#shinjiro pov

[still-breathing-au-p3r]

Junpei had come by to visit today, with Aigis in tow. A few weeks ago Shinjiro would have called them an unexpected set, but according to Aki and Kirijo, the two of them have been hanging out a lot lately. Kirijo had a few laments about some less than proper turns of phrase Aigis had been taught as a result, but considering that Aigis likes yakuza novels so much, Shinjiro figures she’d pick that sort of thing up with or without Junpei’s influence.

They’d gotten Shinjiro updated on all of the most inane and pointless gossip from school– or Junpei had, at least. Aigis’ idea of gossip tended more towards insane and pointless, which at least made it highly entertaining. He has no idea how a whole breeding population of rain swifts could have even gotten into the defunct observatory tower, but according to Aigis, those little birds apparently have drama that makes daytime soaps look tame.

Once he’d run out of other people’s business to share, Junpei had dipped out to visit Chidori. He seems to really be serious about her, which Shinjiro feels– oddly proud of him for? Aki’s sentimentality when it comes to the juniors is catching, apparently.

So that leaves just him and Aigis in the room. Usually she’s good company, but ‘usually’ is doing a lot of heavy lifting right now. Neither of them have said a word since Junpei left, and Aigis has fixed him with an owlish kind of focus. She’s not even blinking, which he’s pretty sure she normally does.

The silence stretches on. Shinjiro feels the demented urge to hitch the sheets over his head like a little kid hiding from a closet monster. Aigis just keeps looking at him.

She finally blinks, as if taken out of some kind of trance.

He debates for a second whether being scanned is more or less uncomfortable than being stared at. Probably more, since she can apparently see the inside of his head. Considering what she is, it makes sense that she can pull that off, but it’s damn unsettling.

That’s so on brand for her that it’s almost hilarious. Or at least it would be if it wasn’t at Shinjiro’s own expense. He sighs and runs a hand through his hair.

Shinjiro snorts. He’s never met someone with a talent for speaking in air-quotes quite like Aigis.

He readies himself for more bird drama. It definitely beats talking about himself.

Koromaru drama works too. Just mentioning him makes Shinjiro wish more than ever that dogs were allowed at the hospital.

Shinjiro laughs so sharp and sudden that he chokes on it and slumps into a spate of shallow, asthmatic coughs. Aigis waits politely for him to get his shit back together.

Goddamn. That’s the second time she's gotten that kind of reaction out of him. She’s way too good at that.

He clears his throat awkwardly.

Good grief. After everything that’s come gunning for his life recently and failed to kill him, he swears it’s going to be Aigis being Aigis that gets him in the end.

[datcravat]

Cleaned up that FEMC sketch

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[sugary-cherriboi]

Hospital Room

Shinjiro x Gn!Reader

~Spoilers for P3~

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October 5th

Akihiko's pov

I was hesitant on entering the hospital room. I couldn't bare to see him after what happened the night before. I knew they were waiting in the room. Placing my hand on the handle, I paused as I prepared myself. Taking a deep breath, I slide open the door to reveal Y/n laying their head beside his body. My own body started to shake. It was hard to believe this was really happening. They haven't moved from their spot since we admitted him last night. I wasn't even sure if they've eaten anything. "Y/n?" I spoke their name softly as I approached them. No response. As I got closer, I realized they fell asleep, with their eyes all red and puffy from crying. Their face beginning to look all pale and sickly. I sighed. They've never been so distraught before. In battle, they've always has a cool head, but now, they're a mess.

I pulled up a chair beside their sleeping body. Shinji asked me to look after them, but I should of known what he meant by that. I should of put it all together sooner, but I guess it was his choice after all. I shook my head as I tried to not think so deep about it.

I looked down at their sleeping form. Their face began to contort into a discomforted look. My eyes widened as I wasn't exactly sure what was happening with them. Are they okay? Their breathing started to get heavy as sweat glistened their forehead. Suddenly, they shot up. "Shinjiro!!" They screamed his name as they were in a panic. Heavily breathing as they looked at Shinji, seemingly check to make sure he was still there. They looked sadly upon him since he was still in a coma. 

"Y-y/n?" I spoke their name softly, hoping to not spook them, but they tensed up a bit so I may have a little bit. Their eyes were so dull and lifeless. 

"Akihiko-san!" They seemed very much surprised that I was here. "How long have you been sitting there?" They asked embarrassingly as they looked away from me. 

"Not for long." I told, hoping they wouldn't be too mad or anything, but instead they just nodded and silently looked back at Shinji. The silence was a bit unbearable, but I wasn't sure on how to interact with them. Their old personality was nowhere to be seen. They've become almost sort of an empty husk. "Maybe we should go out and get some fresh air." I suggested, trying to help in some way. They just shook their head as they continued to stare at Shinjiro. I frowned as they was being quite difficult, but I can understand where's coming from though. They loved him a lot and now he's on the verge of never waking up again. They must be pretty perturbed about him, that fear must be very high for them. 

