#simpel-is

[cherryblossomshadow]

You're the only man that's ever touched me. the only one. i haven't really touched anyone since

love enjoyers when you're the only man that's ever touched me. the only one. i haven't really touched anyone since

[lottee-e]

🎀Some digital doodles from the last few weeks 🎀

[betweenblackberrybranches]

Subnautica au Moon design

He is the prettiest night light

Sun is glowing too btw its just not that noticable at day

[marimayscarlett]

Is it right that Richard didn't know he had a son until 2001?

Hi 👋🏻

I honestly don't have the sources to prove this as facts, but it is implied that Richard didn't know Merlin was his son until the boy was about 10 years old. I also heard that since this was during the era where Richard lived mainly in New York City, Till apparently took care of Merlin a bit. Again, I don't know to what extent this is true.

Merlin's mom, Tatjana Besson, was an active part of the DDR punk music scene (she played for example in 'Die Firma' together with Richard), as well as worked as an IM (informeller Mitarbeiter, meaning an unofficial informant/collaborator) for the Ministry of State Security ('Stasi'). Many musicians in her circle naturally took offense in that after it came out. She is brought up in the book 'Mix mir einen Drink', where Flake mentions her being present at the first ever Rammstein concert at the NATO in Leipzig on the 14th of April, 1994:

Tatjana stood in the first row, everyone had a strained relationship with her, because she had the talent to give everyone around a guilty feeling [meaning: guilty conscience]. You'd feel lousy when she'd look at you. She stood in the front row, really wanting to see for herself: "Alright, guys, you fools, you dads, show me what you’re up to these days." Till absolutely didn’t want her looking at him and making him feel embarrassed. (Page 377).

Merlin was about 1,5 years old on that point (being born in the 10th of December, 1992), and it was most likely known that Tatjana had a child. So either Richard didn’t consider the possibility that this child might be his to begin with, or Tatjana was in a relationship or dating multiple people at the time Merlin was conceived, making the thought that he could be the father not at all obvious to Richard. So why it took another 7 years, I have no idea. But I don't have to know, since it's none of my business and not my family, so ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ Richard openly acknowledged him as his son in interviews soon after, talking about "my children" (plural!) or "my son and daughter" openly.

[cherryblossomshadow]

tbf tho moonlight still hits me hard as just a queer guy/masculine ish person having their masculinity devalued bc of their queerness #moonlight #moonlight movie #kevin and chiron #chiron #kevin #fuck why is this film so good #please everyone should watch it #barry Jenkins #barry jenkins highkey was cooking with this film (comment and tags courtesy of OP)

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#yes this all this!!! #moonlight 2016 #the story of him coming to grips with his sexuality felt so realistic to me at least /because/ he didn't have a big coming out scene #like. that narrative feels like it's supposed to happen cause that's always what happens in tv shows and movies where there's a queer #--character. they were only allowed to exist in stories to tell the “coming out story” #like they'll have other stories involving them but they have to have a coming out story #and that's just not how it works for every queer person #some of us just have to figure this shit out and then deal with it and not come out because our parents are homophobic #and some of us probably have a story like chiron #but yeah moonlight isn't just a story about sexuality #it's got multiple facets #and there's so much character work we didn't see in those tine skips #such a great story (tags courtesy of @suibianworks)

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“female representation”

I mean, this reminds me of the Bechdel test getting weaponized against Fire Island (2022) :(

Idk if ppl know how stereotypes work? A character is a bad character, not bc they are similar to a stereotype but bc they are JUST a stereotype. Those female characters put in the work

And on the subject of "well written female characters," not every character can be deep. Those characters did what they needed to do, and they weren't just agents of the plot, they were ppl who loved Chiron. Well written characters dont have to be deep, they just have to make sense

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“being bullied for being gay without explicitly coming out”

"at the core queerness isn't its main focus"

Exactly, OP! Kinda envious that some ppl think you can only be bullied for things you tell the world. Moonlight is intersectional as hell and all the sexier for it. I don't think you could separate Chiron from his blackness any more than from his queerness. In our cisheteronormative patriarchal and racist society, these ideas of masculinity and sexuality and racial identity and power are all bound up together. The reason ppl get bullied rarely has anything to do with what ppl SAY they're being bullied for. I think it is really valuable that stories like this embrace the "contradictions" and shit that makes life messy

