#smetimes always never

[asherlockstudy]

hi! love your analyses - I've been readin thru some of them and was curious to know your take on the rhett/christy dynamic and link/jessie dynamic?

smetimes I can't tell if they: r&c and l&j, are like begrudging friends that have grown to respect/love each other for how happy they make their s.o/best friend ? Or if they genuinely enjoy each others' company? or if maybe they're just straight up civil and that there's actually undercurrents of jealousy in their dynamics that make it harder for them to just like each other?

I know sometimes people just don't mesh well or their personalities clash or whatever but personally I'd love if they were all real close friends but I dont always get that vibe... (imo i feel like rhett likes christy more than christy likes him, and that jessie likes link more than link likes her but idk)

what do you think?

I have the same impression with you. The McLaughlins are friendlier to the Neals.

Let’s start from the clearest one: Link does not like Jessie very much. Or it’s not that he has anything against her per se but he is antagonistic towards her relationship with Rhett. It is evident in literally countless occasions how thin Link’s patience gets when Rhett mentions his wife. The clearest example was recently when he bursted out an “Enough with him talking about his wife!”. I mean, bruh… But it has been clear for years. From the very first seasons of GMM actually. Link also once admitted he wondered whether the height difference of the McLaughlins was a problem in their sexual lives. He often looks very uncomfortable, if not angry, when Rhett exposes some spicy details about his marital life. He has sometimes made questionable jokes, sort of questioning Jessie’s intelligence or skills. Rhett has typically been very patient with his remarks but I have noticed his annoyance is becoming more evident lately. Because lately Link has also made some bad jokes implying that Jessie could fancy him better instead. While Rhett proclaims himself not a jealous man, I believe he realises these jokes sort of harm Jessie’s image or feelings and he has started calling out Link more lately. I am totally with him in this. One contrast to all this was that in the past Link used to call out Rhett for implying fancying someone other than Jessie (like a hot celebrity) or sexualising Jessie a bit too much. This defense however doesn’t agree with the rest of Link’s behaviour and I suspect Link reacted in these occasions because he could relate (i.e he did not like hearing Rhett talk about celebrity crushes) and not because he genuinely cared about Jessie’s feelings. In any case, Link has repeatedly shown an attitude of disregard towards Jessie in public.

And now to the hardest one: Jessie. We will probably never know what Jessie truly feels for Link. And that is because Jessie has a natural predisposition for being friendly and warm. Even if Link acts shitty to her, she is probably more tolerant to it than the average person would be, because she really wants to get along with people. Jessie also cares for image and she likes the Californian semi-famous lifestyle, if i judge from her social media, so it is to her best interests to not oppose to Link hard enough to cause problems to Rhett’s relations to both. The best moment of interaction we have got from them is in an Ear Biscuit, when Jessie video called Rhett from her vacation without knowing they were filming EB. Rhett answered the call and Link was like trying to cover the screen and asked “oh my God is she naked?” (which is a moment very telling of Link’s jealousy bordering on paranoia in this case). Jessie then raised her voice saying “I am COMPLETELY clothed” and that is the best example of interaction of these two we have. I suppose Jessie might at times snap back at him but it is when she is provoked by Link. I don’t think she ever really starts it on her own. In other occasions, she has promoted Rhett, Link, and their friendship through her social media, but again this could have been for building up connections and social media power. In an interview, Rhett has admitted Jessie does feel jealous of his friendship with Link.

Now let’s go to Christy. Christy is a tough cookie. But I … don’t blame her. Christy is the most different person of the four. She is the only one who would prefer a quiet and private life in North Carolina. She is not interested in image or fame or celebrity life. She is also the one who still adheres most to traditional values, religion etc There are instances suggesting she is possessive or jealous of Link, like that incident when she flashed her wedding ring in front of somebody’s face in a gathering. She seems to be suspicious of Rhett and Link’s relationship. This is proven by things Link has revealed on multiple occasions. At times, Link and Christy’s marriage seemed to have its ups and downs and maybe some of the reasons might have been associated to that. Link said Christy accused him of hiding in his “Mythical Castle” and not caring for the reality and the challenges the family went through. One time, after Rhett made a joke I don’t remember well, Link got a little annoyed and said something like “My wife wouldn’t do that. She doesn’t even like you all that much”. Another time, Link described how he was explaining an idea of his to Christy, only for her to reply “Is this you? Or is this Rhett speaking through you?” Now, that’s a little heavy. It’s clear that Christy believes Rhett has way too much influence on Link and she dislikes this. I am not sure Christy dislikes Rhett for the person he is but she dislikes him for his power on her husband. We don’t have signs of Christy snapping against Rhett that we know of, but we have signs of Christy snapping against Link for Rhett’s sake. Christy is also a different personality than Jessie but she is bonded with her because of their shared experience to be married to one half of Rhett and Link. However, I have the feeling that if it meant returning to NC or Link becoming more independent from Rhett, Christy would cut contacts with the McLaughlins.

And now, to Rhett. Rhett does not dislike Christy. He likely sees a clever and strong-minded woman in her and he respects that. Rhett is a clever man and he senses Christy’s negative vibes towards him but he also almost certainly realises the reasons behind them. Which is why he prefers to diffuse the situation, lighten the atmosphere, let alone that he doesn’t like confrontations in general. Rhett did not bat an eyelid when Link revealed Christy did not like him very much. He knows but he puts up with it because he understands. However, Christy’s frustration is not important enough for him to back down from the influence he likes to have on Link. Or his bond with Link, anyway. In this sense, Rhett disregards Christy too after all, but he hides it much better than Link does. Rhett also has nowhere as thin a patience when Link shares spicy details, but he has his limits too. He still isn’t over that story of Link and Christy having beach sex lol. I believe, had it not been for their competitiveness for Link, Rhett and Christy could have a decent relationship of mutual respect.

