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Little disclaimer: I always told myself that on this blog I want to be a 100% honest and tell you what I really think. Because we all know that on X you can't say a single thing and people always have to watch what they say it's so damn annoying how people love to put others into categories and villifiy them
So yes I'll always be honest here even if my opinions are not "proper" or "balanced" or "following the mass". I truly hate that silencing culture.
I don't expect you to agree with everything I say. It's just opinions and I also like that we can have a discussion where each point of view enriches the conversation. My perspectives are quite narrowed on the topics at hand and I know it, when I speak about something I don't always include the broader view, but I like when you do in the comments or reblogs. When I write I don't always include all the nuances but I have them in mind nonetheless.
Know that I love Jimin & Jungkook very much. Not because of their relationship but as individuals first. I talk mostly about their relationship here and on socmed but I would never use a member "for my ship". I respect them too much for that. But as it's a jikooker's blog I talk about it through this lense.
I hope you know that I am genuine in my feelings and honestly there is not an ounce of hate or bad intention in me. Why I am doing things is fiuled by love for these two.
I also don't always speak or reblog other members but know that I also love them and enjoy their content, I just do not always focus on them when I post. Before being a jikooker I was ARMY. I fell in love with 7 first. Being a jikooker and jikook's relationship is just the icing on the cake.
So I'm kindly asking you that if you do not like it, simply do not read my content or block me or whatever. Matters not to me. But there's no need to send hate messages because I'll block you.
If you have any doubts or questions I'd rather you ask them to me directly before making assumptions, because I'm always glad to be transparent and explain things
Hope this clears things up
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DO YOU WANT MORE?

