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â© â§âË â©ăBITE THE HAND â JACK ABBOT.
pairings: jack abbot x resident!reader
warnings: smut, hurt/comfort, angst, 18+ minors dni, age-gap implied-ish
summary: being casual with jack abbot was never going to be easy, and soon you realize that you've fallen for a man who's afraid of love
author's note: wow i went crazy writing this but this has been a week from hell so i made this to cope, hope you all enjoy! again, this is not proofread AND my requests are open
masterlist | read on ao3
wc: 5.4k
Jack Abbot was an enigma, a puzzle that you were desperate to solve. At first, you deluded yourself into thinking you could settle for pieces of him. That the stolen kisses, simmering looks, and dark rooms would be enough for you.
But it wasn'tâof course it wasn't.
Because outside of the hospital, the list of people you saw consistently was small. And if you excluded the people you worked with, that left only one or two names. Somehow, Jack managed to snake his way to the top of the list.
It was the little things at first: asking you to get a drink after work. Slowly, but surely, it became a routine where you'd all meet in the park for a drink, and afterwards you and Jack continued the night at a nearby bar.
Then, it was walking you home after, lingering outside the front of your apartment building, and then your front door. It didn't take long for you to start inviting him in, offering a glass of water or a snack before he started his walk back. All these subtle moves felt like he was giving you the opportunity over and over again to turn him down.
You wouldn't because there wasn't a world where you said no to Jack Abbot.
There was a part of you that needed him, any part that he was willing to share.
So the first time he caged you between his arms against the wall, his breaths hard and heavy, you could've sworn your heart dropped into your stomach. Your legs turned into jelly, and if it wasn't for the wall's support, you absolutely would've slid to the ground.
"Are you sure?" He asked.
One last chance to say no, to save yourself from the rollercoaster seeing him would be.
"Yes," you said quietly, but not weakly. There was a beat, where the weight of your words hung in the air for the two of for the two of you to contend with.
And then his lips were on yours, and it felt like God himself was smiling down on you. Like the universe was finally rewarding you after every heartbreak, every sleepless night, every time you've ever felt unwanted. His hands found purchase in your hair, one sliding down to your waist and gripping it, pulling you closer to him in the process.
Your hands traveled up his neck, feeling the stubble on his jaws and cheek scrape against them as they cupped the sides of his face, bringing him impossibly closer to you. Your lips moved in sync, a dance that only you two knew, a rhythm that was in your blood. He pulled away slightly, staring at you through lidded eyes before dipping his head and sucking on your neck, biting that sweet spot just below your ear.
An involuntary moan slipped out before you could stop it, a sound that startled and embarrassed you, but seemed to only encourage Jack. He pressed his knee in-between your legs, spreading them apart so he could slot himself in between, his thigh pressing into your crotch.
"You like that?" He whispered, his voice low in your ear as you gripped his biceps, nails digging into them from the pressure. You nodded, your hips jerking and grinding down against his thigh. "Use your words for me."
"Keep going, please," the words tumbled out, leaving you breathless. Your hands went to the hem of his scrub top, fiddling with the hem before pulling it off him. He threw it somewhere behind him, not caring where it went.
For the first time since you've met him, you were seeing Jack come undone. He was finally losing that composure that he worked so hard to keep during all his shifts with you, finally letting you see the hold you've had on him for months now.
His hands dropped to the backs of your thighs before he whispered another command.
"Jump.
You jumped, wrapping your legs around his waist and arms around his neck. He walked backwards and turned, heading into deeper into your apartment about to cross a boundary he hadn't since meeting you.
"First door on the left," you directed him, before attacking his neck again in the same way he did you. You kissed up to his jaw before capturing his mouth into a kiss again.
The door creaked open distantly, and Jack walked you to the bed before gently lowering you onto the mattress, never breaking the kiss. His entire body moved to cover yours, his crotch grinding down against in yours in a way that made the both of you moan. You felt him undo the button to the long sleeve you were in, as you already changed out of your scrubs before leaving PTMC.
He leaned back, giving you the space to sit up and pull your shirt over your head. When you could see again, he was staring at you with a look in his eyes that you couldn't place. If it were anyone else, you would've felt self-conscious, but for some reason, with him you didn't. He reached out, brushing the strap on your shoulder and tracing down to your forearm, before looking back at you.
"Are you sure?" He asked again. Another chance, another way out. You answered by climbing into his lap, grinding down on him and kissing him deeply, your breaths becoming one. He leaned until his back hit the mattress, keeping you securely on top of him. You felt his arms go around you, his hands fiddling with the clasp of your bra until it finally snapped free and you shrugged it off. You dropped to the left, rolling him back on top of you while staying connected through a kiss.
He began to kiss down your chest, kissing over the swell of your breast and swirling your nipple in his mouth. A shudder ran through you at the contact, your back arching off the mattress slightly and he pulled you closer to him, giving each one equal attention. He continued his trail of kisses down your stomach, stopping just before the button of your jeans.
You made quick work of undoing the button and zipper, letting Jack slide both your pants and underwear off you, finally leaving you bare in front of him. He kissed down your inner thigh all the way to your folds, and you felt him rub against them with his hand.
"Already so wet for me," he mused, before sliding one, then two in, pumping slowly. You could feel his eyes on you the entire time, as if daring you to break eye contact first. Finally, he lowered himself to your clit, sucking and swirling as he worked his fingers in and out, the combination driving you over the edge. A coil began to tighten around your lower stomach, and as he quickened his pace and moved with brutal efficiency, you felt it snap and burst and a wave of ecstasy washed over you. He held you the entire way through, one hand wrapped around your thigh anchoring you to the bed.
When you finally came back down and stopped trembling, he rose from his knees and hovered over you again, a soft smile on his face. You reached out to touch his face, your thumb running over his lips as he lowered himself to you again, tasting yourself on his lips. You pulled away, leaning your forehead against his and breathing heavily as you undid the knot of his scrubs, helping him slide them off. He was in briefs, his bulge evident and throbbing as you cupped him them. He let out a low groan as one of your fingers hooked under the hem of the underwear, tugging at it slightly.
"I want it off," you said, and Jack obeyed. He stood, sliding down the briefs and his erection sprung free. He was hard already, precum beading at top and dripping down the side. You rose to your knees to meet him halfway, pulling him into a kiss as you wrapped your hand around him and pumped slowly.
He let out a breathy moan, one that went straight to your core. He was the first to pull away this time, leaning his forehead against yours as the two of you watched you work him slowly. When you moved to lower yourself he stopped, gripping onto your elbows.
"No?" You questioned, and he shook his head. He helped you back up before pushing you gently onto the bed again, moving to cover you with himself again.
"I'm all about you tonight," he said, positioning himself at your entrance. You felt the head prod against you, and you could've sworn you felt a shock. "Ready?"
"Yes."
He kissed you, this time sweet and soft in a way you would have never expected from him. When he finally sunk in you tensed, and he murmured encouraging words into your ear, telling you to relax and that he'd move slow. You listened, letting your body become more pliable as you moved with him, your bodies becoming one. After a few thrusts, he began to pick up the pace, lifting your thigh at an angle so he could get in deeper. When he started to hit that spot that always pushed you over the edge you gasped, throwing your arms around his neck pulling him down to you, your nails digging into his back.
"That's it, that's my girl," he said, continuing his brutal pace, "You're doing so good for me."
It was all too much, every feeling was overwhelming. You wanted more, you wanted all of him, you couldn't get enough. The coil began to tighten again, and this time when it snapped, you didn't hold back in the slightest. You muffled your cries with his shoulder, biting into it as you rode the wave of your second orgasm. His pace quickened until it peaked, his whole body shaking as you felt him reach his peak as well. When he came back down, his thrusts were sloppy until he finally pulled out.
He collapsed on the other side of you, both of you panting and not saying a word. You knew he'd be good, but you didn't expect it to be that good.
And that was the night that started it all, this push and pull between the two of you. Both of you had agreed to keep it private it from the rest of your coworkers, not wanting to be the newest piece of gossip that entertains them during the rare moments of peace in their shift. If Princess and Perlah caught a whiff of this, it'd be over.
"You're in a good mood today," Robby noted as you came out of a patients room after finishing your rounds.
"They finally fixed the leak in my apartment, today is a great day," you explained, giving him a half-truth. That leak was very annoying, and the drip-drip-drip sound was beginning to keep you up at night. Or at least it kept you up when Jack wasn't.
"Repairs always put a smile on my face too," he mused, "But never one that big."
He was gone before you could say anything, and you knitted your eyebrows in confusion. Everyone else behaved normally that day, except for Collins and Mohan, who eyed you a little suspiciously when the three of you had lunch in the lounge later that day. It wasn't until you overheard Princess and Perlah whispering behind you when you were doing a restock of supplies. When you turned to face them, they both stopped and simply smiled, waved, and disappeared immediately.
You got your answers when you cornered Whitaker on his way to make rounds.
"What do you know?"
"What?" He asked, looking more skittish than usual. His eyes scanned the surroundings, as if he was looking for an excuse to get out of this conversation. You blocked his path with your body, smiling in a way that was downright terrifying to him.
"Let me rephrase: what's everyone whispering about?"
He caved almost immediately.
"We're betting on you and Abbot," he rushed out. Your jaw dropped and you backed away, allowing him to take off before you could ask more questions.
How did anyone start to suspect? You wondered. It's not like the two of you were constantly together on shift. Hell, you rarely saw each other shift unless it was to congregate in a small group to chat before everything fell into chaos again. Your dynamic hadn't changed either: he was just as reserved with you as he was everyone else.
One time, you laughed at a joke he made along with everyone else, and out of reflex you touched his arm. As if you were a blazing fire, he immediately withdrew from you, clearing his throat and declaring that he needed to go catch up on charts. At the time, only Dana seemed to notice the way you retreated into yourself afterwards, and that you became slightly more withdrawn for the rest of the shift.
That incident led to another conversation between you and Jack, where you tried to force him to admit his feelings for you. Instead of admitting anything, he drew a boundary: that this needed to be casual, that you couldn't expect anything else from him. You were a bit taken aback at the time, but you didn't blame him. You had only been seeing each other for about three weeks at that point.
But now, it's been almost two months, and the lines are beginning to blur for you. He had slept over this morning, and was still in your bed when you left for the day shift. By now, he was probably awake and in your kitchen making breakfast.
Not very casual of you, you thought, walking back to the board to find a patient.
The breaking point for you didn't come for another week, when you were having an exceptionally terrible shift. You were a good doctor, in fact, you believed you would be great. But, having three patients code on you back to back is enough to make anyone feel like shit, especially when one of them was a long-time patient who you had known for a little over a year at this point.
You sat on the roof, legs dangling off the edge as you stared down at the busy street below. The cars whizzed by, but the pedestrians walked leisurely. It was nice to remind yourself that there was something out there, outside of PTMC, that made it all worth it. But recently, you had been struggling to remember what that thing is. It was hard for you to leave work at the door when you got home when it seemed to be your entire life. Truthfully, there was nothing for you outside of PTMC. All your friends were there.
Was that sad? Maybe. But you had never really minded that until right now, when you wanted nothing more than to take your mind off this shitty night.
"You're in my spot," a voice said from behind you, and your blood ran cold. He was the last person you wanted to speak to right now, especially not in this state.
"Go away," you grumbled, not turning to face him. His footsteps got closer, and you didn't have to look to know that his hands were in his pockets and he had a wide stance. Typical Jack.
"Well, I don't think I can do that. Not when you're half off the ledge. I'd be breaking my oath if I left you right now."
You rolled your eyes, but nonetheless, you got up to your feet, using the railing for support. You turned to face him, an irritated look on your face.
"Happy?"
"Ecstatic." The two of you stood there for a while, the railing separating you, daring the other to be the first to break the silence.
"Ellis said you were up here, tough shift for you," he explained, even though you didn't ask.
"Nice of her to notice," you mused. He chuckled, shifting his weight between both legs.
"It wasn't yourâ,"
"Fault? I know it wasn't, but it still feels that way. Besides, I don't want to talk about it."
Not with you, you added silently in your head.
"What do you want to talk about?"
"Nothing, I want you to go back inside and let me have my roof-time. Alone." He feigned being hurt, but he didn't move. Just stared at you in the intense way he always does.
You didn't look away.
"I'm sorry, have I upset you? If I did, I'mâ,"
"What do you think?" He genuinely looked puzzled, and you sighed. Men, they never learn, do they? "What the hell are we doing here?"
"I'm lost," he deadpanned, and you let out an exasperated sigh.
"With us! What is going on? One day, you can't get enough of me and you look at me like I've hung the moon and stars. The next, you act like I killed your cat and made you watch. I can't keep bouncing between these two extremes, it's too confusing." Especially not when the two of you are laying in bed, not even having done anything, but he's holding you so tight it's as if he's scared you're gonna disappear the minute he let's go.
"Y/N," he began, getting that look of pity in his eyes that you've always hated. Like he's realizing for the first time in his life that his actions have consequences, and now he has to take responsibility for them, "I'm sorry. I can't, you know I can't."
He reached for you but you backed away from his touch, narrowing your eyes at him.
"I don't know anything, Jack, because you don't tell me anything. You hold me, and everyone else, at an arm's length. You never let me in. You don't let anyone in. I guess this is my fault, right? You told me casual, and I said yes, and then I was stupid enough to fall for you," you spat, each word making you angrier and angrier.
"You're not stupid," he insisted, stepping closer but careful not to let his arm brush yours as he gripped the railing, "I've never felt this way about someone before. Never."
"And what exactly am I supposed to do with that? Know that you think I'm good enough to fuck, but not date? Thanks, but no thanks."
"I'm not saying that--,"
"Then what are you saying?"
He opened his mouth, then closed it, scared of himself saying words he knew he wouldn't be able to take back. You scoffed, shaking your head and cursing under your breath.
"I don't want to do this anymore," you said finally, swinging yourself under the railing and popping out on the other side, "I hope you're happy."
You rarely spoke or saw Jack for the next couple of weeks, strategically signing up for shifts that had minimal overlap with him. If anyone noticed, no one outright said anything to you, but you wouldn't expect them to. On the bright side, there seemed to be a lot less whispering going on whenever you happened to be alone.
So much for that bet, huh?
In all honesty, you had been sad at first. Sad was generous--you were a wreck in the beginning. But you were certain to not ever let it show at work. Once you got to PTMC, you left your baggage at the door, just like everyone else. You were your same bubbly self, making the same jokes and jabs with McKay and Mohan as if it were any other day. You even still went to the park afterwards, only sometimes drinking a beer to let off steam. Jack would be there as well, watching you with an intensity you refused to acknowledge. Still, you didn't change your behavior towards him, treating him with the indifference you'd treat any other colleague.
Because that's what you were now:Â colleagues. Not even friends, because your friends would never treat you the way he did.
"Hey, instead of the park some of us were thinking of going to a dive bar after, you in?" Mateo asked, falling into step beside you as you both headed to triage.
"Who's coming?"
"The usual, some people on the night shift took the day off today so they might make an appearance. Ellis, Shen, Abbot--Walsh is a hit or miss though." Your heart stuttered at the mention of Jack's name, but you kept your composure.
"Sounds good, I might be a little late though I have to go home first." Mateo smiled and nodded just as you pushed through the double doors, immediately greeted by the chaos of an ER waiting room. You both called out the names of different patients, ushering them inside efficiently before letting the doors shut behind you.
"I'm surprised he's coming," Samira said, cracking open a cider and sitting on your couch as you finished getting ready. You decided to take a quick shower after your shift once someone threw up you--twice. You passed by your vanity and paused, considering putting some light makeup on. Then you remembered you had no way of taking it off as you ran out of makeup wipes earlier that day, and had no way of taking it off when you came back.
"Who's coming? Whitaker?" Samira laughed, sipping at her cider before continuing.
"You know who I'm talking about, Abbot's coming." Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion.
"Why would that be weird? Doesn't he always?"
"Definitely not on his day off, when he could be resting or doing whatever it is he does in his free time." You shrugged, opening your fridge to grab a cider for yourself.
"Well, it's not like I care. Or I guess I can't let myself care. He couldn't be what I needed him to, and I can't wait around hoping that one day he'll wake up and be the person I believe he is. I'm too accomplished to wait around on a guy like that," you popped the tab before adding, "You and I both are."
Samira cheered to that and you both took large swigs of the can. You squeezed your eyes shut and made a face, forgetting how tart the citrus flavor usually was. You spent the rest of your two-person pregame debriefing about work and fun cases you got, and also set a deadline for the two of you to start booking flights for Montreal--the vacation you guys were supposed to take two months ago.
Once you guys finished one can, you started the short walk to Ray's. Your apartment was much closer than Mohan's, which is why the two of you decided to meet up first and head over together. It was a Wednesday night, so it was mostly empty. There were a few random strangers playing pool in the corner, one of them catching your eye and lingering for a little too long.
"There they are!" Samira pointed to what you recognized to be the back of Mateo's head, leading the two of you over there. McKay was the first to notice you two, sliding over to make space for you on her side of the booth. On the other side of her sat Collins, Whitaker, and Santos. Across from you was Samira, followed by Mateo, Javadi, Robby, and Jack. You nodded hello at them all, careful not to linger on Jack for too long.
"So, what are we drinking?" you asked, pretending to skim the menu even though you ordered the same thing every time.
"Let's do a round of Bold Rock," Jack answered, putting his menu down and looking straight at you, "First round's on me." The weight of his stare did something funny to your throat, a reaction you weren't expecting to have.
"You know me so well," you teased, playing it cool and refusing to be anything but levelheaded. Samira glanced at you, gauging your reaction, but you just smiled before turning and jumping into conversation. The nine of you ended up getting three rounds, with Collins being the voice of reason to talk you guys out of a fourth round. You pouted, but knew it was for the best: nothing was worse than working a day shift hungover.
About two hours later, everyone remaining was ready to leave. Javadi, Whitaker, Samira, and Santos all left slightly earlier, claiming that they needed to catch the next train or else they'd have to walk. You slid out of the booth and headed towards the bathroom, proud of yourself for not peeing every other minute considering how much you drank. You splashed a bit of water on your face, hoping to wake and sober you up.
When you stepped out of the bathroom, you bumped into a hard mass. The stranger apologized, and when you looked up, you realized it was the guy from the pool table.
"I was hoping I'd run into you tonight," he mused, leaning against the wall and flashing you a dimpled smile. He was cute: the shirt he was wearing hugged his chest and biceps in a very flattering way, his hair curled and styled strategically to frame his face. But still, you didn't want him.
"Thanks, but no thanks," you replied, moving to step around him. He blocked your path with his body, boxing you in between him and the wall.
"Come on, that's no way to treat a friendly stranger, is it?" The politeness drained out of your body, not wanting to let him waste another second of your time.
"Move or I scream," you said flatly. You had done it a million times before, and you weren't afraid to keep doing it.
"What?" he asked, mildly amused by your antics. Before he had the chance to say anything sleazy, you opened your mouth and let out a shrill shriek, one that had him jumping back with his hands up as if to prove his innocence. "What the fuck is wrong with you?"
"I should be asking you that," you shoved past him, leaving the bathroom hallway to return to the main room of the bar. As you reached for the door, it swung open, revealing a panicked Jack, with the others close on his tail.
"Are you alright?" he asked, his breath beginning to even out now that he saw you in one piece.
"Peachy," you replied, stepping around him. He turned and followed you out, puzzled by your calm demeanor.
"Was that you screaming? What happened?" McKay asked immediately, Robby and Mateo flanking her on both sides. You shrugged, walking back to the booth to grab your purse and jacket.
"Nothing, just some asshole. They never seem to believe me when I say I'll scream," you laughed to yourself, reminiscing on all the times you had gone out with friends in college and came up with more and more absurd ways to get guys to stop flirting with you. "Seriously, I'm fine. But I'm getting tired now, so can we go please?"
Together, the group headed out of Ray's. Quickly, you all branched off, all of you living in different parts of Pittsburgh. Notably, Jack seemed to linger until it was just the two of you left.
"What are you doing?" you asked, knowing how this story went. How it seemed to always go.
"I'll walk you," he decided, starting in the direction of your apartment. It was easier to just follow him than waste your time arguing.
The walk back was silent, neither of you eager to be the first to speak. It was a comfortable silence, one that felt too familiar. You glanced over at Jack, but his eyes were trained on the sky as he looked deep in thought. When you rounded the corner and pulled up on your block, you half-expected his steps to slow, for him to watch from a distance as you entered the building.
But no, and just like he used to, he walked you all the way to the door.
"Can we talk?" he asked suddenly as you began to enter the gate code. Your hand dropped, not pressing the final key, and you turned to face him.
"Sure, let's talk." He looked past you, eyeing the door, then back at you.
"Do you want to go inside?"
"Nope, I'm good right here."
You needed to stand your ground. Besides, coming into your apartment was something you let friends do. Samira was a friend. McKay was a friend. Hell, even if Robby was a friend. But Jack lost that privilege.
He blew out a breath, taking his hands out of his pockets and looking up at you. In the entire time you've known him, this was the most vulnerable you've ever seen him look.
"I was scared of you," he admitted, "You were this brilliant, beautiful, bright thing in my life, and I felt like I didn't deserve you. You knew what you wanted and went for it, and I admired that about you. I still do. When we had that first conversation about what we were, I was in denial. I told myself that if we kept it casual, I wouldn't be at risk."
"At risk of what?"
"Losing you."
"Funny how that worked out," you mumbled grudgingly, still not entirely sure where he was going with this. Jack laughed quietly, looking down at his shoes, then back up at you with something shining in his eyes.
"Even now, you still don't falter. You are the strongest woman I have ever met, Y/N. You are also one of the smartest doctors I have ever worked beside, and you never failed to blow me away with every shift we worked together. "
Your breathing turned shallow, and you stood frozen on the doorstep. Jack took a few steps towards, stopping just before the first step.
"You scare me because I want to love you, and I don't know how. I have no idea how to be the man you want me to be, the one you deserve, the one you expect. I thought it was easier to give up altogether, but I was wrong, and I am so, deeply sorry for that Y/N. This past month without you made me realize how engrained in my life you were. I missed your texts, the way you'd always try new recipes that would fail and we'd have to order something for dinner, and how no matter what, you always showed up for the people depending on you. I think the world of you, Y/N, I really do. And I love you. I loved you during that first conversation, but just didn't know it. I loved you when I walked away from you on the roof, and I was scared of it. And I have loved and missed you every second since."
He paused briefly, searching your eyes for an answer. If it wasn't for the fact that you could hear your heart loudly thumping in your ears right now, you would've thought you'd died and gone to heaven.
"I want to be that man for you, Y/N, if you'll let me."
A moment passed, and then another, and another. You opened your mouth to speak, but the words died in your throat before you could get any out. So, you went for the next best thing.
You grabbed him by the collar and crashed your lips against his, one of your hands moving to the side of his neck and the other cradling his jaw. His hands snaked around your waist, somehow pulling you even closer. You were the one to pull away, resting your forehead against his.
"Yes," you answered, a little breathlessly at that. The corners of his mouth lifted, his hand going under your chin and tilting your head up so that he could look at you.
"Yes?" he repeated, still reeling from the shock of the moment. This time you nodded, and the smile spread like wildfire across his face. He pressed a kiss to your nose before wrapping an arm around your shoulder and guiding you both towards the front door.
"I'm not having sex with you tonight," you said, punching in the code to the door. Jack chuckled, pulling you in again.
"I wasn't expecting you too."
"Good. And you need to shower before getting in my bed, no outside clothes," you added, leading him down the hallway to your apartment.
"Wouldn't dream of it," he said, following you into your apartment once you unlocked it. He swung the door shut behind him as you kicked of your shoes.
"And I believe in second chances, but that's it. If you decide to pull away again, know--,"
"I won't," he reassured you, his fingers sliding into your belt loops and tugging you towards him, "I want you. Only you. All of you."
"I could get used to that," you thought aloud, earning a laugh from the both of you. You leaned into him, closing your eyes and basking in this moment that you thought would never happen.
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pairing: Jack Abbot x doctor!Reader summary: Under the bright lights of a fundraising gala, what began as polite smiles and veiled jabs unravels into something far more intimate. Between rooftop confessions, quiet grief, and a night neither party can take back, something buried for years finally comes undone. warnings: 18+ MDNI, explicit sexual content (semi-public sex, f!reader), blood and trauma in a hospital setting, description of medical procedures and deaths genre/notes: slow burn, frenemies to lovers (much banter), robby cameo + being a father figure, heavy angst + heavy fluff, hurt/comfort, emotionally repressed idiots in love, non-linear timeline, one (1) very touch-starved man, abbot down bad for his s.o. and def has a pain kink, balcony sex + confessions, pwp word count: 9k a/n: love letter to grief, rooftop confessions, and all the things left unsaid (+ shameless, self-indulgent smut), basically i saw this dress on pinterest and iâ
The hospitalâs annual fundraiser was all overpriced wine and board member schmoozingâthe kind of thing Jack Abbot usually avoided. He and Robby had spent the better part of the week arguing with Gloria about why they really didnât need to be the ones attending.
âBut who better to represent the emergency department than its finest?â Gloria had smiled with teeth. "Unless, of course, you'd prefer we reallocate your trauma bay supply order for next fiscal quarter?"
Abbot had muttered something under his breath. Robby had called it extortion. Gloria had walked away victorious.
âIf she reassigns our trauma supply budget one more time, I swear to God Iâm quitting,â Robby had muttered, though they both knew he wouldnât.
âRight there with you, brother,â Jack had said dryly.
Which was how he ended up in a suit, lingering by the bar with his tie already loosened.
The gala was obscene in its extravagance. A live string quartet played near the grand staircase. Crystal chandeliers caught every glint of champagne. Rich donors floated from one hors d'oeuvre table to the next, laughing politely and stuffing their faces with canapés that probably cost more than a full day of supplies for the ER.
It made Jack sick.
Not the donationsâhe appreciated those. Hell, the hospital needed them. But the tone of it, the way money moved through the room like perfume: thick, cloying, and designed to mask something rotten underneath. The people here didnât know what a trauma bay smelled like at 3 a.m. They didnât care. They were here to write a check, slap their name on a wing, and pretend it made them saints.
Jack took a sip of his club soda and stared at the bottom of his glass.
He wanted to gouge his eyes out. He just wasnât sure which fork to use.
Scanning the room, his eyes landed on Robby across the space, mid-conversation with a bejeweled donor who looked like sheâd never set foot inside a hospital ward. Robbyâs eyes caught Jackâs for the briefest second and widenedâjust enough to scream help me. Jack raised his glass and shot him a wink.
Then he saw you. He'd recognize your stride anywhere.Â
What he definitely hadnât expected was the red satin dress.
Floor-length, plunging back, slit high at the left thigh, the kind of fabric that caught the light like it was trying to start a fire. When you walked into the room, it was almost as though time stopped. You were across the room, charming some rich donor, laughing politely as he fumbled through a question about pediatric trauma outcomes.
Jack didnât hear the question. He didnât hear your answer either.
As you turned away from the donor, your bright smile dropped like a mask torn off. Your jaw clenched. You let out a tight breath through your nose, barely more than a sigh. It was the kind of reaction only someone whoâd seen you under a hundred different kinds of stress might catch.
Then you looked up and locked eyes with him. You froze.
Goddamn did Jack Abbot look good in a suit.
Salt-and-pepper curls styled just enough to look deliberate, not overdone. The tux hugged his frame perfectlyâsharp at the shoulders, tailored at the waist, cutting the kind of silhouette that belonged on a magazine cover instead of an ER floor. Heâd even opted for a close shave, his normally stubbled facial hair absent. And his tieâloosened just a touch too muchâleft a sliver of his throat visible, collar open like heâd tried to behave and gave up halfway through the evening.
You didnât smile. Neither did he.
But neither of you looked away.
The first time you met Dr. Jack Abbot, you were fresh off your fourth twelve-hour day shift that week. For the first two years of your residency, youâd been under Robbyâs wingâsolid, day-shift training, plenty of first-time experiences, and a support system that kept you steady. But when it came time to switch rotations, it was Robby who recommended you move to nights.
"More fast-paced," heâd reasoned. "Higher stakes. They could use your skills. Youâre ready."
Youâd heard about Jack Abbot by then. Everyone had. Ex-military. Brilliant. Demanding. A damn good trauma attending, and an even tougher mentor. You were equal parts intrigued and warned.
The ED hallway was buzzing, but you didnât miss the way Jack paused as you approached. He glanced at your badge, then at your postureâupright, composed, betraying none of the exhaustion you carriedâand finally at the trauma board.
âHope youâre fast,â was all he said, voice low and dry, like a test he didnât expect you to pass.
Turns out, you were more than fast. You were precise. Efficient. Clinical.
When a GSW came in thirty minutes laterâa young man with a single penetrating wound to the upper abdomenâyou and Abbot stepped in together. He hung back just enough to supervise, giving you space to lead the resuscitation while staying close.
You scanned the vitals: hypotensive, tachycardic, altered mentation. âGSW to the upper abdomen, likely mesenteric involvement. Initial BP was 80/40 with HR in the 130s, GCS at 13 but trending downward. Type and crossmatch. Two units O-neg. Prep for a laparotomy?â you asked, assessing quickly as you reached for gloves. Abbot nodded once, already handing you a sterile gown without a word.
He didnât stop you, but he didnât let you coast either.
âWhatâs your plan if the pressure doesnât stabilize after the second unit?â he asked as you both finished gowning up.
âCall for a third, reassess fluid responsiveness, consider vasopressors if no improvement,â you replied, already focused.
âAnd if thereâs massive hemoperitoneum?â
âPrioritize source control. Suction, pack, find the bleeder.â
Jack gave a small, approving hum. Then you glanced back at him, sharp, poised. He was holding out the handle of a blade to youâsteady, without fanfare.
âIâm not handling it,â he said matter-of-factly. âYou are.â
You blinked once, then reached for the blade. Gloved fingers curled around the handle as the rest of the room faded into peripheral noise. It was your show nowâand he was trusting you to lead it.
The team moved quickly. You made the incision, suctioned blood, clamped the bleederâa mesenteric vessel torn clean. Laparotomy pads soaked in seconds. Abbot kept an eye on the monitor, watching your hands. You found the source and controlled it, methodical and focused, with Jackâs quiet presence steady behind your shoulder.
Jack nodded once, the faintest glimmer of something like approval in his eyes. After the patient was wheeled off to the OR, gloves off and adrenaline still thrumming beneath your skin, he tossed you a saline flush and a towel. The rest of the team was still moving in organized flurries, cleaning up the bay, resetting trays, pulling down blood-streaked drapes. You peeled off your gloves slowly, breath catching up to you now that the adrenaline was fading.
The smell of antiseptic, blood, and sweat clung to everything. Your scrub top was damp with effort. And still, Jack hadnât said anything else. Just watched you like he was recalibrating something in his head. Taking the measure of you.
âNot bad,â he said.
You raised a brow. âNot bad?â
He smirked. âGuess weâll keep you. Though I should probably check the return policy with Robby before the trial period ends.â
Then, lowerâjust for you: âThough going nipples to navel on that first cut? Thatâs no manâs land. Bit too risky of a procedure for me to do myself.â
You blinked, thrown off your axis, trying to decide if he was being sarcastic or sincereâor both. âWhat?â
But Jack was already walking away, gloves off, like he hadnât just left you standing there like a deer in headlights.
You werenât expecting to see him either.
Jack Abbot in a tux. Sharp lapels. Cuffs neat. Hair styled but slightly tousled like he hadnât quite figured out how to look formal without messing it up on purpose. Heat rose to your face, tinting it the color of the rosĂ© being served tonight.Â
Turning around, you reached for a flute of champagne to occupy your thoughts. Heâd just crossed the room, weaving past a pair of donors discussing their latest golf fundraiser, his eyes never leaving you. The clink of glass and silver faded just enough for you to hear the soft brush of his dress shoes stop beside yours.
âRed,â he said, nodding toward your dress. "Didnât think it was in your rotation." He caught the soft trace of your perfume just as you inhaled the quiet warmth of his cologne.Â
You arched a brow. âTux? Let me guessâlast worn at prom?â
He huffed a laugh. The corner of his mouth tilted. "Wouldn't you like to know."
âNot really,â you smirked.
He leaned a little closer, voice low. "Howâd Gloria rope you into this mess?"
You took a sip of champagne, letting the bubbles fizz on your tongue before replying, âShe said the hospital needed a pretty face for the press photos.â
Jack raised an eyebrow. âAnd you volunteered willingly, I assume?â
âI did. She said she wanted someone who wasnât going to mention sock puppets in his opening speech.â
Jack tilted his head. "So you pointed her to literally anyone but me and Robby."
You smiled into your glass. âYou and Robby are very pretty. Just not âdonate-millions-of-dollarsâ pretty.â
He cracked a grin. âFair enough.â
You both leaned back slightly, falling into a rare pocket of easy quiet.
âIf I'm being honest,â he said after a breath, âthese things make my skin crawl. Donors patting themselves on the back for saving lives theyâve never seen.â
âAgreed,â you murmured. âItâs like they want the moral gold star without the 2 a.m. trauma call. Or the third straight shift without sleep.â
Jack glanced sideways at you. âOr the resident paycheck that barely covers rent.â
You let out a dry laugh. âAnd definitely not the part where we spend a decade training, rack up six figures of debt, and still have to fight for safe staffing ratios.â
He nodded once, quiet. âBut hey, at least they get their name etched onto a plaque of a hallway they'll get lost in.â
"God," you sighed. "I'd love to switch places with them for a day."Â
Jack snorted. âFive minutes in a trauma bay and theyâd be crying into their cufflinks.â
You were about to take another sip when you paused. âYou realize youâre wearing cufflinks.â
âWhich is why Iâm drinking soda instead of champagne. Keeps me grounded.â
A quiet breath escaped you, the corner of your mouth twitching. âYour commitment to moral superiority is truly inspiring.â
He gave you a narrowed look, not quite smiling but close. âSomeoneâs gotta keep the place honest.ïżœïżœÂ
You smiled to yourself, looking down and shaking your head, before excusing yourself to go charm another cluster of donors. âSee you aroundâJack.â
Youâd only ever said his first name once before.
He noticed.
Jack stood there a second too long, stunned, watching your retreating back like he wasnât sure what just happenedâor why it mattered so much.
The patient was coding. Jack was tied up in Room 3 with a liver lac. You were alone when Trauma 2 rolled inâblunt trauma, hypotensive, bleeding out.
You didnât wait. âI need two large-bore IVs, rapid sequence intubation kit, and thoracotomy trayâstat,â you barked to the team, already moving. âStart the MTP now.â
You slid the laryngoscope in cleanly, tube placed with practiced precision.
âVitals are dropping,â a nurse called out.
âI know,â you forced out. âKeep pushing the units.â
The tray snapped open beside you. You didnât hesitate. Just in case.
Abbot walked in right as you pulled your hands back, already prepped.
His eyes flicked from the open thoracotomy tray to the line placement to your gloved hands, bloody up to the wrists. He froze mid-step.
Then, without missing another beat, he stepped in beside you. âWhat the hell?â he muttered, voice low and calm. He didnât raise it. He never did when it really mattered.
His presence was immediateâlike someone flipping a switchâand suddenly the entire bay adjusted to him, calibrated around the two of you.
You didnât look at him. Just adjusted your grip and said, âVitals holding. Pressureâs up.â
âBalloonâs a little high,â he murmured, his voice almost too soft to hear over the hum of monitors.
You didnât flinch, but your pulse jumped. âAdjusted,â you said, fingers tightening slightly on the handle as you recalibrated, eyes glued to the screen.
A beat passed. Then another.
The pressure crept upward. Slowly. Steadily.
The patient stabilized.
You exhaled quietly through your nose, trying to ignore the chill of adrenaline threading down your spine. Jack was still watching youâtoo closely. And you couldnât tell if he was impressed or pissed or both. He didnât say anything for a long moment.
When you finally looked up, his eyes locked with yoursâsteady, unreadable, searching like he was still deciding how angry he was allowed to be.
âYou never shouldâve done that without approval from an attending,â he said quietly, the words measured but firm, laced with something heavier beneath the surface.
You nodded, jaw clenched. âUnderstood.â
Jack stepped closer. Lowered his voice.
âBut that was pretty badass. You just saved a life. Good job.â
Then he turned and left the trauma bay. The moment lingeredâhis words echoing in your ears louder than they should have.
Every pair of eyes seemed to shift away once he left, the noise of the trauma bay gradually returning to its usual rhythm. Monitors beeped. Carts wheeled past. Gloves peeled off with a quiet snap and hit the bin. Handsâsteady during the crisisânow trembled faintly.
Pride lingered. So did fear. And you werenât sure which feeling was winning.
