#sissy (2022) edit

[eiriee]

Cecelia and Stars/Glitter

Sissy (2022)

[boringkate]

Do you think that it'll ever become fashionable for cis girls to pack their panties to give themselves the sexy girlbulge they sadly lack?

Not exactly what you're asking about, but like...

There's this movie from a few years ago about a cis girl (hard to say what's irony when it comes to the real person being like a non transitioning trans dude, but the character is a cis girl) who decides to compensate for no longer being underage (and thus no longer desirable to men on the internet) by packing and pretending to be the only other thing that men what to fuck (a tgirl).

It's like full disclaimer the most 4chan brained thing I've ever seen. Like wildly aggressively racist (on top of being obv transphobic etc).

It's like interesting that it exists (easily the only movie I've ever seen with an unsimulated cum tribute montage), but I don't recommend it.

In any case, it was immediately followed by an unrelated uptick in irl fake internet tgirls.

That one account getting so much attention has made it impossible to google around for other examples, but I've definitely seen other cis women packing and pretending to be trans for attention and OnlyFans subscribers.

Not to mention all the non transitioning ~cis~ boys who (rather than accepting the time tested femboy route of wearing a face mask) use heavy face filters and photoshop and pretend they're out and transitioning trans girls on hrt etc (again often for OnlyFans subscribers). Which I consider a different thing. That's more of an extension of standard sissy egg behaviour.

I'm also constantly thinking about that cis girl model that pretended to be a trans woman a few years ago after getting criticized for being transphobic (no packing involved that time).

No shortage of real world gender swapped Adam (2019)'s.

And then there's all the discourse (that seems extra inescapable lately for some reason) about openly AFAB self identified "trans women."

Edit: One late addition: I think I was angsty at some point about Lady Gaga always leaning into stuff about her having a dick, but I've come around to thinking that was fun actually lol.

[sissytobitch10seconds]

It Will Come Back

Fandom: Wednesday (2022) Summary: There's something lurking in the woods outside of Nevermore. Something that drips with bloodlust and hurt. Warnings: Taxidermy, hunting, animal death, violent/possessive sex, underage sex, minor unhealthy behaviors, and canon-typical gore Word Count: 6,353 Ship(s): Wednesday Addams/Tyler Galpin

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A/N: So I had this idea sneak up and attack me during the middle of the night and then spent the next several days bothering all my mutuals about it while I wrote it. I edited this during the last couple of days that I had The Plague so there's a chance that I missed some things. If you liked this fic and want to talk to me about it (once you've finished reading it of course), send me an ask ! I hope that you all enjoy. Stay sissy and bitchy everyone <3

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You know better, babe, you know better, babe

Than to look at it, look at it like that

You know better, babe, you know better, babe

Than to talk to it, talk to it like that

Don't give it a hand, offer it a soul

Honey, make this easy

Leave it to the land, this is what it knows

Honey, that's how it sleeps

Don't let it in with no intention to keep it

Jesus Christ, don't be kind to it

Honey, don't feed it, it will come back

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The first time that she saw it, she was in Xavier’s art shed. He had a portion of it covered in a tarp just for her so that she could do her strange little rituals without scraping any of the lacquer on the floor, just as he had done for himself. He got painters fabric, thick waterproof stuff that didn’t matter if he dropped even an entire bottle of paint on it, and she got the tarp so that it was easy to dispose of. She really enjoyed the fact that her childhood friend had made a space for her within the space that he had carved out for himself, not that she would ever tell him that.

Night was beginning to creep closer and closer to its apex the longer that she was out there, the cool chill of midnight leaking through the cracked windows and half-open door. The only reason that she was out in the art shed was because when she had come back to class, Casper Shepherd and Echo Finnigan had been in her room with Enid, giggling about something inane so loudly she knew she wasn’t going to get anything done. 

Wednesday was pissed that she had to put aside her writing time for the night as her typewriter was going to be far too heavy for her to lift on her own. She decided that if she wasn’t going to be able to flex her mind creatively through dissociating into the world that she had created for Viper, then she was going to do it somehow. So she had decided to work with the taxidermy kit that her parents had left her for her birthday.

That had been a terrifyingly dreadful event that was only saved because Xavier had known her since they were six. That meant that he assured her birthday was spent in almost total solitude, keeping Enid out of their dorm until eleven o’clock at night. Afterwards he let her back in and Wednesday endured an hour of socializing with the friends that Enid had been able to convince to try and give Wednesday a surprise party.

She had gotten a myriad of little gifts for her birthday, but the ones that her parents had left with her after Parents Weekend was her favorite. Enid wouldn't let her do it in the dorm room because she felt faint at the sight of blood and taxidermy wasn't usually a clean hobby, so it was probably a good thing she was doing it out in the shed. She enjoyed the feeling of night anyway, the creeping dread that the shadows on the walls were inches from reaching out and returning her to death. She also got to feed the innards of the mice she was working on to the local owls, who were far more fun to toy around with than the intelligent corvids that followed her around during the day. 

She let the feeling and sounds of night lull her into a near-dream state where all she could focus on was the chemicals and sawdust that went into making her newest creation. She wasn't like the woman that made the stuffed squirrel and mouse figures sold in the shop in town, but she did think that it was imperative to have physical crafting hobbies and nothing was better than taxidermy for that. 

She had been up for most of the night when she heard some scuffling from the slightly open door. It was only then that she realized how late she had been working. She was going to be so deliciously miserable tomorrow, she could already feel the exhaustion settling into her bones. 

Wednesday knew that whatever was at the door was one of the critters that she had been feeding. She didn't want the unused part of her craft to sit there and rot, especially when giving it to the local wildlife meant that she kept the ecosystem flowing even though she was killing a large amount of the prey animals for her practice. Owls were her favorite to feed the mice and voles to, but sometimes foxes came and asked her for something. Her favorite fox was one that looked like it would shiv her if it had thumbs, scruffy and clearly recovering from mange. 

They could wait for the time being, though. She wasn't quite finished with her last vole of the night and she wanted to get it done before her hands were stained with blood again. 

