#sleepy... but im also soooo chilling

[transgaysex]

dude laying in bed feels crazy

[cloudcountry]

I’m Mario Kart anon hereeee and going to offer some more cute ideas with the Octavinelle boys! Less crack this time more fluff :) (I can’t get these out of my head and needed to ramble lol)

-Singing or playing musical instruments with Azul!!! Even if you’re not musically inclined or gifted, listening to music together is one of his favorite ways to unwind and stuff :) maybe kiss his beauty mark while he’s focused playing the piano or singing and don’t mention him messing up bc he became a flustered and blue blushy mess hngngnh :’3

-Cooking with or for Jade!!! He particularly enjoys having a partner or even platonic friend to banter with!! But deep down I think he’d also really enjoy just having someone look out for him yknow? Like you cook for him he walks in?? Asks what it is?? And you just wow him by saying what it is and that you’ve made sure to include some mushrooms on the side for him (since the three trio will also probably eat it too lol). He just goes :0 inside but then :) outside because boyo you totally made him feel all warm inside to include his interests and aaaa

-Floyd!!! Invasive thought that hasn’t left: he LOVES playing with your hair (if applicable)!!! Doesn’t matter the length or texture/type—dude is enamored. Like, he’s already pretty touchy yeah? Clingy mf /pos… smh /pos. So when he’s in his more relaxed n chill moods he’d lay down with you and just go :000 at how soft and nice your hair is??? Like he’s really amazed lmao, if it’s long enough he will absolutely braid it and unbraid it~ I need him to, I’d be OUT like a light— :’)

im going to tag you as 🏎️ anon then!!! lmk if you'd like me to change the emoji and i will HASHAGDHSGDJS

you came for my throat with this azul scenario and i LOVE you for it. a flute and a piano would make a really pretty combination,,, that makes me so happy HWHAHWHAH AHAHHHAHAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE LOVE LOVE THE KSISING HIS BEAUTY MARK TROPE AND THE THOUGHT OF HIM STUMBLING???? HIS HANDS SHAKING????? TRIPPING OVE RHIS TONGUE AND HITTING A SHARP NOTE BY ACCIDENT?????????? BEING UNABLE TO LOOK AT YOU AS HE FURROWS HIS BROW AND TRIES TO PRETEND LIKE YOU DIDN'T JUST KISS HIM???????????????????? GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THANK YOU ANON I WILL BE THINKING ABOUT THIS FOR WEEKS.

YOU ALSO CAME FOR MY THROAT W THIS JAD EONE???? MY LOVE LANGUAGE IS ACTS OF SERVICE SO YOU BET I WILL BE MAKING TEA FOR THIS MAN AND RUBBING HIS SHOULDERS AFTER EVERY SHIFT. i loevllovoelovleoev when jade gets sappy about someone paying attention to his interests because people usually think its disgusting :(((( i would love to watch the usually composed and silent jade talking about mushrooms for hours and getting that look on his face (THE ONE IS HIS LABWEAR GROOVY ART..............AAWHWHAWAHWAHWSG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

its SOOOO canon that floyd plays with hair i agree. genuinely love how touchy he is even if most people run away from him i need a good bad cracking every now and then. i do feel like floyd's a yanker when it comes to hair and he'd probably say something like "why are ya wincing like that, shrimpy? i haven't even done anything yet!" with a shit eating grin because hes TERRIBLE!!!!! /aff i'm sure he could be calmer though, like if he's sleepy....softly petting your hair as he yawns OBNOXIOUSLY LOUD and snuggles as close to you as he can.

i loved this. anon you're a genius and i now worship the ground you walk on, thank you for sharing i'm treasuring these forever!!!!!!!!!!

[cosmine19]

1, 3, 24, 26 for ALL (except Rog)

ALL OF THEM?? OK

Reg:

A voice claim?? god I don't know voice actors at ALL, but I do know how his voice would go. It's calm, quiet, not squeaky, uhhh, a little low pitched? He get's higher pitched when full of anxiety.

Girl I don't know songs. I associate rock, uhhh whatever david bowie music genre, with him though.

Reg cannot play any instruments. Moon dont have doot doots.

Moonflower. Evening primrose.

Silver:

Whatever voice Steph was making. That squeaky, kinda sarcastic tone.

SILVER SONGS??? uh. Maybe like lullabys?

If Silver could. They would play the harmonica.

Dandelion.

Ellen:

UH... Snarky girl voice, a tiny itty bit of valley girl.

I associate stuff like, All American Rejects with her.

She doesn't have the patience for making music.

Coral honeysuckle.

Cometman:

Wackerly actually got it pretty spot on. It's like a way chiller Wolverine.

Virtual Insanity.

My dude would absolutely play guitar for fun if he knew about them and could even get his hands on one

Morning glory.

Eni:

His vocal lack of inflections are based on a friend of mine, but he's got a normal tone and a very quiet voice soooo idk?

Some Lo-Fi chill music aaaaaaaaa

He would probably play the piano if it were quieter and only he could hear it. And he's too shy to ask his moms for an electronic keyboard. And video games/coding interest him more..... So no. :(

Skeleton flower.

One:

He's got a chipper voice with an average guy tone, talks fast, clearly, and deliberate. Kinda like a lawyer?

I am all I am Eurobeat Remix.

He doesn't see the point in learning a music instrument cause then he'd basically be a vocaloid.

Red spider lily.

Nero:

Gravely and annoyed constantly like Buttercup from Power Puff Girls, but less whiny and childish.

Just like. The most intense metal shit. But mainstream metal like metallica. Cause she's boring in that regard.

Wouldn't be caught dead enjoying instruments.

Aconitum uncinatum Monkshood.

I think that's all of them? I don't know voice actors or music, but damn if i don't know some flowers hell yeah.

You know what im not done im gonna go off about plants

So Moonflowers refers to a type of morning glory and also angel trumpets and I kinda associate both with Reg These cause they bloom at night/evening, and are neat and white

Angel trumpets cause they also do that and also they're toxic and cause sleepiness

Pink Evening Primose cause they bloom at dawn and I really like them cause they survive and some personal reasons

Silver and dandelions :)

Ellen n Coral Honeysuckle, a viney plant with many many red orange flowers. Provides a lot of sweet energy for hummingbirds. Hard to kill.

Cometman and blue morning glory. This is a reallllly old personal association back when he was blue and yellow color schemed. Another viney plant, got a star shaped center.

Eni and skeleton flower. Cause he's a shy bastard who will disappear immediately upon being spotted.

One and Red Spider Lily. Red for the color similarity, its ornate, and its associated with death.

Nero and Blue Monkshood. Looks cool and purple and is toxic as all hell.

[icysab]

hiya :) i'd like to request an enha matchup! I'm 5'3, with very short black hair, dark brown sleepy eyes, and im slightly chubby and curvy (but i like to think of it as being squishy 😌) I have olive skin and i wear glasses. I'm an infp, pisces and slytherin, when meeting new people i try to bond over shared interests but it feels awkward at times. I have like 3 close friends and theres quite a bit more, but i've never really fully trusted anyone in my life...haha I'm kinda the "smart chill friend" in my group, but im a bit clumsy, and i get scared of a lot of things like horror movies, crime documentaries, bugs, reptiles etc etc. and failure i'm also absentminded and it takes me time to form a reply :") my hobbies are reading, singing, photography, nail art, watching anime, painting, sketching and resin art...but im pursuing engineering 🙂 im only doing it for money, my ideal life would just be raising 2 cats and a dog. i dislike most sports because my bed is my bestie. I have a major sweet tooth 😅 i had many visits to the dentist as a child </3 And i got my glasses when i was 10 yrs old because i read so many novels 😭 my music taste is all over the place but my favs are conan gray, enhypen ofc, newjeans, maneskin, mitski, lana del ray and bruno mars my ideal type is someone supportive, loyal, fun and preferably confident...i don't care much about appearance. that's all ty <3 have some strawberries with chocolate!🍓🍫

SUNGHOON !! i get such strong hoonie vibes like he just seems soooo you

[lettersfromaphrodite]

hi so a little life update (im the girl who didnt get the twice tix btw lol) i went to this orchestral concert yesterday and it was magical ��� they played family film favourites and i teared up it was too emotional for me :(( my favourite is how far I'll go from moana!! and when they played harry potter i got chills also kinda funny but it made me so sleepy???!!! i guess ik what to listen to if i cant sleep at night which happens quite often hahah oh and i bought the upper circle seats (the cheapest) but i think it has the best view bc you can see everything from above and the view is just so pretty!!! floor seats are soooo damn expensive and i dont see any empty seats damn people are really just that rich huh anyways i wish it was longer than 1 ¼ hour this was my first orchestra and i wanna make this my new way of destressing and spoiling myself 🤞🏻 also can i be 🍉 anon or is it taken?

🍉 emoji booked and busy all for you dear sweetheart! 🥳

orchestral concerts are incredibly underrated like I love them so much!! It's a shame because over here people are like "orchestral concerts = ah yes the music old people like" bUT?????? they're magical indeed, especially if they're playing songs that have been important for you and of course they're also really relaxing!!!

floor seats are for rich people like, I remember I could afford floor seats in theaters when I was in high school and there was a super special price for students, but once I graduated I always bought upper circle seats as well

spoil yourself, treat yourself, that's what you should do and I'm proud of you for this!!! 🧡

[caruliaa]

okay holy shitttt i am tireddddd which is crazy its only 12:30… ok i guess thats maybe late ISNSJSK but likeidk its so weird bxuz its not like summer late its j regular late.. D:!!! and i am tired by itDDDD::!!! but also thats good really i am always happier when im sleepy and can get sleepy than when im not and i cant so ISNSJS its okay actuallie!!! anywayyyyy what i actually wanted to say was that:’333!!!! i love uou soooo much dear like. omg i miss you sm ofc and like yesh i ofc ofc understand ur business since ive been rlly busy in recent times as well but like ykw i miss you ofc still bcuz ykw!! ilu!! but i love to listen to the audio recording u sent and to read your messages and everything bcuz like yeah they bring me sm joy and u bring me sm joy and happiness and warmth and are such a wonderful friend and person!! and i really just hope to be really the exact same to you in being that good a friend and stuff and j being here for you yah:’>>>!!! i love you my ladybird!!! (hugs you!!! if you want to ofc!!! 💕💕💕💕💕🫶🏻🫶🏻💕💕💕🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻💕💕💕🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻)

yayea i get that and like i hope u do sleep well bc sleep is important and good and makes ur body more chilled out hell yaa (can u tell i havent been following the advice im giving here DFHDGDF) ANYWAYY !!! omg ur so so sweet my bleovedd omgg ;; i love you too so so much i really really do !!!i rly have missed you too smm i feel rly sad we havent been able to talk and much and as often but like whenever we have been able to and just like thinking of you and stuff thru my day has always been soso lovely and stuff and just has made my day sm like you really are just like. such such such an incredible wonderful part of my life and my everyday and like make me feel soso so safe and warm and cared for and loved and you really are such a wonderful comfort in my life and bring me soso much joy every single day and just trully are soso incredible and amazing my dearest like both as a friend and a person and you really really do mean the world to me and i hope you know that sm i rly rly do !!! :'> i love you too so so much !!!! <3 *hugs u back sm if u wish !!!* 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞

[delimeful]

First time they saw Patton cuddling with Virgil? (Like y’know the energy thing maybe?) Or Virgil protecting the three of them from some other alien?

