#so hard to be there because people hate on you for the littlest things

[nervoussagittarius]

DATING CHRIS STURNIOLO HEADCANNONS

chris sturniolo x reader

warnings: suggestive and fluffy

☼ chris is always filling you in on new ideas he has. whether its for fresh love or it’s for anything he does with his brother. he’s scared to admit it but your easily his muse and he loves being able to tell you how you inspired a project or video

☼ chris’s love language is physical touch. he always has to be touching you in some way shape or from. although he loves being near you, he understands if you need to have your personal space for a little bit, so he always asks if he can touch you after these times. but it’s hard to get him to stop after he starts

☼ chris loves having physical touch given to him as well. he will never turn down any form of touch. like stated above, he understands when you need your space but that doesn’t stop him from craving your affection in these moments

☼chris likes to stay on top of everything going on in your life. he wants the vlogs and texts about what you’re up to. he doesn’t do it in a controlling way. he’s genuinely just curious and loves supporting and congratulating the little things. his responses usually look like “i’m so happy your food turned out good baby. thanks for vlogging the process for me”

☼ chris loves making you laugh. he’s such an unserious man. any chance he has to see your smile is what he lives for. nothing will stop him from cracking a joke even in the most inappropriate times

★ chris loves pda. he wants to kiss you and hug you when he’s out and about. he’s not afraid to slap your ass or grab your neck a little out in public so people know you’re his

☼ chris wants to go everywhere with you. doesn’t matter. it could be the littlest errand but he’s passenger princessing his way there

☼ chris might not have his license, but if you do, he refuses to ask you for rides. unless y’all have plans to go somewhere or he goes with you when you have to go out, he’s not asking you to drive him anywhere. he doesn’t ever want to be a burden because he knows sometimes you really just don’t want to drive. so he’ll ask matt even if you’re right next to him and it annoys you because you’re always willing to take him out.

☼ chris is a huge follower of the sidewalk rule. he loves going on walks with you when the weathers nice but he blocks you from the road at all times. doesn’t matter if there’s something you want to see or if you’re trying to cross the street, he’s holding you hand and pushing you away from being anywhere near the road.

☼ chris isn’t big on cheesy dates. he doesn’t really want to go sit at a restaurant or do any of the basic stuff seen in romcoms. he wants to go have adventures and have have spontaneous fun. he’s never one to plan dates he likes to turn random day to day activities into big events

☼ chris loves being a little spoon and he loves being held. he often just crawls into you when your sitting or laying down. he’ll take your arms and wrap them around him so you have no choice but to hold him. bonus points if you play with his hair or rub his back

★ chris hates sleeping alone. he doesn’t care where you are, if he wants to sleep he’s finding you so you can lay with him. especially after sex he just wants to be next to you so he knows you’re okay

☼ chris makes sure he has your favorite drinks stocked for when you come over. he knows how sad he feels when he runs out of pepsi so he doesn’t want you to have to experience that

☼ chris gets hangry really easily. once he’s hungry he needs to eat immediately or he can’t control his words or actions. he’s known to do stuff he doesn’t mean when he’s hungry so you know not to take it to heart

★ chris will always apologize first. it might take him a few minutes to get his head out of his ass, but it doesn’t matter the situation or the argument or which one of you was in the right or wrong, he’s saying sorry. the last thing he wants is to prolong something that can be easily fixed with an apology. he’s a firm believer of never going to bed angry and he loves make up sex to really prove he feels bad

☼ chris is never letting you listen to your music, but he will incorporate your songs into his playlists. he loves being on aux and he thinks he’s the king of it. always has some good tunes playing

an: i don’t know what happened here but the words just kept coming ig

[corroding-time]

Idea 1: In all the yandere stories I have seen, reader, if they know, either just accepts the craziness of the yandere, or tries to escape, fails, and gets caught. So what about a reader who genuinely gets so freaked out they just ignore yandere completely? They put a boundary with the yandere.

Idea 2: Yandere canine hybrid who is obsessed with reader, and hates that his canine features show it. 

had the first idea, well, first, and decided to merge it with the other.

gn reader. violence. yandere themes.

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Being a canine hybrid yandere was so hard. All his emotions and feelings were out in the open, like a book. He hated that when anybody showed the littlest, tiniest kindling of affection towards him, he clung onto them. So, it wasn’t just you, it was everyone. Of course he was popular, with many friends. But then he noticed you were pulling away. That was strange- no one had ever done that before. So he confusedly followed you and tried to get your affections back, because you gave him something, why would you take it away like that?

Which led to him basically cutting off everybody else and focusing solely on you, because if that’s what you wanted, he was more than happy to oblige.

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Yandere canine hybrid would walk home with you, protect you, keep you safe. It was in his blood after all. And many other things show it.

When you touched his head once, once, he started trembling and wagging his tail so rapidly you thought he was having a seizure. He pulled away, embarrassed. Geez, he didn’t want to seem desperate. So next time you touch him, he resolves to be more still. (please touch me please touch me please touch me-)

When you pet an animal, he gets all sulky, pouting beside you. His ears and tail droops, and he makes literal puppy-eyes. He watches you pet the animal with sadness and envy, following like, well, a kicked, abandoned, lost puppy. (i’m cute and fluffy and small too, pet me.)

He’s huge, by the way. I don’t care if you’re 6’7” or 2 metres or 200 cm. He’s like, a foot taller than you. No matter how sub he is, he’s still a hybrid, it doesn't help that he’s a canine hybrid. So it’s hilarious to see this tank following you around, like a shadow.

He’s pretty docile around you, so you assumed he’s the same around others. You thought wrong. You were with another male, once during the night. A romantic interest, you could say. And you happened to cross paths with your canine. You saw his eyes flash red, and other looks you’ve never seen on his face before.

The way his face twisted was downright animalistic, inhuman, as he literally pounced on the man, grabbing whatever was nearby and slamming it over and over and over into the man. You kicked him off, and he looked at you with the most hurt eyes, what did he do wrong?

Quickly picking up the bleeding male, you scrambled away to a safe place, to call an ambulance. When the police arrived, he was long gone.

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When yandere canine hybrid found you the next day, he was storming. Grabbing your shoulders and shaking you, asking what he was doing there, what’s wrong with you, why did you do that- only to get no response from you. You ignored him completely, walking past as if he didn’t exist. He was hurt. Scowling, he shook his head. No, you can’t ignore him. But you did.

All his efforts went in vain. Following you, sending threats, appearing at places you’d never shown him before. And somehow, you still ignored him.

Only then did he realise how badly he messed up, that you weren’t going to pay attention to him. That was when the desperation got worse. Whenever he saw you, instead of being angry, he begged and begged and begged, please, look at me. Don’t ignore me. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry!

He was going insane, with your eyes looking with nothing but indifference towards him.

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Yandere canine hybrid had the audacity to appear in front of you in the middle of the street, drop to his knees, physically grovelling for forgiveness. People stared, whispered, some taking their phones out. Panicking, you spoke to him. He couldn’t be happier, practically jumping into your arms as you pulled him to get up.

You dragged him to a corner and said no, you weren’t going to be friends with him anymore. His ears drooped again as he got to his knees once more. Fine, fine! You could… hang out with him. Sometimes… Not like before, though. And doing that once more would result in ignorance, again.

