#sincereposting

[accio-bagel]

Fandom creators! Please stop apologizing for these things:

Geeking out over your interests (we are all here doing it!)

English not being your first language

Spending “too much” time OR not putting “enough” time or effort into your works

Starting out in a new hobby and not being great at it right away

Shipping your ships or not shipping at all

Posting rough sketches or unedited stories

Not finishing a WIP if you lost interest

Not responding instantly to asks/comments/tags/etc.

Going on hiatus

Struggling with writer’s or artist’s block

Making harmless mistakes

Not having top-of-the-line equipment

Finding a new interest and prioritizing that instead

Having opinions and preferences

Being yourself

None of these is anything to be sorry for. If anyone is giving you shit for the content you have created and put out into the world for free, you owe them nothing ❤️

[puzzled-on-main]

sometimes during a withdrawal episode where my body craves a thing it cannot have, i feel such a powerful and immutable depression come over me that i am convinced i have nothing at all. in moments like this i like to pretend i am a medieval king and imagine what preposterous thing i could demand my court bring to me for my entertainment. nine times out of ten, i can have the thing in seconds, and when i can’t, i can have it in a matter of hours for a small fee.

i have access to so many beautiful things. music. art. food. nature. the writings of strangers from other countries, other centuries, other walks of life entirely. photographs and videos of treasured memories. my favorite shows whenever i want to rewatch them. a community for anything i could possibly want to talk about.

medieval kings would conquer nations for the privileges i have as a first-world peasant.

[the-iron-shoulder]

what do you MEAN a normal crochet goes through BOTH sides of the V

wait I’m sorry have I been doing it wrong this whole time???? I’ve made of plushies in the last year and it turns out that I was… using nonstandard methods? I was basically going FLO for everything (aside from explicit BLO stitches) but it turns out that there’s a distinction between FLO and “normal” stitches???????????

I guess this explains why FLO is a separate instruction… I had always chalked that up to a regional quirk, or just the pattern author being REALLY sure that we were doing a normal stitch instead of BLO, but… apparently not! 🙃🙃🙃

so like, okay, I’ve made roughly 20+ plushies or similar projects in the past year, and I think they’ve all turned out pretty good. I often explain cross-stitch by saying “your kitchen, your rules; the right way to do it is the one that gets you the results you want with minimal frustration,” but and I know that should apply here too but like,,,,,,,,,,, I still feel weird! Not guilty or ashamed or anything, mostly baffled? Especially since FLO is legitimately a different stitch from non-FLO and the results will be genuinely different! they’re empirically “okay” as evidenced by the fact that my projects are okay, but they’re straight up different from the standard instructions hahahahahahahhahaaaaaa 🙃

I wonder what else I might be doing in a nonstandard manner 😅😅😅

[kyriathanatos]

if you watch my stream or enjoy my content, thank you, i love you

[essefryu]

Sorry, can't talk rn, I'm having a Rewatching Trigun AMVs From 2008 night

[pirdmystery]

happy fifth anniversary to fire emblem three houses, a game that means more to me than i ever thought possible and has changed my life in tangible ways. 700-some hours in and i still feel like i am learning new things about these characters every day, i will never be over them, they all have a permanent place in my heart. i think about this game every single day and probably will for the forseeable future. what a game

[huggingtentacles]

Anyway if you like art that's just cubes shapes and patterns, if you like poetry that just sounds like a bunch of random words, if you like films that are just a collection of loosely connected scenes, if you like music that's just so chaotic it's barely recognizable as such, if you like games that are just incomprehensible in their design...

I love you. Be my guest.

[kingdomokun]

birthday botty

[the-iron-shoulder]

Adding to this, it’s also so good for you even just to make art from a kit, or from instructions, or whatever! Follow someone’s pattern, play the sheet music someone else wrote (and/or cover someone’s song), use someone’s recipe, literally get an actual kit and assemble it, whatever. Making stuff feels good even if you didn’t make it 100% from scratch.

