#shes making me look like a liar to my mom tho

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Took chewby i used to take layla on when I was a kid

She got startled by some dogs in a yard. That she could see while we were approaching.

[monst]

I have a confession to make that may result in my cancellation but I must speak my truth after years of silence:

I think Arkhamverse Tim is fine as fuck.

[thanksfortheflaglove]

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[the-dragon-girl-27]

In my previous post i talked about how I have a lotta scrapped MV ideas, well may as well dump some designs i've made based on songs over the years because like I probably wouldn't post these otherwize

also heres a few nice picture of miku from one of em to make you click on this post because its gunna be a long one and all these are hidden below a read more

for the record don't expect me to do anything with any of these, also these are from old to new some of these date back to early 2022 and it shows

This one i posted a storyboard for actually its An Aliens I Love You by Utsu-P.

I gave young Rin a sakura motif with her dress because of miku and rin meeting under a sakura tree, teen miku has a pink ribbion and hairclip to continue this. both rins bow and mikus outfit get darker outfits overtime to sybolize the song getting darker. I also gave adult rin the future rin hair. Miku's "alien" form is more or less how its described in the song tho i was lazy and didn't draw the 4 arms in the refs.

also Lily is Rins mom in this yup there she is indeed.

I actually have a lot of assets finished including the ones above i may show em off one day who knows.

This one is Stained Nocturne by Toa i actually did finish this one

the grey one is when they talk about being colorless

i gave them both very cute and elegent outfits i think it matches the vibe of the song. The starry outfits are the real highlight. if you wonder how I drew em over and over i just copy pasted the stars on their dresses.

they also are very blue because yknow nocturne. I forgot if i dumped the assets for this MV or not maybe next rant post.

This one is Corona by Utsu-P no idea why i did it its probably not even in my top 20 Utsu-P songs i just had some brainworms that wore off. I finished like a minute of it I guess.

I really like rin's outfit. "goth metal astronaut" is such a weirdly specific concept but she absolutley nailed it. 10/10 desin

This one is Garando by Picon. I gave her a like idk what to call it paperboy outfit like the one you see in the MV a few times. her eyes are yellow like bullets because I had this one S teir visual idea. I have some assets for this one i may show off one day.

i also considered doin the sekai ver i really like garando if u cant tell lol

This one is Happy Haloween by Junky another one i finished

Rins is just from the OG mv the rest are themed around the characters

Minori is a dark angel because tenshi no clover is themed around... a normal angel

haruka has candy and a penguin mask because thats her thing

airi is a vampire cuz she has fangs

shizuku is a witch because of her cast a spell on you outfit

This one is NEXT NEST by Satsuki Ga Tenkomori. The cubes are from the original MV image thing. I gave her a super cybernetic look to match the song vibe. I also gave her a plaid skirt to match miku's concept desin because this song is like sorta miku becoming sentient or smth idk been a while since i read the lyrics.

another S teir design. also zamn this ref goes hard lol.

This one is Bluff Liar by EZFG. VY1 doesn't really have a desin so I went with this based on the semi official one (we dont speak of her new official one also i drew this long before that regardless lol) I have a shitty animatic thats 80% stick figures for this. never posted it tho.

tbh i put the file to this ref on an external hard drive cuz this whole video killed my storage because i actually finished it so i yeeted all th assets off my computer as soon as i was finished so i just dowloaded the little thing of assets from this post

not much goin on its kinda just normal ol luka lol

This is Black Hole Artist by utsu-P. its not in project sekai and never will be but it reminded me of Ena so I had this idea. not much to say, I have a few assets for this but nothing really finished.

Another VY1 EZFG song, IDK what my plan was for drawing this over and over. also pretty asthetic ref lol. not much to say i don't draw very cyberish designs so its fun

this is just concept art. this is Roless Weapon by Neru and Inubakumori. yeah those two colabed you wouldnt know cuz this song has no MV. IDK what my plan for this was tbh but like when else would i show this off.

From here on its just concepts lol. this is Atari Front Program by Utsu-P... god how many Utsu songs is this lol

S teir desin i love miniskirt plus pants combo idk its just a vibe.

this drawing sucks lol. this is Live by Mizuno Atsu. Long haired kafu is cute I have better drawings of this in my sketchbook somewhere I think. I might revisit this it would be very simple and cute.

also weirdly my fav part of this aside from her hair is her shoes.

anyway Kafu needs more outfits for songs tbh theres like 3 kafu songs where she has a unique outfit

actually i lied about only having doodles, this is Where Shall We Go by Mellowclle

already made a post bout this

this is my most recent. I sketched this after finishing this art of this song. It is Memento Mori by Buriru

I love this song the creator said its supposed to sound like a mecha anime opening so i went with that vibe. teto looks great, miku doesn't. Teto doesn't really have a counterpart so I assigned miku as her girlfriend lol.

sadly I cannot draw robots so idk what my plan was tho i have a cool visual for the end in my head.

anyway thats everything I could find. does anyone give a crap? probably not but hey character design is fun and i love messing around.

anyway fun trivia more songs i have video ideas for i won't make: Poster Girls Prank - Utsu-P (but with MMJ project sekai)

Stella - Jin

Paranoia - Mezame-P

and probably more i'm forgetting lmfao

[gyunglitter]

➷ 01 ➷

-“oh, the way he makes me feel that love isn’t real -– cupid is so dumb”

or

unlike you, your brother’s best friend just doesn’t know when to quit

word count: 1,766

warnings: probably just the reader making you cringe lol, give her a break--she's 11 lmao

tags: brother’s-best-friend!beomgyu x reader, ??? to ???, angst, fluff(??), beomgyu is the cool boy-next-door, reader is an independent girlboss (or trying to be, at least), beomgyu’s gonna be GROVELING, simp!gyu, pathetic pining from both sides lol, maybe some cringe from reader (she was a teenage girl in love, have some empathy plz😭)

notes: LMAO SORRY TO POST KINDA LATE, I FORGOT I PROMISED TODAY HAHAHAHA

another short chapter, but i promise the next couple of chapters are a lot longer! enjoy mini reader, beomgyu, and soobin tho :)

–> masterlist <–

Ten Years Ago

If there was one thing your family agreed on, it was that Soobin was the shyest person around.

You and Soobin were very close, having a lot of the same interests and mannerisms. You didn’t disagree on many things (yet), but there were only a handful of differences between you two. You were eleven years old, making your older brother thirteen, and about to go into his final year of middle school. But the main thing that had set you both apart was that while you had many friends, Soobin had absolutely no one. He was a very sweet and funny kid, but he was too shy for his own good, unintentionally pushing the majority of the people his age away.

You had hoped your brother would make some friends during his seventh year, but had little to no luck; apparently, the Bunny Girl Senpai Fanclub wasn’t taking many applicants and the Pokemon Card Collectors Club was a bunch of gatekeepers. Middle school boys.

“What if I just faked being sick?”

Soobin held his head in his hands as he was waiting for his pop tarts in the toaster. You sat on the counter across from him, shoving down a bowl of Frosted Flakes. You didn’t have to leave for another hour when your mom would drive you to the primary school a few blocks away. Soobin, on the other hand, was supposed to set off for his first day of eighth grade soon, but was stalling as much as he could before he had to start walking over. 

You snorted, “For the whole year? Fat chance of that happening, you’re the worst liar.”

Your brother lifted his head and glared at you, before sighing loudly and crying, “I hate school, it’s filled with people who are scary and take your rare Charizard card!”

You opened your mouth to reply, but were interrupted by your house’s doorbell ringing. You looked towards the front door and turned back to Soobin expectantly. But your brother wasn’t paying any attention. To your (un)amusement, he was still sulking about, well, just about everything. Like you said, middle school boys.

