#so how about that mizu5

[starduststorm-art]

this can't be real this can't be real this can't be real this can't be real this can't be real this can't be real this can't be real this can't be real this can't be real this can't be real this can't be real

this is unbearable.

[heartorbit]

if we could stay connected, just like this

[tetrangel]

does anyone else hear that ominous bell tolling

[just-apple-strudel]

If you just finished reading Mizu5 and want to feel more pain and suffering, you should listen to "Devil of the Classroom" by Utsu-P

[yurastarry]

psst. project moon fans who are also project sekai fans (or the other way around), which niigo character should i draw for their distortion form?

of course, most voted character will be drawn! if i have enough time and motivation i might as well draw the 2nd character w the most votes :))

do keep in mind my schedule is really packed so i may post the drawings at a later date

[blackcurrant-juice]

UTSU-P AND NAKISO COMMS‼️⁉️⁉️⁉️‼️⁉️‼️‼️⁉️

[okiria]

i have so much unwritten ria angst but this is okiria in the hypothetical spinoff that exists in my beautiful mind palace. peace and love

[bunnii-bitez]

i’m loving the direction bandori and pjsk are taking right now, i love how they are diving deeper into more sensitive topics and treating them so well

[arsonistman]

Lying in bed feeling physical pain thinking about Mizuki and the Mizu5 event

[butterfly-ribbon]

still in disbelief about how mizu5 genuinely captures the subtleties of transmisogyny so accurately like nothing else i've seen before especially with the nuances with which mizuki's story is told … all it takes is a single sentence, a few words … i love that the classmates saying that shit don't even … realize how cruel they are, bc that's how it /is/ and bc "oh no, we said something weird to a Normal Girl, that makes us look bad" - transmisogyny is just a punchline to a joke for them, that's how detached they are from their own cruelty and it's really not any different from the 'average' misogyny and how that tends to be a joke amongst boys. what ena ended up being exposed to is really just the classmates' 'boy's locker room talk' leaking out, so to speak? ena's probably heard jokes from people about how unfeminine her behavior is in the past and she quickly spits out "that's not funny" bc ena and mizuki are both "pretty girls" who like fashion and dolling themselves up, and hearing them talk about how mizuki's cute in this way … i'm sure it reminds her of her own experiences with being an 'influencer' - people like her when she shuts up and makes herself cute and appealing and ena must've absolutely received her fair share of comments and messages from weirdos for posting selfies of herself online, but i think what drives this home to me as such a fantastic narrative is the way that they call mizuki "attractive as long as she's not making any trouble and being a pain" bc it really speaks to how trans girls are objectified and only deemed 'acceptable' as long as they make themselves into limpless dolls who are acceptable targets for any form of abuse and misogyny instead of trying to claim their own subjectivity as women, so there's so much crossover in how mizuki's experiences work alongside ena's? but also mizuki faces so much more constant and direct criticism, all her actions and choices so closely under scrutiny.

mizuki loves and appreciates the attention of girls and when she first met ena she saw herself in the art that ena made - ena draws a girl in pain and mizuki goes "she's me". in the scene where mizuki gets outed, ena is speechless not bc she thinks mizuki is "gross" or bc she's mad mizuki "tricked" her? she's just horrified that she just got degendered /by association/ and then had to listen to these boys speak about the girl she's in love with in this /aggressively/ violent way, especially since mizuki has a meltdown, knowing, apologizing for hurting, even as ena would absolutely say "no, i'm sorry, im sorry, please don't hate vourself" bc mizuki feels like she's the one at fault for feeling like ena would assume the worst of her, but mizuki also feels like she doesn't have the right to be angry at people … this is the first time we get to see mizuki's rage and it's so palpable … i love so much that she hates the idea of niigo's kindness being born out of her 'abnormality' as a trans girl … she hates everything about this. she hates the idea of coming out, she hates the idea of having a question attached to her girlhood..

