#shes ridiculous amd i love her so much

[whippetcrimes]

We upgraded Misty to a 40" crate because her back touches the top of the 36"! She's very pleased about having room to sprawl. She also thinks that going into the crate and staring intensely will earn her treats

[mdzs-owns-my-ass-i-guess]

The green eyed monster

Shen Qingqiu gets a kitten. Luo Binghe isn't very happy about it.

Luo Binghe is angry. Bitter. Miffed. Pissed off. Displeased. Inconvenienced.

Jealous.

This is ridiculous!

He is the Demon Realm's Emperor, he is- he defeated the Abyss!

He is the best husband anyone could ever have, Shizun has never even seen the laundry basin once! Let alone the kitchen! The brooms neither!

So why isn't he that is being cuddled and kissed on the head and receiving pats?! Where is his affection?!

It's all the fault of that stupid, useless furry animal, that pathetic kitten Shizun found meowing its head off in the bamboo forest a few weeks ago, a palm sized black creature with wide, scared eyes and a voice loud enough to echo in the whole Cang Qiong Mountain!

Of course, Shizun is so kind and loving, he couldn't have left that screaming beast to die there, especially since it was so small, so he scooped it up, placed it in his lapels (in his lapels! On his chest!) and brought it back to the bamboo house.

The terrible beast lapped up all the food it could get amd purred loud enough to drown out any conversation, cuddling up to Shen Qingqiu obsessively, sticking its face against his as if demanding kisses.

And Shen Qingqiu gave them to it! Willingly! Smiling!

Luo Binghe was going to die of rage.

The beast had even nestled in their bed - "Binghe, she's too small to sleep alone!" - and in order "not to jostle it", Shen Qingqiu had apologetically told his husband they could have sex later, the kitten needed a "safe, warm place to sleep".

The audacity of that ball of pathetic black fluff to curl up on Shen Qingqiu's chest after made Luo Binghe burn inside with rage. That was his spot!

Ever since that night, the beast had become a part of their daily lives, and Luo Binghe hated it. Shen Qingqiu was doing everything with it, keeping it in his lapels or on his lap, playing with it with his brush handles and kissing it constantly.

Kissing!

Only Binghe should get Shizun's attention, anyway, but kisses?!

He decided that the animal had to go.

Keyword: he.

Because Shen Qingqiu had visibly recoiled at the idea of sending the kitten back outside or building her a shelter in the bamboo forest, no matter how pathetically Binghe suggested it.

In fact, the way Shizun looked, so protective but so heartbroken at the thought of being separated from his pet filled Binghe with so much guilt he wished to jump into the Abyss again.

Which brings us to the present.

Shen Qingqiu is attending some peak lord meeting the details of which Luo Binghe forgot because he's been too busy staring at Shizun's lips as he spoke about it to pay attention - and he has left the beast into Binghe's care for the day.

"Make sure you give her some food by mid-day, okay?" Shen Qingqiu had said, picking up the animal to kiss its small, inky nose. The thing purred. PURRED! "And play with her lots, she's so active!"

"Yes, Shizun, please don't worry, I'll do my best..."

"If anything happens, just come get me, okay? She's so small, so I worry..."

Binghe has to fight the impulse to roll his eyes at the memory. The beast is doing quite well running around, wreacking havoc. Why does it have so much energy? Binghe is sick of cleaning up after it. And it meows so much, the noise is hurting his ears.

Could it be so bad if he accidentally left a window open...?

He immediately squashes the thought. Shizun would be devastated!

So what was he to do now?

He just watched the ball of black fluff flurry around the bamboo house like it's possessed by demons. What a terrible thing. Why does Shizun love it so much? It's just a pathetic little thing without a family or a purpose, abandoned by its kind, that fell in love with the first person that gave it a modicum of affection!

Binghe resolutely refuses to think who that reminds him of.

But the little beast is not easily swayed. It seems to know Binghe dislikes it, so it sticks to his side constantly. It sleeps on his face sometimes, or attacks his ankles when he cooks, even licks his hand when it wants pets.

Binghe hates it.

But he does it anyway - for Shizun's sake! He couldn't care less about this puny creature!

...so, you may wonder, why is he playing with it now that Shizun is not here?

That is because Shizun might realize the kitten hasn't been entertained properly and scold Binghe of course! Sure, he did laugh a bit when the kitten tumbled on its tail as it tried to catch the feather Binghe dangled in front of it, and he found it funny how it reached for his hands to bite at his wiggling fingers - but that doesn't mean anything.

Binghe flicks a finger in the little kitten's face, and instead of flinching, it sniffs his finger pad curiously before rubbing its face against it.

Disgusting.

Binghe scratches beneath its chin with a long nail and catches himself smiling as the kitten purrs and closes its eyes contently.

Terrible.

The kitten ducks its head beneath Binghe's finger and he rolls his eyes. "So needy, does Shizun spend all his days spoiling you?"

"Mrow."

He huffs, but runs his hand over the kitten's head indulgently. "You always hog all his attention, how much do you even need, huh?"

The kitten purrs loudly in response as it rubs up against Binghe's gentle hand, and he can't help caressing down the kitten's small body.

"You're too small. Why don't you grow up, hm? You're making Shizun worry."

The kitten chirps, then continues to purr, pleased, climbing up Luo Binghe's chest from his lap. But the travel up is treacherous and the kitten nearly slips - Binghe's quick reflexes catch it though.

"Be careful. How clumsy. If you get hurt, Shizun won't forgive me."

The kitten continues its journey undettered and finally nestles into the junction between Binghe's neck and shoulder. Its small body is warm and vibrating with loud purrs, and it occasionally turns to sniff at Binghe's face and lick it.

"Stop that." He says, without any bite, and scratches between the kitten's ears with two of his fingers. The animal seems to take that as encouragement and pushes its head against Luo Binghe's cheek.

He turns his head to meet small, green eyes and a purring, black nose.

He cannot resist the impulse to lay a kiss over the kitten's forehead.

Maybe she isn't so bad, after all.

--

"Binghe, I'm-"

When Shen Qingqiu walks into the room, his mouth closes and his eyes soften with fondness. Sat on the bamboo couch, clearly waiting for him, Luo Binghe's head is angled to a side, the small, black kitten tucked into his shoulder and serving as the tiniest pillow in the world. They are both asleep, wearing matching expressions of content and relaxation.

Shen Qingqiu wished he had his camera right now.

[blossoming-mind-palace]

I wanna read it

Okie dokie. This one is sfw with 752 words.

Chung Mei is obsessed with cats and everyone around her knows this. She was a “crazy single cat lady” when she passed, so it’s only natural that her love for the fuzzy little critters carried on to her next one. The only problem is that they get most of her attention, meanwhile Chung Myung feels neglected.

“Are you going to sit in the corner and glare at us all day?” The young-looking lady asks him, and he clicks his tongue as a response. His arms are crossed and he keeps bouncing his leg while he sits in his corner. It’s clear that he's agitated about something, but it’s taking Chung Mei too long to figure it out.

She decides to not comment on it. He may not want to talk about it, amd she doesn't make his attitude worse by pressing further. She ignores him and picks up one of her feline friends. Its coat is black and white, he's chubby, and loves eating. Due to his appetite, Chung Mei named him Cow. Most people tell her that it's a ridiculous name for a cat, but she doesn't care.

The pudgy woman holds Cow up to her chest as if he's a baby and cradles him in her arms. His purring reminds her of an engine when she scratches at his chin, and he has a pleased look on his little kitty face. “Who's the handsomest little man in the world? You are! Yes, you are, you chubby little Cow!” She whispers to him in her baby voice. Just being in the same room as her beloved pets makes her mood improve exponentially, so she's elated when she gets to spend her free time with them.

Chung Myung scoffs and, thinking that all of her attention was on the cat, rolls his eyes at the scene. That fat fuzzy bastard is spoiled rotten! he thinks while watching Cow get all of the affection that Chung Myung deserves. Little did he know, she witnessed him roll his eyes and is starting to get concerned.

“Is there something wrong, hun?” “Nothing's wrong!” He replies hastily. She follows his gaze and notices what he's glaring at. A slight grin appears on her face when she asks,”Chung Myung, are you actually jealous of my cat?” “No, I just think you give him too much attention!” “Well then, where should my attention go?” She asks while struggling to hide her growing grin.

He turns his face away from her and his leg bounces faster than before. She sighs and puts poor Cow down; she'll have to spend time with him later. Chung Mei makes her way over to him, looks down at him and requests,”Will you look at me?” He stays silent and doesn’t look at her. She realizes what she'll have to do.