*There is also a tale of a party some years ago, when allegedly Christy made a big fuss and it might or might have not been about Rhett, but as I don’t remember the details at all and it was rumours to begin with, I won’t draw conclusions from it here and DON’T hold me to this because it might be pure bs.

So when they vacation together or double date, I guess it’s mostly Rhett - Link and Jessie - Christy interaction. Then there might be some Rhett - Christy moments, if Christy does not feel challenged / threatened that day. More rarely, there might be some Link - Jessie moments, if Link is in a good mood enough for her to be able to humour him.

Anyway these are my personal speculations and conclusions. The incidents based on which I drew these conclusions are very much real, but I could be quite or not very accurate in my reasoning process. That works as a disclaimer I guess :P

[possumcollege]

Additional asks answered

favorite piece of clothing to draw:

I like drawing heavy coats, boots, short jackets and gloves. I love thinking up new dresses whenever I draw the middle sister in Crittertongue. Specific character outfits and models can be dull for me so I always make up her dress on the spot in a new strip. There are elements I repeat but it's fun to take a new swing whenever I can. The oldest sister has pieces I like repeating because they're like things I own or just look fun to wear. I like drawing practical, functional clothes. And smetimes that function is looking cute.

what do I listen to:

Having something to listen to really helps me focus. Hi- I have combined-type ADHD so I have a visceral need for input that I can ignore in order to drown out the racing thoughts that keep me from paying attention to or overthinking the task at hand before I get bored.

For penciling or sketching I'll listen to my Spotify likes. I can draw to pretty much anything and my tastes are all the heck over, it just can't be anything I haven't heard before or anything with songs over 4-5 min. For inking and less decision-y work I'll most often put on a show I've seen a million times, episodes of Columbo, the Mike seasons of MST3K, Newsradio, nothing I have a terribly high emotional connection with and again never something new because those just become distractions.

a creator I admire whose art isn't my thing:

A tough one. I can sour on creators faster for who they are than what their work is. I like the style and visual feel of the Pogo comics but they are a cognitive chore to read. Chris Ware is extremely talented and interesting but his comics can really bog me down. I tend to be drawn to works of art/writing/music first and dig into the creator later. If the art doesn't hold space in my head, the creator will usually wander off with it. Unless of course I know them personally, and then I don't comment on whether it's my thing in public. 😅

Something others find hard that I enjoy:

Not sure what most others struggle with so much but I really enjoy hand-lettering! I also love drawing hands, faces, eyes, the expressive bits that are bears to get just right and really screw up a moment of they aren't quite there. A key exception to that is Jack Kirby's Devil Dinosaur, whose face is always correct even if it doesn't match that the speaking characters say about it.

I make a lot of faces to myself while I'm drawing. I feel like being behind the expression can be more important than having an image to work from.

media I love that doesn't inspire me artistically:

I almost said Mr. Ed but I'm not sure that's true. I enjoy lots of creators whose strengths are just not my own and I don't feel like I need to replicate. Sometimes the things that inspire me translate more into my mental processes than the images I make. I enjoy noir aesthetics, artists who play with panel design, artistic angles, historic accuracy and well researched background, I love mecha, anime, period drama, technical draftsmanship, color- but at the end of the day I focus more on getting the story on paper, then see where I can challenge myself in the details rather than trying to push toward something markedly different from my preferred modes. Not to say I don't experiment but when the choice is try something very far from my comfort zone or know I'll get completed work on the page, I do what feels natural.

For the ask game: 8, 14, 30!

Old projects I've lost interest in:

I only really have two big projects, Crittertongue and Dinosaur Sheriff. I've been writing DS since 2008 and there are only 3 complete issues but my enthusiasm for it is still going strong. Crittertongue has just been more sustainable since they're shorter, and the narrative structure allows me to do more with it amidst my work and parenting duties.

If anything, I lose interest in themes. I grew up watching a lot of action movies and shows, reading stories with a lot of combat, explosions, gnarly kills, bizarre anime weapons, honorable or hyperbolic violence. While I still like dope fight scenes, action, giant monster fights (💚) in my media, I've lost interest in using it as a major fixture of my own work. There are more interesting forms of conflict than the kinds a character can address with a sword, and the guns in my life are quiet more often than not. A gun has more narrative weight for me as a threat, as a desperate thing. They lose their teeth when they become punctuation. So while my work does feature the odd scrap here or shots fired there, I try to keep it tailored more to the purpose it serves rather than engaging in it for spectacle.

Growing up as a boy, there was kind of an ever-present background of casual violence that really stressed me out. Like I was fucking up by not fighting more, but when I did get physical, I was overreacting. Fetishizing the capacity for violence feels gross to me. Anyway, that's about as close to an answer as I have there.

Motifs:

I try to keep my environments simple even when they're large and rambling, but I am mad for surface texture, patina, weathering, "beausage." I love when an artist can make something look hard or sticky, fuzzy or beaten up with linework. Environments where nothing looks new are like candy for me. Cam Kennedy drew a number of Boba Fett comics that I read to pieces in middle school and his line work created such beautiful texture, amazing eye-feel (gross), and visual interest that really tied characters into their environments. Learning how to balance out that kind of thing feels therapeutic for me. I hate the greebled massing of shapes and textures to make things look more dramatic or technical or interesting. It's very noisy. I really prefer more functional, practical shapes, and keeping things repeatable without turning my brain to soup or my wrist to dust.