mizuki logically knows that niigo are going to accept her bc they've also gone through so much turmoil themselves and understand what it's like to be on the fringes of society, but she still can't shake off all those intrusive thoughts about how they might only accept her out of pity or consideration bc they feel too bad for her rather than a genuine understanding and the idea that things might change between them bc of that is too terrifying to embrace… such patronizing 'kindness' burns too much for mizuki to accept, so she'd rather run away and shut herself out completely… for mizuki it's like being stuck on a bridge where the only two ways out are ones where nothing changes and this hurts in its own way bc she can't tell how much of it would be genuine and how much would be an act and the other way is them /trying too hard/ to be considerate and this can easily become alienating bc mizuki truly just wants to be "one of the girls" in the most natural sense? she doesn't want to be made to feel like she's being accommodated, but there's also all the guilt that she's been internalizing for being "deceptive" and not saying the truth sooner that further complicates things and makes her feel like she's undeserving of any kindness that she may be offered… even though she genuinely was going to tell ena the truth herself, it doesn't matter anymore bc someone else told her before she even got the chance to do so herself and that's something she actually wished would happen in the past, so is there anyone to blame but herself? mizuki's entire thing is that until now she's been "writing" a fictionalized cis girl version of herself when she's with niigo and obscuring her own transness bc she doesn't want to be treated as an Other or have an asterisk attached to her girlhood bc she just wants to be treated as one of them instead of having to explain herself or prove anything but she has her facade violently stripped away from her in the most traumatic way imaginable and now she's entrapped within dysphoria induced suicidal ideation...

[a-tear-in-space]

A little thing I may have noticed about Ena5/Mizu5!

The Mizu5 event name was "Where Does The Path Of Thorns Go?"

The natural purpose of thorns are to protect and deter people from getting to what's past them, whether that be a plant, a doorway (in a certain fairy tale, lol) and to just overall keep things away.

Mizuki has built up this wall/path of thorns around themselves/their secret to keep their friends, specifically Ena, from knowing the truth. The path of thorns is long, thick and difficult to get through because of how much they're determined to protect themselves.

Which brings us to Ena5's card name - "Even if I'm covered in scars."

Thorns, obviously, are very sharp - they're meant to deter predators, they have to be. You can't get past them to what's beyond without getting cut/scratched by them.

So, what does this mean, I hear you ask?

Well, I'm gonna reach a bit and interpret this as Ena fighting through all the thorns, the brambles, everything, to reach Mizuki. To withstand all the pain and scars and fear to get to Mizuki because of how much she cares about them, how much she's willing to let Mizuki just open up to her. And based on Mizuki's card name, it seems like Mizuki will finally tell Ena their secret, completely of their own free will.

(All I could think about while writing this was Sleeping Beauty lmao)

[noname-nonartist]

Okay, So I'm not making Mizu5 about An, because it's not. And like An has a very small role within the story event. However... I can't help but think about how interesting the 2-A theme is dress-up. It makes me wonder if An has strongly suggested their class to do it since it would help Mizuki blend in more. Something An mentioned to Mizuki on the last school festival. Yeah, there is a hugeeeee chance that I'm reaching due to my bias (I deeply love Mizuki's and An's friendship). Like it is highly possible that there are just that many peeps within 2-A that love making clothes/fashion (heck Akito is a street fashion nerd). But this is also something An would do to help make Mizuki feel more comfortable in school. There has been times where An would subtlety do things to make sure Mizuki is happy and comfortable. Such as An's words/action in the previously mentioned Kamiyama School Festival Event, but also in the Cheerleading Squad Event too. Where An purposefully pick the short end so she can be part of the squad with Mizuki.

[daycordatthreepm]

quick mizu5 rant because I’ve seen one too many shit takes on TikTok and oh my god I’m so pissed. I know that most people have common sense but there are so many people that do not and Its beyond baffling.

No, Mizuki is not a boy. No, she didn’t look into the camera and say “My name is Mizuki Akiyama and I’m a transgender girl”, and she doesn’t need to in order for it to be clear. She is not a cross dresser, she is trans.

