#so he was already in the drafts but then I saw the trio meme and was immediately like

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Wammy Boys and sleepwear 😴🛌

also I changed Near's to this because I liked it better for him and thought him having the pillow was cute

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I’m typing this just an hour after I left the cinema watching TROS...fuck sleep I need to get it out of my system. Gonna let it simmer in the drafts and post it on Sunday when I would assume most of you have seen it by now...It will be full with major spoilers as well.

Before I start, I wanna somehow give the biggest hug to Kelly Marie Tran. I was in disbelief how J.J stooped so low and shafted her character aside so he can please the fanboys that didn’t like her in TLJ. People giving support to Adam Driver now, should be doing that to Kelly Marie Tran. Adam has a fan favorite character, successful career with tons of praises, he will be fine. Kelly Marie Tran on the other hand doesn’t have that. I just feel AWFUL for her...

So...This is gonna be huge. Where do I even begin...

...I’m so fucking upset...Not Game of Thrones salty no, that salt still stings tho...I’M FUCKING UPSET cause this is basically IT. This is how the Skywalker saga gets its conclusion. At least GoT has the saving grace of the books in the end, you can still cling to that hope that maybe, MAYBE GRRM will treat his characters and story better than the two bozos who shall not be named, and give them a fitting end...

The screening that I was in was packed full. On The Last Jedi there were claps, gasps, “oh nos”, laughs, and the big GASP when Luke bamoozles Kylo on Crait. This one...the audience was dead silent the whole time...THE WHOLE TIME. Not even a giggle at the silly parts. I even felt stupid when I cackled after I saw freaking Babu Frik surviving and going OHOOO, I was the only one and wanted to crawl under the chair immediately. DEAD SILENCE the whole time. Opening night, the biggest of biggest fans. This should tell you something...

THE DEAD SPEAK! That was the first sentence in the crawl...

Like I went in with full knowledge of the leaks...I wasn’t expecting to get the most bizarre summary in the crawl. So...Palpatine all of a sudden enters the chat...LITERALLY!

Two and a half hours of the biggest fetch quest for the macguffins that are not even hinted or introduced anywhere in the movies? “Ohh, but what about in the comics/books/games??” NO! I am only judging WHAT WAS IN THE MOVIE and this is me telling you as a big fan of the new canon of the other media so far...Lol that’s about to change...

THE PACING!!! J.J HAS NEVER LEARNED HOW TO PACE HIS DAMN MOVIES!! WE ARE RUNNING 94% of the movie from place to place like lets see how many sceneries we can cram into one movie...TFA, but on STEROIDS PACING!

The dialog...70% was a direct copy/paste from all the other movies. Who truly wrote the script? Was it someone that was lurking in the prequel memes subreddit? Kylo gets to repeat his TFA lines again and is gone for half of the movie and please PLEASE let me be wrong. but I think his last line LAST LINE that I heard, LAST WORD was FUCKING “ow”... *jumps into the void...

...Poe and Finn get to throw lines at each other. And when they were some trio scenes, it was either bickering or BICKERING, sometimes I was enjoying it, sometimes it felt...like it sounded a bit forced? I think maybe this is where the reshoots might come into play cause some parts of them felt like they were slide in...

I don’t even wanna talk about Rose...GOD I’M SO UPSET!

The Knights of Ren were useless, just a mini boss fight check for us to see that Kylo can take them all by himself...We have already established that Kylo is OP as well but okay...

Rey being a Palpatine...So wow. Let’s scrub the part where we established that you don’t need to be of special lineage to be a powerful force user. Lets make the character that was always trying to find herself and who she truly is, ESTABLISHED that it’s okay being yourself and a powerful linage doesn’t guarantee power (the opposite of Kylo constantly fighting with his family’s legacy by even REJECTING HIS OWN NAME)...Nope, she’s a Palpatine cause the fans don’t like it when a main character doesn’t belong to a certain bloodline and she was too OP. Plus we needed so that Palpatine being “alive” works I guess...J.J....it doesn’t work bruh.