Okay, now that Making Adjustments is out in full, I’m posting all the asks that inspired me for certain parts or even just to continue writing! Thank you to everyone who sent in ideas/what they wanted to see/theories, I really appreciate it! All asks under the cut!

@ironwoman359 said: I’d be really interested to read about what the first week or two aboard the ship with all four of them was like. I’m sure it was a big adjustment for all of them, and it’d be really cool to see!

@skeletonsloverockcandy said: WINBAR prompt - Virgil’s first night on the ship, is not with Patton, and gets a nightmare. Logan finds him and Virgil has to explain his nightmare/dreams

@the-princey-pie said: Logan mentioned that Virgil would probbaly have trouble fitting through the space ship doors. Now I really want to see Vorgil stepping into their spaceship the first time/navigating it for the first few weeks.

@indigomasquerade97 said: WIBAR prompt. Virgil is Stitch from Lilo and Stitch. You know the scene I’m talking about! ;) Roman is still freaked out with the idea of having a human on board, and one night (maybe on patrol, since he is still jittery from loosing Patton and doesn’t want to loose him - or Logan - again) and he gets freaked out by the nocturnal human suddenly being in the room? IDK

Anonymous said: So. I was wondering for the WIBAR prompts, what was Virgil’s first night on the ship like? How did Roman and Logan act towards him? And is he worried that his relationship with Patton is going to change now that he’s back with his family? Sorry if this is a lot…

Anonymous said: WIBAR prompt idea: Food! Since food is often culturally connected for humans, would it be the same for our alien friends? And if they have any, from Virgil’s pov., strange food items etc. Would be interesting to see considering they are all from such different species. :D

@justanotherpurplebutterfly said: WIBAR: did Patton tell his crewmates how to interpret Virgil’s body language? Did they figure it out for themselves? Did they struggle to remember when they saw him smile or stretch (and make himself big) or something?

Anonymous said: I would love to see some V POV or adjustment period/cultural differences! (particularly L/R’s reactions to V smiling, differences in diet/hunting styles, what V considers a threat vs. what LMP consider threats… anything that highlights the deathworlder in Virg! (Space Australia is like my fav thing that came out of tumblr)) also maybe some more of L/R’s thoughts on Patton befriending a space boogieman?? I really really love this au! :)

Anonymous said: OoOOooh okay how about,, Virgil’s POV as they head back to Roman and Logan’s ship and get on, (and maybe if he doesn’t know the species Logan and Roman are he could ask? That seems the easiest way for us to learn more about the boys without it being too awkwardly shoved in) and V’s probably awkward because he doesn’t know Lo and Ro and Ro’s openly hostile and he wasn’t expecting to go along with them and idk you decide. Also :DD wibar’s not done yet!! Tysm; I’m really enjoying it!

@bishopriecke said: Okay, so I’ve got a couple prompts so I’ll send them separately in case that’s how you’d wanted them? The story is absolutely adorable and it made me think of the sleeping habits back on the ship. There’s space for Virgil, but will Pat gravitate to sleeping with him, since it was such a comfort and Virgil only gets sleepy if he snags energy during cuddles? If he’s tired/virgil’s stressing over something will he wander over to where Virgil is chilling and settle in his lap? How’s Ro&Lo react?

@bumblebeekitten said: Do any of the others attempt to learn Virgil’s language? Or maybe Virgil quietly tries to dispel some of the more hurtful rumors about ‘deathworlder humans’?

Anonymous said: What would wibar Roman and Logan do if they couldn’t find Patton? Would they assume Virgil had done something?

Anonymous said: While waiting for more WIBAR, I keep re-reading everything (Act 1, Intermission, all the world building asks). Right now, I just want to plead with Patton to go find Virgil as he needs comfort, to calmly tell Logan that I don’t blame him, and to hiss at Roman that, while he has had bad experiences and that is valid, he needs to be nicer. Granted, a reaction like that from a human fan-nut probably wouldn’t help Virgil’s case… but he needs a hug so much right now!

Anonymous said: i’m thinking there’s lots of potential for hurt/comfort with this chapter. Virgil’s obviously panicking so i reckon he’s gonna have to try and convince himself that he can trust Patton if not the others. i feel like virgil still wont trust the others but they’ll get to see that he’s not always this big, strong deathworlder and he gets scared just like them. he’s been traumatised and he cares for Patt a lot and theyll try to understand eachother better and hopefully become friends/gain some trust

Anonymous said: that is very much wishful think and a need for my boys to be happy though haha. soz, that probably wasnt very helpful for writing but thats just something i’d like to see happen but i KNOW that whatever you end up writing is gonna be fabulous (ran out of room on my last ask and couldnt even sign it, whoops)

@justanotherpurplebutterfly said: I’m mainly really curious how Roman will react. If he has even have as big of an imagination as buobba Roman then he will probably interpret Virgil’s outburst as a violent attack and try to frame him as a danger they shouldn’t keep on the ship. However if he was able to detect Virgil’s fear then this might be the first step of them growing closer. Idk which I like better, because on one hand I want them to to get along and witness wacky human things in an amicable atmosphere, but on the other hand, misunderstandings are soooo good!!!! Most of all I want Virgil to get a hug though. Poor boy deserves one. I don’t care with who it is, although I suspect it will be Patton because no way the other ones trust Virgil enough and vice versa.

@yalltookmyurlideas said: Haha wibar fears? There are,,, so many. My main fear is that Roman will misinterpret Virgil’s panic to mean he’s hiding something and not see it for the panic and fear it is.

Anonymous said: I was thinking about for WIBAR, are we going to find out more about Virgils life on Earth? Is there angst there or is it irrelevant? Also would Logan and Roman go after Virgil themselves so as not to worry Pat or would they realise this was a situation they couldn’t solve? OR does Roman think V is attacking them and goes to hurt him? Sorry long ask but I’m excited for the chapter 😅😅🥰🥰

Anonymous said: Ayyy super late gang, barely got a hour of sleep bc anxiety/nightmares so yeehaw. I guess for WIBAR, the most essential thing to consider is how you want Making Adjustments to sorta add onto its characters & how they interact. Idk that ofc, but I think the situation is going to resolve into a ‘im only human’ (the irony) kinda situation and the crew (maybe minus patton??) only /starting/ to grasp the human is a bunch of damaged goods who is lowkey more scared of them than they are of he (½)

Anonymous said: (2/2) how i see the situation going down? Depends who finds him. If it’s Pat, he could sing him clam like in the cell. If its Roman or Logan, odds are Virgil’s gonna b scared & his response will be to Fight or Freeze, as he already did the Flight option. Virgil reacting like a cornered animal would be terrifying Ro and Lo. (Also Ro and Lo going to wake up Pat for Human Help has the same vibes of a child waking up their parents to tell them they puked lmao)

@killerfangirl3 said: After where you left last chapter, I am 100% terrified Roman will find Virgil before Patton and cause real danger to everyone. After all Virgil is flooded with adrenaline right now and he barely knows how his strength affects the metal? of the ship as it is. The sudden increase in strength if he was attempting to defend himself could cause him to put a hole in the ship.

@hotchocolatehugs said: Oh! Also, would Virgil calm down if Patton found him, or would it just make him worse/more crazed? I dunno about his state of mind, but if I were in his position I would probably be acting aggressively to anyone who came in. Do aliens have hot chocolate or tea, or some equivalent drink? Because I think Virge needs a calming drink. (sorry if this is too much!)

Anonymous said: I saw your latest post and all I could think about is Virgil stuck on the appliance, really high up and close to the ceiling unseen while he sees Roman and Logan below. Maybe a bit of a language barrier while they say some words that Virgil may not no yet and jumping to conclusions and filling in the blanks in the sentences

Anonymous said: I’m afraid that In WIBAR, Roman may keep Pat from going to find and comfort Virgil and just…leave him up there

@katelynn-a-fan said: Mission impossible theme while looking for Virgil. Too short can’t see Virgil on top appliance. Mission impossible theme continues and fades into the distance. (That’s all I got)

Anonymous said: WIBAR suggestions/predictions/fears: I worry about Roman or Logan finding Virgil before Patton - Roman because I don’t think he will be understanding about how afraid Virgil is; Logan because I think that would scare Virgil more. He might break out of his flight stage into fight, and that could make them fear him more. But, while worry about this scenario, maybe it would be for the best. Maybe one or both need to find him at a low to see that he isn’t a monster, just scared.

@enby-phoenix said:

OK so wibar thoughts! I’m a little concerned that Roman will think that Virgil was genuinely trying to attack him with that chair and also probably trying to hurt Logan, and he’s gonna get upsetti. I also think that the way they figure out what’s made Virgil go all fight or flight will probably involve Logan doing the memory share thing, but it’ll take them a bit to get close enough without Virgil threatening to bite Logan’s hands off.

Also PLEASE let my boy eat a full meal and get some proper sleep!

I would also love to see Virgil curled around Patton protectively but everyone knows that it’s Patton who’s making Virgil feel safe.

Another prediction is that Logan, realizing that SOMETHING bad just happened, and knowing that all his information on humans seems to be incorrect or at least not apply to this one, will go to Patton for advice on what to do regarding Virgil’s sudden change of behavior, and how to calm him down again. Cause Patton is the resident expert on Virgil.

