#since i was 16? i think thats when i started telling my irl group of friends

[bunnyb34r]

🥺💕 my mom got me some pride stuff for my birthday bc she wanted to assure me that she's proud of me no matter who I am/who I love 😭

[dragon5kulls-blog]

Losing Her

Losing the one person I've ever told "I love you"....her. (lets call her Guava, cause that was a nickname given to her cause she likes guava juice/soda) I've always been very closed, reserved, and if you would know me IRL, you would of never noticed me sad, depressed. You would just seen me as somewhere in between quiet and calm, but that is because I have always been great at hiding emotions. We broke up about 12 hours ago. She was my first. 16 years single until about a month ago for the very reason that I knew that I would get so attached and it would hurt the day they left. Scared of losing someone I love. It was an LDR which most people say really ever works out, and even knowing this, I still gave her a chance. We first met on discord, march/29/2019 a friday, and I would normally just pop in different channels and my typical lines were "oh yeah yeah" "oh no no" and "oh boi". She told me that she was in one of the channels were I joined and she repeated back what i was saying, and it went for a bit, until i went to another channel. Now its march 30, and I went around playing piano to others. There was this one guy who could sing and I started to voice record, me playing bich lasagna and him singing it. Then I went to another channel, were there she was again. It was a channel with 4 other people in it. I joined into her telling a FanFic about...Hitler and Jesus . Yep... and i'm not religious myself but I was (still am for about 2 more weeks) in a catholic class on Sundays, so yeah....oh boi. It was weird, but I was bored, so I stayed in the voice channel. We decided to just make a group chat just for us 5 people so she could finish the FanFic. She read it, we had our reactions and we just kept talking on that call. After some time, one by one they left the call until it was just me and her, we talked for a couple of min until I said that i'm just going to head back to the there server because it was a bit awkward now since I never had female friends, except for one who i met online( lets call her Mia), and neither have I been interested in being in a relationship so it just felt a bit weird. When I told her i was just about just head out and go back to the server, she told something along the lines of "oh, you just gona leave the call, i see how it is" and that very day, I had the choice to stay or to go. As I said, I would of always just left and not think about it, but I something something different this time. I chose to stay. We talked about my Dog named Max, cutest dog ever, yeah he isn't really well with other dogs, but he was my little max. At some point in life I did feel suicidal for other reasons that involved my parents, me, and my brothers. But thanks to max, whenever I used to start thinking about just ending the pain that went on for months, I would always look at max and start cuddling with him. Thanks to him and Mia, a friend that i trusted enough to talk about the situation i was in at the moment, i would always stop myself and feel a bit better. We talked about a few other things too, by this time its been around an hour or so that we have been talking and i receive a dm from one of the people that was in that group (lets call her Caitlin). Caitlin saw that we were still in the call and just typed "i ship it" and i was like uh, oh no no. and she told me, why not. I said that i wasn't here for that, and she told me, there is no harm in sliding in Guava dm's and getting to know her. So Caitlin now joins the call as well and asked her how old Guava was, and she said 16, she asked me and i said 16, then Caitlin sent me a dm saying to go for it, i just kinda ignored it. So I talked for a few more min to both of them, until i told them I was goin to the store real quick, so I just muted and left. When i came back I un-muted and said my usual phrase "oh yeah yeah, im back boi" and they was like oh, hi again. The three of us were talking about music and a few other things. Because this Sunday church class was close to where my mom and brothers lived, every Saturday my dad would drive me to my moms house in the afternoon and pick me up the next day. So I told them that I had to go, said bye and just left the call. About 3 min later as i'm getting my stuff ready to go, I receive a dm this time from Guava saying "where did you go ?:(" and i told her that my brothers came over and that i had to go to their place. Then she told me if i will send pictures of max, i told her, if I remember then yeah. Then her next text was " he’s sO cute(like me), you better remember" so I kinda avoided responding to her dm by talking about something else, a few the rest of the text were from her saying " it’s like almost 3pm over there right?" I said "Yep" then she said "it’s so sad, well can you do me a favor before you go >:0" i asked "Wut" she said "call real quick and say oh yea yea :’o" So obviously i already can tell she kinda into me. So I finish packing up my stuff and go back to my laptop to shut it down, but as im closing apps, i see that I left the voice recorder on, and im sitting there like, oops. and so I was hearing the audio so i can know when to edit out the rest that wasn't the guy that singed bich lasagna. I got a bit curious and remembered that they were talking when I left to the store earlier, and so I skipped to that part where I muted my self and left. Caitlin asked her what were we talking about and she said about max and a few other things and that I seemed cute. Caitlin told her to slide in my dm''s then, and Guava sounded unsure, so Caitlin told her that she should just said "fuk it" "just go for it". At this point I was surprised, I ended up saving that part of the recording but had to go now cause my dad was waiting for me in the car. So i'm at my mom's house and its around like 6pm for me, and she is in a different time zone, 6 hours ahead. So i decided to call her, forgetting that its 12pm for her, but she picked up. I showed her max for a while and then went back to just voice chat. We talked for a bit more and then they left the call again. i talked to guava for while again until like a half an hour later when I realized that she has fallen asleep on the call. so i'm like, 0of, her phones battery is gona be dead when she wake up. So I ended up get a call from the group chat shortly after. The rest of the group chat we talking and I told Caitlin that Guava fell asleep on the call, Caitlin just said, cute, I responded with "oh no no". So we stayed on the group call for about 2 more hours, Once in a while I checked on Guava to check if she still had the call open, and she did, I joined once in a while and said "Oh yeah yeah" I even texted her that im tying to wake her up cause her phone was gona die. At around 9, I started watching youtube and getting ready to sleep at around 11. Its Sunday morning and I wake up to a text from her saying " i-, my phone is always on battery save, so it can literally survive on 1% for an hour, I woke up alone still in the call at 8am with 3%, thanks tho, for trynna wake me up" I told her that I joined once in a while and said Oh yeah yeah, she said that was cute and she wish she would of woken up, but the way I say Oh yeah yeah is soothing, so of course she wouldn't wake up, I and so I say, wut... that's a first. To switch up the convo, I told her that Max has just woken up and she wanted to see him. The room was dark and i didn't want to turn on the light cause I didn't want to wake u my brother, so instead I sent her pictures of Max, and then we sent each other a bit of memes. That was that for the day, Monday comes, and i remember that she is 6 hours ahead, so at 12:42pm my time I sent her a text saying to wake up cause its time for school, and she said she still had time for a few more min of sleep and then asked me if I shouldn't be asleep. I told her thats its 12:42pm and she told me to not stay up to late. I told her why not, she stays up late too, and then she asked me if she can send the pic of me to Caitlin. Yesterday she asked for a pic of me, and was saying nah, im good. She kinda ended up pressuring me to send it, so I was like fine. I sent her a pic that I took about 3 months ago of me and max laying down. So she's asking if she could send it to Caitlin cause she wanted to know how I looked like too. It was time for her to go school by now so she just tells me goodnight. I went to sleep and then I left to school. Came back and then we were just texting for a while, then we just called for a while till she left to eat. About and hour and a half passed by now and decided to give her a call, she didn't pick up so I just went back to the other Server and talked to other random people. She texts me back like 30 min later saying sorry that she was busy playing minecraft, and so i tell her, nice, me and another friend from school were planning to play minecraft, but he never picked up. Then I tell her to go to sleep cause for her it was 2am, she just replied with "no u". We texted for a few more min, and then I remember that the day before, she wanted me to learn a song on the piano, so I told her before she goes to sleep, if I can call real quick if she wants to hear the bit that I learned, she said yeah. I called her and showed her the bit that I was practicing and then we just talked for a few more min. Then again, she fell asleep on the call, and of course I stayed on the call this time and said oh yeah yeah once in a while. After a few hours she just left the call with out saying anything, so im like...ok. Discord bot kicked me from the call after 5 min. I stay up till like 2am again and she text me saying, damn, that she didn't know she fell asleep on the call again. I told her that I did the same thing, saying oh yeah yeah once in a while. I went to sleep, and woke up to her text that said she felt tired cause she stays up late too, and I tell her "oh boi". I had to go to school but I wanted to keep talking to her, so I skipped my first period class and kept texting her. She told me she doesn't want to go to work, and she told the time she has work and then we were talking about other stuff too. I went to school late, we made cookies in class that day, and so when I came back, I told her what we did and so on. She ended up reading stories she found online and then would you rather. We ended up talking about, lets just say, "stuff" as well, and then I decided to show her the voice recording, and we talked. I told her that I have never been in a relationship and idk. After that, everyday we talked every time we could, and on April 3rd, I showed her the screenshots of Caitlin that she was telling me to go for it and stuff, she also showed me screenshots that Caitlin told her too. We talked every single day playing minecraft, watching movies by screen sharing my screen, anything that just had us on a call. On April 14 we even stayed on the call for 14 hours, and we had an idea, to see if we could even do a 24 hour call. This was also the day in which i opened up to her about the stuff I've been through in the past, which was hard, but I trusted her. She is a big fan of Marvel, mainly Spider-man, in particular Tom Holland. and we planned to see Endgame the same day it came out. Whenever we couldn't get on a call for reasons, I would still text her, and she told me, "why is time going so slow when I’m not talking with you" and I would say the same, but at the same time it when ever we were on a call, it also felt like forever, but it a good way, in which I enjoyed every single second of it. One of the other things we did was having my webcam facing the table and we both just draw. Fast forward to 26 of April, Another thing we did was that during her lunch periods at school, she would always call me, so we are talking, and then she says she has to go they got an announcement that told everyone to meet up. She texts me a bit later and tells me that there was something that happened at her school, they were all crying cause they had a teacher that just passed away in the building. This was also the same day we both we gona see Endgame. We keep talking like normal again. On the 28 of April is when I finally said yes to her. I started to get to school late and leave early often because I wanted to talk to her. I always use to soft talk her to sleep to now, it was our thing where we just keep the call on while we sleep too. A few of the times where she was sleeping, she mumbled "I love you". This was one of the many things I found adorable about her, like the way she giggled when I used to make her laugh, when on Saturdays it was me who woke up to her voice on the call, whenever I was feeling sick she used to just say in a soft voice "don't worry about it", we used to tell each other to imagine what a warm hug from us would feel, and we had our little nicknames for each other too, and another thing that we used to said was "I love you 3000". So now its May 5, and this day we were sent to a catholic retreat that was required to pass this church class. Like a week before this day, my mom called to let me know I had to go there, the first thing I did was that I told her that I had to go to this place for 3 days, cause that is what I was told. I told her that If I wasn't able to call, ill at least text her whenever I can. So the day comes and i'm letting her know that i'm in the car with the teacher and the other 2 people that was going too. So I made sure to let her know when I get on the car, and when we got there. So we get of the car and I have my backpack with cloths and stuff, thinking that we just gona walk in and see what this is all about, but before we left the car, the teacher told us that we had to leave our phones in the car for now. So i'm like, ok, maybe they just want to make sure we pay attention to where we were, what we gona do, ect. So before I left my phone, I texted her that our teacher told us to leave the phones in the car. We left them and went in. We went to a place that was like a hotel, they had our names already, took our bags, and told us to go to a bigger room. Here is where there was like 50 other people too. So i'm like wow. We just standing there wondering what is we going to do now. They explain the schedule and said we were goin to have a room with a roomate, so im like, dope. So after like an hour of talking and getting to know one another a bit, they tell us we can now go to our rooms and rest. So im like, yess, im feeling tired and I already miss my baby nugget, that was one of our little nicknames. So as people were heading to their rooms, I start to look for our teacher to ask him for my phone now, he ends up saying that we aren't getting them back till this is over, because he wants us to fully live this experience we were going to get. So at this point, in the inside I start to feel sad and mad because I promised Guava that I would have communication with her. I felt like I was going to let her down. I head to my room and see my roomate, I say whats up to him and then we just start to talk for a bit, he 19 and was very chill and nice to talk too. By this time its late and I was bored, and then I remembered that I had a notebook in my bag, so I take that out and a pencil, then I start writing exactly the way I would text her, It started with like 2 sentences and I thought by the time we leave this place, I would have like possibly 2 whole pages written down, but nope, I ended up writing 15 pages, top to bottom, and I even drew a rose for her one of those days. They had the windows covered with stuff and there wasn't any clocks, so we didn't really have a concept of time, those 3-4 days actually felt like 1-2 weeks, but I kept writing about what we did, the people I met, the food, but mainly how much I missed her. As I said before, i'm not religious my self but the stuff that was said there, really did make us change the way we saw stuff. We promised to not say what was spoken over there, cause what was said there, stays there. But Ill briefly talk about what changed with me. Growing up I never treated my brother, like an actual brother, and thinking back at it, he has always been there for me, but I can't say the same for him. There was times where he has taken the blame and punishments that I was responsible for, treated him a bit like shit, always distanced my self from my family members, I never gave him that trust with him. He is about a year and a half younger than me, and I regretted so much how I never acted like his older brother, someone he can can talk to if stuff was bothering him, someone he could trust. So what I ended up picking up there myself was to be grateful for having him there for me, even though I haven't before to him. I ended up promising to myself that I would trust him and I want to be there for him as well. Since I always been reserved, nobody in my family knew I was dating Guava. So I promised myself that once I go back, I will tell my brother everything, how the situation with our parent affected me, how I knew that he used go to sleep crying cause he hated seeing my parents like that and I never said or did anything. I also wanted to tell him about me and Guava. So the day finally comes, May 5th, the day we get to go back, when I saw the teacher I rushed to him as he was getting out his car and I didn't say hi or anything, I wanted my phone so badly so I can text to my baby nugget, cause it felt like almost 2 weeks with out her. So i'm turning on my phone expecting texts from her saying she missed me too. I open discord and I see " i already miss your voice in the morning", "i missed your voice at work", "and rn laying in my bed", " i cant sleep:( ", " i miss my baby nugget", " i need your voice to help me sleep" on May 3rd. Then on May 4th "weekend..", "and again, I miss you", " this is weird", "I really miss you and it hurts", "it randomly just happens and I go “aw I miss my baby nugget” and almost cry ". And this is when it really hurt, in the afternoon that day, she started saying " honestly fuk you for making me fall for you ", " I bet you haven’t even thought about me these 2-3 days ", " and im over here missing you like crazy ", " its stupid ", " i guess you’re gonna be back tomorrow right? ", " I told you it was probably gonna end it:( ", " ew I just realised I’ve been spamming you with “updates” ", " goodbye baby nugget ", " i mean eduardo " (thats my real name btw), " welp i can’t sleep ", " i mean you said 3 days, today is basically the 3rd, i guess you’ll be home tomorrow then ", " i wonder if something happened ", " i hope you’re having fun ". May 5th, earlier in the day when I still didn't have my phone, " i have 4 theories ", " 1. you aren’t back yet, so you’re still at the camp ", " 2. I was right and it ends here ", " 3. you lost your phone and your dad didn’t give your laptop back ", " 4. something (bad) happened to you ", " number 4 is bad and im hoping that’s not it, please rather number 2 than 4 ", " i have my first exam tomorrow, I’d hoped you’d be back in time to wish me good luck ". I got my phone back later in the day and responded with "I LOVE YOU" and then told her that they took my phone for those days, and that of course I was thinking of her all the time. I told her that I missed her so much and also wished her luck on her test. My battery was at 2% by this time since its just been in a car or wherever he kept them for those days. She ends up responding with " fuck you " and I responded with " No, baby why ??? 1% btw ", " I LOVE YOU ". She texted back " I hate you ". Since I've never been in a relationship before or been close to anyone like that, I haven't ever felt this kind of pain before. But I was in a larger van with more people heading back home, all I wanted was to cry and hug her as I tell her that i'm sorry for not being able to to talk to her those days, it felt like I loss her. I wanted to cry so badly but there was others around so I held it in, and for those who hold in pain like that, you know how that tight feeling around your throat and that intense pressure around your head. I tried to go to sleep until we got back home, but I couldn't when we finally got back to our church, we went to the basement and there was most of our family members waiting for us. We sat at some tables in the front while they were were all in chairs facing us. Our Aux's (that is what the people that took us through everything, like teachers, but they also went through stuff like we did) they were standing on the side giving mini speeches on how going over there helped us each with different things. We also talked about how our experience was and the new friends that we got close to. But I was kinda shaking while I was talking, not because I was nervous, but because I remembered what Guava told me. Its now like 9pm and I charged my phone while I took a shower. I went back to my phone and texted her again that I love her and that i'm sorry for not having my phone those days. I went to the kitchen and started to take pictures of each page of that notebook and sent them to her. I told her that it wasn't even my fault that they took our phones and how I was feeling when I saw those texts. Next morning, May 6 Monday, she responds saying that she didn't mean it, and she read most of the pages, and she had to go take the exam. She also has religious parents and in their religion, she was starting Fasting that day too, which she told me that they were going to eat at 9:30pm and 3:15am their time. She also says " we need to talk.. ", " I thought a lot while you were away ". I come back from school and text her that i'm home, she doesn't respond, a couple min later I decide to call her, she doesn't pick up. I text her that ill be watching youtube till she calls back. Around an hour goes by and I decide to call again, no answer. Like 5 min later I text her by her real name, and then she responds with "what". Instantly I knew what was going on, but I acted like I didn't know, so I just told her that ill be on my laptop in a bit. She tells me again that she still wants to talk about something, I called her and she picked up this time. She ended up telling me that those days gave her time to think, and she said we were moving to fast, and she wanted to take it slow and take it back to before we were a thing. I didn't know what to say. I try to not sound upset, I just said, it was her decision if if she wanted to take things to before we were a thing, then fine. I left the call and went to take a shower. She texted me again at around 1am the next day telling me that she has her math exam and she is stressed. I tell her good luck on her test, and she replies with " thanks baby nugget " and then tells me to go to sleep. At this point i'm confused now, cause she made me feel "that way" the day before, saying she wanted to take it back before we were a thing. After she told me to go to sleep, I just say, Fine. About 10 min pass and she texts me back saying she forgot something at home, and I just say Oof. She says its a good thing that she lives 5 min away from her school, and I just start answering the same way I would text other "friends". She tells me that she ran and got it, I just say, great. Now she starts to ask "baby nugget, are you okay?" And i'm just so confused/stressed, but I tell her yeah, i'm good. Later on in the day, she asks me if I want to call. I was about to say no, but I ended up saying yeah. We talked again for a few hours and ended up agreeing on taking it slow, so I went back to being more reserved from her, act like there wasn't anything but an online friendship. Wednesday May 8th, instead of texting her, I decide to go to the server and talk to some random people again. Half an hour later I see that she is also joining channels, so I try to avoid her so its not awkward. Sometime later, she texted me that she sees me going around the server and that I haven't text her. I just tell her that someone was playing guitar and I was bored. We text just a little bit, and she ends up saying " we barely talk, it’s sad ", so i'm still confused and simply just asked her if she wants to call or not, she says maybe, so I say " im not gona rush anything u dont want, i talked to someone for help, and they told me to not rush u, but just wait". The person that I asked for help was that online friend named Mia. Guava ends up saying " just call me already " and so I did. She told me that even though she wants to take it slow, she doesn't want me going back to being reserved. We talked for a while until she fell asleep again. She woke up a few hours later, as I was about to go to sleep. I asked her if she knew that the new season for Lucifer finally came out, she said yeah, she knows, we both like watching that show. After like 10 min of talking, I told her that she should just go back to sleep because its 3am for her and she tells me, " baby nugget nO ". To be honest, at this point I kinda started to just feel frustrated because I felt like she was just playing around, saying she wants to take it slow, but then calling me, baby nugget constantly. After she told be that in a hour it will be 4am for her, and if she stays up for an hour, she would of still gotten enough sleep, again, I told her to just go back to sleep, and she says " can’t I just stay up and talk with you:(". I was like, I don't even know, does she want to get back or not. We talked for like 20 min, then I told her I was getting sleepy, so I was gona go sleep now. Next day, May 9, its a thursday, she texts me like at her time 7am to wake up, but im still sleeping so she just says " goodnight/good morning ", " bby nugget", " ttyl". We talked a bit more again when she came back from school, she told me that fuck taking it slow, that she loves me and was just sad that she felt that I left her for those days. And after some talking , I told her that I love her too, I made made myself distant because I wanted to respect her decision and if she wanted to leave, it wouldn't hurt as much because I would of already accepted the fact that we are no longer together. We watched Lucifer for a while, and then I had to go to a parent teacher conference with my dad. I left the call on my phone, I was happier, because we were together again, after I came back, I heard that she was sleeping, so I just texted her, good morning to whenever she sees this text. She woke up like half an hour later saying she fell asleep, I told yeah, "i know, keep sleeping bby nugget" and she said, " im tired, but I want you ". So we started to talking again just like before. Every time we called, if I felt sick or something, just hearing her voice made my day. May 11, she ended up confessing why she got distant the days after I came back, it was because she was mad at herself because of something she did while i was gone, she started to take to other people and one of those people she talked to, she got a bit close too. I told her that i'm not even mad, disappointed....a bit, but I was glad that she told me the truth, I wanted her to be honest with me. She started to cry a bit on the call, but I told her that I understand why she would of felt like that when I left her for those days cause I didn't have my phone. Like I said, when she stopped replying to my texts, I felt like I loss her too and it was only like 2 days that she wasn't responding like she used to, and for her, I left for 4 days with no texts at all during those days. While she was crying, she asked me why was I being so understanding, I said...Cause I love you 3000. I ended up telling up telling Guava who was the one helping me to try and get guava back when she was being distant. I didn't want to tell her earlier because she felt a bit jealous, but I made it clear to her that she is only a friend that helped me when I was younger. We promised to not keep secrets from one another, and at that point I think I felt the closest to her. On May 12, that is when we completed the 24 hour call we said we were gona do. These days she wasn't feeling well because of the fasting thing that she is doing, so going so long without eating made her feel sick. I kept telling to eat something because I didn't like when she felt sick, but she said she can't cause of fasting. I tried to make her feel better by telling her " I'm so lucky because... I have you, someone who acually cares about me and makes me happy. I'm smiling while I'm typing this. Even if it's only been about 2 months, Thank You for being there for me". I waited for her to wake up the next day and talk, she taught me how to say, "I love you" in danish, " jeg elsker dig". Meeting her made me feel the happiest I ever been in years. Whenever she woke up at 3:15am her time to eat, I used to help her wake up by quietly saying her name or just talking about the way she always made me feel, after she ate and came back, I always asked her what is it that she had to eat and then soft talk her to sleep again. I used to love it whenever she used to sometimes soft talk me to sleep, the ways she used to tell she wanted to cuddle with me and max. The type of food she wanted to teach me how to cook. On Wednesday 15, when we were on a call during her lunch period, she told me that they got a printer in their class now, so I gave her the idea that she should print out memes, and put them around the classroom, and she did, it was a spider-man meme, she ended up printing 5 of these and started to putt them up around her class. One of the things that she helped me with a bit was in school, cause I started to do some work while I was on a call with her in the mornings. She gave me a reason to wake up early everyday and since I was always in a good mood while being on a call with her, I decided to multi task a bit. So I thanked for that. Thursday comes and I just picked up some bluetooth earbuds that I ordered mainly because of I wanted to to talk to her when I wasn't at home with a good mic, my phone's aux input is a bit messed up and makes a static noise whenever wired earbuds moved, so I bought those bluetooth ones. That day I called her twice and she didn't pick up, but she was on the server talking to others so was like fine, she talking to some friends or something. She ended up calling me at 3am her time, so I asked her what happened because she didn't call or barley texted me that day. She said that she just didn't feel like it. I felt a bit sad but told my self, its fine, she was just busy and forgot. The next day we got on a call again, she didn't have school this friday, so we stayed on the call till I went to school, but she mainly just watched youtube instead of talking. I went to school and when I came back at 12am, told her I was back, gave her a little text once in a while cause she didn't respond till about 2 hours later, saying she was busy. Again...kinda felt sad cause I started to feel her being distant again, and I really didn't want to lose her. I started to feel sick, like really light headed and stomach ache, I told her how I felt sick, she asked if I was okay, I said not really. She called me for like 2 min and told me to drink some water, and call my dad if I kept feeling sick. Then she left the call again. She called back at around 5pm my time. Again i'm feeling her being distant because her time it was already 11pm, and we really didn't talk that day, just enough for her to tell me to soft talk her to sleep. I did soft talk her to sleep, but when I knew she was asleep for sure, I talked about how I was really feeling, that I was scared of losing her, the one person I have ever told them "I Love You. I texted her at my time She wakes up at like 8:20pm my time, she talks for a few min until she goes eat. She didn't call back or even let me know what she ate, like we always used too. So at like 3:40am my time, I sent her a text. She calls me back at around 4am my time, and says she had to go like around 6am my time, and again all she really just do was just watch youtube. Now im really worried if I did something that she doesn't want to text or talk to me for these last few days. She ends up coming back and we get on a call at 11am my time. Again she didn't want to watch Lucifer or talk like before, she just used to watch youtube videos and tell me to mute my self once in a while, cause she wanted to watch her ASMR videos. At around 2pm, I decided to take a nap because I didn't feel well again. She didn't even want to soft talk me to sleep. So I just slept. Woke up an hour later and my dad was going to take me to the clinic because I wasn't feeling well. I told her before that we were going to travel to mexico to see family members in particular my grandpa, since he may not be around next year due to age. So at 5pm, I let her know as soon I knew, the dates we were going to travel, but this time I was going to have my phone for sure. She said ok, and then went to sleep at like at 5:30pm my time. Since it was a Saturday, we were heading to my moms place. Later that day we talked again like around 7pm for a while, since max and my little cousin we playing together I had the camera on. This is when she actually talked to me in a while, instead of just watching youtube. She ended up sleeping on the call and woke up at 10:30pm, she fell asleep again and she woke up at 2am my time, over there it was already 8am. This time I fell asleep to her voice, I wake up at 6am and see her text that says " my baby it’s so cute I can hear you breathing in your sleep ", " I just wanna hug you and cuddle you " I replied with "Aw", " I love you 3000", " That wut u said earlier was so adorable, I was awake when u was laughing, and was smiling. You just warm me up with the smallest things you do, I love you 3000!" by text cause my mom was sleeping still. It kinda made me forget how she was being distant that last few days. We texted for a bit when I got out of church class at 1:30pm . I called her when it was like 3pm, I saw that she was talking to others again, so I just let her know that i'm with Max. She responded at 3:50pm saying she had dessert, I asked if she wanted to call, she said in a bit, she didn't call, she responded with a text at 8:30pm. Again i'm noticing that she just doesn't want to talk, and I guess I already knew that she has/is losing interest. At 9pm my time she tells me if I wana call? And I already had a feeling that I knew it was time she was going to say what I've feared from the start. For the past week that I felt her changing, I always asked her, what wrong? Did I do something? If there is something she wanted to talk about, just say it, she would just keep saying that nothing is wrong, and I alked her, why is she talking to me less, she said, its normal don't worry about it. By this time, for the past two days, I asked for help about this to 3 other people, one of them was Mia. She told me that obviously it was't normal, maybe she was having other issues which she couldn't rely on my help for, she told me to just give her some time. Guava kept saying nothing is wrong, but before she went to sleep, one of the last things she said was, there is something she wants to talk about. I knew it was time...but she said that she was going to tell me the next day instead. I woke up at 12 like usual to tell her good morning, instead of her texting at least for a bit, she just said go back to sleep. At this point i'm just sad because I know there a 90% I already loss her. But still had that little bit of hope that it wasn't what I was thinking. Hoping it was something else...I could even sleep that day and stayed up waiting till 5am, for our usual call during her lunch break...she didn't text or call at all. There was no text no nothing till when she called me at 4:28pm. She told me exactly what I was scared of, she said that she wanted someone who she can actually cuddle with rn, someone who wasn't in a different time zone, someone who isn't on the other side of the earth. All this time that we have been talking and said that distance/time zones matters close to nothing when that someone means everything. I just had one question, "Did you ever mean it when you said "I love you"....She said "probably" I left the call. She later asked me an hour later if I was okay only cause Mia was talking to her because she was trying to help and she asked Guava if I was okay. I texted her 2 hours later " dont worry about it". Deep down I wanted to tell her nO! im not okay, my eyes feel like they burn every time I blinked cause of all the tears, that I felt like my chest was being crushed and I couldn't breath, it feels like I have been dumped in boiling water of how hot I started feeling, how my whole body feels numb, that I was sorry for anything I did that lead her to this choice, and most importantly that I love her, I don't want to leave me. She taught me how it feels to be loved and also how love can hurt as well. Its currently Tuesday 21st, 10:24pm and I haven't talked to her since yesterday at 8:32, my last message being, "Don't worry about it". She has told me before that if this just didn't work out for some reason, that we could still be friends. I said sure, but now looking back at this all, I gave all of my trust to her, and she started to talk to someone else, I forgave her for what she did when I was gone for a few days, saying I didn't want to just argue and just leave, that I wanted to fix whatever issue that would come. I....I trusted her again and she gave me false hopes. Fuked up how she wanted to be back together after I forgave her for what she did, just so she can tell me that she wasn't even sure she meant it when she used to tell me "I love you", and this wasn't even a month later, this was just 9 days after she said she didn't want to take it slow anymore, that she "loved me". Currently its now 10:41pm. I started to type this hoping it would help, seeing it from a third person view. Now I can see that our relationship wasn't really working out, I was putting her over everything else, school, my heath, my time, and even potentially moving back with my mom because of the fact that I chose to live with my dad, but since I've been skipping school, and failing classes because I wouldn't even show up since I was at home, talking to Guava. I changed my whole sleeping schedule so I could give her the most time I could. If I was accused of lying about something during our relationship, I would say, yeah I lied to Guava about something, the fact that I used to tell her not to worry about my sleeping schedule, I use to tell her that I was sleeping great to not worry, but nope, I would get about only 4 hours of sleep for the past month and a half, and that some of the days I was home from school earlier was because of tests, and we got to leave early. I changed so much, not "because of her", but "for her," but looking back at it, there wasn't much she did to try and make it work for my time zone. If you do ever read this, i'm NOT trying to say that I changed my life for the worse because of you, I just want to show you how much I cared about you, what you made me feel for you those first days we met was something real and after time, I really wanted you to be "the one"

