#sighhh long summer days are ending

[aideshou]

A transmutation battle before sunset; Orgone energy being the obvious victor.

[winterbl0ss0m]

omg i havent done these in so long 🤭 thank u for the tag!!

favorite color: red<3 ive also been leaning more towards mint greens and purples too lately but red is still my Favorite color<3

currently reading: uhh nothing unless u wanna count my school textbooks… i had reread and caught up on csm during the summer tho, and i had also read the witch’s path by thorn mooney as well :) (havent had time to read much else in that sorta area tho🥹)

last series: i think it was csm manga (still havent watched it…) i have a shit ton of stuff i need to catch up on. sighhh Eventually i will but that day is not today

sweet, savory, or spicy: sweet for sure!! guess thats fitting for a baking major 😭 i do love me some savory stuff but sweets stay 🔛��

currently working on: i havent been doing much big!! taking a break from catching up on classwork. also planning a sorta halloween-birthday-party at the end of the month (i want an excuse to use my nightmare before christmas cookbooks i have) so thats fun. also gotta make commission refs 👀 (u know who u are if u see this)

im not tagging anyone cause i honestly dk who to tag 😭 but if u see this and wanna do it, go for it !! <3

Thank you @kamileonik for the tag!!

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Favorite color: pastel yellow!

Currently reading: damn ittt, nothing right now. This is probably a sign to get back into Crime and Punishment and start Philosophical Investigations

Last series: currently watching Psyco-pass and One piece!

Sweet, savory, or spicy: SWEET. Of course sweet

Currently working on: Halloween costume! Making a Charlotte Witch’s Heart cosplay and I’ve been hogging my friends sewing machine since mine broke, and now I can’t use it anyone!! Idc if this meant improvement this means project to me

Tags, no pressure as usual! @flowerxar @some-random-dunce @galaxitic @comfortstars @elithebi @obsyddiansays

[fr3aklike-me]

Yes I'm trying to work to pay for my study in Finland! Aww i hope you're gonna find a job too! Then you can treat yourself to everything you want!!

I like walking too! In the summer, with my friends, we walk a lot!! I like dancing too, even though i'm not really good at it haha! Aww thank you 🙈

Did you had a good day today? I hope you had a chill week end 💕

-🎆

oooh, right, I hope it goes well! school is just too expensive, it's actually the one of the most frustrating things in the world. I really hope you get the job and are able to pay for your study, wishing you all the luck! <3 omg yes yes, definitely want to treat myself, but also got to spend quite the chunk of it on school, as well, sighhh

omg yes! walking with friends is so, so much fun. last year, when it started getting warmer and we could meet outside, my friends and I would go for two hour long walks just to see each other. and same here, I'm not the best, haha, but as long as it's fun! if you walk alone, do you listen to stuff, like music or podcasts?

I did! it was a very chill day, mostly just getting some school work done. how about you, how was your day + weekend?

also, I saw the post that said reminded you of me, hehe. so sweet of you, please send anything to me ever, I love to see it. tell me, sweetheart, what were you thinking of? us cuddling so innocently, pressing kisses to each other's faces, until I linger a few moments longer, my kisses a bit longer and wetter until you start sighing in pleasure? my hand sliding to your thighs, and rubbing softly, fingertips brushing, until you're left shivering at the lightness?

[novantinuum]

oH MAN so I have to share this… y’know how there’s the general fandom view that Ford’s influence was technically with us the whole time “through the journal,” right? 

well, I was ruminating over this today and sort of spouted a bunch of ideas @witete (sorRY ahahah XD) and we bounced some things back and forth and came up with an awful angst AU and I’m vaguely proud of it so okay here we go…

The sum of all of it: Ford’s trapped in the mindscape forever after Bill Cipher basically murders his body, but Bill’s threat still remains and Ford ends up learning to manipulate objects around him (i.e. like the journal) to try and warn people of this. Things do not go well.

I’ll babble on more under the cut. XD

oKAY so this likely takes place in some sort of rare universe where young Ford- post betrayal- actually asks for Stanley’s help to dismantle the portal rather than just hide the journals to preserve his “life’s work.” (I still think Ford wouldn’t tell Stan about Bill in shame, though… this will be important later on.) They’re a good long ways into dismantling it when one day Ford goes missing… and when Stan finally ends up finding him hours and hours later his brother is lying prone under a fresh layer of snow, frozen to death or something. (That’s the fate witete came up with! Thanks for the really heckin’ unnerving imagery, duuude…)

In reality, Bill ended up possessing Ford when he got a little too tired, and basically threatened to kill him (with one of the few things he still had at his disposal that Ford couldn’t get rid of- nature.) if he didn’t stop dismantling the portal. Gave him an ultimatum. Bill’s mistake, however, was wrongly assuming that Ford was selfish enough to put his own self-preservation above the safety of the entire dimension. He doesn’t quite realize how damn stubborn Ford is. 

Stubborn enough to die just to spite him. To cut him off from his one physical point of contact with this world, and this dimension itself.

So Ford dies. And Stan mourns. Stan still doesn’t understand how this happened. It’s been labeled by everyone else as suicide, but it just doesn’t make sense. Ford might have been a bit off his rocker, but he didn’t seem like he’d do… that.

Somehow Bill ends up contacting Stan within dreams, and spins some great elaborate lie (I’ll be honest I’m still not sure what said lie would have to entail to convince Stan) about how what happened to Ford was a tragic accident and that he can help him create some device that would be able to pull Ford’s “spirit” back into this world and allow it to manifest physically. (A.K.A take a mindscape dwelling creature and allow it to take physical form in the real world, which is exactly what Bill needs- but of course he doesn’t tell Stan that.) The little shit’s just trying to manipulate his way into this dimension again, as per heckin’ usual. Sighhh.