nsfw (18+). includes implied marathon sex, unprotected sex, breeding, breast play, squirting, caleb fucks roughly but still does tender gestures <3, nicknames (pipsqueak is possibly the worst they could've picked for a canon nickname but this is my attempt at making it sound hot). filthy smut from top to bottom. likes and reblogs will be very helpful !!
âC'mon, pipsqueak, raise your hips.â
Caleb squeezes your waist, his thrusts changing from a deep, persistent grind that makes you feel every inch of his cock to a fast-paced pounding. You've long lost feeling in your legs, and the only thing keeping you from sprawling on the bed is Caleb's tight grip on your hips, fucking into you relentlessly from behind.
âAh...! Wait, Caleb, haah, no more...!â
Each thrust loudly snaps the bedframe against the wall, but it isn't enough to hide the squelching noises between your legs. Slick and cum drip down your thighs, staining the sheets into ruin. They get even messier with a few more thrusts as you gush around his cock unannounced, squirting into the cum-soaked bedsheets.
Caleb groans as your cunt squeezes around him, trying to coax out more of his hot cum. âFuck, baby, you're so tight... Feels good when your cunt sucks on my cock...â
His hand slides to your squirting pussy, rubbing circles on your clit. More slick jets out of you, soaking his palm. Squealing, you try to crawl away him him, gripping tightly on the blankets that have been slipping off the bed.
The delicious pressure against your clit releases, but Caleb pulls you back to his cock. He straightens your back to press against his chest, bottoming out in a single thrust to hit the deepest spot in your pussy. âNgh, why are you running away? Didn't you say you'd last longer than me, pips?â He pants against your ear, hand tenderly running along your side to soothe you, yet his hips don't stop their merciless thrusts. âOr are you tapping out now?â
Perhaps hours ago, you would have answered with a vehement refusal. But now, with drool dripping from your lips constantly agape from moaning, your clit too sensitive from his insistent flicking and rubbing, and your thoroughly-fucked cunt filled with his loads of cum, the idea of calling it quits sounds appealing.
âI'll do whatever you want, baby. Just say the word,â Caleb murmurs against your skin, his lips molding over your neck to suck another hickey among the marks he already made. âIf you want to stop, I'll run the bath and take care of you. We'll cuddle on the sofa and watch that new movie you've been looking forward to.â
His hips stop, having pulled all the way out, the tip barely brushing against your cunt. âBut if you don't want to stop...â
Slowly, his hand travels up your torso, squeezing your tits. He plays with your nipples, evoking another gasp out of you. âI'll make you feel good. Fuck any other thought out of your mind so you'll only think of me.â
You whine as his cock rubs along your wet folds, catching on the strings of cum dripping from your pussy. The tip circles around your clit, teases at your opening, just putting it in enough to make you feel its thick girth, but he pulls out too soon.
âWhat will you choose, baby?â
Your hazy mind can't come up with clear thoughts, foggy from the pleasure. But forming an answer is the easiest thing to doâit's not like he left you with any other choice, anyway.
âPlease fuck me, Caleb,â you sob, clinging at the arm cupping your breast. âPlease put your cock inside me. Fuck me even if I tell you to stop. Cum... please cum more inside m- ahh!â
You're roughly flipped onto your back, but he holds your head softly to lay you down on the pillow. It's only at this moment that you get to see Caleb's face, brows furrowed, sweat dripping down his temples, his lip bitten red from the strain of holding back. âShit... you really do know how to rile me up, pipsqueak.â
He looms over you, muscled arms caging you on the bed, chest heaving up and down as he pants. He fixes his position, resting his weight on his knees, and he uses his hands to spread your legs wider. His eyes are dark with lust while he stares at your abused hole, spilling cum on the sheets below you.
âMaybe this time, I really will fuck you pregnant.â
The statement doesn't even register in your mind because he immediately thrusts inside, pounding at your cervix. You gasp, aimlessly grasping at anything you could hold onto as you lose your mind, a fresh stream of cum soaking his cock.
His abs ripple with each thrust, the dirtiest groans and pants leaving his lips. âFuck, you're so cute... cumming already when I just put it in.â Caleb leans closer, catching both of your wrists to make you wrap your arms around his neck instead of the dirty sheets. âWhen did you become such a pervert?â He drops his head to suck at your tits, licking your nipples.
It's your fault, you want to say, but all that leaves your mouth are noises you didn't think you were capable of making until Caleb touched you for the first time months ago, and he hasn't stopped since. You heard couples would be insatiable for the first few weeks of dating, but it feels like you're never going to go past that phase.
âCan't even speak because my dick's too good, huh?â Caleb chuckles, thumb resting on your lips. He rubs the tip of your tongue, pleased when you dart out to lick him. âYou're the absolute cutest...â
The sounds between your bodies are downright lewd. His cum sloshes inside you every time he fucks you to the bed, forming a creamy ring at the base of his cock. He's filled you up so much with his huge cock and cum, that you wonder how you even have the space to breathe.
Caleb's the type to try to be quiet, but he's not holding back his moans now, groaning his pleasure against your ear.
âThis feels too good, shit... Feel like I'm gonna cum soon...â He tucks the hair covering your face behind your ear, pressing a gentle kiss at the corner of your teary eyes, so different from the rough fucking he's giving to your pussy. âI'm gonna blow my load inside you. You want that, don't you?â
You nod desperately, leaning your face on his hand that's cupping your cheek. He smiles, nuzzling against you, but the sweet moment lasts only for a few seconds before he thrusts even faster, chasing his release.
âFuck, here it comes, I'm cumming...â Caleb drives his cock the deepest it can go, his balls slapping against your ass. âOh, fuuuuck, I'm cumming!â
Thick, hot strings of cum coat your insides once more, crammed into the tight space of your cunt. Your squirt splashes against his pelvis and abs as you moan high and reedy, scratching lines down his back. He hisses at the slight pain, spurting more cum at the feeling, and he collapses on your body, making sure not to suffocate you with his weight.
âAh... damn... I don't think I've cum that hard in a while...â He ruffles through your hair, soothingly patting your head. âYou doing okay?â
âYou're too intense,â you say, your voice weak and groggy. You wrap your arms around him, content to fall asleep and let Caleb take care of things from here.
âHey, don't fall asleep now.â He pokes your cheek, trying to stir you awake. When you open your eyes, you see Caleb smiling, the one that means he's up to no good. âAfter all that you said, do you really think this will end with just one round?â
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then send me a son
pairing: joel miller x reader
cws/tags: so much angst (w/ happy ending! i swear), discussion of suicide attempt (the canon one), suicidal ideations, losing a child, losing a parent, survivors guilt, discussions of abortion, unplanned pregnancy, p in v, oral sex, virginity loss (but it's not that big of deal/not a kink), both dealing w grief, ellie is dead, this is set in jackson post tlou pt I
summary: joel is put on suicide watch after he returns to jackson w/o ellie and reader becomes his 'caregiver' of sorts. lowkey enemies to lovers but also not bc it's kinda one-sided 'hatred'
a/n: author is pro-choice! and also understands the complexities of mental health that reader and joel do not at times (just wanted to make it clear that i understand... from personal experience... what depression is like as well as suicidal ideation).
title is from the song 'the suburbs' by arcade fire, but listen to the entirety of the suburbs (album) and funeral (album) if you want to understand my mindframe while writing this
the last sentence is a quote and i've reblogged it before but i'll find the image and post it/reblog it again
wc: 9.4k
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Joel is just surprised Tommy has the gall to ask, âWhereâs Ellie?â when he arrives in Jackson alone.Â
In this world, when two people leave and only one comes back, you donât ask because you already know what happened. You wait for that person to tell you about a miracle, and when they donât, you know for sure.Â
âHeaven, if you believe in that sort of thing,â is Joelâs response.Â
But Joel doesnât believe in Heaven or Hell, or anything other than ashes and dirt.Â
âI donât know what to say,â Tommy says because heâd already said âIâm sorryâ when Sarah died, and that didnât bring her back.Â
It takes a hefty amount of booze to get Joel to tell the story.
âI just hope she died for something. Then, at least, Iâll know Iâm being selfish.â
I didnât get that with Sarah, he thinks. She didnât die for a ânoble causeïżœïżœïżœ. He doubts Ellie did either.Â
âYouâre being put on watch,â Maria tells him the next morning â when heâs sober and asking what his duties are now that heâs back.Â
Life goes on, which means work goes on, so whatâs my job? As long as itâs not burning bodies, Iâll be okay.Â
âWatch? Like Iâm watching, or Iâm being watched.â
âBeing watched.â
He asks why, though he doesnât need to. Tommy knows why heâs got that scar on his forehead.Â
âFucking authoritarian bullshit,â he mutters, half into his pillow. âThought you were a communist.â
âI am. And this has nothing to do with that.â
âI bet Tommy put you up to it anyway.â
âHe didnât âput me up to anythingâ.â
âBut he told you, didnât he?â
âHe told me a long time ago.â
âFigures. You always knew I was a coward.â
âYou say stuff like that, and then act like you donât need help.â
âI didnât say I donât need help. I said I donât want it.â
Sheâs silent, letting him continue. âNow let me grieve in peace, will you?â
She hums something akin to agreement, but asks for something that sounds like protest to him. âWhereâs your gun?â
âWhich one?â
âAll of âem.â
He tells her because he doesnât want Tommy or anyone else searching through all his bullshit because thatâs what happens if he doesnât give âem up.
âWant my kitchen knives too?â he says, almost wryly.Â
She takes most of them, but leaves the more blunt ones out of sympathy. He can have butter on his toast. Unless she takes the toaster so he canât take it with him in the bathtub.Â
She leaves the toaster, and then, leaves him alone.Â
Quite frankly, heâs too old to kill himself. Sure, people do it at his age, but heâs so goddamn tired. Moreover, he knows he could get someone else to do it pretty easily. Maybe he could be a martyr. He could save someone from a clicker or a soldier. He could save someoneâs life for once. But would that be enough to save his soul? To make it to Heaven and see Ellie and Sarah again?
Maybe, he would, if God really does love people the way some say he does. But if Joel was God, heâd deny himself entry.
He stays in bed for the rest of the day. Aside from the two times he eats. And once in the middle of the night to take a piss because he may be depressed, but the last of his dignity is motivation enough not to wet the bed.Â
He doesnât shower or change his clothes. Not like heâs wearing a shirt anyway, just boxers âcause itâs too hot outside and he doesnât want to get up and turn on the fan. Sleep doesnât come easy, but it comes. It comes because it has to, reluctant as it is.
He wakes up to the voice of an unfamiliar woman. Quieter than Ellie or Sarah, less stern than Maria or Tess. Not like he was expecting to hear from three out of four of those women, not outside of his dreams.Â
Youâve always cared about people, saving lives and all that. But youâre no good with a gun, so Tommy finds a better job than patrol for you. Â
âYouâre going to be watching my brother, Joel.â
âLike, spying on him?â
âNo, like making sure he doesnât kill himself.â
A suicidal man is nothing new, especially in this world, but Tommyâs bluntness about it is. He acts as if itâs a normal job. Like the ones in office buildings that sound wonderful even though the people who tell you about them assure you it was barely better than life is now. This new watchmen position is the same as patrol, in a way. Terrifying in the gravity it holds. You have to keep someone alive.
You can shoot deer, you can run quickly, you can hide well. You can survive on your own. But, at age 10, your mom bled out as you sat by her side. You were too weak to carry her, to dig a grave and bury her. Your survival feels unearned, but youâre no good with guns. Youâd miss if you tried to do it. Thatâs a rare thought anyway, and surely not one you plan to ever speak aloud. Theyâd put you on watch too, which sounds suffocating, in all honesty.
You donât know Joel. Youâve heard his name in passing, but you arrived in Jackson during the period of time he was gone. He was going to take some girl to some hospital for something or other.Â
âWhat about that girl?â you ask. âIs she not taking care of him?â
âSheâs not around anymore.â
âOh,â you say.Â
He just nods. The âwhyâ of the whole arrangement makes sense, but youâre still unclear on the âhowâ. Am I just supposed to stay in his house 24/7? Is he allowed to shower on his own? Do I have to cook or do laundry?
âJust check in on him. Heâs not the most⊠personable, but donât take anything he says to heart.â
Just check in on him. It sounds simpler than it will be, you know that much. Even keeping a plant alive takes more than âchecking in on itâ.Â
You arrive at his house around 10 AM. You assume heâll be awake, but when you look around his living room and kitchen, you canât find him. Oh God, you think. What if heâsâŠÂ
Heâs asleep in bed. Youâre pretty sure. Heâs lying there and thereâs no evidence that anythingâs wrong, but when you say his name from the doorway, he doesnât move. So, you walk closer to him, just to make sure heâs breathing.Â
âJoel,â you say softly â because your other option is reaching out to touch him, and you feel thatâs a little too personal, especially when heâs not wearing a shirt.Â
âWho the Hell are you and how did you get into my house?â he says.Â
âTommy sent me.â
âOh, so theyâre making you watch me?â
âYeah.â
Youâre glad he knows about the arrangement. Maybe heâll give you some direction on what to do with him.Â
âMust hate you if they stuck you with me.âÂ
You canât tell if heâs being ironic, but you hope so. Still, you donât know how to respond. You decide on a simple, âIâll let you get some sleep. Iâll be downstairs if you need anything.â
Though youâre alone in the room, you sit with perfect posture on Joelâs couch, looking around at the decor â or lack thereof â looking for clues about who this man is.Â
You think about making him breakfast, but youâd have to raid his cabinets to do so, and youâre terrified to make any missteps when it comes to Joel. You donât think heâll kill himself over burnt toast, but there is a persistent need lodged inside your brain to make him like you. Itâs a little selfish when you should be focused on just keeping him alive, but maybe if he likes you, heâll feel better, maybe youâll feel better too. Thatâs still nothing but the ever-lingering hope in your heart. But itâs something.
He comes downstairs eventually, in a t-shirt and a pair of pajama bottoms.Â
âGood morning,â you say.Â
âNo, it ainât,â he says, heading in the direction of the kitchen.Â
âDo you want me to help you with anything? Breakfast or coffee?â
âI can make my own damn coffee, kid.â
And he does. The first shred of kindness you get from him is an offer to pour you a cup.Â
âIâm alright, but thank you.â
He sits down in a chair across from you and sips his coffee as you watch him awkwardly.Â
âAre you really gonna do that all day?â
âDo what?â
âSit there and stare at me.â
âI donât know what else to do.â
âYou could leave, for starters.â
âIâll get in trouble.â
âWhat? You afraid Tommyâll get upset with you?â
âA little.â
âHeâs a softie. I wouldnât worry too much.â
You are worried. Sure, you want Tommy to be happy with you, but moreover, you donât want to leave Joel alone lest something happen to him. You might not know the guy very well, but youâd hate to see someone take their own life.Â
âCan I just stay here? I promise Iâll leave you alone.â
He shrugs, and you take it as a yes.
He does not need a caregiver or a watchman. He does not need you, but you look like a kicked puppy and thereâs no way heâll force you to leave. Another young girl heâll reluctantly let stick by his side. Itâs almost cruel of Tommy to send someone like you. Someone young and full of life. Someone he has a hard time pushing away.Â
He shouldâve sent Joel a crotchety old bitch or a drill sergeant. Maybe Tommy thinks heâs doing Joel a favor by giving him a nice girl, polite and eager to please. Itâs a good thing your chipper attitude irritates him. Itâs the first item on the very small list of qualities that Joel dislikes.
At first, he insists on making his own food. Youâre still a guest, even if heâs reluctant to have you as one. It doesnât matter where he lives, heâll always have been raised in Texas. Heâll always hear his mother calling him out on his lack of manners. His hospitality is force of habit.
Plus, if he lets you do anything for him, heâll owe you something â at least in his mind. And he doesnât want to owe anyone anything. He doesnât want to give or get or build any kind of rapport with you whatsoever, especially since you seem to take all attention as progress, despite the fact that Joel is harsh with you most of the time.Â
The whole ordeal makes him feel like more of a failure than he did before. He couldnât save Ellie, or Sarah for that matter, and now heâs being forced into his own retirement or held hostage depending on how you look at it, so he canât even get the satisfaction that productivity brings.
He also finds himself pretty fucking bored without work. He became so used to being in constant battle, even in his sleep. One wrong move and he was dead. The worst injury heâs gotten in the past few weeks was a paper cut.
Reading was never his biggest hobby, but itâs not bad when you find the right book. Often, youâll sit across the room from him and read a book of your own, and the silence as he relaxes into the couch is quite peaceful for a change.Â
No amount of peace and quiet can cure his boredom, though. It makes him antsy, and you notice. You notice a lot when your job is just staring at him, it seems.
âI found a book of crossword puzzles,â you announce.Â
âCongratulations,â Joel says.Â
âI thought since you were bored, Iâd give them to you, and maybe you could do themâŠâ
By the look on your face, he can guess that youâre regretting your words. Lest he make you cry, he accepts the book.Â
âPlus, it looks kind of old so I donât know if Iâd know how to do it myself,â you add.
He knows you donât mean it as an insult, but it sounds like one, and it makes him laugh. The list of qualities Joel likes about you is already long â and buried deep in his subconscious â but heâll have to add the fact that you can make him laugh.
âAre you calling me old?â
âNot in a bad way. Youâre just older than I am.â
He flips through the book and finds that about 80% of them are done.Â
âSomebody did most of these already.â
âIâm sorry⊠maybe I could erase that personâs answers and then you could do them?â
âI think Iâd still be able to tell.â
You hang your head in defeat.Â
âGimme a pencil and Iâll try the ones that arenât done yet.â
You look through his junk drawer, find a pencil, and hand it to him. He doesnât expect you to sit on the couch next to him.Â
âI know youâre supposed to watch me, but you donât have to watch that closely.â
You move away slightly, no longer looking over his shoulder.Â
âI was just curious about the answers.â
âI was kidding around,â he says (though, itâs only a half-truth). âCome back here.â
It takes him about a week to finish the book.Â
âHad to go back and fix some of the others,â he says. âThe person who originally filled âem out was an idiot.â
âThatâs not very nice. Maybe it was a kid.â
âKid had great handwriting, then.â
You pause, hesitating for a reason he canât pinpoint.Â
âWhat? You want me to say sorry for calling that guy an idiot. âCause I will if it matters that much to you.â
âNo, no, fuck that guy, he was an idiot,â you say, clearly taking after him.Â
âLanguage, Missy,â he says, jokingly scolding you.Â
âSorry. I should stop swearing.â
âItâs okay. You probably picked it up from me anyway.â
âMaybe,â you agree. Youâre fidgeting, holding something behind your back, he notices.Â
âWhatcha got there?â
âOh, itâs nothing, really,â you say, holding it out to him. âI just figured since you finished the crossword book, I should get you more.â
He only did the crosswords for you. He never really cared for them anyway. He just wanted to make you happy â heâd rather have you content than pissy or whiny. The only thing worse than your constant insistence on getting his approval would be if you just sat there and cried all day.
Heâd tried to give the book back to you, but you couldnât do âem on your own since you were lacking in 90s pop culture knowledge. So, he did them, with you watching over his shoulder the whole time.Â
Heâs about to admit this to you and hand the new one back over to you when he looks at the pages â white paper, stapled together, all drawn up in pen.Â
âDid you make these?â he asks, in awe of both your ability to draw perfectly straight lines, and moreover, how much you must care if youâre willing to go to these lengths. Kiss-ass behavior, he tells himself.
You nod, and he gets the sudden urge to hug you, but opts for a thank you with a smile he canât repress.
âYou didnât have to do all this, but itâs very sweet of you.â
He considers taking back the âvery sweetâ comment when he finds that 3 down is four letters with the prompt âgrumpy old manâ. JOEL fits perfectly in the blank spaces.Â
You go on walks, read endless books, and Joel finally lets you start taking on some of the housework. It should be nice, but you get the feeling heâs not all that happy about this situation. Not that he tells you it outright. He doesnât tell you much at all. And youâve tried. Itâs not like youâre asking hard-hitting questions.Â
âHow old are you?âÂ
â56.â
âWhatâs your favorite color?â
âBlue.â
He doesnât even bother to ask the same question back to you. Sometimes, he doesnât even look up at you when you speak to him. You know itâs the depression of losing someone close to you, you know what that feels like â the problem is, you donât know how to fix it. You only know how to hide it.
Itâs quite simple, in theory. All you have to do is give him the desire to get out of bed every day. But you donât even know what he likes. All you know is that your presence is not high on his list of favorite things. You try and try until you swear his shitty attitude is rubbing off on you.Â
Tommy checks in with you periodically, asking you how things are going with Joel, and this would be the perfect opportunity for you to get out of this position, which Joel would probably love, but to spite him, you tell Tommy itâs going well.
And it is, in a way â Joel is not actively mean to you. He doesnât insult you or argue with you, he just mostly ignores you. So, you figure if you ignore him, maybe heâll miss your attention. Stupid teenage bullshit mindset, acting like you have a crush on him, playing some sort of push and pull game that heâs not even privy to.Â
But thatâs not like you. That brooding behavior is all Joel, so it lasts no more than a day or so until you go back to trying, and accept the fact that heâs just an asshole. Doesnât mean you have to be one.Â
You never expected to win him over with the crossword puzzles but you see the look in his eyes when you give him the homemade ones, and you know thereâs something in there besides all that pain. You know that look, canât put a name to it, all you know is that itâs a good sign, one you had yet to see from Joel.
Joel wouldnât have thought heâd get tired of hearing someone ask, âcan I do anything for you?â, constantly begging to dote on him, to care for him. The last time someone did this for him was on Fatherâs Day, which is an ancient holiday now, almost mythical.
But itâs been weeks of the same old shit. It has nothing to do with you. In fact, youâre probably the best âcaregiverâ he couldâve gotten stuck with. Thing is, though, he doesnât want a caregiver, and heâs tired of said caregiver bombarding him. Itâs enough to just have her watching him like a hawk, but yapping in his ear is another thing. Because he enjoys the quiet (and because the way you ask him questions reminds him of Ellie.)
Itâs a joke, a stupid joke. Itâs his patience wearing thin.
âCan I get you anything?â you ask.Â
âSure. A beer, maybe. And a fuckinâ blowjob,â he mutters. Yeah, thatâd be the dream but itâs a joke, bordering on a jab at you.Â
âI donât think we have any beer,â you say. You both know damn well thereâs no alcohol in the house.Â
âI know.â
âAnd, as for the other thing- is that something that youâd want⊠me to do?â
âHey,â his tone softens. âSweetheart, it was a joke. I was messing with you.â
âOkay, so you donât want that, correct?â
âIt was a joke. Iâm sorry I even said it.â
âDonât be sorry,â you say, sheepishly. âItâs your house, your rules, right?â
The concept of free speech in his house was one heâd brought up regarding âswear wordsââ Itâs his house so heâs allowed to say âfuckâ, âshitâ, âbitchâ, and every other word he could come up with, and he came up with some deep cuts just to make you laugh. Admittedly, itâs a nice sound.
âYeah.â He thinks for a moment. âI just think that these sorts of topics arenât appropriate for someoneâŠâ
âYou know Iâm an adult, right, Joel?â
âYes, I know, but youâre still young and you seem a little innocent. I donât want to put those types of thoughts in your head.â
âI know what a blowjob is, and I know what sex is. I just havenât found the right person yet. That doesnât mean Iâve never thought about it or whatever.â
You rarely snap at him, so he knows that word â innocent â mustâve been more offensive than heâd meant it. Maybe youâre not innocent. Maybe youâre just kind and a hell of a lot younger than him. Maybe it just seems like you should be.
âHey, I didnât mean to offend you. Iâm just saying that I donât want to take advantage of you.â
âBut do you want it?â You punctuate every word with a newfound annoyance.
âItâs not about that.â
âYes it is.â Youâre quite incredulous for someone who has been presented with the idea only a moment ago.
âFine. Yes, in theory, if we were just two people who know each other, then, sure, if you offered, Iâd say yes.â
âI offered.â
The way he calls you âsweetheartâ feels more like an insult than a term of endearment. Youâd rather be âkidâ or nothing at all, anything less patronizing. Itâs worse when he calls you innocent. Youâre not innocent, youâre just nice â something that Joel is not. Youâre painfully nice. Youâve heard it makes people like you. Youâre still waiting on the results, though.
But, if heâd ordered you to suck him off, youâd have kneed him in the balls, and he wouldâve thought twice about calling you âsweetheartâ. The thing is, he doesnât. Instead, he backs away from the opportunity, tells you it was a joke.Â
But you see two things behind his eyes: one, he wants this. He might not want to want this, but he does. More importantly, you see his genuine concern for your well-being override this desire and you realize you feel safer around him than you do around most men. Thatâs one of the reasons that you do give him âa fuckinâ blowjobâ. The other being that, sometimes, before you go to bed, you canât sleep, and a certain man comes to mind as your fingers slip beneath the waistband of your panties.Â
When you reiterate that you offered, you exchange a long stare wherein you try to reach into each otherâs souls and sort this shit out but when you both realize you canât, Joel says, âOkay.â
And you say, âOkay.â
A new kind of tension bubbles to the surface as Joel sits down on the couch and you kneel before him.Â
You fiddle with his belt, eventually managing to get it undone, but Joel does the rest of the work it takes to get his pants down to his ankles, boxers too.Â
Youâd imagined heâd be big, but thatâs how fantasies work. Every manâs dick is big in your lewd daydreams, but itâs like you manifested it with Joel. You begin to feel like youâre in over your head, and though you arenât innocent, you arenât experienced enough to take him. But who are you to back down from a challenge?
Joel can see hesitation wash over your face for the first time. You pause, study the scene like youâre trying to decide your approach, and then you take his cock in your hand, looking up at him like youâre asking for the green light.
He gives you the go-ahead with the only piece of advice he thinks youâll need. âJust donât bite, and youâll do fine.â
He probably shouldâve mentioned another thing: donât take too much at once or youâll choke. His head lolls back and his eyes fall closed the moment your lips meet the tip of it. He doesnât touch you, doesnât want you to feel intimidated by his presence while youâre exploring, so to speak. He lets out a low groan of approval to let you know heâs still with you.
But heâs fading into a beautiful oblivion until he hears you gag, feels you sputter and it shocks him out of that blissful feeling. His eyes snap open and he cradles the back of your head.Â
âEasy, easy,â he says. âDonât hurt yourself.âÂ
You pull away briefly and catch your breath.Â
âThatâs good,â he says. âBreathe, baby.â
He can see you looking for instructions, so he takes your hand and helps you get a firm grip on his cock, sliding your hand up and down, and finally letting you do it on your own.Â
âDoinâ good, baby,â he says. âYou gotta give your mouth a break sometimes.â
Youâve never gotten anything close to praise from Joel before. Itâd warm your heart like nothing else if it werenât so goddamn sexy in this context.Â
You nod, wipe the spit from your chin, and give your mouth a brief break, but you canât hold yourself back forever. Soon, your lips are back on his cock, kissing from the base to the tip, flicking your tongue over the head, seeing what reactions you can get from him.Â
When you get into the rhythm of hand and mouth in tandem, you barely register him telling you that heâs gonna come.Â
You imagine itâs an acquired taste but itâs not awful. You can swallow it. So, you do, and you look up at him with a smile.Â
He looks like heâs woken up from a dream and heâs still getting his bearings straight, but heâs quick to stand up and take your hand.Â
âWhere are we going?â
âTo my bed.â
Youâd follow him anywhere but bed does sound good to you right now. It sounds like an adventure. You donât go into his bedroom unless absolutely necessary. Youâd think he was hiding something horrible in there if you didnât have a mutual feeling regarding your own bedroom.
âAre we going to have sex?â you ask.Â
âNo,â he says.Â
âThen, what are we going to do?â
âYou,â he begins. âAre going to lie back and relax.â
He coaxes you to lie down, and he doesnât have to try hard.Â
âI,â he continues. âAm going to make you feel good.â
Youâre fairly certain about what he means, so thereâs nothing left for you to do but let him do the work. Itâs just another part of the job youâll have to learn from experience.
âTell me if you want me to stop,â he says.Â
You nod.Â
âPromise?â
âPromise.â
âLetâs get you out of these clothes,â he says, playing with the hem of your t-shirt.Â
âWait-â you say, sitting up, and he withdraws. âCan we kiss⊠first?â
He looks surprised for a moment, and you worry youâve fucked up.Â
âI just feel like we should do that,â you say, much quieter.
âYeah,â he says. âI guess that makes sense.â
His hand cups your cheek and he looks you in the eyes like heâs trying to find answers somewhere in there.Â
âHas anyone ever kissed you before?â
âNot really, not the way I want you to kiss me.â
âFeels a bit rude of me to have put my dick in your mouth before youâd even been kissed.â
Still, he leans in and kisses you, but itâs soft, gentle. Itâs not a peck on the lips, though, itâs more. It gradually gains momentum and passion. Eventually, he slips his tongue in your mouth and you take it in stride.Â
âYouâre very good at this,â he says. âIf I didnât know any better, I wouldnât think this was your first time.â
âIs that a compliment?â you ask, doubting Joel is capable of such things.
He ignores your question, and sighs. You know itâs not directed at you because youâre fairly sure heâs not listening.
âI know I said I was gonna do some things with you, but I donât wanna take things too fast, okay?â
âAre you saying youâre just going to kiss me?â
âI think thatâd be the right thing to do.â
âThatâs not fair,â you whine.
You wish you could sound sexy, or whatever, but you probably come off like a bratty child. Â
âExcuse me?â
âThatâs not fair. You said youâd make me feel good. I thought you were gonna return the favor.â
âI was.â
âThen, why are you backing out?â
Youâre shocked that heâs the pussy â pun-intended â in this scenario.
âI thought it might be too much for you.â
You grab his hand and slip it under the flimsy fabric of your shorts.Â
His eyes go wide.Â
Fucking hell, youâre wet, is the only thought on Joelâs mind. It makes sense. Heâd be offended, maybe even worried if you were dry as a desert down there, but heâs barely touched you. Either you really enjoyed kissing him or you actually liked sucking him off too.
He gently presses the pads of his fingers against the wet spot on your panties.
âYouâre right, baby. Itâs only fair if I help you out.â
Heâs able to get your shorts and your panties down in one swift pull. You look impressed by the action. Just you wait, he thinks. Heâs not an expert by any means, but itâs not too hard to learn if you pay attention â and sex is one of the only times Joel does listen â itâs also not a skill you lose over time. Itâs muscle memory, or maybe itâs innate.
His thumb rubs your clit lazily as he watches your face scrunch up in pleasure, your eyes fill with need. When the first finger slips inside you, he hears a breathy sigh come from above â it sounds like relief though he knows you havenât come yet.
Heâs never had a woman have such a strong reaction to his lips on her clit. It almost startles him at first. Youâre frantic from the moment his lips meet your skin, crying out for him like youâre scared heâll stop.
âHey,â he says, âIâm right here. Donât have to get so worked up. Iâm gonna take care of you.â
He canât say another word because his lips are occupied, so he relies on his hands, his soothing touch, to tell you that everything is alright. He gets the urge to tell you how good you are for him, how good you taste, how pretty you are like this, but he knows itâd be cruel to let up now. Heâs callous often, sometimes harsh, but rarely cruel.
His instinct tells him to drag this out, to make your thighs shake, to have tears running down your cheeks, to tease you. To be the asshole that he tends to be when youâre around (and when youâre not). This is a version of Joel you might come to like.
Heâs lived long enough to be well-practiced in this field of life. Doesnât matter if heâs particularly romantic or even sociable, itâs just happened enough times over the course of fifty plus years for him to know the ins and outs. He can get you there quickly and lead you through it slowly.
Heâs so used to you saying his name in a tone he considers pestering that heâs begun to hate the word itself. But when itâs drawn out and desperate like this, it sounds wonderful.
Youâre at his mercy, he thinks. Which means heâs in control. And, as much as heâd hate to admit it, control does not mean he can kill you, control means he can care for you.
When you come down from your high, Joel is looking up at you from between your thighs with messy hair and kiss-dark lips. His smile looks like one of pride. Your cheeks heat up, only half-remembering what just happened. You could describe the event simply in a cause and effect relationship â he went down on you, so you came. You know what an orgasm feels like, but that was something beyond anything youâd ever experienced before. You fear an addiction may be coming on.
Your voice comes out shaky, which only makes your first words after a long silence sound stupider. âThank you.â
He looks confused, and it takes him a moment to respond. âMy pleasure,â he says, and you swear it might be when you see a semi through his sweatpants.
Youâd offer more âhelpâ but you truly donât think you can manage it. You can feel your body pulling you towards sleep. Your eyes have barely opened and they want to close again.
Joel notices because how could he not, youâre completely naked in every sense of the word.
âGet some rest,â he says before standing up.
Heâs leaving.
âWhere are you going?â you ask, instinctively.
âDownstairs.â
You do not want to say it. The fear of rejection is too strong, but so is the sudden urge to cry. Holding back tears is a strength of yours, though, so Joel never sees them. Somehow, after doing one of the most adult things, you feel like a baby in the wake of it. You are supposed to be taking care of him, and you are failing.
âWhat?â is his response to your refusal to meet his eyes.
âI just assumed you were going to stay. Thatâs all.â
âI can. If thatâs what you need me to do.â
You donât say anything. He climbs into bed anyway after picking up your underwear and handing it to you.
He doesnât hold you but he doesnât leave either. What he does do is kiss you on the forehead when he thinks youâre already asleep. Itâs a compromise between your fear and your desire.
It isnât as weird as one might think it would be â acting as if youâve never done anything remotely sexual with one another. Itâs easier because you donât have to go back to being friends. You never really were. It was always awkward. Whatâs new? Only your knowledge that at least some of your feelings are mutual. Only the fact that you think about having sex with him every time heâs in front of you. Itâs really just out of curiosity sometimes. What would he be like in bed? Does he want it too? How would you even broach the subject?
Sometimes, itâs not just curiosity. Those days are harder to navigate. You have to pretend like every little touch â most of them accidental â fuels the fire. Itâs not the sensation itself. Itâs just the acute awareness of his body, how close it is to yours, how easily you could reach out and touch him, that enters your mind.
âYouâre staring.â Joel says from the other side of the couch.
âSorry. I zoned out.â
âGot somethingâ on your mind?â
âNot really.â
âCâmon, what is it?â
âWhy do you suddenly care about my thoughts?â About me.
âYou think I didnât care about you before? Youâve been in my house everyday for months now.â
âSo?â
âAnd, I havenât tried to kick you out yet.â
âYouâre not allowed to kick me out. That doesnât mean anything.â
âOkay. How âbout this: Iâm down here sitting with you because I know you donât like to be alone.â
âSo you pity me?â
âNo, if I pitied you, Iâd have told Tommy to give you a new job.â
âOkay, so, you expect me to believe you care but you refuse to talk to me half the time.â
âIâm not much of a talker. But, now that Iâm trying to talk to you, youâre shutting me out.â
âIâm notâ Itâs just not a big deal. I donât even remember what I was thinking about anyway.â
âBullshit.â
âWhat?â
âI said, thatâs bullshit.â
âOkay, fine. Iâll talk.â
You take a deep breath before speaking, one long enough that he gestures for you to go on.
âI was just thinking about what it would be like if we had sex.â
âExcuse me?â
âWell, since we, you know, we did that stuff⊠itâs not like itâs a totally crazy thought.â
ââThat stuffâ? Be more specific, honey.â
âYou know what Iâm talking about.â
âI do, but you canât be thinking about having sex with me when you canât even use big girl words when youâre talking about it.â
âIt doesnât even matter.ïżœïżœïżœ Your face is burning. It so, totally, does matter. âI was just curious.â
âOkay.â
âOkay?â
âMm-hmm. Go on thinking, Iâll get back to reading.â
âWait, what? You just made me tell you that to make me embarrassed? Youâre not even gonnaââ
âWhat? Gonna fuck you?â
The word slips out of his mouth so easily.
âI donât know, maybe.â
âWell, Iâm not.â
Truth is: heâs been thinking about you every day since. He only caught you staring because he was doing the same. He tries to restrain himself because it feels like the right thing to do.
But he still, he acquiesces and takes you upstairs to his bedroom.
He lays you down on the bed and undresses you slowly like youâre a gift and he doesnât want to tear the paper. He places your clothes atop the dresser, but leaves his strewn across the floor.
Wonder fills your eyes as he reveals his naked body. Hesitation and awe wrapped up in one.
âWow,â you say, breaking the silence, âitâs, um, you knowâ do you think itâll fit?â
Itâs not the first time heâs heard that. It no longer brings him that bashful pride that it did when he was younger. Itâs just a fact. A nuisance sometimes.
âNot if we donât get you ready first.â
âDo you need to get ready first too?â
He looks down at his cock, rock-hard and eager.
âNo, baby, just looking at you is enough to get me ready.â
A thought crosses his mind â one he thought heâd left in his teenage years â what if he comes too quickly?
He lies back on the bed next to you and reaches for you, waits for you to let him maneuver you.
âCome here,â he says.
You sit up and face him, slowly inch towards his arms that beckon you.
Youâre fairly sure you know what he wants you to do. Sit on his face. But god, something about it seems awkward in the amount of control you simultaneously give up and are given in turn.
âYou trust me, right?â he asks.
âOf course.â
An answer you wouldnât have ever thought youâd give back when you first met.
âThen, come sit on my face.â
You swing your leg over him and steady yourself above his face.
He grips your thighs to guide you. You grip the headboard to save yourself from passing out the moment Joelâs mouth meets your skin.
Joel wouldnât be the man youâd have thought would have such a talented tongue based on how little he uses it. You canât blame him for not talking right now. Your moans echo off his bedroom walls and permeate the balmy summer air. The windows are closed and the curtains shield your naked bodies from the neighbors but even if youâd left them open, you wouldnât have the sense to care.
Youâre an incoherent mess of moans and half-words, trembling thighs and sweat. Your orgasm comes on strong, and if your eyes werenât screwed shut, maybe youâd see the gates of heaven.
Itâs been a while since heâs done this. Tess never liked it like this and the last woman before her was one from another lifetime, pre-outbreak, an inconceivable world despite having once called it home.
Heâs not really thinking about that, though, in this moment, all Joel can think of is you. Your skin, your sweat, your heat, and the pretty noises you make. At one point, he swears he hears his name though your thighs are covering his ears. And he doesnât mind it one bit.
âIâm gonna pass out,â he hears from above him.
âNo, youâre not. Iâve got you,â he tries to say, though surely his words are muffled.
âDonât let me go.â
He doesnât. He carefully helps you lie back on the bed. When he meets your gaze, he swears heâs never seen adoration like that in anyoneâs eyes before. At least, not in a long time.
It terrifies him, but in spite of his hesitation, he holds you close.
A blanket of peaceful silence settles over your bare bodies.
You speak quietly, trying not to awaken Joelâs senses. The ones that pull him away from you. The moment feels like glass in your hands.
âAre we going to have sex?â
âHm?â
âWe were going to, right? You were getting me ready for it.â
âI thought I wore you out.â
âMaybe, but that doesnât mean I want to stop.â
âI donât want to hurt you.â
âIâd tell you if you were.â
He hesitates.
âIâll be good. I promise.â
Those are the words that awaken his arousal. In an instant, you find his body looming above yours. He kisses you until your lips are red and puffy. He doesnât break your gaze as he positions his cock at your entrance. Your green light is your needy hips begging him to fuck you.
He starts slow, even the head is a stretch. You scrunch up your face and hold back the urge to squirm.
âItâs gonna be a little uncomfortable at first, baby, and thatâs why weâre gonna take it slow.â
Slow is an understatement. It takes ages for him to give you another inch â or maybe youâre just antsy. This one makes you whimper, makes you clamp down around him.
âItâs okay, baby. Youâre gonna be fine.â
Joelâs voice is tender and sweet, and it gives you enough hope to ask for something you think heâd usually deny you.
âCan you hold my hand?â
He interlocks his fingers with yours. It feels oddly natural. He doubts heâs heard someone ask to hold his hand sinceâ not now, heâll go soft if he thinks about her. Heâll close in on himself and you need him â in more ways than one.
He continues slowly as he promised he would until he hears your moans of pleasure and your pleas for more, more, more. More is a little bit faster, a little bit harder, as deep as you can take it, and most importantly, his thumb tracing circles on your clit.
You squeeze his hand with yours as your inner walls clamp down around him.
âJust let it happen. Itâs okay. Iâm right here.â
When you come, he does too â the most blissful mistake heâs ever made.
Curses fly out of his mouth through his orgasm, stopping briefly as he catches his breath, and resuming when he pulls out and watches as his come drips out of you.
âFuck. Shit. Fuck, Iâm sorry.â
âItâs okay,â you insist. âI liked it.â
âIâm glad you liked it.â Because I fucking loved it. âBut, itâs dangerous. Weâve gotta be more careful.â
In the future â itâs implied. Another time is nothing when the lines have all been crossed and when the other side brings him a warmth the hot summer never could.
You have more power over him than the sun.
It becomes a routine â briefly â and you are more careful. You discreetly buy condoms, but when your next period doesnât come, you fear it might be too late.
You donât tell Joel, not at first. Sometimes, theyâre irregular, and you donât want to give the man a heart attack. But then a week passes, another week passes, and eventually you have to â especially when youâre beginning to feel a bit nauseous and have no other explanation for it. Itâs better to say something before he asks.
âJoel,â you say, âI havenât gotten my period yet.â
A look of horror crosses his face before he asks, âHow late is it?â
You take a breath before admitting, âA few weeks.â
âHow many?â
âAlmost three.â
âFuck.â He sighs in preemptive defeat. âHave you taken a test?â
âNo, I thought it would come so I didnât want to overreact.â
âWeâre going to go get one.â
He stands up immediately and turns towards the door.
âWait,â you say, stopping him in his tracks.
âI should probably get it. Itâll look less suspicious.â
No, it wonât. Those who suspect something is up with you, will have their suspicions, and those who donât, wonât think to pay attention.
They recommend taking multiple because false negatives are common.
The first one is a clear positive, so clear you think it might be a false positive, so you wait to freak out until you see two lines come up on the second test.
Joel is silent, even when you hand him the test.
But, so are you, because what more is there to say? The tests say it all.
âIâll do whatever you need me to,â he says, and youâre surprised until he clarifies.
âI doubt theyâll make you pay for the pill or the procedure â however they do it, but Iâll take care of you while youâre recovering. Iâll be there through it all. Promise.â
The pill or the procedure. The abortion that he expects you to have. Truth be told, you hadnât really thought about what youâd do until now. Itâs probably the right decision. Do you really want to bring a baby into this world? Can you even take care of one?
âOkay,â you say. âIâll make an appointment.â
You save your tears for Maria. She approaches you in the clinic. Youâd be delighted to see her at any other moment.
âMaking an appointment?â she asks.
âYeah, just a checkup,â you lie.
The woman at the counter clarifies with you. âJust a checkup? Is that what youâd prefer?â
You turn back and forth between her and Maria.
âUm, no,â you say, âkeep it as is.â
Maria raises an eyebrow and there is nowhere left to hide. You might be able to outrun her, but she knows where you live and isnât afraid to confront you at your doorstep.
She saves you some of your dignity when she whispers, âHow about a chat at my place? I have some tea that helps with nausea.â
The tea is persuasive but youâd have to go anyway. You donât speak on the walk to Mariaâs. She brews the tea and you sit across from each other in the kitchen before she finally speaks.
âWhatâs the appointment for?â she asks. âAnd Iâm not here to judge you, I just want the truth.â
Youâre not my mom, you could say, but sheâs the closest thing youâve had to one since your own passed.
âAn abortion,â you say quietly, looking down at the table, at your hands around the mug.
âOkay,â she says, gently. âThereâs nothing to be embarrassed about.â
You try to reply but all the comes out is a sob.
Eventually, she pries the truth out of you. You explain what happened when you told Joel the news.
âSo, he made the decision, and then told you heâd be there for you if he did what you wanted?â
âI guess. But, I think it might be the right choice. I mean, it'd be hard to raise a child in this worldâŠâ You cut yourself off when you look at her bump. Sheâs gonna be a mom, a good mom. And, stupidly, youâre jealous.
Even though itâs not there yet, you swear you can see a high chair in your periphery. You could be holding a warm bottle instead of a hot mug of tea. Maria could be feeding her child his first bite of baby food next to you.
âLet me ask you something, and I want you to really think about it, and be honest with me.â
You nod and wait for her question.
âIf Joel had said heâd support you no matter what, even if you wanted to keep the child, if he said heâd step up as a father, would you have made the appointment?â
âI donât know.â Oh, but you do. Maria waits for you to come to a conclusion, for you to spit it out.
âI like the idea of having a kid. I love kids, and I sometimes think about what it would be like being a mom, but I know that I canât be one. Not right now.â
If there is one thing Joel canât be, itâs a father. Not again. Heâs too old, too grouchy, too cynical. Heâs not the man he used to be. He was never good at it anyway. He couldnât save his own kid. Heâs already a failed father â once, if not, twice.
Youâd be a great mother, and thatâs the greatest tragedy. Heâs failed you already. Heâs not good at the kinder things of life. He shouldnât have indulged in you, in the love you gave him when he cannot give it back. There are a lot of things Joel canât quite get right â being a lover, a father, a good man.
Every night since the outbreak began, heâs watched Sarah bleed out in his arms. Sometimes he sees Tess, Sam and Henry, Bill, even Tommy which feels like an augury. Ellie is there almost every night, losing consciousness. Only sometimes is she in that hospital bed, often, sheâs lying in the show, with blue lips and almost no pulse. Now, youâve begun to enter his subconscious. Youâre always too far out of reach, screaming his name until heâs shot dead, and the last thing he hears is you shriek as you watch him die in front of you.
Another person is another tragedy once they have the misfortune of coming into his life. There cannot be another person, especially not a child.
You should be back by now, he thinks as he splashes water on his face for the umpteenth time, hoping itâll wash away all the mistakes heâs made.
He can tell itâs Maria by the way her knuckles rap on his front door. He can tell sheâs pissed too.
When he opens the door, he sees you in standing behind her, like youâre afraid of him.
âUnless you want to have this discussion on your doorstep, I suggest you let me â us â inside.â
He does, reluctantly.
âJoel Miller, when do you plan on becoming a man?â
âWhat?â
âYou just told her to make an appointment, didnât even give her a chance to think about it? You managed to run away from your problems while youâre on house arrest. Impressive.â
âI thought that was what we both wanted,â he says, looking past her, to you.
âI guess, maybe,â you shrug.
The one thing heâs grateful for is Mariaâs suggestion that you talk privately.
You sit further from him than usual, you refuse to meet his eyes.
âIâm sorry I didnât ask what you wanted. I thought I was making the right choice.â
âItâs okay. I donât even know what I want.â
But the tears suggest otherwise.
âDo you want to keep the baby?â
âMaybe, but I canât. Itâs not a good idea.â
âThatâs what I think, but Mariaâs right, itâs your choice.â
âBut I donât know how to make that choice.â
âYouâve got a good heart. Follow it.â
You spend a lot of time thinking, remembering, and trying to convince yourself that there is no part of you that wants to be a mother. But, in your bedside drawer, there is a handful of photos â all from before the outbreak. You see your mom as a child on a swing set, and as a teen blowing out candles on her birthday. Her mom is in that one too, sitting next to her, smiling. You wish more than anything to have pictures of you and your mom.
You think about the little girl who pretended a ratty old stuffed bear was her baby. You can hear your mom telling you that youâre doing a good job, how youâll be good at this one day. Your bedtime stories were never about fairy princesses, but about your family, the ones you didnât get to meet.
âI wish I could have that,â youâd say.
âOne day, you might be able to â the world is scary right now, but that doesnât mean itâs gonna be like this forever,â sheâd insist.
In retrospect, you wonder if she really believed that, if she really believed that teddy bear would one day be a baby that youâd be the one carrying, and sheâd be the proud grandmother.
âI told her I wanted to be a mom like her,â you explain to Joel, and he understands.
You know about Ellie, but not about Sarah. Joel never brings either of them up to you. Until now. Itâs a fair trade, he tells himself. Photos for photos, info for info. But itâs more than that.
âHold on for one minute, Iâm gonna go get something, and Iâll be right back.â
Itâll only take him a second to grab the pictures, but heâll need a moment to compose himself.
âThis is Sarah,â he says, pointing to the little girl in the photo. âMy daughter.â
Youâre silent for a moment, gazing at the photo, at a younger Joel youâve never met.
Youâre the first person not to tell him that youâre sorry for his loss, and he is relieved not to hear the empty sympathies once more.
âWhat was she like?â you ask.
Itâs hard to explain, and for that reason, he talks for at least a half hour about Sarah. All her likes and dislikes, all his favorite moments from the day she was born until the day she died. He tells the story of that too.
When you try to tell him that he sounds like he was a good dad, he has to explain why he wasnât.
âI couldnât save her,â he says.
âI couldnât save her either,â you say, pointing to your mother in one of the photos.
âYou were just a child,â he says. âItâs not your fault.â
âAnd, you were just a man,â you say. âItâs not your fault.â
âA grown man.â
âDoing the best that you could.â
And youâre right. He did try his best. He stops arguing not because heâll ever concede but because the weight of the present falls upon him all at once as he meets your eyes and remembers why youâre here.
He canât have Sarah back, he canât have Ellie back, but youâre right in front of him â and he loves you. Itâs too late to turn back and kick you out on your first day, itâs too late to never speak to you, itâs too late to not love you.
Itâs not too late to fail you like heâs failed everyone else. Itâs not too late to do the opposite either.
You tell him your decision, and wait for his disagreement, for him to dissuade you. But, he doesnât.
âOkay,â he says.
âWhat are you going to do?â
âIâm going to try my best.â
You cancel the appointment and make the final decision, but it doesnât feel real until Joel finishes building the crib in the spare bedroom. The most unexpected part is how excited you feel even when youâre nauseous, even when your feet are bloated, even when your back is killing you.
Youâre also terrified, particularly when you hear Mariaâs account of her labor and delivery. For someone describing how painful it was, she seems oddly unfazed, happy even. Sheâs too focused on her baby boy, and you get it â he is pretty cute.
When the day comes, you find that youâve underestimated the pain entirely. The wounds youâve gotten in combat are nothing compared to this. Every hour that goes by feels like a full day for you. Every time the doctor checks your dilation itâs still not yet time.
Until it is. And everything becomes a million times more chaotic. You swear the only thing keeping you sane is Joelâs hand in yours. (You have to apologize later for squeezing it so tightly.)
Finally, the telltale cry comes, and it feels like youâve run a marathon by how exhausted you are and by how proud you are of yourself for doing it. This will go down as the greatest feat of your life and you are more than satisfied with that fact.
The doctor announces that itâs a boy and though he said heâd be fine with either gender, Joelâs smile is wider than youâve ever seen it. Youâre smiling almost as big. It hurts your cheek muscles but you canât stop, especially when they hand you your baby boy. Though he doesnât know how to speak, his hand wrapped around your finger tells you that itâs going to be okay.
There is so much pain in this world, but not in this room.
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Preindustrial travel, and long explanations on why different distances are like that
Update March 1, 2024: Hey there folks, here's yet another update! I reposted Part 2a (the "medieval warhorses" tangent) to my writing blog, and I went down MORE of the horse-knowledge rabbit hole! https://www.tumblr.com/jadevine/741423906984951808/my-post-got-cut-off-so-i-added-the-rest-of-it Update Jan 30, 2024: Hey folks, I've posted the updated version of this post on my blog, so I don't have to keep frantically telling everyone "hey, that's the old version of this post!" https://thebalangay.wordpress.com/2024/01/29/preindustrial-travel-times-part-1/
I should get the posts about army travel times and camp followers reformatted and posted to my blog around the end of the week, so I'll filter through my extremely tangled thread for them.
Part 2 - Preindustrial ARMY travel times: https://www.tumblr.com/jadevine/739342239113871360/now-for-a-key-aspect-that-many-people-often-ask
Part 2a - How realistic warhorses look and act, because the myth of "all knights were mounted on huge clunky draft horses" just refuses to die: https://www.tumblr.com/jadevine/732043691180605440/helpful-things-for-action-writers-to-remember
Part 3 - Additional note about camp followers being regular workers AND sex-workers: https://www.tumblr.com/jadevine/740604203134828544/reblogging-the-time-looped-version-of-my
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I saw a post on my main blog about how hiking groups need to keep pace with their slowest member, but many hikers mistakenly think that the point of hiking is "get from Point A to Point B as fast as possible" instead of "spending time outdoors in nature with friends," and then they complain that a new/less-experienced/sick/disabled hiker is spoiling their time-frame by constantly needing breaks, or huffing and puffing to catch up.
I run into a related question of "how long does it take to travel from Point A to Point B on horseback?" a lot, as a fantasy writer who wants to be SEMI-realistic; in the Western world at least, our post-industrial minds have largely forgotten what it's like to travel, both on our own feet and in groups.
People ask the new writer, "well, who in your cast is traveling? Is getting to Point B an emergency or not? What time of year is it?", and the newbies often get confused as to why they need so much information for "travel times." Maybe new writers see lists of "preindustrial travel times" like a primitive version of Google Maps, where all you need to do is plug in Point A and Point B.
But see, Google Maps DOES account for traveling delays, like different routes, constructions, accidents, and weather; you as the person will also need to figure in whether you're driving a car versus taking a bus/train, and so you'll need to figure out parking time or waiting time for the bus/train to actually GET THERE.
The difference between us and preindustrial travelers is that 1) we can outsource the calculations now, 2) we often travel for FUN instead of necessity.
The general rule of thumb for preindustrial times is that a healthy and prime-aged adult on foot, or a rider/horse pair of fit and prime-aged adults, can usually make 20-30 miles per day, in fair weather and on good terrain.
Why is this so specific? Because not everyone in preindustrial times was fit, not everyone was healthy, not everyone was between the ages of 20-35ish, and not everyone had nice clear skies and good terrain to travel on.
If you are too far below 18 years old or too far past 40, at best you will need either a slower pace or more frequent breaks to cover the same distance, and at worst you'll cut the travel distance in half to 10 or so miles. Too much walking is VERY BAD on too-young/old knees, and teenagers or very short adults may just have short legs even if they're fine with 8-10 hours of actual walking. Young children may get sick of walking and pitch a fit because THEY'RE TIREDDDDDDDDDD, and then you might need to stay put while they cry it out, or an adult may sigh and haul them over their shoulder (and therefore be weighed down by about 50lbs of Angry Child).
Heavy forests, wetlands and rocky hills/mountains are also going to be a much shorter "distance" per day. For forests or wetlands, you have to account for a lot of villagers going "who's gonna cut down acres of trees for one road? NOT ME," or "who's gonna drain acres of swamp for one road? NOT ME." Mountainous regions have their traveling time eaten by going UP, or finding a safer path that goes AROUND, so by the time you're done slogging through drier patches of wetlands or squeezing through trees, a deceptively short 10-15 miles in rough terrain might take you a whole day to walk instead of the usual half-day.
If you are traveling in freezing winters or during a rainstorm (and this inherently means you HAVE NO CHOICE, because nobody in preindustrial times would travel in bad weather if they could help it), you run the high risk of losing your way and then dying of exposure or slipping and breaking your neck, just a few miles out of the town/village.
Traveling in TOO-HOT weather is just as bad, because pushing yourself too hard and getting dehydrated at noon in the tropics will literally kill you. It's called heat-STROKE, not "heat-PARTY."
And now for the upper range of "traveling on horseback!"
Fully mounted groups can usually make 30-40 miles per day between Point A and Point B, but I find there are two unspoken requirements: "Point B must have enough food for all those people and horses," and "the mounted party DOESN'T need to keep pace with foot soldiers, camp followers, or supply wagons."
This means your mounted party would be traveling to 1) a rendezvous point like an ally's camp or a noble's castle, or 2) a town/city with plenty of inns. Maybe they're not literally going 30-40 miles in one trip, but they're scouting the area for 15-20 miles and then returning to their main group. Perhaps they'd be going to an allied village, but even a relatively small group of 10-20 warhorses will need 10-20 pounds of grain EACH and 20-30 pounds of hay EACH. 100-400 pounds of grain and 200-600 pounds of hay for the horses alone means that you need to stash supplies at the village beforehand, or the village needs to be a very large/prosperous one to have a guaranteed large surplus of food.
A dead sprint of 50-60 miles per day is possible for a preindustrial mounted pair, IF YOU REALLY, REALLY HAVE TO. Moreover, that is for ONE day. Many articles agree that 40 miles per day is already a hard ride, so 50-60 miles is REALLY pushing the envelope on horse and rider limits.
NOTE: While modern-day endurance rides routinely go for 50-100 miles in one day, remember that a preindustrial rider will not have the medical/logistical support that a modern endurance rider and their horse does.
If you say "they went fifty miles in a day" in most preindustrial times, the horse and rider's bodies will get wrecked. Either the person, their horse, or both, risk dying of exhaustion or getting disabled from the strain.
Whether you and your horse are fit enough to handle it and "only" have several days of defenselessness from severe pain/fatigue (and thus rely on family/friends to help you out), or you die as a heroic sacrifice, or you aren't QUITE fit enough and become disabled, or you get flat-out saved by magic or another rider who volunteers to go the other half, going past 40 miles in a day is a "Gondor Calls For Aid" level of emergency.
As a writer, I feel this kind of feat should be placed VERY carefully in a story: Either at the beginning to kick the plot off, at the climax to turn the tide, or at the end.
Preindustrial people were people--some treated their horses as tools/vehicles, and didn't care if they were killed or disabled by pushing them to their limits, but others very much cared for their horses. They needed to keep them in working condition for about 15-20 years, and they would not dream of doing this without a VERY good reason.
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UPDATE January 13: Several people have gotten curious and looked at maps, to find out how a lot of cities are indeed spread out at a nice distance of 20-30 miles apart! I love getting people interested in my hyperfixations, lol.
But remember that this is the space between CITIES AND TOWNS. There should never be a 20-mile stretch of empty wilderness between City A and Town B, unless your world explains why folks are able to build a city in the middle of nowhere, or if something has specifically gone wrong to wipe out its supporting villages!
Period pieces often portray a shining city rising from a sea of picturesque empty land, without a single grain field or cow pasture in sight, but that city would starve to death very quickly in preindustrial times.
Why? Because as Bret Devereaux mentions in his âLonely Citiesâ article (https://acoup.blog/2019/07/12/collections-the-lonely-city-part-i-the-ideal-city/), preindustrial cities and towns must have nearby villages (and even smaller towns, if large and prosperous enough!) to grow their food for them.
The settlements around a city will usually be scattered a few miles apart from each other, usually clustered along the roads to the city gates. Those villages and towns at the halfway point between cities (say 10-15 miles) are going to be essential stops for older/sick folks, merchants with cargo, and large groups like nobleâs retinues and army forces.
Preindustrial armies and large noble retinues usually canât make it far past 10-12 miles per day, as denoted in my addition to this post. (https://www.tumblr.com/jadevine/739342239113871360/now-for-a-key-aspect-that-many-people-often-ask )
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If you consider yourself a 'shipper' of ANY of the dynamics in Daniel Molloy's new book unfollow me and I'm not kidding. You read a book about toxic and abusive relationships and decided to sexualize them that's on you
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'don't sexualize them' is crazy. he describes one of them as doing 24/7 bdsm and describes the other couple's sex scenes in detail, multiple times
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an old man being a weirdo freak doesnt mean you have to be. he has two pulitzers and you have an ao3 account
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do not understand vampstat's agreeing to participate in this book At All because why would you not want yourself to be cast as louis, the guy who actually got interviewed and got fucked over at every turn. at least armand eats crypto bros. what has lestat done except domestic violence and child neglect
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sick and tired of seeing this propaganda on my dashboard. first of all it's ARMAND who abuses louis, not lestat, as you can CLEARLY tell if you actually pay any attention to the book's second half. louis isn't a reliable narrator; that's the whole point. armand just deluded him into thinking lestat had done worse than he had
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lestat literally drops him hundreds of feet from the air causing his own daughter to orchestrate his murder. HOW would a man they had not met yet be to blame for this
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it's a gothic horror FIRST of all and armand can manipulate memories, canonically, so I'm not sure why we would assume the truth of any of this. it's so clear that lestat is the love of louis's life, the book is a love story, and if you're not willing to see that you don't get it
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lestat was born with glass bones and paper skin and every morning he breaks his legs and at night he lies awake in agony until his heart attacks put him to sleep
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does anyone in this thread smoke weed
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personally I would deeply love to believe this is all real because if so all of these people may be the funniest people to ever exist. one of them has been alive since the 1700s and has decided his calling is to be a pop artist. and his boyfriend is a vegetarian art dealer who was the dom in 24-7 bdsm with a theater cult leader who he ghosted in like 1810. that's so epic
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stfu you were posting lestat rpf like a week ago
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Ordered my TVL merch today and the mug has the actual texture of blood on it. Epic
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okay we don't actually know much beyond that it was in the summer but happy death month to lestat! lestat de lioncourt has officially been dead for 231 slutty, slutty years đ
#wish I believed in this shit yall seem so happy.
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honestly if you read that book and you like a single one of them I don't trust u. I'll never forgive them for what they did to claudia
#louis i would forgive you but she's dead and can't join me so :(
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they should make lestat a guest judge on drag race
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it actually pisses me off sooo bad that heâs in a gay PR relationship with some twink who looks like his love interest from his fucking fictional vampire book. Girl didnât straight people corner the market on this
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is this about tvl or dan molloy
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this is how im finding out vampire interviewed author has a fucking 20yearold twink boyfriend who looks like the sexy evil guy from his book I can't do this anymore
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honestly wish the book weren't fake bc if it weren't this would be sooo camp. imagine you break up this 500 year old guy's marriage 2 separate times and he's like I simply must have you
#feel like armand would do this as a character
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say what u will about dan malloy but inventing vampirism to justify an age gap relationship is maybe the funniest thing anyone will ever do
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Malloy.
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why the fuck did you take the time to make this
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#just like louis in that damn investment property...
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Much as the PR stunt has given it a bad rap, the bookâs exploration of both the experience of Creole men in New Orleans at the turn of the century, as well as the experience of the colonial subject in the Renaissance era, is genuinely very interesting. Making up a fictional abusive relationship between the two characters exemplifying these themes and using the ways in which each of them have been devalued to draw into that is sort of insane but it really works! The publicity shtick is nuts but the book itself is actually fantastic and soo worth your time
#also claudia makes me deeply insane. essay about her forthcoming
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if you're somehow supporting the vampire lestat in this beef â which by the way, he's again picking with a woman â you need to be fully aware that the man you're supporting is not just parodying A Generic Vampire: he's a walking caricature of bisexual and french men, and by insisting he's a real vampire, he's not only playing into harmful and xenophobic stereotypes around Europeans, but sexualizing a genuinely dangerous kink (bloodplay). not to mention the guy he's cosplaying helped murder his own daughter and never cared about the racism his partner experienced, which has really upsetting implications. and don't forget that he shares the name of a guy who was found to have bones at his house :/
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baby why didn't we begin with the bonesđ
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the bones were from the house of a guy nicknamed Lysander whose actual name was Simon something. this has been debunked a hundred times why do we need to keep having this discourse
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favorite things about this post: - the implication that a rockstar who cosplays a fucking vampire is being problematic by reproducing french stereotypes - the implication that the vampire is an anti european stereotype???? - the random misinformation - the fact that this person clearly didnt even read the book they're complaining about - 'sexualizing a genuinely dangerous kink (bloodplay)'
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Taylor would never have been in this beef back when she was dating Joe :/
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speaking of tvl yall ever checked out his tiktok videos whys the motherfucker live in a shack. also i know it's for the bit but the 'sad white suburban mom quotes about motherhood' is a lot to take in
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who cares did you see his von dutch lipsync
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white billionaire with a private jet appropriating the struggles of gnc artists... didnt know harry styles and taylor swift had a secret baby
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Who will the Vampire Lestat pick beef with next: poll
UPDATE: Before this poll even closed we got the answer! It was Charli xcx.
#interview with the vampire#iwtv#elle.txt#i spent like genuinely forever on this so everyone needs to reblog it.
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MAKE HIM DISLIKE LOVE YOU
Harry Castillo x Reader (The Materialists)
Chapter 7: Apologize
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Chapter Summary: When you call it quits on secrets, itâs funny how more of them spill out. Then Harry comes sprinting after you, begging for forgiveness. I mean, how can you say no to that face? Warnings: 18+ (smut, MDNI) kinda romantic comedy stuff, fluffy, angst, lying, soft and caring Harry Castillo, Lucy as his ex, John as Lucy's ex, wealth, expensive gifts, drinks, money, cars, language, sexual tension, oral sex, p in v sex, kissing, slow burn, power imbalance, I might have missed some warnings; I will update them in due time. Chapter Word Count: 10,5k, ROMANCE, feelings!!! fluffy, rom-com, lust, passion, jealousy, dirty talk, love triangle authors note: Thank you all for your support, asks, comments, reblogs and likes. I appreciate each and every one of you! Love you all!

