#so . to like limit how MUCH . if im planning to watch a tv show i cannot b high.

[29121996]

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[elodieunderglass]

So for some more details:

- I am fairly time-poor with a huge amount of commitments: Grownup Job Senior Promotion, three small kids on summer holidays/starting school, writing a novel fanfic for sick friend, peak growing/harvest season at allotment, etc. so im only offering “what I can actually deliver” at this time

- swan comic is a new idea, people like those don’t they? Not sure of how fundraising mechanism would work here but maybe taking prompts?

- not sure how essay would work but it’s probably my best/most appealing skill?

- material items in exchange for a minimum fixed amount. So offline I’m most known for material works. I’m not a BAD printmaker / craftworker and for this I would be looking at designing a sort of limited print run of greeting card style original hand printed prints. I know you guys aren’t familiar with this work from me, so this would involve a bit of trust that An Art from me would be worth at least £5 lmao. However it’s kind of nice to get something real in the mail right??

- super worried about fandom auction so this would be mostly a register of interest that I’d take to more experienced people and use as leverage to start an auction; I’m not in a great place to provide much actual legwork here. I also have huge guilt from like 2000-something where someone paid A HUNDRED AND LIKE 20 DOLLARS to charity for earthquake survivors and I DID NOT FINISH THE FIC AND I HAD to write to them, weepingly, apologising forever about it, and they were so graceful, they forgave me and wrote off my fandom auction contribution, but I had never watched the tv show they requested and was in the process of romancing dr glass and it all went SO wrong, this MIGHT heal my scars of shame from fandom auctions generally OR might make them worse. It itvery hard to write fic actually it’s my worst skill pls don’t pick this

Anyway

I will dance like a monkey and get sick kids out of Gaza. What would you like to see most?

[surrinta]

LOADING: the pudding, the class and the big big brat ₊˙♡﹗˚ ༘

content: be aware of reader having abnormal eating habits n over involved friends. as in concerningly abnormal n her mates have had enuff. you eat like this?? tell someone pls. what else? oh yeah, mentions of implied bulimia (reader is not bulimic) nnn (my memory omg) undisclosed relationship hehe. reader is sort of a brat, female n black coded ⋆⭒˚｡⋆

headers from @v6que <3

“mama you need t’finish this”

you glowered at him over the tops of your glasses as you played with the rim of the rice pudding pot he had picked out for you. ony merely stared back at you. you were all mean faced n pouty, arms crossed tight across your chest — he scoffed. you looked like a damn kitten glaring like that.

he checked his gold linked watch. he had about ten minutes till training and you hadn’t even cracked open the lid of the pot yet.

eren and ony had been watching your eating habits for a while, unbeknownst to you. you barely finished your meals when you three went out, merely sliding it over to them and claiming you were full. you skipped meals — ESPECIALLY breakfast and would only eat about one to two small things. if even. last time you brought in lunch ony had to ransack your bag and get a second eye witness, being eren because he could not in good conscious believe that you had only brought in three small tangerines for lunch.

to your credit you snacked like a motherfucker.

you claimed you didn’t have any disordered eating patterns but the last time they made you sit and eat breakfast recommended for a living breathing person and not your pitiful banana and three biscuits or whatever the hell else you cocked up — you got the worst stomach ache, could barely stand upright.

eren and ony took it upon themselves to meal plan and prep for you. no tv during meal times, no talking and you weren’t to leave spoonfuls behind. they gave you options and as much time as you pleased to pick.

you were good for the most part. but today you seemed to have hit a threshold. ony narrowed his eyes before releasing a breath. he’s never cared when you’ve hit your limit, however. he knew how much you could take. this atrocious display of pure cheek was not your limit.

“just, open it, baby. eat a few spoons for me”

you took in the arm he had on the back of the couch in the student lounge area. you felt bad. hated them fussing. but you ate! most times. well. if you ever whipped up the app you downloaded to see if you were getting your recommended daily intake of calories and showed it to them you’d be a finished person. so perhaps there was room for improvement, but you weren’t starving yourself. you held back an irritated breath. not on purpose. when he plopped the rice pudding pot in front of you, you had barely contained an eye roll and a mumbled, ‘not this again’.

you cracked open the tin foil. took up a white plastic spoon and downed three mouthfuls.

“done”

“you ate three damn spoons”

“you said eat a few spoons for me”

“i-“, ony felt his eye twitch. you raised your eyebrows as if to say you had won the little argument. you picked up your phone to mindlessly tap; pearl studded acrylics tapping against the screen before ony snatched it.

“nigga-“

“eat, im not fucking around. i asked your girls, told me all you had today was water and a damn nutrigain bar. that shit ain’t food”. he furrowed his brows as he planted your phone on the table. you sat back and folded your arms as you stared at the wooden surface. ony knew that you probably didn’t have an eating disorder. you liked food. you snacked religiously and when they followed you to the bathroom to press an ear to the door they didn’t get the feeling that you were throwing it all up either. granted eren nearly crashed to the ground when you had flung open the door. you had gazed up at them with a question before shaking it off, settling for their unreasonable abnormalities and undiagnosed clinginess. one less thing to worry about for them.

still didn’t explain your aversion to eating anything of substance.

“fine!” you huffed as you opened up the pot again, spooning some more of the creamy rice into your mouth. ony watched you patiently. he had noticed how tired you were getting. how irritable you could be at times, a brat as he would call you more often than not. he wanted you healthy and he knew you could do it. you just needed a push cause you were so damn stubborn.

he checked his watch again. training was in five. he got up just as he saw your girls come in to your table. he nodded at them, dapped a few as they sat down.

“i have training-“, he started at the group.

“coulda fooled me”, he shot you a look as if to say he was only an inch away from telling you he wasn’t talking to you. he slung his gym bag onto one shoulder.

“she needs to finish this”. your girls nodded eagerly adding comments of  their own about your terrible eating patterns as you glared.

“thanks, guys”. ony grabbed your jaw, smushed your blush painted cheeks.

“see you in a bit, ma”

you mumbled out a bye and not even a second later eren had come through the door, dapping up ony as he eyed your little table. you threw your head back so hard you were surprised you didn’t knock yourself out. eren was a lot gentler, a bit softer than onyankopon — who always seemed ready to eat the head off you. eren had potential to possess rage but in waves, nearly. just waves. 

till you pushed.

“not happy to see me?”

your friends were but you cut eyes at him before begrudgingly fixing a hug into his side when he pinched at your ribs as you jumped n squealed. he gave a pretty grin, canines peeking before he tucked you into the space between his ribs. your girls were always so awestruck by the pure affection that was always displayed with the three of you. natural n loving n casual. the sweetest.

he sat across from you, greeted your friends, opened up your pot of rice pudding, ate a spoon and then scooped up another to tell you to open your mouth. he usually communicated with you in japanese and as if on autopilot you opened to eat it. no, “what’s this about you not eating?”, he just started talkin. he alternated between telling you about his day n spoon feeding you, eating off of yours at random and before you knew it, it was finished.

“so”, eren fixed you with a dimpled grin, green eyes a glitter. “guess who has a food and nutrition module in about-“, he checked his watch. “ten minutes”.

you pulled a face. “let’s see, someone i don’t give two rats ab-“

“watch it”

you slumped your shoulders back, simultaneously swinging your legs to one side to let the girls out. they had some nursing lab of their own to get to. you were two parts surprised they were even attempting to go to class. usually they bunked off if eren or ony were chilling with you. you cocked an eyebrow at them as they gave giggled goodbyes. you supposed they had to get their life in order at some point. it was final year after all.

“you’re coming”

you shrugged. interestingly you loved topics about nutrition. “no sweat off my back”, you gave a little smile. “i love this subject”

eren eyed you as you picked up your kipling satchel, miffy plush swinging from the corduroy material. “good cause i told the professor i’m bringing in someone that would love to participate in this specific module”

your eye twitched. “you did what?”

[eldritchsurveys]

1232.

Could you be friends with someone who was exactly like you? >> It would be incredibly difficult because the thing about me is that I'm very self-protective and avoidant-leaning and if both of us are that way, then the relationship can't really progress. It's people with opposite but complementary traits (like being garrulous, emotionally frank, demonstrative, a bit nosy, hard to discourage, etc) that have the best chance with me, even if they also drive me batty sometimes, lol.

Is something expensive better than something made with love? >> Ultimately, if someone's giving me a gift, what I care about the most is whether I can use that gift or not. Sure, I would be over the moon to get a thoughtful, personalised gift from someone I care about, but I also am not going to turn down Sparrow's mother (whom I do not like) buying me things off my wishlist for Christmas that I wouldn't be able to afford otherwise. Like the really good earbuds that have been saving my sanity since this last Christmas.

When was the last time you lied? >> I don’t remember. I really don't lie all that much, if at all. There's just never any need to.

What do you think of stealing? >> I don't do it anymore mostly because I can't afford the repercussions for being caught, but I'm pro-shoplifting.

If you could be told when you were going to die, would you want to know? >> I’d rather not. I have enough problems.

What would you do in case of the zombie apocalypse? >> I don't have a zombie contingency plan.

If you died right now, what would be your biggest regret? >> I am always afraid of dying because the idea of dying without ever getting a chance to know what it's like to not suffer all the time is... really, really depressing. Like, what was the point of it all, then.

Are you happy with the way this last week has gone? >> It's been fine. What do you believe was your greatest achievement? >> Killed Korvaak the Eldritch Sun (aka he who hath stolen my epithet, the knave) on Ultimate difficulty in Grim Dawn without even being properly kitted out.

What have you learned from pain? >> That it hurts. A fucking lot. And there's a lot of it to be had. Like... let's be real here

Do you believe in freedom? >> Uh. Would you ever take a job you hated just to get money? >> I think trying to do this would break me. I am just not built like that.

Lately, have you felt rushed or bored with things? >> I have not.

What was the last text or IM you sent? >> I sent Sparrow a link from the city subreddit about an ADHDer meetup at Horrock's on Wednesday. How much TV do you watch in a week? >> I watch maybe like 7-10 hours of my shows a week, total. When you help someone, do you ever think, “What’s in it for me?” >> Not in so many words. I have an Accountant in my mind that is profoundly convinced that we don't have enough spare energy to be giving to anyone else, and if we give energy to other people, we will be drained and never refilled. We are afraid to extend ourselves to a world that we feel has never extended itself to us. Are you joyful right now? >> Not especially. But I acknowledge the capacity for such, which is a start.

Do you know the difference between living and simply existing? >> I know it acutely.

If your life was a novel, what would the title be? >> I'm not sure.

Could you picture any celebrity playing you in a movie? >> I cannot. There are a couple of actors that could possibly look enough like me if you squinted really hard, but I don't know if they could pull off conveying the way I am as a person. I mean, maybe they could. Who am I to limit a character actor's potential. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? >> What?

What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? .

If a human life span was 20 years, would you live differently? >> Obviously. So would everyone. Society as a whole would be vastly different.

Do you think you have a lot of control over your life? >> I don't think that.

Are you more worried about doing things right or doing the right thing? >> I am vastly uninterested in "the right thing", because that's an ever-moving goalpost that largely depends on the morality of whoever is constructing said goalpost. "Doing things right" is more compelling, especially if it's a thing like "installing game mods without breaking said game". Would you rather have the cookie or the cream of an Oreo? >> Eugh.

What’s something you know you do differently than most people? >> I don't know, man.

What is the simplest way to make you happy? .