His eyes reflected only happiness, looking at you as if you put up the stars- no the universe. If it meant you would look at him, he’d be better.

For you.

[yourhouseofstonemyivygrows]

Sirius black never gets quiet. He’ll get louder. His tone will hold more vigor. His words can hurt worse. He can scream. But he’ll never get quiet. Not when he’s in a room full of strangers, not when he’s alone. Sirius black was born with a mouth that never shut and an ego that never died. He was never talking because he felt he had to, which was the case with his best friend better half soulmate James potter. He spoke so much simply because he wanted to. Anything. Give Sirius black any topic in the world- something that made him angry, something that made him cry, he’d talk about it. Hand him a number 2 pencil and he’d talk about it. Hand him a blank sheet of paper and he would spin it into the most enticing conversation you’d ever had. Just looking at him while passing was enough to warrant conversation. It was hard not to find yourself within the jaws of a chatty Sirius black a time or two. Sirius talked. He talked himself out of punishment, he talked himself into someone’s pants, he talked his way into Remus Lupins heart for Merlin’s sake. Sirius black wasn’t ever over preforming, in fact he was preforming just enough. Any more would’ve been hard to stomach and any less wouldn’t have been Sirius Black. Talking was his curse. His blessing. He was born with a conversation in his heart. He learned how to talk- exceptionally early might I add- and then he never stopped. It used to drive his mother mad. She was to the point of pulling out her own hair whenever her godawful son would go on one of his little rants. She did not wish to hear the nonsense of a child, be it one hosted in her own womb. For the littlest time, Sirius black hated himself. Hated that awful mouth of his. He couldn’t stop talking. It was a curse that plagued his mouth. His tongue constantly alight in his mouth. He couldn’t stop the words from coming like he couldn’t stop the shame that followed. It wasn’t until he was twelve and after a particularly harsh fight with his dreadful parents and he went to go and stay with the Potters for the first time that he found out what it was like to truly be loved for just the words you speak. He’d go on his little rants, but before shame could settle in his gut Effie would add on some spew of her own. Before Montey would choke back out his water, laughter bubbling up in his throat. He never once doubted his words again after that. He knew it was a gift. This trivial thing, to seemingly never run out of things to say. Sirius black talked himself out of punishment. Sirius black talked himself into people’s pants. Sirius black talked his way into Remus Lupins heart for Merlin’s fucking sake.

And, you’d think surely, he had to have stopped at some point. Surely something shut him up. You’d think, when his best friend better half soulmate, James potter died, he’d have gone silent. But this is Sirius black. He got louder. His voice grew with more vigor. He tried everything in his power to reason, to come up with ideas, to talk his way out of this one. James potter wasn’t responding to him now and that- wasn’t right. James wasn’t ever quiet either he, loved to talk. He loved to talk to Sirius black so why, wasn’t he taking? Why wouldn’t he respond? This- was the loudest Sirius black had ever been. It wasn’t when he finally left his godawful house. It wasn’t when he was imprisoned for a crime he hardly deemed himself to commit. It was this one moment, above all others, that warranted the cry that fell from Sirius’ throat. James always did encourage him to talk more. Speak louder. Yell if he needed it. It was now, the one time he wasn’t around to hear it, that Sirius black listened.

[mydarlingbat]

Do the Joker hate Bruce Wayne?

The answer is absolutely not. He hates and loves Batman. Bruce Wayne is Batman. The Joker dislikes the mask which is Bruce Wayne the Character. Not the name. I know that might be hard to comprehend, but it's true in my option. The Joker views Batman as just Batman. There is no other part of him to the Joker. All the Joker catches sight of is Batman wearing a mask over his true face, and i mean Bruce Wayne is that exact mask he's wearing. Even Bruce separates the fake persona from the actual Bruce Wayne which is Batman. The Joker knows who Batman really is in most comics. He just finds no need to pursue a mask when he can have the real thing. The mask isn't Batman's true self. Batman is the real identity. Bruce Wayne is the mask. Therefore Bruce Wayne don't exist only Batman. Batman isn't the mask. When Bruce Wayne go out to parties and gala's he's not the littlest interested in those event's. When he has these ladies on the sides of him, and he's acting like the typical rich guy. It's not really his true self. He'd rather be fighting crime. Right now he's just giving a show for others. Making a fool out of himself. It's not his true self. Let me disclose it in this way. If Bruce transforms into his true self, even without the mask. The Joker will prefer to him as The Batman, because he is Batman. The one who sits in the cave. Not wearing his mask, and still looking through files, still playing Detective. That's the real Bruce Wayne. That's Batman. The character he plays out in public is the fake persona of Bruce Wayne. Let's lay it out this way. Batman puts a real mask on his face he doesn't truly needs, even if you call him by a different name. In reality Bruce is Batman.

Exactly like in this panel. Batman is the Batman. There's no need for him to pretend in front of the Joker anymore. He knows his secret, and there's no need for The Joker to pretend like he has no idea who's under the mask. Of course it's Batman under that mask, pretending to be the jerk Bruce Wayne. No offense. Even without the money.. The Batman was still very much there, so all the Joker was saying in Batman #100 is that he's going get rid of that mask that you won't even have to wear it hardly.

the Joker is able talk with the Batman, and not the mask Bruce wears for the public. The Joker also calls him Batman. He doesn't call him Bruce, so it no reason to play along and pretend that Bruce Wayne is different from Batman. There's no reason to pretend that Bruce Wayne is a total different being, when in reality he's Batman, just using a different name.

It's quite obvious the Joker knows who Batman is under the mask. His mask is practically half off, and yet the Joker shows no concern about his face. He doesn't say it'd ruin the fun. He just drops the body in the water, and leaves. He's not baffled that that's Bruce Wayne.

Again in the Batman who laughs the Joker knew Bruce Wayne was Batman, yet he continue to call him Batman and bats. The usual nicknames. Full aware of Batman's life story. The Joker shows no feelings of disgust or i can't believe this, or even i can't see you strong anymore, or my king. You're just a rich boy in a bat suit. The Joker doesn't vocalize any of theses things to Batman. He doesn't say we can't play no more bats. Your secret ruined the fun. Some people claim if the Joker knew who was under the mask it'd ruin the fun. It wouldn't. This is example of that. The Joker showed Batman even without the money. The toys and gadgets. He's still the Batman at the end of the day, the Joker was right. He in fact was still the Batman without the billionaire persona.

When the Joker decides to keep the Batman alive. It's nothing about the mask. It's about his fun, if he murders Batman, then the fun ends.

The Joker doesn't desire to detach Batman's mask, because he does not desire to expose his identity to the whole world, or anybody he's around. The Joker's only implying it'd ruin the fun because others will expose it. Then it'd ruin the fun. The Joker doesn't desire for this to happen. The Joker never shouts this when he's alone with Batman, and if he does it always comes back to the world knowing his identity. Even in Batman deadly duo.The Joker didn't want the world to know Batman secret identity. It would expose Batman and ruin his fun. He didn't want Harley Quinn to take off the mask because it would have ruined his fun. He already aware he's Batman, so in reality shouldn't it have ruined the fun already??? The Joker knowing who Batman is does not ruin the fun.. What ruins the fun if everyone knew. What ruins the fun is him murdering the Batman. What ruins the fun is someone else revealing Batman's secret identity. The Joker knows it already. The Joker is full aware that Batman is his true self, however the world won't see it that way, and also the Joker doesn't need to remove the mask. He's Batman. He's only Bruce Wayne when he puts that persona on. The temptation of revealing his identity is hard sometimes, and especially in the golden age comics, but the Joker thinks about the cat and mouse game. Now let's get one thing straight the Joker doesn't know Batman secret identity in all the takes on his character.

