, my friend! We're celebrating here with cocktails and ugly sobs because we FINALLY get a moment with Jason that last more than two minutes! + a moment alone with him! applauses!

In general it was a good ep, I liked it! I still need to play it with other routes to get a complete opinion, but I enjoyed it.

And now, before continuing, this post contains BIG SPOILERS!!! about this ep in this route, so if you prefer to enjoy the content of the ep by yourself I REALLY recommend that you wait until the day of the general release and play it before read this.

Btw keep in mind that I'm going to make this post with humorous notes on purpose, so pls take it in good vibes!

As soon as I started the ep I got angry because Thomas was two hours late to work without any consequences -Devon was 100% ok with that, like???- while my Sucrette was awake since 7AM as a clown, and then she had to hear how Roy and Amanda argued over a cool project and about how Thomas got the coolest one and then they let my Sucrette take care of the shittiest project of all, thanks Devenementiel! I felt loved and considered! I'll be happy to betray all of you soon! :D Except you, Elenda, you're a sweetheart and wonderful, pls be my wife. I love you, honey.

My sucrette Lily proceeded to take on the project herself without ask help and without making any calls to the client (because she's stupid and because I wanted she suffered alone so Jason could manipulate her later, I'm evil yeees), and ofc she ended up screwing up. Then Elenda tried to cheer us up and then my sucrette went for a walk alone to catch a depression for having disappointed Devon, her coworkers and even her goose. Dishonor on your goose, girl!

Then we found Jason in the park!! Basically our girl was seeing her life passing away in front of her eyes and then our lovely knight came to make fun of her, like a perfect Fool knight in a fairy tale. I swear this man has to have a location chip on us that also detects our emotions, otherwise Idk how we match up with him in every episode XDDD I guess his cell phone alerts him and he will go into "OMG my future wife need my bad jokes! I must go with her so she notices me!" and he runs out of his office.

In short, he offer us his help while he tries to hide his horns, his trident and the infernal flames from the ground , we end up telling him our problem because Sucrette is an idiot, and we make a deal with the devil, but not before Jason telling us to ask him nicely like "pleasee help me", and my Sucrette goes into: desire to kill increasing mode. Jason calls Danica to get info about the project, and while we wait for her response, Jason smirks and thanks us for liking his Instagram photo, while Sucrette tries not to k*ll him. When he gets the info very proud, she also mocks him and comments that "If you track everyone like this, it's no wonder you already have gray hair." and Jason responds that it's not from stress or age, it's poliosis, and that it's hereditary, and his father had them too. And there I wanted my Sucrette to shut up, lol, I'm embarrassed, girl.

Then comes my favorite moment: Jason takes us to Goldreamz!! Here we get a tense scene in which he touches Sucrette's back, they look at each other intensely, she has contradictory feelings because she thinks she's betraying her Devenementiel's coworkers, she doubs about his intentions, and then… *laughs* I love sm this:

Jason is sooo proud of his office and his company that asks Sucrette her opinion about it, Sucrette comments that she has no opinion on it, like meh~ I'm not impressed, man, this is Ikea, and Jason responds like a total offended diva XD Then he counterattacks by making fun of Devenementiel's decoration and both tease each other like always. I love my two fools.

His expression was priceless. And she doesn't give a f***, lmao, tell him, girl. This pathetic man wanted to impress sm his queen and he failed. Someone should call the ambulance, the rival boss is having a shock *laughs*

Next, they both discuss the processes they will follow for the project, Sucrette contributing ideas and Jason getting her very good and surprising contacts. Then there's another of my favorite moments, Jason shows briefly vulnerable when Sucrette asks him a couple of personal questions about his childhood. Jason reveals to us that his parents were not millionaires, that his birthday parties were quite modest, and that his father died when he was a teenager, and then he ends the conversation. And I wanted to hug him.

Here I want to give my opinion. This is the first time that we get info about his family and I'm surprised! Because I thought Jason came from a rich family, like Amanda, and the plot twist about his father leaves me intrigued. The only thing I can theorize now at least is that Jason became an ambitious person perhaps due to this, and I wonder what exactly happened to his father, whether he died from an accident or illness.

Finally, Sucrette thanks him and Jason tells her that she shouldn't forget that now she has an outstanding debt with him that she'll have to pay at some point, dramatic pause----! He doesn't tell us what he wants, but I've a couple of ideas: either Jason will try to get something from Devenementiel by using us (despite Sucrette told him she would never betray Devenementiel) or he will try to get us to go on a date with him to a dinner or an event, without we won't be able to reject his invitation, to try to seduce us.

I already suspected that Sucrette on his route would end up visiting Goldreamz at some point, but I admit I didn't expect it to be so soon! It was a pleasant surprise. We didn't meet Danica and Spencer yet though.

After that, Sucrette presents to her colleagues at Devenementiel the project she has worked on with Jason, without meantion him ofc, Devon congratulates her, Elenda hugs her (my queen Elenda being the best girl always), and Sucrette feels horribly uncomfortable because she thinks she is betraying all of her coworkers by hiding the truth about Jason's help. Hahaha, I'm really would like Devon and the others finds out that Jason helped us, I want to see their reaction *evil masochistic laugh*

At the end I had the date with Roy at the pool, since I will do the ones with Amanda and Thomas in a few days. I loved it! Roy's illu is so beautiful, so colorful and bright! <3 Although Beemoov are cowards for not giving us mermanRoy, he'd have look so hot! U__U Regarding Jason's illus with him in the company, I also really liked the intimacy and tension of the scene, and the detail that their faces are in shadow, as to emphasize the forbidden nature of that secret meeting and that you're making a deal with the devil.

About the PAs, I spent around 1.700, but I forgot to use jokers this time, so I guess for other people could be cheaper.

You can also get a sea background for your room and furniture of that theme in your closet at the end of the ep. They are available to buy whatever you want. I used the background for my bedroom and I love how it looks!

[softstarlite]

Se nos rompió el amor

CHAPTER 3

Summary: You thought your love was strong and could conquer everything, I guess you were wrong...

Warnings: implied age gap, mentions of pregnancy, mention of symptoms of pregnancy, adorable father and daughter in law interactions, angst, awkwardness.

Rating: +18

Word count: 1.4k (sorry this one is short)

Chapter 1 / Chapter 2 / Masterlist

Divider by @saradika-graphics

It had been two months since you left Colombia and Javi behind; after a good long talk with Chucho the day after you landed on Laredo, you moved to the ranch´s guest room. Chucho hadn't been anything but kind and excited for the arrival of his grandkid. In these two months, you had already felt so close to him, he had hold your hair in the mornings while you suffered from morning sickness, you almost had to fight him so he would let you help around the ranch, on the mornings that you would wake up later, he would already left on the kitchen counter a coffee just like you like it, somehow still steaming like he had just done it.

You had decided to not contact Javi in these two months, but you knew that the change from one weekly phone call to now two or even three wasn't a coincidence, you even heard Chucho once talking with him on the kitchen phone, how he was telling Javi about your symptoms.

According to the local doctor´s calculations, you were on week 13 of your pregnancy. If it weren't for the morning sickness and the sometimes migraine, you wouldn't even remember that you are expecting.

It's around 6pm when you're preparing some dinner for both you and Chucho in the ranch´s kitchen, Chucho was staying until later working on the ranch chores since there had been an incident with one of the cows earlier on the day, you´re listening to a tango, Garufa by Malevaje, on your favorite spanish radio station while humming alongside it. You can remember your grandfather, your dad's dad, singing that tango all the time when you were little and then later about your dad teaching you the lyrics when you were a teen and your grandad had passed away.

The kitchen phone startles you when it starts to ring, you wipe your hands on the yellow apron you´re wearing and then walk across the kitchen to pick up the phone.

“Peña´s ranch” you say while keeping an eye on the bubbling sauce by the kitchen fires. You only hear an intake of air on the other side of the phone call but nothing more, your eyebrows furrowed in confusion “someone there?” the person on the other end clears their throat before saying your name, Javi´s voice being revealed to be the person calling.

“I was expecting pops…” before you have a chance to apologize and offer to go looking for Chucho, he asks “How are you? Pops said that the sickness was getting tough…”

“Umm… Yeah, yes” it's your turn to clear your throat “it's getting hard to cook anything without gagging lately” you let out an awkward chuckle.

“Mrs. Alvarez told me that when she had her sons, ginger worked great for her morning sickness” It surprises you that he even mentioned to the elderly woman, from the fruit stand that you both used to always buy from, about your pregnancy.

