#sims 2 ftm hair

[the-broke-simmer]

Edward and Donna look so good together, just made for each other!!!! ❤ wdy guys think? But they bother me so much making the series 😫😭😭 even after the free will has been turned off they always have to do their good witch idle animation and evil warlock idle animation and face. Plus their hatred for each other. Idk why they are always in a mood to k!ll each other. Finally found a mod to stop those with/warlock idle animations and expressions. If anyone needs the mod then here's the link: https://modthesims.info/d/347645/no-witch-idles.html

[xxsomethingsimfulxx]

Newsea Long Love Letter F2M in Poppet V2

I saw this hair while cruising Krabby's hair database and thought it would be cute on Willow(Pascal) I'm always looking for more hair for her! I also notice it has not been made in Poppet V2 textures yet!

Toddler through adult, my custom pooklet/poppet blonde, geneticized, binned, previews and mesh included.

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Credits: Pooklet Poppet Trapping Simgigglegirl

[letomills]

This is Hallowsims Storm, a hair converted for TS2 by @davinaojeda. The included mesh file is the version that @simborg shared here with CU & TF fixes and FtM conversion, which I further edited a little for smoother bone assignment. It's for CU-EU, in my Pooklet-Digi-Io palette and in 2 different textures: dreads & twists (see pictures under the cut). I used these recolors by @dark-side-laegrinna as base. Polycount: 8.5k.

Download for F sims only: SFS / Mega Download for M sims only: SFS / Mega Download for F&M: SFS / Mega

All recolors are binned and familied except for Naberius which is in the custom bin. I use Grenade both as a blond for toddlers-adults and as a grey for elders - if you don't want Grenade for elders, just delete the files that end with "_grenade_EUgrey".

AF (shown in Dreads_Dynamite) ↓

AM (shown in Twists_Sorath) ↓

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Bone assignment edits

Less distortion when sims turn their heads. It's still not perfect but I did what I could.

Download edited mesh only: SFS / Mega

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[mdpthatsme]

Nouk Boyish FtM conversion/retexture at HHS!

[rented-space]

Hello. I hope you don't mind a ask/wcif. I have seen on an old post of Eir-Sims (on Eir-Sims-Uploads) that you made a hair fix of Sintiklias Mikaela hair mesh and also an ftm conversion but I can't find your version of these anywhere (there was also no link to it). Could you tell me where I can find it? Thank you in advance and have a great weekend. :)

Hi yo, frauh!

I never actually publicly released the edit or the F2M version, but here’s a new set for both! Comes in pooklet’s dynamite, depth charge, incendiary, pyrotechnic and mailbomb for elders. A volatile base is included for recolouring. Enjoy~

Sintiklia Mikaela 4t2 Mesh Edit + F2M: Simfile || Mediafire

[frauhupfner]

2 4t2 hairs

Since I found some motivation for my game I decided to use this motivation to finally upload stuff. :) The first hair was a request by @jacoobski  and I’m very happy with how it looks on Hendrik. :)

1. 4t2 SP11 Side Long Twist (female version by @platinumaspiration​ here). Since it’s a ftm conversion everything is the same like the original conversion by plat, four natural colours, child to elder. Download

2. 4t2 daylifesims Icon (original). I showed some wip pictures of this hair 3 months ago and thought it’s time to upload it. I also saw that plat uploaded this hair one month ago- mine has nothing to do with hers. It’s for male and female, child to elder, comes with four natural colours plus the 5 extras (binned) on the picture below. Polycount: 8285 Download male Download female (P.S.: I wanted this hair because I saw this cute TS4-Sim by @void-imp​. ^^)

Credits: EA, @platinumaspiration​ for the female hair and @daylifesims​

[obeythedemons]

Barbatos Masterlist Part I

Obey Me! Masterlist

Obey Me Masterlist By Character

Barbatos Masterlist Part II

Headcanons

MC thinks they don’t deserve affection

Goody-two-shoes MC is tough (+Satan and Asmodeus)

MC is summoned to Devildom in laboratory PPE

MC is Injured

MC’s Attacked By Another Demon

What Crocs He Would Wear

MC Has An Allergic Reaction + Solomon

MC has a headache

Dad Jokes

FTM MC

Idol!MC

MC’s D.D.D. gets a virus and sends flirty messages

Their Favorite Place in Tokyo

MC is in a gang

Supernatural MC

His Office

The Moment He Knew He Loved MC (minus Luke)