Rey having healing powers...Like how? Just by reading the books? Leia thought her? HOW?? MAKE IT MAKE SENSE J.J!!

And while we’re at it. PALPATINE FUCKED SOMEONE. Like...that’s canon now. He had as son, and Rey is his daughter. His son looked young in the flashback though...are you telling me Palpatine banged someone while looking like a corpse?? PALPATINE??? SHEEV PALPATINE??? Honestly I always thought he had a thing for Tarkin...I dunno. Cause Tarkin was the only one that could call him by his name and always assumed you know, power hungry evil boyfriends?? The perfect match? :’)

CHEEP FAKE-OUT DEATHS!! I can’t even count how many they were. THEY DON’T WORK EVERY 15 MINUTES, J.J!! YOU FOOL! And because of that, all the tension and danger was gone from the movie for me. My evil fav Hux died the most cheep death possible. Although he died a PETTY KING! Respect to my true supreme leader, you could have had it all with a coup d’etat which Rian set up perfectly, but J.J was like fuck it. :’)

Kylo dying is a “we been knew” type of scenario, I didn’t want it, I was prepared for it, the most basic ending, but expected after J.J set up his character with a “cardinal sin” by killing his dad AKA a fan favorite character. No way he gets a pass right? THE MOST BASIC ENDING. Opposite of Vader my ass. Anidala MY ASS! Anakin/Vader already did the Anidala swtich, by saving Luke. HE WAS THE ONE THAT DID THE SWITCH. Guess it was for nothing...Rey doesn’t even mourn him for 5 seconds she’s like GURL BYE on the x-wing, the disrespect lol.

Rey dies, doesn’t vanish...Leia and Ben die, both vanish. “But Leia was waiting for Ben tho”...THEN WHO WAS REY WAITING FOR TO PASS ON THEN?? THE PORGS???

Finn being force sensitive FINALLY confirmed after we all guessed it in TFA, a leftover by J.J when he was still deciding to switch the main character from Finn to Rey...ooohhh the fans noticed, lets slip that in as well cause Finn now needs to chase over Rey THE ENTIRE MOVIE TO TELL HER THAT!! After Finn finally finding his place, after running and having second doubts, AS A REBEL SCUM!! THIS REBEL PRINCE WAS WRONGED SO MUCH!!!

Poe......Poe......We learn that he had a dark past being a spice dealer. He already WON his own battle with himself and got Leia’s blessing as a worthy Resistance leader....no....Lets make him have a shady past as well cause exposition requires it. And DO NOT mention to me “Poe was set to die in the first 20 minutes anyway” DO NOT AT ME! I guess J.J needed to WRITE HIM BETTER THEN??? HMMMM?

I don’t really have an opinion on the two new characters...I liked the actresses, but I think there was no need for new characters at all.

The kiss made no sense I’m sorry. An obvious shoehorned thing that was a visible reshoot cause of THEIR HAIR! If you watch it again notice it. Also it’s obvious by now that I’m not gonna rewatch this shit lol They spend 80% clashing, spewing anger at each other, chasing...and then magically KISS??? THAT’S LOVE?? Naaah. At least Rian presented something more soft and intimate in TLJ .The confusion and dislike at the begging with their forcebond, then trying to understand their perspectives, THEN they reach UNDERSTANDING, worry for each other, fight besides each other. And then it’s the part where they must stay true to their own perspectives again and choose “the higher duty” over themselves...and then Rey shuts the door in Kylo’s face going “I might have fucked up" with his choice at the end was AMAZING. In this part he goes back to his old “me still a baddie”...uuugggghhhhh. I’m not even a Reylo, but the true OG Reylo Rian should have given a chance to be involved in this movie to set up their relationship at least....Just a hug back would have okay.

