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i can't find the motivation to keep going guys!! i think i lost it a while ago but i didn't notice lol i think it probably slipped that time i lost my wallet? idk
#*insert gif of John Travolta in Pulp Fiction*#sitting in my desk looking at my past and my potential future wishing i didn't have to live any part of the đŤhuman experienceđŤ#can i pretty please quit? đđťđđť#can i get a good fking reason for why everything is so hard?#and at the end of this existential crisis i still have to do the work#and keep going as if i wasn't literally dying inside which every decision im forced to make#my sociology professor talked a lot about âliberty to chooseâ#and i was like???#i can't choose shit my guy#we don't have the power to choose#the moment we're born we're placed in our respective boxes of expectations and obligations#plus the fact that all these studies on society and culture is based in âideal typesâ almost a utopia of how society actually works#and im likeđ§đťââď¸#how can i sit and read about all this and regurgitate it in an exam#do a presentation with a smile about how đŤwith the power of love and a sense of community we can help those in needđŤ#im honestly so tired of pretending#AND I DON'T EVEN DO A GOOD JOB PRETENDING#im very obviously upset lmao#idk im sad#and tired#so so so tired#i wanna go to sleep#read a fic#listen to some music#and pretend my vote counts for fking something#when it clearly doesn't
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info: platonic wonwoo/reader, teen, college au genre: angst | word ct: 1.5k warnings: implied past suicide summary: he was sick of being what everyone else wanted him to be, but he didn't even know how to be himself. she would be the one to finally teach him something worthwhile.
âYou may begin.â
And thus began a unique symphony. The sound of test booklets being flipped, of pencils scratching down answers. Of students nervously tapping their fingers at their desks, of a tyrannical professor circling the class. Of seconds ticking by, and of one stubborn student snoring quietly in the corner.
Jeon Wonwoo.
He was sitting in the back of the class, headphones in his ears, his hoodie pulled over his eyes, and his arms crossed over his chest as he slept. His classmates offered him sparing glances, unsure if they should try to wake him. Butâno one did. No one ever did. Everyone was completely content to let him fail the test. If he was so determined to throw his future away, who were they to stop him?
âMr Jeon?â His professor asked with a coy smirk. âCare to join the rest of the class?â
Wonwoo didnât even open his eyes. âNot really.â
âYou do realize that you pay to go to school, right?â She questioned, smug amusement clear in her tone. âI get paid regardless of how well you do.â
âGood for you.â He snorted, pulling his hood down even further.
She shook her head at him in fake disappointment. âSuch a waste of potential. To think, Jeon Wonwoo, the piano prodigy, canât even pass a simple introduction to music theory class.â
âFuck off.â He hissed through his teeth.
This woman makes my blood boil.
She snorted, feeling as though sheâd won. âAll this talk of Composer Jeonâs son attending our small university with absolutely nothing to show for it. Your parents must be proud.â
Without another word, Wonwoo grabbed his bag and stormed out of the room.
Fuck her. He swore to himself as he climbed the stairs to the roof. Fuck her, fuck my parents, fuck this place, fuck everything!
Throwing the door open, the cool autumn air swirled around him and he suddenly felt at ease. He was finally free. Free of the absurd expectations placed on him, free from the pressure that was crushing him, and free from the world that told him how to act, how to think, how to be. He closed his eyes, a small smile creasing his face. Then he fumbled through his pockets looking for his lighter.
âJeon Wonwoo, what is this?â
âItâs a cigarette, mom.â
âYouâre smoking? You have got to be kidding me.â
âMomâitâs not a big dealââ
âNot a big deal? Not a bigâyou donât get to decide whatâs a big deal. No son of mine will be caught dead smoking a cigarette!â
âMomââ
âYou really donât think about anyone other than yourself. What if the press got wind of this? Think of the scandal! Youâre still in high school! Do you want me to look like a bad mother? Do you?â
âYou already do.â He muttered to himself, lighting up a cigarette and inhaling deeply. âFucking bitch.â
âDo you always talk to yourself?â
Wonwoo turned abruptly, startled by the sudden intrusion. At first, he thought it might be a teacher, but standing by the door was just some girl. Just another annoyance. Just someone else questioning everything he did. At least this one he could ignore, and he did. He turned up his music and headed over to the edge of the roof.
