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josh dun - clancy tour portland, or 8/21/24
#josh dun#twenty one pilots#clancy tour#joshdunedit#twentyonepilotsedit#clancyedit#*#g#so close to him i cried...
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Allianced so hard you gotta take them trick or treating
#he says he's too old for that but a computer goes “:(” on him and he even gets him stickers#at least SOMEONE here has to go have fun on Halloween *cries in not being able to get through the raveyard yet*#the soundtrack is so good but i'm this 🤏 close from asking Sebastian for his gun just to get past Bouncers#I wanna slap HQ too FYM “JUST GET PAST HIM” WHAT ABOUT MY SKIN#pressure roblox#roblox pressure#pressure fandom#pressure fanart#pressure sebastian#pressure#sebastian solace#sebastian pressure#painter#pressure painter
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Happy new years… let’s stay hydrated together ✨


#I didn’t end up going to the rave just stayed in with my buddies and had KFC (( Korean fried chicken )) and laughed til we cried so#it was still a wonderful start to the new year 💞🥰💞#but the fwb wanted pics of my potential rave look so I figured eh I brought the stuff anyways#and now I’m imagining locking eyes with a stranger on the warm and writhing dance floor#the beat thumps and shakes and rattles the air in our breath as the spotlights dance in the reflections of our held gaze#he pushes his way through the crowd with a singular stare and a wicked smile on his face#I smile and turn my back on him arching myself so he knows I am giving what he’s looking for#I take careful steps through the revelry toward the edge where the crowd thins out#I prop myself up on an available stool in a lonely corner of the club as he closes the distance between us#“now I wonder why you dragged me all the way here” he utters in a playful growl ��trying to get far away from the crowd?”#I smile and I nod. “obviously. can’t really do what I want with you out there”#his eyes perk up and his smile gives away the desire building inside him. “yeah? why don’t you show me then.”#“I thought you’d never ask” I smirk. I reach down into my pants and pull out my phone#“so this one is blue. he’s the oldest but he’s sooooo sweet. and that’s Eva. my only girl she’s sassy but she loves swea-” he leaves#whaddahell I say demurely whimpering even… whaddahell…#gpoy
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love's shadow will surround - 6k T orufrey fic about a witch and a silverleaf
He's left the lights of his small house on, his tiny atelier, waiting - he likes to see the glint of it on the leaves, his light reach the tree here. Give him what he can. It's always a comfort.
But when his physical senses are dulled, it brings it all back like fog, the flashes of memory. Of that day, all of them around the twisted body. He cups a few straggling branches, letting the hurt filter through him, almost as if keen to. They called him the Witch of Light in those days, eulogise his work still - but that was his masterpiece.
#witch hat tag#orufrey#witch hat atelier spoilers#wha spoilers#placeholder illustration until i draw something good..proper..i can never draw something adequate right after writing#i suddenly wrote a fic? HUH?? i had the idea yesterday and just. wrote it. yesterday and today. Ok. it's REALLY sad. to me.#i saw an image of a blackboard with a message written by a japanese teacher that made me feel highly emotional thinking of qifrey#and it just tied together my silverleaf feelings in a way that i guess it just felt would be best actually written. Suddenly.#i cried a LOT while doing it bc it's SO heavy. Sigh. it's set in the future - oru is in his 40s. tired now...it's there to read#i don't know if even in this version of the future of wha it would even possibly work out like it does in this fic..i mean..i don't.#i don't normally like to write about things that are still up in the air =.= but shirahama just..she keeps it all too close to her chest#so i just kept things vague because who bloody knows. i just know that oru will be the one to save him. i just know this. and coco.#i want to know what will really happen. shirahama kamome... please tell me. i love qifrey so much. i love oru so much#i'm actually in the slow midst of writing a modern au orufrey tying so much together that might end up being VERY long. lol#wait why didn't i draw him with haggard long hair. *edits the image to make him more haggard* Hmmm..yes.
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I can't help but wonder, Astyanax
Oh, my son, ne'er allowed to grow, Oh, my boy, sweetest joy I know, Days ago, I held you gently in my arms, Your time has flown, no...
Used to say I'd make the storm clouds cry for you, Used to say I'd capture wind and sky for you, Helm aside, I held you; would've died for you! Oh, you faced my foe...
I can only wonder, who you could've been Things you could've suffered, the fights you'll never win All I ever wanted, was a peaceful world and home Born in war and torment, but today you rest your soul
My son, you're not alone!