I also imagine that Logan might keep his note taking to himself again for a bit, until Virgil believes that he’s not the bad kind of scientist.

I love that Virgil climbed on top of the tallest thing he could find, and I imagine that if it’s above everyone else’s usual eyelines, they each walk past him multiple times while they’re worriedly searching the ship for him.

I’m mostly imagining Virgil clinging to Patton like a lifeline and the other two aliens worrying for their tiny friend but Patton knows that Virgil is just scared and sings him the “calm down baby it’s okay I’m here” hatchling soothing song until Virgil calms down a little, and then still staying with him while explanations are had. They do not come out of the small space on top of the tallest appliance and Roman doesn’t like that but he’ll deal.

Now that I’m thinking about it more, one of the best ways for Logan to gain (at least a little bit of) Virgil’s trust would be for Virgil to see his honest reaction to what the other scientists did to him. Cause based on what I know of Logan, he would be horrified. And that might help Virgil to realize that Logan ISN’T LIKE those other scientists.

Anonymous said: *gets out the defibrillator to help kickstart the creative juices* At this point Virgil is running on fumes and when the trio find him Patton tries to comfort him. But he’s too stressed and feels betrayed and there’s just too much inner turmoil for him to hold back so he finally breaks down in front of them. Perhaps it’s not Patton that manages to calm him down, but Roman who finally recognizes him as a traumatized person rather than “just an evil human” :D

@enby-phoenix said: tbh Virgil probably hisses at either Logan or Roman at some point and it makes them nervous and confused.

Anonymous said: Roman forcing Virgil down from his hiding spot. 'Blade’ to his neck and tying him to a chair. Virgil thinking that he shouldn’t have run and that they are going to be even angrier at him now, ergo more painful experiments. Begging to be put under for the cutting away and to please don’t get mad at Patton (just in case Patton was trying to be a good friend).

Anonymous said: Suggestion for WIBAR - Roman goes looking for Virgil, all ready for a confrontation. But, when he finds him, Virgil unknowingly makes some sort of gesture that means fear/terror to Roman’s people and he stops and evaluates the situation with clearer eyes. This gives Patton/Logan/both a chance to get there.

Anonymous said: Can we get somr wibar fluff/angst?

Anonymous said: I’m just waiting for WIBAR Virgil to just pass out and the panic of everyone that sees him. Or Roman threatening him or Logan goes to touch him and BAM he’s on the floor!

Anonymous said: Stuff for WIBAR: 1: who’s gonna find Virgil? 2: what’re they gonna do with him? 3: how’s he gonna react? – Options: Patton: tries to comfort him Virgil: can’t decide whether to trust or not, maybe leading to emotional outburst and sad PatPat – Logan: scared cuz danger goblin had an outburst at him. Wondering what he did wrong & how to best proceed Virgil: 'he’s gonna do tests on me’ fight or flight – Roman: 'so, if you hurt my friends imma hurt you’ Virgil: fight or flight – ½

Anonymous said: 2/2 Of course those aren’t the only options, but it was fun for me, and I hope it got creative juices flowing for you as well. I love all your writing, and I want you to know that you can take as long as you need to be proud of your work. It’s okay. And take care of yourself too! You can’t make as good of work when you aren’t feeling as good as usual

[itsjusta]

TAAS2 NI DOEEE HEHEHE READ EVERYTHING HUUUH!!

Feb 15 (Mon)

i got so busy in da hapon doe 🥺 i cleaned da cr huhu im so kapoyyy and then i felt a little kulbaan doeee cos nag huna2 ko sako sched sa mon-wed dis week issa so busy doeee :((( i have to do pa today one assignment and then practice for our prelims then finalize half of my midterms theeeen study for ur philo HAHAHAHAH aissshhh i also feel very kahilakon doeee idk and my arms kay murag ga kurog2 doe :(( aish im too busy for these feelings!!!!

4:15 pm —— i was doing my assignment but idkkkk my heart is beating fast jd doeee and my arms feel numb and ga kurog2 and i have this kulbaan feeling :((( UGH issa need to take a break :(( also wanna cry but i cant cry doeee but i eventually cried na dayon doeee

i also didnt continue to work nalang doeee issa i dont feel well physically and emotionally hahahha 😟 im back to working doe and i cried a looootttt cos im writing about love HAHAHAH

but the practice was cancelled sooo i started na my surprise for u para mas less2 ako i do ugmaaa i started na the peanut butter bars unta lang di ma epic fail uyyy or basin di diay ta mag kita sa wed hilak ko!!!!

Feb 16 (Tues)

issa wake up ko so early kay gi wake up ko sako groupmates and aishhhh so busy na dayon mi prac and do sa amo midterms!!!! 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ and i’m so sleepy na gyd doeee huhu

so kapoy ni nga day doe cos whole day atubang sa screen issa maka drain doe and maka labad sa head issa wa gyd ko na do nga acads kay mag utro pami reshoot so sayang effort but sge nalang doeee huhuhu alsooo excited for my surprise tooom hope u like it :((((

Feb 17 (Wed)

Woke up at 7:30!!! so early so sayo pd ko nag cook for your giftsss and for our lunch hehehe im always excited to cook for u doe and give u gifts 🥺🥺🥺 and aishhh im really happy doe that u still laag hereee issa when i’m with u i feel safe gyd doe 🥺🥺🥺 u give me so much comfort gyd doe thank u sooo much 🥺🥺 even though u dont say it, i know u care a lot for me gyd doeee (or maybe assuming lang ko hahahah) but aishhh thank u for keeping me in your life :((

i’m sorry i cried a lot doeee huhu idk also but aishhh its hard for me to let go of you gyd doeee and moments like this issa makes me realize na i still have so much love for u gyd doe :((( issa both tears of joy and sadness man to kanina!! hahahha im happy na u still make time for me doeee and im happy gyd that i get to be with youuu but also sad cos aishhh issa i know everything is so hard gyd doe and usahay ra au ta makauban huhu what i said was true doeee that i will endure everything basta its for ur happiness!! hehhe u know i’ve endured sooo much the past months but i never got angry with u gyd doeee cos i know u were happy man with your decisions!!! heheh i can never hold bad feelings for u gyd doeee my heart is just full of gratitude and love for u!!!! i just want u to be happy saimo life doeee career, acads, family life, with friends, and saimo gf doeee heheh even though its so sakit for me but i just want gyd na mahappy ka heheh and aishhh im happy gyd doe nga part pako saimo lifeee 🥺🥺 im happy that u talk to me pa doeee and that i still get to be with youuu heheh makes me happy that you’re there for me whenever i have chikaaa!!!! thankkkkk youuu eriiiiccc!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️

and giving gifts is one way i can show how much i appreciate you doeee :((( and thank youuuu for making me feel cared for and special :((( issa u always make me feel lyk dat gyd doeee with ur hugs and kisses thank u :(((( and aish i get so soft for u gyd doe esp when u cry huhuhu dont cry na ok!!!! i’m happy this way man heheh i’m happy doe that u still let me show my love for u and im happy and grateful that u keep me in ur life doe 🥺 i just always hope and pray that my heart can endure watching u love another doe just until i can move on hehe and i think my heart is getting stronger naman doe but aish there are just times gyd that i cannot kaya it heheh but das okay ryttt!! thank youuu kaayo for coming here doeee thank u for giving me your time and for the effort!!! i appreciate it so much doe cos i know its hard gyd to come visit me with your situation now but u still make time for me gyddd thank youuuuu 😭😭😭❤️❤️

anddd how r u doe??? maulaw ko ask in person doe idk why :((( i hope you’re okay lang also haaaa maybe hurting napd ka there :((( i want u to be genuinely happy doeee and i will also get there soon!! apas rako!!! ❤️

Feb 18 (Thurs)

started my day early cosss we had to shoot sa gmeet doeee heheh its a nice day doe idk why!! the weather is nice heheh also i chika to u about khalid doeee hahaha shhh lang ok!!! 🤣 issa i got scared doe i just inbox zone him HAHAHHAHA di jd ko ga entertain ug mga laki doeee cos i dont have gana gyd to talk to others doe!! issa just want to be single lang gyd doeee cos di pako ready also wa pa gani ko ka move on!!! hahahahha

dis day was nice and chill lang doeee i did ur finman hehhe and had an exam dayooon and watched kdrama with mom!! pa tatt nako toooom OMGGG are u excited for me too?!!

Feb. 19 (Fri)

got my first tatt ommgggg it was sakit doeee but kaya lang!!! heheh i was also so excited to chika gyd to u doeee but i know galaag ka busa i have to wait doeee :((( aish issa ka cry dayon ko cos why am i so excited to talk to someone na naay lain priority :((( HMP KALUOY BA AYA!! HAHHAHA but aishhh issa i prefer lang like dis doe kesa i will pugos myself to entertain and talk to others issa cannot gyd doe cos i really dont have the gana hehhe just letting myself cry and maoy now doeee it’s just times like these when i realize how painful this situation is doe

also read this quote on ig dayon nga “I suppose I’ll just keep loving you, until one day it ends.” 🥺🥺 aish made me cry again cos i think this is what i’m gonna do gyd doeee and i hope u just let me love you until then doeeee 🥺 be happy and inlove with another doeee i’ll just be by your side loving you hehe and thank u for letting me love you and be in ur life!!! i dont think my love for u will end doe but u know what i mean hehe thank u cos u not shutting me out or pushing me away hehehe issa i’m sorry i always sorry doeee its just dat i feel like i’m putting u in a bad place :(( but ahhh i appreciate you so much doe and everything u do for me!! :((( thank u also for being so supportive and appreciative for meee aishhhh thank u for making me feel special ����

Feb 20 (Sat)

happy marriage anniv to ur parents doeee!!! hehehe

woke up at 9:30 then cooked carbonara hehe gitiwas nalang nako pasta smol nalang maaan tired ko uy hehe issa rest day also today from acads doeee issa uban man ko there ila ate sweet and issa tambay2 lang ko there doeee tas pag uli so tayurd ko ka nap ko sa byahe and sa house kadjot hehe then at night watch lang ko kdrama sa room ni mom hehehe issa i like having no acads to do!!