Wednesday tried focusing on the task in front of her, ignoring the sound of leaves being crunched as whatever critter was outside stomped on them. She did follow the sounds as it circled the shed once, twice, three times before it stopped once more at the door. 

The steps sounded heavy whenever they hit the ground. It rattled the very earth just enough that she could tell where it was stepping because of the way that the poorly installed windows rattled noisily. When it reached the doorway she took a deep breath in, in the hopes that she would be able to pick up on some kind of clue as to what it was. Foxes smelled like thick, rich earth and the oils that prevented them from getting hurt in the snowy months. Skunks smelled like their spray, very faintly but distinctly enough that it overwhelmed all other scents that they might have. 

There was nothing coming from this creature, though. She could faintly smell the coppery iron of the blood from the bag of guts next to her but the only other thing was the remnants of Xavier's aftershave. Whatever he had switched to was far stronger than his old stuff, so Wednesday made a note to ask him to switch back as soon as possible. 

She rose, now curious. She walked to the door and then placed her hand flat against it before she pushed it open to reveal whatever it was that her gifts to nature had summoned. Her fingers loosened on the bag full of viscera for just a moment as she took in the sight in front of her. 

She had been expecting a bear or even a wolf. The silent yet heavy way that it moved had made her inclined to believe that it was a predator. What she found was leaning towards that assumption but still so unique and knew that it actually managed to surprise her. 

A monster had found her, a kind that she had never heard stories about or seen before. It was about the same height as the shed, or it would be if it stood to its full height instead of hunching as it was. The skin was a sickly shade of gray that was stretched over the bones so tightly that it looked painful. The monster's limbs were gangly and disproportionate to its body, with the arms hanging long below where they should have been. Its claws were massive, almost as long as its palm. The face was almost human but had large yellow bug eyes and a maw full of sharp, serrated teeth. It was completely in the nude, shivering from the night air as the only thing keeping it insulated was the wiry brown hairs springing from its shoulders and down its back. 

It didn't do anything, just hunched over while staring at Wednesday. She couldn't really blame it, even though she hated it when people stared at her like she was somehow stranger than they were. She couldn't tear her eyes away from the monster either.

"What are you doing here?" she asked. A creature such as this had to have some kind of master, a being watching over it to make sure that it didn't kill enough civilians to make people antsy. Even the werewolves generally found people to watch them in the forms of their packs (though that was usually to distract themselves rather than to have a proper watcher). 

The monster gave a soft wuffling sound in the back of its throat and inched towards her. 

Wednesday cocked her head to the side as she tried to figure out what it wanted from her. She had encountered every type of person in her two years at Nevermore and life amongst the Addams, yet this creature intrigued her more than anything had before. She took a small step toward, clenching her hand a bit tighter around the bag of guts and muscle as it threatened to slip from her long, skilled fingers. 

That caught the monster's attention. Wednesday noted how immediately brilliant he seemed to be. She hadn't seen that much intelligence in a creature since she had come to Nevermore. About half of that could be blamed on the fact that she was surrounded with underdeveloped, hormone fueled teenagers, but it was disgruntling nonetheless. 

"What? This?" she asked as she brought the nearly dripping bag up in front of her. She had gotten so lost in her work that she had done far more than she usually did, which meant that the waterproof canvas of the bag was being tested. 

The monster followed the path of the bag with its eyes. Curious. 

"I usually reserve this for my owls and foxes," Wednesday informed it in a rather clipped tone. She blew out a small breath and then tossed the bag so that it slid open in front of the beast. Guts, bones, and muscles slid out of it and into the dirt. 

The monster tracked the bag with a sickening accuracy. It stared at the viscera for a moment longer before it turned back to her.

Wednesday crossed her arms in front of her as she met the sallow yellow of its eyes. "Well?" she asked, gesturing with her head over to the bag.

The creature immediately lurched towards the mess in the dirt. There wasn't a lot of food there for a beast of its size. The monster had to pick up the tiny mouse remains with only two of its claws before it could bring the meat and guts to its mouth. She longed to feed it something bigger, something that it had to gnaw at with those terrifyingly large teeth instead of just swallowing it. 

She didn’t have anything that she could use for that in this current moment, though, so she just settled on watching all the remnants of her crafts slide down the beast’s throat. It was beautiful to watch the way that it would hunch over the viscera while grabbing the newest bit that it wanted to eat. She could hear the snapping and crunching that came with every bite that it gave the bones and the sickly wet noises that the blood made as it dribbled down the monster’s face. 

When it had finished, it turned around so that it was facing her. She raised an eyebrow at it. “I gave you a meal, what do you want from me now? I have nothing else to give you. That was the last of the mice that I can catch this week.”

She was going to be busy with classes and the clubs that she had been forced to join when she had first showed up to the school. It had been a good idea of her parents to enroll her in Nevermore instead of letting her go to a public school where all the adults would be too worn out to try and stop her from getting up to mischief. Wednesday was of the opinion that the principal of the private outcast school was overcorrecting just a little bit, however. She was forced to socialize and join several clubs even in her freshman year before she had gotten up to anything that might be frowned upon. Just to stick it to Weems and her overbearing nature, though, Wednesday made sure that she still wrecked havoc whenever she could.

The monster leaned forward, closer and closer to her until she could feel its breath on her hair. She supposed that was the point, as the great beast took in a couple of deep breaths before it turned and loped back into the forest. 

She had just allowed a monster, one that she didn’t even know the type of let alone the name, scent her like she was a dog. She was marked by it, especially now that she had given it the attention that it so obviously wasn’t getting from whatever master that it had.

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You know better, babe, you know better, babe

Than to smile at me, smile at me like that

You know better, babe, you know better, babe

Than to hold me just, hold me just like that

I know who I am when I'm alone

I'm something else when I see you

You don't understand, you should never know

How easy you are to need

Don't let me in with no intention to keep me

Jesus Christ, don't be kind to me

Honey, don't feed me, I will come back

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It wasn’t often that Wednesday let her friends drag her into town, but when Enid was particularly good for a day she thought that it was a nice reward. It meant that she got more days where she was permitted to stay sequestered away in their dorm room while working on her novel without interruptions, because that meant that Enid got more time in the cafes and tacky shops of Jericho.

