#smol bean rambles supernatural

[smolbeanie1221]

Shit… how did I never think about that… we know Chuck was writing everything, so if we say spn is him highlighting important events… and then Cas and Dean keep literally writing their own chapters, and then Jack shows up and joins in on the chaotic free for all collaboration.

But like… that could explain Naomi making Cas kill Dean a million times. Chuck had to try to force Cas back on track, so he got Naomi to torture Cas. And because this was supposed to be everything going back to the script, he made sure to include it in the Important Events. But then Cas and Dean go off to do their own thing again. And Chuck never would’ve planned on Jack existing, so that was a major jump away from the original script.

The entire show is literally Chuck writing the Winchester’s story into existence, everything goes like normal until Cas shows up. Then he’s doing damage control constantly, trying to force them back into the “right” script with these monsters and that apocalypse and this tragedy. But then his damage control gets out of control. Probably really starting when his sister shows up. And Rowena probably never became their ally in any other world. Crowley probably never sacrificed himself. Hell I doubt Chuck intended for them to be crossing into alternate universes. By trying to control them, he completely lost control. And that’s another way to view the entire show. Huh. Holy shit.

it’s the fact that so many of the soft, sweet moments of their friendship — watching dean’s favorite movies together, debriefing after hunts over the phone, the giving of the mixtape — happen offscreen, because they aren’t important to the story chuck is trying to tell. they were never supposed to care about each other so much. but they do, they do, so much that it can’t be ignored. it leaks its way into the text. light bleeding through the cracks. their love for each other literally transcends the bounds of the narrative.

[rawritsamehh]

Tagged by @ahappydnp <3

Name: Amy :D

Nicknames: None, really. A few people have called me Ames, but not all that often.

Zodiac: Sagittarius 

Height: 5’3. I am smol.

Languages: English, and the tiniest bit of written German (lived there for 2.5 years, and I suck at learning languages)

Nationality: A slightly tanned shade of white

Favorite season: Summer. FIGHT ME. 

Favorite flower: I have many. Dandelions, daffodils, Lillies, wild flowers, tulips

Favorite scent: Im a sucker for summery scents on general, manly scents, and only when its cold I enjoy bakery scents.

Favorite color: I wear mostly black, but my favorite color is blush pink.

Favorite animal: Cats! Followed closely by foxes and bats.

Coffee, tea, or cocoa: TEA! I hate coffee with every fiber of my being.

Favorite fictional character: Hmm. Castiel, Buffy Summers, Willow Rosenberg, Spike, and Dean Winchester are all up there. 

Average sleep: Not enough lol. Lately, like 3-4 hours broken up.

Dog or cat person: Cats all the way. I love dogs too but....im a crazy cat lady to my core :3

Number of blankets: I’m not going to count, but probably close to 20 in total. Just in the living room I have 3 couch blankets and my desk blanket. Im a blanket kinda gal.

Dream trip: Im not overly picky over exact location, but a warm sunny beach is my ideal. I have a ton of places I'd like to visit, mainly all over Europe. Liam was born in Germany (we moved back to the US when he was 2) and I hope we can take him back some day to see everything.

Blog established: My original, back in 2010/2011 sometime. I slowly stopped using it probably around 2013? I eventually deleted it because I was following a a bunch of ed/sh accounts and it was extremely toxic. My current one I made back in June 2016 when my supernatural hyperfixation began lol.

Followers: A wee little 71. Hi guys :D

Random fact: Okay I have SO MANY random facts. Like...an absurd amount. I can't drive, I hate chocolate, I've been vegetarian for about 16 years, I've had literal near death experiences twice- the second time I actually flatlined. I have like an emotional/security attachment to my reusable water bottles (I've replaced them over the years, but always the same type) and I carry it most places with me. My go to form of self care is doing my nails...I have a ton of polishes because of this. I rarely wear make up though lol which feels kinda ironic. I’ve never done any illegal drug. I very rarely drink. I relate to Phil FAR more than any human really should...its eerie. I am known to eat my husbands cereal without telling him (he often buys ones he specifically knows I won't eat), I leave cabients open, I have socks EVERYWHERE, I can't control my brain or what comes out of it most days, everyone assumes im a innocent angel bean until they get to know me well enough for me to start swearing and breaking out the sex jokes. I have an excess of weird animal stories and I’m dangerously clumsy.