Shaking your head, you hopped off of the counter (carefully, as your dad had shown you) and walked over to the front door.You figured it was one of your neighbors or the mailman. You usually weren’t allowed to open the door yourself, but that completely escaped your mind when you opened the door and were faced with an unfamiliar boy.

A cute, unfamiliar boy.

You mentally thanked your mom for braiding your hair in two with your favorite butterfly clips now.

“Hi,” you said, a small grin taking over your face. “I’m Y/n!”

The boy looked at you and smiled back. “Hey, Y/n, your mom or dad home?”

You nodded your head. “They are, but they’re running around getting ready. I can definitely help you though!” What can you say, you were a confident kid.

“I don’t know, you might be a bit too little,” he teased you, making you scoff.

“Little? I’ll have you know, I can deal with anything, even crazy!”

He laughed a little at that and then said, “Of course! I’m sure you’re super responsible at the age of..?”

“Eleven,” you bragged, tucking a stray hair back into one of your butterfly clips.

The boy nodded in deep understanding and said, “Well, little Y/n, I’m Beomgyu. I just moved here and my mom told me you guys had someone my age here too! I figured we could walk to school together,” he said, rubbing the back of his head.

Your eyes widened at that, a warm feeling taking over your stomach. 

The boy was cute, duh. But his easy offer of friendship, something your brother had struggled to find, made you know that this Beomgyu had a kindness to him that not many his age did–according to Soobin.

Your grin widened at the boy in front of you, nodding your head eagerly. “Just give me a sec,” you squealed, excited for your brother. “OPPA! YOU’RE FINALLY GONNA MAKE A FRIEND!”

Years later, you look back and remember the loud laugh Beomgyu had let out at your call, his excitement outweighing the awkwardness Soobin exhibited when he appeared at your doorway with a pop tart hanging from his mouth.

You look back and remember Beomgyu easily befriending Soobin with his wide smiles, animated hand gestures, and cool stories about his new pet bird. The way he eased your brother’s nerves and got him laughing, already offering to share the other pop tart in his pack.

You look back and cringe sometimes at the confidence those lame butterfly clips gave you. But you take it back when you would remember Beomgyu, with an arm around Soobin’s shoulder, had turned around while the two boys were about to take off for school, saying in a singsong tone, “Nice to meet you, little Y/n, love the butterfly clips, by the way!”

But most of all, you remember the way your cheeks flushed. The way he made you feel like you were cute too. Like you were special. You remember how that was the first of many times he would fluster you with his compliments. 

You were only eleven, but at that moment you would look back and remember how this is where you became a fool–a fool for love.

“You look really good,” he whispered to you.

It took everything in you to not show how much he affected you. Unlike the many instances before though, you actually succeeded this time around. Your focused gaze on your brother and father’s random discussion about his anime watching habits kept your eyes from widening, and your well placed makeup did a good job of hiding the flush that desperately wanted to highlight your neck and cheeks. It bothered you very much how Choi Beomgyu could still get under your skin.

“Thanks,” you replied shortly, not letting your eyes leave their spot on Soobin. 

–Your brother was whining about how there was no harm in watching anime when he already got his work done for the day–

Despite your subtle avoidance of him, you knew it wasn’t reciprocated by the way his breaths brushed against your ear. The way his eyes were on you, you could feel them as if they were burning you. It felt like he was truly drinking you in after so many years of not getting a single glimpse of you. But that was all you would allow him.

“I, uh, it’s nice to see you again. It’s been a while,” he continued, trying to catch your attention.

You hummed disinterestedly. 

–Your father had taken to pointing out Soobin’s body pillows, to which he groaned loudly, claiming that was actually Beomgyu’s gag gift to make him look sus–

But Beomgyu was not deterred.

“Congrats on, well, everything from the past four years! I know college can be pretty crazy!”

You winced a little at that, remembering how your mom told you Beomgyu had actually dropped out of college about three months after you left for school. Despite Beomgyu doing amazing in school when you were still around–there was talk of him possibly graduating at the top of your class–he practically tanked his classes the following fall semester. 

“But of course, if there was anyone who could deal with crazy, it would be our little Y/n, huh,” he laughed a little–that same damn laugh he had when you first met. “I mean, you are pretty amazing—”

You weren’t sure what he had gotten up to after you left, but you weren’t interested in hearing anything. Not about him, his future, and definitely not about how amazing he thought you were.

“Wow dad, this shrimp tastes great!” You shouted your false gratitude, successfully interrupting Beomgyu and the argument between your brother and father.

All the chatter stopped for a second, before your dad grinned at you. “Thanks, bean, make sure to grab some more then! You’re looking too skinny, anyways, are you sure you ate enough out there,” he asked, wiping his hands on the front of his apron.

You laughed and nodded, both at your dad’s question and Soobin's grateful stare for changing the topic. Eventually, your mother started another conversation about how Soobin’s friends from school were doing.

“I thought you didn’t like seafood,” Beomgyu muttered to you when he got the chance.

For the first time that evening, you looked back at him.

You realized, with a painful squeeze in your chest, that Beomgyu had grown past the stage of cuteness that you had adored when you were younger, and in your absence, became beautiful. Sure, his puppy dog eyes stayed the same, holding that familiar kindness and curiosity as before. But now, his face lost its round edges and became chiseled, looking as if his features were carved by Aphrodite, herself. His hair was dyed brown and had grown out a little into what was beginning to look like a mullet, giving off a boyish look that his typically mischievous expressions matched easily. Not only that, but he looked like he’d really grown into himself, physically and mentally. Granted, he wasn’t in the best place when you had left four years ago, but the way he carried himself was refreshing. Attractive. Him.

“I didn’t, but I do now.” You took another bite of the shrimp on your plate. “I mean, it’s been a long four years. The things I liked before changed quite a bit while I was gone. ”

You watched Beomgyu’s face fall a bit at that, his puppy dog eyes becoming downcast as he looked towards his own plate of chicken. There wasn’t much on his plate to begin with, but it seemed he wasn’t going to be eating any more after that.

“Yeah, I guess they would after so long,” Beomgyu whispered, pushing his food around with his chopsticks. 

You turned back to your own food to try and get your mind off of him, but he stopped you with his next words.

“If it changes anything, so have mine.”

This time, you couldn’t stop your eyes from widening. You turned towards Beomgyu, to see him looking at you with what you could only assume was guilt.

“I just wish they had done so earlier.”

–> next <–

[frozen-heart]

Thoughts on episode 7

Here we go again :D

Choices were definitely made with Dr Sullivan's backstory. I'm dissapointed they didn't mention the original A and cast. It would've been the perfect opportunity. I'm not sure why but it feels out of character for Archie to go after Dr Sullivan for years? Why would he kill her son? Why wait until he was like 16? I don't buy it being because she couldn't do more for him and his mother. Didn't he like hate his mother or something? Was Clanton involved? Where is Clanton? Did they get the idea for A, because Archie followed Dr Sullivan to Rosewood back when the original A attacked her?

Also, why would Dr Sullivan assume that it was Archie who killed her son? Especially with the 'A' scenery that got created allegedly by Archie. Wouldn't she assume it was Mona or any other A from the original PLL? She didn't know yet that Archie would call himself 'A' in the future.

I'm also feeling conflicted about her suddenly feeling the need to 'prove' her story to Imogen. Showing her allegedly dead son's grave doesn't prove anything btw. I somehow sympathize with her wanting to help Imogen and seek redemption for her mistakes, but something about it also feels off. And her suddenly dissappearing is giving me flashbacks to the original PLL, when she got threatened by A to dissappear.

This teacher right here is getting on my suspect list. He has technical knowledge for the SpookySpaghetti site, he could help Bloody Rose with the texts that are being send by people that are already dead and he could've had access to the girls final tests that they failed, to keep them in Millwood for summer school.

