#shh... im not projecting...

[beepboopbupbip]

Just some hurt/comfort... no I'm not projecting shh (the challengers dialouge is in italics, P03s is in italics and bold. Is this a fic or an imagine? Yes, no, maybe. Just read it I know it's a mess.)

You know how P03 is always unkempt? He doesn't feel like he deserves to be taken care of, to take care of himself, I mean.

It's an average day, playing a round of inscryption. But something is off, P03 isn't even cocky or arrogant anymore, he just seems...

Tired.

You ask him a few times if he's okay, getting the same response each time. "I'm fine". He gets progressively more angry each time, but also just... more sad. Theres a few tears in his eyes, and hes shaking softly.

This continues and you almost give up on the matter, when you see a battery low notification on P03s screen and he flops down cold. Unconscious.

You walk up to him, and he's still running. You swear you can hear him wince and cry out of fear when you plug in his charging cord, afraid of being touched, afraid of being vulnerable. Before throwing a small blanket on him, shutting off the lights and leaving the room so he can rest.

He turns back on a short while later, and as you go to check on him, he explodes. You calmly explain he had passed out and he insists he doesn't need to charge. Yanking the cable out as he stands, causing him to show a battery 14% warning and his hovers to flicker, forcing him to sit back down before he falls over. You turn on the lights, so you can see him better.

You could say it's an argument, but it's mostly just P03s unintelligible insults as he tries and fails to stop crying and you attempting to calm him down and get him to rest again. Until he just breaks down in front of you

"What do you want from me!?".

You hear him yell, and it's nearly enough to shatter your heart into two. You walk up to him, seeing his eyes flash with fear. He's scared, he doesn't want you to hurt him. Instead, you simply take the blanket, and wrap it around him while trying to make as little contact with him as possible. You don't want anything from him, just for him to take care of himself.

You get through to him eventually, and he plugs back in the cable. Resting his head on the game table and crying into his arm. You grab a small pillow and a plush, handing him both and giving him a sympathetic look. Seeing him instead rest his head on the pillow, holding the plush close.

You can hear words through his mumbled sobs, albeit barely. You listen in closer, cocking your head in curiosity...

"I'm sorry."

You have to crouch down to his level, him already being much smaller then you and him also sitting down. Seeing his screen show tears in his eyes slowly forming before falling down, and the condensation rolling down his monitor.

"Don't apologize to me."

He's clearly confused by this, he snapped at you. You should be angry with him, but you don't even want an apology from him. You can see his face shift to one of confusion, turning his head and looking away from you.

"Apologize to yourself, P03. It'll take some time, but you need to forgive yourself before you can forgive anyone else."

You can see P03 nod, and you stand back up. Turning off the lights once more and shutting the door behind you to give him his space and to make him feel less vulnerable. You smile as you walk out, the sight of him resting is actually quite cute... you hope it's not the last time you'll see that.

It's going to take some time, he still doesn't think he deserves it, and even after he's going to struggle sometimes, but that's okay. You can be there every step of the way. And plus...

Maybe one day you'll be a bit more then this.

[chickenoptyrx]

I am once again drawin the most mundane shit :D

These are all sento saiyans, an AU race of saiyans created by @bahnloopi read more about em here :U

[teddiecircus]

hi how are we feeling minori fans

[harukapologist]

a cute detail in haruka's room

This turned into a half-ramble half-headcanon post so I apologize for how messy it is lol

While watching undercover for the first time I noticed that there seems to be a sketchbook in Haruka's room, in which a colorful tree is drawn

Haruka seems to be hyperempathetic, and usually hyperempathetic people are quite artistic in their worldview and their hobbies, so I have a headcanon that Haruka likes to draw and/or paint, as a hobby and coping mechanism, a little escapism (especially since Haruka's no.1 coping mechanism with traumatic/stressful events seems to be denial—I'm going to elaborate on that in a different post because I've thought about that very, VERY often, and it partially explains why he acted the way he did in T2, to me) (I'm projecting a little bit because I kin Haruka and I'm a (hobbyist) artist myself but teehee)

When he was asked about his hobbies in his T1 interrogation, he just said he liked to talk to the other prisoners, but I think that's because he's insecure about his art being bad or unconventional (it looks like he used crayons or simple markers for the tree drawing. And also, the leaves are all different colors... perhaps I'm overanalyzing a simple scene, but it seemed to me that it's kinda symbolizing how he views & interacts with the world differently because of his neurodivergence. Still, the drawing is quite pretty imo, and he used the colors very well, so even though it's a tree with unusual colors, it still looks beautiful; even though he's different, it doesn't mean he's inferior, and there's still beauty despite how much he struggles to fit in. You know?)

Also also the way a lot of frames in weakness have hyper-realistic, vibrant backgrounds, as well as the blood being colorful (though that appears elsewhere too, like in Muu's MV) it really convinced me that Haruka sees the world through the lens of an artist, a passionate person who feels things very intensely.