I also tend to ramble and talk to much, as shown above. Oops. 

I tag whoever because anxiety and shit

[rosecoloredknight]

i got tagged by @splitzko !! i’m so sorry about the late response, i promise it won’t happen again. anyways, thank you

rules: so it’s answer 21 questions and tag 21 people? i’ll tag a few people, but not 21!!!

nickname: brick and poncho!! poncho is my childhood nickname, which i used to dislike? i would always be like ?? my name is Alfonso, why are my grandparents calling me ponchito? however, i grew into it haha 😊👍

zodiac sign: virgo (i have no idea the purpose of zodiac signs tho!! oh well)

height: 5′8 small!! i’m a smol bean

hogwarts house: ravenclaw!!!! where my raveclaws at?! *putting my hands up or a high five* 🙌

last thing i googled: well there’s two things i last googled simultaneously. firstly, supernatural season 15  --- this is literally the only show I have continued watching since it came out. it’s in it last season so i’m just trying to get a scoop on the spoilers. secondly, the dragon prince season 3 --- I AM HOOKED.

favorite musicians: ahhh -- okay there are so many!! here - https://open.spotify.com/user/227v7vawbicnv65zsbod6wcpq?si=pcR2vwueRyWD7qTOgImqcA                this is my spotify account and there you can see all the artists/bands i follow!!

song stuck in my head: new start by weary friend

favourite time of the day: sighh what do you guys think about sunsets? those are my favorite. i can ramble about the best way to experience one, but. when the sun sets is my favorite time of the day.

favorite color: so here’s the thing.. i love colors- i have a thing about them-- each color remind me of certain emotions, memories, aspirations, etc. i used to feel so colorless inside, but now i try to fill this gap in my life with colors. BUT.. if i have to choose one.. dark green.

followers: 550 but i’m pretty sure 4/5 of them are bots! ha

following: 186 awesome blogs!

do i get asks: not really, but i appreciate it when i do 

amount of sleep: oh boy, it used to be 5 hours, but i am slowly progressing to 7 hours!!! go me 😬😬😊

lucky number: 32

currently wearing: a cap that’s backwards (my hair is unmanageable, but i get to finally go cut my hair tomorrow!!), blue and black flannel, with a lion king t-shirt underneath, black pants, and brown loafers? i look like a hipster punk?

dream job: okay so i need to ramble a bit about this because i’ve just realized how passionate i am about it-- Licensed Clinical Social Worker or a Licensed Professional Counselor.. look, i love working with kids so much, in fact, i’m actually getting ready to work at my local catholic church for sunday classes with the kids!! sorry, back to the point- i love working with kids, i love talking with them through their problems, i love helping them figure out things within themselves, etc. i don’t want to say i have a knack for that because that would be ridiculous to state; that is something that has to be learned and improved on an on going basis, but at my previous job, kids would always come to me for with their problems, advice, an other things.. and i would actually help them!?! every friday before we would finish our weekly shift, we would have evaluations, i would always get called out by my director for the review he received from campers, about how i helped them through their problems, the advice i gave them, and i how i made their week in camp the best experience they had.. i was passionate about working in a foster care institution, and i still am, but maybe i could still work there as a counseling expert? of some sort? sighhhh- i rambled too much. sorry. but yeah i’d like to work as that 👆 all the way up there.😊😊

instruments: a little bit of piano and ukulele

languages: puedo ablar espanol y ingles

favorite songs: nope, NOPE, i’m not going there-- it’s a bunch of sad and cheesy, songs- i’ll spare you of that

random fact: i actually asked google voice for a random fact anddddd *drum roll*...Supai, Arizona is the only place in the US where the mail is delivered by mule. -- okay that’s freaking awesome and random haha