I placed a hand on their shoulder. "Y/n." I was very stern with them. "Shinji wouldn't want you to just sit around and mope." I started, hoping this would be good words of advice for them. "He's want you to try and continue living and right now, you're not doing that. He's still going to be right here whether you sit there or not." I stood up from my seat as my hand fell off their shoulder. "So I'm heading out to train for Shinji's sake. If you wanna sit around and mope, then so be it. " With a quick turn of my heels, I headed towards the door. I hated being harsh towards them, but I'm hoping it does them some good. I paused as I placed my hand on the handle, waiting to see if they'd react. Nothing, I shook my head and sighed. "Thought you were better than tha-"

"Gyagh!" Something slammed against my back. I held my back as I turned around. The only person who could of done it. The look in their eyes changed. They were filled with something I've never seen from them. I couldn't exactly tell what the look in their eyes were all about, but they were determined at the very least. They were filled with a mixture of emotion, I could tell that, though. 

They crackled their knuckles as they glared at me. It felt like sharp daggers pierced through me. It felt like ages before they finally spoke. "I will destroy every last shadow." They asked, which my eyes widened. This was not the same Y/n from before Shinji was hospitalized. They've became something else. "And I will kill Strega." My heart dropped as my mouth fell agape. This.. Malice over took them. The look in their eyes! Pure hatred. 

My hands moved on their own as I landed a hook against their cheek. As I reeled my hand back, I noticed that they seemed unfazed by what I just did. "Do you even hear yourself!?!" Yelling at them, I gripped onto their shoulder.

They slapped my hand away. Another glare shot pierced me. "Akihiko." They seldom call me Akihiko. This was all wrong. "I cannot stand by and let any more of my loved ones die because of me." Their voice was so aggressive and filled with guilt. This wasn't them. "I must fight on." They took a step past me, towards the door. "I will fight on-"

I gripped onto their shoulder and forced them to face me. "You're being a damn fool!" They needed to be knocked out of this. "Do you really think this is what they wanted!?" Trying to use some logic for them to realize how they were acting. They didn't respond back. "There's no way in hell either of them want you to act like this!!" I furrowed my brows as I softened my grip on their shoulder. "Shinji wanted me to look after you, and that's what I'm going to do!" Still nothing from them. I bit my lip as I began to feel tears well up, looking to the ground. "We lost Miki. We lost Shinji. I know damn well I can't deal with another loss." My voice cracked. 

I glanced up to see their face contorted into tears. They were trying to hold them back, but they soon began to slowly pour out. "Aki." They coughed out as they tried to wipe away the tears, but the tears were persistent. "I-" Their voice cracked. "I can't take this anymore!" A quick outburst. "I have to leave-"

I gently grabbed their hand. I gave them pleading eyes, showing them I didn't want them to leave. "Please don't do anything rash." My voice was soft, trying to get a little promise. "Promise me that you won't put yourself in harm's way." Now I was begging as I pulled them closer to me, wrapping my arms around them. "Please. I don't want to lose you, too." I whispered softly as I buried my hand into their shoulder, squeezing them like they would be gone after I let go. 

Their arms sneaked their way around me. "I'll be careful to not put myself in harm's way." They quickly promised me. "But you have to do that same." I nodded.

"I will." Their arms squeeze me tighter as they dug their head into my shoulder. "We have to live. For them." I added on so there'd be some pressure on us. "They'll never forgive us if we throw our lives away, you got that?"They nodded with a affirmative hum. Pulling away, I kept my hands on their arms. Silence fell upon the room. "Well." I cleared my throat as I removed my hands off them. No words came out of my mouth. The two of us standing there in silence. Our eyes darted around the room. 

"I hope Shinji didn't hear any of that." They mumbled as they rubbed the back of their neck. They were trying to get a much more livelier vibe to the room. 

I crossed my arms. "I know you're just trying to distract yourself." Maybe it wasn't such a bad idea to. I've definitely haven't been the best with dealing with this. 

They sighed. "I know." They grumbled as they crossed their arms. "It's going to be hard for the two of us." I frowned as they weren't wrong. 

There had to be something to help us get through this, even if for a moment. Then an idea popped into my head. "Let's get beef bowls." I tried to put on a smile as my throat lumped up. Great, more tears. 

They put on a small smile as they turned towards the door, placing a hand on the handle. Silenced filled the small gap before they spoke up. "Y-yeah. Like old times." Even though they weren't facing me, I could tell that there was tears forming in their eyes. With a quick wipe using their arm, they got rid of tears and opened the door. I followed behind them as the two of us went to get beef bowls. 

While behind them, I noticed their legs were severely shaking. "Woah! You aren't walking there without some help." I wrapped an arm under theirs. They just rolled their eyes and allowed me to help them walk there. So my suspicion was right; they hadn't ate anything for awhile. I just shook my head as we continued our path.