The Joker doesn't have no reason to care about the mask. He has no reason to pursue a mask. The Joker goes along with the game. It has to be that way. He also doesn't want Batman to know he knows either. Maybe he just play along for Batman's sake, but sometimes he reveals to Batman he does know who he really is. Bruce Wayne is the mask. The old Bruce die years ago when he was eight years old. Which the Joker probably finds pathetic.

In Batman #144 Batman #143 the Joker still label's Batman as Bruce in this issue. He announces to him right after, that he loves him. Bruce can be Batman if takes off the invisible mask. There are times when Batman wears the mask, and he acts differently, and the Joker hates it. He hates it.

If Bruce takes off the mask and be his true self. The Joker would behave with him the same as he would Batman, because he is the Batman. The Batman mask doesn't make him Batman. He is Batman without or with the mask. Batman just wears the Bruce Wayne mask over his true face, when he needs to be in the public eye. Think about it? If the Joker separates Bruce from Batman, when he takes the mask off. Then it wouldn't make much sense to talk with him about Batman, and how to repair the city. How your useless character isn't helping in no way. He wouldn't have ask Bruce to make a choice to save him, when practically half of his face is showing, clearly showing his true identity. The Joker would have not been hurt when he walked away from him if he separates the two. What the Joker saw was Batman. There was no Bruce Wayne. Bruce is just an act. A fictional character in the Joker's mind. He finds him unless, boring, however the Joker let's Batman know he knows the mask over his real face, but the world would never accept the Joker view right? Especially when Bruce is wearing no mask, and the Joker says bats. It exhibits that the Joker is outright telling Batman that mask don't fool me. Maybe the Joker likes the name Bruce, although he doesn't like the front that comes along with it. Also in Batman #100 the Joker cries while he's talking to Bruce. Why though? And if he thought Batman was a stupid kids dream. Why protect it so much. Why still desire the game. Why still want the bat in the batsuit? Why still want him to save you. Do the same thing over again? This sounds like anger. This sounds like jealously. This sounds like he's in pain, and he's hurt, and he's trying to hurt Batman. The Joker feels like Batman betrayed him and the City by trying to live a happy life. Just like in Batman endgame. The Joker was angry with Batman. He did everything he could to hurt him, however in the end he still wanted their dance. He hoped it wouldn't have to end..Batman destroyed the pit. The Joker said ' You ruined us. You ruined us' the Joker never truly desires the game to end. He just knows one day it will, and he hopes that day doesn't comes. There's those times it's him who's tired of laughing and sometimes it Batman who's just tired.

It has nothing to do with the mask. Batman is only the mask if he puts on Bruce Wayne persona.. Batman death of the family. The Joker knew Batman secret identity, yet he still calls him his king and says he's his Jester. Bruce Wayne is Batman secret identity. The joker can't expose Batman secret identity to the world, and the Joker doesn't because Batman would probably stop. At the end of the day though. The Joker hates Batman and loves him. It's twisted. The world doesn't see the way the Joker does. To the Joker Batman face is exposed all the times. It's the act for the public. The character he uses in the public eye. and yes, Bruce Wayne being concern about his children still makes him Batman.

This is just my opinion.

[smallsinger5901]

for the character asks: light!

i got all the way to the last question and then tumblr crashed 😁 so lets try this one again:

Favourite thing about him: i could just say i love to hate him… but im gonna go with how dramatic he is. He’s such a drama queen over the littlest things its hilarious honestly

least favourite thing about him: oh where do i start. If i had to pick one, i’d probably say his double standards. Like, he’s allowed to sacrifice people for the greater good and kill law enforcement, but the moment Misa does or he forces Takada/mikami to, theyre evil?

favourite line: ‘what’re you gonna do? Kill me? Is that really the right thing to do?’ He’s such a BITCH

brOTP: unironically Ryuk. I think his only true friend he can relate to being an otherworldly god of death, literally a monster that is essentially everything Light is on the inside just expressed outwardly, is really fascinating

OTP: god it’s hard to pick with him but if i had to choose… Matsulight. Both because the dynamic is super interesting but also because I love picturing how distraught the psychic damage would leave him if he realised he was falling for Matsuda of all people

nOTP: get yagamane 20 kilometres away from me and from each other at all times. It is NOT the kind of making each other worse thats fun to watch imo

random headcanon: actually left-handed, but trained himself to be ambidextrous so he would fit in more (not that anyone ever made any remarks on it, he was just insecure)

unpopular opinion: idk how popular of an opinion this actually is but ive seen it a lot so ill say it: i dont think Light’s parents forced him to quit tennis to focus on his studies or whatever. The year its said he quits tennis is just the year he leaves junior high, so i think he just decided not to rejoin tennis when he started High school, or maybe they didn’t offer it. I don’t think its that deep

song i associate with him: it’s always been Little Lion Man by Mumford and Sons, but recently (aka yesterday) Ive been listening to Poor George by James Supercave and that also strikes me as suuuuuper Light yagami in the lyrics

favourite picture of him:

Idk why, i just think its neat :))

Thank you so much for the ask!! :D

[axeoverblade]

42 miles with a trini reader or any west Indian implications tbh?? 🩷🩷

Caribbean/ West Indian Reader Head Cannons

Earth 42! Miles x fem! Reader

Synopsis! Where you are in touch with your roots.

MASTERLIST

Genre: fluff

Warnings: none!

Word count: unavailable

Authors comment: short blurb of head cannons. I tried my best sorry if anything is innacurate please let me know so I can fix it <3

Do not copy! All rights reserved to ©axeoverblade

When Miles first met you, it was hard for him to understand your broken English. But you were so pretty he was going to make sure he learned how.

Even though you were born US, your parents moved to America making your accent super strong and often hard for him to decipher

But now that he’s known you and had been with you for some time, it was like second language when he heard you speak.

He would sometimes even catch himself speaking like you, making the people around him confused.

They would just have to get used to it like he did.

One thing you two bond over is your love of fruit

Give you two a good mango or plátano and it was over

His mom absolutely loves you no doubt.

Sees you as one of her own and is so happy when you come over

She had given both you and Miles a talk separately about not breaking the others heart

Promised to her you wouldn’t and vise versa

When you first met uncle Aaron he gave you a really hard time

But when you stood your ground over and over again he eventually accepted you, telling miles that you could “hold your own.”

Aaron ends up becoming super close to you and acts like he likes you more than his own nephew

…

He does

You had been invited to multiple functions before and honestly his whole fam loved when you were around tbh

Of course in every relationship there was conflict

You two butt heads often because how strongly opinionated you both were

Both of you were like super sassy and had attitudes so you would often have “heated debates” over the littlest things, even if it was just for jokes

Something that was really hard for Miles was learning to accept what you wore

Like you were mad comfy with your body and often wore clothes that he would deem as “inappropriate” but he knew you weren’t wearing them to be.

Ended up having to letting it go and now non verbally threatens anyone who stares at you for too long.