Aesthetic: ahh i’m so bad at this... the smell of baking, scented candles, sitting with your friends while each of you are quietly doing your own thing, reading a book that helps you calm down, sitting in the park while the sun is setting down, decorating your room here and there, and praying sigh especially praying. 😊

okay i’m going to tag a @almostolive @cultivatingkindness @fivelakes @avocadosand-evergreens @his-grace-abounds and @with-kindnessloveandcomfort i feel like i can actually tag more but i already feel bad doing this to the others ones so i am going to keep it this way. that being said, if i tagged you, you definitely don’t have to do it!! okay before i leave i just want to say one more, and off topic thing-- you’re awesome, yes YOU reading this. No, but seriously, I think all of you guys are really important and wonderful people-- stay you and take care guys.  😊😊

[smolbeanie1221]

So this is basically my headcanon for the ending. Unsure exactly how Jack will continue to interact with them, right now he’s still figuring out how to fix all Chuck’s mistakes. Butttttt Dean not actually dying, Sam and Dean finding a way to rescue Castiel, Dean awkwardly confessing his love to Cass, Jack has brought Eileen back by now.

And I’m also including other characters: Rowena, Kevin, Max Banes, Eve, etc. Sooooo this is my spn headcanon :)))

I would pay an ungodly amount of money for a Supernatural finale where Dean rescues Cas from the Empty and tells him he loves him too, Eileen comes back to be with Sam, and Jack chooses to live with the four of them in the bunker as a happy family.

[lcvebitcs]

oh boy... hi ppl, i’m DORIAN & i’ll be bringing quite a few muses into the mix --- so read below the cut to know tf i’m up to if u dare !

this is MICHAEL

one of the originals, this boy is messy af... he’s also kind of sweet but don’t trust that. don’t this no hoe.

he lives surrounded by girls. I MEAN LITERALLY. i think he has a fanclub or w/e, wherever he goes they follow him around & he’s just chillin’ & listening to music w his earphones on

so, backing up a little --- michael is the strongest & eldest sibling of the original vamp!fam. but he actually doesn’t like showing off, he hates fighting. he likes human, he likes vampire, werwolves... ok so he does have a bias against witches but tf one of them CURSED HIS ENTIRE FAMILY SO THAT’S TO BE EXPECTED

he loves his siblings to death, even if he’s not sure how to express this properly

STORY GOES, his father aka papa original had three wives, his mother was the first wife and she wasn’t all too happy to have to put up w other 2 hoes

she was ... not excited to be a mom. she didn’t want the thing. but the thing was there.

all the moms used their children to kind of gain Attention 👏

his father did not like him very much either. michael was a bit of a rebellious child, and because of that he’d often get ‘punished’. he’d also get double punished bc whatever his siblings did wrong he’d claim it was him so they didn’t have to go thru that

for most of his childhood his mom didn’t want him to socialize with the other children bc they were um.......... a nusiance *cough* but he did anyways & she scolded him for that

since he had no time to play, he learned how to do a lot... he can play a lot of instruments, though his favorite is the violin. he knows a lot about a lot.

at some point he was like i DONT WANNA STUDY I WANNA PLAY W THE OTHERS

and his mother threw him in a fucking lake bc how dare u talk back u lil shit

he almost drowned... it was not fun

michael’s not a big fan of lakes. or water in general

i mean he’s cool w showers but that’s about it.

because he had an........... unusual ;;;;;;; relationship with his mom in the past, and because he learned she had an affair with his uncle when he was v young, he started to think ‘hey... maybe love doesn’t exist and ppl just screw other other’ not to mention he was involved with a lot of girls at that same time. he doesn’t understand love. he thinks it’s a big fat lie and that’s it. just an illusion. he’ll get mad if u try to tell him otherwise or laugh it off.

he mistakes passion for lust and lust for love. it’s all scrambled up in hid head.

he helped his mom to kill his own father, but i’m not gonna lie he was pretty excited and upset he didn’t get to rip out his throat. michael will usually refer to him as ‘that old man’, never by name oops.

