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boyapologist · 1 year ago

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I'm gonna be honest with you guys. I'm so upset I didn't get the offer today that I kinda don't know what to do with myself

#I was so fucking sure it would happen today and I kinda didn't have any other perspective to how my night would end #so now I'm tired but I don't wanna sleep. even though I have absolutely nothing to do #I had nothing to eat all day but THE worst pastéis ever #(my mom bought a new brand of pastel dough and it was horrible)#so I'm also kinda hungry but not really?#I wish I could have something sweet but there's no sweets on the house #I'm also burned out from working on my island #and burned out from apartment hunting online #which are pretty much the only two things I've been doing for the past 15 days #so like. what do I do now.#I can't just be a vegetable until the offer comes #but the more I wait the worst my depression gets #and everything loses meaning and purpose #not to mention my insomnia. ugh.#rambles*

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raticalshoez · 1 month ago

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i'm having hyperfixation drought so i did what i did best and created a crossover episode

#trafficblr #life series #hermitcraft #qsmp #the drought's been crazy i had to make qsmp x life series/hermitcraft you don't understand i literally had to #i literally cannot tag all of the cubitos without going over the limit so i'm gonna use them to rant about these doodles instead #when i tell you that i think dl!pearl would've loved tilín i'm telling you i think she would've LOVED them like.#something about just wanting to find love at every turn but feeling unwanted spdihgpisadhfpa. and also tilín's name is similar to tilly LOL #the jelly egg is just like if the double life jelly pandas were just an egg that scar loves with all his heart and grian reluctantly accept #i think out of all the duos in qsmp. the one i would want to see in the dl soumate premise the most is slimeriana. it's the dysfunctionalit #i made a post in the past about pac and tango being my fav cubitos bcs they were both crazy cartoonish and like scientists #but it kinda felt like a disservice to leave mike and zedaph out because to me they're argubly crazier and more cartoonish #missa and tim are paired bcs i just really wanted an excuse to draw the wet cats and it just so happened they both have relations to death #skizz and jaiden as the lawyers who were SHOCKINGLY good at their jobs like they cooked with that one #(was also gonna draw joe and roier as bad lawyers but i was running outta steam)#someone's already made a post about grian and (el) quackity and their eye entities so not much elaboration needed there #fit and etho just give the same vibe to be as a dude who has a reputation and is well-known and seems intimidating #i also made fit's arms way too skinny and i don't like it...but i'm not gonna go back and change it now i spent embarassingly long on this #but then his silliness is brought out by The Narrative #foolish and bdubs is one of my favorite drawings because i just knew i wanted to highlight the silly height difference #just realized they're also both god-like figures at least at some point #cellbit and rendog. cat and dog and lore. enough said about their connection.#i couldn't decide who fit etoiles combat hungry anime protagonist vibe best bcs martyn was originally paired with him #but i wanted martyn with phil so i went with my second options: joel and gem #i couldn't draw them mid rage but essentially the title is derived from “WHO KILLED EMPANADA” and “do me a favor. die for me.”#philza minecraft and martyn inthelittlewood. they feel like twins but one is evil (it's martyn)#SOMETHING I FORGOT THAT I WISH I ADDED: BBH AND BIGB AS THE ENTITIES WHO LIE. I HATE MYSELF HOW COULD I FORGET THAT #if i were to pair impulse with someone it would be tubbo? either him or scar would've been with tubbo #and then lizzie i just did not know who i wanted to pair her with. no one really does it like her in my opinion #scott's someone i also had no idea who to put him with he's just so...him...

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cookkoo · 1 year ago

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'Can you please not?💢'

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cerealbishh · 6 months ago

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"We get to, this season, explore their chemistry and their real love and their intimacy. So we get to have a glimpse into that world that just feels so pure and beautiful and romantic! And then, sort of navigating those other circumstances once they're out in the world, dealing with real... challenges." - Isa in an interview with The Knockturnal(x)