I wonder if these Rose's are from Mrs Beasley and Kelly or from Bloody Rose. It's implied that they're from Mrs Beasley, but we never exactly saw them place the flowers there.

I was also wondering, if the killings and Bloody Rose could be connected to Karen. Like how last season it was connected to Angela. It would make sense to test the Liars, to kill Sandy and the Pastor in connection to Karen. Not necessarily Nick and Sabrina tho.

I was wondering about the killings in general. The first two killing are Sabrina and Nick, who were mentioned on SpookySpaghetti and are meant to represent Bloody Rose's children Angela and Archie. But I don't think there were any mention of other people that were killed, like Sandy, on SpookySpaghetti. Where's the connection between everyone that got killed? Now with the Pastor getting killed and Kelly being attacked by Bloody Rose the killings/attacks seem to be random?

Why would Bloody Rose attack Kelly? Was this supposed to be a test for Kelly? Or is it because Faran told Kelly about Bloody Rose? Is that why Dr Sullivan dissappeared? Because Imogen told her about Bloody Rose? How did Bloody Rose know where she is? Also, why are they only warning Kelly now? They could've tried to warn her about another killer at least after Faran's test!

I hope Kelly will survive. I have a strong gut feeling that she will. The way Bloody Rose attacked her doesn't fit her. No stabbing, no blood. And she left her behind it seems. She never leaves a body behind, as we know. And we all know that she takes good care that no one finds out about her victims, because of all the text messages she keeps sending Sandy's mom for example. I've seen some people say that it might be a doll, that's what I thought when I saw the trailer for episode 6-8, but from the actual episode it actually looked like Kelly. Anyway, she needs to survive and redeem herself with the girls.

Faran x Greg... Why are they doing this? Kelly and him broke up like yesterday in their timeline. At least Greg broke up with Kelly before going after Faran ig.. This situation reminds me of the Caleb/Spencer/Hanna situation

Watch her drop the biggest bomb next episode and then dissappear again. She'll at least give a major clue on Bloody Rose. Her showing up at Mouse's house was so random lol. And why did Lola look so out of it? Did Rose tell her something disturbing?

Soo.. Let's take a deep breath and adress the elephant in the room:

Noa x Jen - Just getting on my nerves. After last episode there's no redemption for these two. I wish we could've seen the confrontation between him and Jen. I remember back in season 1 he got aggressive with the boys from Rosewood, so I guess it wouldn't be completely out of character. Especially considering he got cheated on and lied to. But when Noa trashed his car and their entire confrontation lacked that aggression. I thought he would definitely get another outburst when Noa went out of her house, but he just didn't, which feels contracting. And seemingly he also let her get away with trashing his car. I don't know. They could've handled it better. Noa trashing his car also felt like an overkill. Jen never said that he threatened her. It was so obvious that he would find out about them, get angry and would want to confront them.

Shawn is honestly just spitting facts right here:

Not related to this episode, but:

Everytime Mrs Langsberry suddenly pops up on the screen I got reminded of the Pretty Little Liars Spoof series! Some characters kept popping up out of the blue there too and it was hilarious every time.

[mydysfunctionalvampirefamily]

Dan don't be so casual!!! Your brother is worried about you!!!!

Goddamn Jessie please don't actually go sacrifice for your brother out of guilt.

Dan stop being so fucking casual!!!

Okay side note that has nothing to do with anything. But you can leave bullets inside people, it really depends on where they are. Usually the worst thing is the damage they caused moving. Though I assume the fact that they are silver does mean you should remove them from a werewolf.

Far be it from me to call Jessie a liar, but I do not believe for a second that if Lola tells him it's an unfair deal he is not still gonna take it.

"you wanna eat my ass, fine." tell me there were now kiss motions made on that please!

Why do we need fucking cop to convince everyone they need to get healed. 😂😂

John just being rational is once again the thing that works on Lola and her freak out and refusing medical attention.

😂😂 Aviva getting medical help out of pettiness.

Aviva, John would do anything for you, making a bit of ectoplasm is probably the least.

Oh John, my precious emotionally repressed baby, just casually using up dead bodies like you do.

The goblins taking good care of turkey tail. 😭

All this magic is crazy but really cool!!!

This fucking mouse though. His little hat is cute, but he is a LIAR!!!

John once again knowing exactly what to say to get to Lola.

😭😭😭 The mouse wants to save her! I take it back lil moussy.

Me and Aviva are on the same page! The cop wanting a drink with Lola!!! It's the grenadine, it has to be.

Grenadine with energy drink shots. This sounds like the idea you have once you're already way too drunk to function normal the next day and then you think this will stave off a hangover.

They're both going upstairs. 👀 They are gonna sleep in the same bed!

👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀

Fuck me, John. Why are you so good at talking to everyone for their benefit??? Like no offense but you're so bad in dealing with yourself.

Ohhh Jessie Jessie Jessie. Seems like a bad idea to insult an owl.

I love it when they role exceptional successes!!! Especially when it is when they're doing smth for someone else.

It's so interesting to finally see some stronger emotions with John. The excitement you hear when he talks about smashing his mom's signs is rare.

Sword in the stone-ing that bat into the windshield with everything that's going on, so petty. 😂

"Carl, this man is a werewolf, do you think he's gonna fuck off?" 😂😂 made me laugh out loud, and people looked at me like I was crazy.

He just ended Carl in one shot!

Sure, not feeling pain and going numb is definitely the healthy thing to do after cold blooded murder...

They're extra giggly today, are they nervous?

Also Tim is the irl Miles of that group, telling everyone to focus. 😂

Oh my God!!! They are not fucking around, Aviva just chopping a dead man's legs and hands off. (btw why just stop at the hands at this point and not go full arms?)

You know if you hear about a matter wizard and a wizard of space and time the matter wizard kind of sounds like a dweeb, but actually it's fucking badass.

I am screaming! Fucking Ramona, really thinking giving him a dad will stop him from this. Like she's smart, but she's fucking stupid.

Oh no Lola's worst moment is so awful, and so sad.

The sound of rolling dice is so good.

I hate Ramona so fucking much. She is delusional at this point thinking she's doing the right thing and all creepy calm. Why are parents the fucking worst?!?!

To be fair I like to hate Ramona though, I love hating awful parents.

This fucking magic dagger tho! And Dan himself too obviously but omg.

"I only remember things that are important." yikes!

We love a villain that believes they working for the greater good.

"Consequences are for lesser beings." woooooooooh I hate this bitch.

SHE'S JUST DEAD?!?!

Oh no of course she's not.

The fact that John really doesn't feel pain rn is really so much like his mom. He's on the edge.

Noooo Aviva can't die. 😭

Not the look of confusion, that is kind of sad.

Nope nope, I am in a store rn I cannot listen to this. Will continue listening when I get home

Jesus fuck! I was right to not listen to the last 15 minutes in the store. Good lord. 😭😭

I'm laughing and crying at the same time at Jessie just being gone.

Rob shut your fucking face 😭 (said lovingly obviously)

John casting a spell to finish all this, while having Aviva in his arms. STOP 😭

What??? *insert jlaw gif of what does it mean?!?*

What what what??? Ernie???? NOOOOOOOO Rob stop!! This is illegal!!!! What are you doing???

Okay... But this means there is gonna be a sequel right????

I will post some more thoughts later maybe, but I need to center myself because fuck me.

[cyarskj1899]

I’ll never forgive him who has put meg through two years of trauma that he caused and made her look like a liar when he was the one who shot her. I wish He and his fans a very rih(as in rot in hell) Same thing with Drake , Joe budden , Zach Campbell, Lebron James , Mariah the scientist, Dababy, Dj akademiks, 50 cent, all the media outlets that were slutting themselves out for this piece of trash by spreading misinformation and lies about his trial so much that they didn’t care about being ethical or professional (the fact that two white women and crime journalists were more accurate than “black” bloggers is just whewww I’m pissed) and everyone else who ever doubted her and I meant that with the upmost disrespect. Like seriously they can all burn right now, heck I’ll get the matches and kerosene and fry them arssholes myself.