Outside by the nurses' bay, Jack was leaning against the wall, one foot braced behind him, chart in hand but not moving. His gaze was distantâsomewhere far beyond the clipboard. A crooked smirk ghosted across his lips, then faded as quickly as it had come. He was still thinking about what you'd done. How steady your hands had been. How much you'd grown.
Heâd been impressed. Heâd also been scared.
That kind of procedure⊠it wasnât something heâd ever do lightly. And you? You hadnât hesitated. Not out of recklessness, but because youâd known it was the right call. The only call.
"Ballsy," he muttered under his breath. "Damn near reckless."
But his chest swelledâquietly, privatelyâwith something that felt a lot like pride.
The third time you ran into each other that night, it wasnât by accident.
You were leaning against a balcony railing, champagne nearly gone. One glass hadnât been enough to drown out the unbearable jargon and vapid conversationsâbut youâd promised yourself you wouldnât go overboard tonight. Just enough to appear socially well-versed.Â
The night had cooled, the breeze brushing goosebumps along your bare arms. Jack found you there, hands in his pockets, jacket unbuttoned, eyes catching on the subtle shiver that moved through your frame.
âYou always hide from donors this early?â he asked.
You didnât need to turn to know it was him. Youâd heard those footsteps enough times to recognize the rhythmâthe soft, sure cadence of someone who never rushed but never wandered. A grin tugged at the corner of your mouth before you could stop it. Subtle. Reflexive. Familiar.
âOnly the boring ones.â
He smirked and stepped beside you, pulling his jacket off with one fluid motion.
Before you could say anything, he draped it over your shouldersâslow, deliberate. His fingers brushed your bare arm on the way down. The heat of him lingered even through the fabric. And then there was the scent of his cologneâclean, sharp, and grounded by something warmer beneath it. The scent made your chest ache with something unnameableâfamiliar, steady, a little too easy to lean into. It curled in your lungs, lingered in the back of your throat. Your knees dipped slightly, an involuntary response you buried with practiced ease. Youâd never admit that, of course. Not even to yourself.
âYouâll freeze,â he said, voice quiet, almost an afterthought.
You didnât correct him. Just glanced up. He was already looking at you.
âYou look good,â he said finally.
Your brow raised.
âIn red,â he added, softer this time.
You didnât say thank you. Just looked at him. Let it sit there for a momentâheavy, a little too charged to touch.
"If you keep being nice to me, people are going to start wondering if the sodas were spiked."
That earned you a low chuckle, the corner of his mouth tugging upward in that infuriatingly subtle way he smiled when he actually meant it.
"Guess I'll have to ruin it with a sober insult later," he said.
You gave him a dry stare. "Looking forward to it."
The air between you tightened, warm and brittle. He shifted just slightly closer, like something unspoken pulled him there.
You shot him a sidelong glance, trying to smother the tension with humor. âDonât you have some attractive widows to go butter up?â
His lips twitched. âAlready secured donations from all of them,â he said, only half joking. Then, quieter, with a faint shrug: âNone of them were interesting.â
That gave you pause.
âI prefer women with poor work-life balance and sharp comebacks.â He looked at you again, the curve of his mouth bordering on a real smile now. "You?"
"Hm," you hummed to yourself. "I prefer women with competitive streaks and sharp eyeliner. And men with stress-induced insomnia, commitment issues, and the emotional availability of a damp dishrag."
Jack huffed out a quiet laugh. "Bold of you to describe my entire personality like it's a turn-on."
"If the shoe fits," you murmured, toying with your empty glass.
He looked at you thenâreally looked. Head tilted just enough to feel like he was trying to read something between the lines.
"Itâs always the sharp ones," he said. "Cut deepest, donât they?"
Your lips twitched. "Funny. I was just thinking the same about emotionally repressed men in positions of authority."
"TouchĂ©."Â
But neither of you moved further.
Jackâs voice lowered, something quieter threading through. âYou know, for what itâs worth⊠I notice. How hard you work. How much you give.â
That caught you off guard. The words settled in your chest, raw and warm. You swallowed around them.
âThen I hope you notice how often it gets overlooked,â you said, voice softer now. âBy everyone else.â
His eyes flicked toward yours, something unreadable in them. Like he wanted to say something else. Like maybe he would.
âHey!â
Robbyâs voice cut through the air like a 10-blade.
You turned, blinking back to the present. Robby's head was poking out of the curtains, waving a hand. âSorry to interrupt your⊠mood lighting, but I need to help charm this silver fox donor who wonât stop talking about his golf handicap and yacht collection. Wonât stop asking for the 'hot doctor with attitude.' So naturally, I assumed he meant you.â
You glanced back at Jack, reluctant.
He gave you a nod, but didnât say anything. Just watched you go.
Before you turned to leave, you slid the jacket from your shoulders and held it out to him. Jack stepped forward to take it, but his fingers brushed yoursâwarm, lingering, just a second longer than necessary.Â
His jaw tightened for half a breathâbarely perceptibleâbefore he masked it, reaching to take the jacket with a small nod. His fingers brushed yours again as he pulled it into his arms. The warmth still clung to itâso did your scent. Subtle, familiar, something floral and grounding. It curled in his chest as he inhaled, slow and quiet, like he didnât mean to. As you walked away, you felt the weight of his gaze follow youâsharp, lingering, impossible to shake. Like he was still holding something backâhe wasnât quite ready to let you go.
Once you were gone, he allowed himself to bring the jacket up to his face and breathe in lightly, letting the remaining trace of you settle in his lungs. It lingeredâclean, unmistakable, and quietly devastating.
With each year, the line between rivalry and familiarity blurred just a little more.
It wasnât just that you were the senior-most resident anymoreâit was that you were his senior-most resident. The one who matched him pace for pace in trauma bays, who called out orders with the same clipped authority, who rolled your eyes at his sarcastic one-liners only to throw them right back at him.
Jack gave you a hard time. You gave it right back.
It started as cold professionalism. Then it turned sharp. Competitive. Then somehow... comfortable.
âThink you can manage this without slicing through the aorta this time?â Jack murmured once during a late night thoracotomy.
âOnly if you donât pass out from blood loss first, old man,â you replied smoothly.
âOld man,â he repeated under his breath. âRemind me why I let you lead in my trauma bay?â
âBecause Iâm the best.â
He didnât respond. Just passed the next instrument with a soft, resigned smirk.
There was a night Shen caught you both bickering over a chart like a married couple.
"The guy had a fever and a murmurâof course Iâm thinking endocarditis," you said, exasperated, scribbling into the margins.
"And Iâm saying we still need to rule out pulmonary embolism first," Jack shot back, arms crossed, watching you like a hawk.
"Iâm writing the note," you reminded him.
"Are you going to type it up for me too?"
"If you want it to be legible."
Jack scoffed, but the corner of his mouth twitched.
Thatâs when Shen passed by, shook his head, and muttered under his breath, "Just kiss already."
Neither of you responded. Jackâs pen stilled in his hand. You didnât look at him. He didnât look at you.
But later that night, as you leaned against the med station reviewing labs, he passed behind you, fingers grazing your lower back as he brushed by.
Casual. Too casual. And yet, your breath caught anyway.
You didnât talk about it.
You never talked about it.
But it was there, all the same.
Back inside, the ballroom lights felt too bright. You smiled at a passing donor, glass still in hand, but your mind was still outsideâon the breeze, on his jacket, on the way Jack had looked at you like he wasnât ready to let you go.
You found yourself drifting toward the edge of the room, eyes scanning unconsciously. Jack had disappeared into the crowd.
Or so you thought.
âLooking for me?â
You turned to see him at your side again, now holding two drinksâone club soda, one bubbling glass.Â
You raised an eyebrow. âTrying to get me trashed on overpriced spirits, Dr. Abbot?â
âI would, if this were alcohol.â He offered the glass to you. âItâs ginger ale.â
You eyed it suspiciously, then took it anyway. âClassy.â
He tilted his head, lips twitching. âYou called me Jack earlier.â
âDonât let it go to your head.â The bubbles soothed your stomach, uneasy from all the talking and dizzy heights of empty small talk.Â
The quiet pressed in, heavy and hesitant, neither of you quite ready to fill itâbut neither willing to walk away.Â
âWell, Dr. L/N,â he said, tone dipping into something light but curious, âhow do you plan on spending the rest of your evening?â
You gave him a half-smile. âGetting some sleep. Or trying to.â You looked back out across the ballroom, then added, âI talked to Robby earlierâoffered to be on-call for day shift tomorrow. Filling in for Langdon.â
Jackâs brows lifted. âAren't you supposed to be off?â
âYup. So are you,â you said, glancing at him.
His mouth twitched, but he didnât deny it. You both knew the pattern by nowâsame days off, same shifts. Neither of you had ever pointed it out.
âWhat else would I do on a Friday?â There was something brittle in the joke, something quieter under it. âWork keeps me occupied.âÂ
Jack watched you for a second longer, then said, softer this time, âYou shouldnât have to keep yourself occupied. It's okay to take a breather.â
You let out a dry breath of a laugh, the edge of a smile curlingâbiting, but small. âThatâs rich coming from the only other person who works as many shifts as I do.â
Jack didnât answer. He just stepped a little closer.
âYou couldâve said no to being on-call,â he said. âCouldâve said you had plans.â
âI do,â you retorted. âSleep for three hours. Chug coffee. Go back.â
Jack tipped his head, like he was trying to read more into your tone than you meant to give away. âY/Nââ
The name stopped you cold. You took a half-step back before you could think better of it, reflexive and immediate, voice clipped and low. âDonât.â
That caught him off guard.
âIâsorry,â he said, brows furrowing slightly. âI justââ
âItâs fine,â you said quickly, too quickly.Â
Jack looked at you then, something close to understanding flickering in his eyes. As though he remembered, too. How could he forget?Â
The first time he'd said your name.
Blood on your scrubs. Tears in your throat. A patient you couldn't save.
He didnât say anything else. Just nodded once, slowly, and let you go.
Then, just as his mouth parted to say something elseâ
âDr. Abbot!â Gloriaâs voice rang out from the other end of the ballroom, hand ushering him to come over. âThe donor from Penn wants a word before he leaves!â
Jack clenched his jaw. His eyes lingered on yours.
âRain check,â he said, voice low.
You didnât answer, just gave a small nod as he walked away. And for a long moment after, you stayed where you were, ginger ale sweating in your hand.
You didnât answer, just gave a small nod as he walked away. And for a long moment after, you stayed where you were, ginger ale sweating in your hand.
You didnât know it at the time, but this was the moment youâd remember whenever someone asked when medicine stopped being just medicine.
The trauma call came in: car accident, two parents and a child, maybe 8 or 9. The parents were in rough shape but still awake, still responsiveâmoaning through cracked ribs and splintered glass. The kid, thoughâblunt force, GCS 3 on arrival. Completely unresponsive. You felt it in your gut before the vitals even came in.Â
Jack was across the bay when the doors opened. He looked up onceânodded at you. âYouâre lead. I'll stabilize the parents."Â
You didnât hesitate. Airway, trauma labs, two large-bore IVs. Portable chest. Fast scan. You called it all before the stretcher stopped moving.
The childâs body was limp. Small. Already pale. The pressure in your chest felt like a dam ready to burst.Â
You intubated with steady hands, but your voice falteredâjust slightlyâwhen you called for epinephrine. Jack appeared beside you somewhere around the second round of compressions, gloves on, silent. Watching. Present.
âVitals still unstable,â someone called from behind you. âBP 62 over palp. Pulse weak. Weâre pushing TXA now.â At least he'd stabilized the parents, you thought. If he could save them, you could save their little girl.Â
Four bags of blood and 18 minutes of chest compressions. The monitor stayed flat.
Still, you kept going. Pushing meds. Calling for another round. Someone offered to take over for compressions, murmured that you needed a break. You shook your head. âIâm fine.â
Then again, more firmly. âIâve got it.â
No one tried to argue. You were lead. You had it.
Even as your arms began to ache. Even as the blood kept pooling, the compressions rhythmically jarring through your bones. You wouldnât stop. Couldnât. The team was moving around you, quiet, reverent.
Then Jack stepped in closer.
âMonitor hasn't picked up a rhythm in 12 minutes,â he said gently. âWe can't keep up with the blood loss. There's too much internal damage. You know this.â
You shook your head, barely perceptible, and kept going. Compressing, counting, calling for another round of epi.
Jackâs voice stayed level. âAnyone else wouldâve been pronounced dead at the scene.â
You ignored him. Just a few more compressions and transfusions and she'd come back.Â
Thenâ
âY/N.â
That made you freeze.
The name. His voice.
Your hands were still trembling against the childâs chest.
You looked at the monitor. Heard the continuous tone. Flatline.
No pulse.
âCall it,â Jack pleaded softly.
Your voice was quiet. Hoarse. Cold.
âTime of death, 03:17.â
You stepped back, stripped your gloves off slowly. Fingers stained with blood you couldnât stop from spilling. Jack said nothing. He didnât leave.
You swallowed hard, trying to force the tears down. To breathe through the break in your chest.
Jack didnât touch you this time. He just stood there.
Let you fall apart, silently.
Then you ripped off your gloves and threw them hard into the bin, the sound louder than it had any right to be. You turned and stormed out of the trauma bay without looking back, jaw clenched so tight it hurt.
That was the first time he said your name.
And it pulled you back. You never forgot it.
Sometimes you wished you had.
Back inside, the music had changed.
Youâd barely rejoined the crowd when the lights dimmed and the emcee called out for the first dance of the evening.
Across the ballroom, Jack saw you before you saw him. You were standing near the edge of the crowd, nursing the last of your drink, the weight of something invisible pressing into your posture.
But you werenât alone. A tall manâone of the younger donorsâhad his hand on your arm, leaning in to say something. He offered you his hand.
Jackâs jaw tensed.
He didnât moveâat first. Just watched as you smiled politely, took the man's hand, let him lead you to the dance floor.
It was brief. Chaste. Just a dance. But Jack hated the way the guy's hand lingered at your waist. Hated how close he stood, how you nodded along to something he said, even if your smile didnât reach your eyes.
A minute later, you gently swapped out with Robby, excusing yourself from your first partner. Robby took your hand with a flourish and spun you once like a game show host. You smiled for the first time in hours.Â
"You okay?" he asked gently, settling into a slower sway with you.
You shrugged. "Long week."
Robby gave you a dad-look. "Anything in particular on your mind, or just the usual existential dread?"
A quiet laugh escaped, softer than you meant for it to. "Just the usual, I guess."
For a while, the two of you swayed in silence. Robbyâs gaze stayed soft. "Youâve been a little quiet lately. Even more than usual. You sleeping okay? Eating?"
Instead of answering right away, your eyes drifted to his shoulder. "Iâm fine."
"You always say that. Doesnât mean I believe it."
A small, grateful smile curved your lips. Robby always knew how to make spaceânever too much, never too little. He left the door open without pushing you through it.
"You know Iâve got your back, right kid? You ever need to talk, about anything, even the stuff you think youâre not supposed to say out loudâcome find me."
"Thanks, Robby. I mean it."
He gave your hand a gentle squeeze. "I know you do."
A voice cut inâlow and smooth.
"Mind if I cut in?"
You turned.
Jack stood there, one hand extended. He didnât look at Robby. He didnât need to.
Robby chuckled under his breath and stepped aside. "Sheâs all yours."
Jackâs eyes met yours, steady and unreadable.
âDance with me?â he asked, softer than you'd expected.
For a second, you didnât answer. Your breath caught, mind still echoing with the last time youâd heard him say your name.
But then you noddedâslow, tentativeâand slid your hand into his.
He guided you gently into step, the rhythm of the music slower than your pulse. His hand settled against your waist, warm and sure, like it had always belonged there. The other laced with yours, a silent tether.
You moved together with a surprising ease, like muscle memory forged in proximity, not practice. It wasnât just a danceâit was a conversation. A quiet exchange, careful and cautious. Every shift of weight, every brush of fingers was a sentence neither of you dared speak aloud.
You didnât look up right away. Couldn't. The proximity was dizzying. It wasnât the champagne. It was him.
Jackâs voice came, low and even. âYou always this good at pretending everythingâs fine?â
You finally glanced up, something caught between a smile and a flinch playing on your face. âOnly when Iâm trying to impress a colleague.â
His mouth twitched, barely. âThat why you always pull it together when Iâm around?â
You didnât answer.
Gliding across the floor, you felt like you were floating. And still, the weight of his hand at your waist grounded you.
You werenât sure which was more dangerous: the silence, or the closeness.
âI used to think if I kept moving, I wouldnât have to feel any of it,â you said, voice barely above the swell of the music. âBut some things catch up to you anyway.â
Jackâs grip shifted slightly, not tighter, just⊠more present. âRunning worksâuntil it doesnât.â
A beat passed.
âI donât run,â you said quietly.
He met your eyes. âNo. You bury it. Same result, different damage.â
You exhaled through your nose, something between a laugh and a sigh. âFunny. Thought we were dancing, not diagnosing.â
âWe can do both,â he said, dry but not unkind. âI go to therapy. You slow dance at charity galas.â
Your gaze flicked to his lips, then away. âGuess my way is cheaper since I'm not paying for any of the wine or dine.â
Jackâs hand at your waist didnât budge. If anything, it steadied you more.
âY/N,â he said after a moment, voice gentler now. Like he was handing something over. Like he wanted you to take it.
Your shoulders tensed. Jaw muscles flexed.Â
He noticed.
You looked up, met his gaze, and said, quieter than before but with unmistakable weight, âJack, youâre walking on thin ice.â
He didnât flinch. But something flickered in his expressionâsomething equal parts affection and surrender.
You only used each otherâs names when it mattered.
The only difference was: he loved it. You hated it.
The hospital had quieted for the night, but the kind of quiet that screamed underneath.
You assisted on his last caseâanother loss, but this one had cut deeper than usual. Maybe it was the way Jack had gone cold, all clinical control and efficiency⊠until the voice crack. Just a flicker. A tremor. Heâd kept going, ordering transfusions, calling vitals, his tone even until it wasnât. You saw itâbehind the focused eyes, there was fear.
You were the one standing next to him when he finally called it.
You found him up thereâon the roofâwhere the city lights couldnât quite wash out the weight in his shoulders. Jack was staring out past the edge, hands in his coat pockets, the wind catching just enough to make his scrubs flutter at the hem.
You didnât speak right away. Just stood a few paces behind him, letting your presence fill the space before your voice did.
âI figured Iâd find you up here.â
Jack didnât turn. âShouldnât you be home?â
âI had to wrap up some charting.â
A beat.
âThey were a veteran,â he said. âHad a daughter who just got into college.â
You took a step closer. âThat wasnât your fault.â
He let out a quiet, humorless sound. âI know. Doesnât help.â
You hesitated, then moved beside him, standing shoulder to shoulder.
âI must have had a reason at one time to keep coming back," he murmured, âbut I can't think of it right now."
You didnât have an answer.
But you said his name.
âJack.â
It was the first time youâd said it out loud. Not Dr. Abbot. Not anything guarded. Just him.
He turned then, slowly.
âDonât shut down on me,â you said. âNot tonight.â
The wind carried your words away, but he heard them. You saw it in the way his jaw tightened. The way his shoulders dropped just slightly.
âI donât know how to stay,â he said, voice rough.Â
âYou donât have to stay alone.â
He glanced at you thenâjust briefly, like eye contact might split him open.
You searched his face, thinking back to the moment in the trauma bay where he called it. Where his voice cracked but didnât waver. Where his gloved hands were steady even though his eyes gave him away. Youâd never seen him look like that beforeâso composed, so clinical, and still, so unmistakably human.
The memory stuck to your ribs.
âI know itâs not fair,â you said, voice low. âThat we carry the worst of them home. That we never get to know if we were enough.â
Jack didnât speak. But he didnât move either. That was something. So you added, a little too soft, âBut you are. You are enough.â
A long silence.
Then, to break itâbecause it felt like too muchâyou rolled your shoulder and said, âRobbyâs gonna kick your ass if you jump off during his shift.â
Jack huffed, the sound barely audible but real.
âCome on,â you added, nodding toward the stairwell. âLetâs get off this roof before someone reports us for loitering.â
You didn't move.
Not yet.
Just stood there in silence, waitingânot because you needed him to follow, but because you werenât going anywhere without him.
And Jack came. Eventually. Quiet and heavy and slow, the shuffle of his shoes steadying against the roof's concrete.
He didnât say anything. Just stepped beside you, close enough to share warmth but not break space.
Then you walked. Together. Not quite brushing shoulders, but close enough to feel it. Close enough to stay.
The night had grown heavier.
Somehow, you and Jack had found your way back to the balconyâagain. It was quieter out here, the city humming beneath you, wind tugging softly at your hair. Your skin still held the memory of his hand at your waist. The music inside was muffled now, like the two of you had stepped out of the narrative entirely.
Jack leaned against the railing, but his gaze never left you. Something about the way he was lookingâlike heâd been holding back something for far too long.
You crossed your arms, more to anchor yourself than anything. âYouâre staring.â
âYou said my name,â he replied, voice low.
Your throat tightened. âYou started it.â
He pushed off the railing, slow and deliberate. âYou know what I mean.â
You didnât back away. But your voice came sharper this time, more breath than warning. âDonât. Donât start something neither of us can come back from.â
That gave him pause. He looked like he wanted to say somethingâmaybe everythingâbut bit it back. Jaw tight. Shoulders tense.
âIâm not trying to hurt you,â Jack said. âBut I can't keep pretending this is nothing.â
With a quiet breath, he confessed. âI canât stop thinking about you.â
Your heart tripped.
âI try,â he continued, voice cracking. âGod, Iâve tried. But you show up in every shift. Every damn quiet moment. I hear your voice when I walk through those doors. I look for you at every trauma call. And when youâre not there, itâs worse.â
You didnât speak.
âIâve been through hell,â he went on, stepping closer, âseen things I still donât have names forâbut none of it scares me the way you do. Because this?â He gestured between you. âThis is real. And if I say it out loud, I donât get to pretend anymore.â
Your breath hitched. âJackâŠâ
He looked at you, eyes tired and wide open. âSay something. Please.â
Your voice came out thinner than you meant. âYou're my attending, weâre not supposed toââ
âI donât care.â
The silence cracked wide open between you.
You let out a breathâshaky, exasperated.
"Fuck," you said, voice breaking. "What do you want me to say? That I can't stop thinking about you either? That I see your eyes every time I close mineâyour smile, rare as it is, stuck in my head like a damn echo? That I come home and swear I can still smell your cologne because itâs the only thing that brings me any sense of comfort?"
Your hands were trembling now. You didnât stopâcouldn't.
"Pretending this means nothing is easier than risking what happens if it actually matters. Because if it doesâJackâ"
Jack caught you before you could even get the words out. His mouth was on yours, rough and unyielding, and you didnât stop him. Didnât want to. You kissed him like you meant it, because fucking hell, did you mean it.Â
When your back hit the wall beside the balcony doors with a quiet thud, he pressed closer, hands framing your jaw like you were something to be memorized.
There was nothing polite in the way you touched each other now. Just years of tension, unspoken things, and the desperate need to feel something real.
You didnât let go.
Neither did he.
His lips trailed lower, brushing the hinge of your jaw before nipping gently at your neck. The sound you madeâhalf breath, half shockâonly seemed to spur him on.
âThen donât pretend,â Jack whispered against your skin, voice rough and reverent. âLet yourself have this. Let us have this.â
Your hands cradled the sides of his face, fingers brushing across his cheekbones. All these years spent by his side and you hadnât taken the time to admire his freckles.
You leaned in again, pressing your lips to hisâslower now, deeper. One of his hands slid down your back, splaying across the small of it as if anchoring you in place. The other tangled into your hair, careful but needing.
You gasped when his hips met yours again, your breath catching between kisses. He pulled back just enough to look at you, cheeks flushed, pupils blown wide.
"I need you," you finally said.
And that was all he needed.
He rushed to close the curtains on the inside and lock the balcony doors before returning to you.Â
Your world narrowed to the way his mouth reclaimed yours, the press of his body, the heat building like a fuse lit too close to the end. Somewhere in the distance, the city kept moving. But here, in the quiet shelter of the balcony, there was only this.
Jack dropped to his knees, the motion fluid and reverent. You sucked in a breath as his hands slid up the backs of your thighs, coaxing one leg upward until your heel hooked over his shoulder. Your foot pressed gently against the curve of his back.
He tugged at the hem of your dress. You were already holding the hem of your dress, bunching it at your hips with practiced ease. The lace of your underwear was delicate, barely in the wayâhe hooked a finger around the side, sliding it aside with a slow, deliberate motion that made your breath hitch.
You were already soaked, and the way his eyes flicked up confirmed he knew it.
He looked up at you once, eyes dark and unwavering, before leaning in.
His mouth was slow at firstâexploring, learning you. The way your breath stuttered when his tongue found a sensitive spot, the way your fingers clenched in his hair. âYou taste just as incredible as I imagined,â he murmured, more to himself than to you. When he inserted a finger and curled towards himself, you nearly buckled.
You didnât mean to cry out, but it slipped past your lips, helpless and raw. Your hand flew up to cover your mouth, which made him smirk. He caught your elbow with his free hand, gently but insistently, pulling your hand away and intertwining your fingers into his hair. You gave his curls a tug and were met with a moan. It was impossible to hide the smug grin that painted your face.
âI want to hear you,â he murmured, voice thick with heat. His voice dipped lower, rougher. âNeed everyone to hear how beautiful you sound for me.âÂ
You felt the press of the marble wall cool behind you as your back arched. One hand flew to the wall, the other gripping his shoulder as he kept goingâsteadfast, focused, like you were the only thing that existed. Like this was something he'd been starving for.
And maybe you had been too. Because every sound, every gasp that left you was honest.
You hiked your knee higher, anchoring your heel along the dip of his back. The dress had long since stopped mattering.
Jackâs grip tightened, one hand digging into the curve of your ass as he anchored you against the wall. His other hand slipped between your thighs, fingers sliding inside you with practiced precision, curling until your legs nearly gave out.
"Jack, I'mâ" You moaned into your clenched teeth, the sound too loud, too needyâbut he wanted it, taking it in like oxygen.
Your head fell back against the wall with a soft thud, eyes fluttering closed as your breath came in shallow, stuttering waves. He didnât let up. The rhythm was relentless, mouth and hand working in tandem, dragging you closer to the edge with every sweep, every flick, drinking you like water from a desert oasis. He stopped only when you tapped his cheek twice, silently begging for mercy.Â
Your skin glistened, flushed with heat. Before he pulled away, Jack leaned in again, his tongue tracing the trails of your release up your inner thigh with slow, savoring strokes. Each pass of his mouth made you twitch, gasp, overstimulated but unwilling to stop. He kissed the soft skin in their wake.
When he finally looked up, his face was just as wrecked, jaw set and glistening with you. And the look in his eyes when he glanced upâhungry, worshipfulâwas enough to ruin you.
His lips were parted just slightly, chest rising and falling in quick, uneven bursts. âGod, youâre perfect.â His eyes lifted to meet yours with something close to divine awe.
It came out quietâlike a confession he'd finally allowed himself to say out loud.
You leaned down and kissed him, tasting yourself on his tongue. He let out a low, contented sound against your mouth, one hand tightening around your thigh, the other still steadying your hip. You could feel the tension in himâtender, achingâas if the moment might slip through his fingers if he didnât hold it close.
Your fingers slipped into your dress, pulling free a small foil square tucked just inside the cup of your bra. Jack blinked down at it, then back up at you, clearly caught off guard.
He raised an eyebrow. "Seriously?"
You shrugged, breathless. "Was holding it for a friend."
Jack smirked, eyes dragging down your body. "Sure you were."
You made quick work of his belt, unbuckling it and pushing his pants down just enough.
âHe talks too much,â you muttered, smirking.
You looked down.
And stopped.
He was perfect. Cut, trimmed, thick, just the right length. The kind of sight that made your breath hitch. Your hand slid along his length with a few firm pumpsâjust enough to make him hiss between his teeth.
You couldn't resist. Lowered to your knees, gave him a few languid licks, savoring the taste. He whimpered, his hand gently gripping your hairâbut not pulling, not yet.
After a few more pumps, Jack pulled you up by the chin with a bruising kiss, swallowing your gasp.
âIâm not coming anywhere but inside you,â he growled against your lips.
You smiled, teasing. âMaybe next time, then.â Your fingers trailed down the front of his dress shirt, feeling the heat of his body even through the fabricâmuscles taut and firm beneath your touch.
Then you turned, facing the wallâcheeks flushed, breath short. One hand braced flat against the cool marble, the other gathering the bunched fabric of your dress. You looked over your shoulder, eyes dark with want.
Jack swore under his breath. He moved behind you in a blur, hands rough on your hips as he lined himself up. The heat of him pressed against you, teasing, maddening.
âAre you sure?â he asked, voice lower than gravel.
You pushed back, just enough for him to sink in, slow and deliberate. He filled you up inch by inch, warm and hot and perfect, making you gasp as your forehead pressed to the wall.
His hands wrapped around your hips as he bottomed out, his mouth dragging along your neck, teeth grazing your skin until he whispered a sharp, broken "fuck"âmore to himself than to you. Like he was trying not to explode.
You tried to move, just a little forward, a little backârestless with needâbut his hands tightened.
âDonât,â he breathed. âJustâjust give me a second. You feel fucking incredible.â
âJack,â you whimpered.
If he clenched his teeth any harder, he might've popped his jaw. "Fuck, I love when you call me by my name."
Your voice was barely above a whisper. âPlease.â
That undid him.
He gripped your hips tighter, fingertips digging into your supple fleshâjust shy of bruising. The pain was delicious, grounding you to every thrust, every second of connection, hips rocking forward, slowly at firstâdeep, deliberate, like he wanted to feel every inch of you from the inside out. Each thrust sent a spark up your spine, your moans echoing softly. His mouth returned to your neck, biting just enough to leave a mark, his breath hot against your skin.
"You feel too good," he muttered, almost like it hurt. "Too good."
You tried to respond, but the words got lost somewhere in your throat as his pace picked upâharder, deeper, everything building.
Your hands flattened against the wall, bracing yourself as your body rocked with his rhythm. It was dizzyingâoverwhelmingâin all the best ways. Every drag of his hips made your knees tremble, every grunt and growl in your ear pushed you closer to unraveling.
Without warning, he turned you around to face him. His eyes were blown wide, pupils dilated, chest heaving. He lifted your left leg with his right hand, supporting your thigh against his side as he surged forward again.
The angle had you seeing starsâvision spinning as he hit that spot inside you with maddening precision. You gasped, nails digging into his shoulders as your head dropped forward against his.
Your hands clasped behind his neck, holding tight, desperate to keep him there. You raked your fingers through his curls, tugging hard enough to make him moanâand dragged your nails lightly down the back of his neck, leaving a faint trail of heat in their wake. His mouth found yours againâtongue hot, hungryâkissing you like he needed it to breathe. His left hand anchored you by the hip, grinding you against him as his rhythm deepened, pulling another cry from your throat.
There was nothing left but heat, hands, breath. And the way he looked at you like you were the only thing he'd ever wantedâneeded.
"I'm yours," he whispered, forehead resting against yours, voice ragged. It wasnât a declarationâit was a truth. Raw and full and real.
Your lips brushed his, trembling. âAnd Iâm yours.â
The moment cracked open between you. You kissed himâdesperate, hungry, chasing the high you were both barely holding onto.
You felt yourself teetering, the peak just within reach. Jack looked like he was holding back, focusing on keeping every muscle drawn tight with restraintâputting your pleasure before his. But you needed him there with you, completely.
You leaned into his ear, breath hot. âI need you to cum for me, Jack.â His fingers dug deeper into your hip. "I need you to fill me up."Â Your knee wrapped tighter around his torso, drawing him impossibly closer as you held him to you, clinging like he was the only thing keeping you grounded. You bit the curve of his neck, sharp and claiming.
That was all it took.
He let out a guttural sound, hips stuttering as he came undone, pulling you with him into a release that felt like freefallâearth-shattering and unrelenting.
Your release crashed through you moments after his, drawn out and all-consuming. Every nerve lit up, your body shaking with the intensity of it. It wasnât like anything elseâno drug, no high. Just him. You. This.
For a long beat, neither of you moved. Your breath came in broken gasps, foreheads pressed together, bodies trembling in the aftermath. Sweaty. Beautiful. And quiet.
Jackâs hand smoothed up your spine, grounding you. His lips brushed your temple, and the world finally began to settle back into place.
He gently brushed strands of damp hair from your face, fingers tender where they swept against your skin. The breeze caught a few pieces, but they clung to the sheen on your cheeks. When you finally let your leg down, your knees buckled slightly. Jack caught you without hesitationâarms strong, sure, keeping you steady as your weight shifted. You clung to him without thinking, hands gripping his shoulders like a lifeline. When you finally loosened your grip, he didnât let go right awayâhis arms still braced around you like muscle memory, like instinct.
Pulling back, you realized what a disheveled mess the two of you were.Â
You reached up and smoothed down the front of his shirt, fixing the lapels of his suit, tugging the hem of his jacket into place. Thankfully whatever hair gel he used was bulletproof, only a curl or two out of place. He brushed his fingers along your hairline, gently tucking back strands that had come loose, then adjusted the strap of your dress where it had slipped off your shoulder.
There was a beat of silenceâcomfortable, but heavy.
Clearing your throat, you tried to gather your thoughts. âI, uhâŠâ
Jackâs eyes remained a little dazed, as if he was still anchoring himself to the moment.
A breath escaped youâhalf-laugh, half-exhale. âTea. I was gonna ask if you wanted to come back to mine for tea.â
He blinked once, then his lips quirked.
âTea?â
âYeah,â you said, half-smiling. âOr, like⊠whatever. Just to wind down. You donât have to.â
Jack shook his head once, slow. âOnly if youâre not just holding it for a friend.â
You rolled your eyes, but you were smiling too. âYouâre welcome anytime, Jack. You know that, right?â
His gaze softened. âYeah,â he said. âYeah, I do.â
You nodded once, awkward and earnest. âCool. Good. Great.â
Jack raised an eyebrow. âYou always this smooth after balcony sex?â
You shot him a glare filled with playful menace. "Depends. You always this cocky after someone invites you over for tea?â
He smiledâone of those rare ones, small and sideways. âOnly when itâs not just for the tea.â
You groaned. âYouâre insufferable.â
âYeah,â he said again, softer this time. âBut Iâm yours, remember?â
You tilted your head, smirking. âReturn policy on that is⊠nonexistent, right?â
His smile widened just a touch. âFor as long as youâll have me.â
âCareful, Jack. That almost sounded romantic.â
He chuckled, then sobered just enough to meet your eyes. âMaybe it was.â
The breeze danced around you both again, brushing cool air against flushed skin. Still, the warmth between you remained.
âCome on,â you said, tugging gently at his hand. âLetâs go before someone realizes weâve been out here defiling the sacred balcony.â
He followed without hesitation. Fingers laced with yours.
This time, neither of you looked back.Â
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Jack Abbot x resident!reader
Warnings: Cursing, drinking, medical inaccuracies, not beta read, me coming back from the dead, attempts at humor, age gap (reader is in late 20s/ early 30s)
Word count: 2500+ (oh well)
COWBOY TAKE ME AWAY OR when your best friend ends up in the ER after her Cowboy themed bachelorette party with a broken leg and a mouth that just keeps talking you might be in over your head.
You were going to kill her, after they stick her leg in a cast and once she sobered up you were going to kill her. Taking the weekend off in order to go to your best friends bachelorette was planned weeks in advance, the cowgirl theme was coordinated from outfits to drinks, you spent months on the whole thing, being the maid of honour and all- you hand glued BRIDE in gemstones to her white cowboy hat, hell you had hand-sewn the veil to the hat. You planned the whole fucking thing while being a year 3 resident (you survived a few months on good will and fumes for it) and frankly you were looking forward to a night away from your work and the giant obvious crush you had on one of the attendings you were planning on getting over by finding a bison for the night.
And yet there you were getting Becca and her fucked leg into the PTMC, two purses on your scantly clad shoulder and one of her white boots under your armpit- you had remembered to text Ellis on the way to let her know you were coming, no sense in letting the drunk babbling bride wait- you just wished sheâd stop asking if she was finally going to see your sexy doctor.
You also regretted ever having spilled about Abbot. The night was perfect for stories of old flames, sex lives and your miserable thing for the hot night shift attending and now you might have to plan a move to Mexico the way she was going. You stopped after two cocktails, knowing the bride was injury prone, Becca told you she planned on getting smashed for her bachelorette the moment Jules proposed and who were you to stop her. You were regretting it now as you took her into the ER waiting room.Â
âBet you heâll love the outfit.â
âBeck, please shut up about that, please? I need to be able to show my face at work again.â
âOh youâre showing a lot more than your face today babe.â
âYes I know my tits are out I didnât exactly plan on showing up at my place of work tonight.â
She just giggled and tapped the pink hat on your head. Great.Â
She had jokes for someone in her place, you were happy to know that alcohol and adrenaline still had a grip on her. You got her seated in the waiting room and went up to fill out her paperwork when a whistle cut you off- Shen, of course heâd be the first person to find you. He gave you an amused once over, leaning his weight on a wheelchair he had with him.