but then again, he also plotted w his siblings to kill his own mother so yk.

after awhile he started to think she didn’t love him as she claimed, and instead only liked to manipulate him, so they orchestrated a plan. he was to relieved the final blow, but he held back at the time and the injury wasn’t fatal. he pretty much fled and has been keeping his distance from everyone since.

he loves roses, but he hates white roses. red roses mean passion and love whereas white roses mean lack of it, so he thinks.

he loves his fedora. he never takes it off unless he’s totally at ease.

although he has had a lot... i mean A LOT of girlfriends, when he gets bored he just moves on w/o explanation. love is a foreign concept to him.

overall i say he doesn’t like being alone for long periods of time, but it’s hard to see him in a bad mood because michael is very good at concealing his emotions

he’s a very upbeat person, at least he portrays himself that way

he hates his eyes because they’re the same as his father

......he thinks killing is like a love declaration or whatever. a proof of love. i don’t... i don’t wanna be inside his head. it’s a dark place. no thank u sir.

that’s it. that’s my fedora wearing, violin player, hedonist son.

play w him carefully, he bites.

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this is SIENNA 

she’s a witch, always been... ever since she was a lil bean. but she didn’t & still doesn’t know till this day.

when she was just 8 years old she was sleeping safe & sound when a vampire broke into her home, sliced up her parents and ate them.

horrified & still in shock, her cat started to tug at her ankle & guided her to the closet where she hid with him.

she survived the night, waited for her cue & dashed off into the woods

she almost froze to the death but was found in the morning by the cops. she was sent to the hospital than to an asylum & diagnosed with schizophrenia, dissociative identity disorder, depression & paranoia. they assumed she killed her own parents & ofc no one believed the ramblings of an 8 year old about monsters.

she was released under the care of her aunt when she was 16. she brought her to live here, where believe it or not, young sienna found her old friend, mr.midnight. her cat and most dear friend. not to mention... only friend.

thing is, she’s clairvoyant & able to enter the spirit world. when she touches people she sometimes gets these really ugly flashes, of blood and mayhem. she doesn’t understand it but she tries to warn them anyways... sometimes it’s about something they did, or are planning to do, or something that’ll be done to them.

because she channels a lot of negative energy, she does get depressed.

she works at the flower shop, though she just makes the designs, and usually isn’t allowed to interact w the clients bc she scares the crap outta them

she’ll say WEIRD STUFF AT RANDOM TIMES

ppl dont like that

she’s got really long, dark hair. large eyes. very doll-ish, but very reserved. she usually tries not to wear black or red because it reminds her of death

she likes to spend her time in the woods, she’s growing a small garden of black roses somewhere.

she talks to her cat all the time so ... yeah. she can’t hear him for reals, but i mean, she doesn’t have a lot of ppl to talk to... so it’s sort of a ‘pretend’

sometimes she visits the graveyard and starts to put roses in the abandoned graves bc she feels sad for them.

she also talks to her parents tombstones ... i’m sad

oK i think that’s it

excuse me while i cry

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this is PANDORA

my only human babe. she doesn’t know shit about supernaturals lurking around, and would probably be 120% done if she figured out

so panda is like this religious girl. smol child full of light and hope, everything sugary sweet. tries to be kind even tho some people don’t deserve it

but at heart, i’d say she’s strong. she’s scared of love, of opening herself up to people. she’s reserved, shy, doesn’t approach others unless they seem like they need help.

very strong-willed. she’s the daughter of the local pastor who is also a hunter. she doesn’t know this and if i’m being real would not approve if she learned, because whether someone’s supernatural or human that’s still killing

pandora struggles with being nice to people but standing her ground. she’s not very confrontational. having people walk all over her makes her sad, of course, but she tries not to let this get to her. everyone’s hurting in their own way, so she’s not judgemental.

