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Not to keep being a Positive Pansy but I think I’m actually excited about the new style
#it terrifies me and they’re different so I definitely feel that feeling of ‘who is that’#but I think I can get used to it#and if I DO get used to it I do think it’s an overall positive change for the series#I know people compare them to the movie a lot (for obvious reasons) but I like them a lot better than the movie models#and also the fact that they’ll have the same mannerisms/characterization will go a long way#(unlike the movie where they were Written differently too)#ml leaks#ml s6 leaks#ml spoilers#ml s6 spoilers
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james somerton's downfall feels so much more final than other creators and honestly it's more depressing than it is cathartic. i genuinely feel that he'll never be able to come back from this because hbomberguy (and now todd in the shadows as well) have so thoroughly revealed the hollowness of his work that its like... even if he does apologize, even if he does begin to cite and reference the way he should have always done, it's so clear that anything original that he had to say was so bitter and misogynistic that no one would find value in it
#hbomberguy#james somerton#todd in the shadows#i have so many thoughts on this but overall i feel emptier for it#hes contributed to the queer erasure that he posits himself as the solution to. how deplorable
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there was some Twitter madness recently where someone left a comment on someone's art to the effect of, "Ed shouldn't wear a dress, he's a man!" which I do disagree with on principle, but unfortunately, it brought out one of my least favourite trends in the fandom
so, naturally, I had to write a twitter essay about it. and I already largely argued this in a post here, but the thread is clearer and better structured, so I thought I'd cross-post for those not on the Hellsite (derogatory). edited for formatting/structure's sake, since I no longer have to keep to tweet lengths, and incorporating a couple of points other people brought up in the replies
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I want to point out that the wedding cake toppers in OFMD s2 aren't evidence that Ed wants to wear dresses. Gender is fake, men can wear skirts, play with these dolls how you like, but it's not canon, and that scene especially Doesn't Mean That.
People cite it often: 'He put himself in a dress by painting the bride as himself! It's what he wants!' But that fundamentally misunderstands the scene, and the series' framing of weddings as a whole. I'd argue that Ed paints the figure not from desire, but from self-hatred; it's not what he wants, but what he thinks he should, and has failed to, be.
(Yes, I am slightly biased by my rampant anti-marriage opinions, but bear with me here, because it is relevant to the interpretation of the scene, and season two as a whole.)
The show is not subtle. It keeps telling us that the institution of marriage is a prison that suffocates everyone involved. Ed's parents' cycle of abuse is passed to their son in both the violence he witnesses then enacts on his father, and the self-repression his mother teaches, despite her good intentions ("It's not up to us, is it? It's up to God. ... We're just not those kind of people. We never will be."). Stede and Mary are both oppressed by their arranged marriage, with 1x04 blunty titled Discomfort in a Married State. The Barbados widows revel in their freedom ("We're alive. They're dead. Now is your time").
But even without this context, the particular wedding crashed in 2x01 is COMICALLY evil. The scene is introduced with this speech from the priest:
"The natural condition of humanity is base and vile. It is the obligation of people of standing ... to elevate the common human rabble through the sacred transaction of matrimony."
It's upper class, all-white, and religiously sanctioned. "Vile natural conditions" include queerness, sexual freedom, and family structures outside the cisheteropatriarchal capitalist unit. "The obligation of people of standing" invokes ideas like the white man's burden, innate class hierarchy, religious missions, and conversion therapy. Matrimony is presented as both "sacred" (endorsed by the ruling religious body), and a "transaction" (business performed to transfer property and people-as-property, regardless of their desires), a tool of the oppressive society that pirates escape and destroy. That is where the figurines come from.
When Ed, in a drunk, depressive spiral, paints himself onto the bride, he's not yearning for a pretty dress. He's sort of yearning for a wedding, but that's not framed as positive. What he's doing is projecting himself into an 'ideal' image of marriage because he believes that: a) that's what Stede (and everyone) wants; b) he can never live up to that ideal because he's unlovable and broken (brown, queer, lower-class, violent, abused, etc); c) that's why Stede left. He tries to make himself fit into the social ideal by painting himself onto the closest match - long-haired, partner to Stede/groom, but a demure, white woman, a frozen, porcelain miniature - because, if he could just shrink himself down and squeeze into that box, maybe Stede would love him and he'd live happily ever after. But he can't. So he won't.