Meg tried to protect him until he opened his mouth. The DA prosecuted him and she was still treated like a villain instead of a victim/survivor. Absolutely DISGUSTING. That man brought his child to court as a prop for sympathy knowing DAM WELL he was guilty 🤡. I pray that Meg and any woman/man dealing with domestic violence, are able to move on and heal. Stay strong, keep your head up, and make yourself a plan to leave. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

It’s crazy the amount of people who defended this violent troll over a black woman who literally got shot by a grown man. I’ve never seen a domestic dispute where people cancel a victim over a crime that is not only proven, but also completely logical considering his past. And people keep saying it’s the end of her career which sadly might be true cause we live in a backwards society but imagine being thrust into the spotlight right after you lose the only person you had and why you started rapping , your mom, and then being around a bunch of snakes and your sex life outed in front of the world to see for clout whilst in the midst of going to court for being attacked. And I’m sure it wasn’t a good feeling for her to know that she was gonna be locking up a man for a long time but she didn’t have no choice. If Meg didn’t press charges the state would have . She had no control over the outcome or even the investigation. Yeah she lied but I do believe she did out of fear because anything she did or said got back lash. I was even annoyed with her at points even tho I’m always gonna be on her side and the victims side. A recent phone call got leaked pretty much sealing the deal and I still see people refusing to give up their pride and still calling her a liar.

Imagine if your daughter got shot in the foot ? I lost my dad at 20 so I know Megan was extremly lost and just doing everything she was told to do bad influences or not. People don’t know that feeling of not being able to ask your parents for guidance or to just hold your parents for strength , you constantly just gotta think “ what would my mom or dad do” . She was hella young like 22 I believe. Until people have lost a parent they don’t understand how deep it can change you . Meg is a victim legally and figuratively but she’s been treated like a suspect this entire time.

Torey is a felon, torey has attacked people for not shaking his hand, he breaks gun charges , he fights in clubs, he’s very volitile , he is not a good person so why people defend him so heavy is lost upon me . Honestly I believe it’s just out of spite

He should have been deported long ago….you should not be allowed to commit all of these offenses and be able to stay here. You cannot behave like this in any other country and expect to stay there….. and his father can’t even raise his child right like You mean to tell me Tory’s daddy couldn’t rear his own son but wanna blame others for his failure as a father? Mane GTFOH!!!

This is the result of what happens when he had no one in his life to hold him accountable. He also fumbled every opportunity given to him. The shooting was the straw that broke the camel’s back. Now, he’s facing the consequences. And he deserves it.

He has no one to blame but himself if anything Dude's his own worst enemy🤬

[depressed-teacup-inc]

Double double toil and trouble

Hi so Gloob decided that after leaking the entire season 5 finale of miraculous (which for the sake of those that don’t wish to be spoiled I will not discuss until is actually released) they needed to release some more episodes out of balance, so today we shall review episode 19 and 20 of Miraculous Ladybug season 5! Pretension and Revelation!

19: Pretension

So. Felix is still the only nice thing here, but we have to shove a live interest in the mix because it’s not like this show can have the concept of friendship!

So episode starts , marinette complains about not being public with Adrien (which ok whatever), and the show literally pokes fun at how Marinette used to stalk Adrien but then says it’s ok be it was “OuT Of LOvE” (I’m not even go comment at this point) and that they need to go confront Gabriel to clear up the misunderstanding that marinette is def not a crazy stalker (Yknow, after she broke into a private event of his an episode ago. Great.)

Gabriel disapproved and has a weird pancake monologue which is meant to be a metaphor of how Gabriel controls everything and everyone through fashion? And Marinette is like “no fashion is about giving people what their heart’s desire” or something, and then says Gabriel can’t cook for shit (which admittedly funny) as a way of saying his old-minded and stupid.

So I’m general I don’t know who to quote side with? Gabriel is not wrong that the main reason marinette loves Adrien is because he’s a famous star that she’s been stalking for years, but the show frames it in a way that’s less “yeah you stalked him” and more “yeah I just like controlling him and you’re annoying” to make marinette seem like a hero.

In general the entire conversation was really weird, and the metaphor of pancakes was weird, but I did actually like the moral debate of what fashion and style is? I’m a personal believer of fashion being a tool of self expression, and something from inside you, but then how much of what’s inside you is just originally you and what is as a result of your life and how you were raised?

My point is go watch Meryl Streep’s blue sweater monologue, it’s a lot more fun.

Anyways Felix and Kagami are healthier then the love square (shocker) the show should stop poking fun at how bad stalking is and then endorse it, the show is trying to make other parents look worse then Gabriel to redeem him and I’m mad, and thats all there really is to this episode. NEXT!

20: Revelation

Oh boy a Lila episode let’s go. SO FUCKING SOMEHOW LILA MANAGED TO LIE TO HER TWO MOMS ABOUT HAVING ANOTHER FUCKING PARENT?! I’ve already come across this information when all the leaks for season 5 were happening, but the fact absolutely fucking boggles me?! Like this show is so hellbent on making Lila a bad person (worse then an actual terrorist that has been abusing his song for years) that they just do the most unrealistic shit to ever exist just to make her “an evil liar OoOoOo”

Which speaking of before the show tries to tell you Lila was manipulative for lying about being fired in her art class, I would have done the exact fucking same in her shoes. If someone without telling you, fires you (which I believe is btw ILLEGAL) and you were in a public setting, what the hell are you supposed to do? Start crying and telling everyone how you got fired? No, you would quickly try to resolve the situation and then go demand answers! I understand Lila’s anger in Gabriel (tho the show tries to say it’s unreasonable because of Lila’s and Gabriel’s deal, but the show just thinks she’s evil so yknow)

Anyways, Marinette starts saying how awful Chloe is and being like “I’m standing for Justice” and whatnot, and Lila (because she has a deal with Chloe) is like “it’s ok marinette you’re busy with your love life, if you don’t believe in people getting second chances then maybe I should be class president” which tbh? I literally do not see as evil!

Like first of all what does the class representative even do in this show? At the time it was just an episode to show Marinette’s leadership skills, and the most they do is like pass some papers and go talk to students, so it’s not like Lila can do real damage by being a class representative for two weeks (tho I’m sure the show will pull something unrealistic as hell to claim otherwise)

Second of all, Marinette morally is awful? Like this entire episode’s message is legit fucking awful! Lila’s argument for being class rep is saying that she will promote more second chances and opportunities for students, meanwhile Marinette’s argument is “Chloe is awful bad people don’t deserve second chances, PERIOD.”

…I’m sorry bestie but I’m fucking voting for the one that wants to actually do something

And the show obvs tries to write it off like “no it’s a ploy to make Marinette’s life suck” which is something they already did season 3, but I just don’t know if I fully agree with this mindset

Of course, bad people exist and in real life they often don’t change and use the kindness extended towards them, so it’s important to stand your ground, but like the show is trying to tell us that two 14 year old girls are an irredeemable type of evil that will never change! I personally think that some people are incapable of redemption but more that some people don’t want to redeem themselves, so to speak, but it just feels like the show lacked nuance this episode.

