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The absolute tragedy that is Harrow fucking destroying herself just to keep from turning around in the vain attempt to keep Gideon alive but the fucking last word out of her month is a name her brain refuses to know. 
It’s like if Orpheus cut out his eyes and lost Eurydice anyway because she refused to leave the Underworld since he refused to look at her.
#the locked tomb#gideon nav#harrow nonagesimus#griddlehark#Harrow; not looking at her is simply impossible so I’ll have to force myself to make sure#Gideon; she won’t even look at me so she must not want me#AHHH
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So I've said multipe times now (here and here) that thinking nmj is just so blinded by privilege he doesn't undertand that acting out of line gets people killed is, in my opinion, a misunderstanding of his character that ignores the part where he's, you know, actively dying the whole time and thinks that's a good thing. But that doesn't mean I don't think privilege plays no role at all in how he views the world.
Specifically, his view that death (at least premature or violent death) means something.
Death isn't always a tragedy to NMJ, but it is always meaningful. If you kill an evil dangerous person for your righteous cause, that death had meaning. There was evil in the world and now there is less of it. Similarly, if you die in the pursuit of your righteous cause, that death has meaning, because the sheer dedication you gave to it that you were willing to die for it will further that cause, and your bretheren will be invigorated by your sacrifice to fight even harder.
If a death isn't meaningful, that's an injustice and it is up to the living to give it meaning. That's what cuts so deep about his father's murder. There were no consequences, no changes, no meaning. Wen Ruohan was just going to get away with it! He fights and wins an entire war to make it mean something, to make it so that the unjust murder of Nie Mingjue's father is part of Wen Ruohan's downfall.
But this is a view he can only hold because he's the kind of person who's death will be meaningful. Most ordinary people's deaths are meaningless. Not ontologically, not inherently, but they are made meaningless because no one cares. For death to be meaningful you either have to be so powerful that anything you risk your life for will be impacted in some way. (Like, say, if you sacrifice a long life for immense martial power in a faustian bargain with a blade) Or if people with that kind of power care enough about you to do so for you. For most people, this isn't true. A starving street kid has no power to change the unfair world that put them there, even if they risk their life trying, and no one will do it for them once they die.
Nie Mingjue knows this in abstract, and of course rightfully believes it's wrong. But all that does is make it yet another righteous cause people should be willing to die for. Everyone's deaths should mean something, we'll make it so or die trying!
This is what the conflict between nieyao is about at its core. Because Jin Guangyao, fundamentally, cannot conceive of his own death as meaningful. Nie Mingjue grew up around powerful men who could change the world but refuse to do so because god forbid they risk a single hair on their perfect heads. Meng Yao, on the other hand, grew up in an environment where no one of importance would blink twice if you died. He was surrounded by meaningless death. Indeed his entire early life is defined by that lack of care.
Meng Shi dies and no one cares. Meng Yao gets thrown off a flight off stairs and no one cares. He has to be the one to do the caring, and once he's gone no one else will do it for him.
So he has to live.
Jin Guangyao eventually gets far enough that he actually does aquire the power to change some things... as long as he's alive. If he changes too much, holds on too tightly to his ideals, he'll die and it'll all be for nothing. He can't sacrifice himself for his goals because doing so would immediately render those goals unobtainable. No one will care about what he tried to do. He won't be a heroic sacrifice, he'll just be trash that finally cleaned itself up.
And well... Nie Mingjue dies, and someone makes it mean something. Makes it mean so much that the entire story of mdzs would not exist without it. Jin Guangyao dies and it doesn't mean anything. Most people are glad to be rid of him, and the few that are not don't do anything to change that.