They were trying out somewhere new today since Xavier insisted that the last cafe that they went to had to be cursed or something. That had only intrigued Wednesday to want to go to it more, since she wanted to experiment with the bad luck that they inevitably had whenever they patroned there, but it had freaked Enid out so bad that she refused. Wednesday made a mental note to force her childhood friend to take her into town next week so that she could poke around The Brewed Witch as much as she wanted.

This time, though, they had decided to get their morning coffee before Enid dragged them all over town at a small coffee shop called the Weathervane.

It was nice enough, if not a little too perky for Wednesday’s tastes. The walls were an unoffensive shade, just dark enough that she didn’t feel like she was being suffocated. Most of the staff looked like they had already been to Hell even though they worked in a small coffee shop in an even smaller town and it was only nine o’clock in the morning. She supposed that could have been because it was one of the weekends where Nevermore students were unleashed upon the town.

Suddenly she felt a lot better about being dragged away from her first choice option if it meant that her very existence in a place that wasn’t meant for her was going to be causing other people displeasure.

They walked up to the counter of the cafe and Enid rattled off her order. It was something with way too much sugar and not nearly enough coffee, but after two years of living with the other girl for the majority of the year, Wednesday had learned that it was better that Enid lay off the caffeine. Xavier ordered a plain black coffee and a poppy seed muffin that Enid would end up eating the majority of. Then Wednesday stepped up to the counter so that she could give her order. 

She made eye contact with the barista that was serving them and felt a shiver run down her spine.

He was a regular-looking normie, but there was something about him that she couldn’t place. His hair was a flop of caramel-colored curls that hung evenly over his forehead. He had a well proportioned face other than the scowl lines that were being brought forth by the frown he was currently sporting. He was taller than Wednesday with light skin that was covered in a smattering of freckles and moles. His arms seemed just a little bit too long for his body but he was holding them upwards as he wrote down when they were ordering on a pad of paper, so she figured that she just wasn’t seeing it right.

Her eyes flicked down to his nametag and then back up to his face so that she could lock eyes with him again. She desperately wanted to be able to name the emotion that was swimming in the depths of his eyes but she knew that she wouldn’t be able to, even with her massive vocabulary and ease of reading people from afar.

“What are you doing here?” he asked, his voice low enough that her friends wouldn’t be able to here. They had already left so that they could find the perfect booth where they could watch people while they ate and talked.

“I’m getting coffee with my friends,” she replied. She would have said something more cutting and abrasive, she didn’t much like it when people questioned her before she even did anything, but something about him made her treat him more tenderly. “Do you have a problem with that, Tyler?”

He glanced down at the nametag hanging off of his apron and then back at her. “No,” he choked out. He forced a smile onto his face as he then asked, “What can I get you?”

Wednesday gave her normal order: a quad over ice with no creamer, milk, or sugar. She watched him as he wrote it down and then slowly turned around so that he could begin making the orders.

She trailed her fingers over the edge of the counter as she walked towards the booth that her friends had chosen. They were talking about one of the classes that they shared but she didn’t have, which allowed her to eavesdrop on the employees cleaning up the table two booths behind them. 

“I can’t be put on another shift like this, man,” the first one groaned. “I was working until closing last night with Tyler and now I’m up super early.”

“Shut up. You got to close with Tyler. I had to close with Vivian last week and let me tell you, she does absolutely jack shit. If I was being paid even the slightest bit more then I would report her and get her written up at least,” the second one snorted.

The first one spoke again, their head turning towards the counter where the aforementioned barista was still working, “Getting written up doesn’t do anything. Before whatever the fuck happened last Tuesday, Tyler used to get written up all the time and nothing ever happened.”

There was silence for a moment and all Wednesday could make out was the crumpling of a wrapper and some napkins. “Something did happen to him, didn’t it?” the second employee asked.

“Something had to have happened. Someone doesn’t have a complete change in personality like that overnight. I mean, I used to think that he was going to bite me every time I came behind the back to get another cup or make tea,” the first said. “Something happened and now he’s like… a person.”

“He was a person before. It can’t be easy being the sheriff's son in this town. Not when he hangs out with the mayor’s kid all the time. He probably had to watch his bestie never get in trouble for the same shit that he got slammed down for,” the second said.

“God, Kylie, keep it in your pants. You can’t go crushing on that guy when he had that total one-eighty. What if he goes back to being a dick?” the first employee grumbled.

Usually the implication of a crush or some kind of romantic attraction between anyone was enough to make Wednesday lose her appetite or at least stop paying attention to what was going on around her. She didn’t care for the overexposure of affection that she had gotten from her parents while growing up so she wasn’t going to subject herself to it more now.

The strange thing was, she didn’t feel disgusted or even put off by the implication that Tyler could be romantically involved with one of his coworkers. Instead she just felt angry. 

The anger that erupted in her stomach and flushed throughout her veins was unlike anything she had ever felt before. It was possessive and verdant green with jealousy. It made the muscles in her legs and back twitch with the anticipation of getting up to protect what was rightfully hers. Her hands clenched in her lap so hard that they left crescent shaped bruises on her palm.

She realized then that there was no reason that she should be thinking like that. She had no say in Tyler’s life or care about what he did with it, she had only just met him.  

“Yoohoo, Earth to Wednesday?” Enid asked as she waved her hand in front of the other girl’s face.

Wednesday often got lost in thought, so this interaction was one that they had many times before. She reached up and grabbed Enid’s wrist before she tossed it back over to her. “I’m still here, unfortunately.”

“We tried to talk to you like three times and we got no response,” Enid whined as she cupped her wrist to her chest like the other girl was at all capable of doing damage to her werewolf-enhanced body.

“What were you thinking about?” Xavier asked casually. He was flexing and unflexing his hand over the napkin that he had been doodling on. She knew that he only did that when he was seeing something that had been bothering him in his dreams. Being childhood best friends with him was something of a double edged sword. She knew him better than anyone else, even his now ex-girlfriend Bianca, but at the same time he also knew her more intimately than even her own family did.