Right now, what’s holding you back? >> From what? Need some specifics here.

Would you rather lose all of your memories or never be able to have more? .

Is there someone you could just smile at and be content with? >> I... what?

When was the last time you had deja vu? >> I don't think I've ever experienced it.

Who would you like to visit more than anyone? .

What would you do differently if no one would judge you? >> *shrug* When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? >> I notice that all the time. Not because I breathe particularly loudly. I just notice too much shit.

Would you ever adopt a child? >> I would not. I also would never be eligible, anyway.

Could you change to suit someone else’s needs? >> It depends???

If you could be in a Disney movie, what would it be? >> I don’t want to be in a Disney movie.

If you could view the Earth from above, would you be disappointed? >> I can't imagine what would be disappointing about this.

Is there something you just cannot get out of your head? >> Songs, usually. Also whatever weird phrase has decided to become my internal echolalia for the hour.

Do you get jealous of people with fancy things? >> Sure. I can be envious of anything, honestly. It's less about the actual thing and more about feeling an overall sense of lack.

When was the last time you ate? >> A couple of hours ago. Have you ever felt like you just weren’t good enough? >> Sure.

Would you rather wear really girly or really masculine clothing? .

Is there someone you find incredibly attractive? >> Sure.

Do you ever get entertained by the simplest things? >> I can be, yes.

When was the last time you just stared into space? >> I don’t remember. It happens fairly often.

Could you pick one outfit to wear for the rest of your life? >> I would not want to do this.

What is the most amount of money you could possibly spend in a day? .

Do you really give a fuck about what people say? >> Sure, I'm bound to give a fuck about what some people say. Just not every people. Not even most people.

Do you tend to be curious or share your own opinion? >> Both? They’re not mutually exclusive traits.

Ever remembered a nightmare? >> Sure.

Is there a song from a genre you hate that you can actually stand? >> I think if I were to hate a genre, it'd be because there are no songs I've heard from it that I can stand. If there's even one, then I don't think I hate that genre. I just hate, like, the popular bands in it or whatever. Like country -- I really don't care for a lot of country music, but the songs I do like, I really like. You know? I just have specific tastes. What do you feel like doing right now? >> I don’t feel like doing anything different from what I’m doing now.

If you could make anything glow in the dark, what would it be? .

Do you really like the food at fast food places? >> Occasionally. Chicken sandwiches have gotten better thanks to the fact that Popeye's sandwiches were so popular for a little while.

Don’t you hate those people that can just eat as much as they want? >> The unspoken part is "and not get fat", and this whole concept is based in a really fucked-up paradigm about fatness that I refuse to entertain. I can eat just as much as I want, period. If I get fat in the process, that is a neutral correlative-but-not-necessarily-causative event.

Have you bothered to think of the future lately? >> Interesting phrasing in this question. I do think about the future, but usually in a despairing, catastrophising way. Would you rather have stars in the sky or the moon? .

If you could choose your phone number, what would it be? .

Would you rather be somewhere familiar or get lost? >> That would depend on if I was feeling adventurous or not. Are you afraid of what you do not know? >> Sometimes.

Is there something you are always interested in? >> My special interests tend to endure across the decades, yeah.

What are people always saying to you? . What did you last hear that made your jaw drop? >> I don’t remember.

Do you have a question for anyone right now? >> I do not.

Do you like buffet restaurants? >> No more or less than I like any other kind of restaurant.

Is there something you always order when you go out to eat somewhere? >> I don't think so. I do have things I generally prefer over other things, but I'm a rather adventurous eater, all told.

Do you mainly live by the moon or the sun? >> The Sun.

When was the last time you felt like you were starving? >> A few weeks ago. I wasn't, not really, but food insecurity is a bitch.

Would you ever dye your hair all the colors of the rainbow? >> I would not.

Do you miss childhood at all? >> Absolutely not.

What has made you laugh lately? >> Oh, stuff.

What drives you absolutely crazy? >> Oh, other stuff. If a Miley Cyrus song was playing in a store, would you leave? >> No?? I can't think of any artist so offensive to my ears that I would leave a store just because they were playing. Most pop songs are like 3 minutes tops anyway, it'd probably be over by the time I got to the exit :V

Do you like listening to music on speakers? >> I rarely do it, I prefer headphones.

Ever feel paranoid? >> Rarely.

Have you ever actually discovered someone watching you? >> Sure.

What would you do if you found an inappropriate picture of yourself online? >> I have no idea. This isn't a situation I'm ever likely to find myself in, so I don't have any thoughts about it.

What do you think of Facebook? >> I don't care for it.

Do you like extra butter on your popcorn? .

Would you rather have Junior Mints or Reese’s? .

Do you still use CDs? >> Not at all.

Have you ever taken a polaroid? >> I have. Do you wish you could live in the past just to see what it was like? >> I do not. Ever felt like you just didn’t belong in this place? >> Always. What was the last thing you learned? >> I don’t remember.

Have you ever avoided going to the bathroom because you were busy? >> Constantly. Also because I hate going to the bathroom.

Do you have anything underneath your bed? >> Just dust. Lots and lots of dust.

Would you want a walk-in closet? >> Maybe. I like having storage options even if I don't have a whole lot of stuff.

Do you like coffee at all? >> Occasionally. I had some this morning, in fact.

When was the last time you felt pressured? >> I don’t usually feel that way.

Would you rather have your hair straight or really curly? .

Do you use any products on your hair? >> I use scalp oils.

What is the longest shower or bath you have ever taken? >> I have no idea. I'm known for my short, efficient showers.

Still play with any childhood toys? >> I do play with toys, but not from my own childhood. Would you rather sleep with a sheet or a blanket? >> I love a weighted blanket and/or a nice, fluffy duvet. But weather is not always permitting.

When was the last time you were in physical pain? >> Monday, when I had to break into my own house through the aircon window because Sparrow had been back and locked the door behind them while I was gone (and I'd left it unlocked when I left and didn't have my key on me).

How many times have you broken a bone? >> Zero.

Do you have a preference of chocolate? >> My favourite kind is dark with sea salt and... uhh. something else. I haven't bought chocolate in months and I've already forgotten what my go-to variety is x_x

Have you ever thought anything was evil? >> Not really.

Could you make a statement about anything political? >> I would really rather not.

What is something useless that you love to do? >> I've actually decided that I only love to do useless stuff. Everything I do is useless. That's my thing. Useless shit. It sounds like I'm being mean to myself but actually it's been ironically stress-relieving. I think we're really tired of feeling like we have to be of use in order to validate our existence, and it's nice to go "actually, I'm going to do the opposite on purpose".

Do you have a favorite author? >> Not right now. I think Adrian Tchaikovsky and Mary Doria Russell are contenders, though.

Know anything about your family history? .

Have you ever been scared of something foolish? . What do you think of bejeweled things? .

Do you own anything “designer?” >> I do not.

Do you ever stop and appreciate little things? >> Sure.

If you had to draw your life, what would it mainly include? . Is there something that just draws you in like a moth to a flame? >> Sure. I actively seek out stuff that draws me in like that. Is there anyone you’d like to hug right now? >> Just Can Calah, as always. Could you ever picture someone writing a biography about you? >> I could not picture this.

If you had a few wishes, would you give one to someone who needed it? . Have a lucky clothing item? >> I do not.

What makes you feel more carefree than anything else? >> Good question.

And finally, who do you just adore right now, regardless of anything else? >> Again: Can Calah, as always.

[whitehartlane]

yeah! it must be interesting to go from games with the people you regularly play with to a completely different assortment of people & in (comparatively) limited time too. would love to get into the heads of people who strategize teams lineups lol!

oh i hadn’t heard about that! i dont think ive actually watched much of you quiz before 🤔 ill have to figure out where its available. also for ila! i think hwang heechan has done an episode for them previously? i dont remember who was hosting at the time though.. i mainly pay attention to eps where they’re cooking in the thumbnail lol >.< it’ll be exciting to see what guesung’s ep is like though! im still suprised with how quickly content is planned to come out though, like wow.. sounds so busy to go almost straight from a world cup to all this!

hm.. if diet (?) isnt a constraint, personally i think a drinking show would be fun to see just because i like that sort of balance of chatty but not super personal. i think its particularly fitting since they’re not like. formal celebrities? idk, i guess for some people the draw really is the fame but i cant help but think it must be at least a little awkward for the people that just wanted to play a game professionally lol ;w;

also the idea of we got married is killing me, whenever i hear the name i just think of how people used to call it we got bearded 🤣 in the alternate reality where it was still airing, that would be an absolutely hilarious episode 😭😭

yes!! i saw heechan’s photoshoot for marie claire too and it was cool! like definitely a different direction than i expected tbh, i liked the one photo with the pearl necklaces particularly ; well, no idea how offers are handed out but my only hope is that whatever shoot he ends up doing isnt for something like burberry or gucci.. like maybe i just do not have the taste for that.. kind of fashion but i do nott like the clothes they have to wear for those specific brand endorsements 😭😭

oh and sorry i just noticed the tags on your post with them in the swimming and djskfjjs he is very otter emoji.. 🦦

hope your week has been going well btw!!!

hiii anon!! omg i would love to be a fly on the wall when they decide the starters or the team lineups, stuff like that is so interesting to me! ofc i have my own opinions on who should be starting but it’s interesting to see what professional coaches or managers think and the way they strategise ☺️

you quiz is available on dramacool!! at least that’s where i catch my eps haha. and yes heechan was the first football player to be on ila, i think it was around 3 months ago? anyway forgot to mention it but his ep was literally so cute 🥺 loved seeing his interactions with his teammates and fans!! and it cracked me up bc all the hosts were wearing wolves (heechan’s team in the prem) or sk nt jerseys (even fabien who was hosting at the time) apart from key 😭 it KILLED me 😭 but yeah i’m rly rly excited for guesung’s ep too!! i hope he gets to be on the actual show and interact with the hosts, unfortunately heechan couldn’t bc he was already back in the UK at the time 🥲 guesung must be so busy like with all these variety show things + rumours that he might be trying to transfer during the winter transfer market + if he doesn’t, then k league starting in feb … the life of a footballer is not easy I suppose 😭

oh yeah i agree w you, i do like the vibe of chattiness that a lot of the drinking shows have! it truly must be kinda awkward to have to go through pr lessons and figure out what you want your TV Persona to be as a football player like damn you’re rly just here to play football 😭 AND HELP WE GOT BEARDED … haven’t heard that in a while 😭 man imagine them pairing up the players … the superior timeline 🙏🏾

yes heechan’s photoshoot was rly lovely! i like the one that seungho did for dazed korea too!! i’m not picky about what brand honestly but i have to agree that i don’t like a lot of gucci photoshoots 😭 the clothes are just not my personal taste 😭 though i do have my exceptions! and YESSS guesung is so 🦦🦦🦦 in those pictures … i saw someone say he looks like a baby floating for the first time in those mommy&me swimming lessons and it’s funny but also SO TRUE 😭

my week has been kind of exhausting but i’m doing okay!! hope your week has been going well too 🥰🫂

[owo-shenanigans]

hey I noticed that the request were open and I was wondering if you could do a romantic relationship with sonia, mikan, kiyoko, and celestia with a very hyper s/o that is like almost a sugar rush every day and very happy but one day they just come to school with a messy uniform/clothes and messy hair which their s/o just seems tired and done with life and when they ask they just say "it's horrible.. th-they cancelled my favorite tv show.." thanks if you do end up doing this request and (burrito)

You asked for too many characters so im not going to write for sonia, cheers. Also i love women thanks for the request

Mikan, Kyoko and Celeste with a Hyper S/O who got depressed over their favorite TV show ending

KYOKO KIRIGIRI

Kyoko is more on the low energy side when she’s not at work. She would much prefer a quiet night in than a night out, though if you’re a fan of parties and the like she’s willing to go with you- her limit is one per week, though.

