#since he probably saw the way his own devotion for an unloving master would look like from the outside

[icharchivist]

Lucio 🤝 Belial

Getting ignored by their creators despite being some of the hottest men I have ever laid eyes on

NO BUT FOR REAAAAALLLL Lucio & Belial ultimate foil is on my mind at all time and yeah!!! hottest men ever and for what?? to be ignored by their creators???? UNFAIR. HORRIBLE.

at least now Lucio is thinking about rebelling against Bahamut so like, Belial take notes?

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Stephen bite his bottom lips slightly and hands clenching painfully by his side. Deep inside his heart, he knows the truth. He knows they are both attracted to each other and it would be hard to avoid especially right now Tony standing right in front of him confessing his love out loud. 

All the late night hang-outs, snarky attitudes and silently comforting words probably will be halt. 

Stephen wished Tony has not said those three words. Everything will be change and Stephen doesn't want that to happen. 

“Would you please say something?” Tony pleading, sounding a bit frustrated. Tony loves Stephen. And Stephen loves Tony, at least this what Tony believes. He didn't mean to blurt out those three words unexpectedly. Oh god knows, he has actually been planning a day of events that will lead to those three words. But Tony couldn’t help it when Stephen looked so worried and nagging him to sleep and talking nothing but his health. All he could feel is love and he wants to give him back. Hence, instead of answering Stephen, he said, “I love you so much.��� 

“I don’t.” 

Tony glanced side way, thinking that tonight is going to be a long one. Sleep can go to hell. 

“Oh really? I don’t think so.” 

“You aren’t making this easy.” 

“Oh yeah, and you think this is easy for me? Why is it so hard for you admit your love for me? Am I so unlovable? Do you actually detest me? If you really do, then let me tell you, you are doing everything wrongly!” 

“I...I.er...I care for you! As a friend!” 

“Bullshit!” Tony growled, stepping one step closer to Stephen,  “You don’t see me cuddling with Rhodey! You don’t see me texting Bruce, asking him about his three meals!” Tony lets out a sarcastic laugh, “Oh wait, who did I did it with? Is you!” 

Stephen has never felt so small despite being the taller one, despite being the master of mystic art. He is scared. He loves Tony. He loves everything about Tony. Maybe, that’s what is scary. Ever since Christine, he has never devoted himself to another person. He is afraid that he will lose Tony too. 

“You wouldn't understand.” Stephen touched his sling ring shakily, planning to escape from this conversation. 

“Don’t you dare,” Tony breathed out, “Don’t you dare running away now.” Tony sighed in defeated, he felt so tired suddenly. He looked up to the sky, eyes glistened with unshed tears and he croaked out, “Make me understand, wouldn't you?” Silence was met. Fuck, he is too old for all these drama. 

“You know what? You should leave.” Tony turned around, and said calmly, “If you don’t want to take responsible for your love, our love then leave.” 

“Tony...”

“Shut up. Don’t talk unless you are saying I love you. Otherwise, just get your ass out here.” 

Stephen chuckled sadly, “You will be so much happier without--”

Tony immediately dashed forward, and pushed Stephen against the nearest wall and snarled, “ I said don’t talk!” He heard some wincing, shit, he hastily took a step back and gave Stephen some space. 

Stephen continued to lie against the wall, slowly sliding down as he cradled his painfully trembling hands close to his heart. His body shivered, wondering if the room had suddenly turned cold or is it Tony’s heart. 

“I..I dont mean that. I am just...” Tony was being interrupted by a shaky voice. 

“I understand. It is okay.” Stephen continued to mutter to himself. Tony felt that his heart is breaking at this sight. He has never wanted this to happen. He bent down to Stephen’s level, hands moving slowly towards his face and holding it gently. Fingers wiped away the flowing tears. Tony looked at Stephen and whispered, “Talk to me please.”

“I umm...I am just not good enough. Look at my hands...they are scarred and ugly.” 

“Stephen..listen-”

“They could barely function. They wouldn’t stop trembling. They wouldn’t stop reminding me my mistakes. They wouldn’t stop hurting.” Stephen continued pressing his hands closely to his heart, “You deserve so much better. And I am no better.” 