I apply this most often to characters' clothes. Designs where a character is always converted in elaborately layered straps, belts, sashes, gear, armor... stuff give me a hot brain. Do they sleep in it? Where do they put it? Do they pile 3 satchels, a cape, a sword belt, two pistols, and a rucksack in the corner when they have to poop? Is that an answer? Yes. Answered. I'm great at this.

A piece I think is underrated:

Dinosaur Sheriff is definitely under-utilized in my portfolio and the first art was done while I was a young, sleep-deprived college kid, but I'd still love more folks to get to read it. I think it's gotten better with every issue but havent had the resources to complete, print or distribute it. 😑Ffff... I'm working on it.

[movie--posters]

[sleephyjhs]

Private Duets (Jimin One-Shot)

pairing: dancer!jimin x reader

genre: very fluff yes

summary: the new student at your dance studio was chosen to share a duet with you and your developing crush on him could only help the intense chemistry needed for your performance.

word count: 891

song rec: the other side (ruelle) - this is one of my favourite songs of all time, and also the song i had in mind for their duet together!

notes: all my terminology comes from dance moms im so sorry. this is also longer than i expected it to be oops

rules | m.list | requested

Dance had always been your favourite hobby and more or less what you’d always been the best at. When you were younger, even now, your friends could always be found out in the city, studying, or socialising in public hangouts. You rarely joined then; there was no place you felt more comfortable than your dance studio.

What made coming to dance every day so much better than it already was, was thr arrival of a new student several months back. Park Jimin had been praised by your other friends who had more opportunities to watch him dance than what you did, and so you went out of your way to introduce yourself.

Catching him in the canteen that day was lucky as you’d rarely seen him before that. Pretending like you’d never heard of him before hooked his conversation, but it was a story you qickly dropped after learning he had heard of you too. After sharing your name, you were given his undivided attention. According to Jimin, the teachers frequently sed your overtime as the example of dedication they wanted. To say you were left blushing would have been a significant understantement.

Since your introduction, Jimin seemed to purposely bump into you in places other than your only shared class. Several times, he’d rejoined you yet again in the canteen or in a free studio you were essentially reserved for your own practices. Of course, you never minded. In fact, after a few encounters with Jimin it began to feel strange when he wasn’t around. It didn’t take you long to realise what was happening.

That evening, you chose to stay even longer than usual to perfect what you could of the duet you’d been given to share with Jimin. You’d forgotten to arrange a practice time with him, so the only thing you could do was rehearse the sequences that didn’t require his close proximity.The dance itself, ironically, was one of your favourites that had ever been choreographed for you to perform. Jimin being chosen as your partner was only an added bonus.

Lyrical, contemporary dance was your favorite to duet with, and having a partner as physically emotional as Jimin only enhanced your performance. Every time he turned it felt as though he wound your connection tighter. There was no possible way he felt the same way you did, and you knew acting out your feelings for him would only ruin your professionalism.

During the five minute breather you allowed yourself following a full run-through, the double doors swung open only for Jimin to emerge through them. The toothy smile you’d grown to miss was plastered across his flushing cheeks, “Hey!”

“Hey...” Despite his presence overwhelming you with elation, you couldn’t help but wonder just what he was actually there for, “Why are you here? I didn’t mention a rehersal-”

“Well I was actually just leaving, but I heard our duet music? I wasn’t sure if you were practicing so I thought I’d just see if you needed any help with anything?” He placed his bag on the side bench and approached you at the back by the stereo, slipping his hands deep into his pockets. Typical of you, you glaced briefly at the corded veins climbing his forearms. A brief glance, but fulfilling just the same.

You hesitated before answering him. If there was anything you were desperate to avoid, it would be overworking him. Just because you liked to work overtime didn’t mean everyone did, and smetimes it was difficult to remember that, “It’s a little hard running through it without you here, but I’ve been managing.”

Jimin drew his hands from his pockets and moved into the centre of the studio, “Play the music.” You stared at him, confused by his command, “We’ll go through it together. Play the music.”

After a swift consideration, you pressed play and rushed to join him at the centre, curling into your starting position as the first few notes began to sound. As though he’d never left the dnce floor, Jimin soon sprung into an opening turn sequence to reconnect with your hand at the far right of the space. With the same hand, he guided you around, stepping in perfect time with you and the melody of the song. As serious as you tried to remain, you couldn’t help but crack a smile everytime his eyes glided past yours. Everytime you caught sight of his face in the mirror, he seemed to be returning that smile.

It was difficult to explain how dancing with Jimin felt. If you knew anything, you knew it was right. The intimate connections you were required to form during your dance introduced a new passion to your existing relationship; such a feeling that you were yet to experience with another dancer.

The last few counts of the song drew you and Jimin closer to the centre of the studio. Your heated skin meeting his again could’ve sent shivers down your spine. The more you danced by his side, the more you became sure of your undeniable connection.

The final beat of the song pulled his face just centimeters from yours, and his strong stare was more than enough to pace your heart even faster, “How was that?”

“Perfect.” Only a whisper slipped past your lips, but it was no word of a lie.

[misskittysmagicportal]

I feel like it's the opposite. At first I thought you were intimidating and I didn't know how to talk to you, especially since I haven't seen a lot of the movies and stuff you reference a lot. But now I think you're pretty funny and I like seeing your posts.

A lot of people just don't get sarcasm and stuff.