âWell, well good evening or do you prefer ye-haw?âÂ
âHowdy actually.â
You tipped your hat for added effect, might as well commit to the bit.
â-and since youâve got jokes you might want to keep them for the cowboy in chief herself.â
He followed your line of sight where Becca was holding her immobilised leg.
âIâm assuming thatâs my fracture? Was the rodeo that rowdy?â
âStill is.â
âYou coming with?â
âIâll come after you after I write her insurance info- donât listen to a word she says and donât light any matches near her.â
âHow come youâre still standing?â
âIâve known her since college and if thereâs someone you keep an eye on itâs Beck.â
He gave a smile before pushing on with the wheelchair in his arms to Becca, who opened with the brilliant opening that may as well have been your gravestone-
âYouâre not the hot doctor.â
The laughter he let out startled an older woman who looked like she was about to fall asleep on the plastic chair.
âIâm Doctor Shen, Iâm also slightly offended but you can tell me more about this hot doctor of yours while I have a look at that leg.â
For fucks sake.
âItâs not my hot doctor, itâs hers, but itâs a secret!â
A big secret given her pointing towards you.
âOh is it?â
If Shen knew the whole hospital would know by tomorrow. Maybe you can practice medicine somewhere nice and far-like North Korea.
âGood job on keeping it Beck, the yelling helps.â
âDonât hold back on the details Cowboy Bride, please keep talking for as long as youâd like- it helps with the pain.â
The maniacal laugh she let out told you you were as fucked as you thought you might be. You thanked the nurse at the check in desk and went back to grab the purses and hopefully pass unseen to your locker to leave Becca's boots and salvage a bit of dignity before your peers and their insufferably handsome attending.Â
You were perfectly normal about him the first time you met, you would swear on it and even if you weren't you didnât know a single person who didnât stare at his arms the first time they saw him.
It was all fine and almost fun and then one hand held scalpel assistance with whispered praise lead to what you hoped was flirting and then those shoulders showed up uninvited to a wet dream and you found yourself truly and deeply fucked. The worst part was it wasnât even just a sex thing, he made you laugh, he made you feel safe. You shared whispers and quiet drinks after long shifts, youâve been handed as many coffees before a long night as you have beers after a long day. Youâve tag teamed shit cases, youâve joined in on bets, you had inside jokes, hell he gave you butterflies you didnât know you could still get. Itâs one sided- you remind your self, it would be inappropriate that didnât stop Collins and Robby your brain cheats but she probably didnât barge in with a drunk friend objectifying him in tiny shorts and a bright pink push up bra poking from underneath her white shirt.Â
 You were so focused on immobilising her and getting her in shape to get to the hospital comfortable that you didnât think to grab your jacket from the table to cover up a bit of your pride and you vividly remembered packing up most of the spares from your locker to give them a wash over the weekend. The familiar chill of the ER enveloped you and you were all too aware of the tiny denim cut offs and the bra baring button up tied at your waist. When you planned the outfit you were hoping for a âforget about himâ hookup and a night of good riding jokes and before the leg disaster it gave you a good confidence boost- you looked good, hell you looked fantastic and you felt like an idiot. Your hand shot up to take the hat off before making a run to the lockers but Ellis caught a glimpse of you as you did and her face split in a shit eating grin.
âNow, thatâs a look-â
âWeâve seen less clothed people come in-â
âNot doctors.â
âIâm off the clockâ
âOr off the cock?â
âThis Cowgirl didnât get to do any riding seeing as the rodeo was closed due to injury.â
âHow did that happen?â
âSheâs really into Sabrina Carpenter and a clumsy drunk.â
The face you got out of her told you all you needed to know, while your shifts now rarely overlapped you became good friends during your residency but Ellis had the face of a shark on her as she opened her mouth to speak:
âOur good attending Doctor Abbot is actually with your Bride, theyâre in Trauma 2 if you want to go hold your friends hand and help with her medical history before she goes for an x-ray. Oh she is quite the talkerâ
âWasnât Shen with her?â
âOh he was but he called in Abbot so he could go check up on his other patients-â
There was that shark smile again.
âIâll kill him.â
You felt a blush creeping from your chest as you turned to walk but before you knew it she was right by your sideÂ
â-let me walk you actually, wouldnât want to miss his face-â
âI think I can find my way to it just fine, just get me a shovel to dig my grave once Iâm back.â
âYouâre telling me I have to miss seeing you give Rabbit a heart attack?â
âYou have to miss my last moments in the pitt before one of the attendings finds out from my very drunk friend a lot of crap that no one is supposed to know about.â
She turned back to her chart, still smiling before saying one last thing
â- donât tell that to the all the money we all have in the betting poolâ
âOh fuck me.â
âHe might!â
You left with a middle finger in the air and your cowboy hat by her chart. Running a hand over the ponytails you attempted before the party you made your way to the room Becca was in- the motion gave you a sense of comfort. You had never felt more awkward in the ER in your life, you had gotten puked and pissed on here, you had said stupid stuff, you had blushed from head to toe the first time Abbot whispered good job to you, you had gossiped and placed bets here and you were dragging your pink boot clad feet because who the fuck knew what Becca had already told him. Sighing you pressed the button to enter the room.
âAny allergies?â
He asked, not turning around from her.
âOh I thought you left! You didnât tell me he was this nice!â
If you werenât in it youâd think it was funny, your cool, calm, collected, attending turned towards you and his eyebrows met that gorgeous hairline at the same time his lips turned into a smirk.
"Well Howdy there."
"Hello Doctor Abbot."
You forced out as confidently as you could trying not to curl into yourself.
âWhereâs the rest of your shirt?â
âLost it at the rodeo?â
âAh.â
Eloquent Doctor Abbot
âShe hasnât got any allergies, sheâs full of tequila and you canât trust a word she says- whenâs she in line for an x-ray?â
âAs soon as I can decipher who the hot doctor she keeps asking about is.â
Becka gave you an innocent smile and you made a list of places no one would find her body.
âYou uh-do that and Iâll call Jules, her fiancĂ©e.â
âOh I think weâre close to roping the answer Cowgirl.â
You nodded awkwardly and tried not to notice the way his eyes that usually looked straight into yours lingered on the exposed torso and the delicate skin of your collarbones.Â
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âLast rodeo or last ride?â
Asked one of your friends while you were at the bar waiting for more drinks.
âLast rodeo, I think, I hope sheâll still get to ride.â
You shared a laugh, leaning on the bar.
âThe blond in the corner has been checking you out.â
âNot my type.â
âWhat is your type?â
She asked as you made your way back through the bodies surrounding you.
âYouâll judge-â
âAre you still into old guys?â
âI thought you had a good relationship with your father?â
Cut in a third friend getting Beccaâs attention.
âIs this about the hot guy that works with you?â
âAre you having a sexy Greyâs style affair in the hospital?â
âNo, itâs not like that-â
âBut he is a father figure by what Iâve heard-â
âGross Beck.â
âOh do tell?â
You took a drink of your pornstar martini in an attempt to hide your blush as Becca recounted your descriptions of Jack, well Doctor Abbot, you rarely called him Jack. Only in those strange quiet moments when you felt like there might be something there, sharing a drink after a long shift, sitting leg to leg.
âSalt and pepper curls, giant bulging biceps, ex- military and ticks her competence kink- from what Iâve gathered. â
âYou having a competence kink makes so much sense babe.â
You let the martini do the talking:
âLook, I saw him donate blood and work on a patient at the same time and he has hands that look like they know what theyâre doing and I am not saying that he looks like he could fuck me into a wall nor that I want it but it is hard to focus some times.â
âSo how much older is he?â
âOld enough to be my young father. like 15, 20 years?â
âSo how big of a hand are we talking about here?â
âBig enough that you should do something about it.â
âLike risk my job by having a relationship with my boss?â
âHeâs not technically your boss! Not that I wouldnât fuck your boss if heâs ever lonely.â
You choked on your drink as the group continued laughing.
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You made your way to the too familiar vending machines to grab a tea and a snack- a headache was building behind your eyes, a combination of the tiredness and slight hangover. You let Jules know Becca was alive and on her way to an x-ray and she let you know sheâll swing by the bar to grab your stuff before coming in to take care of Becca and relieving you of your duties. God the whole hospital will know by tomorrow, maybe Gloria would fire you and then you can jump off the roof and never think about the way his eyes darkened as you opened the door again. You were so far down that rabbit hole that you didnât hear him come up.
âSheâs up for an x-ray as we speak.â
You startled a bit but nodded your head once you registered what he said before turning to face him. He looked good, he always looked good when he had on that bemused smile and held your stare.
âI wanted to apologise for whatever she said if youâre uncomfortable-â
You started babbling, words falling from your mouth in a river of apologies and excuses as he took the jacket you didnât even notice he had over his arm and placed it around your shoulders and you shut up at the motion, his hands still on your shoulders.
âYou look like youâre cold, cowboy. Itâs a good look on you, but I think you always look good. I also think you are my favourite face I have seen all day- maybe ever. Hell, I might have to send your friend a fucking great wedding present.â
âWhat?â
He takes half a step closer and your breath hitches in your throat.
âIâm going to kiss you because thatâs what I have wanted to do from the first day I saw you, not just now, not because you walked in looking like a western fantasy, not because Iâm sorry for you or whatever you might cook up in that brilliant head-â
You cut him off this time, sneaking hands around his neck, pulling him to your height and kissing him. Your lips move together and itâs soft and steady and strong and everything you imagined it would be and it feels so right.
âWas there a hat with the outfit?â
âFuck off Jack.â
âSay it again.â
âWhat, fuck off?â
âNo, my name.â
And youâre both smiling so hard you think your face might split.
âYeah- it was pink.â
And he laughs before kissing your cheek and you think thatâs something you could get used to.
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Loyalty
Pairing: Dr. Jack Abbot x resident!reader
Summary: After years of watching you stay in a loveless marriage, Dr. Abbot may finally have the opportunity to win you over and help you get out.
Warnings: mentions of cheating and pregnancy (not Abbot and reader), angsty but with a happy ending, hurt/comfort, no y/n.
word count: 4k approx.
Author's note: After a long break from writing, I finally found someone new to inspire me: Jack Abbot, the man you are. May write a part II for this, let me know if it would be something you are interested in.
Jack Abbot was a good man. A fair one. He spent years serving his country, and now served his job with full and complete devotion. He was loyal and believed that to be one of the most important traits a person could have. He believed certain things, no matter how desired, were simply wrong, and he let that sense of justice guide him.
Of course, he was just a man after all and at times his resolve faltered. He allowed his eyes to linger, his hands to crave, and his thoughts to run, but never further than that. It would be wrong. You were married, to an asshole, but that was sadly not enough of an excuse.Â
So like that, working side by side for years, he suppressed his feelings and desires, forcing himself to ignore any possible sign that those feelings may be reciprocated. After all, you were just like him, equally as loyal, and no matter what hesitations crossed your mind, you knew you would never.Â
...
The whispers in the Pitt had grown almost incessant. After all, it was not every day or week that a star resident disappeared overnight.Â
All Robby had told the team was that you were taking a couple of days off, which would not per se be out of the ordinary if it were not for the circumstances under which your final shift had ended.Â
Every ER doctorâs worst nightmare is to see a loved one enter through those doors. Apparently, ER doctors are not creative enough with their nightmares because not only could a loved one enter through those doors, but that loved one could be your husband having a heart attack while his mistress trails close behind informing everyone who would listen that her boyfriend had started feeling sick after she had shared the happy news that she was pregnant!
Of course, you had been on the clock after recently switching from night shift to day shift. You know, your husband just couldnât trust your relationship with your boss, Dr Abbot. So he had forced you to switchâ hypocrite bastard.
So just as the night shift was arriving to take over and the day shift was closing up business (of course, to ensure the highest number of people could witness your downfall), you found yourself introducing yourself to your husbandâs mistress while Dr. Robby did everything strictly legally required to keep the bastard alive.Â
What happened next was very much just a blur. Dana had talked to you. There was some shouting. All you remembered was walking out and not looking back.Â
Nobody had seen you since, but the whispers hadnât stopped. They were only fueled by strict instructions that Abbot was not to be let into your husbandâs room, even after he had left the emergency floor.Â
The timing of your disappearance was unfortunate; after all, you had finally managed to integrate into the day shift, and Abbot had finally gotten over your loss.Â
âAny news?â Dana had asked Robby once they were alone that morning.Â
âNothing yet.â He had replied short. He didnât want to take part in the gossiping.Â
âHas Jack tried to talk to her?â Dana tried to keep her voice down as she refilled the coffee machine, glancing at Robby to give him a knowing look.Â
Robby couldnât help but snort out a cynical laugh and shake his head, âI donât think he would have anything to say to her that could improve the situation, at least not in relation to her marriage.âÂ
âI mean-â Dana tried to rebut right away, but was cut off.Â
âThat is a decision for her to make. Not for us to opine on and particularly not for Jack to get involved in.â
âIf you say soâŠâ Dana could only add before the doctor exited the room.Â
The truth was that, against Robbyâs advice, Jack had tried to talk to you multiple times. He had called you and texted you, trying to check on you. He wanted to know how you were doing, ask if you needed anything, tell you how angry he was, that you didnât deserve any of this, and well.. maybe some other things. That didnât matter, though, as you would not pick up the phone or answer any of his messages.Â
The truth of the fact is that you wanted to go to work. You wanted to talk to your friends. You were just so ashamed. Ashamed of all the times you had brushed off their worries. Ashamed of all the things you had kept yourself away from because you were too afraid to leave.Â
...
You had been lying in bed in a catatonic state for the past two days when the doorbell of your house had rung. You ignored it, but it didnât stop, so eventually, after god knows how long, you made your way down to the front door, cleaning your face from any leftover tears and adjusting your hair as much as you could before opening.Â
âJack,â the word seemed to fill your lungs with air, the sight of your attending immediately breaking through the fog that had taken over your mind. How long had you been away from work? What was he doing here? You immediately felt incredibly self-aware of your state, fixing your wrinkled pyjamas as best as you could. âWhat are you doing here?â you added, uncomfortable under his gaze. He looked sad.Â
âYou havenât answered any of my calls or messages,â He replied matter-of-factly, a hint of anger tainting the sadness in his tone. You felt a wave of shame and then panic. Oh god, had something happened to your husband and had you simply been impossible to reach?Â
You held your breath and asked, âOh god, is he okay?âÂ
Abbotâs face dropped, his brain taking a second to process the nonsensical question that had just left your lips, âYou think I am here because I have some news about him? Do you think I care even remotely about his well-being, particularly now, after what he did to you?â you knew the anger was not directed towards you yet it felt that way. Another wave of shame coursed through your body.Â
You swallowed the bitterness that had accumulated in your throat. Your lips parted, prepared to speak, but he continued. âHe is lucky I wasnât allowed to be part of his care team because I would have killed him myself,â he declared without removing his fiery eyes from yours. His gaze was always so intense, persistent.Â
You sighed and looked away, shuffling in place. You wanted to end this conversation already. Go back to bed. âDonât say that. I know you donât mean it,â you finally replied, closing your eyes before opening them again, the soreness behind them from all the crying making itself prominent again.Â
âYou know I do. I am not one to exaggerate when it comes to these things.â Jack frowned, finally looking away, just to add, âCan I come in?â
You let the question simmer for a second, feeling the customary anxiousness the idea of being alone with your attending gave you. Your husband didnât like it. He said he looked at you too much. That he could read his thoughts, that men like him donât care about marriage, about loyalty. Hypocrite.Â
âYou are not actually thinking about what he would think, are you?â he chuckled bitterly, lifting an eyebrow before shaking his head cynically.Â
âN-o,â you stuttered, realising he had just read your mind. âThe house is just a bit of a mess,â you hesitated again, âbut please, come in.â
You stood to the side, allowing him to walk in. Jack Abbot had been outside your house only once before. It had also not been in the best of circumstances. It had been after a hospital gala, your first one at Pittsburgh Trauma Medical Hospital. Your husband had had too much to drink and had embarrassingly enough started telling everyone how much he hated your job. Not only did he barely get to see you, but whenever he did, you were simply too tired to well⊠hang out with him.Â
You had pulled him away from your shocked team, and a discussion between the two of you had ensued, which had culminated with him walking off, taking the car, and informing you that he wouldnât be coming home tonight. You had been left stranded outside the party. Thankfully (or not), Jack had witnessed the whole scene as he had been standing outside smoking.Â
He didnât smoke often, only on special occasions; he allowed himself to have one singular cigarette. You had turned around to walk back into the party, meeting his gaze just for a second. How mortifying, fighting with your husband in front of your new supervisor.Â
âYou know you donât have to put up with stuff like that, right?â he spoke to you just as you passed him, stopping you in your tracks.Â
âWhat?â You had tried to control your tone, but your voice broke anyway.Â
âYou deserve better than whatever that asshole is offering you,â he announced in a sigh, throwing away the butt of his cigarette before stepping on it, âI can drive you home. Let me know when you want to leave.â
You had prepared to protest, but he had simply walked past you, so you whispered a shy, âThank you.âÂ
Around an hour later, Dr. Abbot had driven you home. The car ride had been quiet. He had played music from the radio to ease the tension of it all. He didnât mean to judge but what the fuck. Why would anyone put up with a douchebag like that? It is not like you had any reason to. You were smart, beautiful, funny, and kind. You could have found so many better men that would actually appreciate you but instead you decided to stay with that asshole.Â
He had stopped in front of your house and turned off the car. You had immediately taken the chance to speak, âThank you, and I am so sorry for the scene. I donât know what got into him. I didnât mean to embarrass the team.âÂ
Jack snorted a disapproving laugh, âThe only person who embarrassed himself tonight is him. I hope you take my words from earlier tonight seriously; you donât need to deal with this.â You sighed and closed your eyes briefly before reaching for the door. âLet me walk you to your door,â he had added, and before you could protest, he was getting out of the car.Â
The two of you walked towards the door, your stomach turning at the thought of the scene your husband would have made if he found out that your boss had taken you home. You wanted to keep the interaction as short as possible. âThank you for everything, Doc.â You finally spoke as your keys turned in the lock, hoping he would go.Â
You turned to look at him and noticed some hesitation; he didnât want to say it, but he knew he should. âAre you sure you are safe in case he comes back tonight?â Regardless of his hesitation, his eyes were fixed on yours as he asked, looking for any reason not to believe your answer.Â
âOh god, yes, of course. He can be an ass but he is not dangerous. Just stupid,â you giggled nervously at your own comment, but you knew it to be true. Your husband was many things, but an abuser was not one of them.Â
Jack didnât seem fully convinced by your answer but decided to respect it, pressing his lips together and nodding firmly before placing his hand on your shoulder, âAlright. I will see you tomorrow night. Be safe.â He had bid his farewell quickly, walking back to his car, almost as if he had shown any hesitation, he would not have been able to leave.Â
Your husband didnât come back that night, but in the morning, as you woke up, you found him in the living room, your favourite breakfast on the table and fresh apology flowers. He asked for your forgiveness ten times that day, and you, stupidly enough, reassured him that everything was okay.Â
Now, years later, Jack was entering your house. He didnât seem pleased that he technically had warned you that this would not have a happy ending, yet here you were.Â
Thankfully, most of the mess was relegated to your bedroom, so the living room looked decent enough for Abbot to be unaware of the extent of your downfall. âDo you want something to drink?â you had asked, still awkwardly standing in your pyjamas whilst, well, Jack looked as good as he always did.Â
âSome whisky would be great,â he replied stoically, ignoring your face of shock. What time was it after all? 8 a.m.?Â
âAlright, take a seat please,â you decided not to question it, instead serving two glasses of whisky and bringing the bottle to the coffee table. You gave one of the glasses to Abbot, who had sat on one side of your sofa. You placed yourself at the opposite end, leaving as much space between the two of you as possible. Jack swirled the liquid in the glass and then downed the whole thing, once again causing you to look at him confused.Â
You took a small sip of the liquor, but immediately regretted it, your empty stomach immediately complaining and filling your mouth with acid reflux. Admitting defeat, you placed the glass on the table and turned back to Jack.Â
âHow are you doing?â he finally asked, pinning down your gaze.Â
âI am okay,â you lied the best you could, but immediately realised how useless that was, so corrected yourself, âI am as okay as a person in my situation can be.â
âI see,â he looked away, back at his glass and then at the bottle, serving himself another pour. What was wrong with him? âHave you contacted your lawyer already? Do you need any help moving his stuff?â He asked nonchalantly, looking at the honey liquor.Â
And just like that, you were again confused, âWhat?âÂ
This time, however, shock and confusion crossed his features, not yours, as his head snapped back to look at you. âPlease do not tell me you were thinking of forgiving him.â It wasnât really a question, more like a plea or a threat. You were not sure.Â
Your throat was dry, you reached for the whisky but didnât sip on it, simply holding it. Had you made a decision already? Was it as easy as that? He was sick; he would have needed somebody to help him get back in shape. Could you simply leave him?Â
âAnd here I thoughtâŠâ Jack closed his eyes and sighed before downing his drink again. He shook his head and let out a bitter laugh.Â
âYou thought what?â You grew defensive, sitting up straighter on the couch and giving him a narrow, judgy look. Everything was so easy for Dr Abbot; everyone wanted to be with him, so handsome, so charming, smart, and successful. Of course he believed that when something does not work, you just throw it away. There would always be somebody else to love him. How could anyone not?
âI-â he met your gaze again, bitter, sad, disappointed. âI just thought that you would finally free yourself from this cage you have grown so fond of.âÂ
âMarriage is not a cage.â
âIt is if you are married to someone who sees you as a possession.â He bit back in the same tone you had.Â
âYou know nothing about my marriage,â you tried to hold your head up, refusing to let him make you feel stupider than you already felt. You knew how pathetic you were. A loser who had let a man ruin her life.Â
âI actually know everything about your marriage. I have been watching it destroy you day after day. I have watched you fight against every one of your instincts for the sake of it.â Your stomach dropped, fearing he was hinting at the exact thing that just crossed your mind. It was unfair to bring that up. You had never strayed, always loyal, no matter how hard the pull towards Jack had felt. âYou have given up opportunity after opportunity in your career for the sake of your marriage. Allowing him to govern every part of your life, even forcing you to move from the night shift to the day shift.â
âThat was my decision.â
âWe both know that is bullshit.â He saw through you, âand why? Because he was worried about me? At least that is what I have heard,â he laughed, mocking you. Of course, he thought it was funny. A resident crushing on her attending, how pathetic and cliche. âHas he even met you? How can he doubt your loyalty? I have never met a woman so committed to her horrible marriage.âÂ
You frowned, and he looked away, almost as if he was scared you would be able to read his thoughts this time. He exhaled and pressed his lips together, thoughtful, wondering if it was worth sharing the rest of that thought. He didnât. Instead, he asked, âDid you tell him?â
âTell him what?â your voice barely there at this point, the twist in your stomach just making you increasingly nauseous.Â
âDid you tell him how I feel about you? Or how come he made the request?âÂ
Silence. The two of you were looking right at each other, but you felt like you were not even in the room, struggling to even keep up with anything your attending was saying.Â
âBecause that was just unnecessary. We both know you would have never done anything to disrespect him. Regardless of how much I wanted it or would have tried to instigate it. I never did because I knew you wouldnât, and I respected your choice.â He continued as if this was a simple truth, one that apparently he expected you to have complete knowledge of.Â
âJackâŠâ you tried to make sense of his words.Â
âI didnât know we were on a first-name basis,â he chuckled, without breaking eye contact.Â
âAbbot, wh-â
âDonât act like you donât know what I am talking about. Everybody knows how I feel about you. I couldnât hide it, even if I tried.â He cocked his head, his eyes softening, god he was so beautiful when he was so open. âYou know, at the beginning, after that night at the gala, I was hopeful. I thought maybe you would leave and see that you deserved so much better, but then you didnât. I even gave him the benefit of the doubt, but time after time he has just fallen short, short of what you deserve, short of what I could and would give you.â Jack moved closer, still keeping a respectful distance but closer.Â
You held your breath as he spoke the last sentence. Sure, you had always had a soft spot for the doctor, regardless of how much you had wanted to hide it. He was everything, and yet, he was always kind. He had been there for you through every difficult time, all those post-shift or pre-shift conversations on the roof of the building. Sometimes it was you consoling him, and other times it was the other way around. He always allowed you to feel every feeling, instead of suppressing it all.Â
âHow can you even imagine looking at him in the eyes after what he did? How long have you been wanting to have a baby? What was his excuse? Not the right time, right?â He finally looked away, repulsed, shaking his head and clenching his hands. âListen, I didnât come here to convince you to give me a chance. I am not insane. You are going through the most horrible moment of your life. I am just here to check on you, to see if there is anything I can do to help. I just cannot bear the thought of you putting yourself through any more of this. So yes, let me know what you need and I will do it, just promise me you will leave him. Not for me or anybody else, for yourself.â Jack kept his eyes on the glass of whisky on the coffee table, sighing, missing the way your eyes had filled up with tears.Â
You donât know what took over you, but all you wanted right now was a hug. You hadnât been able to talk to anybody yet and felt so alone. âJackâŠâ was everything that left your lips as you closed the distance. He realised immediately what you meant and opened his arms, wrapping them around you and hugging you tight. He let you sob against his chest, rubbing small circles on your back.Â
âYou will be okay. You donât need to do this alone. I am here; the rest of our people are here. You never need to feel this way again.â Jack pressed his chin softly against your head before giving it a soft kiss, âI love you. I have loved you from afar for so long, and the only thing that matters to me is for you to be okay. I want you to be safe and okay.â
Your sobs just grew stronger at his final words. What had you done? How much time had you wasted? You could have had him. You could have allowed him to love you. You could have allowed yourself to love him back.Â
âIt is okay. Everything will be okay,â he rubbed your back with a bit more intention, his fingers holding onto you tightly. He had rarely gotten to be this close to you. He had never gotten to kiss your hair and tell you how he truly felt.Â
âI wanna leave,â you spoke between muffled sobs, âI donât want to be here once he is back.â
Jack pressed his lips together, taking in the order. He was ready to help. He let go of you slowly, meeting your eyes again before answering, âLetâs pack all your essentials and go.âÂ
You nodded back at him as his hand reached for your face, cleaning some of your tears. He was ready to pull his hand away, but you cupped it, keeping it in place, closing your eyes and basking in the feeling of his touch without fear, without hesitation. You looked back at him again and whispered, âI am sorry it took me this long.â
âI am just glad you got there,â he replied with a smile.Â
The two of you packed everything you would need for a couple of weeks and left the house. Jack seemed to follow you like a shadow across the house. Now that he had gotten a taste of your proximity, he didnât want to live without it. He knew he would need to give you space to heal, to figure things out, but the mere thought that one day in a distant future he would be able to at least openly try to make you fall in love with him was enough to fill him with hope.Â
God, he loved you, he loved you so much.Â
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Keys
pairing: Michael Robinavitch x Senior Resident!Reader
wordcount: 1.2k
warnings: age gap (late 20s and late 40s), sorta established relationship
synopsis: Robby misses you, but lucky for him, you just so happened to leave your keys on his desk after your shift last night (or, you come by to pick up your keys and Robby feels you up in the ambulance bay)
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!! not proofread so apologies for any mistakes !!
Are my keys on your desk?Â
Itâs the first Robby actually hears from you all day.
You responded with nothing more than a thumbs up to his message this morning, sending a clear message that you did not plan to be very reachable today.
Robby knows exactly where your keys are. Theyâd been the first thing heâd noticed this morning, your clunky collection of keychains somehow strewn across his keyboard. He snaps a photo of them before texting you back.
*image attached* These keys?
Your response is immediate.
Yes!!! Are we horrendously crowded today or can I come grab them from you??
Robby ignores the way his chest clenches at the thought of seeing you, even if itâs just so you can get your keys.
Never too crowded for youÂ
You thumbs down his message.
Kiss ass See you soon :p
Robby smiles at his phone, the kind of smile only you seem to be able to pull from him, the kind that makes his cheeks ache. He tucks your keys into his pocket for safe measure, not just to keep them safe but to guarantee you canât slip in and grab them when heâs not there to see you.
âWhatâs got you so smiley?â
Dana leans over the edge of his desk, not so subtly trying to peer at the screen of his phone. Robby is quick to lock his screen, dropping his phone back into the pocket of his cargos.
âNothing you need to worry about.â
Not subtle at all.
âLemme guessâŠâ Dana gives him a knowing smile, tapping her finger on her chin in mock concentration. âDoes it have something to do with a certain senior resident who is absent from our ED today?â
Bingo, but Robby keeps his features schooled, the epitome of professionalism. âDonât you have work to be doing, or something?â
âOoh, so touchy.â Dana laughs. âBut since you asked, Myrna was looking for you.â
Robby groans, a little dramatic, but he couldâve gone at least another hour without hearing the words fruit cake. He clings to the knowledge that youâll be walking through the doors of the ED within the next hour.
Heâs in the middle of charting when Lupe buzzes you in, glasses sitting low on the bridge of his nose as he squints at the screen.
âYouâre gonna get a headache if you keep doing that, old man.â Despite the tease, there's nothing but fondness in your tone.
Robby looks up, stunned by the sight of you looking so not doctor-like, so domestic.
Freshly washed hair pulled back, rogue strands falling out to frame your gorgeous face in a way that drives him absolutely crazy. A baggy hoodie hangs from your shoulders, an embroidered patch with the name of your school thatâs fraying around the edges plastered on your chest. And Jesus Christ your shorts. Heâd never seen you in them for obvious reasons, cut well above the mid-line of your thigh, showcasing a pair of legs so fantastic Robbyâs sure heâll be dreaming about them for weeks.
âYâknow the glasses are there to help you see, right?â You lean against the edge of the counter, propping your chin up on your elbow as you gaze at him with a smile that can only be described as smitten. âNot just to sit there and make you look pretty while you frown over them.â
âYouâre really going to poke fun at the guy whoâs holding on to your keys right now?â Robby asks, leaning forward so the two of you are only inches apart. âI might just hold onto them, make you sit around and wait till my shiftâs over to get them back.â
You catch onto his ploy instantly. âYou like me so much you canât even spend one shift without me? Iâm flattered, Robby.â
âYou should be.â Abbott cuts in, tapping into the computer next to you to check a chart. âHe mopes around like a kicked puppy when youâre not here.â
âA kicked puppy, huh?â You ask, turning to look at Robby with a glint in your eye thatâs entirely too smug.
Robby shakes his head. âIf you guys ever wondered why youâre not scheduled on the same shifts anymore, this is why.â
Abbott lets out a chuckle. âWhatever you say, fruitcake.â
Heâs gone before Robby can get another word in.
âBut on a serious note,â Robby focuses his attention back onto you. âYour shift been okay so far?â
Heâs still not used to this, used to having someone who cares so much to hear what he has to say, what heâs feeling. Sure, Dana and Abbott had always offered him a shoulder, but with you it felt different, felt like you genuinely wanted to know every time, not like you were asking because you thought you should.Â
âItâs been good.â He answers, and the words feel honest for the first time in a long time. âAs good as it can be with Myrna here, anyway.â
That pulls a laugh from you. âI ran into her in chairs, she told me my âass looks tight in those shorts, cupcakeâ.â
From what heâs seen, Robbyâs inclined to agree with her. âLet me walk you out, Iâll give you your keys outside.â He needs you to himself for a moment.
Your brows pinch for a second but you nod.Â
He follows you through the maze of desks and gurneys, lingering a few steps behind for a moment to get a proper look at you in those shorts. Yeah, Myrna was right.
By some stroke of luck the ambulance bay is currently unoccupied, and Robby takes full advantage of the privacy, pulling you against his chest with one swift tug. You laugh at him with a shake of your head, but your arms still wind around his neck. His hands find their home in the dip of your waist, savouring the heat that seeps through the fabric of your sweater.
âYou sure you just brought me out here to give me my keys?â Thereâs a teasing tone in your voice, but Robby can see the way your eyes keep catching on his lips.
âDo you want me to just give you your keys?â He asks, leaning forward just enough for your noses to brush.
â... No.âÂ
Robby feels you lift up onto your toes to press a kiss against his lips. Itâs not chaste or quick, the type of kiss he should be having at work. No, there's an urgency in the way your lips move against his, the way your hips press against his.
He takes advantage of your eagerness and lets one of his hands fall from your waist, his fingers finding purchase in the skin of your thigh right where your shorts end. You let out a noise of surprise that only spurs him further, his tongue slipping into your mouth for a brief second before youâre forced to pull back.
âI can hear a sirenâŠâ You whisper against his lips, your chest slightly heaving. âWhich means I should probably get out of here.â
Robby nods, pressing one more kiss against your lips before fishing your keys out of his pocket. âWait for me at my apartment tonight?â
You grab your keys from his hand. âDefinitely.âÂ
With one last kiss, Robby watches as you wander back out into the streets of Pittsburgh, a pep in your step that you didnât have a few moments ago. He bites back a smile, slipping back into the ER with a smile on his face right as an ambulance pulls into the bay.
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God I hate to be that person but ughhhhhh I love that jack fic where they find out reader is pregnant and I'm CRAVING a second part to that (if you're u to of course). Like, how it'd be during her pregnancy, him being sweet but also worried and protective. Omg I need more soft jack w a baby on the way!!!!!
The Camouflage Onesie
part two of he begins to notice (read this first!)
content warnings: pregnancy, medical references, nausea/morning sickness, sexual content (explicit but consensual), body image changes, hormonal shifts, domestic intimacy, emotional vulnerability, labor and delivery scene, emotionally intense partner support, and high emotional/physical dependency within a marriage. yeah. pregnancy
word count : 5,735
WEEK 5
The test turned positive on a Sunday. By Monday morning, the entire medicine cabinet had been rearranged like it was a trauma cart.
Your moisturizer had been nudged over to make room for prescription-grade prenatals, a bottle of magnesium, a DHA complex, andâof all thingsâtwo individually labeled pill sorters with day-of-the-week dividers. One pink. One clear. Yours and Jack's, apparently.
You found him in the kitchen at 6:42 a.m., already in scrubs. He was calmly cutting the crusts off toast while listening to NPR and making a second cup of coffee for himself.
When he turned, he gave you a long once-overânot in a critical way, but diagnostic. Like he was scanning you for vitals only he could see.
âYouâre flushed,â he said. âAnd your pupils are dilated. You feel dizzy yet?â
You furrowed your brow. âNo?â
âGood. Youâre hydrating better than I thought.â
You blinked. âJack, I havenât even said good morning.â
He walked over and handed you a glass of room-temp water. âIâm loving you with medically sourced precision.â
You stared at the glass. âThis isnât cold.â
âCold water upsets your stomach. Lukewarm helps with early bloat.â
âJack.â
âI know what Iâm doing.â
You raised an eyebrow. âDo you?â
He tilted his head. âIâve watched septic patients stabilize faster than accountants facing a positive Clearblue. I know exactly what this is.â
You pressed your hands to your face and groaned. âYouâre not going to hover this much every week, are you?â
Jack leaned down, brushing a kiss over your shoulder. âNo. Some weeks Iâll hover more.â
âI made your appointment already,â he said, voice casual. âFriday. Dr. Patel. 3:40.â
You blinked. âYou didnât even ask me.â
âShe owes me a favor,â Jack said. âGot her niece into ortho during the peak of the shortage last year. Trust meâsheâll take care of you.â
You frowned, stunned. âHow did you even pull that off so fast?â
Jack raised an eyebrow. âSweetheart. Iâm an ER doctor. I have connections. I can get my wife seen before the weekâs out.â
Your eyes welled up suddenlyâcaught off guard by how steady he was, how sure. You were still half-floating in disbelief. Jack was already ten steps ahead, clearing the path.
WEEK 6
You learned very quickly that pregnancy was a full-time jobâand Jack approached it with quiet precision.
The first time you dry-heaved over the kitchen sink, he didnât rush in with a solution. He didnât lecture or hover. He just stepped into the room, leaned against the counter, and waited until you looked up.
âStill thinking about that leftover pasta?â he asked softly.
You made a face. âDonât say the word pasta.â
He crossed the kitchen, wordless, and pulled open a drawer. Out came a wrapped ginger chew. Then he disappeared down the hall.
When he returned, he had your cardigan in one hand and a bottle of lemon water in the other.
You blinked at him. âWhat are you doing?â
Jack handed you the water first. âYou always run cold when youâre nauseous. But I know youâll refuse a blanket if youâre flushed.â
You stared.