#outer range s2 #outer range s2 spoilers #maria olivares #rhett abbott #isabel arraiza #lewis pullman #there was an article that said that maria and rhett may screw royal over? i say they should go for it! /hj #rhett x maria #i know the last gif is blurry but trust me she was holding his arm and i just thought that was adorable #i might add a lew quote if he ever gets asked about outer range s2 in an interview smh(i'm begging someone to ask him more about it!)...#the biggest fucking grin on her face whenever they kiss #her smile and him smiling back at her before the forehead kiss is EVERYTHING to me #also her little smile as he kisses the side of her head like she knows he's doing his best but knows that it's unlikely that he's leaving..#truly if it gives isa and lew more screen time i'm all for it!#i say all this but i still want a spin-off of them just on a roadtrip #i am convinced that he kisses her just because he thinks she's being really cute #i kinda had a feeling that was maria in the trailer doing something to rhett in the trailer(iykyk) and my heart still fell into my stomach #i'm not including any dream/nightmare sequences because as far as we know they can't see the future... right?#do i sound stupid and biased? maybe... please don't judge me #she's hungry but her heart aches to stay... will the flesh have its way in s3? will she be ... ''already gone'' a la eurydice in hadestown?#tw: food?#will forever be sad they didn't get a dance :(#the way he makes her giggle and smile before kissing her in the car? PLEASE #maybe leaving is her way of fixing things for the both of them so he doesn't have to choose between her and his family?#and so he doesn't have to feel guilt for holding her back every time he looks at her... but girlie have a proper conversation PLS

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travelbasscase · 4 days ago

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me when my disability disables me:

#heds #ehlers danlos syndrome #hypermobile eds #hypermobile ehlers danlos #today i'm feeling kvetchy about not being able to run (or even walk fast sometimes) because inflating my lungs takes so much effort #and the pulmonologist said i have vocal cord dysfunction which doesn't fit my symptoms and then didn't fix the insurance thing that #he said he'd fix #so i'm kinda just stuck until i can get another pulmonologist which is hard cuz there aren't a lot in my area and wait times are eons #and even then most don't know jack about hEDS bc why would they it's a rare disease but then they aren't helpful bc they don't know jack #about the rare disease that is probably the root cause of my symptoms #and being dizzy when i stand up or tilt my head back too far and not tolerating heat the way i used to also sucks thanks POTS #at least i don't faint all the time?#and i never can tell if i'm hungry or not because acid reflux makes me feel like i'm starving when i just ate and other times like i'm full #when i haven't eaten. so i can't trust my hunger cues which is really irritating. and Tums don't help my acid #i can't just keep doing prilosec courses. i need to see a GI doc maybe they could do something but there's no time #and none of this is gonna kill me and i can still function it's just so tiring always having something hurting or gross or hungry #espec. when to other people i look like i should be able to do it all just fine so they're shocked when a flight of stairs winds me #i'm young and should-be healthy and this is unfair and i hate it and i wish my body worked right but i have it better than plenty of ppl #so really i can't complain

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lambkindomcome · 2 years ago

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normal work day ♥♥

#varré #varre #white mask varré #white mask varre #varre x tarnished #elden ring #modern au #needles /#i am the reason for one if not all of the rules being posted #there is no shame greater than only getting out 376 mLs because you were laser focused on the blood bag filling #and being told off by nurses because you almost let yourself get sick #sorry i'm so self sacrificing i'd let myself pass out to get that full bag u_u #at least it was still a usable amount but still #also no reason for the shirtlessness here i just thought i drew it good and didn't wanna cover it #(whispers) ...if you make your tarnished look exactly like you it's still 'x tarnished'....#oh also i only slept like 4 hours because i was talking to uh 'a chatbot'#and i was kinda hungry #the only rule i really followed was the clothing one ;#damn thatsa lotta tags

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girlitfeelsgood · 25 days ago

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Why am I like this

#I'm so frustrated with myself #I wanted to have dinner two hours ago but I just didn't #and now I've sat around for two hours really hungry doing nothing #so I've wasted two hours I could have been productive during #and now I'm barely even hungry anymore I just feel kinda sick and so angry with myself #and I really doubt I'll manage to get anything done once I've finally cooked and eaten dinner #because it's late and I already feel tired #and the fact that I'm so upset with myself certainly doesn't help either #I can't focus when I feel like this I just want to cry and scream and hurt myself #which sounds so dramatic over absolutely nothing I know it's stupid #but I just get like this sometimes #I was already feeling kinda on edge all day and it's just getting worse #everything is so loud and I'm stressed and overwhelmed #my head already really hurt but I just hit it so hard god I'm so stupid I wish I wasn't like this #as if giving myself more of a headache was gonna make anything better #god I can't do anything #and why does this man need to watch tv with the volume at max #I fucking hate it here #and now I don't want to eat the thing I was planning on making but there's nothing else and I'm hungry but also not #and I know I can't do anything else until I've eaten but I just don't wanna idk I'm too upset to eat #I wish I was normal #personal