âHey!â She laughed, jogging up to his side. âI was just kidding!â
He rolled his eyes, pulling out one of his ear buds. âGreat, now leave me alone.â
She let loose a low whistle. âYikes. Who put you in a bad mood?â
âA lot of people.â He continued, taking a drag. âLook, take a hint, I��m not in the mood to listen to you lecture me.â
âOkayâŚâ She started with a smile. âAre you in the mood to talk? You look like you have a lot on your mind.â
Wonwoo stuffed one hand in his pocket. âI donât see how thatâs any of your business.â
âItâs not.â She agreed easily. âBut I can speak from experience, nothing good comes from bottling it all up inside.â
âWhy the fuck do you care?â He practically growled at her, his frustration rising. âYou donât even know me.â
She shrugged. âWhatâs that got to do with anything? Canât I care about someone I donât know?â
A humourless chuckle bubbled past his lips. âIn my experience, people who know me donât even care about me.â
âThen a change of pace is just what the doctor ordered!â She exclaimed. âJust tell me whatâs eating you, maybe I can help.â
He shook his head in disbelief. âI doubt it.â
She rolled her eyes at him. âCâmon, try me. Whatâs the worst that can happen?â
Exhaling, he decided to give it a shot, because she had a point.
âAll my life Iâve played the piano.â He started. âMy mother is a famous cellist, my fatherâs a famous pianist, it was safe to assume that I had some sort of musical talent. And I do, I justâhave you ever done something for so long that you just feel compelled to continue?â
She nodded. âDefinitely. Itâs the only thing youâve known.â
He took a drag from his cigarette. âExactly. So, I went to college to play the piano, like my dad. That was the big plan my parents had for me. Butâitâs not what I want to do.â
âWhat do you want to do?â She asked. âSomething other than music?â
He shrugged. âI mean, I love music, Iâm just not big on the performing end of it. Iâd much rather produce than be on stage.â
âThen why donât you?â She continued, like it was that simple.
âMy mom would probably disown me.â He chuckled. âAll of those classes, all that money, she would see it as a waste. Some days I feel more like an investment to her and less like her son.â
Out of the corner of his eye, he could see her wince. âWow, thatâs rough.â
âYouâre telling me.â He agreed, finishing off his cigarette and flicking it off the roof. âShit sucks.â
She nodded in understanding. âI feel you, I really do. You shouldnât have to put up with that.â
He sighed, running a hand through his hair. âYeah. Doesnât change the fact that I do.â
âWhy settle for that?â She asked. âWhy not do what you want? I say to hell with her plan! Youâve got your own dreams and desires, aspirations and what not, sheâs got no business telling you what to do.â
He let out a quiet laugh. âYou clearly havenât met my mother.â
âThatâs true.â She conceded. âBut you havenât met my father, sounds like theyâd make quite the pair.â
âDid you ever rebel against him?â Wonwoo asked.
Sadly, she shook her head. âNo, I never did. Wish I had though, my life wouldâve been a lot different if I just mustered up the courage to say âdad, I want to be a singer, not a classic violinist, please support meâ. Instead, I suffered in silence.â
âSo youâve really got no room to talk.â He scoffed. âYouâre just as hopeless as me.â
It was barely noticeable, but a small yet sad smile creased her face. âThatâs true. Onlyâthereâs still hope for you. Youâve still got a chance.â
âWhat do you meanââ
He stopped suddenly, shocked to see her climbing up onto the ledge of the roof.