As the elevator headed up to the penthouse, disbelief hit you hard. How could Harry have lied to you like that? Youâd been cleaning his place without even knowing it. It felt like a total betrayal, but honestly, you were more pissed off than anything. Then another thought struck youâthose cameras. Had he been watching you this entire time?
âJerk. Fuckin' asshole.â
âHuh?â
Right, you were in the elevator with Mia, this little girl you just met, both of you heading to the same flat. But it was clear you had a shared goal. The elevator chimed as you reached the penthouse, and Mia stopped you. âI need to do something first.â
âWhat do you mean?â you asked, confused.
Mia peeked out of the elevator, checking the area. âThe cameras,â she said.
You were caught off guard.
âI canât let my mom find out Iâm here, so I need to shut them down before we go in.â
âYour mom is Maria, right?â
âYou know her too? Who even are you?â
With a smirk, you said, âJust think of me as your partner in crime.â
Mia raised an eyebrow. âPartner in crime?â
Leaning in a bit, you said, âI want to take down those damn cameras too.â
She thought about it for a second, narrowed her eyes, and then glanced at your uniform. âSo thatâs you, huh? My mom mentioned you.â
âWhat did she say?â
She smirked. âYou are the girl who made Uncle Harry look like heâd been hit by a truck.â
You giggled. âI really want to hit him with a truck right now. Because you see, I didn't know it was his apartment when I was cleaning here, he played a trick on me. And as if that wasn't enough, he watched me on the cameras. So what do you say, partner? You want to smash those cameras?â
She frowned. âSmash them? What are you, a vandal?â She took his tablet out of her school bag. âHere, I'll activate the app here, but since we're partners, I need you to turn on the signal first, can you do that?â
You felt like an idiot next to this smart 10-year-old girl. âOkay, tell me what to do, partner.â
âSince you're the cleaning lady who always comes here...â
âMaid.âÂ
âYeah, maid, whatever. I need you to go to the control panel on the wall and choose the option to connect to nearby devices.âÂ
You frowned. âWhy canât I just walk over and hit the button to turn off the camera? There has to be an option for that.âÂ
She rolled her eyes. âThanks Einstein, if you do that, the camera's feed will be disabled and Uncle Harry will receive a notification, which could make him suspicious. Iâll just link to the camera from the tablet and adjust its angle. Then there won't be anything to worry about. It's not like Uncle Harry is going to be monitoring the camera constantly during his meetings at work.â
Now you felt even more silly; it was a super clever plan. âWow, youâre really smart,â you said. She styled her hair like her mom. âI know. Just go do what I say.â
You chuckled softly, âUnderstood, maâam.â
She flashed a grin.
As you entered the apartment, you acted casually, avoiding the cameras while strolling down the corridor. âIt feels like Iâm in a movie,â you whispered to yourself. You quickly connected to the cameras through the control panelâs touch screen and hit "add device." Moments later, Mia's tablets name appeared, confirming the connection.
âConnection complete,â Mia announced as she walked in.
âHigh five, girl!â you said, extending your hand.
She laughed and high-fived you back. âWe make an awesome team. I like you.â
âI like you too, Mia,â you replied with a wink.
Looking at the cameras, you realized Mia was indeed controlling them from her tablet. They were all aimed toward the corners, so as long as you didnât walk by, the cameras wouldnât catch you. Mia sprawled out on the couch as if it were her own home and started watching a video on her tablet. Glancing at her knee, you noticed it was slightly bleeding.
âHey, let me take care of that knee,â you said, heading to grab a first aid kit. When you returned, you sat beside her and cleaned her wound with some alcohol. âIs this because you skipped school today? Is it about your mom?â
She sighed. âYeah, itâs about her and my dad. They keep saying theyâll get divorced, but nothing changes.â
You paused. That must be tough for her. âI didnât know; that sounds rough. How do you feel about it?â
She shrugged. âI just want them to figure it out already. Iâm so tired of their drama and constant arguing.â
âI get it. If it ever gets to be too much, just call me. My place isnât nearly as big as this oneâbarely bigger than the living roomâbut Iâll make room for you. What do you think?â
Mia smiled with a maturity beyond her years. âThanks, youâre a really good friend.â
You smiled back and wrapped her knee with some bandages. âAlright, donât take this off until tomorrow, got it?âÂ
âGot it, thanks,â he said as he flopped back onto the couch. âYouâre mad at him, huh?âÂ
You nodded. âYeah, Iâm really angry. I just want to break everything in here,â you muttered while glancing around.Â
âHow mature,â he remarked quietly.Â
Feeling a bit embarrassed, you looked at her. âI mean, of course I wonât actually do that.âÂ
âMy mom did,â she replied, surprisingly calm. âShe broke everything in Dadâs office. You adults can be super childish sometimes, and then want us to act like weâre grown-ups.âÂ
You let out a nervous laugh. âYouâre not wrong; we can be pretty childish about things.âÂ
âJust talk it out and figure it out,â she said.
You grabbed the first aid kit and stood up. âWhat if Iâm so mad at him that I donât even want to talk?â
She smiled. âI donât think you are.â You raised an eyebrow. âWell, I hope you are not, because I donât want him to be upset.â She was messing with something on her tablet.
You loved how she was just like her mom, always keeping an eye on Harry. âI donât want to upset him, honey, but I have to make him eat a little humble pie, okay?â
âBut youâll forgive him later, right?â she asked with hope in her voice.
âOf course, I love him,â you said softly.
âAwesome,â she said, clearly happy, and went back to playing with the tablet.
âWell, I guess I should get back to my chores,â you said, heading into the kitchen to start cleaning up.

âWhat's up?â
Oliver stepped into his office to find Harry staring at his tablet with a frown.
âThereâs something wrong with the cameras. They wonât rotate and thereâs no sound coming through. Do you think there's a bug in the app?â
âMaybe your girlfriend got fed up with the cameras and sabotaged them,â he quipped, taking a closer look. âLet me see.â
âI can't blame her,â Harry replied, guilt creeping in.
Oliver noticed Harryâs troubled look as he fiddled with the app. âSeriously, when are you going to tell her?â
âIâm planning to do it tonight,â Harry said with determination. âI just couldnât find the right moment this morning.â
At that moment, Maria walked into the office. âHarry, I'm seriously considering taking that tablet away from you. Youâve been messing with it more than Mia. I worked really hard to convince themâitâs not worth ruining the meeting over.â
âHe was just worried he couldnât see his girlfriend on the camera,â Oliver muttered.
Harry shot him a glare.
âOkay, thatâs enough. Iâm calling her right now and telling her everything,â Maria said, pulling out her phone.
Harry jumped up and grabbed the phone from her hand. âStay out of it. Iâll handle this.â
Just then, her phone began to ring. âSchool,â Harry said, handing her phone back to Maria.
Maria picked up immediately. âHello? Yes, this is her mom.â
Harry glanced at Oliver. âHave you fixed it yet?â
âNope, itâs weird. Itâs like someone else has logged into the cameras on their phone and taken over.â
âWhat did you just say?â
They both turned to Maria, who looked concerned. âOkay,â she said, hanging up.
Harry frowned. âIs everything okay?â
âMia,â Maria said as she dialed another number. âHer teacher said she didnât show up to school today. Come on, pick up the damn phone.â But Mariaâs face dropped when Mia's dad said he hadnât seen her either.
âOr perhaps she went back home,â Oliver added.
âWeâll find out now,â Maria said, pulling up an app on her phone.
Harry moved closer to her. âWhat are you doing?â
âTracking Mia with a smartwatch app,â she said, waiting for the app to locate her. âIf that doesnât work, Iâll try the app that tracks her phone.â
âGeez, Maria. Have you planted a bug on her, too?â Oliver said with a smirk.
âI wouldnât be surprised if she did,â Harry scoffed.
âYouâll understand when you become parents,â Maria replied, giving them a pointed look.
âHopefully not for a long time,â Oliver said.
Harry chuckled at the idea.
âThere! Iâve got it,â Maria said, her eyes widening. âOh no. Harry, you need to see this,â she said, showing him her phone screen.
Harry froze, staring at the location the app found. âNoâŠFuck...â
Oliver leaned over to take a look. âDamn, this is your apartment.â

Cleaning duty today felt tougher than usual. Ever since you discovered it was Harryâs house, things had started to feel different, especially now that you were technically his girlfriend. It made you feel a bit like a housewife, which was both thrilling and painful at the same time. You still needed answers, as you felt genuinely hurt. But your love for him was so strongâwhat could you really do? Deep down, you werenât sure how long you could cling to your anger. With your pride and stubbornness tossed aside, you werenât thinking straight anymore, so you chose to let it go for now.
As you walked through the hallway with the cleaning bucket, your eyes landed on that doorâthe locked door.
The secret room.
What was Harry hiding behind it? There were no keys in sight, so how would you ever get it open?
Did Mia know about this room?
When you walked in to check on her, her eyes were closed; was she asleep? Just as you turned to slip out quietly, you caught a hint of a muffled soundâno, she was crying.
âMia? Are you okay?â
She sniffled and nodded, but kept her eyes shut. You moved to sit beside her on the couch. âHey, whatâs wrong, honey?â
âNothing... just nothing.â
You gently patted her head. âYou sure? You can tell me. I'll keep it between us, I promise.â
âMy mom and dad... I hate them, especially my mom. They decided to get divorced without even consulting me. I donât want them to split up, but they didnât even ask how I feel. They wonât love me anymore, and theyâre going to be busier with their work.â
âShh, donât think like that. Of course, theyâll still love you. Theyâre your parents, and their love for you will never fade, I assure you.â
âHow do you know?â
âBecause a motherâs love for her child is unconditional; it canât just vanish. You're not the reason they're breaking up, I swear. Sometimes, even if adults love each other, things get messy, and splitting up is the only way to handle it. It might seem like the end, but it can also lead to something better.â
âReally?â she murmured, her eyelids growing heavy.
âAbsolutely, trust me. Youâre lucky to have both your mom and dad around; Iâm sure theyâll take care of you, even if things change. I kind of envy you because I lost my mom, and I'll never get the chance to tell her how much I miss her. I wish she were still alive. As for my dad... it feels like he doesnât care about meâhe doesnât even bother to call, you know?â Your voice cracked slightly. âBut your mom and dad are with you and must have been searching for you all morning, havenât they, Mia? Iâm sure they are worriedââ
Looking down, you saw that she had fallen asleep, holding your hand tightly. A smile crossed your face as you wrapped your other arm around her. Suddenly, you felt tired too, and before you knew it, you drifted off beside her.

âMia? Sweetie?â Maria called out for her daughter.
You blinked awake, realizing Harryâs face was mere inches from yours, and his hand was gently resting on your cheek. You stared at him for a moment before pushing his hand away and getting off the couch.
How did you even fall asleep?
Mia stirred and rubbed her eyes. âMom?â
âWhat happened to your knee?â Maria's voice rang out.
âItâs nothing, just a little scrape. I fell in the street, and she helped me clean and bandage it.â She pointed to you.
All eyes turned to you, but you avoided their gazes. You forced a smile at Mia and quickly looked away. âI think itâs time for me to go. I hope you enjoyed my service, Mr. Castillo,â you said, trying to sound casual as you made your way to the door.
Oliver stood by the entryway, looking guilty.
âWait,â Harry called after you. Just then, Maria touched your shoulder.
âThank you. Iâm so relieved that Mia has been with you all day,â she said, pulling you into a hug that took you by surprise.
âYouâre welcome, sheâs a very smart girl,â you replied, feeling a bit evasive.
She beamed at you, and you offered a smile back, though it felt awkward given the situation.
âCan I talk to you for a minute?â Harry approached you from behind, his voice soft but insistent.
You turned to face him. âWith whom? With your girlfriend? Or with your maid-in?â
Harry let out a troubled sigh, his frustration evident as he glared at you. You turned away again. âThereâs nothing to talk about,â you said, stepping closer to the door.
Maria nudged Harry from behind, encouraging him to move. He stepped in front of you, causing you to halt abruptly.
âHow can you say thereâs nothing to talk about? Thereâs plenty,â he insisted, moving closer and locking eyes with you.
You turned your head away again. âWere you trying to get revenge? If you wanted to talk, you should have spoken up sooner.â
âRevenge?â he replied, confused.
âSo because I lied to you from the start and deceived you, this was your way of getting back at me?â
âI would never, never do that,â he shook his head, his expression earnest.
âIs it out of pity then?â
His brown eyes darkened with frustration. âYou know itâs not like that.â
âThen why, Harry? Why did you hire me for this job without giving me a heads-up? You totally deceived me. Did you actually enjoy watching me on camera the whole time?â
âIâm sorry. I felt responsible because you were unemployed because of me, and I wanted to helpââ
âIt wasnât because of you! Besides, I could have found a job myself. You didnât need to use your money or power. Did you really think I would feel better about this? Right now, I just feel like a complete idiot. How could you do this to me?â
Maria took Miaâs hand and started to leave. âYou two talk it out; weâll give you some space, come on, Ollie.â
âNo, thereâs nothing left to say,â you snapped angrily.
"But you'll forgive him later, won't you?"Â
"Of course, I love him."Â
Oh no, that sounds just like what you told Mia earlier.
Did she record you?Â
"Mia!" you complained, glancing at her.
She just shrugged, holding her tablet. "Sorry, my finger slipped."
"That's my girl," Mia said with a giggle, as she high-fived her.Â
Oliver chuckled, and Harry smiled.Â
But you narrowed your eyes at them, feeling furious.Â
"Oops, we should get going," she said to her mother. They quickly headed for the elevator, leaving you alone with Harry.
But before you could go after them, Harry came up behind you, wrapping his arms around you and lifting you off your feet.
âWhat are you doing? Harry! Put me down!âÂ
âNope. You're going to listen, sweetheart. No more running away.âÂ
âLet go!â you protested, but he refused to budge.Â
 He carried you to the couch and set you down next to him, holding your hands tightly, but you turned your head away.Â
âBaby, please forgive me. I tried to explain before, but I just couldnât find the right words. I thought helping you find a job would make you happy. I never meant to offend or hurt you; please believe that.âÂ
âDid it have to be your house?â you grumbled.Â
âIsnât this better than being at someone else's place?âÂ
You narrowed your eyes at him.Â
His hand trembled as he sighed. âI mean, I hate this too. It hurts to see you so exhausted, to watch you work so hard, and I canât stand the thought of your beautiful hands being worn down in those cleaning gloves. I want to kiss those lovely fingers, to cherish them.âÂ
As he began to kiss your fingers one by one, your heart raced. You almost let your guard down, almost kissed him.
Almost.
âHarry,â you whispered. âThis is my job, andââÂ
âDonât,â he interjected, frustration evident in his voice. âCanât you just skip the cleaning? You can keep working with Chef Bruno, but please, no more cleaning.âÂ
âIs it because you donât want to introduce your girlfriend in that way?âÂ
âNo, what I mean isââÂ
You stood up, your frustration boiling over. âIâm sorry, but this is my life. I have no problem introducing you to my friends, but it seems you hesitate to do the same. I canât change who I am.âÂ
He rose to his feet as well. âI donât know how we ended up here. I never intended for this to happen. Listen-âÂ
âHarry, you listen. I understand your intentions, and I appreciate them, but I wish you had considered how I might feel in all of this. And I can't do this if...âÂ
âWait a minute, why do I feel like youâre giving a breakup speech?âÂ
âBecause I am,â you said, tears brimming in your eyes.Â
âNo, no, no, donât do that.â He moved closer, but you took a step back and raised your hand.Â
âWe agreed there would be no secrets between us, but we couldnât even manage that. How can our relationship develop from here?âÂ
âThere are no secrets left now that everything is out in the open,â he said, trying to smile. You crossed your arms and bit your lip, acknowledging his point. Then he drew nearer and wrapped his arms around you.
âI promise, baby, there will never be any secrets between us again, I swear,â he murmured, pressing a gentle kiss to the top of your head, his breath soft and tender. âPlease donât leave me.â The plea struck deep within you, twisting like a knife. How could you even entertain such a thought? The very idea of parting from him was unbearable, a wound that throbbed in your chest and brought stinging tears to your eyes. It was the last thing you wantedâa painful notion that sent ripples of hurt through your heart.
In that moment, you set aside all other emotions and surrendered to the warmth of his embrace, allowing yourself to rest your head on his chest for a while.
âWhat about that locked room?â you asked then, glancing toward it, wiping your tears meanwhile. âI wonder what youâre hiding behind that door.âÂ
A sly grin crept across his face. âDo you want to see it? But promise me that once you see whatâs inside, youâll tell me you love me again, and you wonât leave me. Deal?âÂ
âIt all depends on whatâs in there.âÂ
He chuckled, then walked into the bedroom, still holding your hand. Nervousness washed over you as you tried to pull your hand back.Â
âRelax, Iâm not trying to lure you into bed,â he laughed. âAt least, not right now.âÂ
âYou wish,â you grunted.Â
He chuckled as he opened the nightstand drawer. âFunny. You were practically begging me last night. I can still hear you meowing.âÂ
Your cheeks flushed. âI donât remember any of that,â you lied.Â
He pulled out a box from the drawer and took out a key. âI have the scars on my back to prove it, kitten,â he teased.Â
Your face was burning now, as red as a tomato. âStop it and do what you need to do.âÂ
Chuckling, he held up the key, âHere it is; come on,â taking your hand again.Â
Together, you stood in front of the locked door. Harry inserted the key into the lock and paused to look at you. âAre you ready, baby? The big secret is about to be revealed.âÂ
You rolled your eyes. âStop showing off and open the damn door,â you muttered.Â
Grinning, he unlocked the door and stepped back, inviting you in with his hand.
You hesitated before stepping into the room, shocked at what you saw.Â
To your left stood a massive floor-to-ceiling wardrobe filled with clothes, and to your right was a complete wardrobe of bags and shoes. In the center was an elegant dressing table. Harry slid open the wardrobe, revealing all the clothes and shoes he had ever bought you, carefully arranged. He embraced you from behind, resting his chin on your shoulder and kissing your cheek. âItâs all yours. This room is for you. I was waiting for you to say yes to me before I revealed it to you. I kept it locked and tried to stay away, but I found it hard to resist many times,â he whispered, nuzzling along the curve of your neck.
You were rendered speechless, taken aback. Then you noticed a jewelry box on the dresser. âIsnât that the earring?â You walked over, picked it up, and examined it closely. âHave you had this all along?âÂ
âOops, looks like another secret is out,â he said with a chuckle.Â
You shot him a pointed look. âYou really. Why didnât you say anything when I told you I would pay you back?âÂ
âBecause you broke my heart,â he replied softly. âYou told me you never wanted to see me again, so I thought the earring would be a good excuse to get you to meet me.âÂ
âYou're unbelievable,â you shot back, your irritation surfacing.Â
âWhat about you?â he countered, but then his expression softened as he noticed the look on your face. âI love you,â he confessed, his lips forming the word like an apology.Â
Damn he was so cute.
His adorableness made you giggle despite yourself.Â
âYou didnât say it again.âÂ
âSay what?âÂ
âDo you want me to make you say it? Just like last night,â he whispered, leaning in close. âYou remember how well that turned out.â His lips brushed against your earlobe as his hand slowly slipped down, hovering dangerously close to your thigh. Your reaction was instinctive; you caught his hand. However, his lips found their way to your neck, and you couldn't help but bite your lower lip and roll your eyes. âHarry, stop.âÂ
âI know you want me, baby; donât try to deny it,â he purred, his voice low and teasing.Â
âNo, youâre wrong,â you replied, almost breathless.Â
âThen why are you holding my hand so tightly?â he whispered, a smirk playing on his lips.Â
You withdrew your hand quickly, shocked at your own reaction.
What the fuck?
When did this escalate?
You frowned at his chuckle. âI really hate you,â you whined, though your irritation was half-hearted.Â
âNo, you don't,â he laughed, clearly enjoying the banter.Â
âWell, I really like this room, but that doesnât mean I forgive you. And it definitely doesnât mean Iâm ready to jump into bed with you,â you declared stubbornly.Â
âThen what do I need to do to win your forgiveness? Iâll do anything,â he said, voice dripping with seduction.
The look he gave you was enough to make you avert your gaze.Â
âI donât know; I need to think,â you said, fighting back a giggle. âBut I have to go nowâI told Bruno I would head to the hotel early.â You turned to leave the room.Â
He followed right behind you. âIâll give you a ride.âÂ
You responded without looking back. âWell, if youâre that eager.â
With a smile, he followed you behind as you walked toward the elevator.

âHave you forgiven me yet?â Harry asked again as he parked the car in front of the hotel.
âYou just asked me that five minutes ago."
âIâll keep asking until you say you forgive me,â he replied, shutting off the engine.
You opened the door and turned to him. âAt least let me think it over.â
He took your hand, pulled you closer, and placed a quick kiss on your cheek. âWhatever you say, kitty. Good luck at work.â
âThanks for the ride,â you said with a faint smile, stepping out and closing the door behind you.
As you made your way to the hotel entrance, Harry watched you from the driverâs seat. Just then, you spotted Alan getting out of his own car, heading your way.
âGood evening,â he greeted you.
You turned and smiled, âGood evening, Mr. Finnegan.â
âCome on, call me Alan already, will you?â
Harry, watching from a distance, muttered, âAsshole.â Trying to keep his cool, he stepped out of the car and approached you two. âBaby,â he called out, and before you could react, he spun you around and kissed you so passionately that it left you breathless. Pulling back, he glanced at Alan and added, âI almost took off without kissing my girlfriend goodbye.â The way he said âgirlfriendâ caught his attention and everyone around the street.
Alanâs expression darkened.
You felt the heat rise in your cheeks, caught off-guard by how intimate the kiss had been.
âAnyway, I should be on my way,â he said.
"Yeah, you do that," you said, squinting at him and gesturing for him to leave.
âGood night, Finnegan,â Harry said, getting into his car, clearly amused by Alan's reaction.
Shaking your head at Harry, you noticed Alan squinting at him, clearly unamused. âI didnât realize you were with him,â Alan said as he walked inside.
âWell, things are a bit complicated,â you murmured.
âNot surprising, things always get messy with Castillo,â Alan muttered quietly.Â
âExcuse me?â
âI just... You really should think twice about being with him,â he warned lightly.
âAlan, itâsââ
âAnyway, I suppose my employeesâ personal lives are none of my business,â he said with a smirk, heading toward the elevator.
What just happened?
Why had he said that?
And why was he suddenly in a good mood?
You really should have asked Harry about the weird thing between them, but now you had to focusâyou had a kitchen to get to.

Things were really hectic in the kitchen, and as if that werenât enough, Alan was having a business lunch in the dining room and asked you to make some desserts just for him. As you handed off the treats to the waitstaff, he called you over and praised your work. If he wasnât your boss, you might have said something about his overwhelming attention, but you figured it was best to keep quiet until your internship was over. Then, just when you thought the day couldnât get any worse, Melanie called.
âWhat do you want?â you asked, annoyed.
âWhat do I want? I need you to talk to my dad, and I want you to do it right now, like you promised!â
âI will, but I've been super busy and havenât had time yet.â
âWell, itâs on you. If my dad doesnât let me come back home, Iâll just crash at your place.â
âWait, what? You called my house a disgusting little flat. Arenât you with Nate? Canât he help you out?â
âDonât even mention that jerk!â
âDid you two break up already? Wow, that was quick, even for you.â
âJust drop it, okay? Itâs none of your business. Talk to my dad tomorrow night or Iâll make your life miserable!â
âAs if you werenât already a pain in my ass!â you shot back and hung up in frustration. As you walked toward the exit, muttering under your breath, someone called out from behind.
Ugh, it was Alan again.
âAre you okay? You sounded like you were venting at someone on the phone,â he said, wearing that annoying smile.
âSorry about that, I didnât mean to raise my voice.â
âWell, if you did it, they probably deserved it,â he said, grinning.
Just when you thought it was over, you turned to leave but almost bumped into the revolving door. Alan grabbed your arm, pulling you back.
âWatch out!â he said.
What the hell?
You couldâve easily dodged the door; you weren't that clumsy. His other arm wrapped around you, too.
âThanks, but Iâm fine,â you said, carefully pushing his hand away. âHave a good night.â
âYou too,â he replied, watching you walk away as you stormed out. Your phone buzzed again, but you ignored it; you werenât in the mood for more of Melanieâs drama.
Suddenly, you heard footsteps behind you and turned to see Harry.
âWhy didnât you answer your phone? Are you okay?â he asked, and just seeing him made you feel so much better.
âYeah, sorry, thought it was Melanie,â you said, spotting the bouquet of pink roses he was holding.
âIs she still being a pain?â
âForget about her; Iâll handle it. Are those for me?â you asked, trying to hide your smile.
âOf course they are, beautiful,â he said, handing you the flowers.
âThanks,â you said, taking a whiff of the roses.
âCome on, letâs get to the car.â
As you walked together, he leaned closer. âAm I forgiven?â
You rolled your eyes. âNot in a day, ol'man.â
Harry sighed and opened the back door for you. âSo, if I asked you to spend the night at my apartment instead of going home, you wouldnât consider it?â
Ah, damn...
Those puppy-dog eyes and dangerously tempting lips made it hard to say no, but you somehow managed to act like you weren't interested, thanks to your stubbornness.
And the oscar goes to...
âN-no, sorry, I need to check on Zoe. Sheâs still home alone,â you stammered.
He sighed again and closed the door after you settled in the car.
âHey, Ollie,â you said while he was chilling in the driverâs seat.
âHey, girl! Howâs it going? You two good now?â
âWeâre good, right, baby?â Harry said, sitting next to you.
âKind of,â you muttered, still eyeing the roses in your lap.
âKind of?â Harry raised an eyebrow.
You shrugged, teasing him.
âCome on, really? Okay, Iâm taking you on a date tomorrow night, and weâre going to sort everything out,â Harry grumbled.
âUh-oh,â Oliver chimed in as he drove.
You squinted at Harry. âIf you ask me with that tone, you might be going on that date alone.â
âOkay, sorry,â he said with a sigh. "Would you like to accompany me for dinner tomorrow night, lovely lady?"
You giggled but kept your expression cool. âUm, let me check my calendar first.â
Oliver chuckled.
Harry squinted again.
âAlright, fine. But I need to have a quick chat with Jack tomorrow. If he agrees, you can pick me up at the hotel again.â
He smiled widely taking your hand and bringing it to his lips. âAs you wish, darling.â

As you stepped into the apartment, the sweet scent of the bouquet Harry had given you lingered in the air, enveloping you until you finally reached your place with the flowers cradled in your arms. When you opened the door and walked inside, you were taken aback by the scene in front of you.
âOh sweet Jesus!â
John and Zoe were on the couch, wrapped up in a passionate kissâthankfully, they were fully dressed. The moment they noticed you, they pulled apart, and John shot up from the couch, his face a canvas of embarrassment.
But you felt even more embarrassed. âOh, Iâm sorry, guys, I, uhâŠâ
âNo, no, no, Iâm so sorry!â John stuttered, quickly averting his gaze, adjusting his hair.
âAwkward,â Zoe murmured, covering her mouth in surprise. âI thought you were with your boyfriend,â she added, glancing at you and the bouquet still in your hands.
âWell, yeah⊠I mean, no, I wasnât. Itâs a long story.â
âIâd better be going. Bye, girls. Good night,â John said, grabbing his jacket and making a hasty exit.
Once the door closed behind him, you turned back to Zoe. "Jesus, girl, what just happened?"
Zoe huffed in disbelief. "I have no idea! He helped me change my bandage, touched my leg and then⊠suddenly we kissed. It was so strange, but it felt amazing."
âStrangeâ? You seemed pretty into it."
âIt might have turned into something really hot if you hadnât barged in,â she replied with a hint of annoyance.
âSue me,â you muttered, placing the flowers in a vase on the table.
âI didnât think youâd be back so soon. You were with him last night, right?â she asked, raising an eyebrow.
âOh, itâs a long story.â
âStill not officially together? Seriously, get your shit together already. Whatâs going on with you two?â
You let out a deep sigh. âI donât know. Just when I think things are finally going well, something messes it all up, and I'm left feeling hurt againâŠâ
âUh-oh, spill everything.â
"Okay, do you want something cold to drink?"
"Yes, please! Iâm dying of heat over here."
You giggled as you made your way to the fridge. âSo if I had come in five minutes later, would you have been completely undressed? Good thing I didnât.â
âYou're so bad,â she laughed.

You began the day with that text that pinged on your phone the moment you woke up, that familiar message from the person you had been longing to hear from, the one you had been waiting for eagerly.
Morning, kitten. The sun is shining, the birds are singingâ Isn't it the perfect day to make you feel like forgiving?
Was he rhyming?
He was really good at it or bad not sure, but he would have to try a little harder.
Hmm. I'm not sure if today is the day. You'll know for sure tonight, doll. I'll make you. Hmm, how ambitious. Always I am.
After you changed, you stepped into the living room and saw Zoe was getting ready.
âWhere are you off to?â
âTo the hospital to get my ankle checked.â
âDo you want some company?â
âJohn will,â she replied with a cheeky smile. âBesides, youâll be off on your date with Harry tonight, right?â
Your cheeks warmed at the thought. âWell, yes, maybe.â
âIâm planning to invite John over for dinner, and heâd better come clean about something tonight.â
âOh, I see, youâre trying to get rid of me, huh?â
"Come on, he shares an apartment with three guys; itâs more convenient for us to be here."
âOkay, donât worry, I wonât crash tonight,â you replied with a grin, thoughts drifting to Harryâs bedroom. Â
âAwesome!â she exclaimed, clapping her hands. Â
âWow, you could be a bit less eager about this.â
âSorry, but I canât help it, Iâm in love,â she said, giggling. Â
âApology accepted,â you responded, grabbed your bag, and headed out the door. Just then, you bumped into John in the hallway. âHey."
âHey there. Howâs work treating you?â
"Good. Listen, John, can I ask you something?"
"Sure, whatâs up?"
"Do you have feelings for Zoe?"
"Yes, sheâs a wonderful person, and cute too," he said, smiling.
He was definitely into her.
âI mean, I thought there was something going on between you and that woman Lucy at the wedding. I need to know if you really like Zoe.â
"Lucy is just my childhood friend and ex. But, don't you know her already?"
"I only know she's Alan's girlfriend and a matchmaker."
John crossed his arms and raised an eyebrow. "Surprised that Castillo hasnât told you about her."
âWhatâs there to tell?â
John let out a troubled sigh. âYou know, Iâm not sure if itâs a good time for me to drop this on you, but those two were actually together a few years ago.â
Damn, you were worried about this. "So thatâs why," you murmured after a brief pause. Â
âListen, he will share the details with you, but Lucy isn't like you or Zoe. She deceived both me and Castillo, leaving us heartbroken in the end. I can't hold a grudge against her because we share this strange bond, but I promise you, Iâll never hurt Zoe because of this."
You nodded. "It better stay that way, John. You should tell her as soon as possible, or I will," you said. After receiving a nod from him, you turned and headed down the stairs to leave the building.

