#shi-exploding

[hermesmoly]

i think about huaisang's rage a lot. it's not loud or boisterous like his brother's, not escalating or expeditious like jin guangyao's. it's like a breeze, silent, almost untraceable, but there. it's a rage that waited over a decade to age into fine wine, a rage to not only hurt but destroy.

[demonicfarmer69]

jl: (does something slightly interesting)

jc:

[stuckinapril]

I love girls who’re comfortable being feminine in male dominated stem fields. Such is the case for chemistry but it will not stop me from going to lab in a pink fit if that’s what I want

[kuutseng]

back with art based off of @monhiio 's au! consider: mu qing and shi qingxuan being asked to be binghe's babysitters so fenglian can finally go on a date again and thus become designated uncle and auntie

[my-fancy-hat]

Most romance novels follows an scheme of what love should it goes, how people have to meet and follow a certain path and archetypes to correctly fall in or out of love, that what's makes this kind of stories predictable and boring to some people, but what about love that evolves? love that exists despite the desire for romance/selfishness? what about friendship? family? what if we choose to love ourselves too? to love the path we choose? I think that what Ao no Flag is majoritary about, romance as we know in a love triangle it's just the surface the tip of the iceberg of what this story is about, series of choices where we pray for them to make us happy, to make our loved ones happy, because we want to be brave about the things we love.

The four cour characters are put in one of the most troublesome and chaotic times of every person who had access to the system education can experience: final year of high-school, the deadline between childhood and adulthood, to accept reality on how it approaches us, the fear of rejection and failure of what we are of what we do. Many people incluided me had wished to have been more wise, more patient, more accepting yet strong about our chosen path, and that's what Ichinose, Touma and Futaba had to learn and eventually guided them toward their happy end. Not just that, but the experience many queer people had to endure avoiding the social suicide of showing to the world who we are, this ilustrated with Touma and Masumi's characters, and (subtly yet quite importantly) Ichinose. How can I exists in their world if I live like this? will my parents accept me? they will still think about me as someone successful and worth of their last name? will they disown me? hate me? will my best friend who I am in love with reject me in disgust? It's so easy and understandable to succumb to a hatred that you think you deserve, because at the time it was less painful to play along lying to your loved ones about this secret than "revealing the truth", they deserved to know yet you failed, and this loneliness is what you get. If this is how the enviorment wants you to feel, then isn't it expected that the individual would desire for freedom of it? that's what Touma wished for his future to be, not concrete answer more than to exists without regrets.

The desire for romance can be rightfully observed by its selfish nature, to own the right, the demand for them to love us back, but it can be the exercise to accept ourselves as well. Touma wanted to show Taichi his heart without fears, despite if he would love him back or not, in doing so, he would be walking toward the ideal happiness he dreamed of. To openly love is the call for the indifferent cruel world to see in us the desire for goodness, that in this place can exists kindness too.: Touma most than anything, wanted for Ichinose and (by extention) Futaba, to be happy, to share their 1000+ points of best friend power and make everyone happy. That is, the core of love, to wish the best for your dears, and see them smile.

But accepting and not to, can be actually be the same. Masumi had to constantly fight with herself, with the inavility to change what she can't, to live with the fabricated idea of what she is supposed to be and what she is supposed to do, and what other people would react about it. That's why that, even if I have my reservations about her ending, I find it really meta for Masumi end to end up in a het marriage, making us conclude that at some point she gave up on Futaba, but paradoxically, accepted herself and her reality by coming out as bi. Us readers expected and rotted for her to confess to her crush and end up in similar terms like Touma and Taichi did, but this ending make us putting the lesson she learned though her character arc into practice: what people may think or not about our decisions, is their problem, not ours. Life can be so treacky and unfair, but no matter the circunstances, we can still find and make our place. We deserve it.

A friend or a lover, what is the difference if you just want to share our happiness with them?