âWhat are you doing?â He asked in horror, reaching out for her. âDonâtâdonât do it. Itâs not hopeless, I promise you, you can still be a singer. Thereâs still time.â
She offered him a look he couldnât quite describe. âSadly, my timeâs up Wonwoo. Follow your dreams. Donât be like me.â
Then, she jumped. It was so sudden, so unexpected, he hesitated for just a second. When he rushed to grab her, to save her from herself, she was gone. He was too late. Reluctantly, he looked out over the edge. He expected to see something that would haunt him for years to comeâbut she wasnât there. There wasnât a trace of her anywhere. Confused, he turned back around, hoping to catch a glimpse of her, hoping that his mind was playing tricks on him.
âSadly, my timeâs up Wonwoo.â
He swore that he was going crazy, because for the life of him he was sure that he never told her his name.
âFollow your dreams.â
He clutched his heart in agony.
âDonât be like me.â
#thesvttown#kpopscape#ficscafe#wonwoo fanfic#svt fanfic#seventeen fanfic#m:jww#g:angst#r:pg13#w:1k#t:oneshot#p:3rd#s:none#tw:implied past suicide#lex writes#chilligyu#*lessons#fic:svt
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The One That Got Away
Chapter 7: Number One
Summary: Charlie tries to settle into her new routine, without Bucky. As she's finally getting back on track, she has to go on her first date with Potential Future Husband Number One.
Word count: 4.2k
Warnings: A little bit of angst, one jackass, worst mother ever.
Summary | Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 |
The two weeks following the fight, Charlie spent her time either at work or with Steve. As she had promised him, she did all the research she could to find the best training possible with what they had.
The training was going well, both her and Steve were sore pretty much all the time. After a week of working out with him, she had decided to be the ââbrainsââ of the operation and leave the ââmusclesââ part to him. She was way too out of shape for boot camps. Steve was happy to have her around to help him, whether she was working out alongside him or cheering him on while he was doing the exercises she was telling him to do; it was nice to be able to spend more time with her.
It took almost a week of them hanging out together every afternoon after work before he started to see a change. Slowly, his friend was coming back to him. She started to smile again and the first time she laughed he grinned non-stop for 5 minutes. It took her a little more than a week before she stopped waiting for Bucky to show up. She had been waiting for him outside every day for lunch, but he never came. Whenever they were working out in the park together, she was always hopeful that he would join them but he never did. Steve knew it was hard for Bucky to stay away and he was impressed that he had managed to do it for this long.
Every time he had seen Charlie searching for Bucky and looking sad when she couldnât find him, Steve had wanted so badly to tell her why Bucky had said what he had said and did what he did but that would only push her towards him and ruin all the efforts Bucky had put towards protecting her, so he never said anything. In a way, he was relieved when he noticed she had stopped looking around the park in the hopes that Bucky had finally changed his mind but it also saddened him because he knew it meant she was starting to move on.
When Bucky asked about her and how she was doing, he never knew what to tell his friend. Should he tell the truth and say that she was still sad, making him feel more guilty in the process or should he lie and say she was fine, which he knew would make Bucky feel better and worse all at the same time. Bucky wanted her to feel better, he hated knowing she was still in bad shape but if she felt better, it meant she was forgetting about him and just the thought made him want to cry. Steve avoided answering by only telling his friend what the two of them had been up to with his boot camp, being careful not to tell him anything about how she was feeling. None of the answers he had for Bucky would make him feel better.
Ever since her fight with her parents, Charlie had been more distant towards them. She ate dinner with them every night, per their request. She waited until they told her she could excuse herself before walking away from them. She knew she was on thin ice and that anything could set them off, so she played the role of the dutiful daughter, doing everything they said as soon as they said it.
Charlie came back to her room after dinner. She had been sitting in bed, reading, for an hour before a soft knock was heard at her door. She put her bookmark between the pages open in front of her and closed the book, putting it on her lap. She told the person to come in and was surprised to see her mom. Ever since that night, her mom had been avoiding her. If she had something to say, she would send her father to tell her and Charlie was fine with it. Her mother wasnât really high up on the list of people Charlie tolerated at the moment.