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“wanting to shed his hypermasculine image for a more vulnerable one”

hell fucking yeah lets gooooooooooooooooo

Pls bear with me while I pontificate about queerness. Queerness is a whole thing bc of the way our society is. It's about how ppl treat you (outcast), about how strong you have to be for yourself (determining to stay true and PROUD in the face of hardship and hate), but I really think that, at its heart, being queer is about love. In a less hateful world, maybe the trappings of hate and self-determinism would drop away and no longer be associated with queerness bc no one would give a shit who you love

TL;DR: Being queer is bundled with so much meaningful stuff specifically in this hateful world, which isnt necesarily a bad thing. But imo queerness is, at its heart, about love and therefore vulnerability. Coming out doesn't have to be ostentatious and "look at me and repent for how you've wronged me" (tho it DEF deserves to be in some cases)

Coming out can feel like coming home

im insane for moonlight

this rlly is jsut me ranting so spoilers for the film pls guys watch it its so fucking good i swear ITS SOOO GOOD GUH oh and there's gonna be mentions of stuff like homophobia, sexism, bullying, ect but its bc i saw a review on the movie moonlight (2016) saying abt how female representation only amounts to 2 female characters playing stereotypes, and how chiron's queerness wasn't properly explored bc contradictions and shit like how chiron was bullied for being gay without him ever explicitly coming out like

okay

1. this movie is LITERALLY about a black man struggling with his masculine identity bc of his culture and his environment, no SHIT it only focuses on the older more parental female figures in his life

2. his mother and teresa weren't stereotypes at all??? his mother struggles being a single mom and turns to drugs as a way to cope and ends up abusing her son which yeah absolutely tragic but the movie makes a point to say she still does care abt her son even when she doesn't show it when needed (literally her forgiveness scene hello??)

and teresa is the motherly figure in this case yes but its almost nice how her char is subverted in the sense she's not blood related but still cares for chiron like her own which is very neat !! also she has more of a noticable impact on chiron during his teenage years and letting him feel a sense of self and freedom whenever he stays over imo those are two very well written female characters

(will say teresa could've had more depth but yk)

3. queerness and weakness are viewed to be the same in hypermasculine cultures idk how u couldnt get that one tbh

he gets bullied bc people around him expect him to be a more masculine more tough ver of who he is now, devaluing his innate character

honestly i get why people would watch moonlight and view it as a "queer film" but at the core queerness isn't its main focus, it's how black kids deal and cope with their masculinity in a toxic environment. chiron's queerness is only a fraction of what makes up his issues with his masculinity, but because of how being queer is used as an insult when he gets bullied and abuse, that ending scene just hits harder like that bc he finally lets go of his tough exterior, and admits to his queerness as a substitute/symbol for what he truly means, which is him wanting to shed his hypermasculine image for a more vulnerable one with kevin and its just GAHHHHH

[meraarts]

Turns out all that was needed to beat the Monaco curse was no pit stops for Ferrari to fuck up

[flowers-in-my-eye]

uerghahs i just wanna get a consistent artstyle T_T

[89wfox]

Wanted to see Rose in these socks. So I went all out and made a sweater to go with it follow by a good cup of coffee. You can say this is Rose lazy outfit.☕️✨

[mellowtine]

Please I'll give my arm just to get my hands on his consummation audio

[queercowboyinspace]

vincent

[roseblack12]

here is some Penelope and eurycleia judging the suitors art nobody ask for

[cherryblossomshadow]

im literally going to create a 5 hour long video analyzing every aspect of moonlight at this pace, im not shitting you this movie has so much symbolism

#moonlight #moonlight movie #chiron x kevin #chiron #kevin #barry jenkins you beautiful man #tarell mccraney you are a genius never stop creating #rambles #fuck why is this film so good #film analysis #color analysis #please im begging yall to watch this film and ramble abt it #i could make 10 more posts on this movie it has so many layers to it #the more u analyze it the more u discover and enter a rabbit hole #exhibit a: me #hyperfixation #im not okay but this movie deffo healed me #most likely overanalyzing #is it extra? Yes #is it fun? fuck yeah (comment and tags courtesy of OP)

ranting abt moonlight again bc holy FUCK THIS FILM IS SO SMART AND SO GOOD WITH ITS COLOR