All day long, as you worked, your thoughts kept drifting back to Lucy. You regretted asking John about her. It wasnât just that Harry hadnât mentioned herâafter all, that was fine considering the incident had happened years ago. What truly unnerved you was the possibility of her showing up at any moment, especially as Alan's girlfriend. It felt like trouble was just around the corner, and you couldnât shake that feeling. Alan himself was another source of tension; his frequent encounters with you and his growing interest were weighing heavily on your mind. You knew deep down that sooner or later, things were bound to get complicated.
You really hoped this internship would wrap up soon, and that Chef Bruno would write you a glowing letter of recommendation. Yet, with the fair approaching and the day ticking down, you had to press on through the culinary internship.
Earlier, you'd called Jack, and he had already said he wanted to meet. As you waited at the table, you spotted him approaching and stood up to greet him. "Thanks for taking the time to meet me here," you said, shaking Jack's hand as he took a seat across from you.
"Of course, no problem," he replied, settling into his seat.
"Jack, about Melanieâ"
"Save your breath, honey. Iâm not here for her."
You were taken aback. "What do you mean? I thought thatâs why you cameâ"
He pulled out a bunch of newspapers and magazines from his bag and dropped them on the table with a bang, making the glasses and plates rattle.
Your eyes went wide. âWhatâs all this?â
âWhy donât you check for yourself?â
Following his lead, you picked up the top magazine, and your heart sank at the sight of your own image on the cover. Someone had captured a photo of you and Harry dancing at the wedding from a distance.
Who is the mystery girl dancing with famous businessman Harry Castillo? the headline read.
You quickly grabbed another magazine, revealing a picture of you and Melanie.
Get ready for a surprising twist! How did the maid in Melanie Johnson's mansion pretend to be her and trap a famous billionaire?
âUgh, what a bunch of vultures,â you muttered, shaking your head.
As you continued flipping through the articles, the headlines turned more shocking. Words like "gold digger," "sneaky housekeeper," and "fortune hunter" jumped out at you.
"That's what I was warning you about," Jack said. "I don't want you to worry, thoughânone of these magazines have been printed yet. These are all test editions. We managed to confiscate them before they went into mass production, and Harryâs assistant has ensured the online stories have been taken down."
You looked up at him, relief washing over you. "Thank you, Jack."
"You donât need to thank me for dealing with the news, which includes Melanie; I did that for my own reasons. But regarding the rest..." He pointed to the magazine cover with your dancing picture. "This is the thing I wanted to discuss. I see you as a daughter, so take this advice from a father to his daughter: end whatever is happening between you and Harry before it spirals out of control. If this keeps up, thereâll be more stories about you, people will dig into your past, and in the end, itâs you whoâll get hurt. Do you understand?"
You sighed. "Jack, I honestly get what youâre saying, and I do appreciate it. But there's nothing in my past or family that Iâm worried about. Gossip like this finds someone new to focus on every day; it could just as easily be me one day and someone else the next."
He paused for a moment, then nodded slowly. "So, it appears there's something more between you two than I realized. You've made up your mind. Well, it's your life, after all. I just hope you donât wind up hurt and come to regret this decision.â
"Jack."
You both turned your heads, and damn it wasâAlan. He usually didnât come to the hotel on Saturday nights, but today was clearly an exception.
Of course.
Jack stood up to shake his hand. "Alan."
"How are you? Didnât see you at the wedding."
"I was in D.C.," Jack replied. Just then, his phone rang. He pulled it from his pocket and answered. Alan looked at you with a smile, and you returned it.
Damn, he might have noticed the magazines on the table, you thought.
"Sorry, Iâve got to leave," Jack said suddenly.
You stood up, worry creeping in. "Is everything okay?"
"Melanie," he hissed, frustration clear in his voice. "She ran away from home."
"What do you mean she ran away? Or have you been keeping her locked up?" Your voice rose higher than you meant it to.
You couldn't shake off the memory of that one time Jack had locked her in her room, and it had ended poorly. A shudder ran through you at the thought.
"I had no choice. I thought sheâd see reason and come to her senses, but apparently, I was wrong."
"Jack, are you out of your mind? Do you really not know your daughter? Locking her up isnât the solution!"
Heads in the dining room turned toward you.
"Youâre right. I messed up this time, but I couldnât let her keep hanging out with that playboy Nate."
"I canât say I blame you for that," you replied quietly.
"Anyway, I really have to go. Catch you later, Alan."
"See you, Jack."
As Jack strolled away, casting a backward glance, a heavy sadness settled in your chest. Melanie hadn't matured much and was acting like a nightmare. Despite his faults, Jack was a good fatherâif only he showed a little more genuine care to his daughter more than his work.
"Sounds like Melanieâs giving Jack a rough time," Alan said, still holding onto that smile.
"Yeah, sheâs a bit immature," you admitted quietly.
To your surprise, Alan looked around the table and sat down in Jackâs vacated chair.
"Have a seat; your dessert's still waiting."
You did your best to keep it together and not roll your eyes. "Thanks, but I really need to goâ"
"Just give me five minutes, alright?" he said, leaning in a bit closer.
You glanced at your watch, thinking about how Harry would be picking you up in about an hour. With a sigh, you plopped back down. "Fine."
"Thanks," he said, adjusting his suit jacket and settling in. "I know what happened here last time." You looked at him in surprise; this wasn't what you expected. "About what Lucy did..." He paused and took a breath. "I want to say sorry on her behalf."
Your eyes widened. âAlan, itâs okay. But if you start treating me differently because of her, it will only make her dislike me more. Plus, this kind of stuff probably isn't over yet."
âIt wonât happen again,â he stated firmly. âI wonât allow it in my hotel. I broke up with her, and I doubt she will be coming back here.â
âThat canât be the only reason you decided to break up with her, right?â
He smiled and shook his head. âNo, but it played a part. Itâs disgraceful to have such disrespect shown here, especially towards our customers. I was wrong about her; sheâs not the kind and innocent person I thought she was.â
"Iâm sorry," you said, your tone a touch insincere.
"Not me," he replied with a grin. "Iâm kind of relieved."
What was that supposed to mean?
A nagging feeling grew as you sensed he was gearing up to say something you wouldnât like.
"One of the reasons I broke up was because of a question she asked me."
Oh, please, let this be over.
"She wanted to know if I had feelings for you."
You fought to maintain a neutral expression.
Don't say that, please don't.
"I couldn't answer her because, honestly, I actually have feelings for you that I didn't realize until now."
That was more than you could handle.
"Alan, do you even realize what youâre saying?"
"Yes, Iâm fully aware."
You sighed deeply. "Maybe youâre mistaken," you suggested, looking away and starting to shake your foot nervously.
"No, I absolutely know how I feel now. I like you." He reached across the table and took your hand, catching you off guard.
You quickly pulled away. "Alan, Iâm with Harry."
"You mentioned before that things were complicated between you two," he said, casually picking up one of the magazines.
"That doesnât mean I donât love him," you shot back, your voice sharp.
His serious expression told you he wasnât taking it lightly.
You stood up, feeling a surge of urgency. "Look, Alan, whatever youâre feeling, you need to let it go, or I wonât be able to stay here."
"Are you really going to quit your internship?"
"If I have to, yes," you affirmed.
"Alright, I wonât pressure you unless you come to me yourself."
Surprise and annoyance washed over you. "Thatâs not going to happen."
He leaned back in his chair, a knowing smile on his face. "Donât be so sure; life has a funny way of surprising us.â
What the fuck?
Your phone started ringing, and you just held it in your hand without answering as you rushed out of the dining room, still shaken by what had just happened. It was Nate calling, so you definitely weren't picking up; you quickly silenced your phone. Taking a deep breath, you let it all go and shifted your focus to getting ready for your date. Harry had offered to buy you a dress again earlier, but you turned him down. This date was meant to feel like a fresh start, a first date of sorts, and you wanted to treat yourself to the entire process.
During lunch break, you popped into one of those upscale department stores and slipped into the black, shimmering backless dress you had chosenâprobably the priciest dress you had ever bought, costing almost four months' salary. You tried to keep a positive mindset; nothing would ruin tonight. The expensive Birman black shoes that Melanie had given you the night before matches perfectly with the dress. Just as you were putting the finishing touches on your makeup, your phone rang again, but your smile quickly faded when you glanced at the screen.
It wasnât Harry.
Seeing "Trouble" light up the screen only added to your anxiety.
No way were you picking up.
The phone could ring its heart out. When it rang again as you reached for your red lipstickâperfectly matching your nailsâyou pushed on, determined to finish your look.
However, the incessant ringing soon got on your nerves, and you finally answered, ready to give Melanie a piece of your mind. âLook, I canât deal with your drama right nowââ
âItâs me, Garry.â
You could barely hear him over the loud music in the background. âGarry? What are you doing on Melanieâs phone? And where in the world are you?â
âIâve been keeping an eye on her for a while; sheâs completely wasted, and I donât know how to handle this. Please, I need your help.â
âLook, I have a very important date tonightââ
âAnd it seems we have our new volunteer dancer!â a womanâs voice chimed in, followed by masculine cheers and applause.
Oh man.
âDonât tell me youâre at a strip club!â
âYou just heard it. Iâll try to drag her out of here, but you need to hurry. Iâll send you the location.â Garry hung up before you could say anything. âGarry! Hold onâwhat the hell! What kind of night is this?â you exclaimed, quickly changing up your outfit and bolting out of the room.

When the taxi driver brought you in front of the strip club, you were cursing inside, nervous and angry. It was too much, the strip club was too much, even for her. How could she be so thoughtless and reckless?
At the entrance to the door, unfortunately, everyone was staring at you, including the women.
Oh that's right, you were all dressed up, probably looked breathtaking, but it wasn't to come here, damn it, it was to meet your boyfriend.Â
Things got even worse when you entered the club. You've never been in a club like this before, it wasn't like other nightclubs.
You're thinking, No shit, I wish it was.
The music was blaring, and two girls were dancing on stage. Some men were cheering and staring at you.
Great.
Ignoring the gazes, you spotted Garry and made your way to him. However, just like the other guys, he seemed fixated on the girls performing. âHey!â you nudged him.
âOh you're here? Wow girl, you look great, but I wish you hadn't come here wearing a dress like this.â he said, looking around at the men.
âI couldn't change because you called me while I was getting ready for my date.â
âOh, I'm sorry, but Melanie's gone crazy.â
âWhere is she?â
âShe was going on stage and tripped and fell, I was tried to check her but the women wouldn't let me in. That's why I called you.â
âGoddamn it,â you grumbled, shoving your purse at him. âHold this, Iâll go get her, and then weâll all head to the car together, okay?â
âGot it. Iâll wait here.â
Just as you left, Garry couldnât help himself when your phone started ringing non-stop. He didnât think to check your purse without asking, but when it rang like crazy, he finally picked it up. âYeah?â
Harry nearly wrecked his car when he heard a guyâs voice on the other end. âWho the hell are you? Why are you answering my girlfriendâs phone?â
âMr. Castillo, you probably donât remember me, but Iâm Mr. Johnson's driver.â
âWait, is that club music I hear? Where is she?â
âWe're at the strip club. Itâs kind of complicated.â
Harry was stunned and slammed on the brakes, making the tires screech on the road. The car behind him honked and yelled, but he didnât care. âJust tell me where the club is!â

"Melanie, I swear to God, if you don't come with me right now, I'll drag you out of here by yanking your hair if I have to! I'll do it, believe me, I will!"
âNot until Nate gets here!â she snapped.
The girl was not only drunk but also trying to climb onto the stage. You were tugging at her from behind the curtain, hoping Garry could lend a hand, but she was putting up a fight.
âHey, you two, get lost! Stay clear of the stage!â one of the dancers hissed at you.
âI'm not interested; as you see, I'm trying to get her out of here!â you retorted, still struggling to pull Melanie back.
âNo! Iâm going up there! I paid for it!â Melanie shouted defiantly.
âWhat did you just say?â you exclaimed, bewildered. âAre you out of your mind?â
âLeave them alone, girls,â an older woman chimed in, casting a knowing glance at you. âThe guys who wanted you on stage shelled out a lot of cash,â she said with a sly smile.
Melanie laughed. âSee? Theyâre dying to see me! Nate needs to get over here right now, call him!â
âIt wasnât for you,â the woman replied, eyes darting between Melanie and you. She surveyed you up and down, a smirk playing on her lips. âThey paid for you, sweetheart.â
Your eyes widened in disbelief. âIâm not a dancer or stripper.â
âThat doesnât matter, darling. You look fantastic. I could even give you half the take.â
âWhat the fuck? You promised me that Iâd go on stage! Not her!â
You narrowed your eyes and glared at Melanie. âNo oneâs going up there!â you shouted firmly.
âEnough with this! Girls,â the woman called out, and the two dancers approached you, trying to take off your jacket.
âHey! Get your hands off me! What do you think youâre doing?â you exclaimed, wrestling against them.
âCome on, sweetheart, donât overreact. Just trust yourself,â she replied, grabbing your wrist. But before she could pull you away, someone else seized her arm and pushed it back.
âLeave her alone!â
When you spotted Harry, a mix of surprise and embarrassment washed over you, yet relief followed quickly. He grabbed your arm, pulling you behind him, and draped his jacket around you, wrapping you with it.
âHey, mister, what do you think youâre doing?â the woman asked, taken aback.
"If you touch my girl again, I'll bring this club down!" Harry growled.
Just then, a man approached you two, dressed in a suit. "Mr. Castillo, there's been a terrible misunderstanding. Please forgive us, sir." He then turned to the girls. "Get back to work and return the money to those customers."Â
"And give me back my jacket!" you shouted.Â
Harry reached over, snatched it from one of the girls, and pulled you closer. "Are you okay?"Â
You nodded. "Yeah, thanks. Melanie! Harry, stop her!" you exclaimed, pointing at her. Harry grasped her arm and pulled her away from the stage.Â
That's when Nate strolled in, his phone in hand, ready to take pictures. "Oh no, did I miss the show?"
The son of a bitch was grinning.
"It's all your fault!" you shot at him.Â
Garry came over to Melanie. "Miss Johnson, letâs head to the car, please."Â
Melanie clung to Harry's arm touching his face. "Hey, old man, want a lap dance?" She was clearly trying to make Nate jealous, but it was Harry she had her hands on.Â
Your man.Â
Harry chuckled as he gently pushed her hand away. "Sorry, sweetheart, but I'm not interested."
Wait a minute.
Not only was Melanie, but almost all the women dancers were looking Harry up and down. A wave of jealousy washed over you.
And then you lost it.
You were so angry that you pulled her off of her by the hair. "You little slut, who do you think you're touching?" You pushed her towards Nate. "Take your girlfriend and get the hell out of my life! Garry, you call Jack right now!" you said to him. Grabbing Harry's hand tightly, "Let's get the hell out of here." you urged.
He was still laughing as you pulled him out with you.

âStop laughing, Harry,â you scolded as you made your way to the car.
âBut you were so cute when you protected me from real Melanie back there,â he replied, still chuckling.
You paused and turned to face him. âAre you really enjoying this?â
âActually I donât know what to think. Do you know how angry I was when I saw you here with those women? And those men⊠the way they look at you? I think I hate the real Melanie.â
âWelcome to the club,â you replied sarcastically. âBut Iâm sorry; you are right. I shouldn't have come here. Tonight was supposed to be special, and now itâs all ruinedâjust like my hair,â you said, running your fingers through your locks.
Harry glanced at the clock. âUm, the restaurant is about to close.â
âI really messed up,â you said, biting your lip. âIâve ruined everything.â
He gently took your face in his hands. âNothingâs ruined, baby. Weâre going to plan B.â
âYou had a plan B?â you asked, intrigued.
âI just came up with it,â he said with a grin. âCome on, weâre starting over.â
You smiled. âOkay, but whereâs your car?â
âThere it is,â he said, pointing to a red sport car.
Your eyes widened in surprise. âBut itâs a Mustang GT!â
âThatâs right. I rented it just for tonight,â he said, pulling the keys from his pocket and handing them to you. âSo, am I forgiven now?â
You snatched the keys from his grasp. âLet me take it for a spin, and Iâll think about it.â
He laughed, and as you slid into the driverâs seat, he took the passenger seat beside you. You fastened your seatbelt and started the engine. âHold on tight, ol'man.â
âDrive carefully, honey. The streets of New York are a whole different beast compared to the traffic you dealt with back in Paris.âÂ
You shot him a playful glance before slamming your foot on the gas. âI accept the challenge.â
âHey, that wasnât a challenge,â he retorted, his eyes wide as he clutched the seat.
You laughed, the thrill coursing through you. âRelax! A little excitement never hurt anyone.â
âYou excite me enough in that dress, babe,â he grinned, glancing at you with a mix of admiration and mischief.Â
After a few exhilarating laps, embarrassment washed over you when the flashing lights of a police radar caught you speeding through the night. Still, you found a way to enjoy the moment, laughing together as you swung by a 24-hour diner to grab some late-night munchies before heading toward Harryâs building. âWow, that was an incredible ride."
âYeah, it was a blast, even if itâs going to cost me a few hundred bucks in fines,â Harry said, opening the car door.
âOops, sorry about that,â you said, stepping out of the car.
As he opened the trunk, he pulled out a huge bouquet of roses. âIf it hadnât been for that strip club incident, I would have met you at the hotel with this.â
âHarry,â you murmured, touched.
âHere you go, Cinderellaâ99 roses.â
You raised an eyebrow as you accepted the bouquet. âWhy not a hundred?â
âThatâs you,â he said, smiling sweetly. âThe hundredth rose is you.â
You felt yourself melting at his words.
âThatâs very romantic, ol'man. Thank you,â you said, reaching out to kiss his cheek.
âSo, you forgive me now, right?â he asked, extending his arm so you could take it.
âCome here,â you said, encouraging him to lean closer. He complied, and you shared a tender kiss, sweet and gentle. âYouâre forgiven, Mr. Castillo.âÂ
He grinned, wrapping his arms around your waist, leaning in to kiss you again, this time with more passion, the world around you fading away. But since you were still out on the street, you gently pushed him back, laughter in your eyes. âSave the rest for later, mister.â
He chuckled, pulling you closer with one arm still wrapped around your waist, and together you strolled toward the entrance.

âHere we have some Bordeaux wine,â he said as you unpacked the food and set the plates on the table.Â
âParfait,â you replied with a smile, embracing the French language.Â
With skilled hands, he uncorked the wine using a polished corkscrew, the soft pop echoing in the cozy room, and poured the ruby liquid into your glasses, its rich color glinting in the soft light.Â
âHmm, delicious,â you remarked, savoring the first sip.Â
As you shared the meal, the conversation flowed effortlessly, weaving in and out of tales about Melanie and the others, laughter bubbling up like the wine in your glasses. âThatâs actually much better,â you said softly, feeling the warmth of the evening. âI mean, itâs better that weâre here than in a bustling restaurant.â
âI couldnât agree more; itâs just the two of us,â he replied, his fingers entwining with yours.
âYeah,â you whispered, your gaze locking with his, a deep connection simmering in the air between you.Â
He sighed and stood up, a hint of excitement in his voice. âI have something for you.âÂ
âAnother surprise?â you asked, intrigued.Â
He returned with a small box, sitting back down and handing it to you across the table. Different from any jewelry box youâd seen, it piqued your curiosity.
"Iâve been pondering this all day, and I've come to a realization. I always wanted you to be part of my world, but I was missing something important," he said as you opened the box. Inside, you found a card and a key. nstantly, you recognized them; it was the very card and key you had used countless times for the elevator and the apartment door.
âHarry,â you gasped, taken aback. âYou mentioned that you donât feel like you fit in my world, so how about letting me into yours?â
Your eyes filled with tears as you rose and embraced him tightly. âThank you. Thatâs exactly what I needed to hear.âÂ
He pulled you onto his lap, wrapping his arms around you before leaning in for a kiss. Then, he turned on some soft music from the stereo. âWill you dance with me?âÂ
You nodded. âAbsolutely.âÂ
You found yourselves swaying together, lost in the slow, sweet melody, savoring the magic of the moment in comfortable silence.
But then the tension between you began to rise. Harry ran his hand through the fabric of your dress. âGreat choice of dress by the way.â
âDo you like it?â
âI love it,â he whispered.
âWhat about my bra?â you said huskily, guiding his hand to the lace strap of it.
âI admire it,â he purred.
You lifted the skirt of the dress, revealing your lace garter stockings. âMy stockings?â your eyes twinkling.
He smiled at you and reached out, drawing a circle on your leg with his fingertip. Leaning forward, he placed a kiss on the side of your neck. âI worship it, baby,â he said, his voice breathy and deep.
Your arm found its way around his waist, and your fingertips caressed his back. âMmm. Keep doing that, please.â
He chuckled and continued, his hands slowly creeping up under your dress. You gave a deep, breathy moan when he latched on to the spot behind your ear, licking, sucking. Getting eager, you found his lips and kissed him, your tongue sweeping into his mouth tentatively. He responded by grabbing your hips and pulling you, lifting you into his lap. Then you broke the kiss to unbutton his shirt.
Taking a brief moment to admire you he let you stripped him out of his shirt before kissing you deeply, exploring your mouth hungrily. Popping the clasp on your bra with ease he let it fell to the floor, whilst he kissed a path between your breasts leaving a trail of goose flesh in his wake. Noticing your nipples were already pert betraying your arousal, taking one between his thumb and forefinger he rolled it making you cried out, lowering his head he circled you other with his tongue before drawing it into his hot mouth and sucking. He could feel his cock straining against the his pants but he ignored it focusing all his attention on you. He repeated the action with your other nipple before moving on, his lips gliding down over your ribs, across your stomach towards the garter belt and waistband of your panties.
Hooking his thumbs into the lace, he pulled the small scrap of material down your shapely legs until you could kick them off, but letting the garter belt still be on you. Kneeling before you he cupped your hips bringing you closer to him inhaling your scent, then he ran his tongue along your wet folds the cry that escaped you when he circled your clit was guttural, he felt his cock throb begging for attention but he ignored it once again. Slowly he worked you over, teasing you with shallow thrusts of his tongue into your velvety softness over and over again until your skin was slick with sweat and your thighs began to tremble.
âPlease,â you begged, your fingers tangled in his curls, clinging to him. In answer to your plea, he flicked his tongue over your swollen bundle of nerves until you cried out when your orgasm hit. Keeping a tight grip on your hips, he held you steady, letting you ride it out before kissing his way back up your body, finally claiming your lips once more. You tasted yourself on his tongue, but you didnât care; you devoured each other desperately.
Once your equilibrium returned, your hands found his belt, quickly you unbuckled it and pulled it from the loops before popping the buttons on his fly and pushing the material down over his hips. He shucked his pants and his boxers off and before he knew it your hand was around the base of his throbbing member and you were pumping him into your fist. He gritted his teeth, "Fuck, baby, you are such a needy kitten aren't you? Good girl. But thereâs no way Iâll last if you keep that up."
Taking your hands in his, he threaded your fingers together and crushed his lips to yours once more, pinning you against the wall with your interlocked hands above your head. You gasped in response. His aching cock lied heavily against your core, you shuddered. He realized he couldnât stand it anymore; he needed to be inside you.
Hoisting you up, he hooked your legs around his waist, pushing into you in one smooth stroke.
"Harry," you moaned, feeling dizzy with incredible consuming lust.
Your hair was plastered to your sweaty face now and in the throes of passion when your pupils dilate, cheeks flushed.
"You're breathtakingly beautiful just like this, darling," he hummed.
You were soft and warm, and your walls gripped him tightly as he thrust into you, making love to you against the wall. God heâs missed you so damn much, burying his head into the crook of your shoulder he picked up his pace, he knew you were close because he can feel your inner walls begin to tremble around him. Your arms were wrapped tightly around his neck, your heels press into his firm ass as he pounds into you deeper and deeper.
As you ran your fingers through his hair down to his neck, spurring him on with sweet cries. "Harder, faster, please."
"Fuck," he growled, pressed his forehead against yours so that he held your gaze as your second orgasm striked. You screamed his name as your body locked up, your sex gripping his cock in an iron grasp.
He made an incoherent sound and cursed as your orgasm triggered his, and he released himself inside of you. You collapsed into each other a hot, sticky, sweaty mess, panting heavily. When finally he caught his breath, he ran his nose along your smiling devilishly down at you.
âSo how was it, baby?â he asked waggling his eyebrows suggestively.
âFast, delicious, hair-raisingly good,â you giggled.
"How about a second round? This time in the bedroom?" he panted, still catching his breath.
You tightened your arms around him playfully. âYou betcha, mister."
Just as your words finished, he scooped you up and rushed toward the bedroom, causing your laughter to ring out cheekily through the hall.