She let out a small sigh as she turned her head towards Tyler. “Does he seem off to either of you?”

Enid groaned and placed her forehead down on the table. “Please don’t be stirring up more shit with your weird murder mystery fetish stuff. I just got over the trauma of Laurel shooting Ajax because she turned out to be an anti-outcast normie,” the werewolf pleaded.

Wednesday couldn’t help herself. A smile crept onto her face as she leaned back in the booth. That was a rather fond memory, for her at least.

They didn’t get to continue their conversation as Tyler walked over to their booth with a tray in hand. He set down Xavier’s black coffee and muffin in front of him and then Enid’s horrific concoction of sugar and milk in front of her. He took care removing Wednesday’s quad from the tray as he set it down in front of her, leaving the receipt at the edge of the table.

She turned her head to watch him go, her eyes transfixed on the way that his shoulders and back rippled with every little movement that he made. He was such a curious person, so almost wrong while still being wholly and completely normal.

“Weds,” Xavier kicked at her leg under the table to get her attention. She responded by stomping on his foot and he just rolled his eyes at her for it. “He didn’t charge you for your quad. That shit is usually just as expensive as Enid’s garbage.”

“Strange,” Wednesday commented as she took the receipt from him to check it over. She did the math in her head, her eyes flickering every so often to the pricing on the menu hanging behind the counter, and it was true. For some reason, Tyler had charged everyone but her for their drinks. He didn’t even tack on the price of her coffee to the other three things that they had purchased.

“Maybe he likes you,” Enid squealed excitedly. She was practically vibrating in her seat as she said it and Wednesday just rolled her eyes. Enid had been obsessed with the idea of relationships and romance since the two of them had first met when they were fourteen. At first, Wednesday had found it to be the second most grating fact about her, directly following her obsession with color.

The day followed in its strange pattern, because for some reason, Wednesday didn’t find the idea of Tyler liking her romantically as disgusting as it should have been.

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It can't be unlearned

I've known the warmth of your doorways

Through the cold, I'll find my way back to you

Oh, please, give me mercy no more

That's a kindness you can't afford

I warn you, baby, each night, as sure as you're born

You'll hear me howling outside your door

Don't you hear me howling, babe?

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The idea of romance was disgusting to her. How could it not be, after she had to watch her parents interact with each other every time they were in the same room together? She did care for her family, she treasured them in the place where her heart should have been. She just hated the way that her parents seemed to be magnetically pulled together.

It hadn’t gotten any more appealing even after she got some space away from them. Enid adored the cheesy romance novels that shops usually kept away from the front of the store in fear of scaring away their customers. She had a very specific idea of what romance and romantic relationships had to be and also refused to shut up about it. When she had been vying for Ajax’s attention, Wednesday had been about four whining sentences about how he hadn’t asked Enid out yet from throwing herself out of the window.

When she came out to Xavier’s art shed so that she could work on taxidermying something new, though, the idea of romance was illuminated with a completely new light for her. 

She found a perfectly killed deer laying on the doorstep to the shed. It hadn’t been shot, none of the small bullet holes from the buck shot were present on the hide. The only thing that she was able to identify as a cause of death was the slash along the abdomen, right where she would have had to cut the skin to work with it anyway.

She immediately dragged the carcass into the shed so that she could work with it. Xavier had left early so that he could spend some time with the Nightshades and Enid was out in town with Ajax, so Wednesday knew that she was going to be left alone as she got her work done.

The night crept further and further on as she allowed herself to be consumed by the project that she had laid out in front of her. The meat, bones, and guts from the deer lay beside her, limp and useless now that she had the skin removed and hanging to dry. It was going to take a lot longer than it would have if it was a smaller animal, but she had never had the opportunity to work with anything this large.

The moment that she had finished getting everything prepped for the next stage as much as she could, she heard the now-familiar wuffling. The monster had come to visit her several more times since the first night that she had fed it. She enjoyed when it came back, more than she probably should have.

It was a terrifying beast and despite all of the time and energy that she had put into researching what it was so that she could better accommodate it, she had been able to find hide nor hair of what it might be. That drove her forward more than anything else had before in her life. She had the chance to research a new species, to dissect it and study it until she was able to write her own book about it.

She also enjoyed the attention that it gave her whenever it came to visit. It would sit patiently by the door and then refuse to go to the bag of viscera that she now always saved for it until she permitted it to do so. She enjoyed the loyalty and obedience more than she knew that she could enjoy anything.

She grasped the two legs of the buck that she was able to and then began to drag it towards the doorway. She knew that Xavier was going to be upset about the fact that she had smeared blood all over the floor, but there was very little she could do about that now. Her monster was more important to her than her friend’s feelings, especially when she knew that he would get over it quickly enough.

She dropped the deer down to the ground and then opened the door so that she could see her monster.

It was standing there, hunched over and sniffing at the air like it always did when it came to be fed. The last couple of times that it had visited her it had also let her thread her fingers through its hair and brush over the fur that lined down its shoulders and back.

The creature was holding itself as if something was wrong, though. Wednesday immediately wanted to soothe any anxieties or worries that it might be having but she also knew that if she got to close then there was a chance that it could take her hand off. She wouldn’t mind if it attacked her, she might even think that it was fun, but she needed both of her hands to finish her novel.

“What’s the matter with you?” she asked.

That snapped the creature out of whatever it had been thinking about. She watched as it stood up to its full height, something that it had never done around her before. She watched, completely transfixed, as the body of her creature began to shrink down.

By the time that the height finished decreasing, it was still much taller than her but not nearly as tall as the monster had been. The skin that had stretched over bones too big for its own frame began to turn into a milky white, covered in moles and freckles. The massive claws changed so that they were eerily long fingers. The teeth reduced down so that they fit back inside of its mouth. The wispy, wiry fur reduced down so that it was a mop of caramel colors. The yellow, bulging eyes turned so that they were smaller and hazel.

“Tyler,” Wednesday breathed, so low that she was sure he hadn’t been able to hear her.

He took a step forward, both of them ignoring the fact that he was completely naked. He reached his hand up to the side of her face and leaned forward so that they were a few inches apart from each other. “Did you appreciate the gift that I left you?”

