#shes making me look like a liar to my mom tho

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Took chewby i used to take layla on when I was a kid

She got startled by some dogs in a yard. That she could see while we were approaching.

[the-dragon-girl-27]

In my previous post i talked about how I have a lotta scrapped MV ideas, well may as well dump some designs i've made based on songs over the years because like I probably wouldn't post these otherwize

also heres a few nice picture of miku from one of em to make you click on this post because its gunna be a long one and all these are hidden below a read more

for the record don't expect me to do anything with any of these, also these are from old to new some of these date back to early 2022 and it shows

This one i posted a storyboard for actually its An Aliens I Love You by Utsu-P.

I gave young Rin a sakura motif with her dress because of miku and rin meeting under a sakura tree, teen miku has a pink ribbion and hairclip to continue this. both rins bow and mikus outfit get darker outfits overtime to sybolize the song getting darker. I also gave adult rin the future rin hair. Miku's "alien" form is more or less how its described in the song tho i was lazy and didn't draw the 4 arms in the refs.

also Lily is Rins mom in this yup there she is indeed.

I actually have a lot of assets finished including the ones above i may show em off one day who knows.

This one is Stained Nocturne by Toa i actually did finish this one

the grey one is when they talk about being colorless

i gave them both very cute and elegent outfits i think it matches the vibe of the song. The starry outfits are the real highlight. if you wonder how I drew em over and over i just copy pasted the stars on their dresses.

they also are very blue because yknow nocturne. I forgot if i dumped the assets for this MV or not maybe next rant post.

This one is Corona by Utsu-P no idea why i did it its probably not even in my top 20 Utsu-P songs i just had some brainworms that wore off. I finished like a minute of it I guess.

I really like rin's outfit. "goth metal astronaut" is such a weirdly specific concept but she absolutley nailed it. 10/10 desin

This one is Garando by Picon. I gave her a like idk what to call it paperboy outfit like the one you see in the MV a few times. her eyes are yellow like bullets because I had this one S teir visual idea. I have some assets for this one i may show off one day.

i also considered doin the sekai ver i really like garando if u cant tell lol

This one is Happy Haloween by Junky another one i finished

Rins is just from the OG mv the rest are themed around the characters

Minori is a dark angel because tenshi no clover is themed around... a normal angel

haruka has candy and a penguin mask because thats her thing

airi is a vampire cuz she has fangs

shizuku is a witch because of her cast a spell on you outfit

This one is NEXT NEST by Satsuki Ga Tenkomori. The cubes are from the original MV image thing. I gave her a super cybernetic look to match the song vibe. I also gave her a plaid skirt to match miku's concept desin because this song is like sorta miku becoming sentient or smth idk been a while since i read the lyrics.

another S teir design. also zamn this ref goes hard lol.

This one is Bluff Liar by EZFG. VY1 doesn't really have a desin so I went with this based on the semi official one (we dont speak of her new official one also i drew this long before that regardless lol) I have a shitty animatic thats 80% stick figures for this. never posted it tho.

tbh i put the file to this ref on an external hard drive cuz this whole video killed my storage because i actually finished it so i yeeted all th assets off my computer as soon as i was finished so i just dowloaded the little thing of assets from this post

not much goin on its kinda just normal ol luka lol

This is Black Hole Artist by utsu-P. its not in project sekai and never will be but it reminded me of Ena so I had this idea. not much to say, I have a few assets for this but nothing really finished.

Another VY1 EZFG song, IDK what my plan was for drawing this over and over. also pretty asthetic ref lol. not much to say i don't draw very cyberish designs so its fun

this is just concept art. this is Roless Weapon by Neru and Inubakumori. yeah those two colabed you wouldnt know cuz this song has no MV. IDK what my plan for this was tbh but like when else would i show this off.

From here on its just concepts lol. this is Atari Front Program by Utsu-P... god how many Utsu songs is this lol

S teir desin i love miniskirt plus pants combo idk its just a vibe.

this drawing sucks lol. this is Live by Mizuno Atsu. Long haired kafu is cute I have better drawings of this in my sketchbook somewhere I think. I might revisit this it would be very simple and cute.

also weirdly my fav part of this aside from her hair is her shoes.

anyway Kafu needs more outfits for songs tbh theres like 3 kafu songs where she has a unique outfit

actually i lied about only having doodles, this is Where Shall We Go by Mellowclle

already made a post bout this

this is my most recent. I sketched this after finishing this art of this song. It is Memento Mori by Buriru

I love this song the creator said its supposed to sound like a mecha anime opening so i went with that vibe. teto looks great, miku doesn't. Teto doesn't really have a counterpart so I assigned miku as her girlfriend lol.

sadly I cannot draw robots so idk what my plan was tho i have a cool visual for the end in my head.

anyway thats everything I could find. does anyone give a crap? probably not but hey character design is fun and i love messing around.

anyway fun trivia more songs i have video ideas for i won't make: Poster Girls Prank - Utsu-P (but with MMJ project sekai)

Stella - Jin

Paranoia - Mezame-P

and probably more i'm forgetting lmfao

[gyunglitter]

➷ 01 ➷

-“oh, the way he makes me feel that love isn’t real -– cupid is so dumb”

or

unlike you, your brother’s best friend just doesn’t know when to quit

word count: 1,766

warnings: probably just the reader making you cringe lol, give her a break--she's 11 lmao

tags: brother’s-best-friend!beomgyu x reader, ??? to ???, angst, fluff(??), beomgyu is the cool boy-next-door, reader is an independent girlboss (or trying to be, at least), beomgyu’s gonna be GROVELING, simp!gyu, pathetic pining from both sides lol, maybe some cringe from reader (she was a teenage girl in love, have some empathy plz😭)

notes: LMAO SORRY TO POST KINDA LATE, I FORGOT I PROMISED TODAY HAHAHAHA

another short chapter, but i promise the next couple of chapters are a lot longer! enjoy mini reader, beomgyu, and soobin tho :)

–> masterlist <–

Ten Years Ago

If there was one thing your family agreed on, it was that Soobin was the shyest person around.

You and Soobin were very close, having a lot of the same interests and mannerisms. You didn’t disagree on many things (yet), but there were only a handful of differences between you two. You were eleven years old, making your older brother thirteen, and about to go into his final year of middle school. But the main thing that had set you both apart was that while you had many friends, Soobin had absolutely no one. He was a very sweet and funny kid, but he was too shy for his own good, unintentionally pushing the majority of the people his age away.

You had hoped your brother would make some friends during his seventh year, but had little to no luck; apparently, the Bunny Girl Senpai Fanclub wasn’t taking many applicants and the Pokemon Card Collectors Club was a bunch of gatekeepers. Middle school boys.

“What if I just faked being sick?”

Soobin held his head in his hands as he was waiting for his pop tarts in the toaster. You sat on the counter across from him, shoving down a bowl of Frosted Flakes. You didn’t have to leave for another hour when your mom would drive you to the primary school a few blocks away. Soobin, on the other hand, was supposed to set off for his first day of eighth grade soon, but was stalling as much as he could before he had to start walking over. 

You snorted, “For the whole year? Fat chance of that happening, you’re the worst liar.”

Your brother lifted his head and glared at you, before sighing loudly and crying, “I hate school, it’s filled with people who are scary and take your rare Charizard card!”

You opened your mouth to reply, but were interrupted by your house’s doorbell ringing. You looked towards the front door and turned back to Soobin expectantly. But your brother wasn’t paying any attention. To your (un)amusement, he was still sulking about, well, just about everything. Like you said, middle school boys.

Shaking your head, you hopped off of the counter (carefully, as your dad had shown you) and walked over to the front door.You figured it was one of your neighbors or the mailman. You usually weren’t allowed to open the door yourself, but that completely escaped your mind when you opened the door and were faced with an unfamiliar boy.

A cute, unfamiliar boy.

You mentally thanked your mom for braiding your hair in two with your favorite butterfly clips now.

“Hi,” you said, a small grin taking over your face. “I’m Y/n!”

The boy looked at you and smiled back. “Hey, Y/n, your mom or dad home?”

You nodded your head. “They are, but they’re running around getting ready. I can definitely help you though!” What can you say, you were a confident kid.

“I don’t know, you might be a bit too little,” he teased you, making you scoff.

“Little? I’ll have you know, I can deal with anything, even crazy!”

He laughed a little at that and then said, “Of course! I’m sure you’re super responsible at the age of..?”

“Eleven,” you bragged, tucking a stray hair back into one of your butterfly clips.

The boy nodded in deep understanding and said, “Well, little Y/n, I’m Beomgyu. I just moved here and my mom told me you guys had someone my age here too! I figured we could walk to school together,” he said, rubbing the back of his head.

Your eyes widened at that, a warm feeling taking over your stomach. 

The boy was cute, duh. But his easy offer of friendship, something your brother had struggled to find, made you know that this Beomgyu had a kindness to him that not many his age did–according to Soobin.

Your grin widened at the boy in front of you, nodding your head eagerly. “Just give me a sec,” you squealed, excited for your brother. “OPPA! YOU’RE FINALLY GONNA MAKE A FRIEND!”