I feel like if this episode was used to a more concrete example (say Gabriel, an abusive dad and a terrorist) to explain how sometimes people don’t change rather then use this as an opportunity to tell us how evil Lila and Chloe are, the message would have been more compelling

You can tell the show clearly used this episode as a means of commenting on “Chameleon” and episode that caused many people to hate Adrien for telling marinette to wait and not keep screaming at Lila and digging her own grave, saying he was endorsing abuse? So the show was like “yeah guys look Adrien was in the wrong and apologized, Marinette’s the best and forgives him, have love square”

Again, it’s just another Lila episode which makes marinette a martyr, Adrien a powerless princess that isn’t listened to, Lila way more evil then she actually is on paper to make marinette look good, and everyone stupid in comparison

(Also y’all stop the hate on Alya and Nino, Alya is fucking right, Marinette only ever been a dick to Lila because of Adrien and is digging her own grave with the girl)

(Also also half the time marinette is worse then them, lying and hurting others to get what she wants, she just got Adrien now so she doesn’t commit as many crimes, tho she did break into a private event for idiotic reasons, and also the show likes her so they keep justifying her)

Anyways, didn’t like the episode, Lila episodes are awful, Marinette’s morality is a bit skewed and hypocritical, Hoaxer is just red Volpina on the iPhone rings, but at least she was smart

[yourimagines]

Your life on camera p.6

* English is not my first language I apologise

* Gif is not mine

* Triggers: Swearing, Anger, Violence and fluff

6 months later from chapter 5

Y/N POV

I was sick and stayed home today, after Josh made me stay in bed as he called me in sick. “I’m going to practice, you stay here in bed.” He stays as he leans against my doorpost. “Yeah…just go.” My voice sounded hoarse and my nose was closed up. “I will, I’ll see ya later.” With that he disappeared, I sighed and turned to my side, trying to get some sleep.

I woke up by a hard knock on our front door. “Ugh…go away.” I said tiredly. It didn’t help because another knock was heard. I sighed and got slowly out of my bed and went downstairs while wearing my pyjamas. I saw someone standing on the other side of the door, trying to peek inside through the froggy glass. I carefully unlocked the door and opens it just half way. It was Nate, he was standing in the rain holding a plastic bag in his hands. “Hey, can I come in?” I nodded and stepped out of the way for him. “Your brother called this morning, saying you were sick. I wanted to check on you after filming yesterday the whole day outside in this bad weather.” He shyly smiled and rubbed his neck. “I got you some food tho.” He gave me the bag and I smiled. “Thanks.” My voices sounded rough and I felt so tired. Nate noticed and helped me with the food. “Let me do it, just sit down please.” I immediately sat down and watch him take out the home made soup and sandwiches. “My mom made this for you.” He sheepishly said as he gave me the food. “Thank you mrs Diaz.” I quietly joked and saw Nate smiling softly.

After the food I grabbed my blanket from upstairs and laid it on the sofa downstairs. Nate was sitting in a chair, watching me waddling around the house. “I can leave if you want, so you can go lay in your bed and take a nap.” I shook slowly my head, trying not to make the headache worse. “It’s fine, I like company…” he nods and tried to get comfortable in the chair. “You sure you want to stay, I don’t want make you sick.” He shook his head and smiled. “It’s okay, I like spending some time with you.” ‘Liar.’ I nodded and got comfortable on the sofa and tucked myself in. “If you want we can watch some tv?” I suggested as my voice was to painful to start a whole conversation with him. “Sure.” I grabbed the remote and turned the tv on, he sat sideways in the uncomfortable chair to watch the tv. “You can sit next to me if you want.” He immediately stands up and plops down next to me. “Thanks, way better.” I smiled and softly nodded. “I know, my dad used to sit there…” Nate didn’t pry anything further about that and just looked at the tv in silence.

I fell asleep and woke up by some light movements. “Don’t raised your voice at me.” I heard Nate whispering angrily. I opened my eyes and saw I was lying with my head on his chest. “Nate, I adore you but she’s my sister!” Josh angrily whispered back. “She fell asleep on me, I can’t push her away, she’s sick.” ‘Aww he cares about me.’ I slowly raised my head up and saw Nate immediately looking at me, he gently smiles. “Hey, you’re awake.” I nodded and yawned. “I’m sorry I fell asleep on you.” My voice cracked and I moved away from him. Josh was looking at me, a bit angry. “I have food for you.” He says and storms away to the kitchen. “Sorry that you got woken up.” Nate apologises and stands up. “I really need to go but we keep in touch okay?” I felt sad that he needed to leave but understood it. “Yeah…we text.” He nods and grabs his jacket and says goodbye to Josh and leaves the house. Josh walks back with some warm noodles and gives it to me. “Why was he here?” I shrugged and carefully ate the noodles. “His mom made soup for me.” Josh snorted and walked away. “No fucking way.” He mumbles before disappearing to upstairs.

——— few days later ———

I was riding my bike to the gym as rain was pouring down on me. I quickly jumped off my bike, locked it and run back inside. Jake appeared out of nowhere and laughs. “Hello miss y/l/n, all wet?” ‘Creep.’ I awkwardly laughed and unzipped my rain jacket. “It wasn’t raining when I grabbed my bike, the last five minutes it started to pour down.” Jake moved up to me and wrapped his arm around my shoulder, pulling me close to his warm body. “I’ve got you, next time just call me.” He guided me to the training area and nobody was there yet. “You want something warm to drink?” ‘Well…I never say no to some warm drink.’ “Sure.” He smiles and gets something warm for me. I sat down on the bench and unloaded my bag. ‘Thank you god.’ Everything was dry only my bag on the outside was dripping wet. “Here you go, some warm chocolate milk for the lady.” He handed me a cup and I carefully took it from him. “Thanks.” “No problem, we don’t want you to get sick again.” He winked at me and I felt getting uncomfortable. He sat down next to me and smiled, his knee was touching mine. “How do you feel? Feeling a bit better?” I nodded and looked at my cup, a bit afraid to look at him while he’s been sitting so close to me. “Good to hear, I’m going to be honest. I missed you not being here with that camera off yours.” ‘I didn’t miss you Jake.’ “Well I’m back.” I said before I took a sip from my drink. The door opens and Nick, Nate’s friend walked in. ‘Thank god again.’ “Hey y/n, you’re back again I see.” I smiled at him and nodded. He looked over at Jake, squinting his eyes at him. “Jake.” “Nick.” The tension was thick between them. ‘I wonder what happens in those days when I was not here…’

Nate joined a few minutes later and I got up, leaving Jake on the bench alone. “Hello mr Diaz.” I joked and Nate smiled, giving me a side hug. “Hey, why are you so damp?” He looks at my face and sighs. “No you didn’t.” He immediately throws his hoodie off, leaving him in a shirt and gives it to me. “Here take it.” I shook my head. “No Nate, I’m okay.” He shook his head and shoved his hoodie into my hands. “No, pull it on.” I groaned and pulled the hoodie over my head. “Way better, I don’t want you to get sick again. Why didn’t you call me?” He looked disappointed at me. “I’m sorry, it wasn’t raining when I left my house this morning.” I gave him my sad eyes and slightly pouted at him. “It’s okay, I’m not angry at you.” He rubbed my back as we both walked back to the bench. “Hey Nate.” Jake says and stands up and looks at me, he looked at bit jealous and smiled too friendly at me. “Warm enough now?” I nodded and felt Nate tensing up. “Yeah she is, Jake let’s spar today.” Jake’s smirks and nods. “Sure why not.” They both walked away to get ready, I grabbed my camera to film this interaction between them because I have a feelings things will go wrong.