The fantasy fails: Ed is morose, turns away from the figurines, then tips them into the sea, a lost cause. He knows he won't ever fulfil that bride's role, but he sees that as a failure in himself, not the role. It's not just that "Stede left, so Ed will never have a dream wedding and might as well die." Stede left when Ed was honest and vulnerable, "proving" what his trauma and depression tell him: there's one image of love (of personhood), and he'll never live up to it because he's fundamentally deficient. So he might as well die.
This hit me from my very first viewing. The scene is devastating, because Ed is wrong, and we know it! He doesn't need to change or reduce himself to fit an image and be accepted (as, eg, Izzy demanded). Stede knows and loves him exactly as he is; it's the main thread and theme of season two!
(@/everyonegetcake suggested that Ed's yearning in these scenes includes his broader desire for the vulnerability and safety Stede offered, literalised through unattainable "fine" things like the status of gentleman in s1, or the figurine's blue dress. I'd argue, though, that these scenes don't incorporate this beyond a general knowledge of Ed's character. Ed is always pining for both literal and emotional softness, but the significance of the figurines specifically, to both Ed and the audience, is poisoned by their origin and context: there is no positive fantasy in the bride figure, only Ed's perceived deficiency.
Further, assuming that a desire for vulnerability necessarily corresponds with an explicit desire for femininity, dresses, etc, kind of contradicts the major themes of the show. OFMD asserts that there is nothing wrong with men assuming femininity (through drag, self-care, nurturing, emotional vulnerability, etc), but also that many of these traits are, in fact, genderless, and should be available to men without affecting their perceived or actual masculinity. It thematically invokes the potential for cross-gender expression in Ed's desires, especially through the transgender echoes in his relieved disposal, then comfortable reincorporation, of the Blackbeard leathers/identity. It's a rich, valuable area of analysis and exploration. But it remains a suggestion, not a canon or on-screen trait.)
Importantly, the groom figure doesn't fit Stede, either. Not just in dress: it's stiff and formal, and marriage nearly killed him. He's shabbier now, yes, but also shedding his privilege and property, embracing his queerness, and trying to take responsibility for his community. In a s1 flashback, Stede hesitantly says, "I thought that, when I did marry, it could be for love," but he would never find love in marriage. Not just because he's gay, but because marriage in OFMD is an oppressive, transactional institution that precludes love altogether. All formal marriages in OFMD are loveless.
So, he becomes a pirate, where they reject society altogether and have matelotages instead. Lucius and Pete's "mateys" ceremony is shot and framed not like a wedding, but as an honest, personal bond, willingly conducted in community (in a circle; no presiding authority, procession, or transaction).
That is how Stede and Ed can find love, companionship, and happiness: by rejecting those figurines and their oppressive exchange of property, overseen by a church that enables colonialism and abuse. Ed is loved, and deserves happiness, as he is, no paint or projection required.
ALL OF THIS IS TO SAY: draw Ed in dresses! Write him getting gender euphoria in skirts! Write trans/nb Ed, draw men being feminine! Gender is fake, the show invites exploration, that's what 'transformative works' means! But please, stop citing the cake toppers as evidence it's canon. Stop citing a scene where a depressed Māori man gets drunk and projects himself onto a rich, white, silent bride because he thinks he's innately unlovable and only people like her can find happiness, shortly before deciding to kill himself, as canon evidence it's what he wants.