Feb 21 (Sun)

soooo tugnaaaaw cos there’s a bagyo i woke up at 10 na!!! issa grabe ako kurog2 uy heheheh ion like dis weather issa so colddd dili ko ka lihok2 ug ayo cos tugnaw!!

issa also cried today cos aish i remembered our memories doeee and how we were so clingy with each other esp me 🥺🥺 issa like di jd ta agwanta not mag kita dugay doe and di pd ta sumhan sa each other hahahaha we were sumpay tinae gyd!!! aishh idk dali ra gyd kyko maka cry basta maka think ko about you or about sato past doeee issa aish cannot contain gyd emotions :((( and even if now i dont get the same effort from u doe its okaaay becos i chose this man pddd i chose to be in your life gihapon hhehe and aishhh lets just sulit dis doeee i want to sulit pd nga maka talk pako saimoha cos maybe a year from now dili na doeee!! maybe pila ka months imo nako i shoo shoo saimo life!!!! hhahahah but thank u doeee cos i know u want to keep me in ur life gihapon bahala lisod 🥺🥺 thank u im touched huh!!!

[scorpcorpse]

5/18/20 - type time 732-822pm

so yesterday i went on tinder just like i always do when im feeling extra bored and lonely. well anyway i matched with cute looking boy so he messages me. 

PS im writing all of this here because i feel weird telling my friends what was all said. i told them a bit but not everything.

so we end up talking, and surprisingly it was a good conversation. it was very random though. im laughing and smiling at my phone. my conversations die fast or are about topics i dont really care for. im always into the conversation though no matter what especially because i like talking to people. moving on, you cant send picture on tinder so he sends me his number while reassuring me that he wont be sending dick pics (yay). he’s ranting on and on, flooding my phone with compliments. we’re talking this whole quarantine to him thanking the universe he’s glad he’s talking to a person who is pretty and cool. we talk about all the weird interactions we’ve had on this app and how everyone is soooo horny. he goes to tell me he loves my hair, he says i look like the type of girl, in a show, if i had just gone through hell, and i were to run my fingers through my hair it would just fall back into over my face so perfectly. i was like wtf. i didnt know what to say because that is very very very far from the truth. i would just look like hell. we go on to talk about our personalities and whether we are more introverted or extroverted. he’s more introvert while im more extrovert. i told him though it kind of changes depending on the situation like if i was on a date or getting serious with a person. we talk about how we hate it when people are mean to others by telling others to be quiet when theyre being too loud when it isn’t bothering anyone (does that make sense) like if youre having a good time by yourself and someone tells you to shut up or be quiet because it’s annoying them. he said he would never ever tell me to be quiet. he’s only really loud when he’s excited or passionate about something. we talk more of our dating life, he has a bigger dating pool than me though. he asks me again for the fifth time later; how am i doing, are you bangin, are you sewing sweaters? he wants to know everything. this all has me confused and intrigued. is it weird that i feel like he is very interested in actually talking to me. he asks me if i would be willingly to break quarantine to hang out. i tell him quarantine is okay eh.. im holding up okay, i do need to worry about my big head that only has two brain cells left. i also tell him im the biggest broke bitch he’ll ever meet. he says i wont ask you to pay for anything so dont worry your big head. he understands i dont want to go out. he says we can just talk and hangout over facetime. he proceeds to ask if he can ft me right now. its 2am and i look like a fucking mess. i say im a catfish he says fuck it, im half awake and im not looking for looks. next thing i know he’s calling. we talk for three hours. 

what happens in those next three hours is weird. i dont even know what happened. well immediately i ask him about his tattoos so he gives me the whole run down of his tattoos on his arms. there super cool i like them. my favorite word is yuck and apparently that’s his too because he has that tattooed on his wrist. the meaning is sad kind of he said thats how he felt about himself when he was younger so that drove him to doing that tattoo to himself. he has another arm tattoo where he throws a small detail of him having it to remind him of his friend, his old life of being on the streets and being addicted to drugs. this threw me off because he brushed over it like it was nothing. i didn’t know what else to say. i said uh okay. i wanted to scream are you okay? are you sober now? how are you? but nothing came out. he talks of his other tattoos. conversation changes to him complimenting me again. he wants to see my while face instead just my eyes and nose. i tell him about piercings. he talks about his band. he talks about the punk community. he’s rambling but it doesn’t bother me because i like how soft and soothing his voice is. he continues telling me how pretty i am, like he doesn’t stop for like two minutes. at this point i tell him im not going to respond to you anymore, im not going to take it. he tells me to take it. i take it. i dont believe him though. he can’t see my body, he can barely see my face. i have ance and my face is fat. i know i look disgusting. as he continues to say nice things about me i feel like he’s lying because no one does that. i feel like he’s saying to just make fun of me. im hating all of this. i try not to blush. im smiling. i always change the subject when he makes me feel weird and uncomfortable by saying okay or alrighty anyway. he asks me where are you from, whats make me, me? i try to think of things to say. i tell him about my being in california with no family. i tell him that the one thing that matters the most to me if my relationship with my little sister and all my friends. he agrees because same. he goes on to relate and tells me he’s all alone too. he tells me his dad is gone, his mom is too. he’s an alcoholic. he’s sober now he’s been sober for a year now. he’s okay. i tell him im sorry. im proud of you and how far you have come. im always here if you want to talk. he says no no no no dont say any of that stuff. i tell him again and that i mean it. i really do mean it too. (IF NONE OF THIS MAKES SENSE AND YOURE STILLING READING THANK YOU AND ILY, IF YOU KNOW ANYONE WITH OBSESSIVE OR ADDICTIONS please be there for them, it gets super hard to be there but try and help them push through another day) we go on to more random talking. before i finally get sleepy and he says he’s gonna let me go and sleep. he asks if we can see each other. he tells me when he first saw me he wanted to fuck me but he knew that wouldn’t make him feel any better. he’d still be alone. he then decided to message me because he actually felt like putting in the effort to get to know me. not just for sake of fucking me but to know me like he seems to do a little now. he doesn’t much know about me though. he asks if we can talk tomorrow. he says i hope we can actually meet up and im totally cool with just hanging out with you and just vibing. we dont have to do anything. i just want to chill with you. i tell him thanks for telling me all of this. i appreciate it because many guys dont say any of this. i say yes we can talk tomorrow, i’ll text you. we can be friends and once this all settles down maybe we can meet in person. he then tells me, im only going to say this once and im never going to remind you again. im cool with friends with you but that’s not my intention. i want to be more than friends, i want to your person, your boyfriend. but until youre ready after a while of us talking and when it crosses your mind where you like me and think of me differently then we can move on to being more. i was just sitting starring at my phone in shock. i didnt know what to do or say. i was confused. in my mind i wss like okay yes we have a 2 hour text convo and a 3 hour phone call but what. you cant say of this after that can you. i agreed because it was the only that could come out of my mouth at the time. he says okay, my name, i’ll you go and sleep. goodnight. i tell him goodnight. we hang up the phone. now i turn my body around to my back on the bed starring at the ceiling saying what the hell just happened. i fall asleep. 

IM sORRY for my ramble. i was in shock and im confused and scared like what if turns out to be bad for me. but all the compliments, the soothing voice, the small hints well actually big hints of his battle with addiction. ps he also tells me about his anger issues and therapy. i feel weird. i slowly started to be seduced by him, like he started to seduce me. iykyk lmao. 

[doyouevenshipbr0]

gruvia drabble

author's note: im SORRY im really not over the last chapter. i fr never will be. but yea this one is based on the last chapter a lot more strictly. ALSO the very end issss ooc for gray but it was a cute ending soooo yea hehe. ok enjoy cutiessss<333

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After a long, grueling train ride, the team had finally made it to the city of Draseel, ready to search for the wood god dragon and take the next step in their mission.

Happy let out a long, obnoxious yawn. "I'm sleepy."

"Yeah, I'm pretty tired, too." Wendy admitted.

"I suppose it is late." Erza agreed. The team sorted out the nonsense with Erza and Erkis, got them switched back, and scolded Erza for being careless. That alone put them back another three hours.

"On the map it says there's a hotel right next to this station." Lucy looked up from the map.

"Alright, snoozing it is!" Natsu cheered. He was happy enough to be off the train, and now he got to rest on top of it.

The group got two rooms for the night, one for the boys and one for the girls. They quickly departed into their two rooms, ready to get some sleep and take on the next day.

Gray barely got a chance to breathe before Natsu and Happy were completely knocked out on their beds. They didn't bother to get under covers or anything, they were just out like a light.

"Why am I not surprised?" Gray sighed. He followed their lead and got ready for bed.

Gray flicked off his bedside light and turned over. After a few moments, he tossed over to the other side. Then onto his back. When a few slow minutes passed, he finally realized he wouldn't fall asleep right then. There was something that was picking at his mind, something he couldn't just easily sleep off.

He let out an exhale and turned his bedside table back on. He made sure not to wake up Natsu, as he didn't feel like dealing with his teasing. He carefully brought the lamp over to a desk that was in their room and quietly sat down. He rummaged through the drawers and to his luck he found just what he was looking for, a pencil and paper.

For awhile, he just stared at the blank paper. He even said "forget it" and tried to go back to bed, but he soon knew that wouldn't happen. So at the table he sat, head in his hands, thinking of how to put words from the pencil onto the paper.

Finally, he thought of something.

"Dear Juvia," He wrote at the top. Then, he hit another block. He was out of ideas once again.

"Ok, Gray, just chill out." He thought to himself. "Just write what's in your head." But that was just that--he didn't know how to translate his feelings into words.

To put it in the simplest words possible, he missed Juvia.

He didn't realize how much he did until he saw her doppelgänger and contemplated love, but he most certainly did. He wondered what she was doing, he thought about what he would be doing with her if they were together, he imagined their reunion when he got back to Fairy Tail, and actually thought fondly about how he would be showered with her love.

He couldn't seem to get her off his mind.

"Gah, this is so embarrassing." Gray thought and scratched the back of his head, his cheeks turning pink.

Again, another deep breath, and he brought the pencil back to the paper.

"Dear Juvia,

The mission is going well. I know you're probably worried sick, and you wish you could be fighting with me right now, but don't worry, I'm fine. The first dragon god on our quest was a water dragon god. Of course, I naturally thought of you." He paused. He went back and erased "thought of you" and wrote "thought of your magic." After a few moments of back and forth, he ultimately decided on "thought of you."

