#shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn

[lilolilyr]

Aww thank you! I'm so happy you think so <3 & yes I'll definitely make more in the future, I like making manips and this fandom is the best! Also taking prompts btw, just send me an ask and I'll see when I have time to make something for it!

I did already make a manip for this fic header here, and this one for @squishmittenficfan's wonderful AU fic :)

@akaanonymouth @sapphicdbc @shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn thanks for reblogging it as well, and the nice things you guys said <3 thought you might like to see the other two manips as well! Do you want me to keep @ ing you if/when I upload new Berena content?

& here are the sources of the manip above, hadn't posted them yet (I think... Or maybe tumblr is hiding them again because of the Evil External Links)

Catherine Russell | Jemma Redgrave | background

& Zenobia you were spot on with the highschool faculty AU vibes, the background pic's a teachers' room, I needed something with chairs bc Bernie's sitting down, & didn't find anything good under 'hospital staff room', so school staff room it is xD now I remember reading a Berena teacher AU, but I can't remember the name...

Note: when making manips, remember to adjust the lighting, especially the skin colour of people who usually have the same or very similar skin colour because that makes it Really noticeable and adjusting it after the fact is a Pain 🙈 I tried a bit, just left it at Eh Good Enough & then I managed go fuck up Again and edit new Serena face & hands into the pic where I hadn't painted over Bernie's missing arm piece yet... So I had to edit that in too xD oh well, it was still fun!

I know Berena is very canon and doesn't really need me to make silly manips, but something about this photo of Jemma Redgrave just Screamed Bernie looking longingly at Serena to me :D I'm thinking pre-relationship, Serena completely oblivious to Bernie staring at her... until maybe a colleague of theirs points it out to her, because Bernie was staring at her during the entire meeting!

Catherine Russell | background image

[starfleetwitch]

You know how it goes... Your holiday flight gets cancelled, you get board, you start filming a video for the fandom meme 🤣👌🏻

[batnbreakfast]

What do you mean this is about pizza @shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn ??

I thought it was just: get a slice (size not specified) of cheese! 😂😂😂

Which is obviously why I was thinking about Wisconsin.

[berena-winter-event]

The Official a (not so) Silent Night Playlist

As this is a song-inspired event, we felt some accompanying music was in order! Enjoy this collection of songs nominated by your fellow Berena fans

Tracklist:

Auld Lang Syne Ingrid Michaelson // @daystarsearcher

Baby It’s Cold Outside Ella Fitzgerald & Louis Jordan // @choreomanic

Back to December Taylor Swift // @lilolilyr

Both Sides Now Joni Mitchell // @sapphicdbc

Christmas (Baby Please Come Home) Darlene Love // @doctorjameswatson

Christmas Lights Yellowcard // @lilolilyr

Count Your Blessings (Instead of Sheep) Diana Krall // @batnbreakfast

Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairy Tchaikovsky // @bonnissance

December 1963 Franki Valli & The Four Seasons // @slightlyintimidating

December Will Be Magic Again Kate Bush // @veganpepsibaby

Happy XMas (War is Over) John Lennon & Yoko Ono // @slbrigzi19

Hazy Shade of Winter Simon & Garfunkel // @tebarambles

He's Stuck in the Chimney Again Ana Gasteyer // @seahorsepencils

I Wish it Could be Christmas Everyday Wizzard // @sapphicdbc

I'll Be Home For Christmas The Carpenters // @shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn

I’m Gonna Be Warm This Winter Connie Francis // @doctorjameswatson

Imperfect Christmas Malinda // @imagebender

In the Bleak Midwinter Julie Andrews // @lapalfruity

Just for Now Imogen Heap // @ktlsyrtis

Last Christmas Wham! // @choreomanic

Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Dean Martin // @ktlsyrtis

Let the Bells Ring Kate Rusby // @doctorjameswatson

Men of Snow Ingrid Michaelson // @seahorsepencils

Once Upon a December David Newman // @starfleetwitch

One Toy Soldier Enya // @starfleetwitch

River Robert Downey Jr // @batnbreakfast

Santa Baby Eartha Kitt // @lapalfruity

Sleigh Ride The Ronettes // @ariverandasong

Snowfall Ingrid Michaelson // @tebarambles

Someday At Christmas Stevie Wonder // @danceswithcows01

Song for a Winter's Night Gordon Lightfoot // @pers-books

Stay Another Day East 17 // @akaanonymouth

Step Into Christmas Elton John // @veganpepsibaby

The Christmas Song The Raveonettes // @slightlyintimidating

The Heartache Can Wait Brandi Carlile // @seahorsepencils

The Longest Night of the Year Mary Chapin Carpenter // @shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn

The Power Of Love Frankie Goes To Hollywood // @slightlyintimidating

Underneath the Tree Kelly Clarkson // @ktlsyrtis

Valley Winter Song Fountains of Wayne // @akaanonymouth

What Are You Doing New Year’s Eve? Ella Fitzgerald // @batnbreakfast

Where Are You Christmas Faith Hill // @danceswithcows01

White Christmas Bing Crosby // @coldblizzardqueen

White Winter Hymnal Fleet Foxes // @akaanonymouth

Winter Song Ingrid Michaelson & Sara Bareilles // @tebarambles

[batnbreakfast]

I read these tags and have to admit that my first thought was: Is Eddie changing footwear again?? 😅

ohhhh my god WE GET ABBY BACK.

[backjustforberena]

Meet the Writer

Tagged by the lovely @unreliablenarratorink​ (I don’t often do these sorts of things, but this was fun - thank you for thinking of me x)

Rules: Use this Picrew and make yourself and answer the questions below.

Three Fun Facts About Me:

I have two brothers who are the same age as me.

My dream is for a little flat with my own dog.

I know how to knit but not how to knit anything in particular.

Favourite season: Autumn. It’s not rotten and miserable like winter, but I can bring out the knitwear. Good for woods. It also feels like the year has settled. Few expectations.

Continent Where I Live: Europe.

How I Spend my Time: I’m signed off of work at the moment, so I’m still trying to figure the answer to that one out. Walking? Watching media? Sleeping. Listening to lots of music.

Are You Published: Not as a writer, no!

Introvert or Extrovert: At the moment? Introvert. I’ve not got a lot of spoons at the moment.

Favourite meal? Lately I’ve been making a spaghetti carbonara from scratch which isn’t too shabby. But you can’t beat a good roast chicken dinner either.

Tagging: @joycieillustrations, @lonelier-version-of-you​ and @shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn.

[pers-books]

Tagged by @jennyandvastraflint

Last listened to: Doctor Who S3 soundtrack (Martha, my Beloved!)

Reading: The Vor Game (space opera) by Lois McMaster Bujold

Watching: Just hit S5 of Stargate SG-1 (Carter, my beloved!); guess I should watch GO S2 before I get hit by more spoilers.

Current obsession: Uh, what kind of obsession? ‘cos my biggest one is photographing postboxes. (Yes, really!)

Tagging @thisbluespirit @slightlyintimidating @ceridwyn2 @kowarth @shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn @might-be-a-zygon - with absolutely no obligation to participate as usual.

[beatle78]

I posted 88 times in 2022

That's 86 more posts than 2021!

42 posts created (48%)

46 posts reblogged (52%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@backjustforberena

@shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn

@beatle78

@ktlsyrtis

@josephgraham

I tagged 62 of my posts in 2022

Only 30% of my posts had no tags

#berena - 49 posts

#bernie wolfe - 27 posts

#serena campbell - 25 posts

#holby city - 14 posts

#eastenders - 5 posts

#paul mccartney - 4 posts

#suki - 3 posts

#catherine russell - 3 posts

#eve - 3 posts

#the beatles - 2 posts

Longest Tag: 29 characters

#my 2022 tumblr year in review

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

99 notes - Posted May 14, 2022

#4

Merry Christmas to Serena and Bernie Wolfe, celebrating their first Christmas as a married couple tomorrow. Cheers 🍷🍷🍾

104 notes - Posted December 24, 2022

#3

Right, so what is this?