You have the ‘talks a lot - listens’ dynamic, but Kyoko is definitely part of the conversation! You’ll say what you want to and when you take a breath, Kyoko will interject with her opinions.

You send her a lot of texts and she responds with emojis when she’s especially low energy.

That said, she could tell something was wrong when you didn’t text her at all the night before. Usually you would live text her your reactions to the newest episode of your favorite show, but she assumed that something extra big was happening.

When the next day you arrive at school and collapse at her desk with your tie barely around your neck and your shirt buttoned wrong, she feels your forehead for a fever. Perhaps you got sick last night?

When you burst into tears and clutch her, saying that your favorite show had been cancelled, and with your hatred of spoilers you didn't know until the episode wasn’t airing.

She comforts you and promises to loan you her notes for that day, and makes a plan of her own.

Kyoko isn’t influential enough to get a show uncancelled, but she was able to pull a few favors from former cases to get copies of the show notes and plans to give to you. You won’t be able to see it on the screen, but at least now you’ll know how it was supposed to go!

CELESTIA LUDENBURG

Only god knows how you two got together, but she gives off the vibe of ‘only I’m allowed to tease my partner. Try it and die’. She’s honestly a bit of a bitch, so please understand that she does care for you heavily.

She takes you out to fancy parties and gambling dens often- she loves seeing your face as you watch her in her element!

If you livetext her your reactions to episodes and stuff, she usually only scans them for anything to react to, and even that’s because she really loves you. For anyone else she would send them ‘uhuh. Right. Okay.’ if that.

The morning you come to school with your hair a rat's nest and your shoes untied, a dead look in your eyes, she’s crossing the room to ask what’s wrong.

When you break down crying into her handkerchief, explaining how your favorite show was cancelled mid season without even a hasty tie up ending.

Celeste gives you pats on the back, murmuring reassuring words and telling you that Hifumi will take care of your notes for the day.

A few days later, she stands in front of the TV station owner with a proposition- they both bet it all. She wins, of course, and a few weeks later the show is announced to be continuing (with your voice offering ideas that may or may not be taken into consideration).

When you find out what she did, you attack her with kisses and manage to fluster her for one of the few times in your relationship.

MIKAN TSUMIKI

She thinks you have a chemical imbalance LMAO

When you come in vibrating every day and cheerfully tell her that you had a simple breakfast of a slapdash sandwich she wants to drag you off and examine your blood to find out why you have so much energy.

She believes everything is related to the body.

When you come in that day with your uniform crumpled and dark circles under your eyes, she’s flitting around you, worried questions flowing from her lips.

You break into a sob and bury your face in her stomach, causing her face to flush. The only reason she doesn’t faint is because then you would collapse along with her.

“D-dear, what’s wrong?” She rubs your cheek, finally managing to sit down (in your lap, because school seats are tiny).

“My… My favorite show…. It’s cancelled! And- and the season wasn’t even finished! I’ll never know what was going to happen!” You wail into her shirt.

She can’t help but think ‘is that it?’ before hastening to get a handkerchief out of her pocket and dabbing at your tears.

Mikan will comfort you but she can’t really…. Do anything about it. She’ll write the station and ask them to continue the show, but even the plea of an Ultimate student can’t bring a TV show back on the air.

Maybe you two could find a new TV show to watch together!

[gb-patch]

Ask Answers: July 10th

I really let asks get away from me lately. I was super focused on working on that Patreon Moment. With that done I can finally think about doing other things, so here’s a new collection of answers!

Thank you for sending in questions everyone ^^.

For the new Patreon moment, will you be able to reference it in step 4? Or just like a tiny nod to it if you pick certain choices?

There won’t be. I’m sorry if you were hoping for that! The Patreon moment is meant to be entirely optional, it’s not something that gets you extra content in the main game.

Is the new CG artist the main one now? :0 I’ve noticed theres been a difference in the art style recently. Is the old CG artist still going to make art for the game? :0

The original artist still makes CGs for the game sometimes, but he mainly focuses on character sprites.

Are you going to put the NSFW our life moment on a website other than patreon? I would love to get it but I can't use patreon atm.

I don’t know. I'm afraid we can't release the Patreon Moment on a normal game storefront because we can't mix 18+ content with our family friendly game. If there's some other place similar to Patreon where it's not the normal type of full-scale public content releases we'd consider using that, but I’m not sure if there is another site that’s better than Patreon in that regard. I'm sorry.

Out of curiosity, in all of your games so far, which characters in each were the most fun to write? They obviously don't have to be your favorite characters!

Buffalo Seer in AFA, really everyone in XOD/XOBD is pretty equally entertaining to write, The Guide in LoV, and Cove in OL!

idk if you accept "personal" questions, but is there anything you've been watching/ listening to lately

Mostly, I’ve been watching/listening to Authortube videos as of late! It’s people who talk generally about the process of how books become traditionally published and/or share their own experience as they attempt to be published. I don’t have an interest in writing normal text based books, but it’s really interesting to hear about that world. I’m listening to a video about royalties right now as I answer these asks.

Will one of the desserts we get to pick be fudge? That'd be such a cute reference! 

Haha, yeah, it should. Unless I completely blank on it and forget when trying to include the various referential food options.

I don't know if this has been asked previously but what would be the approximate heights for the presets MC can choose from Step 2 ~ 4? Are there any measurement you had in mind? Sorry if I didn't make myself clear kk I've been struggling with my English lately 💀 

I don’t know, ahah. I didn’t have any numbers in mind for that. So it’s whatever you imagine it is!

I noticed a bug with the Patreon moment when it comes to what your character wears. When Jamie and Cove are kissing while my character only had dresses selected, I had both the option to remove the dress or to remove the shirt... Picking one of the options to interact with Cove, after he removed his shirt, it had Jamie remove their shirt followed by ther pants despite only having dresses picked. 

Thank you for reporting ^^

I keep refreshing steam to see when the new doc for xobd will be released. I noticed you haven't posted anything about it in quite some time. Would it be possible to ask about a timeline/potential date? (If it's even this year—) I know you and your team are probably working super hard, I'm just super curious! ~Thank you!~ 

There are more stories done, I just haven’t gotten around to publicly releasing them. Hopefully I will have a chance to spend the time on that sooner rather than later!

hello!! i’m not sure if it’s an update but i’ve just replayed our life and at the end i can’t propose to cove anymore? :(( i’ve actually tried playing twice but the options are not there anymore, did you guys remove the options? i’m sorry if you’ve answered this before!! thank you and have a good one :) 

I’m afraid things haven’t been changed or removed, so I think you might’ve accidentally picked the wrong things somewhere along the way and locked yourself out of being able to propose by mistake. Sometimes you meant to say you want to get married but instead you mis-click and have it so the MC isn’t thinking about marriage or something. All I can suggest is starting from the beginning of Step 3 and making sure to follow the steps listed in the FAQ. I’m sorry for that.

Did yall remove some of the options for when youre making out with Cove in the charity moment? I could've sworn you could grab his bonkadonk and its not there anymore 

This is the same situation as the above. We didn’t remove things and you’re not wrong that there are sometimes those options. But there are various choices you have to make to get those options and it sounds like you accidentally missed something. If your relationship isn’t long-term, you can’t do it for example.

HI IM SO EXCITED I CAN FINALLY GET THE STEP 3 DLC 

Thank you for getting it!

Is Shiloh super totally straight bc I’m very gay and a huge Shiloh fan, would my man make an exception?😩

Sadly, he is one of our super straight characters. I’m sorry.

Hi, I have a very dumb question. In Step 2 does Cove not wanna share his drink with us at the mall (or rather why he stops drinking it) because it's an indirect kiss? Or is it like ...weird to him to share? Because if I remember right he eats off our spoon in the birthday scene right? 

Yeah, he’s awkward about it because he likes the MC and it feels very personal to share a straw with his crush.

Hi! If you don't mind me asking, who is the artist for OL2? Their style is so pretty! 

Thank you for saying so! This is her Twitter- https://twitter.com/redridingheart

Do Beginnings & Always and Now & Forever exist in the same universe? 

Yep! XOXO Droplets also exists in the same universe. It’s one big GB Patch world, haha.

Do Pran's parents regret the way they raised him? Do they feel ashamed of it?

No. They’re the type of people best cut out because they’re not gonna change. Which is why Pran does go very limited contact when he’s an adult.

Hi! I just wrapped up my second playthrough of Our Life, and I absolutely adore it, but I had a question. I went to the gallery and found I was missing 2 CGS (specifically Step 1-3 and 2-3) and I had no clue where they would've shown up. Which moments are those found in? 

You get it by telling Cove about his dad offering you money to be his friend in Step 1 and Step 2. You can’t get both in one playthrough, since you can only tell Cove the truth once. I’m really glad you liked it!

Hi hi! Please, how tall is Baxter and Derek? Love the game so much and I can't wait to see more! 

I don’t know, aha. I think Baxter was around 5′10 and Derek was like 5′8/5′9, maybe. I really am not one who has specific heights for things in mind.

is adult cove a bottom, top, or switch? 

A switch, though would choose the top if he had to pick.

I was wondering if there is a way to transfer save data? Even if through the game files. I wanted to be able to transfer my save data from my desktop over to my laptop so that I could continue playing right where I left off from but I'm not entirely sure how to go about that. 

If you save the save folder/persistent data of the game from your desktop and put it into the game folder on your other device, that could work.

Hi! Is it possible for us to know the date when our life: now and forever comes out on steam? Sorry if you've mentioned it before but I haven't seen it and I'm looking foward to that happening and just wanted to know :) 

It’s gonna be a long time, I’m afraid. There’s no estimate right now.

I started playing Our Life with my sister a while ago, and I think you guys should know that we discovered your secret. >:)

L from death note and Cove are clearly the same person, and this whole game is just an origin story!!

I’ve never seen that show so I’m sorry to say I don’t understand the connection/reference you’re trying to make. I’m pretty out of the loop when it comes to media. I don’t watch movies or TV.

Will OL2 have options for disabled MCs?

I understand if it's too complicated, just curious

Unfortunately, it’s not really something we have a plan for. We couldn’t finish the game if we tried to include every disability and have it be meaningful. It’d just be too much content to create. But if we decide to only include a few, how would we choose which disabilities get to be represented and which are left out? I don’t know. It’ll probably have to be something we don’t include as an option again, sadly. I’m sorry.

playing our life > anything else 

Haha, I’m glad you’re enjoying it.

Honestly, I would like to thank Our Life for helping me come to terms with my sexuality. Before, I never would've actually thought that it was possible to like boys romantically and still be asexual. Almost all of the BL visual novels I've read had unskippable sexual content in them and it honestly just didn't click with what I feel. I'm glad I found Our Life. I love the game, the developers, and this fandom so much. Now, I can safely come out as homoromantic AND asexual (at least anonymously here anyway; my parents are still huge homophobes 😂). 

Aw, it’s great to hear you felt comfortable being yourself in the game! That’s wonderful. I’m really sorry about your parents, though.