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keeps-ache · 1 month ago

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i finally have to block a fandom tag bfhsv 💥

#just me hi #not cuz anything awful but it's lowkey distressing to look at bfskhghs #the m0uthwashing game that is #haven't had problems w/ anything like that until now so that's interesting! wonder why that is #i'll prolly stew on it later lol :3 #me n my microwaving thoughts pfsvh #//so Project Stuff #i'm spooked !! so spooked to be working on stuff !!#and i don't think soft talk or hard lessons have helped at all thus far so i'm just gonna have to figure out a super stealthy very sneaky #way to get anything done pfsh #//man i've been kinda jumpy recently too kfshv--#not much reason for that i think.. tho i might just be kinda tired (more than usual) so hmmmm #//also got super hungry out of nowhere earlier and Houuuuu #do you ever just. Have Sensations khghfjsvh #cuz it hit me like. a weird coolness in my core + shakiness in my hands at once #and i ate like 3 pieces of pizza in record time to avoid the Consie Quences and it worked so ehegh :3 #//but yeehoo.. i gotta figure out a system for pi.e...#usually i'd ask a sibling to help out but reed is like the only other person who kinda gets what i'm going for and it's kinda hard to hide #the queer stuff in this story so Lmfhsvh #you know how funny it is to have to go the historian route and trip over almost saying the word 'girlfriend' and slide into 'friend' kfshv #silly silly things #//Ohh and i gotta organize the bl.s playlist again #i keep forgetting to do that lol...#hmnmnmmn...#//oh bloo. anywho! i'm gonna get tea :3 #ba da da dee; there's really nothin like sweet tea lol #tooooodles :33

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pinktinselmonstrosity · 11 months ago

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on the one hand i hate to have my routine disrupted but on the other hand getting home at 7pm and eating cake in my underwear is pretty fun

#my friend and i went to the market and we started talking to this old woman running a vintage clothing stall #and we started talking to her at maybe 12:30 at the latest and we stayed there until *4pm*#i was like hmm i'm kinda hungry and i checked the time and it had been THREE HOURS like yeah no shit #no wonder i was hungry and my legs hurt and i needed to piss #she was a super interesting person so the time flew by #but yeah bc of that we had lunch at 4pm which is super late for me and i eventually got home at 7pm #so i'm not really hungry for dinner #but i did also get cake so 👀#and i'm in my underwear bc why not #i do get kinda stressed when i don't eat three square meals a day but. this cake is good #🧃

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reinedeslys-central · 8 months ago

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so like sometimes it's only been a couple hours after you've eaten and you're wondering if you're wondering if you're hungry - but maybe you're just, like, hungry in your head, right? Not actually hungry? So you don't need to eat because that would be overeating, like at a buffet where you stop eating when your stomach feels like it's going to burst? wrong your stomach has an early warning system

no yeah fast forward to two hours later when you're kinda lowkey starving and you go, oh. huh. bodies don't lie.

listen to your organs y'all 😅

#also i think it's cool that sometimes when you're hungry or half-hungry you can kinda wade in the fog of it and find out what you're craving #like oh im really craving....rice #just rice #so I go #oh!! carbs!! you're low on energy and probably really tired and stressed atm!! here you go body!! have some good fast-energy glucose!!#and other times you just really want something cold and crunchy and kinda sweet and sharp and tasty and I go #you haven't been having your fruits son go pack an apple and some celery and some peanut butter with those nice fats to help with digestion #I have such a weird relationship with food and eating lol #we are Improving #listen to your body!! It's telling you what it needs! It's never overeating if you're giving your body what it Actually wants and needs #I wanted smth crunchy and salty did I want chips or grilled chicken #and yes 'junk' foods are useful too. I just have to remember to consider when it's an indulgence craving necessity or a crutch #I'm not a dietician but it still holds that no foods are bad!! just work with your body #it's hard sometimes but it's always there for you and getting you through the day so you gotta be there for it too!#take care of those daily functions!!#message to everyone and more to myself lol #food #eating #eating habits #self care #healthy eating

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slippery-minghus · 8 months ago

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oh no. i feel like if i do not consume an entire load of bread in the very near future i will simply cease to exist.