Tea Headcanons

When his heart first skipped a beat (minus Luke)

What He Tries To Hide (Minus Luke)

What Kid’s Movie Scares Him The Most

When the others know he loves them (minus Luke)

Gestures of Physical Affection (minus Luke)

What The Lesser Demons Say About Him

MC’s summoned to devildom with a plush of him (minus Luke)

When He Needs To Confess (minus Luke)

MC Has Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome

Their Mask

Pokemon AU

MC’s Sick

They Take MC to the Doctor

They Play Video Games (Roblox)

They Catch MC Singing Once Upon A Dream

How they show affection/react to MC showing affection (minus Luke)

How he takes notes

MC gets tired when they’re out (minus Luke)

MC Slips on Ice

MC Receives Their First Binder

Their New Year’s Resolution

MC Pulls Their Hair Back

How He Proposes (minus Luke)

He learns MC’s his soulmate (minus Luke)

MC’s heart races when they see him (minus Luke)

Hanakotoba - His Flower

MC’s standing in the rain

He has a nightmare about MC (minus Luke)

MC hugs him for the first time

He Dances with MC (minus Luke)

Someone Else Confesses

Diavolo Plays Matchmaker (minus Luke)

SO uncomfortable with being served/being treated well

Surprising him with a tea party

He makes MC their favorite meal after a hard day

What he wants for his birthday

MC’s good with rats, among other rodents

Gender fluid!Barbatos

Trickster Barbatos

MC falls asleep on their shoulder - Satan, Asmodeus, Diavolo, Barbatos, Luke

What They Daydream About (minus Luke)

He Asks MC To Become Immortal (minus Luke)

MC’s Cold (minus Luke)

He Sees MC In Wedding Wear (minus Luke)

MC Puts His Cold Hands On Him (Minus Luke)

Someone Sends Him A Nude By Mistake (Minus Luke) - 18+

Cheering Him Up (Minus Luke)

How He Plays The Sims

What Videos MC Posts of Him

Who Gives the Best Massages

MC’s Immortality is Wrong (Minus Luke)

His Favorite Form of Transportation

What He’s Insecure About (Minus Luke)

What Pajamas He Wears

Oneshots/Drabbles

Motivation

Shipping Wars

A Fallen King

The You-Know-What

Happily Ever After?

An Old Injury

Sleep and Heat

Tea Leaves

A Glimpse

Their Favorite

Mc, My Love

A Grand Feast

It’s a Deal

To Care

Melting the Cold

Cold Nights

The Bridge

The Lover’s Gem

Candied Rat

Confession

His Weakness

The Tease

Winking Lessons

Good Qualities

Kitty

Gray

Rats and Spiders

Forever

Slumber

Devil Improv

Vigilante

Onesie

His Greed

Tables Have Turned

Lipstick

The Wedding Photo Shoot

Off Guard

New Year

Opinion

Cold Cuddles

Past Meets Future

Text Confessions

Cold Snap

Academic Goals

Goodnight Kiss

Tremor

Memories of the Future

Games and Desserts

Ignore

Tasks

Oblivious

Drying Off

Late

Killing Time

Devil Bath Bomb

Staring

The Distraction

A Night In

Garden of Illusions [Angst]

Late Night Walks

Lessons

Love Confession

If I Were You

Pranking Barbatos

2 AM

Boo-Yaaaah!

The Command

The Victory

Blind [Lucifer/MC, Barbatos/MC]

New Reality [Diavolo & Barbatos]

Revenge of the Fae

Spotify Song Challenge

11. Playground - Brea Miller - Barbatos

13. Loveless - Miura Ayme - Barbatos

18. Stay and Decay - Unlike Pluto - Barbatos

22. Dirty - Grandson - Barbatos

25. Teeth - 8 Graves - Barbatos

36. Identity - grandson - Barbatos

38. Parasite Eve - Bring me the Horizon - Barbatos

50. Teardrops - Bring Me The Horizon - Barbatos/MC/Solomon

98. Bulls on Parade - Rage Against the Machine - Barbatos

Winter Themed Drabbles

5. Snowed In - Barbatos

7. Mistletoe  - Barbatos

14. Sledding - Barbatos

17. Advent Calendar - Barbatos

21. Foggy Breath - Barbatos

23. Ugly Sweaters - Barbatos

Spring Themed Drabbles

Lilacs [Barbatos/Lance]

10. Hiking in the Mud - Barbatos

17. Fresh Air  [Barbatos/Main Character]

Alphabet Drabbles

B - Boat - Barbatos

F - Fortune - Barbatos

I - Impulse - Barbatos

R - Repetition - Barbatos

V - Variable - Barbatos

Date Night

Botanical Gardens - Barbatos

[the-broke-simmer]

Eye ball movement?