#poetry#Epic the musical#Hector#astyanax#Epic#Epic astyanax#Their reunion in the underworld#Hector finding his boy washed up in the river styx#The wails of the dead do not compare to the cries of his child#Hector cradeling his son so close filled with the agonizing horror that he wasn't there to save him#Astyanax recognizing his father and smiling; his tears drying beneath his father's callused thumbs#fanfic? Maybe#Angst#no comfort#honestly#If I have to suffer with this visual you all do too#Instead of the beautiful instrumental in the song it's a haunting minor chord as the ghosts head towards their eternity#i can't help but wonder#but different#The reunion that came too soon for Hector vs the reunion that came too late for Ody#The Troy saga#The Ithica Saga#epic fandom#odysseus#telemachus#But specifically their parallel with Hector and Astyanax
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Guy let me introduce you to my husband


I adore him
#he takes selfies like a grandpa#i love 'too close to his face' pics of ram UGH#I SAID I ADORE HIM !!!!!#i love him so much he makes me feel sick and I need to lay down#cries cries cries why cant I hold his hand#i feel insane auggh#ramattra#overwatch#the 2nd pic was supposed to be a serious screenshot#bc you can see his forehead lights glowing#which is sexy#but heehhggkr#hhhusband#i dont think i'll ever be hinged about this guy
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Harpy mickrin AU yay! Sorta loosely set in Aatom87's harpy & zookeeper AU- Rin is a sooty owl and Mickbell is a cockatiel. You know how parrots are...
The zoo keeps them in the same enclosure out of lack of funds to try and fix behavioral issues. Rin was being too self-isolating and Mickbell was starting shit with other harpies and bonded with zookeeper Kuro instead, which is unhealthy, so they put them in a side enclosure to bond together and assigned Kabru to it instead. Thus they are forced to have enrichment together.
Kabru has it tough since they both act like they hate him, except one is only a tsundere act lol. Mickbell like "huh?? You stealing my cagemate punk?? Wanna fight??" and he's not even wrong lol. Tiny bird very angry very aggressive, cue Kabru getting scratched every day... Kabru leaving their enclosure after a whole showdown of cockatiel Mick screaming scratching biting inflicting him little wounds and then Mick goes right back to "I'm just a little guy"ing @ Rin. Keep going buddy i'm sure... one day...... you'll win her over and make her laugh. Or something.
Although hmmm Kabru hating monsters would mean he wouldn't work there in the first place. Maybe.... He's there undercover to investigate the zoos for corruption or animal-monster abuse or smth... And the injured Mithrun harpy is evidence that he has to take under his wing ba dum tss <- this is how my AUs get out of control
I love Mickbell's stiff paintbrush of a ponytail so much
#here's how kurokabu can win: Kabru is the newbie so Kuro shows him the ropes n they do study sessions n the birdies are jealous#similar to marchil one is closed off and the other is off the rails and they think they'll be a great way to get eachother to level out.#mickrin#mickbell tomas#rinsha fana#dunmeshi fanart#Mick keeps tweet tweeting at her because he's bored but she remains stoic and unmoving not paying him any mind#bc she knows he just wants attention- and he knows & notices that too so he instead he orchestrates a fake injury#and cries out sadly in pain and suddenly she rushes to him. Cue shit eating grin from him when she realizes she's been had#Enrichment i told you#Chirping “who's a pretty bird” at her and she thinks he's just repeating the keeper's phrases but he's trying to say it TO her#Bc Rin can never believe she'd actually ever receive genuine romantic interest so it must be fake#Mickrin coalition to break up kurokabu. Call it the zookeeper dependency club#Rin is just black darker than the night that screams don't approach me but there's just this bright yellow pea sticking to her harassing#Jk they're the hater duo besties#Dungeon meshi#Kuro really had to be convinced separation was best for mickbell..... omgg maybe he has the name bc he loves a bell toy that'd be cute#It is 11 pm you hear a small bell being jostled at alarming speed. He is bored#Fun mickrin fact of the day: mickbell is shameless (though prideful) and Rin has toxic masculinity#/hj#Kabru prob is doing the job out of security worries like monsters being anle to escape- but seeing that the problem#is actually abuse makes him start to empathize more
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i was the happiest these past two nights ♡