She smirked. She knew that there had been something off about him when she had met him for the first time in the Weathervane. She had let Xavier and Enid talk her out of it since neither of them wanted to deal with her being obsessed with some mystery and drag them into it again. She had dropped it in favor of focusing on her book and digging more into what her parents had done when they were attending Nevermore.

She had just watched Tyler change from her monster back into his human form, though, which was all the confirmation that she needed to know that he was just as strange as she had thought he was.

She smirked as she leaned into the touch of his hand. “I did. I brought the carcass out for you to have, but I don’t think that this version of your body would appreciate it very much.”

“I have some other plans for what I want to do tonight,” Tyler whispered as he leaned a bit closer to her.

---

Don't you hear me howling, babe?

---

She surged forward before he had the chance to. He had come to her and basically made her his master (though she’d have to check and make sure that there was no one else in his life that had the kind of relationship that they did). She wasn’t going to let him think that he could take the lead just because he had brought her something that she enjoyed. She was still the one in control here and she was going to remind him of that as often as she could.

Their lips connected together like they had been made by the gods for one another. They only pressed together in a kiss for a moment before tongues and teeth joined in the mix, biting and licking into each other’s mouths like they were trying to eat each other’s souls.

She was happy with this, more than she ever thought that she would be based on how she had considered romantic and sexual relationships up to this point. Arousal furled in her gut the longer that they continued to pull at each other. She could also feel Tyler’s cock growing hard against her leg, a siren song and a promise all at once.

---

Don't you hear me howling, babe?

---

He pushed her up against the side of the barn wall. His long fingers wove through her dark hair, something that she had never let someone do before. He wrenched her head to the side and then began to bite and nip at the skin on her neck.

She could already feel the slow heartbeat that usually fluttered in her chest moving so that it was fueling the bruise that was beginning to form on her skin from his ministrations. 

She threw her head back against the wall and let out a moan to tell him that she wanted him to keep going. Her hands were roaming over his back and neck before she finally settled on tugging at his curls as well. 

---

Don't you hear me howling?

---

She began to pull at her clothes while he was busy. She busted several of the buttons on her art shirt, which was annoying since she was going to have to sew them back on but she didn’t mind at the moment. She pushed the shirt off and down onto the dirt beneath them. Her bra came off a moment later, and she only realized that Tyler had used his claw when she felt the blood dripping down her back.

She groaned as she rocked her hips upward to let him know that she wanted him to go faster. He continued to work on her neck like he had before. He moved down to her chest and collarbones a moment later. Tyler bit at the skin as much as he sucked hickies onto it, being non-discriminatory when it came to what kind of marks he was leaving on her as long as he was leaving some.

The only time that he stopped worshiping her skin was so that he could pull down the skirt and panties that had remained untouched up to that point. She was left bare and naked while the world around her bit at her skin. The prickling pain on her back from where he had gotten her earlier mixed with the ache her skin immediately felt when the cold air snapped onto her.

Wednesday knew that the air was affecting her more than it usually was because of the flush that her normally dead and tacky skin was taking on. She was hornier than she thought possible for one single person to be. She wanted so desperately for him to fuck her already, but he insisted on marking her up for a time being first.

---

Don't you hear me howling?

---

When he finally slipped inside of her, she felt like her entire body was burning in the best way possible. She remembered the jealousy that she had felt overhearing one of his coworkers hitting on him behind his back. She groaned and smirked as she knew that none of them were able to have this side of Tyler. This was only for her, and it would also only ever be for her. 

She scratched at his back with her nails so that he was just as marked up as she was. Wednesday could feel the way that he was twitching inside of her every time that she moaned a certain way or caught part of his hair in her nails.

They bucked and moved against each other, his thick cock sliding in and out of her every time that he moved his hips. They were drowning in a sea of pleasure and possessiveness, both of them coming to the apex of their interaction. He lowered her down onto the pile of clothing that she had dumped while scrambling to get him into her.

“You’re mine, Tyler. I’m going to come and visit you and we’re going to talk about this,” Wednesday said as she looked up at him menacingly. Her body was aching in the best was possible, she could get addicted to this.

“Is that a promise?” he asked with a small smirk. She could already see the way that his height was increasing and his skin was turning ashy as he shifted again.

“It’s a threat.”

---

Don't you hear me howling, babe?

---

A smile crept over her normally stoic features as she heard the sound of her monster howling into the night.

[rose-and-lemongrass]

Okay I'm trying to be chill about the fact my computers busted and I can't edit sooo here's my favorite horror films I watched in 2023!! So far, at least, I'll update if I find some more great ones in the next month. These are in no particular order.

Talk To Me (2023) LOVED IT. I was genuinely really really stressed while watching it. Honestly give me a character I like and put them through the ringer and I will be invested. I REALLY wanted Riley to make it. I know some people don't like the end but I did. It's a very existential and depressing ending but I thought it was fitting.

Sissy (2022) This is a super super underrated movie. Barely any discussion of it all online. I thought it was incredible; it perfectly nailed what it feels like to be in a social situation you know you don't belong in. I felt called out several times. Cecilia is a really fascinating character too, and I loved the social media aspect.

Creep 2 (2017) I couldn't believe how into this movie I was. It's basically just two really weird characters manipulating each other (with one being way way way more successful than the other) and it's so wild to watch. I liked the first Creep but the relationship here was so fascinating. I almost feel like this movie would have been better as a standalone bc we as the audience know that Aaron is a serial killer. It would be fascinating to be like Sara and not know for sure. Either way though, I loved it, I hope they make a third one.

Terrifier 2 (2022) Dude I LOVED this movie!! Controversial opinion maybe but I thought it was fantastic. Sienna is such an amazing character, Art the Clown was on his A game. I weirdly resonated with the family stuff (i got emotional at points) The special effects were great. I know it has a reputation. And it has earned that reputation. I have found no one I can comfortably show this movie to that I trust isn't going to be horribly traumatized. Which sucks bc when I saw this in theaters I got like. Sexually harassed. And I dont want it to happen when I see the third one. I wish I had a buddy I could take. But regardless every time I watch it I have a blast, and I really wanna make a video discussing this series soon bc I have so many thoughts!!