Will the demo for OL2 be on android? Really not sure if I could wait any longer than I have to aha 

Yeah, it’ll be available for Android once we eventually release a demo!

Do all these reveals perhaps mean development is progressing ahead of schedule? Please let that be the case I'm already obsessed with Qiu 

No, sorry, aha. Art comes along much faster than script/programming-work for us. It’s gonna be a long time before the game is a finished thing you can actually play. But at least we can look at the beautiful images.

Hey! First of all I wanna say I reallllllyyyyy loooovvveeee Our Life and XOXO Droplets! I have over 300 hours of playtime on Our Life… Anyways, I was just wondering, are the Derek and Baxter DLCs going to come out at the same time? If not, which one do you plan to release first? :3 

They will come out separately and Derek will be first! Glad you like the game.

I keep replaying Our Life to get every possible iteration and I am loving it <3 I was wondering if Cove gets locked out of his confession because MC was talking to Lee, would it be possible to confess to him in step 4? 

Yeah, you can avoid the confession in Step 3 and then get it in Step 4.

Hi, my Cove wears bracelets through step 2 and 3 but I still don't get an option to give him a bracelet? I didn't even know that was possible until I seen someone else ask about it lol 

Hm, did you use the Cove creator? Maybe there’s a bug where using the creator to add bracelets doesn’t fulfill the requirement to give Cove a bracelet in Step 3.

Wait, I'm dense, when does Baxter appear in step 2? Is it from big park firework? I feel so bad since i really love Baxter and waiting to buy his dlc. 

It’s in the Soiree Moment. You have to be just friends with Cove, indifferent, or crushing but not ask Cove to the dance at all. Then while there you can find someone new to dance with. But if you bring Cove to the dance while crushing, the MC won’t wanna dance with anyone else so you can’t get the scene.

In step 2 when we go to the soiree I made my mc go alone and baxter chooses the mc to dance, i'm curious, why did he pick the mc? sorry if this has been asked before! 

Because the MC looked to be around his age, seemed to also be searching for a partner, and had nice legs. A perfect option for him.

I read some of the FAQs, and I saw that we could tell Baxter about the condo that he rented there was previously the mean old grandparents. how do we get the mc to tell him that? 

It happens in the DLC Moment “Late Shift”. If you don’t have a job you instead get a longer scene with Baxter.

I don’t know if you’ve addressed this or not, but are you planning on paying voice actors for our life: now and forever? 

Yeah, we pay our VAs in all our projects.

hey can i ask how you did the moments thing in ol? im trying to get into making visual novels and while im VERY sure its out of my comfort zone and all that atm i kinda wanna know just for the future, bc im p sure it would work well for something i wanna do :O but its also fine if you cant say for other reasons :> 

I’m afraid I’m not sure what you mean. Are you asking how we programmed the screen or something script related? Adding Moments like that is pretty straightforward, though. You just have buttons that open to different labels and then the scripts are essentially individual short stories/vignettes. Good luck with your VN!

Since Autumn becomes gender fluid later in the game, will there be a character who remains as he/him to romance in game? 

OL1 has the he/him LIs, OL2 is all about other genders.

I don't want to impose on your creative plans, but a parrot could possibly make a good pet in an OL-type game? They're pretty long-lived and likely to still be thriving by the end even if the MC got them back in step 1. 

I do appreciate the suggestion, but I’m afraid it’s not likely going to happen. I understand there are technically some animals that could theoretically live long enough to last the whole game that or we could have the MC only get a pet after some years have already passed. But the many things that would have to be considered/accommodated for makes it just something we probably can’t manage adding. I’m sorry.

As time passes will we be able to see Qiu and Tamarack's other stage arts as well?

They are both so cute i can't wait to be friends with them!

Yeah, we’ll show content from other Steps in the future. It’ll be a little while from now, though.

Can you date Cove and still have your family comfort you in the car?

You can’t get Cove’s Step 3 confession scene if you have the family comfort you in the car. But that’s not the only way to date him. You can get together with him earlier in the game or later on in Step 4.

Is Mc always going to be the one walking down the aisle or could Cove do it? Also could you choose to have one of your moms walk you? 

No. Cove wouldn’t want to walk down the aisle like that and the MC automatically respects that. And the MC also gets to have their preferences respected, so it’s up to you whether they want to do an aisle walk or not. You also can pick who, if anyone, walks with you.

Once step 4 is out, will you be able to go the whole game on crush/love without either of you confessing? 

Yes, as long as you tell the game you don’t want to progress the relationship. Even in Step 4 it won’t force you to officially get together.

Howdy, so in Step 4, there will be any Romance with Derek that is not part of any dlc? 

He’s only a friend unless you get his romance story.

Will the step 4 in OL2 be one big step or are you considering moments? 

Step 4 is just an epilogue in both games.

hi kind of a weird question but!! we know tht cliff doesn't start dating again but. wht abt flings? like does he ever do 1 night stands or anything? thank u!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Nope. Cliff has a very small interest in sex. If he’s not in a real relationship with a partner he’s crazy about it simply isn’t something he feels a need for, so one night stands wouldn’t even cross his mind.

sorry if you've already answered this, but i was wondering if there were plans for there to be bonus love interests in OL2 like how we have derek and baxter in OL1.

Maybe! There are side characters who could be given romance stories, but whether or not it will happen depends on funding and how long everything else takes to finish.

I don't know if i'm allowed to ask about ol2 here yet, if not u can ignore this or answer it later. My question is can you date one of them and be good friends with the other? I don't want to be strangers with the other bcs i love them both a lot :<

Yes you can!

what patreon level do i have to be to unlock the nsfw moment? im on the $5 one right now, will that give me access to the moment, or just access to the moment progress? 

That’ll give you access! Tier 2 and anything higher allows the player to download it.

[moonlit-imagines]

Headcanons for being Tony Stark’s son (Part 2)

Tony Stark x son!reader

warnings:

a/n: had to split it into 2 parts bc i hit the text limit dhshaggags

prompt: continued

part 1

~sokovia was ur first big mission~

“why is y/n here, stark?” -cap

“the first mistake was letting me become a father”

“good god, tony...”

you having the time of your life crushing robots

“WHEEEEEE”

also proving useful by saving avengers a handful of times

“thanks for the assist, stark clone” -clint

rip pietro

rhodey was actually the most worried about you if we’re being honest, he didn’t understand why they let you in this one???

“y/n? y/n, talk to me! are you alive?”

“yes, uncle rhodey! i’m perfect, stop worrying!”

“i love you, kid! be safe!”

✨a good family you’ve got✨

soon the avengers broke up bc your dad cant get along with steve and it was just really awkward

but you chose your dad’s side

“sorry, steve! he pays my allowance!”

peter was actually a little okay, you know!! spazzy at first, but he was cool

“dude, you’re y/n stark! you’re tony stark’s very own son! i’m talking to mr. stark’s only child!”

“yep, that’s me. i’m what earned tony the title of ‘DILF’”

teenage teamup? ofc

“am i doing alright?”

“looking a-okay, pete!”

tony was worried fighting steve would traumatize you so he made you wait at the hotel with happy and peter

“don’t do anything to embarrass me, y/n. i dont want to see you on the news for something stupid”

you and peter ended up hanging out in your room and watching tv and ordering room service

“how do you do that so smoothly? i’d just freak out and go get it myself”

“years of experience as a spoiled rich brat”

absolutely positively being up all night and trying to fight your exhaustion

“you two seem to be getting along well. couldn’t be me” -happy

“for someone named happy, you never seem to be happy”

“not around teenagers, no”

“i remember when you loved me, ‘uncle happy’”

peter texted you every day after that

whenever flash picked on peter for “never meeting tony stark” he’d show a picture of you and him taking selfies in the lab together yes you invite him over much to the dismay of everyone else around you

plus tony was out of town and you were finally trusted enough to be left alone unchecked so like, happy would just leave at the first sign of peter

“that’s not real!”

“jealous?”

you actually showed up for homecoming on a dare (but in disguise)

didn’t wanna attract all the attention, you just wanted a high school experience

but you got called into avengers tower to help move early on :/ bad timing too cuz peter had to fight his first villain and u missed it

“dude, how do you feel?”

“bruh sound effect number two”

“oh my god”

FRIDAY heard him and pulled up the sound and you were WEAK you couldn’t stop laughing

“please....i think i broke a few ribs. cant laugh until tomorrow”

tony offered peter the avengers gig and peter said no, you were very disappointed but u understood that not everyone wanted to be in the spotlight like that

but you and peter obviously still hung out

oh, tony proposed! they interviewed you on sight!

“y/n, how does it feel to know that you’re going to have a stepmom soon?”

“you guys are aware that pepper helped raise me, right? right?!”

moving on, life was smooth for a while, there was some wedding planning, talk of you being a best man (which rhodey fought you on)

“no, i’ve known your dad longer!”

“i’m his son!”

i n v a s i o n

oh boy that was rough

bruce was surprised that you had fucking grown so much in the past 3 years good lord

“y/n...your VOICE”

“puberty, i know. when’s it gonna happen to you?”

“it hurts more when it’s from a teenager”

“uh, did you forget my birthday?”

peter’s back! peter’s back!

finally, man

“spider-kid, i could use an assist!”

“on the way!”

“aliens, why did it have to be aliens?”

up up and away for tony and peter, leaving you on the ground with all the earthly chaos and fear

“you two are the absolute worst, you know that? DAD, PETER, GET BACK DOWN HERE”

“no can do, kid. i—” *cuts off*

“oh great, no service on the space donut, huh? find a damn wifi password and call me back you asshole”

pepper was probably having a heart attack bc the news stations were having a field day but you were one of the only active avengers left, meaning you had to help clean this up

“bruce, we gotta get going”

“what? where?”

“upstate”

patching up the avengers as best as you could to take care of the threat

but you guys always win, this should be a cake walk, right?

wrong.

this was bad, very bad

after a lengthy battle with thanos in wakanda, you had failed. thanos got the stones, he snapped. the world was in ruins. but you didn’t get to see that part

you dusted away

“tell dad i’m sorry and i love him”

tony finally came back to earth hoping to see you, but upon seeing pepper’s face, he knew you were gone

“he did everything he could, tony! he didn’t deserve it!”

she was extremely upset, she saw you like a son of her own

soon, her and tony restarted their life and had a daughter, dad always wondered what it’d be like to have a little girl. it was different, it really was

she was eager to meet you

morgan stole pictures of you to hang up in her room

“when i meet y/n, im gonna give him a big hug! then we’ll have a tea party!”

tony has a picture of you and peter in the kitchen, he misses the two of you, but found comfort in the fact that you may be with each other

an ounce of hope, he had to try something

save his only son, and his other son

when he got to 2012, he was disappointed that he hadn’t let you become an avenger yet because he couldn’t see you here

yada yada he fucked up now he’s in the 70s and he fixed the fuck up and now hes in 2023

and bruce snapped

and you were all brought back and the way you kicked ass was inspiring

tony had to see his son now. right now.