#two pics of hyunjin and seungmin bc Bias and Holds a very precious spot in my heart respectively#also that’s the best i could get for lix and innie i’m sorry jdñajs#but yeah it was so. i have so much to say#the first day they were kinda holding back i could tell but once they got comfortable and realised the kind of crowd we were they just went#—all out#they gave us so much energy#they learned a chilean cuss word that also means amigo and they wouldn’t stop saying it both days#<-chan actually said it out of nowhere the first night and we were all like WAIT WHAT YOU’RE ALLOWED TO SAY THAT!??!?#he then proceeded to call changbin hueón. then hyunjin said it too. i cried#we also learned by felix himself that he does in fact have a half chilean cousin and they ate chilean chorizo once when they were kids#lino threw water at us in my section and it hit me right in the eye#changbin and lix’s water got to me as well#i don’t even have words for hyunjin and how beautiful he is#like i can’t believe i saw him up close with my own two eyes he is so unreal i still can’t believe he exists#they are all sosososo precious to me#but seungmin was definitely the mvp this time. everyone is gushing over him#i knew this from the maniac tour but he is so charismatic and it just hits different in person#he was also so happy to be here we could feel how much he loved it here and it warmed my heart so bad#and it was cute how excited he was to perform cinema and how happy he got when we did the fanchant he proposed on his live the other day#they apologised for just now coming here after seven years. lix said they should’ve come a lot sooner#but it was so worth the wait#i hope they have the best tour as it goes on and that they come back for the next one now that they know how much we love them over here<3#dominate tour
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"I decided it's my break day today, Oh coincidentally, I'm gonna sit here, and watch you work." also it's too cute how Nemo just came run at me whenever i sat on a bench
#my time at sandrock#mtas#mtas unsuur#mtas builder#mtas nemo#fanart#FHSDHdhsds tbh HIS PINNING WAS EXCITING#but after that HE REALLY DOESN'T HAVE ANY OTHER STORIES at ALL to tell during DATE HELP fhasdhdhsd#he is JUST like Sebek I'M CRYINg @sebek stop talking about ur malleus sama guard duty @unsuur stop talking only about the civil corps fshds#i'm dying my heart is faltering from the monotony; but just like the rule of thumb on every fandom; it depends to us to enrich the characte#so now i'm trying to enhance my delusional level & it's working right now when i sat there & watched him work#Maybe I was HASTY because HE WAS the first fish that BIT; andeverygamehasthatcharacterthatissoveryeasytogetbutwithlessdepthinthem#BUT thinking back#HE is REALLY A NICE GUY#WITH A NICE HEART that's just IN THE RIGHT PLACE; and HE IS FUNNY TO BOOT fshdshdj#i actually cried when he talked about what his proudest stack of stones meant to him#because the value in it hits too close to home#and when he said pls tell me if i no longer have a good personality bcs i would like to be the first one to know#AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON THE FACE ON THE LEMON SOUP FSHDHSSFHSDH#I FELL RIGHT THEN RIGHT THERE#I FELL FOR HIM FOR ALL THE RIGHT REASONS#HE IS TOO CUTE AND SINCERE AND QUIRKY#DID YOU GUYS SEE WHEN HE JUST STRAIGHT WENT TO BED AFTER PAINTING FHSDHSDHSD I CAN'T; I LOST IT RIGHT THERE#everytime he said SET THE MOOD I'M DONE FHSDHSDH i am not sure if i should be glad or not that the music he plays when painting never retur#even when he said he's gonna SET THE MOOD again FHADHS it's way TOO FUNNY I JUST CAN'T
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i may be 3 days into my pathologic run but by god i can still draw fanart
#the bachelor most definitely kneels down to barter w the kids#and that also implies that he stands on his tippy toes to speak with rubin and i adore that just as much if not more#also i think sometimes daniil can most certain be a badass but most the time he just doesnt bc he doesnt think its worth it#and also also i know this doesnt rlly happen#but i like to imagine daniil at one point probably toward the end or if he gets infected#just curled up in some random alley with jis inventory scattered around him as the last bit of hope leaves and he gives up#i like to think of him rereading the letters hes received from his lab back at the captial and being so homesick he nearly cried#and i like the idea of him reading the letters from his now now dead bound and only being reminded of how he failed them and his big mission#i like to imagine him reading his main mission over and over again when someone he was close to dies#ooo i like to imagine daniil dankovsky bachelor of medicine#hes so great#pathologic#pathologic fanart#the bachelor#daniil dankovsky#art#traditional art#im for sure gonna have more detailed pieces out soon#but these where school doodles so i didnt implode so whatre you gonna
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I don't feel like the conversation Curly has with Jimmy right before Jimmy crashes the ship gets enough attention, because in that scene we get so much character information from both of them, completely outside of Jimmy warped perception. (Long ass ramble below the cut)
One thing I don't see brought up nearly enough is that Curly and Jimmy aren't just co-workers. They're friends back on Earth. He also brings up Jimmy's "hard times" back home, specifically bringing it up when he's trying to talk him down after he finds out Anya is pregnant. Now we don't know what exactly he means by "hard times", it could be anything from a depressive episode to a drug habit. In context though, I feel like it isn't a stretch to say it was something to do with the law, considering Jimmy is talking about having to face the consequences of assaulting Anya when they get back to Earth ("what do you think will happen when we get back?").