Halloween (1978) Yeah everyone was right this movie is awesome. I'm totally going to add it to my halloween watchlist every year.

Candyman (1993) Yeah again it's really really good, everyone was right lol. Really dragging my feet on the remake bc honestly this movie is basically perfect.

Cube (1997) I always thought I'd like Cube. And I did. It's really weird and psychological and cool. I watched it like 11 months ago so I don't feel like I have a lot to say right now, but I just remember how much I was invested while watching it and how much I gushed about it after I finished.

Deadstream (2022) Honestly this was most fun I had with a movie all year. I was dying laughing the entire time. I've watched it three times and I sent the opening scene to everyone I know. It's just a very funny and very spot on parody of YouTubers and I love it

Fresh (2022) I don't love the abrupt ending but the rest is basically perfect. The levels of performance during the dinner scene OH MY GOD. And it's a really fun and disturbing exploration of how terrible dating is and I appreciate that a lot.

Hereditary (2015) This movie hurt the entire time and I loved it. Toni Collette's performance is the best I have ever seen, I am actually furious she wasn't nominated. Her screams man, they are haunting. Also really realistic dream dialogue I pegged right away it was a dream bc that's exactly how people talk in my dreams. This is a movie with a lot of layers and something about it resonated with me, especially after the terrible terrible year I had.

Midsommar (2019) I vibed with this one hardcore. I think its just weirdly cathartic to see someone in a bad social situation get accepted while the person who put them in that situation gets rejected. Again because of the terrible year I had. But also its bad that that happens! Like its creepy how easy it is to be taken in by a cult. I also didn't feel the length at all I was very very invested the whole time. My friend Emily absolutely hates this movie though lol

Trick R Treat (2007): I didn't find it scary at all. But I vibed with it. It just FELT like Halloween, and some of the stories really really worked for me. Particularly the werewolf one and the one with the zombie kids.

VHS (2012): This is entirely because of the Amateur Night and 10/31/98 segments. I love those segments to death, I've watched them over and over. I still haven't watched Siren (the full length Amateur Night adaption) but I am so psyched they kept the same actress. She was an absolute star I'm planning on watching it entirely for her.

It Follows (2014) I know I can't keep saying I vibed with these movies but I did. I love the dreamlike quality, the ambiguity, the idea behind the monster is actually one of the most terrifying things I can imagine. Even if you get rid of it there's a chance it'll come back to you so you're never safe. Certain sequences were really really cool. Also one of the best jumpscares of all time in this. Like I don't even like jumpscares, they never get me, but this one did! Also I adore the opening sequence and how it's complete nonsense until you rewatch it and realize what's happening.

Infinity Pool (2023) I went in completely 100% blind. It was a wild ride that's for sure. I said "oh fuck me" full volume at one point if that tells you anything. Honestly I have nothing to say about the plot but the feelings this movie evoked in me were intense. Really good movie for someone who secretly hates themselves and is scared that everyone around them does too, I guess, because it captures that feeling perfectly.

[fashionbooksmilano]

Crazy

La follia nell'arte contemporanea

a cura di / edited by Danilo Eccher

Skira, Milano 2022, 248 pagine, 21 x 31cm, brossura, Bilingue Italiano Inglese, ISBN 9788857247991

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La follia non ha limiti. 21 artisti di rilievo internazionale e 15 installazioni site-specific inedite raccontano i legami tra follia e arte.

I 21 artisti chiamati a partecipare sono parte di questa follia :Carlos Amorales, Hrafnhildur Arnardóttir / Shoplifter, Massimo Bartolini, Gianni Colombo, Petah Coyne, Ian Davenport, Janet Echelman, Fallen Fruit / David Allen Burns e Austin Young, Lucio Fontana, Anne Hardy, Thomas Hirschhorn, Alfredo Jaar, Alfredo Pirri, Gianni Politi, Tobias Rehberger, Anri Sala, Yinka Shonibare, Sissi, Max Streicher, Pascale Marthine Tayou, Sun Yuan & Peng Yu.

Nella più ampia accezione di “follia”, non di rado sinonimo di “creatività fantastica”, l’arte si è sempre ritrovata a proprio agio ma è soprattutto con i primi studi psicanalitici e neurologici d’inizio secolo scorso che il rapporto fra disturbi psichici e arte si è fatto più intenso e consapevole. La follia, come l’arte, rifiuta gli schemi stabiliti, fugge da ogni rigido inquadramento, si ribella alle costrizioni catalogatorie; la percezione del mondo è il primo segnale di instabilità, il primo contatto fra realtà esterna e cervello, fra verità fisica e creatività poetica, fra leggi ottiche e disturbi neurologici. Nel volume che accompagna l’originale esposizione romana, 21 artisti internazionali sono chiamati a partecipare a questo progetto e sono parte di questa follia, che prende forma attraverso 15 installazioni site-specific inedite in una narrazione complessa, soggettiva, obliqua; così il genio e l’estro creativo si espandono come le coloratissime colate di pigmento sulle scale dell’astrattista inglese Ian Davenport, o modificano la percezione dello spazio, come l’ambiente di Gianni Colombo (1970). Le diverse opere d’arte invadono con una inarrestabile potenza espressiva ogni ambiente accessibile: dai neon del cileno Alfredo Jaar sino all’immersione totalizzante di Fallen Fruit, duo formato dagli statunitensi David Allen Burns e Austin Young.

28/08/23

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[forabeatofadrum]

Thank you @aroace-genderfluid-sheep​, @artsyunderstudy​ and @captain-aralias​ for the tags. I too hate losing an hour because of daylights savings time.

Well folks, it’s still Kill Your Darlings, thesis edition! I usually try to find six, or ocassionally seven, sentences for the SSS posts. I know it’s not a hard rule, but I like doing it. Unfortunately I had to kill quite some darlings for my thesis, and as a result I have a lot more sentences today, so here we go.