Mrs. Mathews looked at her daughter, no emotions showing on her face and stepped into her room to stand at the foot of her bed.
ââThis Saturday, you have your first date.ââ Her mother announced, like she was talking about the weather. As if it was nothing when she knew how much it would affect her daughter.
Charlie felt bile rise up in her mouth and her stomach dropped. She knew this moment was coming but a small, naive part of her had hoped they had changed their mind. Her mom kept talking, telling her all about her date. His name, his age, who were his parents, what job he had and where they were going. Charlie forced herself to listen to her mother but none of what she said completely registered with her and as soon as the door closed behind Mrs. Mathews, Charlie had already forgotten everything except that she was going on a date with Potential Future Husband number 1. She knew she was being childish but she refused to learn their names. She had named them PFH number one through five.
Having lost interest in the book she had been reading, she decided to go to bed instead. She put her book on her nightstand right on top of the one that had been laying there for the past 2 weeks. The book that Bucky had started reading to her. She turned off the lights and closed her eyes. She hated the fact that just the thought of Bucky made her sad, she hated that she missed him when he had made it blatantly clear that he couldnât care less about her. That night, Charlie once again fell asleep with the images of Bucky telling her she wasnât worth his time replaying in her head, ignoring the stubborn tears that were falling despite her eyes being closed.
Charlieâs co-workers knew something had happened but didn't know what it was. Just that it was bad, bad enough for her to close in on herself and put up her guards. She had even asked to be moved from the front desk to the back office and only work on the patientsâ charts and files. The only person who was aware of the situation was the owner of the clinic, her dadâs friend who had hired her. He was on strict orders to fire her the moment James Barnes would show up at the clinic.
Everyone was worried about her, but they knew better than to ask questions. The whole energy at work had shifted, having lost their sunshine; the one person who could make anyone smile through a bad day or through pain. If someone was having a bad day, it stuck with them until the end of their shift because the only person who always knew what to say or what to do to lift their spirits up was hiding in an office, far from them.
They were just as surprised to see that no one was coming in to see her anymore. The friend that used to come eat lunch with her every day was gone and their most regular patient, Steve, hadnât been seen in weeks. Although it seemed like the two were connected, it was just that Steve was focusing all of his time and energy on his training and didnât want to risk ruining all of his hard work by getting hurt in an alley fight.
The next day at work, Charlie seemed even more closed off. Her co-workers had slowly started to see the old Charlie coming back to them but all of that was gone overnight. She came in, said a quick good morning to everyone and disappeared in the back office for the entire day. When they saw her again, it was at the end of the day when she left. She wished a good night, to no one in particular and walked out.
She walked straight to the park to meet Steve. No matter how bad her mood was, she never stood him up and always showed up to his training.
When he saw her arrive, he instantly knew something was wrong. Where there usually was a smile, he found a small pout; her face frozen in a frown. Her shoulders were slightly slouched and there was no energy in her steps whatsoever. She stopped walking and started looking around for him, he waited until their eyes met and waved her over.
As she walked over, she gave herself a small inner pep-talk to get into a good mood. Steve had been an amazing and supporting friend with everything that had happened, she knew she hadnât been the best of company and brought down the mood so she forced herself to smile before reaching Steve and faked enthusiasm.
ââHey Stevie.ââ She greeted him, trying to sound as cheerful as possible.
ââHey Char.ââ He smiled softly at her before bringing her into a hug. ââWhat happened?ââ
She hugged him back, sighing. ââIâm sorry.ââ She whispered.
He took a few steps back to look at her. ââWhat are you apologizing for?ââ
ââIâm always in a bad mood lately, I always have problems. Iâve been a bad friend and Iâm sorry.ââ
ââYou donât have to apologize for having a hard time. What youâre going through is not easy.ââ He hugged again before letting her go completely. ââSo, tell me.ââ
She motioned for them to start stretching, she was in a mood where she needed to blow out steam and working out with Steve was the perfect solution.