“Oh, I…I´ll try it” after a `good´ from him, an uncomfortable and awkward silence falls between you two “I got to go Javier, I have a sauce on the stove…” you break the silence making Javi regret not breaking it himself so he could keep you on the phone a little longer.

“Yeah, claro (sure), just tell pops to phone me when he can i guess” he curses himself as soon as he says it for not coming up with something that would make you stay on the call a bit longer. A small silence falls between you yet again before you hang the phone again on the wall.

Your hand goes to the swell on your stomach and you let out a sigh, you realize that a tear has escaped your eye when it hits your lips. You sniff and wipe your eyes, then you try to stabilize yourself with a deep breath to continue the dinner.

Later that night when Chucho and you are on the table eating the dinner that you had made, you put down your fork and swallow your bite of food.

“Javi called earlier…” you inform him while fidgeting with a crumb on the table. Chucho stops his fork mid air and puts it down as well.

“Oh… I'll call him after we are finished” he answers without giving it much more thought, to take tension from the situation. You decide to finally clear your doubts.

“Does he…does he ever ask about me or the baby?” you ask with nervous eating you.

This proves to be something that hits Chucho hard because he sits straight on his chair and takes a sip of his beer to clear his throat.

“No te confundas mija (Don't confuse yourself mija), Javier loves you and that baby more than anything, but you found a troubled man, corazón (heart)” he reaches across the kitchen table to hold your hand and give a squeeze “I'm not justifying him, will never do it, eso solo me haría un mal padre (that would only make me a bad father), but I know Javier is a man that carries a lot of trauma with him. He doesn't talk about it much, but he has done things done there that would make both of our stomachs turn, he needs for all of that to mean something, mija”

You weren't oblivious, after all you lived with Javier and you had seen what his job did to him personally. But you had never thought of it like that, of everything needing to have meaning to him. Javier had opened up to you about his trauma with mother, how he blamed himself everyday of her death, saying that no good son wold live her mother´s side when she gets diagnosed with a cancer, how him not being there was like another illness for her, how it made her only worse; you obviously told him that that was all in his head, that he was a loving son, you could see it and hear it when he would talk to Chucho over the phone, that his mother would´ve of never blame him for anything, that she understood Javier, bt Javier was convinced of his truth so all you could was hold him and comfort him.

“Si hay alguien en el mundo (if there´s someone in this world) that i'll always know, that' s my child, mija. You´ll understand it in not too long yourself” he gives your hand another squeeze, so your gaze that had fallen to you plate goes back to his own “And i know that my Javier loves my grandchild more than anything in his entire life, in a way he even feels that what he is doing is for the good of his child…”

That only brings tears to your eyes, you try to contain but you already know that Chcho can see them. Your hand is the one squeezing Chucho´s, you take off the napkin resting on your lap and put it on the table, then you separate your hand from his.

“I think i'm not hungry anymore, if you don't mind, I think i'll go and rest a bit” you say with a choking voice. trying to not burst into sobs in front of your child's abuelo.

Chucho immediately understands and nods “Of course, mija. No te preocupes por los trastes (Don't worry about the dishes)” he tells you with the try of a comforting smile.

You don't answer anything back and quickly make your way to your designated room.

Once the door of your room is closed and your back is pressed to it, a hand goes to your chest and you try to get the tears to go away. You want to blame them on your pregnancy hormones but you know that even you couldn't believe that.

Closing your eyes you can see yourself and Javi on the couch of your shared apartment in Colombia, sharing an ice cream tub due to the excruciating heat of summer while watching a soap opera and laughing together at how silly it was.

Your heart can't help but to hurt inside your ribcage, hurting because your happy memories with Javier now only bring tears to your eyes and sadness to your heart…

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

i am equally if not moreso bothered by the way the narrative not only treats pittacus' unambiguously awful behavior toward celwe as heroic, but tries to downplay her abuse by setrákus of all people, by which i mean i'm fucking incensed by it lmao. it is a different Kind of Fuck meta-wise than what's going on with the ambiguity between pittacus and setrákus, but i still have a rant or two in me about it make no mistake

having thoughts about like. how the flashbacks we see of setrákus, pittacus, and celwe are ambiguous enough--the tiny slices we get of their dynamic, and all of the missing context in between--that pittacus' nastiness toward setrákus might be in response to setrákus being abusive toward him while they were growing up. and setrákus' nastiness toward him might be in response to pittacus being abusive toward him while they were growing up. or maybe they were just shitty to each other and in general, with celwe and Everyone Else getting caught in the crossfire.

the authors probably intended for it to be the first option, to the extent they were thinking about it in those terms at all: pittacus grew up with a friend who's been shitty to downright abusive toward him, and by their big confrontation he's had enough time away from him to unpack how fucked up his behavior was, and understand his tactics in order to call them out. you could interpret it that way, and were probably meant to, and it would make sense.

but... that assumption is kind of the problem, to me. because the other very much valid way to interpret what we see is a certain kind of abuse that's bad enough by itself, but is primarily aimed at neurodivergent and otherwise marginalized people in particular. (and setrákus is autistic as fuck.) and it's abuse that widely goes unseen and ignored, and is most often perpetuated by people who know they can afford to do it, or think they can.

might have to come back to it in more detail in a reblog, honestly, because it's a lot to talk about; but essentially it comes down to silencing someone by either openly dismissing what they say as nonsense that no one can understand but them, and isn't important enough to try, or disguising it behind a bad faith ''attempt'' to understand so they can say they tried and there's no point. it's a lifelong trauma which has shaped enormous parts of my personality and how i communicate, i can spot it a mile away, and i see all the hallmarks of it in their relationship and how setrákus is affected by it.

and that bothers me. it bothers me a lot that we're supposed to see one and not the other. it bothers me that it's not even 'pittacus' behavior is genuinely shit, but it's somewhat more understandable in the version of events where the context is that he was abused'; he's framed as the hero of the situation either way, who's acting out of pure kindness and reason and good intent. it bothers me that the person who is easy to interpret as having been abused this way would, even then, still be depicted as the Abusive Hate Sink Incarnation of Evil. (because he is abusive, and he is very much an evil son of a bitch. regardless of who was worse in his relationship with pittacus, that's true.) and it bothers me that that framing makes it harder to explore how the cycle of abuse manifests in this scenario, because it absolutely is a thing that happens and is worth telling stories about.

just, i don't know. thoughts. hm.

[tarotwithavi]

How would a writer describe your character in a book?

Piles : 1-2

3-4

Masterlist

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How to choose a pile?

Take a deep breath and close your eyes, politely ask your spirit guides and angels to show the right pile for you. Open your eyes and the first picture that attracts you is the right pile for you. You may choose two or more piles.

I'll be writing all the piles in first person POV so you can read it as if it's your inner thoughts.

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Pile 1

As a kid I was always curious of people and how they act but no matter how much I tried I could never understand emotions. One time they'll die for someone and the other minute you mean nothing to them. I felt as if people are hypocrites. They'll be nice and respectful to your face but say the nastiest things at your back.

As I grew up, my curiosity to understand people flew away and have never seen it since then. I want to isolate myself from society but I think I will not survive alone. I could never understand humans and understanding a community is way worse. At first they'll make you become addicted to company and when you'll want to live alone, the side effects of this addiction will cause you to k*ll yourself. What a great scam is that.

An author would describe your character as a person who can't / isn't able to understand humans and always feels like an outcast. They try to find meaning in meaningless things and is sort of gloomy. Who hopes to find someone or something to live by. But gets depressed in the way, in the end the only hope they have left is themselves.

Masterlist

Pile 2

I want to explore this world, explore the highest mountains to the deepest caves, from the blue oceans to the evergreen forests. This world makes me excited. This world is magical. People who don't believe in magic are missing out on great excitements. Like we are literally living on a magical rock that is floating around in a pit of mysteries and mysterious things.

I have some abilities , magical abilities so to precise and with those abilities comes a lot of responsibilities. I am not saying I don't like that but I want sometime for myself. All day long just looking after people and fighting off evil is tiring. People say I'm special but what about me? Do I not have the right to enjoy my life? I absolutely love helping people and love being victorious. But sometimes I just want to run away alone. Away from all these responsibilities , just me alone.

An author would describe your character as an extremely passionate person who is an explorer. You will definitely be in a fantasy novel being the main character, your character will have a lot of responsibilities considering you'll have magical abilities. You'll solve mysterious , help people and fight off evil. Your character would be described as a happy and joyous person who is tried of responsibilities.