I smiled down at the floor as we walked. 

I'll bring one back for you, Shinji. 

You, too, Miki.

I'm sure you would of have enjoyed that place as much as we do.

[nejishadow]

The Circumstances of Our Existence

Summary:

There had been a few times, when one member or another of SEES would ask Ken a question that alluded to his Shadow Weapon status, or described something about him in a way you wouldn’t a regular person. He would get a far off look in his eye, almost dim, before bouncing back and responding like the question hadn’t been worded that way at all.

One battle he’d gotten a partially nasty hit to the chest, breaking his plating quite severely, even through all his clothing. He’d immediately passed out. Turned off…?

When he’d been fully fixed – taking several days and nights – and booted back up, he acted as if nothing was wrong. Just asking if his flu was really that bad? It made them all pause, either in confusion or shock. Shortly after Makoto requested them all treat Ken as any other boy, a human one. Who knew what forcing him to confront his true nature would do? Not now, when they knew so little about him.

Makoto knew the pain of facing repressed memories. How all consuming and dangerous they were. He wouldn’t wish it upon anyone.

Series: Part 5 of Shadow Weapon Ken

Chapters: 1/1

Fandom: Persona 3

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: None

Relationships: Amada Ken & Persona 3 Protagonist, Amada Ken & Arisato Minato, Amada Ken & Yuuki Makoto, Takeba Yukari & Amada Ken

Characters: Amada Ken, Male Persona 3 Protagonist, Persona 3 Protagonist, Arisato Minato, Yuuki Makoto (Persona Series), Takeba Yukari, Sanada Akihiko (Mentioned), Aragaki Shinjiro (mentioned), Kirijo Mitsuru (Mentioned)

Additional Tags: Shadow Weapon Ken, POV Persona 3 Protagonist, Persona 3 AU, Banter, Introspection, Platonic Relationships, Protective Older Brothers, Big Brothers, Persona AU, musings, Everyday Life, Persona 3 Protagonist is called Makoto Yuki, Autistic Ken Amada, Self-Reflection, I'm Bad At Tagging, Anti Shadow Weapon

[tacitusauxilium]

Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance: Kübler-Ross referred to them as the “five stages of death.” Eventually, she adapted and extended her model to include other kinds of loss. The five stages of death became the five stages of grief. This grief can come in many forms and for different reasons. Everyone, from all walks of life and across cultures, experiences loss and grief at some point.

Mourning doesn’t come only from dealing with your own death or the death of a loved one. Mourning can also come as a result of a close relationship. Grief can similarly come from a perceived or real change in your life. In other words, there’s no written-in-stone list of “valid” reasons to grieve.

What matters is how you feel. And there are no right or wrong feelings regarding a loss.

A 1st person POV of what Fuuka Yamagishi's thoughts and feelings were while she was a member of S.E.E.S., in which she goes into detail about the time she fell in, and out of, love with Shinjiro Aragaki.

[moggie-moe]

RP Post

🌾 • Miss Moggie’s RP Request • 🌾

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**Rules / Requirments**

1.) 17+

*I myself am 18 year old, and I would feel more comfortable if my partners were of similar age or older. I also require this because I’m not shy to dive into heavy topics*

2.) Provide Good Responses in Third POV

*I require at least two full-length paragraphs with each response. I am able to do 2 up to 8 full-length paragraphs. If you love doing more, go you! Do what you love. The more details, the better*

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I’m currently looking for partners who would be interested in Demon Slayer or the Persona games from 3 to 5. I’m fully open to Canon Ships or Double Ups with any ship pairing ^^

**For Demon Slayer, I am looking for someone to RP;**

> Genya

> Obanai

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**For Persona, I’m looking for someone who will RP;**

> Junpei

> Shinjiro

> Ryuji

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*If you have questions, or simply interested, feel free to DM me! This post is continually open. All RPs will be moved to Discord.*

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[mireillesnotebook]

Welcome

to my little portfolio. I hope you find what you are looking for!

I'm Mireille and these are the fics I've created over the last years.

Here you'll find fanfiction of:

Genshin Impact (💜 💛Beiguang my beloved 💜 💛)

Star Rail

Persona 3

Path to Nowhere (drabble)

I like to try new genres and styles. That's why the list below has all possible ratings as well as crack, hurt and mcd. Perhaps next I'll tackle a poem, who knows.