“Fuck! Of course, you are no better! You Doctor Stephen Strange! The master of Mystic Art. The fucking Sorcerer Supreme. Oh god. I can’t believe you so dumb. I always thought you are smart, guess genius can make wrong guess too.” Tony cautiously touched Stephen’s shaking hands and stared at them as if they are the most beautiful thing he has ever seen, “What I see from this pair of hands are courageous, stubborn, sassy, arrogant. I saw this pair of hands belong to one whom I love the most.” 

Tony smiled gently, “I am really thankful that you think so highly of me. But trust me when I said I am no any better than you. I made mistake, I overcame it, I get nightmare and I act like nothing happen. And I want you. I want to fight for you. I love you.” 

Stephen hitched for a moment, and he cracked a smile, “I am petty.”

“I think you are missing a ‘r’ but Im fine with petty too.” 

“I aggravate people easily.” 

“We can make a team.” 

“I make lame jokes.” 

“Really, Stephen? This is the best you can give me?” Tony let out a laugh. 

“I will throw you to dark dimension if you ever toss me.” 

Tony put Stephen’s hands against his own heart, and slowly pressed their forehead together, “Never, baby, never.” 

//When you want to write a fic but mind is blank so you type randomly//

//Bad english as usual//

[restorerjourney]

Week 3

Aloha, I will be updating weekly for now since there has been so much going on. Thank you for your patience!

April 19, 2021- Monday

At 8am we went to Ohana court which is a big stage where all the students here at the campus come together for time of praise and worship. I was struggling with worship initially because I was physically tired and I honestly didn’t feel like worshipping. I felt tired, distracted, and my heart was hardened. I decided to go into the spirit of repentance even though I didn’t feel like it. I repented of my critical judgmental heart and being so distracted. Then I felt God move my heart as I started to tear..”He said I love you, your tears are very precious to me” I just felt His nearness and sweet fellowship with him. So often I find myself being so much more critical of myself than God. 

Today is the first day of lecture in which this week’s topic is hearing God’s voice by our staff leader, Pastor Sunny. He shared a bit about himself and his own encounter of the Holy spirit moving in his life. He grew up presbyterian like me which the culture is often more focused on the word than the works of the Holy spirit. He encountered the spirit really move in his life multiple times through divine encounters where he felt God physically and saw so many miracles and people being so encouraged by these encounters. He shared so many verses that support the fact that we are able to hear God’s voice and by far the one that stuck to me the most was  John 10:27 “My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me”. This verse really spoke against the lie that I and probably many of us may feel when we think God is not speaking to us or that we can’t hear Him. We can. Praise God.

He then encouraged us to practice hearing God’s voice. He lead us to envision what our heart looked like currently as we present it before the Lord ..what did that heart looked like? Describe it as best as you can..after he lead us to give that heart to the Lord and asked us to envision what that heart looked like. 

My heart was actually small, calloused, trying to pump but was tired and was chained with thorns on it. After giving it to Jesus the heart became like a new born’s heart, fleshy, soft, and new with no blemish and larger than before. Every time we do practice hearing God’s voice, we are in small groups, usually groups of 3 to share with one another and pray for each other. I believe this was crucial so that we could encourage each other and we knew that this was a safe place.

During lunch, E and I had our one-on-one where our assigned staff leader will meet us weekly to see how we are doing. Although I quarantined with E, I was a bit cautious getting closer because I knew she was spiritually sensitive. I believed a lie that spiritually anointed people would know all my weakness and sins if I was near them or spent time with them. I think this lie was something that I believed for awhile since I had my traumatic experience with someone whom I thought was a Christian but belonged to a cult. As I shared my struggles with her, I was surprised to find that she too also had hurt from her own father and had grown up in a cultish church. She apologized if anything she said made me afraid of her and I forgave and was so thankful to have her in my life. I then realized how much the enemy really did in the beginning wanted to separate us. She really is someone God has brought into my life to relate to and I’m truly thankful for. I also shared my struggle of loneliness not finding any student friend at least in the same stage or season in life that I could relate to. E also shared that struggle when she was in outreach. During this time of loneliness and lack of compassion for her teammates, she realized that in order to love horizontally, she needed to be loved vertically which spoke true to me. Even if I don’t have a student friend here who speaks English and is going through what I am going through, God knows my struggles better than any friend and I often run to friends before going to God. This causes me to burn out of love for those around me and lose compassion. I also have to catch myself many times to remember that this DTS is the unapologetic time for me to be fed. I catch myself wanting to give back to the staff because I didn’t want to owe someone or out of fear that they would think I am selfish. The best way I could repay for what the staff have poured out was to run after Christ with all that I have. 