Can someone tell me how can I move my sim's eyeballs around just in the way we can do in the floating head menu? Please tell me I need help!

[letomills]

[September 18 update: textures look better now]

A hair for PU-EU, Newsea Miles Away J094f. I see it as a hair-down counterpart to Newsea Rachel. The F mesh is by Newsea, the FtM conversion is by Viquey with a very small edit by me on TM (see under the cut). Polycount: 15k.

I used textures by @evannamari as base, recolored in 12 Pooklet-Digi-Io colors (see palette). There's 2 sets of recolors: regular solid ones for toddlers to elders + recolors with subtle grey strands for young adults to elders.

Download for F sims only: SFS / Mega Download for M sims only: SFS / Mega Download for F&M: SFS / Mega

All recolors are binned and familied except for Naberius which will be in the custom bin. I use Grenade both as a blond for toddlers-adults and as a grey for elders - if you don’t want Grenade for elders, just delete the files that end with “_grenade_EUgrey”.

More previews and details under the cut.

AF ↓

AM ↓

FtM conversion by Viquey, I just moved a few vertices on the TM mesh to fix the baby hair sinking into the forehead:

My edit of Viquey's FtM mesh only: SFS / Mega It stays compatible with existing recolors.

Also yeah, as for Newsea Rachel, the grey strands on the "With Grey Strands" recolors become invisible at a distance. They look nice on up-close screenshorts though.

[sanderssideshistoricalau]

A small thing I forgot to ask could we get a description of the characters?

Of course (sorry this took me so long, I need to wait until I could on sims to visualize them)

Virgil is about 5′9″, He’s relatively tan, but still on the paler side, with dark brown hair. He has heterochromia, and has one brown dark brown eye, and one grey eye.

Dee is 4′10″, he’s tanner then Virgil but not by much, he has the same dark brown hair as Virgil, but his eyes are a lighter shade of brown. He also has burn marks on the right side of his face.

Emile at the moment, is the average height for a 6-year-old (I have no clue what that is as I was far below that height), but when he finishes growing he is 5′4″. He looks nothing like his brothers, he has bright blonde hair, hazel/green eyes, with freckles covering his face. He is about as tan as dee though

Patton is 5′5″, with reddish brown hair (its more red than brown). Patton is slightly paler than Virgil and has a lot of freckles all over, Patton is also Genderfluid

Thomas is at the moment probably the same height as Patton, but will eventually be 5′10″ and looks like Thomas in real life, except his hair is redder than normal, it’s still brown though.

Logan is 5′10″, and has dark skin and short curly and very kinky hair, he also has dark to light brown eyes depending on the light, although Roman likes to saw they are almost honey colored in sunlight

Roman is 5′0″, and is quite tan, He has chocolate brown hair and green eyes. He’s the most muscular of the group at the moment, that will change over the years though.

Remus is 5′2″, and looks exactly like roman, except he is lankier, slightly paler, and he’s the streak of white in his hair

Remy is FTM Trans, and at the moment is around 4′10″, but when he’s done growing he will be 5′4. While the twins look like their mom, he looks like their father much to his utter disdain, so he has sandy blondish brown hair, and blue eyes. He also has a smattering of freckles all over his face

Toby at the moment is the same height as Emile, but will be about 5′7″ when he’s done growing he will be about 5′7″ He’s tanner then roman with rusty brown hair and brown eyes.

[aliksims]

I honestly have no excuse for not uploading these sooner (but let’s blame my ADHD+busy schedule >.>). Anyway! Here’s the male version of KewaiDou’s Annie v2 to go with the female version (that I posted so long ago ;>.<).

It comes in Remi’s naturals (and texture), my usual variety of unnaturals (1), and my new selection of naturals (2), and is sorted with the other long hairs I’ve recolored.

