#smol bean rambles spn

[smolbeanie1221]

Sam knew so much earlier than either Cass or Dean did. And honestly I can so easily imagine Sam growing up and just being unconsciously aware that his brother is bi, like it’s just so normal to him he doesn’t even think twice about it.

We know Dean was obsessed with Dr. Sexy and that cowboy sheriff some guy he met when he time traveled that I can’t remember who he was. Anyways those were clearly celebrity crushes.

But imagine Sam and Dean still in school. Maybe they’re watching some show in a hotel, and Sam accidentally insults one of Dean’s favorite male characters, and Dean’s defense of this male character is just a bit too much for a straight guy, bonus points if Sam’s accidental insult had to do with the character’s appearance, and Dean goes off on a long rant about how this male character looks absolutely fine and better than fine and elaborates on… I don’t know, hair? thighs?? I’m ace and I dunno what people find attractive that way but anyways you get my point lol.

Or while they’re still in school, Dean forms a close bond with a male student, sneaks out several nights, and when Sam asks him, he just says “ohhh drinking you know, talking about girls…” but Sam knows that they’re actually sneaking out to see each other.

And maybe Dean gets into a fight with some other guy at another school somewhere, and he gets his ass kicked, and instead of being furious and vowing revenge, Dean seems to be in awe and infatuated with this guy, and Sam notices that Dean is clearly checking out this guy, not just because he can kick ass, but because Dean finds this attractive and hot.

And just so many other possibilities that maybe neither of them were consciously aware of, but Sam just grows up knowing that his brother is bi, but it just being so normal he doesn’t think twice about it. Dean meanwhile realizes that he is sought after by girls and he definitely enjoys that, so he just naturally falls into that comfortable place of being at ease when it comes to girls, whereas he never exactly knows how to interact with guys that he likes, so he just doesn’t let himself become aware of that. Not to even mention that during that time, being queer wasn’t as accepted and there was outside pressure of society but also probably not wanting to be anything less than the perfect son, and even if John wouldn’t care, this would make Dean different than other people, other hunters, and what if somehow being bi would make him less than perfect? He’s probably done a decent job convincing himself that he is straight, partly because of how often he hooks up with girls, and so he just rarely considers that he might be bi, and even when he does consider it or thinks about a guy he might be interested in, he just ignores it. Until he meets a celebrity crush and literally fangirls like crazy, or Castiel remains a constant, year after year, Cas is still there and will always be there, and this is someone who he can’t ignore. But he can ignore his feelings, convince himself that he is not attracted to Cas or in love with Cas, and even if he is, Cas is an angel and angels don’t fall in love with humans much less horrible killers like me with immense anger issues because I see myself as a monster unworthy of love, and so he can convince himself that Cas can’t/doesn’t/won’t feel anything like that towards him, and so Dean just can’t either and so Dean won’t feel anything like that, won’t let himself feel anything for Cas, and he’ll keep ignoring it and ignoring it and convincing himself that Cas can’t/doesn’t/won’t feel anything towards him, until it all comes crashing down and he realizes that Cas has been in love with him too, and they were both so scared and in denial and now everything is crashing and falling apart.

Sam had only 3 questions when he found out about destiel:

1. Shouldn't it be deastiel?

2. Why not Samstiel?

3. Casdean?

Last one inadvertently calling Dean a bottom

Sam knows how to navigate ao3 expertly

[deanwanddamons]

My 2K Celebration Masterlist

This is the Masterlist for all the wonderful entries I have received for my 2K followers celebration. Thank you to everyone who submitted. I still have some more to come in, so I will be adding them as I receive them. Dean also loved reading them, and he hopes you enjoyed his comments! He was hard to control, but I think I reigned him in! 

Entries under the cut. 

Don’t Tell The Elf - @little-diable - Summary: Dean always gets rather distracted as he’d watch lotr with the reader, turning it into a metaphor of their own. Warnings: smut, 18+, unprotected sex, oral (male receiving)

Miracle on 34th Street - @jawritter - Summary: Time doesn’t heal all wounds, sometimes it just drives them into our bones and festers there, until forgiveness is a four letter word, and it’s to late for second chances. Warnings: Language, fluff, mentions of past heartbreak, multiple viewpoints, I think that’s about everything for this one. It’s pretty much flooff lol

Way Down We Go - @smol-and-grumpy - Summary: Watching an online concert with Jensen. Naked. I don’t know how to summarize. Warnings: NSFW, oral, fluff

No Place Like Home - @missjenniferb

Always Remember Us This Way - @deangirl93 - Summary: Maintaining the facade of a normal life while hunting was harder than Dean had imagined. Warnings: Swearing, Some fluff, Smut: Brief dry humping, Dirty talk, Unprotected sex (wrap it up before you tap it, people), ANGST, Tears, Sadness, Dean’s self deprication rears it ugly head.

