#snail journal

[snail-reverts]

[december 23, 2024]

alright!! update time!!

so, there have been phases where i've been more distant from islam (praying less, doing more haram things, etc) but i think thats a normal part of the journey, some days will be better or worse than others!

lately, i've been trying harder to get back on track, especially prioritizing salah because i feel like that's what holds everything together and helps me stay somewhat consistent. it can be difficult, especially when none of my friends or family are muslim, so i feel awkward by doing religious acts. i'm trying not to let that anxiety take over, though!

i've been pretty good about wearing hijab/niqab when in public! there are some days where i feel too masculine and dysphoric, so i've decided that on those days, i can just wear a hat or turban that covers all of my hair, instead of a whole hijab. i still LOVE being a niqabi, although my mom dislikes it (and me wearing a hijab in general) but alhamdullilah she doesn't try to control how i dress :)

i'm also trying to get back into learning arabic! its frustrating that i've forgotten a lot of it, but hopefully i can be consistent enough to remember it and make more progress.

the biggest challenge with all of this is consistency, and that's a common theme for everything in my life. i've always struggled a lot with forming long-term habits. but the important thing is that i dont give up, and even if i fail a little bit, i pick myself back up and keep going!❤️

[die-rosastrasse]

𝑨𝒑𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒅𝒊𝒕𝒆 ~ 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑮𝒐𝒅𝒅𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆 | 𝑺𝒕𝒊𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒓𝒔 🦢

OlgaMariaAnastazja on Etsy

[eggsdoodz]

march rewards for my monthly mail club are available until the end of this month! choose from either digital rewards, print, sticker, or all 3! 📮

[beatrizjournal]

Amazing letter from @oatmylklatte, my future reading journal and a illustrated letter notepad and finally a gift for a friend. Hope you have good holiday season!🌲

[littlealienproducts]

Gobilincore 15mm Washi Tape (1 roll) by eloisedraws

[plushybread]

deco for a penpal letter ଘ(˵╹-╹)━☆

[inestheunicorn]

🌱 Yummy Cottage Patchwork Pouches 🌱 very happy to include some of my fave things here 🦆🌸🌿🌟

Find them here

[snailtowne]

finished ppt2. solid show, excellent character-work I think :-)

[belovedapollo]

a little bit of June and July 📚📝 reblog is ok, don’t repost

[rowanclair]

I have new notebook designs available! 🐌🐦

You can find them here: rowanclair.etsy.com

[snail-reverts]

[may 22, 2024]

yall i have been so hyperfixated on making a neocities website,,,, it consumed my entire brain yesterday and i ended up sitting at my computer for hours and hours and i missed asr and maghrib because i felt like i couldnt do anything else :))))) astagfirullah

when i hyperfixate, it feels like nothing else matters, not even basic stuff like eating or using the bathroom. i usually dont realize how much time has passed, and if i do, i cant get myself to care enough to stop

but then after a while, i finally got up and realized how awful i felt, like it was suddenly an extremely terrible depression, i couldnt remember what its like to have religious beliefs. it was scary because i dont want to leave islam behind, like ive done so many times before! but its like im suddenly an entirely different person with different beliefs (not really in a system way, i still identified as myself, but more just feeling very disconnected from all previous emotions)

but alhamdullilah, willow (another system member) co-fronted and got us to pray isha. it was immediately comforting and i felt my emotions and faith returning to me. then the next morning, it felt really easy to get up and pray fajr, which i usually struggle with.

i know this may be obvious, but i think thats the whole point of salah being obligatory. like, even when we dont feel like it, when we have no motivation or faith, we're still urged to do our prayers, and thats like the anchor that grounds us. sometimes it feels like a burden, but its honestly really nice to have dedicated parts of the day where we can just reflect and be grateful. (also fajr has helped fix my sleep schedule SO MUCH, omg i love waking up early)

,,, i originally started writing this post so i could share the neocities site, but i ended up writing a whole essay lmao. anyway here's the site (theres still a lot of things i want to add but im proud of it so far)

[die-rosastrasse]

William-Adolphe Bouguereau Stickers 🕊️🤍

OlgaMariaAnastazja on Etsy

[eggsdoodz]

my mail clubs theme for april will be all things spring! ladybugs, flowers, butterflies etc!! i’m planning on making a mini sticker sheet for the sticker club members 🐞 and the wallpapers will be this theme too!

i ship worldwide btw hehe <3 a crafty love letter with journaling goodies from me to you!!! 📖✂️💌

[beatrizjournal]

Before the reading journal video, there will be one of me preparing 3 letters for my Penpals. You can see what I put in each letter and also how I decorate them. I think this one turned out especially cozy! Will be uploading soon 🕯️

[ebidy]

my very first junk journal/scrapbook page!!! made from Lego manuals for the botanical set lol bit of weird folding/creasing cause of my bad gluing oopsie but I'm still really proud of how pretty it came out, I might add some rhinestones to look like dew drops I think that would be pretty

[sosuperawesome]

Mushroom Journal // Arte Of The Booke