Thank you for this. Smetimes I feel like I'm constantly apologizing to everyone for who I am. And I'm so jealous of people who just live their lives and don't give a shit what other people think. I want everybody to know this is a safe space. Your sexual attractions, your feelings or questions aren't ever going to be judged.

I'm going to try to find the facts to back up what I say, so that you're informed and I never lead you astray. I'm an "elder" and I really feel it's like my responsibility to try to help people and encourage them to be themselves when I always can't or I'm ashamed to be.

and yes LOL the movies I reference are very obscure and that definitely is my age gap showing. But if there's ever a movie I mention or a reference I make that you're confused by please feel free to reach out to me and I will introduce you to it!

[jooyeone]

U don't have to publish as this might draw unneeded attn,it's more of an fyi. I honestly don’t mean to offend,but tags like 'exceptionally domestic' feel like a jab(tho probably unintentional). what we see & what they r are two diff things(which obv applies for all of them in general). U seem like a lovely person so maybe u didn’t mean anything by it, but. Idk smetimes ur tags come off a bit harsh/seem as jokes but aren’t,esp involving them. we don’t have to shade a relationship to raise anther.

hi! that’s alright, i’ll publish because i’d genuinely like to respond to this. i know you’re well-intentioned here, so thanks for bringing this to my attention. i don’t really remember where i might have used that exact tag, but i will assume you’re talking about the way i tag jimin and jungkook? or pairs in general? to be honest with you, i’m a bit.. sad if i come across like that, especially because i know and i’ve seen first-hand how some pairs are being talked about in the fandom and i always try to not go anywhere near that discourse. i’m perfectly aware of how delicate it is to talk about two real people, whom we only know the public side of and see only what they choose to show us. and i try to maintain that respectful distance and choose my words carefully, because i understand what you mean— gushing about the relationship between (any) two out of seven members can feel like you’re belittling or shading the other pairs to elevate another. so believe me when i say it’s never my intention to do that; what i say about any pair in bangtan is never, never meant as a jab at all the others. and while i’m genuinely sad that this was the impression i left on you, i’ll keep this in mind.

[imagineredwood]

Tig Trager NSFW Alphabet

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Pretty affectionate. He will almost always get you a warm washcloth to clean you up. He will hold you into his side, kisses pressed to your cheek, nose, forehead, hair, lips. Whatever is close to him. He doesn’t always do the tangled legs cuddling but he does always have a hold on you in some way. 

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He favorite body part on him is his dick. It’s no secret. On you, your breasts are a major favorite. He’s always looking at them and he touches them even more. 

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

On your face is a favorite. He’ll come anywhere really, but seeing it on you and making you look so filthy just does things to him. 

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

He loves for you to be in charge sometimes. He loves to submit to you in the bedroom and have you in the dominant position, both literally and figuratively. 

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

He’s got a little too much experience. Even with corpses. He’s had every type of sex you can have in every type of way, twice. So he’s got a good amount of tricks up his sleeve and he used his experience to learn your body with what you like and don’t like. 

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)

Doggy. He switches it up though, often trying different positions, even the harder ones just to experimen and see if it workd for the two of you. HAving you on all fours though or bending you over something will forever be his favorite way to take you. 

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

Defintely goofy. Makes (bad) jokes at weird times. Makes you laugh, he laughes. Its just a very laid back time for him and he’s as goofy as he is in regular day to day llife. 

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

He’s trimmed down a little so it’s neater but he’s still pretty natural. 

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

He’s very intimate, even in the dirtiest moments. He never stops with the pet names and the affection. He will run his fingers through your hair and call you his sweet babydoll while making you deepthroat him. He manages to bring intimacy to every encounter and he is always somehow romantic. 

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

He will if he’s absolutely desperate, but he much rather wait until he gets with you. Sometimes he will purposefully stay away just so that the expereince is even better when he finally gets to you. 

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

What’s not a kink for him  😂 Bondage, daddy kink, toys, especially having you wear a princess plug out on a date or to the grocery store. 

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

Anywhere that he can have you to himself. He’s a big fan of the shower and the kitchen.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

Seeing you in lingerie, having you send him a dirty text, lord help you if you send him a dirty picture. You being needy and clinging to him when you’re in the mood. 

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Anything that would cause you any permanent damage. He most likely doesn’t have much else on his list because he’s willing to try anything at least once, twice if he liked it.  

 O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

I’d say its an even split. Going down on your is one of if not his favorite pastimes, but having you on your knees for him is somethign that he will never, ever turn away. 

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

His default is a little more on the slower side because he wants you to feel everything, but he also loves to take you fast and rough smetimes. It’s always sensual though and he will give you whatever you need or ask for. 

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

He loves a good quickie. He likes for sex to be fun and spontaneous not some planned out chore. Going after you randomly at the clubhouse or even at a store in the dressing room is always something that he’s up for. 

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

He lives for the thrill of getting caught. Following you to the bathroom of the clubhouse and not locking the door. Experimenting and trying new things is half the fun of sex and he loves exploring sex, your bodies and intimacy with you in every way that he can. 

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

He may be older but he can go for a good time. He take shis time and doesn’t rush, and he’s almost always up for another round as long as you give him times for a quick smoke and nap.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

He loves to use toys on you. He’s got a decent collection of every different toy you can think of that he used on you or that you use together.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He likes to tease you, but not nearly as much as he likes to be teased. He like sto use teasing as a way to work you up and make you needy for it.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

He can be a little loud because he never holds back. He groans a lot, often hissing as well. 

W= Wildcard

You can’t tell me that he doesn’t secretly like the thrill/thought of a threesome Juice

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

He’s a very big man. And sometimes a little bit of lube is just the humane thing to do.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

High enough that he wears you out sometimes. 