Nate POV

I was furious at him as he checked her out like that. “Rules?” He asks as he placed his mouthpiece in. “None.” I said as I was looking at him. “Okay.” He smiles and comes forward. He throws a jab and I dodged it. This went back and forth till I hit him on the side of his left face. I smiled to myself but he hit me back with a good right hand. ‘Fuck that was a good shot.’ He smiles at me and I lunged forward, grabbing his shoulders. Then we both fell down on the ground and he tried to hit my face as I was protecting it with my arms. “Come on then!” He yells at me as I didn’t make a move on him, he grabbed my shoulders and slammed my back a few times on the mat. “Come on Nate!” I moved my legs and pulled him down, hitting his sides. “Shut up shields.” I muttered against his head. He jerks up and hits my face a few times real good, I wiggled away and before I got jumped at him, Gilbert jumps in the ring and pushes Jake away. “Stop! Both of you.” He was pissed, a vein on his forehead was popping out and his face was red. “What fuck are you guys doing?! Killing each other. Look at you both.” I looked at Jake, he was bleeding from his mouth and his left cheek, he also had some scratches on his torso. I felt some blood dripping down my face, probably from my eyebrows. “This needs to stop.” He looked at both of us and helped Jake to get out of the ring. ‘Bitch.’ I looked at my right side and saw y/n standing there, camera in her hands and she looked horrified. “Come.” Nick my brother who just arrived helped me out and guided me to my office, as y/n got comforted by Chris our new officially member of the NDA team.

“I don’t want to know why, just stop being so self destructive.” He says as he cleaned up my face. “Is it because of her?” I stayed quiet, biting on my own lip as I felt that iron taste in my mouth. “Just don’t do this when she’s around, she’s actually scared right now.” “I know.” He patted my shoulder and stood up. “All done, just stay away from Jake, he’s not himself lately.” I nodded and followed him back to the rest of the group. Y/n was sitting with Chris on the bench as Keri was cleaning up our mess. “That was crazy.” Chris says as he greets me. I nodded and looked at her, she looked at me and softly smiled and stood up. “Are you okay, you were bleeding a lot.” She carefully looks at my face and her fingers gently touched my skin. “Yeah, I’m good.” I smiled at her and she smiled back at me. “Good, I don’t want you to die in a sparring match.” She jokes and I shook my head at her. “I won’t, I promise.” A door opens and she looks away, Jake walks in with that stupid smirk on his face. “I want to apologise for scaring our lovely guest.” He smiled to friendly at her and she just smiles back. “I’m okay, are you okay tho?” He shrugs. “Of course, I faced worst.” ‘That motherfucker.’ Nick grabbed my arm and shook his head. “Don’t.” He mumbled and I nodded. “Well you didn’t look good, that why I’m asking.” I chuckled and I saw her blushing, Jake shoot me a glare. “We both didn’t look very charming..” he said back and nodded at Gilbert. “Let’s go training, I think we all need it.” ‘Yes especially you Shields.’

—— a few weeks later——

It was my birthday today and I was throwing a party at my house. Friends and family were all here except for y/n, she hadn’t arrived yet. “She’s here.” Chris says and y/n walks outside to greet me. “Hello birthday guy.” She was carrying a small box, wrapped beautifully in black paper. “Hey.” She gave me a small hug and gave me my present. “Thank you but you didn’t have to.” She smiles but waves me off. “I know but I had to.” I started to unpack and saw a box, I gave her a confused glance and opened it. A usb was in it, on the side was written in her writing Nate’s life. “Is it finished?” She proudly nods but I felt sad that it’s over now. “So you are done with filming?” She nods and I looked back at the usb. “Yes it’s done, you are officially freed from me now.” She lightheartedly joked, I flashed her a fake smile and hugged her. “Thank you for giving me this.” “No thank you Nate, for giving me this opportunity.” ‘Always.’

The night went by fast and before I knew it I was alone again, sitting behind my computer, holding the usb stick in my hand. I took a deep breath and plugged it my computer. A file opens up, I gently swiped with my computer mouse to the file and double clicked on it. The video pops up and I pressed on the play button.

‘Hi it’s me y/n, before we are going to see Nate’s life story , I want to have this moment to say thank you, thank you to all the wonderful people who are in this documentary that trusted me and gave me this opportunity but also the people behind it, it was a pleasure to work with you guys, those two years we’ve been working together is something I will never forget. Enough talking about me, it’s time to show you his story.’

She sat in the gym, recording herself and tears fell down on my cheeks. Probably because of the alcohol I had tonight and that I’m going to miss her, not seeing her smiling behind that camera of hers, her beautiful smile and that giggle of hers that makes others smile too. I wiped my tears away and watched the whole thing with a smile but also with tears on my face. ‘I’m going to miss her.’

[safyresky]

Alright so Ive been having Crystal Springs Actor!Au thoughts where CS is just a live action series (the outtakes/blooper reels I have in my head about this are perfection) BUT! Do you have any irl people that serve as inspiration for how your ocs physically look? Are any of them based on how someone looks in real life.

BONUS: if you had to make an irl cast list to play your ocs irl who would you choose?

Okay. So. Jacqueline. 100%. Was a self insert OC. I am NOT afraid to admit that, and when I say "she is me I am she" I am NOT even joking. (But also I am not delusional lmao, I knwo we're not the SAME PERSON). So I guess Jacqueline SORTA looks like me????? It's funny, she's the ONE CHARACTER IN MY HEAD THAT I DO NOT HAVE A VERY CLEAR IDEA OF HOW SHE LOOKS BC I GO RIGHT. ME. SHE ME. Then I go ANYWAY and sip my iced cappuccino filled with chocolate milk and move on and try not to think too much about it, lol.

Blaise has some inspiration from my partner in crime, the fiance himself, Richard! He gets the shoulders and hair that goes UP from Richard. He's just a bit more square but even then, Richard's main shape I'd say is square. I insist that he doesn't though because it bothers Richard but I am a LIAR. Blaise has Richard vibes and that was on purpose.

But yeah, aside from that, no! Nobody else in CS has looks they share with IRL people I know. When I was 11/12 and making the Frosts, I was like "I'll just use my mom and dad and siblings!" but that was just not feasible bc I couldn't reconcile how they acted (bad) with how the Frosts would act (good), so that idea never flew. My Mom and Dad are just okay at best, Blinter tho? Blinter???? They are ROCK STARS and I want EVERYONE to NEVER FORGET IT

Their relationship is 50% based on me and Richard, and the other 50% is Gomez and Morticia from the 1964 series, mainly :)

Midnight, one of the Time Keepers, was 100% based on my best friend back at home in looks! But aside from those little bits and pieces, most of the cast of CS does not resemble people I know IRL.

AS FOR YOUR BONUS. OH BOY

So I have 0 thoughts on cast for live action. BUT. CAST FOR ANIMATED SERIES? I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS.

Mark Hamil would be Blaise! I think he could pull it off, man's got the RANGE and Blaise has a very specific voice in my head! For Winter, the closest I could get is Emma Thompson with how she sounds in my head. Jacqueline stole my voice, so we've got that going for us! I'd straight up fight any potential Jacqueline actors, I'd be like THERE CAN ONLY BE O N E (me). Besides, most creators of animated shows do one or two voices, so you BET I'd cash in on that >:)

Twins, I've got zero idea who'd voice them. Obvi, Marty is Jack and you can't just replace talent like that ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

And Pyros, lmao, I think it'd be funny if Jeff Goldblum voiced him >:). I like the thought. No I will not elaborate (I simply, cannot!)

Ana has some gr8 ideas for Elle if I remember correctly (Zendaya?!?!?!?!) But in my head, Elle sounds like Ana 🙃🙃🙃🙃.

UNFORTUNATELY that's about as far as I've gotten! I also briefly thought Meryl Streep as Winter, but Emme Thompson sounds sooo much closer to Winter in my head that she beat Meryl, the absolute legend.

For the rest of CS characters, I'd want the most UNHINGED VAs possible. The most chaotic actors you can imagine. Feels good, feels right.