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Pile 3

My parents always told me that being a royal meant not having loyal and real friends . I didn't believe them because I had real friend or so I thought. Point to be noted HAD. The people who I thought were my friends come out to be the most poisonous snakes. I'm wondering how the fuck did I survive all that. I believed everything they said, entrusted my secrets to them and even gave them a luxurious life.

Guess they took me for granted. Growing up I hated the word "revenge". Just hearing it gave me chills because I didn't understand why would people want bad for the people they once cared for. But I guess life had different plans for me. Hah! Never knew the word I hated so much growing would become the main motive of my life. Now all I can think about is the word I hated so much. It's true when they say you became what you despise. So kids never hate something, who knows you might become it in future.

You would be described as a character who is of royal background and and had suffered a lot of betrayal in their life. After going thought all these Betrayals and heart breaks you character would have no choice but to want revenge. Funny how I'm not seeing any romantic interests here because you novel would have a revenge plot.

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Pile 4

People always told me how lucky I was to be born in the imperial family. They always told how I was their future and forced their customs on me from a very young age. The dance lessons, the history classes and the courtesy lessons meant nothing to me. I never wanted to become the Emperor/Empress. I never asked for all that.

Maybe if I was born in a normal family I would have enjoyed what a family environment is? Only then I would have known what love is. Maybe I should just run away? Maybe I should fake my death? But doing this will take a lot of courage I don't have. I never stood up for myself. I don't know what being real is anymore. I wish to find myself, I wish to find the child who lost his/her childhood. Who never got to enjoy life. Will I find what people call love if I run away? A few friends I guess? Who knows maybe I would die like this? Maybe.....

Another oyal character but in your story, your character would be forced to act a certain way, you know to satisfy the society on how a royals should be, how they are forced to act in front of people. Your story would be about your character finding their true self that they thought they would never find. Letting go of customs of society and being their true self.

Masterlist

I'm not a writer but I tried to explain haha pardon me if you find typos up there.

[life-winners-liveblog]

Oh- We found him quickly! Now whatever we do,SHUT GRIAN UP SO NO MORE LOOPS.

LL!Jimmy: I need to ask him...

LL!Grian: Jimmy? What are- oh...oh...oh no no no no no no no no I can't-

LL!Jimmy: Did you...is this your fault?

LL!Grian: ...yes... but Jimmy you have to listen, you have tonleave! I can't fix it!

LL!Jimmy: The whispers talked about a wish! Did you make it?! Did you wish?

LL!Grian: Yes! I didn't want this! I just wanted-

*Jimmy feels a tug on his stomach*

Loop #11

DL!Etho: Oh snappers!

LL!Scar: HE-

LL!Jimmy: So it was him! I- AH! of course it was! He didn't ruin my life well enough did he!?!

SL!Tango: Uh- Jimmy what's wrong?

LL!Jimmy: What's wrong? Nothing is wrong. Everything is just perfect. Just got to suffer more because of Grian! Isn't

SL!Tango: That's clearly...uh... something... just- tell me the truth...you are clearly not fine.

LL!Jimmy: ...I'm not a liar.

SL!Tango: Jimmy I never said- *Approaches Jimmy*

LL!Jimmy: SHUT UP! And stay away from me!

*Jimmy slaps Tango*

SL!Tango: ... Well, screw you too I guess.

SL!Skizz: ... Jimmy? That was uncalled for man!

LL!Jimmy: N-no, I'm so sorry I just... I didn't mean to I promise! I-

*Jimmy feels a tug on his stomach*

Loop #12

DL!Etho: Oh snappers!

LL!Scar: HE SAID The th...in...g...? Jimmy are you ok friend?

LL!Jimmy: I...yeah, just worried about Grian... Tango?

SL!Tango: ...Yeah?

LL!Jimmy: I ... nothing.

[lactosa2]

I think i may let my obsession whit Omen grow to much, but i dont complain. there is some gramatical mistakes, don´t complain, english not my first lenguage :3. there is a posibility that this drabble could have second part, honestly i don´t totally know.

cc: Drabble, soft, comfy, 5.246 words, Omen balls mencioned 📢📢

COZY

Since two months ago, Omen was staying on your apartament, you both had a good and trustfull relationship , and for that he vented whit you about how he felt whit the protocol since he knew something about his past, he wasn´t confotable anymore in the base and you understanding it, so, you offered him long ago a place for live.

Sadly he didn´t have the savings for affort it, so in place, he was staying whit you whit the time he could need.

1:23 AM

You were in the bed, awake, but still sleep, is like the bad thoughts about yourelft let a void inside of you, it wasn´t like you thinked that you deserved the worst, it was that everytime someone gived you a bad treatment you will excuse it and let it just happened, not cry or change it, it had been a normal activity.

You had forget were you are, why and whit who, so when Omen ended apearing next to you scared the shit out of you, not to much, just making you laught softly whit a sigh of relief when you noticed who was.

"I said to you to touch my shoulder when you enter.."- You complained with the voice a lit shaky for the sudden apear, but honestly, you didn´t complained. "What a little girl." he said whit his harsh tone, closing his arms while he laid on your bed next to you.

"You are a asshole, you know right" he listened to you while he moved a little his shoulders, making you frown "What a kind of guess are you" you said while cobering yourself whit the sheest of the bed.

"I didn´t ask you to make a favor" his voice still sharsh, but it was soft, teasing. -"You are out of my hause, tomorrow"- he hitted the back of your head softly. -"Abusive"- he giggled softly in a low voice, his nails massaging your scalp, -"So... i´ll stay here, okay?"- he whispered next to your ear

"Mnh.." you noded and he did it too, standing up, "Where you go.." you complained when he left the bed, opening your eyes and looking at him with sleepy face and messy hair (sorry if youre bald) "I must go, Sage want to talk..." he said as he fixed his clothes.

"Put a little up your pants"- You said in a whisper, smiling like dumb.-"What..?" he asked with sighly shock, not knowing what you meant, "Up your pants, they are to low... i almost can see your balls"- you giggled while reposing your cheek at the pillow, hugging it. "Maybe that´s the idea.." He laughted a bit while fixing his cape and putting it on the right place.

"You want to show your balls while talking whit Sage?... what a weird way from conquist someone, Your balls are THAT stunning?" you smiled like dumb again, his voice soft and a little high. -"Want to know?" he offered whit his hands on his belt, warning to take it off. "Lets change the topic..." you giggled and glanced yout tounge outside a little, then, drowning yourself more deep in bed.

"What Sage want now?.." You asked with the voice sleepy, you were making everthing under your power so you won´t sleep, it was hard. "I dont know..." He whispered, it was certain that he and Sage had a frienship, but Omen leaved and was his desition to do so. "And..'" you said, siting on the bed and fixing your hair a little (Sorry for bald peoplex2) "I don´t want to dissapoint the protocol.." he said in a low sad voice, poor.

"Their opinion doesn´t matter, no when you are the one suffering, Sage or Viper can empatize with you, even had lived similar things, but they will never understand because they aren´t you... and for that you are the one who have to put the strength and continue with what you want." you said firmly, it was horrible seeing him wanting to be free but feel encapsulated by all his past. "I don´t know what i want.."- He confessed whit his head down.

"Then discober it, simple." you said while rubing your hand on your eye. "How.." he asked, looking at you as you cober your mouth because you yawned. "I don´t know... that´s something that you have to discober".

"Then why they don´t think like you... why they don´t give me the space you do?..." he asked frustrated, the protocol always trated him as a family, someone more of the group, but that was what made them forget that Omen is someone individual too, that have his own emotions and thoughts, something you did´nt.

"Because they are not me..." you standed up and putted a hand on his shoulder as a sigh of confort, Omen, instantly turned back and envolved his arms on your wasit, snuggling you against him. You didn´t protest and putted your arms arround his neck. "Im not the only who wan´t to suport you, but if you need me, i´ll be here.." You whispered softly.

In some way you feel the same as Omen, not ecxactly what he is feeling, but enough similar to know how suport him, and if the protocol didn´t did that, then you´ll be the one. that was your objetive.

"I won´t go.." He whispered while his hand opened and holded your back, still presing you against his torso. "What you want to do then?.." you asked in a soft and low voice, trying to confort him. -"Cuddle" he said faster as he could.

"Cuddles will be." you giggled softly when he tighted his hold on your waist and holded you up, pressing you against him while he let his body fall onto the bed, when both falled, you snuggled against him, his hands goed to your hair (Sorry for the bald peoplex3) and play whit the softest of this. his head against your cheast, listening to your heartbeats.