#very uh. very worried about my finances right now #like. i'm fine. i have some savings. but i also just got to put something into my savings for the first time in a VERY long time and now #now i immediately have to take it out #and i'm getting stressed out about buying groceries #because if i dip into my savings here what about there? where is the line?#and i owe so much to taxes but i can't exactly afford getting less of my pay......#my last paycheck was $0.66 more than my rent #my insurance is refusing to reimburse the last of my electrolysis visits from last year and like #i'm SO over the fight but that's $120. that i really actually kinda need?#and i'm starting to get that funny in the head feeling about wondering how i'm going to feed myself #i still feel so much shame about that funeral i went to years ago and my only thought during the reception after was about #how there was just so much food and i could actually eat my fill #i have leftovers for dinner tonight and it's fine but.... making a lovely vegan dish wasn't the best choice tbh #i feel like if i don't have a large helping of bread and meat i'm going to go insane #and it really REALLY doesn't help that i've apparently lost the ability to eat in the mornings #so i'm at quite a significant fuel deficit and it's stacking #but no matter how hungry i am in the morning the concept of processing solid food is just repulsive and daunting #eating a clif bar at 9am would take literally all of my spoons for the day #i was looking at protein shakes since i can handles *drinking* breakfast #but the cheapest one that meets my dietary requirements is $35 for a 12pack #and i'm uh. i'm worrying over spending $10 on produce this week #personal #and nevermind that i don't have the spoons to even GO shopping (:#(on an aside i switched back to my regular melatonin gummies last night and i Actually Slept. so hopefully that will continue and help some)#i just want to curl up in a ball on the floor and have someone gently place a roll of bread and hunk of cheese next to me in my enclosure #also it's photophobia season and i still feel like i haven't recovered from saturday #got too much sunlight and was nauseaus for half the day #my body feels so bad

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multishipper-baby · 9 months ago

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The fact that I didn't end up with meds for my mental health but now have to take diet pills up to three times a day will be my villain origin story.

#.vent #ed tw #kinda #also now I'm tracking all my calories and yesterday I ate 700 calories less than the amount I needed #which explains why I've been so damn hungry all the time #the mental health... it's dropping...#and if I don't find a job it's going to continue to drop #oh concrete step we're really in it now

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iminlovewithpercyjackson · 1 year ago

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i love not living at home because at home when i was up at all hours of the night then, i couldn't clean everything because i would wake everyone up. now that i do not, it's great because i can get out of bed at 2:20 am since i'm not sleeping anyway and finish my homework assignment and clean the whole place. unfortunately, the assignment was writing and the place is small and i work efficiently, so it's 30 minutes later now and i'm done with it all. but at least everything is clean.

#also i haven't eaten since 8 pm and i'm hungry but it's really too late for food #and i kinda want to go on a run but i also don't really want to die so idk what to do now

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medicinemane · 1 month ago

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The problem with a lot of body horror for me is it's just gross without being compelling

Like yeah you had that person tear their leg open and pull muscle away from bone in a way that's very uncomfortable... but I don't care. Or a lot of Hostel style horror for me it's just kinda... yeah... grossing me out isn't some kinda win

Cause it's not that I don't like body horror, I love Dead Space for instance which... kinda the core pillar of that is body horror if we're honest

Could be a matter of that that kind of body horror is more fantastic making it easier to digest, I will advance that as a theory, but personally I kinda think that it's more that they do something actually interesting with it

Like if I wanted to I could probably see a really fucked up leg wound (and worse) in looking online about this shitty world

Can't really find dead bodies contorted into killing machines though

So I kinda feel like it's my problem with a lot of horror, of that it's horrible in a mundane way where as I'm looking for some unfathomable secret out of horror

So there's a difference between some stabbing a person in the eye cause they're just a shitty person, and doing it to try and create a replica of an alien artifact that gives unlimited energy but also drives people crazy and then turns their bodies into horrible monstrosities