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterward)

He falls asleep pretty quick. Once he cleans you up and makes sure that you’re good, his eyes are heavy and if there’s no pillowtalk after that, he’s out. 

[lapimpinelaescarlatta]

one of the things that depresses me the most, and makes me into the passive slob i am, is that i have tons of ideas of things i wanna do, but this things always entails millions of other things and small setbacks , and im always hesitant , so i get stressed and afraid of not doing it ok , unless i did the thing a million times  and  recently, because im doing a zine riht now, and its making me SUFFER i forgot absolutely everything abou the programs so i have to watch tutorials.. so most of my work times goes to this, and it totally drains me so im doing it but im hating every moment.. i know is because my tolerance to frustrations i close to 0.. but at the same time ¿Is it worth it ?why im so unable to enjoy doing things?i start full of hope and eagerness but then is never oh here i am doing what i was excited to do is ok now i need this thing that i dont have or i have to buy or is packed under the bed in the most difficult place to retrieve it, or i didnt use it for ages and needs maintenaince and then i solve this and i have to solve another thing and after 2 or 3 of this occurrences.. im just annoyed and normally i just drop totally whatever it was, but smetimes i cant and i fucking suffer for the whole process ,with small moments of satisfaction or pleasure, but is mostly feeling annoyed and also, like m i feel like at work being forced to do things that i dont like...

and then i see my friends doing their projects and of course sometimes they have problems with it.. but i see how they are able to concentrate and enjoy and.. idk im just jelous that i have this awful charachter.. that i just enjoy to dream about thi finished things, or see them finishee lol.. but all the middle work ,i mean it ranges from  feeling just boring or like a fucking torture .. i wish i was normal

thats the reason i enjoy so much reading because you really just need to open the fucking book and you are good to go

[vvnm]

he thinks about taking a selfie for just a split second, but decides against it. it’ll be more fun this way, plus, he really doesn’t know how to take good pictures of himself. bertholdt always used to do it for him back in germany.

who knows, maybe i have three eyes, too? you can either believe me on this or not. people tell me my eyes are hazel? we don’t really use this word in german so take this with a grain of salt. in german i just say ich hab hellbraune augen. hazel does sound cooler than that.

i don’t know about the wrinkles on the brain when i’m the one getting lost at every corner (even tho i’ve lived here for about 2 months now). i think moving from a small village by the sea to this huge city does that. 😩

oh no, you found me out. i’m actually 76, thank you for making me older than i already am. 💀 (jk, i’m 27, how old are you? for all i know you’re the 80 y/o one) would be cool tho, an 80 year old granny who plays animal crossing??

rn? i’m just trying to figure out how to work my way around your subway. i’ve managed to get lost today, i wasn’t even supposed to be on the train where you wrote your number down. maybe we were destined to meet? who knows. i’m finally back home now, i ordered some poutine? is that how you spell it?? we don’t have it in germany but on the picture it looked amazing. i will let you know if i liked it.

it’s not even all that bad. i do miss my best friend, but we facetime. at least sometimes.

tschö mit ö!! 🖖 you’re a quick learner, huh? maybe you have the wrinkly brain and not me??

5 minutes later

[image of poutine with cheese AND bacon]

it’s delicious?? why isn’t this a thing in germany?

- german reiner

(mod: yeah i just noticed i never even signed off as reiner so. i'm definitely not the one with a wrinkly brain.)

Are you an alien??? 👽👽👽 spoooooky. Hmm, you've been told they're hazel by Canadians then? Don't take anything Canadians say seriously. I think most of us are colourblind. So maybe your eyes really are hellbraune augen 💀 I guessed that thats what the colour was. I did some deductive shit, and I deduce that was the colour part of what you just said.

Two months and you're still on your own? 😩 have you tried plenty of fish?? I'm sure a nice lil canadian guy or gal would show you around

I'm 53. Aw you're a strapping young lad, aren't you! I do play animal crossing with my grandkids

wait is 53 too young for grandkids??? 😳 okay FINE. I'm not a milf or a gilf 😩 i'm 25 and don't even have a pet to mother.

ouiiiii. c'est de la poutine. lmfao jk i can't speak french 😩 also stop. not ur best friend :(((( its ok if it makes u feel any better mine lives in germany, so we have the same problem, huh?? they live hours ahead of us 🧍🏻‍♀️ she's out here waking up smetimes when it's like midnight for me 🤡🤡 the audacity cause then i cant go to sleep i gotta stay up and talk

tschö mit ö!! yea i got tons of wrinkes wanna see????

[5 min later cos of poutine]

stop im so hungry 😳 did u go to a poutinery?? u gotta hit up the ma and pa places ok?? otherwise ur not getting the full experience here.

ah maybe the germans just don't know what they're missing 😩

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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

My muse is:   canon / oc / au (I have one AU which can be read here!) / canon-divergent / fandomless /

Is your character popular in the fandom?  YES / NO.  

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK.

Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK. 

Are they underrated?  YES / NO.

Were they relevant to the main story?  YES / NO.

Were they relevant to the main character?  YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG.

Are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO. (He’s a damn HERO!)

How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL. (ALL OF THE ABOVE >:D) 

How strictly do you follow canon?

For me it’s a little weird since I originally intended this blog to be just about Sephiroth from Crisis Core to FF7 and Remake. But as I grew around the blog and began writing with more people, I felt the need to just fill in all of the blank canvas that was Sephiroth’s past. So I guess you could say I do follow canon to a certain extent? But 55% of my stuff is not considered canon and are just things I’ve added to add a little spice to my son! But yeah, canon wise I follow Remake as my main verse which considering the theories may just be the same Sephiroth we’ve known for the last 20 years. 