#mdzs#mdzs meta#nie mingjue#jin guangyao#meng yao#nieyao#of course the inherent tragedy is that nmj is totally THE guy to ask if you want your death to mean something#nmj's reaction the the fact that most ppl's deaths are meaningless is to go: yes and I should change this.#If everyone thought like me this wouldn't happen anymore I simply need to get EVEN MORE HARDCORE about justice to MAKE them care#and this quality- which makes him the one person perhaps capable of making jgy's death mean something- also makes him a threat to his life#so jgy kills him because he needs to live. And then his beliefs about the meaninglessness of his own death are doomed to be true#what else was he supposed to do? just die and TRUST that someone would make it mean something?#like his mother trusted that his father would come back for them?#of course he can't do that.#just like how nmj's upbringing means that by the stairs he can't see how jgy- son of a sect leader and extremely capable-#is any different from the men who wrung their hands and told him that wen ruohan is just *too powerful* they can't do anything about him.#(*guy who killed wrh and wil go on to kill jgs voice* i just can't do anything about my dad being evil)#if jgy had agreed to risk his life and asked nmj to make it mean something if he died nmj would have said yes.#which is why he can't understand jgy wouldn't just ASK that.#jgy meanwhile has not been informed that was a fucking option and if he was wouldnt be able to trust that it'd actually happen.#for reasons outlined above#ahhh tragedy and inability of characters to understand each other i love you
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So we know now that the way for ghosts to interact or get visible to the human world is through trauma. The janitor being able to see Mr. Martin was because Janet was in her scar reliving her trauma over and over again. So. What if Simon loosing Maddie and thinking she died was so incredibly traumatic to him and then being able to see her but not actually being able to physically meet her reinforced that trauma over and over again and that is what lead to him being able to see her permanently. We know Maddie saw both Mr. Martin and Janet right before Janet took her body because the conversation she had with her mom before was traumatic for her and as far as we know Janet wasn't in her scar. So the ghosts don't actually need the trauma of the scars, they just need trauma and emotion that is strong enough
#simon elroy#maddie nears#madison nears#anyways#tragic doomed romance is cool and all#but tragic doomed friendship??#that is so painful it should be a crime#i just want maddie and simon to be able to hug again#like#this would explain why he can see her more than just 'they have a strong bond'#which is also part of why he can see her#but that strong bond they have is what lead to this loss being so traumatic for simon that he started being able to see maddie#ahhh i'm so interested in the lore and worldbuilding of the ghost realm of this show!!!!#i love how they actually go into so much detail with it and don't just leave it at 'oh it's unexplainable nobody knows and nobody will ever#know how this ghost world works'#like no#these are facts!!#this has rules#and yes a lot ist still unknown but the ghosts actually have the possibility to figure it out and learn more about their world#i actually want 5 more seasons of this show simply just so we can figure out all the lore and the rules and mechanics of this ghost world!!!#lea's random thoughts#school spirits#school spirits spoilers
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I want Jason to be such a skilled liar when the situation calls for it but being so bad at it otherwise because 90% of the time he does not see the point in lying.
#so a lot of people end up having it built in their head that jason just can't lie but he can!#it's kinda like body language. i think jason could very easily be impeccable at reading people's body language#a side effect of being raised by wolves ofc but also just a natural intuitive thing to him he picked up while being groomed for leadership#but 90% of social cues are deemed dumb because he doesn't get the point of subtlety. like just be up front.#so he doesn't engage (and sometimes he simply does not understand how to engage) so he comes across as socially clueless and cruelly blunt#and then gets dropped into some scenario where he has to charm and dazzle an important person and he fucking nails it to everyone's surpris#ahhh once again thinking about natural diplomat instincts jason and thalia 😩 benefits of your dad being king of the world lol#jason grace#happy talks pjo
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Books and Red Hair
Ice skating AU, part 6!!
August 6th - words: 1109
First part Previous part
James would quite like to think he was extra welcome at a library, but that’s just not true. He’s clumsy, he knocks books over and can’t whisper to save his life. He’s always either too quiet or loud enough to get himself kicked out. Last time he came to this specific library, the local one to his university, he played full volume music on his AirPods - blissfully unaware that everyone around him could hear.
So how someone managed to get him back in here was a mystery, but here he is anyway.
He trailed behind Lily like a lost puppy, keeping his hands firmly to himself and not the bookshelves.
“James you look petrified.” Lily laughed out in a hushed tone.
“I’ve been told multiple times that I am severely not wanted here.” He hissed.
Lily blinked at him a few times, raising an eyebrow and flashed him an awfully unimpressed look. “What did you do?”
“Me, Rem, pads and Pete might have started a small fire in here last year.” He bit his lip to stop the smug smile from forming on his face, clearly the look still flamed alight in his eyes.
“Don’t look so proud.” She swatted his arm. “I only brought you here because you promised me a coffee after work.”
He and Lily worked in the same little record store down the street, well it used to be just records, now there’s comics, posters, collectables, CDs, everything like that honey. They’ll normally pop into a cafe after, treating themselves to a coffee before going home, but today Lily needed to grab some studying materials from the library.
“Stay here.” She said as she started to walk away.
“I’m not a child!” James protested.