Conforming to the heterosexual order is also referred to as homonormativity (Duggan, 2002). Homonormativity shows that the heterosexual norm is superior and as a result the queer community seeks inclusion and recognition of heterosexual institutions. This is done by disowning anything that is seen as abnormal. This can be done through media representation, among other things. Homonormative representation can lead to a victim role and to assimilation with heterosexual culture (Dhaenens, 2013; Yue, 2014).

This is actually 4 sentences. And yes, “homonormativity” is a weird term. You kind of assume it defines the opposite to heteronormativity, but nope, it is an extension of it.

But next darling that I needed to kill (kinda), is long, so let’s move this under the cut.

To understand how queer representation leads to societal consequences, it is important to look at how queer representation came to be. Queer characters appeared in media from the early 1920s, but new regulations in the 1930s and 1940s made it illegal to show explicit queer characters in America. As a result, a lot of subtext and symbolism was used. Not only that, but these characters were used in a negative way, linking homosexuality to immorality (Rodriguez, 2019). Gay men were the dorky “sissies” (Rodriguez, 2019) and the lesbians were the ugly, sneaky “dykes” (McNicholas Smith, 2020b). Often a storyline for a queer character ended in death, something that still occurs and is known as “Bury Your Gays” (Birchmore & Kettrey, 2022; Bridges, 2018; Waggoner, 2018). From the 1970s, things gradually changed and around the 1990s, the era of modern queer representation arose. Since the 1990s, the number of queer characters has increased and representation is becoming more diverse (McNicholas Smith, 2020b; Rodriguez, 2019).

However, the queer community is still under-represented and limited in the roles in which it is portrayed (Waggoner, 2018; Woods & Hardman, 2022). The queer community is always portrayed in a heteronormative way to show that heterosexuality is the norm (Allen, 2022; Avila-Saavedra, 2009; Dhaenens, 2013; Marwick et al., 2014; Weber & Weeks, 2022). When Ellen Degeneres came out, it was an important moment for the community, but the moment was also criticized, because everything queer about Ellen was taken away for the heterosexual viewer, because queerness is seen as something abnormal (Dow, 2001; McCarthy, 2001). Thus, representation of queer characters must appear very standard, non-political and non-sexual: the characters must adhere to traditional values such as family, monogamy and stability (Avila-Saavedra, 2009), or they are portrayed as a victim to let see that it is easier to be cisgender and straight (Dhaenens, 2013; Rodriguez, 2019).

On the other hand, normalisation is seen as a positive thing. Dhoest and Simons (2011) criticise the idea that simple, standard queer representation is always bad representation. They say that it is wrong and oversimplified to claim that there is only one right way to represent the queer community. Viewers also acknowledge this by stating that even if they do not feel represented by some depictions of queer characters, that those queer characters can still be important to others (McInroy & Craig, 2017). Some studies show that viewers appreciate normalisation (Dhoest & Simons, 2011; Gomillion & Giuliano, 2011). While some viewers like a more abnormal queer representation (Sender, 2011), others even reject this “overkill” and “extreme” queer representation (Dhoest & Simons, 2011).

Yeah, this is a big darling. As I said, I sort of have to kill it? First off, I have to shorten it. But I can save some parts of it and I need to put it in another section of the thesis. Basically, I have to restructure my entire theoretical background, which honestly was valid criticism (I talked about this on Wednesday). But this means that even after I trim it down, I need to be able to split it up and put the relevant parts under “recognition”, “respect” and “identification”.

Unfortunately, I love all of this section, so shortening it is going to be rough. My supervisor also said that this is all too “subjective”, but I am not entirely sure I agree with that criticism. As in, this isn’t my opinion. I put the sources right after it. My supervisor tells me to summarise earlier research and I did and these are the results from those earlier studies. This happens multiple times, because she said that my usage of the terms “positive” “negative” and “better” representation is subjective, but I also take those terms from the sources. Hmmm.

And now, the weather: @quizasvivamos​ @blurglesmurfklaine​ @coffeegleek​ @esperantoauthor @otherworldsivelivedin @caramelcoffeeaddict​ @sillyunicorn @bazzybelle @dragoneggos @raenestee @tectonicduck @nightimedreamersworld @urban-sith @thnxforknowingme​ @you-remind-me-of-the-babe​ @takitalks​ @justgleekout​ @cerriddwenluna​ @tea-brigade​ @ivelovedhimthroughworse​ @moodandmist @whogaveyoupermission @bookish-bogwitch​ @confused-bi-queer @ionlydrinkhotwater @1908jmd​ @special-bc-ur-part-of-it​ @larkral​ @chen-chen-chen-again-chen​​ @cutestkilla​​ @nausikaaa​​/@wellbelesbian​​ @martsonmars​​ @facewithoutheart​​ @shrekgogurt​ @boyinjeans​

[daddymilker691]

In 2022 I took over the a failing newspaper and tore up the concept of degrading women with large bosoms on a certain page three to be replaced by a beautiful bulge page five the concept in some ways of course remained the same to objectify on its first edition in November 2022 the page four ran as such Steven teases us with a hint of bulge under those cream coloured panties , blimey fellas couldn’t we all give young Steven a helping hand , this new and rather novel idea proved to be a roaring success and I also took on a starring role as agony uncle giving much needed help and advice to aspiring young and sometimes older sissy models a very personal helping hand

[disanddatmedia]

My friend Sissy Thiessen Kootenayoo of @wasesabaexperiences is the first Indigenous person and feminine person to host the City of Edmonton’s New Years Eve celebrations. I got to be there to see history being made. They did great and I'm glad that, even for a moment, was able to witness it. Taken with Canon T6I Location: Churchill Square, Edmonton, Alberta, Canada Taken: New Years Eve, 2022 Taken and edited by David William Paturel (Dis & Dat Media) Edited with the software PhotoScape All rights of photo(s) reserved to Dis & Dat Media (David Paturel) #disanddatmedia #photography #photo #churchillsquare #edmonton #yeg #alberta #canada #indigenous #newyearseve #edmontonhistory #yeghistory #night #nighttime #nightphotography #nighttimephotography #winter #2022 #winter2022 #newyearseve2022 #history #edmontonphotography #yegphotography #2spirit #twospirit #goodbye2022 #hello2023 #event #party #cold (at Churchill Square, Edmonton, Alberta, Canada) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cm60KQPJO0I/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[riseofthecommonwoodpile]

We end this round on the last day of the year. A lot of ups and downs in this one! The most albums I've ever deleted from my iTunes, but also i think the most 9.0's or higher i've given in one of these too.

doing this silly little project, I have listened to 515 albums this year that I probably wouldn't have listened to otherwise. so thank you to everyone who has suggested things when i post those lists. It says a lot about just how big my music backlog was that i think it will take until the end of 2022 until i'm actually done...and can start adding in new albums to my iTunes. or maybe i'll just add new stuff as i go, and rotate as i go? either way, thanks. that's so much fucking music.