“But the classmates were calling her a boy!1!!!1!” They’re transphobic bullies. Look at the surrounding context, for once in your life. They said that they thought Ena was a ”normal girl” when they found out that she and Mizuki are friends. It’s exceedingly obvious once you get your heads out of your fucking “the curtain is just blue” transphobic asses.

A boy wouldn’t react like that to someone saying that they’re a boy. Do you know who would, especially in this context and the surrounding lore of the entire game? A trans girl— Mizuki.

The game makes it so obvious what’s going on. You shouldn’t need to have your hand held to understand what’s going on. If you know literally anything about Mizuki’s character, and if you know how to read, her transness is so clear. It’s right there in bright neon fucking pink.

Media literacy is dead I swear to god

[ruubyys1]

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synposis: you have wanting to tell him your secret for a long time, but still deciding to do it or not—

su x gn!reader . wc: 1.9k words

.☆ content warnings/notes: herrscher!reader, slight angst?? (if u squint), basically mentions of ppl making rumors about you, mizu5 and ena2 inspired fic (from prsk), expect some grammar mistakes here. —first part focuses on reader mostly while second part focuses on both reader and su.

.☆ a/n’s: Hello!! This is my first time publishing a full fanfiction. Of course, as I mentioned earlier, expect this fic to have some mistakes and a little confusing so please bear w/ me and understand. 🙏🏼

taglists: @rukianaa

You kept running.

Running, running, running away—

From among those few who already knew about your 'secret'. The secret about you being a herrscher to everyone.

You would never want to spill it, would you? Herrschers are evil, dangerous, killing machines that are destined to destroy humanity. Yet, what about your destiny? What kind of path will you take?

…Yet however, there is someone you think would accept you just as you are. Your relationship with him may not remain the same even if you try.

He was your light during the darkness, your savior,

—and especially, your most dearest.

Su.

But, will he actually love you?

…

Sitting on the bed with your legs crossed, you sigh softly in your room while gazing at the chilly ceiling and chatting to yourself. You thought of your "secret" while tapping your fingers softly on the mattress.

“I want to move on forward…” Those thoughts whisper down to your body with a sharp sense, biting you off with the feeling of wanting to tell others you are hiding. However, you decide to keep it a secret for the remaining years that you serve as a MOTH soldier.

"…I got to this point because I've been running the entire time and running like that…." It is true that you have continued to flee with the secret far away, from one place to another, long enough to avoid what is coming. Being a MOTH soldier and Herrscher at this point is hard for you due to how you were born.

—Nevertheless, he is there. Your dear friend Su, who would you always entrust with your feelings and everything no matter what.

“I will keep waiting for you if thats what you want.”

You just had that flashback in your head, remembering how Su once told you he'd wait until you were able to fully express yourself.

“Even if I rely on Su’s words a long time ago…”

“Yet…”

In your quiet room, you held your breath and then courageously released it.

“I want to talk about it.”

You placed your hands on your chest, holding to yourself tightly as if you never wanted to let go of anyone’s kind heart.

“If I’m going to talk about it… I have to tell Su first. Since he has been waiting for me this whole time…”

Starting now, you decided to plan whether to meet Su somewhere in a place you have both been before, even though you are still unsure whether to do it or not. Now, those sharp feelings returned to you, but this time, it seemed as though everything between you and Su will soon be surrounded by emptiness and darkness.

Like a faint ominous bell ringing in anticipation of the end of the world, it pierces your eyes as you come to a realization.

—Shoot.. You shouldn't think of that. Everything will go smoothly, right?

“A herrscher? Are you kidding me?”

A voice in the crowd, perhaps spreading rumors about you, and one of them being true, gave you a flashback that made your chest ache. You bit your lip, slightly clenching your fists, and attempted to calm down slowly, but the coldness in the room prevented it, leaving you struggling.

“…..I don't want to run away..” This time, your voice sounded shaky, like shattered glass that will never be able to be put back together. Then, you bravely grab your phone on the other side as the screen brightens up in your presence. Slowly, you typed out a message to Su in his contact. However��� your fingers are also trembling from finding proper words, stumbling deeper and deeper to try to talk with him about your secret.