"He was crazy powerful. It made me wonder how your magic would've matched up against him. You're almost as scary as he is, so I'm sure you would've given him a run for his money." Gray smirked at his joke, and he began to think of all the times Juvia's magic had gotten scary strong when she was in a serious fight.

"But no worries, we beat him even though your water magic would've made it a hell of a lot easier. And actually, he's a really nice guy. His magic was thrown all out of whack by this wizard that can steal people's magic. We'll definitely have to take care of them eventually, but for now, we moved onto the wood dragon god in Draseel.

Before we got on the train today we ran into a guild of celebrities that look just like us. The whole thing was super bizarre. Your doppelgänger's name was Juvina, and she was a topless dancer. Hopefully that doesn't give you any ideas for a hobby, because I'll tell you right now, it ain't happening." Gray paused and smirked once again.

"But what really got me thinking was" Gray paused. He wasn't sure how to word all of this without exploding with embarrassment, but he tried his best.

"when we met this girl Ervis; she's an actress. Her next role focuses on love, so we kind of got to talking about that. I can't lie, you're the first person that popped in my head. From there, I couldn't get you off my mind, so I figured I'd write you a letter. It's not like it'll go unwanted. I'm sure you're gonna' eat all this up.

Basically, I just wanted to say" He paused. His hand began to shake a bit, and he took a deep breath.

"I miss you, and I'm excited to see you when we get back to Fairy Tail. Make sure you have your best hug and cheery 'Gray-sama' ready for me when I get back. Honestly, I'm going through withdrawal." Gray finally let go of his breath after he wrote that. Almost everything in him was telling him to go back and erase that bit, but after reading it over for the 30th time, he knew it felt right. It was pretty much exactly what he was thinking, and he knew he had to work on his way of expressing his feelings lately, and this seemed like a good step.

"So I hope all is well at Fairy Tail. I'm sure you're taking lots of missions with Gajeel, and I'm sure you're both kicking ass. I'd expect nothing less. Oh and make some of those Juvi-buns for me. They're pretty damn good.

Sincerely, Gray."

He looked the letter over and over and over. He went back to make little changes, but ended up changing them back. After he finally wore his eraser down to nothing, he decided it was good.

"Ooo is this a love letter?" Gray jumped at the sound of Happy hovering over his shoulder.

"Hey! I thought you were sleepin'!" Gray snatched the letter from the desk and held it close to him.

"I was sleeping. Now I'm awake. Just needed a little catnap." He said.

"Ok, well let's not wake up Natsu." Gray whispered.

"Why don't we wanna' wake up Natsu?" Gray jumped again, hearing Natsu talking over his other shoulder.

"Shit! Since when are you two ninjas?!" Gray held onto the letter tighter, catching his breath from two scares.

"Since when are you a writer?" Happy grilled, notioning towards the paper in his hand.

"I-I'm not!" Gray stood up. "I'm goin' to bed!"

"Is it a looove letter?" Happy teased.

"N-no! Don't be stupid!" Gray was focused on defending himself to Happy and he lost his grip on the paper. Natsu took the opportunity and snatched the letter out of his hand.

"Dear Juvia," Natsu began to read.

"Hey! Give that back!" Gray reached for it, and Natsu pulled away.

"So it is a love letter!" Happy giggled. "What else does it say, Natsu?"

Natsu began skimming the words to which Gray began chasing him around the room.

"Does this say what I think it says?" Natsu's voice boomed. "'I miss you'?!"

"Just give it back, ya' creep!"

"Ah, ah, ah," Natsu paused, and in his free hand he lit a flame, hovering the paper over it. Gray froze.

"One more move, and it goes up in flames." Natsu raised a brow. Gray said nothing. He stood promptly, but on edge.

Natsu continued skimming over the letter. "Juvi-buns?!" He bursted "I thought you thought they were weird?!" He cackled.

Gray folded his arms and looked to the side. "Yeah. They were tasty, alright?" He murmured.

Happy and Natsu exchanged looks and began rolling with laughter.

"What else Natsu?!" Happy said through laughter.

Gray took the opening and grabbed the letter out of Natsu's hand. "I think that's enough story time for tonight."

"We're just teasing, Gray!" Natsu said, still laughing.

"Yeah, yeah, well I'm goin' to bed." Gray practically stomped his way to bed and threw the letter into a random drawer before flopping onto the mattress.

"Hey man," The laughing finally stopped. Gray turned over and saw Natsu and Happy finally collected themselves. "In all seriousness, it's pretty cool that you wrote that."

"Aye!" Happy chimed in.

"Juvia deserves to hear that kinda' stuff. You better mail it out before we leave tomorrow." Natsu smiled at Gray and got back into bed.

"...Thanks." Gray reluctantly said and turned back over.

Once he heard Natsu and Happy snoring again, Gray sat up a bit. He carefully pulled the paper and pencil back out from the drawer. He decided there was one more change he needed to make.

He erased the "Sincerely, Gray." and replaced it with "Love, Gray."

He decided the letter was perfect, and finally rolled over to get a good night's sleep.

[girlwithbird-blog]

A BIRB IN TEH CITY

read under the cut for the deets on rose’s diagnostics appointment!!! (vlog coming soon on the day!!)

soooo we took the 6:20 boat to vancouver, which is early as f for all of us as we are both avid sleep-iners. 

anyway, rose was excellent on the ferry in the pet area where we were with a cool couple with a cute puppy.  we all chilled and it was awesome.

we caught the bus, rose was quiet on both long bus rides and was such a good sport.

i got to the clinic like two hours earlier than her appointment, but they took her anyway since the clinic is closed and since rose was from the parrot refuge, i kinda get like “special access” and the back office number and though it is not an emergency clinic, im allowed to bring her whenever if theres a problem which gives me SUCH peace of mind.

so i dropped her off, she was so sad omfg.  but they gave her midazolam (an amnesiac) so she had to recollection of the day!!! god bless that drug.  they give it to people/animals/children before surgery or procedures to make them forget so they aren’t traumatized.

she had blood drawn for a blood panel, fecal samples, x rays and ultrasound done.

the doc noticed in the ultrasound that her liver is enlarged and her heart has to beat harder than normal/high blood pressure.  it’s most likely due to her past of neglect, poor diet and no exercise... so that’s not terribly good, but the doctor said other than that, she is very healthy and obviously healthy.

she’s now gonna be on enalapril (heart meds) for the rest of her life, as well as the milk thistle to detoxify her liver, and calcium to make sure she has strong bones!!

so surgery is postponed a month, we gotta see how well she does on the meds and once her hearts a bit better than she will go in for her amputation.  the doc is sure she is totally capable of living a full healthy life so that’s a freakin relief.

so what was so cute was the doctor, who NEVER smiles since shes so stressed, cracked a grin and was like “i gotta show you these two birds with their collars...” so she takes me to the treatment room with all the birds and this poor scarlet macaw and goffins cockatoo have these HUGE soft cones on with frills of fleece and all sorts of do-dads.  theyre so cute, like giant neck hoopskirts. she said shes gonna get a custom made one in pink for rose for her post surgery. i love them so much there.

they even kept her in her unit in her OWN room at the clinic so it was nice and quiet for her.

they said she didnt even bite, was cuddling everyone and was SO well behaved. im so proud of my girl <3 <3 <3 

so they did say, the surgery is gonna be expensive af but theyre gonna work a discount for me since they really are impressed with how far rose has come and the care ive given her, which is SO fucking sweet of them.  

she will need to be hospitilized for around 3 days to a week afterwards - the doc said its really dependent on the owners skill of following up post-op instructions.  she has faith in me that i can handle it (since i worked there) so she should only be there three days after surgery which is good!! and with her giant cone, which unfortunately she has to wear for a month afterwards... lol. at least its gonna be cute????

also, they tried to get me to take this baby quail home because “i am so good at rehabilitating birds” i asked NOT to see the quail because i legit would have taken it THAT DAY. maybe one day.... so if anyones in the vancouver area and are considering a quail as a companion hmu

so i went to my aunts during the day and napped for four hours, forgot to mention that

and after i got her etc, went back to the ferry.  she was quite groggy and mellow, but then perked up and had some of my salad roll.  we went into baskin robbins since i needed an icecream after that day.

she did not want to be in the pet room at 10pm at night on the ferry, she kept wanting me to walk around so we walked on the barren car deck late at night, it was warm and beautiful out at least.

and then we got off and she screamed three loud angry screams in my ear because she wanted to go to bed.

when we got home she flung herself into her cage and totes fell asleep.

today she was a lil sleepy but a happy camper as usual.  i hide her meds in some food and shes taking them which is good!!!!

so hopefully in a month, the surgery goes well and she will be as good as new!!

[shenanigans-academia]

Sports Festival Arc

Okay so I’ve just decided to talk about each episode individually since so much happens in them and I have a lot of things to say that nobody cares about ANYWAY MOVING ON here you go!

Episode 14: That’s The Idea, Ochaco

•Can we talk about how Todoroki had the prettiest animation in the intro please???

•Aizawa shows up like I LIVED BITCH we love one grumpy crippled old man (reminds me of this English teacher I had who showed up to class after breaking 3 ribs and couldn’t laugh or move and was in visible pain while teaching, Professor Saunders if you ever see this please just take a day off my dude)

•Mido: “Mineta don’t you know how important the Sports Festival is?”

Mineta: “yes but I just don’t want to get MURDERED”

...you know what he has a point

•Jirou to Kami: “most people miss their chance and end up just staying sidekicks. You know what that’s probably what’ll happen to you. You’re kinda dumb” BRUH SHE DIDNT HAVE TO MURDER DENKI LIKE THAT

•Kirishima being so excited for the Sports Festival is so cute I’m gonna cry

•Ojirou and Hagakure are so fucking ADORABLE

•Uraraka getting all pumped up/ ragey and Mineta being ✖️Mineta✖️ and Tsuyu just straight up SMACKING HIM IMMEDIATELY I LOVE HER COLD BLOODED ASS

•“YOUNG MIDORIYA!!!...do you want to eat with me?” I LOVE DADMIGHT

•Todoroki eavesdropping on Uraraka and Iida talking about Mido/All Might: Secret Child Theories activated

Episode 15: Roaring Sports Festival

•SHINSOU SNARKY PURPLE BABY BOY

•TESTUTESTU!!! loving the other classes showing up like fuck y’all 1A bitchass nerds right now honestly

•Kiri stop thirsting for Bakugou when he’s being an ass we get it, you’re gay and love an angry Pomeranian also WHY ARE YOU JUST STRAIGHT UP JUMPING OFF A BUILDING BOI WHAT IS YOU DOIIINNNNGGGGG ROCKS CAN STILL B R E A K

•Todoroki you dramatic hoe I love you but just. Take a nap. “We’Re nOt hEre To MakE FriEnDs” bitch you soft, shut up

•I’m genuinely curious what exactly is Midnight’s quirk? She’s the “R rated Pro Hero” but like...what is it? Is she just Super Sexy? Is it the pheromone thing that makes people think she’s sexy/ feeling aroused? Like what is her power exactly?