He draped the cardigan over your shoulders.
âYou okay?â
You nodded slowly. âI think so.â
âOkay,â he said. âLet me know when you want toast.â
You half-laughed, half-cried, wiping your eyes on your sleeve. âYou donât have to be this gentle every second.â
Jack leaned in. âIâm not being gentle. Iâm being exact. Thereâs a difference.â
Later that night, you sat curled up on the couch, still wrapped in the cardigan, while Jack quietly swapped your usual diffuser oil with something new.
âPeppermint,â he said when you asked. âHelps with queasiness.â
You raised an eyebrow. âAnd the bin next to the couch?â
âLetâs call it contingency planning.â
You smirked. âYouâre really building systems around me, huh?â
Jack looked at youâsoft, certain. âNo. Iâm building them for you.â
He moved across the room and brushed your hair back off your forehead, thumb pausing at your temple like he could smooth out whatever discomfort lingered there.
âYouâre not the patient,â he murmured. âYouâre the constant. And Iâm going to do whatever it takes to keep the ground steady under your feet.â
You didnât have a clever reply.
You just pulled him onto the couch beside you and tucked yourself into his chestâgrateful beyond words that this was who you got to build a life with.
WEEK 9
Jack was folding laundry on the bed when you walked into the room barefoot, carrying a bowl of cereal and wearing his old college sweatshirt.
You caught his glance. âWhat?â
He shook his head, smiled a little. âJust thinking you wear my clothes better than I ever did.â
You rolled your eyes, but your smile gave you away. He set a towel down. Reached for your bowl as you sat on the edge of the bed.
âI got it,â you said.
âI know,â he murmured, holding it anyway while you shifted the pillow behind your back. Once you were settled, he handed it back.
You took a bite, then glanced at the basket of half-folded laundry.
âYou know thatâs mostly my stuff, right?â
Jack looked at the pile. âItâs ours. Who else is gonna fold your seven thousand pairs of fuzzy socks?â
You laughed into your spoon.
He leaned against the dresser and just looked at you for a second. Not in a way that made you self-consciousâjust soft. Familiar.
âYouâre quieter this week,â he said.
You shrugged. âIâm tired.â
He nodded. âWant to go somewhere this weekend? Just us?â
âLike where?â
âNowhere big. Justâout of the house. We could rent a cabin. Lay around. Sleep until noon. Let you pretend Iâm not watching you nap like itâs my full-time job.â
You raised an eyebrow. âYou do that now?â
âNot always. Just when you start snoring like a golden retriever pup.â
âJack.â
He grinned, walked over, and kissed your temple.
âAlright, no trips. But at least let me cook something tonight. Something warm.â
You sighed. âYou already do too much.â
He looked at you seriously then, crouched a little so you were eye-level.
âI donât keep score,â he said. âIâm your husband. Youâre growing our kid. If all I have to do is make dinner and fold socks, Iâm getting off easy.â
WEEK 14
By week fourteen, the second trimester hit like an exhale.
You werenât queasy every morning anymore. Your appetite returned. You could brush your teeth without gagging. And Jack, for the first time in weeks, actually relaxed enough to sit through an entire episode of something without checking on you mid-scene.
You were curled on the couch togetherâyour head in his lapâwhen he slid his hand beneath your shirt and rested it on the soft curve of your stomach.
You raised an eyebrow. âYouâre subtle.â
âIâm consistent.â
You snorted. âYouâre clingy.â
His thumb brushed just under your ribs. âIâm memorizing.â
You shifted slightly, tucking your feet closer. âYou already know everything about me.â
Jack looked down at you, the corners of his mouth twitching. âI know the before. This part? This is new.â
He went quiet, and you could feel the shift in himâsomething deeper, more reverent than before.
âIâve seen pregnancy before,â he said. âBut Iâve never⊠watched it happen to someone I come home to.â
You turned your head to look up at him. âYou okay?â
Jack nodded slowly. âI just keep thinking⊠youâre building someone I havenât met yet. And I already know Iâd give my life for them.â
Your throat tightened. You reached for his hand where it rested on your stomach, lacing your fingers through his.
âWeâre doing okay, right?â
Jack bent down, kissed your forehead. âYouâre doing better than okay.â
You smiled. âWeâre a good team.â
âThe best,â he said. âEven if you keep stealing all the pillows.â
You laughed. âYou sleep like a corpse. You donât need them.â
He grinned. âYouâre getting cocky now that the nauseaâs eased.â
âYouâll miss her when sheâs gone.â
âNo, Iâll just be glad to have you back.â
You rolled your eyes. âYou have me.â
Jack kissed you again. Longer this time.
âYeah,â he whispered. âI do.â
WEEK 15
It started with the baby books.
Not the ones you bought. The ones Jack picked upâthree of them, stacked neatly on the nightstand one morning after a grocery run you hadnât joined him on.
You noticed them after your shower. He was still in the kitchen, loading the dishwasher, humming something that definitely wasnât in tune. But the titles made you pause.
ââWhat to Expect for Dads,ââ you read aloud, holding the top one up when he walked in. âYou going soft on me?â
Jack raised an eyebrow. âHardly. Just figured if youâre doing the building, I can at least read the manual.â
You smirked, flipping through a page. âYouâre the manual.â
âIâm the triage guy. I donât have maternal instincts. I have protocols.â
You leaned back against the headboard. âYouâre being humble, but youâre gonna ace this.â
He shrugged, crossing the room to sit on the edge of the bed. âI just want to know whatâs coming. Iâve done newborn shifts. Iâve handed babies to people shaking so hard they could barely hold them. But this? This isnât a shift. This is us.â
You touched his arm. âYouâve already done more than I can even keep track of.â
Jack looked at you for a long moment. Then placed his hand over yours. âI donât want to just be useful. I want to be good. For both of you.â
You didnât know what to say.
So you leaned forward and kissed himâgentle, deep. His hand slid to your stomach as naturally as breathing.
You pulled back just enough to whisper, âYou already are.â
That night, when he thought you were asleep, he cracked open the book again.
And stayed up past midnight reading about swaddling, latch cues, and the difference between Braxton Hicks and the real thing.
WEEK 16
Jack stood in the doorway of your office for almost a full minute before saying anything.
You looked up from your laptop, eyebrows raised. âWhat?â
He didnât move. Just scanned the roomâyour desk, the bookshelf, the little armchair in the corner that you never actually used.
Then, finally: âIs our house big enough for this?â
You blinked. âFor what?â
He gestured vaguely toward your belly, then the room. âAll of it. A baby. Crib. Noise. Diapers. More laundry. Less sleep.â
You smiled gently. âI thought we were turning this room into the nursery.â
âWe are,â he said quickly. âI just⊠I keep running scenarios in my head. And this place felt huge when it was just us.â
You closed your laptop. âJack.â
He looked at you.
âWeâll figure it out. We already are.â
He crossed the room, leaned against your desk. âIâm not trying to panic.â
âI know.â
âI just keep thinking about how everythingâs going to change. I want to make sure we still feel like us once it does.â
You stood and wrapped your arms around his waist, head resting against his chest. âWe will. You think too far ahead sometimes.â
âThatâs my job,â he murmured.
âAnd mine is reminding you that itâs okay to not solve everything all at once.â
He kissed the top of your head. âI know. I just want it to be enough.â
WEEK 19
Jack was unusually quiet on the drive to the anatomy scan.
Not anxious. Just focused in a way that told you his brain had been working overtime since the moment he woke up. His hand rested on your thigh at every red light, thumb tracing small circles against the fabric of your leggings.
âYou good?â you asked, turning down the radio.
He glanced over, nodded once. âJust running through the checklist in my head.â
You smiled gently. âYouâre not at work, babe.â
âI know. But Iâve never seen one of these as a husband.â
You reached over and laced your fingers through his. âYou donât have to be perfect today. You just have to be here.â
He gave you a look. âI am here. Thatâs the problem. Iâm so here I canât think about anything else.â
The waiting room was dim, quiet, and smelled vaguely like lemon disinfectant. Jack sat beside you, legs spread in his usual posture, one hand on your knee. His thumb tapped once. Then again. Then stopped.
The tech was warm, professional. She dimmed the lights. Asked if you wanted to know the sex. You said yes before Jack could answer.
You held your breath as the screen lit up in shades of blue and gray.
âEverythingâs looking healthy,â the tech said. âStrong spine, great heartbeat, long legs.â
Jack tightened his grip on your hand.
âAnd it looks like youâre having a girl.â
You exhaled all at once. Then laughed. Or maybe cried. It blurred together.
Jack didnât say anything right away. Just stared at the monitor, jaw tense, eyes glassy.
You turned to look at him. âJack.â
He blinked. âYeah.â
âYou okay?â
He nodded slowly. âYeah, I justââ He swallowed. âSheâs real.â
The rest of the appointment was a hazeâmeasurements, murmurs of âgood growth,â the gentle swipe of gel off your stomach. Jack didnât let go of your hand the entire time.
That night, you came out of the bathroom in an old t-shirt and found him standing at the dresser, staring down at something small in his hand.
You stepped closer. âWhatâs that?â
He held it up without lookingâone of the newborn onesies youâd bought weeks ago in a moment of cautious optimism. Light yellow. Soft cotton.
âYou think sheâll fit in this?â he asked.
You smiled. âTheyâre tiny, Jack. Thatâs kind of the whole point.â
He nodded but didnât move.
You wrapped your arms around him from behind. âYouâre allowed to feel everything. Itâs a big day.â
He turned, wrapped his arms around you carefully. âI think I was more afraid of not feeling it.â
You pressed your forehead to his. âYouâre allowed to be happy.â
âI am,â he said, voice rough. âI just keep thinking about how Iâm going to keep her safe. How Iâm going to teach her to breathe through chaos. How Iâll probably mess it up a hundred times.â
âYouâre not going to mess it up.â
He looked at you. âYou really think that?â
âI married you, didnât I?â
Jack smiled for real then. âYouâve always been the smarter one.â
You rolled your eyes. âBut youâre the one whoâs going to end up wrapped around her finger.â
He kissed your temple. âThat part was inevitable.â
WEEK 25
Jack convinced you to finally start looking at houses.
Youâd been reluctantâemotionally attached to the place youâd built your early marriage in, skeptical about change when everything in your life already felt like it was shiftingâbut Jack had waited. Quietly. Patiently.
And then one morning, while you were brushing your teeth, he leaned in behind you, kissed your shoulder, and said, âYou deserve a bigger closet.â
That was how it started.
Now, you were standing in a half-empty living room with sun pouring through tall windows and a sold sign posted out front.
Jack had just gotten off the phone with your realtor. âItâs official,â he said, sliding his phone into his back pocket. âInspection cleared. We close in three weeks.â
You blinked. âWe really bought a house.â
He walked over, wrapped his arms around your waist from behind, rested his chin on your shoulder. âCorrection: we bought your dream closet.â
You laughed. âYou think youâre funny.â
âI know I am. Also, thereâs a window bench in the nursery. You donât even have to try to make it Pinterest-worthy.â
You leaned into him, eyes scanning the bare walls. âI can already picture her here.â
Jack pressed a kiss to your neck. âI already do. I see her trying to climb that windowsill. Leaving fingerprints on every square inch of the fridge. Falling asleep on the stairs with a book she couldnât finish.â
Your throat tightened.
You turned in his arms. âYou really love it?â
He looked at you seriously. âI love what it gives you. I love that it lets you breathe. And yeahâI love that itâs ours.â
Later that night, back in your current house, you sat on the floor with your laptop open, scrolling through registry links and bookmarking soft pink paint samples. Jack handed you a cup of tea, then lowered himself on the couch beside you with a quiet grunt.
âIs it weird that I already want to be moved?â you asked.
He shook his head. âNo. Itâs called nesting. I read about it in that chapter you skipped.â
You shot him a look. âYouâre the worst.â
âIâm the one folding swaddles while you build spreadsheets. This is our love language.â
You leaned into him, content. âYeah. I guess it is.â
WEEK 27
Youâd been on your feet all dayâorganizing documents, boxing up odds and ends, making lists of what needed to be moved and what could be donated. Jack told you to slow down three separate times, each time gentler than the last.
But now, at 8:43 p.m., you were barefoot in the kitchen, half bent over a drawer of mismatched utensils, when he walked in, tossed a dish towel on the counter, and said, âOkay. Thatâs it.â
You looked up. âWhat?â
Jack didnât raise his voice. He didnât have to. He crossed the room, took the spatula from your hand, and gently nudged you toward a chair. âSit. Let me take over.â
You blinked at him. âIâm fine.â
âYouâre stubborn.â
You folded your arms. âSame thing.â
Jack crouched in front of you, resting his forearms on your knees. âYouâve done enough today. Let me be the husband who makes you sit down and drink something cold while I finish sorting forks from tongs.â
You softened, your fingers drifting to his hair. âI know youâre right. I just feel useless when Iâm not doing something.â
âYouâre 27 weeks pregnant,â Jack said, voice warm. âYou made a person and folded three boxes of bath towels. Thatâs two more miracles than anyone else managed today.â
You exhaled and leaned back.
Later, when you were curled on the couch with a glass of iced water and your feet propped on a pillow, Jack settled next to you and tugged a blanket over both of you.
âHouse is gonna feel real soon,â he said.
You nodded. âSheâs going to be born there.â
Jackâs arm slid around your shoulders. âWeâll bring her home to that nursery. Hang that weird mobile you picked that I still donât understand.â
âYou said it was âavant-garde.ââ
âI was being polite.â
You smiled, tired and full. âWeâre really doing it, huh?â
âWe are.â
You rested your head on his chest. Jackâs hand drifted instinctively to your belly, and stayed there.
âHey,â you said after a minute. âThanks for making me sit.â
Jack kissed the top of your head. âThanks for letting me.â
WEEK 30
You caught him standing in the doorway of the nursery around 9:00 p.m., arms folded, shoulder braced against the frame like he was keeping watch.
The room was nearly done. Diapers in bins. Chair assembled. Books on shelves. But Jack wasnât looking at any of that. He was staring at the window, like he was imagining the light that would come through it in the early mornings.
You leaned against the opposite side of the doorway, watching him.
âWhatâs going on in that head?â you asked.
He glanced over at you. âJust thinking.â
âDangerous.â
Jack cracked half a smile but didnât move. âI keep picturing her. Not just baby-her. Grown-up her.â
You walked toward him. âWhat version?â
He tilted his head. âSeventeen. Wants to borrow the car. Has someone texting her who I probably donât like.â
You laughed. âYouâre already dreading a boyfriend?â
âIâm already dreading anyone who gets to be in her world without knowing what it cost us to build it.â
That stopped you.
Jack finally looked at you thenâreally looked. âSheâs not even born yet and I already know Iâd lay down in traffic for her. And I know how fast people can break things they donât understand.â
You rested your hands on his chest. âYouâre not going to be scary.â
Jack raised an eyebrow.
âWell. Youâll look scary. Army vet. ER attending. Perpetual scowl. Built like you bench-press refrigerators for fun.â
He snorted. âThanks.â
âBut youâll love her in a way no one will mistake for anything but devotion.â
Jack leaned down, pressed his forehead to yours.
âIâm not good at soft,â he murmured.
âYouâre good at us,â you whispered. âThatâs all sheâll need.â
He pulled you into his arms then, one hand resting flat against the curve of your belly. âSheâs gonna hate me when I make her come home early.â
âSheâs gonna roll her eyes when you insist on meeting everyone she ever texts.â
Jack grinned. âDamn right.â
You laughed into his shirt. âYouâre so screwed.â
âI know.â
But he held you a little tighter. Didnât say anything else. Just stood there in the dim nursery, one arm wrapped around the two of you, as if holding his whole world in place.
WEEK 32
Youâd read the pregnancy forums. The blog posts. The articles with vaguely medical sources claiming the third trimester came with a spike in libido. You thought youâd be too sore, too tired. Too preoccupied.
What you hadnât expected was the absolute onslaught.
It was like your body had one setting: Jack. Crave him. Need him. Get him here, now, fast.
Heâd just gotten home from a late shift, dropped his keys in the bowl by the front door, and disappeared into the shower while you laid in bed attempting to not whine out loud. That resolve lasted six minutes.
When he walked into the bedroom, towel low around his hips, water dripping down his chest, you didnât even mean to say it:
âIâm gonna die.â
Jack froze.
He crossed the room in seconds. âWhat is it? Whereâs the pain?â
You were already on your back, one hand pressed to your belly, the other covering your eyes.
âNot pain,â you groaned. âJust hormones. God, Jackâthis is insane.â
He crouched beside you. âYou need to describe whatâs happening.â
You peeked at him from under your hand. âI need you. I need you.â
Jack stilled. Blinked. Then dropped his forehead to your shoulder with a long exhale.
âChrist. You scared the hell out of me.â
âIâm sorry,â you mumbled, laughing into your wrist. âI justâIâm desperate. I thought it would go away. Itâs not going away.â
He lifted his head. Smiled. âDesperate, huh?â
âYouâre not helping.â
âI think I am.â
Jack kissed your temple, then your cheek, then hovered over your lips. âYou sure youâre good?â
You reached for him. âNo. Iâm feral.â
He didnât waste another second.
What followed wasnât franticâit was focused. Jack stripped you with efficiency and reverence, lips brushing every newly sensitive part of you. Your belly. Your hips. Your breasts. He murmured to you the whole timeâgentle things, grounding things.
âYouâre beautiful like this,â he said, kissing the swell of your stomach. âYouâve been patient. Let me take care of you.â
âPlease,â you whispered. âI feel insane.â
âI know. Iâve got you.â
He slid inside you slow, controlled, the way he always did when he wanted to make it last. But tonight, there was something more behind itâurgency without rush, intention without pressure.
You clawed at his shoulders, moaning into his neck. âJack, Jackââ
âRight here.â
âI missed you today.â
âI missed you too. I always do.â
You wrapped your arms around his neck, legs tightening around his waist. The angle shifted, and everything inside you splintered.
âOhâGodâdonât stopââ
Jack groaned, teeth catching your jawline. âYou feel so good, sweetheart. So damn good.â
He guided you through it, one hand braced behind your head, the other cradling your hip like youâd break without it. When you came, it was with his name on your lips and tears at the corners of your eyes.
He followed seconds later, low and deep and steady, body shaking over yours.
Afterward, he didnât move. Just curled around you, one arm anchored under your shoulders, the other stroking your belly in long, soothing sweeps.
âStill dying?â he asked eventually.
You huffed a laugh. âLittle bit.â
Jack smiled into your shoulder. âGuess Iâll keep checking your vitals.â
He pulled back just enough to kiss your chest, then your stomach, whispering something you couldnât hear but felt down to your bones.
When you shifted against him, needy again already, he looked up with a low laugh. âYouâve got to be kidding me.â
âJack,â you breathed, âIâm not done.â
And Jackâpredictable, capable, ready-for-anything Jackâjust grinned.
âI never am with you.â
The second round was slower. Deeper. You rode his thigh first, panting against his neck, clinging to his shoulders while he whispered filth in your earâsoft, low things no one else would ever hear from him. He touched you like he already knew exactly what youâd need next week, next month, next year.
And when you collapsed against him again, trembling and sore and finally, finally full in every sense of the wordâhe kissed your forehead and said, âYouâre everything.â
âI love you,â you whispered.
Jack tucked your hair behind your ear and kissed your cheek.
âGood,â he murmured. âBecause Iâm not going anywhere.â
WEEK 35
The third trimester had turned your body into a full-time performance art piece. You were a living exhibit on discomfort, hydration, Braxton Hicks, and the high-stakes negotiation of shoe-tying. Youâd stopped fighting the afternoon naps, started rotating three stretchy outfits on a loop, and made peace with the fact that gravity was no longer your friend.
Jack had adjusted too.
Without comment, he now drove you to every appointment. Without asking, he refilled your water before bed. Without blinking, he gave up half his side of the bathroom counter for the ever-expanding line of belly oils, cooling balms, and half-used jars of snacks.
But tonight?
Tonight he came home to find you crying at the kitchen table over a broken zipper on the diaper bag.
âSweetheart.â
You looked up, cheeks blotchy. âIt broke. It broke, Jack. And it was the only one I liked.â
âHey, heyâbreathe.â
You sniffled. âIt had compartments. It had mesh.â
Jack took the bag gently from your hands, and examined the zipper like it was a patient in trauma.
âLooks jammed,â he said. âNot broken.â
You stared at him. âYou donât know that.â
He looked up. âI do.â
He walked over to the toolbox without fanfare, and returned two minutes later with a small pair of pliers. Thirty seconds after that, the zipper slid closed like nothing had happened.
You burst into tears again.
Jack set the bag down and pulled you into his arms. âHormones?â
You nodded into his chest. âI love you so much.â
He smiled against your hair. âYou want to take a bath?â
You sniffed. âWill you sit on the floor with me?â
âIâll bring the towel and everything.â
Which is how twenty minutes later you were in the tub, steam curling around the mirror, your swollen belly just breaching the surface, while Jack sat on the floor, reading your baby book aloud like it was scripture.
âSheâs the size of a honeydew,â he said, tapping the page. âStill gaining half a pound a week. Lungs developing. Rapid brain growth.â
You hummed. âSheâs been moving a lot today.â
He smiled, reached over, and rested a palm over your belly. âShe likes the sound of your voice.â
âShe likes pizza. She tolerates me.â
Jack leaned over and kissed your temple. âShe already loves you.â
You sighed, settling deeper into the water. âSheâs going to love you more.â
Jackâs voice went quiet. âThatâs not possible.â
You looked over.
He was watching you like he was memorizing the moment. Like he knew it wouldnât last forever and wanted to hold every second of it.
âSheâs got the best of you already,â he murmured.
You shook your head. âYouâre the one whoâs been steady through everything. Sheâs gonna know that.â
He kissed your hand. âSheâs gonna know we did it together.â
And you believed him.
Even through the tears, the discomfort, the slow shuffle from couch to fridge to bedâyou believed him.
WEEK 36
Jack came home with a basket.
Not from the store. Not from a delivery service. From the hospital. Carried under one arm like it was made of glass.
You were on the couch, half-watching a cooking show, half-rubbing the spot where the baby had been kicking for the last ten minutes straight. Jack came in, dropped his keys, and didnât say anything at first.
He just set the basket on the coffee table and said, âRobby made me promise I wouldnât forget to give this to you tonight.â
You blinked. âWhat?â
Jack gestured toward it. âItâs from the ER.â
Inside: a soft blanket. A framed photo of the team crowded around a whiteboard that read âBaby Abbot ETA: T-minus 4 weeks.â A pair of hand-knitted booties labeled âPerlah Originals.â A stack of index cards, each one handwrittenâDanaâs in looping cursive, Collinsâs in all caps, Princessâs with hearts dotting the iâs. Robbyâs simply read: Your kid already has better taste in music than Jack. Congrats.
You turned one of the index cards over, reading Danaâs note about how you were going to be the kind of mom who made her daughter feel safe and loved in the same breath.
âI didnât know they even noticed me,â you whispered.
Jack rubbed slow circles against your bump. âThey notice what matters to me.â
You looked at him.
He shrugged. âYouâre my wife. Youâre not just around. Youâre part of everything.â
The baby kicked again. Hard enough to make you gasp.
Jack smiled, leaned in, and kissed the place sheâd just moved. âShe agrees.â
WEEK 38
Youâd read about nesting, but you thought it would look more like baking muffins at midnightânot following Jack from room to room like his gravitational pull physically outweighed yours.
He didnât seem to mind. Heâd brush his hand down your back every time you passed, help you off the couch like you were recovering from surgery, and kiss your temple every time he walked by.
By Thursday, the baby bag was packed and parked by the front door. Youâd zipped it, unzipped it, and re-packed it twice just to check. And when Jack got home that evening, he nodded at it, then set something down beside it with a quiet thunk.
You glanced over. âWhatâs that?â
âMy go-bag,â he said simply.
You raised an eyebrow.
Jack nudged it with the toe of his boot. âArmy-issued. Carried this thing through two deployments and six different states. Thought itâd be fitting to bring it into the delivery room.â
You blinked. âYou packed already?â
He nodded, unzipped the top, and tilted the bag open for you to see: a clean shirt, a hand towel, a toothbrush, a few protein bars, and a worn, dog-eared paperback you recognized instantly.
âThat one?â you said, surprised. âYou always said you hated it.â
âI did,â he admitted, zipping the bag shut again. âBut itâs your favorite. I read your notes in the margins when I miss you on long shifts.â
You crossed the room and leaned into him. âYouâre something else.â
WEEK 40
You woke up at 2:57 a.m. with a tight, rolling wave of pressure low in your spine. It wrapped around your middle like a band and didnât let go.
Jack was already shifting beside you. Years in the Army meant he didnât sleep deeplyânot when he was home, not when you were pregnant.
âYou okay?â he asked, groggy but alert.
You exhaled shakily. âItâs time.â
He sat up immediately. âHow far apart?â
âSix minutes.â
âLetâs move.â
By the time you got in the car, the contractions were coming fasterâsteadier. Jack didnât speed, but he gripped the steering wheel like the world depended on it.
You were wheeled in through the ER doorsâbecause of course you were going into labor at the hospital where Jack worked. Princess met you at triage with a knowing smile.
âSheâs in three,â Princess said. âPerlahâs setting it up now.â
You were halfway into the room when Jack froze.
He turned to Collins at the desk. âPatel?â
âStuck behind a pileup on 376,â Collins said. âSheâs trying to reroute.â
Jack muttered something under his breath and scanned the monitors. âWhereâs Robby?â
âDown in trauma. Heâs finishing up a round.â
Jack didnât wait. He left you in Princessâs care and went straight for the trauma bay.
Robby was wiping his hands on a towel when Jack stepped in. Hoodie half-zipped. Scrubs wrinkled. Wide awake.
âSheâs in labor?â
âSheâs in active labor,â Jack said. âAnd Patelâs not gonna make it, butââ
âYou want me in the room,â Robby finished.
âI need you in the room.â
Robby dropped the towel. âDone.â
When Robby stepped into your room, you exhaled like someone had lifted a weight off your chest.
âHey, doc,â you muttered through a contraction.
âYouâre in good hands,â Robby said, glancing between you and Jack. âYouâve got half the ER out there whispering about it.â
âTell them if they bring me chocolate, they can stay,â you joked.
Perlah dimmed the lights. Princess wiped sweat from your forehead. Robby took your vitals himself and kept your eyes steady with his.
Hours blurred together. Jack never left your side.
âYouâre okay. Iâve got you.â
âYouâre doing perfect.â
âSheâs almost here.â
Then everything started to move faster. Robby gave a nod to Princess and Perlah.
âOne more push,â he said. âYouâve got this.â
Jack leaned close, his forehead against yours. âCome on, sweetheart. Right here. Youâve got her.â
And thenâ
A cry. Loud. Full. Brand new.
âSheâs here,â Robby said quietly.
Jack didnât move at first. Just watched. His eyes were wet. His hand covered his mouth.
Princess handed her to you, swaddled and squirming. Jack kissed your forehead and brushed a tear off your cheek.
âSheâs perfect,â he whispered. âYou did it.â
Later, after theyâd cleaned up and the room was quiet, you watched Jack walk over to the bassinet. He held up a camouflage onesie.
âOh my God,â you said. âSeriously?â
He looked over, completely straight-faced. âThis is important.â
âYouâre impossible.â
He kissed you once, then again. And held her like heâd waited his whole life.
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No Man's Land
Jack Abbot x f!Reader
5.1k || All my content is 18+ MDNI || C.W.: mentions of blood, mentions of guns and shootings, mentions of death/dying/coding, CPR, anxiety about partner's safety, Jack's traumatized, reader's traumatized, mentions of dissociation and compartmentalization, poor description of medical events, potentially incorrect medical descriptions/knowledge, very very light smut, angst, age gap kind of implied with Jack but not explicitly referenced, no use of y/n or related, not proofread, no beta, I think that's all but if I missed any please (nicely) let me know.
Summary: This is my Pitt-Fest-But-Not fic. Development of your relationship through vignettes of the past and conversations between Jack, Dana and Robby. There's a shooting where you work. Jack is at the ED when the dispatch comes in and is terrified when he can't get in touch with you.
A.N.: If my Robby reads like John Carter I'm sorry, except that a little bit I'm not. I feel like I'm struggling with my Jack characterization but can't tell if that's just me hating everything I do. This is my take on one of my fave tropes where reader is in mortal danger. I needed a physical location that could be associated with reader and settled on a courthouse, but what it is reader does there is not described. Probably (definitely?) needs a part two. If you get the nickname, thank you, I feel seen. If you don't I explain it at the end. This is absolutely something I would call him, in part to fuck with people who know his real name. I would love to know if you enjoyed and to hear any thoughts you'd like to share.
âHe has a girlfriend,â Robby smirks at Dana.Â
She blinks at him. âIâm sorry, I thought weâre talking about Jack Abbot.â
âOh we fucking are.â Robby stifles his smirk and forces his lips to remain closed and as neutral as possible.Â
âYouâre shitting me.â Danaâs incredulous look breaks Robby a bit and he starts to laugh, tries to turn it into a cough when both he and Dana look up to find Jack staring at them as he takes his snow dusted beanie off. He gives Robby a âreally?â look even though he knew Robby would rat him out to Dana the second Robby had dragged it out of him.Â
Dana looks back at Robby. âWho? How did they meet?â
Robby holds up his hands. âYou now officially know as much as I do about her.â Dana makes a noise of vague discontent but knows Jack well enough to know Robby is telling the truth. Thatâs all thatâs been revealed.Â
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âItâs not worth it,â you whisper. Jack blinks and looks around, unsure if youâre talking to him. He has no idea who you are, has never seen you before in his life but it appears that you are in fact whispering to him in the middle of this bookstore.Â
He raises his eyebrows. âItâs not?â
You shake your head, give him an almost conspiratorial smile. âNo, he must have gotten a new ghost writer. Itâs really bad in comparison to his other stuff. Save your time and money. Iâll give you a summary right now for free if youâre that curious.â
Jack smiles to himself a little bit as he sets the book back on the shelf. Thereâs something about you, your smile, the way you just randomly spoke to him. Heâs drawn to you. An alarm goes off in some part of his brain telling him to ignore it, ignore you, he could get hurt. He pretends to weigh his options as he turns to face you fully. âHow about for a cup of coffee?â
Your brows furrow in confusion for a moment. Thereâs simply no way this unfairly attractive man is asking to buy you a cup of coffee. âThe summary?â You clarify. âThat Iâd give for free. You want it to cost a cup of coffee instead?â You let out a nervous laugh and some part of his heart aches because youâre so adorable. âI just want to make sure I understand before I potentially make an even bigger fool of myself.âÂ
âYep.â He canât help but laugh a little. âYou give me the summary over coffee. Actually, you know what? Youâre going to have to give me a recommendation too because now Iâm going to have nothing to read.â He clicks his tongue at you.Â
âWell,â you laugh out, all breathy as you try to pull yourself together. âYou drive a hard bargain but I think Iâm willing to accept those termsâŠâ you glance at his name badge, âDr. Abbot.â You give him a full smile and Jack knows then and there heâs totally fucked in the best of ways.Â
âJack.â He smiles at you as you both begin walking towards the cafĂ©. âCall me Jack.â
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Everything quiet enough after handoff, Robby walks out with Jack into the morning sun that does little to warm the breeze pulling leaves off the trees. âAny chance you can cover a shift on Saturday night?â Robby is asking, yes, but he knows itâs not really a question, Jack is always willing to work.
âCanât.â Jack says simply, shrugging his shoulders. âSorry.â Thereâs an expectant silence that hangs between the two as they keep walking.
âCare to elaborate?â Robby finally asks.
âNo.â Jack turns and smirks at him. âItâs none of your and Danaâs business.â
âHa!â Robby laughs. âSo itâs her, itâs about her! The ever elusive girlfriend. Will we ever get to meet her? Or does she not want to meet us? Is she real?â Jack stops walking and gives Robby one of his looks. âHoly shit, is it someone here?â
Jack snorts at that. âNo itâs not someone here. Sheâs not even in the medical field.â He sighs, half longing and half resignation of some kind. âSheâs honestly dying to meet you guys, especially you and Dana, but Iâm trying to protect her from this hellhole. Itâs hard with schedules too, to find a time.â
âThatâs such fucking bullshit,â Robby laughs. âAre you afraid to truly commit? Think bringing her here will make it too real?âÂ
Itâs a valid question but one that Jack nevertheless resents. âNo, actually, if you must fucking know Saturday is our one year anniversary. We have plans. So youâll have to find someone else to cover. But Iâll bring her around soon,â he laughs through his nose to himself at your stubbornness, âif I donât sheâs liable to just show up one of-â
âA year?â Robby laughs, incredulous. âA fucking year? How the hell did you hide it for three months before I dragged it out of you?â
Jack ignores him. âAlso, Iâm moving to days. Itâs better for us.â Heâs so nonchalant about it, just states it like heâs saying the sky is blue, like itâs not going to make Robbyâs eyes widen and mouth drop open like it does.
âI donât,â Robby huffs a laugh, âI donât even know where to fucking begin.â
âThen donât.â Jack smirks, starts to walk again while Robby stays frozen, running a hand through his hair. âGo do some actual work.â
âI thought you found comfort in the darkness?â Robby yells after him.Â
Jack slows and turns around but keeps walking backwards, one hand holding the strap of his backpack to keep it over his shoulder. He glances down at his phone and the photo of you that is now his wallpaper. He smiles to himself a little, yells back. âGuess I find it somewhere else now.â
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You giggle, honest to god giggle and Jack could lose his damn mind as he nibbles at your collarbone. âYou know if my anatomy class had been this fun, I might have become a doctor too.âÂ
Youâre laying on your back in bed as Jack kisses your sweat slicked skin all over as you both come down from your last round. Heâs taken to 'teaching you anatomy' like this, identifying different parts of the human body with his mouth.
âHmm,â Jack hums against you. âIâm glad it wasnât then. Fuck doctors.â He starts to kiss down your chest.Â
âThat has become quite the favorite pastime of mine, yes,â you smirk. âFucking one specific doctor, actually.âÂ
âGetting fucked by one specific doctor more like it,â he murmurs into your sternum. He kisses laterally, lips hitting your breast and moving towards your nipple.Â
âI think weâve established what those are,â you moan softly as he takes your nipple into his mouth. You let your hands run through his salt and pepper curls that you adore so much.Â
âCan never be too thorough.â You giggle at him again and can feel him smile against you. âBut fine, you want something new?â You nod, let your nails scratch gently at his scalp.Â
âNipple,â he kisses your nipple and then down your torso to right above your belly button, âto navel is no manâs land.â He continues to lavish kisses on the soft skin of your stomach before looking up at you when you donât respond.Â
âI canât tell if youâre fucking with me or not.â You eye him with mock suspicion.Â
He laughs and itâs your favorite sound in the whole world, you swear. Well maybe second, only behind hearing him tell you that he loves you.Â
âIâm not. Nipple to navel is no manâs land. Itâs a real thing. Itâs one of the worst places to get shot or stabbed because thereâs so many organs that could be hit and the place weâd expect to get hit would depend on whether the person was breathing in or out at the time, whether their lungs were inflated or deflated. And we generally have no way of knowing. It can be difficult to get clear imaging.â He starts kissing lower, down below your belly button, rubbing his stubble along your skin to tease you as he gets lower and lower. âItâs never a good time. Lots of poor outcomes.â
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Itâs supposed to be his day off and yet Jack finds himself staring at the board and running a hand over his face. âItâs still so fucking weird seeing you here during the day and it not meaning something catastrophic has happened.âÂ
Jack turns to look at Dana. âIâve been working days for a month now and itâs my day off.â
âYou can go, weâre fine for now,â Robby nods at Jack. âThanks for the brief assistance brother.â
âNo, no,â Dana interjects, âheâs not allowed to leave until we nail down a time to meet his girl.âÂ
Robby raises his eyebrows and starts to tilt his head and open his mouth to agree with Dana. A dispatch comes through before anyone can say anything else and Dana grabs it, pinning Jack down with her eyes, daring him to leave before discussing meeting you.Â
âSaved by the bell,â Jack huffs, taking his stethoscope off and starting to walk away.Â
âShooting at a courthouse,â Dana relays to Robby, ânot a mass cas, just a few people, two a little iffy, one theyâre already doing CPR on, a few caught in the race to get out. Two dead on the scene.â
It takes a few seconds for Danaâs words to truly register with Jack, but when they do his hearing fades to only a sharp ringing in his ear. This wasnât happening. This wasnât fucking happening to him again. Heâd been so reticent at the beginning of your relationship, waited so long to give in and define it and hand his heart over to you, terrified heâd lose you because of himself and who he was, his imperfections, his past, his trauma, his PTSD, his baggage, as he thought of it. He feels so stupid now, in the moment, not having worried about how he could lose you from a random act of violence, that in the moments he canât be there to protect you somebody could come in and rip you from him. Just like that. With the pull of a trigger.Â
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âYou know, I can confidently say this is the most unique date Iâve ever been on,â you tease Jack.Â
âHey,â he pants, âme teaching you CPR is a great date.âÂ
âIt would be better if you took your shirt off,â you whisper and wink at him before letting your eyes linger on his arm.Â
âIf I did that youâd be so distracted youâd learn nothing,â he smirks at you, sweat glistening on his skin just a little. Just enough to drive you nearly feral for him.Â
 âI think Iâve got the compressions part down, but I may need more help learning the mouth to mouth part.â
He rolls his eyes at you. âYouâre ridiculous.â
âYou fucking love it,â you shoot back at him, leaning into his space and bumping him with your shoulder.Â
He canât help but kiss you. âYes,â the word is muffled against your lips, âyes I do.â He gives you a firmer kiss this time before he pulls away. âBut really. You should know how to do it, just in case. It will help you feel in control in the moment if the need for it ever arises. Youâll know what to do.â
You bite your lip and smile at him.Â
âWhat?â He eyes you with suspicion.Â
You shrug. âNothing, I just love you so much. Sometimes it overwhelms me, how much I love you.â
He can see it in your eyes, how much you love him, can almost feel it physically squeezing him like a tight hug. Heâs really not sure what he ever did to deserve you or your love. âI love you too, Doll.â
âI love you more, Peter.â Your face pulls up into that usual self-satisfied and silly grin you get sometimes when you call him that nickname. Itâs a recent thing. Youâre calling him it more and more though, itâs becoming a natural way of referring to him. From anyone else he would hate it, hearing it between another couple would make him roll his eyes. But from you? He loves it more than youâll ever truly know.Â
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Jack spins around.