Perfect - @thinkinghardhardlythinking - Summary: After a hunt Dean and Y/N are forced to have a conversation about their relationship. Warnings: Angst. Flangst. There are allusions to abuse and bad relationships/domestic violence in the Reader’s past. I’d say it’s not really explored but consider this a potential TW anyway. Show level violence. Anger.

Composure - @katelynw93 - Summary: Dean and (Y/N) take their shot at a normal life and settle down. Over the years, they have a few kids. Things are good. Until they’re not. What will Dean do when his past comes back to put an end to his happily ever after? Warnings: ANGST! Descriptions of blood. Mentions of breaking and entering. Kidnaping. Show level violence/outbursts of anger. 

Work Perks - @wonder-cole - Summary: None. Rating: M for Mature

Constellations - @there-must-be-a-lock - Summary: None. Warnings: Smut. Incredibly fluffy smut. 

Lie To Me - @jensenswinchester - Summary: The classic truth spell trope with a wicked twist. Warnings: Dean’s an asshole. Angst makes the world go ‘round. Insecurities briefly mentioned. Did I mention Dean’s an asshole? Fluff if you squint.

I’m Done Being Scared - @waywardbaby - Summary: You tried many times talking to him about how you felt and failed. Will your final attempt pay off? Warnings : Angst, second guessing choices to be made, a surge of self confidence towards the end along with a fluff-ish conclusion and an adorable Dean bean.

Remember My Name - @anaelsbrunette - Summary: Y/N can never move past that night, constantly feeling nothing but the need to avenge the poor soul lost, but with a new person running lose in Gotham, she may just get the chance to take a new plan into effect. Warnings: BATMAN/SPN CROSSOVER! Dean is Jason Todd!, murder, angst, death, grief, arguments, light fluff, cussing, violence, plotting murder, implied smut, making out

Eight Years - @440mxs-wife - Summary: Reader goes to Kansas City for a ‘Girls Weekend’ with her friends, while the guys decide to have a weekend of their own in the bunker. But, the guys get bored and decide to join the girls, which has everyone paired up except for Dean and the Reader. Will true feelings finally come out, or will it be Friend-Zone City? Warnings: Mutual Pining, a smidgen of angst, mostly fluffy though.

Home In A Motel Pool - @herstarburststories - Summary: Dean and you have some fun in the motel's pool. Warnings: sex in the pool, p in v, dirty talk

Racing Hearts - @waywardnerd67 - Summary: In between saving people and hunting things, Dean Winchester races his Baby down the streets of whatever town he may be in. After catching a case in Oklahoma, the Winchesters run into a familiar face who shares the same needs as Dean for speed. Warnings: Fluff/Street Racing

A Losing Game - @tvdspngirl314 - Summary: When the girl he always loved confesses her feelings for Dean, unfortunately he can't show his true emotions for her. Warnings : angst (a lots of it), unrequited feelings (maybe), broken reader, broken dean

Irresistibly Yours - Chapter 1 - @msmarvelouswinchester - Summary : Y/N Y/L/N moves to NYC in hopes for a fresh start after a nasty breakup. There she meets her neighbor, the cynical lawyer, Dean Winchester. A love-hate relationship starts evolving between them ever since they met in the elevator one morning but a desperate situation and a string of lies forces the two friendly rivals to go on a date or rather a fake date. Will sparks fly between them when Dean gets to know Y/N real and up close? Will Y/N finally find her Prince Charming in the grumpy, workaholic, divorce lawyer? Warnings: None for this chapter.

Choices - @themrsdeanwinchester - Summary: None. Warnings: spoiler-is for season 15, violence, hurt, demon, major character death, language

Ride - @unnuevosoltransformalarealidad - Summary: Dean and you go on a sleigh ride date. Warnings: Almost Christmas, Dean being a softie romantic kind of boyfriend, unestablished relationship, fluff, flirting, romantic sleigh ride.