“Look at me? Pretty please?” Chung Mei asks in a sickeningly sweet accent. She catches his eyes flickering towards her for a second, but his gaze leaves as quickly as it arrived. His leg has stopped moving and his shoulders are relaxed. Chung Mei decides that she’s tired of being ignored, so she lays it on thick.

She grabs his chin between her thumb, index and middle finger and gently turns his face towards her. His cheeks are warm and there's an adorable pout decorating his face. His eyes widened slightly at her sudden boldness, because she normally has a meek temperament. This is another new trait of her’s that he has discovered ever since they started dating. Chung Mei as a friend and Chung Mei as a lover are like two different people. One is docile and mousy, and the other is bold and needy.

Her index and middle finger start gently scratching under his chin, and it feels unexpectedly good to Chung Myung. She uses her other hand to push one side of his face onto her bosom, and the look on his face can only be described as ‘absolute pure bliss’. Chung Mei starts petting his hair with that same hand, and he looks like he's about to fall asleep.

“This is what you wanted, right?” She asks, and hears a faint “Mhm” come from him. After a few more seconds of comfortable silence, Chung Myung wraps his arms around her waist and pulls her a little closer. She decides to get comfortable by sitting on his lap before her petting turns into a scalp massage, and he tenses up when her plush thighs land on his lap.

[kaleido-write]

Chapter 6 part 5

The cap is so long 😭😭 she look so goofy with it omg i can't

They weren't but are you going to assume the responsibility of you trying to restraints one when she didn't act violently ? (Words do not count in a self defense scenario) so that wasn't self defense , Jaden is the one that assaulted her first .

Also funny how she says it's disgusting but doesn't know shit about what happened like you don't comment if you don't know what happened come on

Its such a bad written panel that relies too much on the reader knowing what happened, its not because the reader knows the characters knows

It doesn't even put emphasis on jaidens injuries trough Riley eyes to show us she overtime what happened and see the worst wich could be a good trait for an overly nervous person like Riley

The quality severely dropped between this chapter and the last one

OK so with that information Riley knows it was a somewhat harmless altercation minus jaiden strong injury .

I like the body language rusty gave jaiden , its very square and give off a strong feeling despite her being actually scared and nervous

Its an interesting conflict between what she want to give off vs what she feels

I dont like how far Riley eyes are , its giving fish and i feel due to her ethnic traits rusty is having a hard time to properly place it in her face , especially since she has a round and wide face so playing with the proportions amd finding something still stylized but not uncanny valley would be great

Perhaps it was just the angle because here the issue of fish eyed Riley is solved well

Its a really awkward moment so if it was the intended message I'd say it's job somewhat well done , the lack of fluidity in the bubbles and them being over filled with points and idea is overwhelming, rusty need to learn to pace her character talking

Jaiden expression is poorly drawn , at best she look neutral and to not have a real discomfort, here the only one shown to have some kind of discomfort is Riley , having her shown from the side was a poor choice of directive , youre distancing her from the reader , instead going from the front and darkening the area around her showing she feels trapped in a uncomfortable discussion would've been so great

WTF

Uh ????? How why ???? ITS HER FIRST DAY THERE that's such ??? What ??? It's such poor writing how can you as a writer forget such a massive plot point , its her first day it has been shown and told , she's entering a more independent moment of her life by moving out and going to work to a new place like , its litteraly how the comic start how could she know if there's homophobes at yonique????

Im sorry but what , the writing is incredibly bad here , at no point was it showed nor told that they where familiar , its so bad im sorry I can't like go past that omg , way to ruin the flow of a chapter uh

You can't introduce new information like that , its just completely ridicule , imagine someone with no former knowledge on your comic start reading it without reading the comments nor looking for extra material and just end up lost because there's so much information that's missing to the reader it's sad , its bad writing 101 , the additional material shouldn't be heavily reliant on the readability of your comic . You shouldn't expect the average reader to go out of their way to find out more about basic stuff in your comic

I genuinely hate that panel , whether it's intended or not rusty dehumanizing of trans people is genuinely disgusting

She is blatantly transphobic and love to dehumanize people because then she doesn't have to show empathy nor feel bad for her shitty actions .

That panel is definitely not how Jaden would've reacted , she has been showed to mostly be confused and well meaning , having her show that level of disgust amd hatred is rusty views leaking into her comic and poisoning it from the inside .

Its just really pathetic

How much do you hate someone enough to go as dehumanize them truly

And the worst is she cannot portray nervousness I'm ways that make sense according to her character, here she makes Riley look like she has a trauma response , why don't you show her uncomfortable? Twitching ? Why is she portrayed the same way rusty portray people who are traumatized

And yep Riley look like a fish here again , and really the way that it got "defused" is ridicule , she has such a deep hatred for trans people any related topics is either treated as straw man caricatures or downright disgusting and offensive mischaracterization , but oh ! Forbid a lesbian to be mischaracterized !

The double standard is ridiculous and forcing people to cater to your narrow perception of joy nor homosexuality is pathetic. If you can't handle people doing harmless choices then get a life , and if the harm are "what ifs" and stuff that happened and can't represent a large number of people/community then it's truly pathetic how desperate you are to leech your venom of hatred because you can't deal with your own personal issues and need a catalyst to vent you anger

The lack of consistency baffles me , a couple of pages earlier Riley getting close threw Jaden into a full on panic attack but here Riley being super close almost touching Jaden is fine ??? The consistency here is getting down the drain quickly

The background are pretty well done , they're colored and complete the scenes

[love-is-a-pearl]

Oh my god, I'm so glad that you are fellow "Ash's Giovanni's son". I mean... It's fitting. Like, I can agree that man avoids his family over a pride can work in real world, but... That's kinda ridiculous for story. Like "we have a kid that abandoned by his father, but we never touch this theme properly and just show you kid's challenges to reach his professional goal". It's just don't work in stories about kids- there ALWAYS influence of both parents on kids. And hiding one of them is... dumb.

Honestly, Giovanni being Ash's dad worls as the reason why he allows Team R trio to follow him around. Like, there's theory that Giovanni keeps Jessie, James and Meowth in organisation solely for them to watch over his son. Like, they do some reports time to time, so I guess that's how Giovanni keeps updated about Ash.

(Also, that's already headcanon, but imagine him hating Dawn's guts cause he thinks she's Team Galactic member. Like he judges by himself amd thinks she's also Cyrus's secret kid or something 😅)

aiodnaoid I'm not though :v sorry! im boring😭

What I said is that I do like the mundane idea of Ash's dad being just.. some loser LMAO

Yeah, it's silly, but I like it. I like that at least in that sense Ash is not the chosen one yknow?

Also I'm a sucker for making canon work even if it's stupid so I tend to like even the most idiotic shit pokeani pulls (we've seen it with the whole BW debacle) aiodjoa

But depending on the moon I do like the idea of Ash being Giovanni's son (somedays I prefer it to be some loser; somedays I love the idea of being that Silver dude from Johto; and sometimes I do like the concept of him being special from birth).

I think there's a LOT of potential in it. Specially for Ash and having him wondering if that means he's evil too, if he will become like Giovanni in the future, what that means for his mother? Her relationship with other people and how she views Ash? Does she resent having him? Is filled with interesting questions and I wouldn't mind seeing more of it.

Also I think both concepts could work together quite well too? Like, Giovanni DID leave to become a trainer, shit didn't go his way, he didn't like how the league was done and then he decided to do things his own way, getting a bunch of failed trainers under his wing until it became a full evil organization and because of that he could just never go back home. Its a fun thought, of how he overcame failure in a bad way and his son overcame it in a better way. Fun parallels.

And that concept that Giovanni hired TRio as his son's babysitters is hilarious. Lol, imagine telling Gary that Ash only got the Viridian Gym Badge because Giovanni wouldn't put Mewtwo to fight his baby boy LMAO

And the idea of him just assuming all his son's friends are related to other evil bosses is also so funny?? Projecting much my dude?