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ME OR THE PS5 đđ àŁȘË tell me which of us is more your type
(CATALOGUE) â heeseung has been spending the whole day cooped up on his ps5 and you've reached your limit. god forbid a girl wants some attention from her boyfriend.
the muse: idol bf!lee heeseung x fem!reader wc: 735 warnings: cuddling, kissing, pet names, fluff, lmk if anything else ig
whispers: small smth bcs my hand is itching to write. was listening to ps5 by salem ilese and txt. i thought it was super riki coded at first but then i decided to write this for heeseung bcs ive seen a bunch of similar fics for riki.
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You eye Heeseung disdainfully, face scrunched up.
Of course, your boyfriend's way too invested in his umpteenth round of whatever game he's playing to notice you scrutinizing him.
"Heeseung," you call out exasperatedly. "Can we go watch that movie now, please?"
"Yeah, princess," he mumbles out the reply, only half-focusing on what you're saying. "Just one more round."
That's what he'd been saying for the past few hours and you were sick and tired of it. It wasn't everyday you get your boyfriend all to yourself with his busy schedule due to being an idol and here he was, stuck up on his PS5 playing whatever game he was so invested in.
Not that you had a problem with him gaming. But you wished he would spend some time with you. Half the day had passed and he still hasn't spent any time with you.
Scoffing, you storm out of the room with your arms folded even though Heeseung is too absorbed in his game to notice that you're gone.
A few minutes later, Heeseung frowns in confusion at his screen, not understanding why his game suddenly cut off. However, the confusion quickly clears up when he figures out that the Wi-Fi has magically stopped working.
He gets up to go investigate the router so he can get back to his game, only to be stopped by you.
"Hey, princess," he says, his hands finding their way to your waist. "Do you know what happened to the Wi-Fi? It suddenly cut off."
"Yeah, I do," you reply smoothly. "I turned it off."
"Why?" he asks, pouting. "What happened?"
Now it's your turn to pout.
"Because you've been stuck up on your PS5 the whole day since morning. It's evening, Hee. I haven't seen your face since breakfast. You haven't had lunch today because you're stuck with one more round and you won't spend anyâ"
You don't get to finish your sentence as Heeseung silences you with his lips against yours. His pillowy lips feel good against yours and you feel all your anger melt away against your will.
You, however, still manage to glower up at Heeseung as he pulls away in an attempt to get him to abandon his games and come cuddle with you and watch a movie.
Heeseung's willpower is no match for your adorable scowl. You always looked cute despite how serious your expressions were.
He chuckles, rubbing the small of your back as he kisses your forehead like you were a fragile doll in his hands.
"Y'know what, princess," he starts. "Why don't you go turn the Wi-Fi back on and I'll shut down my PS5 and order some takeout so we can cuddle with some food and blankets and watch that movie together, hm?"
Heeseung can't help but melt when he sees your face brighten up at his words.
"Okay," you chirp, nodding. You pull out of his hold, his hands lingering on your waist as if he was afraid to let you go. "I'll go do that. But you better not be playing when I get back or I'll throw your PS5 in the trash."
He chuckles at that. "Now, now. There's no need for such cruel measures. But hurry up, princess."
A movie and a few boxes of takeout later, Heeseung finds himself on the couch, a sleeping you wrapped in his arms.
He smiles, unable to tamp down his wild and powerful feelings for you fluttering inside his heart as he looks down at your peaceful face with a pout on your lips as if you were mad because you couldn't pet a cat you met in your dream.
He leans down and places a soft kiss on the top of your head, inhaling the sweet scent of your shampoo lingering on your hair.
He then adjusts himself so that the two of you were now lying down on the couch, your head resting comfortably in the crook of his neck as he wrapped his arms around your body to keep you secure in his embrace.
After pulling the blanket over both of your bodies, he turns off the television using the remote before setting it down on the sofa table and nuzzling into you in the darkness.
"Good night, princess," he whispers as the apartment drowns in silence interrupted by both of your breathing and the faint whirr of appliances. "Dream of me, won't you?"
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LAST MINUTE âĄ
pairing: frank castle x fem!reader
summary: when frank won't give you attention, you have to convince him not to leave somehow...
cw: nsfw (18+), smut, boot humping, praise/degradation
wc: 3.3k
a/n: i love him i love him i love him sooooo badddddd. if you send me asks about this man i'll make out with you sloppy. anyways, comments and reblogs appreciated too <3
kinktober slot: day 25 - boot humping
Frank's eyes cast over to the corner of the room where you're sitting in front of the mirror. He can hear you humming to yourself, your voice rising and falling to the soft tune of a song you'd been obsessed with for the last few weeks. Your fingers smear some lotion across your cheeks. The pads of them massage the cream into your malleable flesh.
Your gaze catches his watching you through the reflective pane. He sees a smile spread across your lips before you turn around and spring to your feet. Your body is only covered by a t-shirt of his along with the pair of panties lying beneath. You prance across the bedroom and glide around to hover behind him.
The scent of your lotion and shampoo from the shower you'd just taken cloud the air surrounding him. It's light and airy, like the vision of you that floats through his head nowadays. He wasn't sure when you'd taken up permanent residence there, though he couldn't really complain. Thoughts of you are better than echoing gunshots or screams.
He hums in acknowledgement of your proximity, giving your forearm a pat with his rough hand. It's smooth beneath his fingertips. So untouched it feels wrong to drag his calloused skin across it.
You don't seem to mind though. Not with the way you duck your head and kiss his cheek.
"It seems like something's bothering you," you murmur, the wisps of your breath brushing over his face.
His attention returns to the weapons in front of him. He focuses on cleaning the parts and putting them back together. Your words were kind of stupid. There's always something bothering Frank. Moments where he has a clear head are few and far in between; reserved for when he's asleep in your arms or balls deep in your cunt.
He doesn't say anything rude though. He knows you're trying to be sweet. The statement is your subtle attempt at offering up your ear. You always told him he could vent. He could cry over the past or seethe about his plans for the night, either way you'd be right there. But that would only be if he ever actually took you up on that offer.
Instead, all you get in response is a grunt before a muttered "'m fine, baby."
You frown. He can see it out of the corner of his eye. Your lips turn into that pitiful little pout that drives him up the wall. Good thing his eyes are locked on a different target right now.
"Are you sure? Feel like you got something on your mind," you try again. Your hands slide up to his shoulders, fingers beginning to tenderly massage his tense deltoids.
"Told you I'm fine," he says again. The words are firm and closed off, but they don't strike you as unkind.
"Wellll⊠if there was anything wrong, would there be anything I could do to make it better?" you whisper.
Your lips press against his cheek bone again before migrating downward. Your soft, plump lips coasts over his jawline and onto his throat. You feel his smile make a brief appearance on his face, but his hands don't stop rotating the cleaning rag over the grip of his gun. He hasn't abandoned his task for you. Yet.
"There's nothing wrong. Don't start makin' a fuss over it," he grumbles.
"C'monnn, Frankie," you say softly, "Just tell me one thing. Even if you feel fine, just tell me one thing that you'd like."
A few more gentle pecks land on his neck. Your fingers continue to swirl and massage into the tender muscles in his shoulders.
"I'd like it if you got some rest tonight and didn't stay up worrying about me or watching the news," he responds.
You roll your eyes. Of course, you were gonna do that regardless. You always worried about him when he was 'working.' He'd spend the hours out taking care of what - or who - ever, and you'd occupy that time in your apartment doing just as he said, pouring over news reports and bouncing your leg until you were so tired your eyes couldn't stay open if they wanted to.
"Be seriousss," you whine, growing more petulant with him.
He glances over at you upon hearing that tone. That rise in pitch never did you any favors with Frank. He didn't fall for the puppy eyes or quivering lip.
"I am serious. I don't want you worrying or stressing. I'll be back tonight, and I want to come back to you sleeping in bed. Not watching for me at the fire escape," he says.
"Ok well pick something I can actually give you now," you concede.
Space. That's what he wants to tell you. Not in an annoyed way. He loves your touch, adores feeling your body heat oozing off of you. But it's hard to get in the mind frame of a killer when your breasts are pushing against his back and your nose is gliding over his throat.
He doesn't say that though because he knows no matter what tone of voice he says it in, you'll only take it in the 'I'm sick of you' way.
"What makes you think I need anything?" he asks. He puts the handgun he'd been working on down on the table and picks up a larger assault weapon instead.
"Oh my god, you're so difficult," you huff, "I'm just trying to be nice to you. I don't like seeing you all grumpy and stressed."
You may not have liked it, but grumpy and stressed was the version of Frank you saw the most. It was the one you fell in love with. The one that spends the night here in your apartment most days of the week. The one who's hoodies you wear. The one who holds you while you sleep and grunts against your skin when he has a bad dream.
"I'm not. I'm just thinking. You're making something out of nothing, sweetheart," he chides.
"You know⊠I think you just don't want to admit that you need a night off," you say, nodding in agreement with yourself.
"No."
"Just wait. Don't shoot it down before I explain," you try to reason.
"No," he says again.
"Yes! You'd feel so much better if you had one single night to relax," you argue.
He looks at you with a bit of disbelief. "I can't just call in sick. There is no 'night off,'" he says. His tone is strict, no room for negotiation or bargains, but that doesn't stop you from trying.
"I know, but you don't have to go out. You could text your 'people' and they could do whatever for the night," you say. His people is the term you call whoever he works with. You know there's at least one other guy, he's just never told you any names or details. "Just one night to let me take care of you. It would be good for you. And plus, I miss you," you pout.
He eyes you for a moment, dark pupils scanning over each small curve of your face. The pause gives you hope that he's considering it. That maybe he'll choose to stay with you instead of the shipping yards or rooftops.
"Don't give me that 'I miss you' act. You know I miss you too, but I can't just stay with you and sit on my ass all night cause you think it's the magic cure to me being a hardass," he says.
You narrow your eyes as the look on your face likens more to sulking.
"It's not magic⊠just if you rest, you'd be less uptight," you say. You loop your arms around his neck again and smoosh your cheek against his, letting the prickly spikes of his stubble scratch you.
With a little sigh, your attention shifts to what he's working on. He's still cleaning the metallic item on the desk in front of him. You watch his hands work, moving in methodical swipes. Efficacy learned from years of experience. Still, it's so boring to you that you can't even come up with a question to feign interest. Not that he'd answer anyways. He didn't like involving you in his other job.
You puff air through your lips to signify your apathy. "FrankâŠ" you whimper, right by his ear, soft and quiet.
Usually, you avoid asking him to stay home. You never complain about the awkward hours or inconsistent time you get with him. You don't accuse him of being uncaring or allege that he's using you. But maybe it's the fact that he so blatantly denied you tonight that has your mind acting up.
"Quit while you're ahead, baby. I don't wanna argue before I leave," he says.
"I'm not trying to argue. Why can't you just consider it?" you ask.
"You know why. Now, enough," he says, bringing the discussion to an end.
Your head slumps over onto his shoulder, your ear flush against the cotton of his shirt. Of course, you know why. You know why this stuff is important to him. And it makes you feel guilty for even suggesting a brief reprieve from it.
Sagging down, you slide around to the front of his chair and drop to your knees at his feet. You rest your head on his thigh, displeasure displayed across your lips.
"You're so mean to me," you mutter.
He glances down at you, smirking a little at your exaggerated defeat. "You think so?" he prompts.
"Mhm," you hum, nuzzling against the denim covering his leg.
You scoot a little closer to his leg, pressing your torso flush against the limb. Closing the distance brings his foot to rest right between your legs. You feel it, but you don't care to notice it yet. Instead your fingers massage his calve absentmindedly.
The bedroom is quiet for a few moments spare the sounds of fabric rustling and both of your soft breaths. He just watches you for a few moments before you feel his hand pet the curve of your head.
"So unfair," he says.
You suppress the smile wanting to show on your features. The look of joy at receiving his attention. His thumb swipes back and forth over your skull. The warm weight of his palm coasting over you does soothe ypu even if you still wanna act coy.
"Yeah, especially cause I just wanna spend time with you," you sigh.
"You'll get to. Tomorrow," he responds. You can hear the clipped amusement in his voice.
Just as quick as it came, his hand leaves your head. It's back to the table. He moves onto a knife now, cleaning some grimy stain that you don't even want to know the origin of.
Shifting your head upward, you rest your chin on his knee and glare at him. "But-"
"I'm not gonna tell you again the answer is no."
The words die in your throat, leveling down to a whine. "See? Mean," you say.
You turn your head back to his side, squishing your cheek against his knee. The hard bone divots the soft flesh of your cheek like a crater on the moon.
You're content to just sit in this position and rest there until he stands up to go. To cling to his leg like the words "please please please" are about to spill from your lips. But in your deflated state, you sink down a bit more. You relax the muscles in your thighs and inadvertently bring the seat of your panties in direct contact with the scuffed top of his boot.
It doesn't shoot bliss through you like a bolt of lightening, but it sparks a fuse in the pit of your belly. The solid curve of it slotted right up against your clothed heat.
As an experimental touch, you grind your hips down. You make sure to be subtle, not wanting him to see what you're doing before you can determine if it's worth the humiliation. The muted sensation of pleasure that fills your belly answers that question quickly though.
Once you get the first taste, you rock your hips back and forth in little bursts. It wouldn't be noticeable to a quick glance, but a more intentional look would catch the way your ass pushes forward and back.
What gets him to notice is the feeling of you gripping his leg tighter. You press the hard front of his shin between your breasts and down your stomach harder. That gets him to look in your direction. When he does, he finds the sight of you getting yourself off with his boot.
"What're you doing?" he asks, giving you the chance to explain first.
"Nothing," you answer almost instantly.
"Doesn't look like nothing. Doesn't feel like nothing," he says as he tilts the point of his shoe upward. The boost grants some more friction to your clit, drawing a sharp whine out of you.
"Might have to get you a collar if you keep acting like a puppy, baby," he teases.
"I'm not," you whimper. You press your face harder against his knee as if it could act as a shield against the embarrassment.
"Really? Whining and humping my leg like you're in heat doesn't count?" he mocks.
"Shut up," you choke out.
"Attitude," he tuts. He shakes his head before his eyes flit back to the weapon on the table, letting you do your thing.
And you take advantage of that. Your hips move back and forth like a pendulum. You can feel the thin cloth of your underwear getting sticky as arousal leaks from you at the soft stimulation blooming between your legs. Your poor, swollen clit presses on the firm material as you let out a raucous whine. He tsks at you from above.
"It's getting late. You might wanna keep your volume down," he says.
The words come out so dismissive, so passively entertained. As if you're merely background noise. You can't help whining again. Your grip tightens on him, and your hips move in broader circles. If he's just going to let you do this, you're going to take advantage.
More sparks of white hot pleasure fizzle between your thighs. Your cunt ruts over the expanse of Frank's boot in quick strokes. The fabric of your panties only serves to provide some extra friction. Your eyes flutter and your cheek feels numb from the pressure of his kneecap again.
It feels as if you're in your own little world while doing this. Even if you're attached to him, it still seems like you're in a haze of your own at the moment. Just a lusty daze focused on making yourself feel good.
Vaguely, you can hear the clicks of his equipment above. The rustling of pouches and cloths. The clunking of organization. It all means nothing to you. The only thing you're concerned with is how your folds spread across the shape of his shoe.
You mewl softly. A trickle of saliva leaks from your mouth onto the rough fabric of his pants. All your thoughts have melted away. Your limbs stay locked around his leg, ensuring you have secure leverage to rock yourself back and forth.
He still doesn't acknowledge you. His eyes stay on the table. Honestly, you would believe he didn't even know you were there if not for him lowering his foot and then raising it again. The motion gives you a burst of stimulation, an interruption to the rhythm you'd set for yourself.
A desperate whine crackles out of your throat. You spread your thighs further to get down on him and press your aching pussy against him harder.
"FrankâŠ" you whimper before biting your lip for a moment.
This time he doesn't disregard the call for him. He reaches down, sweeping his hand over your head and cupping your jaw. He directs you to look up at him and gets clear view of your empty eyes.
"What is it, baby?" he asks. His thumb brushes back and forth across your lower lip. The simple touch is enough to send you into orbit.
"IâŠ" you try to start. But words are hard to conjure when thoughts have become nothing more than memory. "I love you," you end up choking out.
He chuckles. "Yeah, you do," he agrees.
You whine and lower your head again. Your body doesn't stop swinging your hips. His hand migrates back to the top of your head.
"I love you too, sweetheart," he says. His voice rumbles out low and quiet, so gravelly you can almost feel the vibrations in your bones.
He continues to gaze down at you. His eyes drink in the sight of you getting yourself off on his leg. Your hips constantly drag over the seamless surface of his shoes. Cute little noises pour from your mouth in a never-ending flow. Your eyes scrunch up and your nose crinkles when rushes of euphoria course through you.
"You gonna cum on my boot, doll? Gonna make a mess?" he rasps.
You nod eagerly. "Mhm. Mhm. Mhm," you whimper. In direct contrast to his, your voice floats into the air light and soft.
"Do it. Maybe I'll have you lick it up afterwards. I know you'd do it. Shit, you'd probably fucking like it," he says.
That's all you need to rush the spark on your fuse to the end and send you into an explosion of pleasure. Your back arches and you cling to his leg like it's a lifeline. Your grip gets so tight that had you been more lucid, you probably would have worried about cutting off his circulation.
Your pussy clenches around nothing, your walls fluttering with the urge to feel him spilling inside you in unison. Regardless, you keep rabbiting your hips and working yourself over the peak. Your noises come out more whiny and full of need, aching to hear his grunts in your ear.
As blissed out as you are, your droopy eyes still catch sight of the solid bulge in his pants. You hold out hope that maybe you'll get to have some of what you long for before he goes.
The intensity of your high begins to simmer down to a satisfying warmth as you reach the end. Your hips move slower and slower until they come to a stop. You catch your breath, panting and leaning against his leg totally lax.
He doesn't say anything. He just finishes up what he was doing and lets you come down on your own.
After a few minutes though, he does scoop you up off the ground and into his lap.
"That feel good?" he asks.
Your head bobs up and down.
"Looked like it," he grumbles.
"Not as good as it would've felt with you though," you murmur.
He stares at your content, post-release face. It's not a surprise you want more. Had you not hinted at wanting him to fuck you properly after that, he would have been actually concerned for your well-being.
"Guess you'll have to wait till I get back to find out," he says lowly with a kiss to your temple.
"But FrankâŠ" you say, lazily sliding your hand down. The center of your palm lands on his swelling bulge, giving it enough pressure to drag a hiss from his lips.
He pauses, lets you stroke him a few times. It feels good. He knows he should just push you off. Should send you off to bed now that you're all nice and relaxed. But he can't resist that light caress.
Sighing he lifts you and steps over to the edge of the bed. Dropping you back on the mattress, he starts to remove his belt.
"You got fifteen minutes, ya little brat. After that, I'm still leaving," he tells you before dropping forward and hovering over your body, bringing your lips into a brisk kiss.
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pairing â professor! sim jaeyun x (f) student! reader
synopsis â you always knew your professor was attractive, so it wasnât new when girls would try to gain his attention. what you didnât know though was that he only had his eyes on you. what comes as a friendly teacher-student relationship takes a turn when you find yourself thinking differently about him with your private lessons together.
genre â smut, angst
warnings â MINORS DNI!, lower case intended, four year age gap (jake is 22 and reader is 18), tons of jealousy, cursing, jake is obsessed with oblivious reader, dom! jaeyun x sub! reader, name calling (slut, whore, and etc.), (f) receiving, pussy eating, unprotected sex, cum eating, choking, multiple orgasms
w.c â 5.4k
a/n â i donât know why but this was and on and off fic i was doing cause i didnât really like but iâm glad i finally finished it. i canât tell if this was good or not because i was stressing on how to put the ending so bear with me on that. reblog, like, comment, etc.! lmk if i missed any warnings! not proofread.
masterlist here
the first time you saw professor sim was during the orientation week. you were a freshman, nervous and excited about starting your journey in college. the campus was bustling with activity, and you were trying to find your way to the science building for your first lecture.
as you walked through the crowded hallway, you accidentally bumped into someone, "oh, I'm so sorry!" you exclaimed, looking up to see a tall man with a kind smile.
"no worries at all," he replied, adjusting his glasses. "are you lost?"
"uh, yeah, actually. I'm trying to find the science building," you admitted, feeling a bit embarrassed.
"you're in luck. I'm heading there myself. iâm professor sim, by the way," he said, extending his hand.
you shook his hand, feeling a bit more at ease. "nice to meet you, professor sim. iâm l/n y/n.â
"well, y/n, follow me. i'll show you the way," he said, leading you through the maze of hallways. as you walked, you noticed his broad back through his suit. the suit fitting perfectly on him. you blushed watching him strut confidently past students and teachers watching him walk past.
you definitely wonât lie and say heâs not handsome. his glasses framing his face perfectly. you never knew you would like guys with glasses. he suddenly asked about your interests and what drew you to study science. his genuine interest in your answers made you feel welcome.
fast forward to the present, you were now in your second semester, and professor sim class had quickly become your favorite. his enthusiasm for science was infectious, and he had a knack for making even the most complex topics seem approachable. however, the latest homework assignment was proving to be a real challenge.
as you packed your notebooks and computer you saw a girl bluntly flirting with him. batting her eyelashes at him. it wasnât new seeing different girls trying to talk to him, purposely saying they need help just to see him up close. you cleared your throat you gathered your courage and approached his desk. "professor sim, could I ask for some help with the homework? iâm really struggling with the concepts."
he looked up at you, a warm smile spreading across his face, completely ignoring the other girl in front of him. he probably knew what she was trying to do, "of course, i'd be happy to help. why don't you come by my office later this afternoon?"
the girl huffed at her non existence and walked away, leaving the both of you alone. you nodded, feeling a wave of relief.
later that day, you found yourself sitting across from him in his office. the room was filled with books and scientific models, and the faint smell of coffee lingered in the air.
"alright," he said, pulling up a chair next to you, "let's take a look at what you're having trouble with."
you pulled out your notebook, showing him the problems that had been giving you headaches. he patiently explained each step, breaking down the complex ideas into simpler terms. his explanations were clear and concise, and he used analogies that made the material more relatable.
"see? you're getting the hang of it," he encouraged, his eyes twinkling with pride. "sometimes all it takes is a different perspective."
as you worked through the problems together, you found yourself gaining a deeper understanding of the subject. you also couldnât help but look at his side profile, his plump soft lips moving with passion for science was evident in every word he spoke, and it was impossible not to be inspired by his enthusiasm.
"thank you so much, professor jake," you said sincerely as you packed up your things. "i really appreciate your help."
"anytime, y/n. don't hesitate to reach out if you need more assistance," he replied with a smile.
you gave him another smile. you left his office feeling more confident and grateful for his guidance. professor sim had not only made the subject more accessible but had also shown you that with the right support, you could tackle even the toughest challenges.
over the next few weeks, you continued to visit his office for help, and each time, you left with a better understanding of the material. his encouragement and patience made all the difference, and you began to see science in a whole new light.
even though you guys only talked about science and just science, you couldnât help but notice when sim would ask you questions outside of science. like âwhat do you think about your teachers?â or âwhoâs your favorite teacher so far?â, and each time heâd ask, you would always say him.
one afternoon, as you were wrapping up another productive session, he asked, "so, y/n, have you thought about what you want to do after college?"
you paused, considering his question. it was new for him to ask that, "i'm not entirely sure yet. i know i want to do something in science, but I haven't decided on a specific path."
"that's perfectly fine," he said reassuringly. "you have plenty of time to figure it out. just remember to follow your passion and stay curious. the rest will fall into place."
you smiled, feeling a sense of reassurance, âthank you professor sim. i really appreciate that.â
you watch him push his hair back with a smile. you felt your heart skip a beat and immediately looked away, âi-i think i should get going. itâs getting pretty late.â
âyou donât need a ride do you? itâs pretty dark out since we practiced a bit longer than usual.â he reasoned. you thought for a moment. it is dark out and you donât know whoâs outside at this time. so, you nodded your head.
âgreat. iâll tidy up before we go.â he said. you watched him put a few books away and tidying up his desk for tomorrow before grabbing his keys from his drawer. he then walked you to the door.
you both left the college and went to the parking lot. you felt yourself feeling nervous. it was your first time going with sim anywhere but his class. he went to a mercedes car making you hum in acknowledgement.
he chuckled at your reaction, âlike it?â he teased. you nodded your head and giggled.
âi donât really know cars that well, but i just know this one is expensive.â you said. his laugh causing a stir in your stomach.
you both entered the car and buckled up. he backed from the parking lot, âdo you live on campus or somewhere else?â he asked.
âi live on campus, but the other one.â you spoke.
âyou live pretty far? you walk here?â he murmured. he gazed at you curiously.
you chuckled, âitâs a good walk. i wake up a bit earlier so iâm not late for your class.â
he smiled at you, âif i wouldâve known you go that far iâd spare you.â you shook your head and smiled back.
the car ride was silent, you let out a sigh and lay your head on the window. the past few days you havenât been getting much sleep. you felt your eyes get a bit heavy.
âtired?â sim questioned. you opened your eyes back up and nodded.
âa little. sorry, havenât really got much sleep. iâve been so stressed out that i couldnât sleep.â you joked, but it wasnât really a joke.
sim hummed, he understood how tiring college could be, âyou can take a nap. i mean if you want too. iâll wake you up when weâre at the campus.â he said.
you smiled gratefully. soon your eyes became heavy and thatâs when you fell asleep. your soft breathing soon filling the silence.
jake looked at your sleeping figure. you really were the prettiest student heâs ever seen. he knows itâs wrong to think of you like that. youâre supposed to be just a student to him, but he canât help but think of something more.
your smile that makes him feel a type of way inside. your pretty laugh that he canât help but adore. those thoughts were just something he thought werenât bad, but his other thoughts were a bit more mature.
the way your outfits fit your body perfectly. your breast sitting perfectly in your bra, jiggling when you walk towards him. itâs hard for him not to get rock hard and stare. your fingers so pretty to him that he wonders if they're just as pretty inside your pussy. your glossy lips so pretty when they pout, he wonders what they would feel like around his dick. he just knows theyâd stretch so pretty.
he soon parks the car in front of the campus. he shakes you softly, ây/n. weâre here.â
you groaned and turned away from him. he tried shaking you awake again, but you didnât budge. he sighed and looked around. maybe he could just pick you up and take you to your dorm. that wouldnât be weird right?
he got off his car and went to your side, opening the car door. he grabbed your backpack and slung it over his shoulder. he unbuckled your seatbelt and picked you up swiftly. he was hoping no one was awake at this time. he opened the door with his free hand and entered the building.
as soon as he unlocked your door he set you down on your bed with your bag on the chair. he couldnât help but curiously look around. your room filled with collage photos of you and your friends. there was a photo of you and your parents. he slowly picked up the photo and smiled. you looked happy unlike the times you were in the halls.
he set it back down and was about to head out until he heard you making a noise, âsim please. down there.â you moaned out.
jake paused his walking and looked back at you. you were still sleeping, but your breathing started to become uneven and heavy. wait, were you having a dream about him?
he slowly prodded towards you and slightly shook you. you really were a deep sleeper. just then you let out another noise. it sounded like a whimper.
âfuck me sim.â you whispered.
what. the. fuck.
jake nearly choked on his spit. there was no way you talk this clearly in your sleep. were you joking with him? his breathing became unsteady with the uncomfortable feeling between his legs. he cursed at himself for still standing here and quickly left. locking the door on the way out.
he would just pretend he never heard you.
he couldnât pretend. the whole day he was thinking about what you said last night. with him having to solve his little problem himself. you acted normally the way you did. you remembered he took you back to your campus cause you thanked him first thing when you saw him. if only he didnât make it seem awkward.
you on the other hand was confused why professor sim was acting strange. were you snoring really loud in his car? you really hoped you didnât.
as class came to an end, you packed your stuff. as you were packing you couldnât help but look over at professor sim. your eyes went wide when you saw him talking to another female teacher. you didnât even notice she came in.
they seem to be chatting about something funny cause sim was laughing a lot to what she was saying. you felt a weird feeling in your chest that you couldnât describes. was it jealousy?
you sighed and put your bag over your shoulder and left the class without sparing another look. as you were walking you suddenly heard your name being called. you turn around expecting a specific person, but you saw that it was riki.
you gave him a fake smile, âhey riki.â you said. riki smiled once he caught up to you.
âare you okay? i tried texting you last night but you didnât answer.â he asked. you pushed your hair behind your ear suddenly remembering last night again.
âo-oh i came home pretty early and fell asleep. did you need to talk about something?â you spoke.
riki nodded, âactually i was gonna talk to you about the project-â ây/n.â
your eyebrows furrowed and looked behind riki, only to see none other than professor sim. he came closer to you guys, âyou guys should head to class or youâll be late, especially you mr. nishimura.â
the tone in professor sim kinda intimidated you. his voice bitter and sharp towards riki. riki nervously nodded his head and gave you a tight smile before walking past you. you looked at professor sim only to see him looking at you.
âdid you need something professor sim?â you mumbled, feeling small under his strong gaze.
âdonât waste your time talking to guys and focus on your classes.â he suddenly said. his voice coming more harsh than he intended. your eyebrows furrowed felling a bit offended.
âexcuse me?â you said âyou should know i donât waste my time on guys. riki isnât just any guy, heâs my friend.â
before jake could say something you walked away. jake sighed and pushed his hair back. he didnât mean to come out like that. he couldnât shake that feeling of jealousy when he saw how close riki was to you. heâd have to apologize later.
you sighed when your last class finally finished. you were supposed to have your tutoring lesson with sim, but after that incident you donât think you could go. youâll just email him saying youâre sick. you left the college and walked to your campus.
you listened to a few playlists while walking. the cool breeze with the sunny sky made you feel relaxed. once you came to your campus you said hi to the lady up front and went to your room. you set your bag on the floor and sighed. a shower sounds good. before you went in the shower you emailed sim about your canc and shut your computer.
you took a quick shower and finished up. you wrapped a robe around your body and dried your hair with a towel, but before you could grab your phone you heard a knock at your door. you frowned, nobody barely knocks on your door, so who could it be. you opened the door and your eyes widened in surprise. it was sim.
âprofessor sim? what are you-â âare you that mad at me?â he cut you off. you closed your mouth. is that why he came all the way here?
âprofessor sim im not mad-â âso why are you ignoring me?â he said. you didnât know it mattered that much to him.
âi-iâm sorry. i didnât mean to cancel last minute.â you said. maybe thatâs why he was upset. he doesnât like when people cancel stuff last minute. he shook his head.
âiâm not mad if thatâs what youâre thinking. iâm asking if youâre mad about what i did earlier.â he admitted. oh. thatâs what he was talking about. to be honest you donât know if you were really mad anymore. so, you shook your head.
âitâs okay. iâm sorry for being rude.â you muttered.
âi should say sorry too. i know you donât do any of those things. i was just in a bad mood.â he said. was he really in a bad mood if he was talking to that female teacher happily?
you gave him a fake smile, âitâs okay professor sim. was that all you came here for.â
just as he was about to say something, he averted his gaze down and noticed you were in a robe. he felt his face burning and looked back up at you, âo-oh iâm sorry. did i interrupt your bathing time?â he stuttered.
âhuh?â
you looked down and also noticed you were still in your robe. you gasped and moved the door in front of you, âiâm sorry!â
he tried shaking his head, but you just kept apologizing, âno itâs fine really! itâs my fault.â
you stopped apologizing and stared at him, awkwardness filling the air. he cleared his throat and looked back at you, âi-iâll get going-â
âwait. i know this might sound weird, but do you wanna come in for a moment? we can do the lesson here if you're still up for it.â you thought. jake pondered for a moment before nodding.
you got done getting dress in your bathroom and came out. you saw sim sitting on the floor with textbooks on the wooden table you had in the middle of your room. he was looking around your room before staring at you.
you smiled at him and sat next to him, âwe can start where we left off yesterday if thatâs fine.â you said. he nodded and flipped the page to where you guys left off.
as you he taught you easy ways to get the answer, you felt yourself getting distracted once again by his visuals. you didnât know what you were feeling at this point, it was a feeling you hated, but wanted to know more about. all of a sudden sim looked at you. you felt your breath get caught in your throat. he was staring at you with a questionable linger in his eyes. you felt his breath against your face. you guys were so close that if you moved a step your lips would touch.
âsim-â âpush me away if you donât want this.â was all he said when you suddenly felt lips on yours.
you gasped and held tightly on his shirt. his lips molding against yours perfectly. you moaned when you felt his hand grip your ass, making him have access to enter his tongue. you felt your room getting hot as you lay on the ground with sim on top of you.
you took off his jacket while he helped you take it off without breaking the kiss. the dim lighting of your fairy lights making it seem darker than usual. he took off your shorts, only leaving your underwear on. he kissed and sucked along your jawline to your chest, kissing it gently. the sexual tension you guys had finally snapping in him. he lifted your shirt up and unclasped your bra. you felt the cold air hit your nipples and made a noise.
he smirked against your chest before gripping one breast and sucking the other. you let out a moan and gripped his locks. he groaned and pinched your nipple making you jerk.
âsim.â you whimpered. he looked up at you and departed from your breast.
he started unbuttoning his long sleeve button up, âcall me jake.â he said. you bit your lip when you finally saw his toned body. god if you wouldâve known he had that body under his suit you wouldâve made a move sooner.
he leaned back down and kissed you gently, biting your lip making you sigh. you felt his right hand slowly going down until it made contact with your cloth pussy. you threw your head back when you suddenly felt him rub your folds up and down.
he dipped his hand in a second later and confused rubbing your folds, âfuck youâre so wet.â he murmured.
you nodded and kissed him again. both of your lips swollen. you wouldnât want it any other way though. he took his fingers away and put them in his mouth. you watched intensely as he smirked at you. he got up and lifted you up bridal style before putting you on your bed. he unbuckled his pants and pulled them down revealing his boxers.
you gasp at the outline of his dick. you know itâs big. he got on top of you again and slid down your underwear. you felt yourself blushing with how he stared. you felt the urge to close your legs but before you could jake dipped his head down to your pussy.
âj-jake wait.â you moaned when you suddenly felt his hot tongue lick your folds.
he groaned as you gripped his hair again. he licked your folds again but this time he sucked on your clit. you thrash around at the new feeling as your eyes rolled back.
the sound of wet slurping noises was the only thing heard in your room. jake couldnât get enough of your pussy. he was a completely pussy drunk man at this moment. your sweet juices leaking out, he knows you love it just as much as he does.
you felt a tight feeling in your pussy and patted his head, âj-jake mâgonna cum!â you cried out. he didnât stop making you feel your climax coming. you let out one last moan before your orgasm finally hit. your legs shaking on the side of his head. he drummed up your cum like he was a dehydrated man.