“Sure!” She flashed a sarcastic smile over her shoulder as he went, leaving James with a frown on his face as he wandered through the tables of people studying, taking a seat at one of them without paying attention to anyone around him.
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After about five minutes, he started to pick up some of the hushed whispering around him as the sound of a few people sitting in front of him hit his ears. Now he fiddled with the pages of the random book he’d swiped from the shelf and - innocently - eavesdropped after he swore he heard a voice he knew.
“Reg can you help?” A hushed female voice sounded after a few flicks of a page.
“Yeah.” A familiar voice responded. “One second Cas.”
His head slowly lifted, a smirk appearing on his face as he realised who had sat next to him.
“Hi.” He propped his head on his hands and drummed his fingers against his cheek.
The girl only gave him a confused look, she had dark shining skin, adorned with a couple of dainty tattoos and stacked jewellery that reminded him of the stuff that Lily likes to wear. But she wasn’t the one James was looking at.
“What are you doing in a library?” Regulus gave a raise of his eyebrow.
“Okay ouch, and actually I’m just waiting for my friend to finish finding - uh - whatever she needs.” He shrugged.
“So that’s why you’re reading The Great Gatsby - but specifically the blank page at the front?”
His eyes flicked down to the book, where the only words written were ‘The Great Gatsby.’
“It has some writing on it.” He proclaimed.
Regulus just hummed, no sign of emotion on his pale, blank face, yet it seemed to hold the world. His eyes like once grey clouds drowning in water, his skin as milky and smooth as a white silk pillowcase, his hair curled perfectly and dark as it hung around his face like Medusas snakes danced.
“I’m sorry, how do you two know each other?” The girl - Cas he thinks - interrupted. “Because I could swear that Regulus here doesn’t talk to anyone.”
“I talk to you!” Regulus bickered. “And Barty, Evan and Pandora.” He counted on his fingers.
“Four whole people.” Cas gasped.
Stifling a laugh, James simply watched as the two went back and fourth, clearly playfully as they argued. Still, Regulus looked beautiful with a scowl, even better with a smile though. Even better while he skated, face stoic and wondrous, face on full display and body moving like a puppet controlled by the god of love herself.
“And me.” James smiled and battered his eyelashes, Regulus pointed and nodded.
“You never answered my question.” Cas pondered, looking between the two boys suspiciously.
Stuttering out an answer, James realises he didn’t actually have just one.
“Tried to buy a book, stalked me, stalked me again, and is apparently friends with my brother and my coach’s son.”
“Hey now, I didn’t stalk you. I-“ But he cut himself off when he saw the slightly smiling face of Regulus Black - covered slightly by his baggy sleeve - but still there. The end of his pen was placed between his teeth and a silver glint on his tongue catching the sun and shining like the star the paler boy is.
“I know.” He shook his head, still smirking slightly as he moved the pen to his page, scribbling slightly and leaving James to stare at the way a ring was slid onto every single pale finger, shining bright and jewelled - as he said - like the star he is.
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Stretches of comfortable quiet later, he felt a hand tap his arm as the silence surrounded him. “I’m done.” Lily smiled and held up the books and couple of bookmarks up with a squeal. “You owe me a coffee, let’s go.”
“Right.” He looked between the redhead and the other two, Regulus’ head still in his book but the once cal, expression had been covered by one of tension and thorns sharp as daggers. “Bye!” He waved as he and Lily left.
“Yeah, bye.” He heard dully before he walked away, the sunlight splashing in on him as soon as he stepped outside, blinding his eyes and burning into his skin.
“I bought my girlfriend this,” Lily waved up a little flowery pin that she’d picked up from the library store she’d insisted on looking in seconds beforehand. “Isn’t it adorable.”
“The cutest.” James winked with a smile.
Yet he still couldn’t get the anguished expression of a star from his mind, burning holes into the once bright irises of his eyes, stabbing into his once radiating heart. Oh what he would do to wipe it away with one quick swipe of love, leave that smile on his face that he seems to feel the need to hide.
Someone like Regulus Black shouldn’t be hidden, he’s much too special for that.