Drug of Choice - @calaofnoldor​ - Summary: A night of drunken rambling leads to an unexpected change in your relationship status the next day. Warnings: angst, language, alcohol, feelings of inadequacy, very slight allusions of alcoholism/talk of drug addiction,   reader likes the sound of their voice a bit too much when drunk,   fluff, implied smut

Leather and Heels - @downanddirtydean​ - Summary: It’s Dean’s birthday, and you decide to gift him one of his bedroom fantasies. Warnings: fluff and smut, light bondage, use of handcuffs, blind fold, riding crop, and ball gag, oral sex (male receiving), rough-ish sex 

The Librarian - @winchest09​ - Summary: Y/N had been The Bunker’s own librarian ever since the Winchesters had found her one fateful night. Weighed down by her books and knowledge, fed up with the same routine day in and day out, she strived for something new. But there was one man standing in her way. The same man who had stolen her heart. Dean Winchester. Warnings: Swearing, angst, drinking, smidge of blood, arguments, confessions, fluff, kissing.

Up On The Rooftop - @justagirlinafandomworld​ - Summary: It’s one week to Christmas and something is amiss! Santa’s sitting on the rooftop, lost in his thoughts. Maybe a secret you’ve been carrying will cheer him up! Warnings: Whimsical. Rhyming. Fluff. I’m working through some serious writer’s block, so that’s also a warning.

A Game - @chocolateheart​ - Summary: Apparently, you like to play with food not only in the kitchen. Warnings: 18+, smut, unprotected sex (please, wrap it before you tap it), oral sex (female and male receiving), FOOD PLAY, Dean's lips, Dean's jaw, Dean's tongue, Dean's teeth, Dean's fingers, DEAN in general, biting, teasing. I don't know, eating? Friends to lovers.

[smolbeanie1221]

And I don’t think Dean was necessarily consciously aware of this!!! I firmly believe that Dean was deeply in denial for a very long time, and that while he knew on some level what he felt and wanted, he never allowed himself to actually think that and ignored it for a very long time. But I think subconsciously he was really really hoping for something, anything.

I fully believe Dean tried to give Cas EVERY SINGLE opportunity to kiss him. Like, movie nights, Thelma and Louise reference, standing and sitting super close(partially cas's fault), taking him to bars and diners, he thought giving him the mixtape would send a message but NOPE. Cas is apparently an idiot.

[smolbeanie1221]

Shit… how did I never think about that… we know Chuck was writing everything, so if we say spn is him highlighting important events… and then Cas and Dean keep literally writing their own chapters, and then Jack shows up and joins in on the chaotic free for all collaboration.

But like… that could explain Naomi making Cas kill Dean a million times. Chuck had to try to force Cas back on track, so he got Naomi to torture Cas. And because this was supposed to be everything going back to the script, he made sure to include it in the Important Events. But then Cas and Dean go off to do their own thing again. And Chuck never would’ve planned on Jack existing, so that was a major jump away from the original script.

The entire show is literally Chuck writing the Winchester’s story into existence, everything goes like normal until Cas shows up. Then he’s doing damage control constantly, trying to force them back into the “right” script with these monsters and that apocalypse and this tragedy. But then his damage control gets out of control. Probably really starting when his sister shows up. And Rowena probably never became their ally in any other world. Crowley probably never sacrificed himself. Hell I doubt Chuck intended for them to be crossing into alternate universes. By trying to control them, he completely lost control. And that’s another way to view the entire show. Huh. Holy shit.

it’s the fact that so many of the soft, sweet moments of their friendship — watching dean’s favorite movies together, debriefing after hunts over the phone, the giving of the mixtape — happen offscreen, because they aren’t important to the story chuck is trying to tell. they were never supposed to care about each other so much. but they do, they do, so much that it can’t be ignored. it leaks its way into the text. light bleeding through the cracks. their love for each other literally transcends the bounds of the narrative.

[smolbeanie1221]

So this is basically my headcanon for the ending. Unsure exactly how Jack will continue to interact with them, right now he’s still figuring out how to fix all Chuck’s mistakes. Butttttt Dean not actually dying, Sam and Dean finding a way to rescue Castiel, Dean awkwardly confessing his love to Cass, Jack has brought Eileen back by now.

And I’m also including other characters: Rowena, Kevin, Max Banes, Eve, etc. Sooooo this is my spn headcanon :)))

I would pay an ungodly amount of money for a Supernatural finale where Dean rescues Cas from the Empty and tells him he loves him too, Eileen comes back to be with Sam, and Jack chooses to live with the four of them in the bunker as a happy family.