“y/n, dear god! you’re okay! oh, man. i love you so much, kid. i missed you”

“i love you too. and i can’t believe you went to space without me, meanie”

“get over it��

ah, back to old times

peter and you obviously had to team up for this one! come on, what a story to tell!

and then, a snap and the warriors began to fade. you turned around and saw him on his knees

“no...”

you rushed over to where peter already was and tried to hold back tears, to be strong for him

“hey, dad. i’m here. no more missed goodbyes, okay? i’m here.”

you sat beside him and held his hand while the rest of your family made their peace with him and he finally slipped away

“y/n...are you okay?” -peter

“not even a little”

peter was worried about you, but you were worried about peter

mutual worry

meeting morgan was...surprising

pepper forgot to tell you they had a daughter while you were gone

she was so sweet and for the first month you lived at the cabin, she slept in your room

you got NO space

“i love you y/n”

“love you too” *thinking about dad bc she just reminds you of him so much*

“i love you y/n”

“love you too, morgan”

over and over

peter and you had sleepovers a lot, usually at his house bc you were the only one besides ned allowed over bc of all the spider-stuff

ned fanboyed over you

also sleepovers at peter’s were a nice break from being at tony’s cabin where you were constantly reminded that he wasn’t there

“y/n, i’m going to europe for a field trip! it’s gonna be awesome!”

“dude, you’re gonna love it. are you bringing your suit?”

“no, this is my offical vacation. no spider-manning”

“good for you, man!”

peter sent you all the pictures he took on his phone

all of them

Peter-Man: And this one is me and Ned in our crappy hotel room. And here’s the river. And here’s MJ covered in birds, and here’s the airplane, Mr. Harrington fell asleep on me

you had to come to europe once you heard what was going on

happy and you picked up peter and he was a mess

“you gave away dad’s glasses?”

“i think we’re past the point that i am not smart”

“jesus, peter. you should have called me about them. i would have taken them off your hands if you weren’t ready for them”

having to make sure that you guys didn’t get hurt bc this was honestly your guy’s first solo pair-up

there wasnt much backup here

finally, you defeated the evil (who apparently held a very large grudge against you. sorry mister beck) and were able to go back home

“call me if you need anything, pete”

“i will. i promise.”

and the next thing you know...peter’s identity was exposed

“i left him alone for one day!”

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[zuffer-weird-girl]

Okay since dabi is the centre of attention, how would he open up to his s/o about all the trauma in his life? How would they comfort him?

You know when this man will speak about the whole package of being a Todorki and Endeavour's abuse?

Never if it depends on him. Probably when he shows to everyone but talk about it with you before? Nah.

But it does happen.

This man has trust issues fight me

It happens when Dabi begrudily admits to himself that he does care. That he does have feelings for you. That he is not that crazy... but wont admit it neither shows it much.

But when he is drunk? Sorry Touya...

Spills the tea if ONE, ONLY ONE subject rwlated to the todorokis come about.

Thats why he doesn't want to get hella drunk along with the league.

He has some toletance but everyone has their limits.

So does Dabi.

It happens when both of you are alone and he lower his walls just a bit down to just have a nice evening with his S/o.

Jokes over there. Drinking vompetions here.

Make out sessions..

... sex...

You both decided to just chill for a bit later and just watch some Tv. You snuggling up to his chest as him with spread legs.

Wrong decision.

It aappeared a fuckin documentary about the now number one hero Endeavour.

A documentary.

You just snorted in sarcasm at it, knowing your boyfriend's dislike towards the hero... until you felt his body starting to heat it up.

".. Dabs?" You called for him and widened your eyes at the pysocothic look he had towards the T.v... Scarred hand trembling as he holded the remote as one part showed about Enji's first kid... the one you knew that was knowm as dead.

You got off of gim due to ocerheat as you tried and tried to xall out for him... but suddenly when Endeavour showed up lamenting about the loss of his son was what scared you the most.

He threw the control on fire and with animalisc shout he threw the remote towards the Tv, crashing iyt and setting almost the whole apartment on fire.

He snapped back to his sentences when he heard your screams and the sound of the fire extinguisher you used, thankfully saving both of your asses and apartment.

 You panted as he stood there with wide turquoise eyes at the destruction he made.

"What the fuck was that for?!" You didn't meant to your words to come out as harsh as they were but you were so scared that you couldn't help it.

He only stood there... mouth opening and closing like a fish before he gritted his teeth, his knees gaving out as he gripped his hair.

Oh god...

You threw the fire extinguisher aside and come close to him as you saw him hyperventilating.

"Dabi..?" You called as softly as you could, kneeling down along with him as you winced at the look he had on his eyes...

You decided to risk it and touch his shoulder only to gasp when he grabbed your wrist and glared at your way... not towarda you, he was in somewhere else and you knew him well enough.

"Dabi-!" You winced at feeling his palm heating up on your wrist as you cringed your teeth together before you opened your eyes at seing he retreated his hand.

He was staring at his own hand like it was the most horrific thing in the word beforw burring his head on his hands.

"..fuck.." he whimpered and you widened your eyes at sieng your usual cocky boyfriend just... crashing down...

His shoulders trembled as guttural sobs dipped from his throat... but no tears could even came because of his burned tear ducts.

You hugged him by his shoulders as he slowy took off his hands from his face to grip at the back of your shirt as he burries his head on the crook of your neck.

"Im sorry... fuck Im so sorry doll..." he whispered shakily as you cradled his head and brushed your fingers on his indigo hair.

You waited for a bit before offering to get up and be on the couch as he decided to lay on your lap, his nose almost brushing your stomach as you carresed his shoulders.

His face was remained stoic but with furrowed eyebrows...

You will have to ask him about it or epse he will remain silent for the rest of the night, the max he will only saw he will get something back to compedate the broken tv.

When he does speaks its actually heartwrecking.

He doesn't cry neither his voice cracks... just a hollow and sad tone of voice as he tells all about his life before he choose to run away and fake his own death for more than ten years.

Tells about how the abuse started and how he cried on his younger brother's arms, questioning his own existance even...

... and even spills about his plan of killing his own younger brother only to cause some pain on endeavour, but soon achanging his plan after Endeavour took the first number one hero spot.

He expects you to be scared or to look down at him in pity so he doesn't even budge from his spot.

So when he feels gentle carress on his hair and you going down to kiss his temple as he widened his eyes, not looking up still.

"What a asshole Enji is right hun?" You cooed and manage to have a small chuckle from him as his grip on you tighten just a bit.

"You bet he is..." he murmured as you massaged his shoulders.

"... You know I wont leave you right? Touya or Dabi you're still the man I fell in love with..."

"... you're crazy... I lost my mind and you still have the courage of being here..? You know how much people I killed? Know the things i done..?" He muttered as you giggled.

"Forgot i am considered a villain too?" He still wouldn't look at you "And lets face it... when you love someone you love them and thats it. You dont see or neither mind the flaws.."

He burried his face on your stomach as his grip became a bit pai full, yet you didn't speak as you comforted him the best you could.

"You want me to call you Dabi or Touya?" You whispered as his shoulders shook.

"I dont know... I dont know nothing anymore..... hearing it just give me chills I guess... But you.. hearing from you is... actually nice to hear.. softening even."

So you called him only by the safety of four walls with only both of you... until it came the day where he showed to everyone who he truly was.

Todoroki Touya...

[luminois]

— fic writer tag —

tagged by @aliceu 💫

1. what fandoms have you written for (but do not currently)?

i think the first one i’ve ever written for was harry potter? then there was SKAM (if you’ve never watched this tv show DO IT but only the original norwegian show not all the other remakes) and then i wrote for bts for a couple years but i don’t anymore

2. what fandoms are you currently writing for?

stray kids only but i’ve thought about making side blogs to write about the anime i watch and genshin impact too (but i probably won’t since i’m already bad at managing one blog 🤧)

3. how long have you been writing for?

i think since i was twelve? thirteen maybe?? i read hp when i was eleven and i remember starting to write for it not too long after PLUS it was 2014 so you know that that means, it was THAT internet era lmao

4. on which platform do you post your stories?

tumblr as of now but i used to only post on ao3 and i remember making like two social media fics and posting them on twitter jsksjsk so cringe

5. what is your favorite genre to write?

fluff, any type of fluff, especially domestic slice-of-life fluff, im a sucker for happiness and happy endings and just love in general! and i’m too much of a crybaby to write angst, i’d just make myself cry constantly 😭 ALSO smut but only when i’m really in the mood and even then it always ends up just being suggestive instead of explicit smut

6. are you a pantser or a planner?

girl i don’t plan FOR SHIT i just get an idea and unless i write it immediately as i get it i’ll probably never write it because my inspiration for specific fics only lasts a couple of hours and then my mind moves on to something else 💀

7. one-shot or multi-chapter?

definitely one-shot, i struggle at being consistent and i like to think about the things i write as entire universes contained in small amount of words, like those tiny ecosistems people grow in glass jars

8. what is the perfect chapter length in your opinion?

long enough to tell a whole story as a one shot or make serious progress in a multi-chapter, but not so long that it’s heavy to read so anything between 2k and 5k (but i always write stuff under 1k because the stories i tell usually lack plots and they’re just pretty to read, unless it’s a multi-chapter then i write between 1k and 3k)

9. what is your longest published story?

probably devilish, i think it surpassed 15k even if there’s still the final chapter left to publish, but i also have a 15k jikook one shot on ao3 that im NEVER showing to anybody ever

10. which story did you enjoy working on the most?

definitely the stray kids as hogwarts students series, i had to do so much character study and it made me love the boys even more than i already did plus it was extremely funny and it made me dive back into the harry potter universe which is very precious to me as it was my first fandom i actually joined

11. favorite request you’ve ever written and why?

its not really a request but i wrote it for someone else so i’ll consider it one and it’s operation ex aka minho being hot and getting his girl back after a break up lol, i like it a lot because i’ve never written a making up fic before this one and i wrote it for someone that was really special to me (they’re not on tumblr anymore and i don’t really have the means to contact them again so it’s kind of like the only thing i have left of them but it’s not as tragic as it sounds lol)

12. are there recurring themes in your stories?

ive been definitely indulging more into a magical, kind of ethereal vibe while before i used to write about everyday life (which i still LOVE doing btw) also the summer inspires me to write more cottage core things so that’s definitely a recurring theme

13. current number of wips?

none, zero, absolutely nothing. i don’t keep wips i just produce fics and post them right away because i don’t plan anything and my imagination is limited to magical moments of extreme inspiration followed by a long nap that leaves me too dizzy to think for the next three days after that

14. three things you have noticed about your writing?

1. im good at descriptions and bad at dialogues

2. 70% is world building, 25% characterization, only 5% plot

3. somewhat always annoyingly poetic

15. a quote you like from a published story?

“this is the last of your firsts, and you’re handing it to him on the first day of july. you didn’t plan for it but it feels like you did, your eyes finding each other as the apples roll out of the fallen basket. your body knows what to do without having to think about it, and it’s raw and warm and wet and incredible. the grass becomes your bed and that’s where you stay, breathless and sweating, white satisfaction leaving you blind while you try to remember more besides seungmin’s name.” (from this seungmin one shot, because i also don’t give titles to my stuff.)

16. a quote from an unpublished story?

see number 13 lol

17. space for you to say something to your readers

thank you so much for liking the things i write even if they’re usually just random scenes cherry-picked from bigger stories i will never write, all i wish to do is make your day a little better even if it only lasts a couple of minutes. and i’m sorry for making you witness the insane ways my mind works sometimes, but i’m happy every time i get to hear your opinions about what i do so thank you again for sticking around and making me smile 💛

tagging anyone who wants to do it plus @orphic-chan and @skzshortcake ✨

[f33itan]

💛⚜️Pᴀʀᴛ 1: Tᴏʀᴛᴜʀᴇ ɪs Gᴏʟᴅᴇɴ⚜️💛 (From my Wattpad)

A/N: Ok, this was something a mutual of mine said here on Tumblr, and I decided to write a oneshot about it. Might be very VERY slight angst, nothing bad enough to actually be put under that umbrella though, anyways, enjoy this, and ty for the reads! :)

CW: MENTIONS OF RAPE, DEGRADATION, AND MORE FOUL WORDS THAN USUAL. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

B/N: Your Mother's boyfriend's name

M/N: Mother's name

꧁꧂꧁꧂꧁꧂꧁꧂꧁꧂꧁꧂꧁꧂꧁꧂꧁꧂

"Oi, Y/N! Go get me another pack of beer from the store!"