"Comfy?.." you asked with a soft smile, kissing his head. "Do it again" he said and you ended kissing his head everytime he asked. you giggled and did it again, again, again and again. As long he asked for it.

[lord-shitbox]

i hate myself. i hate myself so fucking much it takes over my whole life. i can't go anywhere or meet anyone because im such an awful useless disgusting horrible piece of shit it's repulsive to even think about myself in any situation. i hate myself and i'll hate anyone and anything that's similar to me because i'm so fucking disgusting. i can't be loved because i either a) don't believe someone could actually love Me or worse, b), if i do believe them i think they're disgusting and wrong in the head for loving me & i destroy the relationship. and i don't see anything wrong with this. my self hatred is a fundamental truth of existence to me it feels actively wrong to defy it. this is the way it should and Needs to be. it's so utterly worked into my being as the truth. i don't WANT to change it! i fucking hate myself and want myself to suffer! i am obligated to hate myself, you'll never guess why, it's because i hate myself. my self hatred is disgusting and i hate myself for hating myself. no matter what i think i'm intrinsically the scum of the earth and can't claim good things about myself. i hate being like this and i hate everyone who played a part in me turning out this way, irrevocably and utterly. i hate everything i do and i knowwww i should """work on this""" and """i'd feel better if i fixed this"""" but it's such a viciously ingrained self-perpetuating belief cycle i cannot fucking. for a moment believe i deserve anything better. i'm my own haters georg!!!!!! i can't go out to eat or go shopping by myself because i'm so unsure of my own abilities and i feel that i'll fuck everything up & whenever i'm in a situation around people i don't know well my face heats up (i cannot. do anything about that. and it's not fun or cute, at all) and i'm preoccupied with thoughts of how i deserve death for existing in a public space and doing or not doing this or that anddndgdj i just!!! i JUST!!!!! nothing to add here really this is literally how it should be. i cannot and will not change, at least not right now. ohm my fucking god

like i hate the thought of being alone and lonely forever but i WILL not add more people to my life or accept that others love me! thats fucking disgusting!!! i FUCKING. i do acknowledge there are likeable things about me. i'm lovable. i have good and desirable traits. however: my Feelings toward myself are dog shit fucking bad butt shit ass despite that, and no amount of acknowledging that there are good things about myself has changed the fact that i feel that i don't deserve love. i jjjhjhjhjh. fuck i;ll go to bed and feel the exact fucking same but less intensely tomorrow. god. how next can i ruin my life i actually cannot stand this piece of shit i think i'll fuck his grades up to make him suffer. holy Fuck i just wanted some fucking cheesecake i asked my family so politely to get me some fucking cheesecake fronm the store thats all i wanted my one FUCKING request but its good they didnt get me any because i dont deserve it hol y fucking gg fucking shit oh my god

this joint (sobriety) is tasting like ishould destroy the relationships i hve because why the fuck do they love me im so fucking distusting what is wrong with them what is wrong with them what is wrong with them what is wrong with them what is wrong with them

coming back to edit this might finlly make myself cry thinking about what if i was a person worth like. going grocery shopping with. what i f i was a person that deserved to live. imagine that [actually crying abt it becauseimf not and i dont think i ever will be]

edit again ran out of tears already. whatever. im not worth crying over anyway i fucking wish i could cry more but i;m done. just done. nothing about me fucking matters god jesus shit

[fluffysourpatch]

Until the end of time my little Ghoulette

Sodo x fem reader

Warnings: Sodo still a little piece of shit / bad english

!2047 Words!

// Chapter II //

A little spying doesn´t hurt

The little ghoulette went to the kitchen and searched for some food. Humm oh this looks nice… some strawberries and a juice. She takes the food and sits down on a chair. Meanwhile... with Sodo observing the new ghoul from afar, his eyes narrowed. “She´s not going to give it back this easily” he muttered. “It looks like she is more intelligent than I thought. The things I could do with a smart little ghoul like this…” His eyes widened.

“I shouldn´t think that way. She already got my dagger. Better stay away from her, for the best.” Sodo sighed maybe he should wait. The moment will present itself, sooner or later.

“Watching our new ghoulette huh? You like her already.?” Was whispered on his ear. “Ugh- What the hell…” Sodo startled and turned around, “Is there never a moment where a Papa isn´t listening?” he growled. Papa Copia stands beside Sodo and smiles. Sodo glances at him and scoffs “And yes, I am watching her, but that doesn´t mean I like her or anything”

Copia chuckled, he looks Sodo direct in his eyes and says “Sure, sure I see the look on your eyes my boy! And I can tell if its hate or loveee~” Sodo sighed frustrated “Shut up please. Don´t you dare say I love her!” he exclaimed with a stern voice. He leaned a little and said “I like her. There´s a difference” He smirked. Copias crossed his arms “Oh? Didn´t you just told me second ago that you don´t like her?” he teased.

Sodo’s eyes widened, Copia is fucking with him. He grumbled “That´s not important!” he sighed “Just don´t go making assumptions based on someone´s eyes” groaning. “You papas have that weird ability…” Copia sulks after Sodo said that does he really has weird abilities?

Sodo started to talk again “You know, I´m getting tired of your teasing, Copia, that´s the second time you do this to me today” He was about go get mad again. Copia laughed and patted Sodos shoulder “But where is the fun of it? A little teasing does no harm my boy…” Sodo shrugged his shoulder so Copia hand falls off.

Sodo sighed again and looks to the little ghoulette “You know I think I might start to get… A little attached to her… Oh! And if you try to make her hate me, I´ll- “Sodo frowned. “I´ll make you suffer”

Papa listened to him and nodded “Well if you are attached to her then go tell her before someone steals her from you! I heard that our boy Swiss tried to flirt with her” he giggles “that was fun to see” Sodo frowned and raised an eyebrow at Papa “What do you mean by stealing her? Are you trying to suggest I should confess my feelings to her??” then he turned around to Papa and scoffed “Also do you really want to talk about Swiss? He really is the dumbest ghoul I have met. He can´t even speak properly”

Papa Copia snickered “Yeah go tell her your feelings maybe not now! Because maybe she doesn´t like you right now but I would tell her soon. I go now, need to do some work. Good luck my boy ~” He turns around and walks away from Sodo. “Well… I guess you´re right” Sodo sighed, “Fine, I´ll think about it” he glanced at Copia who´s already walking away. “You better not tell her I like her, ya hear?” His voice turned to stern. “You better do your job and stay out of my way!” Sodo called to Copia and he waves off with his arm and called back “I can´t promise ~”

Sodo muttered something under his breath as he watched Copia walk away. “The nerve of that papa…” he huffed annoyed. “Why do all of them have to be such pests?” At that moment the little ghoulette finished eating stood up from her chair and cleaned the stuff, she leaves the kitchen as Sodo called out. “Hey, you, ghoul!” he yelled, his voice stern once again. “You still didn´t give me your name!”

The little ghoulette pauses turns to him, she looks confused at him “You asking me this now? Huh well, let´s make this difficult for you… try to find it out~” then she turns around and walks away.

He narrowed his eyes. Ugh, she´s really testing me. He thought. “But this will be interesting” Sodo smirked “Let´s see just how hard this little ghoul will make my life.”

 Some weeks later Sodo was still watching her from afar every day to get to know her and to see what she´s doing… As for the little ghoulette, she was sitting outside in the garden with another male ghoul talking and laughing. She found a friend at that time, as for Sodo who was watching the scene from a nearby window, narrowed eyes with a little jealousy. Seems she got a new friend huh? His tail swings back and forth without him knowing. The other ghoul stood up and kissed the little ghoulette on the cheek and waves goodbye to her.

“Oh, my goodness.” Sodo whispered to himself. His eyes widened a bit. Why must everything happen so quickly here? He thought. Sodo was lost in thoughts didn´t realize that now the little ghoulette is standing behind him not anymore outside in the garden. “What are you doing here and why are you watching me?” She asked.

Sodo jumped. “Oh damn, little ghoul!” He exclaimed, putting his dagger to her neck in a second for defense, but saw who that was so he put the dagger away again. “Don´t scare me like that” He muttered “I told you to not scare me like that” and then he looks away from her eyes.

“I´m just… observing things. It´s for your own good, ya know?” he glanced at her again “So, ´but the question and more importantly is what were YOU doing?” he smirked.