âJack you can still go, weâve got it covered.â Robby looks at Jack for a minute and then meets Danaâs eyes as she looks to him after taking her own look at Jack.Â
âWhat courthouse?â Jack asks. Itâs quiet, controlled and clipped and almost missable in the chaos of the ED. Heâs not looking at either of them, staring past them at a wall with a chest heaving more and more by the second as his face grows paler.Â
He tries to keep it together. Dana will say the name and it wonât be your courthouse and heâll go straight to your actual courthouse, grab you, take you home and never let you leave. A perfectly reasonable reaction, he thinks.
âJack-â
âWhat fucking courthouse?â Itâs louder this time, almost enough to pause the chaos of the ED.Â
Jackâs voice drips with what sounds like rage to most of those who hear him but is unmistakably fear to Dana and Robby.Â
Neither of them have ever seen Jack like this, this scared, struggling this hard to keep it together, truly raising his voice for anything other than to quiet down an unruly patient. His eyes find Danaâs and theyâre glassier than sheâs ever seen them, the intensity of his gaze making it painfully clear heâs hanging on every word and the wrong ones will shatter him.Â
She swallows and opens her mouth and Jack knows what sheâs about to say before she even says it. And she does. The name of your courthouse.Â
âIâll triage.â He says it before Dana has even finished, the words hollow and breathless and commanding all at once. He spins and starts off to the bay doors with nothing more. He obviously knows from the report Dana gave that they wonât need triage. He just needed to get out of there and try to create an excuse to stay in the ambulance bay. He knows Robby wonât let him, that Robby and Dana already know youâre at that courthouse, could be a victim.Â
Robby and Dana share another look, So you work at a courthouse. This courthouse. âFuck,â Dana mutters, âI really hope we donât end up meeting her today.â
Jackâs hand dives in his pocket as he strides to the ambulance bay. He already knows in his heart that thereâs not going to be a text from you saying that youâre okay. He hasnât felt his phone buzz. He never even kept his phone on him until you.Â
Even though he knew he wouldnât have any messages, waking his phone and seeing none hits him like a freight train all the same, right in the chest. It threatens to bring him to his knees, make him sick, but he canât. He sets it all aside. If you do come out of one of the ambulances he can hear in the distance youâre going to need him at his best. But what if youâre one of the two people dead at the scene? He has to shove that out of his mind too, canât give into the complete panic that threatens to consume him.Â
Disassociate. Compartmentalize. Do the job. ABC. Assess. Stabilize. Repeat.
His fingers fly across his phone automatically, calling you having become so routine. He prefers it so much to texting, hearing your voice, communicating more directly. âCall me,â he starts, âthe second you get this message. Or fucking text me,â his voice breaks, âplease. Fucking please.â He hangs up and calls again, knowing heâll get your voicemail again but trying anyway because itâs all he can do.Â
Heâs helpless, powerless, he canât do anything to try and save you and that threatens to swallow him whole.Â
Your voicemail recording telling people to leave a message plays again and all Jack can wonder is if this is all heâll have left of your voice in his life. Your voice on your mailbox, maybe some voicemails youâve left him, videos, voice memos youâve sent. All distorted by recording, not your real voice. He canât remember what your real voice sounds like all of the sudden. What your laugh sounds like, how you sound when youâre sleepy or in the throes of pleasure or telling him you love him. God, did he even tell you he loved you the last time he saw you, when he said goodbye?Â
âI need you to call me,â he says into the phone again, pauses. âI love you.â He takes a ragged breath in and speaks through his teeth. âI love you so fucking much, so you have to be okay and you have to fucking call me.â
He sends a series of texts asking you to call him or text him or call the hospital or do anything to let him know youâre okay, asking if you are okay, asking where you are as though youâre going to respond. He already knows youâre in the back of one of those ambulances because of fucking course you are, because heâs not allowed to have anything good in his life apparently. How could he be so stupid to think differently? Â
âHey, we donât need triage for this. The numbers are controlled.â Robby walks out to stand next to Jack in the ambulance bay. âIf you want to stay you can, but you canât wait out here to see who shows up, you have to-â
âYeah, yeah, jump on the first patient that pulls up, I know, I got it,â he interrupts Robby.Â
Thereâs a silence as Robby passes him a gown and ties for him before he does the same for Robby.Â
âJack, if sheâs in one you cannot-â
âLike fuck I canât.â Itâs just a statement. Cool and collected and a projection of indifference. It scares Robby more than if Jack had yelled.Â
âNo, actually brother, you canât. Iâm telling you right now. Youâre not working on her. We donât work on family, on significant others, and you would tell me the exact same thing. Itâs too risky, youâll be too clouded.â Robby watches Jackâs jaw clench and roll as he stares out at the street.Â
He wants to argue that of course heâll be clear, heâll be focusing on saving you, heâll have never been so clear in his life. But part of him knows that seeing you like that on his trauma table, your blood all over the table and him and his hands might make him freeze.
âFine.â Jack whispers. âBut if sheâs,â Jack has to pause and take a shuddery breath. âIf sheâs gone or really going and itâs inevitable you have to let me in. You have to let me try to save her. You have to let me code her, Michael.â
He can taste the rising bile in his throat just at having to talk about coding you.
The first ambulance pulls up before Robby can respond and Jackâs on it so fast Robbyâs surprised Jack doesnât get smacked in the face by the door opening.Â
Itâs not you. Itâs someone who is very much not you and is clearly one of the iffy ones.Â
Disassociate. Compartmentalize. Do the job. ABC. Assess. Stabilize. Repeat.
Jack forces himself to go emotionally numb as he listens to the paramedic rattle off vitals and history, trying so very hard to focus on this, something he can do, even if itâs not for you. By the time they hit trauma one Jackâs fine and in full swing, running it like he would any other trauma. Nobody on the team in the room with him suspects anything is amiss. Â
He hates the way he canât see the otherâs who come in, that he has to stay with this patient until theyâre stable and canât go looking for you. He chastises himself for not having brought you here before or at least having you meet Dana and Robby. They donât even know what you look like, couldnât identify you.
âJack!â He glances at Dana who stands at the door as he preps for the chest tube. âWhatâs her name?â
He yells your name at her, impassive and stoic as he reaches for the scalpel, ignoring the looks everyone throws each other at the slightest tremor in his voice.
âIâll look for her.â Dana promises. He doesnât respond. He canât. Heâll fall apart.Â
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The restaurant youâre at has to be the fanciest place youâve ever been to. Itâs the hottest place in the city and you have no idea how Jack snagged reservations here for dinner to finish out celebrating your one year anniversary.Â
The lighting and low hum of other patrons talking to each other and glasses and silverware and plates tinkling is cinematic. You feel like the main character. But then thatâs always how Jack makes you feel.Â
âI got you something.â He pulls out a wrapped rectangular object.Â
You click your tongue and tsk at him. âWe said weâd do them at home! I didnât bring yours!â
âI know. I have something for you at home too.â His eyes sparkle in the flickering candle light, a little smirk pulling up. âI didnât mean for it to be a double entendre, but both are true.â You snort a laugh at him and take the gift from him. âOpen it.â Heâs still smiling, eyes still sparkling, but thereâs something there. Heâs nervous. It makes you even more curious.Â
You carefully unwrap the object until it reveals itself as a hardcover book. That same one Jack had in his hand a year ago and that you told him was bad and gave him a summary of over coffee.Â
âOh, Jack,â you say softly, eyes getting a little watery. Itâs so perfect. So sweet and sentimental. The book that brought you together, that gave you each other. Itâs almost like a physical representation of the foundation of your relationship in a way.Â
âYou have to open it,â he instructs you in a whisper.
You raise an eyebrow but do as he says.Â
âMove in with me?â is written on the blank first page.Â
You look between the page and Jack. âIs this?â You look back at the page and then up at him again. âAre you really askingâŠ?â
He nods. âMove in with me. Or move somewhere with me, we can get our own place, it doesnât have to be my apartment. We basically live together anyway at this point. Letâs just make it official, yeah? Wherever you want, you can decorate however you want. Just as long as itâs our place.â
You bring a hand to your mouth for a second before using your napkin to dab at the inner corners of your eyes to stop the tears from falling and look back at him.Â
âYouâre a romantic, Jack Abbot,â you hum all dreamily.Â
âYou better not tell anyone. Canât have you ruining my street cred.â He smirks, but his expression and the way he fidgets show heâs still anxious. âSo?â
You realize then you never actually answered him. Sniffling a little laugh and letting a few tears fall you give him his answer, voice thick and full of emotion. âYeah, I think Iâm willing to accept those terms. Iâd love to move in with you⊠Peter.â
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He hears you counting to yourself before he sees you. âOne, twoâŠâ
Itâs not loud, just said in a normal voice, softer if anything because of how youâre panting, but Jack is so on edge and so desperate to find you heâd subconsciously been listening closely to his surroundings, military training kicking in. His head snaps to you and he doesnât even know what to think when he sees you being rolled in on top of a gurney, performing CPR that would rival the quality of his own.Â
âWhy is she..?â He hears Robby question the paramedic as you roll in.Â
âShe was performing them just as well as we could and it was better to just scoop and run,â the paramedic explains. âShe must have had one hell of an instructor.â
âPeter!â You yell, without looking up, not sure if heâs still here. Youâre so used to it by now that the nickname is just what comes out of your mouth as you look for him. Heâd texted you to let you know he was going in for a bit. Â
Jack could sob and the entire team in the room with him can feel a crushing tension shatter. Maybe he does get a little teary just from the sheer relief. He tells himself itâs sweat in his eyes.
âYeah Doll?â He yells back, not giving a fuck about everyone hearing him call you Doll, and you calling him Peter, knowing full well heâs going to have so much explaining to do about this entire situation, the confusion in the room palpable.Â
âIâm okay!â This time he does laugh to himself.Â
âYeah Iâd say so,â he mutters, smiling. Heâs still anxious to see you, get his own eyes on you, feel you with his own hands.Â
Itâs only about thirty more seconds before his patient is stable enough and he can rip his gloves and gown off and start putting fresh gloves on as he walks into the trauma room youâd been wheeled into. Normally heâd yell out for someone to talk to him or ask what theyâve got but not this time. This time he doesnât even care about whoâs on the table, only the person who came off it. Only you.Â
Youâre standing to the side now, watching Robby and the rest of the team work, impassive as pink tears stream down your face from the dried blood on it. Youâre just so fucking overwhelmed by everything and now that youâre not doing CPR everything thatâs happened is hitting you at once.Â
Jack says your name as he moves to you, needs his hands on you.Â
âAre you hurt? Were you hit?â He rushes out. His voice brings you back and you look up at him with wide, terrified eyes. He goes to look you over but you latch onto him, hugging him tightly, shaking a bit.Â
âIâm fine, Iâm okay, Iâm, Iâm sorry,â you start to rattle off, fisting at his scrub top and clinging to him like heâs the only thing keeping you tethered to reality. In the moment he might just be.Â
He hugs you back just as hard, kisses the top of your head. He doesnât care who sees right now, all he cares about is you. âItâs okay, you have nothing to apologize for. Iâm just so fucking glad youâre okay. I thought⊠I thought you wereâŠâ He doesnât have to finish, you know what he means. âI canât fucking lose you. I love you way the fuck too much.â
Youâve been so wrapped up in each other neither of you have noticed that Robbyâs patient, the one you were doing CPR on, has started to code again. âAbbot, need you here!â
You let him go, nod at him. âGo on,â you whisper, âIâll be right here. Iâm okay. I love you more.â Jack nods at you and walks over, jumping in and assisting Robby.
Itâs once youâre out of Jackâs arms, away from his warm body and more grounded in reality that you notice how cold you are, how youâre swaying because he was supporting you far more than you realized, how lightheaded you are, how your abdomen and chest really fucking hurt. You chalk it up to the adrenaline wearing off and being sore from the chest compressions you just did.Â
On the other side of the room an instrument tray gets knocked over, metal hitting the floor in a loud clang. It startles you, makes you jump and twist quickly to see what it was, if it was another gun, another shot. You feel something almost tearing, a sharp pain across your abdomen and lower chest, a feeling of sticky warmth against your shirt.
You sway a little, start to realize how much worse the pain is now. Itâs bad enough that you canât even make noise to express the pain. Thereâs no air in your lungs, you swear. You realize your lightheadedness is now much, much worse, that youâre shivering from how cold you are. Or are you just shaking? You canât tell. It doesnât make sense. The room isnât even that cold. You shouldnât be so cold. Not unless.
You pull your shirt up slowly and look down and run your hand over your skin and sure enough, thereâs a bullet hole seeping blood, about half way between your nipple line and belly button, skin now covered in a dark bruise.Â
You cough a little, itâs quiet. It starts feeling like thereâs water in your lungs. Like you canât get any oxygen in even though youâre in a room full of it. The metallic taste in your mouth is what manages to seep into whatâs left of your consciousness next. You cough again, into your hand, and feel something wet hit your skin. Blood.Â
It hits you. Youâre drowning in your own blood. Thatâs why it feels like you canât breathe. Youâve been shot. In a bad place, one of the worst places, Jack had told you that night. You get scared, feel your heart pounding. It feels like youâre dying. You donât want to die, donât want to leave Jack. Youâd just finished moving into your new place together, were going to spend all weekend unpacking and painting and getting furniture where you wanted it. You were going to make your home.
Time. You were supposed to have more time together.
âHey, Jack,â you slur softly, struggling to keep yourself standing. Luckily he hears you. Your use of his first name and the slur to your voice has him panicking again already. Time slows as he turns around to take you in, eyes going from your face and the blood coating your teeth and trickling from your mouth as you try and smile reassuringly at him, down to your torso where youâre still holding your shirt up just enough for him and everyone else in the room to see the bullet hole and bruising marring your skin. âI think, I think Iâm not good, itâs not good.â Your vision tunnels so fast you can just barely see Jackâs expression of sheer abject unadulterated horror and panic as you get out your last words. âNipples to navel⊠no manâs land.â
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a/n : I fear I took your idea and turned it into a 4k word emotional spiral. I genuinely couldnât help myself. like⊠Jack crying in uniform??? Robby soft-dad-coded and holding it together until he canât??? the handoff?? the dress reveal??
summary : Jack proposes in the trauma bay. You say yes. Before the wedding, you ask Robby to walk you down the aisle.
content/warnings: emotional wedding fluff, quiet proposal energy, found family themes, Jack crying in uniform, Robby in full dad-mode, reader with no biological family, soft military references, subtle grief, emotional intimacy, and everyone in the ER being completely unprepared for Jack Abbot to have visible feelings.
word count : 4,149 (... hear me out)
You hadnât expected Jack to propose.
Not because you didnât think he wanted to. But because Jack Abbot didnât really ask for things. He was a man of action. Not words. Never had been.
But with you? He always showed it.
Like brushing your shoulder on the way to a trauma roomânot for luck, not for show, just to say Iâm here.
It was how he peeled oranges for you. Always handed to you in a napkin, wedges split and cleaned of the white stringy partsâbecause you once mentioned you hated them. And he remembered.
It was how he left the porch light on when you got held over.
How heâd warm your side of the bed with a heating pad when your back ached.
Heâd hook his pinky with yours in the hallway. Leave your favorite hoodieâhisâfolded on your pillow when he knew heâd miss you by a few hours.
Jack didnât say âI love youâ like other people. He said it like this. In gestures. In patterns. In choosing you, over and over, without fanfare.
No big speeches. No dramatic declarations.
Just peeled oranges. Warm beds. Soft touches.
So when it finally happenedâa proposal, of all thingsâit caught you off guard.
Not because you didnât think he meant it. But because youâd never pictured it. Not from him. Not like this.
The trauma bay was quiet now. The kind of quiet that only happens after a winâafter the adrenaline fades, the stats even out and the patient lives. Youâd both been working the case for nearly forty minutes, side by side, barked orders and that intense, seamless rhythm youâd only ever found with him.
You saved a life tonight. Together.
And now the world outside the curtain was humming soft and far away.
You stood by the sink, scrubbing off the last of the bloodâgood blood, this time. He was leaning against the supply cabinet, gloves off. Something in his shoulders had dropped. His body loose in that way it never really was unless you were alone.
He didnât speak at first.
Just watched you in that quiet way he always did when his guard was downâlike he was trying to memorize you, just in case you werenât there to catch him tomorrow.
You flicked water from your hands. âWhat?â
âNothing.â
You gave him a look.
He hesitated.
Then, casuallyâas casually as only Jack could manage while asking you something that was about to gut youâ
âIâd marry you.â
You froze. Not dramatically. Not visibly. Just enough that he caught the subtle change in your face, the way your mouth parted like you needed more air all of a sudden.
His eyes didnât move. He didnât smile. Didnât joke.
âIf you wanted,â he added after a beat, voice a little lower now. A little rougher. âI would.â
It didnât sound like a performance. It sounded like a truth heâd been sitting on for months. One he only knew how to say in places like thisâwhere the lighting was too bright and your hearts were still racing and nothing else existed but you two still breathing.
Your chest ached.
âYeah,â you said. It came out quieter than you meant to. âIâd marry you too.â
He exhaled slowly through his nose.
And then he stepped toward youânot fast, not dramatic, just steady. Like heâd already decided that he was yours. Like this wasnât new, just something the two of you had known without ever having to say it.
No ring. No big speech. No audience.
Just you. Him. The place where it all made sense.
âYouâre it for me,â he murmured.
And you smiled too, because yeahâhe didnât say things often. But when he did?
They wrecked you.
Because he meant them. And he meant this.
You. Forever.
You didnât tell anyone, not right away.
Not because you wanted to keep it a secret. But because you didnât have anyone to tell. Not in the way other people did.
There were no group texts. No parents to call. No siblings waiting on the other end of the line, ready to scream and cry and make it real. Youâd built your life from the ground upâand for a long time, that had felt like enough. Youâd learned how to move through the world quietly. Efficiently. Without needing to belong to anyone. Without needing to be someoneâs daughter.
But then came residency.
And Robby.
He hadnât swooped in. Hadnât made it obvious. That wasnât his style. But the first week of your intern year, when youâd gotten chewed out by a trauma surgeon in the middle of the ER, it was Robby who handed you a water, sat next to you in the stairwell, and said, âHeâs an asshole. Donât let it stick.â
After that, it just⊠happened. Slowly.
He checked your notes when you looked too tired to think. He drove you home once in a snowstorm and started keeping granola bars in his gloveboxâjust in case.
He noticed you never talked about home. Never mentioned your parents. Never took time off for holidays.
He never asked. But he was always there.
When you matched into the program full-time, he texted, Knew it.
When you pulled your first solo central line, he left a sticky note on your locker: Took you long enough, show-off.
When a shift gutted you so bad you couldnât breathe, he sat beside you on the floor of the supply room and didnât say a word.
You never called him a father figure. You didnât need to.
He just was.
So when the proposal finally felt realâsettled, certainâyou knew who you had to tell first.
You found him three days later, camped at his usual spot at the nurseâs stationâreading glasses sliding down his nose, his ridiculous â#1 Interrogatorâ mug tucked in one hand. He didnât notice you at first. You just stood there, stomach buzzing, watching the way he tapped his pen against the margin like he was trying not to throw the whole file out a window.
âHey,â you said, trying not to fidget.
He looked up. âYou look like youâre about to tell me someone died.â
âNo one died.â
He leaned back in the chair, eyebrows raised. âAlright. Hit me.â
You opened your mouthâthen paused. Your heart was thudding like youâd just sprinted up from sub-level trauma.
Then, quiet: âJack proposed.â
A beat.
Another.
Robby blinked. âWaitâwhat?â
You nodded. âYeah. Three days ago.â
His mouth opened. Then shut again. Then opened.
âIn the middle of a shift?â he asked finally, like he couldnât decide whether to be horrified or impressed.
You smiled. âEnd of a code. Weâd just saved a guy. He said, âIâd marry you. If you wanted.ââ
Robby looked down, then laughed quietly. âOf course he did. Thatâs so him.â
âI said yes.â
âObviously you did.â
You shifted your weight, suddenly unsure.
âI didnât know who to tell. But⊠I wanted you to know first.â
That landed.
He didnât say anything. Just stared at you, his face soft in that way he rarely let it be. Like something behind his ribs had cracked open a little.
Then he let out a breath. Slow. Rough at the edges.
âHe told me, you know,â he said. âA few weeks ago. That he was thinking about it.â
Your eyebrows lifted. âReally?â
âWellââtold meâ is generous,â he muttered. âHe cornered me outside the supply closet and said something like, âI donât know if sheâd say yes, but I think I need to ask.â Then grunted and walked away.â
You laughed, head tilting. âThat sounds about right.â
âI figured it would happen eventually,â Robby said. âI just didnât know it already had. This is the first Iâm hearing that he actually went through with it.â
He looked down at his coffee, thumb brushing the rim. Then back up at you with something warm in his expression that made your throat go tight.
âIâm proud of you, kid. Really.â
Your throat tightened.
âI donât really have⊠anyone,â you said. âNot like that. But youâve always beenââ
He waved a hand, cutting you off before you could get too sentimental. His voice was quiet when he said, âI know.â
You nodded. Tried to swallow the lump forming in your throat.
âYou crying on me?â he teased gently.
âNo,â you lied.
âLiar.â
He reached up and gave your arm a firm patâone of those dad-move, no-nonsense gesturesâbut he kept his hand there for a second, steady and warm.
âYouâre gonna be okay,â he said. âThe two of you. Thatâs gonna be something good.â
You smiled at the floor. Then at him.
âHey, Robby?â
He looked up. âYeah?â
You opened your mouthâhesitated. The words were there. Right there on your tongue. But they felt too big, too final for a hallway and a half-empty cup of coffee.
You shook your head, smiling just a little. âActually⊠never mind.â
His eyes softened instantly. No push. No questions.
Just, âAlright. Whenever youâre ready.â
And somehow, you knewâhe already knew what you were going to ask. And when the time came, heâd say yes without hesitation.
It happened on a Wednesday. Late enough in the evening that most of the ER had emptied out, early enough that the halls still echoed with footsteps and intercom beeps and nurses joking in breakrooms. Youâd just finished a back-to-back shiftâone of those long, hazy doubles where time folds in on itself. Your ID badge was flipped around on its lanyard. You smelled like sweat, sanitizer, and twelve hours of recycled air.
You found Robby in the stairwell.
Not for any sentimental reasonâthatâs just where he always went to decompress. A quiet landing. One of the overhead lights had a faint flicker, and he was sitting on the fourth step, half reading something, half just existing. His hoodie sleeves were shoved up to his elbows.
He looked tired in that familiar, permanent way. But settled. Like someone who wasnât trying to be anywhere else.
âHey,â you said, voice low.
He looked up instantly. âYou good?â
You nodded. Walked down a few steps until you were standing just above him.
âI need to ask you something.â
He squinted. âYou pregnant?â
You snorted. âNo.â
âDid Jack do something stupid?â
âAlso no.â
He closed the folder in his lap and gave you his full attention.
You hesitated. A long beat. âOkay, soâwhen I was younger, I used to lie.â
Robby blinked. âThatâs where this is going?â
You ignored him.
âIâd make up stories about my family. At school. Whenever there was some essay or form or âbring your parents to career dayâ crapâIâd just invent someone. A dad who was a firefighter. A mom who was a nurse. A grandma who sent birthday cards.â
Robby didnât move. Just listened.
âAnd I got good at it. Lying. Not because I wanted to, but because it was easier than explaining why I didnât have anybody. Why there was no one to call if something happened. Why I always stayed late. Why I never talked about holidays.â
You looked down at him now. Really looked at him.
âI didnât make anything up this time.â
His brow furrowed, just slightly.
âBecause I have someone now,â you said. âI do.â
He didnât say anything. Not yet.
You took a breath that shook a little in your chest.
âAnd Iâm getting married in a few months, and thereâs this part I keep thinking about. The aisle. Walking down it. That moment.â
You cleared your throat.
âI donât want it to be random. Or symbolic. Or just⊠for show.â
Another breath.
âI want it to be you.â
Robby blinked once.
Then again.
His mouth opened like he was about to say something. Closed. Then opened again.
âYou want me to walk you?â
You nodded. âYeah. I do.â
He exhaled hard. Looked away for a second like he needed the extra space to catch up to his own heart.
âJesus,â he muttered. âYouâre really trying to kill me.â
You smiled. âYou can say no.â
âDonât be an idiot.â He looked up at you, and his voice cracked just slightly. âOf course Iâll do it.â
You hadnât expected to get emotional. Not really. But hearing it out loudâthat heâd do it, that he meant itâit undid something small and knotted in your chest.
âYouâre one of the best things that ever happened to me, you know that?â he said.
âI didnât have a plan when you showed up that first year. Just thought, âthis kid needs a break,â and next thing I knew you were stealing my chair and bitching about suture kits like weâd been doing this for a decade.â
You laughed, throat thick. âThat sounds about right.â
âIâm gonna need a suit now, huh?â
âYou donât have to wear a suit.â
âOh, no, no. Iâm going full emotional support tuxedo. Iâm showing up with cufflinks. Maybe a cane.â
You rolled your eyes. âYouâre unbelievable.â
He stood thenâslower than he used to, one hand on the railingâand looked at you with that same warmth he always tried to hide under sarcasm and caffeine.
âYou did good, kid.â
You gave a crooked smile. âThanks.â
The music started before you were ready.
It was quiet at first. Just the soft swell of strings rising behind the door. But your hands were shaking, your throat was tight, and everything felt too big all of a sudden.
Robby looked over, standing next to you in the little alcove just off the chapel doors, tie only mostly straight, boutonniere slightly crooked like heâd pinned it on in the car.
âYouâre breathing like youâre about to code out,â he said gently.
You gave him a half-laugh, half-gasp. âI think I might.â
He tilted his head. âYou okay?â
âNo,â you whispered, eyes already burning. âI donât knowâmaybe. Yes. I justâJackâs out there. And everyoneâs watching. What if I trip? Or ugly cry? Or completely blank and forget how to walk?â
Robby didnât flinch. He just reached out and took your handâsteady and instinctiveâhis thumb brushing over your knuckles the way he had that night during your intern year, when youâd locked yourself in the on-call room and couldnât stop shaking after your first failed intubation. He didnât say anything then either. Just sat beside you on the floor and held your hand like thisâanchoring, patient, there.
âHey,â Robby saidâsteady, but quieter now. âYouâre walking toward the only guy Iâve ever seen drop everythingâwithout thinkingâjust because you looked a little off walking out of a shift.â
You blinked, chest already starting to tighten.
âIâve watched him learn you,â Robby continued. âSlow. Quiet. Like he was memorizing every version of you without making it a thing. The tired version. The pissed-off version. The one who forgets to eat and pretends sheâs fine.â
He let out a quiet laugh, still looking right at you.
âIâve seen Jack do a thoracotomy with one hand and hold pressure with the other. Iâve seen him walk into scenes nobody else wanted, shirt soaked, pulse steady, like he already knew how it would end. He doesnât rattle. Hell, I watched him take a punch from a drunk in triage and not even blink.â
His hand tightened around yoursâjust slightly.
âThatâs how I know,â he said. âThat this is it. Because Jackâthe guy whoâs walked into burning scenes with blood on his boots and didnât even flinchâlooked scared shitless the second he realized he couldnât picture his life without you. Not because he didnât think youâd say yes. But because he knew it meant something. That this wasnât something he could compartmentalize or walk away from if it got hard. Loving you? Thatâs the one thing he can't afford to lose.â
Your eyes burned instantly. âYouâre gonna make me cry.â
âGood. Less pressure on me to be the first one.â
You gave him a teary smile. âYou ready?â
Robby offered his arm. âKid, Iâve been ready since the day you stopped listing âN/Aâ under emergency contact.â
The doors creaked open.
You sucked in a breath.
And thenâ
The music swelled.
Not the dramatic kindâno orchestral swell, no overblown strings. Just the soft, deliberate rise of something warm and low and steady. Something that sounded like home.
The crowd stood. Rows of people from different pieces of your life, blurred behind the blur in your eyes. You couldnât see any one of them clearlyânot Dana, not Langdon, not Whitaker fidgeting with his tieâbut you felt them. Their hush. Their stillness.
And at the far end of the aisle stood Jackâdressed in his Army blues.
Not a rented tux. Not a tailored suit.
His uniform.
Pressed. Precise. Quietly immaculate.
It wasnât a performance. It wasnât for show. It was him.
He hadnât worn it to make a statement. He wore it because there were people in the pews who knew him from beforeâbefore the ER, before Pittsburgh, before you. Men and women who had bled beside him, saved lives beside him, watched him shoulder more than anyone shouldâand never once seen him like this.
Undone. Open.
There were people in his family whoâd worn that uniform long before him. And people heâd served with who taught him what it meant to wear it well. Not for attention. Not for tradition. But because it meant something. A history. A duty. A vow he never stopped honoringâeven long after the war ended.
And when you saw him standing thereâdress blues crisp under the soft chapel light, shoulders squared, mouth tight, eyes fullâyou didnât see someone dressed for a ceremony.
You saw him.
All of him. The past, the present, the parts that had been broken and rebuilt a dozen times over. The weight heâd never put down. The man heâd become when no one else was watching.
Jack didnât flinch as the doors opened. He didnât smile, didnât wipe his eyes. He just stood thereâsteady, quiet, letting himself feel it.
Letting you see it.
And somehow, that meant more than anything he couldâve said.
The room stayed still, breath held around you.
Until, from somewhere near the front, Javadiâs whisper sliced through the quiet:
âIs heâoh my God, is Abbot crying?â
Mohan choked on a mint. Someoneâmaybe Santosâaudibly gasped.
And halfway down the aisleâwhen your breath caught and your knees went just a little looseâRobby spoke, voice low and smug, just loud enough for you to hear.
âWell,â Robby muttered, voice low and smug, âremind me to collect $20 from Myrna next shift.â
You glanced at him, confused. âWhat?â
He didnât look at you. Just kept his eyes forward, deadpan. âNothing. Justâturns out you werenât the only one betting on whether Jack would cry.â
Your breath hitched. âWhat?â
âShe said he was carved from Army-grade stone and wouldnât shed a tear if the hospital burned down with him inside. I disagreed.â
You gawked at him.
âShe told meâand I quoteââIf Dr. Y/L/N ever changes her mind, tell her to step aside, because I will climb that man like a jungle gym.ââ
You almost tripped. âRobby.â
âSheâs got her sights set. Calls him âsergeant sweetheartâ when the nurses arenât looking.â
You clamped a hand over your mouth, laughing through the tears already welling. And the altar still felt a mile away.
He finally glanced at you, face softening. âI said she didnât stand a chance.â
You blinked fast.
âBecause from the second he saw you?â Robby added, voice lower now. âThat was it. He was done for.â
You had never felt so chosen. So sure. So completely loved by someone who once thought emotions were best left unsaid.
Robby must have felt the shift in your weight, because he pulled you in slightly closer. His handâbroad and warmâcurved around your arm like it had a thousand times before. Steady. Grounding. Father-coded to the core.
âYou got this,â he murmured. âLook at him.â
You did.
And Jack was still thereâstill crying. Not bothering to wipe his eyes. Not hiding it. Like he knew nothing else mattered more than this moment. Than you.
When you finally reached the end of the aisle, Jack stepped forward before the officiant could speak. Like instinct.
Robby didnât move at first.
He just looked at youâlong and hard, eyes bright.
Then looked at Jack.
Then back at you.
His hand lingered at the small of your back.
And his voice, when it came, was rougher than usual. âYou good?â
You nodded, too full to speak.
He nodded back. âAlright.â
And thenâquietly, like it was something he wasnât ready to do but always meant toâhe took your hand, and placed it gently into Jackâs.
Jack didnât look away from you. His hand curled tight around yours like it was a lifeline.
Robby cleared his throat. Stepped back just a little. And you saw itâthe tremble at the corner of his mouth. The way he blinked too many times in a row.
He wasnât immune to it.
Not this time.
âYou take care of her,â he said, voice thick. âYou hear me?â
Jackâeyes glassy, jaw tightâjust nodded. One firm, reverent nod.
âI do,â he said.
And for once, that wasnât a promise.
It was a fact.
A vow already lived.
Robby stepped back.
A quiet shift. No words, no fuss. Just one last glanceâfull of something that lived between pride and griefâand then he stepped aside, slow and careful, like his body knew he had to let go before his heart was ready.
And then it was just you and Jack.
He stepped in just a little closerâlike the space between you, however small, had finally become too much. His hand tightened around yours, his breath shallow, like holding it together had taken everything he had.
The moment he saw youâreally saw youâsomething behind his eyes cracked wide open.
He didnât smile. Not right away.
He didnât say anything clever. Didnât reach for you like someone confident or composed.
It was like heâd been waiting for this moment his whole lifeâand still couldnât believe it was real.
âFuck,â he breathed. âYouâre gonna kill me.â
You tried to laugh, but it crackedâcaught somewhere between joy and everything else swelling behind your ribs.
The dress fit like a memory and a dream at once. Sleek. Understated. A silhouette that didnât beg for attention, but held it all the same. Clean lines. Long sleeves. A bodice tailored just enough to feel timeless. A low back. No shimmer. No lace. Just quiet, deliberate elegance.
Just you.
Jack took a breathâslow and shaky.
âYouâre the most beautiful thing Iâve ever seen,â he said, like he wasnât entirely sure he was speaking out loud.
You blinked fast, vision swimming.
âYouâre not supposed to make me cry before we even say anything,â you managed, voice trembling.
He gave a small, broken laugh. âThat makes two of us.â
You could feel the crowd behind you. Every attending. Every nurse. Every person who thought they knew Jack Abbotâstoic in trauma bays, voice sharp, pulse steady no matter what walked through the doors.
And now? They were seeing him like this.
Glass-eyed. Soft-spoken. Undone.
Jack looked at you again. Really looked.
âI knew I was gonna love you,â he said. âBut I didnât know itâd be like this.â
Your breath caught. âLike what?â
He smiledâslow, quiet, reverent.
âLike peace.â
You blinked so fast it almost turned into a sob. âGod. I hate you.â
âNo, you donât.â
âNo, I donât,â you whispered, smiling through it.
Behind you, the music began to fade. The officiant cleared his throat.
Jack didnât move. Didnât look away. His thumb brushed over your knuckles like it had done a thousand times beforeâonly this time, it meant something.
âIâve never been more sure of anything,â he said softly. âNot in combat. Not in med school. Not even the first time I intubated someone on a moving Humvee.â
You laughed, choked and real. âYouâre ridiculous.â
âIâm yours,â he corrected. âThatâs the important part.â
The officiant spoke then, calling for quiet.
But Jack leaned in one last time, voice so low it barely touched the air.
âTell me when to breathe,â he said.
You smiled, heart wrecked and steady all at once.
âIâve got you.â
And Jack Abbotâcombat medic, ER attending, man who spent a lifetime holding everything togetherâclosed his eyes and let himself believe you.