"Yes father!" Damn that pig looking bitch. I'm just some fucking girl, trying to protect her mom from this demon of a person! Heck, he's not EVEN a person! He's the devil himself!! Man, I wish dad was here...

When you were in about 7th grade, your real father got killed in a massacre a couple cities over. He was not only a police officer, but a great father and husband as well. He treated you and your mother amazingly, and you thought life couldn't get anymore perfect, but soon that all went down hill. After his death, your mother's health depleted and she felt empty inside. She needed somebody else to make her complete. She decided to call an old friend from high school, and next thing you know he moved in. He seemed like a nice guy at first, but soon enough he was beating you guys mercilessly, enough to leave large bruises and scars whenever you didn't do exactly what he asked, in your eyes though, it was more of an order. You hated being ordered around, but you hated your mother getting beaten around even more. It seemed like a blessing that he hasn't tried to rape her, but god knows what he'll do, he's unpredictable

With all of this happening, you decided to tell him you were doing some "extra curricular" classes in college, but what you were actually doing was taking the Hunter's Exam and learning nen. Your biological father was kind-hearted and fun to be around, but he was also strict and sometimes a bit harsh, though he always meant well. Before his passing, all three of you would go out on the weekends to train, exercise, or do something that would enhance your body power and brain power. Because of this, all of you were exceptionally smart, and bodies all well toned. Sometimes your excursions would be going to a park and practicing a sport, driving to the snow and sledding, skiing, snowboarding, and every once in a while going to another state to zip line, try animal encounters, or take a family friendly class in that state's heritage and customs.

Since you were accustomed to hard core training and events, you thought the Hunter's Exam was quite fun, and was a test to your skills. After that, you were scouted out by a strong nen user by the name of Biscuit Krueger. You and her had lots of fun training, and with her pushing your limits to the utmost best, you turned out to be a specialist.

(Whenever I imagine myself in Hunter x Hunter, this is always my nen type and stuff LMAO)

Your power was called, Black shadow. You could have up to 10 weapons on hand, completely subjected to doing your bidding. These weapons were linked to you through blood, and they were surrounded with a substance that appeared to be black mist. The weapons you most preferred to practice with and use were your katana, blood string, and scythe. You could also make a weapon yours by cutting a fingertip and letting the blood drip onto the weapon, altering the appearance then gaining that black "mist", showing that it was now yours. The downside to this technique was that those "shadows and mist remnants" were your sleep. The darkness in your mind and the shadows all around you were taken and used for that power. In turn, you were always tired, yawning, and had bags under your eyes. Another plus side though was that you had a nen created chamber that had every weapon you owned. A girl can have some fun toys, can't she? You had tools for torture (whenever you took an opportunity to try it), many varieties of weapons, and of course, more snacks. But unlike B/N, you didn't have just fatty snacks. You had regeneration potions, healthy snacks, and special nen created "snacks" to help with different things, which all of these you had collected through pulling some strings. Your mother was worried, but you said it was all just college things. Yeah, just college things..

Ill make that pig bitch pay for what he has done to my mother!

Feitan POV -or whats going on with him- :

"What time, is it.."

"8 AM Fei!"

"Shut up, green eyes, too loud."

"Oh Fei don't be rude! It's mean!"

"That's, the point."

"Oh wait, Shalnark, what this?"

"What do you mean?"

"This... gold string?"

"OI SHALNARK, FEITAN, COME ERE' REAL QUICK!"

"Phinks, what, do you, want-" Phinks just ignored his question and pointed to the TV.

This is Channel 12, reporting live from York New City Town Square. People all over the city are claiming to be seeing a string tied to their left ring finger, leading them to some unknown destination! What is this string? Who put it there?-

"AY AY IM ON TV! THE STRING THINGY JUST LEAD ME TO THIS BEAUTIFUL GIRL AND NOW WERE DATING! SUPER AWESOME!"-

I apologize for the interference, but this string appears t be leading people to.. partners? Soulmates? Find out tomorrow morning, this is Amy Starwick from Channel 12, signing out.

"What. The. FUCK."

"OH MY GOD OH MY GOODNESS HOLY SHIT FEITAN YOU HAVE A SOULMATE!!"

"Nope-"

"YESS YOU DOOOOOOO"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP CHEERY BITCH-"

"No❤️" Since Feitan was on his last nerve with Shalnark, he decided to stomp over towards Chrollo in the main room, but Chrollo just chuckled.

"Wanna go find your soulmate? See if that things real?" Feitan just stared at the ground, lightly shifting his feet.

"Go ahead, I don't mind."

"Just, doing it, out of, curiosity."

"Mhm, curiosity, go find them." And with that, he was dismissed. Feitan wanted to say it was curiosity, but deep down he had this feeling there was something else, but what was it? It made his stomach tingle and he didn't like it one bit. He tried to ignore all of this, and just shrugged it off...

꧁꧂꧁꧂TimeSkip to Next Day꧁꧂꧁꧂

Your POV + some Feitan POV:

"Alright, today's the day, he'll be at his work, and on his break, i'll set the plan in motion.." Both me and mom don't like him, and I don't know about her, but I sure hate him, every ounce of him. The plan is simple: 1. Capture mom's boyfriend, 2. Take him to an abandoned building, 3. Torture him and get all of the answers I need, and 4. Kill him. His break is at 12, and he usually goes to get takeout every other Friday, what a pig. I'll give him a taste of his own medicine.

Time: 11:30 AM

Ok, I have everything ready. Fully energized to the utmost extent, Elixirs to bring him back in case he passes out too early, and- what? He's leaving for lunch early? PERFECT! You ran behind some buildings and hid in a two-way alleyway, waiting for him to pass by...

Here we go..

One..

Two..

THREE!

You covered his head with a sack, and took his phone out of his back pocket. Before heading over to your post, you laced the inside of the sack with some sleeping powder and pressed it against his nose and mouth. Within moments he passed out, and you typed in what you hoped to be his password, which was correct. Around 12:30, you were going to text one of his coworkers that he would be "going to a restaurant across town, and ditching work for a day, not wanting to see his stupid good for nothing girlfriend or his dumb daughter." You knew he called you both this because of going through his text messages when he wasn't looking or when he was sleeping. Little did you know that somebody was watching you from afar.

"Hmm... So, she, my, what do people, call it.. soulmate? Seems, interesting..."

Time: 12:00 PM

"Jesus, I new he was a fat ass but I didn't know he weighed this much!" You were tugging him from his legs through the back ways of York New. You wanted to find a secluded area, where once you were done with him you could just toss him somewhere for the birds and maggots to eat. After walking for what seemed like hours, you came across a set of abandoned buildings, specifically the one you laid out some extra things. A couple extra weapons, some towels, a change of clothes, a chair and some rope, a couple of flashlights, and of course, some snacks. Lucky for you, the douchebag you've been dragging around like a rag doll was still out cold, so you picked him up and tossed him on the chair, tying his wrists, ankles and neck to the chair.

"Maaannn, this is boring!! When the hell are you gonna wake up?!" As if on queue, you saw his eyes start to flutter open, and you immediately grabbed your box cutter. It wasn't a weapon used by your nen, but it was quite effective.

"What.. who.. wait- Y/N!? WHAT THE FUCK?! UNTIE ME NOW BEFORE I BEAT YOUR ASS!!" you didn't notice it, but Feitan was watching from the building over.

What, the fuck? Why she kidnap him? That pig? Why? Confusing, gotta keep, watching.

You shoved the box cutter into his left cheek, and you bathed in the glory of hearing his screams of pain.

"How does this feel, you bitch? Everything you've done to my dear mother, everything you've done to me, and heck, YOU WERE PROBABLY BEHIND MY DAD'S MURDER DURING THAT FUCKING MASSACRE!!" B/N noticed the tears in your eyes, and took this to his advantage.

"So what if I was? Both of your parents were pathetic anyways."

"NO THEY AREN'T! YOU'RE THE REASON WHY MY MOTHER'S LIKE THIS NOW! YOUR THE FUCKING REASON FOR EVERYTHING SHITTY THAT'S HAPPENED TO ME!!"

"Heh, hehe.. hahaHAHAHA! YOU KNOW GOD DAMNED WELL THAT ALL OF YOU ARE PATHETIC! WANNA KNOW WHY I GOT WITH YOUR MOM!? BECAUSE SHES HOT. AND SHE HAD GOOD MONEY FROM YOUR FUCKING DAD. YOU KNOW WHAT I WAS GONNA DO?! YOU KNOW WHY I TOOK OFF EARLY TODAY?! I WAS GONNA RAPE YOUR MOTHER AND MAKE YOU WATCH, THEN KILL BOTH OF YOU AND RUN OFF WITH ALL OF YOUR MONEY!! AND YOU KNOW WHAT'S IRONIC?! I DON'T HAVE ONE. SINGLE. FUCKING. REGRET. IF IT WASN'T FOR YOUR DAD, YOU SOULDN'T HAVE HAD THE NERVE TO DO THIS, YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABORTED!!"

You couldn't handle this anymore, tears were falling down your face rapidly as you grabbed the duct tape and closed his mouth shut.

"I don't give a fuck about what you say.. I'm going to kill you here. This is your grave. Someday, I'll join you in hell, and when I do, I'll torture you again, and the Devil will laugh. You just watch and ducking wait you, you.. PATHETIC WORTHLESS PIG ASS SLOPPY ASS NASTU FUCKING BITCH!" With that, you grabbed a couple super worms in each hand and shoved them into his ears. Even with the duct tape, you could hear his screams of agony as the worms dug deeper into his ears. You then got our your katana and slashed him across the stomach, and shoved even more worms into that open wound of his. Quickly, you poured a large bottle of the elixir you had brought over him to keep him from dying so quickly. Box cutter still in hand, you carved small lines all over his arms and legs, then ripped off the tape to hear his desperate cries. You imagined he wanted to be dead, but you didn't care. His pain and you pain mixed together and you just started laughing. You through your head back and let yourself laugh. all of the pain this man has caused you and your mom will be repayed today.

But the pressure and stress was too much to handle. Your laughing of victory soon turned into screams and more tears, as you let yourself fall to the ground, not even noticing you didn't hit it hard, something had caught you, or someone..

What the shit am I doing?

Am I really going to kill him?

What's wrong with me?

What will mother think?

What would dad do?

What am I doing with my life?

You soon snapped out of all of those negative thoughts though, as you noticed something caressing your face lightly.

"Rest, now. He, won't die, so quickly. I'm, Feitan." You were a sniffling and crying mess, so all you could do was rush into Feitan's chest and cry. Without thinking, he wrapped his arms around you and held you close. He had no idea what he was doing, for he had only seen this kind of skin on skin contact in movies. So, he did what those people in the movies did.

"Don't, worry... It's all, going to be.. okay."

Word Count (Including author notes, etc) : 2251

-Wrote February 3, 2021-

Unedited sorry about that lol-

Part 1...