•”I just wanna say...I’m gonna win” KACCHAN HONEY WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS

•Todoroki freezing EVERYTHING and being unimpressed by the giant robots sweetie you’re so extra

•Birth of Icy Hot Bastard nickname

•Mineta got fuckin MURKED MAN lmao at least he tried

•Mama Midoriya is Best Mom she worries so much

Episode 16: In Their Own Quirky Ways

•KIRI BREAKING THROUGH THE FUCKING ROBOT SCREAMING IM ALIVE HOLY FUCK (Also Testu bursting through too. Intro to the Hard Boi Twins)

•Lets go Sero and Tokoyami!!

•All Might’s little YES watching Mido using the robot part as a launcher for the explosion warms my heart he’s so proud of his boy

•MIDO vs. TODO vs. BAKU YES BITCH ITS THE BOYS

•”THIS JUST IN ERASURE HEAD IS A TERRIBLE TEACHER” “wait wHAT” I love 2 chaotic teachers

•Shiggy you’re gross please invest in some cortisone skin cream it majorly helps my eczema it can help you too sweetie

•”the 1st place winner is worth...10 MILLION” Everybody around Mido: Activate Instant Kill

Midoriya my boy rUN

Episode 17: Strategy, Strategy, Strategy

•”Wait, remind me of your quirks again. And your names” Bakugou I’m gonna kick your entitled ass square up babe

•Kiri we get it you want Bakugou to top you. Also I love how Bakugou’s just like let’s fucKIN GOOO SHITTY HAIR

•Iida I love your dramatic over-energetic ass so much

•”TEAM UP WITH ME PERSON IN FIRST PLACE”

“YOURE SO CLOSE TO ME WHO ARE YOU???” Hatsume please. Take a dozen chill pills

•Ah. There he is. Monoma. Rat Boi 3000. Let’s go babey

•MY FAVORITE BIRD BOYS YAMI AND DARK SHADOW COMIN IN CLUTCH

•Ah. Cue the Daddy Drama

•This game is just Kill Midoriya, huh

•Monoma is a pro monologuer and honestly? I respect that. But then again it doesn’t take much to get Bakugou riled up

Episode 18: Cavalry Battle Finale

•Shouji is a SCARY BADASS and deserves more acknowledgement

•no matter your opinion on him, Monoma is an interesting character and has a REALLY COOL QUIRK

•Endeavor? Just. Shut up

•Bakugou- I am powered by rage and nothing else

•”Has anyone seen Deku?”

Todoroki: tragic backstory time

Episode 19: The Boy Born With Everything

•Yo FUCK Endeavor lives, man

•Mido ”so why did you bring me here”

Todo ”...soooo THIS IS THE STORY ALL ABOUT WHY I’m depressed/ also are you All Might’s secret love child or something?”

•Okay but All Might asking Endeavor on how to raise a powerful child I’m cackling. But the more Enji talks, the more All Might’s just like “what the fuck are you doing to your kid??”

•Todoroki’s whole monologue is literally just him over sharing and rambling about his trauma I love it

•Bakugou why you being such a creep boo

•”He’s like a comic book character” BITCH YOU ARE TOO YOU’RE ALL LITERALLY SUPERHERO TEENAGERS JFC

•Midoriya telling his friends/rivals “I’m gonna beat you” is basically just his equivalent of “I have a crush on you” change my mind

•Kaminari. I’m disappointed in you. I expected the uniforms from Mineta but come on dude

•Ojirou is so PURE long live Tail Boi he is also too under appreciated and he is just. So good

•KIRISHIMA CRYING OVER MANLY MEN I LOVE HIM

•Kendo is best girl Class 1B

•”Uraraka? Who the hells that?” Bakugou don’t be fuKING RUDE

•SHINSOUSHINSOUSHINSOUSHINSOUUUUU

•Midoriya what did Ojirou fucking TELL YOU

EPISODE 20: Victory or Defeat

•Dadzawa activated, time to adopt a Sleepy Boy into the Hero Course

•Complete BAMF Midoriya has been UNLOCKED PEOPLE

•Poor Shinsou when he goes “im used to people thinking I’m a bad guy” I just couldn’t NOT think of Billie Eilish IM SORRY now I have Bad Guy stuck in my head YOU DID SO GOOD BABY IM PROUD OF YOU

•”Spooky IM A GHOST???” God I love All Might

•”Stop rebelling Shouto”

“It’s NoT a PhaSe DaD”

•Todoroki did you have to go so HARD BRUH WHAT THE FUCK YOU DEPRESSED SHOW OFF

Episode 21: Battle On, Challengers!

•Lmao get wrecked Denki

•Mama Kendo to the rescue come get yo kids

•Everyone at Mido, Please. Shut the fuck up and stop being CREEPY

•Midnight. Please stop lusting over your students it’s gross

•Hatsume played Iida like a fiddle and I’m crying baby boy tried so hard

•WE RESPECT OUR ALIEN QUEEN MINA ASHIDO

•Poor Momo

•KIRI vs. TESTU I LOVE HARD BOI TWINS

•Bakubabe you’re so UGLY I can’t why is your face like that

Episode 22: Bakugou VS. Uraraka

•”Pink Cheeks” Bakugou just learn your classmates names it’s not that hard

•Ochaco is so fucking STRONG

•”like I always suspected. Bakugou’s a total sadist” sometimes Mineta is just. Accurate.

•Can we please talk about how Aizawa was just like “The FUCK are y’all talking about Bakugou is doing what he’s supposed to do in these games it doesn’t matter if his opponents a girl or not y’all are DUMB” like THANK YOU AIZAWA

•Mic has no chill I miss him real talk we don’t get enough Present Mic

•”You’re wrong Kacchan” YOU TELL HIM MIDO

•Bakubitch may be a little much sometimes and I get why a lot of people don’t like him but he does understand his classmates ARE also strong and powerful and you know he respects them in his own weird way even though he’ll never admit it

•KIRI WINS THE ARM WRESTLING MATCH THATS MY FAVORITE BOY

•We love supportive parents (Ochaco’s parents. Fuck Endeavor. Just leave these kids aloonnneeeee you asshat)

•MIDO vs. TODO LETS GO BOYYSSS

•”I’m not worried about a couple of kids” you’re clearly not worried about your crusty skin either Shiggy learn some priorities

Episode 23: Shoto Todoroki: Origin

•IT’S SHOUTO TIME YALL

•All that power in one little fucking finger what the FUCK Mido also PLEASE STOP BREAKING YOUR BONES “I’ve only got 6 more chances” well there go your fucking hands my dude

•Aaaaand there goes your arm

•”You haven’t been able to put a single scratch on me yet, Todoroki” you’re doing a pretty good job of that by yourself Midoriya

•Baby Shouto kills me every time IM GONNA FIGHT ENDEAVOR

•IT’S YOURS. YOUR QUIRK NOT HIS. ITS YOUR POWER T O D O R O K I

•SHOUTOOOOOO

•Shouji grabbing Mineta by the leg so that he doesn’t fly away oh my god

•Endeavor and All Might come get y’all kids

•Midoriya’s fuckin dead rest in fucking pieces you masochist

Episode 24: Fight On, Iida

•Okay but why is Endeavor such a fucking Brick House holy fuck absolute unit of pure shit

•”In his first match he looked so sad. I was trying to figure out why...” it’s because you have a crush Mido

•And the first of many scars appears

•Recovery Girl is right and she should say it

•All Might said Quirkless Rights send tweet

•AHH TENSEI NOOOOO

•Highkey completely forgot about Stain OH WAIT THAT MEANS THE INTERNSHIPS ARE NEXT I really forgot the whole timeline wow

•Explosion Boy vs. Shitty Hair I love competitive boyfriends but Jesus Bakugou

•Testu cheering for his new friend tho? That’s the content I love to see

•Legacy Children Battle (Iida vs. Todoroki)

•”I didn’t know he couldn’t kick like that” he is ALL LEGS that’s literally his quirk Denki what do you mean

•Anybody fighting Todoroki: time to drag a Sad Bitch

•TENSEEIIIIIIII

•Bruh why did Iida tense up like that was your phone up your ass dude???

•Yo Stain is ugly as fuck

Episode 25: Todoroki VS. Bakugou

•Lmao Midoriya literally triggered Todoroki into using his Left Side

•And Todoroki triggered Bakugou by asking about his past friendship with Midoriya these boys are a MESS

•oh look it’s a Fucking Fire Gremlin

•BOOM BOOM BITCH THOUGHT YOU’D SEEN THE LAST OF ME HALF AND HALF BASTARD

•oh my GOD Endeavor shut UUPPPP

•Everyone listening to Bakugou go off at Todoroki: ...please seek some therapy

•SUPPORTIVE BOYFRIEND MIDO TO THE RESCUE

•The first time I saw this I highkey thought Bakugou actually killed Todoroki.