Colors packaged individually: http://simfil.es/192662/

Fewer files (3): http://simfil.es/192724/

Both versions are otherwise identical and come with base, color swatch, mesh, and preview pictures included; choose only one. I own nothing so you can’t sell it. :)

If you only want the newer natural mix, you can download it here: http://simfil.es/310469/

(1): http://aliksims.tumblr.com/post/150828128378/

(2): http://aliksims.tumblr.com/post/164266555033/

(3): http://aliksims.tumblr.com/post/157578124813/

[frauhupfner]

4t2  male hairs

I have some new 4t2 hairs for male Sims for you.

1. Veve Rodrigo (orginal) This was a request by @daydreamingdrawerette, teen to elder, four natural colours, grey linked to black. Polycount: 3710 Download (this will be my last request for a while, sorry.)

2. Birksche DuranDuran (original) teen to elder, four natural colours, grey linked to black. Polycount: 5595 Download

3. and 4. Meghewlett Lumine ftm (original 4t2 conversion) Female conversion by @platinumaspiration, converted to male by me. Both versions with and without accessory (forgot to take a picture with, sorry). Child to elder, four natual colours, grey linked to black. Polycount with accessory: 12018 Polycount without: 9363 Download with accessory Download without Credits: @platinumaspiration, vevesims, @birksche, @meghewlett​

[obeythedemons]

Mammon Masterlist

Obey Me! Masterlist

Obey Me Masterlist By Character

Headcanons

MC is summoned to Devildom wearing a pride shirt

Young MC is Half Moth Demon - Platonic

MC summons them

MC uses a pet name for them

MC sees their ex

MC likes the brother back, but is worried they’ll disappoint them

Spotify Playlists + Barbatos

MC being bullies for being close to them

They receive a love letter from MC

MC has no survival instinct and talks to demons, wanders off, and asks all the questions

Pastel Goth FTM MC

MC is trying to become a demon to stay in Devildom

Blind MTF MC

MC has a low self-esteem

Parent MC

Short MC

Arguments He’s Started To Watch The World Burn

They react to Lucifer falling

MC is Ruri-Chan’s VA

Autistic!MC

They React to Mammon Crying

They find out MC can read their chats

MC’s Heart Does Something Weird

How he builds IKEA furniture

MC is summoned to Devildom in laboratory PPE

MC is Injured

MC’s Attacked By Another Demon

What Crocs He Would Wear

MC Has An Allergic Reaction + Solomon

MC has a headache

Dad Jokes

FTM MC

Idol!MC

MC’s D.D.D. gets a virus and sends flirty messages

Their Favorite Place in Tokyo

MC is in a gang

Supernatural MC

His Office

The Moment He Knew He Loved MC (minus Luke)

Tea Headcanons

When his heart first skipped a beat (minus Luke)

What He Tries To Hide (Minus Luke)

What Kid’s Movie Scares Him The Most

When the others know he loves them (minus Luke)

Gestures of Physical Affection (minus Luke)

What The Lesser Demons Say About Him

MC’s summoned to devildom with a plush of him (minus Luke)

When He Needs To Confess (minus Luke)

MC Has Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome

Their Mask

Pokemon AU

MC’s Sick

They Take MC to the Doctor

They Play Video Games (Roblox)

They Catch MC Singing Once Upon A Dream

How they show affection/react to MC showing affection (minus Luke)

How he takes notes

MC gets tired when they’re out (minus Luke)

MC Slips on Ice

MC Receives Their First Binder

Their New Year’s Resolution

MC Pulls Their Hair Back

How He Proposes (minus Luke)

He learns MC’s his soulmate (minus Luke)

MC’s heart races when they see him (minus Luke)

Hanakotoba - His Flower

MC’s standing in the rain

He has a nightmare about MC (minus Luke)

MC hugs him for the first time

He Dances with MC (minus Luke)

Someone Else Confesses

Diavolo Plays Matchmaker (minus Luke)

He learns he’s MC’s first kiss

They comfort MC after a horror movie - Mammon, Leviathan, Satan, Diavolo, Solomon

What They Daydream About (minus Luke)

He Asks MC To Become Immortal (minus Luke)

MC’s Cold (minus Luke)

He Sees MC In Wedding Wear (minus Luke)

MC Puts His Cold Hands On Him (Minus Luke)

Someone Sends Him A Nude By Mistake (Minus Luke) - 18+

Cheering Him Up (Minus Luke)

How He Plays The Sims

What Videos MC Posts of Him

Who Gives the Best Massages

MC’s Immortality is Wrong (Minus Luke)