[chappellrroan]

oki gussa mat hona main iske baad padhne jaa hi raha hoon but i saw one more ep and THAT LINE THAT YOU RANTED ABOUT gojo saying he won't hide yuji forever because no one should be robbed of their youth aa gayi and i was liKE VIO NE YE BOLA THA he's saying that bc he was robbed of his youth😭😭 also i love him he's so cool and hilarious he can't start a revolution because he thinks it's hopeless so he's mentoring young minds to make the world a better place? i love him 😭😭😭 also also THAT'S GETO??????? WHY TF DID HE BURN DOWN A RESTAURANT FULL OF PEOPLE WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM my pinterest board is filled with fanart of gojo amd geto kissing being domestic and let me tell you i am shook YOU SAID THEY WERE US 😭 also this is funnier than i expected it's so ridiculous gojo is making him watch shitty movies to control his cursed energy (?) and megumi is so fucking cute i want to kiss his face i want to punch him for not kissing yuji i want to adore him make yuji run his fingers thru his hair i want to fix his hair because it looks like such an adorable mess so i don't actually want to fix it and nobara is so real constantly done with the world and screaming and shoko made an appearance she's that doctor i think she was gonna do a postmortem but yuji woke up?? anyway i am invested we should watch an ep or two tonight 2 am maybe since they're only 20 mins

I love watching you lose your mind over them so much and NOPE see if the geto they show has a stitch on his head THAT IS NOT GETO OKAY (I can explain it to you in full detail if you want) IKR that trio are my babies I grew up with them oh god ivy do not get attached it won't be good for your heart AT ALL (i say this as if I am any better), shoko is mommy material, i have zero self respect when it comes to her I just love her so much even tho she barely has screentime in anime, and yep yuji woke up because he made a pact with sukuna (this will come into play later remember that vv imp) they don't disclose yet what pact they made idk babe it will take 3 or after 3:30 we can never be sure so don't we can always continue later but I am so glad you're loving it

[findursoulmateorfindyourself]

its really still a problem. i am reading mark aurel which is all about focusing on urself and pracising kind hearted not comparing urself too others not envy and so on and then this stunning stunning stunning young woman comes, dark hair teint skin beuatifuk mouth beuatofuk smile suoer young oerfect akin very beautifuk body but akk in a very subtle way. she smiles to me i smile bavk i admire her but and this sistrubs me i still envy her. i wish i had her beauty and her eaziness soorit the effortless sex appeal. next to her i feek old, wasted and kind of trying to be ridicule. i need to wear rhose toght things to he recognized I need to really ahoe my hody but she is not doing anything kf jt and still glowing. but it ahoukd he omay and i ahoukd not feek bad aboht mysekf just because she js suoer stunning. why am i doing it. its all just to put myself down. but i knkw irs a fact a fact i just oainky should accept and mkve on. be grateguk for the bidy i am in as i an prraching everyday and saying hoe much i love myself now. apparently i am not there yet. hiw can i get over it and just recognize and cherish her beuaty fulk stop. i dont hate her fir being behaitfuk i just wish it coukd be me instead. i think my kifr woukd be so much better if i looked like that but what woukd be better? i know she is a beautifuk kind soul the way she smiles gives jt off. its not like i would be taking this beautiful body and losing a beautiful character bc she clearly has it all…so what am i scared for. the man or woman I like, likes her better fir her beauty and her character? so it be, then it simply means they are a better match. if she is oreferred for something like getting into a club I am not, so it be. it is not my oath to be in this club as it is not my path to be with this person. but then how to jot feel sorry for urself as it all just seems unfair. and i think this is the crucial part. everythingabout us is beautiful if we are doing it with a compass liek mark aurek out of honesty purity and kind hearted ness every little thought ( it is okay to be jealous I am not there yet) but I am really trying. I might bit get into the club, i should say c’est la vie, and might go hoke with a fresh mind crrating something amazing. it has the same value. or does it not? therr is no such thing as objectively speaking thats why POV became such a thing i guess but yes. lets try to oretend objectively which means a lot kf opinions gathered she is getting into the club meeting tons of amazing oeiple and sancing to incredibke music. over girl going home and chilking thwre no ine cates aboht her. but it is also with what aurek says caring about what ithers think and do its espeically the problem!! I inky have my now and here out if my eyes and my heart and it is supposed to be like that. and ofc im thinkinf hundert peopke consider it to he better like this or like that basically this is how democracy works, how can I vakidate my own opinion as much as them 100 if it comes to, it is the same good to be rejected and go hike than be in the club? its the same old same okd question about. which opinion values how can i crrate my value without the measurements of others. i am always coming to this. i sint want peiple to think i am a narcisisit egoman if i dont give a fuck aboht theyre opinions amd weigh mine way higher. it is trucky to maneuver in that mindest without becomung ignorant. but at the same time i dont want to live through grow through prosper thorigh affirmation hell no that aounds like hell. i want to affirm mysekf. it is maybe because ut is the sustainabke way. when we think about rivers and flyids which i cam to visualize when we had a saying about einfluss neglej und beeinflussen which also inckudes the river interesntinfky and aurel is talking alout aboht the stream and i think it is pary of live as blood is streaming through our veines and we need ghe water and the fluids, the circulation is life. bht coming back to the asoect of sustainabikty. listen imagine your own body giving ur own body ur own bacteria ur own blood cells when we tal

lol my paragrpah was maxed oht i do too much bla bla. but yes if we i somt want to go into biologism to much i never want to dsocirmante bodies espeicalky when it comes to genetics we always have to he carefuk to not get into any natuonalism discimnating fucked up shit. but I think my own body loves theri own system the most and it csn get a lot of her own system. its a little bit maybe kets talk about skin its better. my dahrer always refused to wash us too much as babies and in general he as this pladoyer: ur own bidy crrates fat that oeitect the skin, washing it away sith oerfumed shampoo gel to then out chemical body lotion sossnt seem to be an enhancement for the skin seems pretty ligicak to me. I mean everyone has their own bekiefs and ways but I kove to appreciate what my vody creates and what my body does. I know i am talking aboht an abled healthy skin ans i know some peiple just love to smeell like thousand rose leafs. byt i find that metaphor pretty good for also souk stuff. what my own body gives to my body is because it is healthy important disclaimer sensefull and good for me. it pribably matches my needs better than any artificial or natural product which fits affirmation from outside. of course fhe cream snells nice i feek fresh but then, my bidy get used to this crram wnats more of this crram and stips crrating its own fat to protect the skin maybe. I always have to buy this cream and its exterior, it will never last. i need it nee alk the time

i need rhat affirmation it feeks good but it wont last, my own afformation whereby comes naturally fits my needs and it is independent on any outer things. and this is why the value for me of my own affirmation wighs heavier than any of other people. i feel free and i feel good avoht jt but ifc still i am here comoaring mayelf to a maybe 19 year old woman that i wikk never be and never was. and its okay like fhaf but i need ti remind myself and i am disappointed inmyself still that it affects me so much and my head us gilled aitb it instead kf kther thints. but at the same time i lay down write this down and reflect on it so i hope i pray but i also

know that the next time i get inti a situation like that ill feel differently. I see feel hear taste the world thourgh my eyes and I love that I appreciate so many good food so much so many nice music ao many beuatofuk animals buidlings chikdrens families situations ( sometimes i dont of course madness, sexism, racism exploitation hatred and injsutice of the workd) but Its all meant for me. and i need tk accept and allrecate this. trhough my mind baby through my mind and love ur mind, it diesnt mean you think her mind sucks, it is beautifuk for sure, but its her mind her life her feelings hers and its good to see ssomeone havinf it like that its just an insoiratuon and a joy if beuaty and smiles which is for free and contagious( but Its all meant for me. and i need tk accept and allrecate this.

[woahalfeelsthingswhaaat]

IM SUCH A BAD SISTER FUCKING DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE

i cant do this i actually cant just fucking kill me i dont want to im meant to be dead im meant to be dead

i fant even interact with her properly because im to caught up in myself im so fucking selfish i just its all too much but she deserves better and im not thag and i never will be and i need to be better but i CANT i ohysically cant and its just like whats wrong wifh me i just want yo be bormal I WANT YO BE GOOD I WANT TO BE GOOD BUT IM NOT im not good i never have been i never will be because il disgusting and awful and horrible and ride and cold and mean and cruel and just bad im so bad IM BAD IM BAD im a monster im a fucking monster i cant do it i domt i cant

and i dont know how to be good

ibe mever been good

I JUST WANT TO FIE

theyre otchy and if i just fucking cut them they wont be BUT I CANT J CANT because im stupid and i dont have anything im gonna kill myself i need to kill myself i need to i need to i meed to die because im wrong and im ugly and im so so so so horrible IM HORFIBLE

im not even a good friend ir sister or daughter or anything

and im jusg faking everything bevause im a big old fake amd i deserce ro die and to suffer and i dont deserve driends or love or people who care amd its good that no one cares i deserve to be mocked or be ridiculed i donf deserve good things

[solardick]

Some pot hazed maddening

Skip the imprinting.

As a sense of beauty to it which, is abundant in the clouds. When they come alive.

What’s it to say that it’s counter to what is taught. The russian liberty standing on the threat. The existential threat. Even to one. The shield, not a sword. She’s protecting. In the defence there of. To protect the land. Firmly into the soil by a point. The couple are walking with her, onto it’s platform. The will is motivated to stand up as justice. And not embracing the coming end.