107 notes - Posted March 29, 2022

#2

113 notes - Posted September 21, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Confirmed!

144 notes - Posted March 30, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

[starfleetwitch]

I've been wanting to do that for weeks.

[lilolilyr]

1k, rated G, no warnings, AU meet-cute

Thanks for the inspiration, @berenaadvent! <3

Spoilery summary below the cut:

Back from her last deployment and in the middle of a messy divorce, Bernie tries to appease her daughter by buying her favorite fruit: tangerines. Meanwhile, Serena has just unwittingly bought the last ones at the market right before Bernie can ask for some - but of course, Serena is willing to help out a fellow mother of a difficult teenage daughter! That Bernie is nice to look at doesn't hurt, either...

My Berena tag list, lmk if you want on/off it: @sapphicdbc @akaanonymouth @starfleetwitch @madam-wakefield @shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn

[starfleetwitch]

Yesterday was SO good 😭😭😭 I've got con hangover but Jemma was so sweet and I was in good company and honestly if Jemma wants to yell across the table at me 'HI CAT' and 'BYE CAT' then I guess I'm now a Cat/ a wolf called cat ��🏼‍♀️😂

@shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn EVERYTIME I look at the photos I start laughing over you saying it looked like professional promo shots for a detective show. Turner and Hooch 🤣 love it 🤣🤣🤣

[batnbreakfast]

@shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn Talking about Shark Snark…

[backjustforberena]

Is this your “ask” box?

In delayed response to the how do Serena and Bernie recommit to each other question, I don’t have a complete answer but I’m not a “the text was the first time Bernie said I love you again” believe. I think loving each other deeply was a given and I don’t they would pretend otherwise. I can’t imagine either of them hesitating over the word love when the resurrection and healing are happening. The question for me is when do they go from - simply being present together to “this is once again a relationship where we are actively planning a future. When do either of them entertain the notion of future. When do they have sex? Passion? I’d think they might even be sleeping in the same bed well before they have sex again. What with Bernie needing to heal and Serena needing to see Bernie as strong and alive rather than either injured (emotionally and physically) or some precious figment/dream. So I have no answers.

How’s that for a lousy ask?

Yes, this is my ask box! Sorry for not getting to this straight away. I'm awful at checking my Tumblr when on my laptop. I'm usually on my phone, but this was not an answer to attempt on a small device. So thanks for your patience.

I totally agree with you saying that Serena and Bernie loving each other is a given. Serena said she would always love Bernie, to Alex, and Bernie told Serena when they'd last seen each other (and broken up) that she knew they would always love each other. So yeah... love? Not their problem. And I'm sure when they are reunited, it hits them like a gut punch.

The interesting thing is that when they do reunite, they are both in extremely vulnerable positions. For Bernie, it's a leap of faith to reach out to Serena as "the only person [she] could face", because it's been 2 years or thereabouts since they last spoke and there was a chance Serena could have moved on or just plainly said no. I don't think Bernie ever thought Serena would but it's a big ask and a big commitment. She's physically wounded, she's mentally scarred and in inviting Serena back into her life, she's inviting all that pain as well as all that love. And Bernie knows that a "suburban" Bernie Wolfe isn't, so Serena said, what Serena fell in love with. So a beaten up, damaged Bernie Wolfe who is neither use nor ornament isn't something Bernie thinks Serena can love either. So... cards close to the chest.