(Placing under a cut from here on out, I don’t want to make your dash messy) 

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutual.  

Okay, I don’t know how long this is gonna be but I hope I can get through all of the topics I wanna talk about without looking like I’m waffling. Firstly, a lot of people seem to forget that Sephiroth wasn’t just a monster, Messiah Complex psycho. Before his downfall, he is shown to be a kind hearted and gentle warrior, he had a heart and had support from his friends throughout the entirety of his military career. He was genuinely happy. 

If you’ve seen the clips of him in Crisis Core, I want you to pay close attention to Sephiroth’s facial expressions before Nibelheim. He has a natural smile, he’s calmer and more relaxed, his face is clean and no bags at all underneath his eyes and his hair is more well kept and tidy compared to his more deranged and haggard look in Remake. He tells Zack to take care and genuinely treats him as if he’s known him for years once they get close. Sephiroth clings onto his allies as if they were his own family. 

There are so many factors to consider when it comes to Sephiroth’s eventual descent into madness, it wasn’t just the books and reports underneath ShinRa Manor that drove him insane. While it played the biggest major factor in it all, other events still have to be considered.

 Genesis who became an actual IDIOT of a person tells Sephiroth that he was a monster. A man that he saw as his older brother, a close friend and comrade swooping in with the intention of using Sephiroth just to heal his degrading body asks for his help but not before legitimately TEARING into Sephiroth’s birth. It was insulting and incredibly disrespectful seeming as at that point Seph had already seen the failed experiements and JENOVA’s chamber. It all came in a huge wave all at once, and the ShinRa Manor discovery only served to be the final nail in the coffin. His entire life, a mere lie. 

When he goes insane, he’s ruthless. He’s scathing. What remains of the old Sephiroth can only be seen from his brute strength and his skills with a blade. He will end you if you even so thought about trying to stop or question his ideals but not before toying with you mentally.  He will break you, one way or another and he won’t stop until you are either. 

It is honestly one of the most heartbreaking things watching a good man who appeared to be fine physically, but mentally was so incredibly fragile. Deep down, he always felt detached from people even with the friends that he made. He tried so hard, but his mind was weaker than his body. He was consumed by Rage and an eldritch monstrosity whispering things in his ear.   

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).  

Maybe the tragic villain is something that’s played out too often? It’s definitely a trope that’s used quite a lot in media and Final Fantasy is no stranger in using it a lot in most of the main line games. Maybe people wanted more from Sephiroth that he just didn’t have character wise. 

I don’t know, I just feel as if some people might not like his motivations. I put it down as his mental state being so damaged from all the wars, the loss of his friends, and the cold hearted reality of his origins drove him insane but surely his rage could’ve been diverted to the true culprits which was just ShinRa?  For someone so strong why did he succumb so easily? Did Nibelheim really have to be burnt down? Could he have been sensible about it? Probably. But his mental psyche was utterly destroyed. 

What inspired you to rp your muse?  

My inspiration to play this muse honestly stems from my love for roleplaying villains. Sephiroth in this case was quite a unique specimen because of how many paths you could take your portrayal in. This character is easily one of the most complex I’ve written mainly because he’s two characters in one and both Sephiroth’s before and after Nibelheim are completely different. I honestly love the contrast. Like I’ve always wanted to muse him, but anxiety and worry that I wouldn’t be good at portraying him really took a dampener on my wish. Until now.

I love Sephiroth so much, everything about him just gels well with me. I get to write a hero and a villain. A kind hearted man and a psychopath. I get the best of both worlds. He’s such a flawed and tragic character and I just love exploring his psyche. 

What keeps your inspiration going?  

I have a playlist dedicated to Sephiroth that I smetimes listen too when I’m writing, I always try to rewatch particular scenes from specific games that he’s involved in to get into the muse. For example, pre Nibelheim I watch the Genesis vs Sephiroth vs Angeal fight and post Nibelheim I watch scenes from Remake. I also like to look up art and musings for Sephiroth, it definitely keeps the muse chuggin’! 

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO. (According to my mutuals and friends ;u;)

Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO. 

Do you sometimes write drabbles?  YES / NO.  

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES / NO. 

Are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO. (Sometimes I doubt myself, it honestly depends. These feelings can be pretty sporadic)

Are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO. (Same reason as above)

Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO.

Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?

I always accept criticism if it’s constructive, I will always ask for it when needed because I really do want to improve and make sure that my portrayal is as perfect as possible, but if you come to me spouting hate about the way I portay the character please don’t. Respect my portrayal, critique where applicable. 

Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?  

100% yes. Send development questions at me, I love them. 

If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why?  

You are entitled to your opinion. I don’t care if you disagree with my headcanons, I don’t care if you disagree with my ships. I am here to have fun, and my intentions are for you to have fun with me. But if said person disagrees, why bother following me or reading my stuff? The door is open for you to leave, you can find another Sephiroth that appeases you. 

If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?

A similar answer to the one above. My portrayal is my own, and I am proud of what I have achieved so far and the interactions I’ve had, and the ships that I have planned out on here. I love it so much and if they disagree with that, then they can unfollow me. Hell, if they want too, block me. They’re entitled to their opinion as long as they don’t flaunt it around. Just don’t be a dick about it tbh? 