Next part
#I want to clarify that there will be no Lily Evans bashing!#it’s so bad that I have to say that.#Shes simply there to be one of james’ best friends and an icon#the gf is Mary btw!#also AHHH HIS STAR#marauders#jegulus#james potter#regulus black#james x regulus#jegulus microfic#sunseeker#regulus x james#starchaser#jegulus fic
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Colored the silly Yume from this traditonal drawing. It is now my icon. 0v0
Inspo:
#this is tech a spoiler for future art but ahhh#yume ume#twst oc#twst yuu#twst mc#disney twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland#myart#pumpkinart#yuusona#they art SIMPly in love
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Nana as a mermaid for Mer-may? :)
my beautiful fish wife... (below the keep reading, a free tiddy (relatively) version)
#bnha#shimura nana#shih's art#asks#anon#wish i could say that a lot of thought went into this#but honestly i just started thinking 'ahhh man. shark nana. eel nana. seal nana. nana my great white whale.'#don't ask me how the scale pattern works in v2#i simply could not give her a clamshell bra#i respect that chest too much for that
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hi favie.. i’m like.. really bored and wanna request something.. maybe like 😁 late nights with lee? idk if you’ve written that yet. but maybeeeee staying up late with her.. OKAY BYE ILY!
late nights with lee harker <33
AWEEEE THIS IS SO CUTE HEHE thank you so much for the request angie ilysm!!!
𓍢ִ໋🌷͙֒ (˶ ˘ ³˘)ˆᵕ ˆ˶) 𓍢ִ໋🌷͙֒ ᰔᩚ -> you and lee
I can see her being into playing board games and puzzles together during late nights. like, the two of you just having a movie or some music on and doing something like that. I feel like it'd relax her to put her focus to something on something other than work, and just become absorbed in that. plus, if it's a challenge of sorts, she'll find it entertaining amusing to verse you, especially if you're a sore loser
like you say in the headcanon in your post about lee driving (everyone say thank you angie hehe her headcanons are amazing), I could def see her enjoying aimlessly driving around (this is angie's headcanon!! she's a genius), which with you, involves taking you out in her car, winding the windows down and letting the cool wind get you both chilled and cozy
CUDDLES. I truly believe she is such a touch-starved, clingy girlfriend, and at the end of a long day, or even if she knows the next day she'll get to spend the day at home with you, she'll be super needy and excited to be with you. I feel like during late nights, she'll be especially clingy, and will enjoy being the little spoon, with you on your back and her face buried in your neck, legs entwined with you
sometimes really just needs some peace and quiet, especially after a chaotic day at work. I feel like she'd be happy to parallel play with you, just quietly eating her cereal and doing nothing at her desk while you do your own thing
you'll try to push her to not do work, but when she's particularly sunk into a case, it's hard to convince her to not work on it when home. sometimes, though, you do get upset at this, wanting time with her, and not being able to have it because she's bringing work home. once she realizes you're getting upset, she'll usually set it aside. and once she's holding you, and finally gets out of her work headspace, it'll hit her again just how much she misses you and how badly she wishes she had spent more of the night with you. she'll usually make it up for you by giving you all her attention, and it's a habit she tries to work on
also I can just see you guys goofing off in bed -- like, just being super cute, talking about the most random shit, like asking each other silly hypothetical questions, or talking about funny anecdotes, while raising your legs up and seeing who can last longest
sometimes you guys will share a joint and have some snacks together, which def helps her in unwinding LOL
if all else fails you guys can... you know 👀 if one of y'all is in the mood, you both are one hundred percent down for a night of position after position hehe
#I'm so sorry if this is terrible AHHH :(( it is currently 3AM and I simply took inspo from my own v late and sleepy night LOL#didn't spellcheckkkk#s.writing#request#mutuals#lee harker#lee harker x reader#lee harker fanfiction#longlegs 2024#longlegs fanfiction
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☀️⛵️❤️✨
#daniel ricciardo#autumn posts#ahhh I don't like posting without a source but I cannot find this interview anywhere!! seems to be Canal Plus!!#if anyone has a link I'd be eternally grateful!!!#I simply need more of him in these cute jorts 😭😵💫✨
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the world is so big and beautiful amd everything changes all the time. i love you Baby miniature horse chasing me
#there is something about horses as a thematic symbol that is inextricably linked 2 change to me . something to do w being born whole and#running and breaking and most of all the fact that I simply just reallyreally enjoy them . . .#probably i am thinking about this because i have really grown to love them and think about them and the pop culture media surrounding them#during the last year of my life in which my world felt like it was changing constantly . and now i am moving across the country#ahhh . horsey .#i dunno anything & thats Ok . 👍🏾👍🏾#dial up boyfriend
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I finished my research run and I'm left more confused
These 3 give the same 52 EXP and 25 gold
They were all used in the design of Lemon Bread. Obviously Woshua wasn't used in the final version unless we consider technicalities.