you panted harshly and whined when he finally pulled away. he licked the rest on his chin, âfuck, you taste so good.â he says. he pulls his boxers down and thatâs when you finally saw his dick. it was veiny and hard, precum at the tip.
âdo you need to be prepped?â he said. you shook your head. you needed his dick in you now.
he positioned himself at your entrance before slowly pushing in. he groaned while you whimpered and held him tightly. he hissed when he felt you scratching at his back. slowly, he backed up and pushed back in so you could get used to the feeling.
a few minutes later you felt a pleasure tingling in your body, âj-jake faster. please.â
he didnât need to be told twice. he started going at a faster pace and thatâs when you were out of it. his tip hitting your g-spot.
âyes! right there! oh fuck!â you cried out. the sound of skin slapping, panting, and bed creaking was heard. you had a feeling people could hear you, but you could care less. especially with the way jake was fucking you.
he gripped your neck with a free hand, âsuch a little whore for dick. gonna be a good bitch for me?â he rasped out. you nodded your head frantically.
he felt you squeeze his dick and moaned. your pussy was a match made in heaven just for him.
you felt another orgasm coming and arched your back. he gripped your hips and snapped his hips harder. your orgasm hit you hard and you saw white. jake snapped his hips three more times before pulling his dick out, stroking himself on your stomach before cumming.
both of you panted uneven and hard. he got off your bed and grabbed the towel you used for your hair and wiped your stomach and wiped your pussy. you whined from sensitivity.
he grabbed another pair of pajamas for you and helped your put them on.
he put the towel in your dirty basket and went back to you, pushing your hair back, âi should get going.â he said.
you pouted, âdo you have to leave?â
jake hated that he did, but he canât get caught with his own student, âitâs for the better. youâll see me tomorrow.â
you finally nodded your head. he covered you with your blanket and kissed your head, âgoodnight beautiful.â he whispered. you soon dozed off into dreamland.
jake got dressed and looked at you one last time before shutting your door with a soft click.
you groaned feeling an ach in your body. you got up and went to your bathroom. you looked at yourself in the mirror and gasped. your neck was covered in hickeys from your neck to your chest. you traced your fingers along them and slowly smiled.
you took another shower and got dressed for the day. you out on a crew neck to cover your hickeys. good thing it was cold out today.
you soon got to the campus and entered your class to see jake already there typing on his computer. he didnât notice you so you decided to sit down at your seat. once the bell ring he looked up from his computer and spotted you. he gave you a knowing grin before standing up, getting ready for the lecture.
âalright guys, did you finish the homework from yesterday?â he chimed. students began taking out their notes and handed them in. you turned yours in too. jake continued his lecture until the bell rang. students left the class while you waited until everyone left.
you went up to his desk and gave him a smile. he got up and gave you a hug. you giggled and stuffed your face in his neck.
âyour not hurt anywhere are you?â he asked. you shook your head. he sighed in relief before letting you go.
âsame time at my place?â you said. jake chuckled and quickly pecked your lips.
âi canât today. i have a meeting to attend.â he spoke. you pouted, but understood.
âokay. iâll see you later though right?â you said. he chuckled at your urgent question and nodded.
âof course you will beautiful.â he replied. you smiled cheerfully before leaving his class so he could attend his meeting.
over the next few days it would be the same. jake would come over to your dorm and would spend time with you, either having loving sex or just spending time together. everything was going just the way you wanted it too. until an incident happened.
rumors started to spread around campus. whispers of favoritism and inappropriate relationships between you and professor sim filled the halls. despite your best efforts to ignore them, the pressure was mounting.
one evening, after a particularly stressful day, jake asked to meet you in his office.
you opened the door to his office to see him already there in deep thought. you let out a gulp before going towards him, âjake?â
he looked up at you, but it wasnât with the same loving look he usually gave you. ây/n, we need to talk," he began, his voice heavy with emotion. "i think we should stop what weâre doing. what we had was nothing but satisfaction we wanted to get off our chests.â
your heart sank, where was he coming from with this? satisfaction? getting it off our chest? you couldnât help but feel tears pricking your eyes, âw-what do you mean? donât you love me?â
jake stared at you as if you were just a regular person to him, ây/n, what we had wasnât love. you were just a way to relive my stress. whatever you thought we had ends here. you may be dismissed.â
the lack of emotions in his voice finally made your tears fall freely.
you let out a sob, âi hate you! donât ever talk to me again!â you screamed out before leaving his room, slamming the door shut.
weeks went by, and the pain of the breakup lingered. you threw yourself into your studies, trying to keep your mind off jake. even though you had him first period and he was your professor, you made a good route on ignoring him. none of it was easy, but you found solace in your friend, riki, who had always been there for you. his presence was comforting, and slowly, you began to smile again.
âare you gonna have that?â riki asked. you rolled your eyes at him before smiling. you gave him your cookie which he happily accepted.
you both were currently waiting at a bus station. after riki found out you walk a long way to the college, he insisted on paying for your bus rides as long as he gets to go with you.
âitâs way too cold out today.â you commented. riki nodded his head as he munched on the cookie. you shivered when a gust of wind blew at you guys. riki noticed your freezing state.
âcome closer to me.â he said. you scooted a bit closer to him and lay your head on his shoulder. you sighed at somewhat of a closer warm feeling. as you guys continued waiting you saw a familiar car stopping in front of you guys. your eyes widened when the driver door suddenly opened revealing jake.
before you could think, jake yanked your wrist and pulled you away from riki. you yelped and tried taking your wrist away from him.
âwhat the hell are you doing?â you snapped at him. riki got up and tried to help you but jake stopped him.
âget the hell away or youâll regret it.â he gritted his teeth. riki stopped and looked at you worriedly. you shook your head at him not to come any further. jake took you to his car, opening the passenger door and setting you inside. he slammed it shut before going to the drivers seat and entering.
you silently watched him start the car, leaving riki in the cold. you felt guilty and angry and looked at jake, âlet me go jake! i wanna be with riki!â you yelled.
jake ignored you. you scoffed, âjake seriously. let me go!â
âstop talking or iâll find a way to make you.â he said. you immediately stopped ranting and stared at him. you decided to stay silent. you knew you couldnât fight him when it came to this.
in all honesty jake never felt so jealous before until now. you were so close to riki that something inside him snapped. at first he was gonna let it go since heâs the one that initiated the end to your relationship, but he saw a spark in your eyes that he hadn't seen in a while.
a pang of regret hit him hard. he realized that letting you go was a mistake. the rumors and the pressure seemed insignificant compared to the happiness he saw in your eyes.
you arrived at a building. you assumed it was an apartment building. jake opened your door when he came out. you stepped out when he grabbed your wrist and took you inside.
when you finally got to a room he unlocked it with a pin and entered it. the first thing you saw was shelves lined with scientific journals and textbooks, a whiteboard covered in equations and diagrams, but amidst all the science, there was also a comfy reading nook with a big, plush armchair and a collection of classic novels. you noticed how he had a nice window view of the city night. now that you thought of it, it was your first time at his place.
âyou can take your jacket off.â he said. slowly, you took off your jacket. he grabbed it and settled it on a rack.
you stood there awkwardly and waited for his next move. he extended his hand out for you to grab. you took it as he walked you to the couch, âiâll go get us some drinks.â
you sat down on the couch and waited. you didnât know what to talk about to him. he came back with a drink and handed it to you. you grabbed it and took a small sip. he sat down next to you and thatâs when he made he contact with you, but this time he had that same old look he gave you back then.
"y/n, I made a mistake," he confessed. "seeing you with riki made me realize how much i miss you. i thought i was protecting you, but all I did was hurt you. can you ever forgive me?"
you took a deep breath, the memories of your time together flooding back. you wanted to just drop everything and forgive him, but you knew itâs best to face reality.
âprofessor sim-â âjake.â he cut you off.
you sighed, âjake, i forgive you, but i donât think we can go back to the way it was. what you said really did hurt me that i couldnât even eat or sleep. i donât wanna go that same route again.â
jake looked at you regretfully. you just wanted to hug him and hold him forever. he stared down, âi understand. i donât blame you at all. i really did fuck it up cause i was a coward.â he admitted.
âyouâre not a coward jake. you just didnât wanna lose your job.â
âbut i lost you instead.â he said. now it was your turn to stare down. jake slowly lifted your head up with his hand under your chin.
"I promise y/n, iâll do anything to get you back." he promised.
you gave him a smile. you know itâll take time to work things out, but you knew if you did it together, nothing would stop you guys from being with each other. so, you cupped your hand on his and gave him a reassuring smile.
âiâm counting you on that sim jake. and if you do get me back, it can be our little secret.â
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pairing. kinich x fem!reader
word count. 3.4k
genre/warnings. childhood friends to lovers (yes kinich literally invented this trope okay. sue me), mini-drabbles, childhood to university, modern!au, fluff and slight angst, lots of bantering but it's light-hearted i promise
summary.
you've always been a sore loserâkinich is just the only one brave enough to say it. or, you and kinich fall in love over the course of your lives, and one thing never changesâyou're both idiots
author's note. credit to @/scythidol for the header images! a bit of a different fic format this time (who is she....). i'm sick over kinich, i have nothing clever to say or excuses to make. that's all, thank you for reading! i'm finishing this at 5am so i'll fix any errors later lol. reblogs/interaction highly appreciated!
I.
âYouâre annoying.â
The old TV in your backyard treehouse buzzes with static and the constant thumps of Kinichâs fingers against the controller buttons.
Itâs a summer eveningâcrickets chirp merrily in the grass and lightning bugs float lazily through the air, glowing among the stars. Youâre sitting next to him, knees pulled to your chest and the straw of a Capri-Sun settled between your lips.
His reaction (or lack thereof) to your words leaves you less than entertained, a sour pout fixed on your lips as he sighs.
âYouâre a sore loser. We said whoever got up here first got to play first.â Despite the intense game occurring on the screen in front of him, he diverts about half his attention to watching you out of the corner of his eye. âAnd I got up here first.â
âBut you always win,â you whine. Kinich nudges at his own juice box with his knee, and you roll your eyes before picking it up and holding it to his lipsâhe drinks gratefully, still focused on his game. Youâre not sure why you keep agreeing to this bet; you donât think youâve ever won.
âThen you need to get faster.â
Both of you know that such a feat would be impossibleâKinich has been the fastest kid in your grade since you started school. His athleticism affords him a bit of popularity, still at the age where winning a playground race is essentially the deciding factor between the cool kids and the lame ones. But heâs not interested in any of that, and he makes that quite clear in his actions.
After all, all the popular kids avoid him since he started a fight with them last year.Â
âThey were saying things about you,â heâd shrugged, like it was no big deal. The school seemed to think a bit differently, and his suspension felt like the longest week of your life.
The screen flashes then, a loud and colorful display that shows the words âyou winâ. Kinich leans back in his seat, a pleased half-smile spreading across his face.Â
âOkay, now you can play.â
He tries to hand you the controller, but you huff, crossing your arms and turning away.
âI donât even wanna play anymore.â
Kinich is far more mature than you at this ageâeven your own mother tells you as muchâso he merely sighs, accepting of your tantrum.
âOkay, what do you wanna do then?â
You ponder that for a moment. Thereâs a lot of things you do often, but many of them are things that Kinich is much better at than you. Playing video games, climbing trees, riding bikesâheâs far more talented at them all. Itâs one of the reasons you even became friends in the first placeâyouâd practically begged him to teach you to beat the final boss of Super Mario Galaxy, and the rest was history.
âI donât know,â you mumble noncommittally, blowing your straw wrapper at him. It lands right on target, bouncing lightly off his forehead as he rolls his eyes.
âCome on, whatever you wanna do, weâll do it,â he says, poking at your cheek. âIâll even play house.â
And you know Kinich hates playing houseâhe has boundless amounts of energy most days, and house isnât âchallengingâ enough of a game for him to expend it. But he does it occasionally, just for you.
You brighten at the prospect.Â
âReally?â
âYeah, yeah,â he sighs, already descending the treehouse ladder, waving you along. âLetâs go inside first, though. Iâm hungry.â
Scrambling to your feet, you jump down to meet Kinich, already standing in the grass.
âLast one inside is a rotten egg!â
II.
The rainstorm ends just as classes dismissâwhen you walk out the school entrance, a slight drizzle is still letting up, fresh puddles lapping at your toes. Kinichâs gaze finds you instantly as he slinks out of the school gates, bag tossed loosely over his shoulder.
âMy socks are wet now,â you whine, patting down the edges of your skirt to look down at your shoes. Youâd only just bought them recently, and your mom likely wouldnât be pleased with the prospect of you ruining them so soon.
Kinich chuckles at first, a snarky sound as thick as the gathering clouds, only to sigh when your pout persists.
âAlright, alright,â he relents, squatting to the ground and gesturing for you to get on his back. âDonât say I never did anything for you.â
Heâs a bit frail, still in his growing phaseâhis bones and muscles shift rhythmically under his skin as he walksâbut heâs so distinctly warm. The heat makes you curl closer, nose brushing against his neck.
He walks you home most days like this, spending the day at your house until the sky grows dark with dusk. His home life is something he rarely discusses, but you know enough, and youâre happy to welcome him to yours.
âYouâre slow,â you mumble into his shoulder. The steady thump of his steps is comforting, nearly putting you to sleep.
âYouâre heavy,â Kinich replies teasingly, adjusting your weight atop his back. His words are biting, but heâs being careful with his steps nonetheless, taking each one lightly so as not to jostle you.
âYouâre rude,â you scoff back. His nose scrunches in annoyance when you loop your arms tighter around his neck, pretending to choke him as punishment. âYouâre not supposed to say that to a girl.â
He blows his bangs out of his eyes, peering up at the newly visible sun that starts to dip low in the sky. You watch a cat scurry through the bushes to your right, golden eyes peering through the foliage before disappearing into the darkness.Â
âYeah, thatâs why Iâm saying it to you.â
Kinich is always a bit wittier than you, a bit quicker to the punch, but you like that about him. You like a lot of things about him, and youâre sure he knows it, too. A weighty silence settles between the two of you, unnaturalâitâs usually you who fills the silence, and Kinich who patiently listens.
But something bigger sits at the back of your mind, and the words are having trouble surmounting the obstacle of your tongue.Â
Youâre still floundering for something to say by the time your house appears in the distance. The sight lights a fire under youâyou donât want to discuss something like this with your mother in earshot. You force the words out, voice weak and small.
âI heard Mualani confessed to you yesterday.â
The rumor had flown through the school like wildfire. Mualani is popular with the boys after all, so thereâs bound to be quite a bit of heartbreak if she ends up in a relationship. Someone had seen them together at that sakura tree behind the school, and it instantly became a hot topicâitâs all youâve heard about all day.
And though you know itâs not really any of your business, you canât help but be curious, and the thought fills you with dread.
You manage a glance at his expression, searching for any sort of unrest, but he doesnât show any at all. In fact, he seems wholly uninterested in the topic.
He shrugs. âYeah, so?â
You take a deep breath for courageâyouâre not sure you want to hear his answer.Â
âSo? What did you tell her?â
And itâs nothing against Mualani, reallyâsheâs kind and beautiful, and you wouldnât blame Kinich for falling for her. Sheâs never done anything wrong to you at all. But a beat passes, and youâre already halfway through mourning the end of your long-time crush when he replies.
âI told her I was flattered, but I wasnât interested.â
A sigh of relief escapes you then, but you reel it in quicklyâhe can probably feel you relax against his back at his response.
âOh,â is all you say, as aloof as you can manage. Kinich latches onto your hesitation instantly.
âWhy do you ask?â
âNo reason,â comes your hasty reply. â...Is there any reason you said no, though?â
He frowns. âI donât know. She just isnât my type.â
â...Then what is your type?â
Youâre going too far, you knowâeven just speaking the words has your chest twisting painfully, and you want to crawl into a hole and disappear. If Kinich isnât an idiot, he can surely tell why youâre practically breathing down his neck over the whole thing.
But maybe Kinich is a little bit of an idiot, at least about these things, because he merely shrugs.
âNot sure. Never really thought about it.â
A frost unfurls in your chest, bitterâof course Kinich wouldnât know, heâs never thought about anyone that way. Including you.
âRight.â You attempt a laugh, teeth gritting. âItâs all stupid anyway.â
You drop your head into his shoulder, trying to hide the pained expression on your face, and only then does Kinichâs stare flicker to you, soft.
âRight,â he says, a quiet rumble from his chest. âItâs really, really stupid.â
III.
Walks turn to drives when Kinich turns sixteen and buys his own car.
Heâd saved up for months, working part-time jobs on weekends and after school, until the day finally came when he pulled up into your driveway, keys in hand. Your mom had been overwhelmingly proudâbought a cake and everythingâand youâd merely been grateful that you no longer had to beg her to drive you places.Â
Itâs nothing crazy, just a simple sedan, but it represents a freedom that the two of you have never experienced together before.
Thatâs how you end up parked underneath the flickering streetlight just outside your house, excitedly recounting a story to your best friend. Heâd driven you home from your club after school, an errand that always ended in several other stopsâtoday, it had been fast food and boba.
His eyes seem to glow in the fading daylight, a pretty jade and amber that youâve always thought was beautiful. It feels a bit more intense with his stare trained on youâKinich isnât the talkative type, sure, but he always ensures that you know heâs listening.
âSo then she was asking me about you.â
âMhm.â
âAnd get this,â a nervous chuckle escapes you then, âshe thought we were dating.â
Everything falls still.
Itâs times like this that you really start to hate just how unreadable your best friend can be. Despite how much you tease him for it, you actually enjoy how difficult it can be to force an expression out of himâitâs a little challenge every day. But now, when youâre on the precipice of pouring your heart out, his impassive expression stings.
Nothing on his face changes, save for a slight tilt of his headâheâs considering your words. The silence feels endless; a lump starts to form in your throat, humiliation burning at your cheeks.Â
âI know, itâs so ridiculous,â you assert hurriedly, trying to avoid the rush of shame. âI mean, we would neverââ
âTell her we are, then.â
Youâre sure that in that moment, your heart stops.Â
Truthfully, you hadnât planned to get this farâyou were planning on brushing over that part of the story and moving on, but something deep in your heart had forced it out of you. Now, you arenât sure what you really want to happen.
Itâs always been your underlying fear, that once Kinich finds out, everything will change. Or even if he does return your feelings, itâll all go up in flames eventually and youâll never be the same. Itâs terrifying enough to have kept your mouth shut all these years.
A tense laugh erupts from your throat, cutting through the silence. âIâI mean, itâs not that simpleââ
He arches a brow. âDo you not want to?â
Thatâs another difference between you and Kinichâheâs far more straightforward about getting things that he wants. Itâs one of the reasons that people misinterpret him as cold, but he sees it as being logical.
You gnaw at your lip, fingers tracing over the car door. Do you?
If the countless daydreams and romantic notebook doodles are anything to go by, you do. You really do. Youâre just not sure if youâre brave enough to take that step.
When you look at him again, heâs observing you carefully, a delicate fondness lying in his stare. You shrink under the weight of it.
âNo, I do,â you admit quietly.Â
The moment falls still, and your eyes are drawn to the only movement within your line of visionâthe quick bob of Kinichâs throat. Then, his hand advances toward your face at a measured pace, giving you endless opportunities to retreat.
Of course, you donât.
âCan IâŠ?â he asks, barely a brush of a whisper. The tension runs thick in the air as his tongue peeks out, swiping over his bottom lip at a tantalizing pace. Itâs nearly enough to drive you crazy, but you know heâs just as anxious.
âYes,â you breathe, wincing at the sound of your own voiceâit sounds almost too eager.
But Kinich presses his lips to yours all the same, soft and wanting, and your heart flutters in your chest. Itâs a chaste kiss, nothing like the fireworks-exploding-making-out-with-tongue types youâve seen on TV, but itâs just rightâit feels like him, and thatâs all that matters. He pulls away slightly, lips still millimeters away from yours.
âI like you. If Iâm not wrong, you like me too. I think itâs that simple.â
You almost want to laugh at the ridiculousness of it all. Though youâd never admit it, youâve practiced this scenario thousands of times in front of your bedroom mirrorâwhat you would say to him, what he might say to you. Leave it to Kinich to not follow the script.
But heâs always done things his own way, so really, you shouldâve expected this.
Gently, he reaches for your hand, fingers slotting through yours with ease. You sigh.
âI guess it is.â
IV.
â...that far, huh?â
Kinich stares at you upside down, head dangling off the edge of your bed as you sit at your desk, laptop keys clicking rapidly. He knows youâre serious about your future goals; you both are. He just never imagined it would bring the two of you so far apart.
You pause with one hand resting on the mouse, still staring at the screen. The map looks so daunting, too daunting, and you canât imagine being that far away from him.Â
An awkward, weighted silence hangs in the air, and by the time a few seconds pass, youâve already foreseen eighty different bad endings for this situation. Clearing your throat once, you force yourself to speak.
âKinich, Iââ
âI get it.â
He doesnât mean to interrupt you so suddenly, but he does. He couldnât stop himself if he tried. Because while he does understandâhe really doesâhe also canât help the stinging sensation of tears gathering in the corners of his eyes. It feels pathetic. It feels selfish. Here you are, chasing your dreams and supporting his, and heâs caught on the fact that there will be a little space between the two of you. And itâs not like itâs anyoneâs fault, but maybe youâll get tired of waiting andâ
âYouâll come back to me, right?â
Thereâs an unmistakable thickness to your voice, evidence of the steadily growing lump in your weary throat. It grows larger with every passing second, an insurmountable mass dwarfed only by the impending distance between you and him.
That question catches Kinich off-guard, and he nearly wants to laugh then; not because he doubts you at all, but because he doesnât, and he finds it ridiculous that you would ever think otherwise. Here you are, worrying about him.
Kinich doesnât have any doubts or fears. He never does when heâs with you.
Maybe thatâs why.
With a light laugh, he lets his eyes flutter closed, finally allowing an uneven breath to fill his lungs. The natural light outside is slowly dimming, the fluorescent lamps dotting your street flicking on one by one. He knows he should go home soon. His car is sitting outside, the same one the two of you have had endless adventures, fights, and make-ups in. Itâs the same one he will use when he moves an unfathomable distance away from you. The same one he will use on the day you will cry, clinging to him like your life depends on it, before watching him disappear into nothing but a mere dot in the distance.
His fist clenches at his side.Â
But youâre still here, the closest feeling he has to home, and youâre still in love with him, and he is still in love with you.
Maybe thatâs why this is enough, for now.Â
Turning onto his stomach, Kinich sees you right-side up this time, and itâs like nothing has changed.
âDonât ask questions you already know the answer to.âÂ
V.
A knock echoes on your apartment door in the middle of the night.
You raise a brow at the sound, a bit unnervedâa lone college girl answering the door in the dark isnât the safest thing, you think as you peek one eye through the peephole. But thereâs a familiar figure standing outside, and it has your hand turning the knob immediately and flinging the door open.
Heâs here.
âKinich,â you breathe, in disbelief. Last youâd heard, he was somewhere halfway across the country, and certainly nowhere near your front door. But heâs here, in a black hoodie and grey sweatpants, looking like heâs just walked out of your dreams.
âHey,â he says simply, as if his appearance hadnât been totally shocking. He takes advantage of your shell-shocked state to invite himself inside, curiously looking through your apartment. âNice place.â
You step aside in a daze. âKinichâyouâwhat are you doing here?â
Heâs holding three flimsy bags in his fist, grocery store logos and restaurant labels stamped over the plastic, keys hanging off his pinky finger. Heâd come prepared, clearly, but for what youâre not sure.Â
He towers over you a bit more than he used to, hair a bit longer, and everything about him feels so grown up. It reminds you of all the moments the two of you have missed over the years, how much change has occurred beneath your nose, maybe without you realizing.Â
He spreads the bags over your kitchen tableâthe mouth-watering smell of Chinese takeout filters through the air, and your stomach grumbles in reply. But itâs your tear ducts that react initially, a sting at the corners of your eyes as you squeeze them shut.
Kinich doesnât notice at first, absorbed in inspecting the photos displayed on your wallâphotos of you, photos of him, photos of the two of you together. It makes his chest warm that you still think about those times. He does tooâafter all, itâs rare that you leave his mind.
But he turns back to you, tears running rivers down your cheeks, and his breath hitches.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asks, carefully cupping your face. A lilt of panic laces his voice. âDoes something hurt? Are you sick?â
âYouâre here,â you sob, curling into his shoulder. None of it feels real. Heâs warm and firm beneath your fingers, and you clutch at him tighter, half-expecting everything to disappear. Itâs so much different than FaceTime or calling or anything else you do when heâs away. Because right now, heâs completely within your reach, and everything falls into place.
âOf course I am,â he murmurs. You cry into his hoodie, soaking the fabric with your tears, but he holds you close all the same. âBecause youâre here.â
You spend a few minutes that wayâyou crying until your tears dry over your skin, and him comfortingly rubbing at your back. Air slowly returns to your lungs, and you sniffle, glassy eyes meeting his.Â
âBut why? I mean, itâs the middle of the semester, isnât it?â
A rare half-smirk graces his lips.
âWe made a promise. I came back to you first. So I do believe that means that I win,â he says. If you werenât so emotional, you might have rolled your eyesâof course, all he ever focuses on is winning.
He drags you over to the couch, laying down and pulling you on top of him, safe. You draw closer to him, tangling your limbs together until youâre not sure where he ends and you begin.
âYouâre annoying,â you whisper, muffled into his chest.
Kinich shakes his head, pressing a kiss to your forehead.Â
âYouâre still a sore loser. Thought youâd grow out of that by now.â
You grumble a few choice words at him, and he smilesâa sight that only you and the stars can claim to have ever seen.
And heâs right; you are a sore loser, and heâs been right just about every time he told you so. But you find it doesnât matter, not really.
You could never win against Kinich anyway.
(Maybe you never wanted to.)
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Locked Out of Heaven 1
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Warnings: this fic will include dark content such as dubcon/noncon, power imbalance, age gap, and other possible triggers. My warnings are not exhaustive, enter at your own risk.
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Summary: Your father invites a work friend to the neighbourhood barbecue.
Characters: Nick Fowler (Dad's friend trope)
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The smell of the macaroni salad drives you crazy as it wafts from the container. You're overly cautious as you pull into the long drive. There are a few vehicles along the tarmac you don't recognize. People must have started showing up.
Behind you, another car pulls in. Sporty and sleek. You turn off the Bentley and double check the interior. Your father will give you hell if you leave one hair inside. Even letting you take one of his three cars was enough to bristle him.
You get out and go around the passenger's side to get the large container of gourmet salad. It's from the overprice steakhouse where your dad goes to drink with his work buddies. He insisted on it but made no effort to do it. You volunteered, hoping he might offer a crumb of approval. He only told you not to spill it.
You balance the container as your satchel dangles awkwardly against your hip. You use your shoulder to close the door. As you door, a figure startles you, nearly knocking the salad from your hands. A large pair cover yours as you dip to save the prized side.
"Huh, Toree's? Must be for Chuck." The man comments. You don't recognise him though he doesn't act as stranger. He keeps his hands on yours. And Chuck? No. Everyone calls your dad Charles. Except you. You call him sir. "Told him, they got better steak at Chop."
"Um..." your eyes round.
You never know what to say to your father's friends. They're all older and more important and more responsible. He doesn't look as old as the rest but you can tell he's got some years on you. Everyone does.
"Here, I'll get it. Looks like you got enough going on."
"Oh, that's...." your voice trails off as he wiggles the container free. "Thanks."
He leans in, angling his ear to you. "What's that, sweetheart?"
"Um," you murmur then clear your throat. You speak louder, enunciating carefully. "Thank you."
He smirks, "you seem like you know the way around. Wanna show me where I'm going?"
You bite your lip then stop as his bright blue eyes follow the nervous gesture. You nod and point down the drive. He doesn't move. You turn and walk along the row of cars. You hook around the hedges and toward the iron gate. It's open, the archway marked with your father's initials.
"Nice place, huh?" The man clucks. "Chuck always goes all out."
You don't have a response so you just shrug. No one notices you as you enter. They do, however, notice your unexpected escort.
"Fowler? That really you?" Jethro, your father's especially liquor-happy friend greets the man with a shoulder slap. You stay back, happy not to be seen by him. He's still trying to get you to call him Uncle.
"Well, you know, I think they're running out of things for me to do," the man, Fowler snickers.
He keeps on and you trail after him. You shrink down as several others call out to him and he stops to exchange niceties. He makes it seem so easy but it must be when they don't talk down to you.
"There you are," your dad's timbre makes you trip. You look at him in a panic.
Fowler turns and struts toward the deck where you dad stands next to the grill, your brother, Austin, clapping the tongs as he lifts the lid next to him. You stay on the man's heels, readying yourself for a chew out.
"Nick," your dad extends his hand.
The man in front of you puts the container on the table across from the grill and shakes your dad's hand. "Chuck."
"You brought the salad."
"Ah, no, actually, I forgot the scotch I brought in my car," the man chuckles. "Actually, this kind woman brought that slop."
Your dad glances over and his jaw ticks in recognition. "Huh."
"Gonna be bored around here, isn't she? Bit young for this crowd."
"My daughter," you dad derisively pronounces your name, "she's got nowhere else to be."
You lower your eyes. He's not wrong but it's not something he needs to say.
"Ha, well, I'm sure she can figure something else," Nick turns to you. "Bit of advice, run."
He laughs again but you just feel stupid. You're always the joke.
"Stand up straight," your dad reproaches. "Why don't you offer him a drink? I taught you manners."
"Really? You? Manners?" Nick chides. "Don't you worry about me," he frightens you as he squeezes your shoulder gently, "I'm a big boy. I can get my own drink." His thumb rubs you briefly and he retracts his grip, "point me to the trough, Chuck."
Your dad directs him to the cooler and follows him over. You back up, content to fade back into oblivion, and skirt back down to the lawn. You look around at the smattering of guests. All those older men who work with your dad at the agency or play at his golf club, a few neighbours too.
You keep to the edge of the yard and find the flat stone behind the rose bushes. It's just big enough for you to sit. You'll happily hide there until you're quickly forgotten again.
đ
The smell of the barbecue builds with the tenor of the guests. You listen to the shuffle on the other side of the bushes and watch through the thorns as dinner is served up. Methodical as always, you wait until the rush has dispelled before you go to get your own share. Or rather, the leftovers.
It's funny. Your dad says you never think ahead but it feels like you have to analyse every second of every minute. He'll be sure to find something to pick apart.
You go up onto the deck. There's a chicken burger but no buns left. You take it and scrape up what's left of the romaine salad. There's no macaroni. It sure smelled good but oh well. You glance around. Hm. Maybe you can scrounge up a bun, or at the very least, some bread inside. Besides, you wouldn't mind the excuse to get away.
You let yourself in the back door and stop short. You're met with an unexpected sight. That man you met on the way in, the one some call Fowler but your father called Nick, stands at the sink... exposed. He has his shirt off and in his hands as he scrubs it under the running faucet.
You're so stunned you can't move or think. His arms are muscular and bulging with his effort. His chest too. You can see tension in his sides. There's that little cautious voice in the back of your head. You shouldn't be staring and you certainly shouldn't be feeling all tingly about it.
"Oh, it's just you, sweetheart," he glances over and grins. His eyes sparkle as his hair falls forward. "You wouldn't know how to get barbecue sauce out, would ya?"
You blink and cough. You can't speak. You near and put your plate on the counter. You look at the stain on his shirt as he holds it up to show you.
"Dish soap?" You find your voice. "Or..." it feels like he's getting closer. Leaning in, or something. Why is it so hot? You can hear the AC going.
"Sorry," he reaches to shut off the faucet. "You're so quiet, dish soap?"
"Yep, or... baking soda."
"Baking soda, sure... think I heard that one before," he clucks. "Right, let's give it a go."
He reaches for the bottle of soap. He squirts it on to the stain andïżœïżœput it back. Then he flips the faucet on again. He huffs and lets out a disappointed groan.
"If this even comes out, I'm going to be walking around with a wet shirt." He clicks his tongue and shakes his head.
You peek up at his profile as it sets in concentration. Straight nose, thick brows, high cheekbones. There's a shadow of stubble around his sharp jaw and a sliver of silver woven in at his temples.
"Oh, I..." you begin and back up.
You turn and quickly flee as the unfinished thought spurs you to action. It's a good reason to get away and stop gawking. You don't usually do that but your eyes just don't want to stay away.
You hurry upstairs to the bathroom and open the drawer. You take out your small purple blow dryer. You spin and rush back down.
As you enter, he holds up the shirt and faces you. He lowers it just enough to see you over the top. "What do you think? Noticeable?"
You look at the blue pattern. You know where to look so you can see it. You tilt your head.
"Not that bad."
"Oh, don't spare my feelings," he scoffs.
You look down as his eyes blaze at you. You raise the blow dryer. He crosses the kitchen and you nearly wilt.
"Good thinking, sweetheart."
Sweetheart... he keeps calling you that. Your dad doesn't even do that. You're just the kid or whatever. You're twenty-one. You're an adult. Or trying to be.
"Clever," he holds out his hand.Â
You look around. "Uh, one sec."
You go to the counter and reach across to plug in the blow dryer. He follows. Closely. He raises the shirt and you take the front of it. You spread the fabric with your fingers and turn on the dryer. You aim the air at the wet patch.
You don't know if it's the heat of the dryer or if it's him staring, but sweat coats your scalp. You feel the spot with your thumb and shut it off. You unplug it and wrap up the cord as he turns the shirt.
"Hm, not bad. You're right." He says.
"Probably come all out in the wash."
"Just a shirt," he shrugs and slips his hand through the sleeve. "What're we having then?"
He pushes his arms into the shirt and it falls to his shoulders. He tugs it and turns to look over your plate. You try to wipe the glimpse of his torso from your mind.
"Just chicken and salad." You put the dryer aside and go to the bread basket. It's only croissants.
"No bun? You're not on some sort of wacky diet, are you?" He wonders.
"None left," you shrug and go to your plate. He doesn't move. "It's fine. I'm not too hungry."
"What about that salad you brought? That was yummy."
You try to smile at him but your cheeks are tight. When you look at him, all of you locks up. You don't know why he cares, if he really does.
"No big deal, this is good for me," you take your plate and head for the door.
He follows. Shoot. He's quick too. He swoops around you and opens the door ahead of you, holding it from the inside so you brush by him to get out. He trails after you.
"You know, wouldn't take you as Chuck's kid. You're too nice. Too quiet. He's a bit of a loudmouth," he chortles. "But I'm guessing you know that."
"He's my dad," you shrug.Â
"You live here with him?"
You nod.
"Ah. Not bad. Good place to crash while you finish school. You go?" He asks.
"Uh huh. Biochem." You answer. "It's hard."
"Would be," he says. "Wow. Chuck choose that or you?"
You furrow your brow and look at him. He really guessed that easily? You shrug again.
"Sorry, nosy. I get bored at these things. Hence, why I never show up." He checks his watch. "Well, I won't ruin your supper." He looks at your plate and makes a face, "if you can call it that."
He runs his hand up your back as he steps past you. It sends a chill through you. You watch him go. He approaches Brad, the neighbour, as he points at the sports cap on his head in some sort of manly challenge. They posture and chuckle. For someone who claims to hate these things, he's sure good at working his way through them.
You drag your feet down the steps and back to the rose bushes. You sit on the stone and balance your plate on your lap. You tear a piece of the chicken burger away and gnaw on it. It's cold and the salad is soggy from sitting in the dressing. Well, at least you got something this time.
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A Stray Kids one shot