Please make art. You don't have to bare your soul or make a masterpiece, you can be silly and you can be derivative if you want. You don't even have to show it to anyone. Just please make something, it's so good for you

[the-iron-shoulder]

So apparently my bf, who is out of state visiting his sister, got into a hopefully relatively minor motorcycle accident… sounds like it’s just one person involved (he hit… I’m not sure, either a wall or a parked car, I’ll get more later I guess) and he’s able to walk and says he just feels sore and probably didn’t break anything, but he’s still at the ER just waiting to get looked at and make sure that there’s nothing insidious there

he’s with his sister and I trust her to take good care of him, and he’s probably not like injured per se, but I’m worried for him and also I wish I could be there for him right now :(

[amateurenjoyer]

A friend posted this tweet in our Discord:

We got to work sharing our lists. Mine is extremely of a time and a lot of these tracks might not seem like instant joy, but rather, extremely specific joy-adjacent feelings. You can listen to my list here. Anyway, I thoguht it'd be nice to share here with a little blurb for each song under the cut. These are not in a listenable order imo but i think that's a me problem.

Think About Things - Daði Freyr

I'm not a parent and never wish to be one, but this song captures a sense of unconditional love and optimism for the future, and in such a catchy way, I just can't help but love it. Unskippable.

Fifteen Minutes - Mike Krol

I can and have listened to this song on repeat for hours on end. It's short, so that's a lot of listens. A lot. Gets me hyped despite the world ending.

I'll Believe in Anything - Wolf Parade

It's the crashing cymbals that drive this for me, and the feeling of two people fighting to persist in a world not made for them. That's, uh, also optimism!

Gun Has No Trigger - Dirty Projectors

I needed a dirty projectors song on here, I could have chosen so many. but I've been hooked on this one lately, with it's bubbly bass line and salient themes of protest. Gives me chills and that's a nice feeling.

Suffer for Fashion - Of Montreal

I danced my teenage heart out in a press pit 10 feet from Kevin Barnes as this song blasted over the crowd at Pitchfork. A lot of their music fostered a sense of my queerness before i had words for it (and hey, sounds like ditto for Barnes too, though whoof kind of a rocky path there publicly). Maybe the most joyous entry on this list for me.

Float On - Modest Mouse

My dad's driving me home from rehearsal for the summer stock show I somehow got cast in, I'm playing this album for him, we stop and get soft serve while the crickets start popping off for the evening.

I Am Trying to Break Your Heart - Wilco

I liked you, you liked her, we were all best friends. You cried on my bed the day she left town. I should have been jealous but I loved that you could be that vulnerable with me. I think my heart got stronger because of it.

A Nervous Tic Motion of the Head to the Left - Andrew Bird

idk man it's the whistling and violins and that sweet honey voice, what do you what me to say?

Light Rail Coyote - Sleater-Kinney

I don't know that Portland feels like this anymore, it certainly doesn't to me, but my fondness for the picture this song paints cannot be understated. Probably some unhealthy nostalgia. Now get off my lawn.

Only Skin - Joanna Newsom

Sixteen minutes of exquisite chills and weeping and being transported to another place entirely. Sometimes I struggle to feel engaged with the world around me but I'm connected the place I'm taken to here.

This Mess We're In - PJ Harvey feat. Thom Yorke

This is a cheater's way of getting both these artists on this list. Great song though, first song I learned to play by ear.

The Freshman - The Verve Pipe

I'm on the bus to Rhode Island, all the Latin class kids are excited to be staying in a hotel together. My head's on missy's shoulder as Boston rolls by. I'm building a constellation of love and friendship, made up of many points. It's like constructing a myth. I wonder what I should ask the fortune teller when we get to Newport.

I Wish I Was the Moon - Neko Case

Midnight drive to the airport. My father has had one funeral already, but there's two more to go. It's a sad and slow roadshow, but the moon is bringing me peace.