If someone really hates your character, how do you take it

More power to them, hate Sephiroth all you want I won’t indulge these petty arguments about how Kefka was a better villain. I’m just gonna slurp on the salty tears and relax while writing about my favourite heartless boy. 

Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?  

I am always okay. I have a habit of never proof reading my stuff before I send it so my grammar is all wnky and over the place. I always want to improve as a writer and continue to grow as one, we can do this together should you wish <3 

Do you think you are easy going as a mun?  

I like to think I’m very easy going, I’m quite a shitlord when talking OOC. If you don’t mind me thirsting over my muse than we’ll get along just fine. I’m perfectly open for chats and whatnot, I’m a good listener. Sometimes I do end up being pretty clingy though, soooo... Let me give you hugs all the time. 

That’s about it, congrats for filling out!

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A storm of echoes (Bucky x Reader)

Prompt: Reader is a Mutant, a Necromancer. She works at the Charles Xavier’s Institute as a forensic, but one day she crosses the path of the Avengers. Things won’t ever be the same. 

Warning: None, it’s really platonic between those two (but you can see more if you want to)

Word count: I don’t even know x

Bucky didn’t like this place. It was full of people who were staring. Those weren’t really old, they were teenagers, even kids. He was a hundred years old, and they were really rude. They were just staring, but it was enough to make him really uncomfortable. Professor X was guiding the whole set of the Avengers through a Labyrinth of hallways and corridors. They didn’t want to see Cerebro, they needed something else. They went straight up in the morgue, only stopped by a few marveled kids, who wanted an autograph or just a look at them. Wanda was kind, Steve was playful, as Tony. Natasha and Bucky kept going. In the plain white morgue, they found a young woman, and a little kid by her side, seemingly trying to focus on something in her mind.

-Sorry to bother you, Y/N, but here are the Avengers. They wanted to take a look at the body. Maybe you could help them? Alright, Lizzie, go to Ororo, she was searching you in the whole manor. 

You nodded, resting your palm in the little girl’s back, pushing her gently to the door. She had the same power as you, and you were here to help get her focused. It was hard for kids. You knew it a bit too well. So you were here to make things easier. You smiled politely, hiding your little rejection at the handshake. The voices increased when you touch someone. Wanda frowned. You felt her presence in your head and you tried your best to get her off. 

-Sorry. I don’t like having someone in my mind. 

-How do you know how to reject someone? she asked in a curious tone. 

-I live with other people who have this ability. And I really dislike it, so I learned by myself. They aren’t prying, never, sometimes they aren’t even aware of this.

You smiled gently. You were fond of everyone in the manor. You loved them dearly, but sometimes, it was just too much. Having them in your mind. You knew they weren’t focused on your thoughts. They heard everyone at the same time. But it was enough noise for you. You took the covers off the corpse and took a deep breath. Bucky was looking at you, like you were not adding to the rest of his inner puzzle. You shrugged, and took a look at the dead body in front of you.

-We found this man, cold, dead, in front of the manor this morning. To me he’s dead for at least 72 hours. He was dressed with the typical Hydra suit, but it was all new. I could smell the washing powder. He has been strangled, you can see the bruises over here, and there. But that’s not what killed him. He has been poisoned. 

-Is this what the toxin analysis reveals, Y/N? Tony asked with a sly smile. 

You hated this man. You knew him and he knew you. You didn’t quite hate him, but he always was this little piece of shit in front of you, trying to embarrass you. You hated your powers. You were a freak, even in there, and smetimes, you went to ask yourslef if you really were a mutant. Maybe you were just a crazy girl, with voices in her head ?

-No, you sighed. The toxin analysis reveals nothing important. He told me that he has been poisoned.

-What the… started Natasha.

-Language. Please, Y/N, can you explain ? I don’t quite understand what do you mean, Steve said calmly and politely.

-She means she’s a Necromancer. And not a charlatan one. A real, and damn good one, Bucky stated, crossing his arms. She worked for Hydra, she knows how to recognize a plain new from an old suit. Am I right ?

You didn’t look at him. You were looking at the floor. You hated what you have been. You hated yourself for having worked with Hydra. But you were a child back to these days, and you didn’t know what you were creating. You were just telling what the voices in your head told you. The Hydra’s soldiers told you it was for the greater good, to bring peace, and eradicate all evil on this earth. So you were always happy to help them. You didn’t know how the damage you caused to this man.

-Yes you are, you murmured slightly, trying to disappear. But they needed you, you couldn’t leave all this, like you often did when you were younger. You had to face your responsabilities, you were not a kid anymore.

Wanda smiled kindly, fondly. You knew she was still in your head, and she was trying to calm you. To make you feel better. You smiled too, nodding, and you began to explain what you knew from the body.

-He has been captured by Hydra years ago. He has been held prisoner for all this time, being their slave and doing dirty work. He was supposed to blew the manor -it was his last mission, the last thing he had to do before being free- but someone poisoned him.

-And what if he’s lying to you ? Natasha asked, on an aggressive tone. Or what if you’re lying to us ? You were Hydra’s soldier, Bucky just tell. What if you’re still serving them ? What if you’re undercover ?

-You know how to spot someone- you tried, but Bucky brushed it off.

-Dead don’t lie, Nat. And she’s not a Hydra pet anymore. Now stop it.

Thanks to you -at least, that’s what Steve told you- they did found out a new Hydra base, and destroyed it. But even with all those kind things the Cap told you, you still couldn’t like your powers. You were the cause of so much pain, of so much broken things… And you always had all those voices talking to you, murmuring, or screaming, trying ti get your attention, trying to tell you so much things. It was hard to focus. You could do it only in the morgue. There were so many dead voices, and no human sounds. So you could wash them off. Keeping your mind fully closed and silent. Just staying there, sitting of the tiled floor, and relaxing. You knew every voice. Their name, tone, story, and what they were repeating all over. But you opened your eyes when you heard new voices. A hundred of voices, murmuring, storming around someone else -someone with a heartbeat.