I remember that when I first started typing this yesterday, I was feeling depressed, sad, confused. But surprisingly It has made me feel better. If she does ever want to be to be together again but this time, seriously , I wouldn't say no right away, because I would be lying if I said that I don't start felling sad at random times and that I don't miss her even though its only been a bit over 27 hours, but I would tell her to first to earn my trust again and just be friends while we are online for now, Once we are sure that we meet IRL then I will gladly move to the next step.

I love you 3000 baby nugget

[kylorenpunk]

Do them all. Suffer as I did 😂

Bitch I told you this was our friendship. We force each other to answer all the questions. 

1. selfie

Well… I wasn’t dubbed Selfie Queen for nothing… 

This one is interesting bc I have zero makeup on. The most recent ones are too blurry. A lot of my fav selfies are full faces of makeup tho. 

2. what would you name your future kids?

I feel like that’s a decision for both parents but I really like the names Felicity, Isabella and Dimitri. Yes, all of them are names from various franchises I enjoyed throughout the years. Be glad I’m out of my phase where I thought Vladimir was a good name. 

3. do you miss anyone?

I miss all my friends I don’t get to see frequently. Love all of y’all and hope y’all are doing well in life! 

4. what are you looking forward to?

Fucking graduating. Jesus Christ it’s taken me five damn years. 

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?

From my club it’s Chris, Yara and Josephine. Also my entire friend group from back home. Honestly I love my friends so much. 

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?

I feel like every situation is different so that’s a tough question to answer. 

7. what was your life like last year?

I honestly don’t remember much from December of last year. It was a good time though. 

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?

I’m an emotional bitch. I’ll cry over anything. I cried over fucking Mulan the other day. 

9. who did you last see in person?

My parents and brother. Earlier in the day my club. 

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?

I’m shit at it. My face gives away everything. The other day my professor was going into her inspiration porn narrative and I just gave her a cold dead look the entire time. 

11. are you listening to music right now?

No but I have the Hamilton soundtrack stuck in my head right now since that’s what I was last listening to. If you haven’t heard it I highly suggest it. Man I wanna see it so badly. 

12. what is something you want right now?

Sleep but I’m trying not to throw off my sleep schedule right now and am waiting a bit before going to bed. I only got three hours of sleep last night so that’s fun. 

13. how do you feel right now?

Kinda tired. Relieved that I got two service projects in a row done today. It’s been a long weekend. 

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?

My friend Sebastian hugged me when I dropped him off. I guess that counts. 

15. personality description

I’m a makeup loving nerd who enjoys sitting in pajamas watching anime and superheros as much as she enjoys swatching EVERY lipstick in Sephora. According to my friends I can’t go 5 seconds without mentioning how old I feel and my love for Dungeons and Dragons. I’m also an asshole. (Wow this sounds like a 12 year old writing this)

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?

Yeah tons of times. It’s bitten me in the ass. Oh well live and learn I guess? 

17. opinion on insecurities.

Everyone has them? If they say they don’t then they are lying. Mine is mainly related to my appearance or how I speak. 

18. do you miss how thing were a year ago?

I miss how things were in the beginning of this year. It started off strong then kinda turned into a shit show. 

19. have you ever been to New York?

No but it’s my top thing on my bucket list. My friends and I are highly considering a trip. 

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?

Of all time: Get Low by Lil Jon 

Currently: “Told You So” by Little Mix (If you haven’t heard their new album I highly suggest it if you love girl groups that preach women empowerment) 

21. age and birthday?

22 - June 21st (She’s a Cancer)

22. description of crush.

I don’t have a hardcore crush right now. More like 5 second crushes that are over the second they do something I don’t like. 

Edit: Currently “celebrity?” crush is Nathan Sharp. I am seriously considering dropping $55 to see him at a convention this month. 

23. fear(s)

Heights, something terrible happening to my loved ones, wild snakes, and the usual common anxiety fears 

24. height

Five foot three inches. I’m short. Yes I know it’s not that short but tall people like to put me in the short category anyway. 

25. role model

My mom’s coworker who was my internship supervisor. She has a doctorate’s in what I want to do and is amazing at what she does. The amount of knowledge and experience that women has is incredible. She is also extremely funny and knows how to teach with a sense of humor which I appreciate. 

26. idol(s)

Celebrity idols? I don’t really idolize celebrities bc humans are humans and have flaws. 

27. things i hate

Immaturity, intolerance of differences, demeaning slurs, The Last Jedi, and the new Fantastic Beasts movie 

28. i’ll love you if…

Play with my hair, are kind to my friends and family, share common interests, show an interest in what I have to say, basically respect me and those close to me and we’re good 

29. favourite film(s)

Hairspray, High School Musical, The Greatest Showman, Stardust, The Harry Potter series, Avengers, Guardians of the Galaxy

30. favourite tv show(s)

Jane the Virgin, Naruto (fuck off I hate myself too ok), the first three seasons of Arrow before it turned to shit

31. 3 random facts

I’m not artistically talented but I genuinely enjoy makeup and creating looks

I have a nonverbal brother with autism and he’s my favorite person ever

I completely programmed my brother’s communication device by myself 

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?

Now my friends are mainly girls but when I lived in Tampa 90% of my friends over there were guys (Hi Mason). I’m going to say that’s bc of us all playing video games in the Delta lounge (RIP Dirty D). But yeah now it’s mainly girls and 80% of my dude friends are gay. 

33. something you want to learn

Sign Language. Ice skating. Hairstyling. Fashion (I’m trying to be better about putting clothes together). Also I’m down to learn more about makeup and techniques 

34. most embarrassing moment

Either farting while doing an air guitar in front of my entire girl scout troop

or signing to my friend that I liked her friend at a party and his brother repeated what I had signed out loud in front of everyone

wait. No. When I F U C K E D  up in front a super hot guy while volunteering and then chose an 18 year old jock as my wingman. 18 year olds are dumbasses. Don’t use them as wingmen. Fuck you Khaled. 

35. favourite subject

In grade school I think it was English or History. It really all depended on the year. 

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?

VISIT NEW YORK 

Hike the Smokey Mountains 

Visit Europe 

37. favourite actor/actress

Chris Evans (especially when he is trying to fight orange president on twitter) 

Also Mark Hamill is perfect 

38. favourite comedian(s)

I don’t watch comedians often. I guess the Fluffy guy? 

39. favourite sport(s)

The only time I give a shit about sports is when my university is undefeated or playing my first university in football. Or the soccer world cup if it’s on. However I appreciate the skill it takes to do a sport. 