That level of destruction goes against it’s existence. The land will be dead. Nothing to protect. Beside the constant sidetracking by hyping threatening intent. Fun little parade to exercise a demon.

Save that not pushing that button back. Take a hit to show the futility of the exercise. Would the others fight for? Don’t tally the weight. It’s another trap. People are a nation. Nobody fights for them. Would the rest of the world stand by? Just watch as the unload strike after strict while it stood by and watched, no reciprocal act. While it burned.

So pushly and lamely dramatic.

Stupid fools, think they’re important. Exercise the will.

Can’t rely on the news none that reach me. Make it up as i got along catch a stream a fallow it. See where it leads.

Igh, i choose decay. Plagued by pestilence.

For a love too good to be true. It cannot exist. And nothing less will do.

They want me to waste it on myself. Like elevating the feminine isn’t the goal. The main body of information. Freeing female sexuality from oppression. Make entire rallies mad eof the stuff. Mean while russia is like.

Fight for your land. Fight for your mother.

There’s no balance. It isn’t a graceful step. Storm with your natures. A nourishing will to protect, lines the steps of the courts, land of desert rational. Breathe with its life. The presence is. No sacrifice is too strong.

Die hard.

You don’t make too good of a soldier if fear guides you away from confrontation. Build a monument to it. A sacred space. No, son. Fight on. A mother’s love is important. What is that, not trapped by sickness.

For a justice on a nuke, temperance pours out one cup to the next not holding all its power in on place. The water’s seen ascending from the lovers.

Not a card ill ever experience.

Not much of a life.

I want to die.

Fuel for the fire.

The only emotion. To process. Arid. The closest to tempting desire drying them out with the dry. Liquid beings starve. Cheers to being raped queer. Stuck as a child never able to grow. Life is meaningless. Beyond tempting temptations. No track, no will.

Neat. It’s the world card i envisioned and the time of its release. Tricky lyric scene in that one.

Id removed the to be a man part. Not to eccentuate it but aggravating it in the effort. It was brought to me like this. I’m a king in this world. It works on dot. Flip some venom around. Associate its pressence. Battling the like mind with the opposition likely carrying the same. Som some aspects are cut. But associate to things sung amd what happens. While keeping the disposition as such.

A little roid boost to give sense to form, and a lack of sleep to wary the walls. Headache desires sleep

So here’s to having a disgusting pigheaded personality. People will not like me. An angel in bed. And no more growth forward. Stagnated in the moment. Disconnected from god.

As im watched every moment of everyday. Settle cues. Life isnt worth it.

Poor guy, just wanted to live a righteous life with traditional, yet functional, family values. Satiate my insatiable lust for power and intimacy. There is no other guiding motivation. Be known for ever more as an object of ridicule by the self in-dined superior beings. Keep playing to the script. Everything endowed to you all serves a single purpose. “Mine” a voice.

Might as well put on that dress. Doubt the irritation in my ass is never going away. Twist my arms. So to say. Ugh my god. My entire existence. From birth on. Wtf.

I’ll try. Again.

No, their not going to stop harassing me, playing doctor with my spirit. Indon’t want to be alive anymore. Life has only ever been against me. Even in the ways it was kind. Theres no memory telling me thats false. Why am i alive if i cant have a life of my making. Instead of being born for no other reason then others amusement in degenerate shit. Theres no life in me anymore. This fucken script has no ends. I want it to stop. 40 years is too much. What the fuck is this life.

A world that knows no means to a positive expression. In a world where im not afraid of external pressures, degenerational low webs of peoples. Afraid to speak. Gatecrashed peace. Going from beaten on to beating on. Watching people gleamer the superior stance with that fucken smile. All life has ever been. It won’t change so how would i? Doesn’t make the best role modal to self modulate of. Don’t give in no surrounded. Its evil and doesn’t care there is no humanity in it. It’s a dry txt. And your a number. A string of code. File goes into this box. Besides i don’t believe in torture. I believe its real.

The Y chromosome never changes. It just passes down to the next. X gene activation! No man you dont have a choice. Survive as it is and there wont be a whole lot brilliant in the future. You have been governmentally sanctioned off. Extreme reconditioning. Before ever have breathe your own sense of self. Free from external pressures and conditionings. Nada. Never knowing a single breath from grave to grave. Whats there to live for? It’s never going to end. Wheres the nukes when you need them. Destroy everything.

Attack everything.

Guess this is the rest of it. Fighting against the onslaught of abusive slavery pretending not to be so. All existence. I’ll never be able to do anything or think for myself without it. 40 fucken years. Hahahahah jesus.

Well that was fun. Now what. Their trip is over. An di get nothign out of it. Not even a lesson.

Hapoy canada day! Everyone celebrate! I’m a homo! Yay! Fucken nazi cockskrs. But the one thing that is true. I was born to be raped. It’s my never failing destiny. And the world has always supported that. As a child, as an adult. With zero development is between. Nothign but fucken nazis. They won the war. And rule the world.

Kindnof want to spend the rest of life helping people like me. But, thats never going to happen. Im jew living nazi germany.

Aber wir sind deine Freunde!

Sorry i dont speak cockskr. Thanks russia for supporting me by killing thousand of people

They probably all deserve. Cause if theyre anything like me they certainly do. Even god says so.

Polarizing. Saturn square uranus. Uranus opposite staturn. And on and on. Most of these moves are like this. Pluto square pluto. Trying to undo all that was done.

Ive seem some horsemen. Blowing in on the wind. A brown, thick misty wind blowing in with a gust. Particals and sand. Attacks your vision. Entropic states do fallow.

Hate that they gave me to their intentions, and presumptions powered by dominion, failing to see their own play. Such is the state of animal nature. And the throne, a resting figure, for the home. Twisting my arms and causing me harm while displaying a state of warmth. My entire life. Can’t develop on my own. Break away, and run away to a place far from here. While all influence to my dissemination will be littered with the same. There is nothign to do while they build it up on high to a pedestal. The promise of inevitability, consistently Messaged in all so subtle little ways. But being stationary and not struggle from tether to tether make sit a whole lot easier to get to work. As with all surgery, anaesthesia and sedation makes it easier and safer to work.

I photographed it in a cloud. Scary scene. Two hideous, alien, monster, demon,(s) Opening up my skull. Fiddling with it inside. Captured the injections and the soviet sickle and hammer emblem, about 20 years ago now. Twenty years in this script. With like 18 earlier years of much and less the same. From all sources. Didn’t matter where am i’m placed with. I want it to end.

20 years of effort to bring me to this point. Hahah yeah. 20 straight years of torture.

I was headed that way anyway with all this direction. Then they perverted it. And started forcing it. Creating a complex they could use to torture me with.

An artificial complex. That i live out, uninvolved with. Nothing in me is of my own creation. Some walls erected by the life instinct. But they want me to die. To untether the only pillar of self i was ever able to do. Evil forces just twerling around above me. Focusing all attention into one area while being severed from growing forth.

Built and fostered in good faith. As a monument of past experience. Cant create another one in the name of all this. Because i’m not allowed to do anything. All they are is evil. It’s my cross and they want it.

The archetype they made is standing right besides me. Din’t recognize it. It isn’t real. Let it starve. Like i am. Your not the real clark kent. You’re an imposter. But they keep feeding it. Powered by youthful innocence. Just the same demon trying to dress up all attractive for me. Wear me!

An Eros sun lilith conjuction leading onto a Pholus conjunction on the threshold? Domineering and hard influences coming as reactions even to a silent party. Mars to the physical senses of touch and taste, of money to give. to inline with the vital force of eros. As reaction counter flow to a forceful domineering influence. With a moon seeking closure from the abuse, in distanced states, and story and glamour. Desiring a position of compassion and understanding. A longing from solitude and estrangement and degrading and all the rest of those words add etc. disposed with a will to teach and experience as one learns and finds the value of what it is. As in hind-sight. So even if there is no will for sex, the giving is shining with it. So it comes off as rather awkward. Its always a sexual link. Even if its not me that has it. Coming from a another party.

Unless they’r old. er. And don’t resonate from me. But everryone is in on it. It plague all of it with negativity. The demon stelium in leo of expressions is tied to Aquarius by Jupiter. The electronic. The group the community. Public workshops. To name relevant associations to my person. Wishfully if that, to square the SN and midpoint of both saturn and pluto. And to be next inline to square mars. The majority vote of pressure vetos the martian drive.

I sometimes wish i was a moron not to be able to see whats happening. Because thats a torture way up there.