I Am a Lake of Burning Orchids- Valediction (8.0/10)

Internet Club- Redefining the Workplace (7.0/10)

Iannis Xenakis- Kraanerg (8.0/10)

James Brown- Live at the Apollo (8.0/10)

Jason Crumer- Ottoman Black (8.5/10)

Kazumoto Endo- While You Were Out (9.0/10)

Lester Flatt & Earl Scruggs- Foggy Mountain Banjo (9.0/10)

Lindsheaven Virtual Plaza- Transversal Worldwide Shopping (9.0/10)

Luciano Berio- Sequenzas I-XIV (8.0/10)

Madonna- True Blue (8.0/10)

Mariya Takeuchi- Variety (7.5/10)

Meat Loaf- Bat Out of Hell (8.5/10)

Men at Work- Business as Usual (8.0/10)

Merzbow- Bloody Sea (7.0/10)

Merzbow- Merzbird (5.5/10, deleted from iTunes)

Merzbow- Sphere (8.0/10)

Merzbow- 1930 (8.5/10)

Midnight Television- Midnight Television (3.0/10, deleted from iTunes)

Mike Patton- Adult Themes for Voice (7.0/10)

Neil Young- Time Fades Away (8.0/10)

Nina Simone- High Priestess of Soul (8.5/10)

Nurse With Wound- To the Quiet Men from a Tiny Girl (6.0/10)

Pere Ubu- Dub Housing (10/10)

The Pogues- Rum, Sodomy, & the Lash (8.5/10)

Prince- Dirty Mind (9.0/10)

PrismCorp Virtual Enterprises- Home: Complete Edition (6.0/10, deleted from iTunes)

Prurient- Palm Tree Corpse (8.0/10)

Prurient- Rose Pillar (6.0/10)

Prurient- Time’s Arrow (6.0/10, deleted from iTunes)

Prurient- Troubled Sleep (7.0/10)

Prurient- Unmasking the Insect (5.0/10, deleted from iTunes)

The Red Krayola- God Bless the Red Krayola and All Who Sail With It (9.0/10)

The Replacements- Tim (7.5/10)

Roscoe Holcomb- The High Lonesome Sound (9.0/10)

Sissy Spacek- Freaked With Jet (6.5/10)

The Smiths- The Queen is Dead (9.0/10)

Son House- Father of the Delta Blues: The Complete 1965 Sessions (8.5/10)

Steve Reich- Drumming (9.5/10)

Sylvester- Step II (8.0/10)

Tom Waits- Heartattack and Vine (8.5/10)

Willie Nelson- Stardust (8.0/10)

식료품groceries- 슈퍼마켓Yes! We're Open (9.0/10)

死夢VANITY- Evening Bliss (7.5/10)

01100001 S.T.A.R.D.U.S.T. Subsidiary- Arcadia Campus: Virtual Tour (8.5/10)

[thechristaact]

Blogtober overview

I didn’t exactly set October on fire but managed to post what I could, which sometimes is all you can hope for. Here’s what we got up to: Blogtober 2022 October My Best Friend’s Exorcism Why I love Halloween 3 Creepypastas Most haunted: local edition Horror books to snuggle up with Positive Menty Attitude Sissy review Crystal Eyes review She Will review Cosy TV for spooky…

[lecturesaflo-ts]

Love letter de Sissie Roy chez Evidence Editions

Love letter de Sissie Roy chez Evidence Editions

20 avril 2022  132 pages Youtubeuse – Mal-être – Dépression – Mykonos – Rencontre – Complicité – Amitié – Sentiments 7,99 € – Ebook Pour combler son mal-être et tuer la dépression qui la ronge de l’intérieur, Romane s’envole vers Mykonos. Le plan est très simple, s’éloigner de sa vie new-yorkaise, retrouver ses bases et repartir en meilleure forme. Une fois là-bas, elle se mure dans le silence…

[myhughniverse]

On may 26th, 2022, Kylie Minogue was seen in a feather-detailed black edition dress from Valentino Pink Pierpaolo Piccioli Collection, styled by Sissy Vian in London for the first performance of ABBA Voyage.

[lecturesaflo-ts]

The Bad Prince de Sarah Dheilm aux Editions Addictives

The Bad Prince de Sarah Dheilm aux Editions Addictives

16 mai 2022 331 pages Mariage arrangé – Conflit – Tension  Editions Addictives 4,99 € – Ebook Elle doit lui dire « oui » pour la vie. Elle va tout faire pour qu’il crie « non » avant elle ! Sissi n’a pas d’autre choix que de respecter la dernière volonté de son père mourant : le roi de Santerra veut jouer les entremetteurs entre sa fille et le prince Sebastian, et elle va se plier à ses désirs……

[lecturesaflo-ts]

Je survivrai de Sissie Roy chez Evidence Editions

Je survivrai de Sissie Roy chez Evidence Editions

16 février 2022 139 pages Rêve – Enfer – Violences – Retour – Attirance – Pardon – Reconstruction 7,99 € – Ebook / 13,00 € – Broché En quittant sa ville natale, Hazelle ne s’attendait pas à trouver l’enfer en tombant sous le charme de Cole. Énigmatique, mais aussi cruel et violent, il lui fait vivre l’impossible chaque jour. Lors d’une énième crise de colère, elle s’enfuit et n’a qu’une idée en…