He was genuinely surprised with how much your family varied in color the first function of yours he went to

He thought his familia was the biggest, most diverse in New York, he was wrong.

Yours definitely took the cake

You made him try doubles, and at first he though they were going to be gross or just not his thing

He was 100% wrong. You ended up having to make another plate because he ate em all.

Your mom loved Miles, happy that you found someone who loved you just as much as you loved him.

But she makes him help clean up

First time Miles met your father he could’ve sworn your dad absolutely hated him

He did

Ended up accepting Miles after he defended you from a stranger in front of him

Started calling Miles son and would often ask about how he was when Miles was gone.

Safe to say Miles was going to be around for a while

©axeoverblade

[erisweekofficial]

Tonight we're SO excited to celebrate @littlest-w01f! 👀

🔥 Are you a fan of OCs? Want to read about multiple OCs? Anna's got you covered! Her Eris masterlist has several fics you can check out, but we recommend checking out Flames and Darkness, a mulit-chapter story that has us sitting at the edge of our seats.

We dare you to read her Eris Omegaverse week fic ft. Eris getting pegged 🤭

Read more to learn about @littlest-w01f 's thoughts on Eris and what she's getting him for secret santa!

What inspired you to start writing for Eris? And especially for Eris x OC instead of any other ship? I feel like there is so much to Eris that we don't know yet, we've barely begun to scratch the surface of his character. And honestly, from everything we do know about him, he has the makings of an amazing character if he's done justice (And I really hope I do). I feel like Eris is the kind of a character that if you try hard enough, you can ship him with anyone, and it will always make perfect sense. While I was reading Acowar I already was in love with what he could be so I built onto that and started getting fic ideas, some might think that he's lightly OOC in my fics, but he's perfect to me. I ship him with multiple of my OCs, I look at his character and decide what type of person would suit him best and build my character off of that till they are their own person whose sole purpose isn't being shipped with Eris, and sometimes the original reason I shipped them changes and I can see for myself that these OCs I have created always end up being more intimately attached to the character I pair them with as time goes by. I love my pairings cause they are special to me. I put him with many different types of characters and I love writing how he reacts differently to them, he's more cold to some he's a puddle of fluff with some.

What are some of Eris's most misunderstood qualities?

 I feel like we don't really know the real canon Eris at all, because we're seeing things from the pov of the Night Court so there is no reason for him to be his true self with them and it's easy for him to be lumped with "people who don't like/care for the IC" and some people hate him for that while the others love it when there is so much more to him. Obviously many people have pointed out the similarities between Eris and Rhys, but the main difference between them is that we see Rhys from the eyes of someone he loves and cares for that's why we see him giving reasons to his actions, while with Eris we haven't got that yet. Even still, it is clear to see that Eris has a close relationship with his guards and was genuinely worried for them when they were taken. Just because he doesn't care enough for one set of characters, doesn't mean he doesn't care at all. I doubt anyone knows the complete true Eris as of now but I hope we get to.

Can you give me a name for one of Eris's brothers? And also for one of his dogs?

Omg thank you for asking me this, I love names and their meanings, Eris is the damn lady of strife and I think it's all pretty cool. I named the second Vanserra son "Arlin" in one of my fics and will carry it forward for the rest of the fics which means "Warrior", which makes sense to me as after the Heir comes the Warrior. For the puppies, well smoke hounds, the youngest is "Ivy" in my eyes cause she always loves getting tangled up in vines and Eris has to free her every two seconds before she rushes off again to tackle vegetation, and that image in my head is too cute.

You have to get Eris a gift for secret santa - What are you getting him?

A. New. Father! With a ribbon and everything. Talking seriously, I feel like he's never had something cute before so a soft little fox stuffie or something along those lines I HC that Beron threw away any toys Eris had when he deemed Eris too old to play/have fun... That b*tch 😒

[ryobitheaxololt]

OH OH!!! I GOT ANOTHER ASK/QUESTION!!! :0

1. I KNOW YOU SAID DON AND LEO ‘HATE’ EACH OTHER (BUT IN LIKE A BROTHER RIVAL THINGY) AND RAPH IS VERY PROTECTIVE OVER ALL, ESPECIALLY MIKEY!! SO SO SOOO!!!! I WAS WONDERING-

DOES SPLINTER EVER GET TO FORM SUCH BONDS WITH HIS SONS? LIKE FROM A PARENT FIGURE?? BECAUSE THEY ALL HAVE ALREADY HAD GUARDIANS/PARENTS, AND SO I IMAGINE IT WOULD BE- ODD…. SO YEAH!!! :)))

2. DO THEY CHANGE INFO THEIR CANON OUTFITS ONCE RHEY ARE HOME? LIKE DO THEY HAVE A REBRAND OR SOMETHING??? I SORT OF HOPE THEY DONT BECAUSE I LOOOOOVVVEEE YOUR DESIGNS- BUT IT ALSO WOULD MAKE SENSE. MAYBE LIKE A LESS INTENSE VERSION??

(PERSONAL) 3. DO YOU ALLOW LIKE FANMADE COMICS, OR ANYTHING? I WANNA DO ONE OF YOUR ‘INTERACTIONS’ INTO A COMIC!!!! (ITS OK IF NOT!)

ANYWAYS THATS ALL I GOT RN !!! BYE BYEEE

I SHALL ANSWER THIS TOO!

1 - Does Splinter ever get to form such bonds with his sons?

He quite does, it's very hard at the start but he eventually does!

With Mikey he did became more protective and careful, especially that he has now 3 brothers, and he can't give Mikey all the attention like before(even though it was not much), so they end up getting more separated. Since Mikey knows how much their brothers need a loving parent, he has tried to teach his moves with Dr.Feelings to Splinter but it doesn't work out. Mikey feels kind off left out sometimes, especially since Splinter has tried to do more with his other siblings, but he says to himself that they need it too, so he tries to help him.

With Raphael, he absolutely loves Raph, except for the part with Draxum, for Splinter he is amazing at being the leader and very great for things, since Raph is used to rules and being told what to do, he ends up telling Raph what to do most of the time. They are not that close, but still hang out, he tries to learn of Raph and try his best to be caring and great for him.. sometimes it just doesn't work out.

Between this three people, one of the major conflicts of the AU happens, especially for Raph and Mikey.

With Leo, he is not very great with him, since Leo is more.. bratty than his Rise version, he seeks attention and praise, Splinter gives the littlest words of affirmation and Leo is already very happy, Splinter has considered of Leo being the leader? Yes, but he is not fully ready yet. He got along with him a lot like Mikey, and he helps Splinter with Raph, though with Donnie he fights 24/7 and he tries to make Splinter see what Donnie do, but most of the time, he doesn't show up, that is something he questions a lot.

With Donnie, he became one of his favorites, since he makes a lot of gifts for Splinter, and things for him to be more comfortable, and he was also the one he raised for a little bit and got back home, i plan them to have one of the cutest reunions to be honest. Splinter knows how Donnie is.. for the most part, he knows how hard change is for him, so he often asks what things he did in the Foot that they could make here, and some events he enjoys.

Overall, he is very good with them, trying to learn the new things of Donnie, trying to make Raph learn some father love(daddy issues), giving Leo some advice on how to be the leader, but with Mikey, since he is used to him, he kind off lefts him behind sometimes.