[animeheadspace]

Hi there! Tokyo Revengers match up? (Male character results)

She/Her, female, straight, a gemini, INFP, ambivert leaning towards introvert. I wear glasses and usually need them when Im reading or using the computer or watching TV. My friends call me "mom" a lot because of how much I tend to look after and worry about others on instinct haha, I have a sweet tooth esp for cookies and milkshakes!

I'm quite optimistic and hopeful about everything but not to the point I disregard my negative feelings as well, I tend to overwork myself and put others first which can kind of lead me to be stressed and keeping things to myself but I'm trying my best to fix that! Seeing others happy makes me happy so that's why I tend to have a habit to just help people when they need it but I can also be quite an overthinker and an anxious mess but I hide it well haha, I act depending on the environment around me, if it's comfortable I'm very chatty and loud but if not I tend to stay quiet and just listen intently

Despite my kindness and friendliness, I do have my limits and boundaries and absolutely hate it when people take advantage of it, I'm very patient and rarely last out or get angry, I try to be understanding of others but if they put no effort or don't acknowledge their behaviours I simply cut them off

Music is life to me, I love singing and I write lyrics in my spare time too, I enjoy drawing, reading, and cafe hopping (visiting various cafes) I also love amusement parks and carnivals! A big animal lover and I adore kids so much!

Ideal relationship, I guess I'd like one where we can both communicate and respect and understand one another, as well as being supportive, I seem to like it when someone is being protective and caring of me, not overbearing but kind of like "I know they can handle themselves and I trust them but that still won't stop me from worrying and wanting to protect them" kind of feeling haha, and...Lots of hugs? I like a natural amount of affection haha, but a bit clingy when I get tired though so expect a lot of hugs and snuggles, basically I like it when we openly show that we care and love for one another, we have fun, act silly, but also know when to be serious

I also tend to notice the small things about people, what they like or don't like and all that stuff

That's about it, I apologize for such a long post, please take all the time you need to work on this and have a great day! Thank you in advance ^_^

hii tysm for dropping by!! and please don’t apologize for your long answer because as soon as i finished reading it i was like: MITSUYA TAKASHI. my toes are curling at how adorable this relationship would be!! you guys definitely first met at a cafe - mitsuya was planning on getting some pastries for his sisters and you were in line in front him. however, he noticed a line of string caught in your hair, and absentmindedly pulled it off, catching your attention. as soon as you turned around, even adorning a slightly confused look, his eyes widened, and he swore he fell in love with you as your conversation progressed. the reason why i think this relationship is so healthy is because you both are so caring - you both take care of each other in ways you could have never even imagined because you both are so used to taking care of other people. his favorite passtime with you is just spending time together in his room, your back to his back while he works on whatever outfit he needed to finish and while you softly hum to whatever music you’re creating. however, that only narrowly beats mitsuya bringing home cookie supplies that you, him, and his sisters decided to randomly bake that evening, ending up in a pile of white flour coating you, laughters as sweet as chocolate bouncing off of the walls. 

he’s definitely protective over you, limiting your exposure to toman just because he knows how dangerous their fights with other gangs can be. but his love can always be seen in mundane acts to, whether it be buying tickets to your favorite amusement park and walking around with a secure arm to your waist. mitsuya can completely pick out whenever you get anxious, always scheduling movie nights to cuddle to allow you to have a break from whatever is stressing you out. He indulges in your hugs, loving that your love language is physical touch. fights are almost nonexistent in your relationship because of how emotionally mature you both are, and if they do occur, you both offer each other time to calm down and talk over milkshakes. mitsuya is attuned to all your emotions, which is so new to you because youre so used to doing that for other people, and he repeatedly assures you that you always deserve it with a sweet kiss on your cheek. this relationship makes me so happy!!!

thanks for participating and have an amazing day as well!! <333

[peachpitmp3]

bestie if there was a way to fight your sleep schedule i would do that for you >:(

oh wow yeah !!! lurking and typing in the chat is just. my entire vc experience shdklfjdsf. either that, or sitting entirely still and breathing as lightly as possible so i don't make any sound, but it still looks like i have my mic unmuted.

!!! right. "*waves goodbye like im some woman with a hat in the 1920's watching my lover leave on a boat* farewell jatp hyperfixation! may you return to me soon with many gifts including but not limited to a GODDAMN SEASON 2." FHSDKLFJLSDF I LOVE THAT. SO MUCH. that is exactly what i'm going to be thinking of if/when i ever change my pfp-

it's honestly a little scary how much some people write fhsdkljf. how??? so technically. i've published one (1) fic, for jatp. but unofficially, i have a bunch of google docs for a lot of different fandoms. i wrote stuff for jatp, tua, marvel, kotlc, and probably a lot more but i either forgot them or they're kind of embarrassing so <3 i swear though, i'm writing a marvel fic now-ish and i wILL FINISH THIS ONE. and i'm also planning a jatp x tsoa au, and then in general i'd just like to have more. substance fhsdkljf.

OH MY GOD !!!! DUDE DUDE DUDE. that sounds wonderful and the vibes !!!! incredible. "i'd definitely have a few bookshelves and i'd organize the books so they're not all vertical so they look *aesthetic* and then i'd put some lil fake plants everywhere and i'd put fairy lights EVERYWHERE" THIS!!! SO MUCH AESTHETIC. i love everything about your bedroom holy shit <3

i have never heard that motivational saying but good gOD that's stupid. jesus that's just ???? so stupid wtf.

YES YES YES YES YES !!! i love writing, i really do, and when you can just GO and write the hell out of something. even if you never publish it!! it's still just. so fun and cool.

hfsdljfskd that is certainly a list /lh. the only reason i can talk is that i never write tv shows down, i just forget them all *lip bite* (that was. something, and not a good something fjsd). !!!!! i've heard of all of those, except elementary, and they apparently are all very good! i'm going to write those down on one app and then forget where i put the list and. hence why i never watch anything lmao

i've been meaning to watch,,,, uhhhh. atypical, toh, criminal minds, finish b99. and a lot more i just can't remember them. are most of them just bc that's what my mutuals have watched? mAybe but so what- i swear i do have original ideas. sometimes. maybe.

oh damn,, idk. movies are really cool because there's more of a Vibe, and they're definitely easier for me to watch. and it's pretty incredible what people can fit into a one to two hour film. but tv shows are great for something more casual? and i feel like it's much easier to find a fandom for a show than a movie. idk. there's probably a limit, i'm just not sure what it is yet. something with over ten seasons would definitely be less appealing than something with 2 or 3. i'd say 40 min episodes, because it's easier to have a story with more time, and it hopefully wouldn't be rushed. and it feels more substantial? or less like "oh man i watched 30 episodes in one sitting jesus cHRIST".

i think a forest. the idea of being stranded in mountains feels a little scary ngl, and while there is a lot of shelter, that's also a lot of climbing. so maybe not best for survival, and i also don't know where to get food on a mountain. island sounds nice, but i think a forest would be cooler :)

if you could have any job, even if it isn't something that's an actual job (like tumblr blogger, etc) what would you choose? would YOU rather be stranded on an island, in a forest, or in the mountains? if you made a tone indicator that doesn't exist already, what would it be? do you have any pet peeves? - 🌵

hfsdfjsfl thanks you and me both bestie <3

oh my god no i do that too!! i dont want ppl to like. notice that im muted or anything so im just. silent like 'do not perceive me"

dude i've changed my pfp a bunch and it feels so weird like jatp i love you but- ????? sdfjejsdigisjkf

JATP TSOA ??? BESTIE YOU OWN MY HEART??? YOU WILL BREAK IT ???? you break jules heart?? you break it like the *shit whats a thing you break* mirror during an angsty movie scene??

thank you if only it could be a thing lmao <3

yeah it's real dumb. im very tired

yeah exactly!! like just the feelings of words pouring out of you so fast so fast is just amazing and so satisfying.

LIP BITE SDFGSGHSDLKJFSDKLFJSLDF PLEASE. ok no that's such a mood though, writing it down and then forgetting where you wrote it. literally i just remembered today i had a list of movies i've been meaning to watch. and then i found 3 separate notes because apparently i kept forgetting lol.

ahhhh omg cm!! criminal minds is pretty good and omg b99 my BELOVED!! can't really speak to the other ones but i've heard they're good so :D

yeah that definitely makes sense, tv shows are for sure more casual. in a weird way movies sometimes feel like more commitment? even though shows are technically longer lol. LMAO something over ten seasons... bestie do not watch criminal minds there are 15... yeah 40 minute episodes are great!!! i feel like also it really depends on the vibe of the show!! like if there was a 40 minute sitcom episode i don't think i'd be able to watch it.

oooooh omg forest yes that's so valid. a forest would definitely be cooler :D

i would choose to be an Emotional Support Jules™. my only purpose would literally just be to vibe around whoever hires me and give them hugs and positive energy. im portable and i can travel with them if they pay for my plane ticket :D batteries sold separately

huh idk being stranded anywhere is very scary but uhh. forest so maybe we could be in the same forest and we could find mushrooms together!!

ooooh a tone indicator that doesn't exist. hmmm. i don't know if this counts for tone but maybe just like /v and /a when venting about something, /v for just venting without wanting advice and /a for when you do want advice? just so people know how to respond.

dude i have so many pet peeves and uhhh. i forget every single one of them. im sorry bestie.

questions for you: what would your ideal job be, even if it's not an "official" job? would you rather have a mattress that is too hard or too soft? your thoughts on country music? do you enjoy icebreakers? if you didn't have to sleep, would you still choose to?

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Anon who attended the musical is really lucky I’m very jealous 😭 no I’m actually crying while writing this because I’ve been missing doyoung’s singing so much I felt really jelaous reading all the reviews from last night. And people who attended said that his acting was really really great and they explained it by saying that it was as if they’re watching axel von fersen and not doyoung who’s acting as fersen. That already means that he was really really great at acting 😭 he improved so much from cafe midnight i am so proud of him 😭 and his singing, people said he sang very well for each number but he especially wow-ed everyone with distant thunder… i really really want to listen to it. I felt really hopeless that we cannot do anything to see these performances of him 😭 one anecdote also mention how sweet he was when he confronted marie and said “are you still angry with me?” And they also highlighted the scene where he met magrid and one if his line was “you are someone who deserved to be loved” he told everyone not to see him as a cute guy bc of his role, everyone found that funny and joked that no way they wouldnt find doyoung not cute bc of he usually his. However all attendees was shocked and they all said that doyoung was not cute at all. He was a handsome romantic young noble man who love marie with all his heart 😭 im still very very sad that i cant watch his play at all i just hope that we get to see a lot of tv promo for him and more practice videos to come 😭😭😭 sorry for ranting… i just miss doyoung so so much and im so proud of him

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(Cont) yk reading all those anecdotes of doyoung being angsty sweet and very romantic in that play makes me wanna read a fic of him with the same genre but it’s so hard to find his fic bc the choice is usually very limited 😔

AAAAAA SO TRUE

I'm also very jealous!! it must have been so good!!! I also read all reviews and comments on Twitter and I'm just so proud. like I feel proud to have such a nice person as an "idol", you know. I hope he achieves everything he plans to do in his life! he's so hard working and responsible. he's also so so so sensitive and has such special way of viewing and feeling things. he shows that with the way he does art and talks and his ideas. doyoung is truly so beautiful as a human being. I'm so glad he chose arts as a career so he can inspire others to feel such great things and pass good vibes onto people

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hey id like to request dewey finn for the character ship meme? preferably 3, 7, and 29? thanks!!