Dirty Whirl - TV on the Radio

I thrummmmmmmm and that's all there is to say.

Bear - Antlers

This song is a tragedy but something about expressions of grief and like calling to like. Hospice as an album is a great comfort but this one track really sings for me.

Decatur, or, Round of Applause for Your Step-Mother! - Sufjan Stevens

I like-a da banjo. Some of the harmonies just slip into my brain folds in a such a pleasing way.

What's Up? - 4 Non Blondes

I'm in first grade and my sisters are in high school, our parents are out of town and the big kids are throwing a party. I'm twirling a red plaid umbrella as a couple of burnouts giggle and stare at its dizzying patterns. Hey, its the 90s! The only song I sing at karaoke.

Washing Machine Heart - Mitski

I'm hopeless and it feels good, actually. I'm smiling. I'm smiling!

Angeles - Elliott Smith

This song makes me think of you and a gift you didn't even realize you were giving me. I think there's another world in which we share a home and become doddering old weirdos together, platonically, if you can believe it. Thanks for playing scrabble with me.

Fuck and Run - Liz Phair

Anger and passion were too scary to let in for so long, and while every minute I spent around you was a foolish and humbling trial, I'm genuinely grateful that a dirtbag came along at the right time and pulled those feelings out of the numbing void I had been keeping them in. I hear you're in real estate now?

[ratoartist]

I think this world loathes the sincere.

When I step back and observe my life through all its comings and becomings, never once have I felt at home in my own body, my own mind. What a tortuous thing, to not be welcomed by your cells. This world has invaded every inch of me and told me not to belong anywhere. A prison that keeps my spirit locked out. I exist outside of myself, outside of this place and time and life.

I am sensitive to my own sincerity and hyper-aware of how it feels in my mouth, too ready to disown what is mine in desperate search for some kind of welcoming, of coming home in the eyes of others.

[breakerofhalos]

I’m not a butch, I’m more of a genderfuck trans femme, but I need this too.

It’s scary to let out the more dominant, intense, and - yes - predatory parts of myself. I can’t signpost that I can take a “no” gracefully. I can’t display my knowledge of consent. I can’t wear a shirt that conveys my absolute drive for care and safety. And unless the organizers know me REALLY well and are committed to mediation, I know a bad interaction could leave me exiled.

idk if others feel the same way but I love the term "butch bait" because it feels like such an open acknowledgment of the fact that so many butches feel predatory for their attraction, especially if that attraction is explicitly sexual and not just softly romantic, and most importantly it's a gesture that seeks to transform rather than reduce feelings of being a predator. like, yeah, being assured that we're not scary or monsters for having sexual desires is nice, but it doesn't work if we're not willing to believe it. "Butch bait" says "I want all of you, including the claws and the teeth and all the other parts of you that you think are scary" and I think that's something every butch deserves to hear

[hotgrrlbummer]

i just saw a thread about people talking about avoiding places the idea of being “known” makes them embarrassed/anxious and god it depressed me so much.

there were people being like “nooo workers love having regulars when they tip well :) it makes our job easier :))))))” which is all very true but that reassurance to them doesn’t fully capture the beauty of what these people are missing out on and why i feel such existential dread from reading that thread. im tired of “talking to people is difficult and stressful” being the default stance so many young people have when little interactions like this are some of the best parts of my day. i feel like this lifestyle of interacting with screens to avoid the most minuscule amount of small talk reinforces solipsistic ideas and erodes solidarity and caving to whatever social anxieties you have will only result in increased mental maladies as you become more isolated. for the love of god, today instead of doordashing or ordering your starbucks ahead or getting something on amazon that you could easily pick up in a store, go out into the real world and buy it. maybe start a conversation with someone next to you in line

[hpowellsmith]

Crème de la Crème turns four tomorrow and I entirely failed to do anything special for it, eeep

[kingdomokun]

life lately has been so full of joy and hope and wonder