2 - Do they change info, to their Canon outfits, or rebrand?

Sort-of-ish?

Kind off-

We first see Leo with an little change, not to much, he said quote: "You need clothes Mikey, how will you show your Razzmatazz better if you dont look like me?". So he mostly sticks with the normal clothes he has, he just adds more things and more pouches, cuz he tries to carry things for his brothers. He also adds the TMNT symbol, changing his jewelry for it.

Mikey stays normal, just adding more stickers to his gloves. But more scars.. hehehehe.

Raph had to remove some of his armor, since they didn't let him move to much, he still stays with his scarf ,pants and some armor pieces. But his chest-plate and shoes gets removed. He also gets bigger and sharper with his teeth being more sharp, we see this change in "The Evil League Of Mutants" and then he just stays like that, he just adds to his belt the symbol of the TMNT group.

Now Donnie had the most changes, he went from emo ninja to nerd ninja, aside from that, he changes his Battle Shell for something more useful, and makes one to wear it in the house only, he also gets encouraged by Mikey to make his Tech-Bo.. He absolutely did make it and went insane with it, he gives his gloves a little change, opening the hand part more and getting them painted with the colors of his brothers. I will not talk to much of it, cause for real i will stay here all day talking about it.

WITH THE NAMES NOW!

Raph and Donnie are the only ones who have different names from the canon, Raphael changes to Turtle One and Donatello changes to Foot Purple.

Donnie doesn't remember his name, so being called Donatello out of nowhere makes him confused, so Splinter and the brothers call him Purple and slowly change to Donnatello, the one who starts with the nicknames is Leo, he ends up getting used to it eventually, but it was a hard thing for him to do.

From the interaction you see, even after everything, Raph is not used to being called Raphael, Mikey and him fight for it, since Turtle One is not A NAME, but when Draxum gets his redemption arc, Mikey teaches him that that's not a name, he is not just a warrior anymore, he never was just that, he deserves a name, then Mikey tells him that Raphael was the best name. After Draxum starts calling him by that, he gets used to it, and right at the last episodes of season 2, he finally goes just by Raphael, and of course the nicknames.

3 - Do you allow Fanmade Comics or anything?

I ABSOLUTELY DO, go on have fun thinking about little scenarios of them or draw their interactions! Or just random fanarts, memes, you name it!

I allow it, as long it has credits!

Go insane with it man, I'll be absolutely happy!!

I also realized.. I haven't posted their references, i will do their post soon so you can have clearer references!

[lpsotd]

Break up anon here- I'm ok :) thank you for asking.

It's hard and I miss him but I'm better off without him. It's just hard to forget the side of him that was nice to me.

I looked it up and i was talking about Great Dane 1439!!! Aaand Cat 1921,,, god i remember that little boat set now that I'm looking at it :)

Them, the heart dachshund and German shepherd 491 are all sitting on my shelf of. Treasured possessions. I have all my older LPS still ofc but. :) These ones are my favorite.

I remember when i was tiny i would do stop motion with them and the stop motion thing the 3ds camera app could do!!! I don't think i still have the little videos but i remember filming stuff in. That big house set with the rotating part 1 sec. (God that plane set kid me loved making plane crash scenarios lmfao)

"Biggest Littlest Pet Shop" gOD THAT HOUSE WAS THE SHIT IT WAS SOO COOL AS A KID. so much spacceeee. The only other houses i had were tinier (and or was the cardboard one + that one that was weird plastic that you were meant to zip up that one was disgusting idk i hated the texture and just. Vertical sjit like that sucked as houses)

Fjjjf sorry for infodumping 💖 i love this blog seeing little friends everyday makes me happy :)

it's near impossible to not miss someone who's no longer in your life, no matter how bad they may have been, i understand that very well <3

i love these two ... #1439 was my first great dane lps ever actually, and i got it semi-recently in 2023 !! i love this cat mold a lot ... there's only around 7 cats that use the mold, i wish there were more ...

i love it when people ramble in my inbox tbh, it's more than welcome !!

i feel like i know exactly what house/building you're talking about that you zip up. i think i had one similar but it may have been barbie??? or maybe it was lps, but i used it mostly for my barbies because i didn't have any real barbie houses lol

[ojbrush]

I dont have motivation to draw but you know what i do have? Ranting about OJ headcanons!

Hi gang i lobe OJ inanimate insanity and here are some in depth headcanons i have and imade sure to research alot about certain things but if i get asnything wrong that is on me and i aspologise OKAY!!!! GIGGLE OJ has Dyscalculia, BPD, and is autistic :3 Dyscalculia is a math learning disability that impairs an individual's ability to learn number-related concepts, perform accurate math calculations, reason and problem solve and preform OTHER!! basic math skills!!! >_< this is just a silly headcanon that may just be projection because i miighhtt have this myself!?!?! but not too sure maybe i just suck at math. WITH AUTISM . this guy does not get social cues, does NOT enjoy change. it makes him anxious, as shown a few times iirc. He gets obsessed with stuff and really never truly stops. Probably one reason why he works so much is because he gets so obsessed with working with stuff that he just doesnt stopo !!! He's also insanely impulsive. although he is a little mature he mainly doesnt think before he speaks, plus he gets very angry over the littlest of things which brings inn!!! BPD!!!! THIS GUY.. as shown in the show multiple times, he has terrible abandonment issues and tries so hard to make sure NOBODY leaves him again. the thought absolutely terrifies him. Despite getting so insanely angry over things (a recent example is when he and paintbrush fought in season 3 episode 4) and having awful and shaky relationships with others.. which causes people to leave him / abandon him. He also has impulsive and risky behaviours (which also ties into his autism traits) such as ALSO ruining okay relationships because of sometjing he thought of someone, thinking they are bad and will hurt him.

(Plus, even better, the hotel OJ canonically has had a casino OJ created!! which could also tie into the impulsive and risky behaviors with gambling!!) what ties with the fact he has intense anger, is also shown with the amount of times hes actually HAD a fight with someone in the show. let it be Bomb, Paintbrush, Paper. Sometimes it can get quite physical!!!

Which also brings us with Taco, since shes a whole thing with this guy. Despite him not being directly effected by her, She still tried to steal HIS prize!! He didnt like that. He got angry with that. he didnt truly show it, but we can tell he did. since everytime Taco is mentioned within his vicinity he gets pretty angry. This could tie with this symptom of bpd since he did, slightly like Taco before it all. Although thinking she was a little stupid, and useless. But this believing Taco is cruel, or doesnt care at all, has lasted over 12 years. So its more of a longtime thing. Which is also something with bpd, having a long time, long lasting hatred, angry, or just a strong emotion about something or someone. or nothing at all!!

Oh and by the way, this guy has a HORRIBLE time keeping good relationships, they usually end because of something he thought of someone. Such as Bombs "betrayal" in season 1, and he thought Bomb was horrible and hated him for a time. Or trying to dump Paper because of how he thought he was going to leave him. OJ has abandonment issues, and with this, gets angry at others for trying to leave him and abandon him, when they really aren't. Or he believes they are cruel and they do not give a shit about him or anyone's well being and tries to just. not associate with them, but he does eventually get them back. Well, sometimes atleast!!! also, to add onto Autistic traits HE GETS ANXIOUS AND UNEASY AROUND FIGHTS WITH OTHER PEOPLE / YELLING / LOUD NOISES !! as seen with the scene where EVERYONE is fighting in episode 1 season 3!!!