After lunch we had a lecture on meditating on God’s words. A key point that I took out was that meditation is like writing the words of God in our heart. Also it is not meant to be kept to ourselves but we are encouraged to share this to others. 

After meditation we went straight to the farm. I still remember the first time we met the other students. At first they seemed standoffish which was disappointing because I thought at least in American culture, they would be more friendly. I saw the slow transformation as they started to open up, re-introduce themselves and wanting to talk to us more. Today most of the group went to the chicken pond and drained the water with buckets to feed the plants. Chloe and I worked in the garden and for the first time I know how to prepare planting Montecarlo Romaine on my own! I was worried that the bed I would plant would die but again the staff here showed so much grace and encouraged me that it would be ok. I hope to show this kind of grace to which ever ministry God leads me.

After working at the farm, we quickly ate dinner and showered then went to Ohana court for ministry night. Almost all my friends who have done DTS in Kona said their highlight was ministry night which is a 2 hour of praise and worship. I was honestly so tired since the morning since I didn’t sleep well but I pushed myself to go. Although I was sitting many times on the floor during worship night, I felt as if I was sitting at the Lord’s feet. The sight was so beautiful as you see your fellow christian brothers and sisters just so hungry for God. They would be kneeling, laying on the floor, dancing, pacing, raising their hand, or dancing. I felt such breakthrough when I started dancing while worshipping. Then a girl named Hannah came up to me and wanted to share what God spoke to her about me...she shared that she felt God saying I was a precious jewel, so precious and beautiful and God was enamored by me. This was so encouraging to me as I thought more about it since I was feeling lately unloved, not someone to be noticed by, and unattractive. 

April 20,2021- Tuesday

This morning I felt so much more rested and felt the need to do my meditation at the prayer room. It was so good to do this quiet time there and to remember not to be like a Martha but a Mary. 

At 8am, we had Pastor Jimmy share his devotion to us. He shared about how God speaks not only during the most epic moments but in your everyday life. How often do we pray to God, for example, what we want in a spouse, yet because we are set in our answer, perhaps God is speaking to you and you just can’t hear him. God speaks to you through others too, even the times when you think it’s nagging. As he closed his teaching, he went to each and every student and when he came to me he said that saw me running a marathon, determined, disciplined, and running fast towards him. The first thought was... “God why couldn’t Pastor Jimmy see me resting underneath a palm tree instead of a marathon? I want rest please Lord lol” 

Pastor Sunny continued with this lecture about hearing God’s voice. Here were some key points since there was so much.

-God speaks to us through His creation. God speaks to us through intimacy as His bridegroom, our Father, our Shepard. He calls us by our name. He also calls us our friend, the relationship Moses had with God was also friendship. As a friend, we can share our deepest secrets. In the context of working, God is our master. 

-We need to practice hearing the God’s voice like any discipline

How can we discern if this is from God?

God’s word. God would never speak against or outside of the bible.

From our community

From the Holy spirit, the fruits of the spirit

What are the ways to hear from God?

-Reading His word, Visions, pictures, or dreams, in stillness, through gift of tongue and interpretation, word of knowledge ( which is when someone shares what God spoke to someone about their past), when you feel supernaturally how someone else is feeling...feeling someone else’s pain, through worship music, an impression in your heart

-Some can see angels or Jesus, or even hear the actual voice of God although it is very rare. 

Then we went through a prayer where we close our eyes and allowed the Holy spirit to help us visualize that we are walking with Jesus holding his hand. As you are both walking he notices that you have a bag. This bag is heavy and he wants you to take whatever is in your bag. Then he replaces something in that bag and how does that bag feel? 

The second prayer exercise was to visualize your happiest moment and then your saddest moment, where was Jesus and what did he say or do. 

The third prayer exercise was to visualize you walking with Jesus hand in hand to heaven, what was that like? When you got passed the gate and you saw the Father, what did you experience, how did Jesus welcome you to the Father and how did the Father respond?

If you guys are curious to know what I saw please feel free to reach out to me and I would love to share with you.

After we shared with each other in our group and volunteered to share with the whole team, we prayed and ministered to one another. It was such a sweet time. This was the moment when I realized why God has brought me here to DTS with all Koreans to heal the relationship and the past hurt I’ve experienced with the Korean church. 