Synopsis: Chan comes back home from the Gym, making up his mind to divert his head from a lingering insecurity about his body by working all night. But you make him realise how much you love his Greek God physique.
Warnings: Smutđ Body insecurities, kisses, hickeys, oral (m.receiving), praising.
Minors do not interact!!!
Note: This one shot was requested by this ask, thank you so much for dropping this idea on my inbox!!
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The scent of the lavender candle spread across the atmosphere of the warm living room as you sat on the couch, wrapped in a cozy blanket and your book, waiting for your boyfriend to come back home from the Gym.
After a lovely lunch and cuddles, Chan decided to hop into the gym for a quick session for the week.
Your eyes read across the pages of the book, your mind concentrating on getting lost in the world of fiction when the sound of the keys on the front door distracted you.
The door opened and Chan entered, looking tired after his workout session but still devastatingly attractive. His loose t-shirt clung to his damp skin and his hair was tousled from the effort. His gym bag hung from his shoulder, he gave you a soft smile when he saw you curled up on the couch.
"Hey, baby," he said, his voice low and warm as he dropped his bag by the door and kicked off his shoes.
"Hi, Chan," you replied, setting your book aside and pulling the blanket tighter around you. "Tough session?â
He shrugged, walking toward you and sinking down onto the couch with a heavy sigh. His muscles flexed as he leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. "Just... needed to clear my head."
You frowned, sensing the heaviness in his tone. Sliding closer, placing your cheek on his arm, feeling the heat radiating off him. "What's on your mind?"
He hesitated, his gaze fixed on the floor. "It's nothing," he muttered, but the tension in his shoulders betrayed him.
"Chan," you said softly, tilting your head to catch his eyes. "Talk to me.â
He finally looked up, his dark eyes swirling with vulnerability. "It's stupid," he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. "I just... Iâve been feeling off about how I look lately. Like Iâm not enough."
Your heart clenched at his words. "What?" you said, incredulous. "Chan, youâre the most gorgeous man Iâve ever seen. And not just because of how you lookâthough let me tell you, your body is like a freaking work of art."
A faint smile tugged at his lips, but he still looked uncertain. "Youâre just saying that.â
"No," you insisted, sliding into his lap and straddling him, the blanket falling away. Your hands rested on his broad shoulders as you leaned in, your lips hovering over his.
"I mean it.â
Chan brushed a stray strand of hair being your ear, his eyes never leaving yours. âYou always making me feel good with your words sweetheart. But I think it's just me. I could do better⊠I'll just do some work to get it off my head.â
He said softly, as if he was accepting defeat to his insecurities and no way in hell you're going to make him feel that way.
âChanâŠâ You let your lips brush his, a soft, teasing kiss that made him shudder unexpectedly, his gaze turning dark. âEvery inch of you drives me crazy. And if you donât believe meâŠâ
Your lips trailed down to his jawline and neck. Your hands roamed over his chest, tracing the lines of his muscles through his t-shirt.
"...Iâll just have to show you.â
Chan let out a shaky breath, his hands finding your waist as his eyes darkened with intensity. âBaby,â
Before he said anything, you placed your index finger on his lips, hushing him. âShh⊠you always make me feel good Chan. Tonight it's my turn.â
From explosive nights to loving mornings, Chan always made you feel like the centre of his world. He would never make you question anything about yourself. But when he does it to himself? Now that's unfair.
Chan groaned against your lips, his grip on your waist tightening as he pulled you closer. His body was warm beneath you, his skin damp from his workout but still so inviting. You kissed him harder, pouring every ounce of love and admiration into it, desperate to erase the doubts that had crept into his mind.
You pulled back just enough to look into his eyes, your hands moving to cup his face. "You donât see yourself the way I see you," you murmured. "Every time I look at you, I see strength, kindness, and beauty. And that body of yours? Itâs a masterpiece, Chan. Donât you ever doubt that.â
He exhaled deeply, his hands sliding under your shirt to rest on your bare skin. âYouâre impossible,â he murmured, his lips brushing against yours as he spoke.
âAnd youâre irresistible,â you countered, tugging his t-shirt upward.
He hesitated for a moment, a soft pink blooming his cheeks and a flicker of doubt crossing his features, but you didnât let him pull away. âNope. None of that,â you said firmly. âYouâre perfect, Chan. Let me love you, please.â
Your plea sent something electric shooting straight through his body, after another second of hesitation, you took the black t-shirt over his head, your eyes drinking in the sight in front of you.
How can this man question his body? He was breathtaking in every possible way. Broad shoulders, chiselled, defined abs any man would envy. He was everything.
You kissed him again, this time slower, more deliberate. Your lips moved against his as your hands explored his shoulders and chest.
"Baby..." he breathed as you began trailing kisses down his jawline and neck, sucking on his sensitive skin leaving purplish red marks, your tongue flicking out to taste the salty sheen of his skin.
When your lips met his Adam's apple, it moved up and down as he let out a low, guttural groan, his head tipping back to give you better access. Your tongue traced the curve of his throat before your teeth grazed the skin, drawing a shiver from him.
His body trembled under your touch, and you could feel his self-control slipping. "You're driving me insane," Chan murmured, his hands gripping your waist as if anchoring himself to reality.
"Good," you whispered against his skin, your lips curving into a smile as you continued your slow exploration. "Thatâs exactly what Iâm trying to do."
Your hands slid down his chest, feeling the taut muscles beneath your fingertips. You leaned back just slightly to admire him, your gaze roaming over every dip and curve of his torso. The soft candlelight accentuated the sharp lines of his abs and the strength of his arms.
You slowly started moving downwards, making a trail of hot wet kisses down his chest, your tongue flicking ever so softly over his areola, nails tracing his hard abs. Your fingers came back up to gently play with his nipples, Chan let out a heavy sigh.
You couldn't help but smirk at the way you have almost full control over him, finally and wondrously making all the way down, trailing kisses and licking every muscle of his abs, your lips reaching all the dips and valleys it could.
You kneeled before him as your hands played with his belt, your eyes flicked up to meet his.
Chanâs breathing grew heavier, his chest rising and falling as he watched you with a mix of anticipation and adoration. The candle and the dim light cast shadows across his sharp features, making him look almost unreal, like a god brought to life, sculpted just for you.
Your fingers worked deftly, unbuckling his belt and sliding it free that made him tense. "You okay, Christopher?" you teased, your voice low and sultry.
He let out a shaky laugh, running a hand through his messy hair. The way you said his name, in that voice you only use when you take charge, made him dizzy.
"Youâre making it really hard to think right now.â
"Relax Chris. I wanna show you how much I love you," you replied, pulling his shorts down revealing his Calvin Klein boxers. You leaned forward, pressing a kiss to the V definition, your lips lingering as your hands roamed over his thighs and palmed his growing bulge.
Chan groaned louder, his hands gripping the edge of the couch as he fought to keep his composure. "Youâre really something else, you know that?"
"Only for you," you whispered, your breath warm against his skin.
You slid his shorts down further, your fingers continuing to brush against the growing hardness beneath the fabric of his boxers. Chan hissed softly at the contact, his head tipping back as he let you take the lead.
"Youâre so handsome," you murmured, your hands gliding over his thighs and up to his hips. "Do you have any idea how much I love every part of you?"
His eyes met yours again, and for a moment, all his insecurities seemed to fade. "I think Iâm starting to believe it," he said softly, his voice filled with gratitude and something deeper, something that made your heart ache in the best way.
Your lips curled into a satisfied smile, âAnd Iâm not stopping until you do.â
Chan inhaled a long breath when you leaned forward, pressing another kiss to his hipbone before sliding his boxers down, your touch gentle and revealing his beautiful, velvet shaft proudly springing free from the confines.
Fuck.
He was impossibly hard, veins running through his length, the soft tip already leaking pre cum making your mouth water, ready to take him.
You stacked your hands on the base of his cock, kissing and licking the pretty tip before fully taking him in. Chan's head fell back, his hands gripping the couch, chest rising and falling, his length hardening more.
You started slow, swirling your tongue around the sensitive head, savouring the salty taste of him mixed with the faint hint of his cologne still radiating off his skin.
Chanâs breath hitched, a deep groan escaping his lips as you wrapped your lips around him, taking him in torturous inch by inch into your mouth.
"Fuck, baby," he muttered, his voice strained with pleasure. His hands twitched at his sides, resisting the urge to thread them through your hair and guide your movements.
But he didnât need toâyou were perfectly in control, and it was driving him insane.
You hollowed your cheeks, creating a delicious suction as you bobbed your head enthusiastically, your hands working in tandem to cover what your mouth couldnât. Chanâs hips jerked slightly, a low growl escaping him as he let go of the last shreds of his restraint.
"God, you feel so good.â His voice was thick and unfolded like layers of velvet.
Your eyes flicked up to meet him as you hummed around him and stroked the faintish hairy skin above his length sending down vibrations that made his entire body shudder.
The sight of him, his head tilted back, the perfect view of the column of his hickey covered throat, parted lips, chest heaving, defined torse was enough to spur you on.
You increased your pace, your tongue sliding along the underside of his shaft, tracing every vein and ridge. Your warm mouth on his cock made blood rush through his body like an erratic tsunami, all his insecurities washing away like sand under the tide.
Chanâs hands finally found their way to your hair, his fingers tangling in the strands as he let out a broken moan.
"Iâm not gonna last if you keep doing that," he warned, his voice rough and thick like gravel.
You pulled back slightly, letting your tongue press and circle around the tip of his length before releasing him with a soft pop. Your hand replaced your mouth, stroking him slowly as you smiled up at him.
"I love how you feel down my throat," you teased, your voice sounding gentle yet so sexy, he let out a shaky laugh, his head falling back against the couch.
Your entire focus was making Chan feel like a king, you continued your pace on sucking on his cock, your movements becoming more fervent as you worked him closer and closer to the edge.
Every moan, every curse that spilled from his lips was music to your ears, and you felt your own arousal pooling as you lost yourself in the act of loving him.
"Baby... Iâm so close, fuck," he panted, his tightening grip finding its way back into your hair as his thighs trembled beneath your touch. His moans grew louder, more desperate, filling the room as he surrendered completely to the pleasure you were giving him.
With one final swirl of your tongue and a firm stroke of your hand, you felt him tense, his body going rigid as he let out a shuddering gasp. White warmth spilled down your throat, and you swallowed every drop of his cum like you had starved, savouring the taste as you milked him through his release.
Chan collapsed back against the couch, his chest heaving as he struggled to catch his breath. You slowly pulled back, strings of saliva attaching from your lips onto his length.
Wiping the corner of your mouth with a satisfied smirk, you leaned forward to press a gentle kiss to his quivering abdomen. And one for each ridge of his defined abs.
One. Two. Three. Four. Five. Six.
"Youâre flawless, my Chan.â You chuckled, brushing your lips against the sensitive spot just beneath the tip.
He let out a breathless laugh, his headâboth of themâbuzzing with the aftershocks. His hand reached out to pull you up into his arms. "Youâre gonna be the death of me," he said, his tone rough, looking almost shell shocked.
"Not a bad way to go," you teased, nuzzling into his neck as his arms wrapped around you, holding you close.
Chan kissed the top of your head, his voice steady and warm as he whispered, "Thank you. For loving me the way you do."
"I will always love you." You replied, your heart swelling with adoration as you both basked in the afterglow of the moment.
"I want you to see yourself the way I see you," you murmured, your voice soft but firm. "Strong. Gorgeous. Perfect."
Chan smiled warmly, his heart swelling with adoration, the room filling with nothing but the sound of ragged breaths as your mouths collided and the lingering scent of the lavender candle.
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Fred Weasley x F! Reader Smut
MDNI, 18+ Requests: OPEN Reblogs and comments are always appreciated.đ„°đ Request: Smut with Fred or George, female reader please! Requested By: @justgethappy Word Count: 3,251 A/N: Sorry this took me so long, I had a family emergency. But I think it might be worth the wait. đ«Ąđ¶ïžđ« Summary: You've been crushing on your best friend, Fred Weasley, for years. One night, during a game of truth or dare in the common room, you're forced to finally admit your feelings. Unbeknownst to you, he already knows and has been waiting for you to admit it so he can ravage you in the way he's only ever dreamed about. TW: Heavy spice (P! in V!- Unprotected, but on birth control), light BDSM (choking, some bondage), Oral (M & F receiving and giving), Gagging (no vomit), Possessive!Fred, Spanking, Claiming Kink, Praise Kink, Degradation Kink, God Kink. (Let me know if I missed anything.)
"Nervous?" Fred asks as he sits down beside me. My heart flutters as his hand brushes mine as he leans back on his hands. How I've managed to focus on anything all of these years with him always at my side is nothing short of a miracle.
I shake my head with a small smile spreading across my lips. "Nope," Liar. I lie and lean closer, smelling fireworks and cedar. God, why does he have to smell so good? "You?" I ask as Lee sits down with an empty bottle in the middle of all of us.
Fred chuckles, biting his lower lip with a smirk as he looks me up and down. "Not even a little," he winks. He's such a flirt that for just a moment, I think he actually might be flirting with me. But that's crazy. Not only did he just break up with Katie Bell, he's my best friend, not to mention the biggest fucking flirt in the school.
"Everyone ready?" Lee asks, rubbing his hands together with a smirk. We all nod and agree, and he clears his throat. "Brilliant. Now, remember, you have to do your dare or answer your truth honestly. If you don't, you get a jinx, and we'll know you're lying anyway. Not to mention, you'll have to live with the jinx for a whole day," he laughs.
My stomach flips with nerves. I don't think I could live with 'liar' or 'wimp' painted across my forehead for a day. My plan of action is just to pick 'truth' the entire game. It's better to admit something embarrassing than have to do some horrific dare like stripping and running down the corridor and back like Lee had to do last time.
As the game goes on, I'm lucky enough to not have to bottle land on me. Angelina is dared to make out with George. Lee admits to having stolen from Honeydukes multiple times. Harry had to take a shot while doing a handstand. George had to eat an entire handful of puke-flavored Bertie Bott's Beans. (Lucky for Angelina, it was after their make out session.) And Fred was dared to give Harry a very sultry lap dance. I might just make it out of this game unscathed. At least, that's what I thought until the bottle landed on me.
"Y/n," Lee smirks. "Truth or dare, love?" He wiggles his eyebrows at me. He knows I'll pick truth, but he also knows about my crush on Fred. If I pick truth, he'll no doubt ask about it. But if I pick dare, he'll no doubt make me act on it.
I take a deep breath and sit up. "Truth," I tell him in a flat voice that contrasts the adrenaline and nervousness rushing through my veins, and settling deep in my stomach.
Lee smirks and looks at Fred before looking back at me. "Y/n, is it true you have a crush on one of our Weasley twins?" My stomach drops, and the only thing keeping me from completely passing out is the fact he didn't specifically name Fred.
I weigh the options for a moment, which is pointless because if I say no, the jinx will out me anyway. "Yes," I admit, barely above a whisper, as I feel my cheeks flush. Goddamn it, Lee.
"Which one?" Angelina asks from my other side, her eyes narrowing at me. Shit, maybe Lee should've asked if it was Fred. I know Angelina likes George, and as much as I love him, he's all hers if she wants.
"I answered my truth," I try to play it off as a joke. I can tell her in private later if I have to.
Angelina spins the bottle, then stops it as it lands on me again. "Truth or dare?" She damn near spits at me.
"That's not-"
"Pick," Angelina practically seethes.
"Truth," I answer hesitantly.
"Which one do you like? Fred or George?" She asks sternly. Merlin, I could strangle her with my bare hands right now. I say a silent prayer for George if this is what he's into. But from the look on his face, he might be rethinking Angelina. "We're waiting," she says impatiently when I don't answer right away.
"Fred," I admit, feeling the blooming jinx fade away. I watch relief wash over her face, and she smiles. I'm so glad you're relieved, bitch. Because I might just fucking die. I pull my knees up to my chest, wrapping my arms around them, and refuse to look at Fred, who I can feel staring me down. "Let's just keep playing," I mutter, my heart not into it anymore.
When the game finally ends, I sit and watch everyone else leave before I stand and let out a huge sigh. Whatever fallout comes from admitting my feelings for Fred can wait until tomorrow. "Y/n," Fred's voice says softly behind me as I reach the stairs that lead to the girls dorms.
Guess we're dealing with it tonight.
I turn to look at my best friend as he steps closer. "Fred, I-" he cuts me off by taking my face in his hands and pressing his lips to mine harshly. Fuck, is this really happening? I lean into it, my hands finding his waist and pulling him closer, deepening the kiss.
When our lips finally part, my eyes flutter open, looking up into his eyes. "It's about bloody time you admit it," he chuckles against my lips. "Merlin, woman. You know how to keep a man waiting."
My eyebrows furrow in confusion. "What do you mean? You knew?" I ask, a soft gasp escaping my lips.
Fred chuckles, shaking his head and resting his forehead down on mine. His hands roam to my waist, gripping me tightly and making me suck in a breath. "Darling, I always knew. I was just waiting for you," he says with a smirk. "Why do you think I left Katie?" he shakes his head, lifting it and tipping my face up to his by my chin. "She isn't you," he grips me tighter, making me clench my thighs. "You take up so much damn space in my head. I couldn't cum unless I was looking at the back of her head, pretending she was you," he says huskily.
I open my mouth to speak, but no words come out, leaving me looking like a blubbering fish. He pretended someone else was me? He left someone because they weren't me? My brain is in a fog. The only thing it's able to focus on is Fred, fucking. I've imagined it so many times as I pleasure myself under my sheets. I feel my panties dampen at the thought of Fred between them, fucking me better, harder than anyone else before.
"Show me," the words escape my mouth before I can stop them.
Fred looks at me as if I just handed him a million galleons. "Don't temp me, darling. Say you don't mean it," he says huskily, his grip on my hips tightening to the point of pain, but I don't move away.
I bite my lower lip, my teeth biting into the tender flesh under his darkening gaze. "I mean it," I tell him.
Fred groans, his head tipping back before his eyes meet mine again. "Come with me."
Fred grabs my hand, leading me to his dorm room. I can see it's empty, but that doesn't mean that Lee or George won't be back soon. Fred doesn't seem bothered by it, however, given the way he spins me, pinning me to his door. One of his hands pins both of my wrists above my head, the other hand gripping my waist as he presses his lips to mine.
I hum with pleasure into the kiss, parting my lips to allow his tongue to enter when he licks my bottom lip. Fred groans, his grip on my wrists tightening as he moves to kiss down my jaw, my neck, and the sweet spot right behind my ear that turns me into putty in his hands. "Freddie," I whisper.
"Mm, yes, darling?" He hums as his other hand moves to my ass, cupping it and lifting my leg to wrap around his waist.
I hold back a moan as my desire and lust for him only grows. "What- what if they come back?" I ask with a hiss as he nips my neck.
Fred chuckles in my neck, his breath sending a pleasurable shiver down my spine. His eyes meet mine, the usual funny and kind sparkle in them long forgotten as they darken. "Don't worry about them. They won't be back tonight," he says firmly.
I nod, helpless, as he lifts me by my thighs and carries me to his bed, laying me down on my back. Fred kisses me again, kneeling between my legs as his fingers work to unbutton my top with haste. Once all of the buttons are undone, he lifts me by the small of my back as I remove it the rest of the way, taking off my bra along with it.
Fred pulls back, breaking the kiss as he looks me up and down, biting his lower lip. "Merlin, have mercy, woman," he groans. He lays me back down, propping himself up on one hand as the other moves to grope my breast, his fingers pinching and rolling my nipple between them, making me let out a whimpering moan. "You're so fucking beautiful. You have no idea how long I've waited for this."
My fingers unbutton his top, tugging on it so remove it as he leans back to finish pulling it off. "Then get to it, Weasley," I tease with a smirk. I stare at his chest with need. Merlin, quidditch does a body good. His toned and muscular shoulders, his profound abs tensing at my teasing.
Fred's hands move up my thighs painfully slow to the waistband of my skirt and panties, pulling them both down and tossing them aside in one fluid motion, leaving me bare in front of him. "Watch your tone, darling," he warns as he cups my pussy, making me gasp as he slides a finger between my folds and circles my entrance, careful not to touch my clit.
"Or else you won't let me cum?" I tease, grinding myself against his hand, desperate for his fingers to reach my clit.
Fred smirks as he leans over me again, thrusting a finger inside of me and eliciting a moan to leave my throat. "No, darling," he teases back as he curls a finger inside of me, pressing right on that spongy sweet spot inside of me, making me pant with need. "Or else I'll make you cum so hard you'll cry," he says, nipping my nipple. "Begging me to take it easy as you cum over, and over again."
I feel my walls clench around his fingers as he slides another one inside of me. "Mmm, but it seems like you want that, don't you?" Fred taunts as his thumb finally lands on my clit.
I nod, moaning softly as he works his fingers with perfect precision in and out of me as his thumb rubs my clit. "Yes... God, yes," I whimper underneath him, my nails scratching down his sides and making him shiver. I undo his pants and reach into them, grasping his rock-hard cock. Fuck, he's so big. How is that supposed to fit?
Fred groans, tilting his head back as he thrusts into my hand. "Such a good girl for me," he praises. He leans down, kissing the sweet spot behind my ear again as he whispers into my ear. "I need to taste you. I might just die if I don't," he pleads.
I tilt my head, pressing my lips to his with a moan. "Yes, Freddie. I need it," I whimper against his lips.
"Mm, then get on my face, darling. Take your seat on your throne," he says with a groan as he pulls back, taking his devious fingers with him. He takes off his pants and boxers, kicking them off to the side as he lays on his back.
I feel a blush creep onto my cheeks. "What if you can't breathe?" I ask nervously as he pulls me onto his face to ride it reverse-cowgirl.
Fred slaps my ass, making me gasp as he grips my hips. "I swear to God, darling. If you don't sit on my fucking face, then I will die. Now sit on your goddamn throne and let me eat my pussy," he demands.
He doesn't leave me with any option as he pushes my thighs apart, forcing me to sit on his face. "F-Fuck!" I moan loudly as his tongue dives inside my entrance, thrusting in and out as he devours me whole. My eyes find his long, thick cock as the tip drips with pre-cum, making my mouth water. I lean forward, pushing my pussy into his face and making him groan.
I take his cock in my hand, pumping it a few times before I lick slow circles around his tip with my tongue. Fred moans, gripping my hips tighter as his tongue lands on my clit. I take his cock in my mouth, sucking as I take him deeper in my throat, my hand pumping his cock where my mouth can't reach.
Fred smacks my ass again, drawing another moan from me around his cock. "Fuck, yes," he moans against my clit, adding the perfect amount of vibration. His hips thrust up, forcing me to take more of him down my throat. Tears prick my eyes as I gag around his cock when it hits the back of my throat. "That's it, darling. Gag for me like a good little slut," he growls.
I feel myself get wetter from the mix of his filthy words and his praise. My legs begin to shake on either side of his head as my orgasm begins to crest. "F-Freddie, I'm gonna-"
"Cum for me, darling. Give it all to me," Fred demands from beneath my thighs as he begins to suck on my clit. My hands grip the sheets, digging in as the tether inside of me snaps, and I let out a loud moan, a string of curses, and his name as Fred rides me through my orgasm with his devilish tongue.
When my orgasm finally fades, I'm a shaking, whimpering mess as he lifts me, switching up our positions and laying me on my back again. "You're so beautiful when you come undone for me," he praises softly, kissing me and allowing me to taste myself on his lips. "Do it again," he says as he lines his cock up with my entrance.
I moan and whimper as he pushes his long and thick cock inside of me. I've never taken anyone of his size before, and it hurts at first. "Relax, darling," Fred says softly, holding still as I adjust to his size. "That's my girl," he says sweetly, kissing my neck. "Are you ready?" he asks, his expression caring.
"It's not all the way in?!" I ask in shock as my body begins to relax around him.
Fred chuckles and shakes his head. "Only half-way," he smirks, nipping my bottom lip between his teeth. "Though I appreciate the sentiment," he teases.
I let out a shaky breath and smirk. "You're insufferable," I tease.
Fred hums as he pushes himself inside of me further, settling into the hilt. "Just for you," he says lovingly. He leans back, looking down at where his cock starts to thrust in and out of me, gripping my thighs. "You take me so well. Fucking made for me," he groans.
I grip the pillow above my head. "God, Freddie, it's yours," I moan softly as the pain disappears and melts into Earth-shattering pleasure.
A low growl escapes Fred's throat as his speed picks up. "Damn right, it's mine," he moans. "All," he thrusts. "Fucking," another hard thrust. "Mine," he emphasizes with a hard thrust, making me mewl and writhe under him.
"Fred, God, yes!" I cry out as he leans down, his thrusts unrelenting. His hand wraps around my throat, not cutting off my air, but cutting off the blood flow to my head.
"Don't cry out for God, he's not the one fucking you," Fred moans darkly. "I'm your God now. Cry out for me," Fred demands.
I whimper, my hands draping around his neck. "Freddie," I moan as his thrusts quicken. "Freddie, yes. You're- You're my God," I whimper.
"And you're my parishioner," he answers. "My devout little lamb," he praises as he releases my throat, allowing the blood to flow back to my brain as he sits back on his ankles. His thumb rubs my clit fast as his thrusts get harder, pounding into me with unrelenting force.
My legs begin to shake again as my orgasm threatens to crash into me like a bludger. My moans become frantic as I pull my legs up to my chest, keeping them spread wide to allow Fred's cock to reach impossibly deeper. "Freddie, I need to cum," I whimper and plead.
"Then cum, little lamb. Give me everything you have, and I will fill you up," Fred moans as his cock twitches inside of me, and his thrusts begin to stagger.
My back arches as my nails tear at the fabric of the pillow above my head. My orgasm crashes into me, setting off stars in my vision as my release washes over me. "Fred!" I cry out in a strangled cry.
Fred moans my name loudly as he thrusts into me one final time, spilling his hot cum inside of me. He rides us both through our highs before he finally withdraws his cock. He leans over me, brushing my hair from my face and tucking it gently behind my ear. "You did so well, little lamb," he praises softly, kissing the edges of my mouth.
I hum with pleasure as a smile dances across my lips. "Just for you, Freddie," I respond softly, kissing his lips.
Fred cleans us both up, tending to me with care as he wipes me down, puts on my panties, and dresses me in one of his shirts before laying back down next to me and pulling me to his chest. "You have no idea how long I've wanted you," he says softly as I cuddle into his arms, my head resting on his shoulder.
I look up at him and smile. "Was it worth the wait?"
Fred smiles and kisses my forehead. "For you? I would wait a thousand years to make you mine."
I giggle softly and kiss him back. "So I take it we're officially together?" I tease playfully.
Fred laughs softly and nods, running his fingers through my hair. "Unless you have other plans," he teases back. "Though I doubt anyone can make you feel the way I just did," he taunts with a wink.
I roll my eyes and snort a laugh. "Someone thinks highly of himself," I quip with a smirk.
"Says the one who called me 'God,'" he quips back.
I smile and snuggle closer, draping a leg over his thighs and pulling myself closer. "Fair enough. But, Freddie?"
"Hmm?" He hums tiredly.
"If you flirt with another girl again, I'll end you both," I warn him.
Fred laughs and shakes his head. "Yes, ma'am."
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You've been in a relationship with Saitama for a while, and now, you're ready to take things further
But knowing your boyfriend, you have to be the first one to talk about sex
And the talk is likely to be a hard one
Because you're not sure how your man feels about it
So, one day you get the courage to have conversation
And when you're about to start it, you can't help but feel nervous all of a sudden
Saitama gets all impatient and tells you to say directly what you want from him
And you just... spill it out
1 second
2 seconds
3 seconds
4 seconds
5 seconds
"Alright, let's try that"
That's the answer you get after staring at a deadpan face in short silence
After that, you both make it to the bedroom and start making out
You lay on top of your boyfriend and caress his body (even near intimate parts)
Some time later, a pair of strong hands grips your butt and presses it against a clear boner
Wow, he is big
You smirk to yourself, realizing how much your man wants you
And, well, wetness in your pants also tells you how much you need him too
Both of you start moving, Saitama's hard dick sliding along your aroused pussy with only a layer of clothes between them
Soon, you both undress each other
Your boyfriend suggests you to ride him so you could make yourself comfortable
He just doesn't want to accidentally hurt you
You agree and, not wanting to waste any time, start slowly sliding down your man's cock
Even though you take it easy, losing virginity is still painful for you
So you take your time to adjust to new feelings inside you
Saitama reassures you, saying not to push yourself if it's too much
But you insist on going forward
You can't really tell what your boyfriend is thinking about
On one hand, you feel his stare (with somewhat worry) at your face
On the other, you know that his eyes are ranking all over your body (especially your tits)
You continue moving when you get used to new sensations
And it gets better and better with every move you make
You manage to find the perfect pose in which Saitama's dick brushes against your G-spot
And judging by your man's grunts and the way the grip on your ass tightens, he enjoys this too
The sound of skin slapping against each other and your moans fill the room
Soon enough, you both reach your peak
Panting, you lay on Saitama's chest, and he immediately wraps his arms around you, asking if you're alright
You tell that you're fine
Both of you stay like this for a while
Saitama carries you in his arms, and both of you get cleaned up
After that, of course both of you get back to bed and cuddle
Yeah, your first experience with Saitama might not be the best, but at least you took full control (and your man took care of you)đ
Genos doesn't want to pressure you into anything sexual
Both because he isn't in need for sex and because he doesn't want to make you feel uncomfortable and scare you away
So he decides to wait about 6 months to have a "talk" with you
S-class hero even spends the evening reading different articles and watching videos on how he should approach you with this question
And you? Well, you've been thinking about giving yourself to your boyfriend
It just so happens that you both decide to have a "conversation" at the same day
(what a convenient coincidence)
You tell Genos that you're ready to take the next step in your relationship
He feels honored
When you both get to "business", your boyfriend is extremely careful
His every move is calculated, knowing where to kiss you and caress your body
(or should I say, "remembering what he found on the Internet")
(he also takes mental notes of your weak spots)
Oh, does Genos make a great job at making you aroused and wanting more
Though you notice how focused your boyfriend is
As if he's following someone's instructions
But you decide to ignore that and give in to pleasure
After all, Demon Cyborg always takes everything seriously and walks with that stoic face of his
In the heat of the moment, you start slowly pulling off Genos' shirt
He takes it as a sign that you're ready to proceed further and begins to undress you
Your boyfriend takes a moment, admiring your naked body and complimenting you
Truth to be told, you don't waste an opportunity to enjoy the view of Genos without his clothes
Even though most of his body consists of mechanical parts
(without a dick)
(but you were warned about that earlier)
But he still looks sexy as hell
(doesn't he always tho?đ)
Your man returns to worshiping you and your body, kissing and nibbling it everywhere
When he sees and feels the wetness of your pussy, he starts paying full attention to it, flicking his tongue and tracing it along your folds
It's safe to say that Genos performs amazing cunnilingus and makes you cum in no time
But he isn't done with you, not yet
Prepare for another fantastic round of... fingering
Yeah, your boyfriend wants to please you in every possible way
As could have already guessed, the second round is no less satisfying than the previous one
And you know what? Genos wants to try out to make you cum using both his fingers and mouth
Of course, he excels at it
You pant heavily, trying to come to your sense
You didn't think it would be this good
Meanwhile, your boyfriend can't understand if he took it too far or not
You reassure him that you're alright
After that, he takes care of you, completing your every request
For some time, sex with Genos is like that
But you start feeling awkward because you're the only one who receives pleasure
And talk about with your boyfriend, who listens to you intently
He tells you that he's fine this way, but doesn't protest either
So both of you settle with asking Dr. Kuseno to modulate a dick for Genos
He calls the scientist, and they start discussing details
You could have burnt with shame while answering what size of your man's cock should be, if it should be veiny, how big testes you want, should it be able to ejaculate... well, you get the drill
Some days later, you receive your "order"
It turns out that Genos has to wear his handmade penis like a strap-on
Alright, nothing bad, come to think about it
As always, your boyfriend takes his time preparing you for him
(I guess it's evident that he makes you come undone with his mouth and hands at least one before pulling on his cock)
Genos warns you that it might be painful for you and asks you to tell him if it gets too much
He gently, slowly enters you
You were prepared for the upcoming pain, but fortunately, you don't feel much pain
(thanks to your caring man)
After giving you some time to adjust to new sensations, he begins to move at a slow pace
His thrusts gradually quicken as your moans get louder
God, he is amazing at sex
It feels like his dick was made just for you
(well, it practically is)
The way his tip kisses your uterus and stretches you inside feels like heaven to you
And soon, you let go
You finally feel like you gave in to your lover
However, the feeling that you basically force Genos into sex
Because he still looks concentrated on something with his slightly furrowed eyebrows while making love to you
Almost as if he doesn't enjoy it at all
Your boyfriend reassures you that it's not like that and that he simply focuses on satisfying you
You're not fully convinced
And then it hits you like a rock: Genos doesn't feel anything because his cock doesn't have sensibility
You talk about this with him, and he complies, calling Dr. Kuseno to fix the issue
When the upgraded version of his dick comes, the real sex begins
Not only you enjoy the process, but your boyfriend starts having pleasure as well
You feel it by the way his touch gets more passionate, his movements become more sensual, and the praises and slight moans start coming out of his mouth
And you couldn't be happier about that
Maybe it all started not exactly the way you wanted, but thankfully, Genos listened to you and was ready to work on the issuesđ„°
When you appear in Sonic's life, his world turns upside down
And so does his perception of many life aspects
For example, if he wasn't interested in anything sexual before, now he does
in a few months of your relationship, he can't help but start fantasizing about you in lustful ways
And you're no better: you start thinking about indulging in intimate activities with your boyfriend
But both of you aren't bold enough to take the next step, settling with just hot make outs
Until one day Sonic gets so passionate while melding his mouth with yours that his hands move down to your butt and even squeezes its cheek
A soft moan escapes your lips
The line has been crossed
Your boyfriend takes you to the bedroom and puses you down to bed without breaking away from you
Your make out session gets even more heated, and you both start undressing each other
When Sonic sees your naked body, he feels like he has never seen something as wonderful as you
(it's a miracle that he wasn't sent flying with a nosebleed)
Your boyfriend pounces on you, kissing, licking, praising, grazing with his teeth your skin
He moves from your neck down to your bosom, leaving a trail of kisses