her older sister rebelled against the goody-two-shoes family and got addicted to drugs and ran away from home. she could never understand this, because the truth is that her sister couldn’t deal w all the lies anymore, she figured out what her father was up to and went off the rails. it’s been a couple years, but pandora still heartbroken about this, because she’s now lost two people she cared about and there’s nothing she can do.

her step-mom is lowkey abusive. not physically or anything, but she’s not a nice woman. pandora’s mom died, but pandora never learned how or why, just that she shouldn’t ask question. she doesn’t know much about her, but she does have a half-burnt picture of her mom holding her as a baby that she carries around in her necklace.

because she feels her life is so... small. her world is so tiny, she tries to explore other worlds through books and movies, music... anything that’ll make her fly away from this earth for awhile is welcome.

she absolutely loves hearing stories & will drop everything she’s doing to hear someone telling her an interest tale.

she’s young and naive, she doesn’t have a lot of freedom & grew up quite sheltered, so she doesn’t understand how the world works very well.

she also has like this tarantula as a pet bc... idk why she has weird taste i effing hate spiders. get margot tf away from me pandora I DON’T LIKE IT

she just likes collecting bugs. it’s a hobby of hers, she’s not grossed-out easily i guess ??

so this is my smol human child

love her pls ok

[smolbeanie1221]

Wait shit. Gabriel being alive… or some other freak alternate reality/djinn fantasy world or something… something like that would allow me to accept the ending as “canonical” but actually it being a false ending… holy shit this is genius.

So… Cas gets killed/absorbed by the Empty… then I remember people saying no one knows exactly how long it was after Cas’ death that Dean dies, whether it was days months or years. This could be explained by some freak monster trick thing like Gabe or a djinn or something, time becomes blurred. Then… Dean dies and supposedly goes to heaven, blah blah blah… what if Dean did die during this freak monster trick thing, but Sam survives longer for whatever reason, so he “lives” longer in this fantasy alternate world. Then there’s the reunion scene in Heaven I think… what if that is when Sam is on the edge of literally going into the light, where his fantasy world and reality are blurring together, because fake fantasy Dean in Heaven and real dead Dean in Heaven are both waiting for him. And then, the fantasy and reality begin to break each other apart, causing Sam to suddenly break out of the fantasy completely and wake up, but he is really almost dead. And he thought he had heard Dean calling to him, but really it was Eileen or Claire or another hunter who had just killed the monster and were desperately trying to keep him from slipping away into death. HOLY SHIT THIS WORKS!

And so then… Sam and everyone else frantically find a way to bring Dean back to life. This is only possible because Jack has already lost one dad, and even tho he really shouldn’t be allowing the Winchesters to cheat death even more, he ignores their efforts to bring Dean back thereby allowing it to work. Even tho he really should have blocked that from being possible.

Dean… while he was in heaven, he was frantically trying to figure out how to save Cas. And when he returns to life, that’s his number one goal, and then they all go and save Cas! Omfg this is incredible. Except now I’m gonna have to commit brain cells to watch Supernatural all over again… but still!!!!

Spn season 16. It opens with a close up shot of gabriels face, who has been alive the whole time. The entire finale was a practical joke on everyone and they save cas and Dean and cas make out sloppy style and everyone lives a happy ever after. The end.

[smolbeanie1221]

Sam knew so much earlier than either Cass or Dean did. And honestly I can so easily imagine Sam growing up and just being unconsciously aware that his brother is bi, like it’s just so normal to him he doesn’t even think twice about it.

We know Dean was obsessed with Dr. Sexy and that cowboy sheriff some guy he met when he time traveled that I can’t remember who he was. Anyways those were clearly celebrity crushes.

But imagine Sam and Dean still in school. Maybe they’re watching some show in a hotel, and Sam accidentally insults one of Dean’s favorite male characters, and Dean’s defense of this male character is just a bit too much for a straight guy, bonus points if Sam’s accidental insult had to do with the character’s appearance, and Dean goes off on a long rant about how this male character looks absolutely fine and better than fine and elaborates on… I don’t know, hair? thighs?? I’m ace and I dunno what people find attractive that way but anyways you get my point lol.