OH I'd also replace Scott with Tom Hanks, because A) I like him and B) Tom Hanks (Woody) yelling YOU ARE A TOY and shoving Tim Allen (Buzz) off a roof is a very funny mental image that makes me feel better in the worst of times! :D

[anonymouslylovesyou]

Season 2 episode 3 of Bridgerton @whoblewboobear

Reread my last liveblog to refresh my own memory and it's surprising coherent

Oh flashback to 10 years ealier I think that's Anthony and his dad hunting

Anthony: *fails*

Anthony: it's impossible

They are being slightly safe with guns on set good for them

Oh my god is this how he fucking dies???? Allergic reaction to bees in front of Anthony???

Fucking crazy way to open a episode

Not Anthony having to make sure the other kids don't see the body...

God what is Anthony going to do in this ep that the narrative had to show me his tragic backstory how's he going to piss me off

Edwinda is so precious

Daphne!! And she has a baby and Colin is so good with them you know he's gonna want to be a father

Daphne is so funny I love herr I do miss Simon tho 😭

Daphne what's that face about??? Hm

Kate: a game where you are encouraged to piss off your opponents? Made for me <3

Edwinda looking at her sister: We will have nice afternoon (threat)

Girlie Prudence has no assets

The tailor(I still dont kmow her name but I like her a lot): I mind my business please mind yours

Kate please you promised to be nice

Fully do not care about Benedicts art school

Edwinda is so bad at this but shit talking her would be like kicking a puppy

Oh no she's not having fun??

GIRLIE YOUR SHIES AND DRESS?? Wait her shitty grandparents can pay nevermind

AND THEY BOTH FALL IN THE MUD, THE FIRST STIRRINGS A ROMANCE BLOOM

OH NO HIS FATHERS GRAVE

OH NO CHRIST THAT BABY BEING BORN TRAMATIZED THAT WHOLE FAMILY

Prudence is so bad at this seducing thing

Jack why on God's green earth would fucking Cressida Cowper be enjoyable company

Ok hold on this Edwinda and Anthony ship is cute. Him asking her to talk!!

Daphne coming in clutch with the subtle making him think about his feelings but also she so clearly misses her husband

Anthony you are a Liar who lies

Eloise stumbling upon her mom and Lady Danbury spying

Cressida nobody has ever in your life described you like that

Colin are you giving your brother drugs?????

BENEDICT DO NOT FUCKING DO THAT pray for him brothers

Eloise Kate friendship strikes again

Anthony you're processing your dad death again right here right now?

This episode being named "A Bee in Your Bonnet" is foul now that we know how his dad died

Oh my fucking god you let your brother go to dinner high as fuck??? You should've said he was sick Colin

Colin is starting to use the phrase "in Greece" to make his family stop paying attention

Daphne really said "if you love Edwinda then why are you staring at Kate while she talks huh?"

Oh my god Lady Danbury leaving a wide opening for Anthony to propose

Do not propose at dinner I fucking mean it Anthony but also don't save like that it was terrible

EWINDA BABYGIRL YOU WERE PERFECT

Damn actually Benedict that's a pretty good painting

Wahoo! He got in good for him but also do not allow him that close to that open window

Noo not Colin still being hung up on the other girlie

PENELOPE GIRLBOSSING

Kate's outfits slap so hard

NO BABYBOY IS HAVING A PANIC ATTACK I do not often like Anthony but I'm just this once wrapping him in a blanket

The camera angles were working so hard in that scene

[ladyimaginarium]

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WHAT’S A SOUND YOU HATE; SOUND YOU LOVE? hate: the sound of people screamin bc it brings back bad memories lmfao ; love: absolute gotdamn silence. the sound of the ocean & birdsong & cats purring's nice too :>

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WHAT’S THE WORST INJURY YOU’VE EVER HAD? had to get lil stitches in my& forehead bc undxed pots was a lil bitch & i& hit my head when i& fainted in highschool. lmao. thats just what i& remember tho. apparently i& had much worse when i& was a baby. like. wholeass surgeries & shit.

DO YOU HAVE ANY OBSESSIONS RIGHT NOW? plurality literary tropes, transcending to godhood, come back wrong, the mad prophet archetype, apotheosis, tryna find faith in humanity, witchcraft & occultism, learning our& indigenous languages & cultures, & being gayass.

DO YOU TEND TO HOLD GRUDGES AGAINST PEOPLE WHO HAVE DONE YOU WRONG? the vast majority of the time im& a very forgiving person. but i& don't forget. & especially as i& get older the less & less tolerance i& have for bs & same w/ forgiveness, especially after everything i've& been through to the point where my& doctor told me& that most would've kermitted if they'd experienced the things i& went through & im& like. kinda at my& limit. undxed cptsd aspd & bpd doesn't help things either. bc like these days im& just. like. callous & abrasive especially when im& irritated which is like. often. & i'm& like. one of the most patient people on the planet when it comes to the people i& genuinely care about & love so you'd have to do something fucked up for me& to tell ya i& dont give a shit. "well you should be the bigger person, take the high road!!" i've& literally Never benefitted from that shit. my& main abuser is still free & lives in the same neighborhood as me& fuck outta my& face. the cult i& was in was all "forgive those who hurt you!!!!!! yes even if they treated you badly!!!!" & that put my recovery back several years bc i& felt forced to forgive them or else i'd& be damned. "two wrongs dont make a right! if you get back at them you're making the world a worse place!!" the countless wrongs committed against me& didnt make a right either. choke. if w/e sb did to me was bad enough they ass is getting hexed and/or cursed. idgaf. fuck around & find out. & it also doesnt help that im& a cancer sun so tldr only if they fucked up REAL BAD. lmao

IN A RELATIONSHIP? im& in a qpr & in an insys relationship but bodily, outerworld wise? nah.

tagged by: hello im& angie im& 23 & i& steal memes for a living

tagging: @fossilizeddumbass @dilfsisko @abri-chan uhhhhhhhhh idk who else but i& encourage yall to steal if yall wanna do this

[underscorecc]

2.

ive reached another time where i feel like i need to vomit out all the shit thats been churning in my psyche. you know that feeling where you dont want to go to sleep because of this subtle sensation in your stomach? I think its dissatisfaction, both with myself and with the people around me.

the girl that i broke up with turned out to just be a hoe. She played w my heart and told me i was " the right guy at the wrong time" and that "she needed time to be single" and then immediately hopped onto some mid ass white dude LOL. anyways i fucking hate her guts. not cause she doesnt like me anymore, but because shes a damn liar. on a positive note it just means that little plot threat in my life has just been tied up, and now all i have to do is reconcile with the distrust for people that ive already been harboring, so nbd.

the ppl in my life kinda got me fucked up tho. right now i feel like theres no one genuinely there for me. I have a therapist, but you cant rlly get the level of intimacy with a therapist in the way youd have with family or friends. so right now i feel like i have nobody. my friends all suddenly seem extremely disinterested in talking to me. someone who i consider my best friend barely texts me and brushes off making plans and never reaches out. and my other friends just dont seem to really care or respond to me anymore. I get replies, but im not having conversations. it also seems like my mom is tired of me. shes even said it herself. she gets annoyed at a bunch of little things that i do. so i dont think id be wrong to assume ive become a nuisance rather than a valued family member.

it totally could be me. it totally could be them. it also totally could just be a series of unfortunate circumstances so ive been kinda torn trying to figure it out. I know im partially to blame. i can be overbearing and i dont know when to shut the fuck up. its hard for me to do genuine real talk anymore. I say "real talk" and then give advice to friends (probably unsolicited). but i never rlly talk about stuff that goes beyond skin deep. I talk about terrible moments in my life, like when i was sa'd or like something fucked up ive done, but its water under the bridge and doesnt rlly affect me anymore. i dont know, i just get the feeling that people will be repulsed if they see the real me. the me that is insecure and struggling and tired and angry. god im fucking angry, but im also so goddamn complacent, which is infinitely worse.

i am in the process of changing my life in a drastic way, which is needed. wont say how but it should shake things up in a good way. unfortunately its also partially a waiting game. so im stuck here in this in-between where i am given the privilege and honor of being alone with all of my thoughts!!!

i think i am having an identity crisis. I dont know what defines me anymore and i dont know who i want to be. ive thought about changing my name. im already changing what i wear (slightly). and weirdly enough even though i am a straight, cis dude, i occasionally have very very slight doubts about my sexuality and gender. its probably normal tho who knows.