And although it could be because hes glass and easily broken, he gets scared when someone raised their voice at him, and looks as if they are going to attack him. But he also gets angry, and starts to fight back. maybe as a defense mechanism but whoo knows! (Note; this one may just be a headcanon, nothing in the show really suggests this but it is also pretty likely he WOULD do this!! he does have a history of snapping back at others and arguing with them if he feels threatened) also i would like to mention his constant state of worry about not being able to work. When he went to season 3 because he was invited, it is implied he rarely ever takes vacations / breaks from working. he says "I'm not too sure im on board with this vacay...--vacayggayu. AUGHj." (he doesnt even know how to say the word!) this could tie into obsessive behaviours?!?!? and if we think about it, it causes him excessive stress and worry. Anxiety about leaving the hotel to a different caretaker while hes on his break. Which he BARELY ever takes, mind you. Autism, and bpd symptoms in themself. He also has a lack of fear, but when something becomes too overwhelming he may overreact and have more fear than usual / expected of him. So yeah!!! little OJ thing, this is just because im insane about this guy. uhhh somethings may be inaccurate but hey, im just having fun and making reallyyy in-depth headcanons about a fictional juice, so. Happy days!

[dddemigirl]

Texts between my mom and I tonight:

Me: Do you remember how I said that anxiety is ruining my life? Well it’s like that today. I need help so badly. My anxiety never got better I just became scared about different things. Today I was shaking so hard and I was so lost and I KEPT getting lost and to make matters worse this was all going on way past 3 pm when I was supposed to meet her. I got there on time!! but between not knowing where I was, having to get a day pass taking time up and being sent on a wild goose chase by people at the gate it was nearly 4 by the time I texted her apologizing for the millionth time and asking to reschedule. I was so sick. Physically sick. It’s way more than ‘in my head.’ I cried on the way home and then when I got home I was sick from how bad I felt today. I’m shaking again as I type all this. She wants me to call her tomorrow and I feel this awful dread about doing it all over again and this job. I need professional help so badly. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m terrified of the littlest things and I know I’ll never be normal. I’m so tired of myself. It’s exhausting. I hate being scared. I’ve been unemployed for two years because of this shit.

Mom: Then talk to your doctor. Explain this and ask for help.

I’d call the person tomorrow and see what she says.

I don’t know how to help you. I wish I did. You need professional help. Obviously your meds aren’t working either. Love you but feel at a loss. I’m so sad for you. Love you no matter what. 💓

Me: I’m sad for me too. It was awful mom. It’s awful all the time. I don’t know what to do when no amount of pill changes and therapy can make the fear part of my brain ‘turn off’ so I can do things like a normal person. I wish people would understand instead of judge me for it. Or get mad at me.

Mom: You need different help. You have to keep exploring.

Me: Okay. I love you. I’m sorry your kid had to be like how I turned out. I know you’re embarrassed about me all the time.

Mom: I’m not embarrassed. It’s just hard because you weren’t like this when you were little and I don’t know where the switch flipped. I feel responsible.

Me: Oh no, I definitely was. I remember it. I’ve always been scared since early elementary.

Mom: I just don’t know why.

Me: Well being sent off to my dad how he was and is twice a week didn’t help. I never knew which father I was gonna get and that messed me up for sure. He blamed me for things that were beyond me. I was just a kid. Struggling in school didn’t help either, once I became held back and needed all that IEP just to survive it.

Mom: Yeah. I’m sorry.

Me: I don’t blame you for wanting me to know my dad. It just sucked and still sucks. Thank you.

[wolfstrong]

Tagged by @yarboyandy thankkksssssss this was so fun !!!

what's the origin of your blog title?

It’s kind of random I just wanted to pick something that felt like me. It’s very important for me to be strong which is why I work out it’s something I really value and I’ve always felt a connection with canines so I just thought the blog titles sounded kind of bad ass. Just something cool that feels very me

otp(s) + shipname(s):

I don’t know…. I don’t really ship anything right now because I haven’t been watching any tv lately.

favourite colour:

I like warmer greens and blues. Olive green

song stuck in your head:

Ziggy stardust was stuck in my head today it gets stuck in my head a lot for some reason (I don’t even listen to that song ever) specifically the lyrics “screwed up eyes and screwed down hairdo like some cat from Japan. He could lick em by smiling” those lyrics are like constantly stuck in my head. Only that part of the song for some reason. Other than that nin wish has been vaguely stuck in my head all day.

weirdest habit/trait: Ripping napkins/ paper up and rolling the ripped up shreds between my fingers till it’s like a little shard thing. I do this usually when I’m out to eat because there will be paper menus or napkins right in front of me and I never like seek out doing this it just happen if paper is near my hand. Most the time the little paper rolls end up in my mouth too, I’ve eaten a lot of paper in my days. I also chew all straws and the rims of paper cups.

Hobbies: drawing/ art projects in general (I like textile stuff) thrifting or going to antique markets (if you consider that a hobby) SUPER recently I’m trying to learn guitar, running and working out I guess. Listening to music? If that counts lol.

if you work, what's your profession?

Graphic designer

if you could have any job you wish, what would it be?

I don’t know…. I’d like to work with animals or help people… it’s important to me to feel like I’m doing something that helps the world (which I don’t do right now) I’m considering being something like a park ranger… I like being outside and I like helping. It’s hard for me tho, I don’t really know what I want

something you're good at:

I don’t know…. Maybe making people laugh or smile or feel a little better. People have told me I’m a good listener and I’m easy to talk to, I hope that’s true

something you hate:

My job

something you collect:

I collect all kinds of different things. I like vintage toys (particularly Garfield stuff) and CDs. CDs are my favorite thing to collect right now

something you forget:

Well how am I supposed to know if i forgot it ? Okay well I guess I often forget what time it is if that counts, I have terrible time blindness and don’t know how long anything takes

what's your love language:

Love

favourite movie/show:

My favorite movie is American psycho. My favorite show (right now) is land of the lost

favourite food:

I don’t have a favorite food I’ll eat anything. I like Mexican food and Japanese food most of all probably

favourite animal: The dog

what were you like as a child: I was pretty well behaved I never had like melt downs or any behavioral issues. I was pretty quiet and had like one friend and would mostly just play pretend all the time and be in my own world. My favorite things to do were pretend to be a dog, play with my littlest pet shops, and draw. I was pretty much doing this all the time till the age of like 11. Oh I guess I also liked to play sports with the neighborhood boys, there were no girls in my neighborhood so I’d hang out with my older brother and a bunch of dudes so I was very tomboyish

favourite subject at school: I liked art and humanities but I was never really that great at school. I liked history because it was a lot of story telling but I was never really good at dates or details

least favourite subject: Math and foreign languages unfortunately just because I was really bad at them

what's your best character trait?

I always try and be understanding and forgive people

what's your worst character trait? I can probably be pretty annoying, i probably have too much self pity, i can be pretty lazy

if you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? I wish my social life was different I wish I had more people who understood me I wish I had a boyfriend

if you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? Uhhhhh I don’t know. Morrissey pre smiths brake up. We need to talk …

Okay sorry idk who to tag 😋

[fishy-moirails]

Omg I didn’t know you had a monster prom oc I wanna know everything about them 👀👀👀👀

Ok I'm back from counting again how many monprom OCs do I have & the answer is 7! Incoming old and new art!!!