Years later, you look back and remember the loud laugh Beomgyu had let out at your call, his excitement outweighing the awkwardness Soobin exhibited when he appeared at your doorway with a pop tart hanging from his mouth.

You look back and remember Beomgyu easily befriending Soobin with his wide smiles, animated hand gestures, and cool stories about his new pet bird. The way he eased your brother’s nerves and got him laughing, already offering to share the other pop tart in his pack.

You look back and cringe sometimes at the confidence those lame butterfly clips gave you. But you take it back when you would remember Beomgyu, with an arm around Soobin’s shoulder, had turned around while the two boys were about to take off for school, saying in a singsong tone, “Nice to meet you, little Y/n, love the butterfly clips, by the way!”

But most of all, you remember the way your cheeks flushed. The way he made you feel like you were cute too. Like you were special. You remember how that was the first of many times he would fluster you with his compliments. 

You were only eleven, but at that moment you would look back and remember how this is where you became a fool–a fool for love.

“You look really good,” he whispered to you.

It took everything in you to not show how much he affected you. Unlike the many instances before though, you actually succeeded this time around. Your focused gaze on your brother and father’s random discussion about his anime watching habits kept your eyes from widening, and your well placed makeup did a good job of hiding the flush that desperately wanted to highlight your neck and cheeks. It bothered you very much how Choi Beomgyu could still get under your skin.

“Thanks,” you replied shortly, not letting your eyes leave their spot on Soobin. 

–Your brother was whining about how there was no harm in watching anime when he already got his work done for the day–

Despite your subtle avoidance of him, you knew it wasn’t reciprocated by the way his breaths brushed against your ear. The way his eyes were on you, you could feel them as if they were burning you. It felt like he was truly drinking you in after so many years of not getting a single glimpse of you. But that was all you would allow him.

“I, uh, it’s nice to see you again. It’s been a while,” he continued, trying to catch your attention.

You hummed disinterestedly. 

–Your father had taken to pointing out Soobin’s body pillows, to which he groaned loudly, claiming that was actually Beomgyu’s gag gift to make him look sus–

But Beomgyu was not deterred.

“Congrats on, well, everything from the past four years! I know college can be pretty crazy!”

You winced a little at that, remembering how your mom told you Beomgyu had actually dropped out of college about three months after you left for school. Despite Beomgyu doing amazing in school when you were still around–there was talk of him possibly graduating at the top of your class–he practically tanked his classes the following fall semester. 

“But of course, if there was anyone who could deal with crazy, it would be our little Y/n, huh,” he laughed a little–that same damn laugh he had when you first met. “I mean, you are pretty amazing—”

You weren’t sure what he had gotten up to after you left, but you weren’t interested in hearing anything. Not about him, his future, and definitely not about how amazing he thought you were.

“Wow dad, this shrimp tastes great!” You shouted your false gratitude, successfully interrupting Beomgyu and the argument between your brother and father.

All the chatter stopped for a second, before your dad grinned at you. “Thanks, bean, make sure to grab some more then! You’re looking too skinny, anyways, are you sure you ate enough out there,” he asked, wiping his hands on the front of his apron.

You laughed and nodded, both at your dad’s question and Soobin's grateful stare for changing the topic. Eventually, your mother started another conversation about how Soobin’s friends from school were doing.

“I thought you didn’t like seafood,” Beomgyu muttered to you when he got the chance.

For the first time that evening, you looked back at him.

You realized, with a painful squeeze in your chest, that Beomgyu had grown past the stage of cuteness that you had adored when you were younger, and in your absence, became beautiful. Sure, his puppy dog eyes stayed the same, holding that familiar kindness and curiosity as before. But now, his face lost its round edges and became chiseled, looking as if his features were carved by Aphrodite, herself. His hair was dyed brown and had grown out a little into what was beginning to look like a mullet, giving off a boyish look that his typically mischievous expressions matched easily. Not only that, but he looked like he’d really grown into himself, physically and mentally. Granted, he wasn’t in the best place when you had left four years ago, but the way he carried himself was refreshing. Attractive. Him.

“I didn’t, but I do now.” You took another bite of the shrimp on your plate. “I mean, it’s been a long four years. The things I liked before changed quite a bit while I was gone. ”

You watched Beomgyu’s face fall a bit at that, his puppy dog eyes becoming downcast as he looked towards his own plate of chicken. There wasn’t much on his plate to begin with, but it seemed he wasn’t going to be eating any more after that.

“Yeah, I guess they would after so long,” Beomgyu whispered, pushing his food around with his chopsticks. 

You turned back to your own food to try and get your mind off of him, but he stopped you with his next words.

“If it changes anything, so have mine.”

This time, you couldn’t stop your eyes from widening. You turned towards Beomgyu, to see him looking at you with what you could only assume was guilt.

“I just wish they had done so earlier.”

–> next <–

[frozen-heart]

Thoughts on episode 7

Here we go again :D

Choices were definitely made with Dr Sullivan's backstory. I'm dissapointed they didn't mention the original A and cast. It would've been the perfect opportunity. I'm not sure why but it feels out of character for Archie to go after Dr Sullivan for years? Why would he kill her son? Why wait until he was like 16? I don't buy it being because she couldn't do more for him and his mother. Didn't he like hate his mother or something? Was Clanton involved? Where is Clanton? Did they get the idea for A, because Archie followed Dr Sullivan to Rosewood back when the original A attacked her?

Also, why would Dr Sullivan assume that it was Archie who killed her son? Especially with the 'A' scenery that got created allegedly by Archie. Wouldn't she assume it was Mona or any other A from the original PLL? She didn't know yet that Archie would call himself 'A' in the future.

I'm also feeling conflicted about her suddenly feeling the need to 'prove' her story to Imogen. Showing her allegedly dead son's grave doesn't prove anything btw. I somehow sympathize with her wanting to help Imogen and seek redemption for her mistakes, but something about it also feels off. And her suddenly dissappearing is giving me flashbacks to the original PLL, when she got threatened by A to dissappear.

This teacher right here is getting on my suspect list. He has technical knowledge for the SpookySpaghetti site, he could help Bloody Rose with the texts that are being send by people that are already dead and he could've had access to the girls final tests that they failed, to keep them in Millwood for summer school.

I wonder if these Rose's are from Mrs Beasley and Kelly or from Bloody Rose. It's implied that they're from Mrs Beasley, but we never exactly saw them place the flowers there.

I was also wondering, if the killings and Bloody Rose could be connected to Karen. Like how last season it was connected to Angela. It would make sense to test the Liars, to kill Sandy and the Pastor in connection to Karen. Not necessarily Nick and Sabrina tho.

I was wondering about the killings in general. The first two killing are Sabrina and Nick, who were mentioned on SpookySpaghetti and are meant to represent Bloody Rose's children Angela and Archie. But I don't think there were any mention of other people that were killed, like Sandy, on SpookySpaghetti. Where's the connection between everyone that got killed? Now with the Pastor getting killed and Kelly being attacked by Bloody Rose the killings/attacks seem to be random?

Why would Bloody Rose attack Kelly? Was this supposed to be a test for Kelly? Or is it because Faran told Kelly about Bloody Rose? Is that why Dr Sullivan dissappeared? Because Imogen told her about Bloody Rose? How did Bloody Rose know where she is? Also, why are they only warning Kelly now? They could've tried to warn her about another killer at least after Faran's test!

I hope Kelly will survive. I have a strong gut feeling that she will. The way Bloody Rose attacked her doesn't fit her. No stabbing, no blood. And she left her behind it seems. She never leaves a body behind, as we know. And we all know that she takes good care that no one finds out about her victims, because of all the text messages she keeps sending Sandy's mom for example. I've seen some people say that it might be a doll, that's what I thought when I saw the trailer for episode 6-8, but from the actual episode it actually looked like Kelly. Anyway, she needs to survive and redeem herself with the girls.

Faran x Greg... Why are they doing this? Kelly and him broke up like yesterday in their timeline. At least Greg broke up with Kelly before going after Faran ig.. This situation reminds me of the Caleb/Spencer/Hanna situation

Watch her drop the biggest bomb next episode and then dissappear again. She'll at least give a major clue on Bloody Rose. Her showing up at Mouse's house was so random lol. And why did Lola look so out of it? Did Rose tell her something disturbing?

Soo.. Let's take a deep breath and adress the elephant in the room:

Noa x Jen - Just getting on my nerves. After last episode there's no redemption for these two. I wish we could've seen the confrontation between him and Jen. I remember back in season 1 he got aggressive with the boys from Rosewood, so I guess it wouldn't be completely out of character. Especially considering he got cheated on and lied to. But when Noa trashed his car and their entire confrontation lacked that aggression. I thought he would definitely get another outburst when Noa went out of her house, but he just didn't, which feels contracting. And seemingly he also let her get away with trashing his car. I don't know. They could've handled it better. Noa trashing his car also felt like an overkill. Jen never said that he threatened her. It was so obvious that he would find out about them, get angry and would want to confront them.