(Also, please don't come in here with "lmao we're just having fun," I know, I get it. Unfortunately, I'm an academiapilled researchmaxxer, and some of youse need to remember that the word "canon" has meaning. NOW GO HAVE FUN PUTTING THAT MAN IN A PRETTY DRESS!! 💖💖)
#OFMD#Our Flag Means Death#OFMD Edward Teach#gender stuff#Togas does meta#god this seems even longer as a semi-proper essay XD#I know this is the piss on the poor website of reading comprehension but please god don't misunderstand me#i'm not saying you can't draw ed (or any other male character!) in a dress or that it's The Wrong Interpretation or whatever#I AM saying this fandom sometimes emphasises feminising Ed to the point of over-simplification and dehumanisation#which certainly feels at least racist-adjacent and definitely misses the point of the show#but mostly I'm saying that THAT SCENE DOESN'T MEAN THAT and I wish people would stop talking about it like something sweet and positive#when it's one of the most miserable and heartbreaking scenes in the show. like. agreeing with ed's depression is a bad look...#my experience of trying to do meta in the last year or so has consisted almost entirely of trying to do#specific historicist analysis or textual close readings#and being met with broad political analyses and overall interpretations of character#like mate..... bless you for engaging but. that is not what I'm doing here. XD#shoutout to the couple folks on twt that mentioned Ed's desires generally or an outtake from the scene#neither of which are at all relevant to my point but thank you for your input
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DPXDC Prompt #91
Danny was dimension hopping, his original dimension was still there but after his parents disowned him when they found out it wasn’t safe anymore especially with the GIW stepping up their game. Danny just wanted to find a dimension where he could live peacefully after all he was part human and while he loves the infinite realms it wasn’t sustainable in the long run to his human half. He finally finds one where the GIW doesn’t exist at all, but the weird part is there are actual superheroes here. The weirder part is his counterpart in this dimension is part of the Justice League! The bad part is it seems in this dimension the portal fully killed him so how was he supposed to explain to his counterpart that he was half dead.
#dp x dc prompt#dp x dc#dc x dp#danny fenton#danny phantom#poor danny#writing prompt#Danny meets his fully dead counterpart in an alternate dimension#alternate universe#danny is a little shit#How does Justice League Danny feel about this?#Fully dead meets half ghost#Honestly not a fan personally for full dead AU I kind of think it takes away from the point of Danny’s character in the first place#That’s just me though#These prompts are meant for everyone though so even if you think differently from me your opinions are valid#I think conflicting ideas is an overall positive#Also I hit 1K notes in a single day yesterday and I can’t believe it#Thank you everyone!!#my asks are open#if anyone had a question I’ll post some of my old artwork again
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thinking about kageyama’s “it’s the setter’s job to break the wall in front of the spiker” in reference to how kenma sponsoring hinata while he’s in brazil and onwards is effectively doing that on a financial level. once a setter always a setter.
#could talk about how the narrative purpose of every setter (at least in hinata’s story) reflects the idea of breaking a wall in front of him#for hours i think#i want to do a full manga read to fully think about that but#atsumu & hinata’s feeling that he needs kageyama. kenma & just the financial logistics of being able to go to brazil. oikawa & homesickness#obviously there’s more going on w/ all the characters but like. those 3 & kageyama (obviously) all have at least one big thing they help-#hinata overcome. kageyama has so many of these moments w/ hinata i’d have to rewatch & list them all but yea.#akaashi is also this but for bokuto. (bokuto is this for akaashi as well)#(& if we’re talking setters & spikers obviously hinata is that for kageyama. Obviously. they’re soulmates)#i know this is lowkey just me analyzing the concept of support which a team sport series is inevitably filled to the brim with#but with a lot of what i consider to be hinata’s big character moments… it’s always setters man. & that feels deeply intentional.#& takeda obviously but he’s the coach. that is his Narrative Purpose#i wonder if there’s something strong to be said about main characters positions within the team & their strongest overall narrative purposes#like ‘libero’ meaning free in italian & nishinoya & freedom being his Whole Thing. he goes to karasuno bc he likes the uniform!!#i’m curious if i took every character & took their position if i’d find a list of commonalities between their narrative purposes. idk!#but yea anyways i dislike dumbing down hinata’s relationships w/ his setters as like ‘omg setter harem’ as anything other than a light joke#but hinata & setters is such a big deal. almost all my favorite hinata dynamics are with setters i think & that’s bc of that importance#if anyone read this rant in the tags thank you for your time lol. happy birthday hinata i love you forever#haikyuu!!#haikyuu#haikyū!!#hinata shouyou#hinata shoyo#kozume kenma