That's how you humanize your characters, by expossing through them the good, the bad and the absurd, to tell a story in each how the circunstances molds them, but to oppose what damage us is quite a brave thing to do, even if it's our own mind, and that's what Futaba character speaks to me. The desire for wanting to change, to (once again) accept and not-to-accept. She's a weakling, clumsy girl loaded on self-hatred for her unability to live just as the others do. The fear of have reached your maximum potential and there's nothing else for you to do about it, that you born to live like this for the rest of your life. But she sees in Touma an example of hard work and due to her admiration (mistaked at first for a crush), wants to prove herself that life can be something else. To break our self-stablished limits and see what's beyond, to surpass your limits and try to understand what scares you. To be confident enough to think you have the right to live too. Failure reafims the truth that you are better off muted; what bother trying if it will end up in misery anyways? but the beauty of humankind is the unbeatable hope that things will change, to not give up, and without noticing, we'll feel blessed for have born in this time, in this place.

This as a result inspires Taichi's way of viewing life without him realizing too, just as how Touma's pure-lover heart expeled his sincere feelings ever since they started talking again, to the point to even sacrifice his leg and career for Ichinose: How can I exists and make it up for such people like you? what can I do? It's easy to fill your heart with resentment for the things you couldn't live, to feel prideful as consolation for a lonely life you didn't choose, as the left overs. But what we think makes what we are, if you keep on your days thinking you exists for the things you believe you deserve, to live in the imaginary unbreakable rules you made for yourself, then nothing will change. Touma, Futaba and Masumi changed Taichi's life forever, in the driving force of his spirit to pursue a better version of himself, to live driven by the desire for freedom, for love, and not care of what other people may see this choices.

That's why I think the final chapter is such a piece of art that makes the pay off so satisfying. What tortured him when Touma confessed wasn't that his best friend was gay, or that he lied to him about the nature of their friendship (he didn't): it was the though of losing him, so he chose both options at the end (if the analogy can't be more in the face). But as Yorkie said, it part of the course of life to most likely break up with your first gf, more less if they go to different universities, so them going their separate ways wasn't a surprise, but what made me happy about it that they still ended up in good terms and respected each other deeply for what they lived together. The surprise though comes from the actual realize of which POV we're following at the end, that reveals that Taichi had become Touma's husband. This is where I think Ichinose teach to the audience the lesson he learned from his former classmates, where he reaches for Touma above the lines that divides panels, to reach his husband's hand, the hand he shouldn't hold, and walk together toward home: he surpassed his own limits, his barriers and knew where his happiness lied.

A lot of queer people had *the realization* in their 20s (me included as nb), finally giving an explanation of all our past behaviour. I know before-hand most people got shocked for Ichinose to get reveal as bisexual, but isn't the story already gave us an idea this would happen eventually? when Futaba and Ichinose confess to each other, it's Touma's (and Masumi's) heartbreak that it's on spotlight overlaying their conversation, how Taichi and Touma hand-holding is such a central element for the story telling (literally it ends with them holding hands), and much more? Even Futaba suspected it before himself realized years later.

(it happened twice that when Taichi thinks about Touma what crosses his mind is his well-build chest/cleavage area like, ok)

But what makes the different between friendship and love? can a boy and a girl be friends? can a gay boy have male friends? can I be friends of someone I love and viseversa? can I forgive and maitain what we have? The only certainty I have right now, in this moment, is that I love you so much. I'm so happy to have meet you.

This got too long so to grap my final thoughs and make myself more loose right at the end, I'm so happy for have read this story FULL BLIND OMG I was so conviced that no one would end up together lol the only thing I knew of it is that it talked about queer drama and, textually: "had the ending it deserves". It genuinely made my perspective on some things change for the better. I actually loved so much how this story handles with such maturity a pretty much easy-target for comedy and bitter angst (bury your gays) the premise of "bff is gay and in love with the main character since they were kids". Not only that, but not picking sides of "who deserves who" taking leads between Touma vs Futaba, is quite refreshing for the genre: it humanize and treats fairly each member of the cast, giving proper space for them to explain themselves (worth mentioning Mami I loved her character so much you have no idea). Most of the drama in romance comes from missunderstandings or the lack of dialogue, when everything can be solved if the characters can actually sit and talk their feelings and thoughts out! and Ao no Flag is a masterclass on this manner. The explanation, exposition and introspection of every character struggle, the script, monologues, are so compelling and to the bone, I can't choose which interaction of the cast is my favorite. The pay-off is spectacular because we can actually follow each person train of thoughts and choices in which these end up in, with the faith that this path will make themselves and his loved ones happy, because even if we aren't certain about anything we do, we'll still find meaning in the absudity of destiny (or the lack of it?).