🤘 🤘 We love a short king 🤘 🤘 Stuff’s under the cut!

3. Who is the most romantic?: You are, at least in the more traditional sense. You know of the ins and outs of bouquets and traditionally romantic candle-lit dinners and all that jazz. Dewey is, too, but he’s far less capable of actually pulling it off. The times he does, there’s always a hint of Dewey in them -- for better for for worse.

He runs a bath for you? Adds a little too much bubble mix and then there’s a whole thing about cleaning it up. He cooks dinner? It comes out a bit burnt. Add candles into that mix and the fire department has to have a talk with y’all about fire safety. Really, his safest bets were to stick to buying bouquets, chocolates, and stuffed animals. But after a point, you started to run out of vases and pots to put the flowers in, resorting to using old Burger King cups; and the bed was just barely big enough to hold both you and Dewey at once, never mind the assortment of plush puppies, teddy bears, and the cheaply-stuffed jumbo snake he’d miraculously won at Coney Island a while back.

The good news is, you’d honestly much prefer Dewey’s idea of romance because it’s more personal to you.

For Dewey, it’s romantic to teach you how to play an instrument. Not in the cheesy, “Come sit on my lap because I can guide you a lot easier that way” kind of way, mind you. Don’t take it the wrong way, he could also do just that if you insisted such. But he does so as though you were truly his student -- and you absolutely are. And that’s what makes it sweet: He’s sharing with you his biggest passion in life, and he takes it seriously enough to get really into it and want to sincerely pass it on to you. Dewey is an excitable man, it’s difficult to catch him in a moment where he’s particularly still; even rarer when he’s doing so and in an actually good mood.

And when he’s teaching you one of the very few things in life he knows absolutely best, he’s definitely in a good mood. Even if his expression may not directly suggest so, with his eyes completely focused on your positioning and occasional correction of your finger placement. But the moment you pull off a successful set of chords, that adorable smile of his comes shining through and beaming with absolute pride! It is, for lack of better word, a bonding experience. And that’s what makes it romantic in your humble opinion.

That, and at least Dewey’s idea of romantic can mean a nice night in where you can relax and just flop on the couch to watch crap TV instead of putting on “stiff fancy clothes” and having to leave the apartment. In your minds, very little can beat a comfy evening full of marathoning Let’s Plays in your makeshift pajamas and scarfing down food bought from the bodega two blocks down, especially after a rough week. And especially when one or the other plays with each other’s hair . . .

7. What do they get up to on a night out?: That being said, you’re still dating Dewey Finn: Eventually, you do need to go out and “taste fresh air” as Dewey dramatically puts it.

You two are gluttons for entertainment. You tried the whole gig of just going out for dinner at a fine dining establishment, followed by a bit of a walk (but not too long, this is still New York after dark after all). You both tried to enjoy it, too, but it honestly just wasn’t your scene. Besides, the portions were way too small for something costing upwards of $25 per plate.

The good news about having a boyfriend like Dewey is that he always has his fingers on the pulse of the city. If we’re going with my headcanon that everyone lives on Staten Island, then there’s no shortage of venues or events to explore! The limits are only set by the limits of your wallets! . . . Suffice to say, it’s not just a personal choice that you two usually just go to bar and grills that hold band nights.

But once every blue moon, after saving up, you both go crazy and head over to Manhattan to catch a show. You’re admittedly more into musicals than Dewey is (especially ones written and composed by Andrew Lloyd Webber), but there has been the occasional show that Dewey didn’t mind watching, and even found himself mutter-singing the lyrics to. Granted, because a night like this can be pretty pricey (especially on an extracurricular teacher’s salary mixed with your own), these sorts of nights don’t tend to happen too often.

And sometimes the urge to go out is accompanied by that grossly exhausted feeling where it’s like all your meats are essentially weighing down on your bones. But you haven’t done anything fun all week, you just gotta get out the house and get Out There! . . . To the 24hr pizzeria next door, because that’s about as far as the two of you can get.

Apparently at some point after you turn 21, just going out after 8pm can make you feel like a hell-raiser. And that’s good enough for y’all.

29. Why do they fall a little bit more in love?: You bring out what the other wants and needs.

When you were growing up, you were quite quiet. Being looked at by a bunch of people always made you anxious, you were constantly afraid to make sudden moves, lest there may be some backlash. You’ve gotten better since then, but even still, you struggle with being as open and forthcoming as you would like to be.

And that’s where Dewey comes in: With Dewey, you always feel like you can stand a little taller, be a little louder. There’s something about him that encourages people to break out of their shell (at the very least peek out of it) and make them want to just seize the day. As his significant other, you are absolutely no exception. Watching him confidently approach nearly every task with a can-do attitude makes you consider that maybe you can do the same thing. If you want to civilly but firmly tell somebody off, Dewey’s there to support you. If you need to ask for help with something but are too afraid to, Dewey’s got your back.

Of course, he sometimes oversteps and just does it for you himself, with him seeing any slight against you as a complete injustice that he needs to defend your honor over. In which case, you’re usually thankful, but gently tell him that you need to do this on your own. And he will respect this because it makes him remember that this is your journey towards gaining more confidence in yourself. You’re so very special to him, and far be it from him to keep you from accepting that more and more. So when he invigorates you and makes you want to be and do better, you can’t help but want to always be with him: That way, you can be better for him, yourself, and also your future together.

As for Dewey, it’s whenever you ground him and help him grow as a person and listen to him. Dewey’s never been that popular -- and he knows it. Sure, he may seem completely invincible, but the truth actually is that deep down he’s got some insecurities about himself. His brashness got him kicked out of his own band, his immaturity nearly lost him a friend and got him into legal trouble, girls have never been particularly drawn to him, and it’s quite easy to assume that he’s an imbecile because of his one-track mind with regards to music.

As a result, he’s used his dream of becoming a rock god as a means to promote himself and that swagger he gives off so much. Which then creates a cycle of him making more mistakes after overestimating his competency. The problem is that even though people may tell him to stop, they haven’t always offered him help with how to do exactly that. The truth of the matter is, yelling at somebody doesn’t exactly help the situation; maybe it brings a person to realizations over what needs to be done, but rarely does it actually offer the tools necessary to get beyond that.

The irony here is that for as chaotic as Dewey can be, he’s a surprisingly good listener to those whom he sees insecurities in, especially kids. After discovering he has a knack for it, he’s become more than willing to sit somebody down and try to help them realize their potential, even if it isn’t always intentional on his part. And that’s where you come in.

You’re more patient than he is, so your impulsivity or lack thereof is a great counter to his, making sure that he remembers that sometimes things need to be planned out. Steps need to be taken in order to follow through with certain projects or goals, we can’t always just jump to it. With you, Dewey’s become more orderly with things. Not extremely, mind you, as that would destroy the man’s personality as we know and love it. But just enough to where he’s not as risky as he used to be.

In addition to this, you’re willing to listen to him and his thoughts on things, from his obsession with music to the anxieties he usually tries to keep tucked away deep down. It doesn’t necessarily borderline being therapy, but it’s enough to where airing things out help him feel more stable. Besides, not everyone is as taken to music as he is: It’s nice to be heard, even when it’s just over one’s special interest. Finally, like you with him, Dewey likes to observe you. It’s not always obvious, given that his hyperactivity sometimes distracts him or just appears to. After all, it’s hard to imagine the guy who dances when he’s excited actually paying attention to you when you’re just sitting on the couch, sketching.

But he is. Because watching you being able to keep still and let yourself breathe makes him want to do the same. He’s spent so much of his life thinking he needs to live fast that he never considered maybe slowing down a bit might be good. But now he has. And he wants to. He wants to slow down and grow up for you -- no, with you. And ever since he realized that this was something he wanted, he couldn’t help but love you a little more every time he found that familiar, warm feeling in his chest, making goosebumps rise to his skin.

Thanks for asking and for being patient!!

[julesnadri]

long distance and little space !!

***strictly sfw, nonsexual age regression. if your blog is not 100% sfw DNI***

taking care of a baby can be very very difficult when they live far away!! even though i hate not being able to cuddle my princess 24/7 there are lots of ways to have a completely happy and healthy relationship with your baby when you live far apart!!! 

- call every night !!! my baby falls asleep over facetime with me every night!! that way i can make sure she doesn't have bad dreams and that she gets to bed on time!! 

- we write for each other and ill record myself playing music on my ukulele and guitar while singing and ill send her the videos!! since we’re both creative people we do our respective hobbies over facetime and its almost like we’re sitting in the same room!!!!

- we have a family calendar app that allows us to set reminders and set checklists for each other!! the one we have even lets you set cute backgrounds and choose your color scheme! 

- zepeto is another app that we use !! we both created little people and then we can have them take pictures together!! it’s the closest we can get to taking pictures together and it can be v v cute !!!

- sending each other things !! my baby just mailed me one of her hoodies and a ring to match hers !! soon im going to mail her one of my flannels and a little mouse i sewed just for her with a cute fabric that she picked out !!

- some bigger things too, plans!!! we’re planning to meet irl for the first time in a few months, and then we’re also planning to get married eventually!! talking about how sweet it’ll be when we’re finally together forever is very very nice !!

- know what meds ( if any ) your baby needs to take on a daily basis, and then other meds for pain relief ( cold medicine, pain killlers, tummy meds, etc. ) if your baby needs to take over the counter meds have them send you a picture of the label so you can make sure they're taking the right dose!!!!

- encourage them to take care of themselves, hygiene, mental health, and physical needs!! make sure theyre staying hydrated and that they eat enough!!  if your little has / had an ED this is especially important!! make sure theyre getting enough fruits and veggies and protein !! be aware of any allergies they may have and help make sure they dont come in contact w any of them!!! make sure they shower and brush their teeth and get dressed in cute clothes that make them feel good !! remember to tell them how precious and adorable they are !!!! 

- be aware of how tired they are and how much sleep they need !!! because my baby’s nighttime schedule varies a bit, and sometimes she works late or is out late with friends, we dont have a set bedtime. we always call when she gets home, and so we’ll talk for a bit and ill pay attention to how tired she is, also accounting for if she needs to wake up the next day!!!

- luckily, my sweet girl is very very good to me and never ever disobeys, so i haven't set any punishments for her, and if she does ever do anything she shouldnt ( say bad words, watch scary shows, read big kid books, etc. ) i can almost always simply explain why shes not supposed to do those things ( give her nightmares, make her upset, etc ) she tends to understand and steer clear of those things!!! if your baby tends to be a little more wild and mischievous, you may find yourself needing to set punishments, but remember what things are off limits !!  never take comfort items, such as music, stuffies, a tv show that always calms them, a paci, etc. this will only upset them, not teach them anything. no inflicting pain, nothing sexual. examples of safe punishments: a good lecture, an early bedtime, losing dessert for a day, something short term and not unreasonable !!! 

- remind them how much you love them, shower them with compliments and attention as often as possible !!!! especially if your baby is cuddly, long distance can be very hard if they’re upset or in pain!! have them cuddle stuffies!! wrap up v v tight in blankets!!! wear the softest, warmest, comfiest clothes!! drink some juice / milk / preferred little drink !!! go through a mental list of everything that makes them happy when theyre in little space and talk them through it !!!!! 

im still pretty new at being a caregiver, but feel free to dm me if you need a hand !!!! 

- jules <3 <3 <3