List of my works:

▪️A flickering Feeling - Star Rail, Friends to Lovers to Enemies, Himeko get an unexpected visit from Kafka, Rating T

▪️Alluring flames - snuffed out, ignited anew - Arlecchino/Signora, not your usual love story, Signora starts to visit the orphanage regularly under the vigilant eyes of Father, Rating T

▪️Always Late - Ningguang waits for Beidou, MCD, Hurt no Comfort, Rating T

▪️Before - Ninety-Nine - Path to Nowhere, small drabble and introspection into Ninety-Nine's life

▪️Driving me crazy - RaceCarDriver Ningguang and Mechanic Beidou, bad puns and dirty jokes following the Hoyofair art, Rating M

▪️Hard to catch/Easy to hold - Ningguang Birthday Fic, a riddle and them being lovey-dovey, Rating T

▪️How to win negotiations - Porn with (a little bit) Plot, Beidou gets bored during a meeting and faces the consequences, Rating E

▪️Joined under the maple tree - WIP, Beiguang ModernAU, Adoption and Parenting, collaboration with Han-Tyumi, Rating M

▪️Kisses change us forever - ModernAU, SickFic, Hurt/Comfort, Ningguang falls terribly sick and Beidou tries to help as much as she can, Rating T

▪️Of gifts and breakdowns - Crack fic, inspired by yuniemakis posts about seaslugs, Beidou brings all kinds of unexpected and unwanted gifts, Rating T

▪️Of rice and socks - Sick/Comfort/Crack fic, Persona 3, Mitsuru and Shinjiro take care of a sick Akihiko

▪️Only memories remain - Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Mavuinen, when her pasts resurfaces Xilonen is there to comfort her

▪️Pinky Promise - Beiguang Childhood/First Meeting, Rating G

▪️Playing games (and winning occasionally) - Falling in love while playing chess among other things, character study of Ningguang from Beidou's POV, Rating T

▪️Pokki Game - Persona 3 Akihiko & Mitsuru repeat the pokki game every year and get a little bit closer with every bite

▪️Promise me you won't die - Canon, Friends to Lovers, the night before the fight against Beisht decisions were made, Rating T

▪️Scattered wisdom in a sea of clouds - Hurt/Comfort, inspired by the Sumeru Archon Quest, Ningguang becomes the target in the pursuit of knowledge, last chapter let's go, Rating T

▪️Short Stories Collection - series of shorter ideas that popped into my mind, Rating T to E

▪️The blue conch - Ningguang remembers her past after Beidou brings a gift, Rating G

▪️The boisterous waters beckon - MermaidAU, Beidou meets a mermay as she is about to drown, Rating T

▪️Timing is everything - Ningguang birthday fic, Beidou tries to surprise Ningguang on her special day, Rating T

▪️To make a wish - Persona 3, Developing Relationship, it's the anniversary of Miki's death and Akihiko needs a push from Mitsuru to get going, Rating T

▪️️Transitory - Canon, the fall of the Jade Chamber hurt Ningguang more than she wants to admit, Rating T

▪️Verses to heal your soul - Canon, with Beidou's birthday approaching Ningguang seems to be even busier than usual, how odd, Rating T

▪️What if I lost you - Hurt/Comfort, Blood/Violence, a Fatui surprise attack, a fight and the Tianquan falls, Rating M

▪️When you're around everything feels warm - Fluff and Cuteness, Mavuinen, Xilonen wants to take a nap, but her girlfriend has other plans

▪️Worthless - Angst/Hurt/Comfort, Canon, Beidou cares for Ningguang after a nightmare, Rating T

Find me on AO3 as MireilleXY and on Twitter/X as YXMireilleXY

[brookeginko]

(for the ask game) shinjiro: 2, 7, 8, 15, 16, 21, 22

first time doing one of these ask game things, so if any of these questions don't catch your fancy feel free to skip

OOOOO thanks for the ask anon!! this was really fun!! :)

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?

I feel like saying that he secretly likes animals and cooking would be a cop-out, so I’ll go with something a little more impactful here and say the fact that he knows he’s going to die even before 10/4. It’s mostly present in reload but he mentions it in his portable link as well iirc? It’s just so painful that he’s already accepted his death even when Akihiko is trying so hard to save him. I like that he’s not necessarily suicidal either, he’s just letting whatever happens happen. It’s so painful and it’s probably my favorite part about his linked episodes in reload.

#7: What’s something the fandom does with this character that you like?

I really like when art but especially fics elaborate on his drug usage. We don’t get much in canon apart from vague notions that his suppressants are slowly killing him, so I really like when fanworks elaborate on this further. I like it especially when they give them side-effects that he has to work through, like a low appetite or something. It leaves a lot of room for creativity too, since canon’s notions are so vague. Completely unrelated but I also love when people give him darker skin; it really fits his character design. Oh and chubby Shinjiro 🔛🔝

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

I don’t ship Shinjiro with other characters a ton, though I do still hold a soft spot for Akishinji. It’s so tragic watching Akihiko try so hard to save him yet still fail, especially since they’ve known each other for so long. They seem to understand each other in ways that the rest of S.E.E.S doesn’t, which is understandable given that they’ve known each other since childhood. I also just. really really like it when Shinjiro is given the opportunity to be soft like in his portable link. It’s just very sweet to me. I also am starting to like ryoshinji a lot more as a crackship (thanks nero) and I like Akishinjimitsu as well. I just think he deserves to kiss someone tbh.