However: The other monsters used in other Amalgamates don't have this.
EXP, gold or stats, are all different.
#undertale#shyren#lemon bread#aaron#woshua#Ahhh the mystery of water#Ahhh the mystery of numbers#there are a few monsters with very suspicious stats#but I'm not sure what it means#and IF it means anything#I have also considered the possibility that their EXP and gold were#simply left like this by accident#research run#I could've used the wiki#but I'll put it this way#I had notes for all the stats and details I found#and ones that avoided me I looked up and put (wiki) beside it to know I haven't confirmed it#I do not trust the wiki
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𝑔𝓇𝒶𝓎𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓂 : gray x alhaitham









some find beauty in sumeru's landscape — its sprawling rainforests, its unique fauna. others find beauty in its emerging art scene — performances put on at the zubayr theater. alhaitham finds beauty in one person alone, his gray.
for @dilucs ♡
#— graytham!#i heavily contemplated which of ur lovely ships i wanted to make a moodboard for and#the pink & green combo of graytham won me over :3#++ i just love ur dynamic!#i think u balance each other out very well!#to me. u are his whimsy! his reminder to finds joy in even the smallest things!#and i think he is ur rock to keep u grounded! a reminder to slow down and breathe#perfect match in my books!#okie! onto the pictures :3#the jellycats. . . they're pink and green so they were bound to make it here lol but bc u are graybun ofc i had to include it!#i wanted to include something with nails bc u always have pretty ones heh :3 and i have an inkling that alhaitham doesn't mind when u gentl#scratch his scalp for him#and the right center photo! i have no explanation for including that one beyond it feeling like graytham to me#the heart socks juxtaposed with his more formal earthy tones was just cute!#and ofc i had to include a bunch of flowers! pink and green specifically~#the more couple-y photos felt like little dates u too might take on ur breaks or over the weekend!#little private spots where the two of u can simply enjoy the presence of each other and nature#ahhh so lovely~ i really enjoyed putting this together!#i hope u enjoy and i am wishing graytham an amazing weekend!
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good morning friends it is another beautiful day of making porn on the internet as a transgender man
#one: what do you mean i was born with them#’oh my god the head is crowning! oh… oh no wait it’s just another tit’#two: how do you know they were beautiful#maybe i got top surgery simply to spare all of you from having to see my absolutely ghastly honkers#i should make a tag for this sort of thing uhhh ahhh#corn diaries#scout.txt
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No worries queen... I love yr blog and you.. fuck Kanye west
thank you…
#simply saw a post that said kanye should killhimself and smacked reblog#so sorryyyyy ahhh dd hdj#FUCK kanye west
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Qingyuè (清越) Satou; maiden name Lin (林)
small reference sheets...
#if you recognize her maiden name... I love you.#ahhh. I have so much to say and yet difficulty articulating it. so I'll simply lay this here for now...#please do not be strange about gashu still being human ✌️ i do hate him as he is but it cannot be denied he is a family man.#//#yttd#yttd ocs#your turn to die#kimi ga shine#kai satou#gashu satou#qingyue satou#my art#folder#;;#ocs#satous
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why do i have poster's disease? i wanted to write a weird little vaguely horny story that i've thought about for a long time but i did so under the pretense that it was 'just for me' and i wasn't going to post it b/c i really do not want put it up for public opinion, but then i wrote it and was like 'what if...ha ha...j/k...unless...?' Part of my problem is that i always think 'what if someone else wrote this and they wouldn't let me see it...i would be so saaaaad...' and then i feel bad for this theoretical lurker me who doesn't even write me fanfic back. Like, I read all these posts where people are like 'no one interacts with fic anymore, i'm going to stop posting my work' and i'm always like 'hmm, i understand your feelings, i have noticed the same' but it could not be me. i will keep posting my unpopular shit and feel bad when it doesn't get much in the way of kudos and have a hundred regrets and then i'll just do it again later. idc. (it's a lie, i very much do care)
#will i post it? i have not yet decided#probably yes b/c as i said: i simply love posting#unless i get so bound up in deciding whether to hide it in my anthology fic or to post it one-shot style under my smut pseud#that i manage to do neither. and let's be real: this is extremely probable#(it is not smut aside from how i felt in my heart while i was writing it)#btw any time i do get kudos on one of my Less Popular Efforts i nod my head and think 'ahhh this person has exquisite taste.'#everyone who has ever liked 'dear wormwood' is a person of culture. to me.
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