That fucking dagger. THAT’S the part where I was starting to roll my eyes. The scene where Rey pulls up the dagger at the Death Star wreckage to pinpoint the wayfinder...Up to that point I was STILL on board the ride, but after that is where I started to just roll my eyes or cringe...

The Luke and Leia’s flashback only served a purpose to calm the fans about the “Whaaat?? Leia can use the force and fly in spaaace whaaaat?” cause it wasn’t believable enough that Anakin freaking Skywalker is her dad after all...Nope, lets make her train, and have her own lightsaber AND have her know that she always known that Ben, HER BABY BOY is gonna die...Like...Didn’t Yoda already went through the part WHERE THE FUTURE IS ALWAYS IN MOTION and DIFFICULT TO SEE???? HELLO??? HOW THE FUCK CAN I REMEMBER THAT AND ENTIRE TEAM OF PAYED WRITERS IN GAJILLIONS CAN’T I’M AJSJSHJKASHSK:LKAS...This freaking family has the most saddest story ever it seems, NO ONE GOT A HAPPY ENDING!

Harrison Ford never showing up again, EVER? Nope...Although I gotta admit it was a sweet moment...and then Kylo YEETED his lightsaber and everyone in the cinema went ”Wait what? how is he gonna fight now??” WITH THE POWER OF...SHOWING UP AFTER HALF THE MOVIE! YAAAAY!

WHERE DID VADER’S MASK GO?? WHERE???

Rey taking the name of Skywalker...I immediately thought “Wow...3 generations of Skywalkers, tragedy after tragedy...so that Palpatine‘s line gets redeemed and takes over it? That’s BALANCE? The Satan of Star Wars gets to have the last laugh, it’s like the entire Skywalker line was a sacrificed for Rey. 40 years all lead to just that...

This movie did EVERYTHING possible to undo TLJ. Like it was like a checkpoint list. TLJ BAD? Then improve on it!! Not by disregarding everything that was established so far! I’m gonna be honest, comparing TFA and TROS, they feel like movies made by two or three different directors. TFA is similar to the first Stark Trek that J.J did, it FELT like J.J was all over it. This one just was like J.J and some other people that were holding the checkpoint list...

I have so SO SO much to talk, but my eyes are bleeding, my brain is dead and I just wanna lay down and sleep and wake up in another dimension...So maybe I’ll write up another post in the next days when my mind settles.

I still maintain my main issue with the sequels ever since I saw TFA. I loved the hype and excitement of TFA, I loved the pace and set up in TLJ, maybe even this piece of shit might grow on me one day, but I will always ALWAYS state that it was a mistake FROM DAY ONE to use the original cast. They should have never had involved. Their story was done. They won the war and saved the day. Disney could have started a 1000 years back, or 1000 years in the future and people would have still watched it. The KOTOR games and the Rebels series, the Thrawn books,THE FUCKING MANDALORIAN, even Rogue One are proof that you don’t need familiar faces or overpowered characters close to having god powers for this franchise to work. You don’t need a linage or a famous name.

You just need interesting characters and an intriguing story that drives them, in a magical Galaxy far, far away...That’s Star Wars.

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unfinished fic meme

I got tagged by @kimium in a writing meme!

“Rules: post your favorite parts of 3-5 fics that have been sitting abandoned in your drafts for ages. (for extra shame, throw in when you last worked on each thing.) tag 5 other writers to reflect on their life choices.”

I don’t think I have anyone else to tag, lol. So if you want to participate, just say I tagged you!

Most of my unfinished work here are things I haven’t looked at in a long, long time. I don’t even recall where I intended for some of them to go. Here are some brief previews of that unfinished work (under the cut because they’re long):

1. The one where I basically wanted to write that scene from Finding Nemo except with Leo and Odin instead (blood tw)

Leo’s heart stopped. He froze.

Odin.