Shawn is honestly just spitting facts right here:

Not related to this episode, but:

Everytime Mrs Langsberry suddenly pops up on the screen I got reminded of the Pretty Little Liars Spoof series! Some characters kept popping up out of the blue there too and it was hilarious every time.

[imaginespazzi]

chapt 10

i said fuck bro when i saw this im scared

10k is a novel

paige is having beef already what a shock

horny azzi

hornier paige

“you don’t have any effect on me” me when i lie

oh frick paige in trouble

people catching on and azzi just being a shit ass liar

jana clocking them

why are we treating suicide paige 

azzi there is no way in hell you think paige was hopping on that child

“you always did go for younger women, like me” azzi bro 

i wanna know the issue with angie

stephie is my spirit animal

why is she throwing shade “um u can’t cook”

“i’m too cute to die” breaking the fourth wall and speaking to the author 

uncle twin always makes me chuckle

wanna know what doesn’t

stephie sulking

“you’d think I was her favorite” false hope is a disease

“Coach Bueckers” petty i like it

“i’m just getting clocked left right and center” IM USING THAT I GIGGLED SO HARD

hey when’s the angst

i love stephie so much she’s so real

she and azzi are the same tho there is no difference 

WHY IS STEPHIE MESSY AF TALKING BOUT KISSES FROM CLEMENCE

claudia clocking her mom is crazy

CLOCKING HER AGAIN BRO

stephie instigating YET AGAIN

“i forgot i was mad” im sure your mom agrees

she knows what she did is wild

letting claudia on her lap bro

DID YOU LIKE THE OTHER KIDS HUGS MORE THAN YOU LIKED MINE

stephie clocking azzi part 2847485$4

three seconds

oh my fucking god its drew here comes the goddamn angst you had to ruin it

paige is going to khs ig

drew sending hate 

IM GONNA KMS

“you won’t ever hurt my paigey will you” i hate you nivi 

“don’t you guys look so fucking cozy” oh shit here we go

stephie with the comeback

“but i promise i’ll try” kids clock better 

“i think im gonna like you” i think i’ve had enough

“i wouldn’t look so different to you if you’d been around to see me grow up” IVE HAD ENOUGH

uncle drew😭

nivi i went through all the stages of grief twice i don’t know how to feel anymore 

KARLYYYY do you know you're my favorite?

Don't be scared, I'm such a nice person

Way too horny and now they've gone and gotten themselves clocked

LMFAO just to be clear again, Stephie will not die I am scared of y'all

Stephie's actually the world's biggest instigators (she's me coded)

No don't kys, i'd miss you <3

TWICE? I feel like this was not that much of a grief-filled chpater, at least not by my standards tee hee

[mydysfunctionalvampirefamily]

Dan don't be so casual!!! Your brother is worried about you!!!!

Goddamn Jessie please don't actually go sacrifice for your brother out of guilt.

Dan stop being so fucking casual!!!

Okay side note that has nothing to do with anything. But you can leave bullets inside people, it really depends on where they are. Usually the worst thing is the damage they caused moving. Though I assume the fact that they are silver does mean you should remove them from a werewolf.

Far be it from me to call Jessie a liar, but I do not believe for a second that if Lola tells him it's an unfair deal he is not still gonna take it.

"you wanna eat my ass, fine." tell me there were now kiss motions made on that please!

Why do we need fucking cop to convince everyone they need to get healed. 😂😂

John just being rational is once again the thing that works on Lola and her freak out and refusing medical attention.

😂😂 Aviva getting medical help out of pettiness.

Aviva, John would do anything for you, making a bit of ectoplasm is probably the least.

Oh John, my precious emotionally repressed baby, just casually using up dead bodies like you do.

The goblins taking good care of turkey tail. 😭

All this magic is crazy but really cool!!!

This fucking mouse though. His little hat is cute, but he is a LIAR!!!

John once again knowing exactly what to say to get to Lola.

😭😭😭 The mouse wants to save her! I take it back lil moussy.

Me and Aviva are on the same page! The cop wanting a drink with Lola!!! It's the grenadine, it has to be.

Grenadine with energy drink shots. This sounds like the idea you have once you're already way too drunk to function normal the next day and then you think this will stave off a hangover.

They're both going upstairs. 👀 They are gonna sleep in the same bed!

👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀

Fuck me, John. Why are you so good at talking to everyone for their benefit??? Like no offense but you're so bad in dealing with yourself.

Ohhh Jessie Jessie Jessie. Seems like a bad idea to insult an owl.

I love it when they role exceptional successes!!! Especially when it is when they're doing smth for someone else.

It's so interesting to finally see some stronger emotions with John. The excitement you hear when he talks about smashing his mom's signs is rare.

Sword in the stone-ing that bat into the windshield with everything that's going on, so petty. 😂

"Carl, this man is a werewolf, do you think he's gonna fuck off?" 😂😂 made me laugh out loud, and people looked at me like I was crazy.

He just ended Carl in one shot!

Sure, not feeling pain and going numb is definitely the healthy thing to do after cold blooded murder...

They're extra giggly today, are they nervous?

Also Tim is the irl Miles of that group, telling everyone to focus. 😂

Oh my God!!! They are not fucking around, Aviva just chopping a dead man's legs and hands off. (btw why just stop at the hands at this point and not go full arms?)

You know if you hear about a matter wizard and a wizard of space and time the matter wizard kind of sounds like a dweeb, but actually it's fucking badass.

I am screaming! Fucking Ramona, really thinking giving him a dad will stop him from this. Like she's smart, but she's fucking stupid.

Oh no Lola's worst moment is so awful, and so sad.

The sound of rolling dice is so good.

I hate Ramona so fucking much. She is delusional at this point thinking she's doing the right thing and all creepy calm. Why are parents the fucking worst?!?!

To be fair I like to hate Ramona though, I love hating awful parents.

This fucking magic dagger tho! And Dan himself too obviously but omg.

"I only remember things that are important." yikes!

We love a villain that believes they working for the greater good.

"Consequences are for lesser beings." woooooooooh I hate this bitch.

SHE'S JUST DEAD?!?!

Oh no of course she's not.

The fact that John really doesn't feel pain rn is really so much like his mom. He's on the edge.

Noooo Aviva can't die. 😭

Not the look of confusion, that is kind of sad.

Nope nope, I am in a store rn I cannot listen to this. Will continue listening when I get home

Jesus fuck! I was right to not listen to the last 15 minutes in the store. Good lord. 😭😭

I'm laughing and crying at the same time at Jessie just being gone.

Rob shut your fucking face 😭 (said lovingly obviously)

John casting a spell to finish all this, while having Aviva in his arms. STOP 😭

What??? *insert jlaw gif of what does it mean?!?*

What what what??? Ernie???? NOOOOOOOO Rob stop!! This is illegal!!!! What are you doing???

Okay... But this means there is gonna be a sequel right????

I will post some more thoughts later maybe, but I need to center myself because fuck me.

[drpeppertummy]

More Sunny Lore accumulated from discord messages (some kinda nsfw, some about him as a kid, most just involving regular day-to-day shit)

something that causes people to misperceive sunny is that when it comes to making things look nice (wrapping presents, decorating food, art, etc) he really does try hard but it never comes out good so people Think he didnt try and they Think he does things carelessly when really the heart is all there, he just lacks a delicate touch and an artistic eye

he sings along to santa baby and he does Not make it no homo and he replaces random lines with things he wants that he would fuck santa for, such as a club sandwich or perhaps an onion ring

re: his horrendous food decorating/plating/presenting skills. he knows hes no good at making food look nice & hes ok with it & he can laugh at himself with everybody else about it. but i think if he really wanted to make something look extra special & nice for someone & it came out like shit even tho he tried reallyreally hard i think he would be upset

he toes a fine line between being able to laugh at himself & being super sensitive. usually people can tell which its gonna be by letting him lead the reaction. like if he seems silly about it its probably fine. if he seems a little frustrated or nervous he might not be up for teasing. but sometimes its hard to tell

he would 100% kiss laurie & steal her gum/hard candy out her mouth & she would be fucking flabbergasted

Baby Sunny was def the type of speech kid who would replace his L sounds with Y sounds. ever since he was yittle his favorite color was yeyow,

there were times when he was little when his dad would take his siblings to do something fun but not him (sometimes saying he was too little or too sick, sometimes just flat out saying he didnt want him there) so he would spend extra time time with his mom instead. she wouldnt push dad to take him bc she knew hed just be shitty to him so shed make sure they had a nice time together instead. they might cook together or go to the store or make a special trip to the playground etc

he had the Hardest time turning off his voice when he was little he just had to be talking or making noise 95% of the time & even now as an adult when hes in a more energetic mood he still cant make himself be quiet sometimes

sunny would win the gold medal for gettin water all over the place while doin dishes

he is definitely the pope of Jokes So Stupid And Unfunny They Circle Back Around To Being Funny. & hes awful at telling them bc he starts laughing too hard to finish but thats part of what makes it funny is bc hes such a knucklehead & his laugh is so contagious