40. favourite memory

San Antonio. It was my first time traveling without family and it was the greatest time. It was such a cool city 

41. relationship status 

Single - I take my sweet ass time 

42. favourite book(s)

Eragon (No, I haven’t finished the entire series. No, I don’t want spoilers bc I will do it eventually.) 

43. favourite song ever

“Get Low” by Lil Jon 

“Look Through My Eyes” by Phil Collins 

44. age you get mistaken for

Last year I got mistaken twice in a row within an hour for a middle schooler. I was 21 at at that time. During my internship one of the parents asked me if I had any kids. I’m either mistaken as a parent or as a 13-15 year old. There is no in between.  

45. how you found out about your idol

N/A since I don’t have an idol

46. what my last text message says

“lmao it’s alright” to Joey but the previous one is more funny “thankfully no one threw up this time” in regards to my friend’s party last night

47. turn ons

Well I aint about to talk about my sex life so let’s go with personality 

Common interests such as superheros or anime, charismatic, easy to get along with, common goals in life, cares about their loved ones, has passion, and someone I can hold an intellectual conversation with 

48. turn offs

rudeness, immaturity, inattentiveness, bad tempers, superiority complex, not being genuine, judging others, treating people like objects, and general lack of care for others or themselves

49. where i want to be right now

Back in the smokey mountains in a cabin watching movies and anime

50. favourite picture of your idol

N/A 

51. starsign

She’s an emotional Cancer

52. something i’m talented at

Apparently I’m good with kids      Makeup too I guess? 

53. 5 things that make me happy

friends, family, nerdy shit, makeup and Kakashi

54. something thats worrying me at the moment

Some shit happened last night that has me worried for some friends but I’m sure they’ll figure it out 

55. tumblr friends

A shit ton of y’all I know IRL. I won’t tag y’all bc that’s annoying af 

Joey’s my only internet friend @earthschampion (answer my text bitch) 

56. favourite food(s)

pasta, empanadas, crab rangoons, taziki sauce 

57. favourite animal(s)

Meerkats and koala bears

58. description of my best friend

K @burnitstronger: realest damn friend you will ever have. Will tell you how it is and provide never ending love and support. Never understands my dumbass shenanigans but loves me anyway. Love you boo 

J : Will also tell you how it is and forces you to watch Naruto and ruin your damn life. Will happily go with you to eat junk food after class. Will fight anyone who wrongs you and is def still plotting revenge on all my ex’s. Stans Loona

M: Will scream at you in Leo in a frightening but loving way. Has the best damn fashion sense I have ever seen. Is the friend that comes by when I need her to and brings a shit ton of snacks and love (J does this as well).

59. why i joined tumblr

I was bored on fourth of July in 2012 and my friends kept telling me that this website would be fun. Also the avengers “fandom” from back then 

60. ask me anything you want

I would say I’m sorry Mason but I enjoy making all my friends suffer. Make sure to give him a follow bc he’s cool. @masonjar828

[erizee]

I got tagged by @snowie130 (aand I’m late)

Last:

1. drink: pepsi

2. phone call: either my friend or my driver’s teacher, not sure

3. text message: my mom telling me dad is picking me up instead of her

4. song you listened to: YMCA

5. time you cried: last sunday after the sport made me angry and i felt bad about it

Ever:

6. dated someone twice: lol I never dated anyone ever

7. kissed someone and regretted it: never kissed anyone at all

8. been cheated on: nope

9. lost someone special: yep

10. been depressed: not sure if u mean actual depression or just feeling terrible, but i spent last saturday and sunday mostly crying so

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope and I hope it won’t happen

Fave colours:

12. blue

13. light brown

14. purple

In the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yessss (friend-wise it was the best year of my life)

16. fallen out of love: the opposite probably

17. laughed until you cried: I’m not sure but probably yes

18. found out someone was talking about you: I’m paranoid enough about that already ok I don’t want to know

19. met someone who changed you: doesn’t everyone change u a little? idk bro

20. found out who your friends are: what

21. kissed someone on your facebook friend list: no kisses, no facebook

General:

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: I don’t have facebook anymore so none i guess?

23. do you have any pets: i used to but they died 2-3 years ago

24. do you want to change your name: nah I got used to it

25. what did you do for your last birthday: saw lego batman with my friends in the cinema and ate pizza and got a lil drunk

26. what time did you wake up today: 6:00 am

27. what where you doing at midnight last night: I wish I could say I wasn’t on tumblr

28. what is something you can’t wait for: being done with school, moving out, starting university, not being single, my ships being canon (esp nygmob)

30. what are you listening to right now: nothing but my playlists are mostly musicals or 80′s pop music right now

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: back when i was still religious there was a guy called tom at bible camp that led one of the groups and i was terrified of him

32. something thats getting on your nerves: the people in my school, maths, my maths teacher (sorry that was my last lesson today so I’m still annoyed)

33. most visited website: tumblr, ao3, youtube and netflix

34. hair colour: orignially middle brown, dyed it to dark brown

35. long or short hair: it goes down to my shoulders but I kinda want to make it shorter

36. do you have a crush on someone: i hate it but yes and i want to die

37. what do you like about yourself: my grades? idk I’m a really fast learner so that’s nice

38. want any piercings? nah but I think I might want to get a tattoo sometime

39. blood type: bru i have no idea

40. nicknames: connibal (cuz i bit someone that one time) and connickel (my name + bunny in german)

41. relationship status: single (pls kill me)

42. zodiac: aquarius

43. pronouns: she/her

44. fave tv show: gotham and hannibal are The Best, atla is eternal fave and brooklynn 99 + the good place + one day at a time are comfort shows (also sense8 is a+++)

45. tattoos: nope

46. right or left handed: left! :D

47. ever had surgery: wisdom teeth

48. piercings: unless the closed holes in my ears count no

49. sport: handball since I was like 5 years old and ice skating is rly cool (literally)

50. vacation: every summer me and my family visit a different place (+ visiting my grandma in eastern germany in autumn or spring)

51. trainers: … what

More General:

52. eating: everything salty or spicy is automatically fave

53. drinking: hot chocolate and pepsi are everything i drink (+ sometimes coffee)

54. i’m about to watch: nothing because I need to sleep soon and I’m running out of things to watch (help me)

55. waiting for: my next exams and gotham

56. want: to move out and have my own place with my own stuff in it

57. get married: yes pls

58. career: i’ll study history so i’ll do whatever I can do with that

Which is better:

59. hugs or kisses: I mean it’s not like I have much experience but hugs are nice

60. lips or eyes: eyes

61. shorter or taller: i don’t really care honestly

62. older or younger: as long as it doesn’t get creepy I don’t care here either

63. nice arms or stomach: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

64. hookup or relationship: relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant: a mix of both tbh

Have you ever:

66. kissed a stranger: nope

67. drank hard liquor: probably yes (baileys and cocktails and red wine are fave)

68. lost glasses: i don’t need glasses

69. turned someone down: if yes I don’t remember

70. sx on first date: hahahahaahahaha no

71. broken someone’s heart: I don’t think so??

72. had your heart broken: does finding out your crush isn’t single count

73. been arrested: nope

74. cried when someone died: yep

75. fallen for a friend: yea but I was at least 5 years younger than now and that’s basically a baby

Do you believe in:

76. yourself: I try but it doesn’t always work

77. miracles: nah not really

78. love at first sight: idk bro

79. santa clause: not since my childhood friend told me he’s not real when i was like 6

80. kiss on a first date: if u want to, do it? bru idk

81. angels: nope, I’m as religious as a lamp

Other:

82. best friend’s name: I can't if my friend is a best friend so (howw)

83. eye colour: blue/grey

84. fave movie: probably megamind wtf

85. fave actor: dgbjdnhekhbn bru i have no goddamn idea, it’s generally my favourite character of the thing I currently watch so everyone in gotham, hannibal, marvel and hamilton

tagging is hard but eh

I tag: @ravenwald @amt149 @kaykaymcdoogle @catcricket @roguepythia @wittygaypuns @idkjustbreath @coffeemaenad @god-hes-such-a-loser @enigmatickal (if you want to)

[hawksextracrispy]

Hi Im anon (this isnt my main so I couldnt ask from here). I also broadly agree with your points, but Im also Gen Z (not a minor, but born in 1998 so close enough by proximity) and insofar as thats relevant:

16 IS the age where a lot of people start to become politically minded and develop their own thoughts and opinions, especially Gen Z whos had more immediate access to more diverse groups of people online and thus arent as held back by the limitation of their irl social circle to learn about the world.

However, I think it's important to remember that regardless of generation, teenagers are social creatures. Theyre in the process of really learning and internalizing empathy, and often the way that starts is correlating that compassion with external validation. This is especially true about issues that dont affect them personally. At 16 I still thought I was cishet and I was primarily surrounded by other cishet people. I could have very easily continued down a path of social homophobia/transphobia had I not ended up in spaces online that celebrated and uplifted LGBT voices. I didnt unlearn my (internalized) homophobia because I woke up one day and independently decided to do something about it. I did it because I was put in spaces that forced me to confront my own assumptions. It wasnt an overnight process and there were fuckups, but I think its a necessary process.

I think Deku and the others are currently having that experience of confrontation. Theyve had inklings of it before but they have no real context for Shigaraki or Stain or Toga or anyones backstories. And when youre 16 and youve grown up with everyone you admire telling you that the height of justice and compassion is protecting the world from People Like Them I think its only natural that it takes you months, even years to shake that off. I think Dabi's reveal is going to be pivotal in that for Deku since he actually does have context for him and has Shoto as an integral part of his social world.

Anyways, whole lot of words. Basically I agree with your points that Deku and co SHOULD be developing in this direction, I just don't necessarily think its bad that they havent yet. Theyve been given constant reinforcement from their society to think that rejecting what a villain says is not only good, but necessary if you want to save lives

I feel like a lot of people hold the kids of 1-A accountable for actions most of them do not have context. Like, most of them are in high school and many important conversations are had in rooms they arent in. So of course theyre gonna be ignorant, most people are in high school. Yes, the villains tell them, but theyve been trained their whole lives to ignore what a villain says and even then Deku has acknowledged he cant just discard it. We have context they dont

I’m of two minds on this:

1. They’re kids and at 16 it’s the prime time to start thinking critically. At the same age as them, I spent my afternoons marching with OWS after my classes ended. I can’t say I completely understood so much of the issues going on at that moment at the time, but there was a deep anger in me at the corporate bailouts while families like mine were reducing to living on paycheck to paycheck and that didn’t feel enough. They’re exactly the right age to start formulating their own ethics and opinions.  

2. ‘Villain’ kids don’t get this luxury. Ultimately, I think we should realize being a hero is also a protected class? It’s not spoken of much, but uhhh, the fact Miruko’s a hero despite being like suspended repeatedly for vigilantism and bad use of her quirk (to join fight clubs), the fact the kids got away with the Stain thing, the fact the only people who are able to use their quirks in public are heroes...

So, yes, there’s definitely slack that we should be giving the kids as kids, but they’re also not allowed to remain ignorant and uninvolved. They’re being conscripted as child soldiers to defend their own rather protected status in that society. (Which comes with its horrors, the way Midnight just said “you know what you signed up for”). The thing is that innocence only stretches so far. I’m still on Team Tokoyami thinking this through a lot, and I’m still hopeful the end of this arc will be the kids making some hard decisions, but they’re not just random bystanders in this, not anymore.  I think, also, my perception has been that Gen-Z kids are even more savvy and willing to be activists than us ‘very late millenials/zillenials’. Maybe I’m wrong? But I wonder if the bulk of criticism is coming from people the kids age, too, who see the characters as peers and just can’t relate because this isn’t the case in today’s high-schools where kids are typically politically savvy? My experience with Gen Z was being an RA for a bunch of kids born 1998-2000, so anyone else feel free to chime in.

[parkji-hoons]

I’M A REALLY LUCKY PERSON

KCON AUSTRALIA EXPERIENCE!! Okay I’m home and I finally have time to write this and it’s gonna be suuuuuuupppperrrrr long bc a lot of crazy shit happened to me alksjfsfdhkjsfh also sorry no gifs bc I don’t have time rn but I will later in the week I promise!!! Also if anyone has any questions about the whole thing Im gonna open up asks for a few days so just hmu (I swear though if y'all send hate I’m gonna delete it so)

Day 1

Okay admittedly day 1 was really boring for me since I didnt go to the concert that day and had no artist engagements or anything (also the convention itself was really shite like I lined up almost an hour and a half for a small ass room that I barely stayed 5mins in) also the entire thing was very disorganised and I wasted a lot of my time tbh. But then I went to meet up with some mutuals (shout out to @minhwangs @yoonjsung @jaehwn ily guys) at circular quay and it was so lucky that the moment I stepped out of the train station they were heading my way and we met up real quick. Then they told me that I literally just missed seeing WJSN and like I was ofc sad but I also didnt really stan so I didnt really mind that much. We stayed in that spot just talking when I noticed a group of girls lining up to get ice cream and boiiii these girls were literally GLOWINGGG then Debbie (@jaehwn ) noticed me looking behind her and she was like holy thats WJSN and they all literary just walked past us like the angels they are. THWY WERE LIKE NOT EVEN A METRE AWAY FROM US AND THEYRE LITERALLY SO SO BEAUTIFUL LIKE OHMYGODD THEYRE SO CUTE LGJWJHSJASJ. Also a lot smaller than I expected but GDI wowowowowow and yeah that was basically the start of my lucky streak.

Day 2

OKAY THIS IS WHEN SHIT HAPPENNNNSSSSSS. Honestly I felt so so so unlucky tbh bc my friend and I fell asleep on the train and ended up missing our stop and went to god knows where so we were late and shit but like still relatively early but yeah we got there at around 9ish and I went to go collect my benefits cuz I got p1 but yeah I got red carpet for that night, an up10tion audience, a WJSN audience and a monsta x hi touch. Honestly lowkey disappointed I didnt get any wanna one but like I was grateful for the rest anyway (plus hi I love Monsta X) but my friend got a wanna one audience and she said she would give it to me (bless her). After that we went around trying to find people who wanted to go see WJSN or up10tion bc like even tho I like those groups Im not SUPER into them so I’d rather just give them to really big fans of them you Know? I literally made two peoples day but not asking for money or a trade for them to see their bias groups and literally they were so shocked I didnt ask for anything but like i just wanted it to go to someone who actually REALLY liked the group you know since I didnt really know know them (bc like if someone got wanna one hi touch but didnt like them as much like I’d love for them to give it to me bc theyre my bias group you know?). I also went around trying to trade my MX hi touch for wanna one but it was literally impossible but I also didnt really mind bc I love MX soooooooo. After that I met with Debbie again and she also didnt get wanna one benefits and we tried for so long to swap but no one would but like ehhhhh we both were gonna see MX so. We kinda just went in to the queue for the convention after that but not even to like go see the convention but for the kcon goodie bags that we were supposed to get and holy that took so damn long lrnekabjhwjhw after that I was like checking fb if anyone was wanting a MX hi touch for wanna one and someone posted that they would trade it but also wanted some money but like max I would go would’ve been $50 so I sent an offer and PRAYED to the gods no one else would make a higher one AND THEY ANSWERED MY PRAYWRS MAN SHE AGREED WITH THE TRADE AND I JUST OHMYGOD I WAS GONNA MEET WANNA ONE I WANTED TO CRYYYYYY AND I WAS LIKE DEBBIE THAT MEANS YOU CAN GO TOO BC I STILL HAD THE WANNA ONE AUDIENCE AND WE WERE LITERALLT SO SOSOSOSOOSOSO HAPPY I WAS SO LUCKY OHMYGODDDDDDDD.

Meeting Wanna One

OKAY SO HERE’S WHERE SHIT REALLY WENT DOWN. So while Monsta X was having their m&g ofc all of the people going to the wanna one m&g were like ‘let’s line up’ and at this time it was like 1pm-ish? WE WEREN’T SUPPOSED TO BE QUEUEING UNTIL LIKE 3.45PM AND ENTRY WAS ACTUALLY AT 5PM SO I LITERALLY WAITED IN LINE FOR 5 HOURS IN 35 DEGREE DIRECT HEAT I ALMOST DIED HOLY. But I made quite a few friends in line and we got up to a ton of shit (may or mayn’t have turned one of the security guards into a wannable….his bias may or may not have been daehwi…(bonus: we gave him a banner and at the actual m&g the same security guard was standing by the door where wanna one was gonna come through and he was holding the banner akajflkjshflkj it was really cute). 

Anyways, so after 5hours we finally went into the room and holy shit I managed to get front row somehow??? rip though bc I was on the opposite side of where jihoon was but LIKE STILL FRONT FUCKING ROW?!??!?!?! HOW LUCKY AM I WTF.  So after getting inside we had to wait another 30mins until they actually you know, came but during that time they were playing the album so everyone just jammed (except for when always was playing in that case everyone sobbed while singing) but yeah after 30mins WANNA ONE CAME OUT AND JUST HOLY SHIT THEY ARE LITERALLY SO BLOODY GORGEOUS IRL AKJLDFNLKASFJGN I CANT EVEN DESCRIBE BUT I WAS AWESTRUCK I COULDNT FILM IT PROPERLY MY HANDS WERE SHAKING THE ENTIRE TIME BUT THEY ARE LITERALLY STUNNING. 

SO THEY ALL DID THEIR INTROS AND SHIT THEN IT WAS TIME FOR THE HITOUCH AND OHYMGOD I LITERALLY DIDN’T THINK MY LUCK COULD GET ANY FUCKING BETTER BUT APPARENTLY IT COULD?????? 

WHEN IT WAS MY TURN I SUDDENLY GAINED THIS WEIRD AMOUNT OF CONFIDENCE AND ACTUALLY SAID THINGS TO THME LIKE OHMYGOD. FIRST WAS GUANLIN. THIS BOI HOT DAMN IS TALL AF LIKE HOW DID YOU ONLY TURN 16 YOU ARE SO FUCKING TALL NOT TO MENTION REALLY DAMN HANDSOME LIKE BRO. I SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM WHEN I WAS HIGH FIVING HIM AND HE JUST SMILED AND NODDED AND NEXT WAS ONG AND I WAS LIKE HIIIIII AND HE WAS LIKE HIII~~ AND GRINNED AT ME AND JUST ONG MAN HE’S LITERALLY MODEL LIKE GORGEOUS THE DAMN VISUALS WTF. 