[gentil-minou]

In sophomore year Wei Ying returns from summer camp with his ears pierced and Lan Zhan is so smitten he bumps into walls and starts to worry he won't be cool enough for Wei Ying anymore so he decides to get his ears pierced too, so they can match

Except uncle won't let him

Naturally this means Lan Zhan buys clip on's.

He finds a pair of subtle blue diamond studs that kinda match the black ones Wei Ying has.

He walks out of the store feeling great except within 5 minutes, the feeling of it becomes too much and his sensory processing starts acting up so he takes them off and tries to think of a new idea to be As Cool As Wei Ying.

His solution: marker.

So the next morning once Uncle has left and brother is off to his classes, Lan Zhan stands in front of the mirror and draws to small circles on his earlobes.

He sits back to admire his handiwork, except they're a little bit uneven so he has to tilt his head so they're level but that's fine right he can just keep his head tilted the entire time.

So Lan Zhan goes to school with sharpie on his ears.

Lan Zhan tries to play it cool when he sees Wei Ying but naturally Wei Ying—who if it were possible to get an A in Lan Zhan studies would have gotten an A plus extra credit—notices right away.

He exclaims joyfully and loud enough that everyone in the class notices, but Lan Zhan is to busy having Wei Yin poke and prod and tug his ears so much they then a bright pink that makes the blue stick out more and Wei Ying keeps smiling and Lan Zhan thinks mission accomplished.

[endless-nightshift]

Learning things about cql through cross media fandom bleed is such a trip. Like what do you mean Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji "go separate ways" at the end and reunite after a time skip!!? I'd vomit blood!!!

[idontknowstudios-writes]

New longform fic in the works!

Hello hello, I've been dead to the world for a while now, but I'm back now!!

I've recently been working on a SVSSS/MDZS crossover, with my dearest son Mo Xuanyu as our MC! The premise goes as follows;

Mo Xuanyu has heard of a cultivation sect far away from all of the clan's politics, called Cang Qiong- the stronghold between the demon realm and the human realm! He's willing to live on the border between realities if it means he can get away from his own personal hell on earth that Mo Village has become. Only, he'll be leaving behind his fiancé... But then, what happens when the clans follow him to Cang Qiong?

As always, I'm soft hearted so there won't be too much angst, but there will definitely be enough hurt/comfort to go around!!

I still can't think of a name for it though 🤔

Anyway, the relationship tags for this fic have already been all figured out!! They're below the cut with some technical aspects rambling because this fic is my hyperfixation right now and i cant be normal about it;

Main Ship;

Mo Xuanyu/Nie Huaisang (I miiiight work in Jiang Cheng, because I know that Nie Huaisang/Jiang Cheng is popular i think? We'll see when we get there)

Background Ships;

Shen Jiu/Mu Qingfang/Yue Qingyuan

Shen Yuan/Luo Binghe/Liu Qingge (I'm a firm believer in polyamorous immortals you can't fight me on this)

Lan Wangji/Wei Wuxian

Familial/Friend Ships;

Mo Xuanyu & Various Peak Lords as family :))

Mo Xuanyu & Wei Wuxian bonding probably?

Mo Xuanyu & Luo Binghe

Technical Aspects;

Finding a good timeline for this fic is hell, I want everyone to know that!!! For SVSSS, the timeline is set a few years past the canon ending of the story, and for MDZS it's set in the very first year after the end of their story.

It's also very far from being canon on either end of the crossover, because (just to state the obvious) Mo Xuanyu is still alive, and so is Shen Jiu! I just really wanted to write a fic that I'd like to read myself, so I'm shoving in as many of my favourite parts from other fics as I can.

I also have an outline written that is. 700 words long right now!! I've only written the prologue!! what am i doing!!!! Though tbf I am on draft four already and im slowly going crazy :)

Also I usually try to write a "prologue" introducing the premise for long form fics and I try to keep it short, so like 1000 words?? but I just kept going and brought it up to 1800 this time T_T The actual chapters will be AT LEAST 2000, but with the way its going right now it'll probably end up longer.