I think this stems from a lack of masculinity in my life. having high free testosterone does not make me a man. being aggressive or stoic does not make me a man. but theres this concept of a real man in my head as something to aspire to be, but its an extremely vague and loose concept ive formed. despite being 20, i dont really see myself as a man. but im not a boy either. not to say im non binary. im just in this awkward in-between period. I wish i had a genuine masculine figure in my life who i could look up do. my dad is more like reddit atheist ben shapiro who debatelords me when he doesnt like me doing something. i dont live with him anymore so those problems are in the past, but the lack of a male role model is catching up to me, and its on me to define my own masculinity, but like fuckkkkkk i dont think ur supposed to do this by urself.

i been feeling mad weak. i always was a pussy on leg day and its showing now that i havent been to the gym for months. it really makes me feel pathetic. that 15% increase in struggle for things that i used to pick up with ease is really shameful, or embarrassing, or idk. it just fucking sucks. I want to be a strong person who cannot be surmounted, like a legendary dragon. But at the same time i dont know if these desires are my own or some responsibility i put onto myself as a means to gain social acceptance. its probably something i should put thought into when im eating enough and actually going to the gym, but i think ive been holding off because i feel so pathetic.

its a brutal cycle too. I feel pathetic from prior experiences where ive been demeaned (so a lot) -> i feel i dont have the grit or willpower to do something -> i try something thinking ill fail or just avoid it outright -> i feel pathetic. shit sucks ass.

anyways word vomit over thats p much it

[amzelindistress]

Every time I think wow, I haven't felt this low in a really long time! I end up sinking even lower into my depression. It's getting really, really bad again. Excruciatingly bad. (I haven't reverted to self-harm, tho. Yet.)

I feel so... worthless. hopeless. empty. void. numb.

I'm tired of having to explain why I'm no longer making XX amount, or why I'm not working, or what I'm doing during the days. I know she doesn't mean anything by it, but my mom keeps bringing it up and it just makes me feel bad. I was just mentioning today how I am only aiming to make X amount a week right now because CS has been exhausting me and she mentioned how I used to make XX amount. And once again I had to explain (for the umpteenth time) how AI has basically stolen my job/livelihood. (And I know she has ADHD and trouble paying attention/retaining the information I give her and I know she doesn't mean to make me feel bad. But it does. I was doing so well financially and now I'm not. It feels like there's a hole in my stomach and it just keeps getting bigger and bigger. (whoever said money doesn't buy happiness was a damn liar.))

I have a lot that I need to do and figure out but it's hard. And honestly, I have... I wouldn't say high support needs, as an autistic person, but they definitely aren't low, either. Medium? I don't know. But I'm not getting the support I need. (ps: I wish I could afford an official diagnosis. I wish I hadn't been failed as a child and had been formerly diagnosed.) I had high hopes when I signed up for the life coach but that was a mistake. It sucks because I don't really have anyone to give me the support/help that I really need. I love my mom but she's not equipped to help me with what I need. I mean, she has ADHD herself and barely passed high school. And I still have to help her with things, too. I just wish I had someone to help me out more. My mom tries. My best friend tries. But it's just not enough.

Finances are so tight right now. Between both me and my mom.

And there's just. So. Fucking. Much. To do. And I don't know how to do half the shit I want to do. And learning is so fucking hard. I need help. Who do I ask for help???

My dad's taking me to Akron on Friday and I'm really dreading the drive because we have to go on an interstate and being in a vehicle with him is really overwhelming. He always stresses me out and gets pissy on the road. Not looking forward to it. Probably won't even be worth the trip tbh. Meeting with my RA but what is she going to do for me? Tell me to lose weight to help my symptoms? Yeah, I already know that. Thanks!

Another thing that's been on my mind lately (although, tbh, I have 2987398472934 things on my mind lately) is my social skills. Or lack thereof. It's so hard for me to connect to anyone or to make friends. Even the group of "friends" I have right now all prefer the company of my best friend. And who wouldn't? She's fun and talkative. And I'm just me. Boring and quiet.

I'm trying to keep my mind busy, too. I'm trying to pick up a new hobby. But it sucks because I have a hard time following along with tutorials. I haven't even been able to get past my fucking Woobles kits because I keep fucking it up somehow and I've no idea how.

I. Literally can't do anything. Wow, wow, wow.

I can't finish my GED. I can't get myself to get my driver's license. I can't get a new job. I can't even pick up a hobby because I'm fucking stupid. I actually hate myself. I really, fucking do.

Right now I'm sucking back tears. You know when you suck them back so hard that your entire face hurts? That's me right now.

Yeah...

[angelofverdum]

Pretty Little Liars: Original Sin

I started watching this show because people kept saying it was like PLL but darker, scarier, and better.

I watched PLL when it came out, and I think it had so much potential that it hurt how they wasted it.

I went into this show keeping in mind that it wasn't the same show.

The only thing they share is the name.

I think the OG Liars were more interesting. It had a balance between fun and drama. Even tho I dislike Aria so much, and Emily (I love you Shay Mitchell) bored me to death, it was fun to watch.

These girls just met in school, and they didn't experience the same loss that the OG did. Even tho Alison was a bitch (she should have been A at the end, btw), she was their friend. These girls are together just because their mothers were awful.

Sarah was a delight to watch as Alison, she had the whole town in shambles, but here Karen was annoying as hell. Although someone said that Imogene's mom was Ali and Karen was just collateral damage.

The mothers are pretty awful, even in the present day. One of them is letting her kid gets blamed for her drugs, and the other says things like "I can pay for your life, but I can't control it?"

One of them might be a saint, though because what do you mean you took a 15-year-old girl that is 6 months pregnant, and she is planning to keep it.

And the actress have chemistry, and they could have work, but the writing was terrible. Teenagers don't talk like that, jock boyfriends and popular girls are overdone, do people still were those letterman jackets?

They don't talk about things that happened to them or don't care. It feels fake. I think they rushed their friendship.

Imogene was a good character. I just hate when, in shows like this one, where there is a lot of action, a character is pregnant, not that they care at all. A lot of people didn't like Imogen or Bailee Madison, but for me, she was the best actress among them, and that always going to make you a favorite on my list.

Tabby was annoying as hell with the movie references. There is no way someone talks like that; not even people who are obsessed with friends talk like that.

Noa was ok. I really like her as a character, but her story was kinda boring, tbh.

Mouse was the one I liked the least. I just didn't like her story. I was bored the whole time.

Farn was just so stiff. I don't know how to explain it, but I didn't feel any emotions with her. Her mother is a terrible mother, btw.

I also find it funny that faran was supposed to love ballet, but they didn't show us how an amazing dancer she was. She was just going from black to white swan.

I hate every man in the show. All of them.

Also, I can believe they were all interested in boys. That is homophobia. All the reboots and revivals trying to be more inclusive and here is PLL doing the opposite. Well, at least one of the moms is married to a woman.

BTW, there was no mention of Noa and Tabby's fathers.

Also -A was a letdown. A grown-ass man doing all this. Boring. Let the kids have fun.

It wasn't until I finished the whole show I found out that the creator of the show was the man from Riverdale. I didn't want to know anything because I was afraid I was going to spoil myself.

The original was excellent in the early seasons, or at least the mystery was enough to keep you coming back. The acting was perfect (Looking at you Troian, my beloved who ran circles around every actor in there)

I don't know if I'll watch season 2. The jury is still out on that