OKAY SO NEXT IS THE GREATEST FUCKING MOMENT OF MY LIFE AND NOTHING COULD EVER COMPARE TO THIS MOMENT. EVER. IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO MEET JIHOON (if y’all new and don’t know I have literally been screaming about holding park jihoons hand since pd101 days and my hands are literally shaking at me remembering that I HAVE HELD HIS HAND MISSION FUCKING ACCOMPLISHED I CAN DIE HAPPY). Park Jihoon. Where do I start? he is literally so so so so pretty. I almost melted and I think I stopped breathing when I looked into his eyes I’m not even lying idk how I was able to function BC HE LOOKED STRAIGHT BACK INTO MINE. BY SOME KIND OF MIRACLE I MANGED TO JUST BLURT OUT ‘I LOVE YOU!’ TO HIM AND I ENDED UP KIND OF TAKING A HOLD OF HIS HAND INSTEAD OF JUST HIGH FIVING AND JUST HE SEEMED REALLLLLY SURPRISED AND HIS MOUTH KINDA DROPPED? LIKE HE JUST SEEMED LIKE HE DIDNT EXPECT IT BUT AT THIS POINT I NEEDED TO START MOVING TO DAEHWI OR ELSE THE SEVURITY WAS GOING TO RUSH ME BUT LIKE A SECOND BEFORE MY HAND LEFT HIS JIHOON WAS LIKE ‘ I LOVE YOU~~~’ AND BOI. I. FUCKING. DIED. I COULDNT THINK STRAIGHT LIKE DID HE JUST SAY THAT? DID HE ACTUALLY. JUST TELL ME HE LOVED ME? HONESTLY I STILL DON’T BELIEVE IT HAPPEND AND IM JUST AKFGHJLKAJFHGNEJRFEBH???!?!?!?!??!?! The only thing that actually confirmed he said it was daehwis face bc he like looked at jihoon sorta shocked too like mouth dropped type thing and just ohmygod I could go on and on but I won’t bc theres still 8 members left lisfhiesfjcoiehnf.

alright so next was daehwi. STILL had his mouth opened by the time I fully got to him but he managed to smile at me and I was like ‘ HOW ARE YOU?’ bc he is my son and I need to make sure he’s doing well you know? and he was like ‘I’m good!!’ but I think I took too long bc security sort of pushed me a bit to go quicker (props bc I was still like not moving bc wtf jihoon) but yes jinyoung HIS HEAD REA;;Y IS DAMN SMALL BUT HE IS REALLY HANDSOME LIKE WOWOWOWOWOWOWOW YOU ARE SO CUTE LIKE WTF. 

At this point security actually pushed me to move on but they did it like while I was already starting to say HI to Daniel but since I was pushed it like came out louder than I expected (like a hiIIii) and Daniel was so startled he literally took a step back before just smiling at me and it was so funny bc jisung low-key laughed at him and it was really cute. 

With Jisung I was like ‘THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING’ bc he needs to know he is appreciated like YOON JISUNG WE ALL LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU BOI PLS ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT but he like did that pouty face thing that he does when he wants to show that he’s grateful/touched idk but like he squints his eyes and pouts and nodded his head at me and SQUEEZED MY HAND LIKE HOT DAMN JAKFJFMERJ. ALSO CAN I JUST SAY THATT THIS BOI IS SO MUCH MORE HANDSOME UP CLOSE LIKE HE LOOKS SO DAMN GOOD ON SHOWS AND FANCAMS AND SHIT BUT HOLY SHIT UP CLOSE IT’S LIKE X1102399014839573827569287 LIKE HE IS GORGEOUS DO NOT BELIEVE ANYONE WHO THINKS OTHERWISE OKAY!

NEXT UP WAS SUNGWOON AND HE’S NOT THAT  SHORT GUYS LIKE COME ON (side note: most of them were actually shorter than I expected but since I expected sungwoon to be like SHORT he was taller than I expected lmao) but by this time security was like HURRY TF UP so I was just like hiiiii and he just smiled at me and I did the same with jaehwan and he smiled and was like ‘HI HI’ and just akljfghlkajfhgimerhfiefm jaehwan wtf. 

up next was the bias wrecker. Park Woojin. ngl I planned on pretending to high five woojin b4 dabbing to prove I don’t swerve but before I could I was like hii!!! and he fucking grinned at me and showed off his snaggletooth and BOIIIIII HE IS SO FUCKIG CHARMING WTF. ALL THOUGHTS OF DABBING LEFT MY MIND AND I ENDED UP GRIPPING HIS HAND BC I WAS LIKE I NEED SUPPORT IM GOING TO MELT OTHERWISE BC PARK WOOJINS SMILE IS SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL ( I swear I didn’t swerve….maybe for like 0.0005s). last but not least mr. hwang minhyun. HIS. VISUALS. ARE. SO. BEAUTIFUL. HE WAS DRESSED ALL CUTELY AND HE WAS SO PROPER LIKE HE WAS DASHING AND BEAUTIFUL WOWOWOOWOW WHEN I GREETED HIM HE SMILED AT ME AND BOWED AND SAID HI BACK ADN IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL MOMENT. after that I kinda…..skipped off stage…I was so high man I was on cloud 9 I literally could not believe that all happened in a span of like max 2 mins and I feel like I was going to collapse but hands were still shaking so much alkjhifrbhureih. 

ANYWAYS after my mini break down, I gathered myself and went back to join the crowd and listen to their ending speech thingo (by this time I was at the back rip but still pretty close) We weren’t allowed phones while meeting them so I shoved it in my bag ad wasn’t able to video this but when they were about to do their last greeting all of the fans started singing happy birthday for guanlin and it was literally the cutest thing to watch their reactions bc they were all so shocked!! LIKE GUANLINS EYES WIDENED AND ALL OF THE OTHER MEMBERS SUDDENLY LIKE SNAPPED THEIR HEADS TO THE CROWD THEY WERE SHOOKT AND IT WAS SO CUTE BUT THEN THEY ALL STARTED CLAPPING ALONG AND SMILING REAL BIG WHILE WE ALL SANG AND WHEN IT ENDED THE MC (KEVIN FROM UKISS) WAS LIKE AWWW HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GUANLIN WHEN IS IT? (something along those lines) and guanlin was like lol it’s today but yeah after that heartwarming scene they did their greeting and left and we all started leaving too bc most of us needed to go line up for the red carpet.

(ALSO SOMEONE GOT A PHOTO OF MY SAYING I LOVE YOU TO JIHOON AND ME MEETING DAEHWI, IF YOU WANNA SEE SEND ME AN ASK, I WONT POST IT NOW BC IDK IF PEOPLE WANNA SEE LOL)

Red Carpet

Yo lemme tell y'all the line for the p1 red carpet was sooooo fucking long like holy shit HOW WERE ALL THESE PEOPLE GONNA FIT IN THAT TINY ASS ROOM and since I lined up so late bc the queue started really early and the wanna one m&g ended late I was towards the very back and I couldn’t really see anything (sad) but yeah basically only sf9, up10tion, WJSN and Monsta X went and a lotttt of fans got mad bc wanna one didn’t go akjsfmejfhoisenfu but it wasn’t like we could do anything about it like ??!??!?!! but I get it esp if they didn’t get to attend the m&g but yeah I can’t talk about it much bc I couldn’t see much rip soz it’s pretty like simple tho? they introduce the act, the act gets on stage then stays there for a bit introduces the group then leaves and the next group comes in and etc. what kinda sucked tho was like lining up to get into the concert venue bc of everyone pushing and shit it was so damn annoying.

Concert

CONCERT TIME YO. Okay first off, THOSE OPENING ACTS LIKE SHOUT OUT TO YOU GUYS YOU WERE FUCKIGN AMAZING HOLY SHITLJAHKCFJME ALso I’m really sorry but the SF9, Up10tion and WJSN parts of this are going to be really short mostly bc I wasn’t actually that big of a fan (like I only really knew their titles songs and didn’t even know the members names I’m so sorry!!) of those groups b4 this concert so I don’t know much and can’t talk a lot about them but what I can say is IVE BEEN CONVERTED BC THEIR STAGES WERE FUCKING AMAZING!!! ALSO SHOUT OUT TO THAT DUDE FROM SF9 WHO KEPT WAVING AT ME AND THREW A HEART AT ME BEING A HYPER PERSON IN THE CROWD LIKE BOI IDK YOU BUT YOU MY BIAS. But literally they all performed soooooo damn well and just WJSN is after my heart (esp when they played secret).

The highlight performances for me though were definitely wanna one and monsta x. wanna one mostly bc like hi you my bias group also THEY ARE FUCKING GOOD AT WHAT THEY DO MAN LIKE DAEHWIS LIVE VOICE HOLY SHIT ALSO JAEHWANS VOICE LIKE WE ALL KNOW IT’S GODLIKE BUT HEARING IT LIVE LIKE WTFFFFFFFFF. I LITERALLY COULDNT EVEN RECORD ANYTHING BC MY PHONE DIED AND I WAS REALLY SAD BUT LIKE HOT DAMNNNNNNNNNN THEY WERE AMAZING. ALSO WHEN THEY WERE GETTING INTO POSITIONS FOR BURN IT UP THERE WAS LIKE A SPLIT SECOND OF SILENCE AND I SCREAMED OUT ‘PAARRRRKKKK JIIIIHOOOOONNNNN’ SO LOUD THA T THE GIRL NEXT TO ME MOVED AWAY AND JIHOON LOOJED UP I WAS SHOOK (I apologised so much to the girl and she laughed it off but still moved away rip) also I’m not even gonna talk about piñata time bc there was too much shit going on there and my friend got decent fancams so I’ll gif later but SOMEONE TELL JIHOON TO STOP SOMEONE TELL GUANLIN THE FLOOR IS DIRTY SOMEONE TELL ONG NO AND SOMEONE REMIND JISUNG THAT HE IS THE CUTEST BEAN EVER (also stop park woojins sexy dance 2k17 thanks) but minhyun waved at me during piñata time and I love him for it. We also all sang happy birthday to guanlin again and I will never ever get tired of seeing that boy all happy and smiley I hope he enjoyed his birthday with us!!!

OKAY MONSTA X THO DEFS TOOK STAGE OF THE NIGHT LIKE BOISSSS. THEY BLOODY OWNED THAT STAGE. THEIR STAGE PRESENCE IS NO FUCKING JOKE LIKE HOLY HELL EVERYONE WAS LIKR REALLLLLLYYYY INTO IT (like people were going W I L D but like for wanna one they did to but it was more of like fangirl W I L D. for monsta x it was like jamming head banging move your body W I L D it was literally amazing). THEY PERFORMED EX GIRL WHICH IS LITERALLY ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE SONGS EVER AND JUST HOLY SHIT I WAS SOBBING WHILE SINGING IT AND WAVING SOME GOLD STREAMERS AROUND LIKE CRAZY AND KIHYUN NOTICED ME AND LAUGHED AT ME AND IT WAS SO CUTE. ALSO HOW WAS THAT GIRL WHO GOT LUCKY ENOOUGH TO BE PROPOSED TO BY MONSTA X NOT DEAD ON THE FLOOR? I WAS ON THE GROUND THE MOMENT CHANGKYUN SAID ANGEL LIKE HOLY SHIT YOU GOT SERENADED BY KIHYUN AND WONHO LEGIT WENT DOWN TO TAKE A SELFIE WITH YOU AND HUGGED YOU GIRL HOW ARE YOU ALIVE (admittedly she did like have a fan with shownus face on it and he didn’t participate in the proposals rip but still) anyways STAGES WERE FUCKING LIT ALSO WONHO YOU HOE SOMEONE STOP THAT GUY.

okay so after monsta x it was like the part where all of the groups come out again and shit and I ended up front row of the very side and wanna one came and stood there and I was legit right in front of Daniel woojin and jaehwan and the girls around me were trying to get their attention and were screaming their names and shit and I was like hmmmmm what should I do?? so I like made a heart with my arms like hands on head type heart and kinda just started stoically at woojin NOT THINKING HE WOULD NOTICE ME BUT ALKJHLCEKJNFSEJFHGBOSUIB HE FUCKING DID AND IT WAS ONE OF THE MOST AWKWARD AND FUNNIEST MOMENTS OF MY LIFE HOLYSHIT IT WAS LIKE WE MADE EYE CONTACT AND HE STARED FOR A BIT LIKE WTF AND I FALTERED AND GAVE AN AWKWARD SMILE AND HE STARTED TO LAUGH A LIL AND I DIDN’T NOTICE BUT DANIEL SAW TOO AND HE TURNED TO WOOJIN AND THEY LAUGHED TOGETHER THEN OUT OF NO WHERE STARTED DOING THIS WEIRD DANCE THEN AFTERWARDS I NOTICED JAEHWAN STARING AT ME WITH COMPLETE JUDGEMENT ON HIS FACE AJMIRENJFOEGHU THE DICK BEFORE I WAS SHOVED AWAY BY A GIRL NEXT TO ME BUT YEAH THAT HAPPENED WOOPS.

basically it was one of the most amazing days of my life I not only got to meet and high five my ult bias group and see various amazing performances by all of the artists, I also was able to make new friends and meet my mutuals here and it was just sososososo amazing Im literally so grateful for everything and everyone and I was just realllly lucky I hope everyone gets to experience this bc I’m so happy rn and I hope everyone will be this happy at least once in their lives too!!!! and just I literally not even two months ago was totally convinced id never meet jihoon and hold his hand but IT HAPPENED so anyone who tells me it won’t happen to them I call bullshit bc I was literally saying that a month ago and it fucking happened to me so it’ll happen to you guys too I’m just saying!!!

also if you read up to here you’re a legend and I love you :D

[theday]

HIII!!! ITS YOUR MBB SECRET SANTA I HOPE YOURE HAVING A GREAT DAY FULL OF HAPPINESS!!!! I love monsta x and i bet you do too also I LOVE WONHO HES SO SQUISHY RIGHT NOW AND THE HAIR cries ok so i have a question of the day: what got you into mx? Mine was a long ride but it was w o r t h i t!!!

HELLO!!! MY DAY JUST STARTED ACTUALLY BUT I SAW A BUNCH OF MX ON MY DASH SO.. its already filled with happiness and love :-O btw this is rly long

how did u guess…. me …. a blog with the url cuddlychae… liking monsta x????? how didu make that connection… im just kidding i love you? already sjjsjsjd PLEASE JDSJJ I KNOW MY TAG FOR HIM IS LITERALLY SQUISHY KING I LOVE HIM SO MCUHCJS id write a whole ass essay but thats for another time 3 how do you like his hair??? he dyed it like . 3 times this cb rip wonhos scalp but god the purple really grew on me after awhile and then he went fiery red and i was like ? >:0 but the purple…. the red is grpwing on me too alsjjdjs i could never hate wonho(’s hair) i jsut wish theyd let his scalp breathe a bit or he’ll go bald soon

are we going straight into the questiosnsjjsjs tell me about yourself first!!! you can call me egg or megan if calling me a round food object is too strange jsjj i use she/her pronouns and !!! im turning 16 this december 26th which is literally nvm i wanted fto say smth like twice of today since its the 13th and 13 x 2 = 26 but never mind…. 

this got so long already my friend (what shall i call you?) this is how i am normally whenever i start i dont stop riidjjsjsjk we’re in for a long ride buddy :-D

ok so monsta x … the monsta men……. so firsts of all . my good friend buddy pal karissa (who is barely on tumblr) is a big mbb but i didnt get into them bc of her though she shld get mentioned bc of her i have someone to yell about monsta x.. irl… bless her . now shes kind of relevant to this story actually in june and i was at her place with another friend and that was the day mx had their coomeback shine forever so we agreed to watch it with her :-o back then i had no interest in kpop at all so i was like hm . the whole time but their music was great in my young opinion back then since she let me listen to beautiful right after that (also jooheon in the beautiful mv caught my eye in shine forever it was minhyuk and jooheon i didnt take notice of anyone else whoops) 

that was my only mx experience until .. after i got into day6 (after being more open to kpop) my friend (a different one, boxy) she started talking about mx bc she got sucked into their wormhole .. and she would talk about mister yoo kihyun for ages which was cute (ok honestly when i first looked up pics of ki i was like whys . he her bias bssjjsjsjsks now i understand) she’d link me videos such as the daeng daeng daeng cover and kihyuns hyeya to show us how good kihyuns vocals were (which i completely ignored for awhile bc of mister minhyukku…. kihyun im so sorry i did u dirty for the longest time) and then she linked us to the funny videos i had to bold that bc . monsta x are the best comedians alive… kings of comedy . she gave us this video to watch and i lost my mind watching it beyhjsjs

this is long and dramatic only bc i love to talk but basically i got into mx bc they were fucking funny that sounds so dumb but i watched all their reality/variety shows in less than 2 weeks without knowing who each member was (i could only recognize jooheon) every episode/series has made me laugh so hard and i think because i fell for their personalities more it was easier for me to??? for them to??? become one of my favorite groups??? after that i watched all their music videos (hey all in ruined my life and burnt my crops wtf…. i love all in so much,,,,) and then proceeded to watch most of the subbed vlives/monchannel videos it was a wild time honestly and it wasnt only after a while that i started following more mx blogs and just interacting with fellow mbbs??? the click idk if u know them but theyve helped me open up to other people on here too so im really grateful to them!! in the end i just??? i mean i got into them late august and it hasnt even been 6 months but i would really give my heart and soul to monsta x theyre so kind and just really fucking sweet + talented and im so happy they got their first win!!!!!!! 

this is really long so if you read this thank you!! something i want to establish is that (breaking some rules here) you dont have to send me 3 asks a day because.. thats ridiculous i mean i understand where the organizer is coming from but please dont ever feel pressured to send me asks - just do it when youre free/when you feel like it!! i want to make this a stress free and fun experience so dont worry about it okay!!! another thing, im completely fine if you send me more than 3 asks in one go (since theres that character limit stories will be hard to tell) i love reading people’s rambles so if you ever feel like writing a whole wonho love essay please go ahead!! 

my questions for you are the ones i mentioned previously at the start and how did you get into monsta x?? you said it was a long ride so im rly curious!! just tell me whenever!!! i might take some time to reply bc i only reply on desktop and ill be out the whole day but dont let that stop you from sending stuff if u want!!!