Side note in relation to that, I'm thinking this fic will be like ,,, 7-10 chapters? I'm still in the early stages, but that's my estimation!!

There is also some planned angst between Mo Xuanyu and Nie Huaisang because well, Huaisang did try to manipulate him into killing himself, so. yknow. I personally am not excited for it because I hate writing my skrunklies fighting :((

I also wanted to work in Tianlang-jun and Zhuzhi-lang somewhere, which will probably happen when the whole MDZS crew shows up! Idk I'm not that far in my outline yet ( ╥ω╥ )

Anyway!!!! Credit to this fic by Jenrose!!! It's what gave me the MDZS autism and what inspired this fic a little, despite the fact that there's nearly zero similarities lol

Thanks for reading all that,

signing off, Yin ! ☆⌒(>。<)

[yunfox00]

WHATTTTTTTT

WHY IS THERE SO MANY PEOPLE????? so many... AHHHH I'M SCARE- *EXPLODES GUMMYGOO STYLE*

[jupiterimpact]

any tgcf fans wanna be mutuals

[cheesenjoyer]

*BITES FINGERS OFF AND SLAMS HEAD AGAINTS THE WALL* HOLY MACORONI

[riwrite]

from @deiscension. Please continue sitting still Ming Yi, Shi Qingxuan has only worked through three of the six layers of your hair she has managed to section out. There is an infinite amount more of combing and oiling she must do.

when was the last time someone else's hands were in his hair ? sure, with how affectionate shi qingxuan can be, it's not the first time it's been her. she's smoothed flyaways before, or righted his guan for him when it sat askew on his head once or twice. but this is... new. he remembers blurred moments from his life — his father ruffling his child self's ponytail in affection, his mother gently combing the tangles out after a long day of playing with other kids, his sister practicing all kinds of hairstyles on him, his fiancé taking his hair down and massaging out the tension from having it up all day... he thinks about them, unbidden and only briefly, and he feels hollow. the void that sits under his ribs expands, threatening to swallow his still lungs and unbeating heart, his insides eternally at war between grief and apathy.

and shi qingxuan, blissfully unaware of it all, seems to be having the time of her life now that he's finally relented to this particular desire of hers to care for him. she pulls a comb of fine jade through his hair, and the air around them smells of the flowers that scent her oil of choice, and sometimes she chatters about nothing and sometimes she scolds him for slouching too much or grumbling when she pulls too hard ( it never hurts, not really. not enough to matter to someone as numb as he, anyway ), and his traitorous thoughts can't help but find it all nice. it feels nice to have her hands in his hair. it feels nice to have her attention on him. it feels fucking nice and he wants to simultaneously lean into her touch and whirl around to squeeze his hands around her neck until it breaks. he knows he can do neither, not if he one day wants to get his vengeance, so he can only sit and let her do as she wants as he stares darkly at the wall in front of him.

   ( he could get up and leave. he could bark at her to get out. he doesn't do these, either. )

what kind of fool does this to themself ? only the starved and the desperate. there is nothing one of the three most powerful ghosts in history is if not starved and desperate.

she's only about halfway through, he thinks. it's horrible. he can hold on until she's done.

   " would you hurry up, " he complains flatly anyway. it'll be better for them both for this to be over with.

[lesbianpegbar]

this blog has become the journal of a madman you read in a horror game where it gets progressively less and less comprehensible and ends in random scribbles with blood all over it

[deiscension]

Starting a collection of images called 'Kill them with kindness? Wrong! WIND MASTER ATTACK 💃🕺' You think they need decorum and systemic sensibility to get the job done? No they just need a reason to flashbang you. Fuck you and your million dollar mansion I'm carrying Ming-xiong out of here like a sack of potatoes as if it were my given right. Boob attack!!!!! One million merits to the first person to tell General Pei to go bleach his roots.

[jub3s]

WOW INSTANT FOLLOW.... ur art is fantastic . 👍👍

HRJWHDKWHKSBD THANK YOU!!!! I DONT GET COMPLIMENTS MUCH SO IDK HOW TO RESPOND SORRY AA

HAVE A MONOKUMA TO SHOW MY UPMOST APPRECIATION

[find-me-in-hell]

i haven't interacted in tgcf fanspaces in literally years but i have always seen shi qingxuan as being transfem coded