His Favorite Form of Transportation

What He’s Insecure About (Minus Luke)

Oneshots/Drabbles

Motivation

Shipping Wars

Bandages

I’m Just Crazy for You

MC’s Type

Morosexual

A Promise

Spotify Song Challenge

1. Space Ghost Coast to Coast - Glass Animals - Mammon

2. Are You Ready? - Mammon (Obey Me!) - Mammon

5. Somebody to Love - Queen - Mammon

6. Kamikazee - Missio - Mammon

7. Arcadia - Lucifer (Obey Me!) - Mammon

8. Celestial Ray - Miura Ayme - Mammon

9. Riptide - Grandson - Mammon

10. A Good Song Never Dies - Saint Motel - Mammon

20. 時候 - Sue - Mammon

24. Hysteria - Muse - Mammon

69.  Mahishasura Mardini (Droplex Remix) - Shanti People - Mammon

Winter Themed Drabbles

6. Gift Exchange - Mammon

24. Red Cheeks and Noses - Mammon

25. First Snow - Mammon

26. Secrets - Mammon

27. Alone for the Holidays - Mammon

28. Warming Up - Mammon

30. Miracles - Mammon

Spring Themed Drabbles

13. Flower Bouquets - Mammon

18. Bug Catching - Mammon

Alphabet Drabbles

J - Jewel - Mammon

M - Monstrous - Mammon

Date Night

Horseback Riding - Mammon

Valentine’s Day 2022

Mammon Valentine’s Day Card

Before MC: What They Think About Valentine’s Day

What He Gets MC For Valentine’s Day

His Ideal Valentine’s Day Date - Headcanons

How Fast He Falls In Love, How Fast He Admits It - Headcanons

What Valentine’s Day Gift He Wants - Headcanons

After MC: What He Thinks About Valentine’s Day - Headcanons

Miscellaneous 

Mood Board

[xxxforgetmenotzxxx]

I’ve decided to write about my identity journey and thoughts because it’ll make it easier to talk to my therapist I guess. I’ve been thinking for the past couple of months, trying figure out why I never seemed happy with either identity for one reason or another and why they’re tied together and the realizations I’ve made along the way that have finally tied together. I never seen so,embody else go through with it so it maybe this will comfort somebody else who’s been through something like it.

When I was growing up, I loved dolls, Bratz, Monster High, little doll houses, and other typical girly things. I always felt different, like, just knew I was and was typically treated different than my family. When I finally hit that point that I realized I could dress myself, as my mom and grandma dressed me as cute as possible, I wanted to dress like a typical boy, I was a girl for sure, but I just, wanted to to express myself in a way that felt like me. Looking back on it, I’m sure my family knew I was ✨different✨ like that, because they continued to dress me how they wanted, ignored what I wanted and did everything for me. I didn’t get to pick out my actual outfit because I needed to look nice for the other kids to tell their parents how good my mom is. I didn’t get to pick my hair, I didn’t get to pick clothes, yet I needed to be able to handle emotionally being on my own. My little brother got to though. This starting manifesting the “I wish I was a boy” stuff even more, as I thought I’d have to be a boy to dress the way I wanted to as was, seeing my brother, so much younger than me, having more autonomy then I did just sat wrong with me, and still does all this time later because of how my family treats it when I bring it up.

This would start my major depression in 5th grade when I was 11, as I started puberty, and was given the list I was suppose to follow since I was becoming a woman “dressed nicely so you won’t get picked on, makeup, especially shaving every inch of you except your head,” and all the other stuff women and AFAB’s know. And I was so disconnected from it, I didn’t want to do any of that, I mean I wanted to dress nice, but I wanted to do my way…. Which was emo at the time lmao. Now before my major depression has started at 11, I remember doing art all the time, I had a lot of straight ships from cartoons cause I didn’t realize you could like the same sex, then I started playing scribblenauts, and the goth girl and female student npcs you could create? Hardcore lesbians, made for each other. I drew them for months. I think I had some of my dolls like that, and I remember the sims 2 lesbian videos of the late 2000s. It laid dormant for a long time. I never had crushes before, I wasn’t against romance as a kid, I just didn’t care for them or imagined myself really in them from anytime I can remember.