this hyperfixation will drag me into the ground and i will happily go along

spoilers for the movie (if u havent seen it go watch it mf its pride month) also discussion about religion (kind of), homophobia, black masculinity identity and culture, ect ect

no because how tarell mccraney and barry jenkins used the color blue as a symbolism in this movie is SO FUCKING GOOD i feel like in almost every scene u can see a color being used in a symbolic way

in my interpretation at least, blue here represents both vulnerability, security with one's identity but also masculinity (in the sense how blue is used in society to represent men and masculine gender roles, the expectations that come along), and which meaning of the blue is used is colored (ha get it) by the context of the scenes

at the end we reach the conclusion that masculinity and vulnerability can co-exist without contradicting each other in the final sequence of little in blue moonlight but WE WILL GET TO THAT IN A BIT

in the beginning chase sequence little is getting bullied and chased while he wears a blue backpack -> the blue here represents the vulnerability, and how it paints a target on chiron to get bullied by other kids

even in subtle details like how juan drives a blue car but doesn't wear blue on himself, how teresa wears blue through-out the movie, how there's hints of blue in juan and teresa's home (in that scene where juan has little sitting with his front to the door but back to the blue, but we the audience can see it, smth tells me its supposed to be how juan is trying to put up a front to act as a reliable older figure for little which GUH JUST SHOWS HOW MUCH HE CARES), his house's walls and mother wore blue at the beginning scenes which shows when he was younger he could feel and project vulnerability into his own home at one point

during the little section, after the chase sequence little is shown wearing a red shirt while other kids, including kevin, wear white and blue. white here is sort of used as a neutral color of uncertainty and perhaps innocence, while red is the opposite of blue; it's invulnerability, but also insecurity and femininity (which lines up with how chiron's mother wears red in the scene she yells at him), and it shows how chiron is outcasted with the kids, bc of his quiet nature

during the chiron section, the bully wears red and black, contrasting against chiron's mainly light colored outfits. i thought a long time for what the yellow could stand for, and maybe it's there to represent whenever chiron feels love towards another character (teresa, kevin, in specific scenes with his mother) or that sense of escapism (when he was running to the beach at night), his shirt for 80% of this section is a plaid shirt with yellow blue and white sort of mixed up together and a blank white shirt inside

before and during the betrayal scene, he wears a white shirt with blue lines, no yellow anymore bc it felt like he doesn't need to imagine kevin's love for him only exists in dreams. it's reality now, and it makes things more clear for him and his identity (THEIR SHIRTS EVEN MATCH LIKE THEY COMPLETE EACH OTHER IM GONNA CRY.)

also it might be to distinguish when its masculinity or vulnerability but the shade of blue used during the revenge scene is a more teal blue while the moonlight blue is like a natural real blue without a tint of green (i could yap on abt how green is used but this is getting too much)

now during the black section of the film, yellow is first used to represent anxiety for chiron when he wakes up from the nightmare; that escapism and affection he felt for kevin and his mother now reminds him of what happened years ago. it still haunts him. and it also haunts kevin shown in the scene when he calls chiron to apologize (but at the center the lighting is blue. he calls in vulnerability)

as black travels back to confront his past and familiar ties, his mother now wears light blue which is contrasted against chiron's darker shade of blue shirt in the forgiveness scene (they're on different ends of the spectrum, but they're slowly healing, both on the same page of what they wanna do; heal from the past)

as the movie continues, the yellow in scenes slowly turns to represent familiarity and affection instead of anxiety, but the yellow doesn't look warm or as bright as before; there's still tension, things left unsaid. but at the centre, the focus point of these scenes, there's blue, and it isn't tinted by another color (the car drive scene, how blue light peeks in through the diner scene, when kevin changes into a blue shirt)

and the scene where black fucking says "you're the only man who's ever touched me." good fucking god.

he looks at kevin's shirt. he wants the blue. he wants to share the vulnerability with kevin.

when kevin holds chiron, the lighting is dark, and the yellow now is warmer, it represents familiarity and affection again. a lot of things are still a mystery to them, a lot still left unsaid, but everything feels familiar again in a new way, in a more intimate way.

and that fucking scene where little looks back in the blue moonlight, showing how chiron's vulnerability and masculinity don't have to contradict one another; he reaches security with his child self. he finally heals.

this movie is so, so beautiful.