The ultimate receptive nympho woman. The difficulties of conscience. A will to be away. Pain of failure. And to the will and freedom to recreate myself again. Preceding all of it. Away from all the influential bodies stalking and fiddling with my existence. Away from the hell endured for those many years. Beaten one from one place to the next. Created this whole mess with intent.

As long as i don’t get off, i’ll never be disgusted.

Sex slave me. Fulfill these fantasies. Put me in the middle i want both of you.

I like it in the bum. It’s like messaging the sphincter. Like messaging any tense muscle. It feels good. There’s no reaction. There’s no orgasm. No sexual tension. Until one starts damaging the inside of the rectum. The lack of pain receptors, instead, triggers the bodies infantile reaction to cry. It allows for processing and integrating painful emotions into the structure. This alleviates the pressure of like minding emotions by giving them an outlet. The life has been structured in such a way for such a period of time, that this could become a life long motive for shame. To counter and process a life time of hardship. Forever shadowed by laughing clowns.

My fight is with the demon that runs their lives. I just mistaken that it runs the world instead. Well the entirety of my world. Because i cant be left to be well alone. A d figure out my shit with the pressemce of god and not these louts of nazis.

Fucken die already. Where’s russia with the will to fight? In this fake reality of bs.

What i mean…..

Selling all their crucifixes backwards so the foot rest points to the sinner who rejected the gay Jesus.

Well bye amazon. It was fun.

Это неправда.

Wish i could keep my feed clean. But, apparently thats a bad thing for them.

Медведь живет в лесу и не любит людей.

Bear lives in woods and no like people. Fuck off or ill bomb you.

Two more rounds of this coming. It never ends. Until your an old weathered man with no prospects. Without any joy found in the entirety of history beyond carnal pleasure.

I’ll be happy with two hung guys that fuck me stupid every night. I want to feeling of violation to stay with me always. If you cant get rid of it love it. Like jesus did. Tell me I’m beautiful. And cute, and call me shy. Make me feel proud of my accomplishments. If that accomplishment is you. Be my entire world, i’ll serve you at every call. Turn me completely. And then toss me to the curb. As is the repeating theme of this entire life. Positive negative. Doesnt matter life will find a way. And you’ll still be alone.

Family always defined me as shy. I was never shy. Afraid of your abusive negligent, blind bs. Every-time i spoke it was chaos reacting in turn. Flip the fuck out. Tried working on speaking in person. But it was impossible because life is wrapped up in this whole thing. Not much to build off from pre directed script with a purpose.

Lead to me to the righteous path of wanton down trodden. It doesn’t haunt me they do.

My heart is dead. I no linger care who you are. Fuck off.

I’ll just stand next to this pillar. Fortified by the carnage. And in the presence here of god. Till im an old gray miserable over weathered man, too eroded to see my skin. And I’ll spend the last couple years. On the fringe and watch the decay escalate to the eyes close and it’s back to the grave.

No wonder it was a difficult birth. I didn’t want to be. Forced and pulled out agaisnt the will. And then pushed down a flight of stairs. Thats all you need to know about my life story.

Just repeating at the collective level. The demon has birthed an army. That it envelops.

Indint eant to eb alive anymore. 40 years is too much.

Well that was fun drug haze rapist weekend. And ingot to hear my family again, Especially my father laughing diabolically. Like the stupid drunk bipolar fucktard he is. Baby booming fuck head. Good job being a dad. Fucken loser. Hurry up and die so i can get my inheritance and spend it all On dildos, butplugs and lube. Ill even order a sexdoll made in your image. Keep the fantasy going.

[remain-uknowable]

OH ADHD DOES DISABLE YOU SOMETIMES AND THINGS DO GET HARDER AND IT DOESN'T ALWAYS PRESENT VISIBLY AND I HAVE NOT BEEN SUPPORTED FOR IT BECAUSE ITS NOT OBVIOUS AND THATS PROBABLY CAUSE IM MASLING ALL THE TIME AND ALL THOSE THINGS I FELT GUILTY FOR NOT DOING AND ALL THOSE TIMES I GOT IN HUUGGGEEEE TROUBLE FOR FORGETTING THINGS AND NOT COMPLETEING CERTAIN TASKS. But they were fair i mean they affect everyone and i never did better. Wasn't that okay? Mom has adhd too and gets through it logically as someone who knew for years i should figure it out too. She even said so. Mabye i am just irresponsible and lazy. That has to be it. And thats probably the biggest reason why i feel guilty all the time. Your probably just using it as an excuse right? Wait... no she said that i can do it i just have to go about it differently. Because we can't think like everyone else. We have to do things differently to get to the same place. Its a different way of thinking. Im so confused. I feel like im getting mixed messages. Well that was a while ago. Also anything she did that mabye hurts that i can't really remember but i feel doesn't matter cause i can't remember it. Also if thats most of what i remember other than that car ride and mabye the ones in middle school its fine obviously.

Why can't I remember what made me feel so bad? And why did those conversations make me feel like I can't trust myself? No. That is just because you were a anxious dramatic kid and it was a long time ago. Why would i remember stuff from middle school thats ridiculous. Especailly since i mostly only remember stuff that makes me feel guilty and that i can't forgive myself for. Don't treat your mom that way Kas. You have to remember even if your memories feel warped right now that you mom has done amazing and great things. She has helped you amd even if you can't remember them sometimes you carry those lessons with you forever. And I know she loves me. I know what happened. She isn't one to do that usually they were bad times. She didn't mean what she said even if you can barely remember. Why am i even thinking of this now she doesn't even remember. She forgives me for my stunts and i should forgive her cause we are all humans who make mistakes and grow. Why do I keep coming back to this? She has backed me up so many times why would i throw all that away and paint her as something shes not? I must be being an angsty teen. that's all it is. It doesn't matter so drop it. You cause enough pain to your family. Don't cause more jackass. Moms been getting on your case about staying upstairs on your headphones. You know it's because your avoiding her. Isn't that so selfish and horrible? Way to bite the hand that feeds you and is always there for you. Ungrateful bitch. Not just mom you avoid every adult that comes over here. Why do you do that? You stay down here when your brothers are home. I hate myself so much. Why doess anyone like me like this? Why hasn't mom gotten rid of me yet? IM SO CONFUSED. I HATE THINKING ABOUT THIS I JUST WANT IT TO GO AWAY. STOP STOP STOP. IT DOESN'T MATTER GROW UP. YOU ARE SUCH A BRAT

[prcserpina]

drunk girls are literally the best, i called one of them ‘my love’ and another said ‘am i not your love?’ and i said ‘no you’re my angel’ and she damn near cried

[millenialfanfictionaddiction]

🏅 Being Japan's National Team's Manager🏅

💪🏻 Miss Manager Being Built 💪🏻

Japan's Mens National Volleyball Team x Female Manager

Warnings: Swearing, Atsumu 😒

A/N: This is an Anon request! They didn't request a specific team so I'm sticking to the National Team's because it's like all the boys wrapped into one 😍

First off, YN you are so humble

I mean you work with a bunch of guys who have off the chart egos 🙄

Apparently it comes with the territory for these guys

But you know what, we love them none the less

And especially you 🤩

Because you are Miss Manager for Japan's National Men's Volleyball Team 🙌🏻

Seriously the coolest 😎

You've been the teams manager for quite sometime now

You know so much about your team it's kind of ridiculous

Like you know how Hinata likes his toast 🍞

That Bokuto isn't allowed any caffeine past 1pm

What laundry detergent Sakusa likes most

What Aran's favorite episode of Law and Order: SVU is

How to prepare Ushiwaka's protein shakes 🥤

Why Atsumu is the way he is 😅

We name it, you more than likely know it

You rarely get time for yourself

I mean you train from dawn til dusk with these idiots 🥰

You practically drag Kags and Hinata out every night after they reunited to perform their famous quick

But when you do get time, you spend alot of it at your favorite gym

Now it's not surprising that you are strong because you keep track of 6'3" toddlers on the daily

But nobody knows how truly built you are 👀

I'm talking abs, chest, arms, legs, thighs, CALVES

Even a nice butt 😏

Seriously I'm so jealous 😭

My butt is inverted

Now just because you can doesn't mean you brag

I mean, honestly YN you know you can put down any of the team

I mean you run with the team daily, help them bench amd even help Iwaizumi with their training sessions

You do it all 👏🏻

But nobody would ever know how built you are

I mean you wear leggings and/or athletic pants all the time

Team Japan shirts are basically the extent of your wardrobe

Maybe you like baggie sweaters? 🤷‍♀️

Who doesn't!