Because for once in his life, he didnât have to be ready for the worst.
He just had to stand beside the best thing that ever happened to him.
And say yes.
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Semper Fi | [4/8]
Dr. Jack Abbot x f!doctor!reader
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Summary: Jack finally pulls you in. You try not to fall too quickly.
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Note: trying to combine my initial thoughts of Abbot and all the things we learned in the finale lol (plus the comment that heâs a widower), it took a hot minute
I had such an urge to go back and edit the three previous parts so I did lol I really like how theyâve turned out.
Word Count: 3.8k
Warnings: age gap, SMUT (MINORS DNI), p in v, pet name (sweetheart), jealous!Jack, unwanted advances (not from Jack), hospital setting, medical inaccuracies, Jack is a widow, alcohol
not beta read
Jack arrived at your door promptly at 7:30 in the morning, and you were thankful you had the day off. You werenât sure how you would have found a private moment otherwise in the hallways of the hospital.
He came with breakfast and coffee, with that look you were slowly learning to read: longing.
When he placed the bag of food on the counter, along with the two cups of coffee â one shockingly sweet and the other unfathomably bitter â his hands found you immediately after. His fingers dug into your hips and pulled you flush against him.
Staring into your eyes, you felt like his body was coiled tightly in restraint, stuck between bracing for a hit and holding himself back. You held your hand to his chest and waited, hoping he might find the words.
âI donât want you to look back on this in ten years andââ
âI wonât.â You said, so definitively, watching him with wide doe eyes.
His eyebrows furrowed and he struggled, âYouâre young, and Iâve got a fuckinâ mess of skeletons in my closetââ
âAnd if I wanted you anyway?â
His eyes snapped to yours, his grip tightening. The air was thick, and at the sight of his darkening eyes, it seemed like he had struck a match in your stomach. His silence lingered.
âI like this.â You said, like it was a secret. Perhaps it still was, but now you had a craving for it to be real. To be revealed.
His grip on your tightened, eyes flicking between yours, studying you. All sharp edges and vice; you wanted him to devour you.
âI want you, Jack.â You whispered, your fingers tightening on the hem of his scrubs, looking down at your hands. âIâm just waiting for you to want me back.â
He curled a finger under your chin and forced you to look him in the eyes. âThatâs what you think? That I donât want you?â
You nodded absently, holding his gaze, heart thumping wildly inside your chest. You hoped your ribcage would contain it. His eye contact was sending a buzz throughout your system â heavy and close and so scarily intimate â like an exposed livewire thrumming just beneath your skin.
âYou keep pushing me away whenever I get close.â
âIâve been trying to spare you. I donât even know what the fuck Iâm doing. I donât want this to be some big mistake for you. I donât want you to look back and think you fucked up, giving your attention to some guy nearly twice your age, and I think you might.â He paused, though never broke eye contact, âItâs not a lack of want, sweetheart, itâs the overwhelming urge of it. I just donât want to dive into the deep end before you know what youâre doing.â
His words, whispered huskily to you, went straight to your core and all your desire for him bubbled over, like a pot of water left boiling too long.
âI know what Iâm doing. I have since we startedâŠwhatever this is.â You said, eyes looking over his face. âI donât want to live in fear of what could be, or what I could think in ten, twenty years. Iâm an adult and I trust myself to know what I want. Right here. Right now.â
âThen say it again. Mean it. Say it again and Iâm yours.â
You were glad you were flush against his chest, back against the kitchen counter, otherwise your knees might have buckled. It was a new feeling â a rush of emotion flooding through you to be wanted so completely, so carnally.
You knew what the words would mean. It was more than a simple string of words, it would be a declaration of a promise. A promise you had every intention of keeping.
âJack, I want you.â You breathed out, hoping the intensity of your gaze would give away how serious you were about those words.
His lips were on yours, rough and hungry, hand on your jaw moving to the back of your head to hold you close. A small noise of surprise echoed in the back of your throat, and you had to remind yourself to breathe. He was not gentle and you did not want him to be, finally letting go of all the restraint you had tried to hold onto waiting for thisâŠwaiting for him.
Your top rode up just enough to where Jackâs hands met the skin on your hip, and it sent your heart into a race. You gripped his shirt and held him to you, needing something to steady you, your thoughts in a frenzy.
Jackâs hands were everywhere, clouding your mind with the feeling of his skin on yours. Tight on your hips, lingering over your thighs before gripping them hard, kneading at your ass before moving up to caress over your stomach. The smell of him â something warm and woodsy â mixed with the feel of him made you dizzy. The moment was quickly barrelling further than you had gone with him in the past, and it felt like something finally clicked into place.
You unraveled, attempting to mold yourself to him, clinging tightly so he couldnât slip away. Tongues met and he tasted like desire made flesh, moving in a synchronized dance you had never learned, but with him, did not need to. It felt effortless, swallowing his breath and heat, and you begged for it to consume you.
âBedroom.â You murmured, soft and urgent.
He hummed, low and irresistible, rumbling equally through your chest.
You stayed tangled while you made your way to your bedroom, Jackâs hands never leaving your skin. You pulled at his top and he quickly discarded it to the floor of your room, your hands eagerly taking in the new canvas of skin. Hard muscle dappled with freckles, a soft pink scar just below his collarbone and another near his navel met your gaze. He only let you marvel for a moment before his lips were back on you.
Once on your bed, you pulled off your shirt and did not watch where it landed, while Jack helped you with your pants. Deliberate and rushed, but no less caring. He hovered over you, attaching his mouth to your throat, his tongue licking at your pulse point. His scruff scratched at your skin as he moved, making you moan.
âWe can stop hereââ
âNo.â You protested, âPlease.â
He smirked, all knowing and eyes all heat. A shiver ran down your spine, pooling in your abdomen. You pulled him back down to meet your lips in a searing kiss and unfiltered lust invaded your senses.
Jack was quick to remove his pants before crawling on top of you, kissing up your body. You moved your hips up in search of friction, hoping he might have mercy on you. One hand gripped your hip and held it down while his lips kept exploring your skin.
You let out a tiny whine, âJack.â
âYou say my name like that again, and I wonât be able to control myself.â He said, wolfish and raw.
You met his gaze, clouded with the hazy desire running wild through your system, âThen donât.â
He was only you again, pulling at your underwear until they were off. His fingers met the wet heat between your legs and he cursed, low and devine, before moving them through your folds. He paused long enough for you to know why.
You reached for your end table, and Jack moved over you to pull a condom from the drawer. He sat back long enough to put it on, quick and precise and not leaving you to want long.
His mouth met your breast, sucking on the nipple until you let out a breathless moan. You gripped his shoulders, knowing you would likely leave behind crescent shaped indents of your nails, but you had no room to care. Your hips moved back up, and you felt the heavy weight of his cock, eliciting a whimper.
He gripped your waist again and pushed your hips back down. You whined again, needing to know what he would feel like inside you. You felt him smirk against your skin.
You tugged at his curls, and it seemed his resolve finally snapped, finding your mouth again. He braced an arm next to your head, bringing the other to help guide himself inside you, but not before rubbing a few circles on your clit. It drove you mad.
His eyes were on yours, steady, consuming and intense.
âPlease, Jack,â you said breathlessly, âNeed to feel you.â
He indulged you, pushing his hips forward and allowing you to feel the stretch of him. Your eyes rolled into the back of your head as you tried to find purchase, gripping his shoulders, the sheets, his back. He pushed in until he was at the hilt, nestled perfectly in your tight heat, and he let out a low groan.
âFucking Christ.â
The coil in your lower abdomen tightened and you unintentionally clenched around him. He hissed at the sensation, bringing his hips back enough to snap back to yours. The pace he set was brutal, rough without being too much, and the drag of his hips made your eyes glossy as the feeling steadily got overwhelming.
He brought the pad of his thumb between you, circling your clit until you were a moaning mess beneath him. The heat coiled through your belly, twisting impossibly tight, and you brought your legs around his hips to hold him to you. Your eyes closed tightly, trying to focus on the feeling â so full, so complete, so wrecked.
He tsked lowly, voice like velvet, âNuh uh, eyes on me, sweetheart.â
You met his hazel eyes, eyebrows drawn in, âFeels so good, oh my god.â
He kissed you, sucking on your bottom lip before dragging his teeth across it, like he was trying to commit your taste to memory. He moved his head back to look at you, taking in your wide-eyed gaze, and you wrapped your arms around his neck.
The rhythm that he fell into was steady, hard and precise. Each thrust winding that coil tighter, making you feel like you might explode, as he brushed something inside that you had never felt before. Deep and unexplored. The burning expanded through your system, licking up your insides and scorching you.
âPleaseâŠplease.â You begged, eyes screwing shut again. âJackâŠâ
Jack bit down on the skin of your neck, sucking, before working his way up your throat and across your jaw. Each snap of his hips feeling more exhilarating than the last.
âLet me see those pretty eyes, come on, let me see.â
You moaned, trying to open your eyes so you could look at him, but the precipice of heat was growing far too strong, coiled and blistering.
âLet go for me, sweetheart, come on. I can feel how close you are.â He told you, face above you, nose nearly touching your own. âGive it to me.â
That white-hot euphoria overwhelmed your senses and sent you hurtling over the edge. You could not contain the sounds that left your mouth, delectably sinful, while you opened your eyes to look up at him. Eyebrows pulled tight, you did everything to focus on his eyes. You felt yourself clench tightly around him as he fucked you through it, the burning pulsing orgasm, and you fully surrendered under the waves of it.
His thrusts steadily grew sloppy, his breath ragged against your throat and you squeezed your legs around his hips. His features contorted with pleasure with his own climax approaching, saying soft praises in your ear.
âSo good fâme, fuck.â He breathed.
You grabbed his face to pull him into a kiss, hands in his hair as you held onto him, aftershocks making you drunk on him. His kiss was wet and messy, equal parts hot and languid, before his hips stuttered and you were swallowing his low groan. The sound alone made you tighten around him again, making a stream of curses exit his mouth.
The next kiss he gave you was passionate. Like a confession translated by tongue.
You tried to control your breathing when you met his eyes, and something seized in your heart. You tried not to whine when he removed himself, laying on his back and pulling you close.
Nothing needed to be said as you laid there together. You listened to his pounding heart as his chest moved up and down with his breathing. You splayed a hand on his chest and savored him. Neither of you moved to get up.
âYouâre gonna be the death of me.â
Your smile came easily, âYou canât be rid of me that easily.â
He kissed the crown of your head, something so simple feeling scarily intimate.
You hummed, tracing a finger over his chest lazily, trying to memorize each contour, each scar to memory. You shifted, attempting to get closer, but his grip tightened.
âNot yet. I donât want this to be over yet.â
âItâs only just begun.â You smiled, leaning up to kiss him softly on the mouth, but you stayed put. Settling your head back onto his chest, you relished in the moment, in the aftermath, in the afterglow.
With one arm wrapped around you, he drew circles onto your skin. The quiet was warm and comforting, but as your senses returned, you began to wonder what this all was. You wanted to give it a name.
âMy therapist says I find comfort in the dark.â
Your breath caught, not trying to startle the moment â fearing it might flee. You waited.
âThatâs why I only work nights, I think.â He swallowed, âAnd then you came along and made me think the daylight might not be so bad.â
You found it incredibly endearing and your cheeks heated, âAnd you make me think that nights can be just as good.â
He smiled.
â
After spending the majority of the weekend curled up in each other, you knew something was blooming. But you didnât want to overwhelm it, or smother it, so you let it grow in the moments you shared. Unhurried, but not wholly uncomplicated.
You found you were glad to be back on nights, for despite how hectic they were, it had your grumpy old man. âYourâ sent tingles down your spine, fuzzy and electrifying.
If anyone at work noticed the shift, they didnât say anything. How you fell into pace with each other with an effortless ease, handing him an instrument before he even asked. Or how he anticipated your needs without any words, placing a coffee in front of you midway through your shift or pulling over the crash cart before you called for it.
It was Ellis who picked up on it first, after you had coded a patient and brought them back without needing to say more than two words to Jack.
She raised an eyebrow at you, âSo, you and Abbot?â
You sipped your coffee and tried to act nonchalant, typing away on your keyboard. âWhat are you talking about?â
âYou know exactly what Iâm talking about.â
âI really donât.â You lied, trying to ignore the heat creeping in.
You and Jack had not really discussed what you were, not with titles at least, but neither of you were seeing anyone else. It was serious between you, with an officiality that did not need words. You both also just did not want HR sniffing around, so it went unsaid to keep it to yourselves.
Ellis huffed out a laugh, âDonât look now, but heâs coming this way.â
You immediately turned to look behind you, but Jack was nowhere to be found.
Ellis chuckled, âYeah, you definitely donât know what Iâm talking about.â
You scowled, but it was light, âThereâs a bowel obstruction in South-10, you should go check on that.â
She frowned, âNow thatâs just cruel.â
You raised an eyebrow, shooing her.
Jack walked out of one of the rooms to your right, watching Ellis walk away and stopping next to you.
âWhat was that about?â
You gave a shrug and you barely concealed your smirk, âEllis seems to think thereâs something going on between us.â
His eyebrows raised, but there was that crack of a smile. Your chest warmed at the sight of it.
âI wonder what gave her that impression.â But his smile was knowing.
You got back to your charting, eyes lingering on Jackâs retreating form, watching as he disappeared into Central-8.
Shen rolled over on the stool, sipping his iced coffee, âSo, is there? Iâve got a Benjamin riding on it.â
â
Jack felt like there was something to say about what your relationship was â his therapist always suggested naming a feeling to take away its power. But did he want to take the power away from the feeling in his chest?
He supposed the advice was more partial to the negative feelings, but he still felt like he was failing at navigating the good ones. Frankly, it had begun to scare him â to feel something so real and raw. It had been years since his wife passed, and it had carved out a part of himself. A piece he had long forgone, never fully believing therapy would help him find it again. He was okay with that, until your light hit his face and warmed his skin. He had tried to shy away from it at first, close the curtains and shut it out.
There was a gratitude in himself for allowing it in.
Once he had a taste, it was all he craved. From pecks and longing kisses to soul-devouring make-outs and feeling you wrapped around him, he had found the thrill in finally giving in to the tide. In allowing himself to be wanted so wholly, but he still wanted to take small steps in â even though he knew he was falling in deep.
The way he desired you was bordering on primal. It messed with his head and any logical thought that told him to push you away. He didnât want you to get cut on any of his edges, or realize your mistake when you both fell too deep. It pained him to think you could ever regret him. He really was trying to allow you in, fully, but there was the fear it would swallow up your light until there was nothing left.
On a rare night out with several other attendings, accompanied by a few residents, he watched you. The bar was not quite overpacked, but certainly lively. It was nothing fancy, simple bar stools and booths, with a pool table and dart board.
Despite being engaged in the conversation with Robby, his eyes found you, laughing with Ellis. Protective without being possessive, and certainly not just a gaze reserved for friends. Robby picked up on it immediately.
Robby sipped his beer, eyes flickering between you and Jack. âYou wanna tell me about that?â
Jack looked back at him, hiding his surprise well. He schooled his expression and scoffed, âThatâs not vague at all.â
âRight,â he breathed out a small laugh, raising a challenging eyebrow, âso you wouldnât mind if I go and buy her a drink?â
Jackâs eyes narrowed into slits, taking a sip of his beer. There was a heaviness in his gaze, a challenge all their own as he grit out, âGo for it.â
Robby seemed to find what he had been looking for and grinned. âGood for you, brother. Really. You deserve to be happy.â
âNot gonna chastise me? Iâm half expecting someone to call out the elephant in the room eventually.â Jack said, looking away from the man and finding you again. His age. Your age. He frowned.
âIâm sure youâve done that to yourself already and come out on the other side. Plus, youâre both adults.â Robby shrugged.
Jack took a long swig of his drink, watching as you approached the bartender, empty drink in hand.
He watched the man come up behind you, leaning close to you, placing his own drink on the bartop. No warning and a heat collected in his chest, hot and angry, swirling together until there was a storm. He could barely blame the man, you were gorgeous â and the man seemed much closer in age to you, and a tight feeling seized his stomach, like a cold seeping in.
You werenât looking at him, but then your face contorted in disgust when the strangerâs hands lingered and Jack was out of his seat before he knew what he was doing.
When you looked to see him approached, he treasured the way relief washed over your face at the sight of him. Jackâs hand was on the manâs shoulder and pulled him back.
âHands to yourself.â Jack said, tone like a knifeâs edge â all danger and ice.
âWhoa buddy, weâre just chatting hereââ the stranger scoffed, looking back to you in disbelief. But the way you were looking at Jack had the man look back to him with eyebrows raised. âWait, you her boyfriend or something?â
âOr something.â Jackâs anger was controlled, the quiet kind, coiled up and ready to strike when necessary.
The stranger scoffed, looking between you, âWhatever, man,â
Jack released him and set his intense gaze on him until he backed off, walking back to the table with his friends.
You had a look on your face that took Jack a second to read: eyes half lidded with a wicked grin spreading across your lips, half desire, half teasing.
âI couldâve handled that.â You told him lowly,
âYeah, well, I did already.â
The teasing smile remained, âYou jealous, Jack?â
He narrowed his eyes at you, and your eyes flickered across his face.
âYou really have no reason to be.â You said earnestly, âThereâs only one man here Iâve had my eye on.â
There was that feeling again, curling around his heart and squeezing, warm and comfortable.
âCanât blame a guy for not suspecting you to be with a guy like me.â
You saw right through it, âRuggedly handsome? Devilishly charming?â
One side of his mouth lifted a touch at the compliment. The word sat on his tongue, but he couldnât bring himself to say it.
âIâd appreciate it if you respected my choice enough not to doubt it at every turn.â You told him, suddenly serious. âI think Iâve made it pretty clear I donât care for the age thing, or the skeletons in your closet. Some random at a bar doesnât change anything.â
He cleared his throat, âYouâre right.â
A smile quickly turned into a smirk, âI know.â
âCan I get you a drink?â
You hummed, âPlease.â
You ordered another drink, brushing your hand along his arm.
âYou know, despite it all, I still found that kinda hot.â You whispered, leaning towards him, edging far too close for sultry in front of all your co-workers.
Though, if his open display just a few minutes prior had not clued them in on the budding relationship, your bedroom eyes would surely not faze them. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Shen and Ellis exchange a few bills.
He sipped his new beer, raising an eyebrow, âThat right?â
The smile you gave him should have been a sin.
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I still feel like Iâm not getting his characterization right. But maybe thatâs just me being too hard on myself lol
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Dr. Jack Abbot x f!doctor!reader
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Summary: Feelings come to a head after a particularly bad patient interaction.
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Note: Iâm so thankful you guys enjoyed the last one so much! I was so nervous to write for Abbot, he doesnât flow as easily as Robby does for me lol Thank you for the likes, comments and reblogs omg!!
Word Count: 2.4k
Warnings: age gap, foul language, hospital setting, medical inaccuracies, violence against women/healthcare workers, being bad at feelings, mild pining
not beta read
Between leaving a tea or coffee on your desk at the start of your shift just so he could watch the way you lit up, and him leaving a protein bar on yours to make sure you always ate, something started tangling in your ribs. Completely unnoticeable unless he cracked a rare smile, tugging the strings deep in your chest until you felt the heat. The pull. The ache. You left little sticky notes on his desk, sometimes with a coffee and a smiley face, or one with âusual place after shift? I have a sandwich with your name on itâ.
You shared silences during sunrise, quiet and soft and content in the company of each other. There was no facade to be found on the roof. Just him. Just you. Unbothered by the stillness, the close contact of skin. No mask to be worn, just an easy smile from you and a gentle gaze from him. It was not completely vulnerable, but it felt just as good.
It felt clean, comfy and completely within control, if it werenât for the messy feelings in your chest whenever he met your eyes.
It only took a few months for the storm between you two to brew, tense and heavy, finally reaching a breaking point after so many lingering stares and quiet mornings on the roof.
So this argument seemed to come completely out of nowhere.
How had the argument started? Patient care. The tensions were high after a mass pileup and apparently, Abbot thought you were taking too long between patients.
Too slow. Too soft. echoed in your head, not good enough.
You cursed New York for the way the words filled you with dread, ignited by the sight of Abbotâs disappointment.
Even before he had said anything to you, both of you far too caught up in the rush of stabilizing and assessing, the thoughts began to make you angry. Patient care was why you had become a goddamn doctor in the first place, who was he to yell at you about it?
âThe time youâre taking, you couldâve already assessed the guy coming off the ambulance already!â While he was not shouting, his voice carried across the busy ED.
You leveled your gaze at him, tone remaining as it had, though your features had flattened into a plain expression, âWill that be all, Dr. Abbot? I donât think everyone heard you.â
His nostrils flared, his hard gaze never wavering from yours. A thousand words could have been said between you in those few seconds, but you knew none of them mattered. Not when he was snapping at you in front of everyone, not when he had clearly crossed a line.
He moved to help intubate the incoming patient. You turned your attention back to the woman you were assessing for internal bleeding, ordering a CT scan of her head and abdomen. You were able to comfort her while making notes in her chart, irritating sitting heavy in your chest.
After each patient had been settled and cared for, you went to find Abbot. Why was he being so hard on you all of a sudden? It surely wasnât over patient care, not really. He was a no-nonsense kind of man, something you had come to admire. If he had been annoyed in your turnaround time with patients, he would have said something. He would not have waited for it to boil over in front of everyone. That was unlike him.
You found him in the south hallway, just outside of Trauma 1, tablet in hand. His face was stoic as always, a brutal type of beauty you tried to convince yourself not to see. Sculpted by his experience in the ED, leaving behind sharp edges and an even sharper tongue.
âWould you like me to guess why youâre so frustrated with me? We can make it a fun little game! Guess Why Abbotâs A Total Asshole Today. Or would you rather just chastise me some more in front of the entire ED?â You asked him, folding your arms across your chest. Part of you wanted his approval, and the other part wanted to shove it back in his face.
His dark eyes flicked up, assessing you silently. The quiet brooding type had always easily lured you inâno, no, no. You were mad at him. You were mad at him. You disliked the way his eyes softened, just barely, making your stomach flip again. It burned when you shoved the feelings down your throat to maintain your neutral gaze.
âYou donât get it yet.â
âPlease enlighten me, then. I never took you for someone to hold back.â
His sharp eyes were on yours, âTime costs lives, especially in scenarios where we have multiple critical cases coming through the door.â
You scoffed, âIt makes sense why the satisfaction scores here are in the fucking toilet. Patients are more than words on a screen or cases to be closed. Theyâre human beings.â
âDo you think they give a shit? Whether I see them as a human being or a case? Do you think it matters to them when youâre saving their life?â
It felt like deflection.
Your lips finally curved into a frown, frustration bubbling in your stomach, âSo you think a few words of comfort are completely useless? Even when it takes just a few seconds of consideration?â
He matched your frown, but something in him finally relented, much to your surprise. You could see him digest your words, and you knew it was the contradiction of everything he had learned in the military and everything he knew as a doctor. Quick efficiency vs mindful consideration.
Your frustration began to evaporate. âLookââ
âIf that works for you, donât let me stop you. Just be more mindful of the time you take.â
And he walked away.
â
Hours ticked by, and your mild irritation sat at a boiling point. It was easy to see Dr. Abbot cared about the patients coming in, but it was always at a distance. It was calculated consideration, not cold callousness that you had thought in the heat of your anger. The patients were not just numbers, or injuries to mend, but perhaps that was easier for him. To assess, treat, move on. Perhaps that was how he compartmentalized.
Your own compartmentalization really was the key that kept you smiling, kept you as the ray of sunshine everyone knew you to be.
You were warm, in just about every aspect of your life, but especially with your patients. Spending time to check in on them, offer them an extra pillow or blanket, to stop and grab them a sandwich if they werenât on any restrictions. That came as easy as breathing. You knew nothing else.
So when your aggressive patient was being abrasive and combative, you steeled your smile and did what you could. You offered calm words and a cheery bedside manner. You wore a mask of it, of a fake smile, but it protected the real one that laid underneath.
The patient was mad at the world, which had turned him to the bottle, and left him passed out on the sidewalk. He was yelling and you listened, just nodding along, while your eyes scanned over his chart. Ending up in the hospital after drinking too much was not new to this man, which was good information to know.
By the time you turned back to your patient, he was out of his bed and swinging. Despite his staggered gait, one landed directly on your cheek and pain bloomed. You hit the floor with a smack, hands taking most of your weight so your head didnât hit the tile and all the air was out of your lungs.
You were thankful for the resident passing by, calling security and helping you up. You smiled at Dr. Shen, dusting off your hands before gently touching your cheekbone and wincing.
âFor a 0.3, heâs got a mean swing,â you smirked, trying not to be hard on yourself for allowing it to happen.
Dr. Shen just raised an eyebrow at you, âYou alright?â
You brushed him off, âYeah, you mind checking on South-20? Iâm going to go get an ice pack.â
He nodded, glancing over your face again before going to do as you asked. You started back to the staff lounge, just to take a minute, get your bearings. You were genuinely surprised any of his hits landed, or landed with much force, due to how drunk he was. Patients had tried before, but you had been more prepared for those.
After snagging an ice pack, you sat down in the lounge. You snacked on a protein bar, and decided once you were done, you would get back to work.
Dr. Abbot rushed into the room like there had been a fire, making you look up at him in confusion. He was in front of you in an instant, crouching down slightly to be eye level with you. He moved the ice pack aside to assess the damage with that calculated look you knew well â but something unknown to you rested in his eyes. You tried not to wince when his fingers found your cheek and his hands stalled, looking into your eyes.
The air around you felt palpable. Like all those lingering touches and softening gazes finally spinning together like a tornado tearing through a town.
He was so close, you could finally see the green in his hazel eyes. They had always looked brown to you when you stood across the hallway. A contentment settled in your mind seeing him up close like this.
âYou should see the other guy.â You forced a smile.
His eyebrows moved downward, just a fraction, but easy to tell up close.
âIâm ordering a head CT.â He said softly, thumb tracing lightly across your cheek.
âWhatever for? Iâm fine.â You quirked a brow at him. âNothing a little ice canât fix.â
âDonât do that right now. Thereâs no âlook on the bright sideâ for you to find. You were assaulted.â His voice was tense, eyes flickering over your face in something that edged dangerously close to concern.
One minute an asshole, the next someone who cared? This man was going to give you whiplash.
âYes, and lesson learned. Donât turn away even slightly away from drunk, aggressive men. Shouldâve already known that one.â You chuckled.
Dr. Abbot stared at you for a long moment, âCan you at least get a CT for my sake, then?â
âCareful, Dr. Abbot. Your asshole edge is slipping.â
A ghost of a smile crossed his face, âDonât let it go to your head.â
It ignited something hot in your chest, making you grin. You dared to dance just a bit closer to the edge.
âToo late.â
â
Your CT results were normal, and with no other symptoms, Dr. Abbot calmed. He was still mildly irritated, taking over the case of the drunk man and not letting you anywhere near it. His rough edges returned after he left the patientâs room and you could see him stewing in his thoughts much clearer than you ever had before.
The end of your shifts came with a bit of a routine, and this one was no different, watching as Dr. Abbot slipped away to the stairwell that led to the roof. You finished your last chart and followed him.
He was behind the railing this time, leaning on it like it was supporting more than just his weight. While it was still hard to read him, you could see he was deep in thought, looking down at the concrete of the rooftop. You moved closer to him, slowly approaching the railing while looking at the sun on the horizon, burning red and orange.
âWhateverâs going on here, it has to stop.â He refused to look at you. âIt wonât work.â
Your breath got caught in your throat, heat washing over your features before you quickly schooled them. You were not one to run from your feelings, but the fragility of what was lingering made it feel like you should have. He was technically your boss. He was older by more than a decade, closer to two if you were being honest with yourself. There was an impossibility there and you were shocked he was even calling attention to it. You had been content with whatever was trying to settle between you, but the thrill of giving it a name was sending the tangled feelings to weave around your heart and squeeze.
You hummed trying to regain your composure, stepping to put your hands along the safety railing, but you did not look over at him, âYou say that so definitively. Anythingâs possible.â
He looked at you, eyebrows furrowed, âIâm not good at this. Youâre gonna get hurt.â
You quirked a brow at him, âThereâs fun in discovery.â
âIâm too old for you.â
âIsnât that my choice to make here?â You asked, voice soft. Each word out of his mouth felt like flimsy excuses, and you might have found it amusing if you didnât want to prove each one wrong.
âYouâre going to regret me.â
But you liked him like you enjoyed summer rain or rolling thunder, how you found peace in darkness or in the rush of wind. Quiet, controlled, powerful, breathtaking.
âLife is too short for regrets, Dr. Abbot.â
Something in him must have given way, because his lips were on yours in the next breath, startling you. It was like finally giving into the tide pulling you in, and the relief of it shocked through your entire system. You were quick to respond to him, all of your feelings exploding like an array of fireworks in your chest at the feel of him. Rough and warm and undeniably addictive.
âFuckinâ call me Jack.â He breathed against your lips, noses touching.
You found yourself smiling at him, âOnly if you stop being an absolute ass.â
He considered it, âI think I can make an exception. For you.â
You kissed him again, the sunrise burning against your back, hands going to his cheeks. He was quick to wrap you in his arms, pulling you flush against him, careful of the bruise on your cheek. He hummed against your mouth, his tongue slipping easily inside, tasting like bitter coffee and something sweet.
âLet me make sure you get home safe, yeah?â
âJeez, buy me dinner first, will you?â
âWhat about breakfast? Thereâs a diner a few blocks away.â
You agreed quickly before he had a moment to doubt it.
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Jack Abbot x Reader

Warnings: canon-typical medical descriptions, a dad joke, VERY FLUFFY
Description: Jack needs the reader to help him with a VIP patient, but she soon learns about his chosen family.
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Jack Abbot was the reason you wanted to go into emergency medicine. Watching him under pressure was like watching an Olympian in their medal-winning sport. He handled every case with control and diligence, and that lured you into the specialty even more. It only took one medical school rotation with him to know that you wanted to play the game.
So now, in your third month of your internship, you spent nearly every moment with Jack Abbot on the night shift. You rarely had a different attending. The scheduling gods seemed to be in your favor. Of course, you had gotten to know everyone else on staff. You had made friends with the other residents and attendings. Dana had become your favorite charge nurse. Even the social workers were happy to see you walk through the doors.
You arrived an hour early for your night shift, hoping to practice some more suturing in the skills lab before shift change. Just as you were about to escape the doctors lounge and head to the lab, a voice called out behind you.
âHey, kid, I could use your help.â
You turned to see Jack pulling a pair of gloves off and tossing them in the trash. âOh, hi.â You replied as you walked toward him. âWhat are you doing here this early?â
Jack raised an eyebrow, that smug asshole smile on his face. âI could ask you the same.â
You shrugged. âI was gonna go to the skills lab and suture. But not if you need me.â
He nodded and pressed a hand on your back as he lead you to one of the Central rooms. âWe have a VIP.â He explained.
He swung the curtain open to reveal a little girl with long, dark hair and big brown eyes. Youâd seen those eyes beforeâŠ
âUncle Jack!â The five year old exclaimed at the sight of your attending.
It was like magic, the way Jackâs usual stoic demeanor turned into one that would rival a Disney hero. âHey, princess!â He returned her enthusiasm, a wide grin on his face. He dropped to his knees in front of the child and grabbed her tiny hands in his. âWhat are you doing here, huh?â He took a quick glance at the mother, who was holding a small blue bundle in her arms.
âIâm hurt.â The child replied, albeit vaguely.
The young woman let out a strained sigh. âWe were at the park, and Eliza jumped out of the swing when she saw some older kids do it. Landed on her arm.â She explained.
Jack nodded, giving a donât-blame-yourself look to her. Then his eyes flicked back to Eliza. âCan I see your arm, please?â He asked, a voice so gentle that it had to have been someone elseâs. A moment of hesitation from the child. Then a head-tilt from the silver-haired man. âUncle Jack is gonna make it all better.â He promised.
That seemed to convince her because she slowly, feebly presented her swollen arm. Jack delicately held the arm in his hands and examined it.
âBump her up to next in line on X-ray. Weâll get her some IV morphine to help her relax. Could need realignment and screws.â He said to you.
Just as you were about to walk out of the room, you bumped into someone rushing into the room. A mumbled apology was the only thing you heard before a shrill âDaddy!â
You turned to see Michael Robinavitch kneeling to the ground in front of the little girl. âHey, sweetheart!â He greeted.
Oooh. VIP. This was Robbyâs family. The patient was Robbyâs daughter. You left while the family reunited to order the X-Ray. When you turned to enter the room again, Dana was leading Robbyâs wife, who held a tiny baby, to the cafeteria.
âX-Ray order is in. Next in line.â You announced to the attendings.
Jack gave you a thumbs up. He was sorting out the materials needed for IV morphine. He pulled the butterfly needle out of the packaging, and like clockwork, Eliza began to cry. Robby knelt to meet his daughterâs eyes, the ones that were a perfect mirror of his. âSweetheart, look at me. Look at me.â He whispered. âWe have to get you the medicine so your arm will stop hurting, okay? Just a quick poke.â
Eliza shook her head, more tears streaming down her face. âDaddy, please, donât do it.â She begged. âDonât hurt me.â
And if youâd never seen a manâs heart break in real time, the look on Robbyâs face would be ingrained in your memory forever. His body seemed to go limp at his daughterâs words, unable to insert the needle if he tried. Jack quickly intervened, kneeling next to Robby. âDaddy isnât gonna hurt you.â He assured the child. âHeâs gonna hold you while Uncle Jack gives you the medicine. Does that sound okay?â
Eliza still continued to cry. You remember being her age and having a paralyzing fear of needles. So, you stepped forward to distract from the two pathetic men on the ground. âHey, baby. Iâm gonna show you how it works, okay?â You said.
You grabbed the blue elastic tie from the tray and wrapped it around your forearm. âFirst, Uncle Jack is gonna wrap this around your arm. Itâs gonna give you a big hug for a few minutes!â
You picked up the alcohol swab package and opened it. âThen, he is just going to give your hand a little bath to get it all clean. Like this.â You said, swiping the wipe across the back of your hand. âSee? All clean!â
You tossed the wipe and grabbed the J-tip, pressing it on the cleaned part of your hand. âThen, heâs going to give you a stamp that makes your hand tingle. Whatâs your favorite soda?â You continued.
Eliza followed your every move with an intense curiosity. âSprite.â She sniffled.
You smiled. âWhen Uncle Jack gives you the stamp, itâs going to sound like youâre opening a Sprite can. Itâs just air.â You explained.
Eliza nodded, rubbing chubby fingers across her wet eyes. You reached for the butterfly needle after placing the J-tip back on the tray. âLast, heâs going to let this little butterfly give you a kiss where the stamp was.â You finished, inserting the needle into one of your own veins. âSee? It doesnât hurt!â You lied through your teeth. It always hurt more to get an IV on the back of your hand, but that was Elizaâs best bet.
You yanked the blue tie off your arm, then removed the butterfly needle. âThink you can let Uncle Jack try now?â You asked.
Eliza didnât answer, but she didnât protest either. You smiled, motivated mostly by pride, and looked to your senior attendings. Both men stared back at you. Robby with a look of relief, mostly because you got his daughter to calm down. But JackâŠyou couldnât read the look on his face. He broke your gaze to pat Robby on the back, standing up with him.
âAlright, princess, letâs get you that medicine.â He said, grabbing a fresh butterfly needle.
Robby sat on the bed, crossing his legs, and pulled Eliza carefully into his lap. He cradled the little girl in his arms, using his free hand to smooth her dark hair as she whimpered. âShhâŠDaddyâs got you.â He soothed.
Eliza melted into her fatherâs embrace, blinking slowly when he brushed stray tears from her reddened cheeks. Jack tenderly grabbed her uninjured arm and wrapped the blue tie around her forearm still loose. âAlright, Eliza. Youâre about to feel that big hug, okay?â He explained, then pulled the blue tie snug.
A small sound of discomfort escaped the child, but she remained docile in her fatherâs arms. Jack traced the tiny veins on the back of her hand and found his target. When he turned around to reach for an alcohol swab, you already had it ready for him with an outstretched hand. For a brief moment, Jack was caught off guard, but he took the swab from your palm, fingers brushing against the sensitive skin for a beat longer than normal.
âNow, letâs give your hand that cold bath.â He said.
Jack rubbed the wipe across his tiny workspace, and Eliza let out the smallest, softest giggle. Robby smiled, probably for the first time since he stepped foot into the room. âThat tickle? Yeah?â He teased. Eliza nodded, just a little bit.
âYou ready for that Sprite can sound?â Jack asked, once again reaching, and you already met him halfway with the J-tip.
âYeah.â Eliza whispered, her face half nuzzled into Robbyâs chest, but still enough to keep an eye on Jackâs movements.