Thinking About Birthdays i think sunnys like the opposite of me about his birthday hes tellin everyone like "its my birthday🥰!!" like a little kid😭 he doesnt even want a lot of fuss hes just happy & he wants people 2 be like omg happy birthdayyy‼️ he likes to make sure other people feel special on their birthdays too he always makes sure to hype up his friends n family on their birthdays & make sure everybody else knows & make them somethin special

somethin that drives laurie nuts is that hes kind of a loud eater. doesnt always chew with his mouth closed & he talks with his mouth full & hes always slurpin shit. has to learn to be quieter so he doesnt drive her straight up the wall

he has a way of looking SO innocent after being Mischievous & as a result people dont always believe him when he really is innocent. & then he gets so insulted . & then there are some people who fall for his Fake innocent look Every Time bc he just pulls it off so well. i Do think its easy to tell whether he was actually mischievous or not, not by his look of innocence but by his reaction to being accused. bc he is a Terrible liar & he doesnt even try so if he did somethin naughty & someone says You Were Naughty🫵 hes just like 😎 but if someones insisting he was naughty when he wasnt he goes from confusion -> denial -> upset if they still push it

i think his fear of bugs probably extends to crustaceans to an extent. like he could be watching a crab scuttle around & be regular & then his brain is like "wait thats bug" & he gets a little spooked. he could be peeling shrimps just fine & then Think About It & get freaked out. if laurie were to chase him with a crab well he would not like it

sunny likes drawing with laurie but he also just likes watching her, which she was worried about at first until she realized hes pretty quiet & calm when hes watching. shes more or less indifferent to his presence as long as hes behaving although sometimes she enjoys the company & the way hes clearly impressed by her skill makes her feel nice. he loves drawin his friends & they always come out so goofy. & she draws a quick doodle of him in response & hes like HOWD U DO THAT ……………………..

every week he begs giuliana to let him wear a thottier uniform to work & she says no. he knows shes gonna say no. hes just doing it to be a nuisance. he would thrive as a short shorts rollerskating waiter tho

despite his medical phobia sunny has an excellent bedside manner when hes helping people with their booboos. like you can tell hes used to cleaning up little scraped knees he'll be helping a grown-ass adult clean up a cut & hes handling it like hes tending to a little kid. gentle & silly & comforting. not even deliberately its just second nature for him

hes naturally funny & he really likes making people laugh. thats how he sucks em in if he can make somebody laugh he knows he can wriggle his way in & be friends with them. thats part of his Formula for becoming friends with people he just met (not that he does it deliberately or consciously, its just the things he does naturally) which is: -treat em like family -chat em up enough to leave no question about whether he actually Wants to talk to em -make em laugh & it almost always works bc hes silly & sweet & charismatic & pretty much everybody he spends a significant amount of time with comes to like him eventually (& a lot of them like him right away). of course theres exceptions here & there but hes good with people

my teacher has asthma but she always forgets about it so she'll be like "wow why is it so hard to breathe" for like a solid day or 2 & then be like "omfg marie youre choking you idiot." anyway. Thats Sunny. i mean sometimes he gets full on attacks but sometimes itll get him more subtle & it just doesnt occur to him that thats what it is. hes like Wow This Pollen Is Crazyyyyyyy & lauries like What Pollen .

i think sometimes he kinda like. maybe not necessarily age regresses but sometimes he really needs to tend to his inner child & take a little time to like, play with his bunny or scribble with crayons or watch carebears or somethin. For His Health

he has SUCH bad rsd. he tries to downplay it bc he knows its a Him problem but hes terrible at it bc hes such an outwardly emotional & expressive person. i think sometimes people think hes like bein manipulative or makin it about him bc of that like he'll be so visibly distraught after realizing he was Bein Bad even tho hes trying to be Normal about it or he'll overcompensate by avoiding doing anything Related to whatever he did for a while or sometimes like he'll apologize excessively in a way that comes off as desperate etc. he tries so hard not to make it other peoples problem bc he Wants people to feel comfortable expressing boundaries to him but also it scares him so much any time it happens bc hes like Oh God Oh Fuck I Was Bein Bad

i think on some deep subconscious level there is some sort of mommy thing going on (which seems plainly obvious to everyone but him) but if someone rolled with that vibe & outright started talking about being mommy while they were foolin around it would kill the mood SO fast he would be like 🥺😢❓🥺😢 & experience 1300 negative and bewildering emotions and that would be that for the night

hes so mouthy but he gets So submissive the second something turns even a tiny bit Steamy. absolute babygirl mode puppy eyes all shy n soft n sweet. pretty much the opposite of what his friends (who havent gotten steamy with him) would expect esp considering how casual he is with dishing out Friendly Affection

[yourimagines]

Your life on camera p.6

* English is not my first language I apologise

* Gif is not mine

* Triggers: Swearing, Anger, Violence and fluff

6 months later from chapter 5

Y/N POV

I was sick and stayed home today, after Josh made me stay in bed as he called me in sick. “I’m going to practice, you stay here in bed.” He stays as he leans against my doorpost. “Yeah…just go.” My voice sounded hoarse and my nose was closed up. “I will, I’ll see ya later.” With that he disappeared, I sighed and turned to my side, trying to get some sleep.

I woke up by a hard knock on our front door. “Ugh…go away.” I said tiredly. It didn’t help because another knock was heard. I sighed and got slowly out of my bed and went downstairs while wearing my pyjamas. I saw someone standing on the other side of the door, trying to peek inside through the froggy glass. I carefully unlocked the door and opens it just half way. It was Nate, he was standing in the rain holding a plastic bag in his hands. “Hey, can I come in?” I nodded and stepped out of the way for him. “Your brother called this morning, saying you were sick. I wanted to check on you after filming yesterday the whole day outside in this bad weather.” He shyly smiled and rubbed his neck. “I got you some food tho.” He gave me the bag and I smiled. “Thanks.” My voices sounded rough and I felt so tired. Nate noticed and helped me with the food. “Let me do it, just sit down please.” I immediately sat down and watch him take out the home made soup and sandwiches. “My mom made this for you.” He sheepishly said as he gave me the food. “Thank you mrs Diaz.” I quietly joked and saw Nate smiling softly.

After the food I grabbed my blanket from upstairs and laid it on the sofa downstairs. Nate was sitting in a chair, watching me waddling around the house. “I can leave if you want, so you can go lay in your bed and take a nap.” I shook slowly my head, trying not to make the headache worse. “It’s fine, I like company…” he nods and tried to get comfortable in the chair. “You sure you want to stay, I don’t want make you sick.” He shook his head and smiled. “It’s okay, I like spending some time with you.” ‘Liar.’ I nodded and got comfortable on the sofa and tucked myself in. “If you want we can watch some tv?” I suggested as my voice was to painful to start a whole conversation with him. “Sure.” I grabbed the remote and turned the tv on, he sat sideways in the uncomfortable chair to watch the tv. “You can sit next to me if you want.” He immediately stands up and plops down next to me. “Thanks, way better.” I smiled and softly nodded. “I know, my dad used to sit there…” Nate didn’t pry anything further about that and just looked at the tv in silence.

I fell asleep and woke up by some light movements. “Don’t raised your voice at me.” I heard Nate whispering angrily. I opened my eyes and saw I was lying with my head on his chest. “Nate, I adore you but she’s my sister!” Josh angrily whispered back. “She fell asleep on me, I can’t push her away, she’s sick.” ‘Aww he cares about me.’ I slowly raised my head up and saw Nate immediately looking at me, he gently smiles. “Hey, you’re awake.” I nodded and yawned. “I’m sorry I fell asleep on you.” My voice cracked and I moved away from him. Josh was looking at me, a bit angry. “I have food for you.” He says and storms away to the kitchen. “Sorry that you got woken up.” Nate apologises and stands up. “I really need to go but we keep in touch okay?” I felt sad that he needed to leave but understood it. “Yeah…we text.” He nods and grabs his jacket and says goodbye to Josh and leaves the house. Josh walks back with some warm noodles and gives it to me. “Why was he here?” I shrugged and carefully ate the noodles. “His mom made soup for me.” Josh snorted and walked away. “No fucking way.” He mumbles before disappearing to upstairs.