thank you so much for reading if you did, i hope you have a wonderful day and that if youre sleeping soon, youll have a good rest!! do let me know what youd like me to tag your asks with by the way! i love youuUU

[chickenfetus]

all moongan

thank you for asking falen tbh i love u sm and i love doing these 

omg is this ask for this ask meme i literally almost posted this along with the wrong ask fml

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

more cereal than mik because.. i dont eat cereal with milk……… i love the crunch

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

as someone who lives in a tropical country is that what its called idk we dont have seasons and it never gets lower than 25 degrees so yes that would be ideal

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

hrmmmmm… i just remember the page number?? or try to lmao if i dont remember i just skim through the pages and try to recognise where i left off

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

with at least 2 packets of sugar tbh…. i dont drink coffee

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

omg story time i went 2 get my braces removed and the dentist wanted to take pics so he was like “smile with your teeth!” and i was like ok! but then he kept saying i wasnt doing it right lmao… guess whos never smiled b4… (me) so he told me 2 practice my smile lol i didnt answer the qn but ya,,, i am probably

6: do you keep plants?

i used 2 be very against plants… now theyre okay i guess i dont rly keep any

7: do you name your plants?

refer 2 6

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

art??? i havent drawn in awhile

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

no LOL

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

on my side!!!! i cant sleep on my back bc i gotta hug smth.. and my stomach is out of the qn

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

🅱️… and .. same brainwaves…. poor mans ____…. this is all from the shady hq im so sorry my other pals

12: what’s your favorite planet?

the moon for no real reason

13: what’s something that made you smile today?

hMMm, watching astro and mx perform??? and just being shady with bell lmao

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

this… question,,,..so im thinking of a bright place with white walls and translucent curtains so the light call fill the (living) room perfectly and everythings really ??? sunny and shit idk its warm… the floor’s made of (fake?) wood and theres a small kitchen bc i cant cook and idk if my friend would be able to lol.. theres 2 bed rooms both are painfully small but it works.. theres one other room with a closet for clothes… the bathroom is just a shower, sink and toilet… theres no washing machine rip and ?? thats about it poor mens life

i watchd the like we used mv again and i realized ...... that is literally where i got this imagery from thanks the rose i love a relatable band

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

heres a fact (?) from me first: it rains diamonds on one planet ?? mecury maybe?? mars??? whomst.. this isnt even a fact its ,me trying to recall shit

ok real fact: There are thousands of other planets out there. sorry lads this website doesnt wanna have fun

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?

is spaghetti bolognese a pasta dish

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

im chill with my current hair colour??? bc its brown sometimes idk shitty hair

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

i asked my irl friends (group name: panic support group) and this is what they said

K: everything

E: when u were one hour late (i dont remember this happening but i do know im always late but never for an hour past me wyd)

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

goDD i dont but i sure want to

20: what’s your favorite eye color?

this is strange but every eye colour is my favourite although ppl with two or more colours in their eyes are so cool

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

its just my school bag lmao i got it 4 years ago and i take it everywhere even if the event is “small” and they ask us to bring “smaller bags” ill bring my big ass school bag anyway it looks like this (i dont have to but linking stuff is so fun)

22: are you a morning person?

technically.???its the holidays but i still manage to get up before 10 (most of the time) and … even if i have like 5 hours of sleep i manage to feel awake really easily????

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

tf i just use my phone lmao this is what ive been doing for like a month now… i could watch every vlive i havent watched yet, i could make video compilations i could practice my art but… even though im out of school im still procrastinating.. legends only

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

mmmm falens the closest to that

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?

my classroom

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

white converse??  i have 2 get new ones every like 2 years since theyre also my school shoes and break easily….. other than those i have my blueblack converse too (i dont wear them as much so theyre still in one piece)

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?

i dont eat bubblegum bc im always afraid ill swallow it and die and im p sure its illegal here

28: sunrise or sunset?

sunset but i dont look outside enough for either

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?

hm……… with jen its when she sends me asks on anon despite it being super obvious like im not a Fan when my friends send me asks on anon bc sometimes i cant tell and i get a sense of false hope but w/ jen its okay but i know its her

with bell its when they reply to my keyboard smashes with their own keyboard smashes lmao and when they just??//?? say smth cute abt their faves (lately its been sanha thank u sh)

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

ya lmao when i have 2 sleep alone and its completely dark i have half a mind 2 believe some random supernatural being is out for me

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

hmM. socks are great i always wear them bc i wear shoes almost every time i go outside… i dont have any weird socks bc im Boring but i have 3 pkmn songs and 1 gudetama socks/.. bUT I DID buy my friend those socks with individual toe pockets… it was so funny when my other friend saw it she choked on her drink and almost spat it out. we laughed so hard we hit our heads against each other i love friendship.. i have 2 wear white socks for sch bc… aesthetic? god if i know lmao….. i only ever wear ankle socks bc….. socks any higher than that? cancelled.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

listen ive never stayed up later than like 1am ok maybe 2am??? but i was working on like a project that was due the next day for school with my groupmates (friends) so does that count lmao

33: what’s your fave pastry?

bread………. sugar donuts…….. i am Aware that thats not how u spell it but wtv

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

why does this ask so many qns in 1 qn……. i had a cat?? it had pink stripes and it didnt have a name bc i dont name my stuff… even my pokemon.. and yeah i still have it except its in a big dusty bag where all my other toys are kept

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

i kinda have to use stationary for school so ya.. p often is correct… pretty pens??? i dont rly see the point whoopS!!! in exams u can only use black or blue so

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?

im listening 2 day6 so like day6

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

my room isnt even my room i just go there to sleep .. the place im always at is like a study area except its open?? so everyone can see me lol and . its not messy?? if u look at it from far but the shit on the desk and shelves are so fucking messy god i need to pack those

38: tell us about your pet peeves!

aLRIGHT LADS welcome 2 megans ted talk

(skip this if ur not fond of drama)

so something (refer to the song he said suits myday) happened with jae recently and ive seen fans trying to defend him by @ing him and saying that they love him which is fine - great even! but what i dont approve is how everyone’s basically forgotten about the whole matter because they had concerts so instead of @-ing him and asking him to explain himself, they tell him what a great concert it was which is also great bc their concerts are honestly amazing. basically my pet peeve is when ppl dismiss the problematic action of some people just bc they like them.

another thing is that there were some fans who started guilting others for wanting to drop day6 completely because of what jae did and in my opinion i think it is totally cool to want to drop a group if they did smth bad like??? its ur life???? u can choose who you want to like. what is not cool is pulling out all the good things the person has ever done in their entire life and try to remind others about the positive sides of the person. yes. they’re an encouraging person, etc. but that does not cancel out the bad things they’ve done until they explain/apologise. what is infuriating is just the manner some people took it?? they literally went ahead and tweeted shit like “would your parents drop you if you did smth wrong?” and “you’re seriously gonna drop someone whos been nothing been nice because of one incident?” yes. people will and you dont have any fucking right to stop them? so dont go pulling out receipts.

another thing. its also okay to want to stan the whole group even if someone has done smth problematic. like? to me youre cool if youre able to see and acknowledge the bad shit someone has done and still stand by their side while educating them at the same time its nice to have faith in your idols. however, i wont say much when your idols dont respond and/or respond in a way that shows absolutely no remorse. its cool if you want to support them too, despite that.

tldr; dont fucking excuse someone’s behaviour/action just because youre so far up their fucking ass. dont pull out shit from before either, be it good or bad. and lastly, its okay to want to drop/continue supporting them, its your life.

i just wanted to talk about this tbh,, it was nice to see a few mydays trying to urge jae to explain the whole situation but seeing as he still hasnt and couldve it really irks me :-/

okay update its been a day and i havent really thought about this but im kinda conflicted now bc jae still hasnt talked about the song and im probably just making a big deal out of smth that will never happen again but it really doesnt sit right with me knowing that jae recommended that song to his fans and said it suited mydays?? bc looking at the lyrics... i SURE hope not... idk i have neither forgiven or forgotten but he’s okay now.? i cant stay mad at someone for that long anyway ill never forgive him 4 it though lmao petty ppl only

another thing... jae’s still an amazing person to me with all the encouraging words he says to mydays but this one incident is just soOOOOO hrm and i did go off tangent with the question as usual lol

39: what color do you wear the most?

i wear a lot of colours tbh??? but bc its rly hot out ive just been wearing the same shirt every time i leave the house and its black so

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?

i dont wear jewelry rip

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?

challenger deep

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

hm,, ive only ever visited this coffee shop like more than once bc the girl i used 2 like showed it to me b4 like 2 years ago and it was nice i liked their mocha frappe and its cozy i guess??? sometimes i go there with friends to study/just eat but i havent gone in awhile.., its two stories and it has an open air sitting area too i prefer sitting inside bc the sun is a big no thanks.. the ceiling is kind of like?? going downward?? like the kind iin attics???? idk man it was nice

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

u cant see shit here sorry

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

cant relate

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

yea?? sometimes i just gotta bc my brain wont shut the fuck up

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.

suddenly all of the puns i know have left my mind thanks @ me

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

vegetables

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

the dark and whats basically in it???? like ghosts zombies and shit u kno the scary shit

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

i like buying albums?? theres a CD in those so it counts lmao i bought sunrise by day6

50: what’s an odd thing you collect?

boxes??? like containers????

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

boxy and letting go by day6

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

YOU KNOW I HAD TO DO IT TO THEM and oh worm

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

me: rocky.. ?????? from astro.. /?? no ive never heard of any of those and i saw the word horror so u wont hear abt those from me any time soon

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

i literally havent been outside for 2 days

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?

be petty aka yesterday i changed my twitter icon from jae 2 brian bc jae’s being a child rn so hes out

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?

when they ramble abt smth they like thanksk buds

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

is this the song from p!atd i have it in my playlist lmao oh i fucing hate this song i always skip it im not listening

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?

idk what either of those are but bell and boxy

59: what’s your favorite myth?

idk any

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

anything that eunwoo has ever written

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?

ive given eggs for karissa’s birthday b4 and i got a kermit its not stupid tho its just the closest thign i could think of

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

i drink water juice everyday every minute every hour

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

my books are all in shelves lads i just  heard the fucking keys rattle im not doing this shit im logging off night

ok day 3 and im back like i said previously my books are on shelves i tried rearranging them by series b4 but my housekeeper rearrnaged them randomly the next day so i gave up

i make playlists for songs that i like, really like (i still skip them sometimes rip) and songs that my friend recommends me i have a seperate playlist for the songs i like in japanese 2

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?

light blue?? like its actually p white bc its cloudy

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?

m not rly

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?

just. leaves maybe??

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

Horror Movie

68: what’s winter like where you live?

oh winter is fucking fantastic it never gets colder than 25 degrees celsius here and if it does rain it lasts for like 10 minutes

69: what are your favorite board games?

i used to rly like snake and ladders and monopoly :-o

70: have you ever used a ouija board?

im not ready for that kinda death

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?

english breakfast or earl gray??? those r like the standard right

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?

ya but i never do bc i either forget to or am just 2 lazy

73: what are some of your worst habits?

being lazy + procrastinating :-D

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

okie :-o ..

they’re great ok ive talked abt them like 10 times in the span of 2 months but whatever folks

they’re super nice, kind and just all of the positive adjectives out there in the dictionary ...... they’ve helped me multiple times and they’re always there 2 lend me a listening ear (or in our case, eye lmao) idk??? im just super comfortable around them always and im honestly so thankful we became mutuals (and subsequently friends) last year!!!! i cant say a lot bc ill just get v repetitive but overall they’re an awesome friend and im glad we still communicate daily via twitter and sometimes our skype sessions even if they’re kinda awkward bc i never know when 2 talk bc im scared ill speak and theyll say smth and itll turn into a MESS which actually happened lmao  

im looking forward to the day our skype sessions become super smooth and easy going!!!

75: tell us about your pets!

i have none but id die for boxys cats

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

well yeah always tbh but its not smth i have to do but more like want to do im just 2 lazy to get around doing it

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

?? i almost said lemons arent pink but i Remembered...... yellow lemonade

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

i feel like this is an Attack? okay LISTEN so story time again.

on the flight back from japan i watched the alien covenant and i couldnt even get past the scene where the baby alien was gonna kill the poor guy who ended up being locked up with the infected dude as soon as i saw the blood and the alien emerge from the guy’s back i bolted lmao

so to calm myself down nd block that memory from my mind i went ahead and watched despicable me 3.. which HONESTLY im the worst critic ever but in my humble opinion.... the movie was good????????? idk i didnt watch minions the movie though i got lazy again whooopS!

anwyay i sidetracked but im neutral im not a fan but i wouldnt go out of my way to call minions annoying?? bc they really arent? i feel like its only seen that way bc of how people make posts abt how annoying minions are even tho.. they arent??

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

my memory hates me so every specific thing my friends have ever done for me has left my mind but .

the cutest thing? everything my friends do for me

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

theyre yellow and no i didnt theyve been there ever since i could remember

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

lava cake

82: are/were you good in school?

yeah i was good in school for like the first three years and this year i just flopped so badly lmao and its my important year too oh well my exams r over and i still dont have a backup plan in mind

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?

all of dance gavin dance’s albums have awesome art

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

back when i was really into 5sos i thought of getting a tally since that was their logo at that time but now no not really unless i decide to get lance’s face tattooed onto my forehead on impulse

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

im keeping up with hq, bnha and tg manga!!!!

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?

idk what those r but sure

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

big hero 6

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

who wrote this whats up with these questions

i googled and.. not really?? they all look nice

89: are you close to your parents?

close enough to stand being in the same room as them but not close enough to want to initiate conversations

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.

tokyo was really cool (literally) and if i ever go again id love to go with friends so we can explore more??

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

japan was supposed to be the only plan for this year but my grandad passed away so i had to go to malaysia multiple times earlier this year ik this wasnt the qn but ive already went to the planned destination tm so

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

BARELY SPRINKLES A PINCH im anti cheese

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?

um. like?? i tie the sides of my hair that cover my face back??? bc i dont like hair in my face

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

bell

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

hopefully something useful

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

i also click remind me tomorrow lmao

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

infp-t, capricorn, hufflepuff (same as falen nd jen yay)

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

uh ive never been hiking and i dont plan on it sorry body

99: list some five (or id never shut up) songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

currently......

when you love someone - day6

like we used to - the rose

crazy sexy cool - astro

death of a strawberry - dance gavin dance

if it means a lot to you - a day to remember

idk if these actually “resonate to my soul” they just sound nice

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?

oh worm.. i wouldnt miind either???

i know i have 2 choose but like

if i go back into the past i could be less annoying?? but the past has actually helped me be the way i am today and i think im learning to be a better person?? im definitely way better than how i was previously 5 years ago and im just grateful i was able to learn from my mistakes???

so i wouldnt go back to the past.

if its in the future i can see how ill end up and if its not good i might end up being able to change myself so i dont get my “bad end”..???? maybe or i can just see what happens in the future and i can look forward to it

itll also give me a chnace to have the most fun while i can if its not too nice

so my decision is to go to the future

thank you so much for asking falen god this got so long lmao

[dalrynne]

gay ask for gays only: all of them

1. describe your idea of a perfect date

hmm maybe a fun day at an amusement park or movies, a nice dinner, then stargazing or something? idk tbh just something where we’d have fun together and do cute coupley stuff hehe (but not like too much pda bc thats annoying)

2. whats your “type”

i’m a real sucker for the “quiet artsy/mysterious” type LMAO. i like people who are creative, kinda quiet, thoughtful, romantic, spontaneous, and honest

3. do you want kids?

yeah, someday

4. if you do, will you adopt or use some other form of child birth?

sigh, probs childbirth but adopting doesn’t sound bad either?

5. describe the cutest date you’ve ever been on

well i haven’t been on many tbh... i think the cutest one was when we walked around the pier at night, holding hands bc it was cold. we also talked while sitting on the swings on a playground and he pushed me on the swing haha. then when we got too cold to stay outside, we went in somewhere for some hot cocoa~

6. describe your experience having sex for the first time (were you nervous? or was it easy peasy?)

i wouldn’t know LOL

7. are you a morning time gay or night time gay?

night time!! my brain (and heart) is like x10 more awake and active at night haha

8. opinion on nap dates?

incredibly adorable and honestly goals

9. opinion on brown eyes?

they’re so underrated! they have such a warmth and depth to them... they’re so alluring and sometimes i feel like i can drown in them. i love brown eyes

10. dog gay or cat gay?

both?? although in terms of personality, i suppose i’d be more of a cat :3c

11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?

mmm yeah sure, reptiles are cool tho and rodents can be cute! but i might not be 100% comfortable if their pets were like just loose around the house when i came over?

12. whats a turn off you look for before you start officially dating someone

poor communication/conversation skills... if they can’t hold and carry a good conversation, then whats the point? communication is one of the most important things in a relationship! 

13. what is a misconception you had about lgb people before you realized you were one?

oh god,,, i was actually homophobic before i realized that i was gay myself bc i was raised in a very conservative, homophobic, christian household. its highly unsettling to remember myself like that tbh... i had once thought that lgbtq+ people were ‘choosing’ to be gay smh

14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger self

pls don’t let other people’s perceptions of you deter you from enjoying and loving the things you do. also pls, for the love of god, get some new clothes... you need to really reevaluate your fashion choices

15. (if attracted to more than one gender) do you have different “types” for different genders?

yes!! i tend to like feminine boys and more androgynous girls? 

16. who is an ex you regret?

my “first boyfriend” LMAO he was such a shitbag... he didn’t treat me right and cheated on me. fuck him

17. night club gay or cafe gay?

cafeee! omg thats so wholesome and cute ajskdhaf/// night clubs are fun too but not my first choice... they’re just so crowded and loud and sweaty

18. who is one person you would “go straight” for

well uhh i’m pan so i do still like men LMAO so idk? a lot of them???

19. video game gay, book gay, or movie gay?

book! or maybe movie... but books are richer imo and leave room for you to imagine/create things yourself!

20. favourite gay ship (canon or not)

i think,,,, klance (from voltron)?

21. favourite gay youtuber

troye sivan (pls make more videos again ajskda i miss him;;;)

22. have you ever unknowingly asked out a straight person?

um i’ve never asked someone out so LOL

23. have you ever been in love?

tbh i don’t think so? if so, then only very very briefly.