Some people then take the rest of what Jimmy says to mean Anya's assault was pre-planned as a way to tarnish Curly's reputation- I think this theory is bullshit. We see multiple times throughout the game that Jimmy is really good at just pulling shit out of his ass when he feels like he's cornered. He's constantly coming up with new justifications as to why he does things and how it's somehow never truly his fault. I think that's what he's doing here, making it Curly's fault for "pushing" him to extremes. "I was just so jealous of you, you're always dangling the life I want right in front of me, you don't even want it, you don't deserve it".
He's twisting his own disgusting actions into some sort of rebellion against the system, just like he always does, just to make himself out to be the poor, downtrodden layman with no other choices. A man pushed to extremes by the world around him. However, this is just Jimmy's rewriting of history, a way to shove blame off onto Curly, a way to manipulate him into going along with his plan. If he really did set out to ruin Curly's reputation he wouldn't have crashed the ship, he wouldn't try and manipulate him into going along with it by saying they could be remembered as heroes instead.
I also think this theory, once again as y'all are so eager to do, makes Anya's assault revolve around a man. It once again turns her into a plot device or means to an end rather than her own character. It shifts the focus onto Curly as the victim when she was Jimmy first and most ignored victim. Like Polle says "why are you still so concerned with HIM?"
But, anyways, by the end of that conversation- his manipulation works. Or, maybe it works. Of course we don't know exactly what's going through Curly's head, but he ends the conversation with "right..." And walks away. Either he didn't believe Jimmy when he was point blank telling him what he was going to do, or he did and genuinely bought into his manipulation for a moment, before snapping back out of it once the alarms actually sounded. Either way, the conversation ends with Curly walking away and letting Jimmy just do whatever he wanted.
That conversation also shows us a look into how Curly was "handling it". Basically throwing empty platitudes to both Jimmy and Anya. Never ever acknowledging the scale of Jimmy actions. An interesting thing to me is that, until the very end when he says "right", not once does he acknowledge what Jimmy is actually saying. Just repeating "we can fix this, you'll get through this, it's going to be fine" while Jimmy continues to talk about how he could still get away with it. It's like he barely hears him, and the same thing with Anya. Anya tells him, point blank, she doesn't feel safe. She hides the gun herself, and constantly drops hints about Jimmy, even tells him about the harassment, but time and time again he brushes it off with "I'll talk to him" and then never actually has a talk with him.
During the psych evals, Anya tells Curly she can't get through an evaluation with Jimmy. He makes sexual jokes and refuses to take her seriously. Saying "I find myself sexually attracted to the company mascot" while locked in a room with a woman who is at most a coworker you've only known for like 4-5 months during a company mandatory psych eval is at the very least non compliance, and at most sexual harassment. What does Curly say about this?
"so tell me about those horses"
And then nothing else. He doesn't get onto Jimmy about treating Anya with respect or taking this seriously. He let's him dodge questions and assures him how everything is fine. Jimmy is actively making the other crewmates jobs more difficult but Curly does. Absolutely. Nothing. And this is RIGHT AFTER he gets onto Swansea for letting Daisuke do a dangerous job. He knows how to be captain, he knows how to put his foot down, but he actively chooses not to with Jimmy, instead appealing to their history and friendship. Letting him slide with things you would NOT let a regular employee slide with.
Curly is a character defined by inaction. He didn't do anything when Anya first tells him that Jimmy makes her uncomfortable, he does nothing when she tells of the assault (off screen) or when she tells him she's pregnant (onscreen), he does NOTHING when Jimmy looks him in the eyes and tells them they can be heroes, if he just lets Jimmy fix it. That's what makes his ending all the more tragic.
His choice to do nothing until the very last second, when it's already too late and Jimmy has doomed them all, results in him not being able to do ANYTHING. he is stuck in constant pain watching as one by one his crew dies and every single time there's Jimmy, still avoiding responsibility, still manipulating the people around him, and he has to finally reconcile that this has always been who jimmy was, he was just too focused on the bigger picture to see the dead pixel.