16. What's your least favorite ship for this character?

Oh boy I might get tumblr cancelled for this one, but I’ve never been the biggest fan of Shinjimina. I literally could not tell you why. I understand its appeal especially in reload, and I’m the biggest Akimina shipper on the planet, so I literally do not understand why I’ve never liked it. It’s the same situation with Yukamitsu where I’ve tried to like it, but I guess it’s just not for me. I’m also not a huge fan of Shinjiham or Fuushinji but they’ve been growing on me as of late.

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

I’ve written for Shinji a few times actually, and I think my favorite thing to write about him is his soft side :) I try not to go overboard with it, but it’s so fun to sprinkle in from time to time. Blushy Shinji drives me nuts, especially when writing Akishinji. In general I really love when I get to write stoic characters getting to be silly and have fun, so it’s always a treat when I get to do that for Shinjiro. I don’t like having to write serious confrontations with him and Akihiko, though, because I’m always worried I’m either making them too mean or too kind to each other. Also writing something from his pov is a nightmare I have only tackled when genderbending him LMFAO

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to ths character? Something you don't like?

I already answered what I like earlier, so I’ll say something I dislike. I really don’t like it when people make him too soft if that makes sense? Obviously he’s not going to be dooming and glooming in fluff fics, but it feels so out of place when I see canon-timeline fics where he’s a bit too happy. Or when people make him into a softie crybaby which yes I’ve somehow seen before. Overall though I think the fandom does a pretty good job of characterizing him !! I don’t have much else to critique

[miaqc1]

Feel my sorrow (78 words) by MiaQc Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Persona Series, Persona 3 Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Arisato Minato & Iori Junpei & Sanada Akihiko & Takeba Yukari, Iori Junpei & Sanada Akihiko & Takeba Yukari & Yuuki Makoto, Iori Junpei & Male Persona 3 Protagonist & Sanada Akihiko & Takeba Yukari Characters: Sanada Akihiko, Iori Junpei, Takeba Yukari, Yuuki Makoto (Persona Series), Arisato Minato, Male Persona 3 Protagonist Additional Tags: Poetry, One Shot, Wordcount: 0-100, Friendship, Japanese Culture, Japanese Character(s), Calling characters by their last name, last name, Shadows (Persona Series), Tartarus (Persona 3), Some Plot, POV First Person, Protagonist is referred as Yuki Makoto, POV Sanada Akihiko Summary: Set after Shinjiro's death. Makoto, Yuraki, Junpei and I are exploring Tartarus. As shadows want to attack us, I say something unusual.

[ryxkenkxgami]

Hi girlie 💕 14 and 34 for the writer question thing?

hehe thank you jamie!!!!! let's do this :3c, questions from here... as usual i got wordy, so 34 is under the cut lol

14.  Are there any tropes you would only read if written by a trusted friend or writer? oh 100%. arranged marriage i could only read by someone who i trust lol for example. other things... open ending fics, things without a distinct "happy ending", it's not a trope i really look for at all but if it were a friend's work or a writer i REALLY love, i would give it a go! also childhood friends. does not interest me 99% of the time, but if it's a writer i like or a good friend writing it, i will read it readily bc i trust y'all to have good taste and make it interesting lol

34. What aspects of your writing are inspired by/taken from your real life? oh this is such a fun one thank you for asking this LOL many parts are! i use writing often as a way to process my own emotions - especially for ships i really connect with in some way, like joongdok or datastormshipping. for those sorts of fics, i'm often pulling from my own experiences in healing, or learning to navigate trauma, especially in the context of being intimate emotionally with other people. in general i really tend to throw my emotions full force into all of my writing, even if it's just in little ways. i only tend to write what i feel i emotionally connect to in some manner, after all!

more specifics, i guess, would be for example in my post epilogue joongdok fic, there's quite a lot of my real life pulled into it. the most obvious being i was working at the physical therapy clinic when i wrote it LOL so i used a lot of my knowledge from that job to write about kdj's literal, physical healing. kdj's thoughts on living - his struggle with not believing things are real, and his struggle to keep reminding himself he wants to live, are also very based on my own thoughts and things i've went through and struggled with. while to mirror that, i wrote yjh's pov based on a lot of conversations i've had with my own husband wrt healing and how he feels about my emotional baggage. a lot of their relationship in general in that fic was written with direct parallels to my own marriage lol.

tw for this next bit, talk of suicide in my shinjiham fic that covers shinjiro's thoughts throughout the game & his relationship w/ minako, i used a lot of my experiences with close friends' passing (specifically, two of my closest friends' suicides) to write the ending of this fic especially. those feelings are always kind of an overtone in any of my fic dealing with loss, or grief in anyway, but it's especially noticable here. shinjiro's feelings resemble my own very heavily, and honestly the entirety of this fic was a way of dealing with my own grief after the loss of a close friend, so i hold it near and dear to my heart

[still-breathing-au-p3r]

“Come on…”

This is the third time he’s gone on one of these one-man field trips into the Dark Hour, but Shinjiro’s hands are still shaking just as much as they had on his first attempt. The barrel of the evoker trembles against his temple. He screws his eyes shut, drags a breath in through his teeth and holds it.