For Serena (and I am ignoring any and all Alex angles and previous engagements because I just... urgh), her issue is her emotional vulnerability. She clearly loves Bernie, but she has to keep her at arm's length. Even though, I think, from the moment Serena gets to be by Bernie's side again, she's not going anywhere. This is it for her. Friends or more. She doesn't care, she's committed. And that hurts. But when is the right time to tell her that she still loves her? That she wants to be with her? Bernie has her own issues, she's been through massive trauma. And the worst thing Serena thinks she can do is make it so Bernie is uncomfortable and therefore unwilling to accept any help. Especially if Serena is the only one who she is willing to accept that help from. And Serena probably thinks that there has to be a decent chance that Bernie will reject her, like Serena had rejected her before, at Jason's wedding. Ergo: it has to be Bernie's move. Which sucks, because Bernie only makes a move when she's not thinking about it. And all she has is time to think.

So, like you say: when do they go from - simply being present together to “this is once again a relationship where we are actively planning a future.

I think everyone has their own headcanons on that. I have mine. I think they have to get the immediate issues out of the way: Bernie's injuries, the majority of her mental scars. They need to learn how to be around each other and have a sense of stability before either can conceive of rocking the boat.

I agree: sleeping together before sex. It's all steps, isn't it? It's like a brand new relationship, despite their history. I don't have any headcanons about the first time they have sex though. Not really my area.

It's okay not to have answers. Frankly, canon has given us zip to go off of. So it can be whatever you like and it can change all the time. I have multiple versions of Serena and Bernie reuniting in the hospital. Multiple ways they can deal with things. For example, one really simple question which answer changes daily for me is: is Bernie awake when Serena sees her again?

Who is to know?

[beatle78]

I posted 85 times in 2022

That's 83 more posts than 2021!

39 posts created (46%)

46 posts reblogged (54%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@backjustforberena

@shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn

@beatle78

@ktlsyrtis

@josephgraham

I tagged 59 of my posts in 2022

Only 31% of my posts had no tags

#berena - 47 posts

#bernie wolfe - 26 posts

#serena campbell - 24 posts

#holby city - 14 posts

#eastenders - 5 posts

#paul mccartney - 4 posts

#catherine russell - 3 posts

#eve - 3 posts

#suki - 3 posts

#sukeve - 2 posts

Longest Tag: 17 characters

#catherine russell

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

60 notes - Posted April 20, 2022

#4

99 notes - Posted May 13, 2022

#3

Right, so what is this?

107 notes - Posted March 29, 2022

#2

112 notes - Posted September 21, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Confirmed!

144 notes - Posted March 30, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

[lilolilyr]

A Berena (Holby City) canon-divergence getting together fanfiction on Ao3, 2k G, no warnings

I wrote a snippet that's kind of a version of this with Serena calling Elinor for her birthday a while ago on tumblr (under the cut) here, but ended up writing more of a version with Bernie and Charlotte, now it's on Ao3!

Thanks @squishmittenficfan for helping me along! <3 I know it didn't turn out particularly long anyway, but without you as a sounding board it wouldn't have gotten posted at all!

My Berena tag list: @sapphicdbc @akaanonymouth @starfleetwitch @shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn @lavendelhummel, let me know if you want to get added or removed from the list!

[jemmaredgravewhore]

omggg ty for the tag :’)

last song i listened to: Too Sweet by Hozier (so basic)

currently watching: Traces with my mum and brother, and I’m on my like 6th rewatch of Superstore!

currently obsessed with: <an irl guy who im delulu about> FRISBEE, HOZIER, that team USA ice skating partnership on instagram, + ofc all my gay little shows

tagging (only if you want to ofc): @temerairemybeloved @batnbreakfast @lonelier-version-of-you @shippingsincebeforeyouwereborn @cosmologicalspoon @starfleetwitch @glowelle

+ anyone who sees this & wants to!!

@future-oscarwinner thank you for tagging me!!

get to know you better game! answer the questions and tag 9 people you want to know better

last song I listened to: I'm not sure but I'll go with

currently watching: iZombie

currently obsessed with: I'm really into everything F1 related rn with a sprinkle of drawing the same flowers over and over again

tagging @justnerdystuffs @keysmashhhhhhhh @sugaroto @alalumin @darkside-cookies @mne-bolno @formulapisces @summergirl2408 @purple-amaranthe