Leo only had a split-second to register the sight before him, but that was unmistakably Odin, slung over the ruffian’s shoulder like a sack of potatoes, horribly limp. Parts of his blond hair had been dyed shockingly red with blood, and though Leo couldn’t see his face, Odin looked awfully pale. Fat drops of crimson dripped from Odin’s hair to the floor, trailing behind him.

Dead, Leo thought before anything else. He’d dead.

He didn’t know that, not for sure, but Leo was already raising his arm again on instinct. He yelled something intelligible as he fired off the shot, some words he didn’t even recognize himself, too focused on the sudden overwhelming flood of grief and anger in his chest for self-awareness.

At the sound of his voice, Odin’s head jerked up, his eyes wide. In that same moment, Leo fire his spell.

Shocked, Leo froze.

Odin did not.

With the element of surprise apparently on his side as well, Odin twisted out of his captor’s grasp, landing flat on the floor just before Leo’s spell made contact with the ruffian’s back. With a strangled cry, the ruffian hit the floor and didn’t get up. Odin pushed himself to all fours, surprised written all over his features.

“My lord!” Odin cried, sitting up. “I hadn’t expected you so soon! It must be fate’s will that we have crossed paths like this. Are you all right?”

Leo’s mouth opened and closed like a fish. Blood sluggishly trickled from a thin cut on Odin’s forehead. There was a bruise on his cheek and another just above his eyebrow. He looked dirty and worse for wear, but unmistakably, he was alive. His wounds were much more superficial than Leo had initially registered.

Still, Leo’s hands shook. He breathed in and steadied himself.

“Lord Leo?” Odin said, a little more hesitantly.

Instinctively, Leo said, “I’m fine.” He looked at Odin, who was still very much alive. “Are you all right? Can you fight?”

“Of course!” Odin was all energy and focus, same as always. He leaped to his feet and barely wobbled. “I was merely looking for a proper opportunity before I staged my surprise attack! It seems you took care of that before me though.” He flashed a smile. “As expected of my lord.”

Leo barely resisted the urge to sigh.

(Notes: I wrote 3K of this like a year ago and could probably finish it with a handful of paragraphs. I just didn’t love it, I guess. There was something about it that made me not finish. Maybe the tone or the plot not feeling as strong as I wanted it to be? I’m not sure. I still really like the concept though, lol.)

2. The Modern Trio travel between Nohr and Ylisse via water all the time (like Inuyasha) and Inigo and Owain have a fight about going out and acting their age sometimes (maybe have shown some of this before?) (alcohol/getting drunk mention)

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“You just want to go out without me,” Inigo said tearfully. “You even got Severa to go with you! You both lied to me!”

Owain bit the inside of his cheek. “Sometimes we don’t want to have to play rock-paper-scissors over who has to take your drunk self home that night.”

“Excuse me,” Inigo squawked, indignant. “I don’t get drunk every time.”

“You do,” Owain told him matter-of-factly. “And that’s fine. Have fun. But you get smashed, and then one of us has to take you home and…”

He felt his face grow warm.

“Oh, I saw,” Inigo said knowingly. “Sometimes you want other people to take you home.”

Owain looked determinedly toward the castle. They were crossing the bridge.

When Owain didn’t say anything else, Inigo said, “I’m not a child, you know. Even if I’m a bit tipsy, you don’t have to fight over who takes me home. You don’t have to take me home at all. I’m an adult.”

For all of Inigo’s whining all afternoon, this was the first time he’d sounded truly serious. He might have meant his complaints before, but he clearly meant this way more.

Owain’s frown deepened. They neared the end of the bridge. The two guards stationed at the castle gate nodded solemnly at their approach, and Owain and Inigo nodded back. They didn’t speak again until they passed the gate.

“You are an adult,” Owain agreed. “But I would feel like a bad friend if I didn’t make sure you got home safe, especially when I know that if we go out, you’re going to get drunk—"

“Not every time!”

“It is every time, and sometimes—”

“You make me sound like the worst version of myself.”

“It’s not bad! It can just be—”

Inigo scoffed.