As people went up to share, a part of me wasn’t sure to go up. I didn’t want to hog the mic. Yet as I saw others be desperate to know God and to be set free, it made me want it for myself. I cried particularly when one of our teammates went up and shared how he was ostracized and experienced so much self-hatred. As pastor Jimmy ministered to him he encouraged all those who experience bullying came up.I was shocked to see so many of those who experienced bullying. It wasn’t just me. 

After we went to the farm and I worked on aquaponics since my back was hurting from gardening. My mom then somehow managed to facetime me which was a miracle because my phone was on silent mode. I felt that God really knew how much we needed to talk and how much we missed each other. It was good to see her doing well although her planar fasciitis on her foot has been hurting. I don’t know how much she is hiding about how the restaurant is doing but I entrusted her to the Lord. 

April 21, 2021- Wednesday

Again I woke up around 6am and did my routine of going to the prayer room to meditate and do my new testament readings. Today’s lecture was by far my most favorite one because we got to go to Queen’s bath which is one of the closest beach to our campus! We focused on praying and hearing the voice of God about others. We split into groups of 3 and we were encouraged to pray with someone you don’t really know. It was so peaceful because literally you felt the ocean breeze, heard nature, and hear and smell the ocean. I felt less distracted and was able to focus better in this environment. 

A bit that I need to share about hearing the voice of God personally.. I’ve been skeptical and worried about pursuing to hear God’s voice like this due to my past experience of having it being used incorrectly towards me by others. Their prayers brought shame and fear and unfortunately I’ve used it incorrectly to others which I still grieve to this day. Our pastors emphasized the proper boundaries when praying for someone and that praying for someone is always to encourage and bring life, not death or shame. For years I’ve realized since my previous trauma of being influenced by a cult, that I’ve intentionally shut my heart from hearing anything from God which is what made me thought I couldn’t hear him in the first place. I’m glad that this week was really a time of redemption and relearning how to properly discern the voice of God, the character of Him, and how it really does encourage others when they hear it. I’m still learning but I’m looking forward to sharpening this discipline.

Some of the memorable prayers I’ve received was when H shared a bible verse that reflected my theme verse for DTS..“Joshua 1:6 Be strong and courageous, for you shall cause this people to inherit the land that I swore to their fathers to give them.” 

Overall the prayers I’ve received had a similar theme of how God loved me, was excited for what He had in store for me, and that I was literally running towards a light (representing God). I literally had 4 different people said they saw me running. How crazy is that? It really was such an amazing supernatural personal experience for me since none of them really knew what the other person has prayed over or heard me talk about running. This really encouraged and helped me trust God knowing that He really does care and have plans for me. 

Another really amazing experience was when I prayed for H, I saw random animals which at first didn’t make sense. I first saw a dove, then an amazon jungle...I was thinking “what in the world does this mean?”. I still followed in obedience and shared this with her and thought it meant that it represented so much life that perhaps God wanted to restore so much life in her. She was so shocked because her English name mean “Life”, so this actually really encouraged her.

Overall, that experience was really a precious memory I’ve had so far since I felt my prayer and main communication with God was restored. 

Tonight was our weekly Ohana night where we gather, worship, and hear from a pastor. He spoke about the great commission and how we are all called to be sent out till every tribe, tongue, and nation hears about Jesus. He shared about so many stories of how people from very dark places whether if they are drug dealers, those who dealt with witchcraft, and even tried to poison the missionary come to become strong evangelist for Christ in their nation. The story of the indian woman at a young age experienced something so traumatic being forced into marriage with a much older man who had AIDS but in their culture or religion believed that if she married him and died she would be reincarnated to a better life. She was beaten hard for the first week and never consummate the marriage but was thrown out into the well to die. As she was crying out for help and drowning, some of the DTS workers heard her, saved her, and ministered to her as she received inner healing. She then was empowered to become a famous seamstress and started a renown school for women in her community who were in her situation. At that school there is 100% conversion rate to Christianity! 