"My hands are shaking… I can't type well…" As you approach the end of composing your message, your fingers still tremble. While trying to find a way to calm down, the option you could take is to think about Su, your dearest friend, and how he once vowed to always be there whenever you have troubles ahead.

“…Calm down. Because if I take it slow, it will be okay—”

You finally completed the words that you typed on that screen.

“…Alright. All that is left… is to simply send it… Then maybe—”

“Eh…? Ah, that’s true. They may be a Herrscher.”

You are struck by another flashback, this time with a voice from an old acquaintance. Were they talking badly about you or only making up rumors?

“They are hard to deal with.”

“That’s how an ordinary herrscher talks, right?”

Again,

“Don’t they just want to stand out with humanity?”

And again.

Your mind is filled with increasingly familiar voices, as though they are repeating the same things over and over again. Were you genuinely human, or were you a herrscher set on destroying humanity?

The more you remember, the more it starts to hurt your head.

“It might be a misunderstanding, right?”

"Well, that sounds awful, doesn't it?"

“They’ll eventually betray our backs one day! Do you not ever even notice?!”

You tremble uneasily once again as more voices start to observe you from a distance.

"Everyone won't do something like reject me, will they? Su can easily ease someone's suffering if I believe…“

You clenched your left arm, suppressing the agony that has plagued you for years. Su is probably the last thing on your mind.

“I’ll keep waiting forever.” He spoke those words, which were as warm, consoling, and reassuring as a ray of sunshine. You came from the dark, and he was your light. Will he accept you for who you are, even though you intended to give him a sincere thank you?

He is kind, and so are the others. His warm smile fleeting in the bright sky onto yours, illuminating the shadows that kept you between.

How lovely Su was.

You have been close friends with Su as long as you can remember. In high school, he bumped into you and the two of you ended up exchanging texts.

His friendship would remain the same to you even after the incident— where he was trying to find you from the rubble and dirt that built up from destruction. Su would successfully find you when time passed, and he promised to protect you as always.

Su was calm and polite to you, and he was willing to understand your feelings, troubles, and secrets. He accepts and supports you in what you want to do and what you want to be.

He is kind, right? Will he be willing to accept your secret about you being a Herrscher?

For now, you'd like to think about that, but you're unsure because you are the honkai - and Su is a fighter. If you betray him now, would he hate you for what have you done? No. He won’t, right?

…

You spaced out on your work just as you were about to submit a file on Su’s documents. In that sight, you were only thinking about him, his lovely smile, and everything else about Su until it shifted towards your secret. Your eyes looked like they were about to empty and lose their shine too, as you only stared into the blinding light illuminated by the lamp.

“Su…”

“Yes, [Name]?”

You shifted back quickly to reality when Su called you behind, placing his warm hand on your shoulder.

“Are you alright? You seem to be spacing out for a long time.” His face was a touch of concern even from the doctor himself. You try to find the words in your mind— until you decide to tell him that you are doing “alright”.

“Ah— I am okay, Su. I was thinking of something..”

That was a lie, and he believed it easily.

“I see… If you need help with any of your feelings— you can ask me.” Su smiled gently at you as if he drowned fully in your lies and mask. You smiled at him back too, however guilty also for the words you have said. You want to tell him more of your feelings, especially the deep ones, nevertheless, you do not want to pressure yourself fully.

“And about the file on the cure—”

“I’ll submit it tomorrow early morning. That’s all.”

You quickly assured him with almost raising your tone, which almost startled Su in his mind.

Shit.

“…Ah, alright then [Name]. See you tomorrow then, and goodnight to you.” His calm demeanor returned as his gaze softened to you, as if he was falling for your lies.

He waved his hand and left your office in the sound of the night.

You lied and lied again.

“…Hah. How can he easily follow with my words?” Your tone went blunt and straightforward. You cannot believe how pathetic he is to listen to you, always lending out a hand, and eventually comforting you. He was a warm heart indeed, like a bathing sunshine flowing in the wind, that is what you see in him.

He was your friend and always been.

Will you eventually deceive him with your secret one day?