Owain spotted a flash of blond hair in the distance. He got ready.

After a beat, Inigo started, “Am I really—”

But Owain was already jumping into action. He pointed the other way.

“Ah!” he said loudly. “Lord Xander! I didn’t see you there!”

Inigo instantly straightened and looked around wildly. Owain booked it in the other direction.

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“So,” Niles said, suddenly slinking out from around the corner like a cat, “men who look like they could snap you over their knees are ‘the dream,’ are they?”

For the second time that day, Owain choked on air. Under Niles’s even gaze, Owain cursed Inigo’s big mouth and recovered as quickly as he could. It was a bit of a struggle.

“An eavesdropper, eh?” he hedged. He tried to gauge Niles’s reaction, but he was a hard man to read. “You didn’t have anything else to do but listen in on private conversations then, I see.”

“Given the volume with which Inigo likes to shout from the rooftops,” Niles said, “I wouldn’t particularly call it eavesdropping.”

(This one I like the concept for but I guess didn’t finish because it’s a version of the Trio I don’t think I’ve ever written before. Or at least rarely dabble into outside of the privacy of my own head/a close friend. I don’t like going out or getting drunk or anything, but a lot of people my age do and I kind of wanted to show that side of modern life where you go to clubs and maybe have a casual hookup sometimes. I often write the Trio as people who don’t have many (or any) romantic relationships before meeting Whoever I Ship Them With In X Fic, but part of me wants to change that default sometimes. I do think about modern Odin who has no problem meeting dudes in bars and having a brief fling or doing other, wilder stuff that his friends (especially in Nohr) maybe don’t always know about. I thought it would be a neat exercise, and I still think about it. The Modern Trio having their own lives that the Nohrians aren’t privy to and are maybe curious/romantically jealous over when they find out? Also I like the idea of characters having “types” (just like real life people do sometimes) and other characters who are romantically interested in them do hear about it (as seen above, lol.). This fic was leaning to be leo/odin/niles or at least niles/odin, I think. It’s been on my computer for at least 5 months. I just really like this concept in general but I guess I’m a little embarrassed because it’s so different from what I normally write. Maybe I’ll go back to it, one way or another, someday? Also Inigo and Odin do make up, yes.)

3. The college AU Severa/Owain fic where Severa propositions Owain about getting it on (Nothing actually happens, it’s all talking)

“I can get your character sheet drawn up in no time,” Owain continued. “In fact, I think I have some extras—"

“We should have sex,” Severa said.

Owain, suddenly red-faced and wide-eyed, choked on his never-ending list of nerdy suggestions about why he thought Severa had appeared outside his window. He looked at her in disbelief. Severa took the opportunity to roughly shove Owain’s upper body back through the window and crawled in after him.

He stumbled back, too surprised to protest, and Severa fell to the floor in an ungraceful heap. She plucked a leaf from her hair with a pout, grateful to finally be on solid ground again and hoping Owain’s mother hadn’t noticed Severa sitting in the tree outside her son’s room for the past several minutes.

“Uh, I don’t,” Owain stuttered as Severa climbed to her feet. “I mean, you—”

“Seriously?” Severa said, cocking her hip in a way she hoped was sexy.

What was she talking about? She was definitely sexy, childishly climbing trees or not. So what if she’d been too embarrassed to knock on Owain’s front door and risk the chance of one of his parents answering when Severa had come with a request like this? Nobody else knew that.

She continued, “That’s all you have to say?”

Owain sputtered out several more unintelligible phrases until he finally said, “You don’t… feel obligated or something, right?”

The tips of his ears were very, very red.  

Severa crossed her arms, scowling. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

“Nothing!” Owain held up his hands defensively, looking like he was regretting his words already. “I just meant—You don’t. Like. This isn’t a peer pressure thing, right?”

“What are we, fifteen?”

Owain stared. Severa’s scowl deepened.

“No,” she said. “It’s not a ‘peer-pressure’ thing or whatever.”