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funny how i love to pretend to be all big and tough knowing full well that toji would make me so fucking nervous that i couldn't get a single fucking sentence out without stuttering😭😭😭😭
#i go so red in the face very easily too#i'm doomed#it's so over for me#would try to bring up smth sex related in the middle of the day and i'd just be hiding my face in his chest#bright red like a fucking tomato😭😭😭#GET A GRIPPPPP#don't get me wrong overall these topics are fine#but i feel like if it was me wanting to try smth out#like a position or smth#then that would kill me#FOR WHATEVER REASON#😭😭😭😭#SO STUPID#GODDDD#is it better to speak or to die#to die i can't do this#HE JUST#MAKES ME NERVOUS OKAY LEAVE ME BE#miji
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autistic becoming a neutral/positive adjective in todays culture would make my younger neurodivergent self so happy and hopeful (and i hope others can find that too:))
#it definitely has not become fully positive#i have seen it be an insult (to me and others) in casual conversation#<- someone said i was the boring kind of autism and i have grieved ever since then (/hj)#<- people also just add on to anything weird or wrong i do ‘ur autistic’ which I’ve come to realize is in a demeaning way#(didn’t realize bc of the autism)#but i feel like i can tell people that i am autistic now. as opposed to when i hid it so people wouldn’t think less of me#or change how they acted around me#now i have people being like (real conversation btw) “yeah but that guys an asshole. and the other is autistic and cool’’#<- this was a neurotypical childhood friend who would never say this a decade ago#I’ve heard kids say cute things like ‘i am so happy you’re you’‘I wish i was autistic like you’ <- a little confused but he’s got the spirit#i know the world is still shitty and rude and disrespectful#but i have seen such a growth of love and support and overall normalization in todays world#and progress is progress <3#don’t forget that!!#autism#autistic#actually autistic#neurodivergent#positivity#idk what else to tag#but ily all<3#the rare og text post
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i was perusing bs fics including hennessey as a character because i wanted to see what the fandom did with flint's daddy issues. i am so surprised! no criticism, but he gets a really sympathetic depiction on a lot of fics, way more than i expected. there seems to be a lot of agreement that he did everything he could to make flint's sentence as mild as possible, that he hated alfred hamilton & went along with his plans kind of reluctantly & there are even some fix-its that see him run to the rescue of thomas/flint/miranda to some combination. none of these are an impossible read of the situation i am just surprised i hardly see anyone painting him as a bit more culpable & less conflicted. not because it's a better take, but i think it's at least a possible one. i can believe he had some regard for flint, but how far did it go really? it's not like we see him help him after the dismissal in any way, not even in secret, & he made a good show of looking genuinely horrified by flint in front of a. hamilton. i don't know i am just chatting into the void, but i find it peculiar that he seems to attract little resentment! you all really want flint & his dad to make peace & love each other <3
#i want them to have a very fraught encounter where no one renounces their positions & that leaves them both emotionally devastated#only hennessey's affection for flint is overall limited & he is clearly a man that can live with himself well enough#after doing things he doesn't 100% like so he gets over it#while flint starts out blaming him & then circles back around to blaming himself#+ feeling the shame of having disappointed his paternal figure#i also want flint to kill him but i need to figure out how because it's not easy to get him there since he did love him#bs.txt
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Today I wore a crop top outside for the first time ever.
I got fatshamed told I shouldn't wear that because it's "unflattering" for me, but on the streets I got catcalled.
Society sends confusing messages.
#overall a positive experience#i'm slowly starting to reach that point when being fat doesn't feel like the tragedy it has been for 75% of my lifetime so far#and that for me is huge#as a teen i was an ed wannabe sad because I had too much adult surveilance to sucessfully mantain for long ed-like practices and habits
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brought to you by me hosting a friend for two days who grew up in the same cultural region, and tbh will not be invited again.