It explodes back out of his lungs in something between a sigh and a snarl. He lets his hand fall to his side and his head flop backwards, glaring at the sky. The neon moon seems to smirk back.

What the hell is wrong with him?

He’s done this a million times before. Even after two years of rejecting his Persona– two years that should have wiped out any desensitization to the idea of pointing a gun at his head– he’d been able to pull the trigger with barely a second thought the moment he was back in the fray. It had been so easy, like slipping into a well-worn jacket.

So why… Why can’t he do it now?

That space in the back of his head is just as occupied as it’s ever been, even though the relative quiet of the new tennant is so different from Castor’s constant demands for attention that sometimes it’s easy to forget it’s there. The presence radiates a sense of calm reassurance, but other than that, it seems to prefer a hands-off approach to being supportive.

It doesn’t communicate with words, but Shinjiro picks up on the distinct impression of ‘this is something you’ve got to do for yourself.’

Which would be a lot easier to swallow if he could actually do it.

“Come on, goddammit, come on–” he growls, raising the evoker again, jamming it against his temple even harder like that’s going to help somehow. The barrel digs into his skin, threatening to bruise. Aki’ll give him hell if he spots it.

Then it’s a good thing there’s a really simple way to avoid that entire headache, isn’t it? Just pull the fucking trigger.

His index finger twitches.

It should be easy. It is easy. All he has to do is–

A flashbulb image sears against his eyelids: Takaya, with his oily voice and even greasier smile and his smug serenity. That goddamned hand-cannon of his, aimed at him and Amada. The barrel, round and dark like a glaring pupil. Thunderclap pain tearing him apart.

His scars ache just thinking about it.

This isn’t the same thing at all. An evoker isn’t a gun, he knows this. There’s not even a place to load bullets into.

Aigis, training her guns at him and staring with empty eyes. Being frozen in place and helpless and alone as his life flashed before his eyes–

He clenches his teeth against the growing burn in his side and shoulder.

It’s not the same thing. Kirijo had explained– or tried to explain– how it worked, once. Something about electric impulses and sound and neurons. No bullets. No lead, no black powder.

Ikutsuki and his gun, and Kirijo-san with his. Shinjiro, chained up. A literal captive audience. Nothing aimed at him but still feeling like he was going to die just hearing the explosive duet–

It doesn’t matter that he knows it’s not a gun. It’s not about that.

The evoker clatters to the ground and Shinjiro crashes down with it. He can barely hold himself up on his knees, clutching desperately at the mostly-healed scars that suddenly feel fresh and raw. Agony screams along his nerves and wraps around his throat, choking him out.

So this is how it is, huh? Shinjiro laughs, and he sounds broken and unhinged. God he’s pathetic.

“Senpai!”

Shinjiro’s attention snaps toward the voice– Arisato’s voice? What the hell is Arisato doing here? Two Arisato’s according to his swimming vision, dangling upside-down and sprinting to his side from opposite corners of the skyline. He tries to force his eyes to uncross and gets nothing for the trouble but a lurch of dizziness.

“Your wounds–” Arisato drops to his knees beside him, his hands hovering nervously over Shinjiro’s. There’s a sharp and panicky edge to his voice that Shinjiro’s never heard from him before. “Is– did they–?”

“It’s fine,” Shinjiro grits out, but he doesn’t resist when Arisato drags his hands out of the way to check for himself whether there’s any blood seeping through his sweater. “Nothin’ reopened. It’s just…phantom pains.”

He’s had them before, but it’s never been this bad. His doctors had explained it to him before he was discharged, though hell if Shinjiro can remember all of the psychology mumbo-jumbo. He’d been starting to think they’d blown their warnings completely out of proportion. Serves him right, he guesses.

Arisato seems to understand without needing any more explanation, which is great because Shinjiro really isn’t in either the state or the mood to play schoolteacher right now.

“We should get you up off the ground,” Arisato says, already hauling Shinjiro’s good arm over his shoulder and bracing himself to take on as much of Shinjiro’s weight as he needs to.

This whole thing where he needs to have somebody scrape his ass off of the pavement is getting really old, really fast.

“Let’s go.” Arisato only sounds a little out of breath. “Somewhere we don’t have to worry as much about Shadows, you know–”

“Smellin’ blood in the water?”

“Well…” says Arisato. He leaves it at that.