One is just way more interesting to me

#also most of that shit looked stupid and goofy and like bad cgi #like yeah you managed to make some brutal looking stuff; congratz; I don't care about that #but the actual monster stuff you did just looked silly #bleh... glad I skipped my way through out of 10 kinda horror movie (ie almost every horror movie)#the only problem with Dead Space is that I can't play it cause ammo management stresses me the fuck out #you'd think it's because it's too scary #but no; it's cause it brings out my perfectionist where I need to make every shot hit perfectly #I don't do well with scarcity; too much in my own life #which means I don't do well with horror because by necessity things are scarce cause otherwise that's just a power fantasy #but also! it's hard for me to watch stuff like that cause I get bored real easily of watching people meander #also I don't want them talking #basically what I need to find is somebody that... let's be honest; that's a cinematic artist #knows how to collect everything with good pacing; knows how to win without making it too easy #this is my curse with Dead Space; in many ways it's one of my favorite bits of horror in the world #and yet I can hardly interact with it cause of how my brain is #maybe the real Dead Space was the dysfunctions we had along t he way #but nah... too much horror is screamy backrooms; not enough is MyHouse.wad (or whatever the Doom extension is)#which... is another thing I'll never play; but I got lucky and found a video that really nailed what I needed it to #which is funny cause I don't really enjoy anything else on the guy's channel; mostly cause he covers analog horror which...#I so want to like analog horror; but I never do; it always feels so bland #all of it has sparks of brilliance but then goes way too silly with it #horror is one of my favorite genre's; which is I guess why I hate all of it so much and I'm so so so so so so so picky #legit part of my problem is there's a very real extent to which I feel like 'if it doesn't drive me literally insane; what's the point?'#like; 'if I don't have a literal break with reality and become infested by madness from another world; is it even horror?'#which I gotta be honest; if it actually happened I wouldn't enjoy that much #I want some unknowable truth... horror makes me hungry for something I can't put my finger on #like a memory long since passed #but there's stuff I do end up liking and end up thinking is effective #mm tag so i can find things later

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flight-freedom · 3 months ago

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Me: Gee, I should really be in bed or doing something productive but I lack the motivation, to do either..

Unfortunately Also Me: guess it's time open innumerable tabs of Wikipedia pages about an obscure topic:

#I'm hungry #tonight I was learning about Chinese cooking techniques and there's one for braised pork belly using the method “red cooking”#interesting that you can braise so many things #I want a simple little life with a simple little house and simple little garden and a nice partner who I cook and garden with and we go #hiking/exercising and travelling and just live a wholesome life #Been urging to make some kinda dense sweet bread or muffins lately.#Kinda wanna make like 2 1/2 dozen muffins and freeze them and then have a month long muffin supply.#I could make really good muffins and just bring them as gifts to people I like #and they'd call me the muffin man (affectionally)#also #my parents bought a (preowned) cat and EVERYTHING scares it #It's a trauma kitty.#it has PTSD #I think.#But it's very loving and weird #it likes it's chin scartched and it's whole head held #I think it truly only does have one brain cell #Ive been trying to teach it to meow cause I like talkative cats but am worried it will start meowing too much #it doesnt even try to go outside #it wont drink milk #it wont take handouts at dinner #it's like a very scared strangely well behaved cat??#WHAT CAT DOESN'T DRINK WHOLE MILK?#honestly #anyway holy shit wow uhh thanks? If you read this far. Sorry for wasting your time.

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keeps-ache · 2 years ago

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new oc :D

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #score of four #doodles #<- because it's not rendered and there was no sketch hvhsbdj #should i put this under the p4lettes tag ? cuz i did put them there... [thinking emoji]#//anyway Saint goes by he/they/it because it's So Fun giving characters multiple pronouns lol #can't go wrong with them either!! accidentally referred to my guy as a girl? that's fine! she's genderfluid now :3 #/not sure what this guy does yet but they look cool so loll #//also speaking of pronouns i've been doing this thing #cuz i have a friend who uses he/she+ and internally i keep going 'shs-he'#sorta blending the two? kinda neat :0 #/ALSO very cool thing is my brother keeps joking that since i'm not treated like a boy or a girl in my family i'm just kinda of an #'it-that-thing' and i'm. hbuhvg ◕^◕#it's actually very nice and i love it hvhdjv #i don't think he knows i'm nb and i don't think i'll ever tell him but i really love he does that lol #//anyway yeah !! i'm hungry so i'm gonna eat now lol :D toodles and noodles :>

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