•Bakugou going feral for winning I can’t he literally looks like a trapped wolf

•We respect Tokoyami in this house

•About Bakugou ”Look at that face” I’d really rather not

•I’m sorry but Mineta sitting on Shouji’s shoulders is actually adorable

•Iida running through the hospital to his brother: It’s Loss

•I love the Iida Brothers so. Fucking. MUCH

•Shouto I’m so proud of you sweetheart

•Honestly I need more family stuff they’re all so interesting in their own ways and it’s a nice reminder that yes these are just kids and they have lives outside of hero school

SO that wraps up the Sports Festival Arc! I’m going to do the second half of Season 2/ The Internship Arc/ Final Exams all in one post so get ready for another long one ✌🏽

[medullah-oblongata]

May 25, 2017 - 6:19 PM

- Last Tuesday (May 16) he came over for our last in-person meeting together - So he picked me up out front and we drove to LCBO because I had a gift card and I would never use it so I thought we could drink together - We ended up getting peach flavoured ciroc (the big bottle) after much debate and then went to wal-mart to pick up some cranberry-mango juice to mix it with - it was actually really good and he said that that will be “our” mix - and then we listened to jind mahi by kulbir jhinjer and zara  and there’s just something about driving with him that I loove. - Then we came home and it was sunny and nice out so he wanted to drink on the balcony and I was like alright even tho I was terrified of bees or other insects and them coming into my apartment - so we’re out there and we see this cracked egg and I was like should I kick it off? and he was like so concerned saying no and that one of the birds would see and come attack me - and then a bunch of pigeons are always flying from building to building and it was sooo fucking funny because he was terrified and then came running in when he thought a bird was coming for him - Then we came in and drank, I had like 3 glasses and was toally buzzed, like I could feel it in my face and I was getting so sleepy - so he came closer and we just started talking and then held hands and I told him how we were talking about lips and how our grandmas like thin lips and us girls were like why? and that I thought of him because I like his lips and then yeah we started kissing - I still had my light jacket on and things started getting heated so I had to take it off and then he came on top, and I took off his pants hehehe - and then he’s like lets get another drink, so we walked over to my computer desk where we had our supplies and I was stretching cuz I was tired and as he was walking to the fridge he like lightly touched my pussy and moved upward to my stomach and I still can’t get over how good that felt and just how sexy the overall movement was LOL - then he poured a drink and I gave him a blowjob while he sat in my computer chair and then he told me to take off my shirt and he played with my tits hehe - and then it got even more heated so he like came leaning off the chair and gently laid me on the floor and like sucked on my nipples and we made out and it was so fucking hot - then we stood up and he was talking to me about how beautiful I was and he grabbed my face and pulled me closer so we made out again and then he rubbed his dick on me and was like he was gonna fuck me so hard tonight and asked if we should take a break to talk or go to my room and we both agreed to talk - so then we ended up talking for soooo long but  it was sooo good, like I don’t think we have talked like that before and I just learned more about him, and also felt a greater connection - He was sitting up straight and I was leaning on him with my legs across his lap - so he was telling me about how all of his friends know about me now (cuz someone from his program msged and he said he was in st catharines and i guess they knew he was with me then) - then he told me how his friends talk about me sometimes and ask how things are and he just says its complicated and how his high school friends were talking about this one guy and how he’s with P’s ex but they were like saying how he has a better girl (me) than the other guy lol - and then i guess his friends knew how he was coming to see me but one of them had no clue (the one I prank called cuz apparently he’s clueless) so he asked who i was and for him to send a pic of me, but P just said to look me up on instagram and the guy sent a selfie of me in their group chat and P was like yeah that’s her lol - and then I was like do they say bad stuff? and he’s like there’s this one guy who’s always saying like oh you gonna fuck tonight or something but P just tells him to chill but the rest (I think gopes esp) are respectful, and he said I can even look at their convo to see what he says about me but I didn’t cuz I trusted him - but he did confront me about the comment I made a while ago of him sending my pic, and he’s like I didn’t take a pic of you in the theatre,and I was like I know but you sent one, and he’s like yes I did do that because they were asking who you were and I wanted to show them, and he said it very respectfully so i was glad that he owned up to that - And then he told me how his best friend respects me and I’m like probably not, because if I don’t find out about village thing or if i can’t do long distance and we end it, he’s probably going to think I’m a hoe - and then he explained that that’s not the case because he told his friend how I was a good girl and a virgin and I’m not like other girls. Because his friend just has a bad attitude towards girls and doesn’t trust them, and then I was like omg you told him we did it, and he said yes, but only because he was convincing his friend how different I was and that he wasn’t bragging at all. And then he gave me a deep history of his best friend’s life and what he went through with girls and his own family that made him like that,so yeah that was nice to hear and to have him open up to me like that - he also said I love you multiple times that night and I loved it but kept saying he didn’t - then he asked what I even liked about him because he was like I dont even know how I got you, like I consider myself very lucky - and I was like lol idk, I dont think I answered the question properly or I must have referred to the acrostic I made him lmao - and then I asked him what he liked about me and he said he loves my attitude (i was shocked cuz he always comments on how he hates it and that it’s annooying) and that loves when a girl tells him to fuck off lmao and how I do it all the time, and he said he likes how there’s always other guys wanting me which is why he loves hearing stories of when people check me out or reach out to me after a long time lol, and then how I’ve stuck by him all this time even through all of the uncertainty with us. And then he just like kissed my hair and hands - And then he wanted to know more about the guys i’ve liked and why it didn’t work so I told him everything and about how curious george will randomly snap me after months and that last time I did reply because P ended video call with me and I was bored - and he was like “ohhh so soon as I’m gone you hit up other guys eh” and i was like LOL no i just wanted to see if this guy would address why he snaps me after so long but he didnt and just asked when I was coming home - and then he did his cute voice which i dont think he notices he does but yeah he was just concerned about me seeing other guys and if i’m going to meet up with that guy and I was like probably not since I don’t like him anymore. And then he told me to at least tell him if and when i talk to another guy or like another guy - then I was on his lap and he had his dick out because it was hard and so I was just kind grinding on it while talking or like playing with it with my fingers and some pre cum came out and im like aww, so i was playing with it and he’s like would you put that in your mouth and im like hell yeah and how i’ve been wanting him to cum on me for so long so yack an eah I put it in my mouth then we made out and then he like grabbed my boob with his mouth and then like lifted me to take me to my room but i was like no, so he like put me down but like where my back was to him and then he rubbed his dick along the front of my pussy and then to the back and holy fuck it was so hot then he took it off and started rubbing more but then I was like yo i still wanted to talk about more deep stuff related to us and then he respectfully put it away and sat me in his lap facing him so we could talk - so then I was just like how I was concerned about it not working out and if it does, me not being happy or his family not liking me or something - and he was like he is in love with me now, i am his love and he wants to marry me and that if we can’t then he’s just going to get an arranged marriage - then he asked what happened over the weekend that triggered me asking him a bunch of questions (failed marriage of cousin lol) and I didn’t want to tell him all of my family details so I just said I didn’t want to end up like one of my cousin’s cuz he’s so unhappy and he asked me more so I was going to talk about it but I got emotional so I went and put my head in his neck cuz my voice got shaky and I had tears and he was like aww look here but i said no and he asked why i was crying and im like sorry man i just get emotional when i talk about people i care about and they’re not happy - and then he made me look up and i covered my face and he was just saying how beautiful and pretty i looked even when i cry, and then he made me uncover my face and just looked right into my eyes and said he loves me - and then he continued the convo about my concerns and he was like you’ll be happy, and that if i like him now that’s how it’ll always be because it’s who he is as a person and he’s been real with me - and then he was like about his family not liking me, i dont have to worry about that, as long as i respect them they’ll love me and his mom’s already happy we’re talking. And i was like yeah but you and i already fight lots so what if they always just take your side and don’t understand my side or u just make it seem like it’s my fault, and he’s like he wouldn’t do that, plus his mom and sister-in-law are on a team and don’t talk to his brother when he’s wrong, so whoever is right, that’s who’s side his parents will take lol - and then i was like what about me not knowing how to cook or do anything? and he’s like they dont care about that, the only thing they care about is respect and I said i could defs give it because i have always wanted a good relationship with my in-laws - then he asked if i wanted to really spend the rest of  my life with him, and i shrugged my shoulders,and if i wanted to have his kids and i shrugged my shoulders again and we laughed and he was like if we did they would be little soccer players, with good looks cuz they’ll have your looks hopefully, and I’m like we have to put them in bhangra too and he just gave me a look like uhh maybe lmao and we laughed again - And then he got all serious again and was like how he really does like me a lot and wants it to work, and how I’ve helped him a lot with stress relief this year and how he loved talking to me, and I said the same and how he actually helped with assignments and stuff - and then he was like will you ever forget me? and im like lol no because i had all my firsts with you, and he was like oh yeah no one forgets those - then he was like you remember our first kiss? and i was like lol yeah and he asked where it was and i pointed to the spot on the couch and he was like lol yeah and he reminded me how i was all “idk what to do” LOL - oh yeah and when i  gave him a bj on the computer chair i had major gag reflexes so i asked what would happen if i actually threw up on it and he was like its no big deal we could just clean it up and i was like damn - and then i wanted to make a snap video for his friend saying hi but he wouldnt let me, so we just took pics of us instead -  then we decided to go to bed and i was like i need to wash my face first and he asked if i had any snacks so i showed him, but when i came out of washroom he was already in bed, and im like yo arent u hungry and he kept saying its ok and im like no lets go see - so i made him get out of bed because he aint about to sleep hungry on my watch lol so we made him a veggie burger and he loved it - while it was cooking on stove, he started like hugging me and grabbing my ass and then people in the building in front of me were on their balcony and he’s like oh shit there’s people outside lmfao so he stopped and i was like u pussy cuz i loved that shit - but yeah then we went into bed, and i went pee first, and then i came to lie down and im like why u already sleeping? and then he pulled me closer and was like all i want to do is cuddle you for the last time! and im like lol, and then we kissed and im like “but i saw it on the night table, all ready” and hes like LOL and hes like so what? and im like lets do it! and hes like do what? so he made me say it and then he put it on and went to work. - and then after he was done we were lying on our backs and he started playing with my boobs again with his hands and hes like “i love these tits of yours” lmfao - and then i was still horny so i was like playing with myself while rubbing up against him, and he just slipped his hand down there too and was like “teach me” (i guess how to do it properly or to the point where i climax cuz only i know how) and then it was his hand under mine and we just rubbed it and kissed and it was amazing - then we fell asleep after a while, well he did but i cried on his chest and had to wipe them off and then i turned around because i couldnt stop thinking about how much i was going to miss him - idk if he noticed or not that i was crying, but when i moved he asked if i was ok and i just said yes very quickly - then eventually i fell asleep too, but i’d randomly wake up and then cuddle back up to him - in the morning i was sleeping facing the opposite direction to him, and then he woke up and turned his body and put his arm around me, so fucking cute - then i turned around and cuddled him and watched him sleep some more - then i told him to wake up and that it was a certain time but it actually wasnt because i wanted to just chill and talk before he had to leave - and then he showered and got ready, then i did and we made tea - and then we talked more about him finding out and he said he will - oh yeah, the night before he also showed me pics of his fam in india and they were so cute - then when it was time for him to leave, we did a long ass hug by the couch and made out - then when he had on all his gear i started making out with him again, and that one was amazing, like i wont forget it - i’d pull away to breathe and i’d just look at his lips and eyes and go in for more - also, i felt it get hard again so we did some grinding while making out and i grabbed it but obvs it was too late for another session lol - then he gave me the longest cutest forehead kiss and i fucking loved it, like i could have cried cuz i didn’t expect it to be that hard and long - and then i kissed him on the cheek really hard and he was like have a safe flight back and that i’ll have fun in vancouver and im like no man im gonna miss you, then we hugged one last time and he went :( - it’s been over a week now since this meeting and i cant stop replaying the events and him looking at me or saying this and hearing his voice - and i’ve been procrastinating writing this post because i feel like in a way, i didnt want to finalize this as the ending even tho it is. - i mean we may still talk, but idk when i’ll ever see him again - and we mentioned perhaps meeting in brampton this saturday if he was available and he did say no guarantees cuz hes busy with schol, will be returning late on friday from washington and that he has to pick up his fam from airport, but that we could try...but yeah i dont think its happening cuz i havent talked to him all week (except briefly on tuesday night after 2 days when he was telling me his presentation went really well and then he went to sleep and said we would talk the next day but he never did message and neither did I). - so yeah, its thursday evening, hes gonna be driving back all day tomorrow cuz it took him 12 hours to get there so i dont even wanna mention meeting up cuz i just know its gonna be a no, which means i am most likely not going to brampton cuz cousins dont have anything fun planned either and last weekend i was just very emotional there but couldnt express it - but it would suck if i didnt end up going and he msgs saturday about hanging out (probs not but still lol) and even if i was there i wouldnt have an excuse last minute, whereas if we planned it out then i could have just said i have a birthday dinner to go to - i miss him sooo much though ughhhh - also last week my mom suggested that her and his mom can talk on the phone and she can explain that we just want to know if it would be acceptable but that us kids arent ready to get married right away and that if his mom already knows theres no harm in them talking and that they can see how to find out (like if his mom should ask his dad or if she wants my mom to ask), but then he said his mom is ok with it and that there is no point in them talking...and that he would just ask his mom to ask his dad...and im like u better man but i feel like you wont, and he said he would and that he was just stressed that day cuz he was supposed to wake up at 3 to drive to the sates, so then he thanked me for understanding even tho i just said ok but really did want my mom and his mom to talk lol - then my mom and i talked again yd and shes like what did he say? and im like he doesnt  see the point in you talking to his mom and said he’ll just ask himself, but i told her how idk if he will. and then shes like lol just tell him to ask or else she will - so i still have to mention that to him, but idk how to bring it up, but i hope he does ask his mom right away, and my mom said she still wants to talk to his mom, so idk how thats gonna turn out, but i wish he was more open to that - ughh hopefully it all works out and im not broken in the end.