…

Su sighed in his place, continuing the write one of his documents about researching a cure for the honkai— and for his patients as well.

In reality, he was thinking of you, especially on your tone since earlier.

“[Name]… Are they alright?” He spoke in the silence of his own office, slightly fidgeting the pen and staring at the paper. Sighing, he rested his hand on his cheek.

“I’m hoping that they feel well at least, I don't want to pressure them further…” Su’s voice full of concern wanted to think about you more; those positive moments that contained your genuine smile and unique personality. He loved you no matter what type of person you were, and would always continue to do those.

Even in the current time when honkai is invading, he promised to always be there for you as always.

…

You lie softly down in bed getting ready to sleep despite the time being 1:00 AM. —All of that hard work has been paid off, right?

You sighed staring at the empty-looking ceiling leaving your eyes to wander where you are and what you are doing.

“…Ah, alright then [Name]. See you tomorrow then,”

That flashback replayed in your head just now, almost letting out a gasp. You acknowledge that you did lie to him and he seems to simply accept it. Even if you are a dear friend of Su, you should not make a lie to him as he sometimes can perceive it in a way.

From your perspective, it seems you've been wanting to tell Su about your secret for as long as you can remember. For everyone, you also wished to reveal it too.

Unfortunately, if people found out, they would hate you and throw you out to death instead, especially in an organization called MOTH. Back then, you covered your identity as a herrscher and joined to find a purpose in your life.

—In that life, you were only a little person who yearned to find more of yourself, only to realize that you shouldn't belong here in this world.

Yet, one of your loved ones loved and accepted you for what you are. You were harmless, kind— and happy.

However, where did all of the happiness go?

You sighed once again, pulling the soft blankets in your bed and covering up the coldness. You clicked off the switch on the lamp shifting to complete darkness. To get rid of the negative thoughts in your head, you slowly close your eyes.

You thought about Su instead, his lovely smile.

Your lovely friend, and your savior.

—And eventually, you’ll go lower with him to discover your secret soon. Maybe in your imagination, he could accept you and keep it a secret ‘no one knows.’

thanks for reading! there will be a part 2 of this

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[bluelizze]

Me after reading Mizu5 Ch. 7 & 8:

I have so much to say for this event, especially as a fellow trans person myself (I’m specifically agender but it’s under the nonbinary umbrella which is under the trans umbrella)

SPOILERS FOR MIZU5 EVENT

Tw/// one mention about unaliving

So first off, the first time I saw the leaks for Mizu5 event (October 11, 2024) I was scared like “oh no did ena not accept them?”

But then I saw a post about how it’s more likely that Mizuki’s asshole of a classmate might of told Ena their secret

Now, the WORST feeling for anybody, not just LGBTQ+ people to fell, is to work up the courage to tell someone you trust, your secret, a secret that THEY KNOW is very important, only to get outted by someone else

The fear I felt when reading the event and the way my heart clutched was worst than I thought it would it when I finally got to Chapter 7.

The expression, the way Mizuki’s face gone pale. That I can feel. And omg Hinata-san did such an amazing job on the voice acting (she even said something about crying after recording those lines). I felt the fear and tension.

And omg the card. Is so beautiful but it so painful to look at

The way their eyes are covered, and the mirror being broken. They can’t bare to look at themselves.

The way the clothes are torn as if they have been ripped off. I saw a comment where it felt like Mizuki’s mask has been ripped off (not by her own choice) which can explain how their clothes here are ripped off and i can see how it makes perfect sense. They were ripped off, exposed by their classmates. They were ripped off the opportunity, the courage to tell Ena their secret in their own terms

The red I felt like… can resemble blood. Kinda like ripping off a bandaid kind of feeling. Idk why. Maybe it just kinda feels like they’re bleeding from the emotional wounds.

The way my heart clutched seeing this and also how it sent chilled down my spine. I can’t even begin to explain how I felt about this.