“I was having a good time with a new friend and I saw you watching me. But why?” she narrowed her eyes at him and crossed her arms. He huffed and answered “I´m observing so that I know what you´re up to”. “I´m your…. Superior, I need to know what my underlings are doing” he said. Raising his eyebrows. “But, let me guess…” He chuckled. “You don´t want to listen to me, right?”

The little ghoulette shakes her head and answered to Sodo “What I am up to? I do nothing then just reading, playing guitar and talking to other people. Unlike YOU stalking me.” Pointed her finger to him.

“Hey! I was NOT stalking you” Sodo replied, with an annoyed look. “You´re lucky I don´t take your words seriously. But you must know, stalking isn´t the only way to follow someone. In fact, sometimes, people can spy on others without even being seen. But hey, for someone who´s as dumb and cocky as you, this must sound unbelievable. But let me tell you, I´ve heard about things much more unbelievable than that”. He smirked.

“But yeah, I guess you´re smart enough to stay out of danger” The little ghoulette tilts her head and her tail twitched a little angry. “If I am dumb and cocky then I wouldn´t know that you were SPYING on me in the last one hour ago” replied to him and smirked.  “But anyway, do you want to maybe go eat some ice cream with me?” the little ghoulette asked him happily.

“Me? Eating ice cream with you?” Sodo chuckled, as if someone told the most ridiculous joke ever. “And why would I do that?” He smirked at her. Then he sighed “Well, maybe I´m being a little to hard on you. I guess a little ice cream won´t hurt” He smirked “But let me remind you, I was doing you a small favor” He muttered.

The little ghoulette chuckled and walked forward “I think I am doing you a small favor, because you are all alone without someone to talk to. And SPYING on me, I mean if you want to spent some time with me then just say so! Sooo let´s go eat some ice cream and YOU are paying!” Sodo chuckled and follows her to an ice cream Café.

They ordered some ice cream then sat down on a table. The little ghoulette glanced outside of the window. Sodo was watching her and then started to talk again. “You know there is a lot you can learn from me... What do you think? Wanna become my student? I´ll teach you everything I know.” He asked this time softly. The little ghoulette turned her head to Sodo and listened to him…

“Tell me a good reason why you should teach me?” raises an eyebrow at him and puts on a bitch face.

“Well,” he smirked and started “I am the most experienced Ghoul you´ll meet. I have seen a lot of ghouls come and go. I have spent countless nights studying the band´s history. I have learned from the finest teachers” He narrowed his eyes “And now I want to pass on my knowledge”. He sounded very serious “Are you ready to learn?”

The little ghoulette glances at him and sighs well what bad can happen? “I can try...” she answered him and gives him this look of defeated. “Don´t give me that look, this will be fun!” He said, smiling. “If you ever have any doubt or scared ask me anything… I´ll do my best to prepare you and make you the magnificent ghoulette I know!”

The little ghoulette chuckled and said “First of all I´m not scared. Second, when do we start?” with a cheeky smile.

Sodo smirked “We start now. Alright then” Sodo hands her a little book. “This little book contains rules, instructions and even a bit of history of the band. It´s basically all you need to know about us” he exclaimed “And you know, you´re not allowed to lose it. If you lose it, you´ll be punished” he warned then he leans close to her and whispered “Do not lose it”.

She sighed, opens the book and reads the first rule. She smirks and thinks of something funny to tease him. “First rule! Give Mr. Sodo a blowjob!” she started to laugh.

“Wh- What the hell- “Sodo narrowed his eyes, “You´re going to get killed one day, you know that, right?” He took a deep breath. “Never say anything like that again you hear that?” He said holding himself to punish her for it. The little ghoul didn´t stopped laughing and giggles, “Chill out dude, I was just joking haha I bet you wish it would say that in the book huh?” she snickered.

Sodo narrowed his eyes the nerve of that girl, but then he chuckled “You´re lucky you´re a girl” he muttered to himself. “But still don´t make this same joke ever again” he said, looking at her sternly. “Got it?”

She smirked and tilts her head “And what happened If I don´t choose to stop it? Then what?” comes close to his face to mock him. His eye twitched, slightly annoyed at her question. “You don´t want to find out, trust me” He hissed. “Stop making these jokes or I´ll make you stop” he narrowed his eyes again “Do I make myself clear?”

The little ghoulette raised her arms as for defeat and chuckles “Okeey! Whatever you say boss~”

“Good” he smiled, but there was no joy in it. “Now get lost. And don´t think I´ll be soft every time” A subtle threat to his tone. “Oh, before I go How should I call you?” asked the little ghoul and starts to tease him again asking for death wish. “Mr. Ghoul? Sodo? Boss? Oh how about Papi? Nah or Sour patch? I think SOUR PATCH suits you”

“Sour patch? What?” Sodo asked confused “Not even close. And I´m not your dad!” he shook his head disappointed “Do you still want me to be your teacher? You can´t say stuff like that to your teacher! You still need to have some respect” he huffs.

The little ghoulette waves off “Sure sour patch, whatever you say. See you later!” leaves the Café.

“And STOP calling me Sour patch, you idiot!”

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♥

[princess-sungazer]

meaningless complaining below

This is SO petty of me but real talk one of my biggest pet peeves in terms of fan writing and just interpretation is how people personify the Eikons as having their own emotions when they are literally stated to be pieces of Ultima's own power. Or even worse, they consider the Eikons entirely separate from Ultima altogether because they like the Eikons but don't want to associate them with their creator.

ALSO I know there are other bitches out there who are like ugh YES I love that four armed bitch but we're so few and far between it's like, well, I guess I"ll suffer.

Also completely un-FF related but the company I work for just got bought by a guy that already owns several other businesses and I get my tooth pulled on tuesday and my back hurts and wah

[multifunctionalnitroglycerin]

Blood of Zeus S2Ep1 Thoughts

SPOILERS

If you haven't watched don't read

Yeah, well, I did it. And we are all going to suffer together for it. I will probably rant in more than one posts abt this. You ve been warned.

I do love the fact that the ep starts from the final battle but focuses on different characters. It gives us a more complete image of how stuff went down and other variables to keep in mind for furthering the plot.

Do I love the execution?

Not rly.

I ll not go over everything in extreme detail, but gods the amount of facepalming this ep needed.

I ll start with my biggest vices for this ep. Athena and Hestia. Who apparently critically failed 5 consecutive perception checks. Like girl. The floor is ruined. The inside of the temple is the only place that seemed like a battle had taken place. And you keep going about your business? Just like that? No worries that as soon as u open the secret super secure door, someone will grab the magic rock and go?

And you bestie, yes you goddess of wisdom and battle strategy. Do you always keep 30m between you and the person you are supposed to protect? Do you not inspect the inside of the super secure place you don't want infiltrated for threats? Scan the perimeter? Like you are actively battling, and you are in a hurry but dude. The basics.

Mysterious screeching owl that follows you around. Also, not to worry. It's fine, I guess... that another gods sacred bird follows you around.

And then Hestia gets attacked. And Athena is gone from the screen. Just like that. The 3 against 2 was 3 against 1 for what reason exactly? Like where is she?

Rly not convincing me abt the capabilities here.

Not to mention she just allows Hestia to fly off on her own. After being compromised. And Hestia still doesn't see the bird. She then fries it real good, though, so kudos for that.

Now, that is not to say that it's all that bad. And I know I am being a few parts extra harsh here. Because no plan survives contact with the enemy, and they did not expect to have an enemy there. So, one could excuse the initial lapse of judgment. Not the lack of observance, though. Like once is chance twice a coincidence thrice...

I'd also like to note that the spies Hades sent seem rly talented. And are ridiculously good at sneaking in under everyone's noses. Because that's their job. And for infiltrating Olympus I d suppose that Hades would send the best of the best and take advantage of the chaos. So I think we can be a bit more forgiving to the two goddesses.

Another point I liked and wanted to bring forth is Hestia's characterization. Because Hestia is the goddess of the hearth. She is not warlike. Not used to bloodshed conflict taking risks. And it's obvious. And I like that. That's to say she is not portrayed as spineless which is another great point in her favor. She doesn't handle war well. We can see she is distraught. And her battling capabilities leave a lot to be desired. But she stays and fights. She defends what Zeus asked of her with all that she has. And it mirrors what we know that historically, that women have defended their cities when the men couldn't. So Hestia distraught though she was and anxious and borderline hyperventilating and breaking down, does what she must. Defends what she must. Fights as she must. Badly but we expected that. And then breaks down when the mission is concluded. And rids herself of the responsibility. Because power like that. Corrupting and all consuming has no place within the hearth. So all in all, I think Hestia was decently done.