——— few days later ———

I was riding my bike to the gym as rain was pouring down on me. I quickly jumped off my bike, locked it and run back inside. Jake appeared out of nowhere and laughs. “Hello miss y/l/n, all wet?” ‘Creep.’ I awkwardly laughed and unzipped my rain jacket. “It wasn’t raining when I grabbed my bike, the last five minutes it started to pour down.” Jake moved up to me and wrapped his arm around my shoulder, pulling me close to his warm body. “I’ve got you, next time just call me.” He guided me to the training area and nobody was there yet. “You want something warm to drink?” ‘Well…I never say no to some warm drink.’ “Sure.” He smiles and gets something warm for me. I sat down on the bench and unloaded my bag. ‘Thank you god.’ Everything was dry only my bag on the outside was dripping wet. “Here you go, some warm chocolate milk for the lady.” He handed me a cup and I carefully took it from him. “Thanks.” “No problem, we don’t want you to get sick again.” He winked at me and I felt getting uncomfortable. He sat down next to me and smiled, his knee was touching mine. “How do you feel? Feeling a bit better?” I nodded and looked at my cup, a bit afraid to look at him while he’s been sitting so close to me. “Good to hear, I’m going to be honest. I missed you not being here with that camera off yours.” ‘I didn’t miss you Jake.’ “Well I’m back.” I said before I took a sip from my drink. The door opens and Nick, Nate’s friend walked in. ‘Thank god again.’ “Hey y/n, you’re back again I see.” I smiled at him and nodded. He looked over at Jake, squinting his eyes at him. “Jake.” “Nick.” The tension was thick between them. ‘I wonder what happens in those days when I was not here…’

Nate joined a few minutes later and I got up, leaving Jake on the bench alone. “Hello mr Diaz.” I joked and Nate smiled, giving me a side hug. “Hey, why are you so damp?” He looks at my face and sighs. “No you didn’t.” He immediately throws his hoodie off, leaving him in a shirt and gives it to me. “Here take it.” I shook my head. “No Nate, I’m okay.” He shook his head and shoved his hoodie into my hands. “No, pull it on.” I groaned and pulled the hoodie over my head. “Way better, I don’t want you to get sick again. Why didn’t you call me?” He looked disappointed at me. “I’m sorry, it wasn’t raining when I left my house this morning.” I gave him my sad eyes and slightly pouted at him. “It’s okay, I’m not angry at you.” He rubbed my back as we both walked back to the bench. “Hey Nate.” Jake says and stands up and looks at me, he looked at bit jealous and smiled too friendly at me. “Warm enough now?” I nodded and felt Nate tensing up. “Yeah she is, Jake let’s spar today.” Jake’s smirks and nods. “Sure why not.” They both walked away to get ready, I grabbed my camera to film this interaction between them because I have a feelings things will go wrong.

Nate POV

I was furious at him as he checked her out like that. “Rules?” He asks as he placed his mouthpiece in. “None.” I said as I was looking at him. “Okay.” He smiles and comes forward. He throws a jab and I dodged it. This went back and forth till I hit him on the side of his left face. I smiled to myself but he hit me back with a good right hand. ‘Fuck that was a good shot.’ He smiles at me and I lunged forward, grabbing his shoulders. Then we both fell down on the ground and he tried to hit my face as I was protecting it with my arms. “Come on then!” He yells at me as I didn’t make a move on him, he grabbed my shoulders and slammed my back a few times on the mat. “Come on Nate!” I moved my legs and pulled him down, hitting his sides. “Shut up shields.” I muttered against his head. He jerks up and hits my face a few times real good, I wiggled away and before I got jumped at him, Gilbert jumps in the ring and pushes Jake away. “Stop! Both of you.” He was pissed, a vein on his forehead was popping out and his face was red. “What fuck are you guys doing?! Killing each other. Look at you both.” I looked at Jake, he was bleeding from his mouth and his left cheek, he also had some scratches on his torso. I felt some blood dripping down my face, probably from my eyebrows. “This needs to stop.” He looked at both of us and helped Jake to get out of the ring. ‘Bitch.’ I looked at my right side and saw y/n standing there, camera in her hands and she looked horrified. “Come.” Nick my brother who just arrived helped me out and guided me to my office, as y/n got comforted by Chris our new officially member of the NDA team.

“I don’t want to know why, just stop being so self destructive.” He says as he cleaned up my face. “Is it because of her?” I stayed quiet, biting on my own lip as I felt that iron taste in my mouth. “Just don’t do this when she’s around, she’s actually scared right now.” “I know.” He patted my shoulder and stood up. “All done, just stay away from Jake, he’s not himself lately.” I nodded and followed him back to the rest of the group. Y/n was sitting with Chris on the bench as Keri was cleaning up our mess. “That was crazy.” Chris says as he greets me. I nodded and looked at her, she looked at me and softly smiled and stood up. “Are you okay, you were bleeding a lot.” She carefully looks at my face and her fingers gently touched my skin. “Yeah, I’m good.” I smiled at her and she smiled back at me. “Good, I don’t want you to die in a sparring match.” She jokes and I shook my head at her. “I won’t, I promise.” A door opens and she looks away, Jake walks in with that stupid smirk on his face. “I want to apologise for scaring our lovely guest.” He smiled to friendly at her and she just smiles back. “I’m okay, are you okay tho?” He shrugs. “Of course, I faced worst.” ‘That motherfucker.’ Nick grabbed my arm and shook his head. “Don’t.” He mumbled and I nodded. “Well you didn’t look good, that why I’m asking.” I chuckled and I saw her blushing, Jake shoot me a glare. “We both didn’t look very charming..” he said back and nodded at Gilbert. “Let’s go training, I think we all need it.” ‘Yes especially you Shields.’

—— a few weeks later——

It was my birthday today and I was throwing a party at my house. Friends and family were all here except for y/n, she hadn’t arrived yet. “She’s here.” Chris says and y/n walks outside to greet me. “Hello birthday guy.” She was carrying a small box, wrapped beautifully in black paper. “Hey.” She gave me a small hug and gave me my present. “Thank you but you didn’t have to.” She smiles but waves me off. “I know but I had to.” I started to unpack and saw a box, I gave her a confused glance and opened it. A usb was in it, on the side was written in her writing Nate’s life. “Is it finished?” She proudly nods but I felt sad that it’s over now. “So you are done with filming?” She nods and I looked back at the usb. “Yes it’s done, you are officially freed from me now.” She lightheartedly joked, I flashed her a fake smile and hugged her. “Thank you for giving me this.” “No thank you Nate, for giving me this opportunity.” ‘Always.’

The night went by fast and before I knew it I was alone again, sitting behind my computer, holding the usb stick in my hand. I took a deep breath and plugged it my computer. A file opens up, I gently swiped with my computer mouse to the file and double clicked on it. The video pops up and I pressed on the play button.

‘Hi it’s me y/n, before we are going to see Nate’s life story , I want to have this moment to say thank you, thank you to all the wonderful people who are in this documentary that trusted me and gave me this opportunity but also the people behind it, it was a pleasure to work with you guys, those two years we’ve been working together is something I will never forget. Enough talking about me, it’s time to show you his story.’

She sat in the gym, recording herself and tears fell down on my cheeks. Probably because of the alcohol I had tonight and that I’m going to miss her, not seeing her smiling behind that camera of hers, her beautiful smile and that giggle of hers that makes others smile too. I wiped my tears away and watched the whole thing with a smile but also with tears on my face. ‘I’m going to miss her.’

[lqfiles]

i’ve BEEN in uni (damn near almost two and a half years it shouldv been and i’m barely a second year w my credit progress rn) i just hate it so bad i hate talking to people and i hate school im only still going cuz i still don’t have a job 💔 and i probably look so unapproachable w my tense ass shoulders and chronic rbf,, i think i look more sad all the time than bitchy tho..

hoping praying u have more interesting interactions w these people i need to be fed w ur little anecdotes afterwards 🙏🙏🙏PLEASE GOD SEND MORE FINE ARAB BABES TO LQFILES!!!!!!!

i was kinda disappointed in that guy cuz he was silly when we first followed each other and somehow he’s just getting worse and whiter????? CUZ I LEARNED HIS LORE MONTHSSSS BACK first of all why is he my bday twin and TWO his step mom is BROWN like my kinda indo carib brown SO HE INTEGRATED INTO A BROWN/BLACK FAMILY …. and it all clicked as to why most of the girls in his folllowing (bc i did stalk.) was brown. and why was he also mutuals w a girl i am no longer friends w cuz she’s a pathological LIAR!!!

i do NOT have the ice spice skin cuz they made two separate ones??? mad expensive for what. boutta expose my fortnite skin collection to yall i mainly… waste my money on slutty men skins💗 i get girly skins if they’re random and cute but i deliberately go after the SLUTS! so most of my skins are random purchases or battlepass ones. but i also. invested in. all of the jjk skins so far. unironically i main gojo more often than id like to admit. i bought todoroki for the meme but he was my fav back when i actually watched mha in middle school😭 patiently waiting for sasuke to come back idgaf. i couldn’t spend money on fortnite when he was released. he will be mine.

—🪼

MY BAD I THIUGHT YOU HAD A BREAK FROM IT ATM OR SMTH LOLLL but lowk real i hate college too i hate having to do eduction in general like wdym i have to have a qualification to get a job ☹️☹️ i’m just a girl ☹️☹️ i would encourage getting a job but at the same time it might get too much to handle especially if you’re at the peak of your uni course but still.. i get it… i’m still trying (not rlly) to find a job 😓 AND BEO SHDJSHDKDJ THAT RESTING SAD FACE IS SO REAL OMF the amount of times i’ve gotten mistaken for being sad is so 😭 like my freaking bad that i look like i’m on the verge of tearing up all the time </3 but these people are missing out on a fun cool amazing person #THEIRLOSS.