#night two of spontaneously showering for over an hour with no notice just as i indicated i wanted to go to bed...#pls consider. i have to shit lol#i also have meds#i'd honestly make fuckin due if i'd had the indicators to like. idk say oh i need to grab my meds first#but also idk how to put it other than this is one of. so many behaviors that are making me just about reconsider the friendship as a whole#within 2 days#i lowkey wanna cry because this has gone so badly overall#and i feel like i'm in a position where it's both unfair for me to not communicate this distress (because maybe we could work it out)#but also if i do communicate. this individual was having and is now coming out of a hypomanic episode where they kept talking about#self harm related habits and displaying self hatred for the mildest of critiques#and they've never communicated what to do in these situations previously so idk their boundaries and honestly don't trust them to establish#boundaries that they would benefit from because they have a large history of that#so uh. yeah in conclusion i am counting the hours til they leave and i can more easily try to figure out how the fuck to handle this
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Okay it's been one week.. even if you havent finished the story or even gotten to play, at this point you probably have SOME sort of opinion on the thing. So:
No "it's complicated" option bc of COURSE it is 🙄. Take a tally, weight it however you like, and then use the tags to show your work :)
(And please don't spoiler tag this; like i said, this isn't just for people who have finished the game!)
#sonic#sonic frontiers#myaa#polls#mine is overall positive#i think there is some poor choices with executing the difficulty scaling#and yea the final boss is poorly communicated. but that does not feel out of character for thev game#a lot of thev optional cutscenes sucked and things felt missing from the main story#BUT...#the story was overall good and so were SOME optional cutscenes#i like the friends' mechanics and the extra challenges#and i really life the new cyberspaces. even if you don't have to do them
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i only just found your au and i need everyone to have a happy ending so badly im gonna cry ;-; sally is gonna be so freakin upset when she wakes up for real and sees she decimated barnaby.
oh, Barnaby already has his arm stitched back on when she wakes up! and really, even if he didn't, that'd be the Least of her worries. she wakes up into a Real nightmare - partially of her (unintentional) making
#happy endings... well... yes and no. depends on what act you look at#act one? no! actually things get So Much Worse in an entirely festive new way!#act two? eh! sorta! its more bittersweet than anything#act three and four blend into each other so much that three doesn't have an 'ending'#but the final act - act four... well. who's to say! im still workshopping what i want to happen#but i do know it's still gonna have at Least a bittersweet tinge to it#wh lights out au#rambles from the bog#there are consequences and not everyone Makes It. i dont like stories where everything wraps up perfectly fine#even if it hurts! i like it when things hurt in a good way. those stories where the ending is overall positive#but Enough Happened that its just... its an ache. looking at where someone used to be. you know?#my favorite shows and books and fics have ended with me smiling while sobbing bc it yes it Hurts but it was So Fucking Good#and while i wouldnt be able to handle rewatching/rereading due to Emotional Damage...#i think of them fondly and often and theyre Important to me#perfectly happy endings just rub me wrong. it always feels like there's something Missing despite it all being idyllic#i cant let my own stories - original or aus or whatever - have that kind of end#so if thats what people are hoping for! you've come to the wrong person and the wrong au!#i like to be kind but that rarely extends to my creative works!#i like it messy and painful and bittersweet and i like to be Ruthless with my creations with no compromise#sometimes characters need to fight. or leave. or die. or make serious mistakes. etc.#but anyway! anyway....#i will say that there isn't a happy ending for Everyone. and for others it's... complicated. again - bittersweet
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I’m sorry about the week and your coworkers. Hoping this week will speed up and bring you to better tidings. Happy early birthday!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖🎉
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thank you sparkle hearts <3 i'm sure things will get better, it's just not fun to see people you like and care about lose their jobs over "budget cuts" and the like.