Athena I am going to be a bit more hard on. If only because I expected her to be more present and act more like a war hardened general and less like a soldier. I would have found it prudent that she stepped with Hestia within the temple that she was more alert, more mindful of their surroundings and not make rookie mistakes in a time pressed mission. I did like a lot the quick thinking when the giant with the red anti gravity rays showed up, and that she often checked in with Hestia and told her the plan reminding her of the goal. And checking in in the are you okay way. Idk if people expected her to be more sentimental or worried but the detached militarian. we need to keep going, are you good to keep going? It feels rly in character. What displeased me is the lack of perception or cautiousness a bit. But again pressed for time. And her absence when Hestia was cornered. Like, where did she go? What kept her so busy from helping Hestia? The other creature? In the sense that her duty in that instant was to protect Hestia and the Rock. And I was left a bit. Girl, where are you? Why are you not helping?

I also loved the silent, tight-lipped mourning that lasted probably 10 seconds at most. No time to mourn in the battlefield. I can respect that. And I loved seeing it. And seeing it contrast Hestia's much more emotional reaction.

Also, a moment to appreciate a muscular female character that heaves that giants arm up. Love to see good character design. A warrior is scarred and muscular. Thank you very much. (Served as a design. Like that side profile, my moon and stars... lovely)

Anyway, back to the point love to see she cares for Heron. Illegitimate children of Zeus unite. ( Yes I know that Zeus was first married to Metis and Athena was probably conceived before the marriage with Hera, but still)

Not sure how to feel abt the prophecy talks. I was a bit busy fangirling over seeing Athena and Artemis together on screen for 4 seconds.

And that leaves Seraphim's corpse. Which makes sense to leave behind unhurried for the vultures to devour, but also gave Hades the perfect opportunity.

And now that the Athena Hestia Holy rock thing is over, let's talk Hades and Persephone.

I love Persephone's design. Hades not so much. But the dude looks worn and tired and tortured as he should in my opinion. It's by far the most taxing of the three duties and he looks the part and that makes me happy. He looks a bit too much like an edge lord though. Like just a bit.

I won't rly comment on the whole ambition to take over Olympus and leave the underworld forever and be able to be with Persephone for the whole year. Cause that's the driving point of the plot. Whether I am with it or against it counts little. I can and will talk abt the execution when the time comes though.

So far I liked the spies thing. Rly cool. Love the invisibility capabilities. The screech owl thr fact that he isn't framed as a villain but as a tired man too close to snapping. And well the fact that we can see why Persephone went from Kore to Persephone. Devious plan my lady.

Okay, that's it for now. Congrats if you have reached the end. I ll be posting more of these probably. Take care of yourselves

[lokisasylum]

The hate against Jimin & PJMS is so forced....

In fact its SO forced that now ANYONE can drag ANY member & instead of the guilty party suffering the consequences they can just switch their pfp to Jimin's and say "pjms started it" and army are such SHEEP that they'll believe it and keep on parroting "pjms are the most vile creatures"

But you know what I've seen in the last 48hrs?

Jikookers dragging Taehyung for no apparent reason, knowing that kths will only attack Jimin, not the golden boi wonder who's album is coming up.

So after they get Jimin dragged, who has to come and clean the mess? That's right, pjms through all the ReportForJimin accounts.

I reported over a 100+ accounts yesterday between Targeted Harassment & Hateful Speech (most of those accs had been reported NUMEROUS times before & were still around), while I was still streaming FACE and trying to keep ya'll informed here on tumblr about random Jimin news. And while reporting I saw NOT A SINGLE jikooker OR ot7 reporting. It was always us while at the same time being attacked by everyone.

The next nasty thing I saw were actual Army OT7s who are Palestinians, expressing their discomfort at being pressured to buy and support JK's album when a lot of them were caught in this awful war and it was more important for them to fight for their lives and their families than focusing right now on an album that will still be available for purchase and streaming weeks and months from now.

GUESS WHAT HAPPENED????

The got dragged AND ratioed by everyone; "ot7s", JK solos & Taekookers alike.

I saw them get messages like:

"So go k*ll yourself then."

"I hope you get blown off along with your family."

"You all deserve to d*e anyway."

"Jungkook's album is more important than your pity-war, cry about it"

Yeah, those were legit messages being said to these armys. And all it took was one of them fighting back by stating that armys were stupid for defending an album that had Scooter Braun's disgusting hands all over it. The same Zionist who's on Israel's side & gives money for these wars disguised as "wanting peace", instead of standing up for people who were actually suffering or being killed as a result of this war, for the narrative of these JK solos, Taekookers & even some "armys" to switch to:

"Oh, that explains it. They're just jealous of JK because Scooter is helping him"

"Its prolly a bitter pjms who's afraid that Golden will surpass Face next week."

And the whole thing just went to hell from there with Jimin getting called animal names, pjms getting blamed for EVERYTHING AGAIN.

And the stupidest part is, they're acting as if there aren't any Palestinians within PJMS/Jimin stans side who ARE boycotting, who ARE participating in protests, who ARE risking their lives too.

I did also see a large group of armys openly declaring being Zionists & those were cancelled pretty quick. But why does it take so long for regular antis to get cancelled as well? They just get to roam free, spreading their one-sided hate around for weeks, months, years to come.

And in the end its always "pjms are the worst" when all we're trying to do it to keep supporting Jimin with streaming/buying parties every day. The majority of us don't even keep up with what the other members are doing, we're just here for Jimin only. But still we get dragged into pity-fights between the other solos.

ESPECIALLY that BlockForV acc who acts as an ot7, but is actually a solo acc day in and day out targeting Jimin & pjms for attention (they're the ones trying to drag Jimin into that issue with gdragon over that Nike Dinner Party where BOTH Jimin & RM got invited alongside other Idols and Hybe employees, by cropping pictures of that dinner party to make it look like only Jimin was there. We didn't even know they were doing this because apparently Taehyung is also under investigation for something?? So they're trying to divert attention by getting Jimin dragged)

It's tiring, man...

[heartofglass-mindofstone]

𝖈𝖍𝖆𝖗𝖆𝖈𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝖎𝖓𝖘𝖕𝖎𝖗𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓.

𝖒𝖚𝖘𝖎𝖈𝖎𝖆𝖓𝖘 / 𝖇𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖘

hozier - tool - halsey - billie eilish - shotgun denis - rise against - foo fighters - nf

𝖘𝖔𝖓𝖌𝖘

lovely (billie eilish) - where is my mind (pixies) - sober (tool) - bulletproof (godsmack) - enter sandman (metallica) - nightmare (halsey) - all the good girls go to hell (billie eilish) - work song (hozier) - arsonists lullaby (hozier) - still counting (volbeat) - blood diamond (shotgun denis) - survive (rise against) - everlong (foo fighters) - hope (nf) - intro iii (nf)

𝖖𝖚𝖔𝖙𝖊𝖘 / 𝖑𝖞𝖗𝖎𝖈𝖘

isn't it lovely, all alone? heart made of glass, my mind of stone. - my idea of help from above is a sniper on the roof. - i'll come back for you, i promise. - no one could have saved you. - she is a wild one, always stomping on egg-shells everyone else tip toes around. - i loved you in this lifetime. i won't let it happen in the next. - what doesn't k*ll you, f*cks you up mentally. - i don't have a problem. - i'm fine. - get the f*ck away from me. - don't run, you'll only leave this world tired. - i'm sorry i don't take orders, i barely take suggestions. - i swear i will make you suffer in ways your evil mind can't even imagine. - i want chocolate. - i need a beer. - guess what f*ckers? i survived!

𝖋𝖎𝖑𝖒𝖘 / 𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖜𝖘

the punisher - k*lling eve -gone girl - ozark - the wolf of wallstreet (this was unsuspected, eh?) - black mirror - you - smile - split - american sniper - good fellas

𝖈𝖍𝖆𝖗𝖆𝖈𝖙𝖊𝖗𝖘

i love this game but tbh i don't know what to write here right now to make it suitable, so let's leave this space open for imagination! It was really much fun though!

tagged by: @bvtchcr (thank you!)

tagging: @trauma-report @phasmophobie @vikasgarden @ertraeumte @caughtbetweenworlds @exsecrabar

[marvel-and-dc-geek]

The Sun Gods

This is a TOA and SNV crossover one shot that I had wanted to write for a while Hope you enjoy!

Okay, I know what you're going to say

“Apollo, shouldn't you be with poor Meg and Grover? Who will defend them there, all alone in the labyrinth?”