HDJDHSKDJSK LORD IF YOU HEAR ME BRING RHE ARAB BABE TO ME…. OR THE WHITE BOYS 😂😂😂🤫🤫❤️❤️❤️ BUT WOAH HIM BEING YOUR BIRTHDAY TWIN IS WILD he wants to be you so bad. and him having a poc step parent as a white boy lowk scares me like he probably think he brown fr now 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️ BUT LMAOOO don’t worry sis we encourage stalking over here too like sozz why are you as a guy following so many girls you WHORE. and EFF YOUR EX FRIENF WHILE WERE AT IT

aren’t rhe usual theme skins like 2k vbucks? idk how much money that costs but i think my brother buys it monthly smh.. BUT HELPPP THIS KILLS ME she likes them slutty… fhis diva… and ngl the anime skins lowk piss me off because they look so uncanny like how are you 2d turned THEEE D?? though i do like the jjk skins too 🤫 ermm idk any of the names since i don’t play it like that but i heard venom was there once, i feel like i would’ve bought that just for the vibes. if i ever get into it i’ll probably also go for the slutty men tho hdjfjskfjdj #SluttySeason lets make it a season in fortnite 👀❤️

[llycaons]

im ngl I'm a little let down by the direction this finale is going in BUT. here's 40!

no regrets? she'll let him kill her? please be a ploy...

okay I think it IS a play but now she's talking about these soldiers again? girl this is about YOU!!!!

aw swee jiuyue is back. love her

SHE GOT HIM!!!!!!!!!!! I think the buildup could have been better bc the camera just cut to her already with the arrow loaded BUT

oh my god the longwu army is LESS important to me than exposing syr!!! please!!! I feel like the narrative doesn't think that's important for xff anymore and ig she never wanted to be the one PERSONALLY to kill them but they were never exposed!! is she really at peace? where does this sudden loyalty to her country come from?

okay sweet a confrontation

'I'd have no regrets if I die at your hands' now where have I heard that before?

this is one of those cases where xff really shouldn't kill him though. she never wanted to hurt or kill anyone, just make those who harmed her and jl face justice. killing him would be satisfying more of need of his than hers. and she's right - killing him WOULD dirty her hands

but also like. NOW she's like 'the country's legal system will handle you for treason' LIKE HE HADN'T BROKEN THE LAW BY TRYING TO KILL HER???

these last few episodes have felt so weird....her plot and motivations have been completely subsumed by this uhhh nationalistic prioritization

also - where the HELL have all our lovable side characters gone? all the jiangs? xl? ysj? who the fuck are all these people???

ohh he's going to jump isn't he

DON'T TURN AROUND XFF. KEEP YOUR PEACE.

YESSSSSS> she stopped but didn't even GLANCE at him. and he was still alive! he saw! even his death means nothing to her! AS IT SHOULD!!! she's moved on with her life and she's built something beautiful after his betrayal and she's not going to concern hersel with him any more!

I do dislike a lot of how this finale is structured, but this has been consistent throughout the entire show. xff's independence from syr. xff not letting syr get away with killing her, and not letting what he did to her hold her back from living well. not softening what he did, or allowing him to give excuses, but also being able to move forward in her life and make new friends and family and loved ones. she won't cry for him. she won't even look at him. she won't dirty her hands or force herself to look at his broken body even as she sobs and pleads and begs for her compassion and support and love. even as he kills himself. she knows what she deserves and she walks towards it and away from him and all that he carries with him

'Shen Yurong is useless!' WHY DID YOU GIVE YOUR ARMY TO A MENTALLY UNWELL SCHOLAR

im kind of mad xh got to yell out all his grievances and I guess nobody will ever know what wanning and syr did

CONCUBINE LI MVP!!!!!

it's not often a hostage commits SUICIDE. my god

THE LIS WERE EXCECUTED???

aw man. I do feel bad for the shen mom and sister. especially the sister! she was a teenage girl, what was she going to do!

wow, no mercy or forgiveness for hostages huh...like the jiang aunt was literally a hostage!

I miss tong-er :(

omg!!! HAIFENG!! is that her name? she has such a sweet face, that maid <3

omg her father and brother....that's incredible. like at a certain point I did think it was cheap that they had both survived, but now I just think it's remarkable. she brought them back to life! SHE did that!

and apologizing for being unfilial...sweetie....

and now...her identity...

HER DAD IS SO SWEET WHAT THE FUCK...I would die for this old man too I rly would

kind of a shame we were told xz would have a disability and then he didn't. that's been happening this entire show, tho. jy can just cure them all...

oh yeah I guess hx is considered a good man. I don't, but I think his shadiness and craftiness and particular regard is what makes him interesting

I kind of don't like it when they're cutesy and wholesome. can they go back to being liars they had better chemistry. these episodes all they do is smile at each other which gets boring

general xiao and lj shuddering with fear to hear xh laughing is pretty funny though

JIANG LI!!!!!!!

hm I guess it was less about revenge and more about reputation, huh. and that's what xff did...

WELP. WEDDING TIME. cql fics often talk abt a veil but women can use a fan to cover their face too

aw damn they're kissing onscreen. and she's touching his NECK? racyyy

fade to black...if they had more interesting dynamic at this point I bet the sex would have been more insane but it was probably like, very nice anyway

well she knows what she likes, probably. being a widow. has xh fucked? I kind of doubt it.

oh my god I hope he doesn't fucking die at war...

why did her jiang dad resign his post?

oh man...the confession scene. very tearful. very painful. I guess xff will be jl for the rest of her life, then. jl was wronged by her father, but he clearly loved her. I'm glad she asked about her

and at this point, xff has such a great reputation, and is so celebrated in the capital, that she probably has more social power than he does. and as was stated before, the truth coming out can only harm the jiang family's reputation

omg jjr and xl!!! and ruoyao mentioned!!!

aw and ysj. his presence was so mild I didn't notice 😭

jjr is so cute I love himmmm

jjr and xl are holding hands but I think it's in a buddy way. tho being best friends is a more stable foundation for marriage than plenty of people get

and so, the con artist ends her story with two families rather than zero. and she loves her second father, she does. and he knows it. and I think he loves her too

YE SHIJIE.....🥺🥺🥺

this also happened in mask of mirrors where a guy was in love with a con woman but she wasn't in love with him so he just became her number one supportive best buddy. it's really sweet!!! I love that!!!

her dad and brother are there right? like I know she's In Love but going on this whole journey after her shitty husband betrayed her of getting a life to live and friends and reputation and all falls a little flat if she shuts herself alone in a mansion and just waits for him for months. girl your LIFE!!!

sorry it's just a little fucking galling to see xff, a proactive, social, intelligent, motivated, and compassionate woman, make things happen for the entire series and then spend all this time reduced to a housewife sitting sadly at home waiting for her husband to come home from war. like. the ENTIRE show she has been doing shit whether she could fight or not. the entire show she's been fighting to life a good life and get her family back. is this really the themes best for the show?

they probably didn't want her to look heartless, but EYE would 100% rather see jyl being with her friends and family, eating good food, traveling, decorating, cooking, living her life while xh is away at war. like of course she's worried for him and misses him, but I just hate to see her entire character bogged down because a man is away. I thought we'd learned to live independently!!!

NOT LU JIIIIII

HOW COULD YOU KILL OFF THE FUNNY GUY

god I wish this show was over. what a downer. these guys all at least look really hot with their hair down and all the mud and blood and sweat and such

WEN JI TOO?!!!

FUCKED UPPPP

okay it's stupid that this fight is the finale but it IS well-choreographed. I'm bored and antsy and even i got shivers seeing some of these moves

god damn he looks SO good when he's about to die

THERE HE IS. THANK GOD. was NOT looking good for him WHEW!!

THAT'S THE END!!!!!!!

[anonymouslylovesyou]

Season 2 episode 3 of Bridgerton @whoblewboobear

Reread my last liveblog to refresh my own memory and it's surprising coherent

Oh flashback to 10 years ealier I think that's Anthony and his dad hunting

Anthony: *fails*

Anthony: it's impossible

They are being slightly safe with guns on set good for them

Oh my god is this how he fucking dies???? Allergic reaction to bees in front of Anthony???

Fucking crazy way to open a episode

Not Anthony having to make sure the other kids don't see the body...

God what is Anthony going to do in this ep that the narrative had to show me his tragic backstory how's he going to piss me off

Edwinda is so precious

Daphne!! And she has a baby and Colin is so good with them you know he's gonna want to be a father

Daphne is so funny I love herr I do miss Simon tho 😭

Daphne what's that face about??? Hm

Kate: a game where you are encouraged to piss off your opponents? Made for me <3

Edwinda looking at her sister: We will have nice afternoon (threat)

Girlie Prudence has no assets

The tailor(I still dont kmow her name but I like her a lot): I mind my business please mind yours

Kate please you promised to be nice

Fully do not care about Benedicts art school

Edwinda is so bad at this but shit talking her would be like kicking a puppy

Oh no she's not having fun??

GIRLIE YOUR SHIES AND DRESS?? Wait her shitty grandparents can pay nevermind

AND THEY BOTH FALL IN THE MUD, THE FIRST STIRRINGS A ROMANCE BLOOM

OH NO HIS FATHERS GRAVE

OH NO CHRIST THAT BABY BEING BORN TRAMATIZED THAT WHOLE FAMILY

Prudence is so bad at this seducing thing

Jack why on God's green earth would fucking Cressida Cowper be enjoyable company

Ok hold on this Edwinda and Anthony ship is cute. Him asking her to talk!!