[jonquilyst]

Today, my mom and dad were wed at Hanamigawa Koen, the park right next door to our old house; the place that shaped our childhood.

It was just the five of us. After so much pain we went through as a family, it was only right that they said that they only wanted me and my brothers there. “This is about our family reuniting,” Mom said, “Not for anyone else.”

Mom and Dad divorced shortly after I was born, so I don’t know what it was like when they were together the first time. But now that I’m older, I know a little more about what happened.

Mom and Dad are very different people. Hotaru told me that they used to never get along and would fight a lot. One day, my dad reached his breaking point and left... Since he took some of our money, we were forced to downsize. That’s how we ended up in Senbamachi.

We didn’t have much money. Mom told me that our money was so tight that our electricity and water were shut off once (but I don’t remember it since I was just a baby). Since she was a single mom taking care of a baby, toddler, and school-age child, Mom was forced to quit her corporate job to take care of us. Since she was the only adult in the house, we barely had any source of income (that’s why Mom started a garden!) 

It wasn’t until Tatsuya started grade school that Mom was able to return to work. She became a gardener, since she hated the long hours her old corporate job gave her.

And now... here we are. Mom and Dad are married again; we have a bigger house; and we finally have the money to pay for basic necessities. I couldn’t help but cry a little. I even saw Tatsuya shedding a tear...

“I’m so happy we can be a family of five at last,” Dad said as he slipped Mom’s new wedding ring on her finger.

“Me too. I’m happy I can finally call you my husband again,” Mom said before they sealed the deal with a kiss.

(Yes, the backstory part actually happened in-game, but I didn’t share it at the time it happened since this gameplay is from Akari’s POV, and since she was so young she wouldn’t recognize what was happening. This family was dirt poor for a while, but they’re a lot better off now that Chiyo and Shinjiro are back together and have jobs)

(Also just a small disclaimer that this isn’t meant to encourage getting back with your exes... These two have been autonomously flirting with each other since the very beginning of this gameplay, and as their romance slowly creeped up as time went on it became clear they were falling back in love with each other. This is simply what happened in my game and ofc in most situations moving on from your exes is best. Chiyo and Shinjiro are just a little different in that they’re a once incompatible couple who became compatible later in life)

[queen-ofsunflowers]

What were Minato and Ryoji talking about at the top at the stairs?

Referencing a scene in this chapter of Make Every Moment Last that I have a POV prompt saved in my drafts for.

...which I have yet to post for this very reason, actually. I have no idea what the hell they might've been talking about at first that lead to the conversation piece that Kotone and Shinjiro overheard. If there ever was something, I've since forgotten it.

[bi-naesala]

7 + 19 + 36 and the "share a snippet one" idr the number <3

7) How do you choose which POV to write from?

I'd say it depends on what I'm writing. Usually, when I get my initial idea, I already know with what POV to go with, so I'd say instinct?

One thing that I've noticed, though, is that if I'm writing a shipping piece with my favorite character in it, I tend to favor the POV of the other character (maybe because it's easier for me to write them loving my faves, but eh I'm not sure).

19) What is the most-used tag on your ao3?

"Fluff" AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

36) How do you write kissing scenes?

Badly.

I am quite awkward when it comes to describing kisses, so I don't really do much besides saying "they kiss"??

I usually make people kiss either briefly, between a thing and another, so I don't have to focus too much on it, or if they kiss more deeply, I usually make them do something else as well, like caressing each other, so I have something else I can focus on.

39) Share a snippet from a WIP

Ok, so this is from an Akishinji longfic that I'm planning, set in a Shinjiro lives AU and focusing on his and Akihiko's relationship after he wakes up from the come. Honestly I have no idea if this will ever see the light of day, so have this:

“What? Why would I be with one of them, now?!” Akihiko can’t help but to ask, confused.

Shinjiro shrugs. “I dunno. Figured you’d pick someone from your fan club by this point. They did seem to be pretty obsessed…”

What’s with that tone? Why does Shinji sound angry? Is he angry? Akihiko can’t tell.

Besides, he’s being stupid because…

“As if I’d pick anyone else but you.”

Huh.

W-Wait! Did he say it out loud? He totally did!

Shinjiro’s looking at Akihiko with a shocked expression that must be matching his own. His face has also gotten extremely red, though Akihiko doesn’t point it out, because he doesn’t think he’s faring much better.

He quickly changes subject, asking Shinjiro about his medical check-ups and when they’re letting him out, both of them forgetting that exchange altogether, though Akihiko isn’t sure he feels relieved about it, or disappointed.

[moggie-moe]

——• RP Requests Open! •——

——• Shinjiro x Fuuka •——

• RULES •

> 18+ only! || I’m 18F and would feel comfortable for my partners to be of similar age. I also go over sensitive topics such as smut, violence, drug use, etc.

> Semi-lit+ in Third Person POV || I typically write two full length paragraphs, and I would like my partner to at least do the same. I can easily write more, and typically do!