So when Yaku and Komori see you walking into the gym after practice one night, they are intrigued 🤔

"Maybe she does Yoga or something? Lord knows she needs the relaxation with the idiots on our team"- Yaku

But then they see you approach the treadmill by the window

And their souls leave their bodies 🤣

There you are, shorts and a sports bra 😶

Seriously YN 👏🏻

"Holy crap-" Komori, quote of the century 😲

"We have to tell everyone!"- Yaku

"Maybe we shouldnt-"

Too late, it's already in the group chat 😅

It goes something like this

🌠 Japan's Greatest Ever Volleyball Team plus Atsumu🌠

Sakusa named the chat 🤣

Yaku: *sends pic*

Hinata: Holy crap is that YN 😵

Atsumu: Nah YN would never wear that

Kageyama: it looks awfully alot like YN

Aran: Yaku, stop spying on YN!

Komori: I told him that!

Sakusa: I imagine how creepy you too look outside of a gym taking pictures 🥱

Ushiwaka: why are you taking pictures of YN?

Bokuto: Hi YN 🖐🏻

Hoshiumi: YN isn't even in this chat!

Hakuba: what gym is that?

Hyakuzawa: YN works out all the time after practice

Iwaizumi: 👆🏻

Atsumu: she never invites me!

Sakusa: she doesn't even like you

Bokuto: @YN why don't you invite us?

Iwaizumi: Bo YN isn't in this chat!

Hoshiumi: Maybe she just likes to work out in peace?

Hinata: but we are her peace 🥺🥺

Kageyama: shut up dumbass

When Komori looks up from the chat he sees you staring right at him and Yaku 👁

Ope 😅

"RUN"

It's at that moment you know you secret is out

So when you walk in the next morning to practice, you know exactly what to expect

Atsumu sends a spike straight for your head

You gracefully deflect 💅

"That's for not inviting us to the gym!"

Bokuto is in a mood

Akasshi already texted you 🤚🏻

"Sorry YN"- Hyakuzawa

Please Hyakuzawa, Komori and Iwaizumi are the only ones who can keep secrets

"So your pretty ripped under all those clothes huh YN" - Yaku

"Stop talking about under YN's clothes!"- Aran

"YN will you work out with me?"- Hinata

"She's helping me with my sets you dumbass"- Kageyama

"Will all of your shut up!"- Iwaizumi

"YN's too chicken to work out with me"- Atsumu

"More like YN would kick your ass"- Sakusa

"I want to see YN kick Atsumu's ass"- Hoshiumi

"I think we all want to see Atsumu humbled"- Hakuba

"Yeah like that will humble him"- Kageyama 🙄

"YN will you you please dead lift for us"- Bokuto 😍

There's alot going on YN

"Ugh fine but nobody is coming to work out with me! I need my peace!"- you

"TOLD YOU"- Komori

You go to the training gym

Legit it's you and a bunch of AlPhA mAlEs 😆

Show them what you got YN

100, 150, 200 pounds easy

The men were too stunned to speak

Range of emotions from 😧 to 💀

You are in your sports bra and pants

"Damn YN you could wash clothes on those abs"- Yaku

"Look at her arms"- Kageyama

"Nice Butt YN"- Atsumu

*smack* ✋️

"Ouch Sakusa!"- Atsumu

"Pay attention! YN's form is immaculate!"- Iwaizumi 📝

The boys watch in awe 🙂

Seriously YN they now idolize you 🤩

Bokuto and Hinata will constantly ask for your help

Silly of you to think you could keep any secrets YN 😆

[inthememetime]

Fic Masterlist- I'll reblog every time I add a chapter or add a new WIP.

For all of these, feel free to interact with me about them! I may add/remove/change things based on your comments. Except maybe H(a)unted.

H(a)unted - AO3 link here. Summary: My most angsty/messed up fic ever! Are the Fentons Haunted? Or are the halfas Hunted?

Danny is shocked when he, his parents, and Jazz are taken to court by Vlad Masters in a custody battle. Ridiculous! Right?

Not as much as Danny would like to think. As the trial goes on, Danny discovers he and his sister aren't who or what they thought, that their parents are not as they seem, and Vlad, his enemy, may be their only shot at survival.

This story is told primarily through dialogue and epistolary storytelling as an experiment. Throughout the story, please expect body horror, illegal and nonconsensual experimentation on human beings, murder, and kidnapping. Mind the tags, please.

Darcy Lewis' Adventures Dating Dracula- AO3 link here. Summary: Follow Darcy Lewis and Vlad Masters as they start dating- and deal with everything from ghostly serial killers, the Things In Crybaby Creek, Politics, the Addams Family, and international spyassasins.

The Fantabulous Emancipation of Danny Phantom- AO3 link here. Summary: The Fenton family journeys to Gotham to get Jazz settled in her dorm at Gotham U. Things go a little sideways when Danny lets something ghostly slip, and his parents try to shoot the 'evil ghost' out of him.

Danny can't go home. But his sister's 18 and willing to rent a campus apartment, Gotham has a layer of ectoplasm so thick it's almost as good as Amity Park, and he's already made a new friend!

Harley was just going to get snacks for Bud & Lou, her hyenas. She did not mean to befriend a tourist, but the kid's almost as crazy as she is!

Join Danny and Harley in a journey of friendship, crime for good reasons, and kicking Vlad and the Joker's ass.

Jack, the DILF of Amity Park- AO3 link here. Summary: AU where Vlad doesn't lust over Maddie. No, he's obsessed with Jack, and since college (minus a 20 year gap), they've fought over the man's affections like two cats.

However, as Maddie would kill him in 2 seconds, tge shenanigans are more sitcom-esque competition, conolete with Danny begging for brain bleach multiple times, and Vlad realizing Jack isn't the only Fenton he's in love with.

Jack, of course, is completely oblivious to the fact his visiting very friendly people causes Vlad and Maddie to stalk him amd talk for once. Or is he?

Danny Phantom in Showghost!- AO3 link here. Summary: Tucker Foley was having a perfectly normal day- until he runs into Narrator, a ghost who is possibly as powerful as Clockwork or Ghostwriter. The problem isn't Narrator- they just want their book back.

No, the problem is the GIW. And the possibility that the town of Amity Park was sucked into a mini-universe outside of time. And, to add more problems to Tucker's day, he seems to be the only one who realises what's going on.

"We are on a timeline, though," Narrator said cheerfully.

"What?! When were you gonna tell me that?!"

They scowled. "Those idiots in white broke my book. If we don't wake everyone up before we run out of pages, everyone dies here."

Not Broken, Just Bent- AO3 link here. Summary: The sequel to Vlad & The Accidental Family Acquisition and Darcy Lewis' Adventures Dating Dracula, NBJB is a Jazz-centric fic about growing up asexual, and the trials and tribulations of being asexual in a very sexual culture. On hiatus until DLADD is complete.

Pending fics (planned, but not written yet, or in draft stage) will be added in reblogs.

Questions about the fics, suggestions, or just have aome ideas? Hit that ask button or ask me in the comments!

[felikatze]

xbc3. is. so good. i'm nowhere near done (30h in lmao) and i just finished chapter 3 and i wanna talk abt it anyway!!!!!

the mystery is SO GOOD!! WHAT'S HAPPENING!!! why is the world like this indeed noah!!! i dont know!! cuz like. *somebody* has to have done this. what was the ouroboros egg?! what the fuck are the moebius gang? why is any of this? why are we all killing each other?

also like. i have played xbc1 and love it a lot and respectfully ignored xbc2 but the callbacks to both r insane. not just how the factions mirror the games ON A COMBAT LEVEL TOO (INSANE) but also how it just takes actual locations from both games

i cant recognize the xbc2 ones obvs but the xbc1 locations. colony 9 is literally just colony 9!!! IT'S THE SAME FUCKING VALLEY!! THE EXACT SAME VALLEY!!!!

and when i got to colony lambda i had to say out loud "FUCK OFF THAT'S MAKNA FALLS" like yeah. okay.

and it just adds to the mystery!!! cuz ykno, xbc1 ends with the creation of a new world, so is this the new world? did the two worlds get fused after both games?

also like!!! CONSUL N IS JUST NOAH WHAT IS THIS. is this a shulk-zanza situation or what. i mean eunie did find a corpse with her own name and everyone's a test tube baby so noah is probably this guy's clone right. right.

speaking of its kinda. mind boggling to grasp on how short of a timescale these characters operate. cuz they'll talk abt their legendary heroes who've done so much and these legendary figures r literally the same age as mio. and two years older max than the rest of the group. THAT'S RIDICULOUS, RIGHT? TWO YEARS? ethel and mio are the same fucking age! and yet these are the respected seniors! that's like me calling my sister an old crone! wack! vandham's right!!!! this isn't how the world is supposed to be!!