This is Tacio Alumiz. Another person who also had a similar experience like my sona, Kiah (once human, now turned into a monster against their own will). He is similar to Kiah in many ways such as:

(DESPERATELY) wants to go home in the Human Realm where his family is

Is homesick & has a hard time adjusting to the Monster Realm

Suffers from trauma after being turned into a monster

Is sharing the same therapist with Kiah

Their only 2 differences is that 1. Tacio only turned into a monster because he fought it off when it was trying to attack his little sister.

And 2. Tacio doesn't want to bond with any of the monsters because his focus is just finding a way to go through the veil that separates the realms.

His monster species is a manananggal. He's also in his early stages of transitioning so be nice, he lost all his binders when he was transferred to the Monster Realm & only has 1 pair left :(

This is Dr. Sio, the therapist of both Kiah & Tacio. He specializes in helping formerly human victims who were unwillingy turned into monsters. He's new with the job & so is the abandoned baby he found in the woods. He named her Lillie (I named her based on the one from Pokemon Sun & Moon). Sadly no one wants to babysit her because she keeps biting to drink blood so Dr. Sio has to bring her to work. His clients are allowed to play with her.

Their monster species is syokoy and tiyanak.

Beira Okuba was once a human until she became a teenager & a terrible headache appeared, which would throb nonstop. Days later, a second mouth suddenly grew at the back of her head. It was vulgar but it revealed ugly truths that her parents had hidden. Disgusted at what they've done in the past, she left everything & was transferred to the monster realm. Nowadays, she's older than 20 but happier than ever all because she found support, friends & is now engaged to the love of her life, Ibryx.

Ibryx has the littlest lore. His head is a nebula, he has 4 arms, he met the person of his dreams during a highschool house party with almost everyone (except him) drunk &... I shan't say more. 🤐

Nowadays, he runs a cafe named "Galaxy Express" near the area where Kiah lives. Making space themed foods & drinks yet no one's visiting... . Until an orange stray cat came in.

That's not his real name, that's just what Kiah calls him. Her emotional support stray during her first days on the Monster Realm. She claims that she hates him & shouts it at his face but we all know that's a lie. At least the only truths she says are: he can ONLY eat when food/drinks are on his plate & he is not her pet.

This thing is a scoundrel & a thief; it steals people's hearts & her food, likes sits directly on her face to wake her up for school & meows nonstop until she gives in & feeds him. He's an awful bastard who gets jealous instantly when you don't give him attention & will push away the object that's taking your attention. Yes, EVEN IF it's an animal like another cat. This is a wanted criminal for scamming people to feed it more food by acting hungry even when it already has eaten. Do not trust this fat fuck.

(read the alt text) (More Uriel art here: 1, 2)

His monster species is eldritch servant.

Courage!!! The embodiment of bravery!!! I just made her cuz I thought it would be fun to make a character that's opposite of Oz BUT they're best friends despite that! Even though their origins are opposing forces (fans believing Oz is one of the Old Deities similar to Zoe while Courage is a product of Heaven who wants to eradicate them), she followed her heart & decided to leave her makers to pursue living a life of her own :)

She travels a lot, picks up new hobbies & make new friends but always finds the right time to go back to Oz & catch up. When they do, it's like no time has passed between them at all & they chat like they just met yesterday. Their friendship is older than time yet stronger than anything else in existence.

[clarkes-and-god]

"Mom, Dad, this is Mira. She's really important to me, and I'm glad you're meeting her. Mira, this is my mom and dad."

"It's a delight to finally meet this girl, Farris! He's been telling us all about you, Mira, and we have just been desperate to meet you."

"Thank you so much for inviting me over, ma'am. Farris has told me all about you and your family and I'm so excited to spend the 4th of July with you."

"Well, I hope we don't disappoint. Anyways, let's get out of the rain, I'd hate for that pretty dress of yours to get wet. Vivienne and Warner are watching a movie in the living room, so let's go have a seat in the dining room. Farris, you go put Mira's bags in the guest room, and then come join us."

"So, I've heard you and Farris met at the Bible study group he organises, which is awfully nice. Have you always been religious, or is this a new thing from the university? I do know they let in secular students now, it's all very modern."

"Oh, I've always been religious, it's how I was raised, ma'am. My dad met my mom evangelising, and he really led her back into her faith, and then they fell in love and got married. My mom and dad have always been my biggest inspirations, they're wonderful people and I really admire their faith and relationship with one another."

"That's wonderful to hear, Mira. You know, I was thinking Farris might bring back one of those really fun-loving girls, especially with them letting secular folk in now, so it's good to see that you seem to have the proper values. Do you want to tell us more about your family? They seem so sweet."

"Thank you ma'am! I really do try to come across properly, my mom is originally from here and she really taught us kids all about manners and respect. But about my family, we lived up in Brindleton Bay until I was 8, because my parents got married pretty young, and we lived with my grandma. You see, my mom was in foster care for a while, and my grandpa unfortunately died young, so my dad was raised as one of six kids to a widow, so they didn't really have much money. But my dad got a job in the military, serving our country, and he's done really well in that with all his hard work. We never had to go on welfare because of him. My mom was able to stay home with me and my little sister, and we were homeschooled. And then when I was 8, we moved into our own lovely house out in Oasis Springs, since my dad was stationed there. And then they had two more kids, my little brother and my littlest sister. We all went to Skyward Palms, well, Carter still goes and Charlotte is joining next year, and that's a fee-paying Christian school, and I was lucky enough to be able to go to Britchester, so we've really done quite well, considering where we started."

"You see, all you need is hard work and traditional values, then you can make it, not government handouts! Mira, I'm going to tell that story to all the young hippy folk I meet at work, who want us to pay for everyone else's children and housing. If everyone was like your parents, there would be no need for these ridiculous taxes, and good, honest, folk would still be able to do well for themselves!"

"I absolutely agree, sir!"

[the-phantom-author]

i feel like there’s one last public appearance of popstar!gf after ttpd comes out but i don’t know what it would be. i definitely don’t think it would be like a late night show because she already knew it was an album truly for the fans and her, it wasn’t gonna be something that’s easy to digest and that was her intention because the last year and a half hasn’t been easy for HER to digest

i think something like a live mini concert for select fans (like you know how some fans will be contacted to go to something for an artist but it’s sort of secret? am i making sense hello) and it’s a complete play through the entire album including the anthology, so all 32 songs. maybe it’s like a few days or a week after it’s released.

she’s been so so nervous because she’s scared that the people who have been invited would tell her they hated it or be mean or cause issues. but these were definitely true true fans. everyone sits and watches in awe, these are people who will support her even when she disappears.

hasan and austin come with her and sit at the very back, it’s not that big of a place and it’s pretty intimate. by the end she remembers how much she loves her fans and music. it’s just her sitting on a stool and her band. stripped back.

but the hatred and criticism is becoming too much from the actual industry she’s sure she is going to disappear for a bit. she tries to savor this moment because she knows how much the pressure is mounting that people want her to just leave music.

there’s no press, no cameras, she only does a quick meet and greet afterwards and that’s it. fans also enjoy seeing hasan and austin there and they also take pics with fans who want to but the focus is on her.

she feels reassured that there are people who do appreciate and love her work but the outside is too much right now and she just needs to leave for a bit.

on the car ride home, she’s crying. not because of anything anyone has done to her at the event. just at the situation she’s been put in and how she’s been made to feel inadequate and silly and too much and a man eater.

she’s just trying to look ahead at just being. going on walks with hasan or working out. being with her friends or his. kaya and her cat. family. she’s firmly being pushed into her reputation era. if they want her to become the villain then she will.

who’s afraid of little old me? you should be.