(and stopping on your breasts to pay special attention to them)
You excitedly wait for him to please your pussy
But Sonic has other plans
He begins to bite and suck on your inner thighs, nuzzling against them
After having enough fun with your thighs, he returns his attention to your womanhood and starts devouring it
He savors your cunt and love juices as if these are the most delicious things in the world
Even though he doesn't really know anything about "special" intimate spots, he watches your reactions and remembers what makes you feel even more good
And just like that, he makes you cum and looks at you with a pride smile
The sight makes his dick twitch excitedly
Your boyfriend carefully inserts himself into you and kisses you, making your whimpers mute
You're so warm and tight
Perfect, just perfect
Even though Sonic is gentle, you still feel pain as he continues to move
He licks away a few of your tears that streamed down your cheeks, saying how sorry he is and that you're doing great
Your nails dig into his shoulders as you gradually get used to your man's cock
Soon enough, the pain turns into a pleasure, you start enjoying this
Your boyfriend relaxes, seeing your blissful expression, and his thrusts get deeper and rougher, making you gasp and moan
Sonic joins you and becomes a whimpering and groaning mess
You both dive into pure ecstasy and come together
(your boyfriend covers your inner thighs with his sperm)
Panting, he leaves a trail of kisses down to your neck, telling how amazing you are, and snuggles with you
When both of you come down from high, he cleans you up with a wet cloth and goes back to cuddling
If you want something, for example, a glass of water, he'll bring you it
So yeah, you could definitely say that your first time was full of passion and desire for each otherđ
You've been thinking about taking the next step in your relationship with Garou lately
It all started when he accidentally walked in on your changing
And after that, you'd catch him staring at you... and your forms with darkening eyes
This sent pleasant shivers down your spine
You were wanted
Little did your boyfriend know that he was also desired
One day, you are making out on your couch with you straddling Garou's lap and his hands supporting your waist
Both of you get so passionate that you unconsciously start slightly sliding along your boyfriend's thigh
A weird (in a good way) feeling appears between your legs
You proceed to move more eagerly, and man hands help you with grinding
This feels so good that you start moaning into Garou's mouth
You can't see it, but you feel his smug grin as his hands begin to guide you up and down your thigh
You don't protest and press your folds more against his leg
The harsh rubbing makes your pussy wet in no time
Soon enough, you reach your orgasm and place your head on your man's shoulder
When you come back to reality, you embarrassedly gasp, realizing what just happened
(and that you drenched your boyfriend's trousers)
You look at Garou's face and see his grin and hunger in his eyes
"Heh, I didn't know that I'm such a good kisser, sweetheart"
Rolling your eyes, you playfully bump his chest
And feel something hard against your butt
It doesn't take you too much time to understand what it means
Looking down, you see a clear bulge in his pants
It's rather "impressive"
Garou picks you up and carries you to the bedroom, saying that he wants to have fun as well
Gently placing you on the sheets, he hovers over you and begins to pepper you with kisses
His kisses are tender and soft, despite a not so faint hint of desire in them
Your boyfriend undresses himself first so you could feel more comfortable
He gingerly pulls off your clothes after making sure this is okay with you
A familiar grin appears on his face when he gets to admire your bare curves
What a lucky bastard he is
His lips and hands begin to wander all over your body, kissing and caressing it
Suddenly, his fingers go down to your entrance and teasingly brush against that one spot, making you jolt
And of course Garou notices it and takes the opportunity to "have fun" with you
He uses all his imagination to work magic on you with his hands
And does he enjoy this a lot
Seeing your blissful facial expressions, hearing your soft moans and his name, feeling how wet you get, and your walls clenching around his fingers
So you're close, huh?
It takes a playful grinding on your pin for your boyfriend to send you over the edge
You can tell that he's gonna play with your pussy using his fingers a lot in the future by a mischievous glint in his eyes
After hearing from you that you're ready for him, Garou starts inserting himself into you
He attentively looks at your face to see any sign of discomfort and, unfortunately, notices you grimacing because of pain
Your boyfriend tries to somehow comfort you, telling you that you're doing a great job and that all is going to be okay soon
When he feels you adjusting to him and relaxing, he begins to move
He's rather sweet and gentle with you
You actually anticipated that Garou'd be rougher and more cocky with you in bed
(don't worry, he will in the future)
Nevertheless, you start having pleasure in the process
Your moans are like music to your man's ears
He's relieved to see that you're in no pain anymore and can enjoy your lovemaking session
Though, if you ask him to be rougher, he complies, but is careful as he doesn't want to hurt you
Fun fact: you reach your third climax before Garou does
But don't worry, he follows you not long after
Your boyfriend wants to fill you with his cum desperately
But decides to pull out at the last moment so you don't accidentally get pregnant
And damn, the sight of your cunt covered with his sperm makes him feel... things
He doesn't really understand what this is
(ah-oh, be careful, his possessive side awakened)
(not that he wasn't protective of you before, but still...)
(something primal stirred inside him)
Garou asks if you're alright
Gladly, you're more than fine
Then he carries you to the shower, and both of you get cleaned up
After that, he brings you back to bed and cuddles with
You talk for a while
When exhaustion hits you, and you fall asleep, Garou stays awake for a while admiring your cute face and feeling like the luckiest guy in the world
Some time later, he dozes off as well
That's a quite eventful first time with Garou, huh?đ
Badd loves you with all his heart and does his best not to mess everything up and disappoint you
And he excels at it
Well, until he starts feeling hot and bothered around you
Now that's a problem: Metal Bat respects your boundaries and doesn't want to scare you off
But god, is it hard for him to ignore his twitching dick in pants when you touch and kiss him
So your boyfriend settles with masturbating at his place when he has time
It helps him for some time
However, when you both start heavily making out practically on every date, he desperately prays not to get hard
As you could already have guessed, he gets unlucky one day
Zenko stays over at her friend's place, so Badd asks you out on a date and invites you to stay over at his place
(even though you almost live here already)
You find yourselves in a hot making out session on the couch
One of your hands caresses his back, and the other one is in Metal Bat's hair
Meanwhile, his fingers explore your body, running along your curves
You don't want to stop and you want more
Maybe it's finally time to bring your relationship to the next level?
After all, you've been thinking about this for a while now
Your boyfriend gets lost in the moment too, pressing his body against yours more and exploring your mouth with his tongue more hungrily
And feeling how tight his underwear feels as your hands tug his turtleneck
Wait a minute
...
Fucking hell
Metal Bat immediately stops and looks at you with panicked expression
What should he do???
His mind races with different thoughts, but nothing good comes up
You blink confused
It looks like you scared your man by trying to take the next step...
Yeah, maybe you should have asked him instead of taking action...
As you try to sit up and explain things, you feel man hands grabbing your shoulders and a voice asking you to wait
But it's too late
You feel Badd's hardness
Now you understand what's going on
Metal Bat stammers out apologies and pleads you to not see him as a pervert
You stop him by kissing him and telling that you want him as well
He is surprised, but also glad to hear it
Your boyfriend carries you to the bed, on which you pick up where you left off
You both undress each other
You're perfect, even better than he imagined
His lips and hands begin to worship your bare body
When he gets down to your pussy, he stares at it as if he can't believe this is actually happening
Badd gently pecks your labia, making you gasp
His eyes immediately dart at your face, worrying he did something wrong
But seeing pleasure on your face, he continues
He slides his tongue between your folds, tasting you
Hell, you taste amazing
Metal Bat's advances on your pussy get bolder and bolder as your moans become louder and louder
He gets addicted to your taste and smell
Soon, you come undone
(your boyfriend tries to drink all of your juices, but misses most of them)
Badd reaches out to the lower shelf of his nightstand and takes out a condom
He tries to unpack it, but fails
"How embarrassing", he thinks
You decide to help your man
You kiss him on the cheek and tell that everything is okay
Together, you manage to open the condom and put it on Metal Bat's cock
(which is already wet with his precum)
Your man kisses you, lying you back on bed and settling himself at your entrance
With one final look at you, he begins to pull in
What he feels inside you is indescribable
But the word "fantastic" does a good job at describing how his dick feels in your vagina
Badd tries to hold back his groans as he feels guilty for having pleasure while you're in pain
He comforts you by praising you and peppering your face with kisses
You gradually start getting used to new sensations as your man moves inside you
And when you finally start having your pleasure, Metal Bat suddenly stops, shuddering
Oh, he came
He pulls out of you and throws out the used condom and reaches out for a new one
Badd is ready to go for the second round only if you're also up for this
He gotta make you cum with his cock after all
And of course you agree to another lovemaking session
Which goes rather amazing
Not only you enjoy the process, but also Badd gets rougher
You both moan and gasp loudly, the sound of your skin slapping against each other joins your vocal praises
Some time later, you both cum
Metal Bat nuzzles his face against your neck and stays like for a while
Then he pulls out of you, throws out the condom again and grabs wet wipes
As he cleans you up, he talks to you, asking you if you are alright and need anything and telling you how amazing you feel
After your man is finished, he cuddles with you
You talk and share a few kisses until falling asleep
Maybe Badd was nervous and inexperienced during your and his first time, but still, he manages to satisfy you (and more)đ
Amai perfectly understands that sex is an essential part in the relationships and that both of you will get intimate sooner or later
Even though he doesn't feel the need to get off, he is kinda looking forward to making love to you
But he needs to make sure that you feel the same way
And how he does that?
The answer is simple: by watching you
He notices the way you stare at him with a desire in your eyes and how your touches get more intimate
So Sweet Mask takes you out on a date at a fancy restaurant one day
You both spend time together by cozily talking to each other (and eating delicious food)
And suddenly, Beaut starts a conversation about sex, asking if you already had it and if you're ready to do it with him
You confess that you're still a virgin, but would like to get intimate with him
Your boyfriend smirks, saying that he's glad to hear this
After that, both of you go to Amai's home where things escalate quickly, and you take them to bedroom
It all begins just like in a romantic move: he kisses you sensually, his hands passionately caress your curves, your bodies press against each other, not leaving any space between you
Soft man hands carefully undress you
And when you wanted to help your man to get rid of his clothes, he suddenly pulls away, standing up from bed
His eyes rank over your bare forms in appreciation
Beaut extends his and to you and caresses your cheek with his finger, telling how beautiful you
He offers you two options:
1) you continue the foreplay in a classic way
2) or he can play a certain game with you to make your first experience unique
You're intrigued and excited to see what he has in a store, so you choose the second variant
Smirking, Sweet Mask asks you to sit on your knees and outstretch your arms
You do as he says and feel how your boyfriend puts on you a... something like sleep mask?
As darkness surrounds you, Amai reassures you that everything is fine and tells you not to worry
Suddenly, you feel something sliding along your arm, then it goes down your other arm and back
Somehow, this makes you shiver and swallow in arousal
Your boyfriend has fun with teasing you by brushing a crop against your bare skin and even whipping it
And how much he loves to hear your gasps and hard breathing
Amai pushes you just a little bit more and then stops, pulling off sleep mask from you and commanding you to lay on your back and spread your legs
You do what he says, feeling a bit shy
Beaut gently kisses your forehead and starts grinding his fingers against your folds, making you buck your hips and follow his movements
Damn, he knows what to do with his fingers
Even you couldn't bring yourself such pleasure on lonely nights
Some time later, he inserts hos one finger in you and moves it while other fingers are busy with your labia
Soon, another finger digs into your cunt, stretching your hole
Now this kinda hurts
You try to get used to pain
And as you adjust to it, a third finger joins the other two
Another wave of pain washes over you, making you squirm and clench your walls tightly
Maybe the third finger was too much for you
But Sweet Mask doesn't remove it, giving you some time to adapt
You both stay like this for a while
When your muscles start to relax a bit, he removes his fingers
This leaves you both frustrated due to feeling empty inside
And relived that you don't have to feel the pain anymore
All of this forgotten as you see your man undressing
What a great view indeed
Then Amai comes to the edge of his bed and motions you to get closer
You crawl to him like a good girl you are
He gently grabs your chin and guides it down to his hard dick
You swallow both in anticipation and fear
Beaut tells you to take it easy and if you don't want to do it, then it's fine
But you decide to try yourself in giving a head
You start by leaving a trail of kisses along your man's cock and peck his tip
After that, you gradually take a top his manhood into your mouth and start sucking it
Sweet Mask places his hand on the top of your head and guides you
His moves aren't persistent though, more like supporting you
Your mouth goes down his dick little by little, making sure not to throw up due to gag reflex
What pleasantly surprises is that your boyfriend helps you by telling you what to do better, giving advice and explaining you some tricks in a comforting way
And you're grateful for that
You'd feel anxious about a thought of performing someone a blow job earlier
But now, as the cock's tip reaches your throat, you're aroused as hell and enjoy this
You also feel how your lewd cunt pulses, wanting for more, and how your juices fall down from it on the bedsheets or slide down along your thighs
Your hand moves down to your pussy and starts paying attention to it, massaging it and digging fingers into it
Amai notices that and smirks
Good, that means you're ready for him
Some moments later, he pulls out his dick
Damn, the second orgasm denial
You glance up at him, wondering what you did wrong
Beaut pats your head, saying that you did a fantastic job, but now it's time for the main part
He lies on top of you, kissing you and slowly shoving his cock into you
Yeah, this is far from his fingers
Even though you feel pain, it's not overbearing
And gladly, you adjust to it pretty quickly as your man begins to move
Your moans escape your lips and your nails dig into your man's shoulders
He feels so good
His dick brushes against all of your weak spots, making your pussy wet more and more
You also feel how you get closer and closer to the edge with each thrust
And finally, you come undone beneath your boyfriend
But Sweet Mask is not done with you
He flips you onto your stomach and shoves his dick even deeper inside you
A load moan erupts from your mouth as you feel yourself getting aroused again
Now your man's moves get rougher and harder, turning you into a moaning mess
His tip harshly invades your womb now instead of sweetly kissing it like before
Your cunt is all wet and ready to cum again
Amai's thrusts quicken, meaning he is a bout to finish as well
And soon, you both reach your peaks
And your boyfriend fills you with his sperm
He is the first one to come down from the high
Kissing the top of your head, he scoops you in his arms and carries you to the shower
You come back to reality when you feel warm water dropping on you and man hands cleaning you up
You hug Beaut, placing your head on his chest, and he wraps his arms around you as well
You stand like this for a while
Sweet Mask gets out of the shower and goes to change the bedsheets
Then he returns and carries you back to his clean bed
If you need anything to eat or drink, he will get it for you
But truth to be told, you fall asleep almost as soon as you both start cuddling
Amai watches you for some time and closes his eyes, drifting off too
Wow, Beaut really knows how to make your first time together so steamy and unforgettableđ„”
Sex isn't something that Flashy Flash needs in his life or thinks about
And even you don't wake his sexual need
Much to your disappointment
Because you, on the contrary, want to give in to your man
You flirt with him, try to seduce him by wearing revealing clothes, touch him and caress his muscles, kiss his neck or earlobes, etc.
Basically, you do everything what would make any other man want you
But not the infamous S-class hero, apparently
Hell, you even take bath together
And the sight of your naked body doesn't make him feel anything
(or maybe it does, but he doesn't realize that)
(one of life's great mysteries)
But one thing is for sure: you got a dummy as your boyfriend
So yeah, it looks like you have to be straightforward with him
But not necessary with words
So one evening, when you enjoy a hot bath together, you decide to take the lead
It all starts with a few pecks there and there
Flashy Flash returns your kisses
That's a good sign
You straddle his lap and begin to shower his face and neck with kisses as your hands wander over hero's body
And your boyfriend joins you too, caressing your curves in return
The moment gets heated
You even start softly moaning while making out
Suddenly, you feel something poking your butt
Something hard and covered with skin
Oh
It's Flash's dick
And damn, he's huge
But hey, you finally did it!
Smirking, you pull away to look at your boyfriend's face
And as you're about to make a witty remark, he does it before you could make a sound
"Finally decided to take the action, huh?" he smiles smugly
This bastard
Not giving you time to react, you turns you around so your ass and pussy face him
Your hands support your body by grabbing the edge of the bath
"Let me show you how it's done", a man's voice sounds from behind
A pair of hands cup your tits, massaging and squeezing them, and soft lips leave a trail of kisses from your neck down to your... waist
Your pussy is already wet and throbs as it feels a hot breath on it
Flashy Flash finally starts licking and even slightly nibbling your entrance, his nose brushes against your sensitive spots
After a while, he goes up to your butt and starts eating you out there as well
Never in your life had you thought that the S-class hero, Flashy Flash, would devour not just your pussy but your ass too
As you feel yourself slowly getting close to the edge, Flash removes his mouth from you and brushes his cock against your folds, making you moan in excitement
After grinding his dick for a while, he starts gradually entering you
Unfortunately, this doesn't go without pain
Your boyfriend tries to soothe you by gently rubbing your skin around your belly and intimate parts
And even (!!!) praises you, telling you that you're doing a great job
When you adapt to his length, Flash starts gently moving inside you
Soon, pain in your lower part changes into weirdly pleasant feeling
Your boyfriends feels you relaxing and begins to rock his hips faster, but no less gently
The bathroom fills with your moans again, and sweet praises coming out of hero's mouth join them
His hands tenderly caress your curves and his lips pepper you with light kisses
Soon, you feel your climax building up again
A few more deep thrusts send you and your man over the edge
He covers your ass cheeks with his sperm
You'd think that's the end, but you hear Flashy asking you if you're ready for the second round
And of course your needy self gives affirmative answer
S-class hero makes love to you sweetly, lovingly and softly
And despite that, his cock perfectly brushes against your weak spots, giving you immense pleasure
And soon enough, you cum together as well
Your ass gets covered with semen again
While you come down from high, panting, your boyfriend cleans both you up, gets out of the bath, wraps a towel around his waist and extends his hand to you
You take his hand and get out of the bath
Flash covers you with a towel and kisses your forehead
After that, you both get ready to go to bed where S-class hero gives you a good massage so you won't be sore the next morning
You cuddle, and some time later, you fall asleep
Your boyfriend makes sure that you sleep soundly and only after that joins you
Who could have thought that always stoic Flashy Flash turns into a sweet and soft man while making love to you? You definitely didn't, but you're grateful for itđ
I'll never get tired of telling you that Zombieman is a real gentleman in your relationship
He never looks at you in an inappropriate way
However, S-class hero understands that both of you will indulge in lustful activities one day
So he settles with just preparing for your first time together (reading some articles on how to give your pleasure) and waiting for you to be ready to take the next step in the relationship
Because he believes he will come out as a pervert if he brings this topic up first
And he will be damned if he upsets you somehow
As for you... Well, you've been wanting your man for a while now
Especially when you saw him after his fights with monsters on news or in real life
Those abs and pumped up biceps shouldn't be left with attention!
Gladly, you both communicate in your relationship, so you're used to talking about what bothers you and listening to each other
So you decide to have a conversation on one of your café dates
Fortunately, your talk goes rather smoothly and easy
Zombieman tells you that he's happy to hear this and would like to get intimate with you as well
Though, you don't get straight away to the business
Both of you take an HIV test first
And when you get the results, saying that everything is alright and you both don't have any venereal diseases, you're finally ready to give in to each other
Your boyfriend takes you to his home and guides you to his bedroom
He gently pins you on his bed under him
S-class hero knows that he needs to prepare you for him before taking any advances on you
And let me tell you that he takes his time with this
Zombieman sensually kisses and lightly bites your lips, earlobes, chin, neck, shoulders, collarbones
(all spots he read about that can potentially arouse you)
Meanwhile, his hands caress your curves
In the heat of the moment, you don't notice how you pull off your man's T-shirt
Finally, you can do what you've been craving for
Your fingers begin to teasingly run along his muscles and explore his body
S-class hero gives you a small smile, enjoying the sensations and getting rid of his jeans
He continues making out with you until he feels you getting undressed
After helping you out with your clothes, he admires your body, telling how great you look
Zombieman gets back to worshiping your body with his lips and tongue
When the bulge in his pants gets unbearable, he takes off his pants, freeing his hard dick and making you gasp
Afraid that he did something wrong, his eyes immediately dart to your face
Hero exhales relieved when he sees desire in your stare
(and when he notices how wet your panties are in the corner of his eyes)
Smirking, you begin slowly untying your bra
This makes your boyfriend swallow hard, feeling his cock twitching
As your fingers tug the waistband of your undies, strong man hands impatiently pull them off
And again, Zombieman can't help but enjoy the sight of your naked body
One of his hands goes down to your pussy, rubbing it, and the other one cups one of your tits, squeezing it
His mouth starts paying attention to your other boob, licking and grazing the nipple
The pleasure makes you moan and buck your hips, wanting more
This doesn't go unnoticed, and you feel two fingers slowly stretching your hole
You whimper in pain as your boyfriend tries to comfort you, talking to you so you get distracted from unpleasant feelings
And it helps
As he feels you relaxing, he starts moving his fingers inside you
You enjoy new sensations, but still, it's not enough for you
You want your man's cock
Hearing your request, Zombieman removes his fingers and starts slowly entering you
You knew it'd be painful and was prepared for that
But damn, it still stings rather bad
S-class hero tries to comfort you again by praising you and making a small talk on an abstract topic
You try to focus on the conversation with your boyfriend and ignore the aching in your lower body part
Soon, the pain gradually fades away, and you get aroused as well
Your boyfriend notices that and starts rocking his lips
His movements are gentle and careful
He lifts your pelvis up so he could thrust deeper into you
Now his dick perfectly brushes against all of your weak spots, making you moan louder and louder
Your pussy definitely loves that and starts to extract love juices more
Every time the cock's tip pecks your womb, you feel like it's the breaking point
And it doesn't take you long to cum when Zombieman's moves quicken
After a few more thrusts, he follows you, ejaculating in your warm pussy
His lips meet yours in a loving kiss
S-class hero tells you how amazing you were and asks if you're alright
Then he takes you to the shower to clean you up
He even massages your intimate zone, hoping to ease the possible soreness between your legs the next morning
His hands move cautiously, making sure not to hurt you
When you're done washing yourselves, you return to bed and cuddle
If you need anything, just ask him and consider it done
Your eyes grow heavy after some time of talking to your lover and listening to his steady heartbeat
So you fall asleep
The hero admires your sleeping face for some time and then proceeds to doze off as well
You couldn't ask for a better man to have your first time with than Zombieman, and you're so happy that he handled it like a gentleman and like a caring boyfriendđ
King may come off as an innocent man who doesn't watch hentai or play games of this genre
And of course he definitely doesn't jerk off
Alright, let's be real
He is a dirty pervert and masturbates pretty often
This worsens when he starts dating you
Because now he can fanaticize only about you, even if he feels guilty after doing so
Your boyfriend also doesn't know how to approach you with this topic
So he hopes that things will go naturally
And they do
But not in the way he would like to
It's a regular day
You're in the city, busy with your stuff
King is at his place and plays videogames
A suggestive scene is played
And of course your boyfriend gets hot and bothered, imagining if it were you and him
He hurries to the toilet and pulls out his hard cock
As he starts stroking it, he catches a glimpse of your dirty panties in the laundry bin
Ah-oh, he knows what comes next
King hurryingly takes your undies and stuffs his mouth with them
Mmm, tasty as always
Hero continues grinding his dick with his teeth gripping your underwear
However, this is not enough
He wraps your panties around his member and proceeds masturbating further
Now that's the deal
As he feels the climax building up, he moans
Suddenly, he hears footsteps and the door opening
King freezes, turning his head and seeing you in the doorway
He feels like the word stops with him as well
Weren't you supposed to be somewhere in the city now?
Well, yeah, you were
But you managed to deal with your stuff earlier than you expected and decided to surprise your boyfriend, coming home earlier
Turns out, he prepares a bigger surprise for you
The sight before you doesn't disgust you
On the contrary, it makes your pussy pleasantly tingle
Maybe because you've been waiting for a moment to bring your relationship to the next level lately
You walk up to your man who looks at you with a dread in his eyes, waiting for your wrath
But instead, you smirk and start stroking his dick
Holy moly, your hand works magic on him
King cums rather soon and looks at you ashamed
What are you gonna do now? Should he say something? Can he just sink into the ground already?
You motion him to follow you, and he complies
You command him to undress and lay on the bed
And the obedient boy he is, the gamer does what you say
You smirk again and start stroking his cocks again, turning your boyfriend into a whimpering mess
You don't know why, but this makes you aroused as hell
The hero reaches his peak pretty fast again
He starts mumbling something, but you can't really make out what he tries to utter
You ask him again, again and again
Finally, he gets the courage and screams out that he wants to eat out your pussy
You hum amused and begin undressing yourself
King stares at you, not quite believing what is happening
You give him a small show by stripping down and grin at sight of your flustered man
When you're finished, the hero lies on his back and excitedly waits for you to sit on his face
You can't keep him waiting now, can you?
As soon as you settle yourself on him, he immediately starts devouring your cunt, hungrily licking and nibbling it
And his nose rubs your clit in the just perfect way
Wow, you didn't expect this to feel that good
But no complaints from you
You tug on his hair with one hand and grasp the headboard with the other one
Your hips start bucking, following your boyfriend's movements
And soon, you come undone, wetting gamer's face with your love juices
When you get off from King, you see him laying with closed eyes and satisfied smile as if one of his biggest dreams came true
He quickly returns to reality and licks off all your wetness around his lips
Meanwhile, you move to his dick, preparing to sit down
A pair of man hands gently grab your waist, ready to help you
With one final look at hero's face, you start slowly sliding down his cock
Even though you're able to regulate your speed and pose, this process is still painful for you
King guides you, pronging your pussy to his full length
You take your time to adjust to the unpleasant feeling between your legs
Your boyfriend is concerned about you and tries to come up with solutions on how he can help you and ease your pain
His hand smoothly stroke your back as he talks to you in a reassuring way
Moreover, he manages to make you laugh!
He smiles relieved as you seem to stop feeling any discomfort
You smile as well, feeling the familiar tingling in your womanhood
You decide to move again and, fortunately, there is no pain anymore
Both of you finally can enjoy the sex to the fullest
The gamer starts rocking his hips, joining you
You moan, placing your hands on his shoulders
King gets vocal as well, getting louder than you
You both feel like you're in seventh heaven as the room fills with different lewd sounds you both make
Your boyfriend's dick teases your sensitive spots, bringing you closer and closer to the edge
His nails dig into your waist and his thrusts quicken, meaning that he's going to reach his peak too
And soon, you both cum together
Gladly, the hero pulls out his cock just in time
You flop on his chest panting and tired
King immediately wraps his arms around you, still coming down from high too
Both of you stay like this until your boyfriend is back in the real world and starts cleaning you up
He makes sure that you're alright and all your needs are met
After that, you cuddle and talk to each other
Mostly, you discuss what just happened and make jokes about it there and there
And then you both happily fall asleep
Who could have known that catching your boyfriend at masturbating would lead to such passionate a night? Neither you nor King could have foreseen this, but both of you are happy with the outcomeđ
#opm#one punch man#opm smut#opm headcanons#opm x reader#saitama x reader#genos x reader#sonic x reader#speed-o'-sound sonic x reader#garou x reader#metal bat x reader#amai mask x reader#sweet mask x reader#flashy flash x reader#zombieman x reader#king x reader#saitama#genos#speed-o'-sound sonic#sonic opm#garou#metal bat#sweet mask#amai mask#flashy flash#zombieman#king opm
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BROTHER'S BEST FRIEND!GOJO SATORU | FIC RECS
A/N: Been obsessed with the Brother's Best Friend trope recently, specifically regarding Satoru, and I really wanted to share my favorite fics created by the amazing writers listed below. ALSO I wanted to do this because I haven't made one of these recommendation lists in awhile, and I love to do them number one to help promote the writers I love, and number two because when I find a trope I love with a character I wish I had a list like this to just find fics instantly LMAOOO. PLEASE feel free to recommend me your favorite brother's best friend fics if you know anymore and FEEL FREE to send me an ask at anytime if you're searching for fics of a certain trope I'd be happy to make more lists. Now enough of my yapping, I got ahead of myself and I'm posting this now but I'll update as I find more fics.
WARNING: I WONâT BE MORE CLEAR ON THIS! If you proceed to these accounts make sure to look at the rules and warnings. please respect the account owner, as most of them donât want people under 18 on them. ALWAYS READ WARNINGS ON FICS TO INSURE YOU ARE RESPECTING THE WRITERS GUIDELINES!!!
One more thing! IF YOU LIKE A FIC PLEASE REBLOG NO MATTER THE ACCOUNT! The easiest way to show a creator you care and that their work is being appreciated is to reblog reblog reblog! They spend hours of their time creating work FOR US. The least we can do is REBLOG!
accounts under the cut. (last updated January 4th, 2024.)
IF ITâS ONLY A TOUCHâŠAITA? by @tteokdoroki This one is so good and the most recent one I read. It's the perfect amount of angst and smut. It does have some descriptions of the reader having braids, darker skin, and brown eyes so if you don't like when it's not vague about how the reader looks then this is probably not for you. However, those descriptions do not match me at all and I didn't have a problem while reading at all. I think you should definitely give it a read if you like the brother best friend trope!
BROTHER'S BEST FRIEND by @cptnleviackerman This one was so good for it only having so few notes. definitely go hype this one up because it deserves it. Read the tags before you continue on though because some of the themes could be triggering! Other then that this one was super good.
HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE TO FUCK YOUR BROTHER'S BEST FRIEND? (FOUR WHOLE DAYS) by @saetoru SOOO GOOD. I love this fic so please go check this one out!
CRYBABY. by @ieirism AHHHH I FORGOT ABOUT THIS ONE. This one was soooooo goood. It is really fluffy and has so much sweet satoru. love love love.
TELL ME YOU DON'T WANT ME by @awearywritersworld I completely forgot about this one but from what I can remember it was really sweet. All angst and fluff and omg their dynamic after sugurus death is just so sweet.
YOUNGER BROTHER'S BEST FRIEND GOJO by @satocidal this is just a little drabble but the smut>>>>> that's all I have to say. go read!!
#gojo satoru#brother's best friend!Gojo Satoru#gojo satoru x reader#gojo x reader#gojo x you#jujustu kaisen#jjk gojo#jjk satoru#satoru x reader#satoru gojo#satoru x you#gojo smut#gojo fluff#gojo angst#jujutsu satoru#jjk x reader#satoru smut#satoru fluff#satoru angst
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Inspired by that one person that rebloged the og of this ans said what I'd the league knew
Continuing my femboy Brucie Wayne where Ollie has a tape of Bruce dancing like a stripper and singing to material girls while looking like a God damn icon in fishnets from their collage days
At the Watch Tower during a mission de brief
Bruce: Anyone else have something to add?
Oliver: *clears his throat* I do *walks around the table passing everyone a stack of papers
Bruce: what is this arrow?
Clark: why are you handing your will out? Are you dying???
Hal: Why the fuck does Harely Quinn get your secret base?!
Oliver: I'm not dying but I might be after this, I have decided that in good spirits that I will share something with the team, something to bring us all closer, something that will help us bond as a team
Bruce getting flashbacks to Jason's speech a few days earlier
Oliver: I just want you all to know how much I love you guys to be risking my life for this *plugs a flash drive into the computer
Bruce: *relises what is about to happen* Oliver I want you to think about this
Oliver: there are some things worth dying for
Rest of the league confused waiting for Bruce break everyone bone in Oliver's body. Oliver plays the video on the large screen they have, Bruce is hoeified it was one thing having his children seeing this but his co workers. Bruce was thinking about blowing up the base.
Meanwhile the others cannot take their eyes of the screen.
Barry: there is no way in hell that is Bruce
Hal: God damn spooky I had no idea you where a stripper
Bruce: I was never a stripper.
As Bruce says this money could be seen in the video getting tossed at Bruce while he dances. Bruce turns to glare at Oliver.
Oliver: You should all be thanking me right now, this may be the last time you ever see me
Diana: Well I'll say thank you, Bruce you look stunning, why do you not dress like this now?
Hal: Yeah Brucie why?
Bruce: *glaring at hal* because I am older now and need to keep up professional aperiances.
Jon: there is no reason why the way you use to be dress isn't professional, well asked from the extreamly short shorts. You do look presentable.
Diana nodding in agreement. Bruce grumbles walking out of the room embrassed that Clark had seen that and beyond flushed thst Diana called him stunning.
Diana: what about you Clark what do you think k of the collage days Brucie.
Clark who hasn't been able to take his eyes of the screen face red, trying to reboot his own brain.
Clark: I uhh I um I need to ah well um yes I will go get the things in the uh stuff *gets up almost speeding out if the room.*
Hal: If they fuck I want $20
Oliver: I'm not betting against that
Hal: you're rich as hell man
The aftermath if this
Diana conties to complement Bruce on how he looked incourging him to do the look now. She even drags Clark and makes him tell Bruce that he though Bruce was the sexyiest thing he had every seen. Bruce caves not being able to handle pretty woman and hot golden Retriever man complementing him this much. He does the look again still looking stunning and has the best night of his life with his closest friends.
Might actullly turn this I to a fic later so leaving myself some notes
100% Diana calls Bruce princess and good girl and Bruce loves it.
Clark is a service top and makes sure both Bruce and Diana are having a good time
Bruce is a bratty power bottoms for Clark but is an absolute good girl for Diana.
#bruce wayne#batman#clark kent#superbat#superman#diana prince#wonder woman#jla#justice league#superwonderbat
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