[frustratedpker]

Hey there,

I hope I'm not bothering you, but I have a question that needs answering and I figured that you as a Stefanologist are probably the best person to turn to with this One

I'm currently writing one a few Camera Nine Fanfictions, since I felt inspired after rereading some of the Comics and seeing the Content here on Tumblr

They are mostly going to be focused one the possible friendships between him and Layla, which works really well but the Proplem I run into is that i don't know how he would respond to being asked a question about his past ( by Layla, as well as possible strangers )

The past itself isn't the proplem, ( I have to admit I have the whole thing planned out in detail based on the scraps we got from the comics) but how he would answer it, if at all.

Would he avoid the question at all costs?

Would he give some cryptic answer?

Would he just tell Layla because he knows he can trust her?

I don't know, honestly. But without some answers given, a real friendship isn't really possible (and would make for a pretty boring fic)

What do you think about it?

(Also I'm really sorry this ask got so long)

Hello!!

You are not bothering at all, on the contrary I am very glad to talk about my favourite camera guy! No ask is long enough in this case!

First let me say that whenever you write the fic, I will be your first reader, we need more of those! I love possible Stefan and Lyla interactions!

And thank you for considering me as your first choice to talk to about this, it's an honour, but let me say that I am no authority, nor expert, so don't let my opinions confine you.

Now, to answer your question:

I think that whether or not he would reply and the way he would reply depends on the moment. When is Lyla asking him, at what point of the story?

If the question is asked early in their friendship, I don't think he would answer. He would either change the subject or ignore it. If he got asked later, he could provide a very generic or cryptic answer. I could also see him lying by omission.

Now, telling Lyla everything is tricky. I could see him doing that, but only under specific circumstances. If their friendship has progressed enough, maybe he could tell her the whole truth, but I can't see him getting into extreme detail.

I think that it would be easier for him to talk unprompted. At a right moment I think that he would open up by himself and share something. He definitely trusts Lyla. He knows that she has secrets too, so he would feel that there's some kind of leverage in his favour. He knows that she can't and wouldn't betray him.

Another scenario where I could see him telling the truth would be if his past got relevant in the present. For example, past enemies coming back or consequences of past actions resurfacing. In this case, I could see him revealing his past if asked under pressure, or to protect Lyla.

Also, I think that the way that he gets asked is important. A very direct question like "Tell me about your past" wouldn't have effect. Stefan answering simpler questions like "have you been in X", "do you know X" seems more possible to me. Generally 'yes or no' questions are more difficult to dodge, so they make excellent starting points for a conversation that will later reveal more important stuff.

Please, have in mind that this is just my opinion. You are free to address the subject in the way that makes the most sense for your story. After all, fanfiction is a what if...?

I hope this has been helpful

TL;DR

It all depends on when and how Lyla asks him. Put them in the "right" conditions that make sense in the context of your story and you couldn't go wrong!

Writing is hard, so have courage and keep going! I can't wait to see what you will come up with, dear stefanologist!

Allow me to tag @madmachaca whose opinion on the subject I'd like to hear (and whose Stefan fics, here on Tumblr, are the most in-character I have ever read, in my opinion)

[pathsofoak]

Het regeerakkoord wordt vrijdag 13 september (heerlijke datum ook) gepresenteerd. Ik vond het nogal storend dat met het handels- en hoofdlijnenakkoord de nieuwssites die ik volg eigenlijk alleen de grote en meest bekende koppen samenvatten (en soms niet eens zo goed), dus ik was van plan om het hele ding zelf door te nemen want ik heb toch niet veel te doen.

Als iemand interesse heeft dan kan ik hem ook samenvatten, dan post ik het in delen (of in een geheel, hangt er vanaf hoe lang het is, ik mag toch hopen dat het langer is dan het hoofdlijnenakkoord) hier op tumblr.

Mocht je dat willen lezen, like of reblog dit, of laat een reactie achter. Het wordt waarschijnlijk best veel werk, dus mocht niemand het willen dan heb ik voor mezelf ook wel genoeg aan het gewoon lezen.

[estomia]

Das letzte Mal als ich im Gleimhaus war, wurde ich gefragt wie ich denn zu Gleim gekommen bin..Und ich weiß nicht warum aber ich habs angefangen zu erklären wie als wäre ich Heroin abhängig

[rubikor]

Ur art style is so cool esp the way u draw eyes it’s so simple and cute!!