#though tbh the reason they lost their jobs was a side effect of an overall positive thing (recently lowered insulin prices in the US)#so like i can't really feel too bad about it in the long run because it's better for drug prices to be lower and for insulin to be cheap#but it does suck in the moment for people who are impacted by that shift. even though they'll be okay in the end and find work elsewhere
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brain has gone fully blue screen 404 Thoughts Not Found
#my brother is???? having a baby?????????#he and his gf seem happy and i adore her so overall this is probably a positive? maybe?#but mannn idk how i feel about him becoming a whole entire father#i love him to bits but he’s kind of a mess#no judgement bc i am also a mess#but like. there’s no wiggle room with parenting#there’s no do overs#ofc they’ll have tons of support including me so i’m just gonna take a deep breath and decide to be happy about this#i think#yeah that’s probably what i should do#holy shit what the fuck#personal
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did you go on your date ?? feel like spilling some beans ? genuinely heavily invested in fairy tumblr moot going out for coffee
I'm the fairy tumblr moot? Oh man I am getting all sorts of interesting desciptors today! (Have also heard "of viking stock" and "weed witch" in the last few hours 😂)
Yes, I went on the date- just got back home actually. Went pretty well, was very pleasantly low key. We met up at a coffee shop but I didn't know there was also a local street fair happening so it was pretty busy. We chatted in the shop until it became clear that the staff was starting to shut down for the evening. Walked around the vendor booths for a while, then moseyed off to a side street to share couple of joints. Chatted and walked and smoked until we got hungry, then got dinner nearby. Walked back to my car and talked for like another hour until we finally said goodbye because it was getting late and we both had work early. Couple of friendly hugs at the end. We exchanged numbers and agreed that the next hangout would probably just be at my place for some Xena and stoner snacks, probably later this week. Pretty tame stuff so like, going fairly slow but I'm also ok with it. Hell, I haven't even told him about my OnlyFans yet 😏 (not that I think it would be a dealbreaker or anything, this just seems to be a bit more of a slow burn situation and there wasn't a time to bring it up organically)
#dating nonsense#anon asks#friendly anons#they mentioned something about getting out of a relationship a few months ago so and I get the feeling that that's still kinda fresh#so hey I'm cool with just making a nice stoner pal if they eventually decide they aren't feeling more than that#but I'd say overall a very positive interaction#unlike the last person I had a decent date with (who then cancelled date 2) this person doesn't have like 4 other connections already going#so i feel more hopeful about not being blown off
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Ep 6!!!
#Biggest take away from the episode: @fandom Dazai can't be Atsushi's father figure if he himself says Atsushi's father figure is the–#headmaster check your facts#Second biggest take away from the episode: the worst thing the headmaster transmitted Atsushi ought to be the terrible haircut choices#Mmmmhhh I could spend another whole tag rant to talk about how much I dislike the writing of Lucy in this episode 😭😭😭#But I worry I'll start being perceived as someone who hates women if I do so I won't.#(But let me just say. I really really *really* despite the “what women [alien and mysterious beings] want is hard to understand and–#impossible to decipher and more often than not they will say the exact opposite of what they mean” stereotype.#Like I hate it to an intimate extent.)#I quite like Kyouka's backstory!! I feel like she's the most fleshed out female character with a compelling character arc and personality.#I really like her. Lucy and Atsushi working as make-do parents (very largerly intended. More like siblings who are dating but that sounds–#even worse) was very cute. And I appreciate how the events seemed to set off Atsushi's own reflection on parenthood.#The same doesn't happen in the manga since the chapters are placed in a different order.#Overall this is just an episode that when I was reading the manga for the first time solidified my understanding that me and b/sd have#RADICALLY different views on the world. But now that after three years and having long come to terms with it.#I suppose it's just something that's there.#Ususal notes about the animation just for talks. The lack of budget really shows this episode and in the second half in particular.#It's especially noticeable in backgrounds that are just... Not the stunning backgrounds that usually make b/sd's anime strong point.#So in turn the lack of details comes off as twice as evident as it normally would :/#The whole Atsushi / Tanizaki exchange at the start of the chapter until the headmaster's identity is revealed is completely devoid–#of host which has me just?? What happened here??? A track slowly building up tension is an almost automatic choice I'm just like.#What happened. If it was a deliberate choice it was a very bad one in my humble opinion#On a more positive note I really like whoever drew the characters “background appearence” this episode eheh#(you know‚ the more stylized one when they're not on close up)#And the drawings at the end of the episode daz/atsu twilight scene were good. Kyouka's flashback was also good.#That's it :)#random rambles#Oh yeah rip chapter 39 ss/kk scene ig :///
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