Then came 12, and my first real crush, which ofc, was a girl, and I remember, it just, clicked for me. I felt great, granted it was first crush stuff to so I mean, go figure. My family ignored it, though were upset I didn’t tell them. I then came across the one picture of ftm and mtf and how ftm was uncomfortable with female presentation. And for the fact I was a tomboy who wanted the autonomy to express that, I thought it made sense, and didn’t think of it til I was 13 on Christmas. Getting tmnt stuff, so it was boy clothes for once, I remember dressing in that and hiding all my long hair in its beanie and feeling for the first time I got to be me, which I hadn’t be able to before. That was met with black lash but that’s what started the phase in mg life I dealt with til now.

It never stayed consistently. My family had made remarks of me being open about my attraction to women, brushing or blowing it off til they’d tell me to knock it off because I was too young unless it was a boy. I only liked girls cause of my depression and the fact I was overweight, I just needed a makeover so I’d quit perverting my friendships with girls like they’d remark it. It kinda buried with me “only boys like girls, you like dressing like a boy, so it equals you = boy you’re made for this”, but I only liked indulging in lesbian media. My family insisted I needed to be open minded and thst I’d find a boy, which in turn kinda made it like I needed to be open because they know me better than I do they say, and they were happy I came out as bisexual, because then that clearly means it’ll be a phase, despite the fact I don’t think people who are attracted to men literally have to pick somebody to crush on, which never worked anyway. I stayed in a constant kind of “I’m a bisexual ftm, just a higher preference of girls, then it being considered straight ftm, then back to lesbian, then me guilting myself into having to be bisexual. Can I even be bisexual when I don’t have a crush on a man or even find them that attractive?” Heaven forbid I couldn’t be friends with a boy without it being romantic. I loved Arthur Morgan for what’s really his personality, sure he’s attractive, but honestly I wouldn’t date him, but most fan fictions are romantic tied so I guess it showed up like that again. He’s a great man, we have a similar personality, but it is what it is.

I liked butch presentation, I did for a long time. I clung to masculine and butch presentation cause I fought so long for it, cause if I wasn’t angry or only dressed in boys clothing/pajamas, I didn’t get treated like a person anymore, just a “built in best friend, nanny or therapist”, it’s a mess of emotions and thoughts. I didn’t want to go through T deep down, I wanted a smaller chest sure but, I didn’t feel like I was me in male spaces, never liked or got use to male pronouns, can’t relate with men really, and since accepting it out loud, I feel better. I knew some other mental health issues could cause symptoms like gender dysphoria, and clearly it seems I was one of them. I’m still going through accepting I am a lesbian, just like before, because I’m finally removing men appeal completely from me like I wanted, from forcing male crushes to moving on from butchhood. I’m trying to explore my femininity with pride, and not let my brain or family trap me in one or the other.

This identity has never left, it’s where I started, always went back to, and have always been there. I’m not hiding or trying to fix or anything about it anymore because it’s me. It is wasn’t, I wouldn’t always be drawn back to it or feel happy with that title everytime. For anybody else who has a hard time with identity, especially thanks to a emotionally abusive insecure family, I would write down the terms and things that make me happy, and that’s helped me a lot. It seems stupid, but when you really think into it, it is it. If you’re drawn to one title, sexuality or gender identity the most, then it’d true.

Having family putting no faith in myself, no sense of autonomy or thought, ruined any sense of identity. Now that it’s finally starting to form I don’t want them to take that from me again, when I’ve worked through 8 years of torture for what was always there. Sorry to the followers who I know don’t care for it, but I tried burying the lesbianism pride for years.

Yes I know there’s a few back when I made this blog in February, but it went, mentally, more like support than for myself in those along with loving Disney femslash, but now it’s going to be more of for me then anything else cause no more living in the past,

[esotheria-sims]

♥ 3040+ FOLLOWERS GIFT ♥ PART 2:  Straight & wavy ♥ 

Well, this took a little longer than expected, but here we go! Part 2! A.k.a the random-backgrounds-I-took-these-pics-at-3AM-and-ran-out-of-patience-halfway-through-pls-don’t-judge-me edition. :D

Martini Ade Luna retextured

Here’s a smooth, silky, uber-straight hair to get the party started. Because you know I can’t resist a stupidly straight hair. :D I had my doubts about this mesh at first, but it actually turned out better than expected.

INFO: Martini's 4t2 conversion of Ade-Darma's Luna hair retextured with Pooklet's and Io's textures and colors (swatch). Tooltipped, binned, familied. Grey linked to black, five custom greys included. All ages (toddler-elder), mesh included. Angles.