[jayxtrejo]

i ment to love you

all the shit you see and hear on social media is bullshit. love is love. It's something no one understands, it's what we as human beings do best, because when we, give we without holding back. It's something beautiful, love hurts, people say "if it hurts it's not love" that's fucking bullSHIT. love isn't a word that is simply defined. There is different types of love, there's different ways to show it. Love is going to break you, build you, mold you & bring you so much fucking happiness it's a hell of a drug. People don't understand how much of us actually fall in love, but also some don't understand some of us just lust. My experience with love is by far the most beautiful thing i have ever experienced. I will never forget the moment i laid eyes on the woman i knew i wanted to be with for the rest of my days. She had me acting a fool i won't deny it. This girl, man oh man, did she have me sprung. She had my writing a love letter and I barely even knew her name. Like all love stories, the setting was normal. Public place, new face. But my love story was something made of dreams. I mean this gal was my muse, her eyes are the size of the moon, such beautiful, breathtaking stars. Her smile is to die for, man did she know how to smile and brighten up my day. From day one i knew she was it. I was to scared to make the first move. So someone else came in the picture, i backed off. Days passed, weeks, eventually months. No matter what she was my girl, i was always in the picture. When she fell i was there to pick her up. We started talking, small talk became 3AM conversations in the car. Those conversations lead to our first date at IHOP. It was my goal to know everything about her. And till this day I still do. All the little things she didn't know i knew about her. Like the way she loved putting a load of ketchup on everything. She laughs when she's nervous. She buys things on impulse. She has anxiety. She likes ugly colors, but that's what made them beautiful to me, because she likes them. She falls asleep when you scratch her head and gets chills and feels relaxed when you scratch her back/give her a massage. She blushes when I called her beautiful. She's not really social, really shy but once she breaks out of that she's one of the most live people in the room. She likes to sing, wow her singing was beautiful. She makes jokes that don't make sense but it's cute. Sometimes I wouldn't laugh and she'd point it out. And I'd reassuringly say "yes that was funny". Or maybe how hard I would make her laugh, that giggle. I can go on forever. Back on track, we did everything together. Literally, there's was almost not a moment i wasn't with her. Either I was at her house or she was at mine. Only time apart was if we were working, sports, friends, otherwise we were together. She was my blessing. My muse. My baby. My future to be. Everything about her was perfect. I fell in love with all her imperfections. I gave myself to her, mind, body and soul. 8 months were spent by her side. I went as far as buying a ring. Put it on her with a promise of an engagement ring on that finger in our near future. i remember the first time i said “i love you” , said it with out even thinking, well, i blurted out. Exact words “i dont like you, i love you”, she could not believe what i had just said, she was so happy and blushing so much she didnt even say it back but thats okay because her expressions screamed “i love you too”. Shes perfect in every aspect, all her insecurities, everything, i came to love. Her company was a must, it was an everyday thing, i didnt want to go a day with out her. hes goofy, she did the most adorable things, the way her nose scrunched up when she laughed to hard. When i tell you this gal was my heart, best believe it. I had soooo much patience with her, she loved annoying me or getting me mad, she would only do that when she was cranky, hungry or sleepy. I miss her. I miss her smile, i miss how peaceful she looked when she fell asleep on the car rides back home. I miss her hugs, her touch, her kisses, her laugh, the way she carried herself, i miss our intimacy, our late night convos at 3AM, late night food runs, i miss you waking me up because you heard something in the kitchen and it scared you, i miss your mad faces, and how you would pout, i miss waking up to you. But then we hit our downfall. Something that could have been fixed so easily took the turn for the worst and she walked out of my life... for 2 straight months day in day out I tried, I tried and kept trying. I did not give up on her once. I never failed her. I was consistent. I loved her with everything I had. Pure TLC. My intention was to love her and care for her. But it wasn't enough. Now, its different. She truly is the biggest part of me, im proud to of had her at my side. She left, and took the biggest part of me with her.. I wish she finds everything she looks for & I hope she prospers. Her happiness is all that matters to me. Now in love a lot of things come into play. But the biggest thing that comes into play is Forgiveness. Don't ever give up on someone you love, even if they do. If you can give up on someone so quick you never truly loved them. As I said there's different types of love. But when you love someone as I did, giving up is not an option. And people always stay for different reasons. It's not easy, love is a complicated things yet it's so simple. Love is love. Everyone wonders why it hurts so much when you lose the one you love, some try denying the pain. Why? Why do you deny the person you would've walked to hell and back for?! Why!? Cry, yell, laugh, cry again. It's okay. It's not an easy thing to over come or to comprehend. That's your baby! That person was your happiness. People love for different reasons. Some to not be alone. Some to find happiness. Some to have an individual to call their own. Some for warmth at night. Some for lust. Some for love. Some for comfort. Some for joy. Some for care. Then there's the ones like me. That love for all those reasons and more. And I will never figure it out, all I know is there's the love that i have, which is eternal.If your looking for the word that means caring about someone beyond all rationality,and wanting them to have everything they want as much as it destroys you, its LOVE. And when you love someone, you, you simply dont give up on them, ever. Even when everyone around you rolls their eyes, call you dumb, even then. Especially then, beacause if i could give up, that wouldnt be love, if i could get up and move on with someone else, that wouldnt be love, that would be some disposable thing that is not worth fighting for.

I ment to love you.

[caruliaa]

woagh today has been such a sleeby tired day for me which. i just am hoping does not continue on for tmrw because i have work and well i v much do not want to b more tirerd than usual at work SDJSNZK but omg okay im so glad tht your first day back at school was okay i am sorry tht it was tiring and stuff but!!! i just hope tmrw is also ok or better still:33!!! ofc if it isnt or if anything else troubles u then always feel soso free to message me abt it if you want to my beloved<3333 but yeah omg anyway ok so. ladybird you are such suchhhhh a good friend like youre sososooo caring and thoughtful and kind and fun and understandinf and lovely and!!! j overall an incredible friend and then also youre simply an incredible person so:333!!!! you r trulie so amaazinggggg and yeahyeahyesy i just love you soooo muchhh!! i love uu (hugs u tight if u wanna!!!💕💕🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻💕💕💕💕🫶🏻🫶🏻💕💕💕)

yayea i get the sleepy tired day vibes but i hope it can b a less of that for you today love and that work is okay for you and stuff my dearest !!! :> and yea tysm mx tthankfully my day at school today also pretty okay id say also i was also very tired bc it was rly hard for me ot get to sleep last night but it was all chill in the end DGFHDFHDF also omg omg tysm mx your soso sweeet and kind to me u rly are ;; i hope you know how youre really such a good friend too my dearest you rly rly are like yours soso sweet and kind and caring and thoughtful and understnading of me and really make me feel soso loved and cared for and warm and also just bring soso much joy and happiness into my day and my life just whenever we talk and spend time together like you really are such a wonderful person my dearest and i love you soso much i really really do and i hope you know how im rly so gald that i can be the same to you and am i good friend to you becuase you really do deserve and also just because i really do want to because you just really do mean the whole world to me and just !! i rly am soso glad and lucky ot know you i really really amm and i really do love you so os much my dearest i really really do so os much :'> * hugs back you sos much v close if u wish* !!!!! 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