She used air quotes.

“Okay,” Owain said slowly. “Then… why do you want to…”

He couldn’t even say the words have sex. Severa was suddenly very doubtful she had come to the right person at all. But who else was she supposed to go to about this? Lucina? Kjelle? Inigo?

Absolutely not. Owain would have to do.

He’d always put up with her enough that she’d thought… Well, maybe he wouldn’t say no outright.

Not that things were off to a great start already.

Feigning indifference, Severa shrugged and looked at the wall beside Owain’s head. “Do I need a reason?”

“Yes,” Owain said bluntly. His hands were still raised. As though just realizing this, they fell to his side.

Severa couldn’t help but make a face. She didn’t want to explain herself. She didn’t want to say anything about what she was thinking or why she wanted to have sex, as sudden as it must have seemed to Owain. But she knew it wouldn’t have exactly have been fair of her to ask without him at least knowing something.

Because the thing of it was—

Embarrassing, she mentally chided herself with a grimace.

The thing of it was that at twenty-one years old, Severa was still a virgin.

There was nothing wrong with being a virgin. Severa knew that. Logically, she knew that.

But it was hard to convince herself that it was true.

(This one is also a modern au exploring a lot of pressures that young adults might feel when comparing their own experiences to people around them.Severa goes on to explain a lot of her reasoning to the reader about why she’s propositioning Owain, but it was getting really long so I didn’t include that here. Mostly it was about controlling the experience of your first time and when you want to have it. I never got to the actual sex part, lol. It would definitely be awkward and slow if I did. Purposely, of course. Also Severa has always lowkey liked Owain like that.)

4. The AU where royals and their retainers have a telepathic link

Niles stands at his side, impassive as any proper retainer should be at public events, and Leo does his best to appear the same when Odin’s voice rings through his mind, laughing and giddy with the exhilaration of a fight.

That was so cool! That explosion was like BOOM! And that fire! Like pfft! I wish somebody else was around to see that. Oh well, I can describe it for everyone later.

Odin’s inner voice never sounds the same as his speaking voice. Not unless he knows Leo is listening and wants to put on a show. Odin’s inner voice lacks the extravagant dressings he layers upon his words aloud. Occasionally, Odin still narrates in his mind, still writes long novels with every adjective and made up noun under the sun. But more often than not Leo finds Odin’s inner voice to be much freer and more easily understandable than he would have first expected before he’d experienced Odin’s thoughts firsthand.  

Odin, Leo projects, pretending he is paying more attention to Xander’s speech than he really is. Some of us are trying to focus on our own missions.

Not that attending a meeting is a mission, per say, but it’s an important duty nonetheless. It gets the point across, anyway.

Oops! Odin accidentally projects more than Niles ever did, even after having years to get used to it. Now that he knows Leo can hear him, Odin makes it a point to use his narrative speech instead. My sincerest apologies, my lord! I’m afraid I was overcome for a moment, my mental barrier weakened through some villain’s curse. But fret not! My mental shield—

Odin, Leo projects, aiming for serious and fearing his true feelings may betray him. He knows there is no curse or attack, though there may have been minutes ago. Odin is simply too excited and eager to share, just as he always is. Leo is trying very hard not to be distracted right now, but it’s difficult when Odin’s bluff and bravado are still somehow more interesting than running the same tactical drills Leo has run a hundred times over already, necessary as they may be.

Leo also knows Niles should be hearing their exchange as well. Niles’ face betrays nothing. If Leo didn’t know any better, he could have mistaken Nile’s tiny exhale of breath as one not so amused at all. But Leo always knows.

(Note: I’d definitely rewrite this now if I ever started it again, but the core concept is still a little neat, I think.)

I have a few other fics, but they’re not that old just yet. These are all about 6 months or more old. Maybe one day I’ll finish them? Or at least use their core concepts again, lol. I hope you enjoyed these snippets anyway!