Daphne coming in clutch with the subtle making him think about his feelings but also she so clearly misses her husband

Anthony you are a Liar who lies

Eloise stumbling upon her mom and Lady Danbury spying

Cressida nobody has ever in your life described you like that

Colin are you giving your brother drugs?????

BENEDICT DO NOT FUCKING DO THAT pray for him brothers

Eloise Kate friendship strikes again

Anthony you're processing your dad death again right here right now?

This episode being named "A Bee in Your Bonnet" is foul now that we know how his dad died

Oh my fucking god you let your brother go to dinner high as fuck??? You should've said he was sick Colin

Colin is starting to use the phrase "in Greece" to make his family stop paying attention

Daphne really said "if you love Edwinda then why are you staring at Kate while she talks huh?"

Oh my god Lady Danbury leaving a wide opening for Anthony to propose

Do not propose at dinner I fucking mean it Anthony but also don't save like that it was terrible

EWINDA BABYGIRL YOU WERE PERFECT

Damn actually Benedict that's a pretty good painting

Wahoo! He got in good for him but also do not allow him that close to that open window

Noo not Colin still being hung up on the other girlie

PENELOPE GIRLBOSSING

Kate's outfits slap so hard

NO BABYBOY IS HAVING A PANIC ATTACK I do not often like Anthony but I'm just this once wrapping him in a blanket

The camera angles were working so hard in that scene

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NAME: Angel / Arcana / Ansale'wit / ᐋᓐᔐᓃ are my& core / host / singletsona names, but we're& also a namehoarder & our& main system name is the imaginarians galaxy. so. lmao

STAR SIGN:  Cancer Sun; Sagittarius Moon; Libra Rising; Leo Venus.

HEIGHT: Bodily 5′2″.

WHAT’S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?: none of ur business lil bitch

PUT YOUR SPOTIFY ON SHUFFLE. WHAT ARE THE FIRST FEW SONGS THAT POPPED UP? HISS - Megan Thee Stallion ; Realer - Megan Thee Stallion ; E-GIRLS ARE RUINING MY LIFE - CORPSEHUSBAND ; Black Barbies - Nicki Minaj ; Cocky Af - Megan Thee Stallion ; Haunted - Evanescence ; Miss Me - Drake & Lil Wayne ; Lithium - Evanescence ; Perfume - Britney Spears ; Be Prepared - The Lion King OST ; Over It - Bullet For My Valentine ; Under The Water - The Pretty Reckless ; Yayo - Lana Del Rey ; thousand eyes - FKA Twigs ; Out There - The Hunchback of Notre Dame OST ; NDA - Billie Eilish ; everything i wanted - Billie Eilish ; Desperate Measures - Marianas Trench ; Saviour - Lights ; Chaos Is A Ladder - Ramin Djawadi ; Cruel World - Faye ; The Winds Of Winter - Ramin Djawadi ; Nymphs Finding The Head Of Orpheus - Nicole Dollanganger ; Jenny Of Oldstones - Ramin Djawadi ; Daisy's Theme - The Bryan Ferry Orchestra ; antlers - Ethel Cain ; Famous Last Words (An Ode To Eaters) - Ethel Cain ; Ptolemaea - Ethel Cain.

EVER HAD A POEM OR SONG WRITTEN ABOUT YOU? yeah, my& ex enbyfriend wrote a song about me&. i& never got to hear it tho. they promised. i&. really wanted to hear that song. if anybody like secretly wrote a song or poetry about me& then they hiding it lmao.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU PLAYED AIR GUITAR? never. lmao

WHO IS YOUR CELEBRITY CRUSH? MNMNMMNUUUHHHH megan thee stallion for literally so many reasons. like. whats not to like about her. she tall, she hella cute & fine & hot asf & straight up one of the most beautiful women in the world imho, she's nerdy & educated, she looks fun to hang around, she speaks out about mental health & trauma (even after all the bs that so many ppl including black men & even other black women like whats going on w/ nicki minaj rn she went so far as mention her dead mom {like girl wtf} put her through & she literally got shot & a lotta folx didnt believe her & was calling her a liar & blaming her & making fun of her trauma & literally none of these white artists showed sympathy or even acknowledged what happened & who were all like support other women got real silent when megan clarified on her twitter & instagram & had to see people paint her as the aggressor & make fun of her traumatic experience all while trying to heal & losing both of her parents, getting fucked over by her record label, almost losing her life from getting shot at, getting backstabbed by the people she cared about & having people on the internet make fun of & make memes of her trauma & laughing at her pain on the internet & all this stupid shit bc misogynoir is such a massive issue, she literally went through so much shit & it genuinely makes me angry & i hope she has a support system), ngl if she dissed me& i& would deadass never leave my& house again LMAO she's insanely talented & confident, she writes her own raps, not only is she a rapper but she's also an actress, she literally makes every style work, she's queer & bisexual & actually supports trans ppl, she's only like what 6 years older than me, she loves anime & she really inspires me& & her strength gives me& strength too, she's v special to me& & if i& had a dream girl it'd probably be sb like her tbh, her music & just her existence alone helped w/ my& mental health & my& own self image & my& self esteem & my& trauma & reclaiming my& sexuality than my& psychiatrists ever did & im& not even exaggerating. lmao. ion rly like calling it crushes tho, it's more like. deepfound respect & admiration for a person. like. "damn this person is just so fuckin cool". & ion say that a lotta people & especially not about celebrities. megan & ethel cain are two of my biggest ones & are like tied in that whole area lmao.

WHAT’S A SOUND YOU HATE; SOUND YOU LOVE? hate: the sound of people screamin bc it brings back bad memories lmfao ; love: absolute gotdamn silence. the sound of the ocean & birdsong & cats purring's nice too :>

DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS? i& am a ghost (& have ghosts in our& system). lmao

HOW ABOUT ALIENS? i& am an alien (& have aliens in our& system). lmao

DO YOU DRIVE? tryna start my& course yeah.

IF SO, HAVE YOU EVER CRASHED? no bitch i& aint jinxing it.

WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? the winds of winter : arianne martell i & sansa stark / alayne stone i by grrm / gangsta. by kohske.

DO YOU LIKE THE SMELL OF GASOLINE? ye for the most part.

WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU SAW? the love witch !!

WHAT’S THE WORST INJURY YOU’VE EVER HAD? had to get lil stitches in my& forehead bc undxed pots was a lil bitch & i& hit my head when i& fainted in highschool. lmao. thats just what i& remember tho. apparently i& had much worse when i& was a baby. like. wholeass surgeries & shit.

DO YOU HAVE ANY OBSESSIONS RIGHT NOW? plurality literary tropes, transcending to godhood, come back wrong, the mad prophet archetype, apotheosis, tryna find faith in humanity, witchcraft & occultism, learning our& indigenous languages & cultures, & being gayass.

DO YOU TEND TO HOLD GRUDGES AGAINST PEOPLE WHO HAVE DONE YOU WRONG? the vast majority of the time im& a very forgiving person. but i& don't forget. & especially as i& get older the less & less tolerance i& have for bs & same w/ forgiveness, especially after everything i've& been through to the point where my& doctor told me& that most would've kermitted if they'd experienced the things i& went through & im& like. kinda at my& limit. undxed cptsd aspd & bpd doesn't help things either. bc like these days im& just. like. callous & abrasive especially when im& irritated which is like. often. & i'm& like. one of the most patient people on the planet when it comes to the people i& genuinely care about & love so you'd have to do something fucked up for me& to tell ya i& dont give a shit. "well you should be the bigger person, take the high road!!" i've& literally Never benefitted from that shit. my& main abuser is still free & lives in the same neighborhood as me& fuck outta my& face. the cult i& was in was all "forgive those who hurt you!!!!!! yes even if they treated you badly!!!!" & that put my recovery back several years bc i& felt forced to forgive them or else i'd& be damned. "two wrongs dont make a right! if you get back at them you're making the world a worse place!!" the countless wrongs committed against me& didnt make a right either. choke. if w/e sb did to me was bad enough they ass is getting hexed and/or cursed. idgaf. fuck around & find out. & it also doesnt help that im& a cancer sun so tldr only if they fucked up REAL BAD. lmao

IN A RELATIONSHIP? im& in a qpr & in an insys relationship but bodily, outerworld wise? nah.