ââI have my first date on Saturday.ââ
Steve stopped stretching, looking at her with sadness in his eyes.
ââOh.. Char.ââ
ââItâs fine. We knew it was coming.ââ She tried to shrug it off.
ââWanna talk about it?ââ
Charlie shook her head no.
ââWanna sweat about it?ââ He joked.
Charlieâs only answer was a big grin.
They spent the rest of the afternoon working-out, well Steve was working-out while Charlie was cheering him on, completely out of breath.
ââI didnât think I would ever be in a better shape than someone else.ââ He laughed in-between reps.
She stuck out her tongue at him. ââHa. Ha. Ha. Arenât you a funny one, Rogers.ââ
ââI know, Iâm hilarious. It was about time you acknowledge it.ââ He smirked.
She rolled her eyes at him, smiling.
ââI guess I was too blinded by my own flawless sense of humour to notice yours.ââ She shrugged.
Now Steve was the one rolling his eyes and laughed, pointing at his own head.
ââHowâs your ego? Good? Does that big head of yours make it difficult to walk through doors?ââ
ââMy ego is fine, thank you for asking and yes, it is difficult sometimes, some door frames are smaller than others but I just learned to side step. Iâve gotten excellent at it.ââ
Steve whistled, his eyes focusing on her head. ââFascinating. I think I can actually see it grow before my very eyes.ââ
ââArenât you supposed to be training right now?ââ
ââArenât you?ââ He shot back.
Charlie gasped dramatically and they both started laughing. Steve went back to training, finishing todayâs boot camp before falling to the ground, sitting next to his friend.
ââYouâre getting better every day Stevie. Iâm proud of you.ââ She smiled.
Steve blushed at the compliment, not that anyone could notice, his face already red from all his hard work. She forced him to stretch afterwards, even if he kept complaining that he was too exhausted and he didnât need to stretch even if deep down he knew he would be less sore the next day.
They walked home in silence, aside from their giggling. Anyone who saw them wouldnât be able to tell that these two were full grown adults by the way they walked, shoving into one another; their steps going in every direction but a straight line, and by how they acted.
After an eventful walk home, they stopped a block away from Charlieâs house. It had become where they met and where they said goodbye, Steve didnât come over anymore. They hugged once last time and went their separate ways.
Charlie felt so much better. All the laughing and running around almost made her forget what was waiting for her at home. Almost. But tonight, she couldnât be bothered with it all. She had just had one of the best days in a long time and she was determined to not let anything ruin it. She was careful not to do or say anything that would set her father off, as soon as it was possible she disappeared to her room and finally let herself relax once she had closed the door.
She was getting ready for bed, brushing her wet hair from her, very much needed, shower. She was looking at herself in the mirror and being tired, she zoned out. Her eyes werenât focusing on anything in particular, looking in her mirror at the reflection of her room behind her. She was looking around, still through the mirror, when something caught her eye; bringing her out of her thoughts. She gently placed the brush on her desk, to its rightful spot and turned around. She started looking around again, trying to find what had caught her attention but she couldnât find it. She took a few steps to the side, when she saw it again. Something was shining in the light from her room. She walked over and picked it up.
Her locket.
She closed her fingers around it and brought her hand to her chest, where the locket usually would be and took a deep breath while closing her eyes.
ââIâm sorry Gran. I know it meant a lot to you, it meant a lot to me too. I really wish you were here right now.ââ She whispered, almost inaudibly. ââI miss you.ââ
As she opened her eyes again, she tried to think of a place where she could put the necklace. Somewhere that she would know it was safe, hidden from her parents but where she would still have easy access to it. Her eyes fell on the books piled up on her nightstand, finding the perfect hiding place. Her parents never looked through her books, they would never bother themselves trying to find out more about her interests.
She took the book that she had started reading with Bucky and found the page they were on. She hid the necklace in between pages, as close as possible to the bookbinding to not make it too obvious that it wasnât closing completely because of the pendant. Closing the book, she put it back where it had been; under the book she was currently reading.