Since the prisoners can request anything, I like to think Haruka secretly requested a sketchbook and some crayons to continue his hobby (I'm not sure if he can do that since it's unclear how the prisoners request & receive stuff (I'm a relatively new Milgram fan so I might've forgotten/not have seen an explanation if there's any ueueu))

I like to think he keeps his sketchbook to himself at first, but slowly opens up to the other prisoners about his hobby. First Fuuta and Mu, then maybe Mikoto, then the others (and they're all very nice to him & praise his art!!! Especially Mikoto I think. he would be very excited to see all of Haruka's art!!! Supportive big brother figure) :3c

[altruistic-meme]

thinking about the twinyards first summer in South Carolina and how they both talk big game bc it gets plenty hot in California too, and Nicky nods along and buys extra ice cream and fans anyway. the twins refuse to go back on their word but Nicky watches them both make sure to always sit where the fan will hit them, he watches how fast the ice cream is depleted as they tear through it twice as fast as normal. he makes sure to be discreet as he drops water bottles next to them frequently because he knew they would underestimate exactly how hard the humidity would hit them and he knows their prides won't let them ask for it.

[dubious-dice]

SIFFRIN DISABILITY HC

Siffrin's eye causes them to bump into things a lot, we know this from cannon, but I like to think that Isa usually stands on their blind side so that he can guide Siff away from obstacles. Furthermore, he sleeps on Siff's blind side (seen in the clocktower cutscenes) because it reduces their anxiety about being attacked on that side. When they're dating, Isa big spoons Siff which makes them feel even more secure

Due to dying so many times, even though their body didn't physically go through that in this timeline, their brain is still stuck with that mental trauma which leads them to a condition like AMPS in which their body often hurts. They also don't like surprise touches as these hurt, but they'll happily cuddle and hug (with warning!!) on lower pain days

Siff uses crutches to help them walk on long adventures. When they fight however, they take a cane so they have more mobility to attack. The cane, more like a walking stick as it's a wooden stick with a point at the end to stick into dirt, was a gift from Isa after trying to figure out how they could still fight if needed.

Even on bad pain days, it's hard to get Siff to rest. Sometimes this is simply because they're still practicing noticing their own needs and expressing those needs and sometimes they're stubborn. Often the group will send Bonnie to take a watch over siff and make sure they don't sneak away as Siff can't resist Bonnie

Before realizing that they needed more than just a cane to walk, Odile was the first to reach out to siff as she noticed they were having trouble walking. She gave them one of her old canes and Siff almost cried at how much better it felt.

More to be added!!

[dogramagra-and-destruction]

once again, i have a headache but I’m tired to do anything about it. I also refuse to go to sleep.

[cod-dump]

Ghost has a hard time trying to listen to new music, especially if it’s by an artist he’s unfamiliar with. He has to force himself to give the song a chance and, if he likes it, he binges all the other songs by the same artist. Afterwards he picks which songs have the same vibe as the first and listens to them, on repeat, for months until he’s sucked all the serotonin out of them.

[luvoid]

saw this tweet again and thought of them

[mikonoe]

polysho has me in a chokehold. like i cant breathe girl. save me

[jupiter-reimagined]

... a thought just came to me. i already know im latvian-ifying the fuck outta these poor guys, but. hear me out. elias and dominic celebrating jāņi. i need to see one of them jumping over a live fire and then realizing that oh fuck. theyre ON fire.... or with the oak branch crowns... or regular flower crowns... staying up until the sun rises and just maybe enjoying life a little. them looking for ferns...

[disabledvash]

Vash has chronic fatigue and hides it by being hyper but it gets worse post trimax bc I kin him thank you

[rhosgobelbun]

*HANNIGRAM FIC SPOILERS AHEAD*

"“Tell me you won’t get tired of me.”

“I won’t get tired of you.”

“Tell me you don’t care about the money.”

“I don’t care about the money.”

Tears pricked in Will’s eyes. “Tell me you won’t leave.”

Hannibal stepped closer. Pressed his face into Will’s hair. “I will never leave you, Will. And I will never let you leave me.” He kissed Will’s scalp: a dark promise. Will melted against him." - Paragon by BloodyWar2411

🗣 HES LYING 🗣 idk but I deeply feel like HANNIBAL THE CANNIBAL IS LYYYIIIINGGG

I will gladly call myself out on the wrong assumption if it ends up hannibal isNT lying but I feel this shit in my GUT.

HE 👏 IS 👏 LIE 👏 ING 👏

he is going to LEAVE.

this fic is confusing me. he just manipulated?? Will into confessing why he didn't want hannibals help??? Thats what that was right. Stripping in the snow untill Will was so worried about hannibals well being that he ended up admiting why he really didn't want help is manipulative right?

I didn't question him coming in Wills beer and Wills food, ok. It was sexy. And fucking weird. And kinky. And creepy. But like after reading this...

Buddy is GOING TO LEAVE YOU, WILL. He will LEAVE YOU, so you can suffer without him and then he'll come back weeks or months later all "DID WE LEARN A LESSON NOW,HMMM???"

and then I'm gonna wanna punch him in his handsome stupid cannibal face, I can feel it

fml

*sighs deeply and goes back to reading*

[watatsumiis]

dottore with a tic disorder call that dottourettes --

[altruistic-meme]

CAN THESE HURRICANES PLEASE FUCK OFF I HATE IT HERE

[wooahaes]

btw sorry i haven’t been writing much lately, i kinda fell into a bad mental funk for a few days + then the mashidam news dropped + ive been kinda trying to get schoolwork done. hopefully after i do another pass at my thesis n get feedback, i can get to finishing that For Good sometime (which uh means i need to start prepping for my defense, dear god someone save  me from that) soon n get some space to write after i get some more schoolwork done <3