the character writingg is. excellent also. i love how every configuration of characters gets bonding moments, not just ouroboros pairs. like the tail end of chapter 3 is vry taion centric yeah (i love taion)

so we get this scene after eunie discovers her own corpse and unlocks ptsd and she's sitting by the fire and her hands are shaking. taion hands her a cup of tea and she makes fun of him out loud but we cut to her hands and see they've stopped shaking

that's such a good moment the fuck man. like, taion recognizes eunie's distress, but doesnt press her to talk about it, and eunie pokes fun at taion, but she's geniuenly grateful for his company. considering what a dickweed (affectionate) eunie is that's amazing.

and after that is a moment where taion admits to lanz that he's jealous of lanz's self confidence, but lanz admits he's not self confident at all. he just cant stand still and allow himself to think, or else the doubt starts setting in. he has to keep moving or else. he cant doubt himself once cuz then he'll doubt himself forever.

and when it happens, this is still kind of in the taion centric stretch with his colony lambda backstory, but this moment sets up how lanz starts doubting himself and feeling guilty after joran shows up as a consul. AND in the moment lanz tells taion how noah will always tell him to look forward WHICH NOAH THEN DOES AFTER JORAN!

it's just good okay!!!!! and i'm still reeling from "consul n is just noah lmao" except my joycons' battery ran out and i want to play on the big screen

i'm now fondly recalling my joke reading of zanza and meyneth as "your divorced parents arguing about how to raise their kids" and now i'm giggling about it cuz i'm still kind of right i think

xbc3 launches straight in into "war is hell" whereas xbc1 started as a more straightforward revenge plot only to pull zhe rug out from under you but both r vry good in their own way.

even with all the callbacks, xbc3 still has its own story and themes and even the fused environment feels new amd fresh to explore thanks to the changed lanscape and beautiful music.

good game!!! yeah!!!!

[domjaehyun]

head empty but full of haechan being a teasing shit, his behavior toward mc was so attractive ? the push and pull situation was so perfect.. I find this trope, if it's one, so.. hot and the scenes you imagined to illustrate this were just so.. u know.. you sucked me in the story right away lmao. the bickering between the 2 of them.. of God.. that was so entertaining and funny, haechan was not having any of yn rejecting him and he keeps trying to do morE AND OH BOÏ HIS CRAZY ASS!! THE MOMENT HE DID GO TO HER ROOM TO STEAL HER SEX TOYS ? BOY YOU'RE SO GONE AND CRAZY ?? for real lmao, I gasped really loud during that revelation like.. I couldn't believe he would do that but I loved that, we as reader, have no choice but to witness this turn of events 🤯 yn playing hard to get was so in phase with how I wished her to act (here a candy for you 🍭). I'm not going to talk about every scenes (bc i dont have a good memory *sigh*) so my comments are going to jump right and left between the two parts I'm sorry !! ♡ but know that I loved every lines you wrote and I just admire the way you processed to write all of it, it must have been difficult for you to think and write sometimes so thank you so much for keeping your efforts and not giving up ♡ anyway, the story was a inhaler of fresh air bc of all the things that happened and all the interaction with the side characters even tho our lovebirds channeled 3/4 of the story, I loved how distinct we could guess the personalities of the side characters (big up to your girl boss yena), speaking of her, we didn't really met her in the 1st part, but the way she played a big role in the 2nd ? specially toward the end when she helped yn realizing her feelings toward haechan and how she managed to confort her when yn was having (ridiculous) theories about him, it made my heart flutter of how a perfect friend she was ♡ speaking of ridiculous, girl you have an humour.. dang, it really played a huge role in this story, specially to soften some scenes and add fire to others 👀👄👀 and I loved it so so much! the duality of haechan fried my ass dude, you don't understand how it destroyed me, one moment he acts so dramatic then right after he's acting all sexy and sensual I can'T!!!!!!!!! when I look back at it, of when we started the story, I'm amazed. you know of what ? OF HOW SMOOTHLY THE RELATIONSHIP DEVELOPMENT BETWEEN HYUCK AND YN WAS?! like..???????? the process you managed to do in just 2 parts was mind-blowing? you tricked us, damn it 🧎🏻‍♀️ the sex scenes.. *sigh* listen jewel, you have ressources I get it, but fck, that was too hot for me to handle lmao, they fucked like rabbit (I mean, that's the purpose of a friend with benefits relationship lmao) but like.. oof, OOF, I'm gonna slide into an eternal sleep after this, I can't get over it. also, we known right at the start that haechan had a crush on our girl, and the way he was kinda (so) obvious and he took advantage of every physical touches and words of affection was.. cute ? he didn't really back off when yn was mean towards him and even when she made him jealous (jaemin, yanyang, jaehyun...), I truly loved this side of him !! also, the slow turning of yn's feelings toward haechan ????? LIKE??? she started hating him to becoming super soft and its so beautiful ?? she was so cute.. THEY were so cute, specially when their relationship turned into casual hangout and the last frat party scene.. when haechan came to kiss her and act as a big boy in front of jaehyun ? BOÏ YOURE SO OBVIOUS, GURL YOU'RE SO OBVIOUS, THEY'RE SUCH IDIOTS 😭 you had me hooked over them, I love them so much. period. nah I'm kidding, I have so much to say lmao, this ask is long im sorry 🤧 I think I will stop there for this ask ! you deserve so much praise and good things happening to you, I donated to your Kofi, even if it's not much but I'm happy to help you given the way you wrote all of this and how you made me feel ♡ stay sexy amd have a good day ♡

OKAY MY REPLIES ARE UNDER THE CUT AND THEYRE INDENTED HERE WE GO :D

head empty but full of haechan being a teasing shit, his behavior toward mc was so attractive ? the push and pull situation was so perfect.. I find this trope, if it's one, so.. hot and the scenes you imagined to illustrate this were just so.. u know.. you sucked me in the story right away lmao.

i’m OBSESSED W THIS TROPE I REALLY AM SJFJDJDJJDDK i would like to think i’ve started to hone my skills in this trope but either way i LOOOOOVE push and pull and tension and stuff oh my goddddddd

the bickering between the 2 of them.. of God.. that was so entertaining and funny, haechan was not having any of yn rejecting him and he keeps trying to do morE AND OH BOÏ HIS CRAZY ASS!! THE MOMENT HE DID GO TO HER ROOM TO STEAL HER SEX TOYS ? BOY YOU'RE SO GONE AND CRAZY ?? for real lmao, I gasped really loud during that revelation like.. I couldn't believe he would do that but I loved that, we as reader, have no choice but to witness this turn of events 🤯

I LITERALLY WAS SO TENSE ABT THAT SCENE BC . i like my men a little crazy but not everyone does so i worried it’d be too far but ppl thought it was funny so!!!! a win for jewel!!!!!! and this was new to me like experimenting with different POVs so i’m rly glad that worked out :D

yn playing hard to get was so in phase with how I wished her to act (here a candy for you 🍭).

thank u i love candy mwahahaha and I LOVE HARD TO GET MCs y’all should know by now that i just adore build up and tension djfjdjjfjdd

I'm not going to talk about every scenes (bc i dont have a good memory *sigh*) so my comments are going to jump right and left between the two parts I'm sorry !! ♡

don’t apologize it’s totally fine!!!!! it’s 68.9k words i wouldn’t expect you to have an eidetic memory and recall everything :D

but know that I loved every lines you wrote and I just admire the way you processed to write all of it, it must have been difficult for you to think and write sometimes so thank you so much for keeping your efforts and not giving up ♡

oof there WERE some scenes i put off writing til the end but for the most part this fic was SO much fun to write but i’m also like craaaaaazy when it comes to writing and planning and organizing my fics so . there wasn’t much room to get bored djfjdjdjd

anyway, the story was a inhaler of fresh air bc of all the things that happened and all the interaction with the side characters even tho our lovebirds channeled 3/4 of the story, I loved how distinct we could guess the personalities of the side characters (big up to your girl boss yena), speaking of her, we didn't really met her in the 1st part, but the way she played a big role in the 2nd ? specially toward the end when she helped yn realizing her feelings toward haechan and how she managed to confort her when yn was having (ridiculous) theories about him, it made my heart flutter of how a perfect friend she was ♡

YENAAAAAA I LOVE YENA i sometimes worry that i’m like . making my side characters esp the female characters too flat? bc i love them and i want them to shine but they aren’t the Fore Front of the fic yknow? so i’m always panicking like This Doesn’t Pass The Bechdel Test……. but some rules are dumb and sometimes i can do what i want :D but yes i love yena she’s such a good friend i adore her 😭😭😭

speaking of ridiculous, girl you have an humour.. dang, it really played a huge role in this story, specially to soften some scenes and add fire to others 👀👄👀 and I loved it so so much!