Now, I think people will think they will unalive themselves (which is a possibility bc they said at the end “I want to disappear”), but the wording here is “temporarily stop appearing in the ‘real world’”. Meaning: mizuki will probably hang around SEKAI instead of being in the real world. What’s even sadder is that I saw a tweet where it said that Mizuki here is basically going back to their middle school self. Which HURTS

Anyways, that’s my thoughts on the recent Mizu5. As a trans person, I never felt more fear for Mizuki and I truly hope they can be happy again someday…

[redacted4life]

"We, With Wounded Hand." Card Analysis

All the card have this butterfly motif on them. Butterflies are associated with transformation, now it's obvious that Mizuki represent the butterfly because in Mizu5 the butterfly is flying away and in Ena5 the butterfly is flying back but the motif of transformation could also refer to their relationship, it's transforming from how it was from the beginning, how it was when the secret came out and how it is when they communicate to each about the secret.

The flower I think are suppose to be cherry blossoms, they represent life and death, beauty and violence. This meanings are very contracting to each other just like the contradiction to the themes expressed of the two event's cards. In mizu5, Mizuki had what one could call a panic attack, they felt it was a life ending experience, that it would be the death of their friendship to Niigo, that it would damage it beyond repair. In ena5 the flowers are blooming all around, it's beautiful, almost to express how Mizuki is beautiful even when they bloom, things can die but they can also be reborn into something new, death could mean so much and it doesn't alway have to be a bad thing, there is sometimes beauty in it like how their is beauty in in Mizuki's truth, Niigo's relationship has died in the sense that it's no longer the same as it was before but also been given a new life to it, it has changed and their's beauty in that.

In mizu5, Mizuki hides their eyes so they can be blind to the pain. In ena5, Mizuki still closes her eye but she's not wearing a blindfold but they're still closing her eyes, they're not trying to ignore the pain that they felt in the other card but they're still closes their eye because the pain they felt when their secret was announced before they were ready to say it can't be erased, the past can never be erased, the eyes close can serve as a relic to Mizu5.

Ena is reaching out to a flower because Mizuki see themself as the flower, ena's face in mizu5 card could be seen as sadness but also disgust, maybe Mizuki think that ena is disgust by their secret, maybe in Mizuki's point of view Ena is reaching out because that was the last thing Mizuki saw before leaving. However, in ena5 she reaching out to Mizuki because she see Mizuki for who they are, something that Mizuki should not be ashamed of, she reaching out to comfort her friend. The difference in both the hand reaching is that Mizu5 hand is hesitant while Ena5 there's not even a hint of hesitant showing character growth.

When I first saw Kanade card it reminded me of her colorfes card with the white flowers and looking away from a distance but I also noticed the opposing colour scheme with purple being the opposite of yellow, not sure if there's anything there. Also Kanade and Mafuyu as the 3 star of Mizu5 and Ena5 are both watching from a distance in their cards, the 3 star are kinda like a mirror of each other as Mafuyu looks to the right and Kanade looks to the left but even their outfits fit them, Mafuyu clothes are covering most of her skin, almost expressing her close off nature while Kanade show the skin on her arm and legs showing her nature of wanting to her music to reach others. Kanade card is more vibrant in it's colour while Mafuyu is more saturated, I love how polarising the cards are to each other like how the two event are different themes to the same story.

Both vocaloid have the main motif of the cards near their ear, Meiko is also looking at the the flower while Kaito is looking away from the flower showing the contrast in how they choose to deal with Mizuki's situation, Kaito look more cold in his approach while Meiko looks more gentle in her approach, like a perfect mirror to Mizuki and Mafuyu character's vs Kanade and Ena character's within the cards. Mafuyu and Mizuki were quick to close themselves off from their problems while Kanade and Ena were quick lend a hand and defend the other. Vocaloid are meant to represent the unit's characters even if in Niigo case, Mafuyu was the one who made the Sekai it still serve as a great representation of the two roles. I also think Meiko and Kaito were the perfect fit for choosen vocaloid, they are counterpart, similair to rin and len, and their hair fit the colour scheme with Mizu5 being mostly of a cooler colour scheme while Ena5 being mostly of a warmer colour scheme.