24. have you ever been heartbroken?

uhhhh i don’t think so? since i don’t think i’ve ever truly loved anyone romantically so how can i get my heart broken LOL

25. how do you determine if you want to be them or be with someone

THIS IS THE HARDEST THING TO DISTINGUISH TBH to this day, i struggle and often i’m not able to tell the difference :’)

26. favourite lgb musician/band

again troye sivan!

27. what is a piece of advice you have for young / baby gays

the attraction and love you feel for people is not wrong or gross... its lovely and i hope you can continue to explore yourself to find happiness and love!!

28. are you out? if so how did you come out

if you exclude the interwebs (LMAO i talk about being gay all over the internet to my internet friends) uhh no haha only to a couple of close friends irl

29. what is the most uncomfortable / strange coming out experience you have

umm i don’t think i’ve ever had one?

30. what is a piece of advice for people who may not be in a safe place to express their sexuality

oh man, you must be feeling very frustrated and suffocated... but if you can, try to find a safe space where you can express yourself! whether it be with a close group of trusted friends, a club at school, internet friends, or even your own private journal or something! i’m sorry you have to go through this, but pls stay strong!!

[sorenteenwrites]

Just a thing

SSO OC Asks 

1. What is their home stable in-game? Why?

Mistfall, story wise it’s because the baroness (my character works for her) wanted to start up a vineyard in mistfall and sent my character to manage the day to day operations, but mostly it’s just because I like mistfall.

2. Where do they actually live in Jorvik?

They bought a farmhouse in mistfall after selling their place in silverglade

3. Who is their favorite NPC? (Obvs they wouldn’t be for our characters, but you know)

There are several, Rania, Avalon, Evergray, Ydris, the list goes on.

4. Who is their Soul Steed? What breed are they? Do they have any markings or look different in some way from the in-game appearance you could give them?

For now it’s the black Clydesdale, until they do Percherons. If they ever get around to Percherons its a Black mare with a small white blaze (My irl soulhorse) Mockingbird.

5. What is their favorite location? (Ex, Hollow Woods, Greendale, Silverglade Manor Library) Why?

Wooded areas in general, so mistfall and valedale mostly

6. Who’s their favorite horse? Why?

Assuming you mean npc horse it’s Meteor.

7. What are their powers? Are they stronger with one Circle over any of the others?

She’s not stronger in any circles, but her favorite is lightning. She gets, essentially, less powerful versions of the four soulriders powers. She heals faster and medicines she makes heal better but she can’t just heal with her hands, she gets premonitions rather then full visions, she can open portals in the right places and at the right times but it’s spotty at best, and finally she can electrify items if she’s holding them but she can’t shoot lightning from her hands.

8. What’s their usual style? Any favorite tack sets or color themes for them?

Western and dark brown/black for color

9. Thoughts about Jorvik City? How do they feel about Rania’s petition for a horse-friendly Jorvik City?

It’s big and noisy and crowded, she’s got anxiety so she hates going there. She thinks it may not be the best idea, considering all the cars and loud noises.

10. Thoughts about Justin? (I’m sorry, I’m curious, he shows up so much)

She likes him well enough, she feels bad about the part she played in his disappearance and turn to darkness. All she wants is to make it better but she doesn’t know how.

11. How do they feel about the magical horse race at the circus? Did they enjoy being a horse?

She likes it, but she’d rather be turned into a Hawk or a Lion

12. Do they trust the Druids? Or how do they feel about them?

She trusts specific druids, but not the organisation as a whole. She also thinks they take to long to decide things and that they are too cautious. Caution won’t win a war against the brazen.

13. Least favorite NPC?

Not including bad guys, uhh the bobcat girls probably?

14. How do they make their money?

She works for the Baroness makes wine, grows grapes. She gets a monthly paycheck for her work managing the Mistfall winery. She’s also looking to buy half the mistfall winery and become co-owner, since the Baroness doesn’t get down to the mistfall winery much it would work out much better that way.

15. How many horses do they own?

Quite a few, I’m not going to count.

16. How many pets do they have? What kind? What are their names?

None if you don’t include the horses.

17. How do they feel about the Soul Riders? Do they trust them? Feel like an outsider? Are they closer to some over the others?

She trusts the Souls Riders, loves them really. She’s finally starting to feel like she’s one of them. She’s pretty close with all of them considering she saved two of them, and has known Alex for a while now.

18. Do they believe something mystical, magical, or otherwise strange really exists in Dino Valley? How did they feel about the leaving of the Kallter and the roar/scream/screech in the Valley?

Yes, but she’s not sure what. That freeze ain’t natural. She’s really worried about the Kallter just leaving like that, but she’s got other stuff on her plate at the moment.

19. Thoughts about Jorvik Wild Horses?

She thinks they’re really cool, she feels like they and her are similar. Not of this world but not of Pandora either, caught in-between.

20. Do you think they are a Wild Whisperer? Or are they just bonded with their Soul Steed?

Wild Whisperer of course, since she’s good with the wild things, especially if those things have a learned distrust of humans.

21. What’s their favorite Jorvegian holiday or celebration?

The more Pagan/Nordic themed ones.

22. What do they think or feel about Pandoria? Have they or do they visit outside of the quests (using the rifts)? If they have or still do, why?

It’s neat cause it’s like somehow the opposite of earth. Like being in the ocean but with air instead of water. She doesn’t visit unless she has too cause it wouldn’t make sense story wise, but she’d love to visit more. She’s real curious about what the ocean life would be like. Maybe there would be trees and ferns and flowers in it, since the coral and sea animals are above the water.

23. How has their visit(s) to Pandoria affected them? Do they have scars? Has it affected any of their life views?

At first it doesn’t appear like they have, but she’s started to notice a slight glow coming from her old scars.

24. Would they ever consider working for Dark Core or believing their side?

No. Even if Dark Core was somehow trying to do something good she still hates what they’ve done to the earth and innocent people.

25. What or who is Garnok to them? A dark presence? A squid-like monster? A child with a ridiculously complicated jumping course (fuckin @’s Lizzy)?

Something unknowable. She wonders if it really cares about dark core, or if dark core really even knows what Garnok is themselves.

26. Do they ever go to the Disco? If they don’t, would they ever consider going? What would it take to make them go?

No, too many people, too loud.

27. Disco or Moorland Beach party?

Neither.

28. Are they interested in helping with archaeology or fishing?

Both, she enjoys both greatly because they don’t require too much contact with people. (I hate both because both suck at this very moment, make it fun sso!)

29. How do they feel about Igor, the waiter/manager of the Dino Valley cafe, and whom seemed interested in your horse for… “culinary reasons?”

She doesn’t trust him one bit. And he can stay far away from her horses. He can order her wine though, thats fine.

30. Do they like the perpetual winter of Dino Valley or the perpetual autumn/fall of Goldenhills Valley, or is it strange to them? Do they prefer one over the other, or neither?

She has mixed feelings about it. It’s not natural. But she enjoys visiting both when she feels like being in that season.

💋 how many partners do you have? One for now.

💘 do you feel like you chose to be polyamorous or do you feel like it’s who you are? I think it’s currently who I am, but it’s not like I’ve always known.

❤️ how many metamours (partners’ partners) do you have? None.

💔 what was the worst thing someone has said/done when they found out you were polyamorous? Nothing yet, I’ve only told two people.

💖 what was your best moment with each of your partners? My favorite moments are when we’re curled up on the bed just being silly. Playing games or laughing or talking.

💗 do you prefer to date people who are dating each other or not? Dating each other. I want a big happy poly puppy pile.

💙 what’s your best memory with a metamour? N/a

💚 how did you come to be in a polyamorous relationship/ identify as polyamorous? It started when I was reading L.K. Hamilton's Anita Blake series. It opened my eyes to a lot of stuff when I was younger, it’s how I realized I was Bi and Poly.

💛 what’s your favorite polyam pun? My memory is shit so, don’t got one.

🌻 does your polycule have any inside jokes? Don’t PUSH me and some others.

💜 do you think of polyamory as a sexuality? Kinda, yea.

❦ what was your worst polyam break up? Not had one yet thankfully.

💝 what’s your gender? Female

💞 what’s your sexuality? Bi

💟 do you think being polyam makes you LGBT? Only if the poly group is LGBT+ I guess? 

❣️ who’s the most stylish person in your polycule? No one, yet.

💌 how do your partners tell you they love you? By saying I love you generally but also in lots of small and big ways.

💍 have you ever had or do you ever want a wedding or commitment ceremony? Maybe, I’m on the fence about it really.

💐 what’s something you like about each of your metamours? Still don’t have any.

🌸 are you looking for more partners right now? Yes, I’m looking for a female (I want a girlfriend)

🌹 what’s your ideal number of partners? 4, two guys, two girls so it’s nice and even. But maybe I'd like more then that, idk.

🌺 would you ever want to live with both your partner and your metamour? Yes!

[horansqueen]

Mama Olivia, may I rant to you since I don't feel comfortable with my real mom. My 2017 has been shit. My dog died, my sister is a control freak and my parents are pressuring me into getting a job when I'm not ready for one yet. Let me get into detail. My beloved Petro had to be put down because he had cancer in his blood. My sister is stealing all my friends. 1

My best friend irl and my best friend online. All she ever does is take my shit. Now I hear it over and over again that having a twin would be the coolest thing in the world. It's not. She's stealing my man(which is turning into an asshole so I have to leave him, though he's my best friend and I would do anything for him yet he's always showing off and being rude to me when other people are in a convo with us) and my friends. 2

Some days I just go to the bathroom at school and stare in the mirror and pick out all the bad things until I'm on the verge of tears. I tried to make new friends but they all have their groups and I don't feel like I have anyone I can be real with. And my parents have been pestering me since the age of 12 to get a fucking job. I get it I'm almost 16 and don't have a job and my life must suck in their eyes. 3

I have mental road blocks stopme from putting myself out there. I try to speak up about it but they just ignore me or call me an attention seeking brat. I'm trying my best. What better can you really do if the whole point of life is to get a good education, get a good job, make enough money so you have a good retirement and you die peacefully. She follows this blog on her own Tumblr and I fucking hope she sees this and knows I want to kill myself every fucking time she talks and is near me. Ty

hey sweetheart. first off let me say im so sorry for all of this. i know my sorrys dont help but i know life can be fucking rough sometimes. im sorry your sister is stealing everything from you. did you try to talk to her about it? i think it could help you both and change things. and if it doesnt change anything, at least she’ll know how you feel and youll be able to feel better if only because you opened up to her. you can even send her the link to this ask maybe? i think you need to have a good talk with your best friend too. you should tell him it hurts you when he’s being rude and that you love him but he needs to start treating you better. im sorry about your parents too. 16 is young. i dont see what the problem with not having a job is tbh. i dont think its necessary and id rather have my kids focus on their school than on their job but i guess thats just my opinion as a parent. your dog.. god darling im so so sorry. i lost one of my cats last april and my other cat (the love of my life) at the end of last october. i know its horrible. im so so so sorry. if you ever need someone to talk to im always here btw. and i know it seems like nothing is worth it right now but trust me, it will get better. it always does.

ask/tell me anything

[bigbrotherjohto-blog]

Here are Mike’s Diary Room sessions!

[11/18/16, 10:01:19 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) WHAT ARE YOUR INITIAL IMPRESSIONS OF THE OTHER HOUSEGUESTS? (Sun) [11/19/16, 6:15:21 PM] Michal: ill answer tomorrow cuz i hate all of them equally as of now [11/19/16, 6:15:26 PM] Michal: Image [11/19/16, 6:15:39 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: thanks (sun) [11/19/16, 6:21:06 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: fck [11/19/16, 8:13:49 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT WINNING HOH? (Sun) [11/19/16, 8:14:16 PM] Michal: i will get back on that at the end of the week......... since i can be dethroned and fucking nominated by dpov NNNNNN [11/19/16, 8:15:12 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [11/19/16, 8:15:47 PM] Michal: its so NNNN tho... like if justin picks someone who wont fucking show up for the live comp im done huh [11/19/16, 9:12:51 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) (sun) (sun) [11/20/16, 4:57:15 PM] Michal: I? have decided to nominate Ruthie and Ally. [11/20/16, 4:59:53 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) do you have a speech? [11/20/16, 5:13:22 PM] Michal: they didnt bother to even talk to me, i wont bother to make a speech about them! they dont deserve one! [11/20/16, 5:13:35 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: iconic [11/20/16, 6:12:32 PM] Michal: VL DR @aly https://67.media.tumblr.com/84ec6802af4d991d8973b1749bdfdaee/tumblr_oa8mi1VX7o1uhnhamo1_400.gif [11/20/16, 6:12:54 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: FUCK [11/20/16, 6:12:55 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: OH MY GOD [11/21/16, 8:32:47 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT JACOB WINNING DPOV? (sun) [11/23/16, 3:23:06 AM] Michal: im sorry i have test this friday so im busy af

On 2016-11-19, at 5:13 PM, nicholas [ johto host ] wrote: > (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT WINNING HOH? (Sun)

I think it’s great! I have a 50/50 shot at safety now and hopefully some options for alliances and deals since I am HOH. It is also very nerve-wracking since I don’t know for sure if I’ll be targeted or not if I am dethroned. I can’t even make a deal with the other HOH since the renom will be named by whoever wins veto.

On 2016-11-21, at 5:32 PM, nicholas [ johto host ] wrote: > (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT JACOB WINNING DPOV? (sun)

I’m not sure if he would nominate me or not. I have caused a lot of waves these last few days BUT if everyone is threatened by me hopefully they nominate me upfront these next few weeks so I can win the botb or veto competitions. If I lay low instead of becoming a huge target then obviously I have a larger chance at being a renom after veto. As for Jacob, hopefully he thinks of his decision in terms of teams and nominates someone from the good side. [11/23/16, 5:19:19 AM] Michal: On 2016-11-18, at 7:01 PM, nicholas [ johto host ] wrote: > (sun) WHAT ARE YOUR INITIAL IMPRESSIONS OF THE OTHER HOUSEGUESTS? (Sun)