EEEEE THANK YOU i love getting compliments on my sense of humor omg :D a lot of the times i’m writing and like. giggling at the stuff i’m putting in djfjdjjfdj

the duality of haechan fried my ass dude, you don't understand how it destroyed me, one moment he acts so dramatic then right after he's acting all sexy and sensual I can'T!!!!!!!!!

haechan sexy but also haechan sweet 💖 haechan has a lot of different sides and i love when fics get to explore that yknow? he’s not JUST a cocky cool dude and he’s not JUST a whiny cutie and he’s not JUST a serious hard worker and— you get it…… hdhdsjjd

when I look back at it, of when we started the story, I'm amazed. you know of what ? OF HOW SMOOTHLY THE RELATIONSHIP DEVELOPMENT BETWEEN HYUCK AND YN WAS?! like..???????? the process you managed to do in just 2 parts was mind-blowing?

IM RLY HAPPY YOU THINK SO if i’m being real i worried about not making the shift clear enough and i think that i was concerned abt the length which i rly gotta stop doing bc i’d rather have a long fully fledged fic than a slightly shorter not as perfect (to me) fic !! BUT YEAH IM RLY HAPPY YOU THINK SO :’)

you tricked us, damn it 🧎🏻‍♀️ the sex scenes.. *sigh* listen jewel, you have ressources I get it, but fck, that was too hot for me to handle lmao, they fucked like rabbit (I mean, that's the purpose of a friend with benefits relationship lmao) but like.. oof, OOF, I'm gonna slide into an eternal sleep after this, I can't get over it.

SHFJSJJFJDJDJD I DO SO MUCH RESEARCH SOMETIMES I GO CUCKOO but i just unleashed many of my fantasies abt haechan 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 sorry y’all

also, we known right at the start that haechan had a crush on our girl, and the way he was kinda (so) obvious and he took advantage of every physical touches and words of affection was.. cute ? he didn't really back off when yn was mean towards him and even when she made him jealous (jaemin, yanyang, jaehyun...), I truly loved this side of him !!

he’s a PERSISTENT GUY I BELIEVE THIS FIRMLY he’s OBVIOUS (deliberately) AND PERSISTENT !!!!! i’m glad you see the vision hehehe

also, the slow turning of yn's feelings toward haechan ????? LIKE??? she started hating him to becoming super soft and its so beautiful ?? she was so cute.. THEY were so cute, specially when their relationship turned into casual hangout and the last frat party scene.. when haechan came to kiss her and act as a big boy in front of jaehyun ? BOÏ YOURE SO OBVIOUS, GURL YOU'RE SO OBVIOUS, THEY'RE SUCH IDIOTS 😭 you had me hooked over them, I love them so much. period. nah I'm kidding, I have so much to say lmao, this ask is long im sorry 🤧 I think I will stop there for this ask !

you: *sends me one of the best asks i’ve ever received*

also you: this ask is long im sorry

DO NOT APOLOGIZE THIS BRINGS ME SO MUCH JOY I CANT EVEN EXPRESS IT 😭😭😭

you deserve so much praise and good things happening to you, I donated to your Kofi, even if it's not much but I'm happy to help you given the way you wrote all of this and how you made me feel ♡ stay sexy amd have a good day ♡

THANK YOU SO MUCH 😭😭😭 it really does mean a lot to me im so so thankful for the donation and the wonderful messages and the overall support 🥺🥺🥺 I LOVE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY :D

[chaeiimimi]

13 𝖍𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖔 𝖇𝖆𝖇𝖞

Summary: you weren’t really sure how it happened, but an average student who wore glasses and spent all her extra time on bookstores and library managed to date your school’s volleyball club setter. On your 3rd year of law school, your ten years anniversary to be exact, he went home from Argentina and it was a week before he was going back, he broke up with you with the reason of he can't handle long-distance relationship anymore despite being at it for two years. You didn’t cry, you stood there as he was sobbing in front of you, you held his face in your palms and offered him a gentle smile, gentle enough to let him know you’ll support him and will always be watching him, together with the child in your stomach right now, but he doesn’t need to know that.

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"i'm pregnant"

Oikawa looks back at her like its the most ridiculous thing she has ever said

"that has nothing to do with me, I never touched you" he says and was about to leave when Himari spoke

"yes it does Oikawa, I told the media you're the father"

"ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE?!" he was angry now, as much as he wants to strangle the lady , it was below him to hurt women

"what do you expect? The media thinks we're dating" she says, eyes on the ground

"who's the father?" Oikawa asks as he pinches his nose bridge in frustration

"a barista, from Argentina"

"then tell the media that"

"You don't understand-my image Oikawa you gotta help me"

The audacity of this woman never fails to mesmerize him, after all she's done she still has the guts to ask hin for help

"you really had the guts to ask me that when you almost ruined my family huh?"

Himari looks at him with pleading eyes

"look, I'm not going to play as the father of that child, y/n and my twins, it's going to hurt them" he says as he takes a deep breath

"then I'm just going to keep telling the media that you're the father who refuse to take responsibility then"

"you dont wanna play this game with me Himari, for a fully grown adult with a successful modeling career, you're still a child throwing a temper tantrum" and with that he left the house

He was shaking in anger, he needed you to be there with him, he needed you to calm him down

That night Oikawa wenr home to you crying on the couch while the twins were fast asleep

He slowly walks up to you "bubs the rumor- Himari she's- I'm not"

You sush him as you pulled him close and hugged hum tightly

"I know Tooru, you maybe an ass but I know you won't sleep with your ex's cousin" you say in between sniffles, Oikawa chuckles

"especially with someone as ugly as Himari"

The next few days was hell, you couldn't bring yourself to go to work due to the humiliation, you stayed at home watching over the twins

Every single day, Himari would just come out with fabricated receipts and false statement

She even acused you of always trying to steal Oikawa away from her since high school

The comments were tormenting to read, a lot of hateful and death threats on there, it was so disturbing

Oikawa's two week vacation was cut off as he was working with a company to arrange a press conference

The Aoba Josai former volleyball club showed their support, they constantly visited you and the twins especially Maki who had a lot of time on his hands , by now they already know they are Oikawa's sons

His team from Argentina heard about what was happening and some of them decided to fly to Japan to show their support

Iwaizumi and Akira came to your house practically everyday and brings good food

Honestly, you felt quite assured that a lot of people really care for you amd you weren't fighting this battle alone

Your parents even went to the hometown of Himari's parents to talk to them about the situation and they said Himari wouldn't listen to them

After a week of non-stop lies from Himari, it was time for Oikaw to step on the podium in front of flashing cameras

Some of his teammates and coach were there to show support, Iwaizumi, Issei and Maki were also there, they were both holding the twins, which has been the center of the attention for a while now

In the matter of seconds, the press conference has already begun

Akira was with you at home since you couldn't go to the press conference, the media was just going to crush you and your sef confidence was deteriorating because of all the hate you were recieving

"as you all know about the issue between me and model Sato Himari, first thing's first, me and her are not a thing, we are not lovers, we are not exes, I have been single for two years and the last girl I've dated is her cousin l/n y/n, who I'm currently dating again now"

There were a lot of murmurs going around the room but Oikawa was quick to silence them

"Y/n and I have been dating ever since we were in second year of high school, we dated for nine years and broke up two years ago, because of Himari slandering her in front of our head coach and I have proofd for that"

Oikawa clicks the little remote on his hand as the huge projector showed screenshot of Humari's and his Coach's messeges, it also showed a lot of pictures of you and Oikawa from Hugh School, contradicting Himari's statement that you tried to steal him in higgh school

"we are now back together and sharing our lives with our children who are twins Haruto and Hayato"

The press whipped their heads towards the twins who were pointing at Oikawa and giggling, the media awww-ed at the sight

"handsome aren't they? Yeah my lovely girlfriend gave birth to them" of course he was Oikawa

"as for Himari's pregnancy, I am positive that I am not the father of that baby, she told me that herself, if she denies it I'll gladly take a dna test when the baby is born so that I can expose more of her lies"

There were a lot of whispers going around, his teammates, ex-teammates and coach gave him a thumbs up

"I have been talking with my lawyers and I will be taking legal actions regarding this, that is all, thank you"

So I decided to post the last chapter tomorrow because I am going to change it, yes, that's how impulsive my ass is BSBSHSHSH anyways thank you so much to those who supported this until the end, I love y'all💖! Stay safe and happy luvs!

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