Oh my God, her last big thing before disappearing is a studio session???

Her and her band just doing the most for this performance to their audience of 32 fans, not including Hasan, Austin, or the rest of the band.

I can the begining of it being hard for her to start, because she already kinda knows that this is it, this is the last things for her fan from her for a while. But getting into it, getting into her performance mode by Down Bad, only to start to break at the Bolter. Because isn't that what's she getting ready to do right now, leave as soon as it gets hard. (That's when she sees the littlest leaks. Down in the floorboards. And she just knows. She must bolt)

But it's also one of her favorite things she's done post releasing an album, it's just her and her fans, and their love of music. I feel like she does try to stay for a while, and talk talk to them. Not just about her album and what they like about it, but anything. They want to about other artist? Sure, she'll talk about Sabrina Carpenter's new song. She'll talk about new hobbies she's trying, or what it's like having a dog around now, or anything really. Anytime to be in that moment a little longer. To be with people who care, not just about her but her music.

She hate that she's been made to feel silly and small, but she knows that she'll get through it, she always does, and with Hasan right there beside her it'll be easier than ever before. And she can't to get to know Hasan without interference from the world. Where it is just them two, Kaya, and her cat. Where they can be a somewhat normal couple. Where she can get to know his family without having to worry about being in another anytime soon. And where she can force him to go to her hometown.

She doesn't even realize how much she craves the domesticy of being just any other couple with Hasan until she's living in it.

[twistedwonderlandobsession]

Hello!! Could I request a match up? :)

I am non binary and use she/they pronouns; I am about 1,65 meters tall (I believe that’s 5‘5 feet?) with long, layered blond hair, very pale skin (like seriously, I am very close to paper white) and greyish-blueish eyes (like a stereotypical German hahaha)

Personality wise, I am ambivert; I absolutely adore Partys, especially village party’s, they hit different, and to hang out with friends a lot, but need an equal amount of alone time to recharge! I tend to usually have a lot of energy, despite always being really tired, and can get easily exited about the littlest things (like seeing a cat, or a store having my favourite snack in shop!) but I’ll admit that I’ll cry just as easily, even over stuff like a sad Poem or seeing a character, even if I don’t necessarily like them, suffer even in the slightest. I try to be the best version of myself that I can be, but I live by two very specific rules: treat others how you want to be treated, and treat others how they treat you. I will treat everybody with kindness and respect when first meeting, if they don’t return the favor, I’ll treat them exactly how they treat me (this includes teachers and old people). I am also very ambitious, I already have my future planned, and do my best to be good in school! I’m not the best with written exams but I always have an A for anything oral :)

I do have depression, because of which I struggle to properly take care of myself, and have days were I cannot even leave my bed, and it makes it hard for me to stay on top of things; my room is almost always a mess and I often have to do homework and similar last minute to avoid my grates falling. It’s not that I enjoy my room being a mess, in fact I hate it, but I am genuinely physically unable to clean it. Because of that, there are days where I’ll cancel last minute or I’ll act down the whole time, because of an especially bad episode; i also have trouble texting people first in fear of annoying them. I almost forgot, I also have insomnia because of it :,)

I also have highly suspected autism(can’t get diagnosed at the moment :[) so I’m very peculiar about my interests and the way stuff is; I hate doing group works because I already have a whole plan in my head on how I wanna do it. While I understand basic sarcasm and jokes, if I’m jokingly insulted or the sarcasm isn’t really obvious, I’ll take it seriously and to heart, and it can make me cry and/or avoid that person. This also means that I can go for hours talking about my interest, but the moment something doesn’t necessarily interest me and I don’t view it as important (like my Spanish lessons) i will just zone out

Hobby’s wise I’m a very creative person! I do paint occasionally, but it isn’t necessarily my hobby of choice;

I love to write! I currently have two books I’m working on, both thriller, that I’ll tell anyone that will listen about

I love acting and dancing: I’ve been apart of a musical group for quite a while now and ADORE it, especially acting!! Can’t say I’m much of a singer tho

Fashion design, I love designing and sewing my own clothes! So far I only know the basics but I am actively trying to learn more!!

Later in life I do want to do one of these full time; wether it is being an actress, an author or a designer doesn’t matter to me.

For icks, I cannot for the live of me be with someone who smokes; I have sensory issues and am sensitive to smells, not to mention I have already lost multiple people to smoking, so it’s an absolute deal breaker. I’m ok with drinking, I drink too, just not excessively

I need someone who is openly affectionate with me, wether through touch or words, and is okay with me being physically affectionate!

Also, please no Lillia, that man is a father figure to me haha

I think that’s it- thanks in advance and sorry for how long this got!!

I match you with Cater Diamond

The First Impression:

Honestly, Carter thought that you were cute your general enthusiasm about even the smallest of things made you super enjoyable.

Why He Fell:

Cater didn't fall for a while, trust, no matter how open or friendly this ginger may appear, there was always a distance he put between everyone. Even the closest of friends weren't all that close to him, knowing next to nothing about his childhood or upbringing. Though you had somehow managed to get beyond all that.

It was your kindness and respect for his boundaries that caused him to fall. Seriously. All of his life, the people around him (aka his sisters) have always forced their interests, likes, lifestyle and more onto him, pushing his boundaries and forcing him to do stuff he didn't want to do so to meet someone who one of their main goals was specifically respecting people was....nice

The Relationship:

When Cater had asked you out he had presented it in a playful lighthearted joking way to mask his way too deep feelings for you- after all how embarrassing would that be if he gave you his heart and soul aka actually expressed his feelings and you said no.

...but apparently you had said yes.

So now here you were, and Cater made sure to make it enjoyable. Constantly sending you magicgram videos of cute couple activities, ans surprisingly, he actually took you to places and did activities with you. The eye color bracelet trend, making cute little pottery together, painting, taking you to the latest trendiest restaurants and cafes on dates, study dates, movie nights, self care nights all the cute couple stuff. He totally gets it when your depression starts acting up and dose his best to help, having self care nights were he will convince you to take a bath with the cutest bath bombs ge you a change of clothes and a towl before gently shoving you into the bathroom and locking the door refusing to let you out till you shower or bathe. Don't think he was just sitting around waiting- oh no. He was cleaning your room for you hoping that it would help you feel better when you get out. Once you came out till fully dressed he sat you down drying your hair and doing your whole skincare routine for you. If you ever are feeling down and don't care for yourself properly cay-cay has you covered.

He loves all your hobbies and would love it if you allow him to watch or do it with you. He is also very encouraging of whatever you want to do as a hobby or a career-

In the beginning of the relationship, he treated it very casually in the "may as well enjoy it while it lasts before they eventually leave" but the further it went and the more time you spent together he was slowly becoming more hopeful and open at the idea of this being a permanent arrangement.