Aly - idk. I nominated her cause she seemed like a flop at comps Ruthie - idk. I nominated her cause she seemed like a flop at comps Ari - Connor and Ari know each other irl btw Bridgette - I talked to her a little bit but I know she has a few friends in the game Carson - huh Christian - idk Connor - Ari and Connor know each other irl btw Jacob - Didn’t renom me so he’s okay for now Jay - huh Julia - Has a bunch of friends in the game Justin - I talked to him a little, he seems nice. Kaitlyn - idk Kaleigh - Has a group of friends in the game Matthias - KING! Randy - Keep it Rhea - Queen! I want to work with her. I also leaked to her that bridgette is coming after her Slade - i?dk [11/23/16, 5:20:52 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: me every time mike exposes that connor and ari know each other https://gyazo.com/0991eff9229fdebe21ba956f16f8fa8f [11/23/16, 5:21:16 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: https://pbs.twimg.com/media/CPoB730VAAAL9x_.jpg [11/23/16, 5:21:16 AM] Michal: FUCK [11/23/16, 5:21:35 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me 4 minutes into the game when mike exposed them https://gyazo.com/0991eff9229fdebe21ba956f16f8fa8f [11/23/16, 5:22:36 AM] Michal: the fact that justin didnt nom both of them is beyond me. [11/23/16, 5:23:36 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: mike trying to figure out how connor escaped the block http://i.imgur.com/yY8rVtc.gif [11/23/16, 5:23:43 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: mike when either connor or ari gets evicted https://gyazo.com/0991eff9229fdebe21ba956f16f8fa8f [11/23/16, 5:24:01 AM] Michal: SHUT UP IM LAUGHING OUT LOUD NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN [11/23/16, 5:24:04 AM] Michal: that Picture NNNNNNNNNNNNN [11/23/16, 5:24:42 AM] Michal: if i win hoh this week too can yall transfer me to good team so i can nom them hmm. [11/23/16, 5:24:48 AM] Michal: thats the real question. [11/23/16, 5:25:09 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: https://pbs.twimg.com/profile_images/605513017879601153/sltXzs-G.jpg [11/23/16, 5:25:10 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: (bike) [11/23/16, 4:13:33 PM] Michal: hopefully jay stays so there will be less annoying people in the evil chat. [11/23/16, 4:13:49 PM] Michal: with that being said. i vote to evict kaitlin. [11/23/16, 4:14:36 PM] Michal: goodbye messages: kaitlin: no way this is happening since we're in number advantage :o jay: i tried [11/23/16, 4:15:47 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ty king [11/23/16, 4:28:46 PM] Michal: i want drama [11/23/16, 4:28:48 PM] Michal: im so bored. [11/23/16, 4:29:04 PM] Michal: tell me what to do to cause drama nad ill do it. [11/23/16, 4:34:07 PM] Michal: hm time for plan H. arguing with myself in the housechat. [11/23/16, 4:34:18 PM] Michal: mike you fake ass bitch did you just vote out ur teammate over jay. what the fuck do you have to say for urself. http://67.media.tumblr.com/713e4098ef7677a9d83b4345e49eb232/tumblr_inline_oaf83zGxHq1sdg6f3_500.gif [11/23/16, 4:58:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me when mike starts drama https://gyazo.com/0991eff9229fdebe21ba956f16f8fa8f [11/24/16, 4:18:13 PM] Michal: im giving 5 points to kaitlyn 5 pounts to matthias and i keep 10 points thank you [11/24/16, 5:18:08 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: ok ty (sun) [11/24/16, 8:13:11 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT SLADE AND RANDY WINNING HOH? (sun) [11/25/16, 10:35:21 AM] Michal: who tf is slade [11/25/16, 10:35:49 AM] Michal: On 11/25/16, at 10:35 AM, Mike wrote: > hi king dont nom me pls i love being a strategist. [11/25/16, 11:10:11 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/25/16, 11:16:46 AM] Michal: but i mean... it also wouldnt be the worst to be nommed... like i'd get two chances to save mysef :| [11/25/16, 11:16:55 AM] Michal: time to tell him to nom me :| [11/25/16, 4:38:49 PM] Michal: On 11/24/16, at 8:13 PM, nicholas [ johto host ] wrote: > (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT SLADE AND RANDY WINNING HOH? (sun) Slade told me he wouldn't nominate me which is confusing since I've never talked to him. Hopefully I don't get renominated by whoever wins veto since I'd have a very slim chance of staying. I'd prefer to be nominated upfront but if I can get past the week without being nominated at all then even better. As for my specific targets, I doubt either of these HOHs to put them up. [11/25/16, 5:32:58 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i love tea [11/25/16, 5:36:08 PM] Michal: schmood [11/25/16, 7:23:37 PM] Michal: i was almost about to say pokemon is trash and i hate it in the housechat but then i realized in what game i am http://66.media.tumblr.com/dce8d7d735d4231887ecb6dde1ee0a29/tumblr_inline_ob1razNKIu1ro58v9_500.gif [11/25/16, 7:37:43 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: duxk [11/25/16, 7:37:49 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/26/16, 8:05:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT CARSON WINNING DPOV? (sun) [11/26/16, 8:07:46 PM] Michal: When I won HoH I spilled receipts to him saying that Bridgette wanted me to put him up so hopefully he'll nom whoever but me. [11/26/16, 8:08:07 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/28/16, 5:58:09 AM] Michal: me: evicts kaitlyn me: spills bridgette tea to good team me: plots with good team evil team: fuck you randy me: http://i.imgur.com/irP2ReQ.gif [11/28/16, 6:22:53 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ok me [11/28/16, 10:06:24 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: mike king [11/28/16, 4:02:11 PM] Michal: I vote to evict bridgette. [11/28/16, 4:02:12 PM] Michal: http://i.imgur.com/irP2ReQ.gif [11/28/16, 4:02:29 PM] Michal: the premade needs to go. even if ruthie's gonna nom me if she stays. [11/28/16, 4:02:33 PM] Michal: i? hate premades. [11/28/16, 4:02:58 PM] Michal: bridgette: omg why :( ruthie: good. [11/28/16, 4:03:07 PM] Michal: ^goodbye mess ages [11/28/16, 4:42:57 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [11/28/16, 4:43:28 PM] Michal: stop sunning me [11/28/16, 4:45:51 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :/ [11/28/16, 4:47:44 PM] Michal: thanks [11/28/16, 4:47:48 PM] Michal: i like this smiley much more [11/28/16, 5:15:15 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [11/28/16, 5:15:54 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: (emo) [11/29/16, 6:24:00 PM] Michal: i literally forgot about the hoh NNNNNNN when is it due i wont have time to study it all GDODTT [11/29/16, 6:24:13 PM] Michal: better change hoh to dicksucking comp [11/29/16, 6:24:33 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: its due in 1.5 hours!! [11/29/16, 6:24:55 PM] Michal: how am i supposed to memorize THREE VIDEOs, not ONE, THREE viDEOS in ONE HOUR! [11/29/16, 6:25:05 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [11/29/16, 6:25:14 PM] Michal: im from Slovakia. english is my second language. can i get like 10-point advantage hmm. [11/29/16, 6:26:27 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: you can get auto evicted if ya want [11/29/16, 6:26:51 PM] Michal: i mean.... i will get a 100% chance to compete for dpov [11/29/16, 6:26:54 PM] Michal: sign me the FUCK up [11/29/16, 6:27:19 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: u cant play in dpov if ur evicted [11/29/16, 6:27:22 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: B) [11/29/16, 6:27:37 PM] Michal: oh autoevicted. [11/29/16, 6:27:41 PM] Michal: wont i get autonommed first. [11/29/16, 6:27:44 PM] Michal: HMMM. [11/29/16, 6:28:37 PM] Michal: i'll wait. [11/29/16, 6:28:48 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: remember when you went into the dreamworld and got autonominated [11/29/16, 6:28:50 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: B) [11/29/16, 6:28:51 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me too [11/29/16, 6:29:21 PM] Michal: i literally wasnt in dreamworld [11/29/16, 6:29:23 PM] Michal: why are u lyin [11/29/16, 6:30:04 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: all i remember is that it got cancelled when u casted ur jury vote :/// [11/29/16, 6:30:44 PM] Michal: (bike) [11/29/16, 6:30:50 PM] Michal: i should have voted for u i know. [11/29/16, 6:30:52 PM] Michal: i would now. [11/29/16, 6:32:12 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: its ok [11/29/16, 6:33:20 PM] Michal: ok im ready w/ hoh [11/29/16, 6:33:25 PM] Michal: send me the form. [11/29/16, 6:33:36 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: 3 [11/29/16, 6:33:36 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: 2 [11/29/16, 6:33:37 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: 1 [11/29/16, 6:33:37 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: https://goo.gl/forms/T3bcNB5c5aLaneso1 [11/29/16, 6:33:40 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: GOOD LUCK! [11/29/16, 6:34:32 PM] Michal: i need to watch those videos, not luck. [11/29/16, 6:34:41 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [11/29/16, 6:34:58 PM] Michal: and i need to sign into an account fuck [11/29/16, 6:35:15 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: mess! [11/29/16, 6:36:37 PM] Michal: done [11/29/16, 6:36:38 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Mišo [11/29/16, 6:36:39 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me too [11/29/16, 6:36:39 PM] Michal: im winning btw [11/29/16, 6:36:45 PM] Michal: thats my real name btw [11/29/16, 6:36:56 PM] Michal: you better not share it or im gonna have a diva fit [11/29/16, 6:37:04 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: :O [11/29/16, 6:37:10 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: i love catfishes [11/29/16, 6:37:54 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: diva fitz who [11/29/16, 6:38:05 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: put that ur a catfish on ur tea board [11/29/16, 6:38:41 PM] Michal: omg me too <3 catfishes are my fav animals <3 so cute [11/29/16, 6:38:42 PM] Michal: https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/originals/e5/0d/fe/e50dfedec52dd960912a40de7bc98260.jpg [11/29/16, 6:42:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: let me send a pic of my fav animal [11/29/16, 6:42:21 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: https://i.gyazo.com/c87d9d26c8b0ba0862eede116268b823.png [11/29/16, 6:44:50 PM] Michal: she cute tho [11/29/16, 6:45:32 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: Image [11/29/16, 6:45:34 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: my fave animal [11/29/16, 6:45:39 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: honestly [11/29/16, 6:45:41 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me too [11/29/16, 6:51:50 PM] Michal: houseguests: talks together in housechat for more then one minute my paranoid antennas: THEY'RE IN A FUCKING PREMADE! [11/29/16, 6:52:06 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: am i in the premade with them [11/29/16, 6:52:24 PM] Michal: you SURE are [11/29/16, 6:52:39 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: veronica invented premades [11/29/16, 6:53:17 PM] Michal: she better invent a plan on how to get rid of them too [11/29/16, 6:53:28 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: :O [11/29/16, 6:53:34 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: dont put me on ur tea board again [11/29/16, 6:53:49 PM] Michal: im too lazy to Photoshop tonight pls [11/29/16, 6:53:57 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: thank u god and jesus [11/29/16, 6:58:47 PM] Michal: im okay. im over it. its fine. w/e. i love all of them equally.... [11/29/16, 6:59:05 PM] Michal: I JUST THINK ITS FUNNy HOW THEyRE ANNOYING ME SO MUCH AND EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE THEY GOT SO FRIENDLY IN MATTER OF A WEEK. THEY ALL LITERALLY GOT THESE CLIQUES GOING ON!!!! BUT ITS FINE! ITS fine i've got no one in this shithole! ITS F I N E http://67.media.tumblr.com/c5b00db7c433d45ec2e8b4ffb08f31b6/tumblr_inline_oazy33WlOU1sdg6f3_500.gif [11/29/16, 6:59:22 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: wow you typed that fast [11/29/16, 6:59:34 PM] Michal: i had that prepared in advance let me live [11/29/16, 7:01:13 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: i love preparation [11/29/16, 7:01:20 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: mike we can be a clique its ok [11/29/16, 7:01:36 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: Mišo* [11/29/16, 7:02:09 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Mišo [11/29/16, 7:02:24 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “Mišo'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [11/29/16, 7:02:42 PM] Michal: Actually all I ask for is a full score for HoH. THank you hunties! [11/29/16, 7:02:43 PM] Michal: http://66.media.tumblr.com/a51b857484e067c4125337a60c380d98/tumblr_inline_oaqtbojpbT1sdg6f3_500.gif [11/29/16, 7:02:51 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: i just dont know about that [11/29/16, 7:03:05 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: i can offer u a friendship but not a rig [11/29/16, 7:04:06 PM] Michal: http://65.media.tumblr.com/146897b32a5dd30fe509e33050f0b7bc/tumblr_inline_obqul2HICZ1sdg6f3_500.gif [11/29/16, 7:04:44 PM] Michal: Michal has renamed this conversation to “MIŠO'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [11/29/16, 7:04:51 PM] Michal: my ocd kept screaming ok. [11/29/16, 7:05:06 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: same honestly [11/29/16, 7:05:33 PM] Michal: interesting coming from a person who changed it like that [11/29/16, 7:05:34 PM] Michal: unedited [11/29/16, 7:05:36 PM] Michal: small caps. [11/29/16, 7:05:48 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i [11/29/16, 7:05:49 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: cant [11/29/16, 7:05:49 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: type [11/29/16, 7:05:50 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: in [11/29/16, 7:05:53 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: slovakian [11/29/16, 7:06:32 PM] Michal: as a host you should have by now! i feel at disadvantage hmmm! [11/29/16, 7:06:38 PM] Michal: hows that! [11/29/16, 7:07:29 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: honestly you’re right [11/29/16, 7:08:02 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: budete strácať túto hru [11/29/16, 7:08:18 PM] Michal: nnnnn i already am [11/29/16, 7:08:19 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: budem hovoriť len v slovenčine [11/29/16, 7:08:33 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Pre zvyšok hry [11/29/16, 7:08:35 PM] Michal: ... that sentence is actully right fuck [11/29/16, 7:08:49 PM] Michal: snatched shookt bald [11/29/16, 7:08:50 PM] Michal: wig off [11/29/16, 7:09:10 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: dobrý [11/29/16, 7:46:22 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: idk what any of that means [11/29/16, 7:47:46 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: dusiť Veronica [11/29/16, 7:48:48 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: fuck u [11/29/16, 7:49:08 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: sať môj zadok [11/29/16, 7:56:16 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: kurva Twinky fenu [11/29/16, 8:16:55 PM] Michal: FUCK [11/29/16, 9:15:17 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT RHEA & KAITLYN WINNING HOH? (Sun) [11/30/16, 3:09:52 AM] Michal: I mean.... Rhea is actually the only one I worked out something Week 1 but idk bout all det now nnnnnnn I'm a mess so I wouldn't be surprised if I was nommed and I'd rather be nommed than not to have a chance to compete in DPoV and then be renommed ZZZ [11/30/16, 3:14:44 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: zaujímavý [11/30/16, 3:18:25 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: chladný [11/30/16, 3:22:36 AM] Michal: i love it when hosts support my motherr language. [11/30/16, 3:22:39 AM] Michal: legends? only [11/30/16, 3:26:01 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: make a vdr in slovak with english subtitles [11/30/16, 3:27:36 AM] Michal: that actually sounds interesting NNNNNNN but who has the time to make subtitles tf [11/30/16, 3:29:07 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: ok tru but who has the time to learn a whole other language just to listen to one vdr? not i thats for sure [11/30/16, 3:29:17 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: im trying to support ur mother language and get a vdr here [11/30/16, 9:05:35 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: urobiť video [11/30/16, 9:34:02 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: wtf is this language [11/30/16, 9:34:17 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: don't be rude elijah [11/30/16, 9:34:28 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: it's slovak [11/30/16, 9:35:16 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: oh [11/30/16, 9:35:18 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: well [11/30/16, 9:35:24 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: it doesn't look like any language [11/30/16, 9:35:28 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: it looks like [11/30/16, 9:35:28 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [11/30/16, 9:35:36 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: smash [11/30/16, 9:35:37 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: STOP BEING RUDE [11/30/16, 9:35:51 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: THIS IS MISOS LANGUAGE [11/30/16, 9:35:53 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: (i didn't mean to offend you mike i- thought it was smash) [11/30/16, 9:36:14 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Eliáš nie je krásny [11/30/16, 9:36:19 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: WELL FUCK SORRY I WASNT INVITED TO THE SLOVAK PARTY [11/30/16, 9:36:27 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: dusiť [11/30/16, 9:36:41 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Veronica a ja študovať slovenský [11/30/16, 9:36:43 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: ./kick Veronica [11/30/16, 9:36:48 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: ./kick nicholas [11/30/16, 9:36:52 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host] from this conversation [11/30/16, 9:36:56 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host] to this conversation [11/30/16, 9:37:02 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: BITCH [11/30/16, 9:37:08 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: B) [11/30/16, 11:03:25 AM] Michal: i cant believe veronica and nicholas single handedly stopped xenophobia [11/30/16, 11:09:23 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: (makeup) [11/30/16, 11:10:33 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (makeup) [11/30/16, 11:18:24 AM] Michal: On 11/30/16, at 8:51 AM, Rhea <3 wrote: > My promise with you stands <3 looks like im getting backdoored after all. [11/30/16, 11:18:37 AM] Michal: if i dont get to play in dpov i s2g im gonna fight. [11/30/16, 11:19:47 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nebude hrať [11/30/16, 11:19:59 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: viem že. [11/30/16, 12:08:40 PM] Michal: here's the deal. randomize my name 13x for veto pickings and make veto a slide puzzle. Thanks? Thanks. [11/30/16, 8:52:57 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT NOMINATIONS & BOTB RESULTS? (Sun) [12/1/16, 3:49:51 AM] Michal: very cute as long as its not me [12/1/16, 4:54:10 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ok me [12/1/16, 8:44:22 AM] Michal: On 12/1/16, at 8:38 AM, Rhea <3 wrote: > people did suggest I nominate you On 12/1/16, at 8:38 AM, Rhea <3 wrote: > your name was floated around by like 2 people [12/1/16, 8:44:26 AM] Michal: Image [12/1/16, 8:44:31 AM] Michal: why! do! people! hate! me! [12/1/16, 8:44:35 AM] Michal: what! did! i! do! [12/1/16, 8:44:39 AM] Michal: Image [12/1/16, 8:45:01 AM] Michal: anyhow. [12/1/16, 8:45:04 AM] Michal: fuck those two people! [12/1/16, 8:45:22 AM] Michal: rhea better win dpov or im out NNNNNNNNNN [12/1/16, 9:01:06 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: #end mišo hating culture [12/1/16, 5:24:33 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: On 12/1/16, at 9:01 AM, veronica (mauvais) [ johto host ] wrote: > #end mišo hating culture [12/1/16, 5:24:40 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: On 12/1/16, at 5:24 PM, nicholas [ johto host ] wrote: > On 12/1/16, at 9:01 AM, veronica (mauvais) [ johto host ] wrote: > > #end mišo hating culture [12/1/16, 6:16:16 PM] Michal: "so can you tell us what do you think about nicholas and veronica as hosts" [12/1/16, 6:16:17 PM] Michal: http://i.giphy.com/3oz8y0aRoFeHAw6FOM.gif [12/1/16, 6:19:03 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: (inlove) [12/1/16, 6:19:27 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (party) [12/1/16, 8:15:28 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT RHEA WINNING DPOV? (Sun) [12/2/16, 2:29:17 AM] Michal: http://67.media.tumblr.com/ccf7b0b08f0fdd86d3e21741d9d84445/tumblr_inline_n8jb2tTBEf1r561jx.gif [12/2/16, 2:30:23 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: oh. [12/2/16, 2:31:18 AM] Michal: i cant believe im gonna win this game by my super new and tested strategy called make everyone but one person hate me and then make that one person win everything [12/2/16, 2:31:19 AM] Michal: https://66.media.tumblr.com/2291afd10ddaf35574c8657a5184bc7e/tumblr_nz9zidvExq1s2nj6io1_250.gif [12/2/16, 8:15:04 PM] Michal: On 12/2/16, at 8:03 PM, connor c wrote: > look can u tell me if ull keep ari or not mike pls dont leave me to die ha! suffer! [12/2/16, 8:15:34 PM] Michal: i also love copy and pasting stuff from evil team straight to rhea [12/2/16, 8:15:36 PM] Michal: rats only nnn [12/2/16, 8:17:01 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: This message has been removed. [12/2/16, 8:26:55 PM] Michal: me in the corners of evil team chat [12/2/16, 8:26:58 PM] Michal: Image [12/2/16, 8:27:04 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: OH MY GOD DKSFSMDFK [12/2/16, 8:28:11 PM] Michal: On 12/2/16, at 8:03 PM, connor c wrote: > look can u tell me if ull keep ari or not mike pls dont leave me to die MIKE :/ shouldnt have bashed rhea hun! [12/2/16, 8:29:42 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: make a crying video dr [12/2/16, 8:30:02 PM] Michal: i dont cry pls [12/2/16, 8:39:08 PM] Michal: [2:35:15] connor c: okay sis .... look [2:35:21] connor c: i know.... i really do.... know that ur traumatized by dw... [2:35:25] Mike: sis i wont look [2:35:27] Mike: with this attitude [2:35:31] Mike: talk to me like a normal person [2:35:33] Mike: or u can fuck off [2:35:35] connor c: im really sad and mad [2:35:37] connor c: ok [2:35:38] connor c: im sorry [12/2/16, 8:39:10 PM] Michal: https://66.media.tumblr.com/2291afd10ddaf35574c8657a5184bc7e/tumblr_nz9zidvExq1s2nj6io1_250.gif [12/2/16, 8:39:24 PM] Michal: im laughing NNNNNNNNNN [12/2/16, 8:39:28 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: oh my god me [12/2/16, 8:39:28 PM] Michal: why is he so dramatic [12/2/16, 8:39:31 PM] Michal: take a chill pill [12/2/16, 8:39:32 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: why am i both of you [12/2/16, 8:39:33 PM] Michal: its a game [12/2/16, 8:39:47 PM] Michal: he is SO desperate [12/2/16, 8:39:49 PM] Michal: so ari can stay [12/2/16, 8:40:04 PM] Michal: that makes me even more sure to vote ha out [12/2/16, 8:42:17 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [12/2/16, 8:44:53 PM] Michal: VL [12/2/16, 8:44:56 PM] Michal: Image [12/2/16, 8:45:25 PM] Michal: ^ me in the corners of evil team chat [12/2/16, 8:45:27 PM] Michal: after they bashed her [12/2/16, 8:46:47 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: sent! [12/3/16, 7:00:08 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) VOTES TO EVICT ARE DUE IN ONE HOUR! (sun) [12/3/16, 7:53:53 PM] Michal: FUCK [12/3/16, 7:53:55 PM] Michal: I SREAMING [12/3/16, 7:53:57 PM] Michal: SAKDPOASKDPOASKDPOASKDPoksadpok [12/3/16, 7:54:03 PM] Michal: okay im voting ari out [12/3/16, 7:54:08 PM] Michal: be gonee! [12/3/16, 7:54:21 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ty [12/3/16, 7:54:30 PM] Michal: i almost fall asleep and then realized i didnt vote [12/3/16, 7:54:33 PM] Michal: i hate yall [12/3/16, 7:54:43 PM] Michal: and im sure my roomie hates me too now [12/3/16, 7:54:51 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i hate us too [12/4/16, 5:28:24 AM] Michal: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uQofCXfJL34 [12/4/16, 5:28:33 AM] Michal: his literally happened yesterday [12/4/16, 5:28:43 AM] Michal: when everyone cried over ari getting evicted [12/4/16, 5:28:53 AM] Michal: and im just there like...... [12/4/16, 5:28:55 AM] Michal: pls [12/4/16, 5:59:57 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [12/4/16, 6:01:58 PM] Michal: OPINION LIST 1 Rhea 2 Aly 3 Kaleigh 4 Kaleigh 5 Connor 6 Randy 7 Connor 8 Kiersten 9 Aly 10 Connor 11 Connor 12 Carson 13 Randy 14 Connor 15 Kaleigh 16 Connor 17 Connor 18 Connor 19 Aly 20 Slade