And I’’ll have to be honest: they can defend themselves way better than me. The truth is, I still don't understand what happened: we were running away from some strix, and suddenly, I found myself alone.

I gey that the labyrinth is a complicated thing, something only a son of Athena could achieve, but what happened is still weird: I fell through a weird place, and suddenly I was in what seemed to be another pantheon. How do I know? Very easy, as far as I know, you humans haven't built cities surrounded by floating mountains. And secondly, I know Olympus, and Olympus didn't look like that.

Maybe it was Norse territory? I doubted it, I've been in Asgard (long story, I'll tell you another day) and it didn't look like that either. So there I was, alone and armed with my combat ukulele, hoping not to run into another Cyclops sitting on the toilet (not an image I want to see again). To my misfortune, Dodona's arrow seemed to have been left behind, so I couldn't ask a make a quick question

“Don't worry Apollo, you'll be fine,” I heard a very strange voice, was it talking to me? I approached, only to see some kind of giant lizard carrying a very attractive guy on top of it, who seemed to have suffered a cut on his face (which made him even hotter, I wondered if he would give me his number).

If I knew anything about hospitals, it's that the nurses wouldn't let me pass easily. Maybe I should be more concerned about other things, like getting back to my companions, but I was curious as to why the handsome guy with the good name had been injured in the face.

In ancient Greece, my name was relatively common. And it still is, I guess,why not use it? If you had to choose between naming your son after the most handsome god, or giving him a boring name like Achilles, which one would you choose?

Bu clearly we were’nt in ancient Greece, nor modern Greece. I had to know more, so I decided I had to go in there.

I don't know what happened, but suddenly the nurses walked out.

“I hope Mr. Susano wins this round.”

Susano? Like the very handsome Japanese storm god ? Well maybe later I could look him up, he refused to go out with me last time but there was no harm in trying again, right?

Anyway, on to what I came to: as stealthily as I could, the very handsome man was on the gurney, talking to the worried giant lizard. I tried not to get his attention, but of course, I proceeded to stumble against an instant that contained all sorts of noisy junk.

“Hey, what are you doing here?” the giant lizard asked me. The very handsome wounded guy also had his eyes on me.

How can I describe him to you? Because someone so handsome deserves to be done justice.

His hair and eyebrows were pink, decorated with some type of golden laurel. Locks of his hair ran along his very well sculpted body. He had all kinds of other golden decorations: if he wanted to be like me, the sun god, he succeeded very well, especially the chest area, which perhaps I was watching very closely .The scar that ran along his face only added some spice to his appearance. His clothes were a rare mix between a toga and a kimono, so it was very clear that he had good taste.

“I.... “how should I start? ‘Hello, why are you using my name? Why are you as hot as the sun? Who is the giant lizard?’ ”I'm Lester ”

I felt his beautiful golden eyes staring at me: maybe he was going to mock me, or order the lizard to tear me to pieces.

“Nice to meet you, Lester “he said smiling at me. Maybe I felt my cheeks turn very red, or, maybe, and hopefully, it was just my imagination “what did you think about the fight ?”

“Ssssurely you thought it wasssss great, didn't you ? Well I didn't see it, but it wassss obviousssss that Apollo would win!” commented the giant lizard. Wow, he was right, but....

“Ah about that....” How should I explain it ? “Actually....I am Apollo....well, sort of, it's hard to explain...”

“You're Apollo?” If the lizard had eyebrows, I'm sure he would have raised one of them. He looked me up and down, maybe he was trying not to laugh.

“Oh, is that your middle name?” Asked well, Apollo. Oh, how cute it was... “I'm honored that your parents chose that name. Where are you from?”

“Delphi...well that's where I was born” it was complicated, was it my home? I don't know... “no no, my mother named me that because...I don't know, I never asked her.

“The name suits you, your mother made a good choice “ spoke the lizard, he seemed to have concluded the same thing.

“Ah, no no, I didn’t explain myself correctly....I'm a god...well, was” gods normally talking wasn't that hard for me, but the other me was very attractive ”I guess technically I'm you ”

The god raised his eyebrow “hmm, you say some very strange things, my dear Lester “oh, I would love to be your darling ... “what do you think, Python?”

“Python?!?!?!” I backed away, perhaps somewhat cowardly, further behind the bedwhere the beautiful god lay.

“I won't hurt you” said the snake (because Python was not a lizard as far as I could recall) somewhat worried and trying to calm me down.

“Python is my good friend, and I don't appreciate you treating him like that “that’s among the weirdest things I've ever heard.

“Your friend?” I asked, puzzled.

“I guess you killed him as soon as you were born “ said the other god. I just nodded “oh Lester, I think maybe you suffer from an illusion of grandeur, that's a tale that you humans invented.”

“An invention?” How could it be ?” I did it when I was a day old, I was defending my mother !” I insisted

“I have never heard that versssion “ said the snake. What a strange snake no doubt, I swore it was a lizard.

“Maybe you're better off that way” the other me told him- How could they not have heard it? If that is the most famous version! “I had heard about the murderous newborn, but never that it was in defense of my mother” maybe now he believed me!

“Well it was, my stepbrother Ephaestus gave me a bow for it, after Artemis helped me to be born!” I insisted.

“That's new too “ how was it that I knew nothing about my...I mean our birth?

“Mother had to flee from Hera's wrath all the way to Delphi, she took refuge in the oracle that used to belong to my grandmother “ I wish they would believe me, my ego depended a little on it...and maybe they could help me get out of here.

“Well, sssome of that isss true “ gods but why did they doubt me? Oh, right

“Listen, even I wouldn't believe I'm the god Apollo. I mean look at me: I'm a unfit teenaged boy , with a face full of pimples. I used to have my beautiful sun-golden hair, amazing blue eyes, and a six-pack, but my dear old dad decided to punish me in the worst possible way. I wish I looked half as good as you do now, scars and all, you're still three times as beautiful “ yeah, maybe I was a little frustrated ”I don't even have clothes of my own. I had to borrow mine from a son of Poseidon, these pants are too big for me, and I think he wanted to be funny by giving me this shirt with Icarus falling from the sky. I mean it's a great band, but by the gods I wish they would at least have some respect for me. To top it off, I'm a slave to a daughter of Demeter. At twelve years old she already gets to give me all the orders she wants.”

The duo just let me talk. I don't know if that made things more or less uncomfortable, but I hadn't even told half of my situation. Would they believe me?

“I've been in the labyrinth for two days now. Honestly it's much better to be here, but we have to get to Camp Jupiter and warn them that they might die at the next new moon, and....” Wow, that was a lot to think about.

“You ssshould sssit down “I must have looked very upset if the snake that was supposed to be my enemy was offering me a chair. I sat down, because I didn’t feel well.

“You're right, you're horrible,” the other Apollo told to . He didn't need to say it so bluntly, but it was the truth.

“I know...” I wish I could get back everything I was before. We wouldn't be in danger if I had my amazing abilities and great attractiveness.

“But you look beautiful” hey, what ? It didn't make much sense if they asked me.

“How can I be beautiful if I'm ugly?” I was very confused, it was like the prophecies that sometimes just came on their own

“You are the one who has to answer that “ ah...ah heck, I understood how campers felt sometimes.

“Well I was a god like you...now I'm just a kid with acne who's been lost in a maze for two days “ and on top of that, I'd left my friends behind

“And why were you in the labyrinth?” Python asked me ”Who are the people in that camp?”

“It's the camp for Roman demigods. They will be attacked by an idiot who was promoted to god, and...” how did should I put it?

“A camp for demigods?” My attractive other self asked curiously

“Yes,our children go there. Don't you guys have something like that ? It's to keep them safe “in theory, of course ”Chiron is in charge of the Greek one, my son Asclepius was one of the first to go there.”

“Ssson?” The snake and the god looked surprised.

“You're a father?” Maybe my appearance made him doubt. I just nodded “oh such luck, they must be very lucky if they are our children. I would like to be a father too “ wow, he was jealous of me?That just left me with more questions.

“You're not?” It seemed odd to me. I mean you only had to look at him to know that several would volunteer to help him become what. “Well, most of my children are demigods, and several of them are already adults.”

“That's strange, I didn't know godsss could have children with mortalsss” said the snake.

“We can't “confirmed my other self . What a strange place “And what are your children like?”

“Well, speaking about all of them would take a long time” I admitted ”My son Asclepius is the best doctor of all, he's even god of healers. He's a great kid, although he tends to prefer to look older. At the camp I have three cgildren , Kayla, Will and Austin. Kayla is very smart and is an excellent archer, she got that from me and her dad.”