She fell asleep easily that night, feeling more at peace than she did the night before and every other night before that.
Saturday came around quickly, too quickly. Like everyone else, Charlie always looked forward to the weekend but not this time. Steve had tried to reassure her, saying it would go smoothly and that maybe she would even like him but she knew that if her parents had chosen him for her, he probably didnât have anything in common with her but everything in common with them.
The pit in her stomach made it more difficult to get excited and to get ready. Even though she had half a mind to not put any effort on how she would look, she knew it would only mean more trouble for her so she decided to look her best, as if it was a real date. A date she wanted to be on with a man she liked.
She looked at herself one more time in the mirror to make sure her hair was secured into place, that her eyeliner looked good and that her dress looked flawless; not a wrinkle in sight. After all, she had to show her ââhousewife potentialââ. She heard knocking at the front door and took a shaky breath. She grabbed her clutch and opened her bedroom door, cringing at her fatherâs loud laugh. She walked downstairs, avoiding to look at the man waiting for her as long as she possibly could, that way she didnât have to talk to him. Instead, she focused all of her attention on her feet as she walked down. It looked completely natural, like she was simply trying not to trip. Unfortunately, she reached the first floor and finally had to look up.
Number One looked handsome, too handsome. He had a smug look on his face, the kind of look that screamed ââI know Iâm hot, Iâm a big shot and better than you.ââ and Charlie hated that. It was going to be a long night.
She shook his hands while her dad was introducing him, honestly she wasnât really listening and just nodded politely when he asked if she was ready to go.
He told her parents he would bring her back no later than 10pm, then shook her fatherâs hand. He turned around, opened the door and walked outside towards the cab that had been waiting for them; never looking back to see if she was following him. She followed not long after, a bit disappointed that he hadnât opened the door for her and let her walk out first, guiding her with his hand resting on the small of her back like gentlemen did. Like James Bucky did.
The restaurant was nice and very expensive. The waiter walked them over to their table, right next to the window that looked over the street from where they had just come from. She followed the waiter, looking on the tables around to see what looked good. Great, she thought, ridiculously small portions. I should have eaten before this. Although it was really ââunlady-likeââ, Charlie liked it. She didnât care about the name of the restaurant or how much everything cost. She cared about actually eating and loving the food on her plate. That wasnât going to happen tonight.
When they reached their table, Number One pulled out a chair and sat down. He didnât pull out her chair, he didnât ask her which seat she preferred; the one facing the wall or the one back to the wall. He barely even looked at her. Leaving her with the chair against the wall, she started walking over to sit but was stopped by the waiter who gave her a small smile. He pulled out her chair for her and waited until she was comfortably sitting before leaving them. She thanked him with a small nod and looked at the man sitting across from her, there was no doubt in her mind that he didnât want to be here either. She wondered why he accepted to do this, clearly he had to be coerced into it otherwise he wouldnât be here.
She was surprised to learn that he was here of his own free will.
ââI like those kinds of dates, 'â he started. Dates, plural. Not his first time doing this.
ââI like to see what kind of sad woman needs her parents to set her up on dates with men.ââ He snickered. ââCouldnât find anyone to love you on your own uh?ââ He added with a mocking tone, pouting to mock her even more.
As rude as he was, Charlie sincerely didnât care about what he said. He didnât mean anything to her and his opinion meant even less.
Her eyes drifted to the window, watching people walk by as they looked curiously into the restaurants. Human nature, always so curious. The man in front of her kept talking, never noticing that she wasnât listening to a single word he said.
The people on the street were much more interesting than he was, she was almost amused; a small smile at the corner of her lips. Her arm was resting on the table and her hand was under her chin, holding her head up. The small smile quickly faded when her eyes met with someoneâs on the street. She sat straighter in her chair, her hand falling on the table. The pit in her stomach got even worse, the lump in her throat that had rapidly formed made it hard to swallow or breathe.