PREDICTION LIST: 1. Rhea 2. Aly 3. Mike 4. Mike 5. Mike 6. Mike 7. Mike 8. Mike 9. Rhea 10. Mike 11. Mike 12. Carson 13. Mike 14. Connor 15. Kaleigh 16. Mike 17. Mike 18. Mike 19. Aly 20. Slade [12/4/16, 6:02:28 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: thanks! [12/4/16, 6:38:32 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: wait who is kiersten i [12/4/16, 6:43:10 PM] Michal: kaitlyn [12/4/16, 6:43:39 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: whew thanks [12/4/16, 6:47:32 PM] Michal: ur sure welcome [12/4/16, 8:06:05 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT WINNING HOH? (sun) [12/4/16, 8:12:43 PM] Michal: they better be fucking shook [12/4/16, 8:12:53 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: king [12/4/16, 8:14:14 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: kráľ [12/4/16, 8:14:48 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: On 12/4/16, at 8:14 PM, nicholas [ johto host ] wrote: > kráľ [12/4/16, 8:15:16 PM] Michal: FUCK [12/4/16, 8:16:11 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: (inlove) [12/4/16, 8:16:27 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: (zaľúbený) [12/5/16, 7:53:09 AM] Michal: https://68.media.tumblr.com/f300eb578524ed31cc305fa8ca08092f/tumblr_inline_oa4wkxBDUM1tb0ry4_500.gif [12/5/16, 7:55:31 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i cant believe ur audrey [12/5/16, 9:15:30 AM] Michal: gay [12/5/16, 12:10:38 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: me [12/5/16, 5:31:26 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) REMINDER THAT YOUR NOMINATIONS ARE DUE IN 30 MINUTES (Sun) [12/5/16, 6:13:02 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: This message has been removed. [12/5/16, 6:13:07 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “MIŠO'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM (1)” [12/5/16, 6:23:42 PM] Michal: wasnt it supposed to be 6:30 im shrieking [12/5/16, 6:23:56 PM] Michal: im sorry i nom aly and ruthie [12/5/16, 6:24:04 PM] Michal: thats all i gotta say [12/5/16, 6:24:21 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: whew thanks [12/5/16, 6:26:05 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “MIŠO'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [12/5/16, 6:26:12 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: whew [12/5/16, 6:26:13 PM] Michal: thank you sorry king [12/5/16, 6:26:21 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: its all good! shit happens [12/5/16, 6:26:37 PM] Michal: when i firstly thot it was due 8pm but then i remembered botb is supposed to happen [12/5/16, 6:26:38 PM] Michal: (bike) [12/5/16, 6:27:30 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: omg ya it gets confusing no worries [12/5/16, 6:53:01 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: i'm mike low key hosting ruthie but nomming her 2 times now [12/5/16, 7:30:04 PM] Michal: i guess mike is done [12/5/16, 7:47:59 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT RUTHIE & ALY WINNING BATTLE OF THE BLOCK AND SLADE REMAINING HOH? (sun) [12/5/16, 7:49:35 PM] Michal: :| [12/5/16, 7:50:25 PM] Michal: tiffany pollard voice i don't give a fuck. do i look like a give a fuck? because i dont! [12/5/16, 7:50:31 PM] Michal: 5 minutes later cries in bed [12/5/16, 7:52:50 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ok me [12/6/16, 5:43:15 PM] Michal: me: sleeps slade: let me put here 100 irrelevant receipts on why is mike a rat me: [12/6/16, 5:43:16 PM] Michal: https://68.media.tumblr.com/9d4f586c3c32b8d7bd5af6124f0deac9/tumblr_inline_ohscccWMDo1sef3pv_500.gif [12/6/16, 5:43:38 PM] Michal: he was literally so random like who tf is that NNNNN [12/6/16, 5:44:33 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: frick [12/6/16, 5:47:25 PM] Michal: him: "hi mik–" me: [12/6/16, 5:47:26 PM] Michal: https://66.media.tumblr.com/bd5c6c7f8b0ad0a3a77bc8ce211e4781/tumblr_offima1BoU1v9bduuo2_250.gif [12/6/16, 5:47:35 PM] Michal: "slade is typing..." [12/6/16, 5:47:36 PM] Michal: https://68.media.tumblr.com/acb6424fbebc5d794772b4f5cd4d4ab9/tumblr_ohnj7efp6V1v9bduuo2_r1_400.gif [12/6/16, 5:47:50 PM] Michal: says something irrelevant about me [12/6/16, 5:47:52 PM] Michal: https://68.media.tumblr.com/549a35aa97cbb6b2f46278b33755ddbe/tumblr_ohnj7efp6V1v9bduuo1_250.gif [12/6/16, 8:14:02 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT CARSON WINNING DPOV? (sun) [12/6/16, 8:21:48 PM] Michal: https://68.media.tumblr.com/ca5375ad48ca4fc626d0ef209314bacb/tumblr_inline_ohsajsrvhC1qiek1e_500.gif [12/6/16, 8:22:17 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me too [12/6/16, 8:22:40 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: mišo…….ily [12/6/16, 8:23:23 PM] Michal: me in backyard training to be a furry so i'll get at least randy's vote [12/6/16, 8:23:24 PM] Michal: https://vine.co/v/hIIMumEYHuY [12/6/16, 8:23:37 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: mišo!!! [12/7/16, 3:15:51 AM] Michal: On 12/6/16, at 8:37 PM, Carson (Albania Host) wrote: > Being entirely honest a lot of people have it out for you and I think a lot of people are expecting me to put you up [12/7/16, 3:15:52 AM] Michal: http://67.media.tumblr.com/4eff38b45f8c3b51f515752fdfb20f18/tumblr_inline_o9khgetvz81sipsod_500.gif [12/7/16, 3:15:55 AM] Michal: is he fucking serious [12/7/16, 3:16:17 AM] Michal: is this bb16 or what [12/7/16, 3:16:32 AM] Michal: i literally WONT come after him at all he'd be so stupid to put me up [12/7/16, 3:16:42 AM] Michal: i cant believe yall are casting survivor freaks who doesnt understand the game at all [12/7/16, 3:17:27 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: https://pbs.twimg.com/profile_images/605513017879601153/sltXzs-G.jpg [12/7/16, 3:19:50 AM] Michal: i told him my piece of mind! [12/7/16, 3:19:59 AM] Michal: we'll see if he gon be a puthy or a real bro [12/7/16, 3:20:47 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: “a real bro” maybe you are actually straight [12/7/16, 3:21:00 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: puthy [12/7/16, 3:21:08 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: mike is straight :O [12/7/16, 3:21:20 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: :O [12/7/16, 3:24:37 AM] Michal: PLEASE i just have a good exercise living in a homophobic country [12/7/16, 3:25:55 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: move to america [12/7/16, 3:26:02 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: we kinda love the gays [12/7/16, 3:26:58 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ew [12/7/16, 3:27:14 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i cant wait to execute the gays [12/7/16, 3:29:36 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: nicholas is the most homophobic person i know: fact [12/7/16, 3:30:44 AM] Michal: source: veronica [12/7/16, 3:30:59 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: u aint wrong [12/7/16, 3:31:02 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: hate those gays [12/7/16, 3:31:12 AM] Michal: also my mood [12/7/16, 3:31:35 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: when nicholas came out to me i didnt believe it at first bc he hated the gays so much even tho he clearly acted gay and i called him gay behind his back [12/7/16, 3:32:48 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: im not gay [12/7/16, 3:57:46 AM] Michal: veronica is the true friend everyone needs [12/7/16, 3:59:17 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: its tru [12/7/16, 3:59:24 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: im a good friend [12/7/16, 4:01:08 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: rat meme dot jpeg [12/7/16, 4:01:20 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: https://gyazo.com/6b8dfd5babaca32a6b0ff1b4116f800e [12/7/16, 4:02:24 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/7/16, 4:03:37 AM] Michal: anyhow, where's the coup d'etat. where is it?! teacher's voice i'll wait [12/7/16, 4:06:47 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (waiting) [12/7/16, 4:07:20 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: uh (bike) [12/7/16, 4:10:30 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: wait actually [12/7/16, 4:10:33 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: take this quiz [12/7/16, 4:10:33 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: https://www.buzzfeed.com/nicholasv41182d3a2/which-big-brother-johto-host-are-you-1xugf?utm_term=.ieNjkqadE#.ac8610Z9j [12/7/16, 4:23:57 AM] Michal: i did and i tried like 20 times and couldnt find myself [12/7/16, 4:24:27 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: this is which host are u [12/7/16, 4:24:27 AM] Michal: yall already countin on me getting evicted that yall didnt even put me there HUH [12/7/16, 4:24:32 AM] Michal: oh thats host [12/7/16, 4:24:33 AM] Michal: FUCK [12/7/16, 4:24:36 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: hdsoafjdklsafjl [12/7/16, 4:24:40 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: jknsdjlfnd [12/7/16, 4:25:00 AM] Michal: who the fuck would pick james franco [12/7/16, 4:25:01 AM] Michal: get a life [12/7/16, 4:25:14 AM] Michal: where's coke for a drink?! [12/7/16, 4:25:16 AM] Michal: IIIIIIIII [12/7/16, 4:25:21 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Image [12/7/16, 4:25:22 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: stop complainin [12/7/16, 4:25:25 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: B) [12/7/16, 4:26:19 AM] Michal: FUCK I HOOTED NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN [12/7/16, 4:26:25 AM] Michal: that grammar IM YELLIn [12/7/16, 4:26:26 AM] Michal: NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN [12/7/16, 4:26:30 AM] Michal: and i got king elijah. [12/7/16, 4:26:40 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: no coup 4 u then [12/7/16, 4:26:42 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: google translate does her best ok [12/7/16, 4:26:44 AM] Michal: oh WOW [12/7/16, 4:26:44 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: tru [12/7/16, 4:26:57 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: you had to get the hidden 5th host [12/7/16, 4:26:58 AM] Michal: Google translate thinks shes cute but shes not tbh [12/7/16, 4:27:14 AM] Michal: elijah's the hidden host wyd [12/7/16, 4:27:17 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: :O [12/7/16, 4:27:40 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/7/16, 4:27:45 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: On 12/7/16, at 4:26 AM, nicholas [ johto host ] wrote: > no coup 4 u then [12/7/16, 5:02:25 AM] Michal: wow [12/7/16, 5:06:51 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: mike who is ur fave host [12/7/16, 5:08:39 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: eyes emoji [12/7/16, 5:09:20 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: (happy) [12/7/16, 5:12:55 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: On 12/7/16, at 5:09 AM, veronica [ johto host ] wrote: > (happy) [12/7/16, 5:35:48 AM] Michal: it's ######## [12/7/16, 5:37:23 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: both of our names have 8 letters hmmm :^) [12/7/16, 5:37:48 AM] Michal: well that's convenient [12/7/16, 5:37:49 AM] Michal: :) [12/7/16, 7:26:09 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: whats the first letter in your favorite host’s name :) [12/7/16, 7:39:07 AM] Michal: i dont know i forgot :) [12/7/16, 7:43:51 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :^) [12/7/16, 7:44:15 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: mike…….mišo……..its okay to say who ur fave is :) nicholas wont get mad :) [12/7/16, 12:51:13 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: mike and i are the same person honestly [12/7/16, 12:51:24 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: i feel like he and i are the freaks of the community [12/7/16, 1:17:35 PM] Michal: i dont know whether to be complimented or offended [12/7/16, 1:17:48 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: compliment (: [12/7/16, 1:18:10 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: i'm freaky [12/7/16, 1:22:37 PM] Michal: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Uee_mcxvrw [12/7/16, 1:22:40 PM] Michal: elijah's theme song [12/7/16, 1:22:47 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: YES [12/7/16, 1:22:52 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: hehehehe [12/7/16, 1:23:28 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: Image [12/7/16, 1:55:08 PM] Michal: On 12/7/16, at 1:40 PM, justin wrote: > cant tell anyone but like so I basically talked to Carson, and he's most likely putting you up bc everyone said too [12/7/16, 1:55:10 PM] Michal: (facepalm) [12/7/16, 1:55:26 PM] Michal: i wont even bother with people who act like fucking ###### ##### ###### #### ##### [12/7/16, 6:18:12 PM] Michal: a big mood of mine after carson noms me [12/7/16, 6:18:13 PM] Michal: https://68.media.tumblr.com/cc144d171d671ac56e75731f38123e0b/tumblr_inline_ohbjotpTes1r0ip91_500.gif [12/7/16, 7:45:44 PM] Michal: innocent cinnamon roll rhea: messages me me feeling bad i'll drag ha down: [12/7/16, 7:45:44 PM] Michal: https://68.media.tumblr.com/f2d0bee0fe63085c9cf484465ed09eea/tumblr_ohqbxtp9cd1v42h4uo3_400.gif [12/7/16, 7:45:49 PM] Michal: https://68.media.tumblr.com/02f009203a31601c4ad87035b79cb82d/tumblr_ohqbxtp9cd1v42h4uo1_400.gif [12/7/16, 8:25:51 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) AS A FINAL NOMINEE YOU WILL BE GIVEN THE CHANCE TO GIVE A SPEECH TO THE OTHER HOUSEGUESTS AT THE LIVE EVICTION TOMORROW NIGHT AT 8PM EST. IF YOU CANNOT BE AT THE LIVE EVICTION, FEEL FREE TO SEND YOUR SPEECH TO US AHEAD OF TIME AND WE CAN SEND IT DURING THE LIVE EVICTION! BEST OF LUCK! (sun) [12/7/16, 8:26:50 PM] Michal: oh i will sure enjoy my exit speech [12/7/16, 8:27:27 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: ;( [12/7/16, 8:28:36 PM] Michal: I SURE WILL [12/7/16, 8:29:07 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: rat meme [12/7/16, 8:33:31 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: mišo do u have snapchat [12/7/16, 8:38:23 PM] Michal: i sure have but im not really using it nnnnn [12/7/16, 8:38:52 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: |-( [12/7/16, 8:39:08 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: drag her [12/7/16, 8:39:09 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: slay her [12/7/16, 8:39:10 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: read her [12/7/16, 8:39:12 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: i just wanted to start a streak with u but never mind [12/7/16, 8:48:13 PM] Michal: NNNNNNNNNN i never can keep up a streak cuz im a problematic gay [12/7/16, 8:48:19 PM] Michal: VL DR http://i.imgur.com/7sbjHEJ.gif [12/7/16, 8:49:11 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: but i would bug u all the time to keep up with it so u would be able to [12/7/16, 8:49:17 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: i will help u become better [12/7/16, 8:49:56 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: THAT VL OMF IM [12/7/16, 8:52:53 PM] Michal: Image [12/7/16, 8:53:04 PM] Michal: i need to go to sleep or ill regret all the things i want to say! [12/7/16, 8:53:05 PM] Michal: i sure am [12/7/16, 9:00:49 PM] Michal: On 12/7/16, at 8:54 PM, Rhea <3 wrote: > How can I hate you?! Seriously uyou're one of the best people in the game Like this game will lose something without you tbbh. I hope you manage to stay I'm voting to keep you regardless, idc if I'm the one vote LOL I refuse to let the house control my vote [12/7/16, 9:00:50 PM] Michal: http://i.imgur.com/UroswFT.gif [12/7/16, 9:01:19 PM] Michal: rhea is literally the best person in this house i dont deserve..... she's the only one i will be happy if wins [12/7/16, 9:16:16 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: that vl is how i felt about dw1 [12/7/16, 9:20:37 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: don’t mention my triggers [12/8/16, 8:08:26 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: MIKE’S GOODBYE MESSAGES

https://docs.google.com/document/d/12vY71KrU26HI4JqwuoOd5sun0vjka5zuvbdRSh3i1ls/edit?usp=sharing [12/9/16, 4:06:09 AM] Michal: "i see how problematic you are" girl bye u dont even know me [12/9/16, 4:06:28 AM] Michal: carson: yeah i suck as a person cause of a game true, you can choke too [12/9/16, 4:06:32 AM] Michal: Christian: queen [12/9/16, 4:06:37 AM] Michal: connor: king [12/9/16, 4:06:39 AM] Michal: jacob: king [12/9/16, 4:06:41 AM] Michal: julia: queen [12/9/16, 4:06:43 AM] Michal: justin: king [12/9/16, 4:06:52 AM] Michal: kaitlyn: queen [12/9/16, 4:06:55 AM] Michal: kaleigh: queen [12/9/16, 4:07:06 AM] Michal: matthias: literally get out of my face and dont talk to me EVER again. jk. king. [12/9/16, 4:07:11 AM] Michal: randy: furry [12/9/16, 4:07:15 AM] Michal: rhea: queen [12/9/16, 4:07:27 AM] Michal: ruthie: queen [12/9/16, 4:07:28 AM] Michal: slade: king [12/9/16, 4:07:50 AM] Michal: my internet didnt woork yesterdayy i wanted to do some exposing ZZZZZZZZZZZZ [12/9/16, 4:07:51 AM] Michal: i hate