“Her dad?” asked the somewhat confused snake.

“Yes, I had Kayla with a mortal male “Well, what was so weird about that? It wasn't the first time it happened.... I admit I thought dyeing her hair with green streaks was weird, but boy did she know how to show them off “She made sure I practiced archery, my mortal form is not as good with the bow as I wish. Will is a natural born doctor, almost as talented as his brother was as a kid, he had even been taking care of all my wounds. I still don't understand why he's dating Hades' boy, but I hope they'll be happy “they both looked at me puzzled, seriously, every word of mine only confused them more.

“Hades' son? He's dating my cousin Zagreus?” asked the other me “but he's just a kid’.

“Oh no no, he's dating a guy named Nico. He's a lovely boy, maybe just a little strange “ wow this was such a different place ”Austin is the youngest one at the camp, he's barely fourteen, but he's the best musician of the three. “That had made me even angrier at Nero, he tried to burn my children alive... “he got five thousand views in a week with his latest video!” I commented excitedly, my kids were talented.

“Sounds like you love them a lot, Lester” oh how sweet, he was using my other name. Well I didn't blame him, it would be hard to call someone else by my name.

“Yeah! Well I'm not the best father, but I'm trying...” I had to admit that. Gods I was forgetting someone “there's also Georgina...although I don't know if she's really my daughter, but she made me this doll ” it was made with pipe cleaners, I was trying to keep it well guarded. Carefully I passed it to my wounded self.

“She's a great artist” he said as he held it carefully ”you have very talented children, Lester. Or we have, they're kind of like mine too, aren't they?”oh well, maybe…

“I don't know if that isss how it worksss,Apollo, but they're great kidsss.” Wow, it was strange that he was such a nice creature.

“Hey...how come gods can't have kids with mortals?” I had heard them say that, and it was strange “I mean, so you don't know Hercules ?” Come on, he was the most famous demigod, as cool as Asclepius and all my other kids were.

“Oh, he was adopted “ was ?? “I heard he fought a human who managed to outsmart him, although knowing my brother, he must have given his best in that fight “ by the faits, what's going on in this place ??

“Python said you came from a fight...gods, is it in the same one where your brother died?” And maybe it would be good to know how a mortal killed him in the first place

“Yes, and two of my uncles as well“but shouldn't he be sadder ? Eh well...maybe it was better to drop the subject, but I was curious.

“That's how you ended up so wounded, right ?” Although the scar made him more attractive.

He nodded “I fought against the most beautiful man and valkyrie I've ever seen” I couldn't judge him, it hadn't even been a month since I was fighting my ex,so I understood him a lot.

“And who were they?” I was a little curious.

“King Leonidasss and the valkyrie Geirololul “ replied his reptilian friend. Well, more than a friend if you asked me, they looked quite close if anyone .

“Leonidas? The king of Sparta?” It couldn't be or could it? I was sure he had gone to the...oh right, this was a strange place “hey...what did he look like?”

“Oh, he had fair skin, and was tall and muscular, with a rather neatly trimmed beard. Sure, he smoked like no other being I've ever seen, but those are unimportant details “ no, he didn't sound much like the one I knew ”his valkyrie was a tough girl, boy those two made a good pair.”

A valkyrie? Why was she helping him?” it seemed strange to me.

“Ah for the Ragnarok, the gods voted to exterminate humanity.” well, that was...very strange, or at least to me.

“But without humans, no god will have any human to worship them. Won't that make you guys disappear ?” Not to mention how cruel it was “I've heard of pantheons whose gods died because of it.”

“Well no, at least as far as I know it doesn't work that way “ my other self looked a bit confused about what I said ”there are pantheons whose peoples died out, as far as they are still normal”

“Still, to slaughter mankind? And Leonidas on top of that ? I mean he didn't sound like my ex, but anyway...” ah yes, Leonidas and I dated. Oh I loved sleeping in his strong arms and stroking his beard...He and I had a cute little girl, her half-brother made sure she lived comfortably when he became king, but that's a story for another day.

“It must be a strange thing for you, I'm not saying it's ideal, but I couldn't let my family down “ it didn't sound like he would have voted ,although I admit that in his place, I would have been with my muses....

“It is...I won't say I'm the most benevolent god, but...well, I've had several demigod children “ they were still human...shut, wait ”gods not to sound rude, but maybe I should look into getting back ”

“Maybe one of the bosssssessss of the pantheonsss can help you “ suggested Python, wow, who would be there?

“I think you should talk to Shiva, asking Odin or my father is not a good idea right now.Tell him I sent you “ said my other self ”ah before you go, come here for a moment.”

I didn't even question why he asked me to come over, I just did. The god rose slightly and came closer to kiss my cheek: I almost died of embarrassment , I won't lie. I felt a strange warmth, which I cannot describe, but I felt my lost energy slowly coming back to me.

Of course, I am a healing god, so was he by logic.

“Apollo, I don't know if you ssshould use your powersss after the fight” Python opined somewhat worried.

“Ah don't worry, it's nothing. Besides Lester still has a mission to accomplish, it wouldn't be good if he left just like that “ I was trying to keep my coolness, of course.

“Thank you...” I said with my face very red as I grabbed my ukulele ‘it was nice to meet you, “I hope you better soon feel “ugh I was even getting my words wrong, my other self was so cute.

“The godsss are on the other direction “the snake told me as he saw I almost hit the wall on my way out. “And Sssshiva is purple, he has four armsss” ah details, details, I should have asked....

I just walked in the direction the snake told me to go, until I heard a cry. A girl's cry...what kind of monster would ignore her? I searched for her until I saw a girl about my age (well you know, the one I'm like Lester. It's complicated) with short purple hair sitting on the floor crying.

“Hey...are you ok ?” When she heard me she got startled, maybe because I was so handsome and...no no, it was definitely from seeing me so badly dressed in those places.

“Ah, sorry...” she stood up, wiping away her tears ”the last round...gods, I thought my sister would make it.”

A valkyrie...shit, that was awkward, I had just talked to the one who killed her...I sat next to the girl “look, I'm not saying it's easy, but at least you have their memory left ” comforting wasn't my strength, ok ?

“I miss them all “ there were several rounds, according to what Python and my other self told me, and I didn't want to imagine how many brothers and sisters had been lost to both sides ”hey...who are you ? Sorry, it was rude not to ask you. My name is Geir “ I could tell she was trying to be strong....

Demigods always try to be strong, most of them at her age had already lost more than one sibling or friend. Many of my children at that age had already died, or had had to grow up quickly. What if she had to go and fight too? She looked like a sweet girl, just a couple of inches shorter than me. It wasn't fair at all

“Don't worry, call me Lester “What was I supposed to tell her ? It was one thing to talk to a god, but a valkyrie...well the truth is I was never quite sure what they were, but besides, in that situation, it was even more difficult. What could I do? Well, as a god of music... “hey, would you like a song? with my combat ukulele, I can play some fantastic songs”.

I started to play my cool weapon/instrument, no one else could boast about something like that...but well it was to at least make her feel better, I played a happy tune, it seemed that she was smiling. I leaned a little against the wall to play the best part and.....

I fell. Just like that. And landed on poor Grover. And of course, Dodonna's arrow fell on me, at least it wasn't lost.

“Hey no time for naps, run!” Meg helped us up, they didn't seem surprised by my absence.

“Aren't you going to wonder where I was?” I asked as we picked up our pace.

“The passageway took you back to where you were in seconds” commented the satyr “although time may feel different”

But I ended up somewhere else...I'd better discuss that later, for now we had to get out of there. I couldn't help but feel bad for Geir and the other Apollo: losing a sibling must have been horrible...

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“Apollo, do you think Lessster will understand what he needs to be beautiful?” the snake asked the wounded god.

“With time, he will, the poor thing seemed very agitated. He has his virtues, even if it's hard for him to see it “ the pink haired deity answered as he looked at the pipe cleaner doll the god had forgotten ”it looks like he forgot something ”

“It's possible he's already made it back home “he was also god of prophecy, after all, but he could only see what was there “I'll take care of it for him, I hope someday I can give it to him, and that he'll answer my question “although he suspected it would be totally beautiful when he did, in more ways than he had imagined.

“Do you think he was telling the truth?” He looked very agitated after all, if he was hallucinating, it was a very strong hallucination

The pink haired god nodded “I saw his memories...he's a complicated god, but when he gets to know himself, he'll shine brighter than ever” He wished the boy luck, wherever he was.