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2.

ive reached another time where i feel like i need to vomit out all the shit thats been churning in my psyche. you know that feeling where you dont want to go to sleep because of this subtle sensation in your stomach? I think its dissatisfaction, both with myself and with the people around me.

the girl that i broke up with turned out to just be a hoe. She played w my heart and told me i was " the right guy at the wrong time" and that "she needed time to be single" and then immediately hopped onto some mid ass white dude LOL. anyways i fucking hate her guts. not cause she doesnt like me anymore, but because shes a damn liar. on a positive note it just means that little plot threat in my life has just been tied up, and now all i have to do is reconcile with the distrust for people that ive already been harboring, so nbd.

the ppl in my life kinda got me fucked up tho. right now i feel like theres no one genuinely there for me. I have a therapist, but you cant rlly get the level of intimacy with a therapist in the way youd have with family or friends. so right now i feel like i have nobody. my friends all suddenly seem extremely disinterested in talking to me. someone who i consider my best friend barely texts me and brushes off making plans and never reaches out. and my other friends just dont seem to really care or respond to me anymore. I get replies, but im not having conversations. it also seems like my mom is tired of me. shes even said it herself. she gets annoyed at a bunch of little things that i do. so i dont think id be wrong to assume ive become a nuisance rather than a valued family member.

it totally could be me. it totally could be them. it also totally could just be a series of unfortunate circumstances so ive been kinda torn trying to figure it out. I know im partially to blame. i can be overbearing and i dont know when to shut the fuck up. its hard for me to do genuine real talk anymore. I say "real talk" and then give advice to friends (probably unsolicited). but i never rlly talk about stuff that goes beyond skin deep. I talk about terrible moments in my life, like when i was sa'd or like something fucked up ive done, but its water under the bridge and doesnt rlly affect me anymore. i dont know, i just get the feeling that people will be repulsed if they see the real me. the me that is insecure and struggling and tired and angry. god im fucking angry, but im also so goddamn complacent, which is infinitely worse.

i am in the process of changing my life in a drastic way, which is needed. wont say how but it should shake things up in a good way. unfortunately its also partially a waiting game. so im stuck here in this in-between where i am given the privilege and honor of being alone with all of my thoughts!!!

i think i am having an identity crisis. I dont know what defines me anymore and i dont know who i want to be. ive thought about changing my name. im already changing what i wear (slightly). and weirdly enough even though i am a straight, cis dude, i occasionally have very very slight doubts about my sexuality and gender. its probably normal tho who knows.

I think this stems from a lack of masculinity in my life. having high free testosterone does not make me a man. being aggressive or stoic does not make me a man. but theres this concept of a real man in my head as something to aspire to be, but its an extremely vague and loose concept ive formed. despite being 20, i dont really see myself as a man. but im not a boy either. not to say im non binary. im just in this awkward in-between period. I wish i had a genuine masculine figure in my life who i could look up do. my dad is more like reddit atheist ben shapiro who debatelords me when he doesnt like me doing something. i dont live with him anymore so those problems are in the past, but the lack of a male role model is catching up to me, and its on me to define my own masculinity, but like fuckkkkkk i dont think ur supposed to do this by urself.

i been feeling mad weak. i always was a pussy on leg day and its showing now that i havent been to the gym for months. it really makes me feel pathetic. that 15% increase in struggle for things that i used to pick up with ease is really shameful, or embarrassing, or idk. it just fucking sucks. I want to be a strong person who cannot be surmounted, like a legendary dragon. But at the same time i dont know if these desires are my own or some responsibility i put onto myself as a means to gain social acceptance. its probably something i should put thought into when im eating enough and actually going to the gym, but i think ive been holding off because i feel so pathetic.

its a brutal cycle too. I feel pathetic from prior experiences where ive been demeaned (so a lot) -> i feel i dont have the grit or willpower to do something -> i try something thinking ill fail or just avoid it outright -> i feel pathetic. shit sucks ass.

anyways word vomit over thats p much it

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Every time I think wow, I haven't felt this low in a really long time! I end up sinking even lower into my depression. It's getting really, really bad again. Excruciatingly bad. (I haven't reverted to self-harm, tho. Yet.)

I feel so... worthless. hopeless. empty. void. numb.

I'm tired of having to explain why I'm no longer making XX amount, or why I'm not working, or what I'm doing during the days. I know she doesn't mean anything by it, but my mom keeps bringing it up and it just makes me feel bad. I was just mentioning today how I am only aiming to make X amount a week right now because CS has been exhausting me and she mentioned how I used to make XX amount. And once again I had to explain (for the umpteenth time) how AI has basically stolen my job/livelihood. (And I know she has ADHD and trouble paying attention/retaining the information I give her and I know she doesn't mean to make me feel bad. But it does. I was doing so well financially and now I'm not. It feels like there's a hole in my stomach and it just keeps getting bigger and bigger. (whoever said money doesn't buy happiness was a damn liar.))

I have a lot that I need to do and figure out but it's hard. And honestly, I have... I wouldn't say high support needs, as an autistic person, but they definitely aren't low, either. Medium? I don't know. But I'm not getting the support I need. (ps: I wish I could afford an official diagnosis. I wish I hadn't been failed as a child and had been formerly diagnosed.) I had high hopes when I signed up for the life coach but that was a mistake. It sucks because I don't really have anyone to give me the support/help that I really need. I love my mom but she's not equipped to help me with what I need. I mean, she has ADHD herself and barely passed high school. And I still have to help her with things, too. I just wish I had someone to help me out more. My mom tries. My best friend tries. But it's just not enough.

Finances are so tight right now. Between both me and my mom.

And there's just. So. Fucking. Much. To do. And I don't know how to do half the shit I want to do. And learning is so fucking hard. I need help. Who do I ask for help???

My dad's taking me to Akron on Friday and I'm really dreading the drive because we have to go on an interstate and being in a vehicle with him is really overwhelming. He always stresses me out and gets pissy on the road. Not looking forward to it. Probably won't even be worth the trip tbh. Meeting with my RA but what is she going to do for me? Tell me to lose weight to help my symptoms? Yeah, I already know that. Thanks!

Another thing that's been on my mind lately (although, tbh, I have 2987398472934 things on my mind lately) is my social skills. Or lack thereof. It's so hard for me to connect to anyone or to make friends. Even the group of "friends" I have right now all prefer the company of my best friend. And who wouldn't? She's fun and talkative. And I'm just me. Boring and quiet.

I'm trying to keep my mind busy, too. I'm trying to pick up a new hobby. But it sucks because I have a hard time following along with tutorials. I haven't even been able to get past my fucking Woobles kits because I keep fucking it up somehow and I've no idea how.

I. Literally can't do anything. Wow, wow, wow.

I can't finish my GED. I can't get myself to get my driver's license. I can't get a new job. I can't even pick up a hobby because I'm fucking stupid. I actually hate myself. I really, fucking do.

Right now I'm sucking back tears. You know when you suck them back so hard that your entire face hurts? That's me right now.

Yeah...

[angelofverdum]

Pretty Little Liars: Original Sin

I started watching this show because people kept saying it was like PLL but darker, scarier, and better.

I watched PLL when it came out, and I think it had so much potential that it hurt how they wasted it.

I went into this show keeping in mind that it wasn't the same show.

The only thing they share is the name.

I think the OG Liars were more interesting. It had a balance between fun and drama. Even tho I dislike Aria so much, and Emily (I love you Shay Mitchell) bored me to death, it was fun to watch.

These girls just met in school, and they didn't experience the same loss that the OG did. Even tho Alison was a bitch (she should have been A at the end, btw), she was their friend. These girls are together just because their mothers were awful.

Sarah was a delight to watch as Alison, she had the whole town in shambles, but here Karen was annoying as hell. Although someone said that Imogene's mom was Ali and Karen was just collateral damage.

The mothers are pretty awful, even in the present day. One of them is letting her kid gets blamed for her drugs, and the other says things like "I can pay for your life, but I can't control it?"

One of them might be a saint, though because what do you mean you took a 15-year-old girl that is 6 months pregnant, and she is planning to keep it.

And the actress have chemistry, and they could have work, but the writing was terrible. Teenagers don't talk like that, jock boyfriends and popular girls are overdone, do people still were those letterman jackets?

They don't talk about things that happened to them or don't care. It feels fake. I think they rushed their friendship.

Imogene was a good character. I just hate when, in shows like this one, where there is a lot of action, a character is pregnant, not that they care at all. A lot of people didn't like Imogen or Bailee Madison, but for me, she was the best actress among them, and that always going to make you a favorite on my list.

Tabby was annoying as hell with the movie references. There is no way someone talks like that; not even people who are obsessed with friends talk like that.

Noa was ok. I really like her as a character, but her story was kinda boring, tbh.

Mouse was the one I liked the least. I just didn't like her story. I was bored the whole time.

Farn was just so stiff. I don't know how to explain it, but I didn't feel any emotions with her. Her mother is a terrible mother, btw.

I also find it funny that faran was supposed to love ballet, but they didn't show us how an amazing dancer she was. She was just going from black to white swan.

I hate every man in the show. All of them.

Also, I can believe they were all interested in boys. That is homophobia. All the reboots and revivals trying to be more inclusive and here is PLL doing the opposite. Well, at least one of the moms is married to a woman.

BTW, there was no mention of Noa and Tabby's fathers.

Also -A was a letdown. A grown-ass man doing all this. Boring. Let the kids have fun.

It wasn't until I finished the whole show I found out that the creator of the show was the man from Riverdale. I didn't want to know anything because I was afraid I was going to spoil myself.

The original was excellent in the early seasons, or at least the mystery was enough to keep you coming back. The acting was perfect (Looking at you Troian, my beloved who ran circles around every actor in there)

I don't know if I'll watch season 2. The jury is still out on that

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