When Jimmy gets the gun, Curly lets out what seems like something between a laugh and a sob. It's the last of Anya's predictions to come true. Anya was right, and Curly can't do a fucking thing anymore. his friend is a monster, a killer, and a rapist. He was never going to be able to "fix it", because it was never about Curly. It was about Jimmy, it was always about Jimmy and his complete need for control paired with his refusal to take responsibility.
And in the end we end up back in the party room back where Jimmy first created the character of Captain Curly in his head, the one that made it easier to blame. It's there that he makes himself the hero again, valiantly forgives poor Captain Curly and shows himself to be the selfless, responsible, perfect captain that he always saw himself as-
despite the fact that he was surrounded by the stiff remains of his crew, all of whom he'd had a hand in their death, and chewing on the leg of the only man who ever saw the good in him.
#mouthwashing#tw abuse#tw assault#tw jimmy and all his crimes#stari wont shut up#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#curly is a great representation of the “good men” who end up swept up in the patriarchal system#he genuinely has a good heart but hes so focused on seeing the good in his close friend hes blond to the harm this friend does#not just to the people around him#but also himself#I didn't get into all of the times Jimmy manipulates or projects or just straight up belittles curly#I was already rambling for way too long#but he still sees those moments as cries for help instead of indicators of Jimmy's intentions or actual personality#anyways it's 1 a.m. and I'm outside in like 32 degree weather and my hands are shaking so bad#So ignore any typos or don't I don't care
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noah wyle. the actor you are.
#bluebird.txt#the pitt#watching this show got way too emotional once i noticed that noah wyle’s mannerisms as robby when he gets emotional#are the exact fucking same as my dad#and i noticed when we had to fucking pause one of the episodes bc one of the cases hit my parents too close to home. and my dad cried for#the second time i’ve ever seen him cry.#so that was something.#anyways. noah wyle jesus christ i don’t think i’ve ever seen someone on television cry that realistically. that was truly impressive.#my man was potentially not acting like full stop
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Ao3 really needs to update Kudos to be given to every chapter because whoever wrote the TanFang fic in which Tan was in a coma deserves it.
#ao3 update#kudos#tanfang#fanfic#fanfiction#we are the series#i have never actually cried on reading something#but this brought me so close#highly recomment#wait for him#hina_scxtt#the sheer poetry on my boy fang#orpheus and eurydice#greek mythology references#angst
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ihs just spent. so. long. on this for a pin i want to make just to realize nope! i dont like this!!! ha ha!! try again idiot!
wiilsooooon whyyyyyyyyy how do i draw youuuuuu
#the colors werent permanent its just what i used while filling him out so maybe if i color correct i might like it again but idkkkk#yknow i almost cried when i got to the part where wilson says goodbye. very close to spilling a couple of tears but i KNEW#that they wouldnt end it off like that i had my hopes and they were right. I LOVE YOU WILSOON <33333#entropy zero 2#discounts art
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#another FA-centric elf-centric poll#but I think most results will be the noldor#plus some ocassional Edain#silm#silmarillion#tolkien legendarium#the silm#the silmarillion#silm polls#my polls#for me it's maglor#tbh i don't remember if i ever physically cried about the idiot#he's blorbo but… idk. i may have i don't remember#also i got close to crying about “finrod is not real” at one point#i don't think i've ever cried over an oc... i don't have many and they are quite sane#i don't cry at peak sadness i cry mostly at a particular mix of sadness/hope/healing/closure/??????#so yea maglor#i woke up one night and started thinking about him getting a happy ending and more or less therapy and physically cried
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hozier starting to sing take me to church and then unfurling a pride flag healed something in me actually
if you listen closely you can hear me yell ‘oh my god’ when he does it
#(don’t listen too closely though I’m a bad singer lol)#I tried to post this Sunday night but it didn’t go through#I had no idea he was going to do it I almost cried#not leverage#hozier#slept at our airbnb for like 4 hours#woke up for an hour until Cumbies would be open so I could get breakfast (5am)#and then drove over 2.5 hours to get back home in time to get prepared for work#I ended up teaching my two hour group and then working till twelve and taking the rest of the day off#I forgot my meds so I slept ten hours until 10 at night 💀#worth it#seeing him was a spiritual experience fr#and this was like SO spontaneous. like I cannot express enough how much I didn’t plan for this#also I literally got my tickets saturday when the show was sunday. thank u stubhub ur a true mvp#I knew my friends were going and were staying overnight and someone in my facebook group was selling tickets last minute and was like 👀👀👀#I’m not gonna go into how she decided to sell to someone else later that day when I had already made plans and made me cry but whatever#it worked out in the end
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