#silkkorchidshitpost

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SILVER FANS IT IS OUR TIME TO SHINE!

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I am convinced that we TWST fans are quiet and act small till the perfect time comes.

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I will completely serious.

Ikemen Sengoku: Bromances Across Time is god damn unhinged that it made me wheeze in two minutes xD

LOOK AT ME IN THE EYES AND TELL ME WTH IS GOING ON WITH THIS SCREENSHOT ALONE

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wtf did I just witness?

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I know most people don’t know about me but I really just want to vent out some of my frustration from the past 4 years

Some of the things mention may be sensitive to certain people

Look, I know most people online see me as a positive and supportive person or whatever. But I’m not always like that, some of my irl friends knows that I had my arts stolen and reposted before as their own and taking a tribute art without understanding the context, in which was my breaking point which I said what that one art meaning and how FUCKING INSENSITIVE THEY WERE! And going around trying to find my social media account trying to make me feel worthless, in which I did since I broke down crying over it.

Insta, Twitter, and any other popular social media platforms I don’t post my art there anymore after that experience. Let alone I don’t want my art to be taken away from me just to make fun of me. Which is the reason why I dislike seeing my art presented in front of so many people.

Let alone having rumors about me that I was cheating on a guy WHEN IN REALITY I WAS TALKING TO A FUXKING FRIEND DURING PASSING PERIOD! It doesn’t really help that I had a photo taken when I was talking to him without my permission nor did I notice. IT WAS WORST KNOWING SOME PEOPLE FUCKING BELIEVE IT AND THE ONLY GOD DAMN REASON WHY I FOUND OUT ABOUT BECAUSE OF MY CLASSMATE! Which made me have a strong resolve to NOT DATE SOMEONE.

And I really question my fucking existence as I STRUGGLING TO MAKE FRIENDS THAT WONT BETRAY MY DAMN TRUST OR JUST SOMETHING THAT I HEAVILY DISLIKE! And so much gaslighting happens within that old friend group of mine that I too became a sick and shitty person looking for any attention. Seeing how shitty I was just makes me sick to my stomach. Luckily I was able to move on with my life after that, which allowed me to become friends with people that actually take the time to understand me and joke around while respecting my boundaries and I do so too.

Tbh the only time I felt I was able to be comfortable on a platform without being made fun on is on Tumblr. As there are many people still using it despite it falling off from popularity. It allowed me to show my likes and dislike, and able to talk or roleplay which I missed doing. In which, being on tumblr made me feel like I’m apart of something and not being a person that takes up space.

I know it’s not like me to post something negative but I just want this frustration I been holding back to just get out of my body. While also showing that I’m not that all POSTIVE! I still make shitty mistake but, unlike my shit self back then, I take accountability for my actions then blaming others. Sorry for the long vent but I do hope this will give you some sort of relatability.

I’m signing off for the night

Take care everyone

-SilkkOrchid

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“You are like wearing bright colors yet you listen to dark-“

“Depressed?”

“Yeah depressed music”

- a conversation with a friend

Look the song resonates with me so I don’t give a fuck

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Do I feel stupid to make the Tea shenanigan with the Oda forces?

Since I feel like it suits them a lot talking the way they make tea in general and question each other way of thinking

Edit-

Ok I’m done with it

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Getting a drawing tablet after so many years of wanting one

HOPEFULLY I CAN DRAW A LOT MORE THEN PUTTING MY FINGERS IN SUCH PAIN

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Nice 👍

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I will go fix my intro for another day as it’s unorganized

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OH DAMN

I didn’t realize I got 100 followers until now

Uhh I will go and make an event for it to celebrate the milestone

Gonna officially start the event on Friday since I’m gonna be busy this week with projects here and there

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My mind : Hey, let’s do some Ikesen!Amaryllis and Ikesen!Morgan angst with Mitsunari in the background

School: I THINK NOT BITCH! GET BACK TO WORK

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I’m pretty close to getting 100 followers and I want to do an event to celebrate it

I will allow twst OCs for emotion base option + with the TWST cast that u guys request

The art piece one will just be one that I make so yeah :3

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Why tf do I gotta do 19 lessons IN A SINGLE WEEK!?

I’m so fucked with my brain fried when I’m done with this class.

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I crave violence some reason

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Oh ye if anybody wants to know if I got Bluesky, I got one so here my link to it