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I already have a plot in mind, but feel free to suggest one too! I’m looking for someone to play Shinjiro for me in the ship. I will give more details in DMs considering it does give a big spoiler for the game. Im willing to RP here or on Discord.. it’s up to you! If you’re interested, please DM me with an introduction of yourself, triggers, and what you’re looking for from me.

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[department-of-landing-strategies]

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My second Persona au is me being "What if instead of them using personas, they were magical creatures and/or magical users and used said magic and said abilities to fight the in-game shadows". While I would consider it more fleshed out than my other persona au, a lot of it isn't concrete so most things I say about this au aren't set in stone. If I ever write it, it's most likely going to be from Kotone's and Minato's POVs with some POVs from the other characters if it serves story best (cough cough The October 4th Ken and Shinjiro confrontation that I'm probably going to go with a Shinjiro lives route cough cough). I've not fully decided what I want to do with strega, but I'm mostly leaning towards having the Kirijo Group try to artificially enhance Strega's abilities instead of them artificially awakening their personas. Since I'm keeping the shadows, Aigis still gets to be mostly the same as in canon, while Metis is probably going to be the non protagonist character that ends up joining SEES that's getting the most rewriten to be able to accommodate her earlier in the story. Ryoji is kinda in a simila boat to Metis with also kinda needing to be rewriten to make it so he's in the story earlier than canon but I think I'm going to need to rewrite him less than Metis. Ryoji'll be in the same year as most of SEES but I'm probably going to have it to were he joined SEES a couple months to a year after the senpai trio's encounter with the Reaper back when Shinjiro was a member with Mitsuru and Akihiko roughly around the time SEES was first formed. The Velvet Room's most likely going to get cut and I think the only way Pharos is staying is if I make him Ryoji's younger brother. I still want to do Elizabeth's requests in this au so if I figure out a way that makes sense in my head to have her and Theodore be in the au without the velvet room then I'm most likely going to do a mix of her requests and Mitsuru's social link for Elizabeth. I know I'm cutting Igor for definite, sorry Igor fans. While it's still possible to change, I have mostly settled on what social links I want to put aside for Kotone and Minato. The social links I want Minato to have are Kenji, Nozomi (I'm probably going to rewrite most of his social link though), Chihiro, Hidetoshi (probably only after Hidetoshi saves Minatos ass from either Minato himself or a shadow and a lot of arguing between the two), Saori (yes she's a FeMC exclusive but this is my au so I can make her a social link for Minato instead), Elizabeth, Mutatsu, Akinari and Maiko. The social links set aside for Kotone are Rio, Kazushi (if I'm giving Saori's social link to Minato might as well give some of Minato's exclusives to Kotone), Mamoru, Yuko, Theodore, and Maya. Obviously their shared social links are the members of SEES. Junpei and Yukari lean more towards Kotone while Shinjiro and Akihiko lean more towards Minato though. Tbh, I have no idea what everyone's going to be yet but I like the idea of Minato being a non human magnet by accident. I know for certain about the non SEES social links that Saori, Hidetoshi and Chihiro are going to be non human (when I say non human I mean like regular ass humans so witches and such fall into the non human category). I'm on the fence about making Nozomi a werewolf, because on one hand I find it hilarious if the only one of Minato's main friend group at school has just on human but on the other hand I kinda feel bad for Kenji being human because I know for a fact that not making him non human is one of the few concrete things in the au.

I have no idea if Persona will become a main stay on this blog, but I really want to talk about some Persona 3 aus despite not having a memory card/different switch to be able to play Persona 3 Reload. Read More exists due to spoilers. While the original game and portable are past the point I would care about spoiler warnings, Reload isn't past that point yet, therefore you have been warned for spoilers for Persona 3 as a whole.

Honestly, my less fleshed out au is the au that is just me being like "what characters from the Harry Potter franchise should I put in place of the p3 characters". I think it's because I care most about 5 characters and I've decided to put them as either the senpai trio or strega. I know I definitely want Percy to be in it but the characters I'm thinking of that I can put Percy i their place are Mitsuru, Shinjiro or Chidori. Obviously, if I put Percy in place of Shinjiro or Chidori, I'm probably going to go with the route that has them live, which then brings in the issue of which Percy ship I'm going to go with if I put him as Shinjiro, since Shinjiro is saved if you reach rank ten with him as FeMC in portable (i know you don't have to romance him to save him but I like to ship Shinjiro with both FeMC and MC and I like giving Percy romantic partners). It's a toss up between Marcus and Oliver for whose getting swapped with Akihiko and I'm probably going to put either Audery or Penelope as Mitsuru if I don't use Percy for her. Since Delphi is 22 in the cursed child, I'm really tempted to put her as Ken despite how much I dislike her in the Cursed Child. Tbh, that's kinda all I got for that au.