Jack placed the J-tip over the vein he wanted, and just like you said, it sounded like a can of Sprite opening, minus the sugary fizz that followed. Eliza jerked her hand pack at the odd sensation of carbon dioxide shooting across her skin. Robby reached his finger under her palm for her to grasp, and she did, just like she always had since she was born.
âSee? That wasnât so bad.â He said softly.
Jack rubbed the spot on the back of her hand. âOnce it starts working, weâre gonna let that butterfly land on it, okay?â He explained.
âAnd it will give me a kiss?â Eliza asked, looking to you, her source of information.
Jack and Robby both chuckled, and the latter pressed a kiss to her hair. âYeah, just like that.â He replied.
Eliza giggled, but in her joy, she shifted and moved her broken arm. The laughs quickly turned to screams of pain again, and Jack winced.
âOh, you gotta be still, princess. Weâre almost ready for the medicine.â He said. Then, he leaned in, like he was trying to keep his voice from Robbyâs earshot. âYou know, if you keep being a brave girl, once youâre all healed up, you can come to my house and go swimming.â His voice was playfully sly.
The cries reduced, just a little. âI can?â She blubbered.
Jack nodded. âSure. As long as your mommy and daddy say itâs okay.â He replied, glancing up at Robby, hoping he didnât just make a promise outside of his power.
Robby smiled and nodded. âOf course. You need to show Uncle Jack how you can swim without floaties now.â He said.
Jackâs eyes blew comically wide. âWithout floaties? Only big girls can swim without floaties.â
Eliza nodded, her bottom lip still quivering, but a glint of pride was in her eyes. The same one youâd seen in Robbyâs eyes many times. âCan Abby come, too?â She asked.
Jack nodded, a smile playing at his lips. âAbsolutely. Weâll have a pool party.â He reached back for the butterfly needle, and once again, the brush of your fingers against his. He kept it out of Elizaâs view, continuing to hold her hand. âYour daddy and I will grill some hamburgers and hot dogs. You can teach Abby how to swim. Weâll invite Nana, too.â
Eliza didnât even flinch when Jack inserted the butterfly needle. You carefully concealed your morphine syringe and connected it to the line. But just as you could see her entire body relax in Robbyâs arms from the push of meds, she looked to you with those big brown eyes. âAre you gonna come to the pool party?â She asked.
You froze, unsure of how to answer. Does an invitation from a five-year-old have enough warrant to show up at your bossâ house? Jack placed a hand on your back, lower than he probably meant to. âYes, sheâll be there, too.â He confirmed for you.
You snapped your head to his direction. Those hazel eyes bore into you, and you couldnât find the words to respond. In that silence, he winked at you, a smug smile on his face.
âUncle Jack, sheâs pretty.â The little voice broke your small moment.
Your eyes widened, heat crawling up your neck. Robby let out an involuntary sound, a mixture of a laugh and a choke. But Jack never looked away from you. In fact, he doubled down with, âI know.â
Before you could melt away in a puddle of embarrassment and giddiness, the curtain swung open, revealing Dana and Robbyâs wife, still cradling a tiny bundle.
âNana!â Eliza sluggishly squealed.
Dana leaned over and gently tickled Elizaâs shoulders. âThereâs my girl!â She exclaimed.
You tilted your head, confused by the connection. âNana?â You questioned.
Robby chuckled. âEliza couldnât say âDanaâ when she was little, so she kept calling her Nana.â He explained.
Dana gave you a stern but playful look. âKeep in mind that I am not old enough to be a real Nana.â She stated.
Jack raised an eyebrow and crossed his arms. âI know plenty of people your age who are grandmothers.â He said.
Dana pointed a finger at him and jabbed his chest. âHow would you like to lose another foot?â She threatened.
Your jaw dropped at the comment. That wasnât allowed, right? Surely, that crossed some kind of line. But Jack just chuckled and swiped her hand away.
âIâd love to. Iâll be one step closer to becoming a robot.â He replied. âLiterally.â
Robbyâs wife groaned at the unfortunate pun. âPlease, stop. I already have to listen to Robby and his dad jokes.â She begged.
Robby grinned proudly. âYeah, leave it to the professionals.â He teased, but his eyes moved to the bundle his wife was holding. âHowâs my little man doing?â He asked.
She smiled and moved to sit on the bed next to Robby and Eliza. âHeâs been a sleepy boy all day. Better than testing out his lungs though.â She leaned her head on her husbandâs shoulder as she spoke. âHowâs my big girl?â
Eliza grinned sheepishly when her mom reached to gently pinch her rosy cheeks. âUncle Jack said we can have a pool party at his house.â She stated, beginning to slur her words in sleepiness. âHe said Nana can come. And he said Abby can come.â
Dana chuckled. âStill calling him Abby, huh?â She asked.
Robby smiled, shifting so that Eliza could rest horizontally as she began to doze off. âWeâre working on it.â He answered. âSomewhere she learned that nickname. Canât imagine from who.â He joked.
Jack huffed and moved to where Robbyâs wife sat, offering his pinky to the baby boyâs tiny hand, activating his palmar grasp reflex. âHave they been desecrating our name, buddy?â He asked, a lilt in his voice. âUs Abbots are fighters. We donât take shit from anybody.â
Danaâs swat at Jackâs shoulder for cursing in front of Eliza and his following defense of âSheâs asleep!â didnât distract you from your new piece of information.
âHeâs an Abbot?â You questioned, a feeling of warmth in your chest.
Robbyâs wife smiled. âMichael Abbot Robinavitch. We stuck with Michael for about a week, butâŠâ She trailed off, looking to her husband.
Robbyâs shoulders hunched a bit. âShe calls me Michael when Iâm in trouble. I got a little scared every time she said his name.â He admitted, but his smile remained. âSo we settled on Abbot.â
Jack carefully cradled Abbot as Robbyâs wife passed him over. His tanned biceps that strained against the sleeves of his scrub top made the baby look incredibly small. He slowly walked over to you, his right foot stepping heavier as usual, his eyes focused on the baby. A deep smile graced his lips. And just on the edges framing the smile were huge dimples. You wanted to save that image forever. You brushed a finger against the babyâs tiny hand, smiling when he moved in response.
Meanwhile, Robby was elbowed by his wife, who exchanged an excited but knowing glance with Dana at the sight of you and Jack sharing that unintentionally tender moment. All he did was nod in response, eyebrows raised in a silent confirmation.
âWhy Abbot? Is Jack that important?â You teased.
Dana threw her hands up in exasperation. âThank you!â She said. âThatâs what I said. Iâm still waiting for a little Dana.â
âWorking on it.â Robby said with a wink, quickly receiving an elbow in the ribs from his wife.
âMichael!â His wife hissed.
Robby cowered slightly at his birth name. Jack nodded his head towards them. âSee? Thatâs why this is Abbot.â He said.
You giggled and gently ran a hand over the babyâs soft hair near his forehead, afraid to venture too far back towards the fontanelle. âWell, Abbot is very cute.â You complimented.
A simultaneous âThank youâ filled the room. One genuine, from Robbyâs wife. The other facetious, from Jack. Laughter filled the room, and you felt oddly a part of a family. Their family.
Perlah entered the room with a pediatric wheelchair. âX-ray is ready for Eliza.â She said, smiling at the sight before her.
Robby stood carefully, holding his daughter snug against his chest. âIâll go with her. We can walk.â He said and followed Perlah out of the room.
As if it were a snap back to reality, Jack walked back over to Robbyâs wife and carefully transferred Abbot back to her arms. âIâm gonna go check on that DUI kid in Central Four.â He said before looking over to you. âGo ahead and get the cast materials ready. Sheâs gonna want pink.â
Jack left the room, holding onto the ends of his stethoscope as he walked. You found yourself frozen for a moment, processing everything that had happened in the last thirty minutes or so. Someone cleared their throat, and you snapped your head in that direction, embarrassment coursing through your veins.
âOh, Iâm so sorry.â You said, moving to the drawers of the room quickly to grab the liner and plaster.
Robbyâs wife looked to Dana with a smirk and a raised eyebrow. Dana nodded, intercepting her question in the air.
âSo, what do you think of Abbot?â She asked.
You smiled, bringing the supplies back to the tray near the bed. âHe looks just like Robby.â You answered.
Dana rolled her eyes. âNo, not Dana Jr.â She deadpanned, then nodded her head toward the Pitt. âThe Lieutenant Colonel.â
Your hands froze where they were, sorting out the supplies. Slowly you looked up, and you were met with both women staring intently at you. âOh, Doctor AbbotâŠâ You corrected yourself. âHeâs nice.â
âDo you think heâs cute?â Robbyâs wife immediately responded.
Dana gave her a look of way-to-blow-our-cover. You let out a nervous laugh. âI mean, yeah. But heâs way older than me. And we work together.â You answered, using your answers to ground yourself as to why your crush was a dead end.
Robbyâs wife shrugged. âSo? Robby is almost 20 years older than me. And we work together.â She countered.
You tilted your head. âWait, you work here? In emergency?â You asked.
She smiled and nodded. âYeah. Iâve been on maternity leave.â She explained.
âOhhhh.â You drew out, finally connecting the dots.
Dana smiled. âSee? So what are your other excuses?â She pried.
You laughed slightly and shrugged. âI guess I donât know if heâs interested.â You replied.
The two women shared another glance, debating on revealing any other information. âBut you are?â Robbyâs wife asked.
You smiled slightly, looking down at your hands. âWho wouldnât be?â
The conversation ended there when Robby reentered the room with a slightly awake Eliza. âDistal radius fracture. No surgery.â He announced.
His wife let out a sigh of relief and smiled when her husband sat next to her again, still cradling the little girl. âThat means we can all go home tonight.â She said, pressing her forehead to Robbyâs shoulder.
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After you followed Jackâs careful instruction while shaping the cast on Elizaâs arm, the little girl begged everyone to sign it. By the time she left with her family, there was a âMommyâ, âDaddyâ, âNanaâ, and your name with a smiley face on the hot pink wrapping. And as soon as you finished writing your name, Jack had snatched the sharpie from your hand, scrawling âUncle Jackâ right next to your signature.
As you watched the Robinavitches leave the Pitt, you found yourself smiling. You wanted that. The devoted parents, the precious children, the caring friends who became family.
You knew Jack was approaching by the uneven foot pattern, but you didnât turn around. âYou think Iâm pretty?â You asked.
He stood by your side, brushing his thick shoulder against your frame, looking down at you with a trace of a smile. âIâd be a fool to think otherwise.â He answered honestly.
You looked up to meet his gaze. Those bourbon eyes were intoxicating, but you fought to maintain eye contact. âYouâre really great with kids.â You complimented. âEliza loves you.â
His smile deepened to a sincere one you werenât used to seeing. âThank you.â
The stare off continued. âDo you want kids?â You blurted out, and you nearly clamped your hand over your mouth at the word vomit.
Jack tilted his head, smile unfaltering. âIf I find the right person to have them with.â He replied, leaning down closer to you just slightly. âBefore I turn to dust.â
You laughed and nudged him with your shoulder. He laughed with you and crossed his arms, the muscles rippling across his skin. You didnât notice when he leaned down, his lips dangerously close to your ear.
âWhat you did in there with Eliza. Walking her through the process. Got her to stop crying. Good job.â He whispered lowly.
The hair on your neck stood at attention at the praise, and you could feel his hot breath on your skin. You tried to brush off the feeling. âThanks, Doctor Abbot.â You replied.
His face twitched when you called him by his last name, like he forgot you were his intern and not his. âJack.â He corrected you.
You looked up to him again, taking in another drink of his eyes. There was vulnerability this time. âJack.â You repeated in a whisper. âI didnât know you had dimples.â
It was Jackâs turn to get flustered. âWhat do you mean?â He asked, and you could see the red creeping up his freckled neck.
You gently poked at his cheeks where the divots had appeared earlier. âYou have dimples when you smile. Itâs really cute.â You teased.
You could see the muscles in his face actively working to hold back a smile. He shook his head. âI donât know what youâre talking about. I donât smile.â He answered as seriously as he could.
You wrapped your hands around his bicep and rested your head on his shoulder. âItâs okay. I wonât tell anyone. Itâll be our secret.â
And the smile Jack held back flooded onto his face. Dimples and all. He placed a hand over yours and pressed a gentle kiss to your hair. Nobody said another word. You didnât have to. You could hear it in the silence.
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A/N: this is probably gonna get a Part 2 featuring the pool party because I canât help myself. Also this can technically be a Robby x Reader fic because I intentionally didnât give his wife a name so you can have the best of both worlds here đ
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ok but first or second year resident flirting with jackâs wife knowingly or unknowingly that sheâs jackâs wife and jack is losing it over the whole thing and keeps giving the newbie death stares from across the room whenever the newbie is near is wife and dana sees this all go down from the nurses station and just prepares for jack to go ape if the newbie crosses a line
rookie mistake | dr. jack abbot
pairing: jack abbot x f!attending!wife!reader
warnings: language, age gap (unspecified, but reader is late 20s/early 30s and jack is mid/late 40s), jack defends you because you are his lovely wife <3
word count: 1.8k
notes: if you are under 18 do not interact with my work or this fic. ANON THANK YOUUUU FOR THIS REQUEST <3 i adored this one <3 this is a continuation of ring of fire set in the future, but it's not necessary to read to understand this fic. if you would like to, though, you can find that here <3 not proofread so apologies for any errors!
on monday, you resign yourself to cut the newbie some slack. i mean, alex doesn't know, and if he did, you're almost certain that he would knock that shit off immediately. but... there's a small part of you that finds it a little bit amusing. and maybe you should be good and hold your hand up and say the words that would make any wise man run far, far away: "sorry, kid. you know your attending? yeah, that's my husband."
but that would just be too easy.
tuesday, you're ultimately surprised by the gumption that he has to continue to flirt with you. he says your name like he's purring it, and you can't help but scrunch your nose up slightly, looking up at the board to see where your skills are most needed. the amusement has mostly dissipated, being followed by a certain brand of annoyance that only a twenty five year old boy can draw out of you.
you roll your head to look at your forty nine year old man, coming out of the trauma that had come in thirty minutes ago, only to find that his gaze is already on you. his cheeks are slightly red, hands on his hips, eyebrows screwed up in that way that indicate to you that he's weighing his options about what the best course of action is, here. you wave at him with your fingers, and the new resident, alex, follows your gaze. he gives a big toothy grin to your attending and it takes everything within you to keep your face as neutral as possible. "man, abbot's a cool fuckin' dude," he says under his breath with a truly earnest reverence, and it almost makes you feel bad. almost.
"he's the best of us," you say, and it's entirely truthful. you can tell that jack is still cued in on your conversation. you slide your glance back over to him and wink before you look back to alex.
"yeah." he doesn't take a beat to look back at you with that unbridled hunger that he had been throwing your way through both of the shifts you'd worked together. "so. what're you doing after all of this?"
with raised eyebrows, you shrug your shoulders. "i have an idea or two." he looks just a hair too excited, and your face drops. "not like that. you know, if you want to be a doctor, you do need to actually have an attention for detail." you raise your left hand, revealing the gold band that you wear when you're working. âless flirting. more charting. go.â
when you look over at abbot with a slight exasperation, he just raises one eyebrow at you, and offers a tentative thumbs upâ almost a question.
you give him a thumbs up back.
â
the next day, alex was going around to every person that you both worked with, attempting to get intel on you, and your love life.
dana scoffs when she hears the words come out of his mouth. âi mean, he canât be all that. thereâs no way heâs better than me. i was a diver at duke! i had a full ride!â the words are said with such true arrogance that even dana has to laugh.
âoh, kid, if only you knew.â she claps him on the shoulder and points her finger at him. âiâm only gonna tell you this once, alrightâ after that, youâre on your own. and donât say i didnât warn you.â she looks at him down the bridge of his noseâ a remarkable feat, considering alex is nearing 6â1. âyou donât want to try your luck. you feel me?â
âbutââ
âahâ what did i just say? you donât want to try your luck. believe me.â she claps that same shoulder again. âand if you do, i knew nothing, and had nothing to do with it.â
you lean against the counter, very obviously eavesdropping, not like you really careâ when abbot slides up beside you. he looks over his shoulder at alex, who is, of course, already looking at you. when he meets abbotâs gaze, his eyes go wide and he turns right around, going back to north-11 to finish up with the norovirus patient that jack had put him on. following jackâs line of sight, you canât help but smirk as you watch alex take in a big gulp of air, slap a mask on, and step into what youâre sure is a hell made entirely of shit and vomit.
âyou know,â you say lowly, your elbow brushing jackâs. âthat is just mean.â
âall interns get a noro case when they come in,â he says seamlessly, looking between the board and the patient notes that heâs trying to wrap up. âitâs textbook.â
âhis first day was three days ago. you usually give it at least a couple of weeks before you start sticking them on noro or food poisoning.â
ânot all interns flirt with my wife, relentlessly, in front of me.â jack puts his undivided attention on you.
âoh my god.â youâre smirking. youâre smirking, wide, at your computer. when you look over at jack, you say, âyouâre not seriously jealous of the kid?â
âitâs about respect.â
âi donât think heâs even picked up on us yet. which is hilarious, in and of itself.â you finish up with your chart and put a hand on your hip. âno oneâs telling him.â
âhe keeps this shit up, heâll be hearing it from me.â
you hum and pat your hand on his chest. he catches it, his thumb rubbing at the ring you wear. âyouâre sexy when youâre jealous,â you say under your breath, close enough to him that you can get away with a little workplace flirting.
âiâm not jealous.â
â
he is jealous.
heâs jealous when he watches this kidâ yeah, you may only be five years older than him, but he doesnât linger on that fact too longâ blatantly flirt with you. he gets jealous when alex leans in slightly towards you during shift, just a little too close than is friendly while you review patient notes and ongoing care. but then, he watches you do your little semi-awkward shuffle to the left, and he canât even help his smirk. and then you look over your shoulder, make this face that says, can you believe this guy? and suddenly, itâs not that heâs jealous. itâs just that he loves you.
but then, on that thursday, alex touches you.
at first, you donât even notice what heâs done. a little piece of hair has fallen into your eyes out of the tortoiseshell clip that you love so muchâ the one that jack picked up for you at a cvs because he knows how much you love tortoiseshell. and itâs so faint that you barely even register it. but it doesnât matter. because you may not have realize, but jack certainly has.
alexâs hand hasnât even dropped from where heâs tucking that loose piece of hair behind your ear when jack surges up, dana hot on his heels. âwoah, woah, woah, letâs all cool itââ dana starts, but itâs no use.
jack puts a firm hand on alexâs shoulder, squeezing tighter than necessary. certainly firm enough to drive home his point. âhey, buddy,â jack says lowly, just enough so that alex can hear him loud and clear, without causing a scene that draws the attention of the entire emergency department. he has that sort of simmering intensity that always makes something swirl in your belly. âlook, iâve tried to be cool, man. i really have. but iâm only going to tell you this one time before i pull in a favor with gloria so that you complete your residency somewhere else. keep those grubby fucking hands off of my wife.â
mortification is an understatement for what you assume alex must be feeling. his face is beet red, eyes darting between you and abbot so fast youâd want to get him in for a head CT if he kept it up any longer. âiâ holy shitâ i did not know.â
âi know you didnât,â jack says with a resolute nod. âbut now you do. so keep your hands to yourself and we wonât have a problem.â he pats alexâs back once, and you cover your mouth with one hand and peer over at dana with wide eyes. she, can only shrug, roll her eyes, put her readers back on, and turn back to the charge desk. âgo get a sandwich from the bin and take ten minutes. go.âÂ
alex looks at you and you feel bad, almost. you smile at him and say, ânext time, if a woman says sheâs not interested⊠take it at face value, before jack abbot has to get involved.â
âyes, maâam. it will not happen again.â alex gives one last nod to jack, like a nervous teenage boy, before heâs off running towards the staff lounge with his tail between his legs.
jack rubs a hand over his face. you bite down on your lip, look at him, and you start to chuckle. soon, jackâs laugh begins to mix with yours, coalescing until youâre leaning against the charge desk with tears clouding your vision, his dimples fully out and on display.
âman,â he says, shaking his head. âi feel a little bad.â he says, his laughter still holding him by the sleeve, begging to tug him back under.
âyou should be. youâre scary,â you say while his thumb catches one of the stray tears on your cheek.
he snorts. âiâm about as scary as a kitten.â
âi dunno. i think our friend would beg to differ.â you lean into him and squeeze his arm before you force yourself to pull awayâ you like to exude some semblance of professionalism at work. even if the thing you want to do is drag your husband to the on-call room and ravage him for defending your honor.
âyeah, well. guess i reserve it for special circumstances.â he crosses his broad arms over his chest and looks you, up and down. they land on your face and soften. âi love you, kid.â the way he calls you kid, versus alex, makes your chest squeeze. an old habit from your residency, a reminder of where you were and how far you've come now.
the fondness that you feel for him never gets smaller. the longer you've been with him, from that time where you were his resident, smoking weed on his living room floor and wondering if there was a world where this could all work... the thing that always remained true and steady was how much you liked jack. right down to his bones, you liked him.
how can you capture that all in a sentence?
you don't know. but you settle on, "i love you," emphasis on the most important word there is.
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Okay but LISTENNNNN. Reader and Jack having feelings for eachother but he pulls back (sheâs still new , too young , etc) heâs been cold and she decided to take that day off work and go to Pitt Fest and âŠoh noâŠ. (Still lives but itâs BAD)
Strip Her: Dr. Jack Abbot x Reader
Synopsis: Amidst a mass casualty event, Jackâs medical instincts clash with his personal life when the woman he loves risks her own life to save another. Is he about to watch you die?
Warnings: Canon-typical depictions of trauma/gun violence, mass shooting, GSWs, blood; Reader basically does what Santos did, but in the field hah! > No "good girl" energy from Jack, just anger for putting yourself in danger lol
Word count: 2k+
A/n: Thanks so much for sending this in, so sorry it's taken so long!! Lmk what you think!! âĄ
This is not exactly in our mass casualty plan.
Blood is for the ones we can save.
Ten other patients will die if you put all of your energy into saving this girl.
Jackâs own words haunt him, playing through his mind on a torturous loop.
He looks at Robby, pleading for something. Then back at you, watching you fight for your life.
"Hi, handsome."
"Wanna come over after your shift?"
Read.
You huff out a humorless laugh. The old man really left you on Read.
You know Jack isn't a big texter, making the age-gap between you hilariously obvious. But today it gets to you.
Jack isn't your immediate superior, but you wonder if this is why he's been acting cold. More than usual.
The ER staff love to talk. Of course they do. But neither Jack nor you care about that. Youâve made it clear thereâs an undeniable connection between you.
So, youâve acted on it.
The last couple of months have been bliss, an unspoken understanding of exclusivity.
But now, Jack's been distant. Swapping shifts, avoiding working with you.
Was it something you did?
You've already double texted him today, wishing him a good shift and letting him know that Robby's asked you to 'babysit'.
How embarrassing. But you draft another.
"Heading to Pitt Fest now, will be up for some fun when you get home... ;)"
You delete the last part. God. Don't show your age!
"Heading to Pitt Fest now, see you soon."
You hit send.
Code Triage. Emergency Department Now.
The mass casualty event is in full swing. Patients come and go. Green. Yellow. Pink. Red. Black and White.
It's a haze of coordinated chaos.
Jack keeps trying to reach you in-between treating patients, leaving you countless voicemails.
Of course he would.
"Hey, Y/N. It's Jack. Call or text me the second you get this message, okay?" His voice trembles. "She's not picking up."
"I can't reach Jake either." Robby mutters.
"I'm sure they're ok." Dana offers gently.
Time slips away, minutes turning into hours. Their shift was supposed to end a while ago, but they've stopped keeping track.
"I'm going to check on triage." Robby announces, stepping out to help Shen and Ellis assess incoming patients. "No pulse. Black and white. Pink zone. Strong pulse. Unresponsive. No obvious GSW. Red zone GSW left chest."
A familiar voice cuts through the noise. "She was talking when we first got into the truck. T- There was so much blood."
"Jake!" Robby's at his side in a flash.
"Robby! Leah got shot. It's really bad...", Jake cries out.
Robby is at a loss for words, his medical instincts fighting the fatherly ones in a gruesome match.
"I've been putting pressure on the wound the whole time", Jake stutters.
"That's good. You're good", Robby reassures him, more for himself than Jake.
The team rushes Leah into the ER. Jake follows closely behind. "You can't stay with her. There's no room and we need to work on Leah right now", Robby says firmly, getting to work immediately.
Jack spots them and hurries over, panic rising in his chest.
"Whereâs Y/N?" he asks, voice tight.
"I- I donât know," Jake mutters. "She stopped Leahâs bleeding, then went back in."
"What do you mean?" Jack growls, trying to keep his voice calm.
Robby looks up, taking in Jake's words. The lines on his forehead growing deeper.
"People were screaming. The shots were so loud. She- She went back to see if others needed help." Jake's eyes well up, before he is wheeled off to get treated.
Of course you would put someone else's safety over your own.
Others might see it as noble, but Robby and Jack think it's reckless.
They exchange a look, knowing there's nothing they can do to reach you. To make sure you're okay.
Jack is called to another patient, while Robby proceeds to work on Leah.
Despite their best efforts, it's not enough.
Minutes pass. Jack watches Robby closely, his desperation becoming more evident by the second. Dana gives Jack a knowing look, recognizing the only person who can reach Robby right now is him.
Jack steps closer, glasses off, his voice gentle.
"The bullet tore through her heart", he says softly, giving Robby time to process.
"Anyone else with a wound like this is pronounced dead in the field. You can't keep up with the blood loss. If she was our only patient, we'd do a thoracotamy, maybe ECMO. But even then, I doubt we'd get her back." Jack's words hang heavy in the air, but he continues.
"We're gonna lose ten other patients if you put all your efforts into saving this girl." Jack doesn't let it show, but it pains him to see Robby hurting like this.
Robby does one final pulse check. But Leah's heart is no longer beating, the realization shattering his own.
"Okay, we're done", Robby whispers, breaking.
"We stopped at 19:47", Dana declares. "Move her to Pedes?", she asks gently.
Robby just nods.
"You want me to go with you to talk to Jake?"
He shakes his head. "No. No, thanks. I got it."
But another gurney is wheeled in. Robby notices first.
"Jesus Christ", he mutters. "What's going on?"
"Female. 30s. GSW to the right inguinal region. Retroperitoneal bleed", Dr. Mohan declares. But there's someone else kneeling at the end of the gurney, holding the patient's leg up. Robby and Jack's eyes widen, when they meet yours.
"The bullet must have tracked north and hit the external illiac", you state nonchalantly, ignoring the stunned looks from your colleagues.
It was supposed to be your day off.
"Dr. Y/LN did a REBOA in the field to stop the bleeding", Samira continues.
"You did what?!" Robby gasps, incredulous but unable to hide his pride.
Jack is by your side in an instant. "Are you shitting me?"
"Hello to you too, Dr. Abbot", you smile weakly, still focused on the patientâs wound.
Another time, your smile wouldâve lit a spark. Not now.
Jack's anger is palpable.
Youâve seen it before, his cold, stone-faced demeanor, always one existential crisis away from breaking. But never directed at you.
"Are you hurt?" Jackâs voice is dangerously low.
He's scared.
Robby and Jack scan your blood-soaked clothing. You quickly dismiss their concern.
"Uncontrollable bleeding from a pelvic artery, no other options. I blew up a balloon in the aorta to stop the bleed. Going in a few inches, zone three, below the kidney. I just needed to hit the femoral artery."
You hesitate, but go for it anyway.
"Piece of cake", you grin, weaker than usual, but you hope they don't notice. They do.
"Radial's stronger." Mel confirms.
Robby and Jack both notice your uneven breathing but chalk it up to the stress and trauma you've experienced.
"Also, GSW to the chest, left hypochondriac region. Probable internal bleeding", you continue.
"No. That's not true-", Samira objects.
You direct everyone's attention to your own chest, your breathing becoming erratic.
"What?!" Jack's voice cracks, disbelief, shock and fear hitting him all at once.
You feel like you can hear your own heartbeat, the ER growing eerily quiet at your confession.
"Okay. Let go of her leg", Robby orders in an intimidating tone.
"Gurney!" Jack barks.
"I need to lock the balloon first." You stare directly into Jack's eyes, knowing he won't budge. You turn to your friend and mentor, pleading.
"Robby." He knows you're right.
"Do it." Robby nods, ordering Whittaker to check the wound once you're done.
"BP's 110, by palp", Donnie announces.
Jack remains frozen, his mind racing a million miles a minute.
"The balloon can stay up for an hour max. Get IR and Vascular on the case." Robby directs, before drawing everyone's attention back to you.
Your patient is stable.
You've done what you can.
But the blood loss is catching up with you.
"I- I think it's a through-and-through. My back hurts like hell and my legs feel funny." Jack snaps out of his trance, his training kicking in.
Robby lifts your top, shocked at the severity of the injury. Jack shuts his eyes, unable to stomach the sight.
It must be bad.
But it doesn't hurt too much.
Not a great sign.
"Okay. Stabilize her", Robby orders, multiple hands are on you immediately, steadying you. Grabbing the base of your neck, your shoulders and hips, securing you in place.
You're still sat on the gurney, but have now let go of the patient's leg.
"Strip her", Jack commands, voice low and firm, eyes dark and unreadable.
You try to lighten the mood. "Gee, buy me dinner first, won't you?"
A few giggles from the team, but Jack's lips are tightly pressed together in a fine line, facing downwards.
Dana cuts through your top, leaving only your bra. Unusual. But you're relieved to not flash your coworkers. You'd rather like to maintain the mysterious vibe you've got going on.
"Cowards", you tease. More chuckles, but worry growing on everyone's faces.
You whisper to Jack, "I'm sorry."
He doesn't respond. Can't look at you. Instead he orders a chest tube and a unit of blood.
A sharp gasp rips through you, the weight on your chest suddenly making it hard to breathe. "Fuck, that hurts." Any last traces of playfulness vanish, replaced by something else.
Fear.
Jack realizes he has to save his anger for later. "Hey. It's okay", a slight smile now tugging at his lips. "I've seen you worse", but the vulnerability in his voice betrays him.
Shit. It must be really bad. He's cracking jokes now?
Your anxiety spikes.
Is Jack about to watch you die?
You shiver at the thought. Or maybe it's the blood loss. Probably both.
Your vision blurs. Your thoughts get foggy.
"J-Jack?" You're not sure he hears you. Or anybody really. Did the words even come out?
Your eyes flutter shut. There are no more thoughts.
Only darkness.
Robby orders Jack to step back, the roles tragically reversed.
This is not exactly in our mass casualty plan.
Blood is for the ones we can save.
Ten other patients will die if you put all of your energy into saving this girl.
Jackâs own words haunt him, playing through his mind on a torturous loop.
He has been distant with you. But not because of your age, or your careers.
No, it's because letting you in means risking losing you and he knows he can't survive that kind of pain. Heâs seen too much death, too much loss. And loving you only makes that fear stronger.
He looks at Robby, pleading for something. Then back at you, watching you fight for your life.
"I know." Robby is laser-focused, but shudders at the thought of Jack up on that roof again.
Painfully aware of the inevitable cost of losing you.
They won't. They can't.
Monitors and machines beep in a faint rhythm.
You wake, eyes heavy. A familiar figure is propped up in the armchair beside your bed.
He looks like shit.
Jack's wearing the same bloodstained scrubs, dark circles beneath his eyes, hair dishevelled. On second thought... it's a look.
"Hi, handsome", you whisper, unsure if itâs the relief of being alive, the pain meds or just seeing Jack, but a wave of comfort floods you.
He leans in, eyes wide with tenderness.
"Hi, beautiful."
His gaze radiates a warmth that kept you alive, even when your skin grew cold.
"How are you feeling?" His voice is soft. So unbelievably soft. The anger has subsided, but you know thereâs a conversation youâll have another day.
He takes your hand in his, squeezing it gently.
"Peachy", you exhale, giving him a warm and genuine smile. He returns it, his shoulders relaxing more with every steady breath you take.
You hesitate, but finally go for it. "So, about you leaving me on Read." Your smile turns into a familiar smirk. "You know only old people leave voicemails, right?"
Jack's breath catches in his throat, caught off guard. He chokes out a strangled laugh.
"You're unbelievable", he says, before leaning down, his lips brushing gently over yours.
The grip this man has on me I swear... Also, I'm still in shock from ep13 and I fear it's only getting worse... Jack being so rational about letting Leah go was So Painful, so writing this was very cathartic. Pls comment/share your thoughts below. âĄ
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Married Name
Pairing: Michael "Robbie" Robinavitch x reader
Warnings: jealous!Robbie
Summary: Robbie decides to casually reveal their marriage in the most dramatic way possible.
a/n: I had this idea and NEEDED to stop everything and write it.
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There were a few constants in Robbieâs life.
One: shift change was never on time.
Two: someone always stole the last cup of coffee.
And three: heâd never get tired of watching Whitaker try (and fail) to flirt with his wife.
Not that anyone knew she was his wife. Not officially. It was a quiet, mutual decision. She didnât want special treatment. Wanted to build her own reputation, not ride his coattails. And Robbie, proud bastard that he was, respected the hell out of that.
Didnât mean he didnât get a little twitchy every time some poor idiot looked at her like sheâd hung the moon.
Especially Whitaker.
The kid had it bad. Could barely string a sentence together when she was in the room. Red-faced. Tongue-tied. Dropping things like it was a nervous tic.
It wouldâve been funny, if it didnât happen every single day.
Tonight, they were finishing rounds, both bone-tired and running on fumes. Robbieâs back was aching. He arched it slightly, trying to shake out the stiffness.
âYou drink anything at all during this shift?â she asked, brow furrowed with that soft concern she reserved only for him.
God, he loved her.
He didnât respond. Just gave her a smirk and one raised brow.
She huffed. Reached into her bag at the nurses station and handed him a bottle of water.
And there it was again: Whitaker, standing just a few feet away with a gaggle of residents, eyes all wide and stupid like a puppy who just witnessed someone else catch the stick.
Robbie took the water, unscrewed the cap, and took a long drink
And the look on Whitakerâs face?
Even better
He swallowed, wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, and, because he could, leaned just a bit closer to her and said, loud enough for Whitaker to hear:
âI donât know what Iâd do without you. Good thing Iâm married to you.â
Then he took another sip and strolled away like he hadnât just dropped a nuclear bomb in the middle of the emergency department.
He didnât have to look back to know what was happening. He could feel the silence. The stunned, heavy stillness. Could practically hear Whitakerâs jaw hitting the floor.
Collinsâ cackle echoed from somewhere behind him.
Robbie didnât stop until he hit the supply closet. Waited exactly ten seconds.
Then the door creaked open.
There she was.
âYouâre insufferable,â she said, but she was smiling, arms crossed, trying not to laugh.
âYou love me,â he said easily.
She rolled her eyes, stepped in, and shut the door behind her. âYou couldnât have waited until we got home for the PDA?â
âWhereâs the fun in that?â Robbie tilted his head. âLet the kid down easy. He was getting his hopes up.â
She stepped closer, poked a finger into his chest. âYouâre jealous.â
He caught her hand and grinned. âDelighted, actually. Whitakerâs expression might be the best thing Iâve seen all week.â
âMm.â She leaned in, just enough to make his heart pick up a beat.
And then, instead of kissing him on the mouth like heâd hoped, she pressed a soft, warm kiss to his cheek. âYouâre lucky I like you.â
His grin widened. âIâm married to you. Thatâs more than luck.â
And she was still smiling when she walked out first, leaving him in the supply closet with a bottle of water and a satisfied smirk that lasted the rest of his shift.