CREDITS: Ade-Darma, Martini, Pooklet, Io, Aweeshie, Hat, CatOfEvilGenius.

DOWNLOAD: Simfileshare | Box | Mediafire

Nightcrawler NewYorker F&M retextured

And another stupidly straight hair, but this time for both ladies and gents! I’ve had my eyes set on this mesh for quite a while now, so you could say that the retextures were a long time coming. Had to struggle with the male mesh to get it to cooperate, but in the end, I think I got both hairs to look pretty uniform. 

INFO - FEMALE HAIR: Original mesh by Nightcrawler, 4t2 conversion by Martini, all-ages edit by Rented-Space. Retextured with Pooklet's and Io's colors and textures (swatch). Tooltipped, binned, familied. Grey linked to black, five custom greys included. Mesh included. Angles.

INFO - MALE HAIR: Original mesh by Nightcrawler, 4t2 conversion by Martini, FtM by MDPthatsme. Teen-elder only, BUT: the child and toddler stages on the female retextures have been modified to be unisex, so if you keep the female files, the male hair will be for all ages as well. Minor downside: the tooltips on the CM and PM hairs will say 'FH'. Retextured with Pooklet's and Io's colors and textures, same as above. Tooltipped, binned, familied. Grey linked to black, five custom greys included. Mesh included. Angles. 

CREDITS: Nightcrawler, Maritin, Rented-Space, MDPthatsme, Pooklet, Io, Aweeshie, Hat, CatOfEvilGenius.

DOWNLOAD BOTH: Simfileshare | Box | Mediafire

Nightcrawler Confetti retextured

This was a bit of a self-indulgent project. To cut a long story short: Nat and Simbic both did some kickass retextures of Nightcrawler’s Confetti hair, but neither came with a full Pooklet/Io spectrum, and in addition, the two retextures were done on two different meshes. The Confetti hair was converted twice, by Martini and Eir, and then the Martini mesh was further tweaked by Rented-Space to be for all ages. Nat’s retextures were on the all-ages mesh while Simbic’s weren’t. I wanted Simbic’s textures on the all ages mesh, so that’s what I did. Whew. So much for ‘cutting a long story short’ (you should’ve seen the first draft of this intro, though). TL;DR:

INFO: Simbic's retextures of Nightcrawler's Confetti hair on Martini/Rented-Space's all-ages mesh (Simbic's textures were originally on Eir's mesh). Done in all of Pooklet's and Io's naturals, tooltipped, binned, familied. Grey linked to black, five custom greys included (swatch) Rented-Space’s edited mesh included. Angles.

CREDITS: Nightcrawler, Martini, Rented-Space, Simbic, Pooklet, Io, Aweeshie, Hat, CatOfEvilGenius.

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FurbyQ Stealthic Heaventide F&M retextured

This hair’s been around for a while, but I couldn’t find any Pooklet naturals of it anywhere. So here they are now, complete with Io’s Ennead palette. Yay!

INFO: Furbyq's female & male conversions of Stealthic's Heaventide hair with Furby's base texture, retextured in all of Pooklet's and Io's naturals. Tooltipped, binned, familied, grey linked to black, five optional custom greys included (swatch). Child-elder, broken toddler stage removed from both versions. Meshes included. Angles FH  | Angles MH

CREDITS: Stealthic, FurbyQ, Pooklet, Io, Aweeshie, Hat, CatOfEvilGenius.

DOWNLOAD BOTH: Simfileshare | Box | Mediafire

SilverLeaves Leahlilith Anastasia straight & curly

INFO: Umi/SilverLeaves' 4t2 conversion of Leahlilith Anastasia hair in Nymphy's curls and Pooklet's and Io's colors and textures. Tooltipped, binned, familied. Grey linked to black, five custom greys included per each version (swatch).   Child-elder, mesh included. Angles straight  | Angles curly

CREDITS: Leahlilith, Umi/SilverLeaves, Nymphy, Pooklet, Io, Aweeshie, Hat, CatOfEvilGenius.

DOWNLOAD BOTH: Simfileshare | Box | Mediafire

A final note: I rename all files I add to my game to fit my own organization scheme. This means that some of the meshes I included have different names than the original files, so be careful to not add any duplicates into your Downloads folder. 

Please enjoy, and happy simming! ^_^