#shiori makes me cry for personal relating reasons but also just man. what a miserable way to live

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I feel like an element that gets a little overlooked with Shiori is that her condescension towards Juri’s love is rooted in self hatred. It’s why nothing changes even when Shiori knows their affection is mutual. Because Juri loving another girl - loving Shiori - is a humiliation by virtue of the fact it’s a girl, and thus Unfathomable to heteropatriachal society, and (to Shiori’s mind) that it’s her when Juri is so much better than her. And the only salve to the gaping maw that is Shiori’s own lack of self worth is to leverage that love over Juri’s head and think her pitiful for it. Not to mention the entire thing that is Shiori fearing if their love was ever to escape this purgatory of existing but never being touched, it would eventually end and Shiori…god Shiori has never escaped wanting to chase after Juri’s shadow…