-Y/N.

-James.

You still couldn’t stand his stare. You still could’t look at him. You helped them so much torturing him. They just told you it was someone else. It was normal. It was needed to help the world going better. And you were playing with toys as he was tortured, and his mind blanked out, again and again.

-You have changed. And I can’t see your teddy bear, he joked slightly, sitting next to you.

When you met him, back to this Hydra basement, when you had to touch him and to listen all those voices to know if he remembered something about his past, you always had a little teddy bear. Because the man was unsurprisingly threatening. He could have broke your neck without effort. He never did by the way. You kept the bear. All this time. You still  had it by your side, in your bed, when nightmares were terrifying. Now you knew everything you have done. And you knew cold-blooding story. Horrifying things the dead told you every minute of your life.

-You still have this Sarah’s voice around you. Like she’s protecting you. They never could get rid of it. Never. But I’ve never told them. I don’t know why. I think… She sounded like someone good. I surely didn’t see why they could need to get rid of it. Maybe…

-Thank you, he stopped you.

You stared at him. For the first time. You thought he would make joke about how you made his life like a hundred times worse. You couldn’t find what he was thanking you for. You stared at his blue-green eyes, without understanding what he meant.

-You were the only person I could remember. Not your name or your voice. Just your face. The touch of your little hand on my arm. Your softness. You never look at me like a weapon, a monster, or death itself. You were always smiling, kindly, shyly, and looking I don’t know where, because you couldn’t hold my stare.

-I still can’t, you mumbled for yourself.

-I don’t care. Thank you. You have been a little ray of sunshine. You should… Yeah. You should come with us. You would be great, there. Using your powers for real good. Choosing the causes you want to fight for. Et caetera. Steve is better than me for this kind of speech.

You chuckled lightly, trying to get rid of the little pink stains on your cheeks. Maybe it was the best thing to do. Maybe this time, you would really save the world, bring peace and stuff. You weren’t a girl to do missions and stuff but you could help. You could do something great. Something good. You could repair all the harm you’ve done.

But they needed you there, too. They needed you to inspect the bodies they could find. They needed you to protect this manor. Lizzie needed you to control her powers. You had to do this, because, you couldn’t let your family being harmed, or destroyed because you were too busy saving the rest of the world. You couldn’t bare the thought of the little girl being captured and used without her real consent to do all the things you have done. You were stuck. You felt something inside your head. A presence. Kind. Reassuring. You tried not to reject it. You recognized the Professore’s voice in your head.

-Lizzie is there, she’s safe. We have so many students who are able to protect the manor, the girl, and everyone else. You can go. They need you. They need you to help them save the world, and appease their inner ghosts. Okay ? Do it. Go fight for peace in the world. I know you believe in it as strong as me.

You sighed, and had a look at the ceiling. The morgue has been your safe place for so many years. You have been there for so many hours, and you struggled to tell yourself it was gonna be the last. You were twelve when they found you, and brought you here. You always knew the Manor, this aisle, these people, these voices. You will have to fight with new ones -all the Avenger’s victims. Cause there was the real problem. Dead voices didn’t only stuck to their bodies, but also to their relatives and murderer -when they have been killed. And you could hear all those, at the same time, every minute of your life.

But you were not going to change your mind.

-When do I start ?

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Kirk Franklin – Just For Me

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Kirk Franklin – Just For Me Lyrics

You keep on making a way, making a way just for me You keep on making a way, making a way just for me You keep on making a way, making a way just for me

Just for me Many doors you’ve closed just for me Smetimes you will say no So i’ll be tested in your fire To purify my desires So my blessings won’t be just for me So caught up in myself, i couldn’t see The world did not revolve around me So storms are in your will So i can feel what others feel, their needs If i could speak honestly

It don’t feel good, but growing never does It don’t seem fair for you to call this love But if necessary pain is the ingredient for change Even when life may be bittersweet, it’s working

Just for me All the moments i missed that were just for me Because i chose not to wait patiently But for every mistake was the same amount of grace That kept my blessing waiting Just for me But trusting your timing is not easy And what i want’s not always what i need Somewhere, i forgot, you are god and i am not, i see If i could speak honestly

It don’t feel good, but growing never does It don’t seem fair for you to call this love But if necessary pain is the ingredient for change Even when life may be bittersweet, it’s working (yes, you got me like)

Ooh-la-la (i’m being broken like) Ooh-la-la (come on, and now my heart is like) Ooh-la-la, la-la-la-la-la (sing) I’m singin’ Ooh-la-la (and now i’m growing like) Ooh-la-la (’cause it was painful like) Ooh-la-la, la-la-la-la-la (background, sing)

Chorus: It don’t feel good, but growing never does It don’t seem fair for you to call this love But if necessary pain is the ingredient for change Even when life may be bittersweet (truth is) It don’t feel good (let’s go), but growing never does It don’t seem fair (yeah, can you feel me?) For you to call this love (yes) But if necessary pain is the ingredient for change (yessir) Even when life may be bittersweet, it’s working (woo)

Just for me (you keep on making a way, making a way just for me) Just for me (you keep on making a way, making a way Just for me, just for me) Just for me (you keep on making a way, making a way just for me) Just for me (you keep on making a way, making a way just for me) Just for me

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