It was the first time she had seen him ever since that night almost 3 weeks ago. Bucky.
They both froze into place, even though a window separated them. Her heart started beating faster, just as his did too.
He had managed to avoid running into her for the past 3 weeks. Avoiding every place he knew she went to often, taking a different way home in case Steve would be bringing her over as he lived close to him. He thought that going out for a walk on a Saturday night would be safe, she usually spent her Saturday reading books or by sorting them and rearranging her shelves. He really didnât expect to see her and the way her expression changed, Bucky knew she hadnât expected to see him either. He finally broke eye contact, looking her over. It felt like he hadnât seen her in months, when in reality it had only been a few weeks.
He noticed how dolled up she was and how beautiful she looked. He started moving before he even realized it, walking towards her.
When Bucky broke eye contact, Charlie also took the time to look him over. She wondered if his hair had always had that cute little curl at the front of it. As he started walking closer, her heartbeat picked up. Her heart was beating so fast and so loud that she was sure everyone in the restaurant could hear it.
Thatâs when he finally saw him; the reason that she was out on a Saturday night, the reason why she looked so beautiful. Number One.
It was like he had been in a trance when his eyes met hers, for a few moments he had forgotten why she wasnât in his life anymore and why he couldnât hear his favorite sound again, the sound of her laugh but when he saw the man sitting across from her, everything came rushing back and he was brought back to reality.
He stopped walking, meeting her eyes one more time; so many emotions went through his head and showed in his eyes. He sincerely hoped that everything he had wanted to say and every apology he had been dying to confess could be seen in his eyes.
Then, he turned around and walked away, disappearing as quickly as he had appeared.
Charlie spent the entire date thinking about Bucky and the look in his eyes. He looked so sad but why? He never cared about her, he told her so himself. Hundreds of questions were running through her mind while she ate. She had barely ordered anything, she had lost her appetite.
When the check came, she was glad she did. Number One paid for his half and then pointed to Charlie, talking to the waiter like she wasnât even there.
ââSheâll take care of the rest.ââ He said, with a smirk.
The jerk. He wanted her to not be able to pay, to ask him to pay for her half because she didnât have any money. He wanted her to feel humiliated. Canât find a man and canât pay for yourself? Pathetic. She could almost hear him say those words, his smug expression said it all.
Charlie looked at the waiter with a big, genuine smile on her face before grabbing the clutch that rested on the table next to her and opening it.
ââWith pleasure.ââ She said, pulling out a few bills and handing them over to the waiter.
He stopped smiling instantly, clearly angry that she hadnât needed to beg for him to pay for her meal. It seemed like her parents had left out the part about how she worked everyday, which almost meant she got a paycheck every other week.
Now, he was the one feeling embarrassed. She had completely turned the situation on him and he ended up looking like the cheap date who couldnât afford taking out women in places like the one they were in right now.
The waiter looked down at Charlie, grinning. He had seen and heard everything Number One had said and done since they had walked in and he was glad to see her put him back in his place.
They walked out of the restaurant and Charlie swore she could see smoke coming out of his ears. He waved over a cab and turned his face to look at Charlie.
ââYou can find your own way home.ââ He said coldly before sitting in the cab and closing the door, telling the driver to go.
Charlie sighed. Although he was extremely rude and she absolutely despised him, she really didnât feel like walking home alone. Especially not in this dress and those shoes. Her dinner had been expensive and she didnât have any money left to get a cab.
ââWhat a jerk.ââ She said out loud, angry.
Suddenly she felt someone behind her, standing close to her. Too close. A hand rested on her left shoulder before it ran down her arm, fingertips brushing against her skin. They were the kind of little touches that would have made her swoon if she hadnât been so terrified.
ââBad date?ââ Was whispered in her ear as the hand on her left arm reached hers, closing around it.
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As I promised yesterday, chapter 7 is here! I hope you enjoyed it, let me know what you think.
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