If Stan does smell a con, he doesn’t bring it up with Bill or deny the agreement. At this point, he’s utterly desperate to get Ford back, whatever it takes- which will eventually be his downfall. He’ll juggle the consequences when he gets to them, but damnit he’s gotta rescue Ford.

So he begins constructing Bill’s machine from the gutted parts of the portal. And much like in canon, it takes the good part of thirty years to get it near completion.

Meanwhile in the mindscape, Ford’s discovered that in his present state, he’s essentially tethered to Gravity Falls. He also discovers that while he does inhabit what is seemingly the same mindscape that Bill used and occupied during their old partnership, Bill is nowhere to be found. Is it possible that he’s somehow slipped into a pocket dimension due to his soul being permanently shucked here? 

But Ford begins to observe what’s going on in the world around him. And when he notices Stan beginning to build something from the old guts of the portal he freaks out because he just KNOWS that Bill is behind this, that he’s still trying to push into their dimension, that he’s manipulating Stan, he’s gonna hurt him he’s gonna betray him and oh god what if he kills him like he killed me?? Ford knows he has to stop this however he can, but there’s a big problem:

Unlike Dipper in Sock Opera, Ford’s connection to the real world at this point is so weak, diluted, and untested that he can barely influence or affect anything whatsoever. He’s stuck. He can’t communicate.

Over the span of multiple years, Ford very slowly begins to build up this connection. He starts trying to attract Stan’s attention in small ways… a stray gust of wind here, a slammed door there. This actually helps out Stan’s Mystery Shack a lot- because then he can claim it’s haunted. By the time Dipper and Mabel come along and Dipper finds the journal, he’s starting to learn how to affect the world in more complex ways. He grows particularly attached to Dipper, and helps him in his adventures by flipping the pages of the journal open to the exact bit he needed at any moment. There’s also been times where Dipper found himself in a pinch without his journal, and then turned around and saw it right there on the ground in front of him, brought to him by Ford via mindscape. 

Ford tries communicating with Dipper by spelling out words with things, but much like the “bewarb” thing from the first episode the messages are almost always muddled because he can’t quite get a grip with his mindscape abilities yet.

Summer moves on… Stan’s machine is almost finished… Dipper begins to suspect something is fishy with this magical journal of his, and his ultimate summer mystery is to crack the mystery behind it.

Then, there comes a point where Ford suddenly realizes that he possesses the ability to enter and influence dreams, much like Bill. He takes the first opportunity he can to enter Stan’s dream to try and warn him of what Bill is truly planing. Things do not go well, ofc. Come on, these are the Pines brothers we’re talking about. XD 

I’m gonna directly quote @witete here, because you put this perfectly:

So maybe Stan’s dreaming at one point and he just thinks it’s a regular dream of Ford (he’s had many of those before) but this one’s different- more… tangible in a sense. Ford seems more real. Dare he say alive (god that hurts Stan to say).

Stan quickly comes to realize that this Ford somehow MUST be real, because this Ford is pushing too many of his buttons all at once to just be a dream, idealized version of him. Ford demands that he stop construction on this machine, and warns him that Bill seeks to use it to enter the dimension and cause untold suffering to its entire population. Stan outright refuses, and basically says that he’s more than willing to bet the universe if he could have a chance at saving the life of his twin brother.

Desperate, Ford ends up going to Dipper in his dream next… hoping that he might be able to understand, since he already suspected the journal to be magic in some way. That he might be able to help him. Dipper’s pretty surprised at the whole situation of Ford manipulating the journal from a sort of pocket dimension- but accepts it pretty readily. However, just when Ford’s about to warn Dipper about the machine, Mabel wakes him up and the connection is lost. By this point, Ford’s so exhausted by TWO dream entries in one night that his energy is spent for a few days. He can’t do anything.

Dipper agonizes over what the important message could have been for the next few days, staring at the journal as if it could suddenly form words at any moment and tell him.

Even when Ford regains enough energy to try again, Stan still outright refuses to give up saving him. And even though he finally is able to fill in Dipper on what’s going on and instruct him on how to shut the machine down, it seems they’re gonna be unable to do anything in time… 

And while Ford doesn’t actually understand how he did it, in blind desperation he somehow ends up rushing towards Stanley within the mindscape, hoping to do anything to stop this, ANYTHING… and ends up accidentally shucking Stan out of his body and into the mindscape. He manages to shut the machine down. But it dawns on him afterwards that he has NO idea how to reverse it and push himself back into the mindscape where he belongs.

Even worse, he realizes that he’s essentially just cursed Stan to the same existence he suffered in loneliness through for thirty long years. He possessed his own brother, stole his body, without his consent. In this way, he’s just like Bill- and that sickens him. Furthermore, it took him years to figure out how to manipulate his surroundings, but Stan doesn’t have that experience. They HAVE to find a way to communicate with each other, but how??

And y-yeah that’s all I have for now. I have no idea how this ends or how things are solved right now, although Ford is definitely still dead physically however this plays out whoOPS.

To finish, please take this lighter, ridiculous idea witete proposed from just after Ford accidentally possessing Stan:

So I imagine that the kids never really notice the difference at first so after all the shit has gone down Ford just fucking starts… yelling at the air because he knows that Stan’s there. He’s saying shit like “just fucking… I don’t know… slam me into the dirt like those men from WWE!” The kids are so scared and confused. (Idk the idea of just Ford yelling desperately into the air at presumably nothing just makes me laugh)

What a beautiful image to end on XD