At first as I was hearing this, I felt mixed emotions of fear, thinking, I know I’m surely called back to go home. I’m not one of the long term missionaries. But then he encourages us to surrender our will to God to allow Him to take us to wherever he calls us to. To be honest as I think about my old life before DTS, I honestly don’t want to live life like that again. Doing the same thing over and over again. The missionary life is not glamorous but one thing I know is that I don’t want to ever live my life without Christ. So I invited him to take control of wherever he wants me to go. I expressed my fear and worries but told him that I trusted that He knows what’s best. I repented that I wanted to go to an outreach that was more of my preference and comfort and not for His glory. Even if He wants me to go to Missouri ( no offense) I said I would go. And that I wanted clear direction to where he is calling me after DTS. I don’t want to do life like I did before DTS. I did kept thinking about the small encounters I’ve been so thankful for pre-DTS...the ability to pray in my exam rooms for my friends and patients. How God instilled a heart to pray for my coworkers. I really wonder where God would send me. I know that the enemy is not happy with this victory and hardship will be ahead but I prayed to God that as long as you are with me and you provide people around me, I will go. 

April 22, 2021- Thursday

We focused on Intercessory prayer, which there is an actual book called Intercessory prayer by Joy Dawson that was recommended. Here are some key highlights:

-Definition for “Intercession”: Someone who is intervening on behalf of the other.  It is what Jesus has done and is currently doing. 

-Intercessory prayer is for others. In order to do so, you must understand God’s heart.

Steps of Joy Dawson’s Intercessory prayer

Praise God, Ask the Holy spirit to convict any unconfessed sins, Seek direction and illumination from the Holy Spirit, Deal aggressively with the enemy in your heart, don’t condemn others, Be filled with faith and expectancy for the prayer itself, Recall His character, Wait before God in silent expectancy, listening for his directions, Ask for interpretation but sometimes we won’t get an explanation, In obedience and faith, act on what God brings to your mind, believing, If possible, have your bible open while you pray, Pray for the Holy spirit to confirm and lead your prayers through the word,Give glory to God in the beginning and the end of your prayer

-The lie that you can’t hear God, is a lie that the enemy wants you to believe. 

We then prayed for the previous quarter Restorer’s group that is in Turkey, Armenia, and Albania. We shared what we felt God spoke to us and it was crazy without knowing this team what God revealed to us and how they were currently doing. 

Pastor Sunny then continued his lecture on hearing the voice of God. Here are some key points:

John 10:1-5 “Truly, truly, I say to you, he who does not enter the sheepfold by the door but climbs in by another way, that man is a thief and a robber. 2 But he who enters by the door is the shepherd of the sheep. 3 To him the gatekeeper opens. The sheep hear his voice, and he calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. 4 When he has brought out all his own, he goes before them, and the sheep follow him, for they know his voice. 5 A stranger they will not follow, but they will flee from him, for they do not know the voice of strangers.”

There are 3 different voices. Voice of God, My voice, Enemy’s voic

1 Corinthians 14:1-5 Pursue love, and earnestly desire the spiritual gifts, especially that you may prophesy. 2 For one who speaks in a tongue speaks not to men but to God; for no one understands him, but he utters mysteries in the Spirit. 3 On the other hand, the one who prophesies speaks to people for their upbuilding and encouragement and to comfort. 4 The one who speaks in a tongue builds up himself, but the one who prophesies builds up the church. 5 Now I want you all to speak in tongues, but even more to prophesy. The one who prophesies is greater than the one who speaks in tongues, unless someone interprets, so that the church may be built up.

So when we are not sure if this is from God or not, if our motive is for upbuilding, encouragement, and comfort, then it is not harmful. But as you practice, you will get better. We are not called to just study the word but practice it. 

Next we did an exercise where one person will be behind the board and write something no one knows, about their life, experience, or prayer request. In prayer, we will write down blessings for Him. We are not trying to do some sort of magic trick but trying to bless him and see if we are one in spirit. It was a really fun experience and he was blessed :)

April 23, 2021- Friday

This morning we were at Ohana court and prayed specifically for generation Z. I felt sad for their generation because of all the things their generation struggles with the enemy...the dominion of the enemy through social media, rampant mental health struggles, and other strongholds. 

Pastor Sunny’s last lecture for this week was focused on family. Here are some key points.

-God made family and church. Everything else was human made

-From the family we need to receive comfort, truth, and emotions. This is God’s intent

-Pastor Sunny openly shared some of his darkest secrets about his family which really opened my eyes to see that even the holiest of people can have a dark past. That we are truly all sinners, yet God uses the weakest to humble the strong. I truly started to believe that no mistake that I or anyone makes whether if it’s from our past, present, or future, is too big for God’s forgiveness and great blessings if we trust and follow Him. 