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warning: angst, fluff, resolution of feelings yay, kissing, a lot of smut, p in v sex, not proofread!!!!, age gap (think 28 and 49), horribly incorrect medical terminology, made up lore about jack's former wife.
summary: after finally snapping at jack, he does something he'd never done before: he grovels. finally allowing himself to let someone in, he chases after you in hopes of doing things right this time around.
word count: 4.3k
part 1
only a few days passed after that last, unfortunate, encounter with you before another harsh day made its way to the ER.
jack couldnt help but worry about you on the harder days at the job. you'd gotten to know each other well enough for you to know each other's coping mechanisms. you knew about his therapy, about his habit of coming in to work when sleep couldn't find him. and in turn, he knew of your loneliness, of your inability to decompartmentalize your emotions after a particularly difficult shift.
this worried him as soon as a massive casualty hit the ER. it had been a car crash. a blunder involving a drunk driver and a truck packed with a family of six. only one survivor â a six year old little girl. it had taken the entire day, with tireless attempts at saving the family, at saving the drunk driver and his passenger, but it was all futile.
you worked along each other, ignoring any issues between you as you attempted to save a young 12 year old boy with head trauma. it was grueling, an impossible case to deal with. and it all proved useless, resulting in the outcome jack saw coming within an hour of working the case. but he continued upon your insistence, realizing you were crashing out and wanting to be there to catch you.
after it was all said and done, he trailed after you, watching from afar just in case. he wanted to ensure you were fine, even if it was from a distance.
it was a selfish need, but he seemingly couldn't help his selfishness when it came to you.
it was surprising to him when you accepted princess' invitation to join the crew in some after-work drinks at the park. it meant he no longer had to keep his distance. it meant he could at least save himself from worrying about your mental state as you went home alone, that he could make sure you could decompress before heading home.
and so now he sat there, beer in hand as he actively avoided looking your way.
he didn't want to be obvious, didn't want to make you uncomfortable or like he kept you under close watch. he had already been scared that you'd leave as soon as you realized he was tagging along. so he wanted to keep his distance, or to at least make you think that he was.
one by one, people began leaving, all while you stood there, mostly quietly nodding along to people's jokes and commentary about the hard day.
in the end, it was only you, jack, robby, and collins left. the more people that left, the harder it was for jack to not zero in on you, to not want to go up to you and grovel, to take the chance that you were finally in his vicinity to make things up with you.
robby â a smart man â and collins â an even smarter woman â took his silent pleas into consideration, eyeing each other before getting up from the bench they were sharing with jack. collins went to give you a quick hug as a goodbye, insisting you take her seat on the bench. knowing you'd hesitate, she guided you despite your lighthearted objections.
robby was the last to say goodbye, offering his friend a subtle nod in encouragement before leaving you on your own.
the silence was heavy, creating warmth in the otherwise chilly atmosphere of the park.
jack remained silent for a few moments, still facing forward as he sipped at his beer.
"kid," he broke the silence, giving you space to speak.
"can we ... can we not talk? i just, i don't know if i can handle talking to you right now," your voice was broken as you said it.
it made jack's heart clench, in pain at the fact that today's events weren't the only reason why you were hurting. it was because of him too.
his body turned to yours on the bench, finding you shelled off, shrinking into yourself as your legs pressed together and you looked down at your lap. it took him a moment to realize you were crying, small sniffles leaving you before a sob escaped your lips.
"fuck, kid ... c'mere," he grabbed his leg off the bench, scooting to your side and wrapping his arm around you.
surprisingly to him, you leaned in, allowing yourself to nuzzle into his chest while he pressed kisses against your hair, humming in a comforting manner as he remained pressed into your hair.
"i- i don't-"
"you don't gotta say anything. just stay here," he reassured, "i'm here, kid. i'm always here."
you stayed silent for a beat or two, "are you, jack? because it really hasn't felt like it lately," you pulled away just enough to look up into his eyes, finding them glassy just like yours.
his gaze averted, swallowing as he attempted not to let the shame show in his features. thing was, you had a point. jack was very well aware of how hot and cold he'd been with you, how little explanation he'd given you for it.
and though he'd been trying to make up for it, he had felt too ashamed to even try and be assertive about it all. communication, something he valued incredibly (specially after all those visits to his therapist), had failed him any time he tried to let himself get closer to you. he felt like a hypocrite telling robby all about therapy and letting himself be vulnerable, all while he did anything but.
truth was, it had been a very long time since he'd felt like this. it had been twelve years since the passing of his wife, an event that had altered his life beyond belief. it had only been a year since he'd stopped wearing the ring to work, advice given with some hesitation by both his therapist and robby. something about needing to move on, to stop being stuck in the past.
it didn't prove useful for a while. it certainly opened up doors for women flirting with him any time he found himself at a bar or outing with his coworkers, but he never really engaged with it, not feeling quite ready for it.
but then he met you.
the effect of meeting you had been almost immediate, he just hadn't realized it until later. and it was this realization that led to him ruining everything.
he cared about you far too much far too quickly. when he finally came to realize it, he knew he was in too deep and completely unprepared for his feelings. attempting to bring it up during therapy had been futile, as he had already made up his mind to let you go, to keep you at an arm's length even if it ended up hurting you both in the process.
you were too young, too new, too polished â and that was completely ignoring the fact that you were his subordinate. being with him would mean dirtying you up with all his issues, forcing all of his trauma on you, showing you the ugly parts of himself that had not seen the surface since his wife had passed. and even then, he'd only gotten worse with time, even more closed off. even his wife wouldnt have been able to handle the dark cloud constantly hanging over his head.
he kept it hidden. he told jokes, encouraged students, was there for his friends, but beneath the surface was too much for him to unravel in front of you.
but pushing you away clearly hadn't been the solution.
because now he found himself even more miserable than before. and even worse, he found you destroyed by his actions, crying as he held on to you late at night on a public park.
"i'm here, kid. i'm always here, you know that," he finally answered your question, pulling you even closer, perhaps more for his own sanity than yours.
you continued looking at him, a knot in your brows and a pouty lip sticking out, giving him the look of a petulant child.
"you can't do this, jack," you shook your head, correcting yourself, "i mean, doctor abbot. sorry, force of habit."
he shook his head slowly in return, lifting up a hand to your cheek and making you turn to him, "hey, it's jack to you, okay? none of that formality bullshit."
you scoffed, "how- how am i supposed to read you, jack? how do i know when you're doctor abbot to me or when you're jack? i'm ... i'm so tired of this. i don't think i can do this anymore," you paused, scooting back slightly so you could look at him better. you swallowed and looked away for a brief moment, as if you needed to build up the courage for what you were going to say next, "i applied at a hospital next town over to continue my rotation there. they, uhm, they called me yesterday. i just need to sign the papers and then-"
"what?"
he turned serious, harshly grabbing his prosthetic off the floor and putting it on before standing up with conviction. chuckling with bitterness, he ran his hand down his face, turning to you as he paced in front of the bench you'd been sitting on.
"you're, what, you're leaving? its- it's that easy for you?"
then you turned serious, anger invading your features before you got up and stood in front of him, chin tilted upwards as you spoke.
"easy? you think this shit is easy for me? i've been here for almost a year. i love everyone here, but you- god, you're driving me fucking insane. what do you even want from me?," you ranted, hands flying up and down as you spoke with conviction, "first you teach me, you take me under your wing, you treat me as your favorite, and you- you make me think that maybe you might even like me" you paused, looking away for a second with insecurity behind your eyes, "but you were too much of a coward to admit it to yourself and decide to shun me instead? you push me away, refuse to teach me, fuck, you acted like you hated me â no, but here's the kicker! when i do the same in return, that's when you decide to switch it back up on me? what am i supposed to do with that, jack? i can't deal with this anymore, i can't-"
jack had heard enough. truly, he had heard enough five seconds into your rant, but he'd never seen you speak with such emotion. he knew you needed this, to get all your anger for him out of your system so you could complete the cycle of emotions you were going through because of him.
it was just that he needed to get something out of his system too.
taking two determined steps towards you, his hands went up to your cheeks, engulfing almost the entirety of your face in between them before pulling you towards him.
kissing you had been the most decisive thing he'd done since meeting you. no overthinking, no faltering, just doing what he'd been too ashamed of even picturing for the past months in which he'd known you.
the kiss turned intense almost immediately, invading his every sense as he coaxed your lips open with his tongue before slipping it inside. you sighed, finally allowing him to feel your hands on him when you brought them up tot he back of his head, toying and pulling at his hair any time he'd suck on your tongue.
the sounds you released against his lips had him breathing in deep, almost as if buffering at the effect you had on him. his hands came down to your lower back, pulling you against his body, ensuring no space would be left between you.
admittedly, jack was not expecting you to pull away within mere moments of what he would've called a life-changing kiss. his lips chased yours for a few seconds before realizing what was happening, opening his eyes to find your eyes on his.
"n-no, jack! i can't do this, i can't just- i need something better than this. i deserve better," you reprimanded, but you didn't pull away. you stayed in his hold, with your hands now lying on his chest.
jack took a deep breath, giving himself a moment to enjoy the light breeze around you before zeroing in on your eyes. it was imperative to him to always look you in the eyes, to have his entire focus on you as he spoke to you.
"you're right. you deserve better," his hands went up and down your back in a comforting manner, "and i'll give you better. i'll give you anything you want."
"how am i supposed to believe that?"
you looked away, staring down at your feet due to the intensity of his gaze, but he wasn't having it. his hand went up to your chin, encompassing it between his thumb and his index finger as he lifted up your chin so you'd face him again.
"hey- hey, eyes on me. i- i cant explain what i feel for you, okay? i've been a fucking idiot, and i know i don't deserve another chance, but i do care about you. more than i can even understand," he began, not once leaving your eyes, "i did this all wrong. i didn't want you wasting your life with an old man like me, with someone who doesn't even know how to love anymore," his hand went up to trace your cheek with his thumb, "but i was wrong. and if you let me, i'll prove it all to you. what do you say, kid? will you give me another chance?", he practically pleaded, taking a deep breath before speaking again, "i love you, kid. i need you to at least know that."
you stayed silent for a few moments, scaring the fuck out of jack as you did so, but then you looked back up to him with a smile.
"you know, if we're gonna do this, maybe it's time you stop calling me kid, you old man," you nodded at him.
in disbelief, he laughed, shaking his head at you, "yeah? that's all you got out of this?," he laughed unlike he usually did, with jubilation that was unfamiliar to him, "hmm, how about 'baby,' then? huh? or 'honey'? 'sweetheart'? you gotta give me ideas here, kid. i don't know what the youth's saying nowadays."
laughing along with him, you nudged him in faux annoyance, "stop talking like that, you're not 70!"
he interrupted your teasing by burying his face in your neck, kissing it lightly a few times before reaching your lips, shutting up your laughter with his tongue in your mouth.
you fell into the kiss easily, moaning into his mouth when he deepened it and pulling him closer by twisting your fingers in his hair.
"hmm," you hummed when you pulled away, "i love you too, by the way. in case that wasn't completely obvious by now."
"i think i might need some proof, kid," he teased.
rolling your eyes, you scoffed, "again with the kid-"
but he interrupted you again with another kiss, this time heavier, this time more lustful. his hands traced your jaw, holding it in place so he could explore your mouth as he pleased.
your reaction to his touch, to his kiss, were nothing but euphoric to jack. you melted into him, humming and sighing at every swipe of his tongue against yours. jack pulled you closer by your hips, causing an incidental grace of your hips with one another. this pulled a groan from jack, who was already beginning to harden and knew he was a gone man upon the very first touch of lips.
"kid, i-"
"take me home, jack," you sighed, eyes closed and lips scraping by his own, not allowing him an answer before your tongue snuck out and licked at his top lip, sucking it lightly afterwards.
jack lost his sanity then, but he was fortunately well trained for such moments. he had a soldier's ability to remain stoic whenever necessary.
but the military didn't train him for how to deal with you.
so he caved.
"are you sure?", he tried to keep his composure, to think reasonably for the two of you.
your lips went south, reaching his jaw and then his neck as you kissed and sucked at it, moaning into his skin as if you were the receiver of the pleasure.
"please, jack," you reached his ear then, teeth scrapping his lobe, "i've been waiting for so long."
for the first time in more years than he could count, jack shuddered, a heavy exhale leaving him at your tongue suddenly licking at the shell of his ear. his hands gripped your hips, pushing you up against the hardness between you as he groaned.
"you want to kill me," he huffed, giving in.
"take me home so i can finish the job," you continued, relentless in ruining him.
he nodded, breathless, utilizing herculean effort to separate himself from you and grabbing your hand, leading you in the direction of his car parked a couple blocks away.
once in the car, you didn't want to keep your hands off him, pulling him in for another kiss before he could even fasten his seatbelt.
"you're going to make us end back at the ER, honey," he grumbled between kisses, hand on your wrist as you pulled his head towards you.
"fine, i'll calm down," you sighed dramatically as you pulled away (much to jack's hypocritical dismay)
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"you know, i always pegged you as someone a someone a little more shy," jack attempted to speak as you pushed him up against the wall of his apartment.
"yeah? you feel i'm taking advantage of you, doc?", you jested back, a cheshire cat smile on your slips as you had your way with him.
jack's hands remained on your waist, pulling you close while you peppered kisses down the length of his neck. they reached under your scrub top, feeling the warm skin at the dip of your back, groaning at the softness found there.
"take as much advantage as you want," he hummed after a few moments of silence, just taking in every touch you blessed him with.
your mouth creeped north reaching his ear, hands now under his shirt and tracing at the skin of his abdomen. breathing against his ear, you kissed it, whispering into it, "but what if i want you to take advantage of me?"
"fuck, kid ... you're going to kill me," but despite his words, his hands wrapped around you, nudging you up so you could wrap your legs around his waist.
it was a bit of a messy trek, but you made it to his bed in one piece, being settled down on it with gentleness. refusing to let jack get too far from you, your legs remained around him as he threw off his shirt, hastening in removing his prosthetic, shoes, pants, and leaving only his boxers on. he watched you intensely as he undressed, all while you made sex eyes at him, biting your lip and swallowing at every new sliver of skin uncovered.
"you look like you want to eat me," he chuckled, climbing the bed and kneeling on top of you, using his hands to lift himself up above you.
"there's a lot of things i want to do to you," you sighed back, lifting your head so you could steal a kiss, pulling him down by grabbing the back of his neck.
desperate for more, your legs fully wrapped around his back, pulling him down so your middles could connect. this earned a groan directly into your mouth along with a whine of your own. luckily jack took the hint, beginning to gyrate his hips against your own, giving you the desired friction despite your scrub pants and his boxers being in the way.
"oh, god, jack ..." you sighed, mouth open and allowing jack access to suck your tongue.
your hands became antsy, scratching at his back in anguish at the pressure you were craving in your stomach. meanwhile, his own hands slipped under your shirt once more, hesitant in pulling it up before you aided him in the act, lifting yourself up a bit in order to throw it off.
under it, he found a lacy bra, baby pink and contrasting against your skin perfectly. it was comfy, not too much, but it had a cute little bow in the middle, giving jack whiplash as he stared down at you dumbfounded.
"fuck, kid," he shook his head in disbelief, "i dont know if i can handle you," his lips lowered, kissing at your collarbones, dragging his kisses to your sternum and ending up at the top of your breasts.
"what, old man, you're gonna tell me you're out of practice?", you teased as you reached behind you to pull your bra off, making jack freeze against your chest for a second before allowing himself to look at your nude upper half.
"you're a fucking dream, kid," he huffed, voice in a complete state of incredulity. he then leaned down again, kissing at your breasts, licking and biting and sucking, taking in every moan that left your lips while his hips took on a slow and steady pace as they ground into yours, "don't even know where to start with you."
"just fuck me," you cried, pulling his head back up to your lips, "i want you so bad, jack."
he groaned at this, but even more so when he felt your hand reach down to his boxers, one hand slipping inside and gripping his dick while the other scratched at the hem, pulling down the fabric.
"you sure, baby?" he had to check one last time, though he knew he wouldnt be able to take it if you made him stop now. he had never felt this needy, like he'd die if he didnt get more of you.
you nodded with desperation, furrowed brows and pleading eyes staring up at him in a ruinous manner.
shuffling so you could remove your scrub pants and panties from under him, you finally ended up fully nude and ready, gasping when you felt his fingers run through the wetness between your legs.
jack grabbed at himself, positioning his dick right against your cunt and finally pushing in with a heavy grown.
dropping his head against your neck, he took a deep breath, groaning at the feeling of finally entering you.
"jack ... fuck, jack, you feel so good," you were delirious as you said it, nails already running down his back.
in the meantime, jack was in heaven. he hadnt felt so lightheaded in years. your mere touch already had his heart going a mile a minute and his brain turning off, but the feeling of you like this â warm, wet, welcoming â made every bit of misery in his life become worth it.
"fucking perfect ... that's it, baby, take it for me," he began moving, hips creating that slamming sound of skin that he'd grown so unfamiliar with.
the man above you lost himself in the pleasure, grunting in tandem with every thrust and wrapping his arms around your waist to pull you as close to him as possible, breathing in the natural scent of your skin.
and even though the pleasure was unimaginable, jack simply wanted more, wanted to have you louder, more broken for him. he'd always been a bit of an overachiever, after all.
softly, he pulled out, shushing you when you whined at the separation and getting you on your hands and knees. his hands massaged the skin of your hips, dipping your back lower so you'd arch it even more for him and groaning at the sight.
"look at you ..." he mumbled almost to himself.
then he entered you again, now deeper, heavier, adding more pressure to your belly and making you immediately wail at the feeling. that's when jack truly lost himself. completely drunk on the feeling, jack hammered into you, huffing and puffing at the overexertion of energy he was currently displaying.
"i'm gonna cum, jack, shit ..." you said with an uncharted desperation, only making jack speed up, knowing that the moment you came, he was gone.
and he'd been right. as soon as your climax took over you, you pulled him right down with you, forcing him to spill inside you without the ability to even warn you. you'd taken him by surprise as per usual.
there were, once more, complaints from you when he finally pulled out of you, leaving the warmth of your skin to clean himself up and wipe up any of his remains that spilled out of you. he just tutted at you, but still hurried himself up so he could finally lay down with you, have that intimacy he'd craved from you since day one.
side by side, jack felt offended by any amount of distance, pulling you as close as possible while his hands traced at the curve of your hips, grabbing your leg and throwing him over his waist so any distance would be eliminated. your hands played with his chest, fingers tracing figures at the expanse of it while you smiled shyly at him.
"how you feeling, gorgeous?"
you muffled a giggle by pressing your face into his chest, kissing the skin once, twice, before leaning up for a kiss on his lips.
"better than i've felt in a very long time. how about you, old man?", you hummed into his lips.
"never felt better."
"you just had to one-up me, didn't you?" you scowled falsely at him.
he tsk'd at you in fake annoyance, a very common display from him, "gotta keep you on your toes, kid."
note: did not know how to end it lol and its also not proofread but i hope you enjoy anyways!
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Busy Bee
parings. jack abbot x wife!reader
summary. you and your son take a trip to the pitt after an encounter with a bee. unfortunately, or maybe fortunately, your husband's working.
warnings. age gap (jack mid/late 40s, reader late 20s early 30s), reader is allergic to bees, overprotective!jack, boy-dad!jack, typical hospital setting, no death, hurt/comfort but mainly comfort, other pitt characters, let me know if there's anything else!
notes. local boy dad truther hopped into the pitt fandom, but this popped into my mind and I haven't been able to let it go. these will probably be a set of drabbles and one-shots if it gets enough traction, but please enjoy and any feedback is appreciated! also I am not a medical professional, but I tried my best to sound realistic.
wc. 2700+
side drabble of the aftermath
part two: where we fit
âWe got a woman in her late twenties to early thirties, went into anaphylactic shock at the park due to a suspected bee sting. Vitals stabalized after we gave her Epi, but the swelling in her throat and the hives covering her chest, neck and arms is pretty extensive.âÂ
Just another normal day in the Pitt.Â
âIt is starting to be that season,â Dr. McKay said lightly as she did her own assessment while a few interns watched, âDid she have anyone with her? Who called?âÂ
The EMT gave a small gesture to her partner who was walking in behind them with a small boy, maybe five or six, who looked worried. âCouple of joggers passed them and found him with her failed EpiPen, they called after that.âÂ
Cassie could only nod as she thought about her own son experiencing that, âAlright Mohan come with me weâre gonna take her to south-15. Mel, can you talk to the boy and see if thereâs anyone we can call for him?âÂ
Going to their respective tasks, McKay and Mohan took the young mother and Melissa went to introduce herself to the boy. He was still standing with the EMT, clutching his hand tightly while watching the hustle and bustle that was the emergency department.Â
âHey⊠Can I talk to him?â Mel approached slowly and the EMT squatted down to look the kid in his eyes. âI have to go now but uh- Dr. King here is gonna take really good care of you while your mommy gets help, okay?â The boy just nodded, going to hold his own hand.Â
âWhatâs your name?â Mel asked, offering her own hand for him to take as they walked away. His grip was soft, if not a little clammy, and he toddled behind her as she led him to the family room. âLucasâŠâ he took his own deep breath, unsure of himself and the situation.Â
âI heard something pretty scary happened at the park. Are you doing okay?â Lucas gave a little shrug, giving her hand a squeeze at the mention of the incident at the park.Â
âI think so, is my mommy gonna be okay? Daddy says bees are bad for her, and the pen is supposed to make her better but it didnât...âÂ
Mel opened the door to the family room, having Lucas sit in one of the chairs near the small coffee table. She had learned in the past couple of months that children liked to be distracted in situations like these. Clearly the little boy was feeling down, his once peaceful day at the park now ruined by an unfortunate accident.Â
She sat down beside him, helping him take off the backpack he was wearing hoping maybe there were some more identifying clues lying within the blue cloth. âWell your dad must be very smart, but your mom is being taken care of by some really cool doctors and I think sheâs gonna be okay and excited to see you again.â
Unzipping the bag, Mel gave Lucas a gentle smile as they pulled out the contents together. Inside were the usual kid essentials â a juice pouch, a small sketchpad with dinosaurs drawn in crayon, and a pair of cleats and matching socks balled up and forgotten at the bottom. She sifted carefully, searching for anything that might tell them who else to contact. A pair of car keys sat in the front pocket, but no wallet or any other identifying placards. The EpiPen sat visibly in the mesh side holster, unadministered and effectively useless now. The air was light between the pair while the Intern thought of her next moves, and Lucas had started coloring next to her to keep his mind off of things.Â
 She thought about askin Robby or Dana for next steps, and definitely wanted Kieara to stop by. âAre we able to contact your dad? Iâm sure heâd want to know what happened,â Mel said, stumped at what to do next.Â
âHeâs pretty busy and um- his number sheet is in my other bag in the car⊠Mommy was supposed to make two, but this is the fun bag so it wasnât supposed to matter.â Lucas explained, though thatâs fair considering heâs only five or so.Â
âOh! Well where does he work? We could try calling them and he should be able to come here,âÂ
Lucas closed his eyes and wiggled around in his chair as he tried to remember the name, âUhhh- oh Pittsburgh Trauma Medical Center!âÂ
Melâs eyes lit up at the mention of the very hospital they were in. âWell thatâs where we are! Let me go grab someone real quick and we can start asking around, how does that sound?â Lucas silently agreed and went back to coloring as the blonde woman left the room.Â
The Intern succuried around, hoping to find Dr. Robby in a moment of peace where she could talk to him about the situation. Thankfully, the older man was sitting near the nurses station typing away at one of the computers.Â
âDr. Robby! I uh- I have the son of a patient who was admitted not too long ago, he said his dad works here and I was hoping you could help us locate him? Heâs only about five so he doesnât remember too much besides that.â Mel stood expectantly, as the older man got up and pushed his chair in.Â
âLead the way Dr. King, let's find this boy's dad.â Robby ran a hand down his face as he followed after Melissa who was leading him to the family room. Putting on a brave face, he hoped to god this wasnât going to lead into a hospital wide manhunt. They kept a steady pace, pausing outside the door. âWhat was the other patient admitted for?â He asked, needing to know if this would be bad or not.Â
âMom was taken to South-15 after experiencing anaphylactic shock from a bee sting. The uh- EpiPen failed and some joggers helped them out, Dr. McKay was trearting her and everything was stable when we left besides the swelling and hives she had.â she explained keeping her recounting of it short, really wanting to find Lucasâs father as soon as possible.Â
The two stepped inside the small room, the young boy sitting in the same cramped chair, picking at the sleeve of his sweater.Â
âHey, Lucas. This is Dr. Robby heâs gonna help-â Mel could barely get the rest of her sentence out before the boy looked up and rushed into the arms of the man beside her.Â
âUncle Mikey!â he cried out, latching onto the older doctor who scooped him up.Â
âHey Luke, what are ya doing here buddy?â Still a bit shocked, Robby gave the boy a quick scan looking for any sign that something could be wrong, âI heard your mom got stung by a bee.âÂ
Lucas let out a small sniffle, resting his head on the shoulder of his uncle. âIt was scary⊠an-and mommy left her phone in the car so-so I couldnât call anyone!â He kept his little body close, fists locked onto the blue hoodie Robby was known for wearing. He was still scared, just now beginning to process everything that had happened in the past hour or so.Â
Mel stood off to the side, letting the two talk amongst themselves for a few moments. âYou know Dr. Robby, Lucas?âÂ
The pair turned to her and Robby adjusted the boy so he could see the woman a bit better. âDr. King meet Lucas Abbot, Iâm surprised he didnât say so sooner-probably the nerves.â The older man looked down to the boy who was still clinging to him, the only familiar person he had seen since arriving to the PTMC. âYou wanna go find your dad?âÂ
Lucas nodded a resounding yes, keeping his face buried in the neck of the older man hoping he would keep carrying him.Â
âDr. King, I got it from here if you want to go back and work,â Mel took her leave after that, giving Lucas a small wave goodbye before going back into the fold.Â
Robby set the small boy down, repacking the scattered items back into the bag. He tried not to think about the faulty EpiPen, or how Jack was going to react upon finding out what had occurred. If anything that man was protective, and if hearing that his wife had been admitted didnât set him offâhearing his son was here and hadnât been able to contact him definitely would.Â
âYo Dana, we have a visitor with us today.â The brunette gave the curls on Lucasâs head, a trait he got from his father, a small rub, as they got to the charge nurseâs attention. The blonde let out a small gasp as she bent down to give the boy a hug.Â
âAnd what are you doing here, little man? Whereâs your mama? Your Dadâs running all over the place today, have you seen him yet?â She looked back up at Robby, holding the boy close.Â
The older man gave a small shake of his head, a knowing look in his brown eyes. âSheâs uh- Sheâs in south-15 and we were actually looking for Jack, have you seen him?âÂ
Dana glanced at the board, âHe was about to discharge a patient from north-8, you could probably catch him before the next Ambo pulls up.âÂ
âAlright, buddy,â Robby said, offering his hand to Lucas again. âLetâs go find your dad before he disappears on us.â
Dana gave the boy one more quick squeeze and a wink before standing up again. âTell him to take five once you find him. Heâs been running around since before you got here.â
They made their way toward the north wing, weaving between carts and stretchers, the bustle of the hospital constant. Lucas stayed close, wide-eyed but silent, clutching Robbyâs fingers like a lifeline.
As they rounded the corner near North-8, Robby spotted himâDr. Jack Abbot clipboard in hand, shoulder leaning into the doorway of a patient room as he gave discharge instructions with that familiar composed intensity. Even from here, Robby could see the stress around his eyes. Whatever calm Jack projected, it wasnât rooted deep today. The patient stepped away into the crowd of people and Robby stepped into view, catching his eye.
Jack nodded a little when he saw him, expecting a routine updateâuntil he saw the small figure beside him.
âLucas?â
The clipboard hit the counter with a clack.
Lucas let go of Robbyâs hand and ran straight into his fatherâs arms, the impact knocking the breath out of Jack for half a second.
âHeyâhey, whatââ Jack crouched down, holding Lucas tightly, searching his face. âAre you okay? What happened?â
Lucas clung to him like a koala, cheeks red and eyes glassy. âMommyâs sick,â he whispered. âThe pen didnât work. I tried, but it didnât work.â
Jackâs face paled. His arms tightened instinctively. âWhere is she?â
âSouth-15,â Robby answered quietly, giving the man a moment before continuing. âIt was a bee sting. The EpiPen failed. She was treated right away, vitals are stable, McKayâs with her.â
Jack didnât move at first, just held his son close, forehead resting against Lucasâs curls as he processed it allâthe sudden fear, the guilt, the helplessness. Finally, he let out a long breath.
âI didnât even knowâno wonder she wasnât answering her phone.â His voice cracked.
âSheâs okay,â Robby reminded him gently. âAnd your son? Absolute champ. Kept his head until the crews showed up.â
Lucas pulled back just enough to look at him. âI didnât cry. I was gonna, but I didnât.â
Jack smiled through the tightness in his chest. âGood job, bud.â
He stood up slowly, Lucas still in his arms, and turned to Robby. âI need to see her.â
Robby nodded. âGo on, Brother. Iâll let Dana know whatâs going on, let her know youâre clocking off early.â He handed over the backpack and let the father/son duo head off.Â
Making their way to you, where you were taken was a bit more private than other rooms and the soft beeping could be heard from outside. The two stopped outside, Jack prepping the boy for what he was about to see.Â
âHeyâŠSo mommyâs probably gonna be sleepy and she might have a hard time talking okay? We should be able to see her though.â Lucas nodded into his dadâs shoulder, his small fingers tightening around the fabric of Jackâs black scrub top.
âOkay,â he whispered. âI wonât be loud.â
Jack gave a little smile at that, brushing his sonâs curls down gently before reaching for the door. The soft click of the handle felt louder than it should have, and as they stepped inside, the familiar scent of antiseptic mixed with something heavierâlike adrenaline and the memories embedded within the room.
The room was dimly lit, with only the overhead light above your bed on. You were propped up slightly, eyes closed, an oxygen cannula under your nose. Your arm had an IV line, and Princess was quietly making notes on the monitor screen.
Jackâs breath hitched in his throat.
Lucas didnât say anything right away. His gaze was locked on you, his brown eyes wide and unreadable as he stared at his mom, so happy and full of life only hours ago, now tucked into white sheets with wires and machines surrounding her.
âMommyâŠâ he whispered.
Your eyes fluttered open at the sound, sluggish but aware. You turned your head slightly, the movement slow and pained, but unmistakably focused on him.
Jack stepped closer, kneeling beside the bed so Lucas could see you better.
âSheâs awake,â Jack said softly. âYou can say hi, baby.â
Lucasâs lip trembled, but he leaned toward you. âIâm sorry,â he blurted suddenly. âI tried with the pen but it didnât work and I was scared and I couldnât callââ
Your fingers twitched and slowly reached for him, and Jack gently helped guide Lucasâs hand to yours. Holding the both of yours within his strong grip.
âYou did so good, baby,â you said, your voice hoarse but warm. âIâm okay, and you were so brave.â
Lucas crawled gently onto the edge of the bed, careful not to bump into any of the cords or wires. He curled up beside your arm, still holding your hand tightly.
Jack sat in the chair beside the bed, rubbing his face and finally letting out a shaky breath.
âYou scared the shit out of me,â he said quietly, half to himself, half to you. You gave him a tired smile, and Jack reached up to brush your hair from your face.
âBut youâre here,â he said. âAnd weâre okay. Thatâs what matters.â
âYeah, youâre lucky we werenât closer to Pres, wouldâve really lost your shitâŠâ you gave him the best smile you could muster, while he gave you a knowing look.Â
He let out yet another sigh, still keeping your hand in his. âWe need to get you another EpiPen, and put my goddamn number in that park bag.âÂ
âYou have fun with that, babe,â you murmured, voice still rough but tinged with just enough sass to draw a soft snort from Jack.
âOh, I will,â he said, dragging the chair a little closer to the bed. âYouâre gonna have a laminated emergency list in every bag we own. Backpack, baseball bag, glove boxâhell, Iâll sew one into your damn jacket lining if I have to.â
Lucas perked up a little at that, lifting his head. âI can start baseball?â
Jack looked over at him, mock-serious. âOnly if you promise not to spill a bunch of stuff in the bag again.â
Lucas giggled for the first time since they got there, that tiny sound easing something deep in Jackâs chest. You chuckled too, though it ended in a soft wince as your ribs reminded you what happened.
Jack leaned forward instinctively, hand pressing lightly over yours again. âEasy,â he murmured.
âIâm fine,â you reassured, but your grip on his fingers said another thing.
I love you, Iâm sorry.Â
The room fell into a quiet rhythm after thatâthe soft hum of monitors, Lucas gently dozing off against your arm after hours of turmoil, Jack watching both of you with an expression halfway between exhaustion and fierce devotion.
âThank you,â you whispered after a moment, just for him.
He looked up.
âFor having such good doctor friends, for loving me⊠For being a good dad,â
Jack leaned in, brushing a kiss to your temple. âAlways.â
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Hi, may I request Jack Abbot x fem!reader with them almost getting caught going at it while at work by different coworkers and no one knows they're together, but the one that does catch them is Whitaker or Robby and Jack is like "I'm helping her find something." Pls and thank you! đ„°đ
a/n: I loved this idea! Hope you like it :)
Adrenaline
Pairing: Jack Abbot x Reader
Summary: In the nonstop chaos of The Pitt, two ER doctors find something dangerously steady in each other. Between late shifts, locked doors, and close calls, they navigate a secret thatâs as thrilling as it is fragileâbecause in a place where nothing stays quiet for long, hiding how you feel might be the riskiest move of all.
Warnings: innuendos
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It started in the quiet in-between moments, those fractured seconds where the world narrowed to the heat of a shared laugh in the break room, the electric brush of fingers over a patientâs chart, the way his thumb would linger on your wrist when passing a syringe. Â
You told yourself it was nothing.Â
But then came the late shifts, the ones that left your bones aching and your lungs raw with the scent of antiseptic. Nights when the ERâs fluorescent lights flickered like dying stars, and the only thing that didnât feel heavy was him.Â
Jack, with his stupid smirk and the way he could make you forget the blood on your scrubs with a single glance. That was the danger. Â
You were ease in chaos. And chaos was all you had. Â
No one suspected. Not even Perlah and Princess, who had a sixth sense for gossip.
But then again, you were both professionals. Â
The first close call happened in radiology, wedged between filing cabinets and the ghostly glow of old MRIs. You were supposed to be pulling images for a pelvic fracture. Instead, you were pressed against cold metal, Jackâs mouth tracing your jawline, his hands mapping the bare skin beneath your scrub top like he was memorizing it. Â
"Someoneâs going to walk in," you breathed, half-laughing, half-terrified. Â
"Then weâll be quick," he murmured against your pulse. "Five minutes. Ten, tops."Â Â
You shoved him back, but your fingers curled into his sleeves. "Youâre the worst."Â Â
"You love it."Â Â
And you almost said something recklessâsomething trueâwhenâ Â
Knock. Knock. Â
"Anyone in there? I need Walker scans!"Â Â
Dana
Jack moved like a soldier under fire. Smooth, practiced, already spinning a lie as he straightened your scrub with one hand. He cracked the door, all lazy charm and raised brows. "Just grabbing them. They were misfiled behind expired head CTs. Classic."Â Â
Danaâs eyes narrowed. "Whyâs the door locked?"Â Â
"Security protocol."Â Â
"Thatâs not a thing."Â Â
"It is now, check your email"Â Â
She scoffed but let it go. The moment the footsteps faded, you sagged against the cabinet, heart hammering. Â
"Security protocol?" you whispered, biting back a laugh. Â
Jackâs grin was pure mischief. "Looked convincing, didn't it?"Â Â
[...]
The end of the charade came a week later, in the hushed glow of the imaging room. The ER had been a warzone all shift. Gunshot wounds, a code blue, a toddler with a bead lodged so far up her nose youâd almost laughed from sheer exhaustion. You and Jack moved in sync, though, a single organism with four hands, finishing each otherâs orders without speaking. Â
And then, between one breath and the next, he cornered you under the hum of the machines. Â
"Missed you today," he murmured into your temple, voice rough with fatigue. Â
"You handed me a scalpel an hour ago."Â Â
"Yeah." His lips grazed your cheekbone. "Missed you while doing it."Â Â
This time, you kissed him firstâslow, deep, a silent confession in the dark. Â
Cue the door swinging open. Â
"Jack, do youâoh."Â Â
Robby. Â
The three of you froze. Jack shifted instinctively, blocking you with his body (pointless, but sweet). Robby blinked, processing, then slowly backed out. Â
"Iâm gonna pretend I didnât see anything."Â Â
Jack cleared his throat. "She was looking for something."Â Â
A beat. Then, from the hallway:Â Â
"Under your scrubs?"Â Â
"Very thorough search," you called back, deadpan, before collapsing into silent laughter against Jackâs chest. He just pressed a kiss to your hair, like getting caught was nothing. Like you were everything. Â
[...]
Later, in the ambulance bay, the city exhaled around youâstreetlights bleeding into rain-slick pavement, the distant wail of sirens a reminder that the world kept turning. You sipped terrible coffee, shoulders touching. Â
"So," you said. "Robby knows."Â Â
Jack shrugged. "Yeah. Probably."Â Â
"Youâre okay with that?"Â Â
He turned, eyes dark and sure. "I already have what I want." A thumb brushed your knuckles. "Let them talk. They donât get to know what this is unless we say so."Â Â
You nudged him. "And if someone else walks in on us?"Â Â
Jackâs smirk was a promise. "Then Iâll say Iâm helping you find something."Â Â
"Yeah? What exactly am I looking for?"Â Â
His voice dropped, stripped bare of jokes. Â
"Me."Â Â
And this time, in the quiet, no one interrupted.Â
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