Or while they’re still in school, Dean forms a close bond with a male student, sneaks out several nights, and when Sam asks him, he just says “ohhh drinking you know, talking about girls…” but Sam knows that they’re actually sneaking out to see each other.

And maybe Dean gets into a fight with some other guy at another school somewhere, and he gets his ass kicked, and instead of being furious and vowing revenge, Dean seems to be in awe and infatuated with this guy, and Sam notices that Dean is clearly checking out this guy, not just because he can kick ass, but because Dean finds this attractive and hot.

And just so many other possibilities that maybe neither of them were consciously aware of, but Sam just grows up knowing that his brother is bi, but it just being so normal he doesn’t think twice about it. Dean meanwhile realizes that he is sought after by girls and he definitely enjoys that, so he just naturally falls into that comfortable place of being at ease when it comes to girls, whereas he never exactly knows how to interact with guys that he likes, so he just doesn’t let himself become aware of that. Not to even mention that during that time, being queer wasn’t as accepted and there was outside pressure of society but also probably not wanting to be anything less than the perfect son, and even if John wouldn’t care, this would make Dean different than other people, other hunters, and what if somehow being bi would make him less than perfect? He’s probably done a decent job convincing himself that he is straight, partly because of how often he hooks up with girls, and so he just rarely considers that he might be bi, and even when he does consider it or thinks about a guy he might be interested in, he just ignores it. Until he meets a celebrity crush and literally fangirls like crazy, or Castiel remains a constant, year after year, Cas is still there and will always be there, and this is someone who he can’t ignore. But he can ignore his feelings, convince himself that he is not attracted to Cas or in love with Cas, and even if he is, Cas is an angel and angels don’t fall in love with humans much less horrible killers like me with immense anger issues because I see myself as a monster unworthy of love, and so he can convince himself that Cas can’t/doesn’t/won’t feel anything like that towards him, and so Dean just can’t either and so Dean won’t feel anything like that, won’t let himself feel anything for Cas, and he’ll keep ignoring it and ignoring it and convincing himself that Cas can’t/doesn’t/won’t feel anything towards him, until it all comes crashing down and he realizes that Cas has been in love with him too, and they were both so scared and in denial and now everything is crashing and falling apart.

Sam had only 3 questions when he found out about destiel:

1. Shouldn't it be deastiel?

2. Why not Samstiel?

3. Casdean?

Last one inadvertently calling Dean a bottom

Sam knows how to navigate ao3 expertly

[smolbeanie1221]

And I don’t think Dean was necessarily consciously aware of this!!! I firmly believe that Dean was deeply in denial for a very long time, and that while he knew on some level what he felt and wanted, he never allowed himself to actually think that and ignored it for a very long time. But I think subconsciously he was really really hoping for something, anything.

I fully believe Dean tried to give Cas EVERY SINGLE opportunity to kiss him. Like, movie nights, Thelma and Louise reference, standing and sitting super close(partially cas's fault), taking him to bars and diners, he thought giving him the mixtape would send a message but NOPE. Cas is apparently an idiot.

[smolbeanie1221]

When eventually Dean and Cas are officially together, Dean will get a tattoo of Cas’ handprint on his shoulder, to memorialize their first moment when Cas “gripped him tight and raised him from perdition”. Cas would try to think of a tattoo he would get for Dean, but Dean is like “dude you’re an angel, it would heal in minutes.” And Cas is like “… yes. But… if I could get a tattoo… I would get…” Dean looks at him expectantly. Cas stares off into space, becoming flustered because he has no idea. “A tattoo… of… pie?” Cas looks at Dean with a hopeful expression and Dean just looks at him in confusion and bewilderment and with resignation at how adorable Cas is. “Pie?? Really Cas? That’s… that’s not…” he shakes his head and laughs softly.

I wanna practice drawing! Do y'all have any destiel headcanons that I can draw?

Ps: I'm not very good at it, as i said, its just a start! I wanna draw destiel comics! Also, i dont have my tab with me so I'll draw it on a paper😁