#snd i feel like im shrivelling up im too unwell to do trips i want to im still struggling to believe anything anyone says to me | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

phagodyke · 6 months ago

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so tired I feel sick which is making me panic bc I can't cope with nausea which is making it harder to fall asleep which is making me more tired which is making me feel more sick everything in my life is stuck in a horrible cycle it's a fucking prison when will I get OUT

#going to do a guided meditationnand breathe before this goes out of control and put on music or rain to fall asleep to after #i can tbe in my head i cant be alone with my thoughts right now #still need to do my symptom form ill do it on the bus to work tomorrow time is slipping so fast it was 10 just a few minutes ago im sure #and now its past 11 and i wont get enough sleep and ill feel even worse tomorrow night icant keep doing this perpetually #they should make a medication that instantly works and solves everything snd its no side effects and safe and easy to accrss #im tired of trying to figure this shit out i dont understand why it works some days andn not others #and i know im worse unmedicated i dont want to go back to how dififcult work was without it but i dont know i dont know #ive had some okay days this week but some bad onrs. and im not engaging with hobbies at all by myself only when other people do it with me #snd i feel like im shrivelling up im too unwell to do trips i want to im still struggling to believe anything anyone says to me #havent recovered from last month still dont trust anyone wants me around so sad so unreal blah blah blah same old shit when does it stop #someone let me off this ride its not fun anymore i need to cry onto someones shoulder i need a fucking hug i need it to be okay #ughnmessed up and my tags jumped in thr wrong order well who fucking cares its a vent post. goig and meditating whatever #.vent

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