At work duty, we herded sheep which was a lot of our first time. Then we got off early! 

After dinner, N and I took a walk and ran into E. We all went back to our dorm room and watched our first movie together, Moana!

April 24, 2021- Saturday, our first team beach outing

I woke up and did some quick strength training before we went to pick up our packed meals for the weekend. I remember getting annoyed that the meals were not ready by 9am and I only had 10am but I had to repent and remember how difficult it must be for the volunteers to work on a Saturday. 

We went to Hapuna Beach which is about 40 minutes north from Kona.The sand was so much softer and the weather was kind of bipolar from windy, to sunny but thankfully it wasn’t scorching hot. The water was kinda cold but we all went in and enjoyed the waves. When we ate an amazing Korean meal made by the staff  and enjoyed so many snacks there. It was nice to just talk to some of the other team-members that I normally don’t talk to. I did have moments where I felt kind of lonely because of the language barrier but I tried to not let it affect this wonderful trip the staff prepared for us. I guess I just really missed my friends back at home. This worked out because I did catch up with S and J via facetime when I got home and I was able to share my past experience this week especially hearing the voice of God. We even tried it ourselves and remember I said that 5 people prayed that I was running...they were the other two and they had NO IDEA that other people prayed this for me. Overall this experience was such a blessing to my friends back at home and I was grateful for the chance to practice it with my friends.  

April 25, 2021- Sunday

This morning I woke up around 8am and slept probably the latest I’ve ever slept. Today was my first day attending Living stone church. The church’s location is awesome. It’s right next to the ocean. As I walked where the rocks are we spotted a sea turtle! 

The sermon spoke to me a lot today. The pastor reminded us how we are all called for a mission from God. It made me think more into what I’ve been wrestling with, what is God’s mission for me? He encouraged to take this verse as Nehemiah was called from being a cupbearer to rebuild the walls of Jerusalem as our life mission verse “ And I sent messengers to them, saying, “ I am doing a great work and I cannot come down” (Nehemiah 6:3).  He also talked about how we are to have faith arise in us to take courage to what God has called for us to do. C.S. Lewis said “ Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point”. I feel perhaps as God is calling me to take courage, I am currently in a season of being tested and have my faith refined. The pastor charged us to be careful and not fearful. Careful is more cerebral and fearful is more emotional. Careful is to plan ahead and to make progress, to be fearful is to be paralyzed due to the possible loss of what you have. I could relate to this as I have the tendency to be fearful. I felt the Lord prompting me to ground myself in the word and really have the Holy spirit minister to me especially in the midst of my fears and uncertainties. 

After service, I went straight home, ate lunch, and ran some errands. Later in the evening I went to my first zumba class with S and N. I had low expectations for this class but it was so fun! Right after class I went downtown by myself walked all the way to the pier. When I got there I didn’t expect it but was amazed at the view looking back at the island. It was really beautiful especially while the sun was setting and there was even a small rainbow. Even though I was alone most of Sunday, it was actually nice to have my alone time. 

Prayer requests:

1) Physical rest, strength, and endurance: Since our schedule is so packed and living with 4 other roomies in one room, I fall asleep around 11pm and wake up around 6am. I’m used to sleeping 8 hours and even though it’s not much of a difference, for me it is. It’s weird but I will wake up without an alarm alert but between 10am-5pm I’m very exhausted, sleepy, and it’s hard to stay focused. We are learning so much so I don’t want to miss any of this so this is frustrating at times. 

2) Loneliness. My teammates are very kind but there are times when they talk so fast I can’t quite understand nor do I want them to explain. Especially when they are sharing their prayer requests,I feel bad asking them to repeat it sometimes. Please pray for some english speaking friends of the same sage here that I hope to have as accountability. 

3) My mom’s planar fasciitis and dry eyes. My mom has been having issues with her foot and her dry eyes could really bother her at times. Please pray for physical healing, compassionate physical therapists, and for my mom to do what she needs to do to get better

4) Spiritual protection and endurance. God’s been revealing so much and I’m in a good place where a lot of fear that I carried was broken off. I do feel there will be some valleys too during DTS so please pray that I would know God’s love and truth to continually despite hardships. 

I’m looking forward to what week 4 will be like! Sorry if my writing doesn’t make sense but man blogging is a commitment and it’s hard to carve time since we are so busy but I want to share while it’s fresh in my mind! 

Mahalo,

Alicia